第13章

类别:其他 作者:Fyodor Dostoyevsky字数:26204更新时间:18/12/19 17:00:42
Everyonelaughedatthis。 \"Aspecialcase——accidental,ofcourse!\"criedAlexandraandAdelaida。 \"Letmeremindyouoncemore,Evgenie,\"saidPrinceS。,\"thatyourjokeisgettingalittlethreadbare。\" \"Whatdoyouthinkaboutit,prince?\"askedEvgenie,takingnonoticeofthelastremark,andobservingMuishkin’sseriouseyesfixeduponhisface。\"Whatdoyouthink——wasitaspecialorausualcase——therule,oranexception?IconfessIputthequestionespeciallyforyou。\" \"No,Idon’tthinkitwasaspecialcase,\"saidtheprince,quietly,butfirmly。 \"Mydearfellow!\"criedPrinceS。,withsomeannoyance,\"don’tyouseethatheischaffingyou?Heissimplylaughingatyou,andwantstomakegameofyou。\" \"IthoughtEvgeniePavlovitchwastalkingseriously,\"saidtheprince,blushinganddroppinghiseyes。 \"Mydearprince,\"continuedPrinceS。\"rememberwhatyouandI weresayingtwoorthreemonthsago。WespokeofthefactthatinournewlyopenedLawCourtsonecouldalreadylayone’sfingeruponsomanytalentedandremarkableyoungbarristers。Howpleasedyouwerewiththestateofthingsaswefoundit,andhowgladIwastoobserveyourdelight!Webothsaiditwasamattertobeproudof;butthisclumsydefencethatEvgeniementions,thisstrangeargumentCAN,ofcourse,onlybeanaccidentalcase——oneinathousand!\" Theprincereflectedalittle,butverysoonhereplied,withabsoluteconvictioninhistone,thoughhestillspokesomewhatshylyandtimidly: \"Ionlywishedtosaythatthis’distortion,’asEvgeniePavlovitchexpressedit,ismetwithveryoften,andisfarmorethegeneralrulethantheexception,unfortunatelyforRussia。Somuchso,thatifthisdistortionwerenotthegeneralrule,perhapsthesedreadfulcrimeswouldbelessfrequent。\" \"Dreadfulcrimes?ButIcanassureyouthatcrimesjustasdreadful,andprobablymorehorrible,haveoccurredbeforeourtimes,andatalltimes,andnotonlyhereinRussia,buteverywhereelseaswell。Andinmyopinionitisnotatalllikelythatsuchmurderswillceasetooccurforaverylongtimetocome。Theonlydifferenceisthatinformertimestherewaslesspublicity,whilenoweveryonetalksandwritesfreelyaboutsuchthings——whichfactgivestheimpressionthatsuchcrimeshaveonlynowsprungintoexistence。Thatiswhereyourmistakelies——anextremelynaturalmistake,Iassureyou,mydearfellow!\"saidPrinceS。 \"Iknowthattherewerejustasmany,andjustasterrible,crimesbeforeourtimes。NotlongsinceIvisitedaconvictprisonandmadeacquaintancewithsomeofthecriminals。Thereweresomeevenmoredreadfulcriminalsthanthisonewehavebeenspeakingof——menwhohavemurderedadozenoftheirfellow- creatures,andfeelnoremorsewhatever。ButwhatIespeciallynoticedwasthis,thattheverymosthopelessandremorselessmurderer——howeverhardenedacriminalhemaybe——stillKNOWSTHAT HEISACRIMINAL;thatis,heisconsciousthathehasactedwickedly,thoughhemayfeelnoremorsewhatever。Andtheywerealllikethis。ThoseofwhomEvgeniePavlovitchhasspoken,donotadmitthattheyarecriminalsatall;theythinktheyhadarighttodowhattheydid,andthattheywereevendoingagooddeed,perhaps。Iconsiderthereisthegreatestdifferencebetweenthetwocases。Andrecollect——itwasaYOUTH,attheparticularagewhichismosthelplesslysusceptibletothedistortionofideas!\" PrinceS。wasnownolongersmiling;hegazedattheprinceinbewilderment。 Alexandra,whohadseemedtowishtoputinherwordwhentheprincebegan,nowsatsilent,asthoughsomesuddenthoughthadcausedhertochangehermindaboutspeaking。 EvgeniePavlovitchgazedathiminrealsurprise,andthistimehisexpressionoffacehadnomockeryinitwhatever。 \"Whatareyoulookingsosurprisedabout,myfriend?\"askedMrs。 Epanchin,suddenly。\"Didyousupposehewasstupiderthanyourself,andwasincapableofforminghisownopinions,orwhat?\" \"No!Ohno!Notatall!\"saidEvgenie。\"But——howisit,prince,thatyou——(excusethequestion,willyou?)——ifyouarecapableofobservingandseeingthingsasyouevidentlydo,howisitthatyousawnothingdistortedorpervertedinthatclaimuponyourproperty,whichyouacknowledgedadayortwosince;andwhichwasfullofargumentsfoundeduponthemostdistortedviewsofrightandwrong?\" \"I’lltellyouwhat,myfriend,\"criedMrs。Epanchin,ofasudden,\"hereareweallsittinghereandimaginingweareveryclever,andperhapslaughingattheprince,someofus,andmeanwhilehehasreceivedaletterthisverydayinwhichthatsameclaimantrenounceshisclaim,andbegstheprince’spardon。 ThereIwedon’toftengetthatsortofletter;andyetwearenotashamedtowalkwithournosesintheairbeforehim。\" \"AndHippolytehascomedownheretostay,\"saidColia,suddenly。 \"What!hashearrived?\"saidtheprince,startingup。 \"Yes,Ibroughthimdownfromtownjustafteryouhadleftthehouse。\" \"Therenow!It’sjustlikehim,\"criedLizabethaProkofievna,boilingoveroncemore,andentirelyobliviousofthefactthatshehadjusttakentheprince’spart。\"Idareswearthatyouwentuptotownyesterdayonpurposetogetthelittlewretchtodoyouthegreathonourofcomingtostayatyourhouse。Youdidgouptotown,youknowyoudid——yousaidsoyourself!Nowthen,didyou,ordidyounot,godownonyourkneesandbeghimtocome,confess!\" \"No,hedidn’t,forIsawitallmyself,\"saidColia。\"Onthecontrary,Hippolytekissedhishandtwiceandthankedhim;andalltheprincesaidwasthathethoughtHippolytemightfeelbetterhereinthecountry!\" \"Don’t,Colia,——whatistheuseofsayingallthat?\"criedtheprince,risingandtakinghishat。 \"Whereareyougoingtonow?\"criedMrs。Epanchin。 \"Nevermindabouthimnow,prince,\"saidColia。\"Heisallrightandtakinganapafterthejourney。Heisveryhappytobehere; butIthinkperhapsitwouldbebetterifyoulethimalonefortoday,——heisverysensitivenowthatheissoill——andhemightbeembarrassedifyoushowhimtoomuchattentionatfirst。Heisdecidedlybettertoday,andsayshehasnotfeltsowellforthelastsixmonths,andhascoughedmuchless,too。\" TheprinceobservedthatAglayacameoutofhercornerandapproachedthetableatthispoint。 Hedidnotdarelookather,buthewasconscious,totheverytipsofhisfingers,thatshewasgazingathim,perhapsangrily; andthatshehadprobablyflushedupwithalookoffieryindignationinherblackeyes。 \"Itseemstome,Mr。Colia,thatyouwereveryfoolishtobringyouryoungfrienddown——ifheisthesameconsumptiveboywhoweptsoprofusely,andinvitedusalltohisownfuneral,\"remarkedEvgeniePavlovitch。\"Hetalkedsoeloquentlyabouttheblankwalloutsidehisbedroomwindow,thatI’msurehewillneversupportlifeherewithoutit。\" \"Ithinksotoo,\"saidMrs。Epanchin;\"hewillquarrelwithyou,andbeoff,\"andshedrewherworkboxtowardsherwithanairofdignity,quiteobliviousofthefactthatthefamilywasabouttostartforawalkinthepark。 \"Yes,Irememberheboastedabouttheblankwallinanextraordinaryway,\"continuedEvgenie,\"andIfeelthatwithoutthatblankwallhewillneverbeabletodieeloquently;andhedoessolongtodieeloquently!\" \"Oh,youmustforgivehimtheblankwall,\"saidtheprince,quietly。\"Hehascomedowntoseeafewtreesnow,poorfellow。\" \"Oh,Iforgivehimwithallmyheart;youmaytellhimsoifyoulike,\"laughedEvgenie。 \"Idon’tthinkyoushouldtakeitquitelikethat,\"saidtheprince,quietly,andwithoutremovinghiseyesfromthecarpet。 \"Ithinkitismoreacaseofhisforgivingyou\" \"Forgivingme!whyso?WhathaveIdonetoneedhisforgiveness?\" \"Ifyoudon’tunderstand,then——butofcourse,youdounderstand。 Hewished——hewishedtoblessyouallroundandtohaveyourblessing——beforehedied——that’sall。\" \"Mydearprince,\"beganPrinceS。,hurriedly,exchangingglanceswithsomeofthosepresent,\"youwillnoteasilyfindheavenonearth,andyetyouseemtoexpectto。Heavenisadifficultthingtofindanywhere,prince;farmoredifficultthanappearstothatgoodheartofyours。Betterstopthisconversation,orweshallallbegrowingquitedisturbedinourminds,and——\" \"Let’sgoandheartheband,then,\"saidLizabethaProkofievna,angrilyrisingfromherplace。 Therestofthecompanyfollowedherexample。 II。 THEprincesuddenlyapproachedEvgeniePavlovitch。 \"EvgeniePavlovitch,\"hesaid,withstrangeexcitementandseizingthelatter’shandinhisown,\"beassuredthatIesteemyouasagenerousandhonourableman,inspiteofeverything。Beassuredofthat。\" EvgeniePavlovitchfellbackastepinastonishment。Foronemomentitwasallhecoulddotorestrainhimselffromburstingoutlaughing;but,lookingcloser,heobservedthattheprincedidnotseemtobequitehimself;atallevents,hewasinaverycuriousstate。 \"Iwouldn’tmindbetting,prince,\"hecried,\"thatyoudidnotintheleastmeantosaythat,andverylikelyyoumeanttoaddresssomeoneelsealtogether。Whatisit?Areyoufeelingunwelloranything?\" \"Verylikely,extremelylikely,andyoumustbeaverycloseobservertodetectthefactthatperhapsIdidnotintendtocomeuptoYOUatall。\" Sosayinghesmiledstrangely;butsuddenlyandexcitedlyhebeganagain: \"Don’tremindmeofwhatIhavedoneorsaid。Don’t!Iamverymuchashamedofmyself,I——\" \"Why,whathaveyoudone?Idon’tunderstandyou。\" \"Iseeyouareashamedofme,EvgeniePavlovitch;youareblushingforme;that’sasignofagoodheart。Don’tbeafraid; Ishallgoawaydirectly。\" \"What’sthematterwithhim?Dohisfitsbeginlikethat?\"saidLizabethaProkofievna,inahighstateofalarm,addressingColia。 \"No,no,LizabethaProkofievna,takenonoticeofme。Iamnotgoingtohaveafit。Iwillgoawaydirectly;butIknowIamafflicted。Iwastwenty-fouryearsaninvalid,yousee——thefirsttwenty-fouryearsofmylife——sotakeallIdoandsayasthesayingsandactionsofaninvalid。I’mgoingawaydirectly,I reallyam——don’tbeafraid。Iamnotblushing,forIdon’tthinkI needblushaboutit,needI?ButIseethatIamoutofplaceinsociety——societyisbetterwithoutme。It’snotvanity,Iassureyou。Ihavethoughtoveritalltheselastthreedays,andIhavemadeupmymindthatIoughttounbosommyselfcandidlybeforeyouatthefirstopportunity。Therearecertainthings,certaingreatideas,whichImustnotsomuchasapproach,asPrinceS。 hasjustremindedme,orIshallmakeyoualllaugh。Ihavenosenseofproportion,Iknow;mywordsandgesturesdonotexpressmyideas——theyareahumiliationandabasementoftheideas,andtherefore,Ihavenoright——andIamtoosensitive。Still,I believeIambelovedinthishousehold,andesteemedfarmorethanIdeserve。ButIcan’thelpknowingthataftertwenty-fouryearsofillnesstheremustbesometraceleft,sothatitisimpossibleforpeopletorefrainfromlaughingatmesometimes; don’tyouthinkso?\" Heseemedtopauseforareply,forsomeverdict,asitwere,andlookedhumblyaroundhim。 Allpresentstoodrootedtotheearthwithamazementatthisunexpectedandapparentlyuncalled-foroutbreak;butthepoorprince’spainfulandramblingspeechgaverisetoastrangeepisode。 \"Whydoyousayallthishere?\"criedAglaya,suddenly。\"WhydoyoutalklikethistoTHEM?\" Sheappearedtobeinthelaststagesofwrathandirritation; hereyesflashed。Theprincestooddumblyandblindlybeforeher,andsuddenlygrewpale。 \"Thereisnotoneofthemallwhoisworthyofthesewordsofyours,\"continuedAglaya。\"Notoneofthemisworthyourlittlefinger,notoneofthemhasheartorheadtocomparewithyours! Youaremorehonestthanall,andbetter,nobler,kinder,wiserthanall。Therearesomeherewhoareunworthytobendandpickupthehandkerchiefyouhavejustdropped。Whydoyouhumiliateyourselflikethis,andplaceyourselflowerthanthesepeople? Whydoyoudebaseyourselfbeforethem?Whyhaveyounopride?\" \"MyGod!Whowouldeverhavebelievedthis?\"criedMrs。Epanchin,wringingherhands。 \"Hurrahforthe’poorknight’!\"criedColia。 \"Bequiet!Howdaretheylaughatmeinyourhouse?\"saidAglaya,turningsharplyonhermotherinthathystericalframeofmindthatridesrecklesslyovereveryobstacleandplungesblindlythroughproprieties。\"Whydoeseveryone,everyoneworryandtormentme?Whyhavetheyallbeenbullyingmethesethreedaysaboutyou,prince?Iwillnotmarryyou——never,andundernocircumstances!Knowthatonceandforall;asifanyonecouldmarryanabsurdcreaturelikeyou!Justlookintheglassandseewhatyoulooklike,thisverymoment!Why,WHYdotheytormentmeandsayIamgoingtomarryyou?Youmustknowit;youareintheplotwiththem!\" \"Nooneevertormentedyouonthesubject,\"murmuredAdelaida,aghast。 \"Nooneeverthoughtofsuchathing!Therehasneverbeenawordsaidaboutit!\"criedAlexandra。 \"Whohasbeenannoyingher?Whohasbeentormentingthechild?Whocouldhavesaidsuchathingtoher?Issheraving?\"criedLizabethaProkofievna,tremblingwithrage,tothecompanyingeneral。 \"Everyoneofthemhasbeensayingit——everyoneofthem——allthesethreedays!AndIwillnever,nevermarryhim!\" Sosaying,Aglayaburstintobittertears,and,hidingherfaceinherhandkerchief,sankbackintoachair。 \"Buthehasnevereven——\" \"Ihaveneveraskedyoutomarryme,AglayaIvanovna!\"saidtheprince,ofasudden。 \"WHAT?\"criedMrs。Epanchin,raisingherhandsinhorror。\"WHAT’S that?\" Shecouldnotbelieveherears。 \"Imeanttosay——Ionlymeanttosay,\"saidtheprince,faltering,\"ImerelymeanttoexplaintoAglayaIvanovna——tohavethehonourtoexplain,asitwere——thatIhadnointention——neverhad——toaskthehonourofherhand。IassureyouIamnotguilty,AglayaIvanovna,Iamnot,indeed。Ineverdidwishto——Ineverthoughtofitatall——andnevershall——you’llseeityourself—— youmaybequiteassuredofit。Somewickedpersonhasbeenmaligningmetoyou;butit’sallright。Don’tworryaboutit。\" Sosaying,theprinceapproachedAglaya。 Shetookthehandkerchieffromherface,glancedkeenlyathim,tookinwhathehadsaid,andburstoutlaughing——suchamerry,unrestrainedlaugh,soheartyandgay,that。Adelaidacouldnotcontainherself。She,too,glancedattheprince’spanic-strickencountenance,thenrushedathersister,threwherarmsroundherneck,andburstintoasmerryafitoflaughterasAglaya’sown。 Theylaughedtogetherlikeacoupleofschool-girls。Hearingandseeingthis,theprincesmiledhappily,andinaccentsofreliefandjoy,heexclaimed\"Well,thankGod——thankGod!\" Alexandranowjoinedin,anditlookedasthoughthethreesistersweregoingtolaughonforever。 \"Theyareinsane,\"mutteredLizabethaProkofievna。\"Eithertheyfrightenoneoutofone’swits,orelse——\" ButPrinceS。waslaughingnow,too,sowasEvgeniePavlovitch,sowasColia,andsowastheprincehimself,whocaughttheinfectionashelookedroundradiantlyupontheothers。 \"Comealong,let’sgooutforawalk!\"criedAdelaida。\"We’llallgotogether,andtheprincemustabsolutelygowithus。Youneedn’tgoaway,youdeargoodfellow!ISN’Theadear,Aglaya? Isn’the,mother?Imustreallygivehimakissfor——forhisexplanationtoAglayajustnow。Mother,dear,Imaykisshim,mayn’tI?Aglaya,mayIkissYOURprince?\"criedtheyoungrogue,andsureenoughsheskippeduptotheprinceandkissedhisforehead。 Heseizedherhands,andpressedthemsohardthatAdelaidanearlycriedout;hethengazedwithdelightintohereyes,andraisingherrighthandtohislipswithenthusiasm,kisseditthreetimes。 \"Comealong,\"saidAglaya。\"Prince,youmustwalkwithme。Mayhe,mother?Thisyoungcavalier,whowon’thaveme?YousaidyouwouldNEVERhaveme,didn’tyou,prince?No-no,notlikethat; THAT’Snotthewaytogiveyourarm。Don’tyouknowhowtogiveyourarmtoaladyyet?There——so。Now,comealong,youandI willleadtheway。Wouldyouliketoleadthewaywithmealone,tete-a-tete?\" Shewentontalkingandchattingwithoutapause,withoccasionallittleburstsoflaughterbetween。 \"ThankGod——thankGod!\"saidLizabethaProkofievnatoherself,withoutquiteknowingwhyshefeltsorelieved。 \"Whatextraordinarypeopletheyare!\"thoughtPrinceS。,forperhapsthehundredthtimesincehehadenteredintointimaterelationswiththefamily;but——helikedthese\"extraordinarypeople,\"allthesame。AsforPrinceLefNicolaievitchhimself,PrinceS。didnotseemquitetolikehim,somehow。Hewasdecidedlypreoccupiedandalittledisturbedastheyallstartedoff。 EvgeniePavlovitchseemedtobeinalivelyhumour。HemadeAdelaidaandAlexandralaughallthewaytotheVauxhall;buttheybothlaughedsoveryreallyandpromptlythattheworthyEvgeniebeganatlasttosuspectthattheywerenotlisteningtohimatall。 Atthisidea,heburstoutlaughingallatonce,inquiteunaffectedmirth,andwithoutgivinganyexplanation。 Thesisters,whoalsoappearedtobeinhighspirits,nevertiredofglancingatAglayaandtheprince,whowerewalkinginfront。 Itwasevidentthattheiryoungersisterwasathoroughpuzzletothemboth。 PrinceS。triedhardtogetupaconversationwithMrs。Epanchinuponoutsidesubjects,probablywiththegoodintentionofdistractingandamusingher;butheboredherdreadfully。Shewasabsent-mindedtoadegree,andansweredatcrosspurposes,andsometimesnotatall。 ButthepuzzleandmysteryofAglayawasnotyetoverfortheevening。Thelastexhibitionfelltothelotoftheprincealone。 Whentheyhadproceededsomehundredpacesorsofromthehouse,Aglayasaidtoherobstinatelysilentcavalierinaquickhalf- whisper: \"Looktotheright!\" Theprinceglancedinthedirectionindicated。 \"Lookcloser。Doyouseethatbench,intheparkthere,justbythosethreebigtrees——thatgreenbench?\" Theprincerepliedthathesawit。 \"Doyoulikethepositionofit?Sometimesofamorningearly,atseveno’clock,whenalltherestarestillasleep,Icomeoutandsittherealone。\" Theprincemutteredthatthespotwasalovelyone。 \"Now,goaway,Idon’twishtohaveyourarmanylonger;orperhaps,better,continuetogivemeyourarm,andwalkalongbesideme,butdon’tspeakawordtome。Iwishtothinkbymyself。\" Thewarningwascertainlyunnecessary;fortheprincewouldnothavesaidawordalltherestofthetimewhetherforbiddentospeakornot。HisheartbeatloudandpainfullywhenAglayaspokeofthebench;couldshe——butno!hebanishedthethought,afteraninstant’sdeliberation。 AtPavlofsk,onweekdays,thepublicismoreselectthanitisonSundaysandSaturdays,whenthetownsfolkcomedowntowalkaboutandenjoythepark。 Theladiesdresselegantly,onthesedays,anditisthefashiontogatherroundtheband,whichisprobablythebestofourpleasure-gardenbands,andplaysthenewestpieces。Thebehaviourofthepublicismostcorrectandproper,andthereisanappearanceoffriendlyintimacyamongtheusualfrequenters。Manycomefornothingbuttolookattheiracquaintances,butthereareotherswhocomeforthesakeofthemusic。Itisveryseldomthatanythinghappenstobreaktheharmonyoftheproceedings,though,ofcourse,accidentswillhappeneverywhere。 Onthisparticulareveningtheweatherwaslovely,andtherewerealargenumberofpeoplepresent。Alltheplacesanywhereneartheorchestrawereoccupied。 Ourfriendstookchairsnearthesideexit。ThecrowdandthemusiccheeredMrs。Epanchinalittle,andamusedthegirls;theybowedandshookhandswithsomeoftheirfriendsandnoddedatadistancetoothers;theyexaminedtheladies’dresses,noticedcomicalitiesandeccentricitiesamongthepeople,andlaughedandtalkedamongthemselves。EvgeniePavlovitch,too,foundplentyoffriendstobowto。SeveralpeoplenoticedAglayaandtheprince,whowerestilltogether。 Beforeverylongtwoorthreeyoungmenhadcomeup,andoneortworemainedtotalk;alloftheseyoungmenappearedtobeonintimatetermswithEvgeniePavlovitch。Amongthemwasayoungofficer,aremarkablyhandsomefellow——verygood-naturedandagreatchatterbox。HetriedtogetupaconversationwithAglaya,anddidhisbesttosecureherattention。Aglayabehavedverygraciouslytohim,andchattedandlaughedmerrily。EvgeniePavlovitchbeggedtheprince’sleavetointroducetheirfriendtohim。Theprincehardlyrealizedwhatwaswantedofhim,buttheintroductioncameoff;thetwomenbowedandshookhands。 EvgeniePavlovitch’sfriendaskedtheprincesomequestion,butthelatterdidnotreply,orifhedid,hemutteredsomethingsostrangelyindistinctthattherewasnothingtobemadeofit。Theofficerstaredintentlyathim,thenglancedatEvgenie,divinedwhythelatterhadintroducedhim,andgavehisundividedattentiontoAglayaagain。OnlyEvgeniePavlovitchobservedthatAglayaflushedupforamomentatthis。 TheprincedidnotnoticethatothersweretalkingandmakingthemselvesagreeabletoAglaya;infact,atmoments,healmostforgotthathewassittingbyherhimself。Atothermomentshefeltalongingtogoawaysomewhereandbealonewithhisthoughts,andtofeelthatnooneknewwherehewas。 Orifthatwereimpossiblehewouldliketobealoneathome,ontheterrace-withouteitherLebedefforhischildren,oranyoneelseabouthim,andtoliethereandthink——adayandnightandanotherdayagain!Hethoughtofthemountains-andespeciallyofacertainspotwhichheusedtofrequent,whencehewouldlookdownuponthedistantvalleysandfields,andseethewaterfall,faroff,likealittlesilverthread,andtheoldruinedcastleinthedistance。Oh!howhelongedtobetherenow——alonewithhisthoughts——tothinkofonethingallhislife——onething!A thousandyearswouldnotbetoomuchtime!Andleteveryonehereforgethim——forgethimutterly!Howmuchbetteritwouldhavebeeniftheyhadneverknownhim——ifallthiscouldbutprovetobeadream。Perhapsitwasadream! NowandthenhelookedatAglayaforfiveminutesatatime,withouttakinghiseyesoffherface;buthisexpressionwasverystrange;hewouldgazeatherasthoughshewereanobjectacoupleofmilesdistant,orasthoughhewerelookingatherportraitandnotatherselfatall。 \"Whydoyoulookatmelikethat,prince?\"sheaskedsuddenly,breakingoffhermerryconversationandlaughterwiththoseabouther。\"I’mafraidofyou!Youlookasthoughyouwerejustgoingtoputoutyourhandandtouchmyfacetoseeifit’sreal! Doesn’the,EvgeniePavlovitch——doesn’thelooklikethat?\" Theprinceseemedsurprisedthatheshouldhavebeenaddressedatall;hereflectedamoment,butdidnotseemtotakeinwhathadbeensaidtohim;atallevents,hedidnotanswer。Butobservingthatsheandtheothershadbeguntolaugh,hetooopenedhismouthandlaughedwiththem。 Thelaughterbecamegeneral,andtheyoungofficer,whoseemedaparticularlylivelysortofperson,simplyshookwithmirth。 Aglayasuddenlywhisperedangrilytoherselftheword—— \"Idiot!\" \"Mygoodness——surelysheisnotinlovewithsucha——surelysheisn’tmad!\"groanedMrs。Epanchin,underherbreath。 \"It’sallajoke,mamma;it’sjustajokelikethe’poorknight’—— nothingmorewhatever,Iassureyou!\"Alexandrawhisperedinherear。\"Sheischaffinghim——makingafoolofhim,afterherownprivatefashion,that’sall!Butshecarriesitjustalittletoofar——sheisaregularlittleactress。Howshefrightenedusjustnow——didn’tshe?——andallforalark!\" \"Well,it’sluckyshehashappeneduponanidiot,then,that’sallIcansay!\"whisperedLizabethaProkofievna,whowassomewhatcomforted,however,byherdaughter’sremark。 Theprincehadheardhimselfreferredtoas\"idiot,\"andhadshudderedatthemoment;buthisshudder,itsohappened,wasnotcausedbythewordappliedtohim。Thefactwasthatinthecrowd,notfarfromwhereliewassitting,apalefamiliarface,withcurlyblackhair,andawell-knownsmileandexpression,hadflashedacrosshisvisionforamoment,anddisappearedagain。 Verylikelyhehadimaginedit!Thereonlyremainedtohimtheimpressionofastrangesmile,twoeyes,andabrightgreentie。 Whetherthemanhaddisappearedamongthecrowd,orwhetherhehadturnedtowardstheVauxhall,theprincecouldnotsay。 Butamomentortwoafterwardshebegantoglancekeenlyabouthim。Thatfirstvisionmightonlytoolikelybetheforerunnerofasecond;itwasalmostcertaintobeso。SurelyhehadnotforgottenthepossibilityofsuchameetingwhenhecametotheVauxhall?Trueenough,hehadnotremarkedwherehewascomingtowhenhesetoutwithAglaya;hehadnotbeeninaconditiontoremarkanythingatall。 Hadhebeenmorecarefultoobservehiscompanion,hewouldhaveseenthatforthelastquarterofanhourAglayahadalsobeenglancingaroundinapparentanxiety,asthoughsheexpectedtoseesomeone,orsomethingparticular,amongthecrowdofpeople。 Now,atthemomentwhenhisownanxietybecamesomarked,herexcitementalsoincreasedvisibly,andwhenhelookedabouthim,shedidthesame。 Thereasonfortheiranxietysoonbecameapparent。FromthatverysideentrancetotheVauxhall,nearwhichtheprinceandalltheEpanchinpartywereseated,theresuddenlyappearedquitealargeknotofpersons,atleastadozen。 Headingthislittlebandwalkedthreeladies,twoofwhomwereremarkablylovely;andtherewasnothingsurprisinginthefactthattheyshouldhavehadalargetroopofadmirersfollowingintheirwake。 Buttherewassomethingintheappearanceofboththeladiesandtheiradmirerswhichwaspeculiar,quitedifferentforthatoftherestofthepublicassembledaroundtheorchestra。 Nearlyeveryoneobservedthelittlebandadvancing,andallpretendednottoseeornoticethem,exceptafewyoungfellowswhoexchangedglancesandsmiled,sayingsomethingtooneanotherinwhispers。 Itwasimpossibletoavoidnoticingthem,however,inreality,fortheymadetheirpresenceonlytooconspicuousbylaughingandtalkingloudly。Itwastobesupposedthatsomeofthemweremorethanhalfdrunk,althoughtheywerewellenoughdressed,someevenparticularlywell。Therewereoneortwo,however,whowereverystrange-lookingcreatures,withflushedfacesandextraordinaryclothes;someweremilitarymen;notallwerequiteyoung;oneortwoweremiddle-agedgentlemenofdecidedlydisagreeableappearance,menwhoareavoidedinsocietyliketheplague,deckedoutinlargegoldstudsandrings,andmagnificently\"gotup,\"generally。 Amongoursuburbanresortstherearesomewhichenjoyaspeciallyhighreputationforrespectabilityandfashion;butthemostcarefulindividualisnotabsolutelyexemptfromthedangerofatilefallingsuddenlyuponhisheadfromhisneighbour’sroof。 Suchatilewasabouttodescendupontheelegantanddecorouspublicnowassembledtohearthemusic。 InordertopassfromtheVauxhalltotheband-stand,thevisitorhastodescendtwoorthreesteps。Justatthesestepsthegrouppaused,asthoughitfearedtoproceedfurther;butveryquicklyoneofthethreeladies,whoformeditsapex,steppedforwardintothecharmedcircle,followedbytwomembersofhersuite。 Oneofthesewasamiddle-agedmanofveryrespectableappearance,butwiththestampofparvenuuponhim,amanwhomnobodyknew,andwhoevidentlyknewnobody。Theotherfollowerwasyoungerandfarlessrespectable-looking。 Nooneelsefollowedtheeccentriclady;butasshedescendedthestepsshedidnotevenlookbehindher,asthoughitwereabsolutelythesametoherwhetheranyonewerefollowingornot。 Shelaughedandtalkedloudly,however,justasbefore。Shewasdressedwithgreattaste,butwithrathermoremagnificencethanwasneededfortheoccasion,perhaps。 Shewalkedpasttheorchestra,towhereanopencarriagewaswaiting,neartheroad。 TheprincehadnotseenHERformorethanthreemonths。AllthesedayssincehisarrivalfromPetersburghehadintendedtopayheravisit,butsomemysteriouspresentimenthadrestrainedhim。Hecouldnotpicturetohimselfwhatimpressionthismeetingwithherwouldmakeuponhim,thoughhehadoftentriedtoimagineit,withfearandtrembling。Onefactwasquitecertain,andthatwasthatthemeetingwouldbepainful。 Severaltimesduringthelastsixmonthshehadrecalledtheeffectwhichthefirstsightofthisfacehadhaduponhim,whenheonlysawitsportrait。Herecollectedwellthateventheportraitfacehadleftbuttoopainfulanimpression。 Thatmonthintheprovinces,whenhehadseenthiswomannearlyeveryday,hadaffectedhimsodeeplythathecouldnotnowlookbackuponitcalmly。Intheverylookofthiswomantherewassomethingwhichtorturedhim。InconversationwithRogojinhehadattributedthissensationtopity——immeasurablepity,andthiswasthetruth。Thesightoftheportraitfacealonehadfilledhisheartfulloftheagonyofrealsympathy;andthisfeelingofsympathy,nay,ofactualSUFFERING,forher,hadneverlefthisheartsincethathour,andwasstillinfullforce。Ohyes,andmorepowerfulthanever! ButtheprincewasnotsatisfiedwithwhathehadsaidtoRogojin。Onlyatthismoment,whenshesuddenlymadeherappearancebeforehim,didherealizetothefulltheexactemotionwhichshecalledupinhim,andwhichhehadnotdescribedcorrectlytoRogojin。 And,indeed,therewerenowordsinwhichhecouldhaveexpressedhishorror,yes,HORROR,forhewasnowfullyconvincedfromhisownprivateknowledgeofher,thatthewomanwasmad。 If,lovingawomanaboveeverythingintheworld,oratleasthavingaforetasteofthepossibilityofsuchloveforher,oneweresuddenlytobeholdheronachain,behindbarsandunderthelashofakeeper,onewouldfeelsomethinglikewhatthepoorprincenowfelt。 \"What’sthematter?\"askedAglaya,inawhisper,givinghissleevealittletug。 Heturnedhisheadtowardsherandglancedatherblackand(forsomereason)flashingeyes,triedtosmile,andthen,apparentlyforgettingherinaninstant,turnedtotherightoncemore,andcontinuedtowatchthestartlingapparitionbeforehim。 NastasiaPhilipovnawasatthismomentpassingtheyoungladies’ chairs。 EvgeniePavlovitchcontinuedsomeapparentlyextremelyfunnyandinterestinganecdotetoAlexandra,speakingquicklyandwithmuchanimation。TheprincerememberedthatatthismomentAglayaremarkedinahalf-whisper: \"WHATa——\" Shedidnotfinishherindefinitesentence;sherestrainedherselfinamoment;butitwasenough。 NastasiaPhilipovna,whouptonowhadbeenwalkingalongasthoughshehadnotnoticedtheEpanchinparty,suddenlyturnedherheadintheirdirection,asthoughshehadjustobservedEvgeniePavlovitchsittingthereforthefirsttime。 \"Why,Ideclare,hereheis!\"shecried,stoppingsuddenly。\"Themanonecan’tfindwithallone’smessengerssentabouttheplace,sittingjustunderone’snose,exactlywhereoneneverthoughtoflooking!Ithoughtyouweresuretobeatyouruncle’sbythistime。\" EvgeniePavlovitchflushedupandlookedangrilyatNastasiaPhilipovna,thenturnedhisbackonher。 \"WhatIdon’tyouknowaboutityet?Hedoesn’tknow——imaginethat!Why,he’sshothimself。Youruncleshothimselfthisverymorning。Iwastoldattwothisafternoon。Halfthetownmustknowitbynow。Theysaytherearethreehundredandfiftythousandroubles,governmentmoney,missing;somesayfivehundredthousand。AndIwasundertheimpressionthathewouldleaveyouafortune!He’swhistleditallaway。Amostdepravedoldgentleman,really!Well,ta,ta!——bonnechance!Surelyyouintendtobeoffthere,don’tyou?Ha,ha!You’veretiredfromthearmyingoodtime,Isee!Plainclothes!Welldone,slyrogue!Nonsense!Isee——youknewitallbefore——Idaresayyouknewallaboutityesterday-\" Althoughtheimpudenceofthisattack,thispublicproclamationofintimacy,asitwere,wasdoubtlesspremeditated,andhaditsspecialobject,yetEvgeniePavlovitchatfirstseemedtointendtomakenoshowofobservingeitherhistormentororherwords。 ButNastasia’scommunicationstruckhimwiththeforceofathunderclap。Onhearingofhisuncle’sdeathhesuddenlygrewaswhiteasasheet,andturnedtowardshisinformant。 Atthismoment,LizabethaProkofievnaroseswiftlyfromherseat,beckonedhercompanions,andlefttheplacealmostatarun。 Onlytheprincestoppedbehindforamoment,asthoughinindecision;andEvgeniePavlovitchlingeredtoo,forhehadnotcollectedhisscatteredwits。ButtheEpanchinshadnothadtimetogetmorethantwentypacesawaywhenascandalousepisodeoccurred。Theyoungofficer,EvgeniePavlovitch’sfriendwhohadbeenconversingwithAglaya,saidaloudinagreatstateofindignation: \"Sheoughttobewhipped——that’stheonlywaytodealwithcreatureslikethat——sheoughttobewhipped!\" ThisgentlemanwasaconfidantofEvgenie’s,andhaddoubtlessheardofthecarriageepisode。 Nastasiaturnedtohim。Hereyesflashed;sherusheduptoayoungmanstandingnear,whomshedidnotknowintheleast,butwhohappenedtohaveinhishandathincane。Seizingthisfromhim,shebroughtitwithallherforceacrossthefaceofherinsulter。 Allthisoccurred,ofcourse,inoneinstantoftime。 Theyoungofficer,forgettinghimself,sprangtowardsher。 Nastasia’sfollowerswerenotbyheratthemoment(theelderlygentlemanhavingdisappearedaltogether,andtheyoungermansimplystandingasideandroaringwithlaughter)。 Inanothermoment,ofcourse,thepolicewouldhavebeenonthespot,anditwouldhavegonehardwithNastasiaPhilipovnahadnotunexpectedaidappeared。 Muishkin,whowasbutacoupleofstepsaway,hadtimetospringforwardandseizetheofficer’sarmsfrombehind。 Theofficer,tearinghimselffromtheprince’sgrasp,pushedhimsoviolentlybackwardsthathestaggeredafewstepsandthensubsidedintoachair。 ButtherewereotherdefendersforNastasiaonthespotbythistime。Thegentlemanknownasthe\"boxer\"nowconfrontedtheenragedofficer。 \"Kellerismyname,sir;ex-lieutenant,\"hesaid,veryloud。\"Ifyouwillacceptmeaschampionofthefairsex,Iamatyourdisposal。Englishboxinghasnosecretsfromme。Isympathizewithyoufortheinsultyouhavereceived,butIcan’tpermityoutoraiseyourhandagainstawomaninpublic。Ifyouprefertomeetme——aswouldbemorefittingtoyourrank——insomeothermanner,ofcourseyouunderstandme,captain。\" Buttheyoungofficerhadrecoveredhimself,andwasnolongerlistening。AtthismomentRogojinappeared,elbowingthroughthecrowd;hetookNastasia’shand,drewitthroughhisarm,andquicklyledheraway。Heappearedtobeterriblyexcited;hewastremblingallover,andwasaspaleasacorpse。 AshecarriedNastasiaoff,heturnedandgrinnedhorriblyintheofficer’sface,andwithlowmaliceobserved: \"Tfu!lookwhatthefellowgot!Lookatthebloodonhischeek! Ha,ha!\" Recollectinghimself,however,andseeingataglancethesortofpeoplehehadtodealwith,theofficerturnedhisbackonbothhisopponents,andcourteously,butconcealinghisfacewithhishandkerchief,approachedtheprince,whowasnowrisingfromthechairintowhichhehadfallen。 \"PrinceMuishkin,Ibelieve?ThegentlemantowhomIhadthehonourofbeingintroduced?\" \"Sheismad,insane——Iassureyou,sheismad,\"repliedtheprinceintremblingtones,holdingoutbothhishandsmechanicallytowardstheofficer。 \"Icannotboastofanysuchknowledge,ofcourse,butIwishedtoknowyourname。\" Hebowedandretiredwithoutwaitingforananswer。 Fivesecondsafterthedisappearanceofthelastactorinthisscene,thepolicearrived。Thewholeepisodehadnotlastedmorethanacoupleofminutes。Someofthespectatorshadrisenfromtheirplaces,anddepartedaltogether;somemerelyexchangedtheirseatsforothersalittlefurtheroff;someweredelightedwiththeoccurrence,andtalkedandlaughedoveritforalongtime。 Inaword,theincidentclosedassuchincidentsdo,andthebandbegantoplayagain。TheprincewalkedawayaftertheEpanchinparty。Hadhethoughtoflookingroundtotheleftafterhehadbeenpushedsounceremoniouslyintothechair,hewouldhaveobservedAglayastandingsometwentyyardsaway。Shehadstayedtowatchthescandaloussceneinspiteofhermother’sandsisters’anxiouscriestohertocomeaway。 PrinceS。ranuptoherandpersuadedher,atlast,tocomehomewiththem。 LizabethaProkofievnasawthatshereturnedinsuchastateofagitationthatitwasdoubtfulwhethershehadevenheardtheircalls。Butonlyacoupleofminuteslater,whentheyhadreachedthepark,Aglayasuddenlyremarked,inherusualcalm,indifferentvoice: \"Iwantedtoseehowthefarcewouldend。\" III。 THEoccurrenceattheVauxhallhadfilledbothmotheranddaughterswithsomethinglikehorror。IntheirexcitementLizabethaProkofievnaandthegirlswerenearlyrunningallthewayhome。 Inheropiniontherewassomuchdisclosedandlaidbarebytheepisode,that,inspiteofthechaoticconditionofhermind,shewasabletofeelmoreorlessdecidedoncertainpointswhich,uptonow,hadbeeninacloudycondition。 However,oneandallofthepartyrealizedthatsomethingimportanthadhappened,andthat,perhapsfortunatelyenough,somethingwhichhadhithertobeenenvelopedintheobscurityofguess-workhadnowbeguntocomeforthalittlefromthemists。 InspiteofPrinceS。’sassurancesandexplanations,EvgeniePavlovitch’srealcharacterandpositionwereatlastcomingtolight。Hewaspubliclyconvictedofintimacywith\"thatcreature。\"SothoughtLizabethaProkofievnaandhertwoelderdaughters。 Buttherealupshotofthebusinesswasthatthenumberofriddlestobesolvedwasaugmented。Thetwogirls,thoughratherirritatedattheirmother’sexaggeratedalarmandhastetodepartfromthescene,hadbeenunwillingtoworryheratfirstwithquestions。 Besides,theycouldnothelpthinkingthattheirsisterAglayaprobablyknewmoreaboutthewholematterthanboththeyandtheirmotherputtogether。 PrinceS。lookedasblackasnight,andwassilentandmoody。 Mrs。Epanchindidnotsayawordtohimallthewayhome,andhedidnotseemtoobservethefact。Adelaidatriedtopumphimalittlebyasking,\"whowastheuncletheyweretalkingabout,andwhatwasitthathadhappenedinPetersburg?\"Buthehadmerelymutteredsomethingdisconnectedabout\"makinginquiries,\"andthat\"ofcourseitwasallnonsense。\"\"Oh,ofcourse,\"repliedAdelaida,andaskednomorequestions。Aglaya,too,wasveryquiet;andtheonlyremarkshemadeonthewayhomewasthattheywere\"walkingmuchtoofasttobepleasant。\" Oncesheturnedandobservedtheprincehurryingafterthem。 Noticinghisanxietytocatchthemup,shesmiledironically,andthenlookedbacknomore。Atlength,justastheynearedthehouse,GeneralEpanchincameoutandmetthem;hehadonlyjustarrivedfromtown。 HisfirstwordwastoinquireafterEvgeniePavlovitch。ButLizabethastalkedpasthim,andneitherlookedathimnoransweredhisquestion。 HeimmediatelyjudgedfromthefacesofhisdaughtersandPrinceS。thattherewasathunderstormbrewing,andhehimselfalreadyboreevidencesofunusualperturbationofmind。 Heimmediatelybutton-holedPrinceS。,andstandingatthefrontdoor,engagedinawhisperedconversationwithhim。Bythetroubledaspectofbothofthem,whentheyenteredthehouse,andapproachedMrs。Epanchin,itwasevidentthattheyhadbeendiscussingverydisturbingnews。 LittlebylittlethefamilygatheredtogetherupstairsinLizabethaProkofievna’sapartments,andPrinceMuishkinfoundhimselfaloneontheverandahwhenhearrived。Hesettledhimselfinacornerandsatwaiting,thoughheknewnotwhatheexpected。 Itneverstruckhimthathehadbettergoaway,withallthisdisturbanceinthehouse。Heseemedtohaveforgottenalltheworld,andtobereadytositonwherehewasforyearsonend。 Fromupstairshecaughtsoundsofexcitedconversationeverynowandthen。 Hecouldnotsayhowlonghesatthere。Itgrewlateandbecamequitedark。 SuddenlyAglayaenteredtheverandah。Sheseemedtobequitecalm,thoughalittlepale。 Observingtheprince,whomsheevidentlydidnotexpecttoseethere,aloneinthecorner,shesmiled,andapproachedhim: \"Whatareyoudoingthere?\"sheasked。 Theprincemutteredsomething,blushed,andjumpedup;butAglayaimmediatelysatdownbesidehim;sohereseatedhimself。 Shelookedsuddenly,butattentivelyintohisface,thenatthewindow,asthoughthinkingofsomethingelse,andthenagainathim。 \"Perhapsshewantstolaughatme,\"thoughttheprince,\"butno; forifshedidshecertainlywoulddoso。\" \"Wouldyoulikesometea?I’llordersome,\"shesaid,afteraminuteortwoofsilence。 \"N-nothanks,Idon’tknow——\" \"Don’tknow!Howcanyounotknow?By-the-by,lookhere——ifsomeoneweretochallengeyoutoaduel,whatshouldyoudo?I wishedtoaskyouthis——sometimeago——\" \"Why?Nobodywouldeverchallengemetoaduel!\" \"Butiftheywereto,wouldyoubedreadfullyfrightened?\" \"IdaresayIshouldbe——muchalarmed!\" \"Seriously?Thenareyouacoward?\" \"N-no!——Idon’tthinkso。Acowardisamanwhoisafraidandrunsaway;themanwhoisfrightenedbutdoesnotrunaway,isnotquiteacoward,\"saidtheprincewithasmile,afteramoment’sthought。 \"Andyouwouldn’trunaway?\" \"No——Idon’tthinkIshouldrunaway,\"repliedtheprince,laughingoutrightatlastatAglaya’squestions。 \"ThoughIamawoman,Ishouldcertainlynotrunawayforanything,\"saidAglaya,inaslightlypainedvoice。\"However,I seeyouarelaughingatmeandtwistingyourfaceupasusualinordertomakeyourselflookmoreinteresting。Nowtellme,theygenerallyshootattwentypaces,don’tthey?Atten,sometimes?I supposeifattentheymustbeeitherwoundedorkilled,mustn’tthey?\" \"Idon’tthinktheyoftenkilleachotheratduels。\" \"TheykilledPushkinthatway。\" \"Thatmayhavebeenanaccident。\" \"Notabitofit;itwasadueltothedeath,andhewaskilled。\" \"Thebulletstrucksolowdownthatprobablyhisantagonistwouldneverhaveaimedatthatpartofhim——peopleneverdo;hewouldhaveaimedathischestorhead;sothatprobablythebullethithimaccidentally。Ihavebeentoldthisbycompetentauthorities。\" \"Well,asoldieroncetoldmethattheywerealwaysorderedtoaimatthemiddleofthebody。Soyouseetheydon’taimatthechestorhead;theyaimloweronpurpose。Iaskedsomeofficeraboutthisafterwards,andhesaiditwasperfectlytrue。\" \"Thatisprobablywhentheyfirefromalongdistance。\" \"Canyoushootatall?\" \"No,Ihavenevershotinmylife。\" \"Can’tyouevenloadapistol?\" \"No!Thatis,Iunderstandhowit’sdone,ofcourse,butIhaveneverdoneit。\" \"Then,youdon’tknowhow,foritisamatterthatneedspractice。Nowlistenandlearn;inthefirstplacebuygoodpowder,notdamp(theysayitmustn’tbeatalldamp,butverydry),somefinekinditis——youmustaskforPISTOLpowder,notthestufftheyloadcannonswith。Theysayonemakesthebulletsoneself,somehoworother。Haveyougotapistol?\" \"No——andIdon’twantone,\"saidtheprince,laughing。 \"Oh,whatNONSENSE!Youmustbuyone。FrenchorEnglisharethebest,theysay。Thentakealittlepowder,aboutathimbleful,orperhapstwo,andpouritintothebarrel。Betterputplenty。Thenpushinabitoffelt(itMUSTbefelt,forsomereasonorother);youcaneasilygetabitoffsomeoldmattress,oroffadoor;it’susedtokeepthecoldout。Well,whenyouhavepushedthefeltdown,putthebulletin;doyouhearnow?Thebulletlastandthepowderfirst,nottheotherway,orthepistolwon’tshoot。Whatareyoulaughingat?Iwishyoutobuyapistolandpractiseeveryday,andyoumustlearntohitamarkforCERTAIN; willyou?\" Theprinceonlylaughed。Aglayastampedherfootwithannoyance。 Herseriousair,however,duringthisconversationhadsurprisedhimconsiderably。Hehadafeelingthatheoughttobeaskinghersomething,thattherewassomethinghewantedtofindoutfarmoreimportantthanhowtoloadapistol;buthisthoughtshadallscattered,andhewasonlyawarethatshewassittingby,him,andtalkingtohim,andthathewaslookingather;astowhatshehappenedtobesayingtohim,thatdidnotmatterintheleast。 Thegeneralnowappearedontheverandah,comingfromupstairs。 Hewasonhiswayout,withanexpressionofdeterminationonhisface,andofpreoccupationandworryalso。 \"Ah!LefNicolaievitch,it’syou,isit?Whereareyouofftonow?\"heasked,obliviousofthefactthattheprincehadnotshowedtheleastsignofmoving。\"Comealongwithme;Iwanttosayawordortwotoyou。\" \"Aurevoir,then!\"saidAglaya,holdingoutherhandtotheprince。 Itwasquitedarknow,andMuishkincouldnotseeherfaceclearly,butaminuteortwolater,whenheandthegeneralhadleftthevilla,hesuddenlyflushedup,andsqueezedhisrighthandtightly。 Itappearedthatheandthegeneralweregoinginthesamedirection。Inspiteofthelatenessofthehour,thegeneralwashurryingawaytotalktosomeoneuponsomeimportantsubject。 Meanwhilehetalkedincessantlybutdisconnectedlytotheprince,andcontinuallybroughtinthenameofLizabethaProkofievna。 Iftheprincehadbeeninaconditiontopaymoreattentiontowhatthegeneralwassaying,hewouldhavediscoveredthatthelatterwasdesirousofdrawingsomeinformationoutofhim,orindeedofaskinghimsomequestionoutright;butthathecouldnotmakeuphismindtocometothepoint。 Muishkinwassoabsent,thatfromtheveryfirsthecouldnotattendtoawordtheotherwassaying;andwhenthegeneralsuddenlystoppedbeforehimwithsomeexcitedquestion,hewasobligedtoconfess,ignominiously,thathedidnotknowintheleastwhathehadbeentalkingabout。 Thegeneralshruggedhisshoulders。 \"Howstrangeeveryone,yourselfincluded,hasbecomeoflate,\" saidhe。\"IwastellingyouthatIcannotintheleastunderstandLizabethaProkofievna’sideasandagitations。Sheisinhystericsupthere,andmoansandsaysthatwehavebeen’shamedanddisgraced。’How?Why?When?Bywhom?IconfessthatIamverymuchtoblamemyself;Idonotconcealthefact;buttheconduct,theoutrageousbehaviourofthiswoman,mustreallybekeptwithinlimits,bythepoliceifnecessary,andIamjustonmywaynowtotalkthequestionoverandmakesomearrangements。Itcanallbemanagedquietlyandgently,evenkindly,andwithouttheslightestfussorscandal。Iforeseethatthefutureispregnantwithevents,andthatthereismuchthatneedsexplanation。Thereisintrigueinthewind;butifononesidenothingisknown,ontheothersidenothingwillbeexplained。IfIhaveheardnothingaboutit,norhaveYOU,norHE,norSHE—— whoHASheardaboutit,Ishouldliketoknow?HowCANallthisbeexplainedexceptbythefactthathalfofitismirageormoonshine,orsomehallucinationofthatsort?\" \"SHEisinsane,\"mutteredtheprince,suddenlyrecollectingallthathadpassed,withaspasmofpainathisheart。 \"Itoohadthatidea,andIsleptinpeace。ButnowIseethattheiropinionismorecorrect。Idonotbelieveinthetheoryofmadness!Thewomanhasnocommonsense;butsheisnotonlynotinsane,sheisartfultoadegree。HeroutburstofthiseveningaboutEvgenie’suncleprovesthatconclusively。ItwasVILLAINOUS,simplyjesuitical,anditwasallforsomespecialpurpose。\" \"WhataboutEvgenie’suncle?\" \"Mygoodness,LefNicolaievitch,why,youcan’thaveheardasinglewordIsaid!Lookatme,I’mstilltremblingalloverwiththedreadfulshock!Itisthatthatkeptmeintownsolate。 EvgeniePavlovitch’suncle——\" Well?\"criedtheprince。 \"Shothimselfthismorning,atseveno’clock。Arespected,eminentoldmanofseventy;andexactlypointforpointasshedescribedit;asumofmoney,aconsiderablesumofgovernmentmoney,missing!\" \"Why,howcouldshe——\" \"What,knowofit?Ha,ha,ha!Why,therewasawholecrowdroundherthemomentsheappearedonthesceneshere。Youknowwhatsortofpeoplesurroundhernowadays,andsolicitthehonourofher’acquaintance。’Ofcourseshemighteasilyhaveheardthenewsfromsomeonecomingfromtown。AllPetersburg,ifnotallPavlofsk,knowsitbynow。LookattheslynessofherobservationaboutEvgenie’suniform!Imean,herremarkthathehadretiredjustintime!There’savenomoushintforyou,ifyoulike!No,no!there’snoinsanitythere!OfcourseIrefusetobelievethatEvgeniePavlovitchcouldhaveknownbeforehandofthecatastrophe;thatis,thatatsuchandsuchadayatseveno’clock,andallthat;buthemightwellhavehadapresentimentofthetruth。AndI——allofus——PrinceS。andeverybody,believedthathewastoinheritalargefortunefromthisuncle。It’sdreadful,horrible!Mind,Idon’tsuspectEvgenieofanything,bequiteclearonthatpoint;butthethingisalittlesuspicious,nevertheless。PrinceS。can’tgetoverit。Altogetheritisaveryextraordinarycombinationofcircumstances。\" \"WhatsuspicionattachestoEvgeniePavlovitch?\" \"Oh,noneatall!Hehasbehavedverywellindeed。Ididn’tmeantodropanysortofhint。Hisownfortuneisintact,Ibelieve。 LizabethaProkofievna,ofcourse,refusestolistentoanything。 That’stheworstofitall,thesefamilycatastrophesorquarrels,orwhateveryouliketocallthem。Youknow,prince,youareafriendofthefamily,soIdon’tmindtellingyou;itnowappearsthatEvgeniePavlovitchproposedtoAglayaamonthago,andwasrefused。\" \"Impossible!\"criedtheprince。 \"Why?Doyouknowanythingaboutit?Lookhere,\"continuedthegeneral,moreagitatedthanever,andtremblingwithexcitement,\"maybeIhavebeenlettingthecatoutofthebagtoofreelywithyou,ifso,itisbecauseyouare——thatsortofman,youknow! Perhapsyouhavesomespecialinformation?\" \"IknownothingaboutEvgeniePavlovitch!\"saidtheprince。 \"NordoI!Theyalwaystrytoburymeundergroundwhenthere’sanythinggoingon;theydon’tseemtoreflectthatitisunpleasanttoamantobetreatedso!Iwon’tstandit!Wehavejusthadaterriblescene!——mind,IspeaktoyouasIwouldtomyownson!Aglayalaughsathermother。HersistersguessedaboutEvgeniehavingproposedandbeenrejected,andtoldLizabetha。 \"Itellyou,mydearfellow,Aglayaissuchanextraordinary,suchaself-willed,fantasticallittlecreature,youwouldn’tbelieveit!Everyhighquality,everybrillianttraitofheartandmind,aretobefoundinher,and,withitall,somuchcapriceandmockery,suchwildfancies——indeed,alittledevil! Shehasjustbeenlaughingathermothertoherveryface,andathersisters,andatPrinceS。,andeverybody——andofcourseshealwayslaughsatme!YouknowIlovethechild——Iloveherevenwhenshelaughsatme,andIbelievethewildlittlecreaturehasaspecialfondnessformeforthatveryreason。Sheisfonderofmethananyoftheothers。IdareswearshehashadagoodlaughatYOUbeforenow!Youwerehavingaquiettalkjustnow,I observed,afterallthethunderandlightningupstairs。Shewassittingwithyoujustasthoughtherehadbeennorowatall。\" Theprinceblushedpainfullyinthedarkness,andclosedhisrighthandtightly,buthesaidnothing。 \"MydeargoodPrinceLefNicolaievitch,\"beganthegeneralagain,suddenly,\"bothIandLizabethaProkofievna——(whohasbeguntorespectyouoncemore,andmethroughyou,goodnessknowswhy!)—— webothloveyouverysincerely,andesteemyou,inspiteofanyappearancestothecontrary。Butyou’lladmitwhatariddleitmusthavebeenforuswhenthatcalm,cold,littlespitfire,Aglaya——(forshestooduptohermotherandansweredherquestionswithinexpressiblecontempt,andminestillmoreso,because,likeafool,Ithoughtitmydutytoassertmyselfasheadofthefamily)——whenAglayastoodupofasuddenandinformedusthat’thatmadwoman’(strangelyenough,sheusedexactlythesameexpressionasyoudid)’hastakenitintoherheadtomarrymetoPrinceLefNicolaievitch,andthereforeisdoingherbesttochokeEvgeniePavlovitchoff,andridthehouseofhim。’That’swhatshesaid。Shewouldnotgivetheslightestexplanation;sheburstoutlaughing,bangedthedoor,andwentaway。Weallstoodtherewithourmouthsopen。Well,IwastoldafterwardsofyourlittlepassagewithAglayathisafternoon,and-and——dearprince——youareagood,sensiblefellow,don’tbeangryifIspeakout——sheislaughingatyou,myboy!Sheisenjoyingherselflikeachild,atyourexpense,andtherefore,sincesheisachild,don’tbeangrywithher,anddon’tthinkanythingofit。Iassureyou,sheissimplymakingafoolofyou,justasshedoeswithoneandallofusoutofpurelackofsomethingbettertodo。Well——good-bye!Youknowourfeelings,don’tyou——oursincerefeelingsforyourself?Theyareunalterable,youknow,dearboy,underallcircumstances,but—— Well,herewepart;Imustgodowntotheright。RarelyhaveI satsouncomfortablyinmysaddle,astheysay,asInowsit。Andpeopletalkofthecharmsofacountryholiday!\" Lefttohimselfatthecross-roads,theprinceglancedaroundhim,quicklycrossedtheroadtowardsthelightedwindowofaneighbouringhouse,andunfoldedatinyscrapofpaperwhichhehadheldclaspedinhisrighthandduringthewholeofhisconversationwiththegeneral。 Hereadthenoteintheuncertainraysthatfellfromthewindow。 Itwasasfollows: \"Tomorrowmorning,Ishallbeatthegreenbenchintheparkatseven,andshallwaitthereforyou。Ihavemadeupmymindtospeaktoyouaboutamostimportantmatterwhichcloselyconcernsyourself。 \"P。S——Itrustthatyouwillnotshowthisnotetoanyone。ThoughIamashamedofgivingyousuchinstructions,IfeelthatImustdoso,consideringwhatyouare。Ithereforewritethewords,andblushforyoursimplecharacter。 \"P。P。S——ItisthesamegreenbenchthatIshowedyoubefore。 There!aren’tyouashamedofyourself?Ifeltthatitwasnecessarytorepeateventhatinformation。\" Thenotewaswrittenandfoldedanyhow,evidentlyinagreathurry,andprobablyjustbeforeAglayahadcomedowntotheverandah。 Ininexpressibleagitation,amountingalmosttofear,theprinceslippedquicklyawayfromthewindow,awayfromthelight,likeafrightenedthief,butashedidsohecollidedviolentlywithsomegentlemanwhoseemedtospringfromtheearthathisfeet。 \"Iwaswatchingforyou,prince,\"saidtheindividual。 \"Isthatyou,Keller?\"saidtheprince,insurprise。 \"Yes,I’vebeenlookingforyou。IwaitedforyouattheEpanchins’house,butofcourseIcouldnotcomein。Idoggedyoufrombehindasyouwalkedalongwiththegeneral。Well,prince,hereisKeller,absolutelyatyourservice——commandhim!——readytosacrificehimself——eventodieincaseofneed。\" \"But-why?\" \"Oh,why?——Ofcourseyou’llbechallenged!ThatwasyoungLieutenantMoloftsoff。Iknowhim,orratherofhim;hewon’tpassaninsult。HewilltakenonoticeofRogojinandmyself,and,therefore,youaretheonlyonelefttoaccountfor。You’llhavetopaythepiper,prince。Hehasbeenaskingaboutyou,andundoubtedlyhisfriendwillcallonyoutomorrow——perhapsheisatyourhousealready。Ifyouwoulddomethehonourtohavemeforasecond,prince,Ishouldbehappy。That’swhyIhavebeenlookingforyounow。\" \"Duel!You’vecometotalkaboutaduel,too!\"Theprinceburstoutlaughing,tothegreatastonishmentofKeller。Helaughedunrestrainedly,andKeller,whohadbeenonpinsandneedles,andinafeverofexcitementtoofferhimselfas\"second,\"wasverynearbeingoffended。 \"Youcaughthimbythearms,youknow,prince。Nomanofproperpridecanstandthatsortoftreatmentinpublic。\" \"Yes,andhegavemeafearfuldiginthechest,\"criedtheprince,stilllaughing。\"Whatarewetofightabout?Ishallbeghispardon,that’sall。Butifwemustfight——we’llfight!Lethimhaveashotatme,byallmeans;Ishouldratherlikeit。Ha,ha,ha!Iknowhowtoloadapistolnow;doyouknowhowtoloadapistol,Keller?First,youhavetobuythepowder,youknow;itmustn’tbewet,anditmustn’tbethatcoarsestuffthattheyloadcannonswith——itmustbepistolpowder。Thenyoupourthepowderin,andgetholdofabitoffeltfromsomedoor,andthenshovethebulletin。Butdon’tshovethebulletinbeforethepowder,becausethethingwouldn’tgooff——doyouhear,Keller,thethingwouldn’tgooff!Ha,ha,ha!Isn’tthatagrandreason,Keller,myfriend,eh?Doyouknow,mydearfellow,Ireallymustkissyou,andembraceyou,thisverymoment。Ha,ha!Howwasityousosuddenlypoppedupinfrontofmeasyoudid?Cometomyhouseassoonasyoucan,andwe’llhavesomechampagne。We’llallgetdrunk!DoyouknowIhaveadozenofchampagneinLebedeff’scellar?LebedeffsoldthemtomethedayafterI arrived。Itookthelot。We’llinviteeverybody!Areyougoingtodoanysleepingtonight?\" \"Asmuchasusual,prince——why?\" \"Pleasantdreamsthen——ha,ha!\" Theprincecrossedtheroad,anddisappearedintothepark,leavingtheastonishedKellerinastateofludicrouswonder。Hehadneverbeforeseentheprinceinsuchastrangeconditionofmind,andcouldnothaveimaginedthepossibilityofit。 \"Fever,probably,\"hesaidtohimself,\"forthemanisallnerves,andthisbusinesshasbeenalittletoomuchforhim。HeisnotAFRAID,that’sclear;thatsortneverfunks!H’m! champagne!Thatwasaninterestingitemofnews,atallevents!—— Twelvebottles!Dearme,that’saveryrespectablelittlestockindeed!IbetanythingLebedefflentsomebodymoneyondepositofthisdozenofchampagne。Hum!he’sanicefellow,isthisprince! Ilikethissortofman。Well,Ineedn’tbewastingtimehere,andifit’sacaseofchampagne,why——there’snotimelikethepresent!\" Thattheprincewasalmostinafeverwasnomorethanthetruth。 Hewanderedabouttheparkforalongwhile,andatlastcametohimselfinalonelyavenue。Hewasvaguelyconsciousthathehadalreadypacedthisparticularwalk——fromthatlarge,darktreetothebenchattheotherend——aboutahundredyardsaltogether——atleastthirtytimesbackwardsandforwards。 Astorecollectingwhathehadbeenthinkingofallthattime,hecouldnot。Hecaughthimself,however,indulginginonethoughtwhichmadehimroarwithlaughter,thoughtherewasnothingreallytolaughatinit;buthefeltthathemustlaugh,andgoonlaughing。 ItstruckhimthattheideaoftheduelmightnothaveoccurredtoKelleralone,butthathislessonintheartofpistol-loadingmighthavebeennotaltogetheraccidental!\"Pooh!nonsense!\"hesaidtohimself,struckbyanotherthought,ofasudden。\"Why,shewasimmenselysurprisedtofindmethereontheverandah,andlaughedandtalkedaboutTEA!Andyetshehadthislittlenoteinherhand,thereforeshemusthaveknownthatIwassittingthere。 Sowhywasshesurprised?Ha,ha,ha!\" Hepulledthenoteoutandkissedit;thenpausedandreflected。 \"Howstrangeitallis!howstrange!\"hemuttered,melancholyenoughnow。Inmomentsofgreatjoy,heinvariablyfeltasensationofmelancholycomeoverhim——hecouldnottellwhy。 Helookedintentlyaroundhim,andwonderedwhyhehadcomehere; hewasverytired,soheapproachedthebenchandsatdownonit。 Aroundhimwasprofoundsilence;themusicintheVauxhallwasover。Theparkseemedquiteempty,thoughitwasnot,inreality,laterthanhalf-pasteleven。Itwasaquiet,warm,clearnight——arealPetersburgnightofearlyJune;butinthedenseavenue,wherehewassitting,itwasalmostpitchdark。 Ifanyonehadcomeupatthismomentandtoldhimthathewasinlove,passionatelyinlove,hewouldhaverejectedtheideawithastonishment,and,perhaps,withirritation。AndifanyonehadaddedthatAglaya’snotewasalove-letter,andthatitcontainedanappointmenttoalover’srendezvous,hewouldhaveblushedwithshameforthespeaker,and,probably,havechallengedhimtoaduel。 Allthiswouldhavebeenperfectlysincereonhispart。Hehadneverforamomententertainedtheideaofthepossibilityofthisgirllovinghim,orevenofsuchathingashimselffallinginlovewithher。Thepossibilityofbeinglovedhimself,\"amanlikeme,\"asheputit,herankedamongridiculoussuppositions。 ItappearedtohimthatitwassimplyajokeonAglaya’spart,iftherereallywereanythinginitatall;butthatseemedtohimquitenatural。Hispreoccupationwascausedbysomethingdifferent。 AstothefewwordswhichthegeneralhadletslipaboutAglayalaughingateverybody,andathimselfmostofall——heentirelybelievedthem。Hedidnotfeeltheslightestsensationofoffence;onthecontrary,hewasquitecertainthatitwasasitshouldbe。 Hiswholethoughtswerenowastonextmorningearly;hewouldseeher;hewouldsitbyheronthatlittlegreenbench,andlistentohowpistolswereloaded,andlookather。Hewantednothingmore。