CHAPTERX。
THEBARN。
BythistimeGibbiehadgotwelluptowardstherootsofthehillsofGormgarnet,andtheriverhaddwindledgreatly。Hewasnolongerafraidofit,butwouldlieforhourslisteningtoitsmurmursoveritspebblybed,andsometimesevensleepinthehollowsofitsbanks,orbelowthewillowsthatoverhungit。Everyhereandthere,abrownrivuletfromsomepeat-bogonahill——brownandclear,likesmoke-crystalsmoltentogether,flowedintoit,andwhenhehadlostit,guidedhimbacktohisguide。Farmafterfarmhepassed,hereonewidelyborderingavalleystream,thereanotherstretchingitsskirtsupthehillsidestilltheywerelostinmereheather,wherethesheepwanderedabout,croppingwhatstraygrass-bladesandothereatablestheycouldfind。Lowerdownhehadpassedthroughsmalltownsandlargevillages:herefarmsandcottages,withanoccasionalcountry-seatandlittlevillageoflowthatchedhouses,madeuptheabodesofmen。BythistimehehadbecomegreatlyreconciledtothelonelinessofNature,andnomorewasafraidinhersolitarypresence。
Atthesametimehishearthadbeguntoacheandlongafterthecommunionofhiskind。Fornotoncesincehesetout——andthatseemedmonthswhereitwasonlyweeks,hadhehadanopportunityofdoinganythingforanybody——except,indeed,unfasteningthedog’scollar;andnottobeabletohelpwastoGibbielikebeingdead。
Everybody,downtothedogs,hadbeendoingforhim,andwhatwastobecomeofhim!,Itwasastatealtogetherofservitudeintowhichhehadfallen。
Mayhadnowsetin,butuphereamongthehillsshewasMaybycourtesyonly:orifshewasMay,shewouldneverbeMight。Shewas,indeed,onlyApril,withhershowersandsunshine,hertearful,childishlaughter,andagainthefrown,andthedespairirremediable。Nay,asifshestillkeptupasecretcorrespondencewithhercousinMarch,banishedforhisrudeness,shewouldnotveryseldomshakefromherskirtsasnowstorm,andoftenerthedancinghail。Thenoutwouldcomethesunbehindher,andlaugh,andsay——“Icouldnothelpthat;buthereIamallthesame,comingtoyouasfastasIcan!”Thegreencropsweregrowingdarker,andthetreeswereallgettingouttheirnetstocatchcarbon。Thelambswerefrolicking,andinshelteredplacestheflowerswereturningtheearthintoafirmament。AndnowameredaisywasenoughtodelighttheheartofGibbie。Hisjoyinhumanitysosuddenlychecked,andhisthirstforitleftunslaked,hehadbeguntoseethehumanlookinthefaceofthecommonestflowers,tolovethetrustingstareofthedaisy,thatgold-heartedboy,andthegentledespondencyofthegirlharebell,dreamingofhermother,theazure。
Thewind,ofwhichhehadscarcethoughtashemetitroamingthestreetslikehimself,wasnowafriendofhissolitude,bringinghimsweetodours,alivewiththesoulsofbees,andcoolingwithblisstheheatofthelongwalk。Evenwhenitblewcoldalongthewastemoss,wavingtheheadsofthecotton-grass,theonlylivethingvisible,itwasalover,andkissedhimontheforehead。NotthatGibbieknewwhatakisswas,anymorethanheknewaboutthesoulsofbees。Hedidnotremembereverhavingbeenkissed。Inthatgranitecity,thewomenwerenotmuchgiventokissingchildren,eventheirown,butiftheyhadbeen,whoofthemwouldhavethoughtofkissingGibbie!,Thebaker’swife,kindasshealwayswastohim,wouldhavethoughtitdefilementtopressherlipstothoseofthebeggarchild。Andhowisanychildtothrivewithoutkisses!,ThefirstcaressesGibbieeverknewassuch,weregivenhimbyMotherNatureherself。Itwasonly,however,bydegrees,thoughindeedrapiddegrees,thathebecamecapableofthem。Inthefirstpartofhisjourneyhewasstunned,stupid,lostinchange,distractedbetweenasuddenlyvanishedpast,andafutureslowdawninginthepresent。Hefeltlittlebeyondhunger,andthatvagueurgingupDaurside,withoccasionalshootsofpleasurefromkindness,mostlyofwomananddog。Hewaslessshyofthecountrypeoplebythistime,buthedidnotcaretoseekthem。Hethoughtthemnotnearlysofriendlyandgoodasthetown-people,forgettingthattheseknewhimandthosedidnot。ToGibbieanintroductionwasthelastthingnecessaryforanyonewhoworeaface,andhecouldnotunderstandwhytheylookedathimso。
Whateveriscapableofaspiring,mustbetroubledthatitmaywakeandaspire——thentroubledstill,thatitmayholdfast,beitself,andaspirestill。
Oneeveninghispathvanishedbetweentwilightandmoonrise,andjustasitbecamedarkhefoundhimselfataroughgate,throughwhichhesawafield。Therewasaprettytallhedgeoneachsideofthegate,andhewasnowasufficientlyexperiencedtravellertoconcludethathewasnotfarfromsomehumanabode。Heclimbedthegateandfoundhimselfinafieldofclover。Itwasasplendidbigbed,andevenhadthenightnotbeenwarm,hewouldnothavehesitatedtosleepinit。Hehadneverhadacold,andhadaslittlefearforhishealthasforhislife。Hewashungry,itistrue;butalthoughfoodwasdoubtlessmoredelicioustosuchhungerashis——thatofthewholebody,thanitcanbetothemerepalateandculinaryimaginationofanepicure,itwasnotsonecessarytohimthathecouldnotgotosleepwithoutit。Sodownhelayintheclover,andwasatonceunconscious。
Whenhewoke,themoonwashighintheheavens,andhadmeltedtheveilofthedarknessfromthesceneofstill,well-orderedcomfort。
Ashortdistancefromhiscouch,stoodalittlearmyofricks,betweentwentyandthirtyofthem,constructedperfectly——smoothanduprightandroundandlarge,eachwithitsconicaltopnettedinwithstraw-rope,andfinishedoffwithwhattheherd-boycalledatoupican——aneatlytiedandtrimtuftofthestrawwithwhichitwasthatched,answeringtothestone-ballonthetopofagable。Liketrianglestheirsummitsstoodoutagainstthepaleblue,moon-dilutedair。Theyweretreasure-caves,hollowedoutofspace,andstoredwiththebestofammunitionagainstthearmiesofhungerandwant;butGibbie,thoughhehadseenmanyofthem,didnotknowwhattheywere。Hehadseenstrawusedforthebeddingofcattleandhorses,andsupposedthatthechiefendofsuchricks。Norhadheanyclearideathatthecattlethemselveswerekeptforanyotherobjectthantomakethemcomfortableandhappy。Hehadstoodbehindtheirhousesinthedark,andheardthemmunchingandgrindingawayeveninthenight。Probablythecountrywasforthecattle,asthetownsforthemen;andthatwouldexplainwhythecountry-peopleweresoinferior。Whilehestoodgazing,awindarosebehindthehills,andcameblowingdownsomeglenthatopenednorthwards;
Gibbiefeltitcold,andsoughttheshelterofthericks。
Greatandsolemntheylookedashedrewnigh——neareachother,yetenoughapartforplentyofairtoflowandeddybetween。Overalowwallofunmortaredstones,heenteredtheirranks:abovehim,ashelookedupfromtheirbroadbase,theyascendedhugeaspyramids,andpeopledthewasteairwithgiantforms。Howwarmitwasintheround-windingpathsamongstthefruitfulpiles——tombsthese,nocenotaphs!,Hewanderedaboutthem,nowinaduskyyellowgloom,andnowinthecoldbluemoonlight,whichtheyseemedtowarm。Atlengthhediscoveredthatthehugethingswereflankedononesidebyalonglowhouse,inwhichtherewasadoor,horizontallydividedintotwoparts。Gibbiewouldfainhavegotin,totrywhethertheplacewasgoodforsleep;buthefoundbothhalvesfast。Inthelowerhalf,however,hespiedahole,which,thoughnotsolarge,remindedhimoftheentrancetothekennelofhisdoghost;butalas!ithadadoortoo,shutfromtheinside。Theremightbesomewayofopeningit。Hefeltabout,andsoondiscoveredthatitwasaslidingvalve,whichhecouldpushtoeitherside。Itwas,infact,thecat’sdoor,speciallyconstructedforherconvenienceofentranceandexit。Forthecatistheguardianofthebarn;thegrainwhichtemptstheratsandmiceisnotemptationtoher;theratsandmicethemselvesare;uponthemsheexecutesjustice,andremainsherselfanincorruptible,becauseuntempted,thereforearespectablememberofthefarm-community——onlythedairydoormustbekeptshut;thathasnocat-wicketinit。
Theholewasasmallone,buttemptingtotheweebaronet;hemightperhapsbeabletosqueezehimselfthrough。Hetriedandsucceeded,thoughwithsomelittledifficulty。Themoonwastherebeforehim,shiningthroughapaneortwoofglassoverthedoor,andbyherlightonthehardbrownclayfloor,Gibbiesawwherehewas,thoughifhehadbeentoldhewasinthebarn,hewouldneitherhavefeltnorbeenatallthewiser。Itwasaveryold-fashionedbarn。Aboutathirdofitwasflooredwithwood——darkwithage——almostasbrownastheclay——forthreshinguponwithflails。Atthatlabourtwomenhadbeenbusyduringthemostoftheprecedingday,andthatwashow,inthesameendofthebarn,roseagreatheapofoat-straw,showinginthelightofthemoonlikeamoundofpalegold。HadGibbiehadanyeducationinthemarvellous,hemightnow,inthemidnightandmoonlight,havewellimaginedhimselfinsometreasure-houseofthegnomes。Whathesawintheothercornerwasstilllikergold,andwasindeedgreaterthangold,foritwaslife——theheap,namely,ofcornthreshedfromthestraw:Gibbierecognizedthisaswhathehadseengiventohorses。Butnowthetemptationtosleep,withsuchfacilitiespresented,wasoverpowering,andtookfromhimalldesiretoexaminefurther:heshotintothemiddleofthelooseheapofstraw,andvanishedfromtheglimpsesofthemoon,burrowinglikeamole。Intheheartofthegoldenwarmth,helaysodryandcomfortablethat,notwithstandinghishungerhadwakedwithhim,hewaspresentlyinafastersleepthanbefore。Andindeedwhatmoreluxuriousbed,orwhatbedconducivetosofterslumberwasthereintheworldtofind!
“Themovingmoonwentdownthesky,“thecoldwindsoftenedandgrewstill;thestarsswelledoutlarger;theratscame,andthencamepuss,andtheratswentwithascuffleandsquatter;thepagangreycameinlikeasleep-walker,andmadethebarndrearyasadulldream;thenthehorsesbegantofidgetwiththeirbigfeet,thecattletolowwiththeirgreattrombonethroats,andthecockstocrowasiftogivewarningforthelasttimeagainstthedevil,theworld,andtheflesh;themenintheadjoiningchamberwoke,yawned,stretchedthemselvesmightily,androse;thegod-likesunroseafterthem,and,enteringthebarnwiththem,droveoutthegrey;andthroughitalltheorphanlaywarminGod’skeepingandhisnestofstraw,likethebutterflyofahugechrysalis。
WhenatlengthGibbiebecameoncemoreawareofexistence,itwasthroughastormyinvasionofthestillrealmofsleep;theblowsoftwoflailsfellpersistentandquick-following,firstonthethickheadofthesheafofoatsuntiedandcastdownbeforethem,thengrewlouderandmoredeafeningastheoatsflewandthechafffluttered,andthestrawflattenedandbrokeandthinnedandspread——untilatlasttheythunderedingreathardblowsonthewoodenfloor。ItwasthefirstoftheselastblowsthatshookGibbieawake。Whattheywereorindicatedhecouldnottell。Hewormedhimselfsoftlyroundinthestrawtolookoutandsee。
Nowwhetheritwasthatsleepwasyetheavyuponhim,andbewilderedhiseyes,orthathisimaginationhadindreamsbeenbusywithforegonehorrors,Icannottell;but,ashepeeredthroughthemeshesofthecrossingandblindingstraws,whatheseemedtoseewasthebodyofanoldmanwithdishevelledhair,whom,prostrateontheground,theywerebeatingtodeathwithgreatsticks。Histongueclavetotheroofofhismouth,notasoundcouldheutter,notafingercouldhemove;hehadnochoicebuttoliestill,andwitnessthefierceenormity。Butitisgoodthatwearecompelledtoseesomethings,lifeamongsttherest,towhatwecalltheendofthem。BydegreesGibbie’ssightcleared;theoldmanfadedaway;
andwhatwasleftofhimhecouldseetobeonlyanarmfulofstraw。
Thenextsheaftheythrewdown,heperceived,undertheirblows,thecornflyingoutofit,andbegantounderstandalittle。Whenitwasfinished,thecornthathadflowndancingfromitshome,likehailfromitscloud,wassweptasidetothecommonheap,andthestrawtosseduponthemoundthatharbouredGibbie。Itwaswellthatthemanwiththepitchforkdidnotspyhiseyespeeringoutfromthemidstofthestraw:hemighthavetakenhimforsomewildcreature,anddriventheprongsintohim。Asitwas,Gibbiedidnotaltogetherlikethelookofhim,andlaystillasastone。Thenanothersheafwasunboundandcastonthefloor,andtheblowsoftheflailsbeganagain。Itwentonthusforanhourandahalf,andGibbiealthoughhedroppedasleepseveraltimes,wasnearlystupidwiththenoise。Themenatlength,however,sweptupthecornandtossedupthestrawforthelasttime,andwentout。Gibbie,judgingbyhisowndesires,thoughttheymusthavegonetoeat,butdidnotfollowthem,havinggenerallybeenorderedawaythemomenthewasseeninafarmyard。Hecreptout,however,andbegantolookabouthim——firstofallforsomethinghecouldeat。Theoatslookedthemostlikely,andhetookamouthfulforatrial。Hegroundatthemseverely,but,hungryashewas,hefailedtofindoatsgoodforfood。Theirhardhusks,theirdryness,theirinstability,allslippingpasteachotherateveryattempttocrushthemwithhisteeth,togetherfoiledhimutterly。Hemustsearchfarther。
Lookingroundhimafresh,hesawanopenloft,andclimbingontheheapinwhichhehadslept,managedtoreachit。Itwasattheheightofthewalls,andthecouplesoftheroofroseimmediatelyfromit。Atthefartherendwasaheapofhay,whichhetookforanotherkindofstraw。Thenhespiedsomethingheknew;arowofcheeseslayonashelfsuspendedfromtherafters,ripening。Gibbieknewthemwellfromtheshopwindows——knewtheywerecheeses,andgoodtoeat,thoughwhenceandhowtheycamehedidnotknow,hisimpressionbeingthattheygrewinthefieldsliketheturnips。Hehadstillthenotionuncorrected,thatthingsinthecountrybelongedtonobodyinparticular,andweremostlyfortheuseofanimals,withwhich,sincehebecameawanderer,hehadalmostcometoclasshimself。Hewasveryhungry。Hepounceduponacheeseandlifteditbetweenhistwohands;itsmelledgood,butfeltveryhard。Thatwasnomatter:whatelsewereteethmadestrongandsharpfor?,Hetriedthemononeoftheroundedges,and,nibblingactively,soongotthroughtothesofterbodyofthecheese。Buthehadnotgotmuchfartherwhenheheardthemenreturning,anddesisted,afraidofbeingdiscoveredbythenoisehemade。Thereadiestwaytoconcealhimselfwastoliedownflatontheloft,andhedidsojustwherehecouldseethethreshing-floorovertheedgeofitbyliftinghishead。This,however,hescarcelyventuredtodo;andallhecouldseeashelaywasthetipoftheswing-barofoneoftheflails,everasitreachedthehighestpointofitsascent。Buttowatchforitverysoonceasedtobeinteresting;andalthoughhehadeatensolittleofthecheese,ithadyetbeenenoughtomakehimdreadfullythirsty,thereforehegreatlydesiredtogetaway。Buthedarednotgodown:withtheirsticksthosemenmightknockhimoverinamoment!,Sohelaytherethinkingofthepoorlittlehedgehoghehadseenontheroadashecame;howhestoodwatchingit,andwishinghehadasuitmadeallofgreatpins,whichhecouldsetupwhenhepleased;andhowthedriverofacart,catchingsightofhimatthefootofthehedge,gavehimablowwithhiswhip,and,poorfellow!notwithstandinghisclothesofpins,thatoneblowofawhipwastoomuchforhim!,Thereseemednothingintheworldbutkilling!
Atlengthhecould,unoccupiedwithsomethingelse,bearhisthirstnolonger,and,squirmingroundonthefloor,creptsoftlytowardstheotherendoftheloft,toseewhatwastobeseenthere。
Hefoundthattheheapofhaywasnotintheloftatall。Itfilledasmallchamberinthestable,infact;andwhenGibbieclambereduponit,whatshouldheseebelowhimontheotherside,butabeautifulwhitehorse,eatingsomeofthesamesortofstuffhewasnowlyingupon!,Beyondhecouldseethebacksofmorehorses,buttheywereverydifferent——bigandclumsy,andnotwhite。Theywerealleating,andthiswastheirfoodonwhichhelay!,Hewishedhetoocouldeatit——andtried,butfounditevenlesssatisfactorythantheoats,foritnearlychokedhim,andsethimcoughingsothathewasinconsiderabledangerofbetrayinghispresencetothemeninthebarn。Howdidthehorsesmanagetogetsuchdrystuffdowntheirthroats?,Butthecheesewasdrytoo,andhecouldeatthat!,Nodoubtthecheese,aswellasthefinestraw,wasthereforthehorses!,Hewouldliketoseethebeautifulwhitecreaturedownthereeatabitofit;butwithallhisbigteethhedidnotthinkhecouldmanageawholecheese,andhowtogetapiecebrokenoffforhim,withthosementhere,hecouldnotdevise。Itwouldwantalong-handledhammerlikethosewithwhichhehadseenmenbreakingstonesontheroad。
Adooropenedbeyond,andamancameinandledtwoofthehorsesout,leavingthedooropen。Gibbieclambereddownfromthetopofthehayintothestallbesidethewhitehorse,andranout。Hewasalmostinthefields,hadnotevenafencetocross。
Hecastaglancearound,andwentstraightforaneighbouringhollow,where,taughtbyexperience,hehopedtofindwater。
CHAPTERXI。
JANET。
Onceaway,Gibbiehadnothoughtofreturning。UpDaursidewasthesolepropulsiveforcewhoseexistenceherecognized。Butwhenheliftedhisheadfromdrinkingatthestream,whichwasoneofsomesize,and,greatlyrefreshed,lookedupitschannel,alongingseizedhimtoknowwhencecamethewateroflifewhichhadthusrestoredhimtobliss——howaburnfirstappearsupontheearth。Hethoughtitmightcomefromthefootofagreatconicalmountainwhichseemedbutalittlewayoff。Hewouldfollowitupandsee。
Soawayhewent,yieldingatonce,aswashiswont,tothefirstdesirethatcame。Hehadnottrottedfaralongthebank,however,before,atasharpturnittook,hesawthatitscoursewasamuchlongeronethanhehadimagined,foritturnedfromthemountain,andledupamongtherootsofotherhills;whilehereinfrontofhim,directfromthemountain,asitseemed,camedownasmallerstream,andtumblednoisilyintothis。ThelargerburnwouldleadhimtoofarfromtheDaur;hewouldfollowthesmallerone。Hefoundawideshallowplace,crossedthelarger,andwentupthesideofthesmaller。
Doublyfreeafterhisimprisonmentofthemorning,Gibbiespedjoyouslyalong。Alreadynature,herlargeness,heropenness,herloveliness,herchangefulness,heronenessinchange,hadbeguntohealthechild’sheart,andcomforthiminhisdisappointmentwithhiskind。Thestreamhewasnowascendingranalongaclawofthemountain,whichclawwascoveredwithalmostaforestofpine,protectinglittlecoloniesoflesshardytimber。Itsheavygreenwasvariedwiththepaledelicatefringesofthefreshfoliageofthelarches,fillingtheairwitharomaticbreath。Inthemidstoftheirsofttufts,eachtuftbuttonedwithabrownspot,hungtherichbrownknobsandtasselsoflastyear’scones。Butthetreeswereallontheoppositesideofthestream,andappearedtobemostlyontheothersideofawall。WhereGibbiewas,themountain-rootwaschieflyofrock,interspersedwithheather。
Alittlewayupthestream,hecametoabridgeoverit,closedatthefartherendbyirongatesbetweenpillars,eachsurmountedbyawolf’sheadinstone。Overthegateoneachsideleanedarowan-tree,withtrunkandbranchesagedandgnarledamidsttheirfreshfoliage。Hecrossedtheburntolookthroughthegate,andpressedhisfacebetweenthebarstogetabettersightofatamerabbitthathadgotoutofitshutch。Itsat,likeaDruidwhitewithage,inthemidstofagraveldrive,muchovergrownwithmoss,thatledthroughayounglarchwood,withhereandthereanancienttree,lonelyamidsttheyouthofitscompanions。Suddenlyfromthewoodalargespanielcameboundingupontherabbit。Gibbiegaveashriek,andtherabbitmadeonewhiteflashintothewood,withthedogafterhim。Heturnedawaysadatheart。
“Ilkacratur’atcan,“hesaidtohimself,“atesilkacratur’atcanna!”
Itwashisfirstgeneralization,butnotmanyyearspassedbeforehesupplementeditwithaconclusion:
“Buttheman’atwadbeaman,hemaunna。”
Resuminghisjourneyofinvestigation,hetrottedalongthebankoftheburn,fartherandfartherup,untilhecouldtrotnomore,butmustgoclamberingovergreatstones,orsinkingtothekneesinbog,patchesofitredwithiron,fromwhichhewouldturnawaywithashudder。Sometimeshewalkedinthewater,alongthebedoftheburnitself;sometimeshehadtoscrambleupitssteepside,topassoneofthemanylittlecataractsofitsdescent。Hereandthereasmallsilverbirch,oramountain-ash,orastuntedfir-tree,lookinglikeawizardchild,hungoverthestream。Itsbanksweremainlyofrockandheather,butnowandthenasmallpatchofcultivationintervened。Gibbiehadnothoughtthathewasgraduallyleavingtheabodesofmenbehindhim;heknewnoreasonwhyinascendingthingsshouldchange,andbenolongerasinplainerways。
Forwhatheknew,theremightbefarmafterfarm,upandupforever,tothegatesofheaven。Butitwouldnolongerhavetroubledhimgreatlytoleaveallhousesbehindhimforaseason。Agreatpurplefoxglovecoulddomuchnow——justatthisphaseofhisstory,tomakehimforget——notthehumanfacedivine,butthelossofit。
Alarkaloftintheblue,fromwhoseheart,asfromafountainwhoserootswerelostintheair,itsnaturalsource,issued,notastream,butaneverspreadinglakeofsong,wasnowmoretohimthanthememoryofanyhumanvoicehehadeverheard,excepthisfather’sandSambo’s。Buthewasnotyetquiteoutandawayfromthedwellingsofhiskind。
ImayaswellnowmaketheattempttogivesomeideaofGibbie’sappearance,asheshowedaftersolongwandering。Ofdresshehadhardlyenoughlefttocarrythename。Shoes,ofcourse,hehadnone。Oftheshapeoftrousersthereremainednothing,exceptthedivisionbeforeandbehindintheshortpetticoattowhichtheywerereduced;andthoserudimentarydivisionswerelostinthemultitudeofrentsofequalapparentsignificance。Hehadnever,sofarasheknew,hadashirtuponhisbody;andhissoleothergarmentwasajacket,somuchtoolargeforhim,thattoretaintheuseofhishandshehadfoldedbackthesleevesquitetohiselbows。Thusreversedtheybecamepockets,theonlyoneshehad,andinthemhestowedwhateverprovisionsweregivenhimofwhichhecouldnotmakeimmediateuse——porridgeandsowensandmashedpotatoesincluded:
theyservedhim,infact,likethefirstofthestomachsofthoseanimalswhichhavemorethanone——concerningwhichanimals,bytheway,Ishouldmuchliketoknowwhattheywerein“Pythagoras’
time。”,Hisheadhadplentifulprotectioninhisownnaturalcrop——hadnevereitherhadorrequiredanyother。Thatwouldhavebeenofthegoldorder,hadnotagreatpartofitscolourbeensunburnt,rained,andfrozenoutofit。Allwaysitpointed,asifsurchargedwithelectricfluid,crowninghimwithawildnesswhichwasinamusingcontrastwiththeplacidityofhiscountenance。
Perhapstheresultingqueernessintheexpressionofthelittlevagrant,alookasifhehadbeenhuntedtillhisbodyandsoulwerenearlyruffledasunder,andhadalreadypartedcompanyinaimandinterest,mighthavebeenthefirstthingtostrikeacarelessobserver。Butiftheheartwasnotacarelessone,theeyewouldlookagainanddiscoverastrongerstillnessthanmereplacidity——asortoflivepeaceabidinginthatweather-beatenlittlefaceunderitswildcrownofhumanherbage。Thefeaturesofitwerewell-shaped,andnotsmallerthanproportionedtothesmallwholeofhisperson。Hiseyes——partly,perhaps,becausetherewassolittlefleshuponhisbones——werelarge,andinreposehadmuchofasoftanimalexpression:therewasnotinthemthelookofYouandIknow。
Frequently,too,whenoccasionrousedtheneedfulinstinct,theyhadasharpexpressionofoutlookandreadiness,which,withoutatraceoffiercenessorgreed,wasyetequallyanimal。Onlyallthetimetherewaspresentsomethingelse,beyondcharacterization:
behindthemsomethingseemedtolieasleep。Hishandsandfeetweresmallandchildishlydainty,hiswholebodywell-shapedandwellputtogether——ofwhichthestyleofhisdressratherquashedtheevidence。
SuchwasGibbietotheeye,asherosefromDaursidetothelastcultivatedgroundonthebordersoftheburn,andthehighestdwellingonthemountain。Itwastheabodeofacottar,andwasadependencyofthefarmhehadjustleft。Thecottarwasanoldmanofseventy;hiswifewasnearlysixty。Theyhadrearedstalwartsonsandshapelydaughters,nowatservicehereandthereinthevalleysbelow——allreadytoseeGodinnature,andrecognizeHiminprovidence。Theybelongtoaclassnow,Ifear,extinct,butonce,ifmyloveprejudicenotmyjudgmenttoofar,thegloryandstrengthofScotland:theirlittleacresarenowswallowedupinthelargerfarms。
Itwasaveryhumbledwelling,builtofturfuponafoundationofstones,androofedwithturfandstraw——warm,andnearlyimpervioustothesearchingairsofthemountain-side。Onelittlewindowofafootandahalfsquarelookedoutontheuniverse。Atoneendstoodastackofpeat,halfasbigasthecottageitself,Allarounditwerehugerocks,someofthempeakswhosemasseswentdowntotheverycentralfires,othersonlyfragmentsthathadrolledfromabove。Hereandthereathincropwasgrowinginpatchesamongstthem,theredgreystoneliftingitsbaldnessinspotsnumberlessthroughthesoftwavinggreen。Afewofthecommonestflowersgrewaboutthedoor,buttherewasnogarden。Thedoor-stepwasliverock,andahugeprojectingrockbehindformedthebackandaportionofoneoftheendwalls。Thislatterrockhadbeentheattractiontothesite,becauseofahollowinit,whichnowservedasadairy。Foruptherewiththemlivedthelastcowofthevalley——thecowthatbreathedtheloftiestaironallDaurside——agoodcow,andgiftedinfeedingwelluponlittle。Facingthebroadsouth,andleaningagainstthehill,asagainstthebosomofGod,shelteringitfromthenorthandeast,thecottagelookedsohigh-humble,sostill,soconfident,thatitdrewGibbiewiththespellofheart-likeness。Heknockedattheold,weather-beaten,shrunkandrent,butwellpatcheddoor。Avoice,alivewiththesoftvibrationsofthoughtandfeeling,answered,“Comeyerwa’sin,whae’eryebe。”
Gibbiepulledthestringthatcamethroughaholeinthedoor,soliftingthelatch,andentered。
Awomansatonacreepie,herfaceturnedoverhershouldertoseewhocame。Itwasagreyface,withgoodsimplefeaturesandcleargreyeyes。Theplentifulhairthatgrewlowonherforehead,washalfgrey,mostlycoveredbyawhitecapwithfrills。Acleanwrapperandapron,bothofblueprint,overabluewinseypetticoat,bluestockings,andstrongshoescompletedherdress。Abooklayonherlap:alwayswhenshehadfinishedhermorning’swork,andmadeherhousetidy,shesatdowntohavehercomfort,asshecalledit。
ThemomentshesawGibbiesherose。HadhebeentheangelGabriel,cometotellhershewaswantedatthethrone,herattentioncouldnothavebeenmoreimmediateorthorough。Shewasratheralittlewoman,andcarriedherselfstraightandlight。
“Eh,yepuirootcast!”shesaid,inthepityingvoiceofamother,“hoocamyeheresicahicht?,Cratur,yehaeleftthewarl’ahin’
ye。Whatwadyehaehere?,Ihaenaething。”
Receivingnoanswerbutoneofthechild’sbetwitchingsmiles,shestoodforamomentregardinghim,notinmeresilence,butwithalookofdumbness。Shewasamother。Onewhoismotheronlytoherownchildrenisnotamother;sheisonlyawomanwhohasbornechildren。ButherewasoneofGod’smothers。
Lonelinessandsilence,andconstanthomelyfamiliaritywiththevastsimplicitiesofnature,assistmuchinthedevelopmentofthedeeperandmorewonderfulfacultiesofperception。Theperceptionsthemselvesmaytakethisorthatshapeaccordingtotheeducation——mayevenembodythemselvesfantastically,yetbenolessperceptions。NowtheverymomentbeforeGibbieentered,shehadbeenreadingthewordsoftheLord:“Inasmuchasyehavedoneituntooneoftheleastofthesemybrethren,yehavedoneituntome“;andwithherheartfullofthem,sheliftedhereyesandsawGibbie。Foronemoment,withthequickflashingresponseofthechildlikeimaginationoftheCelt,shefanciedshesawtheLordhimself。Anotherwomanmighthavemadeamoreseriousmistake,andseenthereonlyachild。OftenhadJanetpondered,asshesataloneonthegreatmountain,whileRobertwaswiththesheep,orshelayawakebyhissideatnight,withthewindhowlingaboutthecottage,whethertheLordmightnotsometimestakealonelywalktolookaftersuchsolitarysheepofhisflockasthey,andletthemknowhehadnotlostsightofthem,foralltheupsanddownsofthehills。
Therestoodthechild,andwhetherhewastheLordornot,hewasevidentlyhungry。Ah!whocouldtellbuttheLordwasactuallyhungryineveryoneofhishungeringlittleones!
Inthemeantime——onlyitwasbutthought-time,notclock-time——Gibbiestoodmotionlessinthemiddleofthefloor,smilinghisinnocentsmile,askingfornothing,hintingatnothing,butrestinghiswildcalmeyes,withasenseofsafetyandmother-presence,uponthegreythoughtfulfaceofthegazingwoman。
Herawedeepened;itseemedtodescenduponherandfoldherinaswithamantle。Involuntarilyshebowedherhead,andsteppingtohimtookhimbythehand,andledhimtothestoolshehadleft。
Thereshemadehimsit,whileshebroughtforwardhertable,whitewithscrubbing,tookfromaholeinthewallandsetuponitaplatterofoatcakes,carriedawoodenbowltoherdairyintherockthroughawhitewasheddoor,andbringingitbackfilled,halfwithcreamhalfwithmilk,setthatalsoonthetable。Thensheplacedachairbeforeit,andsaid——
“Sityedoon,an’tak。GinyewartheLordhimsel’,mybonnyman,an’yemaybeforouchtIken,foryeluikpuiran’despisedeneuch,Icudgienaebetter,forit’sa’Ihaetoofferye——’cepitmichtbeanegg,“sheadded,correctingherself,andturnedandwentout。
Presentlyshecamebackwithalookofsuccess,carryingtwoeggs,which,havingrakedoutaquantity,sheburiedinthehotashesofthepeats,andleftinfrontofthehearthtoroast,whileGibbiewentoneatingthethickoatcake,sweetandsubstantial,anddrinkingsuchmilkasthewildestimaginationoftown-boycouldneversuggest。Itwasindeedangels’food——foodsuchaswouldhavepleasedtheLordhimselfafteraharddaywithaxeandsawandplane,sogoodandsimpleandstrongwasit。Janetresumedherseatonthelowthree-leggedstool,andtookherknittingthathemightfeelneitherthathewaswatchedasheate,northatshewaswaitingforhimtofinish。Everyothermomentshegaveaglanceatthestrangershehadtakenin;butneverawordhespoke,andthesenseofmysterygrewuponher。
Presentlycameagreatbounceandscramble;thelatchjumpedup,thedoorflewopen,andafteramoment’spause,incameasheepdog——asplendidthorough-bredcollie,carryinginhismouthatiny,long-leggedlamb,whichhedroppedhalfdeadinthewoman’slap。Itwasalatelamb,bornofamotherwhichhadbeensoldfromthehill,buthadfoundherwaybackfromagreatdistance,inorderthathercomingyoungonemighthavetheprivilegeofbeingyeanedonthesamespotwhereshehadherselfawakedtoexistence。Anothermoment,andhermba-awasheardapproachingthedoor。Shetrottedin,andgoinguptoJanet,stoodcontemplatingtheconsequencesofhermaternalambition。Herudderwasfull,butthelambwastooweaktosuck。Janetrose,andgoingtothesideoftheroom,openedthedoorofwhatmighthaveseemedanoldpress,butwasabed。
Foldingbackthecounterpane,shelaidthelambinthebed,andcovereditover。Thenshegotacaup,awoodendishlikealargesaucer,andintoitmilkedtheewe。Nextshecarriedthecauptothebed;butwhatmeansshethereusedtoenablethelambtodrink,theboycouldnotsee,thoughhisbusyeyesandlovingheartwouldgladlyhavetakeninall。
Inthemeantimethecollie,havingdonehisdutybythelamb,andperhapsforgottenit,satonhistail,andstaredwithhistwobravetrustingeyesatthelittlebeggarthatsatinthemaster’schair,andateofthefatoftheland。Oscarwasagentleman,andhadnevergonetoschool,thereforeneitherfanciednorhadbeentaughtthatragsmakeanessentialdistinction,andoughttobebarkedat。
Gibbiewasastranger,andthereforeasastrangerOscargavehimwelcome——nowandthenstoopingtolickthelittlebrownfeetthathadwanderedsofar。
Likeallwildcreatures,Gibbieatefast,andhadfinishedeverythingsetbeforehimerethewomanhaddonefeedingthelamb。
Withoutanotionoftherudenessofit,hisheartfullofgentlegratitude,heroseandleftthecottage。WhenJanetturnedfromhershepherding,theresatOscarlookingupattheemptychair。
“What’scomeo’theladdie?”shesaidtothedog,whoansweredwithalowwhine,half-regretful,half-interrogative。Itmaybehewasonlyasking,likeEsau,iftherewasnoresiduumofblessingforhimalso;butperhapshetoowaspuzzledwhattoconcludeabouttheboy。
Janethastenedtothedoor,butalreadyGibbie’snimblefeetrefreshedtothepointofeverytoewiththefoodhehadjustswallowed,hadbornehimfarupthehill,behindthecottage,sothatshecouldnotgetaglimpseofhim。Thoughtfullyshereturned,andthoughtfullyremovedtheremnantsofthemeal。ShewouldthenhaveresumedherBible,butherhospitalityhadrendereditnecessarythatsheshouldputonhergirdle——notacinctureofleatheruponherbody,butadiscofirononthefire,tobakethereoncakesereherhusband’sreturn。Itwasasimpleenoughprocess,fortheoat-mealwantednothingbutwaterandfire;butherjointshadnotyetgotridofthewinter’srheumatism,andthelabourofthebakingwasthehardestpartofthesacrificeofherhospitality。Tomanyitiseasytogivewhattheyhave,buttheofferingofwearinessandpainisnevereasy。Theyareindeedatruesalttosaltsacrificeswithal。ThatitwasthelastofhermealtillheryoungestboyshouldbringherabagonhisbackfromthemillthenextSaturday,madenopointinhertrouble。
Whenatlastshehaddone,andputthethingsaway,andsweptupthehearth,shemilkedtheewe,sentherouttonibble,tookherBible,andsatdownoncemoretoread。Thelamblayatherfeet,withhislittleheadprojectingfromthefoldsofhernewflannelpetticoat;
andeverytimehereyefellfromthebookuponthelamb,shefeltasifsomehowthelambwastheboythathadeatenofherbreadanddrunkofhermilk。Aftershehadreadawhile,therecameachange,andthelambseemedtheLordhimself,bothlambandshepherd,whohadcometoclaimherhospitality。Then,divinelyinvadedwiththedreadlestinthefancysheshouldforgetthereality,shekneeleddownandprayedtothefriendofMarthaandMaryandLazarus,tocomeashehadsaid,andsupwithherindeed。
NotforyearsandyearshadJanetbeentochurch;shehadlongbeenunabletowalksofar;andhavingnobookbutthebest,andnohelptounderstanditbutthehighest,herfaithwassimple,strong,real,all-pervading。Daybydaysheporedoverthegreatgospel——I
meanjustthegoodnewsaccordingtoMatthewandMarkandLukeandJohn——untilshehadgrowntobeoneofthenobleladiesofthekingdomofheaven——oneofthosewhoinherittheearth,andareripeningtoseeGod。FortheMaster,andhismindinhers,washerteacher。Shehadlittleornotheologysavewhathetaughther,orrather,whatheis。Andofanyotherthanthat,thelessthebetter;fornotheology,excepttheTheoulogos,{compilersnote:spelledinGreek:Theta,Epsilon,Omicron,Upsilon;
Lambda,Omicronwithstress,Gamma,Omicron,Sigma}isworththelearning,nootherbeingtrue。ToknowhimistoknowGod。Andheonlywhoobeyshim,doesorcanknowhim;hewhoobeyshimcannotfailtoknowhim。ToJanet,JesusChristwasnoobjectofso-calledtheologicalspeculation,butalivingman,whosomehoworotherheardherwhenshecalledtohim,andsentherthehelpsheneeded。
CHAPTERXII。
GLASHGAR。
UpandupthehillwentGibbie。Thepathceasedaltogether;butwhenupisthewordinone’smind——anduphadgrownalmostafixedideawithGibbie——hecanseldombeindoubtwhetherheisgoingright,evenwherethereisnotrack。Indeedinallmorearduousways,menleavenotrackbehindthem,nofinger-post——thereisalwaysbutthesteepness。Heclimbedandclimbed。Themountaingrewsteeperandbarerashewent,andhebecameabsorbedinhisclimbing。Allatoncehediscoveredthathehadlostthestream,whereorwhenhecouldnottell。Allbelowandaroundhimwasredgraniterock,scatteredoverwiththechipsandsplintersdetachedbyairandwind,waterandstream,lightandheatandcold。
Glashgarwasonlyaboutthreethousandfeetinheight,butitwasthesteepestofitsgroup——ahugerockthat,eveninthemidstofmasses,suggestedsolidity。
Notoncewhileheascendedhadtheideacometohimthatbyandbyheshouldbeabletoclimbnofarther。Foraughtheknewtherewereoat-cakesandmilkandsheepandcolliedogseverhigherandhigherstill。Notuntilheactuallystooduponthepeakdidheknowthattherewastheearthlyhitherto——thefinalobstacleofunobstancy,theeverywherewhich,fromexcessofperviousness,wastohumanfootimpervious。Thesunwasabouttwohourstowardsthewest,whenGibbie,hislittlelegsalmostasactiveasever,surmountedthefinalslope。Runninguplikeachildthatwouldscaleheavenhestoodonthebareround,theheadofthemountain,andsaw,withaninvadingshockofamazement,andatfirstofdisappointment,thattherewasnogoinghigher:ineverydirectiontheslopewasdownward。Hehadneverbeenonthetopofanythingbefore。Hehadalwaysbeeninthehollowsofthings。Nowthewholeworldlaybeneathhim。Itwascold;insomeoftheshadowslaysnow——wearyexilefromboththeskyandtheseaandthewaysofthem——captiveinthefettersofthecold——prisonertothemountaintop;butGibbiefeltnocold。Inaglowwiththeclimb,whichatthelasthadbeenhard,hislungsfilledwiththeheavenlyair,andhissoulwiththefeelingthathewasaboveeverythingthatwas,upliftedontheverycrownoftheearth,hestoodinhisrags,aflutteringscarecrow,theconquerorofheight,thediscovererofimmensity,themonarchofspace。Nobodyknewofsuchmarvelbuthim!,Gibbiehadneverevenheardthewordpoetry,butnonethelesswashetheverystuffoutofwhichpoemsgrow,andnowallthelatentpoetryinhimwassetaswayingandheaving——anoceaninarticulatebecauseunobstructed——amightthatcouldmakenomusic,nothunderofwaves,becauseithadnoshore,norocksofthoughtagainstwhichtobreakinspeech。Hesatdownonthetopmostpoint;andslowly,inthesilenceandtheloneliness,fromtheunknownfountainsoftheeternalconsciousness,theheartofthechildfilled。Abovehimtoweredinfinitude,immensity,potentonhismindthroughshapetohiseyeinasoaringdomeofblue——theonevisiblesymbolinformedandinsouledoftheeternal,torevealitselfthereby。Init,centreandlife,lordedthegreatsun,beginningtocastshadowstothesouthandeastfromtheendlessheapsoftheworld,thatliftedthemselvesinalldirections。Downtheirsidesranthestreams,downbusily,hastingawaythrougheveryvalleytotheDaur,whichborethembacktotheocean-heart——throughwoodsandmeadows,parkandwaste,rocksandwillowymarsh。Behindthevalleysrosemountains;andbehindthemountains,othermountains,moreandmore,eachswathedinitsownmystery;andbeyondallhungthecurtain-depthofthesky-gulf。
Gibbiesatandgazed,anddreamedandgazed。Themightycitythathadbeentohimtheuniverse,wasdroppedandlost,likeathingthatwasnownobody’s,infarindistinguishabledistance;andhewhohadlostithadclimbeduponthethroneoftheworld。Theairwasstill;whenabreathawoke,itbuttouchedhischeeklikethedownofafeather,andthestillnesswasthereagain。Thestillnessgrewgreat,andslowlydescendeduponhim。Itdeepenedanddeepened。
Surelyitwoulddeepentoavoice!——itwasabouttospeak!,Itwasasifagreatsinglethoughtwasthesubstanceofthesilence,andwasalloverandaroundhim,andclosertohimthanhisclothes,thanhisbody,thanhishands。Iamdescribingtheindescribable,andcompelledtomakeittoodefiniteforbelief。Incolderspeech,anexperiencehadcometothechild;alinkinthechainofhisdevelopmentglidedoverthewindlassofhisuplifting;achangepasseduponhim。Inafteryears,whenGibbiehadtheideaofGod,whenhehadlearnedtothinkabouthim,todesirehispresence,tobelievethatawillofloveenvelopedhiswill,asthebroodinghenspreadsherwingsoverhereggs——asoftenasthethoughtofGodcametohim,itcameintheshapeofthesilenceonthetopofGlashgar。
Ashesat,withhiseyesonthepeakhehadjustchosenfromtherestastheloftiestofallwithinhissight,hesawacloudbegintogrowuponit。Thecloudgrew,andgathered,anddescended,coveringitssidesasitwent,untilthewholewashidden。Thenswiftly,ashegazed,thecloudopenedasitwerearoundwindowintheheartofit,andthroughthathesawthepeakagain。Thenextmomentaflashofbluelightningdartedacrosstheopening,andwhetherGibbiereallysawwhatfollows,henevercouldbesure,butalwaysafter,asoftenasthevisionreturned,intheflashhesawarockrollingdownthepeak。Thecloudsswepttogether,andthewindowclosed。Thenextthingwhichinafteryearsherememberedwas,thattheearth,mountains,meadows,andstreams,hadvanished;
everythingwasgonefromhissight,exceptafewyardsaroundhimoftherockuponwhichhesat,andthecloudthathidworldandheaven。
Thenagainburstforththelightning。Hesawnoflash,butanintensecloud-illumination,accompaniedbythedeafeningcrack,andfollowedbytheappallingroarandrollofthethunder。Norwasitnoisealonethatsurroundedhim,for,asifhewereintheheartandnestofthestorm,theverywind-wavesthatmadethethunderrushedindrivenbellowingoverhim,andhadnearlyswepthimaway。Heclungtotherockwithhandsandfeet。Thecloudwrithedandwroughtandbillowedandeddied,withalltheshapesofthewind,andseemeditselftobethefurnace-wombinwhichthethunderwascreated。Wasthisthenthevoiceintowhichthesilencehadbeenallthetimedeepening?——hadthePresencethustakenformanddeclareditself?,Gibbiehadyettolearnthatthereisadeepervoicestillintowhichsuchasilencemaygrow——andthesilencenotbebroken。Hewasnotdismayed。Hehadnoconscienceofwrong,andscarcelyknewfear。Itwasanawfuldelightthatfilledhisspirit。
MountSinaiwasnottohimaterror。Tohimtherewasnowrathinthethunderanymorethaninthegreetingofthedogthatfoundhiminhiskennel。Tohimtherewasnobeingintheskysorighteousastobemoredispleasedthanpitifuloverthewrongnessofthechildrenwhomhehadnotyetgottaughttheirchildhood。Gibbiesatcalm,awe-ful,but,Iimagine,withaclearforeheadandsmile-hauntedmouth,whilethestormroaredandbeatandflashedandranabouthim。Itwastheveryfountainoftempest。Fromthebarecrestofthemountainthewaterpoureddownitssides,asifitsspringswereintherockitself,andnotinthebosomofthecloudabove。ThetumultatlastseizedGibbielikeanintoxication;hejumpedtohisfeet,anddancedandflunghisarmsabout,asifhehimselfwerethestorm。Buttheuproardidnotlastlong。Almostsuddenlyitwasgone,asif,likeabirdthathadbeenflappingthegroundinagony,ithadatlastrecovereditself,andtakentoitsgreatwingsandflown。Thesunshoneoutclear,andinalltheblueabyssnotacloudwastobeseen,exceptfarawaytoleeward,whereonewasspreadlikeabannerinthelonelyair,fleetingaway,theensignofthechargingstorm——bearingforitsdeviceasegmentofthemany-colouredbow。
Andnowthatitsfiercenesswasover,thejubilationinthesoftervoicesofthestormbecameaudible。Asthesoulgivesthanksforthesufferingsthatareoverpast,offeringtheloveandfaithandhopewhichthepainhasstungintofreshlife,sofromthesidesofthemountainascendedthenoiseofthewatersthecloudhadleftbehind。Thesunhadkeptonhisjourney;thestormhadbeennodisastertohim;andnowhewasalongwaydownthewest,andTwilight,inhergreycloak,wouldsoonbetrackinghimfromtheeast,likesorrowdoggingdelight。Gibbie,wetandcold,begantothinkofthecottagewherehehadbeensokindlyreceived,ofthefriendlyfaceofitsmistress,andhercareofthelamb。Itwasnotthathewantedtoeat。Hedidnotevenimaginemoreeating,forneverinhislifehadheeatentwiceofthesamecharityinthesameday。Whathewantedwastofindsomedryholeinthemountain,andsleepasnearthecottageashecould。Soheroseandsetout。Buthelosthisway;cameupononeprecipiceafteranother,downwhichonlyacreepingthingcouldhavegone;wasrepeatedlyturnedasidebytorrentsandswampyplaces;andwhenthetwilightcame,wasstillwanderinguponthemountain。Atlengthhefound,ashethought,theburnalongwhosebankhehadascendedinthemorning,andfollowedittowardsthevalley,lookingoutforthefriendlycottage。Butthefirstindicationofabodehesaw,wasthewallofthegroundsofthehousethroughwhosegatehehadlookedinthemorning。Hewasthenalongwayfromthecottage,andnotfarfromthefarm;andthebestthinghecoulddowastofindagainthebarnwherehehadsleptsowellthenightbefore。Thiswasnotverydifficultevenintheduskynight。Heskirtedthewall,cametohisfirstguide,foundandcrossedthevalley-stream,anddescendedituntilhethoughtherecognizedtheslopeofcloverdownwhichhehadruninthemorning。
Heranupthebrae,andtherewerethesolemnconesofthecorn-ricksbetweenhimandthesky!,Aminutemoreandhehadcreptthroughthecat-hole,andwasfeelingaboutinthedarkbarn。
Happilytheheapofstrawwasnotyetremoved。Gibbieshotintoitlikeamole,andburrowedtotheverycentre,therecoiledhimselfup,andimaginedhimselflyingintheheartoftherockonwhichhesatduringthestorm,andlisteningtothethunderwindsoverhishead。Thefancyenticedthesleepwhichbeforewasreadyenoughtocome,andhewassoonfarstillerthanArielintheclovenpineofSycorax。
CHAPTERXIII。
THECEILING。
Hemighthavesleptlongerthenextmorning,fortherewasnothreshingtowakehim,inspiteofthecocksintheyardthatmadeittheirbusinesstorousesleeperstotheirwork,haditnotbeenforanotherkindofcockinsidehim,whichborethesamerelationtofoodthattheothersboretolight。Hepeepedfirst,thencreptout。Allwasstillexceptthevoicesofthosesameprophetcocks,cryinginthewildernessoftheyetsunlessworld;amoonowandthenfromthebyres;andtheoccasionalstampofagreathoofinthestable。Gibbieclamberedupintotheloft,andturningthecheesesaboutuntilhecameupontheonehehadgnawedbefore,againattackedit,andenlargedconsiderablytheholehehadalreadymadeinit。Ratherdangerousfooditwas,perhaps,eateninthatunmitigatedway,foritwasmadeofskimmedmilk,andwasverydryandhard;butGibbiewasapowerfullittleanimal,allbonesandsinews,smallhardmuscle,andfaultlessdigestion。Thenextideanaturallyrisingwastheburn;hetumbleddownoverthestrawheaptothefloorofthebarn,andmadeforthecat-hole。Butthemomentheputhisheadout,hesawthelegsofaman:thefarmerwaswalkingthroughhisricks,speculatingonthemoneytheyheld。Hedrewback,andlookedroundtoseewherebesthecouldbetakehimselfshouldhecomein。Hespiedthereuponaladderleaningagainsttheend-wallofthebarn,oppositetheloftandthestables,andnearitinthewallawoodenshutter,likethedoorofalittlecupboard。Hegotuptheladder,andopeningtheshutter,whichwasfastenedonlywithabutton,foundaholeinthewall,throughwhichpoppinghisheadtoocarelessly,heknockedfromashelfsomepieceofpottery,whichfellwithagreatcrashonapavedfloor。Lookingafterit,Gibbiebeheldbelowhimarichprospectofyellow-whitepoolsrangedinorderonshelves。Theyremindedhimofmilk,butwereofadifferentcolour。Ashegazed,adooropenedhastily,withsharpclickinglatch,andawomanentered,ejaculating,“Carewhatsetthatcat!”Gibbiedrewback,lestinhersearchforthecatshemightfindtheculprit。Shelookedallround,mutteringsuchtruncatedimprecationsasbefittedthemouthofaScotchwoman;
butasnoneofhermilkwastouched,herwrathgraduallyabated:shepickedupthefragmentsandwithdrew。
ThereuponGibbieventuredtoreconnoitrealittlefarther,andpoppinginhisheadagain,sawthatthedairywasopentotheroof,butthedoorwasinapartitionwhichdidnotrunsohigh。Theplacefromwhichthewomanentered,wasceiled,andtheceilingrestedonthepartitionbetweenitandthedairy;sothat,fromashelflevelwiththehole,hecouldeasilyenoughgetonthetopoftheceiling。This,urgedbytheinstinctofthehomelesstounderstandtheirsurroundings,hepresentlyeffected,bycreepinglikeacatalongthetopshelf。
Theceilingwasthatofthekitchen,andwasmerelyofboards,which,beingoldandshrunken,hadhereandthereaconsiderablecrackbetweentwo,andGibbie,peepingthroughoneafteranotherofthesecracks,soonsawseveralthingshedidnotunderstand。Ofsuchwasabarrel-churn,whichhetookforabarrel-organ,andwelcomedasasignofcivilization。Thewomanwassweepingtheroomtowardsthehearth,wherethepeatfirewasalreadyburning,withagreatpothangingoverit,coveredwithawoodenlid。Whenthewaterinitwashot,shepoureditintoalargewoodendish,inwhichshebegantowashotherdishes,thusgivingtheobservantGibbiehisfirstnotionofhousekeeping。Thenshescouredthedealtable,dustedthebenchandthechairs,arrangedthedishesonshelvesandrack,exceptafewwhichsheplacedonthetable,putmorewateronthefire,anddisappearedinthedairy。Thencepresentlyshereturned,carryingagreatjar,which,toGibbie’sastonishment,havingliftedalidinthetopofthechurn,sheemptiedintoit;hewasnot,therefore,anyfartherastonished,whenshebegantoturnthehandlevigorously,thatnomusicissued。Astowhatelsemightbeexpected,Gibbiehadnotevenamistakenidea。
Butthebuttercamequicklythatmorning,andthenhedidhaveanotherastonishment,forhesawagreatmassofsomethinghalf-solidtumbledoutwherehehadseenaliquidpouredin——northatalone,fortheliquidcameoutagaintoo!,Butwhenatlengthhesawthemass,afterbeingwellwashed,mouldedintocertainshapes,herecognizeditasbutter,suchashehadseenintheshops,andhadnowandthentastedonthepiecegivenhimbysomemorethanusuallygeneroushousekeeper。Surelyhehadwanderedintoaregionofplenty!,Onlynow,whenhesawthewomanbusyandcareful,theideaofthingsinthecountrybeingasortofcommonpropertybegantofadefromhismind,andtheperceptiontowakethattheywereasthethingsintheshops,whichmustnotbetouchedwithoutfirstpayingmoneyforthemoveracounter。
Thebutter-making,broughttoasuccessfulclose,thewomanproceededtomakeporridgeforthemen’sbreakfast,andwithhungryeyesGibbiewatchedthatprocessnext。Thewaterinthegreatpotboilinglikeawildvolcano,shetookhandfulafterhandfulofmealfromagreatwoodendish,calledabossie,andthrewitintothepot,stirringasshethrew,untilthemesswaspresentlysothickthatshecouldnomoremovethespurtleinit;andscarcelyhadsheemptieditintoanothergreatwoodenbowl,calledabicker,whenGibbieheardtheheavytrampofthemencrossingtheyardtoconsumeit。
Forthelastfewminutes,Gibbie’snostrils——alas!notGibbie——hadbeenregaledwiththedeliciousodouroftheboilingmeal;andnowhiseyeshadtheirturn——butstill,alas,notGibbie!,Prostrateontheceilinghelayandwatchedthesplendidspoonfulstumbleoutofsightintothecapaciousthroatsoffourmen;alltooktheirspoonfulsfromthesamedish,buteachdippedhisspoonfulintohisprivatecaupofmilk,erehecarriedittohismouth。Alittleapartsataboy,whomthewomanseemedtofavour,havingprovidedhimwithaplatefulofporridgebyhimself,butthefactwas,fourwereasmanyascouldbickercomfortably,orwithanychanceoffairplay。Theboy’scountenancegreatlyattractedGibbie。Itwasalong,solemnface,buttheeyeswerebright-blueandsparkling;andwhenhesmiled,whichwasnotveryoften,itwasagoodandmeaningfulsmile。
Whenthemealwasover,andhesawthelittlethatwasleft,withallthedropsofmilkfromthecaups,tumbledintoacommonreceptacle,tobekept,hethought,forthenextmeal,poorGibbiefeltveryemptyandforsaken。Hecrawledawaysadatheart,withnothingbeforehimexceptadrinkofwaterattheburn。Hemighthavegonetothedoorofthehouse,inthehopeofabitofcake,butnowthathehadseensomethingofthedoingsinthehouseandofthepeoplewholivedinit——assoon,thatis,ashehadlookedembodiedownershipintheface——hebegantobeawareofitsclaims,andthecheesehehadeatentolieheavyuponhisspiritualstomach;
hehaddonethatwhichhewouldnothavedonebeforeleavingthecity。Carefullyhecreptacrosstheceiling,hisheadhanging,likeadogscoldedofhismaster,carefullyalongtheshelfofthedairy,andthroughtheopeninginthewall,quicklydowntheladder,andthroughthecat-holeinthebarndoor。Therewasnooneinthecorn-yardnow,andhewanderedaboutamongtherickslooking,withlittlehope,forsomethingtoeat。Turningacornerhecameuponahen-house——andtherewasacrowdofhensandhalf-grownchickensabouttheverydishintowhichhehadseentheremnantsofthebreakfastthrown,allpeckingbillfulsoutofit。AsImayhavesaidbefore,healwaysfeltatlibertytosharewiththeanimals,partly,Isuppose,becausehesawtheyhadnoscrupulosityorceremonyamongstthemselves;sohedippedhishandintothedish:
whyshouldnotthebirdoftheairnowandthenpeckwiththemorerespectableofthebarn-door,ifonlytolearnhisinferiority?
Greatlyrefreshed,hegotupfromamongthehens,scrambledoverthedrystone-wall,andtrottedawaytotheburn。
CHAPTERXIV。
HORNIE。
ItwasnowtimeheshouldresumehisjourneyupDaurside,andhesetouttofollowtheburnthathemightregaintheriver。Itledhimintoafinemeadow,whereanumberofcattlewerefeeding。Themeadowwasnotfenced——littlemorethanmarkedoff,indeed,upononeside,fromafieldofgrowingcorn,byalowwallofearth,coveredwithmossandgrassandflowers。Thecattlewerethereforeherdedbyaboy,whomGibbierecognizedeveninthedistanceashimbywhosecountenancehehadbeensomuchattractedwhen,likeanolddeityonacloud,helayspyingthroughthecrackintheceiling。
Theboywasreadingabook,fromwhicheverynowandthenheliftedhiseyestoglancearoundhim,andseewhetheranyofthecowsorheifersorstirkswerewanderingbeyondtheirpastureofrye-grassandclover。Havingthemallbeforehim,thereforenooccasiontolookbehind,hedidnotseeGibbieapproaching。Butassoonasheseemedthoroughlyoccupied,acertainblackcow,withshortsharphornsandawickedlook,whichhadbeengradually,aswasherwont,edgingnearerandnearertothecorn,turnedsuddenlyandranforit,jumpedthedyke,andplungingintoamadrevelryofgreed,toreanddevouredwithallthehastenotmerelyofoneinsecure,butofonethatknewshewasstealing。NowGibbiehadbeenobservantenoughduringhistravelstolearnthatthiswasagainstthelawandcustomofthecountry——thatitwasnotpermittedtoacowtogointoafieldwheretherewerenoothers——andlikeashothewasaftertheblackmarauder。Thesameinstanttheherdboytoo,liftinghiseyesfromhisbook,sawher,andspringingtohisfeet,caughtuphisgreatstick,andranalso:hehadmorethanonereasontorun,forheunderstoodonlytoowellthedangeroustemperofthecow,andsawthatGibbiewasamerechild,andunarmed——anobjectmostprovocativeofattacktoHornie——sonamed,indeed,becauseofherreadinesstousetheweaponswithwhichNaturehadprovidedher。
Shewasinfactamaliciouscow,andbutthatshewasasplendidmilker,wouldhavebeenlongagofattedupandsenttothebutcher。
Theboyasheranfullspeedtotherescue,keptshoutingtowarnGibbiefromhispurpose,butGibbiewastoointenttounderstandthesoundsheuttered,andsupposedthemaddressedtothecow。Withthefearlessservicethatbelongedtohisverybeing,heranstraightatHornie,and,havingnothingtostrikeherwith,flunghimselfagainstherwithagreatshovetowardsthedyke。Hornie,absorbedinherdeliciousrobbery,neitherheardnorsawbeforeshefelthim,and,startledbythesuddenattack,turnedtail。Itwasbutforamoment。Inturning,shecaughtsightofherruler,sceptreinhand,atsomelittledistance,andturnedagain,eithertohaveanothermouthful,orinthemereinstincttoescapehim。Thenshecaughtsightoftheinsignificantobjectthathadscaredher,andincontemptuousindignationloweredherheadbetweenherforefeet,andwasjustmakingarushatGibbie,whenastonestruckheronahorn,andthenextmomenttheherdcameup,andwithastormoffiercestblows,deliveredwiththefullmightofhisarm,droveherinabsoluteroutbackintothemeadow。Drawinghimselfupintheunconsciousmajestyofsuccess,DonalGrantlookeddownuponGibbie,butwitheyesofadmiration。
“Haith,cratur!”hesaid,“ye’remairo’amannorye’llluikthissavenyear!,Whatgarredyerinupo’thedeevil’sverrahornsthatgait?”
Gibbiestoodsmiling。
“Gien’thadnabeenformyclubwewadbaithbeowrethemune’gainthistime。Whatca’theyye,man?”
StillGibbieonlysmiled。
“Whaurcomeyefrae?——Wha’syerfowk?——Whaurdivyebide?——Haenayeatonguei’yerheid,yerascal?”
Gibbieburstoutlaughing,andhiseyessparkledandshone:hewasdelightedwiththeherd-boy,anditwassolongsincehehadheardhumanspeechaddressedtohimself!
“Thecratur’sfeel(foolish)!”concludedDonaltohimselfpityingly。
“Puirthing!puirthing!”headdedaloud,andlaidhishandonGibbie’shead。
ItwasbutthesecondtouchofkindnessGibbiehadreceivedsincehewasthedog’sguest:hadhebeenacquaintedwiththebastardemotionofself-pity,hewouldhavewept;ashewasunawareofhardshipinhislot,discontentinhisheart,ordiscordinhisfeeling,hisemotionwasoneofunmingleddelight,andembodieditselfinaperfectsmile。
“Come,cratur,an’I’llgieyeapiece:ye’llaiblinsun’erstan’
that!”saidDonal,asheturnedtoleavethecornforthegrass,whereHorniewaseatingwiththerestlikethemostinnocentofhum’le(hornless)animals。Gibbieobeyed,andfollowed,as,withslowstepanddownbentface,Donalledtheway。Forhehadtuckedhisclubunderhisarm,andalreadyhisgreedyeyeswerefixedonthebookhehadcarriedallthetime,nordidhetakethemfromituntil,followedinfullandpatientcontentbyGibbie,hehadalmostreachedthemiddleofthefield,somedistancefromHornieandhercompanions,when,stoppingabruptlyshort,hebeganwithoutliftinghisheadtocastglancesonthissideandthat。
“Ihoupnaneo’them’sswallowedmynepkin!”hesaidmusingly。“I’mnosurewhaurIwassittin’。Ihaemyplacei’thebeuk,butI
doobtIhaetintmyplacei’thegerse。”
Longbeforehehadended,forhespokewithutterdeliberation,Gibbiewasyardsaway,flittinghitherandthitherlikeabutterfly。
AminutemoreandDonalsawhimpounceuponhisbundle,whichhebroughttohimintriumph。
“Fegs!ye’renothegowkItookyefor,“saidDonalmeditatively。
WhetherGibbietooktheremarkforacompliment,ormerelywasgratifiedthatDonalwaspleased,theresultwasamerrylaugh。
Thebundlehadinitapieceofhardcheese,suchasGibbiehadalreadymadeacquaintancewith,andafewquartersofcakes。OneoftheseDonalbrokeintwo,gaveGibbiethehalf,replacedtheother,andsatdownagaintohisbook——thistimewithhisbackagainstthefell-dykedividingthegrassfromthecorn。Gibbieseatedhimself,likeaTurk,withhisbarelegscrossedunderhim,afewyardsoff,where,insilenceandabsolutecontent,heatehispiece,andgravelyregardedhim。Hishumansoulhadoflatebeenstarved,evenmorethanhisbody——andthatfromnofastidiousness;anditwasparadiseagaintobeinsuchcompany。Neversincehisfather’sdeathhadhelookedonafacethatdrewhimasDonal’s。Itwasfairofcomplexionbynature,butthesunhadburneditbrown,anditwascoveredwithfreckles。Itsforeheadwashigh,withamassoffoxyhairoverit,andunderittwokeenhazeleyes,inwhichthegreenpredominatedoverthebrown。Itsnosewaslongandsolemn,overhiswell-mademouth,whichrarelysmiled,butnotunfrequentlytrembledwithemotion——overhisbook。Forage,Donalwasgettingtowardsfifteen,andwasstronglybuilt,andwellgrown。Agenerallookofhonesty,andanattractiveexpressionofreposefulfriendlinesspervadedhiswholeappearance。Conscientiousinregardtohiswork,hewasyetindangerofforgettinghisdutyforminutestogetherinhisbook。Thechiefevilthatresultedfromitwassuchanoccasionalinroadonthecornashadthatmorningtakenplace;andmanywereDonal’sself-reproacheserehegottosleepwhenthathadfallenoutduringtheday。Heknewhismasterwouldthreatenhimwithdismissalifhecameuponhimreadinginthefield,butheknewalsohismasterwaswellawarethathedidread,andthatitwaspossibletoreadandyetherdwell。Itwaseasyenoughinthissamemeadow:ononesiderantheLorrie;onanotherwasastonewall;andonthethirdaditch;onlythecornfieldlayvirtuallyunprotected,andtherehehadtobehimselftheboundary。Andnowhesatleaningagainstthedyke,asifheheldsoapositionofspecialdefence;
butheknewwellenoughthatthedullestcalfcouldoutflankhim,andinvade,forafewmomentsattheleast,theforbiddenpleasure-ground。Hehadgainedanally,however,whosefacultyandfaithfulnesshelittleknewyet。ForGibbiehadbeguntocomprehendthesituation。Hecouldnotcomprehendwhyorhowanyoneshouldbeabsorbedinabook,forallheknewofbookswasfromhisonemorningofdame-schooling;buthecouldcomprehendthat,ifone’sattentionweresooccupied,itmustbeagreatvextobeinterruptedcontinuallybytheever-wakingdesiresofhischargeafterdainties。
Therefore,asDonalwatchedhisbook,GibbieforDonal’ssakewatchedtheherd,and,ashedidso,gentlypossessedhimselfofDonal’sclub。NorhadmanyminutespassedbeforeDonal,raisinghisheadtolook,sawthecurstcowagaininthegreencorn,andGibbiemanfullyencounteringherwiththeclub,hittingherharduponheadandhorns,anddeftlyavoidingeveryrushshemadeathim。
“Gieher’tupo’thenose,“Donalshoutedinterror,asheranfullspeedtohisaid,abusingHornieintermsoffiercestvituperation。
Butheneedednothavebeensoapprehensive。Gibbieheardandobeyed,andthenextmomentHorniehadturnedtailandwasfleeingbacktothesafetyofthelawfulmeadow。
“Hech,cratur!butyemaunbecomeo’fechtin’fowk!”saidDonal,regardinghimwithfreshadmiration。
Gibbielaughed;buthehadbeensorelyputtoit,andthebigdropswerecoursingfastdownhissweetface。Donaltooktheclubfromhim,andrushingatHornie,belabouredherwell,anddroveherquitetotheothersideofthefield。Hethenreturnedandresumedhisbook,whileGibbieagainsatdownnearby,andwatchedbothDonalandhischarge——thekeeperofbothherdandcattle。SurelyGibbiehadatlastfoundhisvocationonDaurside,withbothmanandbeastforhisspecialcare!
ByandbyDonalraisedhisheadoncemore,butthistimeitwastoregardGibbieandnotthenowt。Ithadgraduallysunkintohimthattheappearanceandcharacterofthecraturwerepeculiar。Hehadregardedhimasalittletramp,whosepeoplewerenotfaroff,andwhowouldsoongettiredofherdingandrejoinhiscompanions;butwhileheread,astrangefeelingofthepresenceoftheboyhad,inspiteofthewitcheryofhisbook,beengrowinguponhim。Heseemedtofeelhiseyeswithoutseeingthem;andwhenGibbierosetolookhowthecattleweredistributed,hebecamevaguelyuneasylesttheboyshouldbegoingaway。Foralreadyhehadbeguntofeelhimahumblekindofguardianangel。Hehadalreadythatday,throughhim,enjoyedalongerspellofhisbook,thananydaysincehehadbeenherdattheMainsofGlashruach。Andnowthedesirehadcometoregardhimmoreclosely。
Foraminuteortwohesatandgazedathim。Gibbiegazedathiminreturn,andinhiseyestheherd-boylookedtheverytypeofpowerandgentleness。Howheadmiredevenhissuitofsmall-ribbed,greenish-colouredcorduroy,theribsmuchrubbedandobliterated!
Thenhisjackethadroundbrassbuttons!histrousershadpatchesinsteadofholesattheknees!theirshortlegsrevealedwarmwoollenstockings!andhisshoeshadtheirsolesfullofgreatbroad-headedirontacks!whileonhisheadhehadasmallroundbluebonnetwitharedtuft!,Thelittleoutcast,ontheotherhand,withhislovingfaceandpurecleareyes,biddingfairtobenakedaltogetherbeforelong,wokeinDonaladivinepity,atendernesslikethatnestlingattheheartofwomanhood。Theneglectedcreaturecouldsurelyhavenomothertoshieldhimfromfrostandwindandrain。Butastrangethingwas,thatoutofthispitifultendernessseemedtogrow,likeitsblossom,anotherunlikefeeling——namely,thathewasinthepresenceofabeingofsomeordersuperiortohisown,onetowhomhewouldhavetolistenifhespoke,whoknewmorethanhewouldtell。ButthenDonalwasaCelt,andmightbeapoet,andthesweetstillnessofthechild’satmospheremadethingsbudinhisimagination。
Myreadermustthinkhowvastly,inallhispoverty,DonalwasGibbie’ssuperiorinthesocialscale。Heearnedhisownfoodandshelter,andnearlyfourpoundsayearbesides;livedaswellashecouldwish,dressedwarm,wasableforhiswork,andimagineditnohardship。ThenhehadafatherandmotherwhomhewenttoseeeverySaturday,andofwhomhewasasproudassoncouldbe——afatherwhowasthepriestofthefamily,andfedsheep;amotherwhowastheprophetess,andkeptthehouseeveranopenrefugeforherchildren。
PoorGibbieearnednothing——neverhadearnedmorethanapennyatatimeinhislife,andhadneverdreamedofhavingaclaimtosuchpenny。Nobodyseemedtocareforhim,givehimanything,doanythingforhim。YettherehesatbeforeDonal’seyes,fullofservice,ofsmiles,ofcontentment。
Donaltookuphisbook,butlaiditdownagainandgazedatGibbie。
Severaltimeshetriedtoreturntohisreading,butasoftenresumedhiscontemplationoftheboy。Atlengthitstruckhimassomethingmorethanshynesswouldaccountfor,thathehadnotyetheardawordfromthelipsofthechild,evenwhenrunningafterthecows。Hemustwatchhimmoreclosely。
Bythisitwashisdinnertime。Againheuntiedhishandkerchief,andgaveGibbiewhathejudgedafairshareforhisbulk——namelyaboutathirdofthewhole。Philosopherashewas,however,hecouldnothelpsighingalittlewhenhegottotheendofhisdiminishedportion。ButhewasbetterthancomfortedwhenGibbieofferedhimallthatyetremainedtohim;andthesmilewithwhichherefuseditmadeGibbieashappyasaprincewouldliketobe。
WhatadayithadbeenforGibbie!,Awholehumanbeing,andsomefiveandtwentyfour-leggedcreaturesbesides,totakecareof!
Aftertheirdinner,Donalgravitatedtohisbook,andGibbieresumedtheexecutive。SometimehadpassedwhenDonal,glancingup,sawGibbielyingflatonhischest,staringatsomethinginthegrass。
Heslidhimselfquietlynearer,anddiscovereditwasadaisy——onebyitselfalone;therewerenotmanyinthefield。Likeamotherleaningoverherchild,hewasgazingatit。Thedaisywasnotacoldwhiteone,neitherwasitaredone;itwasjustaperfectdaisy:itlookedasifsomegentlehandhadtakenit,whileitsleptanditsstarpointswereallfoldedtogether,anddippedthem——justatinytouchydip,inamoltenruby,sothat,whenitopenedagain,therewasitscrownofsilverpointedwithrubiesallaboutitsgoldensun-heart。
“He’sbeenreadin’Burns!”saidDonal。HeforgotthatthedaisieswerebeforeBurns,andthathehimselfhadlovedthembeforeeverheheardofhim。Now,hehadnotheardofChaucer,whomadelovetothedaisiesfourhundredyearsbeforeBurns——Godonlyknowswhatgospellerstheyhavebeenonhismiddle-earth。Allitsdayshisdaisieshavebeencomingandgoing,andtheyarenotoldyet,norhavewornoutyettheirlovelygarments,thoughtheypatchanddarnjustaslittleastheytoilandspin。
“Canyeread,cratur?”askedDonal。
Gibbieshookhishead。
“Cannayespeyk,man?”
AgainGibbieshookhishead。
“Canyehear?”
Gibbieburstoutlaughing。Heknewthatheheardbetterthanotherpeople。
“Hearkentillthisthan,“saidDonal。
Hetookhisbookfromthegrass,andread,inachant,orratherinalilt,theDanishballadofChyldDyring,astranslatedbySirWalterScott。Gibbie’seyesgrewwiderandwiderashelistened;
theirpupilsdilated,andhislipsparted:itseemedasifhissoulwerelookingoutofdoorandwindowsatonce——butapuzzledsoulthatunderstoodnothingofwhatitsaw。Yetplainly,eitherthesounds,orthethought-mattervaguelyoperativebeyondthelinewhereintelligencebegins,or,itmaybe,thesparkleofindividualwordorphraseislandedinachaosofrhythmicmotion,wroughtsomehowuponhim,forhisattentionwasfixedasbyaspell。WhenDonalceased,heremainedopen-mouthedandmotionlessforatime;
then,drawinghimselfslidinglyoverthegrasstoDonal’sfeet,heraisedhisheadandpeepedabovehiskneesatthebook。Amomentonlyhegazed,anddrewbackwithahungrysigh:hehadseennothinginthebooklikewhatDonalhadbeendrawingfromit——asifoneshouldlookintothewellofwhichhehadjustdrunk,andseetherenothingbutdrypebblesandsand!,Thewindblewgentle,thesunshonebright,allnatureclosedsoftlyroundthetwo,andthesoulwhosechildrentheywerewasnearerthantheonetotheother,nearerthansunorwindordaisyorChyldDyring。Tohisamazement,DonalsawthetearsgatheringinGibbie’seyes。HewasasonewhogazesintotheabyssofGod’swill——seesonlytheabyss,cannotseethewill,andweeps。Thechildinwhomneithercoldnorhungernornakednessnorlonelinesscouldmoveathrobofself-pity,wasmovedtotearsthataloveliness,tohimstrangeandunintelligible,hadpassedaway,andhehadnopowertocallitback。
“Wadyeliketohear’tagain?”askedDonal,morethanhalfunderstandinghiminstinctively。
Gibbie’sfaceansweredwithaflash,andDonalreadthepoemagain,andGibbie’sdelightreturnedgreaterthanbefore,fornowsomethinglikeadawnbegantoappearamongthecloudywords。Donalreaditathirdtime,andclosedthebook,foritwasalmostthehourfordrivingthecattlehome。Hehadneveryetseen,andperhapsneveragaindidsee,suchalookofthankfuldevotiononhumancountenanceasmethisliftedeyes。
HowmuchGibbieeventhenunderstoodofthelovelyeerieoldballad,itisimpossibleformetosay。Hadheaglimmerofthereturnoftheburiedmother?,Didhethinkofhisown?,Idoubtifhehadeverthoughtthathehadamother;buthemayhaveassociatedthetalewithhisfather,andthebootshewasalwaysmakingforhim。
Certainlyitwasthebeginningofmuch。Butthewakingupofahumansoultoknowitselfinthemirrorofitsthoughtsandfeelings,itslovesanddelights,oppressesmewithsoheavyasenseofmarvelandinexplicablemystery,thatwhenIimaginemyselfsuchasGibbiethenwas,Icannotimaginemyselfcomingawake。Icanhardlybelievethat,frombeingsuchasGibbiewasthehourbeforeheheardtheballad,Ishouldeverhavecomeawake。YethereIam,capableofpleasureunspeakablefromthatandmanyanotherballad,oldandnew!somehow,atonetimeoranother,oratmanytimesinone,Ihaveatlastcomeawake!,When,byslowfilmyunveilings,lifegrewclearertoGibbie,andhenotonlyknew,butknewthatheknew,histhoughtsalwayswentbacktothatdayinthemeadowwithDonalGrantasthebeginningofhisknowledgeofbeautifulthingsintheworldofman。Thenfirsthesawnaturereflected,Narcissus-like,inthemirrorofherhumanity,herhighestself。
Butwhenorhowthechangeinhimbegan,theturnofthebalance,thefirstpushtowardslifeoftheevermoreinvisiblegerm——ofthatheremained,muchashewondered,oftenashesearchedhisconsciousness,asignoranttothelastasIamnow。Sometimeshewasinclinedtothinkthegloryofthenewexperiencemusthavestruckhimdazed,andthatwaswhyhecouldnotrecallwhatwentoninhimatthetime。
Donalroseandwentdrivingthecattlehome,andGibbielaywherehehadagainthrownhimselfuponthegrass。Whenheliftedhishead,Donalandthecowshadvanished。
Donalhadlookedallroundasheleftthemeadow,andseeingtheboynowhere,hadconcludedhehadgonetohispeople。Theimpressionhehadmadeuponhimfadedalittleduringtheevening。Forwhenhereachedhome,andhadwateredthem,hehadtotieuptheanimals,eachinitsstall,andmakeitcomfortableforthenight;next,eathisownsupper;thenlearnapropositionofEuclid,andgotobed。