第4章

类别:其他 作者:Jane Austen字数:26371更新时间:18/12/20 11:25:11
Shethoughtitprobablethatastheylivedinthesamecounty,Mrs。PalmermightbeabletogivesomemoreparticularaccountofWilloughby’sgeneralcharacter,thancouldbegatheredfromtheMiddletons’ partialacquaintancewithhim;andshewaseagertogainfromanyone,suchaconfirmationofhismeritsasmightremovethepossibilityoffearfromMarianne。ShebeganbyinquiringiftheysawmuchofMr。WilloughbyatCleveland,andwhethertheywereintimatelyacquaintedwithhim。 “Ohdear,yes;Iknowhimextremelywell,“ repliedMrs。Palmer;——“NotthatIeverspoketohim,indeed;butIhaveseenhimforeverintown。 SomehoworotherIneverhappenedtobestayingatBartonwhilehewasatAllenham。Mamasawhimhereoncebefore;—— butIwaswithmyuncleatWeymouth。However,IdaresayweshouldhaveseenagreatdealofhiminSomersetshire,ifithadnothappenedveryunluckilythatweshouldneverhavebeeninthecountrytogether。HeisverylittleatCombe,Ibelieve;butifhewereeversomuchthere,IdonotthinkMr。Palmerwouldvisithim,forheisintheopposition,youknow,andbesidesitissuchawayoff。Iknowwhyyouinquireabouthim,verywell; yoursisteristomarryhim。Iammonstrousgladofit,forthenIshallhaveherforaneighbouryouknow。” “Uponmyword,“repliedElinor,“youknowmuchmoreofthematterthanIdo,ifyouhaveanyreasontoexpectsuchamatch。” “Don’tpretendtodenyit,becauseyouknowitiswhateverybodytalksof。IassureyouIheardofitinmywaythroughtown。” “MydearMrs。Palmer!” “UponmyhonourIdid——ImetColonelBrandonMondaymorninginBond-street,justbeforewelefttown,andhetoldmeofitdirectly。” “Yousurprisemeverymuch。ColonelBrandontellyouofit!,Surelyyoumustbemistaken。Togivesuchintelligencetoapersonwhocouldnotbeinterestedinit,evenifitweretrue,isnotwhatIshouldexpectColonelBrandontodo。” “ButIdoassureyouitwasso,forallthat,andIwilltellyouhowithappened。Whenwemethim,heturnedbackandwalkedwithus;andsowebegantalkingofmybrotherandsister,andonethingandanother,andIsaidtohim,’So,Colonel,thereisanewfamilycometoBartoncottage,Ihear,andmamasendsmewordtheyareverypretty,andthatoneofthemisgoingtobemarriedtoMr。WilloughbyofCombeMagna。Isittrue,pray?forofcourseyoumustknow,asyouhavebeeninDevonshiresolately。’“ “AndwhatdidtheColonelsay?” “Oh——hedidnotsaymuch;buthelookedasifheknewittobetrue,sofromthatmomentIsetitdownascertain。Itwillbequitedelightful,Ideclare! Whenisittotakeplace?” “Mr。BrandonwasverywellIhope?” “Oh!yes,quitewell;andsofullofyourpraises,hedidnothingbutsayfinethingsofyou。” “Iamflatteredbyhiscommendation。 Heseemsanexcellentman;andIthinkhimuncommonlypleasing。” “SodoI——Heissuchacharmingman,thatitisquiteapityheshouldbesograveandsodull。 MammasaysHEwasinlovewithyoursistertoo—— Iassureyouitwasagreatcomplimentifhewas,forhehardlyeverfallsinlovewithanybody。” “IsMr。WilloughbymuchknowninyourpartofSomersetshire?”saidElinor。 “Oh!yes,extremelywell;thatis,Idonotbelievemanypeopleareacquaintedwithhim,becauseCombeMagnaissofaroff;buttheyallthinkhimextremelyagreeableIassureyou。NobodyismorelikedthanMr。Willoughbywhereverhegoes,andsoyoumaytellyoursister。 Sheisamonstrousluckygirltogethim,uponmyhonour; notbutthatheismuchmoreluckyingettingher,becausesheissoveryhandsomeandagreeable,thatnothingcanbegoodenoughforher。However,Idon’tthinkherhardlyatallhandsomerthanyou,Iassureyou; forIthinkyoubothexcessivelypretty,andsodoesMr。PalmertooIamsure,thoughwecouldnotgethimtoownitlastnight。” Mrs。Palmer’sinformationrespectingWilloughbywasnotverymaterial;butanytestimonyinhisfavour,howeversmall,waspleasingtoher。 “Iamsogladwearegotacquaintedatlast,“ continuedCharlotte——“AndnowIhopeweshallalwaysbegreatfriends。Youcan’tthinkhowmuchIlongedtoseeyou! Itissodelightfulthatyoushouldliveatthecottage! Nothingcanbelikeit,tobesure!,AndIamsogladyoursisterisgoingtobewellmarried!,IhopeyouwillbeagreatdealatCombeMagna。Itisasweetplace,byallaccounts。” “YouhavebeenlongacquaintedwithColonelBrandon,havenotyou?” “Yes,agreatwhile;eversincemysistermarried—— HewasaparticularfriendofSirJohn’s。Ibelieve,“ sheaddedinalowvoice,“hewouldhavebeenverygladtohavehadme,ifhecould。SirJohnandLadyMiddletonwisheditverymuch。Butmamadidnotthinkthematchgoodenoughforme,otherwiseSirJohnwouldhavementionedittotheColonel,andweshouldhavebeenmarriedimmediately。” “DidnotColonelBrandonknowofSirJohn’sproposaltoyourmotherbeforeitwasmade?,Hadheneverownedhisaffectiontoyourself?” “Oh,no;butifmamahadnotobjectedtoit,Idaresayhewouldhavelikeditofallthings。 Hehadnotseenmethenabovetwice,foritwasbeforeIleftschool。However,IammuchhappierasIam。 Mr。PalmeristhekindofmanIlike。” chapter21 CHAPTER21 ThePalmersreturnedtoClevelandthenextday,andthetwofamiliesatBartonwereagainlefttoentertaineachother。Butthisdidnotlastlong;Elinorhadhardlygottheirlastvisitorsoutofherhead,hadhardlydonewonderingatCharlotte’sbeingsohappywithoutacause,atMr。Palmer’sactingsosimply,withgoodabilities,andatthestrangeunsuitablenesswhichoftenexistedbetweenhusbandandwife,beforeSirJohn’sandMrs。Jennings’sactivezealinthecauseofsociety,procuredhersomeothernewacquaintancetoseeandobserve。 Inamorning’sexcursiontoExeter,theyhadmetwithtwoyoungladies,whomMrs。Jenningshadthesatisfactionofdiscoveringtobeherrelations,andthiswasenoughforSirJohntoinvitethemdirectlytothepark,assoonastheirpresentengagementsatExeterwereover。 TheirengagementsatExeterinstantlygavewaybeforesuchaninvitation,andLadyMiddletonwasthrownintonolittlealarmonthereturnofSirJohn,byhearingthatshewasverysoontoreceiveavisitfromtwogirlswhomshehadneverseeninherlife,andofwhoseelegance,—— whosetolerablegentilityeven,shecouldhavenoproof; fortheassurancesofherhusbandandmotheronthatsubjectwentfornothingatall。Theirbeingherrelationstoomadeitsomuchtheworse;andMrs。Jennings’sattemptsatconsolationwerethereforeunfortunatelyfounded,whensheadvisedherdaughternottocareabouttheirbeingsofashionable;becausetheywereallcousinsandmustputupwithoneanother。Asitwasimpossible,however,nowtopreventtheircoming,LadyMiddletonresignedherselftotheideaofit,withallthephilosophyofawell-bredwoman,contentingherselfwithmerelygivingherhusbandagentlereprimandonthesubjectfiveorsixtimeseveryday。 Theyoungladiesarrived:theirappearancewasbynomeansungenteelorunfashionable。Theirdresswasverysmart,theirmannersverycivil,theyweredelightedwiththehouse,andinraptureswiththefurniture,andtheyhappenedtobesodoatinglyfondofchildrenthatLadyMiddleton’sgoodopinionwasengagedintheirfavourbeforetheyhadbeenanhouratthePark。 Shedeclaredthemtobeveryagreeablegirlsindeed,whichforherladyshipwasenthusiasticadmiration。 SirJohn’sconfidenceinhisownjudgmentrosewiththisanimatedpraise,andhesetoffdirectlyforthecottagetotelltheMissDashwoodsoftheMissSteeles’arrival,andtoassurethemoftheirbeingthesweetestgirlsintheworld。Fromsuchcommendationasthis,however,therewasnotmuchtobelearned;ElinorwellknewthatthesweetestgirlsintheworldweretobemetwithineverypartofEngland,undereverypossiblevariationofform,face,temperandunderstanding。 SirJohnwantedthewholefamilytowalktotheParkdirectlyandlookathisguests。Benevolent,philanthropicman!,Itwaspainfultohimeventokeepathirdcousintohimself。 “Docomenow,“saidhe——“praycome——youmustcome——I declareyoushallcome——Youcan’tthinkhowyouwilllikethem。Lucyismonstrouspretty,andsogoodhumouredandagreeable!,Thechildrenareallhangingaboutheralready,asifshewasanoldacquaintance。Andtheybothlongtoseeyouofallthings,fortheyhaveheardatExeterthatyouarethemostbeautifulcreaturesintheworld; andIhavetoldthemitisallverytrue,andagreatdealmore。YouwillbedelightedwiththemIamsure。 Theyhavebroughtthewholecoachfullofplaythingsforthechildren。Howcanyoubesocrossasnottocome? Whytheyareyourcousins,youknow,afterafashion。 YOUaremycousins,andtheyaremywife’s,soyoumustberelated。” ButSirJohncouldnotprevail。HecouldonlyobtainapromiseoftheircallingattheParkwithinadayortwo,andthenlefttheminamazementattheirindifference,towalkhomeandboastanewoftheirattractionstotheMissSteeles,ashehadbeenalreadyboastingoftheMissSteelestothem。 WhentheirpromisedvisittotheParkandconsequentintroductiontotheseyoungladiestookplace,theyfoundintheappearanceoftheeldest,whowasnearlythirty,withaveryplainandnotasensibleface,nothingtoadmire; butintheother,whowasnotmorethantwoorthreeandtwenty,theyacknowledgedconsiderablebeauty;herfeatureswerepretty,andshehadasharpquickeye,andasmartnessofair,whichthoughitdidnotgiveactualeleganceorgrace,gavedistinctiontoherperson—— Theirmannerswereparticularlycivil,andElinorsoonallowedthemcreditforsomekindofsense,whenshesawwithwhatconstantandjudiciousattentiontheyweremakingthemselvesagreeabletoLadyMiddleton。 Withherchildrentheywereincontinualraptures,extollingtheirbeauty,courtingtheirnotice,andhumouringtheirwhims;andsuchoftheirtimeascouldbesparedfromtheimportunatedemandswhichthispolitenessmadeonit,wasspentinadmirationofwhateverherladyshipwasdoing,ifshehappenedtobedoinganything,orintakingpatternsofsomeelegantnewdress,inwhichherappearancethedaybeforehadthrownthemintounceasingdelight。 Fortunatelyforthosewhopaytheircourtthroughsuchfoibles,afondmother,though,inpursuitofpraiseforherchildren,themostrapaciousofhumanbeings,islikewisethemostcredulous;herdemandsareexorbitant; butshewillswallowanything;andtheexcessiveaffectionandenduranceoftheMissSteelestowardsheroffspringwereviewedthereforebyLadyMiddletonwithoutthesmallestsurpriseordistrust。Shesawwithmaternalcomplacencyalltheimpertinentencroachmentsandmischievoustrickstowhichhercousinssubmitted。 Shesawtheirsashesuntied,theirhairpulledabouttheirears,theirwork-bagssearched,andtheirknivesandscissorsstolenaway,andfeltnodoubtofitsbeingareciprocalenjoyment。ItsuggestednoothersurprisethanthatElinorandMarianneshouldsitsocomposedlyby,withoutclaimingashareinwhatwaspassing。 “Johnisinsuchspiritstoday!”saidshe,onhistakingMissSteeles’spockethandkerchief,andthrowingitoutofwindow——“Heisfullofmonkeytricks。” Andsoonafterwards,onthesecondboy’sviolentlypinchingoneofthesamelady’sfingers,shefondlyobserved,“HowplayfulWilliamis!” “AndhereismysweetlittleAnnamaria,“sheadded,tenderlycaressingalittlegirlofthreeyearsold,whohadnotmadeanoiseforthelasttwominutes; “Andsheisalwayssogentleandquiet——Neverwastheresuchaquietlittlething!” Butunfortunatelyinbestowingtheseembraces,apininherladyship’sheaddressslightlyscratchingthechild’sneck,producedfromthispatternofgentlenesssuchviolentscreams,ascouldhardlybeoutdonebyanycreatureprofessedlynoisy。Themother’sconsternationwasexcessive;butitcouldnotsurpassthealarmoftheMissSteeles,andeverythingwasdonebyallthree,insocriticalanemergency,whichaffectioncouldsuggestaslikelytoassuagetheagoniesofthelittlesufferer。 Shewasseatedinhermother’slap,coveredwithkisses,herwoundbathedwithlavender-water,byoneoftheMissSteeles,whowasonherkneestoattendher,andhermouthstuffedwithsugarplumsbytheother。 Withsucharewardforhertears,thechildwastoowisetoceasecrying。Shestillscreamedandsobbedlustily,kickedhertwobrothersforofferingtotouchher,andalltheirunitedsoothingswereineffectualtillLadyMiddletonluckilyrememberingthatinasceneofsimilardistresslastweek,someapricotmarmaladehadbeensuccessfullyappliedforabruisedtemple,thesameremedywaseagerlyproposedforthisunfortunatescratch,andaslightintermissionofscreamsintheyoungladyonhearingit,gavethemreasontohopethatitwouldnotberejected—— Shewascarriedoutoftheroomthereforeinhermother’sarms,inquestofthismedicine,andasthetwoboyschosetofollow,thoughearnestlyentreatedbytheirmothertostaybehind,thefouryoungladieswereleftinaquietnesswhichtheroomhadnotknownformanyhours。 “Poorlittlecreatures!”saidMissSteele,assoonastheyweregone。”Itmighthavebeenaverysadaccident。” “YetIhardlyknowhow,“criedMarianne,“unlessithadbeenundertotallydifferentcircumstances。 Butthisistheusualwayofheighteningalarm,wherethereisnothingtobealarmedatinreality。” “WhatasweetwomanLadyMiddletonis!”saidLucySteele。 Mariannewassilent;itwasimpossibleforhertosaywhatshedidnotfeel,howevertrivialtheoccasion; anduponElinorthereforethewholetaskoftellinglieswhenpolitenessrequiredit,alwaysfell。Shedidherbestwhenthuscalledon,byspeakingofLadyMiddletonwithmorewarmththanshefelt,thoughwithfarlessthanMissLucy。 “AndSirJohntoo,“criedtheeldersister,“whatacharmingmanheis!” Heretoo,MissDashwood’scommendation,beingonlysimpleandjust,cameinwithoutanyeclat。Shemerelyobservedthathewasperfectlygoodhumouredandfriendly。 “Andwhatacharminglittlefamilytheyhave! I neversawsuchfinechildreninmylife——IdeclareI quitedoatuponthemalready,andindeedIamalwaysdistractedlyfondofchildren。” “Ishouldguessso,“saidElinor,withasmile,“fromwhatIhavewitnessedthismorning。” “Ihaveanotion,“saidLucy,“youthinkthelittleMiddletonsrathertoomuchindulged;perhapstheymaybetheoutsideofenough;butitissonaturalinLadyMiddleton; andformypart,Ilovetoseechildrenfulloflifeandspirits;Icannotbearthemiftheyaretameandquiet。” “Iconfess,“repliedElinor,“thatwhileI amatBartonPark,Ineverthinkoftameandquietchildrenwithanyabhorrence。” Ashortpausesucceededthisspeech,whichwasfirstbrokenbyMissSteele,whoseemedverymuchdisposedforconversation,andwhonowsaidratherabruptly,“AndhowdoyoulikeDevonshire,MissDashwood?,IsupposeyouwereverysorrytoleaveSussex。” Insomesurpriseatthefamiliarityofthisquestion,oratleastofthemannerinwhichitwasspoken,Elinorrepliedthatshewas。 “Norlandisaprodigiousbeautifulplace,isnotit?” addedMissSteele。 “WehaveheardSirJohnadmireitexcessively,“ saidLucy,whoseemedtothinksomeapologynecessaryforthefreedomofhersister。 “IthinkeveryoneMUSTadmireit,“repliedElinor,“whoeversawtheplace;thoughitisnottobesupposedthatanyonecanestimateitsbeautiesaswedo。” “Andhadyouagreatmanysmartbeauxthere? I supposeyouhavenotsomanyinthispartoftheworld; formypart,Ithinktheyareavastadditionalways。” “Butwhyshouldyouthink,“saidLucy,lookingashamedofhersister,“thattherearenotasmanygenteelyoungmeninDevonshireasSussex?” “Nay,mydear,I’msureIdon’tpretendtosaythattherean’t。I’msurethere’savastmanysmartbeauxinExeter; butyouknow,howcouldItellwhatsmartbeauxtheremightbeaboutNorland;andIwasonlyafraidtheMissDashwoodsmightfinditdullatBarton,iftheyhadnotsomanyastheyusedtohave。Butperhapsyouyoungladiesmaynotcareaboutthebeaux,andhadasliefbewithoutthemaswiththem。Formypart,Ithinktheyarevastlyagreeable,providedtheydresssmartandbehavecivil。 ButIcan’tbeartoseethemdirtyandnasty。Nowthere’sMr。RoseatExeter,aprodigioussmartyoungman,quiteabeau,clerktoMr。Simpson,youknow,andyetifyoudobutmeethimofamorning,heisnotfittobeseen—— Isupposeyourbrotherwasquiteabeau,MissDashwood,beforehemarried,ashewassorich?” “Uponmyword,“repliedElinor,“Icannottellyou,forIdonotperfectlycomprehendthemeaningoftheword。 ButthisIcansay,thatifheeverwasabeaubeforehemarried,heisonestillforthereisnotthesmallestalterationinhim。” “Oh!dear!oneneverthinksofmarriedmen’sbeingbeaux——theyhavesomethingelsetodo。” “Lord!Anne,“criedhersister,“youcantalkofnothingbutbeaux;——youwillmakeMissDashwoodbelieveyouthinkofnothingelse。”Andthentoturnthediscourse,shebeganadmiringthehouseandthefurniture。 ThisspecimenoftheMissSteeleswasenough。 Thevulgarfreedomandfollyoftheeldestlefthernorecommendation,andasElinorwasnotblindedbythebeauty,ortheshrewdlookoftheyoungest,toherwantofrealeleganceandartlessness,sheleftthehousewithoutanywishofknowingthembetter。 NotsotheMissSteeles——TheycamefromExeter,wellprovidedwithadmirationfortheuseofSirJohnMiddleton,hisfamily,andallhisrelations,andnoniggardlyproportionwasnowdealtouttohisfaircousins,whomtheydeclaredtobethemostbeautiful,elegant,accomplished,andagreeablegirlstheyhadeverbeheld,andwithwhomtheywereparticularlyanxioustobebetteracquainted—— Andtobebetteracquaintedtherefore,Elinorsoonfoundwastheirinevitablelot,forasSirJohnwasentirelyonthesideoftheMissSteeles,theirpartywouldbetoostrongforopposition,andthatkindofintimacymustbesubmittedto,whichconsistsofsittinganhourortwotogetherinthesameroomalmosteveryday。 SirJohncoulddonomore;buthedidnotknowthatanymorewasrequired:tobetogetherwas,inhisopinion,tobeintimate,andwhilehiscontinualschemesfortheirmeetingwereeffectual,hehadnotadoubtoftheirbeingestablishedfriends。 Todohimjustice,hedideverythinginhispowertopromotetheirunreserve,bymakingtheMissSteelesacquaintedwithwhateverhekneworsupposedofhiscousins’ situationsinthemostdelicateparticulars,——andElinorhadnotseenthemmorethantwice,beforetheeldestofthemwishedherjoyonhersister’shavingbeensoluckyastomakeaconquestofaverysmartbeausinceshecametoBarton。 “’Twillbeafinethingtohavehermarriedsoyoungtobesure,“saidshe,“andIhearheisquiteabeau,andprodigioushandsome。AndIhopeyoumayhaveasgoodluckyourselfsoon,——butperhapsyoumayhaveafriendinthecorneralready。” ElinorcouldnotsupposethatSirJohnwouldbemoreniceinproclaiminghissuspicionsofherregardforEdward,thanhehadbeenwithrespecttoMarianne;indeeditwasratherhisfavouritejokeofthetwo,asbeingsomewhatnewerandmoreconjectural;andsinceEdward’svisit,theyhadneverdinedtogetherwithouthisdrinkingtoherbestaffectionswithsomuchsignificancyandsomanynodsandwinks,astoexcitegeneralattention。TheletterF—— hadbeenlikewiseinvariablybroughtforward,andfoundproductiveofsuchcountlessjokes,thatitscharacterasthewittiestletterinthealphabethadbeenlongestablishedwithElinor。 TheMissSteeles,assheexpected,hadnowallthebenefitofthesejokes,andintheeldestofthemtheyraisedacuriositytoknowthenameofthegentlemanalludedto,which,thoughoftenimpertinentlyexpressed,wasperfectlyofapiecewithhergeneralinquisitivenessintotheconcernsoftheirfamily。ButSirJohndidnotsportlongwiththecuriositywhichhedelightedtoraise,forhehadatleastasmuchpleasureintellingthename,asMissSteelehadinhearingit。 “HisnameisFerrars,“saidhe,inaveryaudiblewhisper; “butpraydonottellit,forit’sagreatsecret。” “Ferrars!”repeatedMissSteele;“Mr。Ferrarsisthehappyman,ishe?What!yoursister-in-law’sbrother,MissDashwood?averyagreeableyoungmantobesure; Iknowhimverywell。” “Howcanyousayso,Anne?”criedLucy,whogenerallymadeanamendmenttoallhersister’sassertions。 “Thoughwehaveseenhimonceortwiceatmyuncle’s,itisrathertoomuchtopretendtoknowhimverywell。” Elinorheardallthiswithattentionandsurprise。 “Andwhowasthisuncle?,Wheredidhelive?,Howcametheyacquainted?”Shewishedverymuchtohavethesubjectcontinued,thoughshedidnotchusetojoininitherself; butnothingmoreofitwassaid,andforthefirsttimeinherlife,shethoughtMrs。Jenningsdeficienteitherincuriosityafterpettyinformation,orinadispositiontocommunicateit。ThemannerinwhichMissSteelehadspokenofEdward,increasedhercuriosity;foritstruckherasbeingratherill-natured,andsuggestedthesuspicionofthatlady’sknowing,orfancyingherselftoknowsomethingtohisdisadvantage——Buthercuriositywasunavailing,fornofarthernoticewastakenofMr。Ferrars’snamebyMissSteelewhenalludedto,orevenopenlymentionedbySirJohn。 chapter22 CHAPTER22 Marianne,whohadnevermuchtolerationforanythinglikeimpertinence,vulgarity,inferiorityofparts,orevendifferenceoftastefromherself,wasatthistimeparticularlyill-disposed,fromthestateofherspirits,tobepleasedwiththeMissSteeles,ortoencouragetheiradvances;andtotheinvariablecoldnessofherbehaviourtowardsthem,whichcheckedeveryendeavouratintimacyontheirside,Elinorprincipallyattributedthatpreferenceofherselfwhichsoonbecameevidentinthemannersofboth,butespeciallyofLucy,whomissednoopportunityofengagingherinconversation,orofstrivingtoimprovetheiracquaintancebyaneasyandfrankcommunicationofhersentiments。 Lucywasnaturallyclever;herremarkswereoftenjustandamusing;andasacompanionforhalfanhourElinorfrequentlyfoundheragreeable;butherpowershadreceivednoaidfromeducation:shewasignorantandilliterate;andherdeficiencyofallmentalimprovement,herwantofinformationinthemostcommonparticulars,couldnotbeconcealedfromMissDashwood,inspiteofherconstantendeavourtoappeartoadvantage。Elinorsaw,andpitiedherfor,theneglectofabilitieswhicheducationmighthaverenderedsorespectable;butshesaw,withlesstendernessoffeeling,thethoroughwantofdelicacy,ofrectitude,andintegrityofmind,whichherattentions,herassiduities,herflatteriesattheParkbetrayed; andshecouldhavenolastingsatisfactioninthecompanyofapersonwhojoinedinsinceritywithignorance; whosewantofinstructionpreventedtheirmeetinginconversationontermsofequality,andwhoseconducttowardothersmadeeveryshewofattentionanddeferencetowardsherselfperfectlyvalueless。 “Youwillthinkmyquestionanoddone,Idaresay,“ saidLucytoheroneday,astheywerewalkingtogetherfromtheparktothecottage——“butpray,areyoupersonallyacquaintedwithyoursister-in-law’smother,Mrs。Ferrars?” ElinorDIDthinkthequestionaveryoddone,andhercountenanceexpressedit,assheansweredthatshehadneverseenMrs。Ferrars。 “Indeed!”repliedLucy;“Iwonderatthat,forI thoughtyoumusthaveseenheratNorlandsometimes。 Then,perhaps,youcannottellmewhatsortofawomansheis?” “No,“returnedElinor,cautiousofgivingherrealopinionofEdward’smother,andnotverydesirousofsatisfyingwhatseemedimpertinentcuriosity—— “Iknownothingofher。” “Iamsureyouthinkmeverystrange,forenquiringaboutherinsuchaway,“saidLucy,eyeingElinorattentivelyasshespoke;“butperhapstheremaybereasons——IwishImightventure;buthoweverIhopeyouwilldomethejusticeofbelievingthatIdonotmeantobeimpertinent。” Elinormadeheracivilreply,andtheywalkedonforafewminutesinsilence。ItwasbrokenbyLucy,whorenewedthesubjectagainbysaying,withsomehesitation,“Icannotbeartohaveyouthinkmeimpertinentlycurious。 IamsureIwouldratherdoanythingintheworldthanbethoughtsobyapersonwhosegoodopinionissowellworthhavingasyours。AndIamsureIshouldnothavethesmallestfearoftrustingYOU;indeed,IshouldbeverygladofyouradvicehowtomanageinsuchanduncomfortablesituationasIam;but,however,thereisnooccasiontotroubleYOU。 IamsorryyoudonothappentoknowMrs。Ferrars。” “IamsorryIdoNOT,“saidElinor,ingreatastonishment,“ifitcouldbeofanyusetoYOUtoknowmyopinionofher。 ButreallyIneverunderstoodthatyouwereatallconnectedwiththatfamily,andthereforeIamalittlesurprised,Iconfess,atsoseriousaninquiryintohercharacter。” “Idaresayyouare,andIamsureIdonotatallwonderatit。ButifIdaredtellyouall,youwouldnotbesomuchsurprised。Mrs。Ferrarsiscertainlynothingtomeatpresent——butthetimeMAYcome——howsoonitwillcomemustdependuponherself——whenwemaybeveryintimatelyconnected。” Shelookeddownasshesaidthis,amiablybashful,withonlyonesideglanceathercompaniontoobserveitseffectonher。 “Goodheavens!”criedElinor,“whatdoyoumean? AreyouacquaintedwithMr。RobertFerrars?,Canyoube?” Andshedidnotfeelmuchdelightedwiththeideaofsuchasister-in-law。 “No,“repliedLucy,“nottoMr。ROBERTFerrars——I neversawhiminmylife;but,“fixinghereyesuponElinor,“tohiseldestbrother。” WhatfeltElinoratthatmoment?Astonishment,thatwouldhavebeenaspainfulasitwasstrong,hadnotanimmediatedisbeliefoftheassertionattendedit。 SheturnedtowardsLucyinsilentamazement,unabletodivinethereasonorobjectofsuchadeclaration;andthoughhercomplexionvaried,shestoodfirminincredulity,andfeltinnodangerofanhystericalfit,oraswoon。 “Youmaywellbesurprised,“continuedLucy; “fortobesureyoucouldhavehadnoideaofitbefore; forIdaresayheneverdroppedthesmallesthintofittoyouoranyofyourfamily;becauseitwasalwaysmeanttobeagreatsecret,andIamsurehasbeenfaithfullykeptsobymetothishour。NotasoulofallmyrelationsknowofitbutAnne,andInevershouldhavementionedittoyou,ifIhadnotfeltthegreatestdependenceintheworlduponyoursecrecy;andIreallythoughtmybehaviourinaskingsomanyquestionsaboutMrs。Ferrarsmustseemsoodd,thatitoughttobeexplained。 AndIdonotthinkMr。Ferrarscanbedispleased,whenheknowsIhavetrustedyou,becauseIknowhehasthehighestopinionintheworldofallyourfamily,andlooksuponyourselfandtheotherMissDashwoodsquiteashisownsisters。”——Shepaused。 Elinorforafewmomentsremainedsilent。 Herastonishmentatwhatsheheardwasatfirsttoogreatforwords;butatlengthforcingherselftospeak,andtospeakcautiously,shesaid,withcalmnessofmanner,whichtolerablywellconcealedhersurpriseandsolicitude—— “MayIaskifyourengagementisoflongstanding?” “Wehavebeenengagedthesefouryears。” “Fouryears!” “Yes。” Elinor,thoughgreatlyshocked,stillfeltunabletobelieveit。 “Ididnotknow,“saidshe,“thatyouwereevenacquaintedtilltheotherday。” “Ouracquaintance,however,isofmanyyearsdate。 Hewasundermyuncle’scare,youknow,aconsiderablewhile。” “Youruncle!” “Yes;Mr。Pratt。DidyouneverhearhimtalkofMr。Pratt?” “IthinkIhave,“repliedElinor,withanexertionofspirits,whichincreasedwithherincreaseofemotion。 “Hewasfouryearswithmyuncle,wholivesatLongstaple,nearPlymouth。Itwasthereouracquaintancebegun,formysisterandmewasoftenstayingwithmyuncle,anditwasthereourengagementwasformed,thoughnottillayearafterhehadquittedasapupil;buthewasalmostalwayswithusafterwards。Iwasveryunwillingtoenterintoit,asyoumayimagine,withouttheknowledgeandapprobationofhismother;butIwastooyoung,andlovedhimtoowell,tobesoprudentasIoughttohavebeen—— Thoughyoudonotknowhimsowellasme,MissDashwood,youmusthaveseenenoughofhimtobesensibleheisverycapableofmakingawomansincerelyattachedtohim。” “Certainly,“answeredElinor,withoutknowingwhatshesaid;butafteramoment’sreflection,sheadded,withrevivedsecurityofEdward’shonourandlove,andhercompanion’sfalsehood——“EngagedtoMr。EdwardFerrars!——Iconfessmyselfsototallysurprisedatwhatyoutellme,thatreally——Ibegyourpardon; butsurelytheremustbesomemistakeofpersonorname。 WecannotmeanthesameMr。Ferrars。” “Wecanmeannoother,“criedLucy,smiling。 “Mr。EdwardFerrars,theeldestsonofMrs。Ferrars,ofParkStreet,andbrotherofyoursister-in-law,Mrs。JohnDashwood,isthepersonImean;youmustallowthatIamnotlikelytobedeceivedastothenameofthemanonwhoallmyhappinessdepends。” “Itisstrange,“repliedElinor,inamostpainfulperplexity,“thatIshouldneverhaveheardhimevenmentionyourname。” “No;consideringoursituation,itwasnotstrange。 Ourfirstcarehasbeentokeepthemattersecret—— Youknewnothingofme,ormyfamily,and,therefore,therecouldbenoOCCASIONforevermentioningmynametoyou;and,ashewasalwaysparticularlyafraidofhissister’ssuspectinganything,THATwasreasonenoughforhisnotmentioningit。” Shewassilent——Elinor’ssecuritysunk;butherself-commanddidnotsinkwithit。 “Fouryearsyouhavebeenengaged,“saidshewithafirmvoice。 “Yes;andheavenknowshowmuchlongerwemayhavetowait。PoorEdward!,Itputshimquiteoutofheart。” Thentakingasmallminiaturefromherpocket,sheadded,“Topreventthepossibilityofmistake,besogoodastolookatthisface。Itdoesnotdohimjustice,tobesure,butyetIthinkyoucannotbedeceivedastothepersonitwasdrewfor——Ihavehaditabovethesethreeyears。” Sheputitintoherhandsasshespoke;andwhenElinorsawthepainting,whateverotherdoubtsherfearofatoohastydecision,orherwishofdetectingfalsehoodmightsuffertolingerinhermind,shecouldhavenoneofitsbeingEdward’sface。Shereturneditalmostinstantly,acknowledgingthelikeness。 “Ihaveneverbeenable,“continuedLucy,“togivehimmypictureinreturn,whichIamverymuchvexedat,forhehasbeenalwayssoanxioustogetit!,ButIamdeterminedtosetforittheveryfirstopportunity。” “Youarequiteintheright,“repliedElinorcalmly。 Theythenproceededafewpacesinsilence。Lucyspokefirst。 “Iamsure,“saidshe,“Ihavenodoubtintheworldofyourfaithfullykeepingthissecret,becauseyoumustknowofwhatimportanceitistous,nottohaveitreachhismother;forshewouldneverapproveofit,Idaresay。 Ishallhavenofortune,andIfancysheisanexceedingproudwoman。” “Icertainlydidnotseekyourconfidence,“ saidElinor; “butyoudomenomorethanjusticeinimaginingthatI maybedependedon。Yoursecretissafewithme; butpardonmeifIexpresssomesurpriseatsounnecessaryacommunication。Youmustatleasthavefeltthatmybeingacquaintedwithitcouldnotaddtoitssafety。” Asshesaidthis,shelookedearnestlyatLucy,hopingtodiscoversomethinginhercountenance;perhapsthefalsehoodofthegreatestpartofwhatshehadbeensaying; butLucy’scountenancesufferednochange。 “IwasafraidyouwouldthinkIwastakingagreatlibertywithyou,“saidshe,“intellingyouallthis。 Ihavenotknownyoulongtobesure,personallyatleast,butIhaveknownyouandallyourfamilybydescriptionagreatwhile;andassoonasIsawyou,Ifeltalmostasifyouwasanoldacquaintance。Besidesinthepresentcase,IreallythoughtsomeexplanationwasduetoyouaftermymakingsuchparticularinquiriesaboutEdward’smother; andIamsounfortunate,thatIhavenotacreaturewhoseadviceIcanask。Anneistheonlypersonthatknowsofit,andshehasnojudgmentatall;indeed,shedoesmeagreatdealmoreharmthangood,forIaminconstantfearofherbetrayingme。Shedoesnotknowhowtoholdhertongue,asyoumustperceive,andIamsureIwasinthegreatestfrightintheworldt’otherday,whenEdward’snamewasmentionedbySirJohn,lestsheshouldoutwithitall。 Youcan’tthinkhowmuchIgothroughinmymindfromitaltogether。IonlywonderthatIamaliveafterwhatIhavesufferedforEdward’ssaketheselastfouryears。 Everythinginsuchsuspenseanduncertainty;andseeinghimsoseldom——wecanhardlymeetabovetwicea-year。 IamsureIwondermyheartisnotquitebroke。” Hereshetookoutherhandkerchief;butElinordidnotfeelverycompassionate。 “Sometimes。”continuedLucy,afterwipinghereyes,“Ithinkwhetheritwouldnotbebetterforusbothtobreakoffthematterentirely。”,Asshesaidthis,shelookeddirectlyathercompanion。”ButthenatothertimesIhavenotresolutionenoughforit—— Icannotbearthethoughtsofmakinghimsomiserable,asIknowtheverymentionofsuchathingwoulddo。 Andonmyownaccounttoo——sodearasheistome——Idon’tthinkIcouldbeequaltoit。Whatwouldyouadvisemetodoinsuchacase,MissDashwood?,Whatwouldyoudoyourself?” “Pardonme,“repliedElinor,startledbythequestion; “butIcangiveyounoadviceundersuchcircumstances。 Yourownjudgmentmustdirectyou。” “Tobesure,“continuedLucy,afterafewminutessilenceonbothsides,“hismothermustprovideforhimsometimeorother;butpoorEdwardissocastdownbyit! Didyounotthinkhimdreadfullow-spiritedwhenhewasatBarton?,HewassomiserablewhenheleftusatLongstaple,togotoyou,thatIwasafraidyouwouldthinkhimquiteill。” “Didhecomefromyouruncle’s,then,whenhevisitedus?” “Oh,yes;hehadbeenstayingafortnightwithus。 Didyouthinkhecamedirectlyfromtown?” “No,“repliedElinor,mostfeelinglysensibleofeveryfreshcircumstanceinfavourofLucy’sveracity; “Irememberhetoldus,thathehadbeenstayingafortnightwithsomefriendsnearPlymouth。” Sherememberedtoo,herownsurpriseatthetime,athismentioningnothingfartherofthosefriends,athistotalsilencewithrespecteventotheirnames。 “Didnotyouthinkhimsadlyoutofspirits?” repeatedLucy。 “Wedid,indeed,particularlysowhenhefirstarrived。” “Ibeggedhimtoexerthimselfforfearyoushouldsuspectwhatwasthematter;butitmadehimsomelancholy,notbeingabletostaymorethanafortnightwithus,andseeingmesomuchaffected—— Poorfellow!——Iamafraiditisjustthesamewithhimnow; forhewritesinwretchedspirits。IheardfromhimjustbeforeIleftExeter;“takingaletterfromherpocketandcarelesslyshowingthedirectiontoElinor。 “Youknowhishand,Idaresay,acharmingoneitis; butthatisnotwrittensowellasusual——Hewastired,Idaresay,forhehadjustfilledthesheettomeasfullaspossible。” ElinorsawthatitWAShishand,andshecoulddoubtnolonger。Thispicture,shehadallowedherselftobelieve,mighthavebeenaccidentallyobtained;itmightnothavebeenEdward’sgift;butacorrespondencebetweenthembyletter,couldsubsistonlyunderapositiveengagement,couldbeauthorisedbynothingelse;forafewmoments,shewasalmostovercome——herheartsunkwithinher,andshecouldhardlystand;butexertionwasindispensablynecessary; andshestruggledsoresolutelyagainsttheoppressionofherfeelings,thathersuccesswasspeedy,andforthetimecomplete。 “Writingtoeachother,“saidLucy,returningtheletterintoherpocket,“istheonlycomfortwehaveinsuchlongseparations。Yes,Ihaveoneothercomfortinhispicture,butpoorEdwardhasnotevenTHAT。 Ifhehadbutmypicture,hesaysheshouldbeeasy。 IgavehimalockofmyhairsetinaringwhenhewasatLongstaplelast,andthatwassomecomforttohim,hesaid,butnotequaltoapicture。Perhapsyoumightnoticetheringwhenyousawhim?” “Idid,“saidElinor,withacomposureofvoice,underwhichwasconcealedanemotionanddistressbeyondanythingshehadeverfeltbefore。Shewasmortified,shocked,confounded。 Fortunatelyforher,theyhadnowreachedthecottage,andtheconversationcouldbecontinuednofarther。 Aftersittingwiththemafewminutes,theMissSteelesreturnedtothePark,andElinorwasthenatlibertytothinkandbewretched。 chapter23 CHAPTER23 HoweversmallElinor’sgeneraldependenceonLucy’sveracitymightbe,itwasimpossibleforheronseriousreflectiontosuspectitinthepresentcase,wherenotemptationcouldbeanswerabletothefollyofinventingafalsehoodofsuchadescription。WhatLucyhadassertedtobetrue,therefore,Elinorcouldnot,darednotlongerdoubt;supportedasitwastoooneverysidebysuchprobabilitiesandproofs,andcontradictedbynothingbutherownwishes。TheiropportunityofacquaintanceinthehouseofMr。Prattwasafoundationfortherest,atonceindisputableandalarming;andEdward’svisitnearPlymouth,hismelancholystateofmind,hisdissatisfactionathisownprospects,hisuncertainbehaviourtowardsherself,theintimateknowledgeoftheMissSteelesastoNorlandandtheirfamilyconnections,whichhadoftensurprisedher,thepicture,theletter,thering,formedaltogethersuchabodyofevidence,asovercameeveryfearofcondemninghimunfairly,andestablishedasafact,whichnopartialitycouldsetaside,hisill-treatmentofherself——Herresentmentofsuchbehaviour,herindignationathavingbeenitsdupe,forashorttimemadeherfeelonlyforherself; butotherideas,otherconsiderations,soonarose。 HadEdwardbeenintentionallydeceivingher?,Hadhefeignedaregardforherwhichhedidnotfeel?,WashisengagementtoLucyanengagementoftheheart?,No;whateveritmightoncehavebeen,shecouldnotbelieveitsuchatpresent。 Hisaffectionwasallherown。Shecouldnotbedeceivedinthat。Hermother,sisters,Fanny,allhadbeenconsciousofhisregardforheratNorland;itwasnotanillusionofherownvanity。Hecertainlylovedher。 Whatasofteneroftheheartwasthispersuasion!,Howmuchcoulditnottempthertoforgive!,Hehadbeenblamable,highlyblamable,inremainingatNorlandafterhefirstfeltherinfluenceoverhimtobemorethanitoughttobe。Inthat,hecouldnotbedefended;butifhehadinjuredher,howmuchmorehadheinjuredhimself; ifhercasewerepitiable,hiswashopeless。 Hisimprudencehadmadehermiserableforawhile;butitseemedtohavedeprivedhimselfofallchanceofeverbeingotherwise。Shemightintimeregaintranquillity; butHE,whathadhetolookforwardto?,CouldheeverbetolerablyhappywithLucySteele;couldhe,werehisaffectionforherselfoutofthequestion,withhisintegrity,hisdelicacy,andwell-informedmind,besatisfiedwithawifelikeher——illiterate,artful,andselfish? Theyouthfulinfatuationofnineteenwouldnaturallyblindhimtoeverythingbutherbeautyandgoodnature; butthefoursucceedingyears——years,whichifrationallyspent,givesuchimprovementtotheunderstanding,musthaveopenedhiseyestoherdefectsofeducation,whilethesameperiodoftime,spentonhersideininferiorsocietyandmorefrivolouspursuits,hadperhapsrobbedherofthatsimplicitywhichmightoncehavegivenaninterestingcharactertoherbeauty。 Ifinthesuppositionofhisseekingtomarryherself,hisdifficultiesfromhismotherhadseemedgreat,howmuchgreaterweretheynowlikelytobe,whentheobjectofhisengagementwasundoubtedlyinferiorinconnections,andprobablyinferiorinfortunetoherself。 Thesedifficulties,indeed,withaheartsoalienatedfromLucy,mightnotpressveryharduponhispatience; butmelancholywasthestateofthepersonbywhomtheexpectationoffamilyoppositionandunkindness,couldbefeltasarelief! Astheseconsiderationsoccurredtoherinpainfulsuccession,sheweptforhim,morethanforherself。 Supportedbytheconvictionofhavingdonenothingtomeritherpresentunhappiness,andconsoledbythebeliefthatEdwardhaddonenothingtoforfeitheresteem,shethoughtshecouldevennow,underthefirstsmartoftheheavyblow,commandherselfenoughtoguardeverysuspicionofthetruthfromhermotherandsisters。 Andsowellwassheabletoanswerherownexpectations,thatwhenshejoinedthematdinneronlytwohoursaftershehadfirstsufferedtheextinctionofallherdearesthopes,noonewouldhavesupposedfromtheappearanceofthesisters,thatElinorwasmourninginsecretoverobstacleswhichmustdivideherforeverfromtheobjectofherlove,andthatMariannewasinternallydwellingontheperfectionsofaman,ofwhosewholeheartshefeltthoroughlypossessed,andwhomsheexpectedtoseeineverycarriagewhichdroveneartheirhouse。 ThenecessityofconcealingfromhermotherandMarianne,whathadbeenentrustedinconfidencetoherself,thoughitobligedhertounceasingexertion,wasnoaggravationofElinor’sdistress。Onthecontraryitwasarelieftoher,tobesparedthecommunicationofwhatwouldgivesuchafflictiontothem,andtobesavedlikewisefromhearingthatcondemnationofEdward,whichwouldprobablyflowfromtheexcessoftheirpartialaffectionforherself,andwhichwasmorethanshefeltequaltosupport。 Fromtheircounsel,ortheirconversation,sheknewshecouldreceivenoassistance,theirtendernessandsorrowmustaddtoherdistress,whileherself-commandwouldneitherreceiveencouragementfromtheirexamplenorfromtheirpraise。Shewasstrongeralone,andherowngoodsensesowellsupportedher,thatherfirmnesswasasunshaken,herappearanceofcheerfulnessasinvariable,aswithregretssopoignantandsofresh,itwaspossibleforthemtobe。 MuchasshehadsufferedfromherfirstconversationwithLucyonthesubject,shesoonfeltanearnestwishofrenewingit;andthisformorereasonsthanone。 Shewantedtohearmanyparticularsoftheirengagementrepeatedagain,shewantedmoreclearlytounderstandwhatLucyreallyfeltforEdward,whethertherewereanysincerityinherdeclarationoftenderregardforhim,andsheparticularlywantedtoconvinceLucy,byherreadinesstoenteronthematteragain,andhercalmnessinconversingonit,thatshewasnootherwiseinterestedinitthanasafriend,whichsheverymuchfearedherinvoluntaryagitation,intheirmorningdiscourse,musthaveleftatleastdoubtful。ThatLucywasdisposedtobejealousofherappearedveryprobable:itwasplainthatEdwardhadalwaysspokenhighlyinherpraise,notmerelyfromLucy’sassertion,butfromherventuringtotrustheronsoshortapersonalacquaintance,withasecretsoconfessedlyandevidentlyimportant。 AndevenSirJohn’sjokingintelligencemusthavehadsomeweight。Butindeed,whileElinorremainedsowellassuredwithinherselfofbeingreallybelovedbyEdward,itrequirednootherconsiderationofprobabilitiestomakeitnaturalthatLucyshouldbejealous; andthatshewasso,herveryconfidencewasaproof。 Whatotherreasonforthedisclosureoftheaffaircouldtherebe,butthatElinormightbeinformedbyitofLucy’ssuperiorclaimsonEdward,andbetaughttoavoidhiminfuture?,Shehadlittledifficultyinunderstandingthusmuchofherrival’sintentions,andwhileshewasfirmlyresolvedtoactbyheraseveryprincipleofhonourandhonestydirected,tocombatherownaffectionforEdwardandtoseehimaslittleaspossible;shecouldnotdenyherselfthecomfortofendeavouringtoconvinceLucythatherheartwasunwounded。Andasshecouldnowhavenothingmorepainfultohearonthesubjectthanhadalreadybeentold,shedidnotmistrustherownabilityofgoingthrougharepetitionofparticularswithcomposure。 Butitwasnotimmediatelythatanopportunityofdoingsocouldbecommanded,thoughLucywasaswelldisposedasherselftotakeadvantageofanythatoccurred; fortheweatherwasnotoftenfineenoughtoallowoftheirjoininginawalk,wheretheymightmosteasilyseparatethemselvesfromtheothers;andthoughtheymetatleasteveryothereveningeitherattheparkorcottage,andchieflyattheformer,theycouldnotbesupposedtomeetforthesakeofconversation。 SuchathoughtwouldneverentereitherSirJohnorLadyMiddleton’shead;andthereforeverylittleleisurewasevergivenforageneralchat,andnoneatallforparticulardiscourse。Theymetforthesakeofeating,drinking,andlaughingtogether,playingatcards,orconsequences,oranyothergamethatwassufficientlynoisy。 Oneortwomeetingsofthiskindhadtakenplace,withoutaffordingElinoranychanceofengagingLucyinprivate,whenSirJohncalledatthecottageonemorning,tobeg,inthenameofcharity,thattheywouldalldinewithLadyMiddletonthatday,ashewasobligedtoattendtheclubatExeter,andshewouldotherwisebequitealone,excepthermotherandthetwoMissSteeles。 Elinor,whoforesawafaireropeningforthepointshehadinview,insuchapartyasthiswaslikelytobe,moreatlibertyamongthemselvesunderthetranquilandwell-breddirectionofLadyMiddletonthanwhenherhusbandunitedthemtogetherinonenoisypurpose,immediatelyacceptedtheinvitation;Margaret,withhermother’spermission,wasequallycompliant,andMarianne,thoughalwaysunwillingtojoinanyoftheirparties,waspersuadedbyhermother,whocouldnotbeartohavehersecludeherselffromanychanceofamusement,togolikewise。 Theyoungladieswent,andLadyMiddletonwashappilypreservedfromthefrightfulsolitudewhichhadthreatenedher。 TheinsipidityofthemeetingwasexactlysuchasElinorhadexpected;itproducednotonenoveltyofthoughtorexpression,andnothingcouldbelessinterestingthanthewholeoftheirdiscoursebothinthediningparlouranddrawingroom:tothelatter,thechildrenaccompaniedthem,andwhiletheyremainedthere,shewastoowellconvincedoftheimpossibilityofengagingLucy’sattentiontoattemptit。Theyquitteditonlywiththeremovalofthetea-things。Thecard-tablewasthenplaced,andElinorbegantowonderatherselfforhavingeverentertainedahopeoffindingtimeforconversationatthepark。Theyallroseupinpreparationforaroundgame。 “Iamglad,“saidLadyMiddletontoLucy,“youarenotgoingtofinishpoorlittleAnnamaria’sbasketthisevening;forIamsureitmusthurtyoureyestoworkfiligreebycandlelight。Andwewillmakethedearlittlelovesomeamendsforherdisappointmentto-morrow,andthenIhopeshewillnotmuchmindit。” Thishintwasenough,Lucyrecollectedherselfinstantlyandreplied,“Indeedyouareverymuchmistaken,LadyMiddleton;Iamonlywaitingtoknowwhetheryoucanmakeyourpartywithoutme,orIshouldhavebeenatmyfiligreealready。Iwouldnotdisappointthelittleangelforalltheworld:andifyouwantmeatthecard-tablenow,Iamresolvedtofinishthebasketaftersupper。” “Youareverygood,Ihopeitwon’thurtyoureyes—— willyouringthebellforsomeworkingcandles? Mypoorlittlegirlwouldbesadlydisappointed,Iknow,ifthebasketwasnotfinishedtomorrow,forthoughI toldheritcertainlywouldnot,Iamsureshedependsuponhavingitdone。” Lucydirectlydrewherworktablenearherandreseatedherselfwithanalacrityandcheerfulnesswhichseemedtoinferthatshecouldtastenogreaterdelightthaninmakingafiligreebasketforaspoiltchild。 LadyMiddletonproposedarubberofCasinototheothers。 NoonemadeanyobjectionbutMarianne,whowithherusualinattentiontotheformsofgeneralcivility,exclaimed,“YourLadyshipwillhavethegoodnesstoexcuseME——youknowIdetestcards。Ishallgotothepiano-forte; Ihavenottoucheditsinceitwastuned。”,Andwithoutfartherceremony,sheturnedawayandwalkedtotheinstrument。 LadyMiddletonlookedasifshethankedheaventhatSHEhadnevermadesorudeaspeech。 “Mariannecanneverkeeplongfromthatinstrumentyouknow,ma’am,“saidElinor,endeavouringtosmoothawaytheoffence;“andIdonotmuchwonderatit;foritistheverybesttonedpiano-forteIeverheard。” Theremainingfivewerenowtodrawtheircards。 “Perhaps,“continuedElinor,“ifIshouldhappentocutout,ImaybeofsomeusetoMissLucySteele,inrollingherpapersforher;andthereissomuchstilltobedonetothebasket,thatitmustbeimpossibleIthinkforherlaboursingly,tofinishitthisevening。 Ishouldliketheworkexceedingly,ifshewouldallowmeashareinit。” “IndeedIshallbeverymuchobligedtoyouforyourhelp,“criedLucy,“forIfindthereismoretobedonetoitthanIthoughttherewas;anditwouldbeashockingthingtodisappointdearAnnamariaafterall。” “Oh!thatwouldbeterrible,indeed,“saidMissSteele—— “Dearlittlesoul,howIdoloveher!” “Youareverykind,“saidLadyMiddletontoElinor; “andasyoureallylikethework,perhapsyouwillbeaswellpleasednottocutintillanotherrubber,orwillyoutakeyourchancenow?” Elinorjoyfullyprofitedbythefirstoftheseproposals,andthusbyalittleofthataddresswhichMariannecouldnevercondescendtopractise,gainedherownend,andpleasedLadyMiddletonatthesametime。Lucymaderoomforherwithreadyattention,andthetwofairrivalswerethusseatedsidebysideatthesametable,and,withtheutmostharmony,engagedinforwardingthesamework。 ThepianoforteatwhichMarianne,wrappedupinherownmusicandherownthoughts,hadbythistimeforgottenthatanybodywasintheroombesidesherself,wasluckilysonearthemthatMissDashwoodnowjudgedshemightsafely,undertheshelterofitsnoise,introducetheinterestingsubject,withoutanyriskofbeingheardatthecard-table。 chapter24 CHAPTER24 Inafirm,thoughcautioustone,Elinorthusbegan。 “Ishouldbeundeservingoftheconfidenceyouhavehonouredmewith,ifIfeltnodesireforitscontinuance,ornofarthercuriosityonitssubject。Iwillnotapologizethereforeforbringingitforwardagain。” “Thankyou,“criedLucywarmly,“forbreakingtheice;youhavesetmyheartateasebyit;forIwassomehoworotherafraidIhadoffendedyoubywhatI toldyouthatMonday。” “Offendedme!Howcouldyousupposeso?Believeme,“ andElinorspokeitwiththetruestsincerity,“nothingcouldbefartherfrommyintentionthantogiveyousuchanidea。Couldyouhaveamotiveforthetrust,thatwasnothonourableandflatteringtome?” “AndyetIdoassureyou,“repliedLucy,herlittlesharpeyesfullofmeaning,“thereseemedtometobeacoldnessanddispleasureinyourmannerthatmademequiteuncomfortable。Ifeltsurethatyouwasangrywithme; andhavebeenquarrellingwithmyselfeversince,forhavingtooksuchalibertyastotroubleyouwithmyaffairs。 ButIamverygladtofinditwasonlymyownfancy,andthatyoureallydonotblameme。IfyouknewwhataconsolationitwastometorelievemyheartspeakingtoyouofwhatIamalwaysthinkingofeverymomentofmylife,yourcompassionwouldmakeyouoverlookeverythingelseIamsure。” “Indeed,Icaneasilybelievethatitwasaverygreatrelieftoyou,toacknowledgeyoursituationtome,andbeassuredthatyoushallneverhavereasontorepentit。 Yourcaseisaveryunfortunateone;youseemtometobesurroundedwithdifficulties,andyouwillhaveneedofallyourmutualaffectiontosupportyouunderthem。 Mr。Ferrars,Ibelieve,isentirelydependentonhismother。” “Hehasonlytwothousandpoundsofhisown; itwouldbemadnesstomarryuponthat,thoughformyownpart,Icouldgiveupeveryprospectofmorewithoutasigh。 Ihavebeenalwaysusedtoaverysmallincome,andcouldstrugglewithanypovertyforhim;butIlovehimtoowelltobetheselfishmeansofrobbinghim,perhaps,ofallthathismothermightgivehimifhemarriedtopleaseher。 Wemustwait,itmaybeformanyyears。Withalmosteveryothermanintheworld,itwouldbeanalarmingprospect; butEdward’saffectionandconstancynothingcandeprivemeofIknow。” “Thatconvictionmustbeeverythingtoyou; andheisundoubtedlysupportedbythesametrustinyour’s。 Ifthestrengthofyourreciprocalattachmenthadfailed,asbetweenmanypeople,andundermanycircumstancesitnaturallywouldduringafouryears’engagement,yoursituationwouldhavebeenpitiable,indeed。” Lucyherelookedup;butElinorwascarefulinguardinghercountenancefromeveryexpressionthatcouldgiveherwordsasuspicioustendency。 “Edward’sloveforme,“saidLucy,“hasbeenprettywellputtothetest,byourlong,verylongabsencesincewewerefirstengaged,andithasstoodthetrialsowell,thatIshouldbeunpardonabletodoubtitnow。 Icansafelysaythathehasnevergavemeonemoment’salarmonthataccountfromthefirst。” Elinorhardlyknewwhethertosmileorsighatthisassertion。 Lucywenton。”Iamratherofajealoustempertoobynature,andfromourdifferentsituationsinlife,fromhisbeingsomuchmoreintheworldthanme,andourcontinualseparation,Iwasenoughinclinedforsuspicion,tohavefoundoutthetruthinaninstant,iftherehadbeentheslightestalterationinhisbehaviourtomewhenwemet,oranylownessofspiritsthatIcouldnotaccountfor,orifhehadtalkedmoreofoneladythananother,orseemedinanyrespectlesshappyatLongstaplethanheusedtobe。IdonotmeantosaythatIamparticularlyobservantorquick-sightedingeneral,butinsuchacaseIamsureIcouldnotbedeceived。” “Allthis,“thoughtElinor,“isverypretty; butitcanimposeuponneitherofus。” “Butwhat,“saidsheafterashortsilence,“areyourviews?orhaveyounonebutthatofwaitingforMrs。Ferrars’sdeath,whichisamelancholyandshockingextremity?——Ishersondeterminedtosubmittothis,andtoallthetediousnessofthemanyyearsofsuspenseinwhichitmayinvolveyou,ratherthanruntheriskofherdispleasureforawhilebyowningthetruth?” “Ifwecouldbecertainthatitwouldbeonlyforawhile!,ButMrs。Ferrarsisaveryheadstrongproudwoman,andinherfirstfitofangeruponhearingit,wouldverylikelysecureeverythingtoRobert,andtheideaofthat,forEdward’ssake,frightensawayallmyinclinationforhastymeasures。” “Andforyourownsaketoo,oryouarecarryingyourdisinterestednessbeyondreason。” LucylookedatElinoragain,andwassilent。 “DoyouknowMr。RobertFerrars?”askedElinor。 “Notatall——Ineversawhim;butIfancyheisveryunlikehisbrother——sillyandagreatcoxcomb。” “Agreatcoxcomb!”repeatedMissSteele,whoseearhadcaughtthosewordsbyasuddenpauseinMarianne’smusic—— “Oh,theyaretalkingoftheirfavouritebeaux,Idaresay。” “Nosister,“criedLucy,“youaremistakenthere,ourfavouritebeauxareNOTgreatcoxcombs。” “IcananswerforitthatMissDashwood’sisnot,“ saidMrs。Jennings,laughingheartily;“forheisoneofthemodestest,prettiestbehavedyoungmenIeversaw; butasforLucy,sheissuchaslylittlecreature,thereisnofindingoutwhoSHElikes。” “Oh,“criedMissSteele,lookingsignificantlyroundatthem,“IdaresayLucy’sbeauisquiteasmodestandprettybehavedasMissDashwood’s。” Elinorblushedinspiteofherself。Lucybitherlip,andlookedangrilyathersister。Amutualsilencetookplaceforsometime。Lucyfirstputanendtoitbysayinginalowertone,thoughMariannewasthengivingthemthepowerfulprotectionofaverymagnificentconcerto—— “Iwillhonestlytellyouofoneschemewhichhaslatelycomeintomyhead,forbringingmatterstobear; indeedIamboundtoletyouintothesecret,foryouareapartyconcerned。IdaresayyouhaveseenenoughofEdwardtoknowthathewouldpreferthechurchtoeveryotherprofession;nowmyplanisthatheshouldtakeordersassoonashecan,andthenthroughyourinterest,whichIamsureyouwouldbekindenoughtouseoutoffriendshipforhim,andIhopeoutofsomeregardtome,yourbrothermightbepersuadedtogivehimNorlandliving; whichIunderstandisaverygoodone,andthepresentincumbentnotlikelytoliveagreatwhile。Thatwouldbeenoughforustomarryupon,andwemighttrusttotimeandchancefortherest。” “Ishouldalwaysbehappy,“repliedElinor,“toshowanymarkofmyesteemandfriendshipforMr。Ferrars; butdoyounotperceivethatmyinterestonsuchanoccasionwouldbeperfectlyunnecessary?,HeisbrothertoMrs。JohnDashwood——THATmustberecommendationenoughtoherhusband。” “ButMrs。JohnDashwoodwouldnotmuchapproveofEdward’sgoingintoorders。” “ThenIrathersuspectthatmyinterestwoulddoverylittle。” Theywereagainsilentformanyminutes。 AtlengthLucyexclaimedwithadeepsigh,“Ibelieveitwouldbethewisestwaytoputanendtothebusinessatoncebydissolvingtheengagement。 Weseemsobesetwithdifficultiesoneveryside,thatthoughitwouldmakeusmiserableforatime,weshouldbehappierperhapsintheend。Butyouwillnotgivemeyouradvice,MissDashwood?” “No,“answeredElinor,withasmile,whichconcealedveryagitatedfeelings,“onsuchasubjectIcertainlywillnot。Youknowverywellthatmyopinionwouldhavenoweightwithyou,unlessitwereonthesideofyourwishes。” “Indeedyouwrongme,“repliedLucy,withgreatsolemnity;“IknownobodyofwhosejudgmentIthinksohighlyasIdoofyours;andIdoreallybelieve,thatifyouwastosaytome,’IadviseyoubyallmeanstoputanendtoyourengagementwithEdwardFerrars,itwillbemoreforthehappinessofbothofyou,’ Ishouldresolveupondoingitimmediately。” ElinorblushedfortheinsincerityofEdward’sfuturewife,andreplied,“ThiscomplimentwouldeffectuallyfrightenmefromgivinganyopiniononthesubjecthadIformedone。Itraisesmyinfluencemuchtoohigh; thepowerofdividingtwopeoplesotenderlyattachedistoomuchforanindifferentperson。” “’Tisbecauseyouareanindifferentperson,“ saidLucy,withsomepique,andlayingaparticularstressonthosewords,“thatyourjudgmentmightjustlyhavesuchweightwithme。 Ifyoucouldbesupposedtobebiasedinanyrespectbyyourownfeelings,youropinionwouldnotbeworthhaving。” Elinorthoughtitwisesttomakenoanswertothis,lesttheymightprovokeeachothertoanunsuitableincreaseofeaseandunreserve;andwasevenpartlydeterminednevertomentionthesubjectagain。Anotherpausethereforeofmanyminutes’duration,succeededthisspeech,andLucywasstillthefirsttoendit。 “Shallyoubeintownthiswinter,MissDashwood?” saidshewithallheraccustomarycomplacency。 “Certainlynot。” “Iamsorryforthat,“returnedtheother,whilehereyesbrightenedattheinformation,“itwouldhavegavemesuchpleasuretomeetyouthere! ButIdaresayyouwillgoforallthat。Tobesure,yourbrotherandsisterwillaskyoutocometothem。” “Itwillnotbeinmypowertoaccepttheirinvitationiftheydo。” “Howunluckythatis!Ihadquitedependeduponmeetingyouthere。AnneandmearetogothelatterendofJanuarytosomerelationswhohavebeenwantingustovisitthemtheseseveralyears!,ButIonlygoforthesakeofseeingEdward。HewillbethereinFebruary,otherwiseLondonwouldhavenocharmsforme;Ihavenotspiritsforit。” Elinorwassooncalledtothecard-tablebytheconclusionofthefirstrubber,andtheconfidentialdiscourseofthetwoladieswasthereforeatanend,towhichbothofthemsubmittedwithoutanyreluctance,fornothinghadbeensaidoneithersidetomakethemdislikeeachotherlessthantheyhaddonebefore; andElinorsatdowntothecardtablewiththemelancholypersuasionthatEdwardwasnotonlywithoutaffectionforthepersonwhowastobehiswife;butthathehadnoteventhechanceofbeingtolerablyhappyinmarriage,whichsincereaffectiononHERsidewouldhavegiven,forself-interestalonecouldinduceawomantokeepamantoanengagement,ofwhichsheseemedsothoroughlyawarethathewasweary。 FromthistimethesubjectwasneverrevivedbyElinor,andwhenenteredonbyLucy,whoseldommissedanopportunityofintroducingit,andwasparticularlycarefultoinformherconfidante,ofherhappinesswhenevershereceivedaletterfromEdward,itwastreatedbytheformerwithcalmnessandcaution,anddismissedassoonascivilitywouldallow; forshefeltsuchconversationstobeanindulgencewhichLucydidnotdeserve,andwhichweredangeroustoherself。 ThevisitoftheMissSteelesatBartonParkwaslengthenedfarbeyondwhatthefirstinvitationimplied。 Theirfavourincreased;theycouldnotbespared; SirJohnwouldnothearoftheirgoing;andinspiteoftheirnumerousandlongarrangedengagementsinExeter,inspiteoftheabsolutenecessityofreturningtofulfillthemimmediately,whichwasinfullforceattheendofeveryweek,theywereprevailedontostaynearlytwomonthsatthepark,andtoassistintheduecelebrationofthatfestivalwhichrequiresamorethanordinaryshareofprivateballsandlargedinnerstoproclaimitsimportance。