JohnDashwoodwasgreatlyastonished;buthisnaturewascalm,notopentoprovocation,andheneverwishedtooffendanybody,especiallyanybodyofgoodfortune。
Hethereforereplied,withoutanyresentment,“Iwouldbynomeansspeakdisrespectfullyofanyrelationofyours,madam。MissLucySteeleis,Idaresay,averydeservingyoungwoman,butinthepresentcaseyouknow,theconnectionmustbeimpossible。
Andtohaveenteredintoasecretengagementwithayoungmanunderheruncle’scare,thesonofawomanespeciallyofsuchverylargefortuneasMrs。Ferrars,isperhaps,altogetheralittleextraordinary。Inshort,Idonotmeantoreflectuponthebehaviourofanypersonwhomyouhavearegardfor,Mrs。Jennings。Weallwishherextremelyhappy;andMrs。Ferrars’sconductthroughoutthewhole,hasbeensuchaseveryconscientious,goodmother,inlikecircumstances,wouldadopt。Ithasbeendignifiedandliberal。Edwardhasdrawnhisownlot,andIfearitwillbeabadone。”
Mariannesighedouthersimilarapprehension;
andElinor’sheartwrungforthefeelingsofEdward,whilebravinghismother’sthreats,forawomanwhocouldnotrewardhim。
“Well,sir,“saidMrs。Jennings,“andhowdiditend?”
“Iamsorrytosay,ma’am,inamostunhappyrupture:——
Edwardisdismissedforeverfromhismother’snotice。
Heleftherhouseyesterday,butwhereheisgone,orwhetherheisstillintown,Idonotknow;forWEofcoursecanmakenoinquiry。”
“Pooryoungman!——andwhatistobecomeofhim?”
“What,indeed,ma’am!,Itisamelancholyconsideration。
Borntotheprospectofsuchaffluence!,Icannotconceiveasituationmoredeplorable。Theinterestoftwothousandpounds——howcanamanliveonit?——andwhentothatisaddedtherecollection,thathemight,butforhisownfolly,withinthreemonthshavebeeninthereceiptoftwothousand,fivehundreda-year(forMissMortonhasthirtythousandpounds,)Icannotpicturetomyselfamorewretchedcondition。Wemustallfeelforhim;
andthemoreso,becauseitistotallyoutofourpowertoassisthim。”
“Pooryoungman!”criedMrs。Jennings,“Iamsureheshouldbeverywelcometobedandboardatmyhouse;
andsoIwouldtellhimifIcouldseehim。Itisnotfitthatheshouldbelivingaboutathisownchargenow,atlodgingsandtaverns。”
Elinor’sheartthankedherforsuchkindnesstowardsEdward,thoughshecouldnotforbearsmilingattheformofit。
“Ifhewouldonlyhavedoneaswellbyhimself,“
saidJohnDashwood,“asallhisfriendsweredisposedtodobyhim,hemightnowhavebeeninhispropersituation,andwouldhavewantedfornothing。Butasitis,itmustbeoutofanybody’spowertoassisthim。Andthereisonethingmorepreparingagainsthim,whichmustbeworsethanall——hismotherhasdetermined,withaverynaturalkindofspirit,tosettleTHATestateuponRobertimmediately,whichmighthavebeenEdward’s,onproperconditions。
Ileftherthismorningwithherlawyer,talkingoverthebusiness。”
“Well!”saidMrs。Jennings,“thatisHERrevenge。
Everybodyhasawayoftheirown。ButIdon’tthinkminewouldbe,tomakeonesonindependent,becauseanotherhadplaguedme。”
Mariannegotupandwalkedabouttheroom。
“Cananythingbemoregallingtothespiritofaman,“
continuedJohn,“thantoseehisyoungerbrotherinpossessionofanestatewhichmighthavebeenhisown?
PoorEdward!,Ifeelforhimsincerely。”
Afewminutesmorespentinthesamekindofeffusion,concludedhisvisit;andwithrepeatedassurancestohissistersthathereallybelievedtherewasnomaterialdangerinFanny’sindisposition,andthattheyneednotthereforebeveryuneasyaboutit,hewentaway;
leavingthethreeladiesunanimousintheirsentimentsonthepresentoccasion,asfaratleastasitregardedMrs。Ferrars’sconduct,theDashwoods’,andEdward’s。
Marianne’sindignationburstforthassoonashequittedtheroom;andashervehemencemadereserveimpossibleinElinor,andunnecessaryinMrs。Jennings,theyalljoinedinaveryspiritedcritiqueupontheparty。
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Mrs。JenningswasverywarminherpraiseofEdward’sconduct,butonlyElinorandMarianneunderstooditstruemerit。THEYonlyknewhowlittlehehadhadtotempthimtobedisobedient,andhowsmallwastheconsolation,beyondtheconsciousnessofdoingright,thatcouldremaintohiminthelossoffriendsandfortune。
Elinorgloriedinhisintegrity;andMarianneforgaveallhisoffencesincompassionforhispunishment。Butthoughconfidencebetweenthemwas,bythispublicdiscovery,restoredtoitsproperstate,itwasnotasubjectonwhicheitherofthemwerefondofdwellingwhenalone。
Elinoravoidedituponprinciple,astendingtofixstillmoreuponherthoughts,bythetoowarm,toopositiveassurancesofMarianne,thatbeliefofEdward’scontinuedaffectionforherselfwhichsheratherwishedtodoaway;
andMarianne’scouragesoonfailedher,intryingtoconverseuponatopicwhichalwayslefthermoredissatisfiedwithherselfthanever,bythecomparisonitnecessarilyproducedbetweenElinor’sconductandherown。
Shefeltalltheforceofthatcomparison;
butnotashersisterhadhoped,tourgehertoexertionnow;
shefeltitwithallthepainofcontinualself-reproach,regrettedmostbitterlythatshehadneverexertedherselfbefore;butitbroughtonlythetortureofpenitence,withoutthehopeofamendment。Hermindwassomuchweakenedthatshestillfanciedpresentexertionimpossible,andthereforeitonlydispiritedhermore。
Nothingnewwasheardbythem,foradayortwoafterwards,ofaffairsinHarleyStreet,orBartlett’sBuildings。
Butthoughsomuchofthematterwasknowntothemalready,thatMrs。Jenningsmighthavehadenoughtodoinspreadingthatknowledgefarther,withoutseekingaftermore,shehadresolvedfromthefirsttopayavisitofcomfortandinquirytohercousinsassoonasshecould;
andnothingbutthehindranceofmorevisitorsthanusual,hadpreventedhergoingtothemwithinthattime。
Thethirddaysucceedingtheirknowledgeoftheparticulars,wassofine,sobeautifulaSundayastodrawmanytoKensingtonGardens,thoughitwasonlythesecondweekinMarch。Mrs。JenningsandElinorwereofthenumber;
butMarianne,whoknewthattheWilloughbyswereagainintown,andhadaconstantdreadofmeetingthem,choserathertostayathome,thanventureintosopublicaplace。
AnintimateacquaintanceofMrs。JenningsjoinedthemsoonaftertheyenteredtheGardens,andElinorwasnotsorrythatbyhercontinuingwiththem,andengagingallMrs。Jennings’sconversation,shewasherselflefttoquietreflection。ShesawnothingoftheWilloughbys,nothingofEdward,andforsometimenothingofanybodywhocouldbyanychancewhethergraveorgay,beinterestingtoher。Butatlastshefoundherselfwithsomesurprise,accostedbyMissSteele,who,thoughlookingrathershy,expressedgreatsatisfactioninmeetingthem,andonreceivingencouragementfromtheparticularkindnessofMrs。Jennings,leftherownpartyforashorttime,tojointheir’s。
Mrs。JenningsimmediatelywhisperedtoElinor,“Getitalloutofher,mydear。Shewilltellyouanythingifyouask。YouseeIcannotleaveMrs。Clarke。”
Itwaslucky,however,forMrs。Jennings’scuriosityandElinor’stoo,thatshewouldtellanythingWITHOUT
beingasked;fornothingwouldotherwisehavebeenlearnt。
“Iamsogladtomeetyou;“saidMissSteele,takingherfamiliarlybythearm——“forIwantedtoseeyouofallthingsintheworld。”,Andthenloweringhervoice,“IsupposeMrs。Jenningshasheardallaboutit。
Issheangry?”
“Notatall,Ibelieve,withyou。”
“Thatisagoodthing。AndLadyMiddleton,isSHEangry?”
“Icannotsupposeitpossiblethatsheshould。”
“Iammonstrousgladofit。Goodgracious!
Ihavehadsuchatimeofit!,IneversawLucyinsucharageinmylife。Shevowedatfirstshewouldnevertrimmeupanewbonnet,nordoanythingelseformeagain,solongasshelived;butnowsheisquitecometo,andweareasgoodfriendsasever。Look,shemademethisbowtomyhat,andputinthefeatherlastnight。
Therenow,YOUaregoingtolaughatmetoo。ButwhyshouldnotIwearpinkribbons?,IdonotcareifitIS
theDoctor’sfavouritecolour。Iamsure,formypart,IshouldneverhaveknownheDIDlikeitbetterthananyothercolour,ifhehadnothappenedtosayso。
Mycousinshavebeensoplaguingme!,IdeclaresometimesIdonotknowwhichwaytolookbeforethem。”
ShehadwanderedawaytoasubjectonwhichElinorhadnothingtosay,andthereforesoonjudgeditexpedienttofindherwaybackagaintothefirst。
“Well,butMissDashwood,“speakingtriumphantly,“peoplemaysaywhattheychuseaboutMr。Ferrars’sdeclaringhewouldnothaveLucy,foritisnosuchthingIcantellyou;anditisquiteashameforsuchill-naturedreportstobespreadabroad。WhateverLucymightthinkaboutitherself,youknow,itwasnobusinessofotherpeopletosetitdownforcertain。”
“Ineverheardanythingofthekindhintedatbefore,Iassureyou,“saidElinor。
“Oh,didnotyou?,ButitWASsaid,I
know,verywell,andbymorethanone;forMissGodbytoldMissSparks,thatnobodyintheirsensescouldexpectMr。FerrarstogiveupawomanlikeMissMorton,withthirtythousandpoundstoherfortune,forLucySteelethathadnothingatall;andIhaditfromMissSparksmyself。
Andbesidesthat,mycousinRichardsaidhimself,thatwhenitcametothepointhewasafraidMr。Ferrarswouldbeoff;andwhenEdwarddidnotcomenearusforthreedays,Icouldnottellwhattothinkmyself;
andIbelieveinmyheartLucygaveitupallforlost;
forwecameawayfromyourbrother’sWednesday,andwesawnothingofhimnotallThursday,Friday,andSaturday,anddidnotknowwhatwasbecomeofhim。
OnceLucythoughttowritetohim,butthenherspiritsroseagainstthat。Howeverthismorninghecamejustaswecamehomefromchurch;andthenitallcameout,howhehadbeensentforWednesdaytoHarleyStreet,andbeentalkedtobyhismotherandallofthem,andhowhehaddeclaredbeforethemallthathelovednobodybutLucy,andnobodybutLucywouldhehave。
Andhowhehadbeensoworriedbywhatpassed,thatassoonashehadwentawayfromhismother’shouse,hehadgotuponhishorse,andridintothecountry,somewhereorother;andhowhehadstayedaboutataninnallThursdayandFriday,onpurposetogetthebetterofit。Andafterthinkingitalloverandoveragain,hesaid,itseemedtohimasif,nowhehadnofortune,andnonothingatall,itwouldbequiteunkindtokeepherontotheengagement,becauseitmustbeforherloss,forhehadnothingbuttwothousandpounds,andnohopeofanythingelse;andifhewastogointoorders,ashehadsomethoughts,hecouldgetnothingbutacuracy,andhowwastheytoliveuponthat?——Hecouldnotbeartothinkofherdoingnobetter,andsohebegged,ifshehadtheleastmindforit,toputanendtothematterdirectly,andleavehimshiftforhimself。
Iheardhimsayallthisasplainascouldpossiblybe。
AnditwasentirelyforHERsake,anduponHERaccount,thathesaidawordaboutbeingoff,andnotuponhisown。
Iwilltakemyoathheneverdroptasyllableofbeingtiredofher,orofwishingtomarryMissMorton,oranythinglikeit。But,tobesure,Lucywouldnotgiveeartosuchkindoftalking;soshetoldhimdirectly(withagreatdealaboutsweetandlove,youknow,andallthat——Oh,la!onecan’trepeatsuchkindofthingsyouknow)——shetoldhimdirectly,shehadnottheleastmindintheworldtobeoff,forshecouldlivewithhimuponatrifle,andhowlittlesoeverhemighthave,sheshouldbeverygladtohaveitall,youknow,orsomethingofthekind。Sothenhewasmonstroushappy,andtalkedonsometimeaboutwhattheyshoulddo,andtheyagreedheshouldtakeordersdirectly,andtheymustwaittobemarriedtillhegotaliving。
AndjustthenIcouldnothearanymore,formycousincalledfrombelowtotellmeMrs。Richardsonwascomeinhercoach,andwouldtakeoneofustoKensingtonGardens;
soIwasforcedtogointotheroomandinterruptthem,toaskLucyifshewouldliketogo,butshedidnotcaretoleaveEdward;soIjustrunupstairsandputonapairofsilkstockingsandcameoffwiththeRichardsons。”
“Idonotunderstandwhatyoumeanbyinterruptingthem,“
saidElinor;“youwereallinthesameroomtogether,werenotyou?”
“No,indeed,notus。La!MissDashwood,doyouthinkpeoplemakelovewhenanybodyelseisby?,Oh,forshame!——Tobesureyoumustknowbetterthanthat。
(Laughingaffectedly。)——No,no;theywereshutupinthedrawing-roomtogether,andallIheardwasonlybylisteningatthedoor。”
“How!”criedElinor;“haveyoubeenrepeatingtomewhatyouonlylearntyourselfbylisteningatthedoor?
IamsorryIdidnotknowitbefore;forIcertainlywouldnothavesufferedyoutogivemeparticularsofaconversationwhichyououghtnottohaveknownyourself。
Howcouldyoubehavesounfairlybyyoursister?”
“Oh,la!thereisnothinginTHAT。I
onlystoodatthedoor,andheardwhatIcould。AndIamsureLucywouldhavedonejustthesamebyme;forayearortwoback,whenMarthaSharpeandIhadsomanysecretstogether,shenevermadeanybonesofhidinginacloset,orbehindachimney-board,onpurposetohearwhatwesaid。”
Elinortriedtotalkofsomethingelse;butMissSteelecouldnotbekeptbeyondacoupleofminutes,fromwhatwasuppermostinhermind。
“EdwardtalksofgoingtoOxfordsoon,“saidshe;
“butnowheislodgingatNo——,PallMall。Whatanill-naturedwomanhismontheris,an’tshe?Andyourbrotherandsisterwerenotverykind!However,Ishan’tsayanythingagainstthemtoYOU;andtobesuretheydidsendushomeintheirownchariot,whichwasmorethanIlookedfor。Andformypart,Iwasallinafrightforfearyoursistershouldaskusforthehuswifesshehadgaveusadayortwobefore;but,however,nothingwassaidaboutthem,andItookcaretokeepmineoutofsight。EdwardhavegotsomebusinessatOxford,hesays;sohemustgothereforatime;andafterTHAT,assoonashecanlightuponaBishop,hewillbeordained。
Iwonderwhatcuracyhewillget!——Goodgracious!
(gigglingasshespoke)I’dlaymylifeIknowwhatmycousinswillsay,whentheyhearofit。TheywilltellmeIshouldwritetotheDoctor,togetEdwardthecuracyofhisnewliving。Iknowtheywill;butIamsureIwouldnotdosuchathingforalltheworld——
’La!’Ishallsaydirectly,’Iwonderhowyoucouldthinkofsuchathing?,IwritetotheDoctor,indeed!’“
“Well,“saidElinor,“itisacomforttobepreparedagainsttheworst。Youhavegotyouranswerready。”
MissSteelewasgoingtoreplyonthesamesubject,buttheapproachofherownpartymadeanothermorenecessary。
“Oh,la!herecometheRichardsons。I
hadavastdealmoretosaytoyou,butImustnotstayawayfromthemnotanylonger。Iassureyoutheyareverygenteelpeople。
Hemakesamonstrousdealofmoney,andtheykeeptheirowncoach。IhavenottimetospeaktoMrs。Jenningsaboutitmyself,butpraytellherIamquitehappytohearsheisnotinangeragainstus,andLadyMiddletonthesame;
andifanythingshouldhappentotakeyouandyoursisteraway,andMrs。Jenningsshouldwantcompany,Iamsureweshouldbeverygladtocomeandstaywithherforaslongatimeasshelikes。IsupposeLadyMiddletonwon’taskusanymorethisbout。Good-by;IamsorryMissMariannewasnothere。Remembermekindlytoher。
La!ifyouhavenotgotyourspottedmuslinon!——Iwonderyouwasnotafraidofitsbeingtorn。”
Suchwasherpartingconcern;forafterthis,shehadtimeonlytopayherfarewellcomplimentstoMrs。Jennings,beforehercompanywasclaimedbyMrs。Richardson;
andElinorwasleftinpossessionofknowledgewhichmightfeedherpowersofreflectionsometime,thoughshehadlearntverylittlemorethanwhathadbeenalreadyforeseenandforeplannedinherownmind。Edward’smarriagewithLucywasasfirmlydeterminedon,andthetimeofitstakingplaceremainedasabsolutelyuncertain,asshehadconcludeditwouldbe;——everythingdepended,exactlyafterherexpectation,onhisgettingthatpreferment,ofwhich,atpresent,thereseemednotthesmallestchance。
Assoonastheyreturnedtothecarriage,Mrs。Jenningswaseagerforinformation;butasElinorwishedtospreadaslittleaspossibleintelligencethathadinthefirstplacebeensounfairlyobtained,sheconfinedherselftothebriefrepetitionofsuchsimpleparticulars,asshefeltassuredthatLucy,forthesakeofherownconsequence,wouldchoosetohaveknown。Thecontinuanceoftheirengagement,andthemeansthatwereabletobetakenforpromotingitsend,wasallhercommunication;andthisproducedfromMrs。Jenningsthefollowingnaturalremark。
“Waitforhishavingaliving!——ay,weallknowhowTHATwillend:——theywillwaitatwelvemonth,andfindingnogoodcomesofit,willsetdownuponacuracyoffiftypoundsa-year,withtheinterestofhistwothousandpounds,andwhatlittlematterMr。SteeleandMr。Prattcangiveher——Thentheywillhaveachildeveryyear!andLordhelp’em!howpoortheywillbe!——ImustseewhatIcangivethemtowardsfurnishingtheirhouse。
Twomaidsandtwomen,indeed!——asItalkedoft’otherday——No,no,theymustgetastoutgirlofallworks——
Betty’ssisterwouldneverdoforthemNOW。”
ThenextmorningbroughtElinoraletterbythetwo-pennypostfromLucyherself。Itwasasfollows:
“Bartlett’sBuilding,March。
“IhopemydearMissDashwoodwillexcusethelibertyItakeofwritingtoher;butIknowyourfriendshipformewillmakeyoupleasedtohearsuchagoodaccountofmyselfandmydearEdward,afterallthetroubleswehavewentthroughlately,thereforewillmakenomoreapologies,butproceedtosaythat,thankGod!thoughwehavesuffereddreadfully,wearebothquitewellnow,andashappyaswemustalwaysbeinoneanother’slove。
Wehavehadgreattrials,andgreatpersecutions,buthowever,atthesametime,gratefullyacknowledgemanyfriends,yourselfnottheleastamongthem,whosegreatkindnessIshallalwaysthankfullyremember,aswillEdwardtoo,whoIhavetoldofit。Iamsureyouwillbegladtohear,aslikewisedearMrs。Jennings,Ispenttwohappyhourswithhimyesterdayafternoon,hewouldnothearofourparting,thoughearnestlydidI,asIthoughtmydutyrequired,urgehimtoitforprudencesake,andwouldhavepartedforeveronthespot,wouldheconsenttoit;buthesaiditshouldneverbe,hedidnotregardhismother’sanger,whilehecouldhavemyaffections;ourprospectsarenotverybright,tobesure,butwemustwait,andhopeforthebest;hewillbeordainedshortly;andshoulditeverbeinyourpowertorecommendhimtoanybodythathasalivingtobestow,amverysureyouwillnotforgetus,anddearMrs。Jenningstoo,trustshewillspeakagoodwordforustoSirJohn,orMr。Palmer,oranyfriendthatmaybeabletoassistus——PoorAnnewasmuchtoblameforwhatshedid,butshediditforthebest,soI
saynothing;hopeMrs。Jenningswon’tthinkittoomuchtroubletogiveusacall,shouldshecomethiswayanymorning,’twouldbeagreatkindness,andmycousinswouldbeproudtoknowher——Mypaperremindsmetoconclude;andbeggingtobemostgratefullyandrespectfullyrememberedtoher,andtoSirJohn,andLadyMiddleton,andthedearchildren,whenyouchancetoseethem,andlovetoMissMarianne,“Iam,&c。”
AssoonasElinorhadfinishedit,sheperformedwhatsheconcludedtobeitswriter’srealdesign,byplacingitinthehandsofMrs。Jennings,whoreaditaloudwithmanycommentsofsatisfactionandpraise。
“Verywellindeed!——howprettilyshewrites!——aye,thatwasquitepropertolethimbeoffifhewould。
ThatwasjustlikeLucy——Poorsoul!IwishICOULDgethimaliving,withallmyheart——ShecallsmedearMrs。Jennings,yousee。Sheisagood-heartedgirlaseverlived——Verywelluponmyword。Thatsentenceisveryprettilyturned。Yes,yes,Iwillgoandseeher,sureenough。Howattentivesheis,tothinkofeverybody!——Thankyou,mydear,forshewingitme。ItisasprettyaletteraseverIsaw,anddoesLucy’sheadandheartgreatcredit。”
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TheMissDashwoodshadnowbeenrathermorethantwomonthsintown,andMarianne’simpatiencetobegoneincreasedeveryday。Shesighedfortheair,theliberty,thequietofthecountry;andfanciedthatifanyplacecouldgiveherease,Bartonmustdoit。Elinorwashardlylessanxiousthanherselffortheirremoval,andonlysomuchlessbentonitsbeingeffectedimmediately,asthatshewasconsciousofthedifficultiesofsolongajourney,whichMariannecouldnotbebroughttoacknowledge。
Shebegan,however,seriouslytoturnherthoughtstowardsitsaccomplishment,andhadalreadymentionedtheirwishestotheirkindhostess,whoresistedthemwithalltheeloquenceofhergood-will,whenaplanwassuggested,which,thoughdetainingthemfromhomeyetafewweekslonger,appearedtoElinoraltogethermuchmoreeligiblethananyother。ThePalmersweretoremovetoClevelandabouttheendofMarch,fortheEasterholidays;
andMrs。Jennings,withbothherfriends,receivedaverywarminvitationfromCharlottetogowiththem。Thiswouldnot,initself,havebeensufficientforthedelicacyofMissDashwood;——butitwasinforcedwithsomuchrealpolitenessbyMr。Palmerhimself,as,joinedtotheverygreatamendmentofhismannerstowardsthemsincehersisterhadbeenknowntobeunhappy,inducedhertoacceptitwithpleasure。
WhenshetoldMariannewhatshehaddone,however,herfirstreplywasnotveryauspicious。
“Cleveland!”——shecried,withgreatagitation。
“No,IcannotgotoCleveland。”——
“Youforget,“saidElinorgently,“thatitssituationisnot……thatitisnotintheneighbourhoodof……”
“ButitisinSomersetshire——IcannotgointoSomersetshire——There,whereIlookedforwardtogoing……No,Elinor,youcannotexpectmetogothere。”
Elinorwouldnotargueupontheproprietyofovercomingsuchfeelings;——sheonlyendeavouredtocounteractthembyworkingonothers;——representedit,therefore,asameasurewhichwouldfixthetimeofherreturningtothatdearmother,whomshesomuchwishedtosee,inamoreeligible,morecomfortablemanner,thananyotherplancoulddo,andperhapswithoutanygreaterdelay。FromCleveland,whichwaswithinafewmilesofBristol,thedistancetoBartonwasnotbeyondoneday,thoughalongday’sjourney;
andtheirmother’sservantmighteasilycometheretoattendthemdown;andastherecouldbenooccasionoftheirstayingaboveaweekatCleveland,theymightnowbeathomeinlittlemorethanthreeweeks’time。AsMarianne’saffectionforhermotherwassincere,itmusttriumphwithlittledifficulty,overtheimaginaryevilsshehadstarted。
Mrs。Jenningswassofarfrombeingwearyofherguest,thatshepressedthemveryearnestlytoreturnwithheragainfromCleveland。Elinorwasgratefulfortheattention,butitcouldnotalterherdesign;andtheirmother’sconcurrencebeingreadilygained,everythingrelativetotheirreturnwasarrangedasfarasitcouldbe;——
andMariannefoundsomereliefindrawingupastatementofthehoursthatwereyettodivideherfromBarton。
“Ah!Colonel,IdonotknowwhatyouandI
shalldowithouttheMissDashwoods;“——wasMrs。Jennings’saddresstohimwhenhefirstcalledonher,aftertheirleavingherwassettled——“fortheyarequiteresolvedupongoinghomefromthePalmers;——andhowforlornweshallbe,whenIcomeback!——Lord!weshallsitandgapeatoneanotherasdullastwocats。”
PerhapsMrs。Jenningswasinhopes,bythisvigoroussketchoftheirfutureennui,toprovokehimtomakethatoffer,whichmightgivehimselfanescapefromit;——
andifso,shehadsoonafterwardsgoodreasontothinkherobjectgained;for,onElinor’smovingtothewindowtotakemoreexpeditiouslythedimensionsofaprint,whichshewasgoingtocopyforherfriend,hefollowedhertoitwithalookofparticularmeaning,andconversedwithherthereforseveralminutes。Theeffectofhisdiscourseontheladytoo,couldnotescapeherobservation,forthoughshewastoohonorabletolisten,andhadevenchangedherseat,onpurposethatshemightNOThear,tooneclosebythepianoforteonwhichMariannewasplaying,shecouldnotkeepherselffromseeingthatElinorchangedcolour,attendedwithagitation,andwastoointentonwhathesaidtopursueheremployment——
Stillfartherinconfirmationofherhopes,intheintervalofMarianne’sturningfromonelessontoanother,somewordsoftheColonel’sinevitablyreachedherear,inwhichheseemedtobeapologisingforthebadnessofhishouse。Thissetthematterbeyondadoubt。
Shewondered,indeed,athisthinkingitnecessarytodoso;butsupposedittobetheproperetiquette。
WhatElinorsaidinreplyshecouldnotdistinguish,butjudgedfromthemotionofherlips,thatshedidnotthinkTHATanymaterialobjection;——andMrs。Jenningscommendedherinherheartforbeingsohonest。
Theythentalkedonforafewminuteslongerwithouthercatchingasyllable,whenanotherluckystopinMarianne’sperformancebroughtherthesewordsintheColonel’scalmvoice,——
“Iamafraiditcannottakeplaceverysoon。”
Astonishedandshockedatsounlover-likeaspeech,shewasalmostreadytocryout,“Lord!whatshouldhinderit?”——butcheckingherdesire,confinedherselftothissilentejaculation。
“Thisisverystrange!——sureheneednotwaittobeolder。”
ThisdelayontheColonel’sside,however,didnotseemtooffendormortifyhisfaircompanionintheleast,forontheirbreakinguptheconferencesoonafterwards,andmovingdifferentways,Mrs。JenningsveryplainlyheardElinorsay,andwithavoicewhichshewedhertofeelwhatshesaid,“Ishallalwaysthinkmyselfverymuchobligedtoyou。”
Mrs。Jenningswasdelightedwithhergratitude,andonlywonderedthatafterhearingsuchasentence,theColonelshouldbeabletotakeleaveofthem,asheimmediatelydid,withtheutmostsang-froid,andgoawaywithoutmakingheranyreply!——Shehadnotthoughtheroldfriendcouldhavemadesoindifferentasuitor。
Whathadreallypassedbetweenthemwastothiseffect。
“Ihaveheard,“saidhe,withgreatcompassion,“oftheinjusticeyourfriendMr。Ferrarshassufferedfromhisfamily;forifIunderstandthematterright,hehasbeenentirelycastoffbythemforperseveringinhisengagementwithaverydeservingyoungwoman——
HaveIbeenrightlyinformed?——Isitso?——“
Elinortoldhimthatitwas。
“Thecruelty,theimpoliticcruelty,“——hereplied,withgreatfeeling,——“ofdividing,orattemptingtodivide,twoyoungpeoplelongattachedtoeachother,isterrible——
Mrs。Ferrarsdoesnotknowwhatshemaybedoing——whatshemaydrivehersonto。IhaveseenMr。FerrarstwoorthreetimesinHarleyStreet,andammuchpleasedwithhim。Heisnotayoungmanwithwhomonecanbeintimatelyacquaintedinashorttime,butIhaveseenenoughofhimtowishhimwellforhisownsake,andasafriendofyours,Iwishitstillmore。
Iunderstandthatheintendstotakeorders。WillyoubesogoodastotellhimthatthelivingofDelaford,nowjustvacant,asIaminformedbythisday’spost,ishis,ifhethinkitworthhisacceptance——butTHAT,perhaps,sounfortunatelycircumstancedasheisnow,itmaybe,nonsensetoappeartodoubt;Ionlywishitweremore,valuable——Itisarectory,butasmallone;
thelateincumbent,Ibelieve,didnotmakemorethan200Lperannum,andthoughitiscertainlycapableofimprovement,Ifear,nottosuchanamountastoaffordhimaverycomfortableincome。Suchasitis,however,mypleasureinpresentinghimtoit,willbeverygreat。Prayassurehimofit。”
Elinor’sastonishmentatthiscommissioncouldhardlyhavebeengreater,hadtheColonelbeenreallymakingheranofferofhishand。Thepreferment,whichonlytwodaysbeforeshehadconsideredashopelessforEdward,wasalreadyprovidedtoenablehimtomarry;——
andSHE,ofallpeopleintheworld,wasfixedontobestowit!——HeremotionwassuchasMrs。Jenningshadattributedtoaverydifferentcause;——butwhateverminorfeelingslesspure,lesspleasing,mighthaveashareinthatemotion,heresteemforthegeneralbenevolence,andhergratitudefortheparticularfriendship,whichtogetherpromptedColonelBrandontothisact,werestronglyfelt,andwarmlyexpressed。Shethankedhimforitwithallherheart,spokeofEdward’sprinciplesanddispositionwiththatpraisewhichsheknewthemtodeserve;
andpromisedtoundertakethecommissionwithpleasure,ifitwerereallyhiswishtoputoffsoagreeableanofficetoanother。Butatthesametime,shecouldnothelpthinkingthatnoonecouldsowellperformitashimself。
Itwasanofficeinshort,fromwhich,unwillingtogiveEdwardthepainofreceivinganobligationfromHER,shewouldhavebeenverygladtobesparedherself;——
butColonelBrandon,onmotivesofequaldelicacy,decliningitlikewise,stillseemedsodesirousofitsbeinggiventhroughhermeans,thatshewouldnotonanyaccountmakefartheropposition。Edward,shebelieved,wasstillintown,andfortunatelyshehadheardhisaddressfromMissSteele。
Shecouldundertakethereforetoinformhimofit,inthecourseoftheday。Afterthishadbeensettled,ColonelBrandonbegantotalkofhisownadvantageinsecuringsorespectableandagreeableaneighbour,andTHENitwasthathementionedwithregret,thatthehousewassmallandindifferent;——anevilwhichElinor,asMrs。Jenningshadsupposedhertodo,madeverylightof,atleastasfarasregardeditssize。
“Thesmallnessofthehouse,“saidshe,“Icannotimagineanyinconveniencetothem,foritwillbeinproportiontotheirfamilyandincome。”
BywhichtheColonelwassurprisedtofindthatSHE
wasconsideringMr。Ferrars’smarriageasthecertainconsequenceofthepresentation;forhedidnotsupposeitpossiblethatDelafordlivingcouldsupplysuchanincome,asanybodyinhisstyleoflifewouldventuretosettleon——
andhesaidso。
“ThislittlerectoryCANdonomorethanmakeMr。Ferrarscomfortableasabachelor;itcannotenablehimtomarry。
Iamsorrytosaythatmypatronageendswiththis;
andmyinterestishardlymoreextensive。If,however,byanunforeseenchanceitshouldbeinmypowertoservehimfarther,ImustthinkverydifferentlyofhimfromwhatInowdo,ifIamnotasreadytobeusefultohimthenasIsincerelywishIcouldbeatpresent。
WhatIamnowdoingindeed,seemsnothingatall,sinceitcanadvancehimsolittletowardswhatmustbehisprincipal,hisonlyobjectofhappiness。
Hismarriagemuststillbeadistantgood;——atleast,Iamafraiditcannottakeplaceverysoon——“
Suchwasthesentencewhich,whenmisunderstood,sojustlyoffendedthedelicatefeelingsofMrs。Jennings;
butafterthisnarrationofwhatreallypassedbetweenColonelBrandonandElinor,whiletheystoodatthewindow,thegratitudeexpressedbythelatterontheirparting,mayperhapsappearingeneral,notlessreasonablyexcited,norlessproperlywordedthanifithadarisenfromanofferofmarriage。
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“Well,MissDashwood,“saidMrs。Jennings,sagaciouslysmiling,assoonasthegentlemanhadwithdrawn,“IdonotaskyouwhattheColonelhasbeensayingtoyou;
forthough,uponmyhonour,ITRIEDtokeepoutofhearing,Icouldnothelpcatchingenoughtounderstandhisbusiness。
AndIassureyouIneverwasbetterpleasedinmylife,andIwishyoujoyofitwithallmyheart。”
“Thankyou,ma’am,“saidElinor。”Itisamatterofgreatjoytome;andIfeelthegoodnessofColonelBrandonmostsensibly。Therearenotmanymenwhowouldactashehasdone。Fewpeoplewhohavesocompassionateaheart!,Ineverwasmoreastonishedinmylife。”
“Lord!mydear,youareverymodest。
Ian’ttheleastastonishedatitintheworld,forIhaveoftenthoughtoflate,therewasnothingmorelikelytohappen。”
“YoujudgedfromyourknowledgeoftheColonel’sgeneralbenevolence;butatleastyoucouldnotforeseethattheopportunitywouldsoverysoonoccur。”
“Opportunity!”repeatedMrs。Jennings——“Oh!
astothat,whenamanhasoncemadeuphismindtosuchathing,somehoworotherhewillsoonfindanopportunity。
Well,mydear,Iwishyoujoyofitagainandagain;
andifevertherewasahappycoupleintheworld,IthinkIshallsoonknowwheretolookforthem。”
“YoumeantogotoDelafordafterthemIsuppose,“
saidElinor,withafaintsmile。
“Aye,mydear,thatIdo,indeed。Andastothehousebeingabadone,IdonotknowwhattheColonelwouldbeat,foritisasgoodaoneaseverIsaw。”
“Hespokeofitsbeingoutofrepair。”
“Well,andwhosefaultisthat?whydon’therepairit?——
whoshoulddoitbuthimself?”
Theywereinterruptedbytheservant’scomingintoannouncethecarriagebeingatthedoor;andMrs。Jenningsimmediatelypreparingtogo,said,——
“Well,mydear,ImustbegonebeforeIhavehadhalfmytalkout。But,however,wemayhaveitalloverintheevening;forweshallbequitealone。Idonotaskyoutogowithme,forIdaresayyourmindistoofullofthemattertocareforcompany;andbesides,youmustlongtotellyoursisterallaboutit。”
Mariannehadlefttheroombeforetheconversationbegan。
“Certainly,ma’am,IshalltellMarianneofit;
butIshallnotmentionitatpresenttoanybodyelse。”
“Oh!verywell,“saidMrs。Jenningsratherdisappointed。
“ThenyouwouldnothavemetellittoLucy,forIthinkofgoingasfarasHolbornto-day。”
“No,ma’am,notevenLucyifyouplease。
Oneday’sdelaywillnotbeverymaterial;andtillI
havewrittentoMr。Ferrars,Ithinkitoughtnottobementionedtoanybodyelse。IshalldoTHATdirectly。
Itisofimportancethatnotimeshouldbelostwithhim,forhewillofcoursehavemuchtodorelativetohisordination。”
ThisspeechatfirstpuzzledMrs。Jenningsexceedingly。
WhyMr。Ferrarswastohavebeenwrittentoaboutitinsuchahurry,shecouldnotimmediatelycomprehend。
Afewmoments’reflection,however,producedaveryhappyidea,andsheexclaimed;——
“Oh,ho!——Iunderstandyou。Mr。Ferrarsistobetheman。Well,somuchthebetterforhim。Ay,tobesure,hemustbeordainedinreadiness;andIamverygladtofindthingsaresoforwardbetweenyou。But,mydear,isnotthisratheroutofcharacter?,ShouldnottheColonelwritehimself?——sure,heistheproperperson。”
ElinordidnotquiteunderstandthebeginningofMrs。Jennings’sspeech,neitherdidshethinkitworthinquiringinto;andthereforeonlyrepliedtoitsconclusion。
“ColonelBrandonissodelicateaman,thatheratherwishedanyonetoannouncehisintentionstoMr。Ferrarsthanhimself。”
“AndsoYOUareforcedtodoit。WellTHATisanoddkindofdelicacy!,However,Iwillnotdisturbyou(seeingherpreparingtowrite。),Youknowyourownconcernsbest。
Sogoodby,mydear。IhavenotheardofanythingtopleasemesowellsinceCharlottewasbroughttobed。”
Andawayshewent;butreturningagaininamoment,“IhavejustbeenthinkingofBetty’ssister,mydear。
Ishouldbeverygladtogethersogoodamistress。
Butwhethershewoulddoforalady’smaid,IamsureI
can’ttell。Sheisanexcellenthousemaid,andworksverywellatherneedle。However,youwillthinkofallthatatyourleisure。”
“Certainly,ma’am,“repliedElinor,nothearingmuchofwhatshesaid,andmoreanxioustobealone,thantobemistressofthesubject。
Howsheshouldbegin——howsheshouldexpressherselfinhernotetoEdward,wasnowallherconcern。
Theparticularcircumstancesbetweenthemmadeadifficultyofthatwhichtoanyotherpersonwouldhavebeentheeasiestthingintheworld;butsheequallyfearedtosaytoomuchortoolittle,andsatdeliberatingoverherpaper,withthepeninherband,tillbrokeninonbytheentranceofEdwardhimself。
HehadmetMrs。Jenningsatthedoorinherwaytothecarriage,ashecametoleavehisfarewellcard;andshe,afterapologisingfornotreturningherself,hadobligedhimtoenter,bysayingthatMissDashwoodwasabove,andwantedtospeakwithhimonveryparticularbusiness。
Elinorhadjustbeencongratulatingherself,inthemidstofherperplexity,thathoweverdifficultitmightbetoexpressherselfproperlybyletter,itwasatleastpreferabletogivingtheinformationbywordofmouth,whenhervisitorentered,toforceheruponthisgreatestexertionofall。Herastonishmentandconfusionwereverygreatonhissosuddenappearance。Shehadnotseenhimbeforesincehisengagementbecamepublic,andthereforenotsincehisknowinghertobeacquaintedwithit;which,withtheconsciousnessofwhatshehadbeenthinkingof,andwhatshehadtotellhim,madeherfeelparticularlyuncomfortableforsomeminutes。
Hetoowasmuchdistressed;andtheysatdowntogetherinamostpromisingstateofembarrassment——Whetherhehadaskedherpardonforhisintrusiononfirstcomingintotheroom,hecouldnotrecollect;butdeterminingtobeonthesafeside,hemadehisapologyinformassoonashecouldsayanything,aftertakingachair。
“Mrs。Jenningstoldme,“saidhe,“thatyouwishedtospeakwithme,atleastIunderstoodherso——orI
certainlyshouldnothaveintrudedonyouinsuchamanner;
thoughatthesametime,IshouldhavebeenextremelysorrytoleaveLondonwithoutseeingyouandyoursister;
especiallyasitwillmostlikelybesometime——itisnotprobablethatIshouldsoonhavethepleasureofmeetingyouagain。IgotoOxfordtomorrow。”
“Youwouldnothavegone,however,“saidElinor,recoveringherself,anddeterminedtogetoverwhatshesomuchdreadedassoonaspossible,“withoutreceivingourgoodwishes,evenifwehadnotbeenabletogivetheminperson。Mrs。Jenningswasquiterightinwhatshesaid。
Ihavesomethingofconsequencetoinformyouof,whichIwasonthepointofcommunicatingbypaper。
Iamchargedwithamostagreeableoffice(breathingratherfasterthanusualasshespoke。),ColonelBrandon,whowashereonlytenminutesago,hasdesiredmetosay,thatunderstandingyoumeantotakeorders,hehasgreatpleasureinofferingyouthelivingofDelafordnowjustvacant,andonlywishesitweremorevaluable。
Allowmetocongratulateyouonhavingsorespectableandwell-judgingafriend,andtojoininhiswishthattheliving——itisabouttwohundreda-year——weremuchmoreconsiderable,andsuchasmightbetterenableyouto——asmightbemorethanatemporaryaccommodationtoyourself——such,inshort,asmightestablishallyourviewsofhappiness。”
WhatEdwardfelt,ashecouldnotsayithimself,itcannotbeexpectedthatanyoneelseshouldsayforhim。
HeLOOKEDalltheastonishmentwhichsuchunexpected,suchunthought-ofinformationcouldnotfailofexciting;
buthesaidonlythesetwowords,“ColonelBrandon!”
“Yes,“continuedElinor,gatheringmoreresolution,assomeoftheworstwasover,“ColonelBrandonmeansitasatestimonyofhisconcernforwhathaslatelypassed——forthecruelsituationinwhichtheunjustifiableconductofyourfamilyhasplacedyou——aconcernwhichIamsureMarianne,myself,andallyourfriends,mustshare;andlikewiseasaproofofhishighesteemforyourgeneralcharacter,andhisparticularapprobationofyourbehaviouronthepresentoccasion。”
“ColonelBrandongiveMEaliving!——Canitbepossible?”
“Theunkindnessofyourownrelationshasmadeyouastonishedtofindfriendshipanywhere。”
“No,“repliedbe,withsuddenconsciousness,“nottofinditinYOU;forIcannotbeignorantthattoyou,toyourgoodness,Ioweitall——Ifeelit——IwouldexpressitifIcould——but,asyouwellknow,Iamnoorator。”
“Youareverymuchmistaken。Idoassureyouthatyouoweitentirely,atleastalmostentirely,toyourownmerit,andColonelBrandon’sdiscernmentofit。Ihavehadnohandinit。Ididnotevenknow,tillIunderstoodhisdesign,thatthelivingwasvacant;
norhaditeveroccurredtomethathemighthavehadsuchalivinginhisgift。Asafriendofmine,ofmyfamily,hemay,perhaps——indeedIknowheHAS,stillgreaterpleasureinbestowingit;but,uponmyword,youowenothingtomysolicitation。”
Truthobligedhertoacknowledgesomesmallshareintheaction,butshewasatthesametimesounwillingtoappearasthebenefactressofEdward,thatsheacknowledgeditwithhesitation;whichprobablycontributedtofixthatsuspicioninhismindwhichhadrecentlyenteredit。
Forashorttimehesatdeepinthought,afterElinorhadceasedtospeak;——atlast,andasifitwereratheraneffort,hesaid,“ColonelBrandonseemsamanofgreatworthandrespectability。Ihavealwaysheardhimspokenofassuch,andyourbrotherIknowesteemshimhighly。
Heisundoubtedlyasensibleman,andinhismannersperfectlythegentleman。”
“Indeed,“repliedElinor,“Ibelievethatyouwillfindhim,onfartheracquaintance,allthatyouhaveheardhimtobe,andasyouwillbesuchverynearneighbours(forIunderstandtheparsonageisalmostclosetothemansion-house,)
itisparticularlyimportantthatheSHOULDbeallthis。”
Edwardmadenoanswer;butwhenshehadturnedawayherhead,gaveheralooksoserious,soearnest,souncheerful,asseemedtosay,thathemighthereafterwishthedistancebetweentheparsonageandthemansion-housemuchgreater。
“ColonelBrandon,Ithink,lodgesinSt。JamesStreet,“
saidhe,soonafterwards,risingfromhischair。
Elinortoldhimthenumberofthehouse。
“Imusthurryawaythen,togivehimthosethankswhichyouwillnotallowmetogiveYOU;toassurehimthathehasmademeavery——anexceedinglyhappyman。”
Elinordidnotoffertodetainhim;andtheyparted,withaveryearnestassuranceonHERsideofherunceasinggoodwishesforhishappinessineverychangeofsituationthatmightbefallhim;onHIS,withratheranattempttoreturnthesamegoodwill,thanthepowerofexpressingit。
“WhenIseehimagain,“saidElinortoherself,asthedoorshuthimout,“IshallseehimthehusbandofLucy。”
Andwiththispleasinganticipation,shesatdowntoreconsiderthepast,recallthewordsandendeavourtocomprehendallthefeelingsofEdward;and,ofcourse,toreflectonherownwithdiscontent。
WhenMrs。Jenningscamehome,thoughshereturnedfromseeingpeoplewhomshehadneverseenbefore,andofwhomthereforeshemusthaveagreatdealtosay,hermindwassomuchmoreoccupiedbytheimportantsecretinherpossession,thanbyanythingelse,thatsherevertedtoitagainassoonasElinorappeared。
“Well,mydear,“shecried,“Isentyouuptotheyoungman。DidnotIdoright?——AndIsupposeyouhadnogreatdifficulty——Youdidnotfindhimveryunwillingtoacceptyourproposal?”
“No,ma’am;THATwasnotverylikely。”
“Well,andhowsoonwillhebeready?——Foritseemsalltodependuponthat。”
“Really,“saidElinor,“Iknowsolittleofthesekindofforms,thatIcanhardlyevenconjectureastothetime,orthepreparationnecessary;butIsupposetwoorthreemonthswillcompletehisordination。”
“Twoorthreemonths!”criedMrs。Jennings;
“Lord!mydear,howcalmlyyoutalkofit;andcantheColonelwaittwoorthreemonths!Lordblessme!——IamsureitwouldputME
quiteoutofpatience!——AndthoughonewouldbeverygladtodoakindnessbypoorMr。Ferrars,Idothinkitisnotworthwhiletowaittwoorthreemonthsforhim。
Suresomebodyelsemightbefoundthatwoulddoaswell;
somebodythatisinordersalready。”
“Mydearma’am,“saidElinor,“whatcanyoubethinkingof?——
Why,ColonelBrandon’sonlyobjectistobeofusetoMr。Ferrars。”
“Lordblessyou,mydear!——SureyoudonotmeantopersuademethattheColonelonlymarriesyouforthesakeofgivingtenguineastoMr。Ferrars!”
Thedeceptioncouldnotcontinueafterthis;
andanexplanationimmediatelytookplace,bywhichbothgainedconsiderableamusementforthemoment,withoutanymateriallossofhappinesstoeither,forMrs。Jenningsonlyexchangedoneformofdelightforanother,andstillwithoutforfeitingherexpectationofthefirst。
“Aye,aye,theparsonageisbutasmallone,“
saidshe,afterthefirstebullitionofsurpriseandsatisfactionwasover,“andverylikelyMAYbeoutofrepair;buttohearamanapologising,asIthought,forahousethattomyknowledgehasfivesittingroomsontheground-floor,andI
thinkthehousekeepertoldmecouldmakeupfifteenbeds!——
andtoyoutoo,thathadbeenusedtoliveinBartoncottage!——Itseemsquiteridiculous。But,mydear,wemusttouchuptheColoneltodosomethingtotheparsonage,andmakeitcomfortableforthem,beforeLucygoestoit。”
“ButColonelBrandondoesnotseemtohaveanyideaoftheliving’sbeingenoughtoallowthemtomarry。”
“TheColonelisaninny,mydear;becausehehastwothousanda-yearhimself,hethinksthatnobodyelsecanmarryonless。Takemywordforit,that,ifIamalive,IshallbepayingavisitatDelafordParsonagebeforeMichaelmas;
andIamsureIsha’ntgoifLucyan’tthere。”
Elinorwasquiteofheropinion,astotheprobabilityoftheirnotwaitingforanythingmore。
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Edward,havingcarriedhisthankstoColonelBrandon,proceededwithhishappinesstoLucy;andsuchwastheexcessofitbythetimehereachedBartlett’sBuildings,thatshewasabletoassureMrs。Jennings,whocalledonheragainthenextdaywithhercongratulations,thatshehadneverseenhiminsuchspiritsbeforeinherlife。
Herownhappiness,andherownspirits,wereatleastverycertain;andshejoinedMrs。JenningsmostheartilyinherexpectationoftheirbeingallcomfortablytogetherinDelafordParsonagebeforeMichaelmas。
Sofarwasshe,atthesametime,fromanybackwardnesstogiveElinorthatcreditwhichEdwardWOULDgiveher,thatshespokeofherfriendshipforthembothwiththemostgratefulwarmth,wasreadytoownalltheirobligationtoher,andopenlydeclaredthatnoexertionfortheirgoodonMissDashwood’spart,eitherpresentorfuture,wouldeversurpriseher,forshebelievedhercapableofdoinganythingintheworldforthoseshereallyvalued。
AsforColonelBrandon,shewasnotonlyreadytoworshiphimasasaint,butwasmoreovertrulyanxiousthatheshouldbetreatedasoneinallworldlyconcerns;
anxiousthathistithesshouldberaisedtotheutmost;
andscarcelyresolvedtoavailherself,atDelaford,asfarasshepossiblycould,ofhisservants,hiscarriage,hiscows,andhispoultry。
ItwasnowaboveaweeksinceJohnDashwoodhadcalledinBerkeleyStreet,andassincethattimenonoticehadbeentakenbythemofhiswife’sindisposition,beyondoneverbalenquiry,Elinorbegantofeelitnecessarytopayheravisit——Thiswasanobligation,however,whichnotonlyopposedherowninclination,butwhichhadnottheassistanceofanyencouragementfromhercompanions。Marianne,notcontentedwithabsolutelyrefusingtogoherself,wasveryurgenttopreventhersister’sgoingatall;andMrs。Jennings,thoughhercarriagewasalwaysatElinor’sservice,soverymuchdislikedMrs。JohnDashwood,thatnotevenhercuriositytoseehowshelookedafterthelatediscovery,norherstrongdesiretoaffrontherbytakingEdward’spart,couldovercomeherunwillingnesstobeinhercompanyagain。
Theconsequencewas,thatElinorsetoutbyherselftopayavisit,forwhichnoonecouldreallyhavelessinclination,andtoruntheriskofatete-a-tetewithawoman,whomneitheroftheothershadsomuchreasontodislike。
Mrs。Dashwoodwasdenied;butbeforethecarriagecouldturnfromthehouse,herhusbandaccidentallycameout。
HeexpressedgreatpleasureinmeetingElinor,toldherthathehadbeenjustgoingtocallinBerkeleyStreet,and,assuringherthatFannywouldbeverygladtoseeher,invitedhertocomein。
Theywalkedupstairsintothedrawing-room——Nobodywasthere。
“Fannyisinherownroom,Isuppose,“saidhe:——“I
willgotoherpresently,forIamsureshewillnothavetheleastobjectionintheworldtoseeingYOU——
Veryfarfromit,indeed。NOWespeciallytherecannotbe——buthowever,youandMariannewerealwaysgreatfavourites——WhywouldnotMariannecome?”——
Elinormadewhatexcuseshecouldforher。
“Iamnotsorrytoseeyoualone,“hereplied,“forIhaveagooddealtosaytoyou。ThislivingofColonelBrandon’s——canitbetrue?——hashereallygivenittoEdward?——Iheardityesterdaybychance,andwascomingtoyouonpurposetoenquirefartheraboutit。”
“Itisperfectlytrue——ColonelBrandonhasgiventhelivingofDelafordtoEdward。”
“Really!——Well,thisisveryastonishing!——norelationship!——noconnectionbetweenthem!——andnowthatlivingsfetchsuchaprice!——whatwasthevalueofthis?”
“Abouttwohundredayear。”
“Verywell——andforthenextpresentationtoalivingofthatvalue——supposingthelateincumbenttohavebeenoldandsickly,andlikelytovacateitsoon——hemighthavegotIdaresay——fourteenhundredpounds。
Andhowcamehenottohavesettledthatmatterbeforethisperson’sdeath?——NOWindeeditwouldbetoolatetosellit,butamanofColonelBrandon’ssense!——Iwonderheshouldbesoimprovidentinapointofsuchcommon,suchnatural,concern!——Well,Iamconvincedthatthereisavastdealofinconsistencyinalmosteveryhumancharacter。Isuppose,however——onrecollection——thatthecasemayprobablybeTHIS。
EdwardisonlytoholdthelivingtillthepersontowhomtheColonelhasreallysoldthepresentation,isoldenoughtotakeit——Aye,aye,thatisthefact,dependuponit。”
Elinorcontradictedit,however,verypositively;
andbyrelatingthatshehadherselfbeenemployedinconveyingtheofferfromColonelBrandontoEdward,and,therefore,mustunderstandthetermsonwhichitwasgiven,obligedhimtosubmittoherauthority。
“Itistrulyastonishing!”——hecried,afterhearingwhatshesaid——“whatcouldbetheColonel’smotive?”
“Averysimpleone——tobeofusetoMr。Ferrars。”
“Well,well;whateverColonelBrandonmaybe,Edwardisaveryluckyman——YouwillnotmentionthemattertoFanny,however,forthoughIhavebrokeittoher,andshebearsitvastlywell,——shewillnotliketohearitmuchtalkedof。”
Elinorhadsomedifficultyheretorefrainfromobserving,thatshethoughtFannymighthavebornewithcomposure,anacquisitionofwealthtoherbrother,bywhichneithershenorherchildcouldbepossiblyimpoverished。
“Mrs。Ferrars,“addedhe,loweringhisvoicetothetonebecomingsoimportantasubject,“knowsnothingaboutitatpresent,andIbelieveitwillbebesttokeepitentirelyconcealedfromheraslongasmaybe——
Whenthemarriagetakesplace,Ifearshemusthearofitall。”
“Butwhyshouldsuchprecautionbeused?——ThoughitisnottobesupposedthatMrs。Ferrarscanhavethesmallestsatisfactioninknowingthathersonhasmoneyenoughtoliveupon,——forTHATmustbequiteoutofthequestion;yetwhy,uponherlatebehaviour,isshesupposedtofeelatall?——Shehasdonewithherson,shecasthimoffforever,andhasmadeallthoseoverwhomshehadanyinfluence,casthimofflikewise。
Surely,afterdoingso,shecannotbeimaginedliabletoanyimpressionofsorroworofjoyonhisaccount——
shecannotbeinterestedinanythingthatbefallshim——
Shewouldnotbesoweakastothrowawaythecomfortofachild,andyetretaintheanxietyofaparent!”
“Ah!Elinor,“saidJohn,“yourreasoningisverygood,butitisfoundedonignoranceofhumannature。
WhenEdward’sunhappymatchtakesplace,dependuponithismotherwillfeelasmuchasifshehadneverdiscardedhim;
and,thereforeeverycircumstancethatmayacceleratethatdreadfulevent,mustbeconcealedfromherasmuchaspossible。
Mrs。FerrarscanneverforgetthatEdwardisherson。”
“Yousurpriseme;IshouldthinkitmustnearlyhaveescapedhermemorybyTHIStime。”
“Youwrongherexceedingly。Mrs。Ferrarsisoneofthemostaffectionatemothersintheworld。”
Elinorwassilent。
“WethinkNOW,“——saidMr。Dashwood,afterashortpause,“ofROBERT’SmarryingMissMorton。”
Elinor,smilingatthegraveanddecisiveimportanceofherbrother’stone,calmlyreplied,“Thelady,Isuppose,hasnochoiceintheaffair。”
“Choice!——howdoyoumean?”
“IonlymeanthatIsuppose,fromyourmannerofspeaking,itmustbethesametoMissMortonwhethershemarryEdwardorRobert。”
“Certainly,therecanbenodifference;forRobertwillnowtoallintentsandpurposesbeconsideredastheeldestson;——andastoanythingelse,theyarebothveryagreeableyoungmen:Idonotknowthatoneissuperiortotheother。”
Elinorsaidnomore,andJohnwasalsoforashorttimesilent——Hisreflectionsendedthus。
“OfONEthing,mydearsister,“kindlytakingherhand,andspeakinginanawfulwhisper,——“Imayassureyou;——
andIWILLdoit,becauseIknowitmustgratifyyou。
Ihavegoodreasontothink——indeedIhaveitfromthebestauthority,orIshouldnotrepeatit,forotherwiseitwouldbeverywrongtosayanythingaboutit——butIhaveitfromtheverybestauthority——notthatIeverpreciselyheardMrs。Ferrarssayitherself——butherdaughterDID,andIhaveitfromher——Thatinshort,whateverobjectionstheremightbeagainstacertain——acertainconnection——youunderstandme——itwouldhavebeenfarpreferabletoher,itwouldnothavegivenherhalfthevexationthatTHISdoes。IwasexceedinglypleasedtohearthatMrs。Ferrarsconsidereditinthatlight——
averygratifyingcircumstanceyouknowtousall。
’Itwouldhavebeenbeyondcomparison,’shesaid,’theleastevilofthetwo,andshewouldbegladtocompoundNOW
fornothingworse。’Buthowever,allthatisquiteoutofthequestion——nottobethoughtoformentioned——
astoanyattachmentyouknow——itnevercouldbe——allthatisgoneby。ButIthoughtIwouldjusttellyouofthis,becauseIknewhowmuchitmustpleaseyou。
Notthatyouhaveanyreasontoregret,mydearElinor。Thereisnodoubtofyourdoingexceedinglywell——quiteaswell,orbetter,perhaps,allthingsconsidered。HasColonelBrandonbeenwithyoulately?”
Elinorhadheardenough,ifnottogratifyhervanity,andraiseherself-importance,toagitatehernervesandfillhermind;——andshewasthereforegladtobesparedfromthenecessityofsayingmuchinreplyherself,andfromthedangerofhearinganythingmorefromherbrother,bytheentranceofMr。RobertFerrars。
Afterafewmoments’chat,JohnDashwood,recollectingthatFannywasyetuninformedofhersister’sbeingthere,quittedtheroominquestofher;andElinorwaslefttoimproveheracquaintancewithRobert,who,bythegayunconcern,thehappyself-complacencyofhismannerwhileenjoyingsounfairadivisionofhismother’sloveandliberality,totheprejudiceofhisbanishedbrother,earnedonlybyhisowndissipatedcourseoflife,andthatbrother’sintegrity,wasconfirminghermostunfavourableopinionofhisheadandheart。
Theyhadscarcelybeentwominutesbythemselves,beforehebegantospeakofEdward;forhe,too,hadheardoftheliving,andwasveryinquisitiveonthesubject。
Elinorrepeatedtheparticularsofit,asshehadgiventhemtoJohn;andtheireffectonRobert,thoughverydifferent,wasnotlessstrikingthanithadbeenonHIM。Helaughedmostimmoderately。TheideaofEdward’sbeingaclergyman,andlivinginasmallparsonage-house,divertedhimbeyondmeasure;——andwhentothatwasaddedthefancifulimageryofEdwardreadingprayersinawhitesurplice,andpublishingthebannsofmarriagebetweenJohnSmithandMaryBrown,hecouldconceivenothingmoreridiculous。
Elinor,whileshewaitedinsilenceandimmovablegravity,theconclusionofsuchfolly,couldnotrestrainhereyesfrombeingfixedonhimwithalookthatspokeallthecontemptitexcited。Itwasalook,however,verywellbestowed,foritrelievedherownfeelings,andgavenointelligencetohim。Hewasrecalledfromwittowisdom,notbyanyreproofofher’s,butbyhisownsensibility。
“Wemaytreatitasajoke,“saidhe,atlast,recoveringfromtheaffectedlaughwhichhadconsiderablylengthenedoutthegenuinegaietyofthemoment——“but,uponmysoul,itisamostseriousbusiness。PoorEdward!
heisruinedforever。Iamextremelysorryforit——
forIknowhimtobeaverygood-heartedcreature;aswell-meaningafellowperhaps,asanyintheworld。
Youmustnotjudgeofhim,MissDashwood,fromYOUR
slightacquaintance——PoorEdward!——Hismannersarecertainlynotthehappiestinnature——Butwearenotallborn,youknow,withthesamepowers,——thesameaddress——
Poorfellow!——toseehiminacircleofstrangers!——
tobesureitwaspitiableenough!——butuponmysoul,Ibelievehehasasgoodaheartasanyinthekingdom;
andIdeclareandprotesttoyouIneverwassoshockedinmylife,aswhenitallburstforth。Icouldnotbelieveit——
Mymotherwasthefirstpersonwhotoldmeofit;
andI,feelingmyselfcalledontoactwithresolution,immediatelysaidtoher,’Mydearmadam,Idonotknowwhatyoumayintendtodoontheoccasion,butasformyself,Imustsay,thatifEdwarddoesmarrythisyoungwoman,Ineverwillseehimagain。’ThatwaswhatIsaidimmediately——
Iwasmostuncommonlyshocked,indeed!——PoorEdward!——hehasdoneforhimselfcompletely——shuthimselfoutforeverfromalldecentsociety!——but,asIdirectlysaidtomymother,Iamnotintheleastsurprisedatit;fromhisstyleofeducation,itwasalwaystobeexpected。Mypoormotherwashalffrantic。”
“Haveyoueverseenthelady?”
“Yes;once,whileshewasstayinginthishouse,Ihappenedtodropinfortenminutes;andIsawquiteenoughofher。Themerestawkwardcountrygirl,withoutstyle,orelegance,andalmostwithoutbeauty——
Irememberherperfectly。JustthekindofgirlI
shouldsupposelikelytocaptivatepoorEdward。
Iofferedimmediately,assoonasmymotherrelatedtheaffairtome,totalktohimmyself,anddissuadehimfromthematch;butitwastoolateTHEN,Ifound,todoanything,forunluckily,Iwasnotinthewayatfirst,andknewnothingofittillafterthebreachhadtakenplace,whenitwasnotforme,youknow,tointerfere。ButhadIbeeninformedofitafewhoursearlier——Ithinkitismostprobable——thatsomethingmighthavebeenhiton。IcertainlyshouldhaverepresentedittoEdwardinaverystronglight。’Mydearfellow,’
Ishouldhavesaid,’considerwhatyouaredoing。
Youaremakingamostdisgracefulconnection,andsuchaoneasyourfamilyareunanimousindisapproving。’Icannothelpthinking,inshort,thatmeansmighthavebeenfound。
Butnowitisalltoolate。Hemustbestarved,youknow;——
thatiscertain;absolutelystarved。”
Hehadjustsettledthispointwithgreatcomposure,whentheentranceofMrs。JohnDashwoodputanendtothesubject。
ButthoughSHEneverspokeofitoutofherownfamily,Elinorcouldseeitsinfluenceonhermind,inthesomethinglikeconfusionofcountenancewithwhichsheentered,andanattemptatcordialityinherbehaviourtoherself。
SheevenproceededsofarastobeconcernedtofindthatElinorandhersisterweresosoontoleavetown,asshehadhopedtoseemoreofthem;——anexertioninwhichherhusband,whoattendedherintotheroom,andhungenamouredoverheraccents,seemedtodistinguisheverythingthatwasmostaffectionateandgraceful。
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CHAPTER42
OneothershortcallinHarleyStreet,inwhichElinorreceivedherbrother’scongratulationsontheirtravellingsofartowardsBartonwithoutanyexpense,andonColonelBrandon’sbeingtofollowthemtoClevelandinadayortwo,completedtheintercourseofthebrotherandsistersintown;——andafaintinvitationfromFanny,tocometoNorlandwheneveritshouldhappentobeintheirway,whichofallthingswasthemostunlikelytooccur,withamorewarm,thoughlesspublic,assurance,fromJohntoElinor,ofthepromptitudewithwhichheshouldcometoseeheratDelaford,wasallthatforetoldanymeetinginthecountry。
ItamusedhertoobservethatallherfriendsseemeddeterminedtosendhertoDelaford;——aplace,inwhich,ofallothers,shewouldnowleastchusetovisit,orwishtoreside;fornotonlywasitconsideredasherfuturehomebyherbrotherandMrs。Jennings,butevenLucy,whentheyparted,gaveherapressinginvitationtovisitherthere。
VeryearlyinApril,andtolerablyearlyintheday,thetwopartiesfromHanoverSquareandBerkeleyStreetsetoutfromtheirrespectivehomes,tomeet,byappointment,ontheroad。FortheconvenienceofCharlotteandherchild,theyweretobemorethantwodaysontheirjourney,andMr。Palmer,travellingmoreexpeditiouslywithColonelBrandon,wastojointhematClevelandsoonaftertheirarrival。
Marianne,fewashadbeenherhoursofcomfortinLondon,andeagerasshehadlongbeentoquitit,couldnot,whenitcametothepoint,bidadieutothehouseinwhichshehadforthelasttimeenjoyedthosehopes,andthatconfidence,inWilloughby,whichwerenowextinguishedforever,withoutgreatpain。
NorcouldsheleavetheplaceinwhichWilloughbyremained,busyinnewengagements,andnewschemes,inwhichSHE
couldhavenoshare,withoutsheddingmanytears。
Elinor’ssatisfaction,atthemomentofremoval,wasmorepositive。Shehadnosuchobjectforherlingeringthoughtstofixon,sheleftnocreaturebehind,fromwhomitwouldgiveheramoment’sregrettobedividedforever,shewaspleasedtobefreeherselffromthepersecutionofLucy’sfriendship,shewasgratefulforbringinghersisterawayunseenbyWilloughbysincehismarriage,andshelookedforwardwithhopetowhatafewmonthsoftranquilityatBartonmightdotowardsrestoringMarianne’speaceofmind,andconfirmingherown。
Theirjourneywassafelyperformed。Theseconddaybroughtthemintothecherished,ortheprohibited,countyofSomerset,forassuchwasitdweltonbyturnsinMarianne’simagination;andintheforenoonofthethirdtheydroveuptoCleveland。
Clevelandwasaspacious,modern-builthouse,situatedonaslopinglawn。Ithadnopark,butthepleasure-groundsweretolerablyextensive;andlikeeveryotherplaceofthesamedegreeofimportance,ithaditsopenshrubbery,andcloserwoodwalk,aroadofsmoothgravelwindingroundaplantation,ledtothefront,thelawnwasdottedoverwithtimber,thehouseitselfwasundertheguardianshipofthefir,themountain-ash,andtheacacia,andathickscreenofthemaltogether,interspersedwithtallLombardypoplars,shutouttheoffices。
MarianneenteredthehousewithaheartswellingwithemotionfromtheconsciousnessofbeingonlyeightymilesfromBarton,andnotthirtyfromCombeMagna;
andbeforeshehadbeenfiveminuteswithinitswalls,whiletheotherswerebusilyhelpingCharlottetoshowherchildtothehousekeeper,shequitteditagain,stealingawaythroughthewindingshrubberies,nowjustbeginningtobeinbeauty,togainadistanteminence;
where,fromitsGreciantemple,hereye,wanderingoverawidetractofcountrytothesouth-east,couldfondlyrestonthefarthestridgeofhillsinthehorizon,andfancythatfromtheirsummitsCombeMagnamightbeseen。
Insuchmomentsofprecious,invaluablemisery,sherejoicedintearsofagonytobeatCleveland;
andasshereturnedbyadifferentcircuittothehouse,feelingallthehappyprivilegeofcountryliberty,ofwanderingfromplacetoplaceinfreeandluxurioussolitude,sheresolvedtospendalmosteveryhourofeverydaywhilesheremainedwiththePalmers,intheindulgenceofsuchsolitaryrambles。
Shereturnedjustintimetojointheothersastheyquittedthehouse,onanexcursionthroughitsmoreimmediatepremises;andtherestofthemorningwaseasilywhiledaway,inloungingroundthekitchengarden,examiningthebloomuponitswalls,andlisteningtothegardener’slamentationsuponblights,indawdlingthroughthegreen-house,wherethelossofherfavouriteplants,unwarilyexposed,andnippedbythelingeringfrost,raisedthelaughterofCharlotte,——andinvisitingherpoultry-yard,where,inthedisappointedhopesofherdairy-maid,byhensforsakingtheirnests,orbeingstolenbyafox,orintherapiddecreaseofapromisingyoungbrood,shefoundfreshsourcesofmerriment。
Themorningwasfineanddry,andMarianne,inherplanofemploymentabroad,hadnotcalculatedforanychangeofweatherduringtheirstayatCleveland。
Withgreatsurprisetherefore,didshefindherselfpreventedbyasettledrainfromgoingoutagainafterdinner。
ShehaddependedonatwilightwalktotheGreciantemple,andperhapsalloverthegrounds,andaneveningmerelycoldordampwouldnothavedeterredherfromit;
butaheavyandsettledrainevenSHEcouldnotfancydryorpleasantweatherforwalking。
Theirpartywassmall,andthehourspassedquietlyaway。
Mrs。Palmerhadherchild,andMrs。Jenningshercarpet-work;
theytalkedofthefriendstheyhadleftbehind,arrangedLadyMiddleton’sengagements,andwonderedwhetherMr。PalmerandColonelBrandonwouldgetfartherthanReadingthatnight。Elinor,howeverlittleconcernedinit,joinedintheirdiscourse;andMarianne,whohadtheknackoffindingherwayineveryhousetothelibrary,howeveritmightbeavoidedbythefamilyingeneral,soonprocuredherselfabook。
NothingwaswantingonMrs。Palmer’ssidethatconstantandfriendlygoodhumourcoulddo,tomakethemfeelthemselveswelcome。Theopennessandheartinessofhermannermorethanatonedforthatwantofrecollectionandelegancewhichmadeheroftendeficientintheformsofpoliteness;herkindness,recommendedbysoprettyaface,wasengaging;herfolly,thoughevidentwasnotdisgusting,becauseitwasnotconceited;
andElinorcouldhaveforgiveneverythingbutherlaugh。
Thetwogentlemenarrivedthenextdaytoaverylatedinner,affordingapleasantenlargementoftheparty,andaverywelcomevarietytotheirconversation,whichalongmorningofthesamecontinuedrainhadreducedverylow。
ElinorhadseensolittleofMr。Palmer,andinthatlittlehadseensomuchvarietyinhisaddresstohersisterandherself,thatsheknewnotwhattoexpecttofindhiminhisownfamily。Shefoundhim,however,perfectlythegentlemaninhisbehaviourtoallhisvisitors,andonlyoccasionallyrudetohiswifeandhermother;
shefoundhimverycapableofbeingapleasantcompanion,andonlypreventedfrombeingsoalways,bytoogreatanaptitudetofancyhimselfasmuchsuperiortopeopleingeneral,ashemustfeelhimselftobetoMrs。JenningsandCharlotte。Fortherestofhischaracterandhabits,theyweremarked,asfarasElinorcouldperceive,withnotraitsatallunusualinhissexandtimeoflife。
Hewasniceinhiseating,uncertaininhishours;
fondofhischild,thoughaffectingtoslightit;
andidledawaythemorningsatbilliards,whichoughttohavebeendevotedtobusiness。Shelikedhim,however,uponthewhole,muchbetterthanshehadexpected,andinherheartwasnotsorrythatshecouldlikehimnomore;——
notsorrytobedrivenbytheobservationofhisEpicurism,hisselfishness,andhisconceit,torestwithcomplacencyontheremembranceofEdward’sgeneroustemper,simpletaste,anddiffidentfeelings。
OfEdward,oratleastofsomeofhisconcerns,shenowreceivedintelligencefromColonelBrandon,whohadbeenintoDorsetshirelately;andwho,treatingheratonceasthedisinterestedfriendofMr。Ferrars,andthekindofconfidantofhimself,talkedtoheragreatdealoftheparsonageatDelaford,describeditsdeficiencies,andtoldherwhathemeanttodohimselftowardsremovingthem——Hisbehaviourtoherinthis,aswellasineveryotherparticular,hisopenpleasureinmeetingherafteranabsenceofonlytendays,hisreadinesstoconversewithher,andhisdeferenceforheropinion,mightverywelljustifyMrs。Jennings’spersuasionofhisattachment,andwouldhavebeenenough,perhaps,hadnotElinorstill,asfromthefirst,believedMariannehisrealfavourite,tomakehersuspectitherself。Butasitwas,suchanotionhadscarcelyeverenteredherhead,exceptbyMrs。Jennings’ssuggestion;andshecouldnothelpbelievingherselfthenicestobserverofthetwo;——shewatchedhiseyes,whileMrs。Jenningsthoughtonlyofhisbehaviour;——andwhilehislooksofanxioussolicitudeonMarianne’sfeeling,inherheadandthroat,thebeginningofaheavycold,becauseunexpressedbywords,entirelyescapedthelatterlady’sobservation;——SHEcoulddiscoverinthemthequickfeelings,andneedlessalarmofalover。
Twodelighfultwilightwalksonthethirdandfourtheveningsofherbeingthere,notmerelyonthedrygraveloftheshrubbery,butalloverthegrounds,andespeciallyinthemostdistantpartsofthem,wheretherewassomethingmoreofwildnessthanintherest,wherethetreesweretheoldest,andthegrasswasthelongestandwettest,had——assistedbythestillgreaterimprudenceofsittinginherwetshoesandstockings——givenMarianneacoldsoviolentas,thoughforadayortwotrifledwithordenied,wouldforceitselfbyincreasingailmentsontheconcernofeverybody,andthenoticeofherself。
Prescriptionspouredinfromallquarters,andasusual,werealldeclined。Thoughheavyandfeverish,withapaininherlimbs,andacough,andasorethroat,agoodnight’srestwastocureherentirely;anditwaswithdifficultythatElinorprevailedonher,whenshewenttobed,totryoneortwoofthesimplestoftheremedies。