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CHAPTER25
ThoughMrs。Jenningswasinthehabitofspendingalargeportionoftheyearatthehousesofherchildrenandfriends,shewasnotwithoutasettledhabitationofherown。
Sincethedeathofherhusband,whohadtradedwithsuccessinalesselegantpartofthetown,shehadresidedeverywinterinahouseinoneofthestreetsnearPortmanSquare。
Towardsthishome,shebeganontheapproachofJanuarytoturnherthoughts,andthithersheonedayabruptly,andveryunexpectedlybythem,askedtheelderMissesDashwoodtoaccompanyher。Elinor,withoutobservingthevaryingcomplexionofhersister,andtheanimatedlookwhichspokenoindifferencetotheplan,immediatelygaveagratefulbutabsolutedenialforboth,inwhichshebelievedherselftobespeakingtheirunitedinclinations。
Thereasonallegedwastheirdeterminedresolutionofnotleavingtheirmotheratthattimeoftheyear。
Mrs。Jenningsreceivedtherefusalwithsomesurprise,andrepeatedherinvitationimmediately。
“Oh,Lord!Iamsureyourmothercanspareyouverywell,andIDObegyouwillfavourmewithyourcompany,forI’vequitesetmyheartuponit。
Don’tfancythatyouwillbeanyinconveniencetome,forIshan’tputmyselfatalloutofmywayforyou。
ItwillonlybesendingBettybythecoach,andI
hopeIcanaffordTHAT。Wethreeshallbeabletogoverywellinmychaise;andwhenweareintown,ifyoudonotliketogowhereverIdo,wellandgood,youmayalwaysgowithoneofmydaughters。Iamsureyourmotherwillnotobjecttoit;forIhavehadsuchgoodluckingettingmyownchildrenoffmyhandsthatshewillthinkmeaveryfitpersontohavethechargeofyou;
andifIdon’tgetoneofyouatleastwellmarriedbeforeIhavedonewithyou,itshallnotbemyfault。
Ishallspeakagoodwordforyoutoalltheyoungmen,youmaydependuponit。”
“Ihaveanotion,“saidSirJohn,“thatMissMariannewouldnotobjecttosuchascheme,ifhereldersisterwouldcomeintoit。Itisveryhardindeedthatsheshouldnothavealittlepleasure,becauseMissDashwooddoesnotwishit。SoIwouldadviseyoutwo,tosetofffortown,whenyouaretiredofBarton,withoutsayingawordtoMissDashwoodaboutit。”
“Nay,“criedMrs。Jennings,“IamsureIshallbemonstrousgladofMissMarianne’scompany,whetherMissDashwoodwillgoornot,onlythemorethemerriersayI,andIthoughtitwouldbemorecomfortableforthemtobetogether;because,iftheygottiredofme,theymighttalktooneanother,andlaughatmyoldwaysbehindmyback。
Butoneortheother,ifnotbothofthem,Imusthave。
Lordblessme!howdoyouthinkIcanlivepokingbymyself,IwhohavebeenalwaysusedtillthiswintertohaveCharlottewithme。Come,MissMarianne,letusstrikehandsuponthebargain,andifMissDashwoodwillchangehermindbyandbye,whysomuchthebetter。”
“Ithankyou,ma’am,sincerelythankyou,“
saidMarianne,withwarmth:“yourinvitationhasinsuredmygratitudeforever,anditwouldgivemesuchhappiness,yes,almostthegreatesthappinessIamcapableof,tobeabletoacceptit。
Butmymother,mydearest,kindestmother,——IfeelthejusticeofwhatElinorhasurged,andifsheweretobemadelesshappy,lesscomfortablebyourabsence——Oh!no,nothingshouldtemptmetoleaveher。Itshouldnot,mustnotbeastruggle。”
Mrs。JenningsrepeatedherassurancethatMrs。
Dashwoodcouldsparethemperfectlywell;andElinor,whonowunderstoodhersister,andsawtowhatindifferencetoalmosteverythingelseshewascarriedbyhereagernesstobewithWilloughbyagain,madenofartherdirectoppositiontotheplan,andmerelyreferredittohermother’sdecision,fromwhomhowevershescarcelyexpectedtoreceiveanysupportinherendeavourtopreventavisit,whichshecouldnotapproveofforMarianne,andwhichonherownaccountshehadparticularreasonstoavoid。
WhateverMariannewasdesirousof,hermotherwouldbeeagertopromote——shecouldnotexpecttoinfluencethelattertocautiousnessofconductinanaffairrespectingwhichshehadneverbeenabletoinspireherwithdistrust;andshedarednotexplainthemotiveofherowndisinclinationforgoingtoLondon。ThatMarianne,fastidiousasshewas,thoroughlyacquaintedwithMrs。Jennings’manners,andinvariablydisgustedbythem,shouldoverlookeveryinconvenienceofthatkind,shoulddisregardwhatevermustbemostwoundingtoherirritablefeelings,inherpursuitofoneobject,wassuchaproof,sostrong,sofull,oftheimportanceofthatobjecttoher,asElinor,inspiteofallthathadpassed,wasnotpreparedtowitness。
Onbeinginformedoftheinvitation,Mrs。Dashwood,persuadedthatsuchanexcursionwouldbeproductiveofmuchamusementtobothherdaughters,andperceivingthroughallheraffectionateattentiontoherself,howmuchtheheartofMariannewasinit,wouldnothearoftheirdecliningtheofferuponHERaccount;insistedontheirbothacceptingitdirectly;andthenbegantoforesee,withherusualcheerfulness,avarietyofadvantagesthatwouldaccruetothemall,fromthisseparation。
“Iamdelightedwiththeplan,“shecried,“itisexactlywhatIcouldwish。MargaretandIshallbeasmuchbenefitedbyitasyourselves。WhenyouandtheMiddletonsaregone,weshallgoonsoquietlyandhappilytogetherwithourbooksandourmusic!YouwillfindMargaretsoimprovedwhenyoucomebackagain!
Ihavealittleplanofalterationforyourbedroomstoo,whichmaynowbeperformedwithoutanyinconveniencetoanyone。ItisveryrightthatyouSHOULDgototown;
IwouldhaveeveryyoungwomanofyourconditioninlifeacquaintedwiththemannersandamusementsofLondon。
Youwillbeunderthecareofamotherlygoodsortofwoman,ofwhosekindnesstoyouIcanhavenodoubt。
Andinallprobabilityyouwillseeyourbrother,andwhatevermaybehisfaults,orthefaultsofhiswife,whenIconsiderwhosesonheis,Icannotbeartohaveyousowhollyestrangedfromeachother。”
“Thoughwithyourusualanxietyforourhappiness,“
saidElinor,“youhavebeenobviatingeveryimpedimenttothepresentschemewhichoccurredtoyou,thereisstilloneobjectionwhich,inmyopinion,cannotbesoeasilyremoved。”
Marianne’scountenancesunk。
“Andwhat,“saidMrs。Dashwood,“ismydearprudentElinorgoingtosuggest?,Whatformidableobstacleisshenowtobringforward?,Doletmehearawordabouttheexpenseofit。”
“Myobjectionisthis;thoughIthinkverywellofMrs。Jennings’sheart,sheisnotawomanwhosesocietycanafforduspleasure,orwhoseprotectionwillgiveusconsequence。”
“Thatisverytrue,“repliedhermother,“butofhersociety,separatelyfromthatofotherpeople,youwillscarcelyhaveanythingatall,andyouwillalmostalwaysappearinpublicwithLadyMiddleton。”
“IfElinorisfrightenedawaybyherdislikeofMrs。Jennings,“saidMarianne,“atleastitneednotpreventMYacceptingherinvitation。Ihavenosuchscruples,andIamsureIcouldputupwitheveryunpleasantnessofthatkindwithverylittleeffort。”
Elinorcouldnothelpsmilingatthisdisplayofindifferencetowardsthemannersofaperson,towhomshehadoftenhaddifficultyinpersuadingMariannetobehavewithtolerablepoliteness;andresolvedwithinherself,thatifhersisterpersistedingoing,shewouldgolikewise,asshedidnotthinkitproperthatMarianneshouldbelefttothesoleguidanceofherownjudgment,orthatMrs。JenningsshouldbeabandonedtothemercyofMarianneforallthecomfortofherdomestichours。
Tothisdeterminationshewasthemoreeasilyreconciled,byrecollectingthatEdwardFerrars,byLucy’saccount,wasnottobeintownbeforeFebruary;andthattheirvisit,withoutanyunreasonableabridgement,mightbepreviouslyfinished。
“IwillhaveyouBOTHgo,“saidMrs。Dashwood;
“theseobjectionsarenonsensical。YouwillhavemuchpleasureinbeinginLondon,andespeciallyinbeingtogether;
andifElinorwouldevercondescendtoanticipateenjoyment,shewouldforeseeittherefromavarietyofsources;
shewould,perhaps,expectsomefromimprovingheracquaintancewithhersister-in-law’sfamily。”
Elinorhadoftenwishedforanopportunityofattemptingtoweakenhermother’sdependenceontheattachmentofEdwardandherself,thattheshockmightbelesswhenthewholetruthwererevealed,andnowonthisattack,thoughalmosthopelessofsuccess,sheforcedherselftobeginherdesignbysaying,ascalmlyasshecould,“IlikeEdwardFerrarsverymuch,andshallalwaysbegladtoseehim;butastotherestofthefamily,itisamatterofperfectindifferencetome,whetherIameverknowntothemornot。”
Mrs。Dashwoodsmiled,andsaidnothing。
Mariannelifteduphereyesinastonishment,andElinorconjecturedthatshemightaswellhaveheldhertongue。
Afterverylittlefartherdiscourse,itwasfinallysettledthattheinvitationshouldbefullyaccepted。
Mrs。Jenningsreceivedtheinformationwithagreatdealofjoy,andmanyassurancesofkindnessandcare;
norwasitamatterofpleasuremerelytoher。SirJohnwasdelighted;fortoaman,whoseprevailinganxietywasthedreadofbeingalone,theacquisitionoftwo,tothenumberofinhabitantsinLondon,wassomething。
EvenLadyMiddletontookthetroubleofbeingdelighted,whichwasputtingherselfratheroutofherway;
andasfortheMissSteeles,especiallyLucy,theyhadneverbeensohappyintheirlivesasthisintelligencemadethem。
Elinorsubmittedtothearrangementwhichcounteractedherwisheswithlessreluctancethanshehadexpectedtofeel。Withregardtoherself,itwasnowamatterofunconcernwhethershewenttotownornot,andwhenshesawhermothersothoroughlypleasedwiththeplan,andhersisterexhilaratedbyitinlook,voice,andmanner,restoredtoallherusualanimation,andelevatedtomorethanherusualgaiety,shecouldnotbedissatisfiedwiththecause,andwouldhardlyallowherselftodistrusttheconsequence。
Marianne’sjoywasalmostadegreebeyondhappiness,sogreatwastheperturbationofherspiritsandherimpatiencetobegone。Herunwillingnesstoquithermotherwasheronlyrestorativetocalmness;andatthemomentofpartinghergriefonthatscorewasexcessive。
Hermother’safflictionwashardlyless,andElinorwastheonlyoneofthethree,whoseemedtoconsidertheseparationasanythingshortofeternal。
TheirdeparturetookplaceinthefirstweekinJanuary。
TheMiddletonsweretofollowinaboutaweek。TheMissSteeleskepttheirstationatthepark,andweretoquititonlywiththerestofthefamily。
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ElinorcouldnotfindherselfinthecarriagewithMrs。Jennings,andbeginningajourneytoLondonunderherprotection,andasherguest,withoutwonderingatherownsituation,soshorthadtheiracquaintancewiththatladybeen,sowhollyunsuitedweretheyinageanddisposition,andsomanyhadbeenherobjectionsagainstsuchameasureonlyafewdaysbefore!Buttheseobjectionshadall,withthathappyardourofyouthwhichMarianneandhermotherequallyshared,beenovercomeoroverlooked;andElinor,inspiteofeveryoccasionaldoubtofWilloughby’sconstancy,couldnotwitnesstheraptureofdelightfulexpectationwhichfilledthewholesoulandbeamedintheeyesofMarianne,withoutfeelinghowblankwasherownprospect,howcheerlessherownstateofmindinthecomparison,andhowgladlyshewouldengageinthesolicitudeofMarianne’ssituationtohavethesameanimatingobjectinview,thesamepossibilityofhope。Ashort,averyshorttimehowevermustnowdecidewhatWilloughby’sintentionswere;inallprobabilityhewasalreadyintown。
Marianne’seagernesstobegonedeclaredherdependenceonfindinghimthere;andElinorwasresolvednotonlyupongainingeverynewlightastohischaracterwhichherownobservationortheintelligenceofotherscouldgiveher,butlikewiseuponwatchinghisbehaviourtohersisterwithsuchzealousattention,astoascertainwhathewasandwhathemeant,beforemanymeetingshadtakenplace。
Shouldtheresultofherobservationsbeunfavourable,shewasdeterminedatalleventstoopentheeyesofhersister;shoulditbeotherwise,herexertionswouldbeofadifferentnature——shemustthenlearntoavoideveryselfishcomparison,andbanisheveryregretwhichmightlessenhersatisfactioninthehappinessofMarianne。
Theywerethreedaysontheirjourney,andMarianne’sbehaviourastheytravelledwasahappyspecimenofwhatfuturecomplaisanceandcompanionablenesstoMrs。Jenningsmightbeexpectedtobe。Shesatinsilencealmostalltheway,wraptinherownmeditations,andscarcelyevervoluntarilyspeaking,exceptwhenanyobjectofpicturesquebeautywithintheirviewdrewfromheranexclamationofdelightexclusivelyaddressedtohersister。Toatoneforthisconducttherefore,Elinortookimmediatepossessionofthepostofcivilitywhichshehadassignedherself,behavedwiththegreatestattentiontoMrs。Jennings,talkedwithher,laughedwithher,andlistenedtoherwhenevershecould;andMrs。Jenningsonhersidetreatedthembothwithallpossiblekindness,wassolicitousoneveryoccasionfortheireaseandenjoyment,andonlydisturbedthatshecouldnotmakethemchoosetheirowndinnersattheinn,norextortaconfessionoftheirpreferringsalmontocod,orboiledfowlstovealcutlets。
Theyreachedtownbythreeo’clockthethirdday,gladtobereleased,aftersuchajourney,fromtheconfinementofacarriage,andreadytoenjoyalltheluxuryofagoodfire。
Thehousewashandsome,andhandsomelyfittedup,andtheyoungladieswereimmediatelyputinpossessionofaverycomfortableapartment。IthadformerlybeenCharlotte’s,andoverthemantelpiecestillhungalandscapeincolouredsilksofherperformance,inproofofherhavingspentsevenyearsatagreatschoolintowntosomeeffect。
Asdinnerwasnottobereadyinlessthantwohoursfromtheirarrival,Elinordeterminedtoemploytheintervalinwritingtohermother,andsatdownforthatpurpose。InafewmomentsMariannedidthesame。
“Iamwritinghome,Marianne,“saidElinor;“hadnotyoubetterdeferyourletterforadayortwo?”
“IamNOTgoingtowritetomymother,“
repliedMarianne,hastily,andasifwishingtoavoidanyfartherinquiry。Elinorsaidnomore;itimmediatelystruckherthatshemustthenbewritingtoWilloughby;
andtheconclusionwhichasinstantlyfollowedwas,that,howevermysteriouslytheymightwishtoconducttheaffair,theymustbeengaged。Thisconviction,thoughnotentirelysatisfactory,gaveherpleasure,andshecontinuedherletterwithgreateralacrity。
Marianne’swasfinishedinaveryfewminutes;
inlengthitcouldbenomorethananote;itwasthenfoldedup,sealed,anddirectedwitheagerrapidity。
ElinorthoughtshecoulddistinguishalargeWinthedirection;andnosoonerwasitcompletethanMarianne,ringingthebell,requestedthefootmanwhoansweredittogetthatletterconveyedforhertothetwo-pennypost。
Thisdecidedthematteratonce。
Herspiritsstillcontinuedveryhigh;buttherewasaflutterinthemwhichpreventedtheirgivingmuchpleasuretohersister,andthisagitationincreasedastheeveningdrewon。Shecouldscarcelyeatanydinner,andwhentheyafterwardsreturnedtothedrawingroom,seemedanxiouslylisteningtothesoundofeverycarriage。
ItwasagreatsatisfactiontoElinorthatMrs。Jennings,bybeingmuchengagedinherownroom,couldseelittleofwhatwaspassing。Theteathingswerebroughtin,andalreadyhadMariannebeendisappointedmorethanoncebyarapataneighbouringdoor,whenaloudonewassuddenlyheardwhichcouldnotbemistakenforoneatanyotherhouse,ElinorfeltsecureofitsannouncingWilloughby’sapproach,andMarianne,startingup,movedtowardsthedoor。
Everythingwassilent;thiscouldnotbebornemanyseconds;
sheopenedthedoor,advancedafewstepstowardsthestairs,andafterlisteninghalfaminute,returnedintotheroominalltheagitationwhichaconvictionofhavingheardhimwouldnaturallyproduce;intheecstasyofherfeelingsatthatinstantshecouldnothelpexclaiming,“Oh,Elinor,itisWilloughby,indeeditis!”andseemedalmostreadytothrowherselfintohisarms,whenColonelBrandonappeared。
Itwastoogreatashocktobebornewithcalmness,andsheimmediatelylefttheroom。Elinorwasdisappointedtoo;
butatthesametimeherregardforColonelBrandonensuredhiswelcomewithher;andshefeltparticularlyhurtthatamansopartialtohersistershouldperceivethatsheexperiencednothingbutgriefanddisappointmentinseeinghim。
Sheinstantlysawthatitwasnotunnoticedbyhim,thatheevenobservedMarianneasshequittedtheroom,withsuchastonishmentandconcern,ashardlylefthimtherecollectionofwhatcivilitydemandedtowardsherself。
“Isyoursisterill?”saidhe。
Elinoransweredinsomedistressthatshewas,andthentalkedofhead-aches,lowspirits,andoverfatigues;
andofeverythingtowhichshecoulddecentlyattributehersister’sbehaviour。
Heheardherwiththemostearnestattention,butseemingtorecollecthimself,saidnomoreonthesubject,andbegandirectlytospeakofhispleasureatseeingtheminLondon,makingtheusualinquiriesabouttheirjourney,andthefriendstheyhadleftbehind。
Inthiscalmkindofway,withverylittleinterestoneitherside,theycontinuedtotalk,bothofthemoutofspirits,andthethoughtsofbothengagedelsewhere。
ElinorwishedverymuchtoaskwhetherWilloughbywerethenintown,butshewasafraidofgivinghimpainbyanyenquiryafterhisrival;andatlength,bywayofsayingsomething,sheaskedifhehadbeeninLondoneversinceshehadseenhimlast。”Yes,“hereplied,withsomeembarrassment,“almosteversince;IhavebeenonceortwiceatDelafordforafewdays,butithasneverbeeninmypowertoreturntoBarton。”
This,andthemannerinwhichitwassaid,immediatelybroughtbacktoherremembranceallthecircumstancesofhisquittingthatplace,withtheuneasinessandsuspicionstheyhadcausedtoMrs。Jennings,andshewasfearfulthatherquestionhadimpliedmuchmorecuriosityonthesubjectthanshehadeverfelt。
Mrs。Jenningssooncamein。”Oh!Colonel,“
saidshe,withherusualnoisycheerfulness,“Iammonstrousgladtoseeyou——sorryIcouldnotcomebefore——begyourpardon,butIhavebeenforcedtolookaboutmealittle,andsettlemymatters;foritisalongwhilesinceI
havebeenathome,andyouknowonehasalwaysaworldoflittleoddthingstodoafteronehasbeenawayforanytime;andthenIhavehadCartwrighttosettlewith——
Lord,Ihavebeenasbusyasabeeeversincedinner!
Butpray,Colonel,howcameyoutoconjureoutthatIshouldbeintowntoday?”
“IhadthepleasureofhearingitatMr。Palmer’s,whereIhavebeendining。”
“Oh,youdid;well,andhowdotheyalldoattheirhouse?,HowdoesCharlottedo?,Iwarrantyousheisafinesizebythistime。”
“Mrs。Palmerappearedquitewell,andIamcommissionedtotellyou,thatyouwillcertainlyseeherto-morrow。”
“Ay,tobesure,Ithoughtasmuch。Well,Colonel,Ihavebroughttwoyoungladieswithme,yousee——thatis,youseebutoneofthemnow,butthereisanothersomewhere。
Yourfriend,MissMarianne,too——whichyouwillnotbesorrytohear。IdonotknowwhatyouandMr。Willoughbywilldobetweenyouabouther。Ay,itisafinethingtobeyoungandhandsome。Well!Iwasyoungonce,butI
neverwasveryhandsome——worseluckforme。However,Igotaverygoodhusband,andIdon’tknowwhatthegreatestbeautycandomore。Ah!poorman!hehasbeendeadtheseeightyearsandbetter。ButColonel,wherehaveyoubeentosinceweparted?,Andhowdoesyourbusinessgoon?,Come,come,let’shavenosecretsamongfriends。”
Herepliedwithhisaccustomarymildnesstoallherinquiries,butwithoutsatisfyingherinany。
Elinornowbegantomakethetea,andMariannewasobligedtoappearagain。
Afterherentrance,ColonelBrandonbecamemorethoughtfulandsilentthanhehadbeenbefore,andMrs。Jenningscouldnotprevailonhimtostaylong。
Noothervisitorappearedthatevening,andtheladieswereunanimousinagreeingtogoearlytobed。
Mariannerosethenextmorningwithrecoveredspiritsandhappylooks。Thedisappointmentoftheeveningbeforeseemedforgottenintheexpectationofwhatwastohappenthatday。TheyhadnotlongfinishedtheirbreakfastbeforeMrs。Palmer’sbarouchestoppedatthedoor,andinafewminutesshecamelaughingintotheroom:sodelightedtoseethemall,thatitwashardtosaywhethershereceivedmostpleasurefrommeetinghermotherortheMissDashwoodsagain。Sosurprisedattheircomingtotown,thoughitwaswhatshehadratherexpectedallalong;
soangryattheiracceptinghermother’sinvitationafterhavingdeclinedherown,thoughatthesametimeshewouldneverhaveforgiventhemiftheyhadnotcome!
“Mr。Palmerwillbesohappytoseeyou,“
saidshe;“WhatdoyouthinkhesaidwhenheheardofyourcomingwithMamma?,Iforgetwhatitwasnow,butitwassomethingsodroll!”
Afteranhourortwospentinwhathermothercalledcomfortablechat,orinotherwords,ineveryvarietyofinquiryconcerningalltheiracquaintanceonMrs。Jennings’sside,andinlaughterwithoutcauseonMrs。Palmer’s,itwasproposedbythelatterthattheyshouldallaccompanyhertosomeshopswhereshehadbusinessthatmorning,towhichMrs。JenningsandElinorreadilyconsented,ashavinglikewisesomepurchasestomakethemselves;
andMarianne,thoughdecliningitatfirstwasinducedtogolikewise。
Wherevertheywent,shewasevidentlyalwaysonthewatch。InBondStreetespecially,wheremuchoftheirbusinesslay,hereyeswereinconstantinquiry;
andinwhatevershopthepartywereengaged,hermindwasequallyabstractedfromeverythingactuallybeforethem,fromallthatinterestedandoccupiedtheothers。
Restlessanddissatisfiedeverywhere,hersistercouldneverobtainheropinionofanyarticleofpurchase,howeveritmightequallyconcernthemboth:shereceivednopleasurefromanything;wasonlyimpatienttobeathomeagain,andcouldwithdifficultygovernhervexationatthetediousnessofMrs。Palmer,whoseeyewascaughtbyeverythingpretty,expensive,ornew;whowaswildtobuyall,coulddetermineonnone,anddawdledawayhertimeinraptureandindecision。
Itwaslateinthemorningbeforetheyreturnedhome;
andnosoonerhadtheyenteredthehousethanMariannefleweagerlyupstairs,andwhenElinorfollowed,shefoundherturningfromthetablewithasorrowfulcountenance,whichdeclaredthatnoWilloughbyhadbeenthere。
“Hasnoletterbeenlefthereformesincewewentout?”
saidshetothefootmanwhothenenteredwiththeparcels。
Shewasansweredinthenegative。”Areyouquitesureofit?”shereplied。”Areyoucertainthatnoservant,noporterhasleftanyletterornote?”
Themanrepliedthatnonehad。
“Howveryodd!”saidshe,inalowanddisappointedvoice,assheturnedawaytothewindow。
“Howodd,indeed!”repeatedElinorwithinherself,regardinghersisterwithuneasiness。”Ifshehadnotknownhimtobeintownshewouldnothavewrittentohim,asshedid;shewouldhavewrittentoCombeMagna;
andifheisintown,howoddthatheshouldneithercomenorwrite!,Oh!mydearmother,youmustbewronginpermittinganengagementbetweenadaughtersoyoung,amansolittleknown,tobecarriedoninsodoubtful,somysteriousamanner!,Ilongtoinquire;andhowwillMY
interferencebeborne。”
Shedetermined,aftersomeconsideration,thatifappearancescontinuedmanydayslongerasunpleasantastheynowwere,shewouldrepresentinthestrongestmannertohermotherthenecessityofsomeseriousenquiryintotheaffair。
Mrs。PalmerandtwoelderlyladiesofMrs。
Jennings’sintimateacquaintance,whomshehadmetandinvitedinthemorning,dinedwiththem。Theformerleftthemsoonafterteatofulfillhereveningengagements;
andElinorwasobligedtoassistinmakingawhisttablefortheothers。Mariannewasofnouseontheseoccasions,asshewouldneverlearnthegame;butthoughhertimewasthereforeatherowndisposal,theeveningwasbynomeansmoreproductiveofpleasuretoherthantoElinor,foritwasspentinalltheanxietyofexpectationandthepainofdisappointment。Shesometimesendeavouredforafewminutestoread;butthebookwassoonthrownaside,andshereturnedtothemoreinterestingemploymentofwalkingbackwardsandforwardsacrosstheroom,pausingforamomentwhenevershecametothewindow,inhopesofdistinguishingthelong-expectedrap。
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“Ifthisopenweatherholdsmuchlonger,“saidMrs。Jennings,whentheymetatbreakfastthefollowingmorning,“SirJohnwillnotlikeleavingBartonnextweek;
’tisasadthingforsportsmentoloseaday’spleasure。
Poorsouls!,Ialwayspitythemwhentheydo;theyseemtotakeitsomuchtoheart。”
“Thatistrue,“criedMarianne,inacheerfulvoice,andwalkingtothewindowasshespoke,toexaminetheday。
“Ihadnotthoughtofthat。Thisweatherwillkeepmanysportsmeninthecountry。”
Itwasaluckyrecollection,allhergoodspiritswererestoredbyit。”ItischarmingweatherforTHEMindeed,“
shecontinued,asshesatdowntothebreakfasttablewithahappycountenance。”Howmuchtheymustenjoyit!But“(withalittlereturnofanxiety)“itcannotbeexpectedtolastlong。Atthistimeoftheyear,andaftersuchaseriesofrain,weshallcertainlyhaveverylittlemoreofit。Frostswillsoonsetin,andinallprobabilitywithseverity。Inanotherdayortwoperhaps;thisextrememildnesscanhardlylastlonger——nay,perhapsitmayfreezetonight!”
“Atanyrate,“saidElinor,wishingtopreventMrs。Jenningsfromseeinghersister’sthoughtsasclearlyasshedid,“IdaresayweshallhaveSirJohnandLadyMiddletonintownbytheendofnextweek。”
“Ay,mydear,I’llwarrantyouwedo。
Maryalwayshasherownway。”
“Andnow,“silentlyconjecturedElinor,“shewillwritetoCombebythisday’spost。”
ButifsheDID,theletterwaswrittenandsentawaywithaprivacywhicheludedallherwatchfulnesstoascertainthefact。Whateverthetruthofitmightbe,andfarasElinorwasfromfeelingthoroughcontentmentaboutit,yetwhileshesawMarianneinspirits,shecouldnotbeveryuncomfortableherself。AndMariannewasinspirits;
happyinthemildnessoftheweather,andstillhappierinherexpectationofafrost。
ThemorningwaschieflyspentinleavingcardsatthehousesofMrs。Jennings’sacquaintancetoinformthemofherbeingintown;andMariannewasallthetimebusyinobservingthedirectionofthewind,watchingthevariationsoftheskyandimagininganalterationintheair。
“Don’tyoufinditcolderthanitwasinthemorning,Elinor?Thereseemstomeaverydecideddifference。
Icanhardlykeepmyhandswarmeveninmymuff。Itwasnotsoyesterday,Ithink。Thecloudsseempartingtoo,thesunwillbeoutinamoment,andweshallhaveaclearafternoon。”
Elinorwasalternatelydivertedandpained;
butMariannepersevered,andsaweverynightinthebrightnessofthefire,andeverymorningintheappearanceoftheatmosphere,thecertainsymptomsofapproachingfrost。
TheMissDashwoodshadnogreaterreasontobedissatisfiedwithMrs。Jennings’sstyleofliving,andsetofacquaintance,thanwithherbehaviourtothemselves,whichwasinvariablykind。Everythinginherhouseholdarrangementswasconductedonthemostliberalplan,andexceptingafewoldcityfriends,whom,toLadyMiddleton’sregret,shehadneverdropped,shevisitednoonetowhomanintroductioncouldatalldiscomposethefeelingsofheryoungcompanions。Pleasedtofindherselfmorecomfortablysituatedinthatparticularthanshehadexpected,Elinorwasverywillingtocompoundforthewantofmuchrealenjoymentfromanyoftheireveningparties,which,whetherathomeorabroad,formedonlyforcards,couldhavelittletoamuseher。
ColonelBrandon,whohadageneralinvitationtothehouse,waswiththemalmosteveryday;hecametolookatMarianneandtalktoElinor,whooftenderivedmoresatisfactionfromconversingwithhimthanfromanyotherdailyoccurrence,butwhosawatthesametimewithmuchconcernhiscontinuedregardforhersister。
Shefeareditwasastrengtheningregard。ItgrievedhertoseetheearnestnesswithwhichheoftenwatchedMarianne,andhisspiritswerecertainlyworsethanwhenatBarton。
Aboutaweekaftertheirarrival,itbecamecertainthatWilloughbywasalsoarrived。Hiscardwasonthetablewhentheycameinfromthemorning’sdrive。
“GoodGod!”criedMarianne,“hehasbeenherewhilewewereout。”,Elinor,rejoicedtobeassuredofhisbeinginLondon,nowventuredtosay,“Dependuponit,hewillcallagaintomorrow。”,ButMarianneseemedhardlytohearher,andonMrs。Jenning’sentrance,escapedwiththepreciouscard。
Thisevent,whileitraisedthespiritsofElinor,restoredtothoseofhersisterall,andmorethanall,theirformeragitation。Fromthismomenthermindwasneverquiet;theexpectationofseeinghimeveryhouroftheday,madeherunfitforanything。Sheinsistedonbeingleftbehind,thenextmorning,whentheotherswentout。
Elinor’sthoughtswerefullofwhatmightbepassinginBerkeleyStreetduringtheirabsence;butamoment’sglanceathersisterwhentheyreturnedwasenoughtoinformher,thatWilloughbyhadpaidnosecondvisitthere。
Anotewasjustthenbroughtin,andlaidonthetable,“Forme!”criedMarianne,steppinghastilyforward。
“No,ma’am,formymistress。”
ButMarianne,notconvinced,tookitinstantlyup。
“ItisindeedforMrs。Jennings;howprovoking!”
“Youareexpectingaletter,then?”saidElinor,unabletobelongersilent。
“Yes,alittle——notmuch。”
Afterashortpause。”Youhavenoconfidenceinme,Marianne。”
“Nay,Elinor,thisreproachfromYOU——youwhohaveconfidenceinnoone!”
“Me!”returnedElinorinsomeconfusion;“indeed,Marianne,Ihavenothingtotell。”
“NorI,“answeredMariannewithenergy,“oursituationsthenarealike。Wehaveneitherofusanythingtotell;
you,becauseyoudonotcommunicate,andI,becauseIconcealnothing。”
Elinor,distressedbythischargeofreserveinherself,whichshewasnotatlibertytodoaway,knewnothow,undersuchcircumstances,topressforgreateropennessinMarianne。
Mrs。Jenningssoonappeared,andthenotebeinggivenher,shereaditaloud。ItwasfromLadyMiddleton,announcingtheirarrivalinConduitStreetthenightbefore,andrequestingthecompanyofhermotherandcousinsthefollowingevening。BusinessonSirJohn’spart,andaviolentcoldonherown,preventedtheircallinginBerkeleyStreet。Theinvitationwasaccepted;
butwhenthehourofappointmentdrewnear,necessaryasitwasincommoncivilitytoMrs。Jennings,thattheyshouldbothattendheronsuchavisit,Elinorhadsomedifficultyinpersuadinghersistertogo,forstillshehadseennothingofWilloughby;andthereforewasnotmoreindisposedforamusementabroad,thanunwillingtoruntheriskofhiscallingagaininherabsence。
Elinorfound,whentheeveningwasover,thatdispositionisnotmateriallyalteredbyachangeofabode,foralthoughscarcelysettledintown,SirJohnhadcontrivedtocollectaroundhim,nearlytwentyyoungpeople,andtoamusethemwithaball。Thiswasanaffair,however,ofwhichLadyMiddletondidnotapprove。
Inthecountry,anunpremeditateddancewasveryallowable;
butinLondon,wherethereputationofelegancewasmoreimportantandlesseasilyattained,itwasriskingtoomuchforthegratificationofafewgirls,tohaveitknownthatLadyMiddletonhadgivenasmalldanceofeightorninecouple,withtwoviolins,andamereside-boardcollation。
Mr。andMrs。Palmerwereoftheparty;fromtheformer,whomtheyhadnotseenbeforesincetheirarrivalintown,ashewascarefultoavoidtheappearanceofanyattentiontohismother-in-law,andthereforenevercamenearher,theyreceivednomarkofrecognitionontheirentrance。
Helookedatthemslightly,withoutseemingtoknowwhotheywere,andmerelynoddedtoMrs。Jenningsfromtheothersideoftheroom。Mariannegaveoneglanceroundtheapartmentassheentered:itwasenough——HE
wasnotthere——andshesatdown,equallyill-disposedtoreceiveorcommunicatepleasure。Aftertheyhadbeenassembledaboutanhour,Mr。PalmersaunteredtowardstheMissDashwoodstoexpresshissurpriseonseeingthemintown,thoughColonelBrandonhadbeenfirstinformedoftheirarrivalathishouse,andhehadhimselfsaidsomethingverydrollonhearingthattheyweretocome。
“IthoughtyouwerebothinDevonshire,“saidhe。
“Didyou?”repliedElinor。
“Whendoyougobackagain?”
“Idonotknow。”Andthusendedtheirdiscourse。
NeverhadMariannebeensounwillingtodanceinherlife,asshewasthatevening,andneversomuchfatiguedbytheexercise。ShecomplainedofitastheyreturnedtoBerkeleyStreet。
“Aye,aye,“saidMrs。Jennings,“weknowthereasonofallthatverywell;ifacertainpersonwhoshallbenameless,hadbeenthere,youwouldnothavebeenabittired:andtosaythetruthitwasnotveryprettyofhimnottogiveyouthemeetingwhenhewasinvited。”
“Invited!”criedMarianne。
“SomydaughterMiddletontoldme,foritseemsSirJohnmethimsomewhereinthestreetthismorning。”
Mariannesaidnomore,butlookedexceedinglyhurt。
Impatientinthissituationtobedoingsomethingthatmightleadtohersister’srelief,Elinorresolvedtowritethenextmorningtohermother,andhopedbyawakeningherfearsforthehealthofMarianne,toprocurethoseinquirieswhichhadbeensolongdelayed;
andshewasstillmoreeagerlybentonthismeasurebyperceivingafterbreakfastonthemorrow,thatMariannewasagainwritingtoWilloughby,forshecouldnotsupposeittobetoanyotherperson。
Aboutthemiddleoftheday,Mrs。Jenningswentoutbyherselfonbusiness,andElinorbeganherletterdirectly,whileMarianne,toorestlessforemployment,tooanxiousforconversation,walkedfromonewindowtotheother,orsatdownbythefireinmelancholymeditation。
Elinorwasveryearnestinherapplicationtohermother,relatingallthathadpassed,hersuspicionsofWilloughby’sinconstancy,urgingherbyeverypleaofdutyandaffectiontodemandfromMarianneanaccountofherrealsituationwithrespecttohim。
Herletterwasscarcelyfinished,whenarapforetoldavisitor,andColonelBrandonwasannounced。
Marianne,whohadseenhimfromthewindow,andwhohatedcompanyofanykind,lefttheroombeforeheenteredit。
Helookedmorethanusuallygrave,andthoughexpressingsatisfactionatfindingMissDashwoodalone,asifhehadsomewhatinparticulartotellher,satforsometimewithoutsayingaword。Elinor,persuadedthathehadsomecommunicationtomakeinwhichhersisterwasconcerned,impatientlyexpecteditsopening。
Itwasnotthefirsttimeofherfeelingthesamekindofconviction;for,morethanoncebefore,beginningwiththeobservationof“yoursisterlooksunwellto-day,“
or“yoursisterseemsoutofspirits,“hehadappearedonthepoint,eitherofdisclosing,orofinquiring,somethingparticularabouther。Afterapauseofseveralminutes,theirsilencewasbroken,byhisaskingherinavoiceofsomeagitation,whenhewastocongratulateherontheacquisitionofabrother?,Elinorwasnotpreparedforsuchaquestion,andhavingnoanswerready,wasobligedtoadoptthesimpleandcommonexpedient,ofaskingwhathemeant?,Hetriedtosmileashereplied,“yoursister’sengagementtoMr。Willoughbyisverygenerallyknown。”
“Itcannotbegenerallyknown,“returnedElinor,“forherownfamilydonotknowit。”
Helookedsurprisedandsaid,“Ibegyourpardon,Iamafraidmyinquiryhasbeenimpertinent;butIhadnotsupposedanysecrecyintended,astheyopenlycorrespond,andtheirmarriageisuniversallytalkedof。”
“Howcanthatbe?Bywhomcanyouhavehearditmentioned?”
“Bymany——bysomeofwhomyouknownothing,byotherswithwhomyouaremostintimate,Mrs。Jennings,Mrs。Palmer,andtheMiddletons。ButstillImightnothavebelievedit,forwherethemindisperhapsratherunwillingtobeconvinced,itwillalwaysfindsomethingtosupportitsdoubts,ifIhadnot,whentheservantletmeintoday,accidentallyseenaletterinhishand,directedtoMr。Willoughbyinyoursister’swriting。Icametoinquire,butIwasconvincedbeforeIcouldaskthequestion。
Iseverythingfinallysettled?,Isitimpossibleto-?
ButIhavenoright,andIcouldhavenochanceofsucceeding。
Excuseme,MissDashwood。IbelieveIhavebeenwronginsayingsomuch,butIhardlyknowwhattodo,andonyourprudenceIhavethestrongestdependence。Tellmethatitisallabsolutelyresolvedon,thatanyattempt,thatinshortconcealment,ifconcealmentbepossible,isallthatremains。”
Thesewords,whichconveyedtoElinoradirectavowalofhisloveforhersister,affectedherverymuch。
Shewasnotimmediatelyabletosayanything,andevenwhenherspiritswererecovered,shedebatedforashorttime,ontheansweritwouldbemostpropertogive。
TherealstateofthingsbetweenWilloughbyandhersisterwassolittleknowntoherself,thatinendeavouringtoexplainit,shemightbeasliabletosaytoomuchastoolittle。YetasshewasconvincedthatMarianne’saffectionforWilloughby,couldleavenohopeofColonelBrandon’ssuccess,whatevertheeventofthataffectionmightbe,andatthesametimewishedtoshieldherconductfromcensure,shethoughtitmostprudentandkind,aftersomeconsideration,tosaymorethanshereallykneworbelieved。Sheacknowledged,therefore,thatthoughshehadneverbeeninformedbythemselvesofthetermsonwhichtheystoodwitheachother,oftheirmutualaffectionshehadnodoubt,andoftheircorrespondenceshewasnotastonishedtohear。
Helistenedtoherwithsilentattention,andonherceasingtospeak,rosedirectlyfromhisseat,andaftersayinginavoiceofemotion,“toyoursisterIwishallimaginablehappiness;toWilloughbythathemayendeavourtodeserveher,“——tookleave,andwentaway。
Elinorderivednocomfortablefeelingsfromthisconversation,tolessentheuneasinessofhermindonotherpoints;shewasleft,onthecontrary,withamelancholyimpressionofColonelBrandon’sunhappiness,andwaspreventedevenfromwishingitremoved,byheranxietyfortheveryeventthatmustconfirmit。
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Nothingoccurredduringthenextthreeorfourdays,tomakeElinorregretwhatshehaddone,inapplyingtohermother;forWilloughbyneithercamenorwrote。
TheywereengagedabouttheendofthattimetoattendLadyMiddletontoaparty,fromwhichMrs。Jenningswaskeptawaybytheindispositionofheryoungestdaughter;
andforthisparty,Marianne,whollydispirited,carelessofherappearance,andseemingequallyindifferentwhethershewentorstaid,prepared,withoutonelookofhopeoroneexpressionofpleasure。Shesatbythedrawing-roomfireaftertea,tillthemomentofLadyMiddleton’sarrival,withoutoncestirringfromherseat,oralteringherattitude,lostinherownthoughts,andinsensibleofhersister’spresence;andwhenatlasttheyweretoldthatLadyMiddletonwaitedforthematthedoor,shestartedasifshehadforgottenthatanyonewasexpected。
Theyarrivedinduetimeattheplaceofdestination,andassoonasthestringofcarriagesbeforethemwouldallow,alighted,ascendedthestairs,heardtheirnamesannouncedfromonelanding-placetoanotherinanaudiblevoice,andenteredaroomsplendidlylitup,quitefullofcompany,andinsufferablyhot。Whentheyhadpaidtheirtributeofpolitenessbycurtsyingtotheladyofthehouse,theywerepermittedtomingleinthecrowd,andtaketheirshareoftheheatandinconvenience,towhichtheirarrivalmustnecessarilyadd。Aftersometimespentinsayinglittleordoingless,LadyMiddletonsatdowntoCassino,andasMariannewasnotinspiritsformovingabout,sheandElinorluckilysucceedingtochairs,placedthemselvesatnogreatdistancefromthetable。
Theyhadnotremainedinthismannerlong,beforeElinorperceivedWilloughby,standingwithinafewyardsofthem,inearnestconversationwithaveryfashionablelookingyoungwoman。Shesooncaughthiseye,andheimmediatelybowed,butwithoutattemptingtospeaktoher,ortoapproachMarianne,thoughhecouldnotbutseeher;
andthencontinuedhisdiscoursewiththesamelady。
ElinorturnedinvoluntarilytoMarianne,toseewhetheritcouldbeunobservedbyher。Atthatmomentshefirstperceivedhim,andherwholecountenanceglowingwithsuddendelight,shewouldhavemovedtowardshiminstantly,hadnothersistercaughtholdofher。
“Goodheavens!”sheexclaimed,“heisthere——heisthere——Oh!whydoeshenotlookatme?whycannotIspeaktohim?”
“Pray,praybecomposed,“criedElinor,“anddonotbetraywhatyoufeeltoeverybodypresent。
Perhapshehasnotobservedyouyet。”
Thishoweverwasmorethanshecouldbelieveherself;
andtobecomposedatsuchamomentwasnotonlybeyondthereachofMarianne,itwasbeyondherwish。Shesatinanagonyofimpatiencewhichaffectedeveryfeature。
Atlastheturnedroundagain,andregardedthemboth;
shestartedup,andpronouncinghisnameinatoneofaffection,heldoutherhandtohim。Heapproached,andaddressinghimselfrathertoElinorthanMarianne,asifwishingtoavoidhereye,anddeterminednottoobserveherattitude,inquiredinahurriedmannerafterMrs。Dashwood,andaskedhowlongtheyhadbeenintown。
Elinorwasrobbedofallpresenceofmindbysuchanaddress,andwasunabletosayaword。Butthefeelingsofhersisterwereinstantlyexpressed。Herfacewascrimsonedover,andsheexclaimed,inavoiceofthegreatestemotion,“GoodGod!Willoughby,whatisthemeaningofthis?
Haveyounotreceivedmyletters?,Willyounotshakehandswithme?”
Hecouldnotthenavoidit,buthertouchseemedpainfultohim,andheheldherhandonlyforamoment。
Duringallthistimehewasevidentlystrugglingforcomposure。
Elinorwatchedhiscountenanceandsawitsexpressionbecomingmoretranquil。Afteramoment’spause,hespokewithcalmness。
“IdidmyselfthehonourofcallinginBerkeleyStreetlastTuesday,andverymuchregrettedthatIwasnotfortunateenoughtofindyourselvesandMrs。Jenningsathome。Mycardwasnotlost,Ihope。”
“Buthaveyounotreceivedmynotes?”criedMarianneinthewildestanxiety。”HereissomemistakeIamsure——somedreadfulmistake。Whatcanbethemeaningofit?,Tellme,Willoughby;forheaven’ssaketellme,whatisthematter?”
Hemadenoreply;hiscomplexionchangedandallhisembarrassmentreturned;butasif,oncatchingtheeyeoftheyoungladywithwhomhehadbeenpreviouslytalking,hefeltthenecessityofinstantexertion,herecoveredhimselfagain,andaftersaying,“Yes,Ihadthepleasureofreceivingtheinformationofyourarrivalintown,whichyouweresogoodastosendme,“turnedhastilyawaywithaslightbowandjoinedhisfriend。
Marianne,nowlookingdreadfullywhite,andunabletostand,sunkintoherchair,andElinor,expectingeverymomenttoseeherfaint,triedtoscreenherfromtheobservationofothers,whilerevivingherwithlavenderwater。
“Gotohim,Elinor,“shecried,assoonasshecouldspeak,“andforcehimtocometome。TellhimImustseehimagain——mustspeaktohiminstantly——
Icannotrest——Ishallnothaveamoment’speacetillthisisexplained——somedreadfulmisapprehensionorother——
Ohgotohimthismoment。”
“Howcanthatbedone?No,mydearestMarianne,youmustwait。Thisisnottheplaceforexplanations。
Waitonlytilltomorrow。”
Withdifficultyhowevercouldshepreventherfromfollowinghimherself;andtopersuadehertocheckheragitation,towait,atleast,withtheappearanceofcomposure,tillshemightspeaktohimwithmoreprivacyandmoreeffect,wasimpossible;forMariannecontinuedincessantlytogivewayinalowvoicetothemiseryofherfeelings,byexclamationsofwretchedness。
InashorttimeElinorsawWilloughbyquittheroombythedoortowardsthestaircase,andtellingMariannethathewasgone,urgedtheimpossibilityofspeakingtohimagainthatevening,asafreshargumentforhertobecalm。
SheinstantlybeggedhersisterwouldentreatLadyMiddletontotakethemhome,asshewastoomiserabletostayaminutelonger。
LadyMiddleton,thoughinthemiddleofarubber,onbeinginformedthatMariannewasunwell,wastoopolitetoobjectforamomenttoherwishofgoingaway,andmakingoverhercardstoafriend,theydepartedassoonthecarriagecouldbefound。ScarcelyawordwasspokenduringtheirreturntoBerkeleyStreet。
Mariannewasinasilentagony,toomuchoppressedevenfortears;butasMrs。Jenningswasluckilynotcomehome,theycouldgodirectlytotheirownroom,wherehartshornrestoredheralittletoherself。Shewassoonundressedandinbed,andassheseemeddesirousofbeingalone,hersisterthenlefther,andwhileshewaitedthereturnofMrs。Jennings,hadleisureenoughforthinkingoverthepast。
ThatsomekindofengagementhadsubsistedbetweenWilloughbyandMarianneshecouldnotdoubt,andthatWilloughbywaswearyofit,seemedequallyclear;
forhoweverMariannemightstillfeedherownwishes,SHEcouldnotattributesuchbehaviourtomistakeormisapprehensionofanykind。Nothingbutathoroughchangeofsentimentcouldaccountforit。Herindignationwouldhavebeenstillstrongerthanitwas,hadshenotwitnessedthatembarrassmentwhichseemedtospeakaconsciousnessofhisownmisconduct,andpreventedherfrombelievinghimsounprincipledastohavebeensportingwiththeaffectionsofhersisterfromthefirst,withoutanydesignthatwouldbearinvestigation。
Absencemighthaveweakenedhisregard,andconveniencemighthavedeterminedhimtoovercomeit,butthatsucharegardhadformerlyexistedshecouldnotbringherselftodoubt。
AsforMarianne,onthepangswhichsounhappyameetingmustalreadyhavegivenher,andonthosestillmoreseverewhichmightawaitherinitsprobableconsequence,shecouldnotreflectwithoutthedeepestconcern。
Herownsituationgainedinthecomparison;forwhileshecouldESTEEMEdwardasmuchasever,howevertheymightbedividedinfuture,hermindmightbealwayssupported。
ButeverycircumstancethatcouldembittersuchanevilseemedunitingtoheightenthemiseryofMarianneinafinalseparationfromWilloughby——inanimmediateandirreconcilablerupturewithhim。
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Beforethehouse-maidhadlittheirfirethenextday,orthesungainedanypoweroveracold,gloomymorninginJanuary,Marianne,onlyhalfdressed,waskneelingagainstoneofthewindow-seatsforthesakeofallthelittlelightshecouldcommandfromit,andwritingasfastasacontinualflowoftearswouldpermither。
Inthissituation,Elinor,rousedfromsleepbyheragitationandsobs,firstperceivedher;andafterobservingherforafewmomentswithsilentanxiety,said,inatoneofthemostconsiderategentleness,“Marianne,mayIask-?”
“No,Elinor,“shereplied,“asknothing;youwillsoonknowall。”
Thesortofdesperatecalmnesswithwhichthiswassaid,lastednolongerthanwhileshespoke,andwasimmediatelyfollowedbyareturnofthesameexcessiveaffliction。
Itwassomeminutesbeforeshecouldgoonwithherletter,andthefrequentburstsofgriefwhichstillobligedher,atintervals,towithholdherpen,wereproofsenoughofherfeelinghowmorethanprobableitwasthatshewaswritingforthelasttimetoWilloughby。
Elinorpaidhereveryquietandunobtrusiveattentioninherpower;andshewouldhavetriedtosoothandtranquilizeherstillmore,hadnotMarianneentreatedher,withalltheeagernessofthemostnervousirritability,nottospeaktoherfortheworld。Insuchcircumstances,itwasbetterforboththattheyshouldnotbelongtogether;
andtherestlessstateofMarianne’smindnotonlypreventedherfromremainingintheroomamomentaftershewasdressed,butrequiringatoncesolitudeandcontinualchangeofplace,madeherwanderaboutthehousetillbreakfasttime,avoidingthesightofeverybody。
Atbreakfastsheneitherate,norattemptedtoeatanything;andElinor’sattentionwasthenallemployed,notinurgingher,notinpityingher,norinappearingtoregardher,butinendeavouringtoengageMrs。Jenning’snoticeentirelytoherself。
AsthiswasafavouritemealwithMrs。Jennings,itlastedaconsiderabletime,andtheywerejustsettingthemselves,afterit,roundthecommonworkingtable,whenaletterwasdeliveredtoMarianne,whichsheeagerlycaughtfromtheservant,and,turningofadeath-likepaleness,instantlyranoutoftheroom。Elinor,whosawasplainlybythis,asifshehadseenthedirection,thatitmustcomefromWilloughby,feltimmediatelysuchasicknessatheartasmadeherhardlyabletoholdupherhead,andsatinsuchageneraltremourasmadeherfearitimpossibletoescapeMrs。Jenning’snotice。Thatgoodlady,however,sawonlythatMariannehadreceivedaletterfromWilloughby,whichappearedtoheraverygoodjoke,andwhichshetreatedaccordingly,byhoping,withalaugh,thatshewouldfindittoherliking。OfElinor’sdistress,shewastoobusilyemployedinmeasuringlengthsofworstedforherrug,toseeanythingatall;andcalmlycontinuinghertalk,assoonasMariannedisappeared,shesaid,“Uponmyword,Ineversawayoungwomansodesperatelyinloveinmylife!,MYgirlswerenothingtoher,andyettheyusedtobefoolishenough;butasforMissMarianne,sheisquiteanalteredcreature。
Ihope,fromthebottomofmyheart,hewon’tkeepherwaitingmuchlonger,foritisquitegrievoustoseeherlooksoillandforlorn。Pray,whenaretheytobemarried?”
Elinor,thoughneverlessdisposedtospeakthanatthatmoment,obligedherselftoanswersuchanattackasthis,and,therefore,tryingtosmile,replied,“Andhaveyoureally,Ma’am,talkedyourselfintoapersuasionofmysister’sbeingengagedtoMr。Willoughby?,Ithoughtithadbeenonlyajoke,butsoseriousaquestionseemstoimplymore;andImustbeg,therefore,thatyouwillnotdeceiveyourselfanylonger。Idoassureyouthatnothingwouldsurprisememorethantohearoftheirbeinggoingtobemarried。”
“Forshame,forshame,MissDashwood!howcanyoutalkso?,Don’tweallknowthatitmustbeamatch,thattheywereoverheadandearsinlovewitheachotherfromthefirstmomenttheymet?,DidnotIseethemtogetherinDevonshireeveryday,andalldaylong;anddidnotI
knowthatyoursistercametotownwithmeonpurposetobuyweddingclothes?,Come,come,thiswon’tdo。
Becauseyouaresoslyaboutityourself,youthinknobodyelsehasanysenses;butitisnosuchthing,Icantellyou,forithasbeenknownallovertownthiseversolong。
ItelleverybodyofitandsodoesCharlotte。”
“Indeed,Ma’am,“saidElinor,veryseriously,“youaremistaken。Indeed,youaredoingaveryunkindthinginspreadingthereport,andyouwillfindthatyouhavethoughyouwillnotbelievemenow。”
Mrs。Jenningslaughedagain,butElinorhadnotspiritstosaymore,andeageratalleventstoknowwhatWilloughbyhadwritten,hurriedawaytotheirroom,where,onopeningthedoor,shesawMariannestretchedonthebed,almostchokedbygrief,oneletterinherhand,andtwoorthreeotherslayingbyher。Elinordrewnear,butwithoutsayingaword;andseatingherselfonthebed,tookherhand,kissedheraffectionatelyseveraltimes,andthengavewaytoaburstoftears,whichatfirstwasscarcelylessviolentthanMarianne’s。Thelatter,thoughunabletospeak,seemedtofeelallthetendernessofthisbehaviour,andaftersometimethusspentinjointaffliction,sheputallthelettersintoElinor’shands;
andthencoveringherfacewithherhandkerchief,almostscreamedwithagony。Elinor,whoknewthatsuchgrief,shockingasitwastowitnessit,musthaveitscourse,watchedbyhertillthisexcessofsufferinghadsomewhatspentitself,andthenturningeagerlytoWilloughby’sletter,readasfollows:
“BondStreet,January。
“MYDEARMADAM,“Ihavejusthadthehonourofreceivingyourletter,forwhichIbegtoreturnmysincereacknowledgments。Iammuchconcernedtofindtherewasanythinginmybehaviourlastnightthatdidnotmeetyourapprobation;andthoughIamquiteatalosstodiscoverinwhatpointIcouldbesounfortunateastooffendyou,IentreatyourforgivenessofwhatIcanassureyoutohavebeenperfectlyunintentional。IshallneverreflectonmyformeracquaintancewithyourfamilyinDevonshirewithoutthemostgratefulpleasure,andflattermyselfitwillnotbebrokenbyanymistakeormisapprehensionofmyactions。Myesteemforyourwholefamilyisverysincere;butifIhavebeensounfortunateastogiverisetoabeliefofmorethanIfelt,ormeanttoexpress,Ishallreproachmyselffornothavingbeenmoreguardedinmyprofessionsofthatesteem。ThatIshouldeverhavemeantmoreyouwillallowtobeimpossible,whenyouunderstandthatmyaffectionshavebeenlongengagedelsewhere,anditwillnotbemanyweeks,Ibelieve,beforethisengagementisfulfilled。ItiswithgreatregretthatIobeyyourcommandsinreturningtheletterswithwhichIhavebeenhonouredfromyou,andthelockofhair,whichyousoobliginglybestowedonme。
“Iam,dearMadam,“Yourmostobedient,“humbleservant,“JOHNWILLOUGHBY。”
WithwhatindignationsuchaletterasthismustbereadbyMissDashwood,maybeimagined。Thoughaware,beforeshebeganit,thatitmustbringaconfessionofhisinconstancy,andconfirmtheirseparationforever,shewasnotawarethatsuchlanguagecouldbesufferedtoannounceit;norcouldshehavesupposedWilloughbycapableofdepartingsofarfromtheappearanceofeveryhonourableanddelicatefeeling——sofarfromthecommondecorumofagentleman,astosendalettersoimpudentlycruel:aletterwhich,insteadofbringingwithhisdesireofareleaseanyprofessionsofregret,acknowledgednobreachoffaith,deniedallpeculiaraffectionwhatever——
aletterofwhicheverylinewasaninsult,andwhichproclaimeditswritertobedeepinhardenedvillainy。
Shepausedoveritforsometimewithindignantastonishment;thenreaditagainandagain;buteveryperusalonlyservedtoincreaseherabhorrenceoftheman,andsobitterwereherfeelingsagainsthim,thatshedarednottrustherselftospeak,lestshemightwoundMariannestilldeeperbytreatingtheirdisengagement,notasalosstoherofanypossiblegoodbutasanescapefromtheworstandmostirremediableofallevils,aconnection,forlife,withanunprincipledman,asadeliverancethemostreal,ablessingthemostimportant。
Inherearnestmeditationsonthecontentsoftheletter,onthedepravityofthatmindwhichcoulddictateit,andprobably,ontheverydifferentmindofaverydifferentperson,whohadnootherconnectionwhateverwiththeaffairthanwhatherheartgavehimwitheverythingthatpassed,Elinorforgottheimmediatedistressofhersister,forgotthatshehadthreelettersonherlapyetunread,andsoentirelyforgothowlongshehadbeenintheroom,thatwhenonhearingacarriagedriveuptothedoor,shewenttothewindowtoseewhocouldbecomingsounreasonablyearly,shewasallastonishmenttoperceiveMrs。Jennings’schariot,whichsheknewhadnotbeenorderedtillone。DeterminednottoquitMarianne,thoughhopelessofcontributing,atpresent,toherease,shehurriedawaytoexcuseherselffromattendingMrs。Jennings,onaccountofhersisterbeingindisposed。
Mrs。Jennings,withathoroughlygood-humouredconcernforitscause,admittedtheexcusemostreadily,andElinor,afterseeinghersafeoff,returnedtoMarianne,whomshefoundattemptingtorisefromthebed,andwhomshereachedjustintimetopreventherfromfallingonthefloor,faintandgiddyfromalongwantofproperrestandfood;
foritwasmanydayssinceshehadanyappetite,andmanynightssinceshehadreallyslept;andnow,whenhermindwasnolongersupportedbythefeverofsuspense,theconsequenceofallthiswasfeltinanachinghead,aweakenedstomach,andageneralnervousfaintness。
Aglassofwine,whichElinorprocuredforherdirectly,madehermorecomfortable,andshewasatlastabletoexpresssomesenseofherkindness,bysaying,“PoorElinor!howunhappyImakeyou!”
“Ionlywish,“repliedhersister,“therewereanythingICOULDdo,whichmightbeofcomforttoyou。”
This,aseverythingelsewouldhavebeen,wastoomuchforMarianne,whocouldonlyexclaim,intheanguishofherheart,“Oh!Elinor,Iammiserable,indeed,“beforehervoicewasentirelylostinsobs。
Elinorcouldnolongerwitnessthistorrentofunresistedgriefinsilence。
“Exertyourself,dearMarianne,“shecried,“ifyouwouldnotkillyourselfandallwholoveyou。
Thinkofyourmother;thinkofhermiserywhileYOUsuffer:
forhersakeyoumustexertyourself。”
“Icannot,Icannot,“criedMarianne;“leaveme,leaveme,ifIdistressyou;leaveme,hateme,forgetme!
butdonottorturemeso。Oh!howeasyforthose,whohavenosorrowoftheirowntotalkofexertion!,Happy,happyElinor,YOUcannothaveanideaofwhatIsuffer。”
“DoyoucallMEhappy,Marianne?,Ah!
ifyouknew!——Andcanyoubelievemetobeso,whileIseeyousowretched!”
“Forgiveme,forgiveme,“throwingherarmsroundhersister’sneck;“Iknowyoufeelforme;Iknowwhataheartyouhave;butyetyouare——youmustbehappy;
Edwardlovesyou——what,ohwhat,candoawaysuchhappinessasthat?”
“Many,manycircumstances,“saidElinor,solemnly。
“No,no,no,“criedMariannewildly,“helovesyou,andonlyyou。YouCANhavenogrief。”
“IcanhavenopleasurewhileIseeyouinthisstate。”
“Andyouwillneverseemeotherwise。
Mineisamiserywhichnothingcandoaway。”
“Youmustnottalkso,Marianne。Haveyounocomforts?nofriends?,Isyourlosssuchasleavesnoopeningforconsolation?,Muchasyousuffernow,thinkofwhatyouwouldhavesufferedifthediscoveryofhischaracterhadbeendelayedtoalaterperiod——
ifyourengagementhadbeencarriedonformonthsandmonths,asitmighthavebeen,beforehechosetoputanendtoit。
Everyadditionaldayofunhappyconfidence,onyourside,wouldhavemadetheblowmoredreadful。”
“Engagement!”criedMarianne,“therehasbeennoengagement。”
“Noengagement!”
“No,heisnotsounworthyasyoubelievehim。
Hehasbrokennofaithwithme。”
“Buthetoldyouthathelovedyou。”
“Yes——no——neverabsolutely。Itwaseverydayimplied,butneverprofessedlydeclared。SometimesIthoughtithadbeen——butitneverwas。”
“Yetyouwrotetohim?”——
“Yes——couldthatbewrongafterallthathadpassed?——
ButIcannottalk。”
Elinorsaidnomore,andturningagaintothethreeletterswhichnowraisedamuchstrongercuriositythanbefore,directlyranoverthecontentsofall。
Thefirst,whichwaswhathersisterhadsenthimontheirarrivalintown,wastothiseffect。
BerkeleyStreet,January。
“Howsurprisedyouwillbe,Willoughby,onreceivingthis;andIthinkyouwillfeelsomethingmorethansurprise,whenyouknowthatIamintown。
Anopportunityofcominghither,thoughwithMrs。
Jennings,wasatemptationwecouldnotresist。
Iwishyoumayreceivethisintimetocomehereto-night,butIwillnotdependonit。
AtanyrateIshallexpectyouto-morrow。Forthepresent,adieu。
“M。D。”
Hersecondnote,whichhadbeenwrittenonthemorningafterthedanceattheMiddletons’,wasinthesewords:——
“Icannotexpressmydisappointmentinhavingmissedyouthedaybeforeyesterday,normyastonishmentatnothavingreceivedanyanswertoanotewhichIsentyouaboveaweekago。Ihavebeenexpectingtohearfromyou,andstillmoretoseeyou,everyhouroftheday。Praycallagainassoonaspossible,andexplainthereasonofmyhavingexpectedthisinvain。Youhadbettercomeearlieranothertime,becausewearegenerallyoutbyone。
WewerelastnightatLadyMiddleton’s,wheretherewasadance。
Ihavebeentoldthatyouwereaskedtobeoftheparty。Butcoulditbeso?,Youmustbeverymuchalteredindeedsinceweparted,ifthatcouldbethecase,andyounotthere。ButIwillnotsupposethispossible,andIhopeverysoontoreceiveyourpersonalassuranceofitsbeingotherwise。
“M。D。”
Thecontentsofherlastnotetohimwerethese:——
“WhatamItoimagine,Willoughby,byyourbehaviourlastnight?,AgainIdemandanexplanationofit。Iwaspreparedtomeetyouwiththepleasurewhichourseparationnaturallyproduced,withthefamiliaritywhichourintimacyatBartonappearedtometojustify。Iwasrepulsedindeed!
Ihavepassedawretchednightinendeavouringtoexcuseaconductwhichcanscarcelybecalledlessthaninsulting;butthoughIhavenotyetbeenabletoformanyreasonableapologyforyourbehaviour,Iamperfectlyreadytohearyourjustificationofit。Youhaveperhapsbeenmisinformed,orpurposelydeceived,insomethingconcerningme,whichmayhaveloweredmeinyouropinion。Tellmewhatitis,explainthegroundsonwhichyouacted,andIshallbesatisfied,inbeingabletosatisfyyou。
Itwouldgrievemeindeedtobeobligedtothinkillofyou;butifIamtodoit,ifIamtolearnthatyouarenotwhatwehavehithertobelievedyou,thatyourregardforusallwasinsincere,thatyourbehaviourtomewasintendedonlytodeceive,letitbetoldassoonaspossible。Myfeelingsareatpresentinastateofdreadfulindecision;
Iwishtoacquityou,butcertaintyoneithersidewillbeeasetowhatInowsuffer。Ifyoursentimentsarenolongerwhattheywere,youwillreturnmynotes,andthelockofmyhairwhichisinyourpossession。
“M。D。”
Thatsuchletters,sofullofaffectionandconfidence,couldhavebeensoanswered,Elinor,forWilloughby’ssake,wouldhavebeenunwillingtobelieve。Buthercondemnationofhimdidnotblindhertotheimproprietyoftheirhavingbeenwrittenatall;andshewassilentlygrievingovertheimprudencewhichhadhazardedsuchunsolicitedproofsoftenderness,notwarrantedbyanythingpreceding,andmostseverelycondemnedbytheevent,whenMarianne,perceivingthatshehadfinishedtheletters,observedtoherthattheycontainednothingbutwhatanyonewouldhavewritteninthesamesituation。
“Ifeltmyself,“sheadded,“tobeassolemnlyengagedtohim,asifthestrictestlegalcovenanthadboundustoeachother。”
“Icanbelieveit,“saidElinor;“butunfortunatelyhedidnotfeelthesame。”
“HeDIDfeelthesame,Elinor——forweeksandweekshefeltit。Iknowhedid。Whatevermayhavechangedhimnow,(andnothingbuttheblackestartemployedagainstmecanhavedoneit),Iwasonceasdeartohimasmyownsoulcouldwish。
Thislockofhair,whichnowhecansoreadilygiveup,wasbeggedofmewiththemostearnestsupplication。
Hadyouseenhislook,hismanner,hadyouheardhisvoiceatthatmoment!,HaveyouforgotthelasteveningofourbeingtogetheratBarton?,Themorningthatwepartedtoo!,Whenhetoldmethatitmightbemanyweeksbeforewemetagain——hisdistress——canIeverforgethisdistress?”
Foramomentortwoshecouldsaynomore;
butwhenthisemotionhadpassedaway,sheadded,inafirmertone,“Elinor,Ihavebeencruellyused;butnotbyWilloughby。”
“DearestMarianne,whobuthimself?,Bywhomcanhehavebeeninstigated?”
“Byalltheworld,ratherthanbyhisownheart。
Icouldratherbelieveeverycreatureofmyacquaintanceleaguedtogethertoruinmeinhisopinion,thanbelievehisnaturecapableofsuchcruelty。Thiswomanofwhomhewrites——whoevershebe——oranyone,inshort,butyourowndearself,mama,andEdward,mayhavebeensobarbaroustobelyme。Beyondyouthree,isthereacreatureintheworldwhomIwouldnotrathersuspectofevilthanWilloughby,whoseheartIknowsowell?”
Elinorwouldnotcontend,andonlyreplied,“Whoevermayhavebeensodetestablyyourenemy,letthembecheatedoftheirmalignanttriumph,mydearsister,byseeinghownoblytheconsciousnessofyourowninnocenceandgoodintentionssupportsyourspirits。
Itisareasonableandlaudablepridewhichresistssuchmalevolence。”
“No,no,“criedMarianne,“miserysuchasminehasnopride。IcarenotwhoknowsthatIamwretched。
Thetriumphofseeingmesomaybeopentoalltheworld。
Elinor,Elinor,theywhosufferlittlemaybeproudandindependentastheylike——mayresistinsult,orreturnmortification——butIcannot。Imustfeel——Imustbewretched——andtheyarewelcometoenjoytheconsciousnessofitthatcan。”
“Butformymother’ssakeandmine——“
“Iwoulddomorethanformyown。ButtoappearhappywhenIamsomiserable——Oh!whocanrequireit?”
Againtheywerebothsilent。Elinorwasemployedinwalkingthoughtfullyfromthefiretothewindow,fromthewindowtothefire,withoutknowingthatshereceivedwarmthfromone,ordiscerningobjectsthroughtheother;andMarianne,seatedatthefootofthebed,withherheadleaningagainstoneofitsposts,againtookupWilloughby’sletter,and,aftershudderingovereverysentence,exclaimed——
“Itistoomuch!Oh,Willoughby,Willoughby,couldthisbeyours!,Cruel,cruel——nothingcanacquityou。Elinor,nothingcan。Whateverhemighthaveheardagainstme——
oughthenottohavesuspendedhisbelief?oughthenottohavetoldmeofit,tohavegivenmethepowerofclearingmyself?’Thelockofhair,(repeatingitfromtheletter,)
whichyousoobliginglybestowedonme’——Thatisunpardonable。
Willoughby,wherewasyourheartwhenyouwrotethosewords?
Oh,barbarouslyinsolent!——Elinor,canhebejustified?”
“No,Marianne,innopossibleway。”
“Andyetthiswoman——whoknowswhatherartmayhavebeen?——howlongitmayhavebeenpremeditated,andhowdeeplycontrivedbyher!——Whoisshe?——Whocanshebe?——WhomdidIeverhearhimtalkofasyoungandattractiveamonghisfemaleacquaintance?——Oh!noone,noone——hetalkedtomeonlyofmyself。”
Anotherpauseensued;Mariannewasgreatlyagitated,anditendedthus。
“Elinor,Imustgohome。Imustgoandcomfortmama。
Cannotwebegoneto-morrow?”
“To-morrow,Marianne!”
“Yes,whyshouldIstayhere?IcameonlyforWilloughby’ssake——andnowwhocaresforme?Whoregardsme?”
“Itwouldbeimpossibletogoto-morrow。WeoweMrs。Jenningsmuchmorethancivility;andcivilityofthecommonestkindmustpreventsuchahastyremovalasthat。”
“Wellthen,anotherdayortwo,perhaps;butIcannotstayherelong,Icannotstaytoendurethequestionsandremarksofallthesepeople。TheMiddletonsandPalmers——howamItobeartheirpity?,ThepityofsuchawomanasLadyMiddleton!,Oh,whatwouldHEsaytothat!”
Elinoradvisedhertoliedownagain,andforamomentshedidso;butnoattitudecouldgiveherease;
andinrestlesspainofmindandbodyshemovedfromoneposturetoanother,tillgrowingmoreandmorehysterical,hersistercouldwithdifficultykeepheronthebedatall,andforsometimewasfearfulofbeingconstrainedtocallforassistance。Somelavenderdrops,however,whichshewasatlengthpersuadedtotake,wereofuse;andfromthattimetillMrs。Jenningsreturned,shecontinuedonthebedquietandmotionless。
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Mrs。Jenningscameimmediatelytotheirroomonherreturn,andwithoutwaitingtohaveherrequestofadmittanceanswered,openedthedoorandwalkedinwithalookofrealconcern。
“Howdoyoudomydear?”——saidsheinavoiceofgreatcompassiontoMarianne,whoturnedawayherfacewithoutattemptingtoanswer。
“Howisshe,MissDashwood?——Poorthing!shelooksverybad——
Nowonder。Ay,itisbuttootrue。Heistobemarriedverysoon——agood-for-nothingfellow!,Ihavenopatiencewithhim。Mrs。Taylortoldmeofithalfanhourago,andshewastolditbyaparticularfriendofMissGreyherself,elseIamsureIshouldnothavebelievedit;
andIwasalmostreadytosinkasitwas。Well,saidI,allIcansayis,thatifthisbetrue,hehasusedayoungladyofmyacquaintanceabominablyill,andI
wishwithallmysoulhiswifemayplaguehisheartout。
AndsoIshallalwayssay,mydear,youmaydependonit。
Ihavenonotionofmen’sgoingoninthisway;andifeverImeethimagain,Iwillgivehimsuchadressingashehasnothadthismanyaday。Butthereisonecomfort,mydearMissMarianne;heisnottheonlyyoungmanintheworldworthhaving;andwithyourprettyfaceyouwillneverwantadmirers。Well,poorthing!,Iwon’tdisturbheranylonger,forshehadbetterhavehercryoutatonceandhavedonewith。TheParrysandSandersonsluckilyarecomingtonightyouknow,andthatwillamuseher。”
Shethenwentaway,walkingontiptoeoutoftheroom,asifshesupposedheryoungfriend’safflictioncouldbeincreasedbynoise。
Marianne,tothesurpriseofhersister,determinedondiningwiththem。Elinorevenadvisedheragainstit。But“no,shewouldgodown;shecouldbearitverywell,andthebustleaboutherwouldbeless。”,Elinor,pleasedtohavehergovernedforamomentbysuchamotive,thoughbelievingithardlypossiblethatshecouldsitoutthedinner,saidnomore;
andadjustingherdressforheraswellasshecould,whileMariannestillremainedonthebed,wasreadytoassistherintothediningroomassoonastheyweresummonedtoit。
Whenthere,thoughlookingmostwretchedly,sheatemoreandwascalmerthanhersisterhadexpected。
Hadshetriedtospeak,orhadshebeenconsciousofhalfMrs。Jennings’swell-meantbutill-judgedattentionstoher,thiscalmnesscouldnothavebeenmaintained;
butnotasyllableescapedherlips;andtheabstractionofherthoughtspreservedherinignoranceofeverythingthatwaspassingbeforeher。
Elinor,whodidjusticetoMrs。Jennings’skindness,thoughitseffusionswereoftendistressing,andsometimesalmostridiculous,madeherthoseacknowledgments,andreturnedherthosecivilities,whichhersistercouldnotmakeorreturnforherself。TheirgoodfriendsawthatMariannewasunhappy,andfeltthateverythingwasduetoherwhichmightmakeheratalllessso。