第6章

类别:其他 作者:Jane Austen字数:27892更新时间:18/12/20 11:25:11
Shetreatedhertherefore,withalltheindulgentfondnessofaparenttowardsafavouritechildonthelastdayofitsholidays。Mariannewastohavethebestplacebythefire,wastobetemptedtoeatbyeverydelicacyinthehouse,andtobeamusedbytherelationofallthenewsoftheday。 HadnotElinor,inthesadcountenanceofhersister,seenachecktoallmirth,shecouldhavebeenentertainedbyMrs。Jennings’sendeavourstocureadisappointmentinlove,byavarietyofsweetmeatsandolives,andagoodfire。 Assoon,however,astheconsciousnessofallthiswasforcedbycontinualrepetitiononMarianne,shecouldstaynolonger。WithahastyexclamationofMisery,andasigntohersisternottofollowher,shedirectlygotupandhurriedoutoftheroom。 “Poorsoul!”criedMrs。Jennings,assoonasshewasgone,“howitgrievesmetoseeher!,AndIdeclareifsheisnotgoneawaywithoutfinishingherwine!,Andthedriedcherriestoo!,Lord!nothingseemstodoheranygood。 IamsureifIknewofanythingshewouldlike,Iwouldsendalloverthetownforit。Well,itistheoddestthingtome,thatamanshouldusesuchaprettygirlsoill!,Butwhenthereisplentyofmoneyononeside,andnexttononeontheother,Lordblessyou!theycarenomoreaboutsuchthings!——“ “Theladythen——MissGreyIthinkyoucalledher—— isveryrich?” “Fiftythousandpounds,mydear。Didyoueverseeher?asmart,stylishgirltheysay,butnothandsome。 Irememberherauntverywell,BiddyHenshawe;shemarriedaverywealthyman。Butthefamilyareallrichtogether。 Fiftythousandpounds!andbyallaccounts,itwon’tcomebeforeit’swanted;fortheysayheisalltopieces。 Nowonder!dashingaboutwithhiscurricleandhunters! Well,itdon’tsignifytalking;butwhenayoungman,bewhohewill,comesandmakeslovetoaprettygirl,andpromisesmarriage,hehasnobusinesstoflyofffromhiswordonlybecausehegrowspoor,andarichergirlisreadytohavehim。Whydon’the,insuchacase,sellhishorses,lethishouse,turnoffhisservants,andmakeathoroughreformatonce?Iwarrantyou,MissMariannewouldhavebeenreadytowaittillmatterscameround。Butthatwon’tdonow-a-days;nothinginthewayofpleasurecaneverbegivenupbytheyoungmenofthisage。” “DoyouknowwhatkindofagirlMissGreyis? Isshesaidtobeamiable?” “Ineverheardanyharmofher;indeedIhardlyeverheardhermentioned;exceptthatMrs。Taylordidsaythismorning,thatonedayMissWalkerhintedtoher,thatshebelievedMr。andMrs。EllisonwouldnotbesorrytohaveMissGreymarried,forsheandMrs。Ellisoncouldneveragree。”—— “AndwhoaretheEllisons?” “Herguardians,mydear。Butnowsheisofageandmaychooseforherself;andaprettychoiceshehasmade!——Whatnow,“afterpausingamoment——“yourpoorsisterisgonetoherownroom,Isuppose,tomoanbyherself。 Istherenothingonecangettocomforther?,Poordear,itseemsquitecrueltoletherbealone。Well,by-and-byweshallhaveafewfriends,andthatwillamuseheralittle。 Whatshallweplayat?,ShehateswhistIknow;butistherenoroundgameshecaresfor?” “Dearma’am,thiskindnessisquiteunnecessary。 Marianne,Idaresay,willnotleaveherroomagainthisevening。IshallpersuadeherifIcantogoearlytobed,forIamsureshewantsrest。” “Aye,Ibelievethatwillbebestforher。 Lethernameherownsupper,andgotobed。Lord!nowondershehasbeenlookingsobadandsocastdownthislastweekortwo,forthismatterIsupposehasbeenhangingoverherheadaslongasthat。Andsotheletterthatcametodayfinishedit! Poorsoul!,IamsureifIhadhadanotionofit,Iwouldnothavejokedheraboutitforallmymoney。 Butthenyouknow,howshouldIguesssuchathing?,Imadesureofitsbeingnothingbutacommonloveletter,andyouknowyoungpeopleliketobelaughedataboutthem。Lord! howconcernedSirJohnandmydaughterswillbewhentheyhearit!,IfIhadmysensesaboutmeImighthavecalledinConduitStreetinmywayhome,andtoldthemofit。 ButIshallseethemtomorrow。” “ItwouldbeunnecessaryIamsure,foryoutocautionMrs。PalmerandSirJohnagainstevernamingMr。Willoughby,ormakingtheslightestallusiontowhathaspassed,beforemysister。Theirowngood-naturemustpointouttothemtherealcrueltyofappearingtoknowanythingaboutitwhensheispresent;andthelessthatmayeverbesaidtomyselfonthesubject,themoremyfeelingswillbespared,asyoumydearmadamwilleasilybelieve。” “Oh!Lord!yes,thatIdoindeed。Itmustbeterribleforyoutohearittalkedof;andasforyoursister,IamsureIwouldnotmentionawordaboutittoherfortheworld。YousawIdidnotalldinnertime。 NomorewouldSirJohn,normydaughters,fortheyareallverythoughtfulandconsiderate;especiallyifI givethemahint,asIcertainlywill。Formypart,Ithinkthelessthatissaidaboutsuchthings,thebetter,thesooner’tisblownoverandforgot。Andwhatdoestalkingeverdoyouknow?” “Inthisaffairitcanonlydoharm;moresoperhapsthaninmanycasesofasimilarkind,forithasbeenattendedbycircumstanceswhich,forthesakeofeveryoneconcernedinit,makeitunfittobecomethepublicconversation。ImustdoTHISjusticetoMr。Willoughby——hehasbrokennopositiveengagementwithmysister。” “Law,mydear!,Don’tpretendtodefendhim。 Nopositiveengagementindeed!aftertakingheralloverAllenhamHouse,andfixingontheveryroomstheyweretoliveinhereafter!” Elinor,forhersister’ssake,couldnotpressthesubjectfarther,andshehopeditwasnotrequiredofherforWilloughby’s;since,thoughMariannemightlosemuch,hecouldgainverylittlebytheenforcementoftherealtruth。 Afterashortsilenceonbothsides,Mrs。Jennings,withallhernaturalhilarity,burstforthagain。 “Well,mydear,’tisatruesayingaboutanill-wind,foritwillbeallthebetterforColonelBrandon。 Hewillhaveheratlast;aye,thathewill。Mindme,now,iftheyan’tmarriedbyMid-summer。Lord!howhe’llchuckleoverthisnews!,Ihopehewillcometonight。 Itwillbealltooneabettermatchforyoursister。 Twothousandayearwithoutdebtordrawback——exceptthelittlelove-child,indeed;aye,Ihadforgother; butshemaybe’prenticedoutatasmallcost,andthenwhatdoesitsignify?,Delafordisaniceplace,Icantellyou;exactlywhatIcallaniceoldfashionedplace,fullofcomfortsandconveniences;quiteshutinwithgreatgardenwallsthatarecoveredwiththebestfruit-treesinthecountry;andsuchamulberrytreeinonecorner! Lord!howCharlotteandIdidstufftheonlytimewewerethere!,Then,thereisadove-cote,somedelightfulstew-ponds,andaveryprettycanal;andeverything,inshort,thatonecouldwishfor;and,moreover,itisclosetothechurch,andonlyaquarterofamilefromtheturnpike-road,so’tisneverdull,forifyouonlygoandsitupinanoldyewarbourbehindthehouse,youmayseeallthecarriagesthatpassalong。 Oh!’tisaniceplace!,Abutcherhardbyinthevillage,andtheparsonage-housewithinastone’sthrow。 Tomyfancy,athousandtimesprettierthanBartonPark,wheretheyareforcedtosendthreemilesfortheirmeat,andhavenotaneighbournearerthanyourmother。 Well,IshallspirituptheColonelassoonasIcan。 Oneshoulderofmutton,youknow,drivesanotherdown。 IfweCANbutputWilloughbyoutofherhead!” “Ay,ifwecandoTHAT,Ma’am,“saidElinor,“weshalldoverywellwithorwithoutColonelBrandon。” Andthenrising,shewentawaytojoinMarianne,whomshefound,assheexpected,inherownroom,leaning,insilentmisery,overthesmallremainsofafire,which,tillElinor’sentrance,hadbeenheronlylight。 “Youhadbetterleaveme,“wasallthenoticethathersisterreceivedfromher。 “Iwillleaveyou,“saidElinor,“ifyouwillgotobed。”Butthis,fromthemomentaryperversenessofimpatientsuffering,sheatfirstrefusedtodo。 Hersister’searnest,thoughgentlepersuasion,however,soonsoftenedhertocompliance,andElinorsawherlayherachingheadonthepillow,andasshehoped,inawaytogetsomequietrestbeforeshelefther。 Inthedrawing-room,whithershethenrepaired,shewassoonjoinedbyMrs。Jennings,withawine-glass,fullofsomething,inherhand。 “Mydear,“saidshe,entering,“IhavejustrecollectedthatIhavesomeofthefinestoldConstantiawineinthehousethateverwastasted,soIhavebroughtaglassofitforyoursister。Mypoorhusband!howfondhewasofit! Wheneverhehadatouchofhisoldcolickygout,hesaiditdidhimmoregoodthananythingelseintheworld。 Dotakeittoyoursister。” “DearMa’am,“repliedElinor,smilingatthedifferenceofthecomplaintsforwhichitwasrecommended,“howgoodyouare!,ButIhavejustleftMarianneinbed,and,Ihope,almostasleep;andasIthinknothingwillbeofsomuchservicetoherasrest,ifyouwillgivemeleave,Iwilldrinkthewinemyself。” Mrs。Jennings,thoughregrettingthatshehadnotbeenfiveminutesearlier,wassatisfiedwiththecompromise; andElinor,assheswallowedthechiefofit,reflected,thatthoughitseffectsonacolickygoutwere,atpresent,oflittleimportancetoher,itshealingpowers,onadisappointedheartmightbeasreasonablytriedonherselfasonhersister。 ColonelBrandoncameinwhilethepartywereattea,andbyhismanneroflookingroundtheroomforMarianne,Elinorimmediatelyfanciedthatheneitherexpectednorwishedtoseeherthere,and,inshort,thathewasalreadyawareofwhatoccasionedherabsence。 Mrs。Jenningswasnotstruckbythesamethought; forsoonafterhisentrance,shewalkedacrosstheroomtothetea-tablewhereElinorpresided,andwhispered—— “TheColonellooksasgraveaseveryousee。Heknowsnothingofit;dotellhim,mydear。” Heshortlyafterwardsdrewachairclosetoher’s,and,withalookwhichperfectlyassuredherofhisgoodinformation,inquiredafterhersister。 “Marianneisnotwell,“saidshe。”Shehasbeenindisposedallday,andwehavepersuadedhertogotobed。” “Perhaps,then,“hehesitatinglyreplied,“whatI heardthismorningmaybe——theremaybemoretruthinitthanIcouldbelievepossibleatfirst。” “Whatdidyouhear?” “Thatagentleman,whomIhadreasontothink——inshort,thataman,whomIKNEWtobeengaged——buthowshallI tellyou?,Ifyouknowitalready,assurelyyoumust,Imaybespared。” “Youmean,“answeredElinor,withforcedcalmness,“Mr。Willoughby’smarriagewithMissGrey。Yes,weDO knowitall。Thisseemstohavebeenadayofgeneralelucidation,forthisverymorningfirstunfoldedittous。 Mr。Willoughbyisunfathomable!,Wheredidyouhearit?” “Inastationer’sshopinPallMall,whereI hadbusiness。Twoladieswerewaitingfortheircarriage,andoneofthemwasgivingtheotheranaccountoftheintendedmatch,inavoicesolittleattemptingconcealment,thatitwasimpossibleformenottohearall。ThenameofWilloughby,JohnWilloughby,frequentlyrepeated,firstcaughtmyattention;andwhatfollowedwasapositiveassertionthateverythingwasnowfinallysettledrespectinghismarriagewithMissGrey——itwasnolongertobeasecret——itwouldtakeplaceevenwithinafewweeks,withmanyparticularsofpreparationsandothermatters。 Onething,especially,Iremember,becauseitservedtoidentifythemanstillmore:——assoonastheceremonywasover,theyweretogotoCombeMagna,hisseatinSomersetshire。Myastonishment!——butitwouldbeimpossibletodescribewhatIfelt。ThecommunicativeladyIlearnt,oninquiry,forIstayedintheshoptilltheyweregone,wasaMrs。Ellison,andthat,asI havebeensinceinformed,isthenameofMissGrey’sguardian。” “Itis。ButhaveyoulikewiseheardthatMissGreyhasfiftythousandpounds?,Inthat,ifinanything,wemayfindanexplanation。” “Itmaybeso;butWilloughbyiscapable——atleastIthink“——hestoppedamoment;thenaddedinavoicewhichseemedtodistrustitself,“Andyoursister—— howdidshe——“ “Hersufferingshavebeenverysevere。 Ihaveonlytohopethattheymaybeproportionatelyshort。 Ithasbeen,itisamostcruelaffliction。Tillyesterday,Ibelieve,sheneverdoubtedhisregard;andevennow,perhaps——butIamalmostconvincedthatheneverwasreallyattachedtoher。Hehasbeenverydeceitful!and,insomepoints,thereseemsahardnessofheartabouthim。” “Ah!”saidColonelBrandon,“thereis,indeed! Butyoursisterdoesnot——Ithinkyousaidso——shedoesnotconsiderquiteasyoudo?” “Youknowherdisposition,andmaybelievehoweagerlyshewouldstilljustifyhimifshecould。” Hemadenoanswer;andsoonafterwards,bytheremovalofthetea-things,andthearrangementofthecardparties,thesubjectwasnecessarilydropped。Mrs。Jennings,whohadwatchedthemwithpleasurewhiletheyweretalking,andwhoexpectedtoseetheeffectofMissDashwood’scommunication,insuchaninstantaneousgaietyonColonelBrandon’sside,asmighthavebecomeamaninthebloomofyouth,ofhopeandhappiness,sawhim,withamazement,remainthewholeeveningmoreseriousandthoughtfulthanusual。 chapter31 CHAPTER,31 Fromanightofmoresleepthanshehadexpected,Marianneawokethenextmorningtothesameconsciousnessofmiseryinwhichshehadclosedhereyes。 Elinorencouragedherasmuchaspossibletotalkofwhatshefelt;andbeforebreakfastwasready,theyhadgonethroughthesubjectagainandagain;andwiththesamesteadyconvictionandaffectionatecounselonElinor’sside,thesameimpetuousfeelingsandvaryingopinionsonMarianne’s,asbefore。SometimesshecouldbelieveWilloughbytobeasunfortunateandasinnocentasherself,andatothers,losteveryconsolationintheimpossibilityofacquittinghim。Atonemomentshewasabsolutelyindifferenttotheobservationofalltheworld,atanothershewouldsecludeherselffromitforever,andatathirdcouldresistitwithenergy。Inonething,however,shewasuniform,whenitcametothepoint,inavoiding,whereitwaspossible,thepresenceofMrs。Jennings,andinadeterminedsilencewhenobligedtoendureit。 HerheartwashardenedagainstthebeliefofMrs。Jennings’senteringintohersorrowswithanycompassion。 “No,no,no,itcannotbe,“shecried; “shecannotfeel。Herkindnessisnotsympathy; hergood-natureisnottenderness。Allthatshewantsisgossip,andsheonlylikesmenowbecauseIsupplyit。” Elinorhadnotneededthistobeassuredoftheinjusticetowhichhersisterwasoftenledinheropinionofothers,bytheirritablerefinementofherownmind,andthetoogreatimportanceplacedbyheronthedelicaciesofastrongsensibility,andthegracesofapolishedmanner。 Likehalftherestoftheworld,ifmorethanhalftherebethatarecleverandgood,Marianne,withexcellentabilitiesandanexcellentdisposition,wasneitherreasonablenorcandid。Sheexpectedfromotherpeoplethesameopinionsandfeelingsasherown,andshejudgedoftheirmotivesbytheimmediateeffectoftheiractionsonherself。Thusacircumstanceoccurred,whilethesistersweretogetherintheirownroomafterbreakfast,whichsunktheheartofMrs。Jenningsstilllowerinherestimation;because,throughherownweakness,itchancedtoproveasourceoffreshpaintoherself,thoughMrs。Jenningswasgovernedinitbyanimpulseoftheutmostgoodwill。 Withaletterinheroutstretchedhand,andcountenancegailysmiling,fromthepersuasionofbringingcomfort,sheenteredtheirroom,saying,“Now,mydear,IbringyousomethingthatI amsurewilldoyougood。” Marianneheardenough。InonemomentherimaginationplacedbeforeheraletterfromWilloughby,fulloftendernessandcontrition,explanatoryofallthathadpassed,satisfactory,convincing;andinstantlyfollowedbyWilloughbyhimself,rushingeagerlyintotheroomtoinforce,atherfeet,bytheeloquenceofhiseyes,theassurancesofhisletter。 Theworkofonemomentwasdestroyedbythenext。 Thehandwritingofhermother,nevertillthenunwelcome,wasbeforeher;and,intheacutenessofthedisappointmentwhichfollowedsuchanecstasyofmorethanhope,shefeltasif,tillthatinstant,shehadneversuffered。 ThecrueltyofMrs。Jenningsnolanguage,withinherreachinhermomentsofhappiesteloquence,couldhaveexpressed;andnowshecouldreproachheronlybythetearswhichstreamedfromhereyeswithpassionateviolence——areproach,however,soentirelylostonitsobject,thataftermanyexpressionsofpity,shewithdrew,stillreferringhertotheletterofcomfort。 Buttheletter,whenshewascalmenoughtoreadit,broughtlittlecomfort。Willoughbyfilledeverypage。 Hermother,stillconfidentoftheirengagement,andrelyingaswarmlyaseveronhisconstancy,hadonlybeenrousedbyElinor’sapplication,tointreatfromMariannegreateropennesstowardsthemboth;andthis,withsuchtendernesstowardsher,suchaffectionforWilloughby,andsuchaconvictionoftheirfuturehappinessineachother,thatsheweptwithagonythroughthewholeofit。 Allherimpatiencetobeathomeagainnowreturned; hermotherwasdearertoherthanever;dearerthroughtheveryexcessofhermistakenconfidenceinWilloughby,andshewaswildlyurgenttobegone。Elinor,unableherselftodeterminewhetheritwerebetterforMariannetobeinLondonoratBarton,offerednocounselofherownexceptofpatiencetilltheirmother’swishescouldbeknown; andatlengthsheobtainedhersister’sconsenttowaitforthatknowledge。 Mrs。Jenningsleftthemearlierthanusual; forshecouldnotbeeasytilltheMiddletonsandPalmerswereabletogrieveasmuchasherself;andpositivelyrefusingElinor’sofferedattendance,wentoutalonefortherestofthemorning。Elinor,withaveryheavyheart,awareofthepainshewasgoingtocommunicate,andperceiving,byMarianne’sletter,howillshehadsucceededinlayinganyfoundationforit,thensatdowntowritehermotheranaccountofwhathadpassed,andentreatherdirectionsforthefuture;whileMarianne,whocameintothedrawing-roomonMrs。Jennings’sgoingaway,remainedfixedatthetablewhereElinorwrote,watchingtheadvancementofherpen,grievingoverherforthehardshipofsuchatask,andgrievingstillmorefondlyoveritseffectonhermother。 Inthismannertheyhadcontinuedaboutaquarterofanhour,whenMarianne,whosenervescouldnotthenbearanysuddennoise,wasstartledbyarapatthedoor。 “Whocanthisbe?”criedElinor。”Soearlytoo!I thoughtweHADbeensafe。” Mariannemovedtothewindow—— “ItisColonelBrandon!”saidshe,withvexation。 “WeareneversafefromHIM。” “Hewillnotcomein,asMrs。Jenningsisfromhome。” “IwillnottrusttoTHAT,“retreatingtoherownroom。 “Amanwhohasnothingtodowithhisowntimehasnoconscienceinhisintrusiononthatofothers。” Theeventprovedherconjectureright,thoughitwasfoundedoninjusticeanderror;forColonelBrandonDIDcomein;andElinor,whowasconvincedthatsolicitudeforMariannebroughthimthither,andwhosawTHATsolicitudeinhisdisturbedandmelancholylook,andinhisanxiousthoughbriefinquiryafterher,couldnotforgivehersisterforesteeminghimsolightly。 “ImetMrs。JenningsinBondStreet,“saidhe,afterthefirstsalutation,“andsheencouragedmetocomeon;andIwasthemoreeasilyencouraged,becauseIthoughtitprobablethatImightfindyoualone,whichIwasverydesirousofdoing。Myobject——mywish——mysolewishindesiringit——Ihope,Ibelieveitis——istobeameansofgivingcomfort;——no,Imustnotsaycomfort——notpresentcomfort——butconviction,lastingconvictiontoyoursister’smind。Myregardforher,foryourself,foryourmother——willyouallowmetoproveit,byrelatingsomecircumstanceswhichnothingbutaVERY sincereregard——nothingbutanearnestdesireofbeinguseful——IthinkIamjustified——thoughwheresomanyhourshavebeenspentinconvincingmyselfthatIamright,istherenotsomereasontofearImaybewrong?” Hestopped。 “Iunderstandyou,“saidElinor。”YouhavesomethingtotellmeofMr。Willoughby,thatwillopenhischaracterfarther。YourtellingitwillbethegreatestactoffriendshipthatcanbeshewnMarianne。MYgratitudewillbeinsuredimmediatelybyanyinformationtendingtothatend,andHERS mustbegainedbyitintime。Pray,prayletmehearit。” “Youshall;and,tobebrief,whenIquittedBartonlastOctober,——butthiswillgiveyounoidea——Imustgofartherback。Youwillfindmeaveryawkwardnarrator,MissDashwood;Ihardlyknowwheretobegin。Ashortaccountofmyself,Ibelieve,willbenecessary,anditSHALLbeashortone。Onsuchasubject,“sighingheavily,“canIhavelittletemptationtobediffuse。” Hestoptamomentforrecollection,andthen,withanothersigh,wenton。 “Youhaveprobablyentirelyforgottenaconversation—— (itisnottobesupposedthatitcouldmakeanyimpressiononyou)——aconversationbetweenusoneeveningatBartonPark——itwastheeveningofadance——inwhichIalludedtoaladyIhadonceknown,asresembling,insomemeasure,yoursisterMarianne。” “Indeed,“answeredElinor,“IhaveNOTforgottenit。” Helookedpleasedbythisremembrance,andadded,“IfIamnotdeceivedbytheuncertainty,thepartialityoftenderrecollection,thereisaverystrongresemblancebetweenthem,aswellinmindasperson。Thesamewarmthofheart,thesameeagernessoffancyandspirits。 Thisladywasoneofmynearestrelations,anorphanfromherinfancy,andundertheguardianshipofmyfather。 Ourageswerenearlythesame,andfromourearliestyearswewereplayfellowsandfriends。IcannotrememberthetimewhenIdidnotloveEliza;andmyaffectionforher,aswegrewup,wassuch,asperhaps,judgingfrommypresentforlornandcheerlessgravity,youmightthinkmeincapableofhavingeverfelt。Her’s,forme,was,Ibelieve,ferventastheattachmentofyoursistertoMr。Willoughbyanditwas,thoughfromadifferentcause,nolessunfortunate。 Atseventeenshewaslosttomeforever。Shewasmarried——marriedagainstherinclinationtomybrother。 Herfortunewaslarge,andourfamilyestatemuchencumbered。 Andthis,Ifear,isallthatcanbesaidfortheconductofone,whowasatonceheruncleandguardian。 Mybrotherdidnotdeserveher;hedidnotevenloveher。 Ihadhopedthatherregardformewouldsupportherunderanydifficulty,andforsometimeitdid;butatlastthemiseryofhersituation,forsheexperiencedgreatunkindness,overcameallherresolution,andthoughshehadpromisedmethatnothing——buthowblindlyI relate!,Ihavenevertoldyouhowthiswasbroughton。 WewerewithinafewhoursofelopingtogetherforScotland。 Thetreachery,orthefolly,ofmycousin’smaidbetrayedus。 Iwasbanishedtothehouseofarelationfardistant,andshewasallowednoliberty,nosociety,noamusement,tillmyfather’spointwasgained。Ihaddependedonherfortitudetoofar,andtheblowwasasevereone—— buthadhermarriagebeenhappy,soyoungasIthenwas,afewmonthsmusthavereconciledmetoit,oratleastIshouldnothavenowtolamentit。Thishoweverwasnotthecase。Mybrotherhadnoregardforher; hispleasureswerenotwhattheyoughttohavebeen,andfromthefirsthetreatedherunkindly。Theconsequenceofthis,uponamindsoyoung,solively,soinexperiencedasMrs。Brandon’s,wasbuttoonatural。Sheresignedherselfatfirsttoallthemiseryofhersituation; andhappyhaditbeenifshehadnotlivedtoovercomethoseregretswhichtheremembranceofmeoccasioned。Butcanwewonderthat,withsuchahusbandtoprovokeinconstancy,andwithoutafriendtoadviseorrestrainher(formyfatherlivedonlyafewmonthsaftertheirmarriage,andIwaswithmyregimentintheEastIndies)sheshouldfall?,HadIremainedinEngland,perhaps——butI meanttopromotethehappinessofbothbyremovingfromherforyears,andforthatpurposehadprocuredmyexchange。Theshockwhichhermarriagehadgivenme,“ hecontinued,inavoiceofgreatagitation,“wasoftriflingweight——wasnothingtowhatIfeltwhenIheard,abouttwoyearsafterwards,ofherdivorce。ItwasTHATwhichthrewthisgloom,——evennowtherecollectionofwhatIsuffered——“ Hecouldsaynomore,andrisinghastilywalkedforafewminutesabouttheroom。Elinor,affectedbyhisrelation,andstillmorebyhisdistress,couldnotspeak。Hesawherconcern,andcomingtoher,tookherhand,pressedit,andkisseditwithgratefulrespect。Afewminutesmoreofsilentexertionenabledhimtoproceedwithcomposure。 “ItwasnearlythreeyearsafterthisunhappyperiodbeforeIreturnedtoEngland。Myfirstcare,whenIDIDarrive,wasofcoursetoseekforher; butthesearchwasasfruitlessasitwasmelancholy。 Icouldnottraceherbeyondherfirstseducer,andtherewaseveryreasontofearthatshehadremovedfromhimonlytosinkdeeperinalifeofsin。Herlegalallowancewasnotadequatetoherfortune,norsufficientforhercomfortablemaintenance,andIlearntfrommybrotherthatthepowerofreceivingithadbeenmadeoversomemonthsbeforetoanotherperson。Heimagined,andcalmlycouldheimagineit,thatherextravagance,andconsequentdistress,hadobligedhertodisposeofitforsomeimmediaterelief。 Atlast,however,andafterIhadbeensixmonthsinEngland,IDIDfindher。Regardforaformerservantofmyown,whohadsincefallenintomisfortune,carriedmetovisithiminaspunging-house,wherehewasconfinedfordebt; andthere,thesamehouse,underasimilarconfinement,wasmyunfortunatesister。Soaltered——sofaded——worndownbyacutesufferingofeverykind!hardlycouldI believethemelancholyandsicklyfigurebeforeme,tobetheremainsofthelovely,blooming,healthfulgirl,onwhomIhadoncedoted。WhatIenduredinsobeholdingher——butIhavenorighttowoundyourfeelingsbyattemptingtodescribeit——Ihavepainedyoutoomuchalready。 Thatshewas,toallappearance,inthelaststageofaconsumption,was——yes,insuchasituationitwasmygreatestcomfort。Lifecoulddonothingforher,beyondgivingtimeforabetterpreparationfordeath; andthatwasgiven。Isawherplacedincomfortablelodgings,andunderproperattendants;Ivisitedhereverydayduringtherestofhershortlife:Iwaswithherinherlastmoments。” Againhestoppedtorecoverhimself;andElinorspokeherfeelingsinanexclamationoftenderconcern,atthefateofhisunfortunatefriend。 “Yoursister,Ihope,cannotbeoffended,“ saidhe,“bytheresemblanceIhavefanciedbetweenherandmypoordisgracedrelation。Theirfates,theirfortunes,cannotbethesame;andhadthenaturalsweetdispositionoftheonebeenguardedbyafirmermind,orahappiermarriage,shemighthavebeenallthatyouwilllivetoseetheotherbe。Buttowhatdoesallthislead?,Iseemtohavebeendistressingyoufornothing。 Ah!MissDashwood——asubjectsuchasthis——untouchedforfourteenyears——itisdangeroustohandleitatall! IWILLbemorecollected——moreconcise。Shelefttomycareheronlychild,alittlegirl,theoffspringofherfirstguiltyconnection,whowasthenaboutthreeyearsold。 Shelovedthechild,andhadalwayskeptitwithher。 Itwasavalued,aprecioustrusttome;andgladlywouldIhavedischargeditinthestrictestsense,bywatchingoverhereducationmyself,hadthenatureofoursituationsallowedit;butIhadnofamily,nohome; andmylittleElizawasthereforeplacedatschool。 IsawhertherewheneverIcould,andafterthedeathofmybrother,(whichhappenedaboutfiveyearsago,andwhichlefttomethepossessionofthefamilyproperty,)shevisitedmeatDelaford。Icalledheradistantrelation; butIamwellawarethatIhaveingeneralbeensuspectedofamuchnearerconnectionwithher。Itisnowthreeyearsago(shehadjustreachedherfourteenthyear,) thatIremovedherfromschool,toplaceherunderthecareofaveryrespectablewoman,residinginDorsetshire,whohadthechargeoffourorfiveothergirlsofaboutthesametimeoflife;andfortwoyearsIhadeveryreasontobepleasedwithhersituation。ButlastFebruary,almostatwelvemonthback,shesuddenlydisappeared。 Ihadallowedher,(imprudently,asithassinceturnedout,)atherearnestdesire,togotoBathwithoneofheryoungfriends,whowasattendingherfatherthereforhishealth。Iknewhimtobeaverygoodsortofman,andIthoughtwellofhisdaughter——betterthanshedeserved,for,withamostobstinateandill-judgedsecrecy,shewouldtellnothing,wouldgivenoclue,thoughshecertainlyknewall。He,herfather,awell-meaning,butnotaquick-sightedman,couldreally,Ibelieve,givenoinformation;forhehadbeengenerallyconfinedtothehouse,whilethegirlswererangingoverthetownandmakingwhatacquaintancetheychose;andhetriedtoconvinceme,asthoroughlyashewasconvincedhimself,ofhisdaughter’sbeingentirelyunconcernedinthebusiness。 Inshort,Icouldlearnnothingbutthatshewasgone; alltherest,foreightlongmonths,waslefttoconjecture。 WhatIthought,whatIfeared,maybeimagined;andwhatI sufferedtoo。” “Goodheavens!”criedElinor,“coulditbe——couldWilloughby!”—— “Thefirstnewsthatreachedmeofher,“hecontinued,“cameinaletterfromherself,lastOctober。 ItwasforwardedtomefromDelaford,andIreceiveditontheverymorningofourintendedpartytoWhitwell; andthiswasthereasonofmyleavingBartonsosuddenly,whichIamsuremustatthetimehaveappearedstrangetoeverybody,andwhichIbelievegaveoffencetosome。 LittledidMr。Willoughbyimagine,Isuppose,whenhislookscensuredmeforincivilityinbreakinguptheparty,thatIwascalledawaytothereliefofonewhomhehadmadepoorandmiserable;butHADheknownit,whatwouldithaveavailed?,Wouldhehavebeenlessgayorlesshappyinthesmilesofyoursister?,No,hehadalreadydonethat,whichnomanwhoCANfeelforanotherwoulddo。Hehadleftthegirlwhoseyouthandinnocencehehadseduced,inasituationoftheutmostdistress,withnocreditablehome,nohelp,nofriends,ignorantofhisaddress!,Hehadlefther,promisingtoreturn;heneitherreturned,norwrote,norrelievedher。” “Thisisbeyondeverything!”exclaimedElinor。 “Hischaracterisnowbeforeyou;expensive,dissipated,andworsethanboth。Knowingallthis,asIhavenowknownitmanyweeks,guesswhatImusthavefeltonseeingyoursisterasfondofhimasever,andonbeingassuredthatshewastomarryhim:guesswhatImusthavefeltforallyoursakes。WhenIcametoyoulastweekandfoundyoualone,Icamedeterminedtoknowthetruth; thoughirresolutewhattodowhenitWASknown。 Mybehaviourmusthaveseemedstrangetoyouthen; butnowyouwillcomprehendit。Tosufferyoualltobesodeceived;toseeyoursister——butwhatcouldIdo? Ihadnohopeofinterferingwithsuccess;andsometimesIthoughtyoursister’sinfluencemightyetreclaimhim。 Butnow,aftersuchdishonorableusage,whocantellwhatwerehisdesignsonher。Whatevertheymayhavebeen,however,shemaynow,andhereafterdoubtlessWILL turnwithgratitudetowardsherowncondition,whenshecomparesitwiththatofmypoorEliza,whensheconsidersthewretchedandhopelesssituationofthispoorgirl,andpictureshertoherself,withanaffectionforhimsostrong,stillasstrongasherown,andwithamindtormentedbyself-reproach,whichmustattendherthroughlife。 Surelythiscomparisonmusthaveitsusewithher。 Shewillfeelherownsufferingstobenothing。Theyproceedfromnomisconduct,andcanbringnodisgrace。 Onthecontrary,everyfriendmustbemadestillmoreherfriendbythem。Concernforherunhappiness,andrespectforherfortitudeunderit,muststrengtheneveryattachment。Useyourowndiscretion,however,incommunicatingtoherwhatIhavetoldyou。Youmustknowbestwhatwillbeitseffect;buthadInotseriously,andfrommyheartbelieveditmightbeofservice,mightlessenherregrets,Iwouldnothavesufferedmyselftotroubleyouwiththisaccountofmyfamilyafflictions,witharecitalwhichmayseemtohavebeenintendedtoraisemyselfattheexpenseofothers。” Elinor’sthanksfollowedthisspeechwithgratefulearnestness;attendedtoowiththeassuranceofherexpectingmaterialadvantagetoMarianne,fromthecommunicationofwhathadpassed。 “Ihavebeenmorepained,“saidshe,“byherendeavorstoacquithimthanbyalltherest;foritirritateshermindmorethanthemostperfectconvictionofhisunworthinesscando。Now,thoughatfirstshewillsuffermuch,Iamsureshewillsoonbecomeeasier。 Haveyou,“shecontinued,afterashortsilence,“everseenMr。WilloughbysinceyoulefthimatBarton?” “Yes,“herepliedgravely,“onceIhave。 Onemeetingwasunavoidable。” Elinor,startledbyhismanner,lookedathimanxiously,saying,“What?haveyoumethimto——“ “Icouldmeethimnootherway。Elizahadconfessedtome,thoughmostreluctantly,thenameofherlover; andwhenhereturnedtotown,whichwaswithinafortnightaftermyself,wemetbyappointment,hetodefend,Itopunishhisconduct。Wereturnedunwounded,andthemeeting,therefore,nevergotabroad。” Elinorsighedoverthefanciednecessityofthis; buttoamanandasoldiershepresumednottocensureit。 “Such,“saidColonelBrandon,afterapause,“hasbeentheunhappyresemblancebetweenthefateofmotheranddaughter!andsoimperfectlyhaveIdischargedmytrust!” “Isshestillintown?” “No;assoonassherecoveredfromherlying-in,forIfoundhernearherdelivery,Iremovedherandherchildintothecountry,andtheresheremains。” Recollecting,soonafterwards,thathewasprobablydividingElinorfromhersister,heputanendtohisvisit,receivingfromheragainthesamegratefulacknowledgments,andleavingherfullofcompassionandesteemforhim。 chapter32 CHAPTER32 WhentheparticularsofthisconversationwererepeatedbyMissDashwoodtohersister,astheyverysoonwere,theeffectonherwasnotentirelysuchastheformerhadhopedtosee。NotthatMarianneappearedtodistrustthetruthofanypartofit,forshelistenedtoitallwiththemoststeadyandsubmissiveattention,madeneitherobjectionnorremark,attemptednovindicationofWilloughby,andseemedtoshewbyhertearsthatshefeltittobeimpossible。ButthoughthisbehaviourassuredElinorthattheconvictionofthisguiltWAScarriedhometohermind,thoughshesawwithsatisfactiontheeffectofit,inhernolongeravoidingColonelBrandonwhenhecalled,inherspeakingtohim,evenvoluntarilyspeaking,withakindofcompassionaterespect,andthoughshesawherspiritslessviolentlyirritatedthanbefore,shedidnotseeherlesswretched。Herminddidbecomesettled,butitwassettledinagloomydejection。 ShefeltthelossofWilloughby’scharacteryetmoreheavilythanshehadfeltthelossofhisheart;hisseductionanddesertionofMissWilliams,themiseryofthatpoorgirl,andthedoubtofwhathisdesignsmightONCEhavebeenonherself,preyedaltogethersomuchonherspirits,thatshecouldnotbringherselftospeakofwhatshefelteventoElinor;and,broodingoverhersorrowsinsilence,gavemorepaintohersisterthancouldhavebeencommunicatedbythemostopenandmostfrequentconfessionofthem。 TogivethefeelingsorthelanguageofMrs。 DashwoodonreceivingandansweringElinor’sletterwouldbeonlytogivearepetitionofwhatherdaughtershadalreadyfeltandsaid;ofadisappointmenthardlylesspainfulthanMarianne’s,andanindignationevengreaterthanElinor’s。 Longlettersfromher,quicklysucceedingeachother,arrivedtotellallthatshesufferedandthought; toexpressheranxioussolicitudeforMarianne,andentreatshewouldbearupwithfortitudeunderthismisfortune。 BadindeedmustthenatureofMarianne’safflictionbe,whenhermothercouldtalkoffortitude!mortifyingandhumiliatingmustbetheoriginofthoseregrets,whichSHEcouldwishhernottoindulge! Againsttheinterestofherownindividualcomfort,Mrs。DashwoodhaddeterminedthatitwouldbebetterforMariannetobeanywhere,atthattime,thanatBarton,whereeverythingwithinherviewwouldbebringingbackthepastinthestrongestandmostafflictingmanner,byconstantlyplacingWilloughbybeforeher,suchasshehadalwaysseenhimthere。Sherecommendedittoherdaughters,therefore,byallmeansnottoshortentheirvisittoMrs。Jennings;thelengthofwhich,thoughneverexactlyfixed,hadbeenexpectedbyalltocompriseatleastfiveorsixweeks。Avarietyofoccupations,ofobjects,andofcompany,whichcouldnotbeprocuredatBarton,wouldbeinevitablethere,andmightyet,shehoped,cheatMarianne,attimes,intosomeinterestbeyondherself,andevenintosomeamusement,muchastheideasofbothmightnowbespurnedbyher。 FromalldangerofseeingWilloughbyagain,hermotherconsideredhertobeatleastequallysafeintownasinthecountry,sincehisacquaintancemustnowbedroppedbyallwhocalledthemselvesherfriends。 Designcouldneverbringthemineachother’sway: negligencecouldneverleavethemexposedtoasurprise; andchancehadlessinitsfavourinthecrowdofLondonthanevenintheretirementofBarton,whereitmightforcehimbeforeherwhilepayingthatvisitatAllenhamonhismarriage,whichMrs。Dashwood,fromforeseeingatfirstasaprobableevent,hadbroughtherselftoexpectasacertainone。 Shehadyetanotherreasonforwishingherchildrentoremainwheretheywere;aletterfromherson-in-lawhadtoldherthatheandhiswifeweretobeintownbeforethemiddleofFebruary,andshejudgeditrightthattheyshouldsometimesseetheirbrother。 Mariannehadpromisedtobeguidedbyhermother’sopinion,andshesubmittedtoitthereforewithoutopposition,thoughitprovedperfectlydifferentfromwhatshewishedandexpected,thoughshefeltittobeentirelywrong,formedonmistakengrounds,andthatbyrequiringherlongercontinuanceinLondonitdeprivedheroftheonlypossiblealleviationofherwretchedness,thepersonalsympathyofhermother,anddoomedhertosuchsocietyandsuchscenesasmustpreventhereverknowingamoment’srest。 Butitwasamatterofgreatconsolationtoher,thatwhatbroughteviltoherselfwouldbringgoodtohersister;andElinor,ontheotherhand,suspectingthatitwouldnotbeinherpowertoavoidEdwardentirely,comfortedherselfbythinking,thatthoughtheirlongerstaywouldthereforemilitateagainstherownhappiness,itwouldbebetterforMariannethananimmediatereturnintoDevonshire。 HercarefulnessinguardinghersisterfromeverhearingWilloughby’snamementioned,wasnotthrownaway。 Marianne,thoughwithoutknowingitherself,reapedallitsadvantage;forneitherMrs。Jennings,norSirJohn,norevenMrs。Palmerherself,everspokeofhimbeforeher。 Elinorwishedthatthesameforbearancecouldhaveextendedtowardsherself,butthatwasimpossible,andshewasobligedtolistendayafterdaytotheindignationofthemall。 SirJohn,couldnothavethoughtitpossible。 “Amanofwhomhehadalwayshadsuchreasontothinkwell! Suchagood-naturedfellow!,HedidnotbelievetherewasabolderriderinEngland!,Itwasanunaccountablebusiness。 Hewishedhimatthedevilwithallhisheart。Hewouldnotspeakanotherwordtohim,meethimwherehemight,foralltheworld!,No,notifitweretobebythesideofBartoncovert,andtheywerekeptwatchingfortwohourstogether。Suchascoundrelofafellow!suchadeceitfuldog!,ItwasonlythelasttimetheymetthathehadofferedhimoneofFolly’spuppies!andthiswastheendofit!” Mrs。Palmer,inherway,wasequallyangry。 “Shewasdeterminedtodrophisacquaintanceimmediately,andshewasverythankfulthatshehadneverbeenacquaintedwithhimatall。ShewishedwithallherheartCombeMagnawasnotsonearCleveland;butitdidnotsignify,foritwasagreatdealtoofarofftovisit;shehatedhimsomuchthatshewasresolvednevertomentionhisnameagain,andsheshouldtelleverybodyshesaw,howgood-for-nothinghewas。” TherestofMrs。Palmer’ssympathywasshewninprocuringalltheparticularsinherpoweroftheapproachingmarriage,andcommunicatingthemtoElinor。Shecouldsoontellatwhatcoachmaker’sthenewcarriagewasbuilding,bywhatpainterMr。Willoughby’sportraitwasdrawn,andatwhatwarehouseMissGrey’sclothesmightbeseen。 ThecalmandpoliteunconcernofLadyMiddletonontheoccasionwasahappyrelieftoElinor’sspirits,oppressedastheyoftenwerebytheclamorouskindnessoftheothers。ItwasagreatcomforttohertobesureofexcitingnointerestinONEpersonatleastamongtheircircleoffriends:agreatcomforttoknowthattherewasONEwhowouldmeetherwithoutfeelinganycuriosityafterparticulars,oranyanxietyforhersister’shealth。 Everyqualificationisraisedattimes,bythecircumstancesofthemoment,tomorethanitsrealvalue; andshewassometimesworrieddownbyofficiouscondolencetorategood-breedingasmoreindispensabletocomfortthangood-nature。 LadyMiddletonexpressedhersenseoftheaffairaboutonceeveryday,ortwice,ifthesubjectoccurredveryoften,bysaying,“Itisveryshocking,indeed!” andbythemeansofthiscontinualthoughgentlevent,wasablenotonlytoseetheMissDashwoodsfromthefirstwithoutthesmallestemotion,butverysoontoseethemwithoutrecollectingawordofthematter; andhavingthussupportedthedignityofherownsex,andspokenherdecidedcensureofwhatwaswrongintheother,shethoughtherselfatlibertytoattendtotheinterestofherownassemblies,andthereforedetermined(thoughratheragainsttheopinionofSirJohn) thatasMrs。Willoughbywouldatoncebeawomanofeleganceandfortune,toleavehercardwithherassoonasshemarried。 ColonelBrandon’sdelicate,unobtrusiveenquirieswereneverunwelcometoMissDashwood。Hehadabundantlyearnedtheprivilegeofintimatediscussionofhersister’sdisappointment,bythefriendlyzealwithwhichhehadendeavouredtosoftenit,andtheyalwaysconversedwithconfidence。Hischiefrewardforthepainfulexertionofdisclosingpastsorrowsandpresenthumiliations,wasgiveninthepityingeyewithwhichMariannesometimesobservedhim,andthegentlenessofhervoicewhenever(thoughitdidnotoftenhappen) shewasobliged,orcouldobligeherselftospeaktohim。 THESEassuredhimthathisexertionhadproducedanincreaseofgood-willtowardshimself,andTHESEgaveElinorhopesofitsbeingfartheraugmentedhereafter; butMrs。Jennings,whoknewnothingofallthis,whoknewonlythattheColonelcontinuedasgraveasever,andthatshecouldneitherprevailonhimtomaketheofferhimself,norcommissionhertomakeitforhim,began,attheendoftwodays,tothinkthat,insteadofMidsummer,theywouldnotbemarriedtillMichaelmas,andbytheendofaweekthatitwouldnotbeamatchatall。 ThegoodunderstandingbetweentheColonelandMissDashwoodseemedrathertodeclarethatthehonoursofthemulberry-tree,thecanal,andtheyewarbour,wouldallbemadeovertoHER;andMrs。Jenningshad,forsometimeceasedtothinkatallofMrs。Ferrars。 EarlyinFebruary,withinafortnightfromthereceiptofWilloughby’sletter,Elinorhadthepainfulofficeofinforminghersisterthathewasmarried。 Shehadtakencaretohavetheintelligenceconveyedtoherself,assoonasitwasknownthattheceremonywasover,asshewasdesirousthatMarianneshouldnotreceivethefirstnoticeofitfromthepublicpapers,whichshesawhereagerlyexaminingeverymorning。 Shereceivedthenewswithresolutecomposure; madenoobservationonit,andatfirstshednotears; butafterashorttimetheywouldburstout,andfortherestoftheday,shewasinastatehardlylesspitiablethanwhenshefirstlearnttoexpecttheevent。 TheWilloughbyslefttownassoonastheyweremarried; andElinornowhoped,astherecouldbenodangerofherseeingeitherofthem,toprevailonhersister,whohadneveryetleftthehousesincetheblowfirstfell,togooutagainbydegreesasshehaddonebefore。 AboutthistimethetwoMissSteeles,latelyarrivedattheircousin’shouseinBartlett’sBuildings,Holburn,presentedthemselvesagainbeforetheirmoregrandrelationsinConduitandBerkeleyStreets; andwerewelcomedbythemallwithgreatcordiality。 Elinoronlywassorrytoseethem。Theirpresencealwaysgaveherpain,andshehardlyknewhowtomakeaverygraciousreturntotheoverpoweringdelightofLucyinfindingherSTILLintown。 “IshouldhavebeenquitedisappointedifI hadnotfoundyouhereSTILL,“saidsherepeatedly,withastrongemphasisontheword。”ButIalwaysthoughtISHOULD。 IwasalmostsureyouwouldnotleaveLondonyetawhile; thoughyouTOLDme,youknow,atBarton,thatyoushouldnotstayaboveaMONTH。ButIthought,atthetime,thatyouwouldmostlikelychangeyourmindwhenitcametothepoint。Itwouldhavebeensuchagreatpitytohavewentawaybeforeyourbrotherandsistercame。 Andnowtobesureyouwillbeinnohurrytobegone。 IamamazinglygladyoudidnotkeeptoYOURWORD。” Elinorperfectlyunderstoodher,andwasforcedtouseallherself-commandtomakeitappearthatshedidNOT。 “Well,mydear,“saidMrs。Jennings,“andhowdidyoutravel?” “Notinthestage,Iassureyou,“repliedMissSteele,withquickexultation;“wecamepostalltheway,andhadaverysmartbeautoattendus。Dr。Davieswascomingtotown,andsowethoughtwe’djoinhiminapost-chaise; andhebehavedverygenteelly,andpaidtenortwelveshillingsmorethanwedid。” “Oh,oh!”criedMrs。Jennings;“verypretty,indeed!andtheDoctorisasingleman,Iwarrantyou。” “Therenow,“saidMissSteele,affectedlysimpering,“everybodylaughsatmesoabouttheDoctor,andI cannotthinkwhy。MycousinssaytheyaresureIhavemadeaconquest;butformypartIdeclareIneverthinkabouthimfromonehour’sendtoanother。’Lord!herecomesyourbeau,Nancy,’mycousinsaidt’otherday,whenshesawhimcrossingthestreettothehouse。 Mybeau,indeed!saidI——Icannotthinkwhoyoumean。 TheDoctorisnobeauofmine。” “Aye,aye,thatisveryprettytalking——butitwon’tdo—— theDoctoristheman,Isee。” “No,indeed!”repliedhercousin,withaffectedearnestness,“andIbegyouwillcontradictit,ifyoueverhearittalkedof。” Mrs。JenningsdirectlygaveherthegratifyingassurancethatshecertainlywouldNOT,andMissSteelewasmadecompletelyhappy。 “Isupposeyouwillgoandstaywithyourbrotherandsister,MissDashwood,whentheycometotown,“ saidLucy,returning,afteracessationofhostilehints,tothecharge。 “No,Idonotthinkweshall。” “Oh,yes,Idaresayyouwill。” Elinorwouldnothumourherbyfartheropposition。 “WhatacharmingthingitisthatMrs。Dashwoodcanspareyoubothforsolongatimetogether!” “Longatime,indeed!”interposedMrs。Jennings。 “Why,theirvisitisbutjustbegun!” Lucywassilenced。 “Iamsorrywecannotseeyoursister,MissDashwood,“ saidMissSteele。”Iamsorrysheisnotwell——“ forMariannehadlefttheroomontheirarrival。 “Youareverygood。Mysisterwillbeequallysorrytomissthepleasureofseeingyou;butshehasbeenverymuchplaguedlatelywithnervoushead-aches,whichmakeherunfitforcompanyorconversation。” “Oh,dear,thatisagreatpity!butsucholdfriendsasLucyandme!——IthinkshemightseeUS; andIamsurewewouldnotspeakaword。” Elinor,withgreatcivility,declinedtheproposal。 Hersisterwasperhapslaiddownuponthebed,orinherdressinggown,andthereforenotabletocometothem。 “Oh,ifthat’sall,“criedMissSteele,“wecanjustaswellgoandseeHER。” Elinorbegantofindthisimpertinencetoomuchforhertemper;butshewassavedthetroubleofcheckingit,byLucy’ssharpreprimand,whichnow,asonmanyoccasions,thoughitdidnotgivemuchsweetnesstothemannersofonesister,wasofadvantageingoverningthoseoftheother。 chapter33 CHAPTER33 Aftersomeopposition,Marianneyieldedtohersister’sentreaties,andconsentedtogooutwithherandMrs。Jenningsonemorningforhalfanhour。Sheexpresslyconditioned,however,forpayingnovisits,andwoulddonomorethanaccompanythemtoGray’sinSackvilleStreet,whereElinorwascarryingonanegotiationfortheexchangeofafewold-fashionedjewelsofhermother。 Whentheystoppedatthedoor,Mrs。Jenningsrecollectedthattherewasaladyattheotherendofthestreetonwhomsheoughttocall;andasshehadnobusinessatGray’s,itwasresolved,thatwhileheryoungfriendstransactedtheir’s,sheshouldpayhervisitandreturnforthem。 Onascendingthestairs,theMissDashwoodsfoundsomanypeoplebeforethemintheroom,thattherewasnotapersonatlibertytotendtotheirorders;andtheywereobligedtowait。Allthatcouldbedonewas,tositdownatthatendofthecounterwhichseemedtopromisethequickestsuccession;onegentlemanonlywasstandingthere,anditisprobablethatElinorwasnotwithouthopeofexcitinghispolitenesstoaquickerdespatch。 Butthecorrectnessofhiseye,andthedelicacyofhistaste,provedtobebeyondhispoliteness。 Hewasgivingordersforatoothpick-caseforhimself,andtillitssize,shape,andornamentsweredetermined,allofwhich,afterexamininganddebatingforaquarterofanhourovereverytoothpick-caseintheshop,werefinallyarrangedbyhisowninventivefancy,hehadnoleisuretobestowanyotherattentiononthetwoladies,thanwhatwascomprisedinthreeorfourverybroadstares; akindofnoticewhichservedtoimprintonElinortheremembranceofapersonandface,ofstrong,natural,sterlinginsignificance,thoughadornedinthefirststyleoffashion。 Mariannewassparedfromthetroublesomefeelingsofcontemptandresentment,onthisimpertinentexaminationoftheirfeatures,andonthepuppyismofhismannerindecidingonallthedifferenthorrorsofthedifferenttoothpick-casespresentedtohisinspection,byremainingunconsciousofitall;forshewasaswellabletocollectherthoughtswithinherself,andbeasignorantofwhatwaspassingaroundher,inMr。Gray’sshop,asinherownbedroom。 Atlasttheaffairwasdecided。Theivory,thegold,andthepearls,allreceivedtheirappointment,andthegentlemanhavingnamedthelastdayonwhichhisexistencecouldbecontinuedwithoutthepossessionofthetoothpick-case,drewonhisgloveswithleisurelycare,andbestowinganotherglanceontheMissDashwoods,butsuchaoneasseemedrathertodemandthanexpressadmiration,walkedoffwithahappyairofrealconceitandaffectedindifference。 Elinorlostnotimeinbringingherbusinessforward,wasonthepointofconcludingit,whenanothergentlemanpresentedhimselfatherside。Sheturnedhereyestowardshisface,andfoundhimwithsomesurprisetobeherbrother。 TheiraffectionandpleasureinmeetingwasjustenoughtomakeaverycreditableappearanceinMr。Gray’sshop。 JohnDashwoodwasreallyfarfrombeingsorrytoseehissistersagain;itrathergavethemsatisfaction; andhisinquiriesaftertheirmotherwererespectfulandattentive。 ElinorfoundthatheandFannyhadbeenintowntwodays。 “Iwishedverymuchtocalluponyouyesterday,“ saidhe,“butitwasimpossible,forwewereobligedtotakeHarrytoseethewildbeastsatExeterExchange; andwespenttherestofthedaywithMrs。Ferrars。 Harrywasvastlypleased。THISmorningIhadfullyintendedtocallonyou,ifIcouldpossiblyfindasparehalfhour,butonehasalwayssomuchtodoonfirstcomingtotown。 IamcomeheretobespeakFannyaseal。ButtomorrowI thinkIshallcertainlybeabletocallinBerkeleyStreet,andbeintroducedtoyourfriendMrs。Jennings。 Iunderstandsheisawomanofverygoodfortune。 AndtheMiddletonstoo,youmustintroducemetoTHEM。 Asmymother-in-law’srelations,Ishallbehappytoshowthemeveryrespect。Theyareexcellentneighbourstoyouinthecountry,Iunderstand。” “Excellentindeed。Theirattentiontoourcomfort,theirfriendlinessineveryparticular,ismorethanI canexpress。” “Iamextremelygladtohearit,uponmyword; extremelygladindeed。Butsoitoughttobe;theyarepeopleoflargefortune,theyarerelatedtoyou,andeverycivilityandaccommodationthatcanservetomakeyoursituationpleasantmightbereasonablyexpected。 Andsoyouaremostcomfortablysettledinyourlittlecottageandwantfornothing!,Edwardbroughtusamostcharmingaccountoftheplace:themostcompletethingofitskind,hesaid,thateverwas,andyouallseemedtoenjoyitbeyondanything。Itwasagreatsatisfactiontoustohearit,Iassureyou。” Elinordidfeelalittleashamedofherbrother; andwasnotsorrytobesparedthenecessityofansweringhim,bythearrivalofMrs。Jennings’sservant,whocametotellherthathismistresswaitedforthematthedoor。 Mr。Dashwoodattendedthemdownstairs,wasintroducedtoMrs。Jenningsatthedoorofhercarriage,andrepeatinghishopeofbeingabletocallonthemthenextday,tookleave。 Hisvisitwasdulypaid。Hecamewithapretenceatanapologyfromtheirsister-in-law,fornotcomingtoo; “butshewassomuchengagedwithhermother,thatreallyshehadnoleisureforgoinganywhere。”,Mrs。Jennings,however,assuredhimdirectly,thatsheshouldnotstanduponceremony,fortheywereallcousins,orsomethinglikeit,andsheshouldcertainlywaitonMrs。JohnDashwoodverysoon,andbringhersisterstoseeher。 HismannerstoTHEM,thoughcalm,wereperfectlykind; toMrs。Jennings,mostattentivelycivil;andonColonelBrandon’scominginsoonafterhimself,heeyedhimwithacuriositywhichseemedtosay,thatheonlywantedtoknowhimtoberich,tobeequallyciviltoHIM。 Afterstayingwiththemhalfanhour,heaskedElinortowalkwithhimtoConduitStreet,andintroducehimtoSirJohnandLadyMiddleton。Theweatherwasremarkablyfine,andshereadilyconsented。Assoonastheywereoutofthehouse,hisenquiriesbegan。 “WhoisColonelBrandon?,Isheamanoffortune?” “Yes;hehasverygoodpropertyinDorsetshire。” “Iamgladofit。Heseemsamostgentlemanlikeman; andIthink,Elinor,Imaycongratulateyouontheprospectofaveryrespectableestablishmentinlife。” “Me,brother!whatdoyoumean?” “Helikesyou。Iobservedhimnarrowly,andamconvincedofit。Whatistheamountofhisfortune?” “Ibelieveabouttwothousandayear。” “Twothousanda-year;“andthenworkinghimselfuptoapitchofenthusiasticgenerosity,headded,“Elinor,IwishwithallmyheartitwereTWICEasmuch,foryoursake。” “IndeedIbelieveyou,“repliedElinor;“butIamverysurethatColonelBrandonhasnotthesmallestwishofmarryingME。” “Youaremistaken,Elinor;youareverymuchmistaken。 Averylittletroubleonyoursidesecureshim。 Perhapsjustatpresenthemaybeundecided;thesmallnessofyourfortunemaymakehimhangback;hisfriendsmayalladvisehimagainstit。Butsomeofthoselittleattentionsandencouragementswhichladiescansoeasilygivewillfixhim,inspiteofhimself。Andtherecanbenoreasonwhyyoushouldnottryforhim。Itisnottobesupposedthatanypriorattachmentonyourside——inshort,youknowastoanattachmentofthatkind,itisquiteoutofthequestion,theobjectionsareinsurmountable—— youhavetoomuchsensenottoseeallthat。ColonelBrandonmustbetheman;andnocivilityshallbewantingonmyparttomakehimpleasedwithyouandyourfamily。 Itisamatchthatmustgiveuniversalsatisfaction。 Inshort,itisakindofthingthat“——loweringhisvoicetoanimportantwhisper——“willbeexceedinglywelcometoALLPARTIES。”Recollectinghimself,however,headded,“Thatis,Imeantosay——yourfriendsarealltrulyanxioustoseeyouwellsettled;Fannyparticularly,forshehasyourinterestverymuchatheart,Iassureyou。 Andhermothertoo,Mrs。Ferrars,averygood-naturedwoman,Iamsureitwouldgivehergreatpleasure;shesaidasmuchtheotherday。” Elinorwouldnotvouchsafeanyanswer。 “Itwouldbesomethingremarkable,now,“hecontinued,“somethingdroll,ifFannyshouldhaveabrotherandI asistersettlingatthesametime。Andyetitisnotveryunlikely。” “IsMr。EdwardFerrars,“saidElinor,withresolution,“goingtobemarried?” “Itisnotactuallysettled,butthereissuchathinginagitation。Hehasamostexcellentmother。 Mrs。Ferrars,withtheutmostliberality,willcomeforward,andsettleonhimathousandayear,ifthematchtakesplace。TheladyistheHon。MissMorton,onlydaughterofthelateLordMorton,withthirtythousandpounds。 Averydesirableconnectiononbothsides,andIhavenotadoubtofitstakingplaceintime。Athousanda-yearisagreatdealforamothertogiveaway,tomakeoverforever;butMrs。Ferrarshasanoblespirit。Togiveyouanotherinstanceofherliberality:——Theotherday,assoonaswecametotown,awarethatmoneycouldnotbeveryplentywithusjustnow,sheputbank-notesintoFanny’shandstotheamountoftwohundredpounds。 Andextremelyacceptableitis,forwemustliveatagreatexpensewhilewearehere。” Hepausedforherassentandcompassion;andsheforcedherselftosay,“Yourexpensesbothintownandcountrymustcertainlybeconsiderable;butyourincomeisalargeone。” “Notsolarge,Idaresay,asmanypeoplesuppose。 Idonotmeantocomplain,however;itisundoubtedlyacomfortableone,andIhopewillintimebebetter。 TheenclosureofNorlandCommon,nowcarryingon,isamostseriousdrain。AndthenIhavemadealittlepurchasewithinthishalfyear;EastKinghamFarm,youmustremembertheplace,whereoldGibsonusedtolive。 Thelandwassoverydesirableformeineveryrespect,soimmediatelyadjoiningmyownproperty,thatIfeltitmydutytobuyit。Icouldnothaveansweredittomyconsciencetoletitfallintoanyotherhands。Amanmustpayforhisconvenience;anditHAScostmeavastdealofmoney。” “Morethanyouthinkitreallyandintrinsicallyworth。” “Why,Ihopenotthat。Imighthavesolditagain,thenextday,formorethanIgave:but,withregardtothepurchase-money,Imighthavebeenveryunfortunateindeed; forthestockswereatthattimesolow,thatifIhadnothappenedtohavethenecessarysuminmybanker’shands,Imusthavesoldouttoverygreatloss。” Elinorcouldonlysmile。 “OthergreatandinevitableexpensestoowehavehadonfirstcomingtoNorland。Ourrespectedfather,asyouwellknow,bequeathedalltheStanhilleffectsthatremainedatNorland(andveryvaluabletheywere) toyourmother。Farbeitfrommetorepineathisdoingso;hehadanundoubtedrighttodisposeofhisownpropertyashechose,but,inconsequenceofit,wehavebeenobligedtomakelargepurchasesoflinen,china,&c。tosupplytheplaceofwhatwastakenaway。 Youmayguess,afteralltheseexpenses,howveryfarwemustbefrombeingrich,andhowacceptableMrs。Ferrars’skindnessis。” “Certainly,“saidElinor;“andassistedbyherliberality,Ihopeyoumayyetlivetobeineasycircumstances。” “Anotheryearortwomaydomuchtowardsit,“ hegravelyreplied;“buthoweverthereisstillagreatdealtobedone。ThereisnotastonelaidofFanny’sgreen-house,andnothingbuttheplanoftheflower-gardenmarkedout。” “Whereisthegreen-housetobe?” “Upontheknollbehindthehouse。Theoldwalnuttreesareallcomedowntomakeroomforit。 Itwillbeaveryfineobjectfrommanypartsofthepark,andtheflower-gardenwillslopedownjustbeforeit,andbeexceedinglypretty。Wehaveclearedawayalltheoldthornsthatgrewinpatchesoverthebrow。” Elinorkeptherconcernandhercensuretoherself; andwasverythankfulthatMariannewasnotpresent,tosharetheprovocation。 Havingnowsaidenoughtomakehispovertyclear,andtodoawaythenecessityofbuyingapairofear-ringsforeachofhissisters,inhisnextvisitatGray’shisthoughtstookacheerfullerturn,andhebegantocongratulateElinoronhavingsuchafriendasMrs。Jennings。 “Sheseemsamostvaluablewomanindeed——Herhouse,herstyleofliving,allbespeakanexceedinggoodincome; anditisanacquaintancethathasnotonlybeenofgreatusetoyouhitherto,butintheendmayprovemateriallyadvantageous——Herinvitingyoutotowniscertainlyavastthinginyourfavour;andindeed,itspeaksaltogethersogreataregardforyou,thatinallprobabilitywhenshediesyouwillnotbeforgotten—— Shemusthaveagreatdealtoleave。” “Nothingatall,Ishouldrathersuppose;forshehasonlyherjointure,whichwilldescendtoherchildren。” “Butitisnottobeimaginedthatshelivesuptoherincome。FewpeopleofcommonprudencewilldoTHAT; andwhatevershesaves,shewillbeabletodisposeof。” “Anddoyounotthinkitmorelikelythatsheshouldleaveittoherdaughters,thantous?” “Herdaughtersarebothexceedinglywellmarried,andthereforeIcannotperceivethenecessityofherrememberingthemfarther。Whereas,inmyopinion,byhertakingsomuchnoticeofyou,andtreatingyouinthiskindofway,shehasgivenyouasortofclaimonherfutureconsideration,whichaconscientiouswomanwouldnotdisregard。Nothingcanbekinderthanherbehaviour; andshecanhardlydoallthis,withoutbeingawareoftheexpectationitraises。” “Butsheraisesnoneinthosemostconcerned。 Indeed,brother,youranxietyforourwelfareandprosperitycarriesyoutoofar。” “Why,tobesure,“saidhe,seemingtorecollecthimself,“peoplehavelittle,haveverylittleintheirpower。 But,mydearElinor,whatisthematterwithMarianne?—— shelooksveryunwell,haslosthercolour,andisgrownquitethin。Issheill?” “Sheisnotwell,shehashadanervouscomplaintonherforseveralweeks。” “Iamsorryforthat。Athertimeoflife,anythingofanillnessdestroysthebloomforever! Her’shasbeenaveryshortone!,ShewasashandsomeagirllastSeptember,asIeversaw;andaslikelytoattracttheman。Therewassomethinginherstyleofbeauty,topleasethemparticularly。IrememberFannyusedtosaythatshewouldmarrysoonerandbetterthanyoudid; notbutwhatsheisexceedinglyfondofYOU,butsoithappenedtostrikeher。Shewillbemistaken,however。 IquestionwhetherMarianneNOW,willmarryamanworthmorethanfiveorsixhundreda-year,attheutmost,andIamverymuchdeceivedifYOUdonotdobetter。 Dorsetshire!,IknowverylittleofDorsetshire;but,mydearElinor,Ishallbeexceedinglygladtoknowmoreofit; andIthinkIcananswerforyourhavingFannyandmyselfamongtheearliestandbestpleasedofyourvisitors。” ElinortriedveryseriouslytoconvincehimthattherewasnolikelihoodofhermarryingColonelBrandon; butitwasanexpectationoftoomuchpleasuretohimselftoberelinquished,andhewasreallyresolvedonseekinganintimacywiththatgentleman,andpromotingthemarriagebyeverypossibleattention。Hehadjustcompunctionenoughforhavingdonenothingforhissistershimself,tobeexceedinglyanxiousthateverybodyelseshoulddoagreatdeal;andanofferfromColonelBrandon,oralegacyfromMrs。Jennings,wastheeasiestmeansofatoningforhisownneglect。 TheywereluckyenoughtofindLadyMiddletonathome,andSirJohncameinbeforetheirvisitended。 Abundanceofcivilitiespassedonallsides。SirJohnwasreadytolikeanybody,andthoughMr。Dashwooddidnotseemtoknowmuchabouthorses,hesoonsethimdownasaverygood-naturedfellow:whileLadyMiddletonsawenoughoffashioninhisappearancetothinkhisacquaintanceworthhaving;andMr。Dashwoodwentawaydelightedwithboth。 “IshallhaveacharmingaccounttocarrytoFanny,“saidhe,ashewalkedbackwithhissister。 “LadyMiddletonisreallyamostelegantwoman!,SuchawomanasIamsureFannywillbegladtoknow。 AndMrs。Jenningstoo,anexceedinglywell-behavedwoman,thoughnotsoelegantasherdaughter。YoursisterneednothaveanyscrupleevenofvisitingHER,which,tosaythetruth,hasbeenalittlethecase,andverynaturally; forweonlyknewthatMrs。Jenningswasthewidowofamanwhohadgotallhismoneyinalowway;andFannyandMrs。Ferrarswerebothstronglyprepossessed,thatneithershenorherdaughtersweresuchkindofwomenasFannywouldliketoassociatewith。ButnowIcancarryheramostsatisfactoryaccountofboth。”