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类别:其他 作者:MacDonald, George字数:28448更新时间:18/12/21 13:04:10
“GienIwasyou,SirGilbert,“saidDonal,whonowandthenrememberedMrs。Sclater’srequest——theyhadcomedown,andlookingattheoutsideofthehouse,hadespiedahalf-obliteratedstone-carvingoftheGalbraitharms——“GienIwasyou,SirGilbert,I wadgarMaisterScletterkeepasherpluikootforthefirstchanceo’buyin’backthishoose。Itwadbeagreatpeetyitsudgangtowauraforeyegetit。Eh!sictalesasthishoosecudtell!” “HowamItodothat,Donal?,Mr。Sclaterwouldnotmindme。Themoney’snotmineyet,youknow,“saidGibbie。 “Thesillerisyours,Gibbie,“answeredDonal;“it’syoursasthekingdomo’h’aven’syours;it’sonly’atyecannajistlayyerhan’supo’’tyet。TheseeneryelatthatMaisterScletterken’atyekenwhatye’reaboot,thebetter。An’believeme,whanhecomestoun’erstan’’atyewantthathoosekoft,he’llnobeadayohnganetosomebodyoranitherabootit。” Donalwasright,forwithinamonththehousewasbought,andcertainnecessaryrepairscommenced。 SometimesonthoseeveningstheytookteawithMistressCroale,anditwasaproudtimewithherwhentheywent。Thatnightatleastthewhiskybottledidnotmakeitsappearance。 Mrs。SclatercontinuedtoinviteyoungladiestothehouseforGibbie’ssake,andwhenshegaveaparty,shetookcarethereshouldbeaproportionofyoungpeopleinit;butGibbie,althoughofcoursekindandpolitetoall,didnotmuchenjoythesegatherings。 Itbegantotroublehimalittlethatheseemedtocarelessforhiskindthanbefore;butitwasonlyaseeming,andthecauseofitwasthis:hewasnowcapableofperceivingfactsinnatureandcharacterwhichpreventedrealcontact,andmustmakeadvancestowardsitappearasoffensiveastheywereuseless。Buthedidnotlovethelessthathehadtocontenthimself,untilthekingdomshouldcomenearer,withlovingatamoreconsciousdistance;bylovingkindnessandtruthhecontinueddoingallhecouldtobringthekingdomwhoseendisunity。Hencehehadcometorestrainhismanner——nothingcouldhaveconstrainedhismanners,whichnowfromtheconventionalpointofviewwereirreproachable;butifhedidnotsooftenexecuteawilddance,orstandupononeleg,theglowinhiseyeshaddeepened,andhisresponsetoanyadvancewasasreadyandthorough,asfrankandsweetasever;hiseagernesswasreplacedbyastillnessfromwhichhiseyestookallcoldness,andhissmilewasasthesunbreakingoutinagraydayofsummer,andturningallfromdovestopeacocks。InthismattertherewasonethingworthyofnotecommontoDonalandhim,whohadhadthesamedivineteachingfromJanet:theirmannerstoallclasseswerethesame,theyshowedthesamerespecttothepoor,thesameeasewiththerich。 Imustconfess,however,thatbeforethesessionwasover,DonalfounditrequiredallhisstrengthofmindtocontinuetogotoMrs。 Sclater’slittleparties——fromkindnesssheneveraskedhimtoherlargerones;andthemoretohispraiseitwasthathedidnotrefuseoneofherinvitations。Thecausewasthis:onebrightSundaymorninginFebruary,comingoutofhisroomtogotochurch,andwalkingdownthepaththroughthefurnitureinadreamymood,hesuddenlysawapersonmeetinghimstraightintheface。“Sicaqueer-likechield!”heremarkedinwardly,steppedononesidetolethimpass——andperceiveditwashimselfreflectedfromheadtofootinalargemirror,whichhadbeenplacedwhilehewasoutthenightbefore。Thecouragewithwhichhepersisted,aftersuchapainfulenlightenment,ingoingintocompanyinthosesamegarments,wasrightadmirableandenviable;butnooneknewofituntilitsexercisewaslongover。 Thelittlepocket-moneyMr。SclaterallowedGibbie,waschieflyspentattheshopofacertainsecondhandbookseller,nearlyoppositeMistressMurkison’s。ThebookstheyboughtwerecarriedtoDonal’sroom,theretobeconsideredbyGibbieDonal’s,andbyDonalGibbie’s。AmongtherestwasareprintofMarlow’sFaust,thedaringintheonegrandpassageofwhichbothawedanddelightedthem;therewerealsosomeoftheEttrickShepherd’seeriestories,aloneintheirkind;andabovealltherewasaminiaturecopyofShelley,whoseversedidmuchforthemusicofDonal’s,whileyethecouldnotquiteappreciatethetruthfortheiridescenceofit:hesaiditseemedtohimtohavebeenallcomposedinaballoon。I havementionedonlyworksofimagination,butitmustnotbesupposedtheyhadnotarelishforstrongerfood:thebooksmoreseverecameafterwards,whentheyhadlibertytochoosetheirownlabours;nowtheyhadplentyoftheharderworkprovidedforthem。 SomewhereaboutthistimeFergusDuffreceivedhislicensetopreach,andsethimselftoacquirewhathissoulthirstedafter——areputation,namely,foreloquence。Thiswasalltheflood-markthatremainedofthewatersofversewithwhichhehadatonetimesoplentifullyinundatedhissoul。Hewasthesameasmanhehadbeenasyouth——handsome,plausible,occupiedwithhimself,determinedtosucceed,notdeterminedtolabour。Praisewastheverynecessityofhisexistence,buthehadtheinstinctnottodisplayhisbeggarlyhunger——whichreachedeventotheapprobationofsuchtowhomheheldhimselfvastlysuperior。Heseemedgenerous,andwasniggardly,byturns;cultivatedsuavity;indulgedinfloriditybothofmannersandspeech;andsignedhisnamesoasnobodycouldreadit,thoughhishandwritingwasplainenough。 Inthespring,summer,andautumn,Donallabouredalldaywithhisbody,andintheeveningasmuchashecouldwithhismind。LoverofNatureashewas,however,morealiveindeedthanbeforetothedelightsofthecountry,andthegenialcompanionshipofterrenesightsandsounds,scentsandmotions,hecouldnothelplongingforthewinterandthecity,thathissoulmightbefreertofollowitspaths。Andyetwhataseasonsomeofthelaboursofthefieldaffordedhimforthought!,Tothestudentwhocannotthinkwithoutbooks,theeasiestofsuchlaboursareadullburden,oradistress; butforthemaninwhomthewellshavebeenunsealed,inwhomthewatersareflowing,thelabourminglesgentlyandgeniallywiththethought,andtheploughheholdswithhishandslaysopentothesunandtheairmoresoilsthanone。Mr。Sclaterwithouthisbookswouldspeedilyhavesunkintothemereshrewdfarmer;Donal,neveropeningabook,wouldhavefollowedtheoriesandmadeversestotheendofhisdays。 EverySaturday,asbefore,hewenttoseehisfatherandmother。 Janetkeptfreshandlively,althoughagetoldonher,shesaid,morerapidlysinceGibbiewentaway。 “ButgientheLordlatauldagewithermeup,“shesaid,“he’llluikefterthecrackshimsel’。” SixweeksofeverysummerbetweenDonal’ssessions,whiletheministerandhiswifetooktheirholiday,GibbiespentwithRobertandJanet。Itwasablessedtimeforthemall。Heledthenjustthelifeoftheformerdays,withRobertandOscarandthesheep,andJanetandhercowandtheNewTestament——onlyhehadagoodmanymorethingstothinkaboutnow,andmorewaysofthinkingaboutthem。Withhisownhandshebuiltaneatlittleporchtothecottagedoor,withclosesidesandaseconddoortokeepthewindoff:Donalandhecarriedupthetimberandthemortar。ButalthoughhetriedhardtomakeJanetsaywhathecoulddoforhermore,hecouldnotbringhertorevealanydesirethatbelongedtothisworld——except,indeed,fortwoorthreetriflesforherhusband’swarmthandconvenience。 “Thesichto’myLord’sface,“shesaidonce,whenhewaspressingher,“isa’’atIwant,SirGibbie。Forthislifeitjistblecksmetothinko’onythingIwadhaeorwadlowse。Thisboadyo’mine’sgrowin’someheavy-like,Imaunconfess,butIwadnahae’tta’enaffo’meaforethetime。Itwadbeanillthingfortheseedtobeshal’towersune。” TheyalmostalwayscalledhimSirGibbie,andheneverobjected,orseemedeitherannoyedoramusedatit;hetookitjustasthenamethatwashis,thesamewayashishairorhishandswerehis;hehadbeencalledweeSirGibbieforsolong。 CHAPTERXLIX。 THEHOUSELESS。 TheministerkeptGibbiehardatwork,andbythetimeDonal’slastwintercame,Gibbiewasreadyforcollegealso。TopleaseMr。 Sclaterhecompetedforabursary,andgainedatolerablygoodone,butdeclinedacceptingit。Hisguardianwasannoyed,hecouldnotseewhyheshouldrefusewhathehad“earned。”,Gibbieaskedhimwhetheritwasthedesignofthefounderofthosebursariesthatrichboysshouldhavethem。WeretheynotforthelikeofDonal? WhereuponMr。Sclatercouldnothelprememberingwhatadifferenceitwouldhavemadetohiminhisearlystruggles,ifsomerichbursarabovehimhadyieldedaplace——andheldhispeace。 Daur-streetbeingtoofarfromElphinstoneCollegeforastudenttolivethere,Mr。SclaterconsentedtoGibbie’slodgingwithDonal,butwouldhaveinsistedontheirtakingroomsinsomepartofthetown——moresuitabletotheyoungbaronet’sposition,hesaid;butastherewasanotherroomtobehadatMistressMurkison’s,Gibbieinsistedthatonewhohadshownthemsomuchkindnessmustnotbeforsaken;andbythistimeheseldomfounddifficultyinhavinghiswaywithhisguardian。Bothheandhiswifehadcometounderstandhimbetter,andnobodycouldunderstandGibbiebetterwithoutalsounderstandingbetterallthatwasgoodandtrueandright:althoughtheyhardlyknewthefactthemselves,thestandardofbothofthemhadbeenheightenedbynotafewdegreessinceGibbiecametothem; andalthoughhesoonceasedtotakedirectnoticeofwhatintheirconductdistressedhim,Icannothelpthinkingitwasnotamissthatheutteredhimselfashedidatthefirst;knowingalittlehiswaysofthinkingtheycametofeelhisjudgmentunexpressed。ForMrs。 Sclater,whenshebethoughtherselfthatshehadsaidordonesomethinghemustcountworldly,theverysilenceofthedumbboywasareprooftoher。 Onenighttheyouthshadbeenoutforalongwalkandcamebacktothecitylate,aftertheshopswereshut。Onlyhereandtherealightglimmeredinsomelow-browedlittleplace,probablyusedinpartbythefamily。Notasoulwasvisibleinthedingyregionthroughwhichtheynowapproachedtheirlodging,whenroundacorner,movinglikeashadow,came,soft-pacing,aghostlywomaninrags,withawhite,wornface,andthelargestblackeyes,itseemedtotheyouthsthattheyhadeverseen——anapparitionofaweandgriefandwonder。Tocompareagreatthingtoasmall,shewastotheireyesasaruined,desecratedshrinetotheeyesofthesaint’sownpeculiarworshipper。ImaycomparehertowhatIplease,greatorsmall——toasapphiresetintin,toanangelwithdraggledfeathers;forfarbeyondallcomparisonisthattempleoftheholyghostinthedesert——awomaninwretchednessandrags。Shecarriedherpunybabyrolledhardinthecornerofherscrapofblackshawl。 Totheyouthsaseaoftroublelookedoutofthosewildeyes。Asshedrewnearthem,shehesitated,half-stopped,andputoutahandfromundertheshawl——stretchedoutnoarm,heldoutonlyahandfromthewrist,whiteagainstthenight。Donalhadnomoney。 Gibbiehadashilling。Thehandcloseduponit,agleamcrossedthesadface,andamurmurofthanksflutteredfromthethinlipsasshewalkedonherway。Theyouthsbreatheddeep,andfeltalittlerelieved,butonlyalittle。Thethoughtofthewomanwanderinginthedarkandthefogandthenight,wasasicknessattheirhearts。 Wasitimpossibletogathersuchunderthewingsofanynight-broodinghen?,ThatGibbiehadgonethroughsomuchofthesamekindofthinghimself,andhadfounditendurableenough,didnotmakehercaseawhitthelesspitifulinhiseyes,andindeeditwaswidely,sadlydifferentfromhis。Alongthedesertedstreet,whichlookedtoDonallikeawaterlesscanalbankedbymoundsofdeath,andlightedbyphosphorescentgrave-damps,theyfollowedherwiththeireyes,theonelivingthing,fadingawayfromlamptolamp;andwhentheycouldseehernofarther,followedherwiththeirfeet;theycouldnotbeartolosesightofher。Buttheykeptjustonthevergeofvision,fortheydidnotwanthertoknowtheespialoftheirlove。Suddenlyshedisappeared,andkeepingtheireyesonthespotaswellastheycould,theyfoundwhentheyreacheditalittleshop,witharedcurtain,halftorndown,acrosstheglassdoorofit。Adimoillampwasburningwithin。Itlookedlikearag-shop,dirtyanddreadful。Thereshestood,whileawomanwithabloatedface,lookingtoDonallikeafeederofhell-swine,tookfromsomesecretholeunderneath,abottlewhichseemedtoGibbietheveryonehisfatherusedtodrinkfrom。Hewouldhaverushedinanddasheditfromherhand,butDonalwithheldhim。 “Hoots!”hesaid,“wecannafollowhera’nicht;an’gienwedid,whatbetterwadshebei’themornin’?,Latherbe,puirthing!” Shereceivedthewhiskyinabrokentea-cup,swallowedsomeofiteagerly,then,tothehorroroftheyouths,putsomeofitintothemouthofherchildfromherown。Drainingthelastdropsfromthecup,shesetitquietlydown,turned,andwithoutawordspoken,forshehadpaidbeforehand,cameout,herfacelookingjustaswhiteandthinasbefore,buthavinganotherexpressionintheeyesofit。 AtthesightDonal’swisdomforsookhim。 “Eh,wuman,“hecried,“yonwasnawhatyehedtheshillin’for!” “Yesaidnaething,“answeredthepoorcreature,humbly,andwalkedon,hangingherhead,andpressingherbabytoherbosom。 Theboyslookedateachother。 “Thatwasnathegaityershillin’sudhaegane,Gibbie,“saidDonal。 “It’sclearitwinnadeetogieshillin’stosiclikeasher。Whakensbutthehungeran’thecaul’,an’thewanto’whiskymaybethewuman’sevilthingshere,’atshemay’scapethehellfireo’theRichManhereafter?” Hestopped,forGibbiewasweeping。Thewomanandherchildhewouldhavetakentohisveryheart,andcoulddonothingforthem。 Loveseemedhelpless,formoneywasuseless。Itsethimthinkingmuch,andtheresultappeared。Fromthathourthecaseofthehomelesshauntedhisheartandbrainandimagination;andashisnaturalaffectionsfoundthemselvesrepelledandchilledinwhatiscalledSociety,theytookrefugemoreandmorewiththehouselessandhungryandshivering。Throughthem,also,henow,forthefirsttime,begantofindgraveandtroublousquestionsminglingwithhisfaithandhope;sothatalreadyhebegantoberewardedforhislove:tothetruehearteverydoubtisadoor。IwillnotfollowanddescribetheopeningofthesedoorstoGibbie,but,aswhathediscoveredfoundalwaysitsfirstutteranceinaction,waituntilI canshowtheresult。 Forthetimetheyouthswereagainalittlerelievedaboutthewoman:followingherstill,toayetmorewretchedpartofthecity,theysawherknockatadoor,paysomething,andbeadmitted。Itlookedadreadfulrefuge,butshewasatleastundercover,andshelter,insuchaclimateasoursinwinter,mustbethefirstrudimentarynotionofsalvation。Nolongerhauntedwiththeideaofherwanderingallnightaboutthecomfortlessstreets,“likeaghostawakeinMemphis,“Donalsaid,theywenthome。Butitwaslongbeforetheygottosleep,andinthemorningtheirfirstwordswereaboutthewoman。 “Gienonlywehedmymitherhere!”saidDonal。 “Mightn’tyoutryMr。Sclater?”suggestedGibbie。 Donalansweredwithagreatroaroflaughter。 “Hewadtellhersheouchttotakshametillhersel’,“hesaid,“an’ I’mthinkin’she’slangbrunta’herstocko’thatfirin’。Hewudtellhershesudworkforherlivin’,an’maybethereisnaaeturnthepuirthingcandee’atonybodywadgieherabawbeeforadayo’!——Butwhatsayyetotakin’adviceo’MissGalbraith?” Itwasstrangehow,withthemarkeddistinctionsbetweenthem,DonalandGibbiewouldeverynowandthen,likethedaughtersoftheVicarofWakefield,seemtochangeplacesandparts。 “Godcanmakepraise-pipesofbabesandsucklings,“answeredGibbie; “butitdoesnotfollowthattheycangiveadvice。Don’tyourememberyourmothersayingthatthestriplingDavidwasenoughtokillabraggartgiant,butasore-triedmanwaswantedtorulethepeople?” ItendedintheirgoingtoMistressCroale。Theydidnotlaybaretohertheirperplexities,buttheyaskedhertofindoutwhothewomanwas,andseeifanythingcouldbedoneforher。Theysaidtothemselvesshewouldknowtheconditionofsuchawoman,andwhatwouldbemovinginhermind,aftertheexperienceshehadherselfhad,betteratleastthantheministerorhislady-wife。Norweretheydisappointed。TobethustakenintocounselrevivedforMistressCroalethetimeofherdignitywhileyetsheshepherdedherlittleflockofdrunkards。Sheundertookthetaskwithheartygoodwill,andcarrieditoutwithsomesuccess。Itsreactiononherselftoherowngoodwasremarkable。Therecanbenobetterauxiliaryagainstourownsinsthantohelpourneighbourintheencounterwithhis。Merelytocontemplateourneighbourwillrecoiluponusinquiteanotherway:weshallseehisfaultssoblack,thatwewillnotconsenttobelieveourssobad,andwillimmediatelybegintoexcuse,whichisthesameastocherishthem,insteadofcastingthemfromuswithabhorrence。 Onedayearlyinthesession,astheyouthswereapproachingthegateofMissKimble’sschool,athin,care-wornman,inshabbyclothes,cameout,andwalkedalongmeetingthem。Everynowandthenhebowedhisshoulders,asifsomethinginvisiblehadleapeduponthemfrombehind,andasoftenseemedtothrowitoffandwitheffortwalkerect。Itwasthelaird。Theyliftedtheircaps,butinreturnheonlystared,orrathertriedtostare,forhiseyesseemedabletofixthemselvesonnothing。Hewasnowatlengthathoroughlyruinedman,andhadcometothecitytoendhisdaysinacottagebelongingtohisdaughter。AlreadyMr。Sclater,whowasunweariedlyonthewatchoverthematerialinterestsofhisward,had,throughhislawyer,andwithoutpermittinghisnametoappear,purchasedthewholeoftheGlashruachproperty。Forthepresent,however,hekeptSirGilbertinignoranceofthefact。 CHAPTERL AWALK。 ThecottagetowhichMr。GalbraithhadtakenGinevra,stoodinasuburbanstreet——oneofthosesmall,well-builtstonehousescommon,Ifancy,throughoutScotland,withthreeroomsandakitchenonitsonefloor,andalargeatticwithdormerwindows。Itwaslowandwide-roofed,andhadatinygardenbetweenitandthequietstreet。 Thisgardenwasfullofflowersinsummerandautumn,butthetopsofafewgauntstemsofhollyhocks,andthewirystragglingcreepersofthehoneysuckleabouttheeaves,wasallthatnowshowedfromthepavement。Ithadadwarfwallofgranite,withanironrailingonthetop,throughwhich,intheseason,itsgloriouscoloursusedtoattractmanyeyes,butMr。Galbraithhadhadtherailingandthegatelinedtotheveryspikeswithboards:thefirstdayofhisabodehehaddiscoveredthatthepassers-by——nottosaythosewhostoodtostareadmiringlyattheflowers,camemuchtoonearhisfadedbutnonethelessconsciousdignity。Hehadalsoputalockonthegate,andsomadeofthegardenasortofpropylontothehouse。Forhehadoflatedevelopedatendencytowardstakingtoearth,likethecreaturesthatseemtohavebeencreatedashamedofthemselves,andarealwaysburrowing。Butitwasnotthatthelatelairdwasashamedofhimselfinanypropersense。Ofthedishonestyofhisdoingshewasasyetscarcelyhalfconscious,fortheproudmanshrinksfromrepentance,regardingitasdisgrace。Towashistoacknowledgetheneedofwashing。HeavoidedtheeyesofmenforthemeanreasonthathecouldnolongerappearindignityaslairdofGlashruachandchairmanofagrandcompany;whilehefeltasifsomethingmusthavegonewrongwiththelawsofnaturethatithadbecomepossibleforThomasGalbraith,ofGlashruach,Esq。toliveinadumpycottage。HehadthoughtseriouslyofresuminghispatronymicofDurrant,butreflectedthathewastoowellknowntodonthatcloakoftransparentdarknesswithoutgivingcurrencytotheideathathehadsoiledtheotherpastlongerwearing。Itwouldbeimagined,hesaid,pickingoutonedishonestyofwhichhehadnotbeenguilty,thathehadsettledmoneyonhiswife,andretiredtoenjoyit。 Hisconditionwasfarmorepitifulthanhissituation。Havingnofacultyformentaloccupationexceptwithaffairs,findingnothingtodobutcleave,likeaspentsailor,withhandsandfeettotheslipperyrockofwhatwasoncehisrectitude,suchasitwas,tryingtoholditstillhisown,hewouldsitforhourswithoutmoving——aperfectcreature,temple,god,andworshipper,allinone——onlythattheworshipperwashardlycontentwithhisgod,andthatawormwasgnawingonatthefoundationofthetemple。Nearlyasmotionless,herhandsexcepted,wouldGinevrasitoppositetohim,notquieterbutmorepeacefulthanwhenagirl,partlybecausenowshewaslessafraidofhim。Hecalledher,inhisthoughtsashesatthere,heartlessandcold,butnotonlywasshenotso,butitwashisfaultthatsheappearedtohimsuch。Inhismoralstupidityhewouldratherhaveseenhermanifestconcernatthepovertytowhichhehadreducedher,thanshowthestillnessofacontentedmind。 Shewasnotmuchgiventobooks,butwhatshereadwasworthreading,andsuchasturnedintothoughtwhileshesat。Theyarenotthebeststudentswhoaremostdependentonbooks。Whatcanbegotoutofthemisatbestonlymaterial:amanmustbuildhishouseforhimself。Shewouldhavereadmore,butwithherfatherbesideherdoingnothing,shefeltthattotakeabookwouldbelikegoingintoawarmhouse,andleavinghimoutinthecold。Itwasverysadtohertoseehimthusshrunkandwithered,andlostinthoughtthatplainlywasnotthinking。Nothinginterestedhim;heneverlookedatthepapers,nevercaredtohearawordofnews。Hiseyesmoreunsteady,hislipslooser,hisneckthinnerandlonger,helookedmorethaneverlikeapuppetwhosestringshungslack。HowoftenwouldGinevrahavecastherselfonhisbosomifshecouldhaveevenhopedhewouldnotrepelher!,Nowandthenhiseyesdidwandertoherinadazedsortofanimal-likeappeal,butthemomentsheattemptedresponse,heturnedintoacorpse。Still,whenitcame,thatlookwasacomfort,foritseemedtowitnesssomebondbetweenthemafterall。Andanothercomfortwas,thatnow,inhismisery,shewasable,ifnottoforgetthosepainfulthoughtsabouthimwhichhadalltheseyearshauntedher,atleasttodismissthemwhentheycame,inthehopethat,asalreadysuchachangehadpasseduponhim,furtherandbetterchangemightfollow。 Shewasstillthesamebrownbirdasofold——abirdofthetwilight,orratheratwilightitself,withawholenightofstarsbehindit,ofwhoseexistenceshescarcelyknew,havingbutjuststartedonthevoyageofdiscoverywhichlifeis。Shehadthesweetest,rarestsmile——notfrequentandflashinglikeGibbie’s,butstealingupfrombelow,liketheshadowyreflectionofagreaterlight,gentlydeepening,permeatinghercountenanceuntilitreachedhereyes,thenceissuinginsoftflame。Alwayshowever,ansoonashereyesbegantoglowduskily,downwenttheirlids,anddowndroptherheadlikethefrondofasensitiveplant,Heratmospherewasanembodiedstillness;shemadeaquietwhereversheentered;shewasnotbeautiful,butshewaslovely;andherpresenceatoncemadeaplacesuchasonewoulddesiretobein。 Themostpleasantofherthoughtswereofnecessitythosewithwhichthetwoyouthswereassociated。Howdrearybutforthemandtheirswouldtheretrospectofherlifehavebeen!,Severaltimeseverywintertheyhadmetattheminister’s,andeverysummershehadagainandagainseenGibbiewithMrs。Sclater,andonceortwicehadhadawalkwiththem,andeverytimeGibbiehadsomethingofDonal’stogiveher。TwiceGibbiehadgonetoseeherattheschool,butthesecondtimesheaskedhimnottocomeagain,asMissKimbledidnotlikeit。Hegaveabigstareofwonder,andthoughtofAngusandthelaird;butfollowedthestarewithaswiftsmile,forhesawshewastroubled,andaskednoquestion,butwaitedfortheunderstandingofallthingsthatmustcome。Butnow,whenorwherewassheevertoseethemmore?,Gibbiewasnolongerattheminister’s,andperhapsshewouldneverbeinvitedtomeetthemthereagain。ShedarednotaskDonaltocall:herfatherwouldbeindignant;andforherfather’ssakeshewouldnotaskGibbie;itmightgivehimpain;whilethethoughtthathewouldofacertaintybehavesodifferentlytohimnowthathewaswell-dressed,andmanneredlikeagentleman,wasalmostmoreunendurabletoherthanthememoryofhispasttreatmentofhim。 Mr。andMrs。Sclaterhadcalleduponthemthemomenttheyweresettledinthecottage;butMr。Galbraithwouldseenobody。Whenthegate-bellrang,healwayslookedout,andifavisitorappeared,withdrewtohisbedroom。 OnebrilliantSaturdaymorning,thesecondinthesession,thegroundhardwithanearlyfrost,thefilmyicemakingfairycavernsandgrottosinthecart-ruts,andtheairsocondensedwithcoldthateverybreath,tothosewhoateandsleptwell,hadthelifeoftwo,Mrs。Sclaterrangthesaidbell。Mr。Galbraithpeepingfromthewindow,sawalady’sbonnet,andwent。Shewalkedin,followedbyGibbie,andwouldhaveGinevragowiththemforalongwalk。 Pleasedenoughwiththeproposal,fortheoutsidesoflifehadbeendullaswellaspainfuloflate,shewentandaskedherfather。IfshedidnottellhimthatSirGilbertwaswithMrs。Sclater,perhapssheoughttohavetoldhim;butIamnotsure,andthereforeamnotgoingtoblameher。Whenparentsarenotfathersandmothers,butsomethingthathasnonameinthekingdomofheaven,theyplacethepurestandmosthonestofdaughtersinthemidstofperplexities。 “Whydoyouaskme?”returnedherfather。“Mywishesarenothingtoanyonenow;toyoutheyneverwereanything。” “Iwillstayathome,ifyouwishit,papa,——withpleasure,“shereplied,ascheerfullyasshecouldaftersuchareproach。 “Bynomeans。Ifyoudo,IshallgoanddineattheRedHart,“heanswered——nothavingmoneyenoughinhispossessiontopayforadinnerthere。 Ifancyhemeanttobekind,but,likenotafew,alas!tooknopainstolookaskindashewas。Therearemany,however,whoseemtodelightinplantingastingwhereconscienceorheartwillnotletthemdeny。Itmadehermiserableforawhileofcourse,butshehadgotsousedtohiswayofbreakingagiftashehandedit,thatsheansweredonlywithasigh。Whenshewasachild,hisungraciousnesshadpowertodarkenthesunlight,butbyrepetitionithadlostforce。Inhastesheputonherlittlebrown-ribbonedbonnet,tookthemoth-eatenmuffthathadbeenhermother’s,andrejoinedMrs。SclaterandGibbie,beamingwithtroubledpleasure。 Lifeinherwasstrong,andtheirsocietysoonenabledhertoforget,notherfather’ssadness,buthistreatmentofher。 Attheendofthestreet,theyfoundDonalwaitingthem——withoutgreatcoatormuffler,thepictureofsuchhealthassufficestoitsownwarmth,notamarkofthemidnightstudentabouthim,andlookingverydifferent,intown-madeclothes,fromtheDonalofthemirror。HeapproachedandsalutedherwithsuchanairofhomelygraceasonemightimaginethatoftheRedCrossKnight,when,havingjustputonthearmourofaChristianman,fromaclownishfellowhestraightwayappearedthegoodliestknightinthecompany。 Awaytheywalkedtogetherwestward,thenturnedsouthward。Mrs。 SclaterandGibbieled,andGinevrafollowedwithDonal。Andtheyhadnotwalkedfar,beforesomethingofthedelightofoldtimesonGlashruachbegantoreviveinthebosomofthetoosobergirl。Invainsheremindedherselfthatherfathersatmiserableathome,thinkingofherprobablyasthemostheartlessofgirls;thesun,andthebrightairlikewineinherveins,weretoomuchforher,Donalhadsoonmadehercheerful,andnowandthensheansweredhistalkwithevenalittleflashofmerriment。Theycrossedthebridge,high-hungovertheDaur,bywhichonthatblackmorningGibbiefled;andhereforthefirsttime,withhisthreefriendsabouthim,hetoldonhisfingersthediredeedofthenight,andheardfromMrs。Sclaterthatthemurderershadbeenhanged。Ginevragrewwhiteandfaintasshereadhisfingersandgestures,butitwasmoreatthethoughtofwhatthechildhadcomethrough,thanfromthehorrorofhisnarrative。Theythenturnedeastwardtothesea,andcametothetopoftherock-borderofthecoast,withitscliffsrentintogullies,eerieplacestolookdowninto,endingincavernsintowhichthewavesrushedwithbellowandboom。Althoughsonighthecity,thiswasalwaysasolitaryplace,yet,roundingarock,theycameuponayoungman,whohurriedabookintohispocket,andwouldhavegonebytheotherside,butperceivinghimselfrecognized,cametomeetthem,andsalutedMrs。Sclater,whopresentedhimtoGinevraastheRev。Mr。Duff。 “Ihavenothadthepleasureofseeingyousinceyouwerequitealittlegirl,MissGalbraith,“saidFergus。 Ginevrasaidcoldlyshedidnotrememberhim。Theyouthsgreetedhimincarelessstudentfashion:theyhadmetnowandthenforamomentaboutthecollege;andalittlemeaninglesstalkfollowed。 Hewastopreachthenextday——andforseveralSundaysfollowing——atacertainlargechurchinthecity,atthetimewithoutaminister; andwhentheycameuponhimhewasstudyinghissermon——Idonotmeanthetruthsheintendedtopressuponhisaudience——thosehehadmasteredlongago——buthismanuscript,studyingitinthesenseinwhichactorsusetheword,learningit,thatis,byheartlaboriously,thatthewordsmightcomefromhislipsasmuchlikeanextemporaneousutteranceaspossible,consistentlywithnotbeingmistakenforone,which,wereittrueastheBible,wouldhavenomeritintheearsofthosewhocountedthemselvesjudgesofthecraft。ThekindofthingsuitedFergus,whosehighestideaoflifewasseeming。Naturallycapable,hehadalreadymadeofhimselfratheradullfellow;forwhenamanspendshisenergyonappearingtohave,heisallthetimedestroyingwhathehas,andthereintheverymeansofbecomingwhathedesirestoseem。Ifhegainshisendhissuccessishispunishment。 Fergusneverforgotthathewasaclergyman,alwayscarryinghimselfaccordingtohisideaofthecalling;thereforewhentheinterchangeofcommonplacesflagged,hebegantolookabouthimforsomeremarksufficientlytingedwithhisprofessiontobesuitableforhimtomake,andfortheladiestohearashis。Thewindwasathoroughlywintryonefromthenorth-east,andhadbeenblowingallnight,sothatthewaveswereshoulderingtherockswithhugeassault。NowFergus’ssermon,whichhemeanttouseasaspadeforthecastingofthefirstturfofthefirstparallelinthesiegeofthepulpitoftheNorthparish,wasuponthevanityofhumanambition,histextbeingthegrandverse——AndsoIsawthewickedburied,whohadcomeandgonefromtheplaceoftheholy;therewasnosmallamountoffinewritinginthemanuscripthehadthrustintohispocket;andhissermonwasinhisheadwhenheremarked,withthewaftureofaneatly-glovedhandseawards—— “Iwaswatchingthesewaveswhenyoufoundme:theyseemtomesuchapictureofthevanityofhumanendeavour!,Butjustaslittleasthosewaveswouldmindme,ifItoldthemtheywerewastingtheirlabourontheserocks,willmenmindme,whenItellthemto-morrowoftheemptinessoftheirambitions。” “Apresentenstanceo’thevainityo’humanendeevour!”saidDonal。 “Whatforsudye,inthatcase,gangonpreachin’,saesettin’themanillexemple?” Duffgavehimahigh-liddedglance,vouchsafingnoreply。 “Justasthosewaves,“hecontinued,“wastethemselvesineffort,asoftenfoiledasrenewed,toteardowntheserocks,sodothemenofthisworldgoonandon,spendingtheirstrengthfornought。” “Hoots,Fergus!”saidDonalagain,inbroadestspeech,asifwithitsbrayhewouldrebukenotthemadnessbutthesillinessoftheprophet,“yedinnameantotellmeyonjaws(billows)disnakentheirbusinessbetternorimaiginetheyhaetocawdoontherocks?” Duffcastasecondglanceofscornatwhathetookfortheprosaicstupidityorpoverty-strickenlogomachyofDonal,whileGinevraopenedonhimbigbrowneyes,asmuchastosay,“Donal,whowasitsetmedownforsayingamancouldn’tbeaburn?”ButGibbie’sfacewasexpectant:heknewDonal。Mrs。Sclateralsolookedinterested: shedidnotmuchlikeDuff,andbythistimeshesuspectedDonalofgenius。DonalturnedtoGinevrawithasmile,andsaid,inthebestEnglishhecouldcommand—— “Bearwithmeamoment,MissGalbraith。IfMr。Duffwillobligemebyansweringmyquestion,ItrustIshallsatisfyyouIamnoturncoat。” Fergusstared。Whatdidhisfather’sherd-boymeanbytalkingsuchEnglishtotheladies,andsuchvulgarScotchtohim?,Althoughnowamagistrand——thatis,oneabouttotakehisdegreeofMasterofArts——DonalwasstilltoFergusthecleaner-outofhisfather’sbyres——anupstart,whoseformerpositionwashisrealone——towardshimatleast,whoknewhim。Anddidthefellowchallengehimtoadiscussion?,Ordidhepresumeonthefamiliarityoftheirboyhood,andwishtosporthisacquaintancewiththepopularpreacher?,Oneithersupposition,hewasimpertinent。 “Ispokepoetically,“hesaid,withcolddignity。 “Ye’llexcuseme,Fergus,“repliedDonal,“——forthesakeo’auldlangsyne,whanIwas,asIeverwillbe,sairobligatittillye——buti’thatyesaynoo,ye’resairwrang:yewasnaspeykin’poetically,thoughIkenweelyethinkit,oryewadnasay’t;an’that’swhatgarredmetakyeup。Fortheverraessenceo’poetryistrowth,an’ assune’saword’snotrue,it’snopoetry,thoughitmayhaeonthecastclaeso’’t。It’snanebutthem’atkensnawhatpoetryis,’atblethersabootpoeticlicense,an’thatkin’o’hen-scraich,asgienapoetwassicagowk’atnaebodyeedithoohelee’d,orwhetherhegaedwi’’scwite(coat)hin’sideaforeorno。” “Iamatalosstounderstandyou——Donal?——yes,DonalGrant。I rememberyouverywell;andfromthetroubleIusedtotakewithyoutomakeyoudistinguishbetweentheworkofthepoetandthatoftherhymester,Ishouldhavethoughtbythistimeyouwouldhaveknownalittlemoreaboutthenatureofpoetry。Personificationisafigureofspeechinconstantusebyallpoets。” “Oway!butthere’strueandthere’sfausepersonification;an’it’snoilkapoet’atkensthediffer。Ow,Iken!ye’llbedoonupo’mewi’yerByron,“——Fergusshookhisheadasatafalseimpeachment,butDonalwenton——“butevenapoetcannamakleespoetry。An’aman’atinaneo’hisgran’estversescudhaiverabootthebirtho’ ayoongairthquack!——losh!tothinko’’tgrowin’anauldairthquack!——haith,tomeit’snouptilladeuk-quack!——sicapoetmichtweel,Igrantye,beheeversicaguidpoetwhanhetuikheedtowhathesaid,hemichtweel,Isay,blethernonsenseaboottheseawarrin’again’therocks,an’sicstuff。” “Butdon’tyouseethem?”saidFergus,pointingtoagreatbillowthatfellbackatthemoment,andlaychurninginthegulfbeneaththem。“Aretheynotinfactwastingtherocksawaybyslowdegrees?” “Whatcomeso’yerseemilethan,anentthevainityo’theirendeevour?,Butthat’snowhatI’mcarin’aboot。WhatImainteenis,’atthoughtheydivweirawa’therocks,that’snaemairtheirdesignnorit’sthedesigno’ayewkyowsetokillthetreewhanherubshit’sskinan’hisainaffthegither。” “Tut!nobodyevermeans,whenhepersonifiesthepowersofnature,thattheyknowwhattheyareabout。” “Themairnecessar’tillattreebutetillthemnaethingbuttheirraledesign。” “Iftheydon’tknowwhattheyareabout,howcanyouhesofoolishastalkoftheirdesign?” “Ilkathinghasadesign,——an’gienitdinnaken’titsel’,that’sjistwhauryertruean’lawfu’personificationcomesin。There’snorizon’atapoetsudnaattreebutetillathingasaconsciousdesignthatwhichliesattheverrahearto’’tsbein’,thedesignforwhichit’sthere。Thatan’noithersuddeterminethepersonificationyegieathing——forthat’sthetrowtho’thething。 Eh,man,Fergus!thejawsisfechtin’wi’naerocks。They’rejistattheirpairtinagran’cleansin’hermony。They’reattheirhoosemaid’swark,dayan’nicht,tohaudthewarl’clean,an’gran’ an’bonnietheysingatit。GienIwasyou,Iwadnatellfowkanysicnonsenseasyon;Iwadtellthem’atilkane’atdisnadeehiswarki’thewarl’,an’dee’ttherichtgait,’snothewortho’aminnin,notosayawhaul,forilkaneo’thaeweecratursdisthewullo’him’atmade’imwi’ilkawhisko’hisbittailie,fa’in’inwi’a’thejabbleo’thejawsagain’therocks,forit’sa’aething——an’a’tohaudthemuckleseaclean。An’saewhanIliei’ mybed,an’a’atancetherecomesaweesoughieo’win’i’myface,an’Iluikupan’seeitwasnaethingbutthewingso’aflittin’ flee,Ithinkwi’mysel’hooa’thecursesarebutblessin’s’atyedinnaseeintill,an’hooilkamidge,an’flee,an’muckledronin’ thing’atgangsabootsingin’bass,notomentionthedoosan’themairtinsan’thecrawsan’thekitesan’theooletsan’themuckleaiglesan’thebutterflees,isa’jisthaudin’theairgauin’’atilkadefilin’thingmaybeweelturntower,an’bruntclean。That’sthebestIgotooto’mycheemistrylastsession。An’fainwadI haudairan’watterinmotionabootme,an’saeservemyen’——whetherbywaggin’wi’mywingsorwhiskin’wi’mytail。Eh! it’sjistwon’erfu’。Itsa’aegran’consortitconfusiono’hermonyan’order;an’whatmakstheconfusionisonlyjist’ata’thing’sworkin’an’naethingsitsidle。Butawa!wi’thenonsenseo’aethingworryin’an’fechtin’atanither!——notillyecometobeastsan’fowk,an’syneyehaeeneucho’’t。” AllthetimeFergushadbeenpokingthepointofhisstickintotheground,asmileofsuperioritycurlinghislip。 “Ihope,ladies,ourwitsarenotquitesweptawayinthisfloodofDoric,“hesaid。 “Youhaveapooropinionofthestabilityofourbrains,Mr。Duff,“ saidMrs。Sclater。 “Iwasonlyjudgingbymyself,“hereplied,alittleputout。“I can’tsayIunderstoodourfriendhere。Didyou?” “Perfectly,“answeredMrs。Sclater。 Atthatmomentcameathunderouswavewithagreatbowffintothehollowattheendofthegullyonwhoseedgetheystood。 “There’syourhousemaid’sbroom,Donal!”saidGinevra。 Theyalllaughed。 “Everythingdependsonhowyoulookatathing,“saidFergus,andsaidnomore——inwardlyresolving,however,toomitfromhissermonacertainsentenceabouttheidlewavesdashingthemselvestoruinontherockstheywoulddestroy,andtoworkinsomethinginsteadaboutthewindsofthewintertossingthesnow。Apausefollowed。 “Well,thisisSaturday,andtomorrowismywork-day,youknow,ladies,“hesaid。“Ifyouwouldobligemewithyouraddress,MissGalbraith,IshoulddomyselfthehonourofcallingonMr。 Galbraith。” Ginevratoldhimwheretheylived,butaddedshewasafraidhemustnotexpecttoseeherfather,forhehadbeenoutofhealthlately,andwouldseenobody。 “AtalleventsIshallgivemyselfthechance,“herejoined,andbiddingtheladiesgood-bye,andnoddingtotheyouths,turnedandwalkedaway。 Forsometimetherewassilence。AtlengthDonalspoke。 “PoorFergus!”hesaidwithalittlesigh。“He’sagood-naturedcreature,andwasagreathelptome;butwhenIthinkofhimapreacher,IseemtoseeanEgyptianprieststandingonthethresholdofthegreatdooratIpsambul,blowingwithallhismighttokeepouttheLibyandesert;andthefourgreatstonegods,sittingbehindthealtar,farbackinthegloom,laughingathim。” ThenGinevraaskedhimsomethingwhichledtoagooddealoftalkaboutthetrueandfalseinpoetry,andmadeMrs。Sclaterfeelitwasnotfornothingshehadbefriendedtheladfromthehillsinthestrangegarments。Andshebegantothinkwhetherherhusbandmightnotbebroughttotakeahigherviewofhiscalling。 OnMondayFerguswenttopayhisvisittoMr。Galbraith。AsGinevrahadsaid,herfatherdidnotappear,butFerguswasfarfromdisappointed。HehadtakenitintohisheadthatMissGalbraithsidedwithhimwhenthatill-bredfellowmadehisrude,nottosayungrateful,attackuponhim,andwasmuchpleasedtohaveatalkwithher。Ginevra,thoughtitwouldnotberighttocherishagainsthimthememoryoftheonesinofhisyouthinhereyes,butshecouldnotlikehim。Shedidnotknowwhy,butthetruthwas,shefelt,withoutbeingabletoidentify,hisunreality:shethoughtitwasbecause,bothinmannersandindress,sofarasthecustomofhiscallingwouldpermit,hewasthatunpleasantphenomenon,afinegentleman。Shehadneverheardhimpreach,orshewouldhavelikedhimstillless;forhewasanoratorwilfulandprepense,choiceoflongwords,fondofclimaxes,andalwaysawareofthepointsatwhichhemustwavehisarm,throwforwardhishands,wipehiseyeswiththefinestoflargecambrichandkerchiefs。Asitwas,shewasheartilytiredofhimbeforehewent,andwhenhewasgone,found,asshesatwithherfather,thatshecouldnotrecallawordhehadsaid。Astowhathadmadethefellowstaysolong,shewasthereforepositivelyunabletogiveherfatherananswer;theconsequenceofwhichwas,that,thenexttimehecalled,Mr。 Galbraith,muchtoherrelief,stoodthebruntofhisapproach,andreceivedhim。Theicethusbroken,hisingratiatingmanners,andthefull-blownrespectheshowedMr。Galbraith,enablingtheweakmantofeelhimself,asofold,everyinchalaird,sowonuponhimthat,whenhetookhisleave,hegavehimacordialinvitationtorepeathisvisit。 Hedidso,intheeveningthistime,andrememberingapredilectionofthelaird’s,beggedforagameofbackgammon。Theresultofhispolicywas,that,ofmanyweeksthatfollowed,everyMondayeveningatleasthespentwiththelaird。Ginevrawassogratefultohimforhisattentiontoherfather,andhiseffortstodrawhimoutofhisgloom,thatshecamegraduallytoletalittlelightoffavourshineuponhim。AndiftheheartofFergusDuffwasdrawntoher,thatisnottobecountedtohimafault——neitherthat,hisheartthusdrawn,heshouldwishtomarryher。HadshebeenstillheiressofGlashruach,hedarednothavedreamedofsuchathing,but,notingthehumbleconditiontowhichtheywerereduced,thegrowingfamiliarityofthefather,andthefriendlinessofthedaughter,hegrewveryhopeful,andmoreanxiousthanevertosecurethepresentationtotheNorthchurch,whichwasinthegiftofthecity。 Hecouldeasilyhavegotarichwife,buthewasmoregreedyofdistinctionthanofmoney,andtomarrythedaughterofthemantowhomhehadbeenaccustomedinchildhoodtolookupasthegreatestintheknownworld,wasinhiseyeslikeapatentofnobility,wouldbearatificationofhisfitnesstominglewiththechoiceoftheland。 CHATTERLI。 THENORTHCHURCH。 ItwasacoldnightinMarch,cloudyandblowing。Everyhumanbodywasturnedintoafortressforbaredefenceoflife。Therewasnosnowontheground,butitseemedasiftheremustbesnoweverywhereelse。Therewassnowinthecloudsoverhead,andtherewassnowinthemindofmanbeneath。Theveryairfeltlikethequarryoutofwhichthesnowhadbeendugwhichwasbeinggroundabove。Thewindfeltblack,theskywasblack,andthelampswereblowingaboutasiftheywantedtoescapeforthedarknesswasafterthem。ItwastheSundayfollowingtheinductionofFergus,andthiswasthemeteoricconditionthroughwhichDonalandGibbiepassedontheirwaytotheNorthchurch,tohearhimpreachinthepulpitthatwasnowhisown。 Thepeoplehadbeengatheringsincelongbeforethehour,andtheyouthscouldfindonlystandingroomnearthedoor。Coldaswastheweather,andkeenasblewthewindintothechurcheverytimeadoorwasopened,theinstantitwasshutagainitwaswarm,fortheplacewascrowdedfromtheveryheightofthegreatsteep-slopinggalleries,atthebackofwhichthepeoplewerestandingonthewindowsills,downtothedoubleswing-doors,whichwereconstantlycrackingopenasifthehousewasliterallytoofulltoholdthecongregation。Theaislesalsowerecrowdedwithpeoplestanding,alleageryetsolemn,withgranitefacesandliveeyes。Onewhodidnotknowbettermightwellhaveimaginedthemgatheredinhungeraftergoodtidingsfromthekingdomoftruthandhope,wherebytheymighthastenthecomingofthatkingdomintheirsoulsandthesoulstheyloved。Butitwashardlythat;itwasindeedalongwayfromit,andnosuchthing:theeagernesswas,inthemass,doubtlesswithexceptions,tohearthenewpreacher,thepyrotechnistofhumanlogicandeloquence,whowasabouttoburnhishalfpennybluelightsovertheabyssoftruth,andthrowhisyelpingcrackersintoit。 Theeyesoftheyoungmenwentwanderingoverthecrowd,lookingforanyoftheirfewacquaintances,butbelowtheymostlyfellofcourseonthebacksofheads。Therewas,however,nomistakingeitherGinevra’sbonnetortheocciputperchedlikeacapitalonthelongneckofherfather。Theysatagoodwayinfront,aboutthemiddleofthegreatchurch。AtthesightofthemGibbie’sfacebrightened,Donal’sturnedpaleasdeath。For,onlythelastweekbutone,hehadheardofthefrequentvisitsoftheyoungpreachertothecottage,andofthefavourinwhichhewasheldbybothfatheranddaughter;andhisstateofmindsince,hadnot,withallhisphilosophytorectifyandsupportit,beenanenviableone。Thathecouldnotforamomentregardhimselfasafithusbandforthelady-lass,ordreamofexposinghimselforhertotheinsultwhichtheofferofhimselfasason-in-lawwouldbringonthembothfromthelaird,wasnotareflectiontorenderthethoughtofsuchabagofwindasFergusDuffmarryingher,onewhitthelesshorriblyunendurable。Hadthelairdbeeninthesamesocialpositionasbefore,DonalwouldhavehadnofearofhisacceptingFergus;butmisfortunealtersmanyrelations。Fergus’sfatherwasamanofconsiderableproperty,Fergushimselfalmostamanofinfluence,andalreadyinpossessionofacomfortableincome:itwaspossibletoimaginethattheimpoverishedThomasGalbraith,lateofGlashruach,Esq。mightcontrivetoswallowwhatannoyancetherecouldnotbutinanycasebeinweddinghisdaughtertothesonofJohnDuff,latehisowntenantoftheMains。AltogetherDonal’sthoughtswerenotofthekindtoputhiminfitmood——IdonotsaytogatherbenefitfromtheprophesyingofFergus,buttogivefairplaytothepeddlerwhonowrosetodisplayhisloadedcalicoandbeggarlyshoddyoverthebook-boardofthepulpit。Butthecongregationlistenedrapt。 Idarenotsaytherewasnodivinerealityconcernedinhisutterance,forGibbiesawmanyaglimmerthroughtherentsinhislogic,andthethin-wornpatchesofhisphilosophy;butitwasnotsuchglimmersthatfetteredtheregardsoftheaudience,butthenoisyflowandfalseeloquenceofthepreacher。Inproportiontothefalsehoodinusareweexposedtothefalsehoodinothers。Thefalseplaysuponthefalsewithoutdiscord;comestothefalse,andiswelcomedasthetrue;thereisnojar,forthefalsetothefalselookthetrue;darknesstakesdarknessforlight,andgreatisthedarkness。Iwillnotattemptanaccountofthesermon;evenadmirablyrendered,itwouldbeworthlessasthebestofcopiesofabadwall-paper。Therewasinit,tobesure,suchaglowingdescriptionofthecityofGodasmighthaveservedtoattractthitherallthediamond-merchantsofAmsterdam;butwhyaChristianshouldcaretogotosuchaplace,lethimtellwhoknows;while,ontheotherhand,theaudienceappearedequallyinterestedinhisequiponderatingdescriptionoftheplaceofmisery。Notonce{didheeven}attempttogive,orindeedcouldhavegiven,thefeeblestidea,toasinglesoulpresent,oftheoneterroroftheuniverse——theperilofbeingcastfromthearmsofessentialLoveandLifeintothebosomoflivingDeath。Forthisteacherofmenknewnothingwhateverbutbyhearsay,hadnotinhimselfexperiencedoneofthejoysoroneofthehorrorsheendeavouredtoembody。 Gibbiewasnotathomelisteningtosuchasermon;hewasdistressed,andsaidafterwardstoDonalhewouldfarratherbesubjectedtoMr。Sclater’sismsthanFergus’sations。ItcausedhimpaintootoseeDonallooksoscornful,socontemptuouseven;whileitaddedtoDonal’sunrest,andswelledhisevilmood,toseeMr。 Galbraithabsorbed。ForGinevra’sbonnet,itdidnotoncemove——butthenitwasnotsetatanangletoindicateeithereyesupturnedinlistening,orcastdowninemotion。Donalwouldhavesacrificednotafewsongs,theonlywealthhepossessed,foronepeeproundthecornerofthatbonnet。Hehadbecomepainfullyaware,that,muchashehadseenofGinevra,heknewscarcelyanythingofherthoughts; hehadalwaystalkedsomuchmoretoherthanshetohim,thatnow,whenhelongedtoknow,hecouldnotevenguesswhatshemightbethinking,orwhateffectsuch“anarrangement“ofredandyellowwouldhaveuponherimaginationandjudgment。Shecouldnotthinkorreceivewhatwasnottrue,hefeltsure,butshemighteasilyenoughattributetruthwhereitdidnotexist。 Atlengththerockets,Romancandles,andsquibswereallburntout,thewould-be“eternalblazon“wasover,andthepreachersunkbackexhaustedinhisseat。Thepeoplesang;aprayer,fitpendenttosuchasermon,followed,andthecongregationwasdismissed——itcouldnotbewithmuchadditionalstrengthtomeetthesorrows,temptations,sophisms,commonplaces,disappointments,dulnesses,stupidities,andgeneraldevilriesoftheweek,althoughnotafewpaidthepreacherwelcomecomplimentsonhis“gran’discoorse。” Theyoungmenwereoutamongthefirst,andgoingroundtoanotherdoor,inthechurch-yard,bywhichtheyjudgedGinevraandherfathermustissue,therestoodwaiting。Thenightwasutterlychanged。Thewindhadgoneabout,andthevapourswerehighinheaven,brokenallintocloud-massesofsombregrandeur。Nowfrombehind,nowupontheirsides,theyweremadegloriousbythefullmoon,whilethroughtheirrentsappearedtheskyandtheevermarvellousstars。Gibbie’seyeswentclimbingupthespirethatshotskywardovertheirheads。Arounditspointthecloudsandthemoonseemedtogather,groupingthemselvesingrandcarelessness; andhethoughtoftheSonofMancominginthecloudsofheaven;tousmereheapsofwateryvapour,everreadytofall,drowningtheearthinrain,orburyingitinsnow,toangel-feettheymightbesolidmasseswhereontotreadattendantuponhim,who,althoughwithhiswordheruledwindsandseas,lovedtobewaitedonbythemultitudeofhisown!,Hewasyetgazing,forgetfulofthehumantideabouthim,watchingtheglorydominantoverstorm,whenhiscompanionpinchedhisarm:helooked,andwasawarethatFergus,muffledtotheeyes,wasstandingbesidethem。Heseemednottoseethem,andtheywerenowiseinclinedtoattracthisattention,butgazedmotionlessonthechurchdoor,anunsealedfountainofsouls。 Whatacuriousthingitistowatchanissuingcrowdoffacesforonelovedone——allsounattractive,provoking,blamable,astheycomerollingroundcorners,dividing,andflowingaway——notoneofthemtherightone!,Butatlastoutshedidcome——Ginevra,likeadaisyamongmowngrass!,Itwasreallyshe!——butwithherfather。 ShesawDonal,glancedfromhimtoGibbie,castdownhersweeteyes,andmadenosign。Fergushadalreadyadvancedandaddressedthelaird。 “Ah,Mr。Duff!”saidMr。Galbraith;“excuseme,butwouldyouobligemebygivingyourarmtomydaughter?,Iseeafriendwaitingtospeaktome。Ishallovertakeyouinamoment。” Fergusmurmuredhispleasure,andGinevraandhemovedawaytogether。Theyouthsforamomentwatchedthefather。Hedawdled——evidentlywantedtospeaktonoone。Theythenfollowedthetwo,walkingsomeyardsbehindthem。EveryothermomentFerguswouldbendhisheadtowardsGinevra;onceortwicetheysawthelittlebonnetturnupwardsinresponseorquestion。PoorDonalwasburningwithlawlessandfoolishindignation:whyshouldtheministermufflehimselfuplikeanoldwomaninthecrowd,andtakeoffthegreathandkerchiefwhentalkingwiththelady?,Whentheyouthsreachedthestreetwherethecottagestood,theyturnedthecornerafterthem,andwalkedquicklyuptothemwheretheystoodatthegatewaitingforittobeopened。 “Sicagran’nicht!”saidDonal,aftertheusualgreetings。“SirGibbiean’me’shaein’adaunerwi’themune。Yewadthinkshehadlichteneuchtohaudthecloodsaffo’her,wadyeno,mem?,Butna! they’llbeuponher,an’I’mfeartthere’saeuncoblackaneyon’er——dinnayesee’t——wi’astraiko’white,abootthethrappleo’’t?——There——dinnayesee’t?”hewentonpointingtothecloudsaboutthemoon,“——thatane,I’mdoobtin’,’illhaethebettero’ herorlang——takherintill’tsairms,an’braya’thelichtooto’ her。Guidnicht,mem——Guidnicht,Fergus。Youministerssudnamakyerselssaelikecloods。Yesudbecledinwhitean’gowd,an’a’ colourso’stanes,likethenewJerooslemyetellsictalesaboot,an’synenaebodywadmistakthenewsyebring。” TherewithDonalwalkedon,doubtlessforthemomentalittlerelieved。Butbeforetheyhadwalkedfar,hebrokedownaltogether。 “Gibbie,“hesaid,“yonrascal’sgauin’tomerrytheleddy-lass!an’ itdrivesmemadtothinkit。GienIcudbutanceseean’speyktillher——ance——jistance!,Lord!what’llcomeo’a’thegowansupo’theMains,an’theheatherupo’Glashgar!” Heburstoutcrying,butinstantlydashedawayhistearswithindignationathisweakness。 “Imaundreemyweird,“(undergomydoom),hesaid,andsaidnomore。 Gibbie’sfacehadgrownwhiteinthemoon-gleams,andhislipstrembled。HeputhisarmthroughDonal’sandclungtohim,andinsilencetheywenthome。WhentheyreachedDonal’sroom,DonalenteringshutthedoorbehindhimandshutoutGibbie。Hestoodforamomentlikeonedazed,thensuddenlycomingtohimself,turnedaway,leftthehouse,andranstraighttoDaur-street。 Whentheminister’sdoorwasopenedtohim,hewenttothatofthedining-room,knowingMr。andMrs。Sclaterwouldthenbeatsupper。 Happilyforhisintent,theministerwasatthemomenthavinghistumbleroftoddyafterthelaboursoftheday,anindulgencewhich,solongasGibbiewasinthehouse,hehad,eversincethatfirstdinner-party,takeninprivate,outofregard,ashepretendedtohimself,fortheboy’spainfulassociationswithit,butinreality,tohiscreditbeittoldifitmay,fromalittleshameofthethingitself;andhiswifetherefore,whenshesawGibbie,rose,and,meetinghim,tookhimwithhertoherownlittlesitting-room,wheretheyhadalongtalk,ofwhichtheresultappearedthenextnightinanotefromMrs。SclatertoGibbie,askinghimandDonaltospendtheeveningofTuesdaywithher。 CHAPTERLII。 THEQUARRY。 Donalthreweverythingaside,carelessofpossibledisgraceintheclassthenextmorning,and,tremblingwithhope,accompaniedGibbie:shewouldbethere——surely!,Itwasoneofthoseclearnightsinwhichagleamofstraw-colourinthewest,withlight-thinnedgray-greendeepeningintoblueaboveit,isliketheveryedgeoftheaxeofthecold——theedgethatreachesthesoul。 Buttheyouthswerewarmenough:theyhadhealthandhope。Thehospitablecrimsonroom,withitsroundtablesetoutforaScotchtea,anditsfireblazinghugely,receivedthem。AndtheresatGinevrabythefire!withherprettyfeetonafootstoolbeforeit: inthosedaysladiesworeopenshoes,andshoweddaintystockings。 Herfacelookedrosy,butitwasfromthefirelight,forwhensheturnedittowardsthem,itshowedpaleasusual。Shereceivedthem,asalways,withthesamesimplesinceritythathadbeenhersonthebankoftheLorrieburn。ButGibbiereadsometroubleinhereyes,forhissoulwasalltouch,and,likeadelicatespiritualseismograph,respondedatoncetotheleasttrembleofaneighbouringsoul。Theministerwasnotpresent,andMrs。Sclaterhadbothtobetheblazingcoal,andkeepblowingherself,else,howeverhotitmightbeatthesmoulderinghearth,thelittlecompanywouldhavesentupnoflameoftalk。 Whenteawasover,Gibbiewenttothewindow,gotwithintheredcurtains,andpeepedout。Returningpresently,hespelledwithfingersandsignedwithhandstoGinevrathatitwasagloriousnight:wouldshenotcomeforawalk?,GinevralookedtoMrs。 Sclater。 “Gibbiewantsmetogoforawalk,“shesaid。 “Certainly,mydear——ifyouarewellenoughtogowithhim,“repliedherfriend。 “Iamalwayswell,“answeredGinevra。 “Ican’tgowithyou,“saidMrs。Sclater,“forIexpectmyhusbandeverymoment;butwhatoccasionisthere,withtwosuchknightstoprotectyou?” Shewasstraininghardonthebitofpropriety;butsheknewthemallsowell?shesaidtoherself。ThenfirstperceivingGibbie’sdesign,Donalcasthimagratefulglance,whileGinevrarosehastily,andrantoputonheroutergarments。PlainlytoDonal,shewaspleasedtogo。 Whentheystoodonthepavement,therewasthemoon,theverycreamoflight,ladyingitinablueheaven。Itwasnotallherown,butthecloudsaboutherwerewhiteandattendant,andeverwhentheycamenearhertookonherlivery——thepoorpaled-rainbowcolours,whichareallherreflectedlightcandivideinto:thatstrangebrownweseesooftenonhercloudypeoplemust,Isuppose,bewhattheredortheorangefadesto。Therewasamajestyandpeaceaboutherairydomination,whichDonalhimselfwouldhavefounddifficult,hadheknownherstate,tobringintoharmonywithheraeoniandeath。Strangethatthelightofloversshouldbethecoldestofallcoldthingswithinhumanken——deadwithcold,millionsofyearsbeforeourfirstfatherandmotherappearedeachtotheotherontheearth!,Theairwaskeenbutdry。Nothingcouldfallbutsnow;andofanythinglikeittherewasnothingbutthosefewfrozenvapoursthatcamesoftlyoutofthedeepstowaitonthemoon。Betweenthemandbehindthemlaydepthabsolute,expressedintheperfectionofnocturnalblues,deepasgentle,theveryhomeofthedwellingstars。Thestepsoftheyouthsrangonthepavements,andDonal’svoiceseemedtohimsoloudandclearthathemuffleditallingentlermeaning。Hespokelow,andGinevraansweredhimsoftly。 Theywalkedclosetogether,andGibbieflittedtoandfro,nowonthisside,nowonthat,nowinfrontofthem,nowbehind。 “Hoolikityethesermon,mem?”askedDonal。 “Papathoughtitagrandsermon,“answeredGinevra。 “An’yersel’?”persistedDonal。 “PapatellsmeIamnojudge,“shereplied。 “That’sasmuckleastosayyedidnalikeitsaeweelashedid!” returnedDonal,inatoneexpressingsomerelief。 “Mr。Duffisverygoodtomyfather,Donal,“sherejoined,“andI don’tliketosayanythingagainsthissermon;butallthetimeI couldnothelpthinkingwhetheryourmotherwouldlikethisandthat;foryouknow,Donal,anygoodthereisinmeIhavegotfromher,andfromGibbie——andfromyou,Donal。” Theyouth’sheartbeatwithapleasurethatrosetophysicalpain。 Hadhebeenawingedcreaturehewouldhaveflownstraightup;butbeingasoberwinglessanimal,hestumpedonwithhistwohappylegs。GladlywouldhehaveshownhertheunrealityofFergus——thathewasapoorshallowcreature,withonlysubstanceenoughtocarryshowandseeming,buthefelt,justbecausehehadreasontofearhim,thatitwouldbeunmanlytospeakthetruthofhimbehindhisback,exceptintheabsolutenecessityofrectitude。Hefeltalsothat,ifGinevraowedherfather’sfriendsuchdelicacy,heowedhimatleastalittlesilence;forwashenotundermoreobligationtothissameshallow-patedorator,thantoalleternityhecouldwipeout,evenifeternitycarriedinitthepossibilityofwipingoutanobligation?,Fewmenunderstand,butDonaldid,thathewhowouldcancelanobligationisadishonestman。Icannothelpitthatmanyagoodman——good,thatis,becauseheisgrowingbetter——mustthenbereckonedinthelistofthedishonest:heisintheirnumberuntilheleavesit。 Donalremainingsilent,Ginevrapresentlyreturnedhimhisownquestion: “Howdidyoulikethesermon,Donal?” “Divyewantmetosay,mem?”heasked。 “Ido,Donal,“sheanswered。 “Weel,Iwadjistsay,inageneralw’y,’atIcannathinkmuckleo’ onysermon’atmichtgarabodythinkmairo’theprechernoro’him’athecomestoprechaboot。Imean,’atIdinnaseehooonybodywastolo’eGodorhisneebouraejotthemairforhearin’yonsermonlastnicht。” “Butmightnotsomebefrightenedbyit,andbroughttorepentance,Donal?”suggestedthegirl。 “Ouay;Idaursay;Idinnaken。ButIcannahelpthinkin’’atwhatdisnagieGodonythinglikefairplay,cannadeemuckleguidtomen,an’may,Idoobt,deeaheapo’ill。It’sap鈍ankin’o’athingyon。” “That’sjustwhatIwasfeeling——Idon’tsaythinking,youknow——foryousaywemustnotsaythinkwhenwehavetakennotroubleaboutit。IamsorryforMr。Duff,ifhehastakentoteachingwherehedoesnotunderstand。” Theyhadleftthecitybehindthem,andwerewalkingawideopenroad,withagreatskyaboveit。Onitsbordersweresmallfencedfields,andahousehereandtherewithagarden。Itwasaplain-featured,slightlyundulatingcountry,withhardlyanytrees——notatallbeautiful,exceptaseveryplaceundertheheavenwhichmanhasnotdefiledisbeautifultohimwhocanseewhatisthere。Butthisnighttheearthwasnothing:whatwasinthemandoverthemwasall。Donalfelt——assomanywillfeel,beforetheearth,likeahensettohatchtheeggsofasoaringbird,shallhavedonerearingbroodsforheaven——that,withthisessentialloveandwonderbyhisside,tobedoomedtogoonwalkingtoalleternitywouldbeablissfulfate,werethelandscapeturnedtoabrick-field,andtheskytopersistentgray。 “Wadyenotakmyairm,mem?”hesaidatlength,summoningcourage。 “Ijistfin’mysel’likeahorsewi’areynbrocken,gaein’bymysel’throu’theairthisgait。” BeforehehadfinishedthesentenceGinevrahadacceptedtheoffer。 Itwasthefirsttime。Hisarmtrembled。Hethoughtitwasherhand。 “Ye’renocauld,areye,mem?”hesaid。 “Nottheleast,“sheanswered。 “Eh,mem!gienfowkwasbuta’madeooto’thesameclay,like,’atanemichtsaytillanither——’Yehaemeasyehaeyersel’’!” “Yes,Donal,“rejoinedGinevra;“Iwishwewereallmadeofthepoet-claylikeyou!,Whatitwouldbetohaveawellinside,outofwhichtodrawsongsandballadsasIpleased!,That’swhatyouhave,Donal——or,rather,you’rejustadraw-wellofmusicyourself。” Donallaughedmerrily。Amomentmoreandhebrokeoutsinging: Mythoughtsarelikefireflies,pulsinginmoonlight; Myheartisasilvercup,fullofredwine; Mysoulapalegleaminghorizon,whencesoonlightWillfloodthegoldearthwithatorrentdivine。 “What’sthat,Donal?”criedGinevra。 “Ow,naething,“answeredDonal。“Itwasonlymyhertlauchin’。” “Saythewords,“saidGinevra。 “Icanna——Idinnakenthemnoo,“repliedDonal。 “Oh,Donal!arethoselovelywordsgone——altogether——forever? ShallInothearthemagain?” “I’lltrytomin’upo’themwhanIganghame,“hesaid。“Icannathenoo。Icanthinko’naethingbutaething。” “Andwhatisthat,Donal?” “Yersel’,“answeredDonal。 Ginevra’shandliftedjustahalfofitsweightfromDonal’sarm,likeabirdthathadthoughtofflying,thensettledagain。 “Itisverypleasanttobetogetheroncemoreasintheoldtime,Donal——thoughtherearenodaisiesandgreenfields——Butwhatplaceisthat,Donal?” Instinctively,almostunconsciously,shewantedtoturntheconversation。Theplaceshepointedtowasanopeningimmediatelyontheroadside,throughahighbank——narrowanddark,withonesidehalflightedbythemoon。Shehadoftenpassedit,walkingwithherschool-fellows,buthadneverthoughtofaskingwhatitwas。Intheshiningduskitlookedstrangeandalittledreadful。 “It’sthemucklequarry,mem,“answeredDonal:“divyenokenthat? That’swhaurmaistthehailltooncamooto’。It’sasomeeeriekin’o’aplacetoluikati’thislicht。Iwon’eratyeneversaw’t。” “Ihaveseentheopeningthere,butnevertookmuchnoticeofitbefore,“saidGinevra。 “Comean’I’lllatyesee’t,“rejoinedDonal。“It’sweelworthluikin’intill。Yehaenaenotionsicaplaceas’tis。Itmichtbeamo’thegrenitemuntainso’Aigypt,thoughtheytaknafreelysicfineblocksooto’thisaneastheytuikooto’thatatSyene。Yewadnabefleyttocomean’seewhatthemeenmakso’’t,wadye,mem?” “No,Donal。Iwouldnotbefrightenedtogoanywherewithyou。 But——“ “Eh,mem!itmaksmerichtproodtohearyesaythat。Comeawa’ than。” Sosaying,heturnedaside,andledherintothenarrowpassage,cutthroughafriablesortofgranite。Gibbie,thinkingtheyhadgonetohavebutapeepandreturn,stoodintheroad,lookingatthecloudsandthemoon,andcrooningtohimself。Byandby,whenhefoundtheydidnotreturn,hefollowedthem。 Whentheyreachedtheendofthecutting,Ginevrastartedatsightofthevastgulf,themoonshowingtheonewallaghastlygray,andfromtheotherthrowingashadowhalfacrossthebottom。Butawindingroadwentdownintoit,andDonalledheron。Sheshrunkatfirst,drawingbackfromtheprofound,mysterious-lookingabyss,soawfullystill;butwhenDonallookedather,shewasashamedtorefusetogofarther,andindeedalmostafraidtotakeherhandfromhisarm;soheledherdowntheterraceroad。Thesideofthequarrywasononehand,andontheothershecouldseeonlyintothegulf。