第8章

类别:其他 作者:Jane Austen字数:29851更新时间:18/12/20 11:25:11
JohnDashwoodwasgreatlyastonished;buthisnaturewascalm,notopentoprovocation,andheneverwishedtooffendanybody,especiallyanybodyofgoodfortune。 Hethereforereplied,withoutanyresentment,“Iwouldbynomeansspeakdisrespectfullyofanyrelationofyours,madam。MissLucySteeleis,Idaresay,averydeservingyoungwoman,butinthepresentcaseyouknow,theconnectionmustbeimpossible。 Andtohaveenteredintoasecretengagementwithayoungmanunderheruncle’scare,thesonofawomanespeciallyofsuchverylargefortuneasMrs。Ferrars,isperhaps,altogetheralittleextraordinary。Inshort,Idonotmeantoreflectuponthebehaviourofanypersonwhomyouhavearegardfor,Mrs。Jennings。Weallwishherextremelyhappy;andMrs。Ferrars’sconductthroughoutthewhole,hasbeensuchaseveryconscientious,goodmother,inlikecircumstances,wouldadopt。Ithasbeendignifiedandliberal。Edwardhasdrawnhisownlot,andIfearitwillbeabadone。” Mariannesighedouthersimilarapprehension; andElinor’sheartwrungforthefeelingsofEdward,whilebravinghismother’sthreats,forawomanwhocouldnotrewardhim。 “Well,sir,“saidMrs。Jennings,“andhowdiditend?” “Iamsorrytosay,ma’am,inamostunhappyrupture:—— Edwardisdismissedforeverfromhismother’snotice。 Heleftherhouseyesterday,butwhereheisgone,orwhetherheisstillintown,Idonotknow;forWEofcoursecanmakenoinquiry。” “Pooryoungman!——andwhatistobecomeofhim?” “What,indeed,ma’am!,Itisamelancholyconsideration。 Borntotheprospectofsuchaffluence!,Icannotconceiveasituationmoredeplorable。Theinterestoftwothousandpounds——howcanamanliveonit?——andwhentothatisaddedtherecollection,thathemight,butforhisownfolly,withinthreemonthshavebeeninthereceiptoftwothousand,fivehundreda-year(forMissMortonhasthirtythousandpounds,)Icannotpicturetomyselfamorewretchedcondition。Wemustallfeelforhim; andthemoreso,becauseitistotallyoutofourpowertoassisthim。” “Pooryoungman!”criedMrs。Jennings,“Iamsureheshouldbeverywelcometobedandboardatmyhouse; andsoIwouldtellhimifIcouldseehim。Itisnotfitthatheshouldbelivingaboutathisownchargenow,atlodgingsandtaverns。” Elinor’sheartthankedherforsuchkindnesstowardsEdward,thoughshecouldnotforbearsmilingattheformofit。 “Ifhewouldonlyhavedoneaswellbyhimself,“ saidJohnDashwood,“asallhisfriendsweredisposedtodobyhim,hemightnowhavebeeninhispropersituation,andwouldhavewantedfornothing。Butasitis,itmustbeoutofanybody’spowertoassisthim。Andthereisonethingmorepreparingagainsthim,whichmustbeworsethanall——hismotherhasdetermined,withaverynaturalkindofspirit,tosettleTHATestateuponRobertimmediately,whichmighthavebeenEdward’s,onproperconditions。 Ileftherthismorningwithherlawyer,talkingoverthebusiness。” “Well!”saidMrs。Jennings,“thatisHERrevenge。 Everybodyhasawayoftheirown。ButIdon’tthinkminewouldbe,tomakeonesonindependent,becauseanotherhadplaguedme。” Mariannegotupandwalkedabouttheroom。 “Cananythingbemoregallingtothespiritofaman,“ continuedJohn,“thantoseehisyoungerbrotherinpossessionofanestatewhichmighthavebeenhisown? PoorEdward!,Ifeelforhimsincerely。” Afewminutesmorespentinthesamekindofeffusion,concludedhisvisit;andwithrepeatedassurancestohissistersthathereallybelievedtherewasnomaterialdangerinFanny’sindisposition,andthattheyneednotthereforebeveryuneasyaboutit,hewentaway; leavingthethreeladiesunanimousintheirsentimentsonthepresentoccasion,asfaratleastasitregardedMrs。Ferrars’sconduct,theDashwoods’,andEdward’s。 Marianne’sindignationburstforthassoonashequittedtheroom;andashervehemencemadereserveimpossibleinElinor,andunnecessaryinMrs。Jennings,theyalljoinedinaveryspiritedcritiqueupontheparty。 chapter38 CHAPTER38 Mrs。JenningswasverywarminherpraiseofEdward’sconduct,butonlyElinorandMarianneunderstooditstruemerit。THEYonlyknewhowlittlehehadhadtotempthimtobedisobedient,andhowsmallwastheconsolation,beyondtheconsciousnessofdoingright,thatcouldremaintohiminthelossoffriendsandfortune。 Elinorgloriedinhisintegrity;andMarianneforgaveallhisoffencesincompassionforhispunishment。Butthoughconfidencebetweenthemwas,bythispublicdiscovery,restoredtoitsproperstate,itwasnotasubjectonwhicheitherofthemwerefondofdwellingwhenalone。 Elinoravoidedituponprinciple,astendingtofixstillmoreuponherthoughts,bythetoowarm,toopositiveassurancesofMarianne,thatbeliefofEdward’scontinuedaffectionforherselfwhichsheratherwishedtodoaway; andMarianne’scouragesoonfailedher,intryingtoconverseuponatopicwhichalwayslefthermoredissatisfiedwithherselfthanever,bythecomparisonitnecessarilyproducedbetweenElinor’sconductandherown。 Shefeltalltheforceofthatcomparison; butnotashersisterhadhoped,tourgehertoexertionnow; shefeltitwithallthepainofcontinualself-reproach,regrettedmostbitterlythatshehadneverexertedherselfbefore;butitbroughtonlythetortureofpenitence,withoutthehopeofamendment。Hermindwassomuchweakenedthatshestillfanciedpresentexertionimpossible,andthereforeitonlydispiritedhermore。 Nothingnewwasheardbythem,foradayortwoafterwards,ofaffairsinHarleyStreet,orBartlett’sBuildings。 Butthoughsomuchofthematterwasknowntothemalready,thatMrs。Jenningsmighthavehadenoughtodoinspreadingthatknowledgefarther,withoutseekingaftermore,shehadresolvedfromthefirsttopayavisitofcomfortandinquirytohercousinsassoonasshecould; andnothingbutthehindranceofmorevisitorsthanusual,hadpreventedhergoingtothemwithinthattime。 Thethirddaysucceedingtheirknowledgeoftheparticulars,wassofine,sobeautifulaSundayastodrawmanytoKensingtonGardens,thoughitwasonlythesecondweekinMarch。Mrs。JenningsandElinorwereofthenumber; butMarianne,whoknewthattheWilloughbyswereagainintown,andhadaconstantdreadofmeetingthem,choserathertostayathome,thanventureintosopublicaplace。 AnintimateacquaintanceofMrs。JenningsjoinedthemsoonaftertheyenteredtheGardens,andElinorwasnotsorrythatbyhercontinuingwiththem,andengagingallMrs。Jennings’sconversation,shewasherselflefttoquietreflection。ShesawnothingoftheWilloughbys,nothingofEdward,andforsometimenothingofanybodywhocouldbyanychancewhethergraveorgay,beinterestingtoher。Butatlastshefoundherselfwithsomesurprise,accostedbyMissSteele,who,thoughlookingrathershy,expressedgreatsatisfactioninmeetingthem,andonreceivingencouragementfromtheparticularkindnessofMrs。Jennings,leftherownpartyforashorttime,tojointheir’s。 Mrs。JenningsimmediatelywhisperedtoElinor,“Getitalloutofher,mydear。Shewilltellyouanythingifyouask。YouseeIcannotleaveMrs。Clarke。” Itwaslucky,however,forMrs。Jennings’scuriosityandElinor’stoo,thatshewouldtellanythingWITHOUT beingasked;fornothingwouldotherwisehavebeenlearnt。 “Iamsogladtomeetyou;“saidMissSteele,takingherfamiliarlybythearm——“forIwantedtoseeyouofallthingsintheworld。”,Andthenloweringhervoice,“IsupposeMrs。Jenningshasheardallaboutit。 Issheangry?” “Notatall,Ibelieve,withyou。” “Thatisagoodthing。AndLadyMiddleton,isSHEangry?” “Icannotsupposeitpossiblethatsheshould。” “Iammonstrousgladofit。Goodgracious! Ihavehadsuchatimeofit!,IneversawLucyinsucharageinmylife。Shevowedatfirstshewouldnevertrimmeupanewbonnet,nordoanythingelseformeagain,solongasshelived;butnowsheisquitecometo,andweareasgoodfriendsasever。Look,shemademethisbowtomyhat,andputinthefeatherlastnight。 Therenow,YOUaregoingtolaughatmetoo。ButwhyshouldnotIwearpinkribbons?,IdonotcareifitIS theDoctor’sfavouritecolour。Iamsure,formypart,IshouldneverhaveknownheDIDlikeitbetterthananyothercolour,ifhehadnothappenedtosayso。 Mycousinshavebeensoplaguingme!,IdeclaresometimesIdonotknowwhichwaytolookbeforethem。” ShehadwanderedawaytoasubjectonwhichElinorhadnothingtosay,andthereforesoonjudgeditexpedienttofindherwaybackagaintothefirst。 “Well,butMissDashwood,“speakingtriumphantly,“peoplemaysaywhattheychuseaboutMr。Ferrars’sdeclaringhewouldnothaveLucy,foritisnosuchthingIcantellyou;anditisquiteashameforsuchill-naturedreportstobespreadabroad。WhateverLucymightthinkaboutitherself,youknow,itwasnobusinessofotherpeopletosetitdownforcertain。” “Ineverheardanythingofthekindhintedatbefore,Iassureyou,“saidElinor。 “Oh,didnotyou?,ButitWASsaid,I know,verywell,andbymorethanone;forMissGodbytoldMissSparks,thatnobodyintheirsensescouldexpectMr。FerrarstogiveupawomanlikeMissMorton,withthirtythousandpoundstoherfortune,forLucySteelethathadnothingatall;andIhaditfromMissSparksmyself。 Andbesidesthat,mycousinRichardsaidhimself,thatwhenitcametothepointhewasafraidMr。Ferrarswouldbeoff;andwhenEdwarddidnotcomenearusforthreedays,Icouldnottellwhattothinkmyself; andIbelieveinmyheartLucygaveitupallforlost; forwecameawayfromyourbrother’sWednesday,andwesawnothingofhimnotallThursday,Friday,andSaturday,anddidnotknowwhatwasbecomeofhim。 OnceLucythoughttowritetohim,butthenherspiritsroseagainstthat。Howeverthismorninghecamejustaswecamehomefromchurch;andthenitallcameout,howhehadbeensentforWednesdaytoHarleyStreet,andbeentalkedtobyhismotherandallofthem,andhowhehaddeclaredbeforethemallthathelovednobodybutLucy,andnobodybutLucywouldhehave。 Andhowhehadbeensoworriedbywhatpassed,thatassoonashehadwentawayfromhismother’shouse,hehadgotuponhishorse,andridintothecountry,somewhereorother;andhowhehadstayedaboutataninnallThursdayandFriday,onpurposetogetthebetterofit。Andafterthinkingitalloverandoveragain,hesaid,itseemedtohimasif,nowhehadnofortune,andnonothingatall,itwouldbequiteunkindtokeepherontotheengagement,becauseitmustbeforherloss,forhehadnothingbuttwothousandpounds,andnohopeofanythingelse;andifhewastogointoorders,ashehadsomethoughts,hecouldgetnothingbutacuracy,andhowwastheytoliveuponthat?——Hecouldnotbeartothinkofherdoingnobetter,andsohebegged,ifshehadtheleastmindforit,toputanendtothematterdirectly,andleavehimshiftforhimself。 Iheardhimsayallthisasplainascouldpossiblybe。 AnditwasentirelyforHERsake,anduponHERaccount,thathesaidawordaboutbeingoff,andnotuponhisown。 Iwilltakemyoathheneverdroptasyllableofbeingtiredofher,orofwishingtomarryMissMorton,oranythinglikeit。But,tobesure,Lucywouldnotgiveeartosuchkindoftalking;soshetoldhimdirectly(withagreatdealaboutsweetandlove,youknow,andallthat——Oh,la!onecan’trepeatsuchkindofthingsyouknow)——shetoldhimdirectly,shehadnottheleastmindintheworldtobeoff,forshecouldlivewithhimuponatrifle,andhowlittlesoeverhemighthave,sheshouldbeverygladtohaveitall,youknow,orsomethingofthekind。Sothenhewasmonstroushappy,andtalkedonsometimeaboutwhattheyshoulddo,andtheyagreedheshouldtakeordersdirectly,andtheymustwaittobemarriedtillhegotaliving。 AndjustthenIcouldnothearanymore,formycousincalledfrombelowtotellmeMrs。Richardsonwascomeinhercoach,andwouldtakeoneofustoKensingtonGardens; soIwasforcedtogointotheroomandinterruptthem,toaskLucyifshewouldliketogo,butshedidnotcaretoleaveEdward;soIjustrunupstairsandputonapairofsilkstockingsandcameoffwiththeRichardsons。” “Idonotunderstandwhatyoumeanbyinterruptingthem,“ saidElinor;“youwereallinthesameroomtogether,werenotyou?” “No,indeed,notus。La!MissDashwood,doyouthinkpeoplemakelovewhenanybodyelseisby?,Oh,forshame!——Tobesureyoumustknowbetterthanthat。 (Laughingaffectedly。)——No,no;theywereshutupinthedrawing-roomtogether,andallIheardwasonlybylisteningatthedoor。” “How!”criedElinor;“haveyoubeenrepeatingtomewhatyouonlylearntyourselfbylisteningatthedoor? IamsorryIdidnotknowitbefore;forIcertainlywouldnothavesufferedyoutogivemeparticularsofaconversationwhichyououghtnottohaveknownyourself。 Howcouldyoubehavesounfairlybyyoursister?” “Oh,la!thereisnothinginTHAT。I onlystoodatthedoor,andheardwhatIcould。AndIamsureLucywouldhavedonejustthesamebyme;forayearortwoback,whenMarthaSharpeandIhadsomanysecretstogether,shenevermadeanybonesofhidinginacloset,orbehindachimney-board,onpurposetohearwhatwesaid。” Elinortriedtotalkofsomethingelse;butMissSteelecouldnotbekeptbeyondacoupleofminutes,fromwhatwasuppermostinhermind。 “EdwardtalksofgoingtoOxfordsoon,“saidshe; “butnowheislodgingatNo——,PallMall。Whatanill-naturedwomanhismontheris,an’tshe?Andyourbrotherandsisterwerenotverykind!However,Ishan’tsayanythingagainstthemtoYOU;andtobesuretheydidsendushomeintheirownchariot,whichwasmorethanIlookedfor。Andformypart,Iwasallinafrightforfearyoursistershouldaskusforthehuswifesshehadgaveusadayortwobefore;but,however,nothingwassaidaboutthem,andItookcaretokeepmineoutofsight。EdwardhavegotsomebusinessatOxford,hesays;sohemustgothereforatime;andafterTHAT,assoonashecanlightuponaBishop,hewillbeordained。 Iwonderwhatcuracyhewillget!——Goodgracious! (gigglingasshespoke)I’dlaymylifeIknowwhatmycousinswillsay,whentheyhearofit。TheywilltellmeIshouldwritetotheDoctor,togetEdwardthecuracyofhisnewliving。Iknowtheywill;butIamsureIwouldnotdosuchathingforalltheworld—— ’La!’Ishallsaydirectly,’Iwonderhowyoucouldthinkofsuchathing?,IwritetotheDoctor,indeed!’“ “Well,“saidElinor,“itisacomforttobepreparedagainsttheworst。Youhavegotyouranswerready。” MissSteelewasgoingtoreplyonthesamesubject,buttheapproachofherownpartymadeanothermorenecessary。 “Oh,la!herecometheRichardsons。I hadavastdealmoretosaytoyou,butImustnotstayawayfromthemnotanylonger。Iassureyoutheyareverygenteelpeople。 Hemakesamonstrousdealofmoney,andtheykeeptheirowncoach。IhavenottimetospeaktoMrs。Jenningsaboutitmyself,butpraytellherIamquitehappytohearsheisnotinangeragainstus,andLadyMiddletonthesame; andifanythingshouldhappentotakeyouandyoursisteraway,andMrs。Jenningsshouldwantcompany,Iamsureweshouldbeverygladtocomeandstaywithherforaslongatimeasshelikes。IsupposeLadyMiddletonwon’taskusanymorethisbout。Good-by;IamsorryMissMariannewasnothere。Remembermekindlytoher。 La!ifyouhavenotgotyourspottedmuslinon!——Iwonderyouwasnotafraidofitsbeingtorn。” Suchwasherpartingconcern;forafterthis,shehadtimeonlytopayherfarewellcomplimentstoMrs。Jennings,beforehercompanywasclaimedbyMrs。Richardson; andElinorwasleftinpossessionofknowledgewhichmightfeedherpowersofreflectionsometime,thoughshehadlearntverylittlemorethanwhathadbeenalreadyforeseenandforeplannedinherownmind。Edward’smarriagewithLucywasasfirmlydeterminedon,andthetimeofitstakingplaceremainedasabsolutelyuncertain,asshehadconcludeditwouldbe;——everythingdepended,exactlyafterherexpectation,onhisgettingthatpreferment,ofwhich,atpresent,thereseemednotthesmallestchance。 Assoonastheyreturnedtothecarriage,Mrs。Jenningswaseagerforinformation;butasElinorwishedtospreadaslittleaspossibleintelligencethathadinthefirstplacebeensounfairlyobtained,sheconfinedherselftothebriefrepetitionofsuchsimpleparticulars,asshefeltassuredthatLucy,forthesakeofherownconsequence,wouldchoosetohaveknown。Thecontinuanceoftheirengagement,andthemeansthatwereabletobetakenforpromotingitsend,wasallhercommunication;andthisproducedfromMrs。Jenningsthefollowingnaturalremark。 “Waitforhishavingaliving!——ay,weallknowhowTHATwillend:——theywillwaitatwelvemonth,andfindingnogoodcomesofit,willsetdownuponacuracyoffiftypoundsa-year,withtheinterestofhistwothousandpounds,andwhatlittlematterMr。SteeleandMr。Prattcangiveher——Thentheywillhaveachildeveryyear!andLordhelp’em!howpoortheywillbe!——ImustseewhatIcangivethemtowardsfurnishingtheirhouse。 Twomaidsandtwomen,indeed!——asItalkedoft’otherday——No,no,theymustgetastoutgirlofallworks—— Betty’ssisterwouldneverdoforthemNOW。” ThenextmorningbroughtElinoraletterbythetwo-pennypostfromLucyherself。Itwasasfollows: “Bartlett’sBuilding,March。 “IhopemydearMissDashwoodwillexcusethelibertyItakeofwritingtoher;butIknowyourfriendshipformewillmakeyoupleasedtohearsuchagoodaccountofmyselfandmydearEdward,afterallthetroubleswehavewentthroughlately,thereforewillmakenomoreapologies,butproceedtosaythat,thankGod!thoughwehavesuffereddreadfully,wearebothquitewellnow,andashappyaswemustalwaysbeinoneanother’slove。 Wehavehadgreattrials,andgreatpersecutions,buthowever,atthesametime,gratefullyacknowledgemanyfriends,yourselfnottheleastamongthem,whosegreatkindnessIshallalwaysthankfullyremember,aswillEdwardtoo,whoIhavetoldofit。Iamsureyouwillbegladtohear,aslikewisedearMrs。Jennings,Ispenttwohappyhourswithhimyesterdayafternoon,hewouldnothearofourparting,thoughearnestlydidI,asIthoughtmydutyrequired,urgehimtoitforprudencesake,andwouldhavepartedforeveronthespot,wouldheconsenttoit;buthesaiditshouldneverbe,hedidnotregardhismother’sanger,whilehecouldhavemyaffections;ourprospectsarenotverybright,tobesure,butwemustwait,andhopeforthebest;hewillbeordainedshortly;andshoulditeverbeinyourpowertorecommendhimtoanybodythathasalivingtobestow,amverysureyouwillnotforgetus,anddearMrs。Jenningstoo,trustshewillspeakagoodwordforustoSirJohn,orMr。Palmer,oranyfriendthatmaybeabletoassistus——PoorAnnewasmuchtoblameforwhatshedid,butshediditforthebest,soI saynothing;hopeMrs。Jenningswon’tthinkittoomuchtroubletogiveusacall,shouldshecomethiswayanymorning,’twouldbeagreatkindness,andmycousinswouldbeproudtoknowher——Mypaperremindsmetoconclude;andbeggingtobemostgratefullyandrespectfullyrememberedtoher,andtoSirJohn,andLadyMiddleton,andthedearchildren,whenyouchancetoseethem,andlovetoMissMarianne,“Iam,&c。” AssoonasElinorhadfinishedit,sheperformedwhatsheconcludedtobeitswriter’srealdesign,byplacingitinthehandsofMrs。Jennings,whoreaditaloudwithmanycommentsofsatisfactionandpraise。 “Verywellindeed!——howprettilyshewrites!——aye,thatwasquitepropertolethimbeoffifhewould。 ThatwasjustlikeLucy——Poorsoul!IwishICOULDgethimaliving,withallmyheart——ShecallsmedearMrs。Jennings,yousee。Sheisagood-heartedgirlaseverlived——Verywelluponmyword。Thatsentenceisveryprettilyturned。Yes,yes,Iwillgoandseeher,sureenough。Howattentivesheis,tothinkofeverybody!——Thankyou,mydear,forshewingitme。ItisasprettyaletteraseverIsaw,anddoesLucy’sheadandheartgreatcredit。” chapter39 CHAPTER39 TheMissDashwoodshadnowbeenrathermorethantwomonthsintown,andMarianne’simpatiencetobegoneincreasedeveryday。Shesighedfortheair,theliberty,thequietofthecountry;andfanciedthatifanyplacecouldgiveherease,Bartonmustdoit。Elinorwashardlylessanxiousthanherselffortheirremoval,andonlysomuchlessbentonitsbeingeffectedimmediately,asthatshewasconsciousofthedifficultiesofsolongajourney,whichMariannecouldnotbebroughttoacknowledge。 Shebegan,however,seriouslytoturnherthoughtstowardsitsaccomplishment,andhadalreadymentionedtheirwishestotheirkindhostess,whoresistedthemwithalltheeloquenceofhergood-will,whenaplanwassuggested,which,thoughdetainingthemfromhomeyetafewweekslonger,appearedtoElinoraltogethermuchmoreeligiblethananyother。ThePalmersweretoremovetoClevelandabouttheendofMarch,fortheEasterholidays; andMrs。Jennings,withbothherfriends,receivedaverywarminvitationfromCharlottetogowiththem。Thiswouldnot,initself,havebeensufficientforthedelicacyofMissDashwood;——butitwasinforcedwithsomuchrealpolitenessbyMr。Palmerhimself,as,joinedtotheverygreatamendmentofhismannerstowardsthemsincehersisterhadbeenknowntobeunhappy,inducedhertoacceptitwithpleasure。 WhenshetoldMariannewhatshehaddone,however,herfirstreplywasnotveryauspicious。 “Cleveland!”——shecried,withgreatagitation。 “No,IcannotgotoCleveland。”—— “Youforget,“saidElinorgently,“thatitssituationisnot……thatitisnotintheneighbourhoodof……” “ButitisinSomersetshire——IcannotgointoSomersetshire——There,whereIlookedforwardtogoing……No,Elinor,youcannotexpectmetogothere。” Elinorwouldnotargueupontheproprietyofovercomingsuchfeelings;——sheonlyendeavouredtocounteractthembyworkingonothers;——representedit,therefore,asameasurewhichwouldfixthetimeofherreturningtothatdearmother,whomshesomuchwishedtosee,inamoreeligible,morecomfortablemanner,thananyotherplancoulddo,andperhapswithoutanygreaterdelay。FromCleveland,whichwaswithinafewmilesofBristol,thedistancetoBartonwasnotbeyondoneday,thoughalongday’sjourney; andtheirmother’sservantmighteasilycometheretoattendthemdown;andastherecouldbenooccasionoftheirstayingaboveaweekatCleveland,theymightnowbeathomeinlittlemorethanthreeweeks’time。AsMarianne’saffectionforhermotherwassincere,itmusttriumphwithlittledifficulty,overtheimaginaryevilsshehadstarted。 Mrs。Jenningswassofarfrombeingwearyofherguest,thatshepressedthemveryearnestlytoreturnwithheragainfromCleveland。Elinorwasgratefulfortheattention,butitcouldnotalterherdesign;andtheirmother’sconcurrencebeingreadilygained,everythingrelativetotheirreturnwasarrangedasfarasitcouldbe;—— andMariannefoundsomereliefindrawingupastatementofthehoursthatwereyettodivideherfromBarton。 “Ah!Colonel,IdonotknowwhatyouandI shalldowithouttheMissDashwoods;“——wasMrs。Jennings’saddresstohimwhenhefirstcalledonher,aftertheirleavingherwassettled——“fortheyarequiteresolvedupongoinghomefromthePalmers;——andhowforlornweshallbe,whenIcomeback!——Lord!weshallsitandgapeatoneanotherasdullastwocats。” PerhapsMrs。Jenningswasinhopes,bythisvigoroussketchoftheirfutureennui,toprovokehimtomakethatoffer,whichmightgivehimselfanescapefromit;—— andifso,shehadsoonafterwardsgoodreasontothinkherobjectgained;for,onElinor’smovingtothewindowtotakemoreexpeditiouslythedimensionsofaprint,whichshewasgoingtocopyforherfriend,hefollowedhertoitwithalookofparticularmeaning,andconversedwithherthereforseveralminutes。Theeffectofhisdiscourseontheladytoo,couldnotescapeherobservation,forthoughshewastoohonorabletolisten,andhadevenchangedherseat,onpurposethatshemightNOThear,tooneclosebythepianoforteonwhichMariannewasplaying,shecouldnotkeepherselffromseeingthatElinorchangedcolour,attendedwithagitation,andwastoointentonwhathesaidtopursueheremployment—— Stillfartherinconfirmationofherhopes,intheintervalofMarianne’sturningfromonelessontoanother,somewordsoftheColonel’sinevitablyreachedherear,inwhichheseemedtobeapologisingforthebadnessofhishouse。Thissetthematterbeyondadoubt。 Shewondered,indeed,athisthinkingitnecessarytodoso;butsupposedittobetheproperetiquette。 WhatElinorsaidinreplyshecouldnotdistinguish,butjudgedfromthemotionofherlips,thatshedidnotthinkTHATanymaterialobjection;——andMrs。Jenningscommendedherinherheartforbeingsohonest。 Theythentalkedonforafewminuteslongerwithouthercatchingasyllable,whenanotherluckystopinMarianne’sperformancebroughtherthesewordsintheColonel’scalmvoice,—— “Iamafraiditcannottakeplaceverysoon。” Astonishedandshockedatsounlover-likeaspeech,shewasalmostreadytocryout,“Lord!whatshouldhinderit?”——butcheckingherdesire,confinedherselftothissilentejaculation。 “Thisisverystrange!——sureheneednotwaittobeolder。” ThisdelayontheColonel’sside,however,didnotseemtooffendormortifyhisfaircompanionintheleast,forontheirbreakinguptheconferencesoonafterwards,andmovingdifferentways,Mrs。JenningsveryplainlyheardElinorsay,andwithavoicewhichshewedhertofeelwhatshesaid,“Ishallalwaysthinkmyselfverymuchobligedtoyou。” Mrs。Jenningswasdelightedwithhergratitude,andonlywonderedthatafterhearingsuchasentence,theColonelshouldbeabletotakeleaveofthem,asheimmediatelydid,withtheutmostsang-froid,andgoawaywithoutmakingheranyreply!——Shehadnotthoughtheroldfriendcouldhavemadesoindifferentasuitor。 Whathadreallypassedbetweenthemwastothiseffect。 “Ihaveheard,“saidhe,withgreatcompassion,“oftheinjusticeyourfriendMr。Ferrarshassufferedfromhisfamily;forifIunderstandthematterright,hehasbeenentirelycastoffbythemforperseveringinhisengagementwithaverydeservingyoungwoman—— HaveIbeenrightlyinformed?——Isitso?——“ Elinortoldhimthatitwas。 “Thecruelty,theimpoliticcruelty,“——hereplied,withgreatfeeling,——“ofdividing,orattemptingtodivide,twoyoungpeoplelongattachedtoeachother,isterrible—— Mrs。Ferrarsdoesnotknowwhatshemaybedoing——whatshemaydrivehersonto。IhaveseenMr。FerrarstwoorthreetimesinHarleyStreet,andammuchpleasedwithhim。Heisnotayoungmanwithwhomonecanbeintimatelyacquaintedinashorttime,butIhaveseenenoughofhimtowishhimwellforhisownsake,andasafriendofyours,Iwishitstillmore。 Iunderstandthatheintendstotakeorders。WillyoubesogoodastotellhimthatthelivingofDelaford,nowjustvacant,asIaminformedbythisday’spost,ishis,ifhethinkitworthhisacceptance——butTHAT,perhaps,sounfortunatelycircumstancedasheisnow,itmaybe,nonsensetoappeartodoubt;Ionlywishitweremore,valuable——Itisarectory,butasmallone; thelateincumbent,Ibelieve,didnotmakemorethan200Lperannum,andthoughitiscertainlycapableofimprovement,Ifear,nottosuchanamountastoaffordhimaverycomfortableincome。Suchasitis,however,mypleasureinpresentinghimtoit,willbeverygreat。Prayassurehimofit。” Elinor’sastonishmentatthiscommissioncouldhardlyhavebeengreater,hadtheColonelbeenreallymakingheranofferofhishand。Thepreferment,whichonlytwodaysbeforeshehadconsideredashopelessforEdward,wasalreadyprovidedtoenablehimtomarry;—— andSHE,ofallpeopleintheworld,wasfixedontobestowit!——HeremotionwassuchasMrs。Jenningshadattributedtoaverydifferentcause;——butwhateverminorfeelingslesspure,lesspleasing,mighthaveashareinthatemotion,heresteemforthegeneralbenevolence,andhergratitudefortheparticularfriendship,whichtogetherpromptedColonelBrandontothisact,werestronglyfelt,andwarmlyexpressed。Shethankedhimforitwithallherheart,spokeofEdward’sprinciplesanddispositionwiththatpraisewhichsheknewthemtodeserve; andpromisedtoundertakethecommissionwithpleasure,ifitwerereallyhiswishtoputoffsoagreeableanofficetoanother。Butatthesametime,shecouldnothelpthinkingthatnoonecouldsowellperformitashimself。 Itwasanofficeinshort,fromwhich,unwillingtogiveEdwardthepainofreceivinganobligationfromHER,shewouldhavebeenverygladtobesparedherself;—— butColonelBrandon,onmotivesofequaldelicacy,decliningitlikewise,stillseemedsodesirousofitsbeinggiventhroughhermeans,thatshewouldnotonanyaccountmakefartheropposition。Edward,shebelieved,wasstillintown,andfortunatelyshehadheardhisaddressfromMissSteele。 Shecouldundertakethereforetoinformhimofit,inthecourseoftheday。Afterthishadbeensettled,ColonelBrandonbegantotalkofhisownadvantageinsecuringsorespectableandagreeableaneighbour,andTHENitwasthathementionedwithregret,thatthehousewassmallandindifferent;——anevilwhichElinor,asMrs。Jenningshadsupposedhertodo,madeverylightof,atleastasfarasregardeditssize。 “Thesmallnessofthehouse,“saidshe,“Icannotimagineanyinconveniencetothem,foritwillbeinproportiontotheirfamilyandincome。” BywhichtheColonelwassurprisedtofindthatSHE wasconsideringMr。Ferrars’smarriageasthecertainconsequenceofthepresentation;forhedidnotsupposeitpossiblethatDelafordlivingcouldsupplysuchanincome,asanybodyinhisstyleoflifewouldventuretosettleon—— andhesaidso。 “ThislittlerectoryCANdonomorethanmakeMr。Ferrarscomfortableasabachelor;itcannotenablehimtomarry。 Iamsorrytosaythatmypatronageendswiththis; andmyinterestishardlymoreextensive。If,however,byanunforeseenchanceitshouldbeinmypowertoservehimfarther,ImustthinkverydifferentlyofhimfromwhatInowdo,ifIamnotasreadytobeusefultohimthenasIsincerelywishIcouldbeatpresent。 WhatIamnowdoingindeed,seemsnothingatall,sinceitcanadvancehimsolittletowardswhatmustbehisprincipal,hisonlyobjectofhappiness。 Hismarriagemuststillbeadistantgood;——atleast,Iamafraiditcannottakeplaceverysoon——“ Suchwasthesentencewhich,whenmisunderstood,sojustlyoffendedthedelicatefeelingsofMrs。Jennings; butafterthisnarrationofwhatreallypassedbetweenColonelBrandonandElinor,whiletheystoodatthewindow,thegratitudeexpressedbythelatterontheirparting,mayperhapsappearingeneral,notlessreasonablyexcited,norlessproperlywordedthanifithadarisenfromanofferofmarriage。 chapter40 CHAPTER40 “Well,MissDashwood,“saidMrs。Jennings,sagaciouslysmiling,assoonasthegentlemanhadwithdrawn,“IdonotaskyouwhattheColonelhasbeensayingtoyou; forthough,uponmyhonour,ITRIEDtokeepoutofhearing,Icouldnothelpcatchingenoughtounderstandhisbusiness。 AndIassureyouIneverwasbetterpleasedinmylife,andIwishyoujoyofitwithallmyheart。” “Thankyou,ma’am,“saidElinor。”Itisamatterofgreatjoytome;andIfeelthegoodnessofColonelBrandonmostsensibly。Therearenotmanymenwhowouldactashehasdone。Fewpeoplewhohavesocompassionateaheart!,Ineverwasmoreastonishedinmylife。” “Lord!mydear,youareverymodest。 Ian’ttheleastastonishedatitintheworld,forIhaveoftenthoughtoflate,therewasnothingmorelikelytohappen。” “YoujudgedfromyourknowledgeoftheColonel’sgeneralbenevolence;butatleastyoucouldnotforeseethattheopportunitywouldsoverysoonoccur。” “Opportunity!”repeatedMrs。Jennings——“Oh! astothat,whenamanhasoncemadeuphismindtosuchathing,somehoworotherhewillsoonfindanopportunity。 Well,mydear,Iwishyoujoyofitagainandagain; andifevertherewasahappycoupleintheworld,IthinkIshallsoonknowwheretolookforthem。” “YoumeantogotoDelafordafterthemIsuppose,“ saidElinor,withafaintsmile。 “Aye,mydear,thatIdo,indeed。Andastothehousebeingabadone,IdonotknowwhattheColonelwouldbeat,foritisasgoodaoneaseverIsaw。” “Hespokeofitsbeingoutofrepair。” “Well,andwhosefaultisthat?whydon’therepairit?—— whoshoulddoitbuthimself?” Theywereinterruptedbytheservant’scomingintoannouncethecarriagebeingatthedoor;andMrs。Jenningsimmediatelypreparingtogo,said,—— “Well,mydear,ImustbegonebeforeIhavehadhalfmytalkout。But,however,wemayhaveitalloverintheevening;forweshallbequitealone。Idonotaskyoutogowithme,forIdaresayyourmindistoofullofthemattertocareforcompany;andbesides,youmustlongtotellyoursisterallaboutit。” Mariannehadlefttheroombeforetheconversationbegan。 “Certainly,ma’am,IshalltellMarianneofit; butIshallnotmentionitatpresenttoanybodyelse。” “Oh!verywell,“saidMrs。Jenningsratherdisappointed。 “ThenyouwouldnothavemetellittoLucy,forIthinkofgoingasfarasHolbornto-day。” “No,ma’am,notevenLucyifyouplease。 Oneday’sdelaywillnotbeverymaterial;andtillI havewrittentoMr。Ferrars,Ithinkitoughtnottobementionedtoanybodyelse。IshalldoTHATdirectly。 Itisofimportancethatnotimeshouldbelostwithhim,forhewillofcoursehavemuchtodorelativetohisordination。” ThisspeechatfirstpuzzledMrs。Jenningsexceedingly。 WhyMr。Ferrarswastohavebeenwrittentoaboutitinsuchahurry,shecouldnotimmediatelycomprehend。 Afewmoments’reflection,however,producedaveryhappyidea,andsheexclaimed;—— “Oh,ho!——Iunderstandyou。Mr。Ferrarsistobetheman。Well,somuchthebetterforhim。Ay,tobesure,hemustbeordainedinreadiness;andIamverygladtofindthingsaresoforwardbetweenyou。But,mydear,isnotthisratheroutofcharacter?,ShouldnottheColonelwritehimself?——sure,heistheproperperson。” ElinordidnotquiteunderstandthebeginningofMrs。Jennings’sspeech,neitherdidshethinkitworthinquiringinto;andthereforeonlyrepliedtoitsconclusion。 “ColonelBrandonissodelicateaman,thatheratherwishedanyonetoannouncehisintentionstoMr。Ferrarsthanhimself。” “AndsoYOUareforcedtodoit。WellTHATisanoddkindofdelicacy!,However,Iwillnotdisturbyou(seeingherpreparingtowrite。),Youknowyourownconcernsbest。 Sogoodby,mydear。IhavenotheardofanythingtopleasemesowellsinceCharlottewasbroughttobed。” Andawayshewent;butreturningagaininamoment,“IhavejustbeenthinkingofBetty’ssister,mydear。 Ishouldbeverygladtogethersogoodamistress。 Butwhethershewoulddoforalady’smaid,IamsureI can’ttell。Sheisanexcellenthousemaid,andworksverywellatherneedle。However,youwillthinkofallthatatyourleisure。” “Certainly,ma’am,“repliedElinor,nothearingmuchofwhatshesaid,andmoreanxioustobealone,thantobemistressofthesubject。 Howsheshouldbegin——howsheshouldexpressherselfinhernotetoEdward,wasnowallherconcern。 Theparticularcircumstancesbetweenthemmadeadifficultyofthatwhichtoanyotherpersonwouldhavebeentheeasiestthingintheworld;butsheequallyfearedtosaytoomuchortoolittle,andsatdeliberatingoverherpaper,withthepeninherband,tillbrokeninonbytheentranceofEdwardhimself。 HehadmetMrs。Jenningsatthedoorinherwaytothecarriage,ashecametoleavehisfarewellcard;andshe,afterapologisingfornotreturningherself,hadobligedhimtoenter,bysayingthatMissDashwoodwasabove,andwantedtospeakwithhimonveryparticularbusiness。 Elinorhadjustbeencongratulatingherself,inthemidstofherperplexity,thathoweverdifficultitmightbetoexpressherselfproperlybyletter,itwasatleastpreferabletogivingtheinformationbywordofmouth,whenhervisitorentered,toforceheruponthisgreatestexertionofall。Herastonishmentandconfusionwereverygreatonhissosuddenappearance。Shehadnotseenhimbeforesincehisengagementbecamepublic,andthereforenotsincehisknowinghertobeacquaintedwithit;which,withtheconsciousnessofwhatshehadbeenthinkingof,andwhatshehadtotellhim,madeherfeelparticularlyuncomfortableforsomeminutes。 Hetoowasmuchdistressed;andtheysatdowntogetherinamostpromisingstateofembarrassment——Whetherhehadaskedherpardonforhisintrusiononfirstcomingintotheroom,hecouldnotrecollect;butdeterminingtobeonthesafeside,hemadehisapologyinformassoonashecouldsayanything,aftertakingachair。 “Mrs。Jenningstoldme,“saidhe,“thatyouwishedtospeakwithme,atleastIunderstoodherso——orI certainlyshouldnothaveintrudedonyouinsuchamanner; thoughatthesametime,IshouldhavebeenextremelysorrytoleaveLondonwithoutseeingyouandyoursister; especiallyasitwillmostlikelybesometime——itisnotprobablethatIshouldsoonhavethepleasureofmeetingyouagain。IgotoOxfordtomorrow。” “Youwouldnothavegone,however,“saidElinor,recoveringherself,anddeterminedtogetoverwhatshesomuchdreadedassoonaspossible,“withoutreceivingourgoodwishes,evenifwehadnotbeenabletogivetheminperson。Mrs。Jenningswasquiterightinwhatshesaid。 Ihavesomethingofconsequencetoinformyouof,whichIwasonthepointofcommunicatingbypaper。 Iamchargedwithamostagreeableoffice(breathingratherfasterthanusualasshespoke。),ColonelBrandon,whowashereonlytenminutesago,hasdesiredmetosay,thatunderstandingyoumeantotakeorders,hehasgreatpleasureinofferingyouthelivingofDelafordnowjustvacant,andonlywishesitweremorevaluable。 Allowmetocongratulateyouonhavingsorespectableandwell-judgingafriend,andtojoininhiswishthattheliving——itisabouttwohundreda-year——weremuchmoreconsiderable,andsuchasmightbetterenableyouto——asmightbemorethanatemporaryaccommodationtoyourself——such,inshort,asmightestablishallyourviewsofhappiness。” WhatEdwardfelt,ashecouldnotsayithimself,itcannotbeexpectedthatanyoneelseshouldsayforhim。 HeLOOKEDalltheastonishmentwhichsuchunexpected,suchunthought-ofinformationcouldnotfailofexciting; buthesaidonlythesetwowords,“ColonelBrandon!” “Yes,“continuedElinor,gatheringmoreresolution,assomeoftheworstwasover,“ColonelBrandonmeansitasatestimonyofhisconcernforwhathaslatelypassed——forthecruelsituationinwhichtheunjustifiableconductofyourfamilyhasplacedyou——aconcernwhichIamsureMarianne,myself,andallyourfriends,mustshare;andlikewiseasaproofofhishighesteemforyourgeneralcharacter,andhisparticularapprobationofyourbehaviouronthepresentoccasion。” “ColonelBrandongiveMEaliving!——Canitbepossible?” “Theunkindnessofyourownrelationshasmadeyouastonishedtofindfriendshipanywhere。” “No,“repliedbe,withsuddenconsciousness,“nottofinditinYOU;forIcannotbeignorantthattoyou,toyourgoodness,Ioweitall——Ifeelit——IwouldexpressitifIcould——but,asyouwellknow,Iamnoorator。” “Youareverymuchmistaken。Idoassureyouthatyouoweitentirely,atleastalmostentirely,toyourownmerit,andColonelBrandon’sdiscernmentofit。Ihavehadnohandinit。Ididnotevenknow,tillIunderstoodhisdesign,thatthelivingwasvacant; norhaditeveroccurredtomethathemighthavehadsuchalivinginhisgift。Asafriendofmine,ofmyfamily,hemay,perhaps——indeedIknowheHAS,stillgreaterpleasureinbestowingit;but,uponmyword,youowenothingtomysolicitation。” Truthobligedhertoacknowledgesomesmallshareintheaction,butshewasatthesametimesounwillingtoappearasthebenefactressofEdward,thatsheacknowledgeditwithhesitation;whichprobablycontributedtofixthatsuspicioninhismindwhichhadrecentlyenteredit。 Forashorttimehesatdeepinthought,afterElinorhadceasedtospeak;——atlast,andasifitwereratheraneffort,hesaid,“ColonelBrandonseemsamanofgreatworthandrespectability。Ihavealwaysheardhimspokenofassuch,andyourbrotherIknowesteemshimhighly。 Heisundoubtedlyasensibleman,andinhismannersperfectlythegentleman。” “Indeed,“repliedElinor,“Ibelievethatyouwillfindhim,onfartheracquaintance,allthatyouhaveheardhimtobe,andasyouwillbesuchverynearneighbours(forIunderstandtheparsonageisalmostclosetothemansion-house,) itisparticularlyimportantthatheSHOULDbeallthis。” Edwardmadenoanswer;butwhenshehadturnedawayherhead,gaveheralooksoserious,soearnest,souncheerful,asseemedtosay,thathemighthereafterwishthedistancebetweentheparsonageandthemansion-housemuchgreater。 “ColonelBrandon,Ithink,lodgesinSt。JamesStreet,“ saidhe,soonafterwards,risingfromhischair。 Elinortoldhimthenumberofthehouse。 “Imusthurryawaythen,togivehimthosethankswhichyouwillnotallowmetogiveYOU;toassurehimthathehasmademeavery——anexceedinglyhappyman。” Elinordidnotoffertodetainhim;andtheyparted,withaveryearnestassuranceonHERsideofherunceasinggoodwishesforhishappinessineverychangeofsituationthatmightbefallhim;onHIS,withratheranattempttoreturnthesamegoodwill,thanthepowerofexpressingit。 “WhenIseehimagain,“saidElinortoherself,asthedoorshuthimout,“IshallseehimthehusbandofLucy。” Andwiththispleasinganticipation,shesatdowntoreconsiderthepast,recallthewordsandendeavourtocomprehendallthefeelingsofEdward;and,ofcourse,toreflectonherownwithdiscontent。 WhenMrs。Jenningscamehome,thoughshereturnedfromseeingpeoplewhomshehadneverseenbefore,andofwhomthereforeshemusthaveagreatdealtosay,hermindwassomuchmoreoccupiedbytheimportantsecretinherpossession,thanbyanythingelse,thatsherevertedtoitagainassoonasElinorappeared。 “Well,mydear,“shecried,“Isentyouuptotheyoungman。DidnotIdoright?——AndIsupposeyouhadnogreatdifficulty——Youdidnotfindhimveryunwillingtoacceptyourproposal?” “No,ma’am;THATwasnotverylikely。” “Well,andhowsoonwillhebeready?——Foritseemsalltodependuponthat。” “Really,“saidElinor,“Iknowsolittleofthesekindofforms,thatIcanhardlyevenconjectureastothetime,orthepreparationnecessary;butIsupposetwoorthreemonthswillcompletehisordination。” “Twoorthreemonths!”criedMrs。Jennings; “Lord!mydear,howcalmlyyoutalkofit;andcantheColonelwaittwoorthreemonths!Lordblessme!——IamsureitwouldputME quiteoutofpatience!——AndthoughonewouldbeverygladtodoakindnessbypoorMr。Ferrars,Idothinkitisnotworthwhiletowaittwoorthreemonthsforhim。 Suresomebodyelsemightbefoundthatwoulddoaswell; somebodythatisinordersalready。” “Mydearma’am,“saidElinor,“whatcanyoubethinkingof?—— Why,ColonelBrandon’sonlyobjectistobeofusetoMr。Ferrars。” “Lordblessyou,mydear!——SureyoudonotmeantopersuademethattheColonelonlymarriesyouforthesakeofgivingtenguineastoMr。Ferrars!” Thedeceptioncouldnotcontinueafterthis; andanexplanationimmediatelytookplace,bywhichbothgainedconsiderableamusementforthemoment,withoutanymateriallossofhappinesstoeither,forMrs。Jenningsonlyexchangedoneformofdelightforanother,andstillwithoutforfeitingherexpectationofthefirst。 “Aye,aye,theparsonageisbutasmallone,“ saidshe,afterthefirstebullitionofsurpriseandsatisfactionwasover,“andverylikelyMAYbeoutofrepair;buttohearamanapologising,asIthought,forahousethattomyknowledgehasfivesittingroomsontheground-floor,andI thinkthehousekeepertoldmecouldmakeupfifteenbeds!—— andtoyoutoo,thathadbeenusedtoliveinBartoncottage!——Itseemsquiteridiculous。But,mydear,wemusttouchuptheColoneltodosomethingtotheparsonage,andmakeitcomfortableforthem,beforeLucygoestoit。” “ButColonelBrandondoesnotseemtohaveanyideaoftheliving’sbeingenoughtoallowthemtomarry。” “TheColonelisaninny,mydear;becausehehastwothousanda-yearhimself,hethinksthatnobodyelsecanmarryonless。Takemywordforit,that,ifIamalive,IshallbepayingavisitatDelafordParsonagebeforeMichaelmas; andIamsureIsha’ntgoifLucyan’tthere。” Elinorwasquiteofheropinion,astotheprobabilityoftheirnotwaitingforanythingmore。 chapter41 CHAPTER41 Edward,havingcarriedhisthankstoColonelBrandon,proceededwithhishappinesstoLucy;andsuchwastheexcessofitbythetimehereachedBartlett’sBuildings,thatshewasabletoassureMrs。Jennings,whocalledonheragainthenextdaywithhercongratulations,thatshehadneverseenhiminsuchspiritsbeforeinherlife。 Herownhappiness,andherownspirits,wereatleastverycertain;andshejoinedMrs。JenningsmostheartilyinherexpectationoftheirbeingallcomfortablytogetherinDelafordParsonagebeforeMichaelmas。 Sofarwasshe,atthesametime,fromanybackwardnesstogiveElinorthatcreditwhichEdwardWOULDgiveher,thatshespokeofherfriendshipforthembothwiththemostgratefulwarmth,wasreadytoownalltheirobligationtoher,andopenlydeclaredthatnoexertionfortheirgoodonMissDashwood’spart,eitherpresentorfuture,wouldeversurpriseher,forshebelievedhercapableofdoinganythingintheworldforthoseshereallyvalued。 AsforColonelBrandon,shewasnotonlyreadytoworshiphimasasaint,butwasmoreovertrulyanxiousthatheshouldbetreatedasoneinallworldlyconcerns; anxiousthathistithesshouldberaisedtotheutmost; andscarcelyresolvedtoavailherself,atDelaford,asfarasshepossiblycould,ofhisservants,hiscarriage,hiscows,andhispoultry。 ItwasnowaboveaweeksinceJohnDashwoodhadcalledinBerkeleyStreet,andassincethattimenonoticehadbeentakenbythemofhiswife’sindisposition,beyondoneverbalenquiry,Elinorbegantofeelitnecessarytopayheravisit——Thiswasanobligation,however,whichnotonlyopposedherowninclination,butwhichhadnottheassistanceofanyencouragementfromhercompanions。Marianne,notcontentedwithabsolutelyrefusingtogoherself,wasveryurgenttopreventhersister’sgoingatall;andMrs。Jennings,thoughhercarriagewasalwaysatElinor’sservice,soverymuchdislikedMrs。JohnDashwood,thatnotevenhercuriositytoseehowshelookedafterthelatediscovery,norherstrongdesiretoaffrontherbytakingEdward’spart,couldovercomeherunwillingnesstobeinhercompanyagain。 Theconsequencewas,thatElinorsetoutbyherselftopayavisit,forwhichnoonecouldreallyhavelessinclination,andtoruntheriskofatete-a-tetewithawoman,whomneitheroftheothershadsomuchreasontodislike。 Mrs。Dashwoodwasdenied;butbeforethecarriagecouldturnfromthehouse,herhusbandaccidentallycameout。 HeexpressedgreatpleasureinmeetingElinor,toldherthathehadbeenjustgoingtocallinBerkeleyStreet,and,assuringherthatFannywouldbeverygladtoseeher,invitedhertocomein。 Theywalkedupstairsintothedrawing-room——Nobodywasthere。 “Fannyisinherownroom,Isuppose,“saidhe:——“I willgotoherpresently,forIamsureshewillnothavetheleastobjectionintheworldtoseeingYOU—— Veryfarfromit,indeed。NOWespeciallytherecannotbe——buthowever,youandMariannewerealwaysgreatfavourites——WhywouldnotMariannecome?”—— Elinormadewhatexcuseshecouldforher。 “Iamnotsorrytoseeyoualone,“hereplied,“forIhaveagooddealtosaytoyou。ThislivingofColonelBrandon’s——canitbetrue?——hashereallygivenittoEdward?——Iheardityesterdaybychance,andwascomingtoyouonpurposetoenquirefartheraboutit。” “Itisperfectlytrue——ColonelBrandonhasgiventhelivingofDelafordtoEdward。” “Really!——Well,thisisveryastonishing!——norelationship!——noconnectionbetweenthem!——andnowthatlivingsfetchsuchaprice!——whatwasthevalueofthis?” “Abouttwohundredayear。” “Verywell——andforthenextpresentationtoalivingofthatvalue——supposingthelateincumbenttohavebeenoldandsickly,andlikelytovacateitsoon——hemighthavegotIdaresay——fourteenhundredpounds。 Andhowcamehenottohavesettledthatmatterbeforethisperson’sdeath?——NOWindeeditwouldbetoolatetosellit,butamanofColonelBrandon’ssense!——Iwonderheshouldbesoimprovidentinapointofsuchcommon,suchnatural,concern!——Well,Iamconvincedthatthereisavastdealofinconsistencyinalmosteveryhumancharacter。Isuppose,however——onrecollection——thatthecasemayprobablybeTHIS。 EdwardisonlytoholdthelivingtillthepersontowhomtheColonelhasreallysoldthepresentation,isoldenoughtotakeit——Aye,aye,thatisthefact,dependuponit。” Elinorcontradictedit,however,verypositively; andbyrelatingthatshehadherselfbeenemployedinconveyingtheofferfromColonelBrandontoEdward,and,therefore,mustunderstandthetermsonwhichitwasgiven,obligedhimtosubmittoherauthority。 “Itistrulyastonishing!”——hecried,afterhearingwhatshesaid——“whatcouldbetheColonel’smotive?” “Averysimpleone——tobeofusetoMr。Ferrars。” “Well,well;whateverColonelBrandonmaybe,Edwardisaveryluckyman——YouwillnotmentionthemattertoFanny,however,forthoughIhavebrokeittoher,andshebearsitvastlywell,——shewillnotliketohearitmuchtalkedof。” Elinorhadsomedifficultyheretorefrainfromobserving,thatshethoughtFannymighthavebornewithcomposure,anacquisitionofwealthtoherbrother,bywhichneithershenorherchildcouldbepossiblyimpoverished。 “Mrs。Ferrars,“addedhe,loweringhisvoicetothetonebecomingsoimportantasubject,“knowsnothingaboutitatpresent,andIbelieveitwillbebesttokeepitentirelyconcealedfromheraslongasmaybe—— Whenthemarriagetakesplace,Ifearshemusthearofitall。” “Butwhyshouldsuchprecautionbeused?——ThoughitisnottobesupposedthatMrs。Ferrarscanhavethesmallestsatisfactioninknowingthathersonhasmoneyenoughtoliveupon,——forTHATmustbequiteoutofthequestion;yetwhy,uponherlatebehaviour,isshesupposedtofeelatall?——Shehasdonewithherson,shecasthimoffforever,andhasmadeallthoseoverwhomshehadanyinfluence,casthimofflikewise。 Surely,afterdoingso,shecannotbeimaginedliabletoanyimpressionofsorroworofjoyonhisaccount—— shecannotbeinterestedinanythingthatbefallshim—— Shewouldnotbesoweakastothrowawaythecomfortofachild,andyetretaintheanxietyofaparent!” “Ah!Elinor,“saidJohn,“yourreasoningisverygood,butitisfoundedonignoranceofhumannature。 WhenEdward’sunhappymatchtakesplace,dependuponithismotherwillfeelasmuchasifshehadneverdiscardedhim; and,thereforeeverycircumstancethatmayacceleratethatdreadfulevent,mustbeconcealedfromherasmuchaspossible。 Mrs。FerrarscanneverforgetthatEdwardisherson。” “Yousurpriseme;IshouldthinkitmustnearlyhaveescapedhermemorybyTHIStime。” “Youwrongherexceedingly。Mrs。Ferrarsisoneofthemostaffectionatemothersintheworld。” Elinorwassilent。 “WethinkNOW,“——saidMr。Dashwood,afterashortpause,“ofROBERT’SmarryingMissMorton。” Elinor,smilingatthegraveanddecisiveimportanceofherbrother’stone,calmlyreplied,“Thelady,Isuppose,hasnochoiceintheaffair。” “Choice!——howdoyoumean?” “IonlymeanthatIsuppose,fromyourmannerofspeaking,itmustbethesametoMissMortonwhethershemarryEdwardorRobert。” “Certainly,therecanbenodifference;forRobertwillnowtoallintentsandpurposesbeconsideredastheeldestson;——andastoanythingelse,theyarebothveryagreeableyoungmen:Idonotknowthatoneissuperiortotheother。” Elinorsaidnomore,andJohnwasalsoforashorttimesilent——Hisreflectionsendedthus。 “OfONEthing,mydearsister,“kindlytakingherhand,andspeakinginanawfulwhisper,——“Imayassureyou;—— andIWILLdoit,becauseIknowitmustgratifyyou。 Ihavegoodreasontothink——indeedIhaveitfromthebestauthority,orIshouldnotrepeatit,forotherwiseitwouldbeverywrongtosayanythingaboutit——butIhaveitfromtheverybestauthority——notthatIeverpreciselyheardMrs。Ferrarssayitherself——butherdaughterDID,andIhaveitfromher——Thatinshort,whateverobjectionstheremightbeagainstacertain——acertainconnection——youunderstandme——itwouldhavebeenfarpreferabletoher,itwouldnothavegivenherhalfthevexationthatTHISdoes。IwasexceedinglypleasedtohearthatMrs。Ferrarsconsidereditinthatlight—— averygratifyingcircumstanceyouknowtousall。 ’Itwouldhavebeenbeyondcomparison,’shesaid,’theleastevilofthetwo,andshewouldbegladtocompoundNOW fornothingworse。’Buthowever,allthatisquiteoutofthequestion——nottobethoughtoformentioned—— astoanyattachmentyouknow——itnevercouldbe——allthatisgoneby。ButIthoughtIwouldjusttellyouofthis,becauseIknewhowmuchitmustpleaseyou。 Notthatyouhaveanyreasontoregret,mydearElinor。Thereisnodoubtofyourdoingexceedinglywell——quiteaswell,orbetter,perhaps,allthingsconsidered。HasColonelBrandonbeenwithyoulately?” Elinorhadheardenough,ifnottogratifyhervanity,andraiseherself-importance,toagitatehernervesandfillhermind;——andshewasthereforegladtobesparedfromthenecessityofsayingmuchinreplyherself,andfromthedangerofhearinganythingmorefromherbrother,bytheentranceofMr。RobertFerrars。 Afterafewmoments’chat,JohnDashwood,recollectingthatFannywasyetuninformedofhersister’sbeingthere,quittedtheroominquestofher;andElinorwaslefttoimproveheracquaintancewithRobert,who,bythegayunconcern,thehappyself-complacencyofhismannerwhileenjoyingsounfairadivisionofhismother’sloveandliberality,totheprejudiceofhisbanishedbrother,earnedonlybyhisowndissipatedcourseoflife,andthatbrother’sintegrity,wasconfirminghermostunfavourableopinionofhisheadandheart。 Theyhadscarcelybeentwominutesbythemselves,beforehebegantospeakofEdward;forhe,too,hadheardoftheliving,andwasveryinquisitiveonthesubject。 Elinorrepeatedtheparticularsofit,asshehadgiventhemtoJohn;andtheireffectonRobert,thoughverydifferent,wasnotlessstrikingthanithadbeenonHIM。Helaughedmostimmoderately。TheideaofEdward’sbeingaclergyman,andlivinginasmallparsonage-house,divertedhimbeyondmeasure;——andwhentothatwasaddedthefancifulimageryofEdwardreadingprayersinawhitesurplice,andpublishingthebannsofmarriagebetweenJohnSmithandMaryBrown,hecouldconceivenothingmoreridiculous。 Elinor,whileshewaitedinsilenceandimmovablegravity,theconclusionofsuchfolly,couldnotrestrainhereyesfrombeingfixedonhimwithalookthatspokeallthecontemptitexcited。Itwasalook,however,verywellbestowed,foritrelievedherownfeelings,andgavenointelligencetohim。Hewasrecalledfromwittowisdom,notbyanyreproofofher’s,butbyhisownsensibility。 “Wemaytreatitasajoke,“saidhe,atlast,recoveringfromtheaffectedlaughwhichhadconsiderablylengthenedoutthegenuinegaietyofthemoment——“but,uponmysoul,itisamostseriousbusiness。PoorEdward! heisruinedforever。Iamextremelysorryforit—— forIknowhimtobeaverygood-heartedcreature;aswell-meaningafellowperhaps,asanyintheworld。 Youmustnotjudgeofhim,MissDashwood,fromYOUR slightacquaintance——PoorEdward!——Hismannersarecertainlynotthehappiestinnature——Butwearenotallborn,youknow,withthesamepowers,——thesameaddress—— Poorfellow!——toseehiminacircleofstrangers!—— tobesureitwaspitiableenough!——butuponmysoul,Ibelievehehasasgoodaheartasanyinthekingdom; andIdeclareandprotesttoyouIneverwassoshockedinmylife,aswhenitallburstforth。Icouldnotbelieveit—— Mymotherwasthefirstpersonwhotoldmeofit; andI,feelingmyselfcalledontoactwithresolution,immediatelysaidtoher,’Mydearmadam,Idonotknowwhatyoumayintendtodoontheoccasion,butasformyself,Imustsay,thatifEdwarddoesmarrythisyoungwoman,Ineverwillseehimagain。’ThatwaswhatIsaidimmediately—— Iwasmostuncommonlyshocked,indeed!——PoorEdward!——hehasdoneforhimselfcompletely——shuthimselfoutforeverfromalldecentsociety!——but,asIdirectlysaidtomymother,Iamnotintheleastsurprisedatit;fromhisstyleofeducation,itwasalwaystobeexpected。Mypoormotherwashalffrantic。” “Haveyoueverseenthelady?” “Yes;once,whileshewasstayinginthishouse,Ihappenedtodropinfortenminutes;andIsawquiteenoughofher。Themerestawkwardcountrygirl,withoutstyle,orelegance,andalmostwithoutbeauty—— Irememberherperfectly。JustthekindofgirlI shouldsupposelikelytocaptivatepoorEdward。 Iofferedimmediately,assoonasmymotherrelatedtheaffairtome,totalktohimmyself,anddissuadehimfromthematch;butitwastoolateTHEN,Ifound,todoanything,forunluckily,Iwasnotinthewayatfirst,andknewnothingofittillafterthebreachhadtakenplace,whenitwasnotforme,youknow,tointerfere。ButhadIbeeninformedofitafewhoursearlier——Ithinkitismostprobable——thatsomethingmighthavebeenhiton。IcertainlyshouldhaverepresentedittoEdwardinaverystronglight。’Mydearfellow,’ Ishouldhavesaid,’considerwhatyouaredoing。 Youaremakingamostdisgracefulconnection,andsuchaoneasyourfamilyareunanimousindisapproving。’Icannothelpthinking,inshort,thatmeansmighthavebeenfound。 Butnowitisalltoolate。Hemustbestarved,youknow;—— thatiscertain;absolutelystarved。” Hehadjustsettledthispointwithgreatcomposure,whentheentranceofMrs。JohnDashwoodputanendtothesubject。 ButthoughSHEneverspokeofitoutofherownfamily,Elinorcouldseeitsinfluenceonhermind,inthesomethinglikeconfusionofcountenancewithwhichsheentered,andanattemptatcordialityinherbehaviourtoherself。 SheevenproceededsofarastobeconcernedtofindthatElinorandhersisterweresosoontoleavetown,asshehadhopedtoseemoreofthem;——anexertioninwhichherhusband,whoattendedherintotheroom,andhungenamouredoverheraccents,seemedtodistinguisheverythingthatwasmostaffectionateandgraceful。 chapter42 CHAPTER42 OneothershortcallinHarleyStreet,inwhichElinorreceivedherbrother’scongratulationsontheirtravellingsofartowardsBartonwithoutanyexpense,andonColonelBrandon’sbeingtofollowthemtoClevelandinadayortwo,completedtheintercourseofthebrotherandsistersintown;——andafaintinvitationfromFanny,tocometoNorlandwheneveritshouldhappentobeintheirway,whichofallthingswasthemostunlikelytooccur,withamorewarm,thoughlesspublic,assurance,fromJohntoElinor,ofthepromptitudewithwhichheshouldcometoseeheratDelaford,wasallthatforetoldanymeetinginthecountry。 ItamusedhertoobservethatallherfriendsseemeddeterminedtosendhertoDelaford;——aplace,inwhich,ofallothers,shewouldnowleastchusetovisit,orwishtoreside;fornotonlywasitconsideredasherfuturehomebyherbrotherandMrs。Jennings,butevenLucy,whentheyparted,gaveherapressinginvitationtovisitherthere。 VeryearlyinApril,andtolerablyearlyintheday,thetwopartiesfromHanoverSquareandBerkeleyStreetsetoutfromtheirrespectivehomes,tomeet,byappointment,ontheroad。FortheconvenienceofCharlotteandherchild,theyweretobemorethantwodaysontheirjourney,andMr。Palmer,travellingmoreexpeditiouslywithColonelBrandon,wastojointhematClevelandsoonaftertheirarrival。 Marianne,fewashadbeenherhoursofcomfortinLondon,andeagerasshehadlongbeentoquitit,couldnot,whenitcametothepoint,bidadieutothehouseinwhichshehadforthelasttimeenjoyedthosehopes,andthatconfidence,inWilloughby,whichwerenowextinguishedforever,withoutgreatpain。 NorcouldsheleavetheplaceinwhichWilloughbyremained,busyinnewengagements,andnewschemes,inwhichSHE couldhavenoshare,withoutsheddingmanytears。 Elinor’ssatisfaction,atthemomentofremoval,wasmorepositive。Shehadnosuchobjectforherlingeringthoughtstofixon,sheleftnocreaturebehind,fromwhomitwouldgiveheramoment’sregrettobedividedforever,shewaspleasedtobefreeherselffromthepersecutionofLucy’sfriendship,shewasgratefulforbringinghersisterawayunseenbyWilloughbysincehismarriage,andshelookedforwardwithhopetowhatafewmonthsoftranquilityatBartonmightdotowardsrestoringMarianne’speaceofmind,andconfirmingherown。 Theirjourneywassafelyperformed。Theseconddaybroughtthemintothecherished,ortheprohibited,countyofSomerset,forassuchwasitdweltonbyturnsinMarianne’simagination;andintheforenoonofthethirdtheydroveuptoCleveland。 Clevelandwasaspacious,modern-builthouse,situatedonaslopinglawn。Ithadnopark,butthepleasure-groundsweretolerablyextensive;andlikeeveryotherplaceofthesamedegreeofimportance,ithaditsopenshrubbery,andcloserwoodwalk,aroadofsmoothgravelwindingroundaplantation,ledtothefront,thelawnwasdottedoverwithtimber,thehouseitselfwasundertheguardianshipofthefir,themountain-ash,andtheacacia,andathickscreenofthemaltogether,interspersedwithtallLombardypoplars,shutouttheoffices。 MarianneenteredthehousewithaheartswellingwithemotionfromtheconsciousnessofbeingonlyeightymilesfromBarton,andnotthirtyfromCombeMagna; andbeforeshehadbeenfiveminuteswithinitswalls,whiletheotherswerebusilyhelpingCharlottetoshowherchildtothehousekeeper,shequitteditagain,stealingawaythroughthewindingshrubberies,nowjustbeginningtobeinbeauty,togainadistanteminence; where,fromitsGreciantemple,hereye,wanderingoverawidetractofcountrytothesouth-east,couldfondlyrestonthefarthestridgeofhillsinthehorizon,andfancythatfromtheirsummitsCombeMagnamightbeseen。 Insuchmomentsofprecious,invaluablemisery,sherejoicedintearsofagonytobeatCleveland; andasshereturnedbyadifferentcircuittothehouse,feelingallthehappyprivilegeofcountryliberty,ofwanderingfromplacetoplaceinfreeandluxurioussolitude,sheresolvedtospendalmosteveryhourofeverydaywhilesheremainedwiththePalmers,intheindulgenceofsuchsolitaryrambles。 Shereturnedjustintimetojointheothersastheyquittedthehouse,onanexcursionthroughitsmoreimmediatepremises;andtherestofthemorningwaseasilywhiledaway,inloungingroundthekitchengarden,examiningthebloomuponitswalls,andlisteningtothegardener’slamentationsuponblights,indawdlingthroughthegreen-house,wherethelossofherfavouriteplants,unwarilyexposed,andnippedbythelingeringfrost,raisedthelaughterofCharlotte,——andinvisitingherpoultry-yard,where,inthedisappointedhopesofherdairy-maid,byhensforsakingtheirnests,orbeingstolenbyafox,orintherapiddecreaseofapromisingyoungbrood,shefoundfreshsourcesofmerriment。 Themorningwasfineanddry,andMarianne,inherplanofemploymentabroad,hadnotcalculatedforanychangeofweatherduringtheirstayatCleveland。 Withgreatsurprisetherefore,didshefindherselfpreventedbyasettledrainfromgoingoutagainafterdinner。 ShehaddependedonatwilightwalktotheGreciantemple,andperhapsalloverthegrounds,andaneveningmerelycoldordampwouldnothavedeterredherfromit; butaheavyandsettledrainevenSHEcouldnotfancydryorpleasantweatherforwalking。 Theirpartywassmall,andthehourspassedquietlyaway。 Mrs。Palmerhadherchild,andMrs。Jenningshercarpet-work; theytalkedofthefriendstheyhadleftbehind,arrangedLadyMiddleton’sengagements,andwonderedwhetherMr。PalmerandColonelBrandonwouldgetfartherthanReadingthatnight。Elinor,howeverlittleconcernedinit,joinedintheirdiscourse;andMarianne,whohadtheknackoffindingherwayineveryhousetothelibrary,howeveritmightbeavoidedbythefamilyingeneral,soonprocuredherselfabook。 NothingwaswantingonMrs。Palmer’ssidethatconstantandfriendlygoodhumourcoulddo,tomakethemfeelthemselveswelcome。Theopennessandheartinessofhermannermorethanatonedforthatwantofrecollectionandelegancewhichmadeheroftendeficientintheformsofpoliteness;herkindness,recommendedbysoprettyaface,wasengaging;herfolly,thoughevidentwasnotdisgusting,becauseitwasnotconceited; andElinorcouldhaveforgiveneverythingbutherlaugh。 Thetwogentlemenarrivedthenextdaytoaverylatedinner,affordingapleasantenlargementoftheparty,andaverywelcomevarietytotheirconversation,whichalongmorningofthesamecontinuedrainhadreducedverylow。 ElinorhadseensolittleofMr。Palmer,andinthatlittlehadseensomuchvarietyinhisaddresstohersisterandherself,thatsheknewnotwhattoexpecttofindhiminhisownfamily。Shefoundhim,however,perfectlythegentlemaninhisbehaviourtoallhisvisitors,andonlyoccasionallyrudetohiswifeandhermother; shefoundhimverycapableofbeingapleasantcompanion,andonlypreventedfrombeingsoalways,bytoogreatanaptitudetofancyhimselfasmuchsuperiortopeopleingeneral,ashemustfeelhimselftobetoMrs。JenningsandCharlotte。Fortherestofhischaracterandhabits,theyweremarked,asfarasElinorcouldperceive,withnotraitsatallunusualinhissexandtimeoflife。 Hewasniceinhiseating,uncertaininhishours; fondofhischild,thoughaffectingtoslightit; andidledawaythemorningsatbilliards,whichoughttohavebeendevotedtobusiness。Shelikedhim,however,uponthewhole,muchbetterthanshehadexpected,andinherheartwasnotsorrythatshecouldlikehimnomore;—— notsorrytobedrivenbytheobservationofhisEpicurism,hisselfishness,andhisconceit,torestwithcomplacencyontheremembranceofEdward’sgeneroustemper,simpletaste,anddiffidentfeelings。 OfEdward,oratleastofsomeofhisconcerns,shenowreceivedintelligencefromColonelBrandon,whohadbeenintoDorsetshirelately;andwho,treatingheratonceasthedisinterestedfriendofMr。Ferrars,andthekindofconfidantofhimself,talkedtoheragreatdealoftheparsonageatDelaford,describeditsdeficiencies,andtoldherwhathemeanttodohimselftowardsremovingthem——Hisbehaviourtoherinthis,aswellasineveryotherparticular,hisopenpleasureinmeetingherafteranabsenceofonlytendays,hisreadinesstoconversewithher,andhisdeferenceforheropinion,mightverywelljustifyMrs。Jennings’spersuasionofhisattachment,andwouldhavebeenenough,perhaps,hadnotElinorstill,asfromthefirst,believedMariannehisrealfavourite,tomakehersuspectitherself。Butasitwas,suchanotionhadscarcelyeverenteredherhead,exceptbyMrs。Jennings’ssuggestion;andshecouldnothelpbelievingherselfthenicestobserverofthetwo;——shewatchedhiseyes,whileMrs。Jenningsthoughtonlyofhisbehaviour;——andwhilehislooksofanxioussolicitudeonMarianne’sfeeling,inherheadandthroat,thebeginningofaheavycold,becauseunexpressedbywords,entirelyescapedthelatterlady’sobservation;——SHEcoulddiscoverinthemthequickfeelings,andneedlessalarmofalover。 Twodelighfultwilightwalksonthethirdandfourtheveningsofherbeingthere,notmerelyonthedrygraveloftheshrubbery,butalloverthegrounds,andespeciallyinthemostdistantpartsofthem,wheretherewassomethingmoreofwildnessthanintherest,wherethetreesweretheoldest,andthegrasswasthelongestandwettest,had——assistedbythestillgreaterimprudenceofsittinginherwetshoesandstockings——givenMarianneacoldsoviolentas,thoughforadayortwotrifledwithordenied,wouldforceitselfbyincreasingailmentsontheconcernofeverybody,andthenoticeofherself。 Prescriptionspouredinfromallquarters,andasusual,werealldeclined。Thoughheavyandfeverish,withapaininherlimbs,andacough,andasorethroat,agoodnight’srestwastocureherentirely;anditwaswithdifficultythatElinorprevailedonher,whenshewenttobed,totryoneortwoofthesimplestoftheremedies。