第4章

类别:其他 作者:Theodore Dreiser / Bantam Clas字数:25932更新时间:18/12/21 13:06:44
Herconscience,however,wasnotaDrouet,interestedtopraise。 Theresheheardadifferentvoice,withwhichsheargued,pleaded,excused。Itwasnojustandsapientcounsellor,inits,lastanalysis。Itwasonlyanaveragelittleconscience,athing,whichrepresentedtheworld,herpastenvironment,habit,convention,inaconfusedway。Withit,thevoiceofthepeople,wastrulythevoiceofGod。 “Oh,thoufailure!”saidthevoice。 “Why?”shequestioned。 “Lookatthoseabout,“camethewhisperedanswer。“Lookatthose,whoaregood。Howwouldtheyscorntodowhatyouhavedone。 Lookatthegoodgirls;howwilltheydrawawayfromsuchasyou,whentheyknowyouhavebeenweak。Youhadnottriedbeforeyou,failed。” ItwaswhenCarriewasalone,lookingoutacrossthepark,that,shewouldbelisteningtothis。Itwouldcomeinfrequently——when,somethingelsedidnotinterfere,whenthepleasantsidewasnot,tooapparent,whenDrouetwasnotthere。Itwassomewhatclear,inutteranceatfirst,butneverwhollyconvincing。Therewas,alwaysananswer,alwaystheDecemberdaysthreatened。Shewas,alone;shewasdesireful;shewasfearfulofthewhistlingwind。 Thevoiceofwantmadeanswerforher。 Oncethebrightdaysofsummerpassby,acitytakesonthat,sombregarbofgrey,wraptinwhichitgoesaboutitslabours,duringthelongwinter。Itsendlessbuildingslookgrey,itssky,anditsstreetsassumeasombrehue;thescattered,leafless,treesandwind-blowndustandpaperbutaddtothegeneral,solemnityofcolour。Thereseemstobesomethinginthechill,breezeswhichscurrythroughthelong,narrowthoroughfares,productiveofruefulthoughts。Notpoetsalone,norartists,nor,thatsuperiororderofmindwhicharrogatestoitselfall,refinement,feelthis,butdogsandallmen。Thesefeelasmuch,asthepoet,thoughtheyhavenotthesamepowerofexpression。 Thesparrowuponthewire,thecatinthedoorway,thedrayhorse,tugginghiswearyload,feelthelong,keenbreathsofwinter。 Itstrikestotheheartofalllife,animateandinanimate。If,itwerenotfortheartificialfiresofmerriment,therushof,profit-seekingtrade,andpleasure-sellingamusements;ifthe,variousmerchantsfailedtomakethecustomarydisplaywithinand,withouttheirestablishments;ifourstreetswerenotstrungwith,signsofgorgeoushuesandthrongedwithhurryingpurchasers,we,wouldquicklydiscoverhowfirmlythechillhandofwinterlays,upontheheart;howdispiritingarethedaysduringwhichthesun,withholdsaportionofourallowanceoflightandwarmth。Weare,moredependentuponthesethingsthanisoftenthought。Weare,insectsproducedbyheat,andpasswithoutit。 Inthedragofsuchagreydaythesecretvoicewouldreassert,itself,feeblyandmorefeebly。 Suchmentalconflictwasnotalwaysuppermost。Carriewasnotby,anymeansagloomysoul。More,shehadnotthemindtogetfirm,holduponadefinitetruth。Whenshecouldnotfindherwayout,ofthelabyrinthofill-logicwhichthoughtuponthesubject,created,shewouldturnawayentirely。 Drouet,allthetime,wasconductinghimselfinamodelwayfor,oneofhissort。Hetookheraboutagreatdeal,spentmoney,uponher,andwhenhetravelledtookherwithhim。Therewere,timeswhenshewouldbealonefortwoorthreedays,whilehe,madetheshortercircuitsofhisbusiness,but,asarule,she,sawagreatdealofhim。 “Say,Carrie,“hesaidonemorning,shortlyaftertheyhadso,establishedthemselves,“I’veinvitedmyfriendHurstwoodtocome,outsomedayandspendtheeveningwithus。” “Whoishe?”askedCarrie。doubtfully。 “Oh,he’saniceman。He’smanagerofFitzgeraldandMoy’s。” “What’sthat?”saidCarrie。 “Thefinestresortintown。It’saway-up,swellplace。” Carriepuzzledamoment。ShewaswonderingwhatDrouethadtold,him,whatherattitudewouldbe。 “That’sallright,“saidDrouet,feelingherthought。“Hedoesn’t,knowanything。You’reMrs。Drouetnow。” TherewassomethingaboutthiswhichstruckCarrieasslightly,inconsiderate。ShecouldseethatDrouetdidnothavethe,keenestsensibilities。 “Whydon’twegetmarried?”sheinquired,thinkingofthevoluble,promiseshehadmade。 “Well,wewill,“hesaid,“justassoonasIgetthislittledeal,ofmineclosedup。” Hewasreferringtosomepropertywhichhesaidhehad,andwhich,requiredsomuchattention,adjustment,andwhatnot,that,somehoworotheritinterferedwithhisfreemoral,personal,actions。 “JustassoonasIgetbackfrommyDenvertripinJanuarywe’ll,doit。” Carrieacceptedthisasbasisforhope——itwasasortofsalveto,herconscience,apleasantwayout。Underthecircumstances,thingswouldberighted。Heractionswouldbejustified。 ShereallywasnotenamouredofDrouet。Shewasmorecleverthan,he。Inadimway,shewasbeginningtoseewherehelacked。If,ithadnotbeenforthis,ifshehadnotbeenabletomeasureand,judgehiminaway,shewouldhavebeenworseoffthanshewas。 Shewouldhaveadoredhim。Shewouldhavebeenutterlywretched,inherfearofnotgaininghisaffection,oflosinghisinterest,ofbeingsweptawayandleftwithoutananchorage。Asitwas,shewaveredalittle,slightlyanxious,atfirst,togainhim,completely,butlaterfeelingateaseinwaiting。Shewasnot,exactlysurewhatshethoughtofhim——whatshewantedtodo。 WhenHurstwoodcalled,shemetamanwhowasmorecleverthan,Drouetinahundredways。Hepaidthatpeculiardeferenceto,womenwhicheverymemberofthesexappreciates。Hewasnot,overawed,hewasnotoverbold。Hisgreatcharmwas,attentiveness。Schooledinwinningthosebirdsoffinefeather,amonghisownsex,themerchantsandprofessionalswhovisited,hisresort,hecoulduseevengreatertactwhenendeavouringto,proveagreeabletosomeonewhocharmedhim。Inaprettywoman,ofanyrefinementoffeelingwhatsoeverhefoundhisgreatest,incentive。Hewasmild,placid,assured,givingtheimpression,thathewishedtobeofserviceonly——todosomethingwhichwould,maketheladymorepleased。 Drouethadabilityinthislinehimselfwhenthegamewasworth,thecandle,buthewastoomuchtheegotisttoreachthepolish,whichHurstwoodpossessed。Hewastoobuoyant,toofullofruddy,life,tooassured。Hesucceededwithmanywhowerenotquite,schooledintheartoflove。Hefaileddismallywherethewoman,wasslightlyexperiencedandpossessedinnaterefinement。Inthe,caseofCarriehefoundawomanwhowasallofthelatter,but,noneoftheformer。Hewasluckyinthefactthatopportunity,tumbledintohislap,asitwere。Afewyearslater,witha,littlemoreexperience,theslightesttideofsuccess,andhehad,notbeenabletoapproachCarrieatall。 “Yououghttohaveapianohere,Drouet,“saidHurstwood,smiling,atCarrie,ontheeveninginquestion,“sothatyourwifecould,play。” Drouethadnotthoughtofthat。 “Soweought,“heobservedreadily。 “Oh,Idon’tplay,“venturedCarrie。 “Itisn’tverydifficult,“returnedHurstwood。”Youcoulddo,verywellinafewweeks。” Hewasinthebestformforentertainingthisevening。His,clotheswereparticularlynewandrichinappearance。Thecoat,lapelsstoodoutwiththatmediumstiffnesswhichexcellentcloth,possesses。ThevestwasofarichScotchplaid,setwitha,doublerowofroundmother-of-pearlbuttons。Hiscravatwasa,shinycombinationofsilkenthreads,notloud,notinconspicuous。 Whatheworedidnotstriketheeyesoforciblyasthatwhich,Drouethadon,butCarriecouldseetheeleganceofthematerial。 Hurstwood’sshoeswereofsoft,blackcalf,polishedonlytoa,dullshine。DrouetworepatentleatherbutCarriecouldnothelp,feelingthattherewasadistinctioninfavourofthesoft,leather,whereallelsewassorich。Shenoticedthesethings,almostunconsciously。Theywerethingswhichwouldnaturally,flowfromthesituation。ShewasusedtoDrouet’sappearance。 “Supposewehavealittlegameofeuchre?”suggestedHurstwood,afteralightroundofconversation。Hewasratherdexterousin,avoidingeverythingthatwouldsuggestthatheknewanythingof,Carrie’spast。Hekeptawayfrompersonalitiesaltogether,and,confinedhimselftothosethingswhichdidnotconcern,individualsatall。Byhismanner,heputCarrieatherease,andbyhisdeferenceandpleasantriesheamusedher。He,pretendedtobeseriouslyinterestedinallshesaid。 “Idon’tknowhowtoplay,“saidCarrie。 “Charlie,youareneglectingapartofyourduty,“heobservedto,Drouetmostaffably。”Betweenus,though,“hewenton,“wecan,showyou。” ByhistacthemadeDrouetfeelthatheadmiredhischoice。 Therewassomethinginhismannerthatshowedthathewaspleased,tobethere。Drouetfeltreallyclosertohimthaneverbefore。 ItgavehimmorerespectforCarrie。Herappearancecameintoa,newlight,underHurstwood’sappreciation。Thesituationlivened,considerably。 “Now,letmesee,“saidHurstwood,lookingoverCarrie’sshoulder,verydeferentially。”Whathaveyou?”Hestudiedforamoment。 “That’srathergood,“hesaid。 “You’relucky。Now,I’llshowyouhowtotrounceyourhusband。 Youtakemyadvice。” “Here,“saidDrouet,“ifyoutwoaregoingtoschemetogether,I won’tstandaghostofashow。Hurstwood’saregularsharp。” “No,it’syourwife。Shebringsmeluck。Whyshouldn’tshe,win?” CarrielookedgratefullyatHurstwood,andsmiledatDrouet。The,formertooktheairofamerefriend。Hewassimplythereto,enjoyhimself。AnythingthatCarriedidwaspleasingtohim,nothingmore。 “There,“hesaid,holdingbackoneofhisowngoodcards,and,givingCarrieachancetotakeatrick。”Icountthatclever,playingforabeginner。” Thelatterlaughedgleefullyasshesawthehandcomingherway。 ItwasasifshewereinvinciblewhenHurstwoodhelpedher。 Hedidnotlookatheroften。Whenhedid,itwaswithamild,lightinhiseye。Notashadewasthereofanythingsave,genialityandkindness。Hetookbacktheshifty,clevergleam,andreplaceditwithoneofinnocence。Carriecouldnotguess,butthatitwaspleasurewithhimintheimmediatething。She,feltthatheconsideredshewasdoingagreatdeal。 “It’sunfairtoletsuchplayinggowithoutearningsomething,“ hesaidafteratime,slippinghisfingerintothelittlecoin,pocketofhiscoat。”Let’splayfordimes。” “Allright,“saidDrouet,fishingforbills。 Hurstwoodwasquicker。Hisfingerswerefullofnewten-cent,pieces。”Hereweare,“hesaid,supplyingeachonewithalittle,stack。 “Oh,thisisgambling,“smiledCarrie。”It’sbad。” “No,“saidDrouet,“onlyfun。Ifyouneverplayformorethan,that,youwillgotoHeaven。” “Don’tyoumoralise,“saidHurstwoodtoCarriegently,“untilyou,seewhatbecomesofthemoney。” Drouetsmiled。 “Ifyourhusbandgetsthem,he’lltellyouhowbaditis。” Drouetlaughedloud。 TherewassuchaningratiatingtoneaboutHurstwood’svoice,the,insinuationwassoperceptiblethatevenCarriegotthehumourof,it。 “Whendoyouleave?”saidHurstwoodtoDrouet。 “OnWednesday,“hereplied。 “It’sratherhardtohaveyourhusbandrunningaboutlikethat,isn’tit?”saidHurstwood,addressingCarrie。 “She’sgoingalongwithmethistime,“saidDrouet。 “Youmustbothgowithmetothetheatrebeforeyougo。” “Certainly,“saidDrouet。”Eh,Carrie?” “I’dlikeiteversomuch,“shereplied。 HurstwooddidhisbesttoseethatCarriewonthemoney。He,rejoicedinhersuccess,keptcountingherwinnings,andfinally,gatheredandputtheminherextendedhand。Theyspreadalittle,lunch,atwhichheservedthewine,andafterwardsheusedfine,tactingoing。 “Now,“hesaid,addressingfirstCarrieandthenDrouetwithhis,eyes,“youmustbereadyat7。30。I’llcomeandgetyou。” Theywentwithhimtothedoorandtherewashiscabwaiting,its,redlampsgleamingcheerfullyintheshadow。 “Now,“heobservedtoDrouet,withatoneofgood-fellowship,“whenyouleaveyourwifealone,youmustletmeshowheraround,alittle。Itwillbreakupherloneliness。” “Sure,“saidDrouet,quitepleasedattheattentionshown。 “You’resokind,“observedCarrie。 “Notatall,“saidHurstwood,“Iwouldwantyourhusbandtodoas,muchforme。” Hesmiledandwentlightlyaway。Carriewasthoroughly,impressed。Shehadnevercomeincontactwithsuchgrace。As,forDrouet,hewasequallypleased。 “There’saniceman,“heremarkedtoCarrie,astheyreturnedto,theircoseychamber。”Agoodfriendofmine,too。” “Heseemstobe,“saidCarrie。 ChapterXI THEPERSUASIONOFFASHION——FEELINGGUARDSO’ERITSOWN Carriewasanaptstudentoffortune’sways——offortune’s,superficialities。Seeingathing,shewouldimmediatelysetto,inquiringhowshewouldlook,properlyrelatedtoit。Beit,knownthatthisisnotfinefeeling,itisnotwisdom。The,greatestmindsarenotsoafflicted;andonthecontrary,the,lowestorderofmindisnotsodisturbed。Fineclothestoher,wereavastpersuasion;theyspoketenderlyandJesuiticallyfor,themselves。Whenshecamewithinearshotoftheirpleading,desireinherbentawillingear。Thevoiceoftheso-called,inanimate!,Whoshalltranslateforusthelanguageofthe,stones? “Mydear,“saidthelacecollarshesecuredfromPartridge’s,“I fityoubeautifully;don’tgivemeup。” “Ah,suchlittlefeet,“saidtheleatherofthesoftnewshoes; “howeffectivelyIcoverthem。Whatapitytheyshouldeverwant,myaid。” Oncethesethingswereinherhand,onherperson,shemight,dreamofgivingthemup;themethodbywhichtheycamemight,intrudeitselfsoforciblythatshewouldachetoberidofthe,thoughtofit,butshewouldnotgivethemup。”Putontheold,clothes——thattornpairofshoes,“wascalledtoherbyher,conscienceinvain。Shecouldpossiblyhaveconqueredthefear,ofhungerandgoneback;thethoughtofhardworkandanarrow,roundofsufferingwould,underthelastpressureofconscience,haveyielded,butspoilherappearance?——beold-clothedandpoor- appearing?——never! Drouetheightenedheropiniononthisandalliedsubjectsinsuch,amannerastoweakenherpowerofresistingtheirinfluence。It,issoeasytodothiswhenthethingopinedisinthelineof,whatwedesire。Inhisheartyway,heinsisteduponhergood,looks。Helookedatheradmiringly,andshetookitatitsfull,value。Underthecircumstances,shedidnotneedtocarry,herselfasprettywomendo。Shepickedthatknowledgeupfast,enoughforherself。Drouethadahabit,characteristicofhis,kind,oflookingafterstylishlydressedorprettywomenonthe,streetandremarkinguponthem。Hehadjustenoughofthe,feminineloveofdresstobeagoodjudge——notofintellect,but,ofclothes。Hesawhowtheysettheirlittlefeet,howthey,carriedtheirchins,withwhatgraceandsinuositytheyswung,theirbodies。Adainty,self-consciousswayingofthehipsbya,womanwastohimasalluringastheglintofrarewinetoa,toper。Hewouldturnandfollowthedisappearingvisionwithhis,eyes。Hewouldthrillasachildwiththeunhinderedpassion,thatwasinhim。Helovedthethingthatwomenlovein,themselves,grace。Atthis,theirownshrine,hekneltwith,them,anardentdevotee。 “Didyouseethatwomanwhowentbyjustnow?”hesaidtoCarrie,onthefirstdaytheytookawalktogether。“Finestepper,wasn’t,she?” Carrielooked,andobservedthegracecommended。 “Yes,sheis,“shereturned,cheerfully,alittlesuggestionof,possibledefectinherselfawakeninginhermind。Ifthatwasso,fine,shemustlookatitmoreclosely。Instinctively,shefelt,adesiretoimitateit。Surelyshecoulddothattoo。 Whenoneofhermindseesmanythingsemphasizedandre- emphasizedandadmired,shegathersthelogicofitandapplies,accordingly。Drouetwasnotshrewdenoughtoseethatthiswas,nottactful。Hecouldnotseethatitwouldbebettertomake,herfeelthatshewascompetingwithherself,notothersbetter,thanherself。Hewouldnothavedoneitwithanolder,wiser,woman,butinCarriehesawonlythenovice。Lesscleverthan,she,hewasnaturallyunabletocomprehendhersensibility。He,wentoneducatingandwoundingher,athingratherfoolishinone,whoseadmirationforhispupilandvictimwasapttogrow。 Carrietooktheinstructionsaffably。ShesawwhatDrouetliked; inavaguewayshesawwherehewasweak。Itlessensawoman’s,opinionofamanwhenshelearnsthathisadmirationisso,pointedlyandgenerouslydistributed。Sheseesbutoneobjectof,supremecomplimentinthisworld,andthatisherself。Ifaman,istosucceedwithmanywomen,hemustbeallinalltoeach。 InherownapartmentsCarriesawthingswhichwerelessonsinthe,sameschool。 Inthesamehousewithherlivedanofficialofoneofthe,theatres,Mr。FrankA。Hale,manageroftheStandard,andhis,wife,apleasing-lookingbrunetteofthirty-five。Theywere,peopleofasortverycommoninAmericatoday,wholive,respectablyfromhandtomouth。Halereceivedasalaryofforty- fivedollarsaweek。Hiswife,quiteattractive,affectedthe,feelingofyouth,andobjectedtothatsortofhomelifewhich,meansthecareofahouseandtheraisingofafamily。Like,DrouetandCarrie,theyalsooccupiedthreeroomsonthefloor,above。 NotlongaftershearrivedMrs。Haleestablishedsocialrelations,withher,andtogethertheywentabout。Foralongtimethiswas,heronlycompanionship,andthegossipofthemanager’swife,formedthemediumthroughwhichshesawtheworld。Such,trivialities,suchpraisesofwealth,suchconventional,expressionofmoralsassiftedthroughthispassivecreature’s,mind,felluponCarrieandforthewhileconfusedher。 Ontheotherhand,herownfeelingswereacorrectiveinfluence。 Theconstantdragtosomethingbetterwasnottobedenied。By,thosethingswhichaddresstheheartwasshesteadilyrecalled。 Intheapartmentsacrossthehallwereayounggirlandher,mother。TheywerefromEvansville,Indiana,thewifeand,daughterofarailroadtreasurer。Thedaughterwasheretostudy,music,themothertokeephercompany。 Carriedidnotmaketheiracquaintance,butshesawthedaughter,cominginandgoingout。Afewtimesshehadseenheratthe,pianointheparlour,andnotinfrequentlyhadheardherplay。 Thisyoungwomanwasparticularlydressyforherstation,and,woreajewelledringortwowhichflasheduponherwhitefingers,assheplayed。 NowCarriewasaffectedbymusic。Hernervouscomposition,respondedtocertainstrains,muchascertainstringsofaharp,vibratewhenacorrespondingkeyofapianoisstruck。Shewas,delicatelymouldedinsentiment,andansweredwithvague,ruminationstocertainwistfulchords。Theyawokelongingsfor,thosethingswhichshedidnothave。Theycausedhertocling,closertothingsshepossessed。Oneshortsongtheyounglady,playedinamostsoulfulandtendermood。Carrieheardit,throughtheopendoorfromtheparlourbelow。Itwasatthat,hourbetweenafternoonandnightwhen,fortheidle,the,wanderer,thingsareapttotakeonawistfulaspect。Themind,wandersforthonfarjourneysandreturnswithsheavesof,witheredanddepartedjoys。Carriesatatherwindowlooking,out。Drouethadbeenawaysinceteninthemorning。Shehad,amusedherselfwithawalk,abookbyBerthaM。ClaywhichDrouet,hadleftthere,thoughshedidnotwhollyenjoythelatter,and,bychangingherdressfortheevening。Nowshesatlookingout,acrosstheparkaswistfulanddepressedasthenaturewhich,cravesvarietyandlifecanbeundersuchcircumstances。Asshe,contemplatedhernewstate,thestrainfromtheparlourbelow,stoleupward。Withitherthoughtsbecamecolouredandenmeshed。 Sherevertedtothethingswhichwerebestandsaddestwithinthe,smalllimitofherexperience。Shebecameforthemomenta,repentant。 WhileshewasinthismoodDrouetcamein,bringingwithhiman,entirelydifferentatmosphere。ItwasduskandCarriehad,neglectedtolightthelamp。Thefireinthegrate,too,had,burnedlow。 “Whereareyou,Cad?”hesaid,usingapetnamehehadgivenher。 “Here,“sheanswered。 Therewassomethingdelicateandlonelyinhervoice,buthe,couldnothearit。Hehadnotthepoetryinhimthatwouldseek,awomanoutundersuchcircumstancesandconsoleherforthe,tragedyoflife。Instead,hestruckamatchandlightedthegas。 “Hello,“heexclaimed,“you’vebeencrying。” Hereyeswerestillwetwithafewvaguetears。 “Pshaw,“hesaid,“youdon’twanttodothat。” Hetookherhand,feelinginhisgood-naturedegotismthatitwas,probablylackofhispresencewhichhadmadeherlonely。 “Comeon,now,“hewenton;“it’sallright。Let’swaltza,littletothatmusic。” Hecouldnothaveintroducedamoreincongruousproposition。It,madecleartoCarriethathecouldnotsympathisewithher。She,couldnothaveframedthoughtswhichwouldhaveexpressedhis,defectormadeclearthedifferencebetweenthem,butshefelt,it。Itwashisfirstgreatmistake。 WhatDrouetsaidaboutthegirl’sgrace,asshetrippedout,eveningsaccompaniedbyhermother,causedCarrietoperceivethe,natureandvalueofthoselittlemodishwayswhichwomenadopt,whentheywouldpresumetobesomething。Shelookedinthe,mirrorandpursedupherlips,accompanyingitwithalittletoss,ofthehead,asshehadseentherailroadtreasurer’sdaughter,do。Shecaughtupherskirtswithaneasyswing,forhadnot,Drouetremarkedthatinherandseveralothers,andCarriewas,naturallyimitative。Shebegantogetthehangofthoselittle,thingswhichtheprettywomanwhohasvanityinvariablyadopts。 Inshort,herknowledgeofgracedoubled,andwithither,appearancechanged。Shebecameagirlofconsiderabletaste。 Drouetnoticedthis。Hesawthenewbowinherhairandthenew,wayofarrangingherlockswhichsheaffectedonemorning。 “Youlookfinethatway,Cad,“hesaid。 “DoI?”shereplied,sweetly。Itmadehertryforothereffects,thatselfsameday。 Sheusedherfeetlessheavily,athingthatwasbroughtaboutby,herattemptingtoimitatethetreasurer’sdaughter’sgraceful,carriage。Howmuchinfluencethepresenceofthatyoungwomanin,thesamehousehaduponheritwouldbedifficulttosay。But,becauseofallthesethings,whenHurstwoodcalledhehadfounda,youngwomanwhowasmuchmorethantheCarrietowhomDrouethad,firstspoken。Theprimarydefectsofdressandmannerhad,passed。Shewaspretty,graceful,richinthetimiditybornof,uncertainty,andwithasomethingchildlikeinherlargeeyes,whichcapturedthefancyofthisstarchedandconventionalposer,amongmen。Itwastheancientattractionofthefreshforthe,stale。Iftherewasatouchofappreciationleftinhimforthe,bloomandunsophisticationwhichisthecharmofyouth,it,rekindlednow。Helookedintoherprettyfaceandfeltthe,subtlewavesofyoungliferadiatingtherefrom。Inthatlarge,cleareyehecouldseenothingthathisblasenaturecould,understandasguile。Thelittlevanity,ifhecouldhave,perceiveditthere,wouldhavetouchedhimasapleasantthing。 “Iwonder,“hesaid,asherodeawayinhiscab,“howDrouetcame,towinher。” HegavehercreditforfeelingssuperiortoDrouetatthefirst,glance。 Thecabploppedalongbetweenthefar-recedinglinesofgaslamps,oneitherhand。Hefoldedhisglovedhandsandsawonlythe,lightedchamberandCarrie’sface。Hewasponderingoverthe,delightofyouthfulbeauty。 “I’llhaveabouquetforher,“hethought。”Drouetwon’tmind。” Heneverforamomentconcealedthefactofherattractionfor,himself。HetroubledhimselfnotatallaboutDrouet’spriority。 Hewasmerelyfloatingthosegossamerthreadsofthoughtwhich,likethespider’s,hehopedwouldlayholdsomewhere。Hedidnot,know,hecouldnotguess,whattheresultwouldbe。 AfewweekslaterDrouet,inhisperegrinations,encounteredone,ofhiswell-dressedladyacquaintancesinChicagoonhisreturn,fromashorttriptoOmaha。Hehadintendedtohurryoutto,OgdenPlaceandsurpriseCarrie,butnowhefellintoan,interestingconversationandsoonmodifiedhisoriginal,intention。 “Let’sgotodinner,“hesaid,littlereckinganychancemeeting,whichmighttroublehisway。 “Certainly,“saidhiscompanion。 Theyvisitedoneofthebetterrestaurantsforasocialchat。It,wasfiveintheafternoonwhentheymet;itwasseven-thirty,beforethelastbonewaspicked。 Drouetwasjustfinishingalittleincidenthewasrelating,and,hisfacewasexpandingintoasmile,whenHurstwood’seyecaught,hisown。Thelatterhadcomeinwithseveralfriends,and,seeingDrouetandsomewoman,notCarrie,drewhisown,conclusion。 “Ah,therascal,“hethought,andthen,withatouchofrighteous,sympathy,“that’sprettyhardonthelittlegirl。” Drouetjumpedfromoneeasythoughttoanotherashecaught,Hurstwood’seye。Hefeltbutverylittlemisgiving,untilhesaw,thatHurstwoodwascautiouslypretendingnottosee。Thensome,ofthelatter’simpressionforceditselfuponhim。Hethoughtof,Carrieandtheirlastmeeting。ByGeorge,hewouldhaveto,explainthistoHurstwood。Suchachancehalf-hourwithanold,friendmustnothaveanythingmoreattachedtoitthanitreally,warranted。 Forthefirsttimehewastroubled。Herewasamoral,complicationofwhichhecouldnotpossiblygettheends。 Hurstwoodwouldlaughathimforbeingafickleboy。Hewould,laughwithHurstwood。Carriewouldneverhear,hispresent,companionattablewouldneverknow,andyethecouldnothelp,feelingthathewasgettingtheworstofit——therewassomefaint,stigmaattached,andhewasnotguilty。Hebrokeupthedinner,bybecomingdull,andsawhiscompaniononhercar。Thenhewent,home。 “Hehasn’ttalkedtomeaboutanyoftheselaterflames,“thought,Hurstwoodtohimself。”HethinksIthinkhecaresforthegirl,outthere。” “HeoughtnottothinkI’mknockingaround,sinceIhavejust,introducedhimoutthere,“thoughtDrouet。 “Isawyou,“Hurstwoodsaid,genially,thenexttimeDrouet,driftedintohispolishedresort,fromwhichhecouldnotstay,away。Heraisedhisforefingerindicatively,asparentsdoto,children。 “AnoldacquaintanceofminethatIranintojustasIwascoming,upfromthestation,“explainedDrouet。”Sheusedtobequitea,beauty。” “Stillattractsalittle,eh?”returnedtheother,affectingto,jest。 “Oh,no,“saidDrouet,“justcouldn’tescapeherthistime。” “Howlongareyouhere?”askedHurstwood。 “Onlyafewdays。” “Youmustbringthegirldownandtakedinnerwithme,“hesaid。 “I’mafraidyoukeephercoopedupoutthere。I’llgetaboxfor,JoeJefferson。” “Notme,“answeredthedrummer。”SureI’llcome。” ThispleasedHurstwoodimmensely。HegaveDrouetnocreditfor,anyfeelingstowardCarriewhatever。Heenviedhim,andnow,as,helookedatthewell-dressedjollysalesman,whomhesomuch,liked,thegleamoftherivalglowedinhiseye。Hebeganto,“sizeup“Drouetfromthestandpointsofwitandfascination。He,begantolooktoseewherehewasweak。Therewasnodisputing,that,whateverhemightthinkofhimasagoodfellow,hefelta,certainamountofcontemptforhimasalover。Hecouldhoodwink,himallright。Why,ifhewouldjustletCarrieseeonesuch,littleincidentasthatofThursday,itwouldsettlethematter。 Heranoninthought,almostexulting,thewhilehelaughedand,chatted,andDrouetfeltnothing。Hehadnopowerofanalysing,theglanceandtheatmosphereofamanlikeHurstwood。Hestood,andsmiledandacceptedtheinvitationwhilehisfriendexamined,himwiththeeyeofahawk。 Theobjectofthispeculiarlyinvolvedcomedywasnotthinkingof,either。Shewasbusyadjustingherthoughtsandfeelingsto,newerconditions,andwasnotindangerofsufferingdisturbing,pangsfromeitherquarter。 OneeveningDrouetfoundherdressingherselfbeforetheglass。 “Cad,“saidhe,catchingher,“Ibelieveyou’regettingvain。” “Nothingofthekind,“shereturned,smiling。 “Well,you’remightypretty,“hewenton,slippinghisarmaround,her。”Putonthatnavy-bluedressofyoursandI’lltakeyouto,theshow。” “Oh,I’vepromisedMrs。HaletogowithhertotheExpositionto- night,“shereturned,apologetically。 “Youdid,eh?”hesaid,studyingthesituationabstractedly。”I wouldn’tcaretogotothatmyself。” “Well,Idon’tknow,“answeredCarrie,puzzling,butnotoffering,tobreakherpromiseinhisfavour。 Justthenaknockcameattheirdoorandthemaidservanthandeda,letterin。 “Hesaysthere’sananswerexpected,“sheexplained。 “It’sfromHurstwood,“saidDrouet,notingthesuperscriptionas,hetoreitopen。 “YouaretocomedownandseeJoeJeffersonwithmeto-night,“it,raninpart。”It’smyturn,asweagreedtheotherday。All,otherbetsareoff。” “Well,whatdoyousaytothis?”askedDrouet,innocently,while,Carrie’smindbubbledwithfavourablereplies。 “Youhadbetterdecide,Charlie,“shesaid,reservedly。 “Iguesswehadbettergo,ifyoucanbreakthatengagement,upstairs,“saidDrouet。 “Oh,Ican,“returnedCarriewithoutthinking。 DrouetselectedwritingpaperwhileCarriewenttochangeher,dress。Shehardlyexplainedtoherselfwhythislatest,invitationappealedtohermost,“ShallIwearmyhairasIdidyesterday?”sheasked,asshecame,outwithseveralarticlesofapparelpending。 “Sure,“hereturned,pleasantly。 Shewasrelievedtoseethathefeltnothing。Shedidnotcredit,herwillingnesstogotoanyfascinationHurstwoodheldforher。 ItseemedthatthecombinationofHurstwood,Drouet,andherself,wasmoreagreeablethananythingelsethathadbeensuggested。 Shearrayedherselfmostcarefullyandtheystartedoff,extendingexcusesupstairs。 “Isay,“saidHurstwood,astheycameupthetheatrelobby,“we,areexceedinglycharmingthisevening。” Carrieflutteredunderhisapprovingglance。 “Now,then,“hesaid,leadingthewayupthefoyerintothe,theatre。 Ifevertherewasdressinessitwashere。Itwasthe,personificationoftheoldtermspickandspan。 “DidyoueverseeJefferson?”hequestioned,asheleanedtoward,Carrieinthebox。 “Ineverdid,“shereturned。 “He’sdelightful,delightful,“hewenton,givingthecommonplace,renditionofapprovalwhichsuchmenknow。HesentDrouetafter,aprogramme,andthendiscoursedtoCarrieconcerningJefferson,ashehadheardofhim。Theformerwaspleasedbeyond,expression,andwasreallyhypnotisedbytheenvironment,the,trappingsofthebox,theeleganceofhercompanion。Several,timestheireyesaccidentallymet,andthentherepouredinto,herssuchafloodoffeelingasshehadneverbeforeexperienced。 Shecouldnotforthemomentexplainit,forinthenextglance,orthenextmoveofthehandtherewasseemingindifference,mingledonlywiththekindestattention。 Drouetsharedintheconversation,buthewasalmostdullin,comparison。Hurstwoodentertainedthemboth,andnowitwas,drivenintoCarrie’smindthatherewasthesuperiorman。She,instinctivelyfeltthathewasstrongerandhigher,andyet,withalsosimple。Bytheendofthethirdactshewassurethat,Drouetwasonlyakindlysoul,butotherwisedefective。Hesank,everymomentinherestimationbythestrongcomparison。 “Ihavehadsuchanicetime,“saidCarrie,whenitwasallover,andtheywerecomingout。 “Yes,indeed,“addedDrouet,whowasnotintheleastawarethat,abattlehadbeenfoughtandhisdefencesweakened。Hewaslike,theEmperorofChina,whosatgloryinginhimself,unawarethat,hisfairestprovinceswerebeingwrestedfromhim。 “Well,youhavesavedmeadrearyevening,“returnedHurstwood。 “Good-night。” HetookCarrie’slittlehand,andacurrentoffeelingsweptfrom,onetotheother。 “I’msotired,“saidCarrie,leaningbackinthecarwhenDrouet,begantotalk。 “Well,yourestalittlewhileIsmoke,“hesaid,rising,and,thenhefoolishlywenttotheforwardplatformofthecarand,leftthegameasitstood。 ChapterXII OFTHELAMPSOFTHEMANSIONS——THEAMBASSADORPLEA Mrs。Hurstwoodwasnotawareofanyofherhusband’smoral,defections,thoughshemightreadilyhavesuspectedhis,tendencies,whichshewellunderstood。Shewasawomanupon,whoseactionunderprovocationyoucouldnevercount。Hurstwood,forone,hadnottheslightestideaofwhatshewoulddounder,certaincircumstances。Hehadneverseenherthoroughlyaroused。 Infact,shewasnotawomanwhowouldflyintoapassion。She,hadtoolittlefaithinmankindnottoknowthattheywere,erring。Shewastoocalculatingtojeopardizeanyadvantageshe,mightgaininthewayofinformationbyfruitlessclamour。Her,wrathwouldneverwreakitselfinonefellblow。Shewouldwait,andbrood,studyingthedetailsandaddingtothemuntilher,powermightbecommensuratewithherdesireforrevenge。Atthe,sametime,shewouldnotdelaytoinflictanyinjury,bigor,little,whichwouldwoundtheobjectofherrevengeandstill,leavehimuncertainastothesourceoftheevil。Shewasa,cold,self-centredwoman,withmanyathoughtofherownwhich,neverfoundexpression,notevenbysomuchastheglintofan,eye。 Hurstwoodfeltsomeofthisinhernature,thoughhedidnot,actuallyperceiveit。Hedweltwithherinpeaceandsome,satisfaction。Hedidnotfearherintheleast——therewasno,causeforit。Shestilltookafaintprideinhim,whichwas,augmentedbyherdesiretohavehersocialintegritymaintained。 Shewassecretlysomewhatpleasedbythefactthatmuchofher,husband’spropertywasinhername,aprecautionwhichHurstwood,hadtakenwhenhishomeinterestsweresomewhatmorealluring,thanatpresent。Hiswifehadnottheslightestreasontofeel,thatanythingwouldevergoamisswiththeirhousehold,andyet,theshadowswhichrunbeforegaveherathoughtofthegoodofit,nowandthen。Shewasinapositiontobecomerefractorywith,considerableadvantage,andHurstwoodconductedhimself,circumspectlybecausehefeltthathecouldnotbesureof,anythingonceshebecamedissatisfied。 ItsohappenedthatonthenightwhenHurstwood,Carrie,and,DrouetwereintheboxatMcVickar’s,George,Jr。wasinthe,sixthrowoftheparquetwiththedaughterofH。B。Carmichael,thethirdpartnerofawholesaledry-goodshouseofthatcity。 Hurstwooddidnotseehisson,forhesat,aswashiswont,as,farbackaspossible,leavinghimselfjustpartiallyvisible,whenhebentforward,tothosewithinthefirstsixrowsin,question。Itwashiswonttositthiswayineverytheatre——to,makehispersonalityasinconspicuousaspossiblewhereitwould,benoadvantagetohimtohaveitotherwise。 Henevermovedbutwhat,iftherewasanydangerofhisconduct,beingmisconstruedorill-reported,helookedcarefullyabouthim,andcountedthecostofeveryinchofconspicuity。 Thenextmorningatbreakfasthissonsaid: “Isawyou,Governor,lastnight。” “WereyouatMcVickar’s?”saidHurstwood,withthebestgracein,theworld。 “Yes,“saidyoungGeorge。 “Whowith?” “MissCarmichael。” Mrs。Hurstwooddirectedaninquiringglanceatherhusband,but,couldnotjudgefromhisappearancewhetheritwasanymorethan,acasuallookintothetheatrewhichwasreferredto。 “Howwastheplay?”sheinquired。 “Verygood,“returnedHurstwood,“onlyit’sthesameoldthing,’RipVanWinkle。’“ “Whomdidyougowith?”queriedhiswife,withassumed,indifference。 “CharlieDrouetandhiswife。TheyarefriendsofMoy’s,visitinghere。” Owingtothepeculiarnatureofhisposition,suchadisclosure,asthiswouldordinarilycreatenodifficulty。Hiswifetookit,forgrantedthathissituationcalledforcertainsocial,movementsinwhichshemightnotbeincluded。Butoflatehehad,pleadedofficedutyonseveraloccasionswhenhiswifeaskedfor,hiscompanytoanyeveningentertainment。Hehaddonesoin,regardtotheveryeveninginquestiononlythemorningbefore。 “Ithoughtyouweregoingtobebusy,“sheremarked,very,carefully。 “SoIwas,“heexclaimed。”Icouldn’thelptheinterruption,but,Imadeupforitafterwardbyworkinguntiltwo。” Thissettledthediscussionforthetimebeing,buttherewasa,residueofopinionwhichwasnotsatisfactory。Therewasnotime,atwhichtheclaimsofhiswifecouldhavebeenmore,unsatisfactorilypushed。Foryearshehadbeensteadily,modifyinghismatrimonialdevotion,andfoundhercompanydull。 Nowthatanewlightshoneuponthehorizon,thisolderluminary,paledinthewest。Hewassatisfiedtoturnhisfaceaway,entirely,andanycalltolookbackwasirksome。 She,onthecontrary,wasnotatallinclinedtoacceptanything,lessthanacompletefulfilmentoftheletteroftheir,relationship,thoughthespiritmightbewanting。 “Wearecomingdowntownthisafternoon,“sheremarked,afew,dayslater。”IwantyoutocomeovertoKinsley’sandmeetMr。 Phillipsandhiswife。They’restoppingattheTremont,and,we’regoingtoshowthemaroundalittle。” AftertheoccurrenceofWednesday,hecouldnotrefuse,though,thePhillipswereaboutasuninterestingasvanityandignorance,couldmakethem。Heagreed,butitwaswithshortgrace。Hewas,angrywhenheleftthehouse。 “I’llputastoptothis,“hethought。”I’mnotgoingtobe,botheredfoolingaroundwithvisitorswhenIhaveworktodo。” NotlongafterthisMrs。Hurstwoodcamewithasimilar,proposition,onlyitwastoamatineethistime。 “Mydear,“hereturned,“Ihaven’ttime。I’mtoobusy。” “Youfindtimetogowithotherpeople,though,“shereplied,withconsiderableirritation。 “Nothingofthekind,“heanswered。”Ican’tavoidbusiness,relations,andthat’sallthereistoit。” “Well,nevermind,“sheexclaimed。Herlipstightened。The,feelingofmutualantagonismwasincreased。 Ontheotherhand,hisinterestinDrouet’slittleshop-girlgrew,inanalmostevenlybalancedproportion。Thatyounglady,under,thestressofhersituationandthetutelageofhernewfriend,changedeffectively。Shehadtheaptitudeofthestrugglerwho,seeksemancipation。Theglowofamoreshowylifewasnotlost,uponher。Shedidnotgrowinknowledgesomuchassheawakened,inthematterofdesire。Mrs。Hale’sextendedharanguesuponthe,subjectsofwealthandpositiontaughthertodistinguishbetween,degreesofwealth。 Mrs。Halelovedtodriveintheafternooninthesunwhenitwas,fine,andtosatisfyhersoulwithasightofthosemansionsand,lawnswhichshecouldnotafford。OntheNorthSidehadbeen,erectedanumberofelegantmansionsalongwhatisnowknownas,theNorthShoreDrive。Thepresentlakewallofstoneand,granitoidwasnottheninplace,buttheroadhadbeenwelllaid,out,theintermediatespacesoflawnwerelovelytolookupon,andthehouseswerethoroughlynewandimposing。Whenthewinter,seasonhadpassedandthefirstfinedaysoftheearlyspring,appeared,Mrs。Halesecuredabuggyforanafternoonandinvited,Carrie。TheyrodefirstthroughLincolnParkandonfarout,towardsEvanston,turningbackatfourandarrivingatthenorth,endoftheShoreDriveataboutfiveo’clock。Atthistimeof,yearthedaysarestillcomparativelyshort,andtheshadowsof,theeveningwerebeginningtosettledownuponthegreatcity。 Lampswerebeginningtoburnwiththatmellowradiancewhich,seemsalmostwateryandtranslucenttotheeye。Therewasa,softnessintheairwhichspeakswithaninfinitedelicacyof,feelingtothefleshaswellastothesoul。Carriefeltthatit,wasalovelyday。Shewasripenedbyitinspiritformany,suggestions。Astheydrovealongthesmoothpavementan,occasionalcarriagepassed。Shesawonestopandthefootman,dismount,openingthedoorforagentlemanwhoseemedtobe,leisurelyreturningfromsomeafternoonpleasure。Acrossthe,broadlawns,nowfirstfresheningintogreen,shesawlamps,faintlyglowinguponrichinteriors。Nowitwasbutachair,now,atable,nowanornatecorner,whichmethereye,butitappealed,toherasalmostnothingelsecould。Suchchildishfanciesas,shehadhadoffairypalacesandkinglyquartersnowcameback。 Sheimaginedthatacrosstheserichlycarvedentrance-ways,where,theglobedandcrystalledlampsshoneuponpanelleddoorsset,withstainedanddesignedpanesofglass,wasneithercarenor,unsatisfieddesire。Shewasperfectlycertainthatherewas,happiness。Ifshecouldbutstrollupyonbroadwalk,crossthat,richentrance-way,whichtoherwasofthebeautyofajewel,and,sweepingraceandluxurytopossessionandcommand——oh!how,quicklywouldsadnessflee;how,inaninstant,wouldthe,heartacheend。Shegazedandgazed,wondering,delighting,longing,andallthewhilethesirenvoiceoftheunrestfulwas,whisperinginherear。 “Ifwecouldhavesuchahomeasthat,“saidMrs。Halesadly,“howdelightfulitwouldbe。” “Andyettheydosay,“saidCarrie,“thatnooneiseverhappy。” Shehadheardsomuchofthecantingphilosophyofthegrapeless,fox。 “Inotice,“saidMrs。Hale,“thattheyalltrymightyhard,though,totaketheirmiseryinamansion。” Whenshecametoherownrooms,Carriesawtheircomparative,insignificance。Shewasnotsodullbutthatshecouldperceive,theywerebutthreesmallroomsinamoderatelywell-furnished,boarding-house。Shewasnotcontrastingitnowwithwhatshehad,had,butwhatshehadsorecentlyseen。Theglowofthepalatial,doorswasstillinhereye,therollofcushionedcarriagesstill,inherears。What,afterall,wasDrouet?,Whatwasshe?,Ather,window,shethoughtitover,rockingtoandfro,andgazingout,acrossthelamp-litparktowardthelamp-lithousesonWarrenand,Ashlandavenues。Shewastoowroughtuptocaretogodownto,eat,toopensivetodoaughtbutrockandsing。Someoldtunes,crepttoherlips,and,asshesangthem,herheartsank。She,longedandlongedandlonged。Itwasnowfortheoldcottage,roominColumbiaCity,nowthemansionupontheShoreDrive,now,thefinedressofsomelady,nowtheeleganceofsomescene。She,wassadbeyondmeasure,andyetuncertain,wishing,fancying。 Finally,itseemedasifallherstatewasoneoflonelinessand,forsakenness,andshecouldscarcerefrainfromtremblingatthe,lip。Shehummedandhummedasthemomentswentby,sittingin,theshadowbythewindow,andwasthereinashappy,thoughshe,didnotperceiveit,assheeverwouldbe。 WhileCarriewasstillinthisframeofmind,thehouse-servant,broughtuptheintelligencethatMr。Hurstwoodwasintheparlour,askingtoseeMr。andMrs。Drouet。 “Iguesshedoesn’tknowthatCharlieisoutoftown,“thought,Carrie。 Shehadseencomparativelylittleofthemanagerduringthe,winter,buthadbeenkeptconstantlyinmindofhimbyonething,andanother,principallybythestrongimpressionhehadmade。 Shewasquitedisturbedforthemomentastoherappearance,but,soonsatisfiedherselfbytheaidofthemirror,andwentbelow。 Hurstwoodwasinhisbestform,asusual。Hehadn’theardthat,Drouetwasoutoftown。Hewasbutslightlyaffectedbythe,intelligence,anddevotedhimselftothemoregeneraltopics,whichwouldinterestCarrie。Itwassurprising——theeasewith,whichheconductedaconversation。Hewaslikeeverymanwhohas,hadtheadvantageofpracticeandknowshehassympathy。Heknew,thatCarrielistenedtohimpleasurably,and,withouttheleast,effort,hefellintoatrainofobservationwhichabsorbedher,fancy。Hedrewuphischairandmodulatedhisvoicetosucha,degreethatwhathesaidseemedwhollyconfidential。Heconfined,himselfalmostexclusivelytohisobservationofmenand,pleasures。Hehadbeenhereandthere,hehadseenthisand,that。SomehowhemadeCarriewishtoseesimilarthings,andall,thewhilekeptherawareofhimself。Shecouldnotshutoutthe,consciousnessofhisindividualityandpresenceforamoment。He,wouldraisehiseyesslowlyinsmilingemphasisofsomething,and,shewasfixedbytheirmagnetism。Hewoulddrawout,withthe,easiestgrace,herapproval。Oncehetouchedherhandfor,emphasisandsheonlysmiled。Heseemedtoradiateanatmosphere,whichsuffusedherbeing。Hewasneverdullforaminute,and,seemedtomakeherclever。Atleast,shebrightenedunderhis,influenceuntilallherbestsidewasexhibited。Shefeltthat,shewasmorecleverwithhimthanwithothers。Atleast,he,seemedtofindsomuchinhertoapplaud。Therewasnotthe,slightesttouchofpatronage。Drouetwasfullofit。 Therehadbeensomethingsopersonal,sosubtle,ineachmeeting,betweenthem,bothwhenDrouetwaspresentandwhenhewas,absent,thatCarriecouldnotspeakofitwithoutfeelingasense,ofdifficulty。Shewasnotalker。Shecouldneverarrangeher,thoughtsinfluentorder。Itwasalwaysamatteroffeelingwith,her,stronganddeep。Eachtimetherehadbeennosentenceof,importancewhichshecouldrelate,andasfortheglancesand,sensations,whatwomanwouldrevealthem?Suchthingshadnever,beenbetweenherandDrouet。Asamatteroffact,theycould,neverbe。Shehadbeendominatedbydistressandthe,enthusiasticforcesofreliefwhichDrouetrepresentedatan,opportunemomentwhensheyieldedtohim。Nowshewaspersuaded,bysecretcurrentfeelingswhichDrouethadneverunderstood。 Hurstwood’sglancewasaseffectiveasthespokenwordsofa,lover,andmore。Theycalledfornoimmediatedecision,and,couldnotbeanswered。 Peopleingeneralattachtoomuchimportancetowords。Theyare,undertheillusionthattalkingeffectsgreatresults。Asa,matteroffact,wordsare,asarule,theshallowestportionof,alltheargument。Theybutdimlyrepresentthegreatsurging,feelingsanddesireswhichliebehind。Whenthedistractionof,thetongueisremoved,theheartlistens。 Inthisconversationsheheard,insteadofhiswords,thevoices,ofthethingswhichherepresented。Howsuavewasthecounselof,hisappearance!,Howfeelinglydidhissuperiorstatespeakfor,itself!,Thegrowingdesirehefeltforherlayuponherspirit,asagentlehand。Shedidnotneedtotrembleatall,becauseit,wasinvisible;shedidnotneedtoworryoverwhatotherpeople,wouldsay——whatsheherselfwouldsay——becauseithadno,tangibility。Shewasbeingpleadedwith,persuaded,ledinto,denyingoldrightsandassumingnewones,andyettherewereno,wordstoproveit。Suchconversationaswasindulgedinheldthe,samerelationshiptotheactualmentalenactmentsofthetwain,thatthelowmusicoftheorchestradoestothedramaticincident,whichitisusedtocover。 “HaveyoueverseenthehousesalongtheLakeShoreontheNorth,Side?”askedHurstwood。 “Why,Iwasjustovertherethisafternoon——Mrs。HaleandI。 Aren’ttheybeautiful?” “They’reveryfine,“heanswered。 “Oh,me,“saidCarrie,pensively。”IwishIcouldliveinsucha,place。” “You’renothappy,“saidHurstwood,slowly,afteraslightpause。 Hehadraisedhiseyessolemnlyandwaslookingintoherown。He,assumedthathehadstruckadeepchord。Nowwasaslightchance,tosayawordinhisownbehalf。Heleanedoverquietlyand,continuedhissteadygaze。Hefeltthecriticalcharacterofthe,period。Sheendeavouredtostir,butitwasuseless。Thewhole,strengthofaman’snaturewasworking。Hehadgoodcauseto,urgehimon。Helookedandlooked,andthelongerthesituation,lastedthemoredifficultitbecame。Thelittleshop-girlwas,gettingintodeepwater。Shewaslettingherfewsupportsfloat,awayfromher。 “Oh,“shesaidatlast,“youmustn’tlookatmelikethat。” “Ican’thelpit,“heanswered。 Sherelaxedalittleandletthesituationendure,givinghim,strength。 “Youarenotsatisfiedwithlife,areyou?” “No,“sheanswered,weakly。 Hesawhewasthemasterofthesituation——hefeltit。He,reachedoverandtouchedherhand。 “Youmustn’t,“sheexclaimed,jumpingup。 “Ididn’tintendto,“heanswered,easily。 Shedidnotrunaway,asshemighthavedone。Shedidnot,terminatetheinterview,buthedriftedoffintoapleasantfield,ofthoughtwiththereadiestgrace。Notlongafterheroseto,go,andshefeltthathewasinpower。 “Youmustn’tfeelbad,“hesaid,kindly;“thingswillstraighten,outinthecourseoftime。” Shemadenoanswer,becauseshecouldthinkofnothingtosay。 “Wearegoodfriends,aren’twe?”hesaid,extendinghishand。 “Yes,“sheanswered。 “Notaword,then,untilIseeyouagain。” Heretainedaholdonherhand。 “Ican’tpromise,“shesaid,doubtfully。 “Youmustbemoregenerousthanthat,“hesaid,insuchasimple,waythatshewastouched。 “Let’snottalkaboutitanymore,“shereturned。 “Allright,“hesaid,brightening。 Hewentdownthestepsandintohiscab。Carrieclosedthedoor,andascendedintoherroom。Sheundidherbroadlacecollar,beforethemirrorandunfastenedherprettyalligatorbeltwhich,shehadrecentlybought。 “I’mgettingterrible,“shesaid,honestlyaffectedbyafeeling,oftroubleandshame。”Idon’tseemtodoanythingright。” Sheunloosedherhairafteratime,andletithanginloose,brownwaves。Hermindwasgoingovertheeventsoftheevening。 “Idon’tknow,“shemurmuredatlast,“whatIcando。” “Well,“saidHurstwoodasherodeaway,“shelikesmeallright; thatIknow。” Thearousedmanagerwhistledmerrilyforagoodfourmilestohis,officeanoldmelodythathehadnotrecalledforfifteenyears。 ChapterXIII HISCREDENTIALSACCEPTED——ABABELOFTONGUES ItwasnotquitetwodaysafterthescenebetweenCarrieand,HurstwoodintheOgdenPlaceparlourbeforeheagainputinhis,appearance。Hehadbeenthinkingalmostuninterruptedlyofher。 Herleniencyhad,inaway,inflamedhisregard。Hefeltthathe,mustsucceedwithher,andthatspeedily。 Thereasonforhisinterest,nottosayfascination,wasdeeper,thanmeredesire。Itwasafloweringoutoffeelingswhichhad,beenwitheringindryandalmostbarrensoilformanyyears。It,isprobablethatCarrierepresentedabetterorderofwomanthan,hadeverattractedhimbefore。Hehadhadnoloveaffairsince,thatwhichculminatedinhismarriage,andsincethentimeand,theworldhadtaughthimhowrawanderroneouswashisoriginal,judgment。Wheneverhethoughtofit,hetoldhimselfthat,ifhe,hadittodooveragain,hewouldnevermarrysuchawoman。At,thesametime,hisexperiencewithwomeningeneralhadlessened,hisrespectforthesex。Hemaintainedacynicalattitude,well,groundedonnumerousexperiences。Suchwomenashehadknown,wereofnearlyonetype,selfish,ignorant,flashy。Thewivesof,hisfriendswerenotinspiringtolookupon。Hisownwifehad,developedacold,commonplacenaturewhichtohimwasanything,butpleasing。Whatheknewofthatunder-worldwheregrovelthe,beat-menofsociety(andheknewagreatdeal)hadhardenedhis,nature。Helookeduponmostwomenwithsuspicion——asingleeye,totheutilityofbeautyanddress。Hefollowedthemwitha,keen,suggestiveglance。Atthesametime,hewasnotsodull,butthatagoodwomancommandedhisrespect。Personally,hedid,notattempttoanalysethemarvelofasaintlywoman。Hewould,takeoffhishat,andwouldsilencethelight-tonguedandthe,viciousinherpresence——muchastheIrishkeeperofaBowery,hallwillhumblehimselfbeforeaSisterofMercy,andpaytoll,tocharitywithawillingandreverenthand。Buthewouldnot,thinkmuchuponthequestionofwhyhedidso。 Amaninhissituationwhocomes,afteralongroundofworthless,orhardeningexperiences,uponayoung,unsophisticated,innocent,soul,isapteithertoholdaloof,outofasenseofhisown,remoteness,ortodrawnearandbecomefascinatedandelatedby,hisdiscovery。Itisonlybyaroundaboutprocessthatsuchmen,everdodrawnearsuchagirl。Theyhavenomethod,no,understandingofhowtoingratiatethemselvesinyouthfulfavour,savewhentheyfindvirtueinthetoils。If,unfortunately,the,flyhasgotcaughtinthenet,thespidercancomeforthandtalk,businessuponitsownterms。Sowhenmaidenhoodhaswandered,intothemoilofthecity,whenitisbroughtwithinthecircle,ofthe“rounder“andtheroue,eventhoughitbeattheoutermost,rim,theycancomeforthandusetheiralluringarts。 Hurstwoodhadgone,atDrouet’sinvitation,tomeetanewbaggage,offineclothesandprettyfeatures。Heentered,expectingto,indulgeinaneveningoflightsomefrolic,andthenlosetrackof,thenewcomerforever。Insteadhefoundawomanwhoseyouthand,beautyattractedhim。InthemildlightofCarrie’seyewas,nothingofthecalculationofthemistress。Inthediffident,mannerwasnothingoftheartofthecourtesan。Hesawatonce,thatamistakehadbeenmade,thatsomedifficultconditionshad,pushedthistroubledcreatureintohispresence,andhisinterest,wasenlisted。Heresympathysprangtotherescue,butitwasnot,unmixedwithselfishness。HewantedtowinCarriebecausehe,thoughtherfatemingledwithhiswasbetterthanifitwere,unitedwithDrouet’s。Heenviedthedrummerhisconquestashe,hadneverenviedanymaninallthecourseofhisexperience。 Carriewascertainlybetterthanthisman,asshewassuperior,mentally,toDrouet。Shecamefreshfromtheairofthevillage,thelightofthecountrystillinhereye。Herewasneither,guilenorrapacity。Therewereslightinheritedtraitsofboth,inher,buttheywererudimentary。Shewastoofullofwonder,anddesiretobegreedy。Shestilllookedaboutheruponthe,greatmazeofthecitywithoutunderstanding。Hurstwoodfeltthe,bloomandtheyouth。Hepickedherashewouldthefreshfruit,ofatree。Hefeltasfreshinherpresenceasonewhoistaken,outoftheflashofsummertothefirstcoolbreathofspring。 Carrie,leftalonesincethesceneinquestion,andhavingnoone,withwhomtocounsel,hadatfirstwanderedfromonestrange,mentalconclusiontoanother,untilatlast,tiredout,shegave,itup。SheowedsomethingtoDrouet,shethought。Itdidnot,seemmorethanyesterdaythathehadaidedherwhenshewas,worriedanddistressed。Shehadthekindliestfeelingsforhim,ineveryway。Shegavehimcreditforhisgoodlooks,his,generousfeelings,andeven,infact,failedtorecollecthis,egotismwhenhewasabsent;butshecouldnotfeelanybinding,influencekeepingherforhimasagainstallothers。Infact,suchathoughthadneverhadanygrounding,eveninDrouet’s,desires。 Thetruthis,thatthisgoodlydrummercarriedthedoomofall,enduringrelationshipsinhisownlightsomemannerandunstable,fancy。Hewentmerrilyon,assuredthathewasalluringall,thataffectionfollowedtenderlyinhiswake,thatthingswould,endureunchanginglyforhispleasure。Whenhemissedsomeold,face,orfoundsomedoorfinallyshuttohim,itdidnotgrieve,himdeeply。Hewastooyoung,toosuccessful。Hewouldremain,thusyounginspirituntilhewasdead。 AsforHurstwood,hewasalivewiththoughtsandfeelings,concerningCarrie。Hehadnodefiniteplansregardingher,but,hewasdeterminedtomakeherconfessanaffectionforhim。He,thoughthesawinherdroopingeye,herunstableglance,her,waveringmanner,thesymptomsofabuddingpassion。Hewantedto,standnearherandmakeherlayherhandinhis——hewantedto,findoutwhathernextstepwouldbe——whatthenextsignof,feelingforhimwouldbe。Suchanxietyandenthusiasmhadnot,affectedhimforyears。Hewasayouthagaininfeeling——a,cavalierinaction。 Inhispositionopportunityfortakinghiseveningsoutwas,excellent。Hewasamostfaithfulworkeringeneral,andaman,whocommandedtheconfidenceofhisemployersinsofarasthe,distributionofhistimewasconcerned。Hecouldtakesuchhours,offashechose,foritwaswellknownthathefulfilledhis,managerialdutiessuccessfully,whatevertimehemighttake。His,grace,tact,andornateappearancegavetheplaceanairwhich,wasmostessential,whileatthesametimehislongexperience,madehimamostexcellentjudgeofitsstocknecessities。 Bartendersandassistantsmightcomeandgo,singlyoringroups,but,solongashewaspresent,thehostofold-timecustomers,wouldbarelynoticethechange。Hegavetheplacetheatmosphere,towhichtheywereused。Consequently,hearrangedhishours,verymuchtosuithimself,takingnowanafternoon,nowan,evening,butinvariablyreturningbetweenelevenandtwelveto,witnessthelasthourortwooftheday’sbusinessandlookafter,theclosingdetails。 “Youseethatthingsaresafeandalltheemployeesareoutwhen,yougohome,George,“Moyhadonceremarkedtohim,andhenever,once,inalltheperiodofhislongservice,neglectedtodo,this。Neitheroftheownershadforyearsbeenintheresort,afterfiveintheafternoon,andyettheirmanagerasfaithfully,fulfilledthisrequestasiftheyhadbeenthereregularlyto,observe。 OnthisFridayafternoon,scarcelytwodaysafterhisprevious,visit,hemadeuphismindtoseeCarrie。Hecouldnotstayaway,longer。 “Evans,“hesaid,addressingtheheadbarkeeper,“ifanyone,calls,Iwillbebackbetweenfourandfive。” HehurriedtoMadisonStreetandboardedahorse-car,which,carriedhimtoOgdenPlaceinhalfanhour。 Carriehadthoughtofgoingforawalk,andhadputonalight,greywoollendresswithajauntydouble-breastedjacket。Shehad,outherhatandgloves,andwasfasteningawhitelacetieabout,herthroatwhenthehousemaidbroughtuptheinformationthatMr。 Hurstwoodwishedtoseeher。 Shestartedslightlyattheannouncement,buttoldthegirlto,saythatshewouldcomedowninamoment,andproceededtohasten,herdressing。 Carriecouldnothavetoldherselfatthismomentwhethershewas,gladorsorrythattheimpressivemanagerwasawaitingher,presence。Shewasslightlyflurriedandtinglinginthecheeks,butitwasmorenervousnessthaneitherfearorfavour。Shedid,nottrytoconjecturewhatthedriftoftheconversationwould,be。Sheonlyfeltthatshemustbecareful,andthatHurstwood,hadanindefinablefascinationforher。Thenshegavehertie,itslasttouchwithherfingersandwentbelow。 Thedeep-feelingmanagerwashimselfalittlestrainedinthe,nervesbythethoroughconsciousnessofhismission。Hefelt,thathemustmakeastrongplayonthisoccasion,butnowthat,thehourwascome,andheheardCarrie’sfeetuponthestair,his,nervefailedhim。Hesankalittleindetermination,forhewas,notsosure,afterall,whatheropinionmightbe。 Whensheenteredtheroom,however,herappearancegavehim,courage。Shelookedsimpleandcharmingenoughtostrengthenthe,daringofanylover。Herapparentnervousnessdispelledhisown。