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类别:其他 作者:Theodore Dreiser / Bantam Clas字数:23191更新时间:18/12/21 13:06:44
Carrietimidlywaited,standing。Therewerechairs,butnoone,motionedhertobeseated。Theindividualtowhomthemanager,hadbeentalkingwentawayquitecrestfallen。Thatluminary,gazedearnestlyatsomepapersbeforehim,asiftheywereofthe,greatestconcern。 “Didyouseethatinthe’Herald’thismorningaboutNatGoodwin,Harris?” “No,“saidthepersonaddressed。”Whatwasit?” “MadequiteacurtainaddressatHooley’slastnight。Better,lookitup。” Harrisreachedovertoatableandbegantolookforthe,“Herald。” “Whatisit?”saidthemanagertoCarrie,apparentlynoticingher,forthefirsttime。Hethoughthewasgoingtobeheldupfor,freetickets。 Carriesummonedupallhercourage,whichwaslittleatbest。 Sherealisedthatshewasanovice,andfeltasifarebuffwere,certain。Ofthisshewassosurethatsheonlywishednowto,pretendshehadcalledforadvice。 “Canyoutellmehowtogoaboutgettingonthestage?” Itwasthebestwayafteralltohavegoneaboutthematter。She,wasinteresting,inamanner,totheoccupantofthechair,and,thesimplicityofherrequestandattitudetookhisfancy。He,smiled,asdidtheothersintheroom,who,however,madesome,slightefforttoconcealtheirhumour。 “Idon’tknow,“heanswered,lookingherbrazenlyover。”Have,youeverhadanyexperienceuponthestage?” “Alittle,“answeredCarrie。”Ihavetakenpartinamateur,performances。” Shethoughtshehadtomakesomesortofshowinginorderto,retainhisinterest。 “Neverstudiedforthestage?”hesaid,puttingonanair,intendedasmuchtoimpresshisfriendswithhisdiscretionas,Carrie。 “No,sir。” “Well,Idon’tknow,“heanswered,tippinglazilybackinhis,chairwhileshestoodbeforehim。”Whatmakesyouwanttogeton,thestage?” Shefeltabashedattheman’sdaring,butcouldonlysmilein,answertohisengagingsmirk,andsay: “Ineedtomakealiving。” “Oh,“heanswered,rathertakenbyhertrimappearance,and,feelingasifhemightscrapeupanacquaintancewithher。 “That’sagoodreason,isn’tit?Well,Chicagoisnotagood,placeforwhatyouwanttodo。YououghttobeinNewYork。 There’smorechancethere。Youcouldhardlyexpecttoget,startedouthere。”Carriesmiledgenially,gratefulthathe,shouldcondescendtoadviseherevensomuch。Henoticedthe,smile,andputaslightlydifferentconstructiononit。He,thoughthesawaneasychanceforalittleflirtation。 “Sitdown,“hesaid,pullingachairforwardfromthesideofhis,deskanddroppinghisvoicesothatthetwomenintheroom,shouldnothear。Thosetwogaveeachotherthesuggestionofa,wink。 “Well,I’llbegoing,Barney,“saidone,breakingawayandso,addressingthemanager。”Seeyouthisafternoon。” “Allright,“saidthemanager。 Theremainingindividualtookupapaperasiftoread。 “Didyouhaveanyideawhatsortofpartyouwouldliketoget?” askedthemanagersoftly。 “Oh,no,“saidCarrie。”Iwouldtakeanythingtobeginwith。” “Isee,“hesaid。”Doyoulivehereinthecity?” “Yes,sir。” Themanagersmiledmostblandly。 “Haveyouevertriedtogetinasachorusgirl?”heasked,assumingamoreconfidentialair。 Carriebegantofeelthattherewassomethingexuberantand,unnaturalinhismanner。 “No,“shesaid。 “That’sthewaymostgirlsbegin,“hewenton,“whogoonthe,stage。It’sagoodwaytogetexperience。” Hewasturningonheraglanceofthecompanionableand,persuasivemanner。 “Ididn’tknowthat,“saidCarrie。 “It’sadifficultthing,“hewenton,“butthere’salwaysa,chance,youknow。”Then,asifhesuddenlyremembered,hepulled,outhiswatchandconsultedit。”I’veanappointmentattwo,“he,said,“andI’vegottogotolunchnow。Wouldyoucaretocome,anddinewithme?Wecantalkitoverthere。” “Oh,no,“saidCarrie,thewholemotiveofthemanflashingon,heratonce。”Ihaveanengagementmyself。” “That’stoobad,“hesaid,realisingthathehadbeenalittle,beforehandinhisofferandthatCarriewasabouttogoaway。 “Comeinlater。Imayknowofsomething。” “Thankyou,“sheanswered,withsometrepidationandwentout。 “Shewasgood-looking,wasn’tshe?”saidthemanager’scompanion,whohadnotcaughtallthedetailsofthegamehehadplayed。 “Yes,inaway,“saidtheother,soretothinkthegamehadbeen,lost。”She’dnevermakeanactress,though。Justanotherchorus,girl——that’sall。” Thislittleexperiencenearlydestroyedherambitiontocallupon,themanagerattheChicagoOperaHouse,butshedecidedtodoso,afteratime。Hewasofamoresedateturnofmind。Hesaidat,oncethattherewasnoopeningofanysort,andseemedto,considerhersearchfoolish。 “Chicagoisnoplacetogetastart,“hesaid。”Yououghttobe,inNewYork。” Stillshepersisted,andwenttoMcVickar’s,whereshecouldnot,findanyone。”TheOldHomestead“wasrunningthere,butthe,persontowhomshewasreferredwasnottobefound。 Theselittleexpeditionstookuphertimeuntilquitefour,o’clock,whenshewaswearyenoughtogohome。Shefeltasif,sheoughttocontinueandinquireelsewhere,buttheresultsso,farweretoodispiriting。ShetookthecarandarrivedatOgden,Placeinthree-quartersofanhour,butdecidedtorideontothe,WestSidebranchofthePost-office,whereshewasaccustomedto,receiveHurstwood’sletters。Therewasonetherenow,written,Saturday,whichshetoreopenandreadwithmingledfeelings。 Therewassomuchwarmthinitandsuchtensecomplaintather,havingfailedtomeethim,andhersubsequentsilence,thatshe,ratherpitiedtheman。Thathelovedherwasevidentenough。 Thathehadwishedanddaredtodoso,marriedashewas,wasthe,evil。Shefeltasifthethingdeservedananswer,and,consequentlydecidedthatshewouldwriteandlethimknowthat,sheknewofhismarriedstateandwasjustlyincensedathis,deception。Shewouldtellhimthatitwasalloverbetweenthem。 Atherroom,thewordingofthismissiveoccupiedherforsome,time,forshefelltothetaskatonce。Itwasmostdifficult。 “YoudonotneedtohavemeexplainwhyIdidnotmeetyou,“she,wroteinpart。”Howcouldyoudeceivemeso?Youcannotexpect,metohaveanythingmoretodowithyou。Iwouldn’tunderany,circumstances。Oh,howcouldyouactso?”sheaddedinaburst,offeeling。”Youhavecausedmemoremiserythanyoucanthink。 Ihopeyouwillgetoveryourinfatuationforme。Wemustnot,meetanymore。Good-bye。” Shetooktheletterthenextmorning,andatthecornerdropped,itreluctantlyintotheletter-box,stilluncertainastowhether,sheshoulddosoornot。Thenshetookthecarandwentdown,town。 Thiswasthedullseasonwiththedepartmentstores,butshewas,listenedtowithmoreconsiderationthanwasusuallyaccordedto,youngwomenapplicants,owingtoherneatandattractive,appearance。Shewasaskedthesameoldquestionswithwhichshe,wasalreadyfamiliar。 “Whatcanyoudo?Haveyoueverworkedinaretailstorebefore? Areyouexperienced?” AtTheFair,SeeandCompany’s,andallthegreatstoresitwas,muchthesame。Itwasthedullseason,shemightcomeina,littlelater,possiblytheywouldliketohaveher。 Whenshearrivedatthehouseattheendoftheday,wearyand,disheartened,shediscoveredthatDrouethadbeenthere。His,umbrellaandlightovercoatweregone。Shethoughtshemissed,otherthings,butcouldnotbesure。Everythinghadnotbeen,taken。 Sohisgoingwascrystallisingintostaying。Whatwasshetodo,now?Evidentlyshewouldbefacingtheworldinthesameoldway,withinadayortwo。Herclotheswouldgetpoor。Sheputher,twohandstogetherinhercustomaryexpressivewayandpressed,herfingers。Largetearsgatheredinhereyesandbrokehot,acrosshercheeks。Shewasalone,verymuchalone。 Drouetreallyhadcalled,butitwaswithaverydifferentmind,fromthatwhichCarriehadimagined。Heexpectedtofindher,to,justifyhisreturnbyclaimingthathecametogettheremaining,portionofhiswardrobe,andbeforehegotawayagaintopatchup,apeace。 Accordingly,whenhearrived,hewasdisappointedtofindCarrie,out。Hetrifledabout,hopingthatshewassomewhereinthe,neighbourhoodandwouldsoonreturn。Heconstantlylistened,expectingtohearherfootonthestair。 Whenhedidso,itwashisintentiontomakebelievethathehad,justcomeinandwasdisturbedatbeingcaught。Thenhewould,explainhisneedofhisclothesandfindouthowthingsstood。 Waitashedid,however,Carriedidnotcome。Frompottering,aroundamongthedrawers,inmomentaryexpectationofherarrival,hechangedtolookingoutofthewindow,andfromthattoresting,himselfintherocking-chair。StillnoCarrie。Hebegantogrow,restlessandlitacigar。Afterthathewalkedthefloor。Then,helookedoutofthewindowandsawcloudsgathering。He,rememberedanappointmentatthree。Hebegantothinkthatit,wouldbeuselesstowait,andgotholdofhisumbrellaandlight,coat,intendingtotakethesethings,anyway。Itwouldscare,her,hehoped。To-morrowhewouldcomebackfortheothers。He,wouldfindouthowthingsstood。 Ashestartedtogohefelttrulysorrythathehadmissedher。 Therewasalittlepictureofheronthewall,showingher,arrayedinthelittlejackethehadfirstboughther——herfacea,littlemorewistfulthanhehadseenitlately。Hewasreally,touchedbyit,andlookedintotheeyesofitwitharatherrare,feelingforhim。 “Youdidn’tdomeright,Cad,“hesaid,asifhewereaddressing,herintheflesh。 Thenhewenttothedoor,tookagoodlookaroundandwentout。 ChapterXXVII WHENWATERSENGULFUSWEREACHFORASTAR Itwaswhenhereturnedfromhisdisturbedstrollaboutthe,streets,afterreceivingthedecisivenotefromMcGregor,James,andHay,thatHurstwoodfoundtheletterCarriehadwrittenhim,thatmorning。Hethrilledintenselyashenotedthehandwriting,andrapidlytoreitopen。 “Then,“hethought,“shelovesmeorshewouldnothavewritten,tomeatall。” Hewasslightlydepressedatthetenorofthenoteforthefirst,fewminutes,butsoonrecovered。”Shewouldn’twriteatallif,shedidn’tcareforme。” Thiswashisoneresourceagainstthedepressionwhichheldhim。 Hecouldextractlittlefromthewordingoftheletter,butthe,spirithethoughtheknew。 Therewasreallysomethingexceedinglyhuman——ifnotpathetic——in,hisbeingthusrelievedbyaclearlywordedreproof。Hewhohad,forsolongremainedsatisfiedwithhimselfnowlookedoutsideof,himselfforcomfort——andtosuchasource。Themysticcordsof,affection!Howtheybindusall。 Thecolourcametohischeeks。Forthemomentheforgotthe,letterfromMcGregor,JamesandHay。Ifhecouldonlyhave,Carrie,perhapshecouldgetoutofthewholeentanglement—— perhapsitwouldnotmatter。Hewouldn’tcarewhathiswifedid,withherselfifonlyhemightnotloseCarrie。Hestoodupand,walkedabout,dreaminghisdelightfuldreamofalifecontinued,withthislovelypossessorofhisheart。 Itwasnotlong,however,beforetheoldworrywasbackfor,consideration,andwithitwhatweariness!Hethoughtofthe,morrowandthesuit。Hehaddonenothing,andherewasthe,afternoonslippingaway。Itwasnowaquarteroffour。Atfive,theattorneyswouldhavegonehome。Hestillhadthemorrow,untilnoon。Evenashethought,thelastfifteenminutespassed,awayanditwasfive。Thenheabandonedthethoughtofseeing,themanymorethatdayandturnedtoCarrie。 Itistobeobservedthatthemandidnotjustifyhimselfto,himself。Hewasnottroublingaboutthat。Hiswholethoughtwas,thepossibilityofpersuadingCarrie。Nothingwaswronginthat。 Helovedherdearly。Theirmutualhappinessdependeduponit。 WouldthatDrouetwereonlyaway! Whilehewasthinkingthuselatedly,herememberedthathewanted,somecleanlineninthemorning。 Thishepurchased,togetherwithahalf-dozenties,andwentto,thePalmerHouse。AsheenteredhethoughthesawDrouet,ascendingthestairswithakey。SurelynotDrouet!Thenhe,thought,perhapstheyhadchangedtheirabodetemporarily。He,wentstraightuptothedesk。 “IsMr。Drouetstoppinghere?”heaskedoftheclerk。 “Ithinkheis,“saidthelatter,consultinghisprivateregistry,list。”Yes。” “Isthatso?”exclaimedHurstwood,otherwiseconcealinghis,astonishment。”Alone?”headded。 “Yes,“saidtheclerk。 Hurstwoodturnedawayandsethislipssoasbesttoexpressand,concealhisfeelings。 “How’sthat?”hethought。”They’vehadarow。” Hehastenedtohisroomwithrisingspiritsandchangedhis,linen。Ashedidso,hemadeuphismindthatifCarriewas,alone,orifshehadgonetoanotherplace,itbehoovedhimto,findout。Hedecidedtocallatonce。 “IknowwhatI’lldo,“hethought。”I’llgotothedoorandask,ifMr。Drouetisathome。Thatwillbringoutwhetherheis,thereornotandwhereCarrieis。” Hewasalmostmovedtosomemusculardisplayashethoughtofit。 Hedecidedtogoimmediatelyaftersupper。 Oncomingdownfromhisroomatsix,helookedcarefullyaboutto,seeifDrouetwaspresentandthenwentouttolunch。Hecould,scarcelyeat,however,hewassoanxioustobeabouthiserrand。 BeforestartinghethoughtitwelltodiscoverwhereDrouetwould,be,andreturnedtohishotel。 “HasMr。Drouetgoneout?”heaskedoftheclerk。 “No,“answeredthelatter,“he’sinhisroom。Doyouwishto,sendupacard?” “No,I’llcallaroundlater,“answeredHurstwood,andstrolled,out。 HetookaMadisoncarandwentdirecttoOgdenPlacethistime,walkingboldlyuptothedoor。Thechambermaidansweredhis,knock。 “IsMr。Drouetin?”saidHurstwoodblandly。 “Heisoutofthecity,“saidthegirl,whohadheardCarrietell,thistoMrs。Hale。 “IsMrs。Drouetin?” “No,shehasgonetothetheatre。” “Isthatso?”saidHurstwood,considerablytakenback;then,as,ifburdenedwithsomethingimportant,“Youdon’tknowtowhich,theatre?” Thegirlreallyhadnoideawhereshehadgone,butnotliking,Hurstwood,andwishingtocausehimtrouble,answered:“Yes,Hooley’s。” “Thankyou,“returnedthemanager,and,tippinghishatslightly,wentaway。 “I’lllookinatHooley’s,“thoughthe,butasamatteroffact,hedidnot。Beforehehadreachedthecentralportionofthe,cityhethoughtthewholematteroveranddecideditwouldbe,useless。AsmuchashelongedtoseeCarrie,heknewshewould,bewithsomeoneanddidnotwishtointrudewithhispleathere。 Alittlelaterhemightdoso——inthemorning。Onlyinthe,morninghehadthelawyerquestionbeforehim。 Thislittlepilgrimagethrewquiteawetblanketuponhisrising,spirits。Hewassoondownagaintohisoldworry,andreached,theresortanxioustofindrelief。Quiteacompanyofgentlemen,weremakingtheplacelivelywiththeirconversation。Agroupof,CookCountypoliticianswereconferringaboutaroundcherry-wood,tableintherearportionoftheroom。Severalyoungmerrymakers,werechatteringatthebarbeforemakingabelatedvisittothe,theatre。Ashabbily-genteelindividual,witharednoseandan,oldhighhat,wassippingaquietglassofalealoneatoneend,ofthebar。Hurstwoodnoddedtothepoliticiansandwentinto,hisoffice。 Aboutteno’clockafriendofhis,Mr。FrankL。Taintor,alocal,sportandracingman,droppedin,andseeingHurstwoodalonein,hisofficecametothedoor。 “Hello,George!”heexclaimed。 “Howareyou,Frank?”saidHurstwood,somewhatrelievedbythe,sightofhim。”Sitdown,“andhemotionedhimtooneofthe,chairsinthelittleroom。 “What’sthematter,George?”askedTaintor。”Youlookalittle,glum。Haven’tlostatthetrack,haveyou?” “I’mnotfeelingverywellto-night。Ihadaslightcoldthe,otherday。” “Takewhiskey,George,“saidTaintor。”Yououghttoknowthat。” Hurstwoodsmiled。 Whiletheywerestillconferringthere,severalotherof,Hurstwood’sfriendsentered,andnotlongaftereleven,the,theatresbeingout,someactorsbegantodropin——amongthemsome,notabilities。 Thenbeganoneofthosepointlesssocialconversationssocommon,inAmericanresortswherethewould-begildedattempttoruboff,giltfromthosewhohaveitinabundance。IfHurstwoodhadone,leaning,itwastowardnotabilities。Heconsideredthat,if,anywhere,hebelongedamongthem。Hewastooproudtotoady,too,keennottostrictlyobservetheplaneheoccupiedwhenthere,werethosepresentwhodidnotappreciatehim,but,insituations,likethepresent,wherehecouldshineasagentlemanandbe,receivedwithoutequivocationasafriendandequalamongmenof,knownability,hewasmostdelighted。Itwasonsuchoccasions,ifever,thathewould“takesomething。”,Whenthesocialflavour,wasstrongenoughhewouldevenunbendtotheextentofdrinking,glassforglasswithhisassociates,punctiliouslyobservinghis,turntopayasifhewereanoutsiderliketheothers。Ifhe,everapproachedintoxication——orratherthatruddywarmthand,comfortablenesswhichprecedesthemoreslovenstate——itwaswhen,individualssuchastheseweregatheredabouthim,whenhewas,oneofacircleofchattingcelebrities。To-night,disturbedas,washisstate,hewasratherrelievedtofindcompany,andnow,thatnotabilitiesweregathered,helaidasidehistroublesfor,thenonce,andjoinedinrightheartily。 Itwasnotlongbeforetheimbibingbegantotell。Storiesbegan,tocropup——thoseever-enduring,drollstorieswhichformthe,majorportionoftheconversationamongAmericanmenundersuch,circumstances。 Twelveo’clockarrived,thehourforclosing,andwithitthe,companytookleave。Hurstwoodshookhandswiththemmost,cordially。Hewasveryroseatephysically。Hehadarrivedat,thatstatewherehismind,thoughclear,was,nevertheless,warm,initsfancies。Hefeltasifhistroubleswerenotvery,serious。Goingintohisoffice,hebegantoturnovercertain,accounts,awaitingthedepartureofthebartendersandthe,cashier,whosoonleft。 Itwasthemanager’sduty,aswellashiscustom,afterallwere,gonetoseethateverythingwassafelyclosedupforthenight。 Asarule,nomoneyexceptthecashtakeninafterbankinghours,waskeptabouttheplace,andthatwaslockedinthesafebythe,cashier,who,withtheowners,wasjointkeeperofthesecret,combination,but,nevertheless,Hurstwoodnightlytookthe,precautiontotrythecashdrawersandthesafeinordertosee,thattheyweretightlyclosed。Thenhewouldlockhisownlittle,officeandsettheproperlightburningnearthesafe,after,whichhewouldtakehisdeparture。 Neverinhisexperiencehadhefoundanythingoutoforder,but,to-night,aftershuttingdownhisdesk,hecameoutandtriedthe,safe。Hiswaywastogiveasharppull。Thistimethedoor,responded。Hewasslightlysurprisedatthat,andlookingin,foundthemoneycasesasleftfortheday,apparently,unprotected。Hisfirstthoughtwas,ofcourse,toinspectthe,drawersandshutthedoor。 “I’llspeaktoMayhewaboutthisto-morrow,“hethought。 Thelatterhadcertainlyimaginedupongoingoutahalf-hour,beforethathehadturnedtheknobonthedoorsoastospring,thelock。Hehadneverfailedtodosobefore。Butto-night,Mayhewhadotherthoughts。Hehadbeenrevolvingtheproblemof,abusinessofhisown。 “I’lllookinhere,“thoughtthemanager,pullingoutthemoney,drawers。Hedidnotknowwhyhewishedtolookinthere。Itwas,quiteasuperfluousaction,whichanothertimemightnothave,happenedatall。 Ashedidso,alayerofbills,inparcelsofathousand,suchas,banksissue,caughthiseye。Hecouldnottellhowmuchthey,represented,butpausedtoviewthem。Thenhepulledoutthe,secondofthecashdrawers。Inthatwerethereceiptsofthe,day。 “Ididn’tknowFitzgeraldandMoyeverleftanymoneythisway,“ hismindsaidtoitself。”Theymusthaveforgottenit。” Helookedattheotherdrawerandpausedagain。 “Countthem,“saidavoiceinhisear。 Heputhishandintothefirstoftheboxesandliftedthestack,lettingtheseparateparcelsfall。Theywerebillsoffiftyand,onehundreddollarsdoneinpackagesofathousand。Hethought,hecountedtensuch。 “Whydon’tIshutthesafe?”hismindsaidtoitself,lingering。 “Whatmakesmepausehere?” Foranswertherecamethestrangestwords: “Didyoueverhavetenthousanddollarsinreadymoney?” Lo,themanagerrememberedthathehadneverhadsomuch。All,hispropertyhadbeenslowlyaccumulated,andnowhiswifeowned,that。Hewasworthmorethanfortythousand,alltold——butshe,wouldgetthat。 Hepuzzledashethoughtofthesethings,thenpushedinthe,drawersandclosedthedoor,pausingwithhishandupontheknob,whichmightsoeasilylockitallbeyondtemptation。Stillhe,paused。Finallyhewenttothewindowsandpulleddownthe,curtains。Thenhetriedthedoor,whichhehadpreviously,locked。Whatwasthisthing,makinghimsuspicious?Whydidhe,wishtomoveaboutsoquietly。Hecamebacktotheendofthe,counterasiftoresthisarmandthink。Thenhewentand,unlockedhislittleofficedoorandturnedonthelight。Healso,openedhisdesk,sittingdownbeforeit,onlytothinkstrange,thoughts。 “Thesafeisopen,“saidavoice。”Thereisjusttheleast,littlecrackinit。Thelockhasnotbeensprung。” Themanagerflounderedamongajumbleofthoughts。Nowallthe,entanglementofthedaycameback。Alsothethoughtthathere,wasasolution。Thatmoneywoulddoit。Ifhehadthatand,Carrie。Heroseupandstoodstock-still,lookingatthefloor。 “Whataboutit?”hismindasked,andforanswerheputhishand,slowlyupandscratchedhishead。 Themanagerwasnofooltobeledblindlyawaybysuchanerrant,propositionasthis,buthissituationwaspeculiar。Winewasin,hisveins。Ithadcreptupintohisheadandgivenhimawarm,viewofthesituation。Italsocolouredthepossibilitiesoften,thousandforhim。Hecouldseegreatopportunitieswiththat。 HecouldgetCarrie。Oh,yes,hecould!Hecouldgetridofhis,wife。Thatletter,too,waswaitingdiscussionto-morrow,morning。Hewouldnotneedtoanswerthat。Hewentbacktothe,safeandputhishandontheknob。Thenhepulledthedooropen,andtookthedrawerwiththemoneyquiteout。 Withitonceoutandbeforehim,itseemedafoolishthingto,thinkaboutleavingit。Certainlyitwould。Why,hecouldlive,quietlywithCarrieforyears。 Lord!whatwasthat?Forthefirsttimehewastense,asifa,sternhandhadbeenlaiduponhisshoulder。Helookedfearfully,around。Notasoulwaspresent。Notasound。Someonewas,shufflingbyonthesidewalk。Hetooktheboxandthemoneyand,putitbackinthesafe。Thenhepartlyclosedthedooragain。 Tothosewhohaveneverwaveredinconscience,thepredicamentof,theindividualwhosemindislessstronglyconstitutedandwho,tremblesinthebalancebetweendutyanddesireisscarcely,appreciable,unlessgraphicallyportrayed。Thosewhohavenever,heardthatsolemnvoiceoftheghostlyclockwhichtickswith,awfuldistinctness,“thoushalt,““thoushaltnot,““thoushalt,“ “thoushaltnot,“areinnopositiontojudge。Notalonein,sensitive,highlyorganisednaturesissuchamentalconflict,possible。Thedullestspecimenofhumanity,whendrawnbydesire,towardevil,isrecalledbyasenseofright,whichis,proportionateinpowerandstrengthtohiseviltendency。We,mustrememberthatitmaynotbeaknowledgeofright,forno,knowledgeofrightispredicatedoftheanimal’sinstinctive,recoilatevil。Menarestillledbyinstinctbeforetheyare,regulatedbyknowledge。Itisinstinctwhichrecallsthe,criminal——itisinstinct(wherehighlyorganisedreasoningis,absent)whichgivesthecriminalhisfeelingofdanger,hisfear,ofwrong。 Ateveryfirstadventure,then,intosomeuntriedevil,themind,wavers。Theclockofthoughtticksoutitswishanditsdenial。 Tothosewhohaveneverexperiencedsuchamentaldilemma,the,followingwillappealonthesimplegroundofrevelation。 WhenHurstwoodputthemoneyback,hisnatureagainresumedits,easeanddaring。Noonehadobservedhim。Hewasquitealone。 Noonecouldtellwhathewishedtodo。Hecouldworkthisthing,outforhimself。 Theimbibationoftheeveninghadnotyetwornoff。Moistaswas,hisbrow,trembleasdidhishandonceafterthenamelessfright,hewasstillflushedwiththefumesofliquor。Hescarcely,noticedthatthetimewaspassing。Hewentoverhissituation,onceagain,hiseyealwaysseeingthemoneyinalump,hismind,alwaysseeingwhatitwoulddo。Hestrolledintohislittle,room,thentothedoor,thentothesafeagain。Heputhishand,ontheknobandopenedit。Therewasthemoney!Surelynoharm,couldcomefromlookingatit! Hetookoutthedraweragainandliftedthebills。Theywereso,smooth,socompact,soportable。Howlittletheymade,after,all。Hedecidedhewouldtakethem。Yes,hewould。Hewould,puttheminhispocket。Thenhelookedatthatandsawthey,wouldnotgothere。Hishandsatchel!Tobesure,hishand,satchel。Theywouldgointhat——allofitwould。Noonewould,thinkanythingofiteither。Hewentintothelittleofficeand,tookitfromtheshelfinthecorner。Nowhesetituponhis,deskandwentouttowardthesafe。Forsomereasonhedidnot,wanttofillitoutinthebigroom。 Firsthebroughtthebillsandthentheloosereceiptsofthe,day。Hewouldtakeitall。Heputtheemptydrawersbackand,pushedtheirondooralmostto,thenstoodbesideitmeditating。 Thewaveringofamindundersuchcircumstancesisanalmost,inexplicablething,andyetitisabsolutelytrue。Hurstwood,couldnotbringhimselftoactdefinitely。Hewantedtothink,aboutit——toponderoverit,todecidewhetheritwerebest。He,wasdrawnbysuchakeendesireforCarrie,drivenbysucha,stateofturmoilinhisownaffairsthathethoughtconstantlyit,wouldbebest,andyethewavered。Hedidnotknowwhatevil,mightresultfromittohim——howsoonhemightcometogrief。 Thetrueethicsofthesituationneveronceoccurredtohim,and,neverwouldhave,underanycircumstances。 Afterhehadallthemoneyinthehandbag,arevulsionoffeeling,seizedhim。Hewouldnotdoit——no!Thinkofwhatascandalit,wouldmake。Thepolice!Theywouldbeafterhim。Hewouldhave,tofly,andwhere?Oh,theterrorofbeingafugitivefrom,justice!Hetookoutthetwoboxesandputallthemoneyback。 Inhisexcitementheforgotwhathewasdoing,andputthesums,inthewrongboxes。Ashepushedthedoorto,hethoughthe,remembereddoingitwrongandopenedthedooragain。Therewere,thetwoboxesmixed。 Hetookthemoutandstraightenedthematter,butnowtheterror,hadgone。Whybeafraid? Whilethemoneywasinhishandthelockclicked。Ithadsprung! Didhedoit?Hegrabbedattheknobandpulledvigorously。It,hadclosed。Heavens!hewasinforitnow,sureenough。 Themomentherealisedthatthesafewaslockedforasurety,the,sweatburstoutuponhisbrowandhetrembledviolently。He,lookedabouthimanddecidedinstantly。Therewasnodelaying,now。 “SupposingIdolayitonthetop,“hesaid,“andgoaway,they’llknowwhotookit。I’mthelasttocloseup。Besides,otherthingswillhappen。” Atoncehebecamethemanofaction。 “Imustgetoutofthis,“hethought。 Hehurriedintohislittleroom,tookdownhislightovercoatand,hat,lockedhisdesk,andgrabbedthesatchel。Thenheturned,outallbutonelightandopenedthedoor。Hetriedtoputon,hisoldassuredair,butitwasalmostgone。Hewasrepenting,rapidly。 “IwishIhadn’tdonethat,“hesaid。”Thatwasamistake。” Hewalkedsteadilydownthestreet,greetinganightwatchman,whomheknewwhowastryingdoors。Hemustgetoutofthecity,andthatquickly。 “Iwonderhowthetrainsrun?”hethought。 Instantlyhepulledouthiswatchandlooked。Itwasnearly,half-pastone。 Atthefirstdrugstorehestopped,seeingalong-distance,telephoneboothinside。Itwasafamousdrugstore,andcontained,oneofthefirstprivatetelephoneboothsevererected。 “Iwanttouseyour’phoneaminute,“hesaidtothenightclerk。 Thelatternodded。 “Giveme1643,“hecalledtoCentral,afterlookingupthe,MichiganCentraldepotnumber。Soonhegottheticketagent。 “HowdothetrainsleavehereforDetroit?”heasked。 Themanexplainedthehours。 “Nomoreto-night?” “Nothingwithasleeper。Yes,thereis,too,“headded。”There,isamailtrainoutofhereatthreeo’clock。” “Allright,“saidHurstwood。”Whattimedoesthatgetto,Detroit?” Hewasthinkingifhecouldonlygetthereandcrosstheriver,intoCanada,hecouldtakehistimeaboutgettingtoMontreal。 Hewasrelievedtolearnthatitwouldreachtherebynoon。 “Mayhewwon’topenthesafetillnine,“hethought。”Theycan’t,getonmytrackbeforenoon。” ThenhethoughtofCarrie。Withwhatspeedmusthegether,if,hegotheratall。Shewouldhavetocomealong。Hejumpedinto,thenearestcabstandingby。 “ToOgdenPlace,“hesaidsharply。”I’llgiveyouadollarmore,ifyoumakegoodtime。” Thecabbybeathishorseintoasortofimitationgallopwhich,wasfairlyfast,however。OnthewayHurstwoodthoughtwhatto,do。Reachingthenumber,hehurriedupthestepsanddidnot,sparethebellinwakingtheservant。 “IsMrs。Drouetin?”heasked。 “Yes,“saidtheastonishedgirl。 “Tellhertodressandcometothedooratonce。Herhusbandis,inthehospital,injured,andwantstoseeher。” Theservantgirlhurriedupstairs,convincedbytheman’s,strainedandemphaticmanner。 “What!”saidCarrie,lightingthegasandsearchingforher,clothes。 “Mr。Drouetishurtandinthehospital。Hewantstoseeyou。 Thecab’sdownstairs。” Carriedressedveryrapidly,andsoonappearedbelow,forgetting,everythingsavethenecessities。 “Drouetishurt,“saidHurstwoodquickly。”Hewantstoseeyou。 Comequickly。” Carriewassobewilderedthatsheswallowedthewholestory。 “Getin,“saidHurstwood,helpingherandjumpingafter。 Thecabbybegantoturnthehorsearound。 “MichiganCentraldepot,“hesaid,standingupandspeakingso,lowthatCarriecouldnothear,“asfastasyoucango。” ChapterXXVIII APILGRIM,ANOUTLAW——THESPIRITDETAINED ThecabhadnottravelledashortblockbeforeCarrie,settling,herselfandthoroughlywakinginthenightatmosphere,asked: “What’sthematterwithhim?Ishehurtbadly?” “Itisn’tanythingveryserious,“Hurstwoodsaidsolemnly。He,wasverymuchdisturbedoverhisownsituation,andnowthathe,hadCarriewithhim,heonlywantedtogetsafelyoutofreachof,thelaw。Thereforehewasinnomoodforanythingsavesuch,wordsaswouldfurtherhisplansdistinctly。 Carriedidnotforgetthattherewassomethingtobesettled,betweenherandHurstwood,butthethoughtwasignoredinher,agitation。Theonethingwastofinishthisstrangepilgrimage。 “Whereishe?” “WayoutontheSouthSide,“saidHurstwood。”We’llhavetotake,thetrain。It’sthequickestway。” Carriesaidnothing,andthehorsegambolledon。Theweirdness,ofthecitybynightheldherattention。Shelookedatthelong,recedingrowsoflampsandstudiedthedark,silenthouses。 “Howdidhehurthimself?”sheasked——meaningwhatwasthenature,ofhisinjuries。Hurstwoodunderstood。Hehatedtolieanymore,thannecessary,andyethewantednoprotestsuntilhewasoutof,danger。 “Idon’tknowexactly,“hesaid。”Theyjustcalledmeuptogo,andgetyouandbringyouout。Theysaidtherewasn’tanyneed,foralarm,butthatIshouldn’tfailtobringyou。” Theman’sseriousmannerconvincedCarrie,andshebecamesilent,wondering。 Hurstwoodexaminedhiswatchandurgedthemantohurry。Forone,insodelicateapositionhewasexceedinglycool。Hecouldonly,thinkofhowneedfulitwastomakethetrainandgetquietly,away。Carrieseemedquitetractable,andhecongratulated,himself。 Induetimetheyreachedthedepot,andafterhelpingherouthe,handedthemanafive-dollarbillandhurriedon。 “Youwaithere,“hesaidtoCarrie,whentheyreachedthe,waiting-room,“whileIgetthetickets。” “HaveImuchtimetocatchthattrainforDetroit?”heaskedof,theagent。 “Fourminutes,“saidthelatter。 Hepaidfortwoticketsascircumspectlyaspossible。 “Isitfar?”saidCarrie,ashehurriedback。 “Notvery,“hesaid。”Wemustgetrightin。” Hepushedherbeforehimatthegate,stoodbetweenherandthe,ticketmanwhilethelatterpunchedtheirtickets,sothatshe,couldnotsee,andthenhurriedafter。 Therewasalonglineofexpressandpassengercarsandoneor,twocommondaycoaches。Asthetrainhadonlyrecentlybeenmade,upandfewpassengerswereexpected,therewereonlyoneortwo,brakemenwaiting。Theyenteredthereardaycoachandsatdown。 Almostimmediately,“Allaboard,“resoundedfaintlyfromthe,outside,andthetrainstarted。 Carriebegantothinkitwasalittlebitcurious——thisgoingto,adepot——butsaidnothing。Thewholeincidentwassooutofthe,naturalthatshedidnotattachtoomuchweighttoanythingshe,imagined。 “Howhaveyoubeen?”askedHurstwoodgently,forhenowbreathed,easier。 “Verywell,“saidCarrie,whowassodisturbedthatshecouldnot,bringaproperattitudetobearinthematter。Shewasstill,nervoustoreachDrouetandseewhatcouldbethematter。 Hurstwoodcontemplatedherandfeltthis。Hewasnotdisturbed,thatitshouldbeso。Hedidnottroublebecauseshewasmoved,sympatheticallyinthematter。Itwasoneofthequalitiesin,herwhichpleasedhimexceedingly。Hewasonlythinkinghowhe,shouldexplain。Eventhiswasnotthemostseriousthinginhis,mind,however。Hisowndeedandpresentflightwerethegreat,shadowswhichweigheduponhim。 “WhatafoolIwastodothat,“hesaidoverandover。”Whata,mistake!” Inhissobersenses,hecouldscarcelyrealisethatthethinghad,beendone。Hecouldnotbegintofeelthathewasafugitive,fromjustice。Hehadoftenreadofsuchthings,andhadthought,theymustbeterrible,butnowthatthethingwasuponhim,he,onlysatandlookedintothepast。Thefuturewasathingwhich,concernedtheCanadianline。Hewantedtoreachthat。Asfor,theresthesurveyedhisactionsfortheevening,andcounted,thempartsofagreatmistake。 “Still,“hesaid,“whatcouldIhavedone?” Thenhewoulddecidetomakethebestofit,andwouldbeginto,dosobystartingthewholeinquiryoveragain。Itwasa,fruitless,harassinground,andlefthiminaqueermoodtodeal,withthepropositionhehadinthepresenceofCarrie。 Thetrainclackedthroughtheyardsalongthelakefront,andran,ratherslowlytoTwenty-fourthStreet。Brakesandsignalswere,visiblewithout。Theenginegaveshortcallswithitswhistle,andfrequentlythebellrang。Severalbrakemencamethrough,bearinglanterns。Theywerelockingthevestibulesandputting,thecarsinorderforalongrun。 Presentlyitbegantogainspeed,andCarriesawthesilent,streetsflashingbyinrapidsuccession。Theenginealsobegan,itswhistle-callsoffourparts,withwhichitsignalleddanger,toimportantcrossings。 “Isitveryfar?”askedCarrie。 “Notsovery,“saidHurstwood。Hecouldhardlyrepressasmile,athersimplicity。Hewantedtoexplainandconciliateher,but,healsowantedtobewelloutofChicago。 Inthelapseofanotherhalf-houritbecameapparenttoCarrie,thatitwasquitearuntowhereverhewastakingher,anyhow。 “IsitinChicago?”sheaskednervously。Theywerenowfar,beyondthecitylimits,andthetrainwasscuddingacrossthe,Indianalineatagreatrate。 “No,“hesaid,“notwherewearegoing。” Therewassomethinginthewayhesaidthiswhicharousedherin,aninstant。 Herprettybrowbegantocontract。 “WearegoingtoseeCharlie,aren’twe?”sheasked。 Hefeltthatthetimewasup。Anexplanationmightaswellcome,nowaslater。Therefore,heshookhisheadinthemostgentle,negative。 “What?”saidCarrie。Shewasnonplussedatthepossibilityof,theerrandbeingdifferentfromwhatshehadthought。 Heonlylookedatherinthemostkindlyandmollifyingway。 “Well,whereareyoutakingme,then?”sheasked,hervoice,showingthequalityoffright。 “I’lltellyou,Carrie,ifyou’llbequiet。Iwantyoutocome,alongwithmetoanothercity,“ “Oh,“saidCarrie,hervoicerisingintoaweakcry。”Letme,off。Idon’twanttogowithyou。” Shewasquiteappalledattheman’saudacity。Thiswassomething,whichhadneverforamomententeredherhead。Heronethought,nowwastogetoffandaway。Ifonlytheflyingtraincouldbe,stopped,theterribletrickwouldbeamended。 Shearoseandtriedtopushoutintotheaisle——anywhere。She,knewshehadtodosomething。Hurstwoodlaidagentlehandon,her。 “Sitstill,Carrie,“hesaid。”Sitstill。Itwon’tdoyouany,goodtogetuphere。ListentomeandI’lltellyouwhatI’ll,do。Waitamoment。” Shewaspushingathisknees,butheonlypulledherback。No,onesawthislittlealtercation,forveryfewpersonswereinthe,car,andtheywereattemptingtodoze。 “Iwon’t,“saidCarrie,whowas,nevertheless,complyingagainst,herwill。”Letmego,“shesaid。”Howdareyou?”andlarge,tearsbegantogatherinhereyes。 Hurstwoodwasnowfullyarousedtotheimmediatedifficulty,and,ceasedtothinkofhisownsituation。Hemustdosomethingwith,thisgirl,orshewouldcausehimtrouble。Hetriedtheartof,persuasionwithallhispowersaroused。 “Lookherenow,Carrie,“hesaid,“youmustn’tactthisway。I didn’tmeantohurtyourfeelings。Idon’twanttodoanything,tomakeyoufeelbad。” “Oh,“sobbedCarrie,“oh,oh——oo——o!” “There,there,“hesaid,“youmustn’tcry。Won’tyoulistento,me?Listentomeaminute,andI’lltellyouwhyIcametodo,thisthing。Icouldn’thelpit。IassureyouIcouldn’t。Won’t,youlisten?” Hersobsdisturbedhimsothathewasquitesureshedidnothear,awordhesaid。 “Won’tyoulisten?”heasked。 “No,Iwon’t,“saidCarrie,flashingup。”Iwantyoutotakeme,outofthis,orI’lltelltheconductor。Iwon’tgowithyou。 It’sashame,“andagainsobsoffrightcutoffherdesirefor,expression。 Hurstwoodlistenedwithsomeastonishment。Hefeltthatshehad,justcauseforfeelingasshedid,andyethewishedthathe,couldstraightenthisthingoutquickly。Shortlytheconductor,wouldcomethroughforthetickets。Hewantednonoise,no,troubleofanykind。Beforeeverythinghemustmakeherquiet。 “Youcouldn’tgetoutuntilthetrainstopsagain,“said,Hurstwood。”Itwon’tbeverylonguntilwereachanother,station。Youcangetoutthenifyouwantto。Iwon’tstopyou。 AllIwantyoutodoistolistenamoment。You’llletmetell,you,won’tyou?” Carrieseemednottolisten。Sheonlyturnedherheadtowardthe,window,whereoutsideallwasblack。Thetrainwasspeedingwith,steadygraceacrossthefieldsandthroughpatchesofwood。The,longwhistlescamewithsad,musicaleffectasthelonely,woodlandcrossingswereapproached。 Nowtheconductorenteredthecarandtookuptheoneortwo,faresthathadbeenaddedatChicago。HeapproachedHurstwood,whohandedoutthetickets。Poisedasshewastoact,Carrie,madenomove。Shedidnotlookabout。 WhentheconductorhadgoneagainHurstwoodfeltrelieved。 “You’reangryatmebecauseIdeceivedyou,“hesaid。”Ididn’t,meanto,Carrie。AsIliveIdidn’t。Icouldn’thelpit。I couldn’tstayawayfromyouafterthefirsttimeIsawyou。” Hewasignoringthelastdeceptionassomethingthatmightgoby,theboard。Hewantedtoconvinceherthathiswifecouldno,longerbeafactorintheirrelationship。Themoneyhehad,stolenhetriedtoshutoutofhismind。 “Don’ttalktome,“saidCarrie,“Ihateyou。Iwantyoutogo,awayfromme。Iamgoingtogetoutattheverynextstation。” Shewasinatrembleofexcitementandoppositionasshespoke。 “Allright,“hesaid,“butyou’llhearmeout,won’tyou?After,allyouhavesaidaboutlovingme,youmighthearme。Idon’t,wanttodoyouanyharm。I’llgiveyouthemoneytogobackwith,whenyougo。Imerelywanttotellyou,Carrie。Youcan’tstop,mefromlovingyou,whateveryoumaythink。” Helookedathertenderly,butreceivednoreply。 “YouthinkIhavedeceivedyoubadly,butIhaven’t。Ididn’tdo,itwillingly。I’mthroughwithmywife。Shehasn’tanyclaims,onme。I’llneverseeheranymore。That’swhyI’mhereto- night。That’swhyIcameandgotyou。” “YousaidCharliewashurt,“saidCarrie,savagely。”You,deceivedme。You’vebeendeceivingmeallthetime,andnowyou,wanttoforcemetorunawaywithyou。” Shewassoexcitedthatshegotupandtriedtogetbyhimagain。 Helether,andshetookanotherseat。Thenhefollowed。 “Don’trunawayfromme,Carrie,“hesaidgently。”Letme,explain。IfyouwillonlyhearmeoutyouwillseewhereI stand。Itellyoumywifeisnothingtome。Shehasn’tbeen,anythingforyearsorIwouldn’thaveevercomenearyou。I’m,goingtogetadivorcejustassoonasIcan。I’llneverseeher,again。I’mdonewithallthat。You’retheonlypersonIwant。 IfIcanhaveyouIwon’teverthinkofanotherwomanagain。” Carrieheardallthisinaveryruffledstate。Itsounded,sincereenough,however,despiteallhehaddone。Therewasa,tensenessinHurstwood’svoiceandmannerwhichcouldbuthave,someeffect。Shedidnotwantanythingtodowithhim。Hewas,married,hehaddeceivedheronce,andnowagain,andshethought,himterrible。Stillthereissomethinginsuchdaringandpower,whichisfascinatingtoawoman,especiallyifshecanbemadeto,feelthatitisallpromptedbyloveofher。 Theprogressofthetrainwashavingagreatdealtodowiththe,solutionofthisdifficultsituation。Thespeedingwheelsand,disappearingcountryputChicagofartherandfartherbehind。 Carriecouldfeelthatshewasbeingbornealongdistanceoff—— thattheenginewasmakinganalmostthroughruntosomedistant,city。Shefeltattimesasifshecouldcryoutandmakesucha,rowthatsomeonewouldcometoheraid;atothertimesitseemed,analmostuselessthing——sofarwasshefromanyaid,nomatter,whatshedid。AllthewhileHurstwoodwasendeavouringto,formulatehispleainsuchawaythatitwouldstrikehomeand,bringherintosympathywithhim。 “IwassimplyputwhereIdidn’tknowwhatelsetodo。” Carriedeignednosuggestionofhearingthis。 “WhenIsayyouwouldn’tcomeunlessIcouldmarryyou,Idecided,toputeverythingelsebehindmeandgetyoutocomeawaywith,me。I’mgoingoffnowtoanothercity。IwanttogotoMontreal,forawhile,andthenanywhereyouwantto。We’llgoandlivein,NewYork,ifyousay。” “I’llnothaveanythingtodowithyou,“saidCarrie。”Iwantto,getoffthistrain。Wherearewegoing?” “ToDetroit,“saidHurstwood。 “Oh!”saidCarrie,inaburstofanguish。Sodistantand,definiteapointseemedtoincreasethedifficulty。 “Won’tyoucomealongwithme?”hesaid,asiftherewasgreat,dangerthatshewouldnot。”Youwon’tneedtodoanythingbut,travelwithme。I’llnottroubleyouinanyway。Youcansee,MontrealandNewYork,andthenifyoudon’twanttostayyoucan,goback。Itwillbebetterthantryingtogobackto-night。” ThefirstgleamoffairnessshoneinthispropositionforCarrie。 Itseemedaplausiblethingtodo,muchasshefearedhis,oppositionifshetriedtocarryitout。MontrealandNewYork! Evennowshewasspeedingtowardthosegreat,strangelands,and,couldseethemifsheliked。Shethought,butmadenosign。 Hurstwoodthoughthesawashadeofcomplianceinthis。He,redoubledhisardour。 “Think,“hesaid,“whatI’vegivenup。Ican’tgobackto,Chicagoanymore。I’vegottostayawayandlivealonenow,if,youdon’tcomewithme。Youwon’tgobackonmeentirely,will,you,Carrie?” “Idon’twantyoutotalktome,“sheansweredforcibly。 Hurstwoodkeptsilentforawhile。 Carriefeltthetraintobeslowingdown。Itwasthemomentto,actifshewastoactatall。Shestirreduneasily。 “Don’tthinkofgoing,Carrie,“hesaid。”Ifyouevercaredfor,meatall,comealongandlet’sstartright。I’lldowhatever,yousay。I’llmarryyou,orI’llletyougoback。Giveyourself,timetothinkitover。Iwouldn’thavewantedyoutocomeifI hadn’tlovedyou。Itellyou,Carrie,beforeGod,Ican’tlive,withoutyou。Iwon’t!” Therewasthetensityoffiercenessintheman’spleawhich,appealeddeeplytohersympathies。Itwasadissolvingfire,whichwasactuatinghimnow。Hewaslovinghertoointenselyto,thinkofgivingherupinthis,hishourofdistress。He,clutchedherhandnervouslyandpresseditwithalltheforceof,anappeal。 Thetrainwasnowallbutstopped。Itwasrunningbysomecars,onasidetrack。Everythingoutsidewasdarkanddreary。Afew,sprinklesonthewindowbegantoindicatethatitwasraining。 Carriehunginaquandary,balancingbetweendecisionand,helplessness。Nowthetrainstopped,andshewaslisteningto,hisplea。Theenginebackedafewfeetandallwasstill。 Shewavered,totallyunabletomakeamove。Minuteafterminute,slippedbyandstillshehesitated,hepleading。 “WillyouletmecomebackifIwantto?”sheasked,asifshe,nowhadtheupperhandandhercompanionwasutterlysubdued。 “Ofcourse,“heanswered,“youknowIwill。” Carrieonlylistenedasonewhohasgrantedatemporaryamnesty。 Shebegantofeelasifthematterwereinherhandsentirely。 Thetrainwasagaininrapidmotion。Hurstwoodchangedthe,subject。 “Aren’tyouverytired?”hesaid。 “No,“sheanswered。 “Won’tyouletmegetyouaberthinthesleeper?” Sheshookherhead,thoughforallherdistressandhistrickery,shewasbeginningtonoticewhatshehadalwaysfelt——his,thoughtfulness。 “Oh,yes,“hesaid,“youwillfeelsomuchbetter。” Sheshookherhead。 “Letmefixmycoatforyou,anyway,“andhearoseandarranged,hislightcoatinacomfortablepositiontoreceiveherhead。 “There,“hesaidtenderly,“nowseeifyoucan’trestalittle。” Hecouldhavekissedherforhercompliance。Hetookhisseat,besideherandthoughtamoment。 “Ibelievewe’reinforaheavyrain,“hesaid。 “Soitlooks,“saidCarrie,whosenerveswerequietingunderthe,soundoftheraindrops,drivenbyagustywind,asthetrain,sweptonfranticallythroughtheshadowtoanewerworld。 ThefactthathehadinameasuremollifiedCarriewasasource,ofsatisfactiontoHurstwood,butitfurnishedonlythemost,temporaryrelief。Nowthatheroppositionwasoutoftheway,he,hadallofhistimetodevotetotheconsiderationofhisown,error。 Hisconditionwasbitterintheextreme,forhedidnotwantthe,miserablesumhehadstolen。Hedidnotwanttobeathief。 Thatsumoranyothercouldnevercompensateforthestatewhich,hehadthusfoolishlydoffed。Itcouldnotgivehimbackhis,hostoffriends,hisname,hishouseandfamily,norCarrie,as,hehadmeanttohaveher。HewasshutoutfromChicago——fromhis,easy,comfortablestate。Hehadrobbedhimselfofhisdignity,hismerrymeetings,hispleasantevenings。Andforwhat?The,morehethoughtofitthemoreunbearableitbecame。Hebeganto,thinkthathewouldtryandrestorehimselftohisoldstate。He,wouldreturnthemiserablethievingsofthenightandexplain。 PerhapsMoywouldunderstand。Perhapstheywouldforgivehimand,lethimcomeback。 BynoontimethetrainrolledintoDetroitandhebegantofeel,exceedinglynervous。Thepolicemustbeonhistrackbynow。 Theyhadprobablynotifiedallthepoliceofthebigcities,and,detectiveswouldbewatchingforhim。Herememberedinstancesin,whichdefaultershadbeencaptured。Consequently,hebreathed,heavilyandpaledsomewhat。Hishandsfeltasiftheymusthave,somethingtodo。Hesimulatedinterestinseveralsceneswithout,whichhedidnotfeel。Herepeatedlybeathisfootuponthe,floor。 Carrienoticedhisagitation,butsaidnothing。Shehadnoidea,whatitmeantorthatitwasimportant。 Hewonderednowwhyhehadnotaskedwhetherthistrainwenton,throughtoMontrealorsomeCanadianpoint。Perhapshecould,havesavedtime。Hejumpedupandsoughttheconductor。 “DoesanypartofthistraingotoMontreal?”heasked。 “Yes,thenextsleeperbackdoes。” Hewouldhaveaskedmore,butitdidnotseemwise,sohedecided,toinquireatthedepot。 Thetrainrolledintotheyards,clangingandpuffing。 “IthinkwehadbettergorightonthroughtoMontreal,“hesaid,toCarrie。”I’llseewhattheconnectionsarewhenwegetoff。” Hewasexceedinglynervous,butdidhisbesttoputonacalm,exterior。Carrieonlylookedathimwithlarge,troubledeyes。 Shewasdriftingmentally,unabletosaytoherselfwhattodo。 ThetrainstoppedandHurstwoodledthewayout。Helooked,warilyaroundhim,pretendingtolookafterCarrie。Seeing,nothingthatindicatedstudiedobservation,hemadehiswayto,theticketoffice。 “ThenexttrainforMontrealleaveswhen?”heasked。 “Intwentyminutes,“saidtheman。 HeboughttwoticketsandPullmanberths。Thenhehastenedback,toCarrie。 “Wegorightoutagain,“hesaid,scarcelynoticingthatCarrie,lookedtiredandweary。 “IwishIwasoutofallthis,“sheexclaimedgloomily。 “You’llfeelbetterwhenwereachMontreal,“hesaid。 “Ihaven’tanearthlythingwithme,“saidCarrie;“notevena,handkerchief。” “Youcanbuyallyouwantassoonasyougetthere,dearest,“he,explained。”Youcancallinadressmaker。” Nowthecriercalledthetrainreadyandtheygoton。Hurstwood,breathedasighofreliefasitstarted。Therewasashortrun,totheriver,andtheretheywereferriedover。Theyhadbarely,pulledthetrainofftheferry-boatwhenhesettledbackwitha,sigh。 “Itwon’tbesoverylongnow,“hesaid,rememberingherinhis,relief。”Wegettherethefirstthinginthemorning。” Carriescarcelydeignedtoreply。 “I’llseeifthereisadining-car,“headded。”I’mhungry。” ChapterXXIX THESOLACEOFTRAVEL——THEBOATSOFTHESEA Totheuntravelled,territoryotherthantheirownfamiliarheath,isinvariablyfascinating。Nexttolove,itistheonething,whichsolacesanddelights。Thingsnewaretooimportanttobe,neglected,andmind,whichisamerereflectionofsensory,impressions,succumbstothefloodofobjects。Thusloversare,forgotten,sorrowslaidaside,deathhiddenfromview。Thereis,aworldofaccumulatedfeelingbackofthetritedramatic,expression——“Iamgoingaway。” AsCarrielookedoutupontheflyingsceneryshealmostforgot,thatshehadbeentrickedintothislongjourneyagainstherwill,andthatshewaswithoutthenecessaryapparelfortravelling。 ShequiteforgotHurstwood’spresenceattimes,andlookedaway,tohomelyfarmhousesandcoseycottagesinvillageswith,wonderingeyes。Itwasaninterestingworldtoher。Herlife,hadjustbegun。Shedidnotfeelherselfdefeatedatall。 Neitherwassheblastedinhope。Thegreatcityheldmuch。 Possiblyshewouldcomeoutofbondageintofreedom——whoknows? Perhapsshewouldbehappy。Thesethoughtsraisedherabovethe,leveloferring。Shewassavedinthatshewashopeful。 ThefollowingmorningthetrainpulledsafelyintoMontrealand,theysteppeddown,Hurstwoodgladtobeoutofdanger,Carrie,wonderingatthenovelatmosphereofthenortherncity。Long,before,Hurstwoodhadbeenhere,andnowherememberedthename,ofthehotelatwhichhehadstopped。Astheycameoutofthe,mainentranceofthedepothehearditcalledanewbyabusman。 “We’llgorightupandgetrooms,“hesaid。 Attheclerk’sofficeHurstwoodswungtheregisteraboutwhile,theclerkcameforward。Hewasthinkingwhatnamehewouldput,down。Withthelatterbeforehimhefoundnotimefor,hesitation。Anamehehadseenoutofthecarwindowcame,swiftlytohim。Itwaspleasingenough。Withaneasyhandhe,wrote,“G。W。Murdockandwife。”Itwasthelargestconcessionto,necessityhefeltlikemaking。Hisinitialshecouldnotspare。 WhentheywereshowntheirroomCarriesawatoncethathehad,securedheralovelychamber。 “Youhaveabaththere,“saidhe。”Nowyoucancleanupwhenyou,getready。” Carriewentoverandlookedoutthewindow,whileHurstwood,lookedathimselfintheglass。Hefeltdustyandunclean。He,hadnotrunk,nochangeoflinen,notevenahair-brush。 “I’llringforsoapandtowels,“hesaid,“andsendyouupa,hair-brush。Thenyoucanbatheandgetreadyforbreakfast。 I’llgoforashaveandcomebackandgetyou,andthenwe’llgo,outandlookforsomeclothesforyou。” Hesmiledgood-naturedlyashesaidthis。