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类别:其他 作者:Theodore Dreiser / Bantam Clas字数:24282更新时间:18/12/21 13:06:44
“Swaggering,eh!What!You’llgetnothingfromme。Whatdoyou,meanbyyourinsinuations,anyhow?” “Wherewereyoulastnight?”sheanswered。Thewordswerehotas,theycame。”WhowereyoudrivingwithonWashingtonBoulevard? WhowereyouwithatthetheatrewhenGeorgesawyou?Doyou,thinkI’mafooltobedupedbyyou?DoyouthinkI’llsitat,homehereandtakeyour’toobusys’and’can’tcome,’whileyou,paradearoundandmakeoutthatI’munabletocome?Iwantyouto,knowthatlordlyairshavecometoanendsofarasIam,concerned。Youcan’tdictatetomenormychildren。I’mthrough,withyouentirely。” “It’salie,“hesaid,driventoacornerandknowingnoother,excuse。 “Lie,eh!”shesaid,fiercely,butwithreturningreserve;“you,maycallitalieifyouwantto,butIknow。” “It’salie,Itellyou,“hesaid,inalow,sharpvoice。 “You’vebeensearchingaroundforsomecheapaccusationfor,monthsandnowyouthinkyouhaveit。Youthinkyou’llspring,somethingandgettheupperhand。Well,Itellyou,youcan’t。 AslongasI’minthishouseI’mmasterofit,andyouoranyone,elsewon’tdictatetome——doyouhear?” Hecrepttowardherwithalightinhiseyethatwasominous。 Somethinginthewoman’scool,cynical,upper-handishmanner,as,ifshewerealreadymaster,causedhimtofeelforthemomentas,ifhecouldstrangleher。 Shegazedathim——apythonessinhumour。 “I’mnotdictatingtoyou,“shereturned;“I’mtellingyouwhatI want。” Theanswerwassocool,sorichinbravado,thatsomehowittook,thewindoutofhissails。Hecouldnotattackher,hecouldnot,askherforproofs。Somehowhefeltevidence,law,the,remembranceofallhispropertywhichsheheldinhername,tobe,shininginherglance。Hewaslikeavessel,powerfuland,dangerous,butrollingandflounderingwithoutsail。 “AndI’mtellingyou,“hesaidintheend,slightlyrecovering,himself,“whatyou’llnotget。” “We’llseeaboutit,“shesaid。”I’llfindoutwhatmyrights,are。Perhapsyou’lltalktoalawyer,ifyouwon’ttome。” Itwasamagnificentplay,andhaditseffect。Hurstwoodfell,backbeaten。Heknewnowthathehadmorethanmerebluffto,contendwith。Hefeltthathewasfacetofacewithadull,proposition。Whattosayhehardlyknew。Allthemerrimenthad,goneoutoftheday。Hewasdisturbed,wretched,resentful。 Whatshouldhedo? “Doasyouplease,“hesaid,atlast。”I’llhavenothingmoreto,dowithyou,“andouthestrode。 ChapterXXIII ASPIRITINTRAVAIL——ONERUNGPUTBEHIND WhenCarriereachedherownroomshehadalreadyfallenapreyto,thosedoubtsandmisgivingswhichareevertheresultofalack,ofdecision。Shecouldnotpersuadeherselfastothe,advisabilityofherpromise,orthatnow,havinggivenherword,sheoughttokeepit。Shewentoverthewholegroundin,Hurstwood’sabsence,anddiscoveredlittleobjectionsthathad,notoccurredtoherinthewarmthofthemanager’sargument。She,sawwhereshehadputherselfinapeculiarlight,namely,that,ofagreeingtomarrywhenshewasalreadysupposedlymarried。 SherememberedafewthingsDrouethaddone,andnowthatitcame,towalkingawayfromhimwithoutaword,shefeltasifshewere,doingwrong。Now,shewascomfortablysituated,andtoonewho,ismoreorlessafraidoftheworld,thisisanurgentmatter,andonewhichputsupstrange,uncannyarguments。”Youdonot,knowwhatwillcome。Therearemiserablethingsoutside。People,goa-begging。Womenarewretched。Younevercantellwhatwill,happen。Rememberthetimeyouwerehungry。Sticktowhatyou,have。” Curiously,forallherleaningtowardsHurstwood,hehadnot,takenafirmholdonherunderstanding。Shewaslistening,smiling,approving,andyetnotfinallyagreeing。Thiswasdue,toalackofpoweronhispart,alackofthatmajestyofpassion,thatsweepsthemindfromitsseat,fusesandmeltsallarguments,andtheoriesintoatangledmass,anddestroysforthetimebeing,thereasoningpower。Thismajestyofpassionispossessedby,nearlyeverymanonceinhislife,butitisusuallyanattribute,ofyouthandconducestothefirstsuccessfulmating。 Hurstwood,beinganolderman,couldscarcelybesaidtoretain,thefireofyouth,thoughhedidpossessapassionwarmand,unreasoning。Itwasstrongenoughtoinducetheleaningtoward,himwhich,onCarrie’spart,wehaveseen。Shemighthavebeen,saidtobeimaginingherselfinlove,whenshewasnot。Women,frequentlydothis。Itflowsfromthefactthatineachexistsa,biastowardaffection,acravingforthepleasureofbeingloved。 Thelongingtobeshielded,bettered,sympathisedwith,isoneof,theattributesofthesex。This,coupledwithsentimentanda,naturaltendencytoemotion,oftenmakesrefusingdifficult。It,persuadesthemthattheyareinlove。 Onceathome,shechangedherclothesandstraightenedtherooms,forherself。Inthematterofthearrangementofthefurniture,shenevertookthehousemaid’sopinion。Thatyoungwoman,invariablyputoneoftherocking-chairsinthecorner,and,Carrieasregularlymoveditout。To-dayshehardlynoticedthat,itwasinthewrongplace,soabsorbedwassheinherown,thoughts。SheworkedabouttheroomuntilDrouetputin,appearanceatfiveo’clock。Thedrummerwasflushedandexcited,andfullofdeterminationtoknowallaboutherrelationswith,Hurstwood。Nevertheless,aftergoingoverthesubjectinhis,mindthelivelongday,hewasratherwearyofitandwishedit,overwith。Hedidnotforeseeseriousconsequencesofanysort,andyetheratherhesitatedtobegin。Carriewassittingbythe,windowwhenhecamein,rockingandlookingout。 “Well,“shesaidinnocently,wearyofherownmentaldiscussion,andwonderingathishasteandill-concealedexcitement,“what,makesyouhurryso?” Drouethesitated,nowthathewasinherpresence,uncertainas,towhatcoursetopursue。Hewasnodiplomat。Hecouldneither,readnorsee。 “Whendidyougethome?”heaskedfoolishly。 “Oh,anhourorsoago。Whatmakesyouaskthat?” “Youweren’there,“hesaid,“whenIcamebackthismorning,and,Ithoughtyouhadgoneout。” “SoIdid,“saidCarriesimply。”Iwentforawalk。” Drouetlookedatherwonderingly。Forallhislackofdignityin,suchmattershedidnotknowhowtobegin。Hestaredatherin,themostflagrantmanneruntilatlastshesaid: “Whatmakesyoustareatmeso?What’sthematter?” “Nothing,“heanswered。”Iwasjustthinking。” “Justthinkingwhat?”shereturnedsmilingly,puzzledbyhis,attitude。 “Oh,nothing——nothingmuch。” “Well,then,whatmakesyoulookso?” Drouetwasstandingbythedresser,gazingatherinacomic,manner。Hehadlaidoffhishatandglovesandwasnowfidgeting,withthelittletoiletpieceswhichwerenearesthim。He,hesitatedtobelievethattheprettywomanbeforehimwas,involvedinanythingsounsatisfactorytohimself。Hewasvery,muchinclinedtofeelthatitwasallright,afterall。Yetthe,knowledgeimpartedtohimbythechambermaidwasranklinginhis,mind。Hewantedtoplungeinwithastraightremarkofsome,sort,butheknewnotwhat。 “Wheredidyougothismorning?”hefinallyaskedweakly。 “Why,Iwentforawalk,“saidCarrie。 “Sureyoudid?”heasked。 “Yes,whatmakesyouask?” Shewasbeginningtoseenowthatheknewsomething。Instantly,shedrewherselfintoamorereservedposition。Hercheeks,blanchedslightly。 “Ithoughtmaybeyoudidn’t,“hesaid,beatingaboutthebushin,themostuselessmanner。 Carriegazedathim,andasshedidsoherebbingcouragehalted。 Shesawthathehimselfwashesitating,andwithawoman’s,intuitionrealisedthattherewasnooccasionforgreatalarm。 “Whatmakesyoutalklikethat?”sheasked,wrinklingherpretty,forehead。”Youactsofunnyto-night。” “Ifeelfunny,“heanswered。 Theylookedatoneanotherforamoment,andthenDrouetplunged,desperatelyintohissubject。 “What’sthisaboutyouandHurstwood?”heasked。 “MeandHurstwood——whatdoyoumean?” “Didn’thecomehereadozentimeswhileIwasaway?” “Adozentimes,“repeatedCarrie,guiltily。”No,butwhatdoyou,mean?” “Somebodysaidthatyouwentoutridingwithhimandthathecame,hereeverynight。” “Nosuchthing,“answeredCarrie。”Itisn’ttrue。Whotoldyou,that?” Shewasflushingscarlettotherootsofherhair,butDrouetdid,notcatchthefullhueofherface,owingtothemodifiedlight,oftheroom。HewasregainingmuchconfidenceasCarriedefended,herselfwithdenials。 “Well,someone,“hesaid。”You’resureyoudidn’t?” “Certainly,“saidCarrie。”Youknowhowoftenhecame。” Drouetpausedforamomentandthought。 “Iknowwhatyoutoldme,“hesaidfinally。 Hemovednervouslyabout,whileCarrielookedathimconfusedly。 “Well,IknowthatIdidn’ttellyouanysuchthingasthat,“ saidCarrie,recoveringherself。 “IfIwereyou,“wentonDrouet,ignoringherlastremark,“I wouldn’thaveanythingtodowithhim。He’samarriedman,you,know。” “Who——whois?”saidCarrie,stumblingattheword。 “Why,Hurstwood,“saidDrouet,notingtheeffectandfeelingthat,hewasdeliveringatellingblow。 “Hurstwood!”exclaimedCarrie,rising。Herfacehadchanged,severalshadessincethisannouncementwasmade。Shelooked,withinandwithoutherselfinahalf-dazedway。 “Whotoldyouthis?”sheasked,forgettingthatherinterestwas,outoforderandexceedinglyincriminating。 “Why,Iknowit。I’vealwaysknownit,“saidDrouet。 Carriewasfeelingaboutforarightthought。Shewasmakinga,mostmiserableshowing,andyetfeelingsweregeneratingwithin,herwhichwereanythingbutcrumblingcowardice。 “IthoughtItoldyou,“headded。 “No,youdidn’t,“shecontradicted,suddenlyrecoveringher,voice。”Youdidn’tdoanythingofthekind。” Drouetlistenedtoherinastonishment。Thiswassomethingnew。 “IthoughtIdid,“hesaid。 Carrielookedaroundherverysolemnly,andthenwentovertothe,window。 “Yououghtn’ttohavehadanythingtodowithhim,“saidDrouet,inaninjuredtone,“afterallI’vedoneforyou。” “You,“saidCarrie,“you!Whathaveyoudoneforme?” Herlittlebrainhadbeensurgingwithcontradictoryfeelings—— shameatexposure,shameatHurstwood’sperfidy,angerat,Drouet’sdeception,themockeryhehadmadeather。Nowone,clearideacameintoherhead。Hewasatfault。Therewasno,doubtaboutit。WhydidhebringHurstwoodout——Hurstwood,a,marriedman,andneversayawordtoher?Nevermindnowabout,Hurstwood’sperfidy——whyhadhedonethis?Whyhadn’thewarned,her?Therehestoodnow,guiltyofthismiserablebreachof,confidenceandtalkingaboutwhathehaddoneforher! “Well,Ilikethat,“exclaimedDrouet,littlerealisingthefire,hisremarkhadgenerated。”IthinkI’vedoneagooddeal。” “Youhave,eh?”sheanswered。”You’vedeceivedme——that’swhat,you’vedone。You’vebroughtyouroldfriendsouthereunder,falsepretences。You’vemademeouttobe——Oh,“andwiththis,hervoicebrokeandshepressedhertwolittlehandstogether,tragically。 “Idon’tseewhatthat’sgottodowithit,“saidthedrummer,quaintly。 “No,“sheanswered,recoveringherselfandshuttingherteeth。 “No,ofcourseyoudon’tsee。Thereisn’tanythingyousee。You,couldn’thavetoldmeinthefirstplace,couldyou?Youhadto,makemeoutwronguntilitwastoolate。Nowyoucomesneaking,aroundwithyourinformationandyourtalkaboutwhatyouhave,done。” DrouethadneversuspectedthissideofCarrie’snature。Shewas,alivewithfeeling,hereyessnapping,herlipsquivering,her,wholebodysensibleoftheinjuryshefelt,andpartakingofher,wrath。 “Who’ssneaking?”heasked,mildlyconsciousoferroronhis,part,butcertainthathewaswronged。 “Youare,“stampedCarrie。”You’reahorrid,conceitedcoward,that’swhatyouare。Ifyouhadanysenseofmanhoodinyou,you,wouldn’thavethoughtofdoinganysuchthing。” Thedrummerstared。 “I’mnotacoward,“hesaid。”Whatdoyoumeanbygoingwith,othermen,anyway?” “Othermen!”exclaimedCarrie。”Othermen——youknowbetterthan,that。IdidgowithMr。Hurstwood,butwhosefaultwasit? Didn’tyoubringhimhere?Youtoldhimyourselfthatheshould,comeouthereandtakemeout。Now,afterit’sallover,you,comeandtellmethatIoughtn’ttogowithhimandthathe’sa,marriedman。” Shepausedatthesoundofthelasttwowordsandwrungher,hands。TheknowledgeofHurstwood’sperfidywoundedherlikea,knife。 “Oh,“shesobbed,repressingherselfwonderfullyandkeepingher,eyesdry。”Oh,oh!” “Well,Ididn’tthinkyou’dberunningaroundwithhimwhenIwas,away,“insistedDrouet。 “Didn’tthink!”saidCarrie,nowangeredtothecorebytheman’s,peculiarattitude。”Ofcoursenot。Youthoughtonlyofwhat,wouldbetoyoursatisfaction。Youthoughtyou’dmakeatoyof,me——aplaything。Well,I’llshowyouthatyouwon’t。I’llhave,nothingmoretodowithyouatall。Youcantakeyouroldthings,andkeepthem,“andunfasteningalittlepinhehadgivenher,sheflungitvigorouslyuponthefloorandbegantomoveaboutas,iftogatherupthethingswhichbelongedtoher。 BythisDrouetwasnotonlyirritatedbutfascinatedthemore。 Helookedatherinamazement,andfinallysaid: “Idon’tseewhereyourwrathcomesin。I’vegottherightof,thisthing。Yououghtn’ttohavedoneanythingthatwasn’tright,afterallIdidforyou。” “Whathaveyoudoneforme?”askedCarrieblazing,herhead,thrownbackandherlipsparted。 “IthinkI’vedoneagooddeal,“saidthedrummer,looking,around。”I’vegivenyoualltheclothesyouwanted,haven’tI? I’vetakenyoueverywhereyouwantedtogo。You’vehadasmuch,asI’vehad,andmoretoo。” Carriewasnotungrateful,whateverelsemightbesaidofher。 Insofarashermindcouldconstrue,sheacknowledgedbenefits,received。Shehardlyknewhowtoanswerthis,andyetherwrath,wasnotplacated。Shefeltthatthedrummerhadinjuredher,irreparably。 “DidIaskyouto?”shereturned。 “Well,Ididit,“saidDrouet,“andyoutookit。” “YoutalkasthoughIhadpersuadedyou,“answeredCarrie。”You,standthereandthrowupwhatyou’vedone。Idon’twantyourold,things。I’llnothavethem。Youtakethemto-nightanddowhat,youpleasewiththem。I’llnotstayhereanotherminute。” “That’snice!”heanswered,becomingangerednowatthesenseof,hisownapproachingloss。”Useeverythingandabusemeandthen,walkoff。That’sjustlikeawoman。Itakeyouwhenyouhaven’t,gotanything,andthenwhensomeoneelsecomesalong,whyI’mno,good。Ialwaysthoughtit’dcomeoutthatway。” Hefeltreallyhurtashethoughtofhistreatment,andlookedas,ifhesawnowayofobtainingjustice。 “It’snotso,“saidCarrie,“andI’mnotgoingwithanybodyelse。 Youhavebeenasmiserableandinconsiderateasyoucanbe。I hateyou,Itellyou,andIwouldn’tlivewithyouanother,minute。You’reabig,insulting“——hereshehesitatedandusedno,wordatall——“oryouwouldn’ttalkthatway。” Shehadsecuredherhatandjacketandslippedthelatteronover,herlittleeveningdress。Somewispsofwavyhairhadloosened,fromthebandsatthesideofherheadandwerestragglingover,herhot,redcheeks。Shewasangry,mortified,grief-stricken。 Herlargeeyeswerefulloftheanguishoftears,butherlids,werenotyetwet。Shewasdistractedanduncertain,decidingand,doingthingswithoutanaimorconclusion,andshehadnotthe,slightestconceptionofhowthewholedifficultywouldend。 “Well,that’safinefinish,“saidDrouet。”Packupandpull,out,eh?Youtakethecake。Ibetyouwereknockingaroundwith,Hurstwoodoryouwouldn’tactlikethat。Idon’twanttheold,rooms。Youneedn’tpulloutforme。YoucanhavethemforallI care,butb’George,youhaven’tdonemeright。” “I’llnotlivewithyou,“saidCarrie。”Idon’twanttolive,withyou。You’vedonenothingbutbragaroundeversinceyou’ve,beenhere。” “Aw,Ihaven’tanythingofthekind,“heanswered。 Carriewalkedovertothedoor。 “Whereareyougoing?”hesaid,steppingoverandheadingher,off。 “Letmeout,“shesaid。 “Whereareyougoing?”herepeated。 Hewas,aboveall,sympathetic,andthesightofCarriewandering,out,heknewnotwhere,affectedhim,despitehisgrievance。 Carriemerelypulledatthedoor。 Thestrainofthesituationwastoomuchforher,however。She,madeonemorevaineffortandthenburstintotears。 “Now,bereasonable,Cad,“saidDrouetgently。”Whatdoyouwant,torushoutforthisway?Youhaven’tanyplacetogo。Whynot,stayherenowandbequiet?I’llnotbotheryou。Idon’twantto,stayhereanylonger。” Carriehadgonesobbingfromthedoortothewindow。Shewasso,overcomeshecouldnotspeak。 “Bereasonablenow,“hesaid。”Idon’twanttoholdyou。You,cangoifyouwantto,butwhydon’tyouthinkitover?Lord,knows,Idon’twanttostopyou。” Hereceivednoanswer。Carriewasquieting,however,underthe,influenceofhisplea。 “Youstayherenow,andI’llgo,“headdedatlast。 Carrielistenedtothiswithmingledfeelings。Hermindwas,shakenloosefromthelittlemooringoflogicthatithad。She,wasstirredbythisthought,angeredbythat——herowninjustice,Hurstwood’s,Drouet’s,theirrespectivequalitiesofkindnessand,favour,thethreatoftheworldoutside,inwhichshehadfailed,oncebefore,theimpossibilityofthisstateinside,wherethe,chamberswerenolongerjustlyhers,theeffectoftheargument,uponhernerves,allcombinedtomakeheramassofjangling,fibres——ananchorless,storm-beatenlittlecraftwhichcoulddo,absolutelynothingbutdrift。 “Say,“saidDrouet,comingovertoherafterafewmoments,with,anewidea,andputtinghishanduponher。 “Don’t!”saidCarrie,drawingaway,butnotremovingher,handkerchieffromhereyes。 “Nevermindaboutthisquarrelnow。Letitgo。Youstayhere,untilthemonth’sout,anyhow,andthenyoucantellbetterwhat,youwanttodo。Eh?” Carriemadenoanswer。 “You’dbetterdothat,“hesaid。”There’snouseyourpackingup,now。Youcan’tgoanywhere。” Stillhegotnothingforhiswords。 “Ifyou’lldothat,we’llcallitoffforthepresentandI’ll,getout。” Carrieloweredherhandkerchiefslightlyandlookedoutofthe,window。 “Willyoudothat?”heasked。 Stillnoanswer。 “Willyou?”herepeated。 Sheonlylookedvaguelyintothestreet。 “Aw!comeon,“hesaid,“tellme。Willyou?” “Idon’tknow,“saidCarriesoftly,forcedtoanswer。 “Promisemeyou’lldothat,“hesaid,“andwe’llquittalking,aboutit。It’llbethebestthingforyou。” Carrieheardhim,butshecouldnotbringherselftoanswer,reasonably。Shefeltthatthemanwasgentle,andthathis,interestinherhadnotabated,anditmadehersufferapangof,regret。Shewasinamosthelplessplight。 AsforDrouet,hisattitudehadbeenthatofthejealouslover。 Nowhisfeelingswereamixtureofangeratdeception,sorrowat,losingCarrie,miseryatbeingdefeated。Hewantedhisrightsin,somewayorother,andyethisrightsincludedtheretainingof,Carrie,themakingherfeelhererror。 “Willyou?”heurged。 “Well,I’llsee,“saidCarrie。 Thisleftthematterasopenasbefore,butitwassomething。It,lookedasifthequarrelwouldblowover,iftheycouldonlyget,somewayoftalkingtooneanother。Carriewasashamed,and,Drouetaggrieved。Hepretendedtotakeupthetaskofpacking,somethingsinavalise。 Now,asCarriewatchedhimoutofthecornerofhereye,certain,soundthoughtscameintoherhead。Hehaderred,true,butwhat,hadshedone?Hewaskindlyandgood-naturedforallhisegotism。 Throughoutthisargumenthehadsaidnothingveryharsh。Onthe,otherhand,therewasHurstwood——agreaterdeceiverthanhe。He,hadpretendedallthisaffection,allthispassion,andhewas,lyingtoherallthewhile。Oh,theperfidyofmen!Andshehad,lovedhim。Therecouldbenothingmoreinthatquarter。She,wouldseeHurstwoodnomore。Shewouldwritehimandlethim,knowwhatshethought。Thereuponwhatwouldshedo?Herewere,theserooms。HerewasDrouet,pleadingforhertoremain。 Evidentlythingscouldgoonheresomewhatasbefore,ifallwere,arranged。Itwouldbebetterthanthestreet,withoutaplaceto,layherhead。 AllthisshethoughtofasDrouetrummagedthedrawersfor,collarsandlabouredlongandpainstakinglyatfindingashirt- stud。Hewasinnohurrytorushthismatter。Hefeltan,attractiontoCarriewhichwouldnotdown。Hecouldnotthink,thatthethingwouldendbyhiswalkingoutoftheroom。There,mustbesomewayround,somewaytomakeherownupthathewas,rightandshewaswrong——topatchupapeaceandshutout,Hurstwoodforever。Mercy,howheturnedattheman’sshameless,duplicity。 “Doyouthink,“hesaid,afterafewmoments’silence,“that,you’lltryandgetonthestage?” Hewaswonderingwhatshewasintending。 “Idon’tknowwhatI’lldoyet,“saidCarrie。 “Ifyoudo,maybeIcanhelpyou。I’vegotalotoffriendsin,thatline。” Shemadenoanswertothis。 “Don’tgoandtrytoknockaroundnowwithoutanymoney。Letme,helpyou,“hesaid。”It’snoeasythingtogoonyourownhook,here。” Carrieonlyrockedbackandforthinherchair。 “Idon’twantyoutogoupagainstahardgamethatway。” HebestirredhimselfaboutsomeotherdetailsandCarrierocked,on。 “Whydon’tyoutellmeallaboutthisthing,“hesaid,aftera,time,“andlet’scallitoff?Youdon’treallycarefor,Hurstwood,doyou?” “Whydoyouwanttostartonthatagain?”saidCarrie。”Youwere,toblame。” “No,Iwasn’t,“heanswered。 “Yes,youwere,too,“saidCarrie。”Youshouldn’thaveevertold,mesuchastoryasthat。” “Butyoudidn’thavemuchtodowithhim,didyou?”wenton,Drouet,anxiousforhisownpeaceofmindtogetsomedirect,denialfromher。 “Iwon’ttalkaboutit,“saidCarrie,painedatthequizzical,turnthepeacearrangementhadtaken。 “What’stheuseofactinglikethatnow,Cad?”insistedthe,drummer,stoppinginhisworkandputtingupahandexpressively。 “YoumightletmeknowwhereIstand,atleast。” “Iwon’t,“saidCarrie,feelingnorefugebutinanger。 “Whateverhashappenedisyourownfault。” “Thenyoudocareforhim?”saidDrouet,stoppingcompletelyand,experiencingarushoffeeling。 “Oh,stop!”saidCarrie。 “Well,I’llnotbemadeafoolof,“exclaimedDrouet。”Youmay,triflearoundwithhimifyouwantto,butyoucan’tleadme。 Youcantellmeornot,justasyouwantto,butIwon’tfoolany,longer!” Heshovedthelastfewremainingthingshehadlaidoutintohis,valiseandsnappeditwithavengeance。Thenhegrabbedhis,coat,whichhehadlaidofftowork,pickeduphisgloves,and,startedout。 “YoucangotothedeuceasfarasIamconcerned,“hesaid,as,hereachedthedoor。”I’mnosucker,“andwiththatheopenedit,withajerkandcloseditequallyvigorously。 Carrielistenedatherwindowview,moreastonishedthananything,elseatthissuddenriseofpassioninthedrummer。Shecould,hardlybelievehersenses——sogood-naturedandtractablehadhe,invariablybeen。Itwasnotforhertoseethewellspringof,humanpassion。Arealflameofloveisasubtlething。Itburns,asawill-o’-the-wisp,dancingonwardtofairylandsofdelight。 Itroarsasafurnace。Toooftenjealousyisthequalityupon,whichitfeeds。 ChapterXXIV ASHESOFTINDER——AFACEATTHEWINDOW ThatnightHurstwoodremaineddowntownentirely,goingtothe,PalmerHouseforabedafterhisworkwasthrough。Hewasina,feveredstateofmind,owingtotheblighthiswife’saction,threatenedtocastuponhisentirefuture。Whilehewasnotsure,howmuchsignificancemightbeattachedtothethreatshehad,made,hewassurethatherattitude,iflongcontinued,would,causehimnoendoftrouble。Shewasdetermined,andhadworsted,himinaveryimportantcontest。Howwoulditbefromnowon?He,walkedthefloorofhislittleoffice,andlaterthatofhis,room,puttingonethingandanothertogethertonoavail。 Mrs。Hurstwood,onthecontrary,haddecidednottoloseher,advantagebyinaction。Nowthatshehadpracticallycowedhim,shewouldfollowupherworkwithdemands,theacknowledgmentof,whichwouldmakeherwordLAWinthefuture。Hewouldhaveto,payherthemoneywhichshewouldnowregularlydemandorthere,wouldbetrouble。Itdidnotmatterwhathedid。Shereallydid,notcarewhetherhecamehomeanymoreornot。Thehousehold,wouldmovealongmuchmorepleasantlywithouthim,andshecould,doasshewishedwithoutconsultinganyone。Nowsheproposedto,consultalawyerandhireadetective。Shewouldfindoutat,oncejustwhatadvantagesshecouldgain。 Hurstwoodwalkedthefloor,mentallyarrangingthechiefpoints,ofhissituation。”Shehasthatpropertyinhername,“hekept,sayingtohimself。”Whatafooltrickthatwas。Curseit!What,afoolmovethatwas。” Healsothoughtofhismanagerialposition。”Ifsheraisesarow,nowI’lllosethisthing。Theywon’thavemearoundifmyname,getsinthepapers。Myfriends,too!”Hegrewmoreangryashe,thoughtofthetalkanyactiononherpartwouldcreate。How,wouldthepaperstalkaboutit?Everymanheknewwouldbe,wondering。Hewouldhavetoexplainanddenyandmakeageneral,markofhimself。ThenMoywouldcomeandconferwithhimand,therewouldbethedeviltopay。 Manylittlewrinklesgatheredbetweenhiseyesashecontemplated,this,andhisbrowmoistened。Hesawnosolutionofanything—— notaloopholeleft。 ThroughallthisthoughtsofCarrieflasheduponhim,andthe,approachingaffairofSaturday。Tangledasallhismatterswere,hedidnotworryoverthat。Itwastheonepleasingthingin,thiswholeroutoftrouble。Hecouldarrangethat,satisfactorily,forCarriewouldbegladtowait,ifnecessary。 Hewouldseehowthingsturnedoutto-morrow,andthenhewould,talktoher。Theyweregoingtomeetasusual。Hesawonlyher,prettyfaceandneatfigureandwonderedwhylifewasnot,arrangedsothatsuchjoyashefoundwithhercouldbesteadily,maintained。Howmuchmorepleasantitwouldbe。Thenhewould,takeuphiswife’sthreatagain,andthewrinklesandmoisture,wouldreturn。 Inthemorninghecameoverfromthehotelandopenedhismail,buttherewasnothinginitoutsidetheordinaryrun。Forsome,reasonhefeltasifsomethingmightcomethatway,andwas,relievedwhenalltheenvelopeshadbeenscannedandnothing,suspiciousnoticed。Hebegantofeeltheappetitethathadbeen,wantingbeforehehadreachedtheoffice,anddecidedbefore,goingouttotheparktomeetCarrietodropinattheGrand,Pacificandhaveapotofcoffeeandsomerolls。Whilethe,dangerhadnotlessened,ithadnotasyetmaterialised,andwith,himnonewswasgoodnews。Ifhecouldonlygetplentyoftime,tothink,perhapssomethingwouldturnup。Surely,surely,this,thingwouldnotdriftalongtocatastropheandhenotfindaway,out。 Hisspiritsfell,however,when,uponreachingthepark,he,waitedandwaitedandCarriedidnotcome。Heheldhisfavourite,postforanhourormore,thenaroseandbegantowalkabout,restlessly。Couldsomethinghavehappenedouttheretokeepher,away?Couldshehavebeenreachedbyhiswife?Surelynot。So,littledidheconsiderDrouetthatitneveronceoccurredtohim,toworryabouthisfindingout。Hegrewrestlessashe,ruminated,andthendecidedthatperhapsitwasnothing。Shehad,notbeenabletogetawaythismorning。Thatwaswhynoletter,notifyinghimhadcome。Hewouldgetoneto-day。Itwould,probablybeonhisdeskwhenhegotback。Hewouldlookforit,atonce。 Afteratimehegaveupwaitinganddrearilyheadedforthe,Madisoncar。Toaddtohisdistress,thebrightblueskybecame,overcastwithlittlefleecycloudswhichshutoutthesun。The,windveeredtotheeast,andbythetimehereachedhisofficeit,wasthreateningtodrizzleallafternoon。 Hewentinandexaminedhisletters,buttherewasnothingfrom,Carrie。Fortunately,therewasnothingfromhiswifeeither。He,thankedhisstarsthathedidnothavetoconfrontthat,propositionjustnowwhenheneededtothinksomuch。Hewalked,theflooragain,pretendingtobeinanordinarymood,but,secretlytroubledbeyondtheexpressionofwords。 Atone-thirtyhewenttoRector’sforlunch,andwhenhereturned,amessengerwaswaitingforhim。Helookedatthelittlechap,withafeelingofdoubt。 “I’mtobringananswer,“saidtheboy。 Hurstwoodrecognisedhiswife’swriting。Hetoreitopenand,readwithoutashowoffeeling。Itbeganinthemostformal,mannerandwassharplyandcoldlywordedthroughout。 “IwantyoutosendthemoneyIaskedforatonce。Ineeditto,carryoutmyplans。Youcanstayawayifyouwantto。It,doesn’tmatterintheleast。ButImusthavesomemoney。So,don’tdelay,butsenditbytheboy。” Whenhehadfinishedit,hestoodholdingitinhishands。The,audacityofthethingtookhisbreath。Itrousedhisirealso—— thedeepestelementofrevoltinhim。Hisfirstimpulsewasto,writebutfourwordsinreply——“Gotothedevil!”——buthe,compromisedbytellingtheboythattherewouldbenoreply。 Thenhesatdowninhischairandgazedwithoutseeing,contemplatingtheresultofhiswork。Whatwouldshedoabout,that?Theconfoundedwretch!Wasshegoingtotrytobulldozehim,intosubmission?Hewouldgoupthereandhaveitoutwithher,that’swhathewoulddo。Shewascarryingthingswithtoohigha,hand。Thesewerehisfirstthoughts。 Later,however,hisolddiscretionasserteditself。Something,hadtobedone。Aclimaxwasnearandshewouldnotsitidle。 Heknewherwellenoughtoknowthatwhenshehaddecidedupona,planshewouldfollowitup。Possiblymatterswouldgointoa,lawyer’shandsatonce。 “Damnher!”hesaidsoftly,withhisteethfirmlyset,“I’llmake,ithotforherifshecausesmetrouble。I’llmakeherchange,hertoneifIhavetouseforcetodoit!” Hearosefromhischairandwentandlookedoutintothestreet。 Thelongdrizzlehadbegun。Pedestrianshadturnedupcollars,andtrousersatthebottom。Handswerehiddeninthepocketsof,theumbrellaless;umbrellaswereup。Thestreetlookedlikea,seaofroundblackclothroofs,twisting,bobbing,moving。 Trucksandvanswererattlinginanoisylineandeverywheremen,wereshieldingthemselvesasbesttheycould。Hescarcely,noticedthepicture。Hewasforeverconfrontinghiswife,demandingofhertochangeherattitudetowardhimbeforehe,workedherbodilyharm。 Atfouro’clockanothernotecame,whichsimplysaidthatifthe,moneywasnotforthcomingthateveningthematterwouldbelaid,beforeFitzgeraldandMoyonthemorrow,andotherstepswouldbe,takentogetit。 Hurstwoodalmostexclaimedoutloudattheinsistencyofthis,thing。Yes,hewouldsendherthemoney。He’dtakeittoher—— hewouldgoupthereandhaveatalkwithher,andthatatonce。 Heputonhishatandlookedaroundforhisumbrella。Hewould,havesomearrangementofthisthing。 Hecalledacabandwasdriventhroughthedrearyraintothe,NorthSide。Onthewayhistempercooledashethoughtofthe,detailsofthecase。Whatdidsheknow?Whathadshedone?Maybe,she’dgotholdofCarrie,whoknows——or——orDrouet。Perhapsshe,reallyhadevidence,andwaspreparedtofellhimasamandoes,anotherfromsecretambush。Shewasshrewd。Whyshouldshe,taunthimthiswayunlessshehadgoodgrounds? Hebegantowishthathehadcompromisedinsomewayorother—— thathehadsentthemoney。Perhapshecoulddoituphere。He,wouldgoinandsee,anyhow。Hewouldhavenorow。Bythetime,hereachedhisownstreethewaskeenlyalivetothedifficulties,ofhissituationandwishedoverandoverthatsomesolution,wouldofferitself,thathecouldseehiswayout。Healighted,andwentupthestepstothefrontdoor,butitwaswitha,nervouspalpitationoftheheart。Hepulledouthiskeyand,triedtoinsertit,butanotherkeywasontheinside。Heshook,attheknob,butthedoorwaslocked。Thenherangthebell。No,answer。Herangagain——thistimeharder。Stillnoanswer。He,jangleditfiercelyseveraltimesinsuccession,butwithout,avail。Thenhewentbelow。 Therewasadoorwhichopenedunderthestepsintothekitchen,protectedbyanirongrating,intendedasasafeguardagainst,burglars。Whenhereachedthishenoticedthatitalsowas,boltedandthatthekitchenwindowsweredown。Whatcouldit,mean?Herangthebellandthenwaited。Finally,seeingthatno,onewascoming,heturnedandwentbacktohiscab。 “Iguessthey’vegoneout,“hesaidapologeticallytothe,individualwhowashidinghisredfaceinaloosetarpaulin,raincoat。 “Isawayounggirlupinthatwinder,“returnedthecabby。 Hurstwoodlooked,buttherewasnofacetherenow。Heclimbed,moodilyintothecab,relievedanddistressed。 Sothiswasthegame,wasit?Shuthimoutandmakehimpay。 Well,bytheLord,thatdidbeatall! ChapterXXV ASHESOFTINDER——THELOOSINGOFSTAYS WhenHurstwoodgotbacktohisofficeagainhewasinagreater,quandarythanever。Lord,Lord,hethought,whathadhegot,into?Howcouldthingshavetakensuchaviolentturn,andso,quickly?Hecouldhardlyrealisehowithadallcomeabout。It,seemedamonstrous,unnatural,unwarrantedconditionwhichhad,suddenlydescendeduponhimwithouthisletorhindrance。 MeanwhilehegaveathoughtnowandthentoCarrie。Whatcould,bethetroubleinthatquarter?Noletterhadcome,nowordof,anykind,andyethereitwaslateintheeveningandshehad,agreedtomeethimthatmorning。To-morrowtheyweretohavemet,andgoneoff——where?Hesawthatintheexcitementofrecent,eventshehadnotformulatedaplanuponthatscore。Hewas,desperatelyinlove,andwouldhavetakengreatchancestowin,herunderordinarycircumstances,butnow——nowwhat?Supposing,shehadfoundoutsomething?Supposingshe,too,wrotehimand,toldhimthatsheknewall——thatshewouldhavenothingmoreto,dowithhim?Itwouldbejustlikethistohappenasthingswere,goingnow。Meanwhilehehadnotsentthemoney。 Hestrolledupanddownthepolishedflooroftheresort,his,handsinhispockets,hisbrowwrinkled,hismouthset。Hewas,gettingsomevaguecomfortoutofagoodcigar,butitwasno,panaceafortheillwhichaffectedhim。Everyonceinawhilehe,wouldclinchhisfingersandtaphisfoot——signsofthestirring,mentalprocesshewasundergoing。Hiswholenaturewas,vigorouslyandpowerfullyshakenup,andhewasfindingwhat,limitsthemindhastoendurance。Hedrankmorebrandyandsoda,thanhehadanyeveninginmonths。Hewasaltogetherafine,exampleofgreatmentalperturbation。 Forallhisstudynothingcameoftheeveningexceptthis——he,sentthemoney。Itwaswithgreatopposition,aftertwoorthree,hoursofthemosturgentmentalaffirmationanddenial,thatat,lasthegotanenvelope,placedinittherequestedamount,and,slowlysealeditup。 ThenhecalledHarry,theboyofallworkaroundtheplace。 “Youtakethistothisaddress,“hesaid,handinghimthe,envelope,“andgiveittoMrs。Hurstwood。” “Yes,sir,“saidtheboy。 “Ifsheisn’ttherebringitback。” “Yes,sir“ “You’veseenmywife?”heaskedasaprecautionarymeasureasthe,boyturnedtogo。 “Oh,yes,sir。Iknowher。” “Allright,now。Hurryrightback。” “Anyanswer?” “Iguessnot。” Theboyhastenedawayandthemanagerfelltohismusings。Now,hehaddoneit。Therewasnousespeculatingoverthat。Hewas,beatenforto-nightandhemightjustaswellmakethebestof,it。But,oh,thewretchednessofbeingforcedthisway!Hecould,seehermeetingtheboyatthedoorandsmilingsardonically。 Shewouldtaketheenvelopeandknowthatshehadtriumphed。If,heonlyhadthatletterbackhewouldn’tsendit。Hebreathed,heavilyandwipedthemoisturefromhisface。 Forrelief,hearoseandjoinedinconversationwithafew,friendswhoweredrinking。Hetriedtogettheinterestof,thingsabouthim,butitwasnottobe。Allthetimehis,thoughtswouldrunouttohishomeandseethescenebeing,thereinenacted。Allthetimehewaswonderingwhatshewould,saywhentheboyhandedhertheenvelope。 Inaboutanhourandthree-quarterstheboyreturned。Hehad,evidentlydeliveredthepackage,for,ashecameup,hemadeno,signoftakinganythingoutofhispocket。 “Well?”saidHurstwood。 “Igaveittoher。” “Mywife?” “Yes,sir。” “Anyanswer?” “Shesaiditwashightime。” Hurstwoodscowledfiercely。 Therewasnomoretobedoneuponthatscorethatnight。Hewent,onbroodingoverhissituationuntilmidnight,whenherepaired,againtothePalmerHouse。Hewonderedwhatthemorningwould,bringforth,andsleptanythingbutsoundlyuponit。 Nextdayhewentagaintotheofficeandopenedhismail,suspiciousandhopefulofitscontents。NowordfromCarrie。 Nothingfromhiswife,whichwaspleasant。 Thefactthathehadsentthemoneyandthatshehadreceivedit,workedtotheeaseofhismind,for,asthethoughtthathehad,doneitreceded,hischagrinatitgrewlessandhishopeof,peacemore。Hefancied,ashesatathisdesk,thatnothing,wouldbedoneforaweekortwo。Meanwhile,hewouldhavetime,tothink。 ThisprocessofTHINKINGbeganbyareversiontoCarrieandthe,arrangementbywhichhewastogetherawayfromDrouet。How,aboutthatnow?Hispainatherfailuretomeetorwritehim,rapidlyincreasedashedevotedhimselftothissubject。He,decidedtowritehercareoftheWestSidePost-officeandask,foranexplanation,aswellastohavehermeethim。Thethought,thatthisletterwouldprobablynotreachheruntilMondaychafed,himexceedingly。Hemustgetsomespeediermethod——buthow? Hethoughtuponitforahalf-hour,notcontemplatingamessenger,oracabdirecttothehouse,owingtotheexposureofit,but,findingthattimewasslippingawaytonopurpose,hewrotethe,letterandthenbegantothinkagain。 Thehoursslippedby,andwiththemthepossibilityoftheunion,hehadcontemplated。HehadthoughttobejoyouslyaidingCarrie,bynowinthetaskofjoiningherintereststohis,andhereit,wasafternoonandnothingdone。Threeo’clockcame,four,five,six,andnoletter。Thehelplessmanagerpacedthefloorand,grimlyenduredthegloomofdefeat。HesawabusySaturday,usheredout,theSabbathin,andnothingdone。Allday,thebar,beingclosed,hebroodedalone,shutoutfromhome,fromthe,excitementofhisresort,fromCarrie,andwithouttheabilityto,alterhisconditiononeiota。ItwastheworstSundayhehad,spentinhislife。 InMonday’ssecondmailheencounteredaverylegal-looking,letter,whichheldhisinterestforsometime。Itborethe,imprintofthelawofficesofMcGregor,JamesandHay,andwitha,veryformal“DearSir,“and“Webegtostate,“wentontoinform,himbrieflythattheyhadbeenretainedbyMrs。JuliaHurstwood,toadjustcertainmatterswhichrelatedtohersustenanceand,propertyrights,andwouldhekindlycallandseethemaboutthe,matteratonce。 Hereaditthroughcarefullyseveraltimes,andthenmerelyshook,hishead。Itseemedasifhisfamilytroubleswerejust,beginning。 “Well!”hesaidafteratime,quiteaudibly,“Idon’tknow。” Thenhefoldeditupandputitinhispocket。 ToaddtohismiserytherewasnowordfromCarrie。Hewasquite,certainnowthatsheknewhewasmarriedandwasangeredathis,perfidy。Hislossseemedallthemorebitternowthatheneeded,hermost。Hethoughthewouldgooutandinsistonseeingherif,shedidnotsendhimwordofsomesortsoon。Hewasreally,affectedmostmiserablyofallbythisdesertion。Hehadloved,herearnestlyenough,butnowthatthepossibilityoflosingher,staredhiminthefacesheseemedmuchmoreattractive。He,reallypinedforaword,andlookedoutuponherwithhismind’s,eyeinthemostwistfulmanner。Hedidnotproposetoloseher,whatevershemightthink。Comewhatmight,hewouldadjustthis,matter,andsoon。Hewouldgotoherandtellherallhisfamily,complications。Hewouldexplaintoherjustwherehestoodand,howmuchheneededher。Surelyshecouldn’tgobackonhimnow? Itwasn’tpossible。Hewouldpleaduntilherangerwouldmelt—— untilshewouldforgivehim。 Suddenlyhethought:“Supposingsheisn’toutthere——supposeshe,hasgone?” Hewasforcedtotakehisfeet。Itwastoomuchtothinkofand,sitstill。 Nevertheless,hisrousingavailedhimnothing。 OnTuesdayitwasthesameway。Hedidmanagetobringhimself,intothemoodtogoouttoCarrie,butwhenhegotinOgdenPlace,hethoughthesawamanwatchinghimandwentaway。Hedidnot,gowithinablockofthehouse。 Oneofthegallingincidentsofthisvisitwasthathecameback,onaRandolphStreetcar,andwithoutnoticingarrivedalmost,oppositethebuildingoftheconcernwithwhichhissonwas,connected。Thissentapangthroughhisheart。Hehadcalledon,hisboythereseveraltimes。Nowtheladhadnotsenthima,word。Hisabsencedidnotseemtobenoticedbyeitherofhis,children。Well,well,fortuneplaysamanqueertricks。Hegot,backtohisofficeandjoinedinaconversationwithfriends。It,wasasifidlechatterdeadenedthesenseofmisery。 ThatnighthedinedatRector’sandreturnedatoncetohis,office。Inthebustleandshowofthelatterwashisonly,relief。Hetroubledovermanylittledetailsandtalked,perfunctorilytoeverybody。Hestayedathisdesklongafterall,othershadgone,andonlyquitteditwhenthenightwatchmanon,hisroundpulledatthefrontdoortoseeifitwassafely,locked。 OnWednesdayhereceivedanotherpolitenotefromMcGregor,James,andHay。Itread: “DearSir:Webegtoinformyouthatweareinstructedtowait,untilto-morrow(Thursday)atoneo’clock,beforefilingsuit,againstyou,onbehalfofMrs。JuliaHurstwood,fordivorceand,alimony。Ifwedonothearfromyoubeforethattimeweshall,considerthatyoudonotwishtocompromisethematterinanyway,andactaccordingly。”Verytrulyyours,etc。” “Compromise!”exclaimedHurstwoodbitterly。”Compromise!” Againheshookhishead。 Sohereitwasspreadoutclearbeforehim,andnowheknewwhat,toexpect。Ifhedidn’tgoandseethemtheywouldsuehim,promptly。Ifhedid,hewouldbeofferedtermsthatwouldmake,hisbloodboil。Hefoldedtheletterandputitwiththeother,one。Thenheputonhishatandwentforaturnabouttheblock。 ChapterXXVI THEAMBASSADORFALLEN——ASEARCHFORTHEGATE Carrie,leftalonebyDrouet,listenedtohisretreatingsteps,scarcelyrealisingwhathadhappened。Sheknewthathehad,stormedout。Itwassomemomentsbeforeshequestionedwhether,hewouldreturn,notnowexactly,butever。Shelookedaround,herupontherooms,outofwhichtheeveninglightwasdying,and,wonderedwhyshedidnotfeelquitethesametowardsthem。She,wentovertothedresserandstruckamatch,lightingthegas。 Thenshewentbacktotherockertothink。 Itwassometimebeforeshecouldcollectherthoughts,butwhen,shedid,thistruthbegantotakeonimportance。Shewasquite,alone。SupposeDrouetdidnotcomeback?Supposesheshould,neverhearanythingmoreofhim?Thisfinearrangementof,chamberswouldnotlastlong。Shewouldhavetoquitthem。 Tohercredit,beitsaid,sheneveroncecountedonHurstwood。 Shecouldonlyapproachthatsubjectwithapangofsorrowand,regret。Foratruth,shewasrathershockedandfrightenedby,thisevidenceofhumandepravity。Hewouldhavetrickedher,withoutturninganeyelash。Shewouldhavebeenledintoanewer,andworsesituation。Andyetshecouldnotkeepoutthepictures,ofhislooksandmanners。Onlythisonedeedseemedstrangeand,miserable。Itcontrastedsharplywithallshefeltandknew,concerningtheman。 Butshewasalone。Thatwasthegreaterthoughtjustatpresent。 Howaboutthat?Wouldshegoouttoworkagain?Wouldshebegin,tolookaroundinthebusinessdistrict?Thestage!Oh,yes。 Drouethadspokenaboutthat。Wasthereanyhopethere?She,movedtoandfro,indeepandvariedthoughts,whiletheminutes,slippedawayandnightfellcompletely。Shehadhadnothingto,eat,andyetthereshesat,thinkingitover。 Sherememberedthatshewashungryandwenttothelittle,cupboardintherearroomwhereweretheremainsofoneoftheir,breakfasts。Shelookedatthesethingswithcertainmisgivings。 Thecontemplationoffoodhadmoresignificancethanusual。 Whileshewaseatingshebegantowonderhowmuchmoneyshehad。 Itstruckherasexceedinglyimportant,andwithoutadoshewent,tolookforherpurse。Itwasonthedresser,andinitwere,sevendollarsinbillsandsomechange。Shequailedasshe,thoughtoftheinsignificanceoftheamountandrejoicedbecause,therentwaspaiduntiltheendofthemonth。Shebeganalsoto,thinkwhatshewouldhavedoneifshehadgoneoutintothe,streetwhenshefirststarted。Bythesideofthatsituation,as,shelookedatitnow,thepresentseemedagreeable。Shehada,littletimeatleast,andthen,perhaps,everythingwouldcome,outallright,afterall。 Drouethadgone,butwhatofit?Hedidnotseemseriouslyangry。 Heonlyactedasifhewerehuffy。Hewouldcomeback——ofcourse,hewould。Therewashiscaneinthecorner。Herewasoneofhis,collars。Hehadlefthislightovercoatinthewardrobe。She,lookedaboutandtriedtoassureherselfwiththesightofa,dozensuchdetails,but,alas,thesecondarythoughtarrived。 Supposinghedidcomeback。Thenwhat? Herewasanotherpropositionnearly,ifnotquite,asdisturbing。 Shewouldhavetotalkwithandexplaintohim。Hewouldwant,hertoadmitthathewasright。Itwouldbeimpossibleforher,tolivewithhim。 OnFridayCarrierememberedherappointmentwithHurstwood,and,thepassingofthehourwhensheshould,byallrightofpromise,havebeeninhiscompanyservedtokeepthecalamitywhichhad,befallenherexceedinglyfreshandclear。Inhernervousnessand,stressofmindshefeltitnecessarytoact,andconsequentlyput,onabrownstreetdress,andateleveno’clockstartedtovisit,thebusinessportiononceagain。Shemustlookforwork。 Therain,whichthreatenedattwelveandbeganatone,served,equallywelltocausehertoretraceherstepsandremainwithin,doorsasitdidtoreduceHurstwood’sspiritsandgivehima,wretchedday。 ThemorrowwasSaturday,ahalf-holidayinmanybusiness,quarters,andbesidesitwasabalmy,radiantday,withthetrees,andgrassshiningexceedinglygreenaftertherainofthenight,before。Whenshewentoutthesparrowsweretwitteringmerrily,injoyouschoruses。Shecouldnothelpfeeling,asshelooked,acrossthelovelypark,thatlifewasajoyousthingforthose,whodidnotneedtoworry,andshewishedoverandoverthat,somethingmightinterferenowtopreserveforherthecomfortable,statewhichshehadoccupied。ShedidnotwantDrouetorhis,moneywhenshethoughtofit,noranythingmoretodowith,Hurstwood,butonlythecontentandeaseofmindshehad,experienced,for,afterall,shehadbeenhappy——happier,at,least,thanshewasnowwhenconfrontedbythenecessityof,makingherwayalone。 Whenshearrivedinthebusinesspartitwasquiteeleven,o’clock,andthebusinesshadlittlelongertorun。Shedidnot,realisethisatfirst,beingaffectedbysomeoftheolddistress,whichwasaresultofherearlieradventureintothisstrenuous,andexactingquarter。Shewanderedabout,assuringherselfthat,shewasmakinguphermindtolookforsomething,andatthesame,timefeelingthatperhapsitwasnotnecessarytobeinsuch,hasteaboutit。Thethingwasdifficulttoencounter,andshe,hadafewdays。Besides,shewasnotsurethatshewasreally,facetofaceagainwiththebitterproblemofself-sustenance。 Anyhow,therewasonechangeforthebetter。Sheknewthatshe,hadimprovedinappearance。Hermannerhadvastlychanged。Her,clotheswerebecoming,andmen——well-dressedmen,someofthe,kindwhobeforehadgazedatherindifferentlyfrombehindtheir,polishedrailingsandimposingofficepartitions——nowgazedinto,herfacewithasoftlightintheireyes。Inaway,shefeltthe,powerandsatisfactionofthething,butitdidnotwholly,reassureher。Shelookedfornothingsavewhatmightcome,legitimatelyandwithouttheappearanceofspecialfavour。She,wantedsomething,butnomanshouldbuyherbyfalse,protestationsorfavour。Sheproposedtoearnherliving,honestly。 “ThisstoreclosesatoneonSaturdays,“wasapleasingand,satisfactorylegendtoseeupondoorswhichshefeltsheoughtto,enterandinquireforwork。Itgaveheranexcuse,andafter,encounteringquiteanumberofthem,andnotingthattheclock,registered12。15,shedecidedthatitwouldbenousetoseek,furtherto-day,soshegotonacarandwenttoLincolnPark。 Therewasalwayssomethingtoseethere——theflowers,the,animals,thelake——andsheflatteredherselfthatonMondayshe,wouldbeupbetimesandsearching。Besides,manythingsmight,happenbetweennowandMonday。 Sundaypassedwithequaldoubts,worries,assurances,andheaven,knowswhatvagariesofmindandspirit。Everyhalf-hourinthe,daythethoughtwouldcometohermostsharply,likethetailof,aswishingwhip,thataction——immediateaction——wasimperative。 Atothertimesshewouldlookaboutherandassureherselfthat,thingswerenotsobad——thatcertainlyshewouldcomeoutsafe,andsound。AtsuchtimesshewouldthinkofDrouet’sadvice,aboutgoingonthestage,andsawsomechanceforherselfinthat,quarter。Shedecidedtotakeupthatopportunityonthemorrow。 Accordingly,shearoseearlyMondaymorninganddressedherself,carefully。Shedidnotknowjusthowsuchapplicationswere,made,butshetookittobeamatterwhichrelatedmoredirectly,tothetheatrebuildings。Allyouhadtodowastoinquireof,someoneaboutthetheatreforthemanagerandaskfora,position。Iftherewasanything,youmightgetit,or,atleast,hecouldtellyouhow。 Shehadhadnoexperiencewiththisclassofindividuals,whatsoever,anddidnotknowthesalacityandhumourofthe,theatricaltribe。SheonlyknewofthepositionwhichMr。Hale,occupied,but,ofallthings,shedidnotwishtoencounterthat,personage,onaccountofherintimacywithhiswife。 Therewas,however,atthistime,onetheatre,theChicagoOpera,House,whichwasconsiderablyinthepubliceye,anditsmanager,DavidA。Henderson,hadafairlocalreputation。Carriehadseen,oneortwoelaborateperformancesthereandhadheardofseveral,others。SheknewnothingofHendersonnorofthemethodsof,applying,butsheinstinctivelyfeltthatthiswouldbealikely,place,andaccordinglystrolledaboutinthatneighbourhood。She,camebravelyenoughtotheshowyentranceway,withthepolished,andbegildedlobby,setwithframedpicturesoutofthecurrent,attraction,leadinguptothequietbox-office,butshecouldget,nofurther。Anotedcomicoperacomedianwasholdingforththat,week,andtheairofdistinctionandprosperityoverawedher。 Shecouldnotimaginethattherewouldbeanythinginsucha,loftysphereforher。Shealmosttrembledattheaudacitywhich,mighthavecarriedherontoaterriblerebuff。Shecouldfind,heartonlytolookatthepictureswhichwereshowyandthenwalk,out。Itseemedtoherasifshehadmadeasplendidescapeand,thatitwouldbefoolhardytothinkofapplyinginthatquarter,again。 Thislittleexperiencesettledherhuntingforoneday。She,lookedaroundelsewhere,butitwasfromtheoutside。Shegot,thelocationofseveralplayhousesfixedinhermind——notablythe,GrandOperaHouseandMcVickar’s,bothofwhichwereleadingin,attractions——andthencameaway。Herspiritswerematerially,reduced,owingtothenewlyrestoredsenseofmagnitudeofthe,greatinterestsandtheinsignificanceofherclaimsupon,society,suchassheunderstoodthemtobe。 ThatnightshewasvisitedbyMrs。Hale,whosechatterand,protractedstaymadeitimpossibletodwelluponherpredicament,orthefortuneoftheday。Beforeretiring,however,shesat,downtothink,andgaveherselfuptothemostgloomy,forebodings。Drouethadnotputinanappearance。Shehadhad,nowordfromanyquarter,shehadspentadollarofherprecious,suminprocuringfoodandpayingcarfare。Itwasevidentthat,shewouldnotendurelong。Besides,shehaddiscoveredno,resource。 InthissituationherthoughtswentouttohersisterinVan,BurenStreet,whomshehadnotseensincethenightofher,flight,andtoherhomeatColumbiaCity,whichseemednowapart,ofsomethingthatcouldnotbeagain。Shelookedfornorefuge,inthatdirection。Nothingbutsorrowwasbroughtherby,thoughtsofHurstwood,whichwouldreturn。Thathecouldhave,chosentodupeherinsoreadyamannerseemedacruelthing。 Tuesdaycame,andwithitappropriateindecisionandspeculation。 Shewasinnomood,afterherfailureofthedaybefore,to,hastenforthuponherwork-seekingerrand,andyetsherebuked,herselfforwhatsheconsideredherweaknessthedaybefore。 AccordinglyshestartedouttorevisittheChicagoOperaHouse,butpossessedscarcelyenoughcouragetoapproach。 Shedidmanagetoinquireatthebox-office,however。 “Managerofthecompanyorthehouse?”askedthesmartlydressed,individualwhotookcareofthetickets。Hewasfavourably,impressedbyCarrie’slooks。 “Idon’tknow,“saidCarrie,takenbackbythequestion。 “Youcouldn’tseethemanagerofthehouseto-day,anyhow,“ volunteeredtheyoungman。”He’soutoftown。” Henotedherpuzzledlook,andthenadded:“Whatisityouwish,toseeabout?” “Iwanttoseeaboutgettingaposition,“sheanswered。 “You’dbetterseethemanagerofthecompany,“hereturned,“but,heisn’therenow。” “Whenwillhebein?”askedCarrie,somewhatrelievedbythis,information。 “Well,youmightfindhiminbetweenelevenandtwelve。He’s,hereaftertwoo’clock。” Carriethankedhimandwalkedbrisklyout,whiletheyoungman,gazedafterherthroughoneofthesidewindowsofhisgilded,coop。 “Good-looking,“hesaidtohimself,andproceededtovisionsof,condescensionsonherpartwhichwereexceedinglyflatteringto,himself。 Oneoftheprincipalcomedycompaniesofthedaywasplayingan,engagementattheGrandOperaHouse。HereCarrieaskedtosee,themanagerofthecompany。Shelittleknewthetrivial,authorityofthisindividual,orthathadtherebeenavacancyan,actorwouldhavebeensentonfromNewYorktofillit。 “Hisofficeisupstairs,“saidamaninthebox-office。 Severalpersonswereinthemanager’soffice,twoloungingneara,window,anothertalkingtoanindividualsittingataroll-top,desk——themanager。Carrieglancednervouslyabout,andbeganto,fearthatsheshouldhavetomakeherappealbeforetheassembled,company,twoofwhom——theoccupantsofthewindow——werealready,observinghercarefully。 “Ican’tdoit,“themanagerwassaying;“it’saruleofMr。 Frohman’snevertoallowvisitorsbackofthestage。No,no!”