第15章

类别:其他 作者:Theodore Dreiser / Bantam Clas字数:43045更新时间:18/12/21 13:06:44
Carrielookedandbeheldanewcontractmadeoutliketheother,one,withtheexceptionofthenewfiguresofsalaryandtime。 Withahandtremblingfromexcitementsheaffixedhername。 “Onehundredandfiftyaweek!”shemurmured,whenshewasagain,alone。Shefound,afterall——aswhatmillionairehasnot?——that,therewasnorealising,inconsciousness,themeaningoflarge,sums。Itwasonlyashimmering,glitteringphraseinwhichlaya,worldofpossibilities。 Downinathird-rateBleeckerStreethotel,thebrooding,HurstwoodreadthedramaticitemcoveringCarrie’ssuccess,withoutatfirstrealisingwhowasmeant。Thensuddenlyitcame,tohimandhereadthewholethingoveragain。 “That’sher,allright,Iguess,“hesaid。 Thenhelookedaboutuponadingy,moth-eatenhotellobby。 “Iguessshe’sstruckit,“hethought,apictureoftheold,shiny,plush-coveredworldcomingback,withitslights,its,ornaments,itscarriages,andflowers。Ah,shewasinthewalled,citynow!Itssplendidgateshadopened,admittingherfroma,cold,drearyoutside。Sheseemedacreatureafaroff——likeevery,othercelebrityhehadknown。 “Well,letherhaveit,“hesaid。”Iwon’tbotherher。” Itwasthegrimresolutionofabent,bedraggled,butunbroken,pride。 ChapterXLIV ANDTHISISNOTELFLAND——WHATGOLDWILLNOTBUY WhenCarriegotbackonthestage,shefoundthatovernighther,dressing-roomhadbeenchanged。 “Youaretousethisroom,MissMadenda,“saidoneofthestage,lackeys。 Nolongeranyneedofclimbingseveralflightsofstepstoa,smallcoopsharedwithanother。Instead,acomparativelylarge,andcommodiouschamberwithconveniencesnotenjoyedbythesmall,fryoverhead。Shebreatheddeeplyandwithdelight。Her,sensationsweremorephysicalthanmental。Infact,shewas,scarcelythinkingatall。Heartandbodywerehavingtheirsay。 Graduallythedeferenceandcongratulationgaveheramental,appreciationofherstate。Shewasnolongerordered,but,requested,andthatpolitely。Theothermembersofthecast,lookedatherenviouslyasshecameoutarrayedinhersimple,habit,whichsheworeallthroughtheplay。Allthosewhohad,supposedlybeenherequalsandsuperiorsnowsmiledthesmileof,sociability,asmuchastosay:“Howfriendlywehavealways,been。”Onlythestarcomedianwhoseparthadbeensodeeply,injuredstalkedbyhimself。Figuratively,hecouldnotkissthe,handthatsmotehim。 Doinghersimplepart,Carriegraduallyrealisedthemeaningof,theapplausewhichwasforher,anditwassweet。Shefelt,mildlyguiltyofsomething——perhapsunworthiness。Whenher,associatesaddressedherinthewingssheonlysmiledweakly。 Theprideanddaringofplacewerenotforher。Itneveronce,crossedhermindtobereservedorhaughty——tobeotherthanshe,hadbeen。AftertheperformancessherodetoherroomwithLola,inacarriageprovided。 Thencameaweekinwhichthefirstfruitsofsuccesswere,offeredtoherlips——bowlafterbowl。Itdidnotmatterthather,splendidsalaryhadnotbegun。Theworldseemedsatisfiedwith,thepromise。Shebegantogetlettersandcards。AMr。Withers—— whomshedidnotknowfromAdam——havinglearnedbysomehookor,crookwheresheresided,bowedhimselfpolitelyin。 “Youwillexcusemeforintruding,“hesaid;“buthaveyoubeen,thinkingofchangingyourapartments?” “Ihadn’tthoughtofit,“returnedCarrie。 “Well,IamconnectedwiththeWellington——thenewhotelon,Broadway。Youhaveprobablyseennoticesofitinthepapers。” Carrierecognisedthenameasstandingforoneofthenewestand,mostimposinghostelries。Shehadhearditspokenofashavinga,splendidrestaurant。 “Justso,“wentonMr。Withers,acceptingheracknowledgmentof,familiarity。”Wehavesomeveryelegantroomsatpresentwhich,wewouldliketohaveyoulookat,ifyouhavenotmadeupyour,mindwhereyouintendtoresideforthesummer。Ourapartments,areperfectineverydetail——hotandcoldwater,privatebaths,specialhallserviceforeveryfloor,elevators,andallthat。 Youknowwhatourrestaurantis。” Carrielookedathimquietly。Shewaswonderingwhetherhetook,hertobeamillionaire。 “Whatareyourrates?”sheinquired。 “Well,now,thatiswhatIcametotalkwithyouprivatelyabout。 Ourregularratesareanywherefromthreetofiftydollarsa,day。” “Mercy!”interruptedCarrie。”Icouldn’tpayanysuchrateas,that。” “Iknowhowyoufeelaboutit,“exclaimedMr。Withers,halting。 “Butjustletmeexplain。Isaidthoseareourregularrates。 Likeeveryotherhotelwemakespecialoneshowever。Possibly,youhavenotthoughtaboutit,butyournameisworthsomething,tous。” “Oh!”ejaculatedCarrie,seeingataglance。 “Ofcourse。Everyhoteldependsuponthereputeofitspatrons。 Awell-knownactresslikeyourself,“andhebowedpolitely,while,Carrieflushed,“drawsattentiontothehotel,and——althoughyou,maynotbelieveit——patrons。” “Oh,yes,“returnedCarrie,vacantly,tryingtoarrangethis,curiouspropositioninhermind。 “Now,“continuedMr。Withers,swayinghisderbyhatsoftlyand,beatingoneofhispolishedshoesuponthefloor,“Iwantto,arrange,ifpossible,tohaveyoucomeandstopatthe,Wellington。Youneednottroubleaboutterms。Infact,weneed,hardlydiscussthem。Anythingwilldoforthesummer——amere,figure——anythingthatyouthinkyoucouldaffordtopay。” Carriewasabouttointerrupt,buthegavehernochance。 “Youcancometo-dayorto-morrow——theearlierthebetter——andwe,willgiveyouyourchoiceofnice,light,outsiderooms——thevery,bestwehave。” “You’reverykind,“saidCarrie,touchedbytheagent’sextreme,affability。”Ishouldliketocomeverymuch。Iwouldwantto,paywhatisright,however。Ishouldn’twantto——“ “Youneednottroubleaboutthatatall,“interruptedMr。 Withers。”Wecanarrangethattoyourentiresatisfactionatany,time。Ifthreedollarsadayissatisfactorytoyou,itwillbe,sotous。Allyouhavetodoistopaythatsumtotheclerkat,theendoftheweekormonth,justasyouwish,andhewillgive,youareceiptforwhattheroomswouldcostifchargedforatour,regularrates。” Thespeakerpaused。 “Supposeyoucomeandlookattherooms,“headded。 “I’dbegladto,“saidCarrie,“butIhavearehearsalthis,morning。” “Ididnotmeanatonce,“hereturned。”Anytimewilldo。Would,thisafternoonbeinconvenient?” “Notatall,“saidCarrie。 SuddenlysherememberedLola,whowasoutatthetime。 “Ihavearoom-mate,“sheadded,“whowillhavetogowhereverI do。Iforgotaboutthat。” “Oh,verywell,“saidMr。Withers,blandly。”Itisforyouto,saywhomyouwantwithyou。AsIsay,allthatcanbearranged,tosuityourself。” Hebowedandbackedtowardthedoor。 “Atfour,then,wemayexpectyou?” “Yes,“saidCarrie。 “Iwillbetheretoshowyou,“andsoMr。Witherswithdrew。 AfterrehearsalCarrieinformedLola。 “Didtheyreally?”exclaimedthelatter,thinkingofthe,Wellingtonasagroupofmanagers。”Isn’tthatfine?Oh,jolly! It’ssoswell。That’swherewedinedthatnightwewentwith,thosetwoCushingboys。Don’tyouknow?” “Iremember,“saidCarrie。 “Oh,it’sasfineasitcanbe。” “We’dbetterbegoingupthere,“observedCarrielaterinthe,afternoon。 TheroomswhichMr。WithersdisplayedtoCarrieandLolawere,threeandbath——asuiteontheparlourfloor。Theyweredonein,chocolateanddarkred,withrugsandhangingstomatch。Three,windowslookeddownintobusyBroadwayontheeast,threeintoa,sidestreetwhichcrossedthere。Thereweretwolovelybedrooms,setwithbrassandwhiteenamelbeds,whiteribbon-trimmedchairs,andchiffonierstomatch。Inthethirdroom,orparlour,wasa,piano,aheavypianolamp,withashadeofgorgeouspattern,a,librarytable,severalhugeeasyrockers,somedadobookshelves,andagiltcuriocase,filledwithoddities。Pictureswereupon,thewalls,softTurkishpillowsuponthedivanfootstoolsof,brownplushuponthefloor。Suchaccommodationswouldordinarily,costahundreddollarsaweek。 “Oh,lovely!”exclaimedLola,walkingabout。 “Itiscomfortable,“saidCarrie,whowasliftingalacecurtain,andlookingdownintocrowdedBroadway。 Thebathwasahandsomeaffair,doneinwhiteenamel,witha,large,blue-borderedstonetubandnickeltrimmings。Itwas,brightandcommodious,withabevelledmirrorsetinthewallat,oneendandincandescentlightsarrangedinthreeplaces。 “Doyoufindthesesatisfactory?”observedMr。Withers。 “Oh,very,“answeredCarrie。 “Well,then,anytimeyoufinditconvenienttomovein,theyare,ready。Theboywillbringyouthekeysatthedoor。” Carrienotedtheelegantlycarpetedanddecoratedhall,the,marbledlobby,andshowywaiting-room。Itwassuchaplaceas,shehadoftendreamedofoccupying。 “Iguesswe’dbettermoverightaway,don’tyouthinkso?”she,observedtoLola,thinkingofthecommonplacechamberin,SeventeenthStreet。 “Oh,byallmeans,“saidthelatter。 Thenextdayhertrunksleftforthenewabode。 Dressing,afterthematineeonWednesday,aknockcameather,dressing-roomdoor。 Carrielookedatthecardhandedbytheboyandsufferedashock,ofsurprise。 “TellherI’llberightout,“shesaidsoftly。Then,lookingat,thecard,added:“Mrs。Vance。” “Why,youlittlesinner,“thelatterexclaimed,asshesawCarrie,comingtowardheracrossthenowvacantstage。”Howintheworld,didthishappen?” Carrielaughedmerrily。Therewasnotraceofembarrassmentin,herfriend’smanner。Youwouldhavethoughtthatthelong,separationhadcomeaboutaccidentally。 “Idon’tknow,“returnedCarrie,warming,inspiteofherfirst,troubledfeelings,towardthishandsome,good-naturedyoung,matron。 “Well,youknow,IsawyourpictureintheSundaypaper,butyour,namethrewmeoff。Ithoughtitmustbeyouorsomebodythat,lookedjustlikeyou,andIsaid:’Well,now,Iwillgoright,downthereandsee。’Iwasnevermoresurprisedinmylife。How,areyou,anyway?” “Oh,verywell,“returnedCarrie。”Howhaveyoubeen?” “Fine。Butaren’tyouasuccess!Dear,oh!Allthepapers,talkingaboutyou。Ishouldthinkyouwouldbejusttooproudto,breathe。Iwasalmostafraidtocomebackherethisafternoon。” “Oh,nonsense,“saidCarrie,blushing。”YouknowI’dbegladto,seeyou。” “Well,anyhow,hereyouare。Can’tyoucomeupandtakedinner,withmenow?Whereareyoustopping?” “AttheWellington,“saidCarrie,whopermittedherselfatouch,ofprideintheacknowledgment。 “Oh,areyou?”exclaimedtheother,uponwhomthenamewasnot,withoutitspropereffect。 Tactfully,Mrs。VanceavoidedthesubjectofHurstwood,ofwhom,shecouldnothelpthinking。NodoubtCarriehadlefthim。That,muchshesurmised。 “Oh,Idon’tthinkIcan,“saidCarrie,“to-night。Ihaveso,littletime。Imustbebackhereby7。30。Won’tyoucomeand,dinewithme?” “I’dbedelighted,butIcan’tto-night,“saidMrs。Vance,studyingCarrie’sfineappearance。Thelatter’sgoodfortune,madeherseemmorethaneverworthyanddelightfulintheothers,eyes。”Ipromisedfaithfullytobehomeatsix。”Glancingatthe,smallgoldwatchpinnedtoherbosom,sheadded:“Imustbe,going,too。Tellmewhenyou’recomingup,ifatall。” “Why,anytimeyoulike,“saidCarrie。 “Well,to-morrowthen。I’mlivingattheChelseanow。” “Movedagain?”exclaimedCarrie,laughing。 “Yes。YouknowIcan’tstaysixmonthsinoneplace。Ijust,havetomove。Remembernow——half-pastfive。” “Iwon’tforget,“saidCarrie,castingaglanceatherasshe,wentaway。Thenitcametoherthatshewasasgoodasthis,womannow——perhapsbetter。Somethingintheother’ssolicitude,andinterestmadeherfeelasifsheweretheonetocondescend。 Now,asoneachprecedingday,letterswerehandedherbythe,doormanattheCasino。Thiswasafeaturewhichhadrapidly,developedsinceMonday。Whattheycontainedshewellknew。MASH NOTESwereoldaffairsintheirmildestform。Sheremembered,havingreceivedherfirstonefarbackinColumbiaCity。Since,then,asachorusgirl,shehadreceivedothers——gentlemenwho,prayedforanengagement。Theywerecommonsportbetweenherand,Lola,whoreceivedsomealso。Theybothfrequentlymadelightof,them。 Now,however,theycamethickandfast。Gentlemenwithfortunes,didnothesitatetonote,asanadditiontotheirownamiable,collectionofvirtues,thattheyhadtheirhorsesandcarriages。 Thusone: “Ihaveamillioninmyownright。Icouldgiveyouevery,luxury。Thereisn’tanythingyoucouldaskforthatyoucouldn’t,have。Isaythis,notbecauseIwanttospeakofmymoney,but,becauseIloveyouandwishtogratifyyoureverydesire。Itis,lovethatpromptsmetowrite。Willyounotgivemeonehalf- hourinwhichtopleadmycause?” SuchoftheselettersascamewhileCarriewasstillinthe,SeventeenthStreetplacewerereadwithmoreinterest——though,neverdelight——thanthosewhicharrivedaftershewasinstalled,inherluxuriousquartersattheWellington。Eventhereher,vanity——orthatself-appreciationwhich,initsmorerabidform,iscalledvanity——wasnotsufficientlycloyedtomakethese,thingswearisome。Adulation,beingnewinanyform,pleasedher。 Onlyshewassufficientlywisetodistinguishbetweenherold,conditionandhernewone。Shehadnothadfameormoneybefore。 Nowtheyhadcome。Shehadnothadadulationandaffectionate,propositionsbefore。Nowtheyhadcome。Wherefore?Shesmiled,tothinkthatmenshouldsuddenlyfindhersomuchmore,attractive。Intheleastwayitincitedhertocoolnessand,indifference。 “Dolookhere,“sheremarkedtoLola。”Seewhatthismansays: ’Ifyouwillonlydeigntograntmeonehalf-hour,’“she,repeated,withanimitationoflanguor。”Theidea。Aren’tmen,silly?” “Hemusthavelotsofmoney,thewayhetalks,“observedLola。 “That’swhattheyallsay,“saidCarrie,innocently。 “Whydon’tyouseehim,“suggestedLola,“andhearwhathehasto,say?” “IndeedIwon’t,“saidCarrie。”Iknowwhathe’dsay。Idon’t,wanttomeetanybodythatway。” Lolalookedatherwithbig,merryeyes。 “Hecouldn’thurtyou,“shereturned。”Youmighthavesomefun,withhim。” Carrieshookherhead。 “You’reawfullyqueer,“returnedthelittle,blue-eyedsoldier。 Thuscrowdedfortune。Forthiswholeweek,thoughherlarge,salaryhadnotyetarrived,itwasasiftheworldunderstoodand,trustedher。Withoutmoney——ortherequisitesum,atleast——she,enjoyedtheluxurieswhichmoneycouldbuy。Forherthedoorsof,fineplacesseemedtoopenquitewithouttheasking。These,palatialchambers,howmarvellouslytheycametoher。The,elegantapartmentsofMrs。VanceintheChelsea——thesewerehers。 Mensentflowers,lovenotes,offersoffortune。Andstillher,dreamsranriot。Theonehundredandfifty!theonehundredand,fifty!WhatadoortoanAladdin’scaveitseemedtobe。Each,day,herheadalmostturnedbydevelopments,herfanciesofwhat,herfortunemustbe,withamplemoney,grewandmultiplied。She,conceivedofdelightswhichwerenot——sawlightsofjoythat,neverwereonlandorsea。Then,atlast,afteraworldof,anticipation,cameherfirstinstallmentofonehundredandfifty,dollars。 Itwaspaidtoheringreenbacks——threetwenties,sixtens,and,sixfives。Thuscollecteditmadeaveryconvenientroll。It,wasaccompaniedbyasmileandasalutationfromthecashierwho,paidit。 “Ah,yes,“saidthelatter,whensheapplied;“MissMadenda——one,hundredandfiftydollars。Quiteasuccesstheshowseemsto,havemade。” “Yes,indeed,“returnedCarrie。 Rightaftercameoneoftheinsignificantmembersofthecompany,andsheheardthechangedtoneofaddress。 “Howmuch?”saidthesamecashier,sharply。One,suchasshehad,onlyrecentlybeen,waswaitingforhermodestsalary。Ittook,herbacktothefewweeksinwhichshehadcollected——orrather,hadreceived——almostwiththeairofadomestic,four-fiftyper,weekfromalordlyforemaninashoefactory——amanwho,in,distributingtheenvelopes,hadthemannerofaprincedolingout,favourstoaservilegroupofpetitioners。Sheknewthatoutin,Chicagothisverydaythesamefactorychamberwasfullofpoor,homely-cladgirlsworkinginlonglinesatclatteringmachines; thatatnoontheywouldeatamiserablelunchinahalf-hour; thatSaturdaytheywouldgather,astheyhadwhenshewasoneof,them,andacceptthesmallpayforworkahundredtimesharder,thanshewasnowdoing。Oh,itwassoeasynow!Theworldwasso,rosyandbright。Shefeltsothrilledthatshemustneedswalk,backtothehoteltothink,wonderingwhatsheshoulddo。 Itdoesnottakemoneylongtomakeplainitsimpotence,providingthedesiresareintherealmofaffection。Withher,onehundredandfiftyinhand,Carriecouldthinkofnothing,particularlytodo。Initself,asatangible,apparentthing,whichshecouldtouchandlookupon,itwasadivertingthingfor,afewdays,butthissoonpassed。Herhotelbilldidnotrequire,itsuse。Herclotheshadforsometimebeenwhollysatisfactory。 Anotherdayortwoandshewouldreceiveanotherhundredand,fifty。Itbegantoappearasifthiswerenotsostartlingly,necessarytomaintainherpresentstate。Ifshewantedtodo,anythingbetterormovehighershemusthavemore——agreatdeal,more。 Nowacriticcalledtogetuponeofthosetinselinterviews,whichshinewithcleverobservations,showupthewitofcritics,displaythefollyofcelebrities,anddivertthepublic。He,likedCarrie,andsaidso,publicly——adding,however,thatshe,wasmerelypretty,good-natured,andlucky。Thiscutlikea,knife。The“Herald,“gettingupanentertainmentforthebenefit,ofitsfreeicefund,didherthehonourtobeghertoappear,alongwithcelebritiesfornothing。Shewasvisitedbyayoung,author,whohadaplaywhichhethoughtshecouldproduce。Alas,shecouldnotjudge。Ithurthertothinkit。Thenshefound,shemustputhermoneyinthebankforsafety,andsomoving,finallyreachedtheplacewhereitstruckherthatthedoorto,life’sperfectenjoymentwasnotopen。 Graduallyshebegantothinkitwasbecauseitwassummer。 Nothingwasgoingonmuchsavesuchentertainmentsastheonein,whichshewasthestar。FifthAvenuewasboardedupwherethe,richhaddesertedtheirmansions。MadisonAvenuewaslittle,better。Broadwaywasfullofloafingthespiansinsearchofnext,season’sengagements。Thewholecitywasquietandhernights,weretakenupwithherwork。Hencethefeelingthattherewas,littletodo。 “Idon’tknow,“shesaidtoLolaoneday,sittingatoneofthe,windowswhichlookeddownintoBroadway,“Igetlonely;don’t,you?” “No,“saidLola,“notveryoften。Youwon’tgoanywhere。That’s,what’sthematterwithyou。” “WherecanIgo?” “Why,there’relotsofplaces,“returnedLola,whowasthinking,ofherownlightsometourneyswiththegayyouths。”Youwon’tgo,withanybody。” “Idon’twanttogowiththesepeoplewhowritetome。Iknow,whatkindtheyare。” “Yououghtn’ttobelonely,“saidLola,thinkingofCarrie’s,success。”There’relotswouldgivetheirearstobeinyour,shoes。” Carrielookedoutagainatthepassingcrowd。 “Idon’tknow,“shesaid。 Unconsciouslyheridlehandswerebeginningtoweary。 ChapterXLV CURIOUSSHIFTSOFTHEPOOR ThegloomyHurstwood,sittinginhischeaphotel,wherehehad,takenrefugewithseventydollars——thepriceofhisfurniture—— betweenhimandnothing,sawahotsummeroutandacoolfallin,reading。Hewasnotwhollyindifferenttothefactthathis,moneywasslippingaway。Asfiftycentsafterfiftycentswere,paidoutforaday’slodginghebecameuneasy,andfinallytooka,cheaperroom——thirty-fivecentsaday——tomakehismoneylast,longer。FrequentlyhesawnoticesofCarrie。Herpicturewasin,the“World“onceortwice,andanold“Herald“hefoundina,chairinformedhimthatshehadrecentlyappearedwithsome,othersatabenefitforsomethingorother。Hereadthesethings,withmingledfeelings。Eachoneseemedtoputherfartherand,fartherawayintoarealmwhichbecamemoreimposingasit,recededfromhim。Onthebillboards,too,hesawapretty,poster,showingherastheQuakerMaid,demureanddainty。More,thanoncehestoppedandlookedatthese,gazingatthepretty,faceinasullensortofway。Hisclotheswereshabby,andhe,presentedamarkedcontrasttoallthatshenowseemedtobe。 Somehow,solongasheknewshewasattheCasino,thoughhehad,neveranyintentionofgoingnearher,therewasasubconscious,comfortforhim——hewasnotquitealone。Theshowseemedsucha,fixturethat,afteramonthortwo,hebegantotakeitfor,grantedthatitwasstillrunning。InSeptemberitwentonthe,roadandhedidnotnoticeit。Whenallbuttwentydollarsof,hismoneywasgone,hemovedtoafifteen-centlodging-housein,theBowery,wheretherewasabarelounging-roomfilledwith,tablesandbenchesaswellassomechairs。Herehispreference,wastoclosehiseyesanddreamofotherdays,ahabitwhichgrew,uponhim。Itwasnotsleepatfirst,butamentalhearkening,backtoscenesandincidentsinhisChicagolife。Asthepresent,becamedarker,thepastgrewbrighter,andallthatconcernedit,stoodinrelief。 Hewasunconsciousofjusthowmuchthishabithadholdofhim,untilonedayhefoundhislipsrepeatinganoldanswerhehad,madetooneofhisfriends。TheywereinFitzgeraldandMoy’s。 Itwasasifhestoodinthedoorofhiselegantlittleoffice,comfortablydressed,talkingtoSagarMorrisonaboutthevalueof,SouthChicagorealestateinwhichthelatterwasaboutto,invest。 “Howwouldyouliketocomeinonthatwithme?”heheard,Morrisonsay。 “Notme,“heanswered,justashehadyearsbefore。”Ihavemy,handsfullnow。” Themovementofhislipsarousedhim。Hewonderedwhetherhehad,reallyspoken。Thenexttimehenoticedanythingofthesorthe,reallydidtalk。 “Whydon’tyoujump,youbloodyfool?”hewassaying。”Jump!” ItwasafunnyEnglishstoryhewastellingtoacompanyof,actors。Evenashisvoicerecalledhim,hewassmiling。A crustyoldcodger,sittingnearby,seemeddisturbed;atleast,hestaredinamostpointedway。Hurstwoodstraightenedup。The,humourofthememoryfledinaninstantandhefeltashamed。For,relief,helefthischairandstrolledoutintothestreets。 Oneday,lookingdownthead。columnsofthe“EveningWorld,“he,sawwhereanewplaywasattheCasino。Instantly,hecametoa,mentalhalt。Carriehadgone!Herememberedseeingaposterof,heronlyyesterday,butnodoubtitwasoneleftuncoveredbythe,newsigns。Curiously,thisfactshookhimup。Hehadalmostto,admitthatsomehowhewasdependinguponherbeinginthecity。 Nowshewasgone。Hewonderedhowthisimportantfacthad,skippedhim。Goodnessknowswhenshewouldbebacknow。 Impelledbyanervousfear,heroseandwentintothedingyhall,wherehecountedhisremainingmoney,unseen。Therewerebutten,dollarsinall。 Hewonderedhowalltheseotherlodging-housepeoplearoundhim,gotalong。Theydidn’tseemtodoanything。Perhapsthey,begged——unquestionablytheydid。Manywasthedimehehadgiven,tosuchastheyinhisday。Hehadseenothermenaskingfor,moneyonthestreets。Maybehecouldgetsomethatway。There,washorrorinthisthought。 Sittinginthelodging-houseroom,hecametohislastfifty,cents。Hehadsavedandcounteduntilhishealthwasaffected。 Hisstoutnesshadgone。Withit,eventhesemblanceofafitin,hisclothes。Nowhedecidedhemustdosomething,and,walking,about,sawanotherdaygoby,bringinghimdowntohislast,twentycents——notenoughtoeatforthemorrow。 Summoningallhiscourage,hecrossedtoBroadwayanduptothe,BroadwayCentralhotel。Withinablockhehalted,undecided。A big,heavy-facedporterwasstandingatoneoftheside,entrances,lookingout。Hurstwoodpurposedtoappealtohim。 Walkingstraightup,hewasuponhimbeforehecouldturnaway。 “Myfriend,“hesaid,recognisingeveninhisplighttheman’s,inferiority,“isthereanythingaboutthishotelthatIcouldget,todo?” Theporterstaredathimthewhilehecontinuedtotalk。 “I’moutofworkandoutofmoneyandI’vegottogetsomething,—— itdoesn’tmatterwhat。Idon’tcaretotalkaboutwhatI’ve,been,butifyou’dtellmehowtogetsomethingtodo,I’dbe,muchobligedtoyou。Itwouldn’tmatterifitonlylastedafew,daysjustnow。I’vegottohavesomething。” Theporterstillgazed,tryingtolookindifferent。Then,seeing,thatHurstwoodwasabouttogoon,hesaid: “I’venothingtodowithit。You’llhavetoaskinside。” Curiously,thisstirredHurstwoodtofurthereffort。 “Ithoughtyoumighttellme。” Thefellowshookhisheadirritably。 Insidewenttheex-managerandstraighttoanofficeoffthe,clerk’sdesk。Oneofthemanagersofthehotelhappenedtobe,there。Hurstwoodlookedhimstraightintheeye。 “Couldyougivemesomethingtodoforafewdays?”hesaid。 “I’minapositionwhereIhavetogetsomethingatonce。” Thecomfortablemanagerlookedathim,asmuchastosay:“Well,Ishouldjudgeso。” “Icamehere,“explainedHurstwood,nervously,“becauseI’vebeen,amanagermyselfinmyday。I’vehadbadluckinawaybutI’m,notheretotellyouthat。Iwantsomethingtodo,ifonlyfora,week。” Themanimaginedhesawafeverishgleamintheapplicant’seye。 “Whathoteldidyoumanage?”heinquired。 “Itwasn’tahotel,“saidHurstwood。”Iwasmanagerof,FitzgeraldandMoy’splaceinChicagoforfifteenyears。” “Isthatso?”saidthehotelman。”Howdidyoucometogetout,ofthat?” ThefigureofHurstwoodwasrathersurprisingincontrasttothe,fact。 “Well,byfoolishnessofmyown。Itisn’tanythingtotalkabout,now。Youcouldfindoutifyouwantedto。I’m’broke’nowand,ifyouwillbelieveme,Ihaven’teatenanythingto-day。” Thehotelmanwasslightlyinterestedinthisstory。Hecould,hardlytellwhattodowithsuchafigure,andyetHurstwood’s,earnestnessmadehimwishtodosomething。 “CallOlsen,“hesaid,turningtotheclerk。 Inreplytoabellandadisappearinghall-boy,Olsen,thehead,porter,appeared。 “Olsen,“saidthemanager,“isthereanythingdownstairsyou,couldfindforthismantodo?I’dliketogivehimsomething。” “Idon’tknow,sir,“saidOlsen。”Wehaveaboutallthehelpwe,need。IthinkIcouldfindsomething,sir,though,ifyoulike。” “Do。TakehimtothekitchenandtellWilsontogivehim,somethingtoeat。” “Allright,sir,“saidOlsen。 Hurstwoodfollowed。Outofthemanager’ssight,thehead,porter’smannerchanged。 “Idon’tknowwhatthedevilthereistodo,“heobserved。 Hurstwoodsaidnothing。Tohimthebigtrunkhustlerwasa,subjectforprivatecontempt。 “You’retogivethismansomethingtoeat,“heobservedtothe,cook。 ThelatterlookedHurstwoodover,andseeingsomethingkeenand,intellectualinhiseyes,said: “Well,sitdownoverthere。” ThuswasHurstwoodinstalledintheBroadwayCentral,butnotfor,long。Hewasinnoshapeormoodtodothescrubworkthat,existsaboutthefoundationofeveryhotel。Nothingbetter,offering,hewassettoaidthefireman,toworkaboutthe,basement,todoanythingandeverythingthatmightoffer。 Porters,cooks,firemen,clerks——allwereoverhim。Moreoverhis,appearancedidnotpleasetheseindividuals——histemperwastoo,lonely——andtheymadeitdisagreeableforhim。 Withthestolidityandindifferenceofdespair,however,he,endureditall,sleepinginanatticattheroofofthehouse,eatingwhatthecookgavehim,acceptingafewdollarsaweek,whichhetriedtosave。Hisconstitutionwasinnoshapeto,endure。 OnedaythefollowingFebruaryhewassentonanerrandtoa,largecoalcompany’soffice。Ithadbeensnowingandthawingand,thestreetsweresloppy。Hesoakedhisshoesinhisprogressand,camebackfeelingdullandweary。Allthenextdayhefelt,unusuallydepressedandsataboutasmuchaspossible,tothe,irritationofthosewhoadmiredenergyinothers。 Intheafternoonsomeboxesweretobemovedtomakeroomfornew,culinarysupplies。Hewasorderedtohandleatruck。 Encounteringabigbox,hecouldnotliftit。 “What’sthematterthere?”saidtheheadporter。”Can’tyou,handleit?” Hewasstrainingtoliftit,butnowhequit。 “No,“hesaid,weakly。 Themanlookedathimandsawthathewasdeathlypale。 “Notsick,areyou?”heasked。 “IthinkIam,“returnedHurstwood。 “Well,you’dbettergositdown,then。” Thishedid,butsoongrewrapidlyworse。Itseemedallhecould,dotocrawltohisroom,whereheremainedforaday。 “ThatmanWheeler’ssick,“reportedoneofthelackeystothe,nightclerk。 “What’sthematterwithhim?” “Idon’tknow。He’sgotahighfever。” Thehotelphysicianlookedathim。 “BettersendhimtoBellevue,“herecommended。”He’sgot,pneumonia。” Accordingly,hewascartedaway。 Inthreeweekstheworstwasover,butitwasnearlythefirstof,Maybeforehisstrengthpermittedhimtobeturnedout。Thenhe,wasdischarged。 Nomoreweaklylookingobjecteverstrolledoutintothespring,sunshinethantheoncehale,lustymanager。Allhiscorpulency,hadfled。Hisfacewasthinandpale,hishandswhite,hisbody,flabby。Clothesandall,heweighedbutonehundredandthirty- fivepounds。Someoldgarmentshadbeengivenhim——acheapbrown,coatandmisfitpairoftrousers。Alsosomechangeandadvice。 Hewastoldtoapplytothecharities。 AgainheresortedtotheBowerylodging-house,broodingover,wheretolook。Fromthisitwasbutasteptobeggary。 “Whatcanamando?”hesaid。”Ican’tstarve。” HisfirstapplicationwasinsunnySecondAvenue。Awell-dressed,mancameleisurelystrollingtowardhimoutofStuyvesantPark。 Hurstwoodnervedhimselfandsidlednear。 “Wouldyoumindgivingmetencents?”hesaid,directly。”I’min,apositionwhereImustasksomeone。” Themanscarcelylookedathim,fishedinhisvestpocketand,tookoutadime。 “Thereyouare,“hesaid。 “Muchobliged,“saidHurstwood,softly,buttheotherpaidno,moreattentiontohim。 Satisfiedwithhissuccessandyetashamedofhissituation,he,decidedthathewouldonlyaskfortwenty-fivecentsmore,since,thatwouldbesufficient。Hestrolledaboutsizinguppeople,butitwaslongbeforejusttherightfaceandsituationarrived。 Whenheasked,hewasrefused。Shockedbythisresult,hetook,anhourtorecoverandthenaskedagain。Thistimeanickelwas,givenhim。Bythemostwatchfulefforthedidgettwentycents,more,butitwaspainful。 Thenextdayheresortedtothesameeffort,experiencinga,varietyofrebuffsandoneortwogenerousreceptions。Atlast,itcrossedhismindthattherewasascienceoffaces,andthata,mancouldpicktheliberalcountenanceifhetried。 Itwasnopleasuretohim,however,thisstoppingofpassers-by。 Hesawonemantakenupforitandnowtroubledlestheshouldbe,arrested。Nevertheless,hewenton,vaguelyanticipatingthat,indefinitesomethingwhichisalwaysbetter。 Itwaswithasenseofsatisfaction,then,thathesawannounced,onemorningthereturnoftheCasinoCompany,“withMissCarrie,Madenda。”Hehadthoughtofheroftenenoughindayspast。How,successfulshewas——howmuchmoneyshemusthave!Evennow,however,ittookasevererunofilllucktodecidehimtoappeal,toher。Hewastrulyhungrybeforehesaid: “I’llaskher。Shewon’trefusemeafewdollars。” Accordingly,heheadedfortheCasinooneafternoon,passingit,severaltimesinanefforttolocatethestageentrance。Thenhe,satinBryantPark,ablockaway,waiting。”Shecan’trefuseto,helpmealittle,“hekeptsayingtohimself。 Beginningwithhalf-pastsix,hehoveredlikeashadowaboutthe,Thirty-ninthStreetentrance,pretendingalwaystobeahurrying,pedestrianandyetfearfullestheshouldmisshisobject。He,wasslightlynervous,too,nowthattheeventfulhourhad,arrived;butbeingweakandhungry,hisabilitytosufferwas,modified。Atlasthesawthattheactorswerebeginningto,arrive,andhisnervoustensionincreased,untilitseemedasif,hecouldnotstandmuchmore。 OncehethoughthesawCarriecomingandmovedforward,onlyto,seethathewasmistaken。 “Shecan’tbelong,now,“hesaidtohimself,halffearingto,encounterherandequallydepressedatthethoughtthatshemight,havegoneinbyanotherway。Hisstomachwassoemptythatit,ached。 Individualafterindividualpassedhim,nearlyallwelldressed,almostallindifferent。Hesawcoachesrollingby,gentlemen,passingwithladies——theevening’smerrimentwasbeginningin,thisregionoftheatresandhotels。 Suddenlyacoachrolledupandthedriverjumpeddowntoopenthe,door。BeforeHurstwoodcouldact,twoladiesflouncedacrossthe,broadwalkanddisappearedinthestagedoor。Hethoughthesaw,Carrie,butitwassounexpected,soelegantandfaraway,he,couldhardlytell。Hewaitedawhilelonger,growingfeverish,withwant,andthenseeingthatthestagedoornolongeropened,andthatamerryaudiencewasarriving,heconcludeditmusthave,beenCarrieandturnedaway。 “Lord,“hesaid,hasteningoutofthestreetintowhichthemore,fortunatewerepouring,“I’vegottogetsomething。” Atthathour,whenBroadwayiswonttoassumeitsmost,interestingaspect,apeculiarindividualinvariablytookhis,standatthecornerofTwenty-sixthStreetandBroadway——aspot,whichisalsointersectedbyFifthAvenue。Thiswasthehour,whenthetheatreswerejustbeginningtoreceivetheirpatrons。 Firesignsannouncingthenight’samusementsblazedonevery,hand。Cabsandcarriages,theirlampsgleaminglikeyelloweyes,patteredby。Couplesandpartiesofthreeandfourfreely,mingledinthecommoncrowd,whichpouredbyinathickstream,laughingandjesting。OnFifthAvenuewereloungers——afew,wealthystrollers,agentlemanineveningdresswithhisladyon,hisarm,someclub-menpassingfromonesmoking-roomtoanother。 Acrossthewaythegreathotelsshowedahundredgleaming,windows,theircafesandbilliard-roomsfilledwitha,comfortable,well-dressed,andpleasure-lovingthrong。Allabout,wasthenight,pulsatingwiththethoughtsofpleasureand,exhilaration——thecuriousenthusiasmofagreatcitybentupon,findingjoyinathousanddifferentways。 Thisuniqueindividualwasnolessthananex-soldierturned,religionist,who,havingsufferedthewhipsandprivationsofour,peculiarsocialsystem,hadconcludedthathisdutytotheGod,whichheconceivedlayinaidinghisfellow-man。Theformofaid,whichhechosetoadministerwasentirelyoriginalwithhimself。 Itconsistedofsecuringabedforallsuchhomelesswayfarersas,shouldapplytohimatthisparticularspot,thoughhehad,scarcelythewherewithaltoprovideacomfortablehabitationfor,himself。Takinghisplaceamidthislightsomeatmosphere,he,wouldstand,hisstockyfigurecloakedinagreatcapeovercoat,hisheadprotectedbyabroadslouchhat,awaitingtheapplicants,whohadinvariouswayslearnedthenatureofhischarity。Fora,whilehewouldstandalone,gazinglikeanyidleruponanever- fascinatingscene。Ontheeveninginquestion,apoliceman,passingsalutedhimas“captain,“inafriendlyway。Anurchin,whohadfrequentlyseenhimbefore,stoppedtogaze。Allothers,tookhimfornothingoutoftheordinary,saveinthematterof,dress,andconceivedofhimasastrangerwhistlingandidling,forhisownamusement。 Asthefirsthalf-hourwaned,certaincharactersappeared。Here,andthereinthepassingcrowdsonemightsee,nowandthen,a,loitereredginginterestedlynear。Aslouchyfigurecrossedthe,oppositecornerandglancedfurtivelyinhisdirection。Another,camedownFifthAvenuetothecornerofTwenty-sixthStreet,took,ageneralsurvey,andhobbledoffagain。Twoorthreenoticeable,BowerytypesedgedalongtheFifthAvenuesideofMadisonSquare,butdidnotventureover。Thesoldier,inhiscapeovercoat,walkedashortlineoftenfeetathiscorner,toandfro,indifferentlywhistling。 Asnineo’clockapproached,someofthehubbuboftheearlier,hourpassed。Theatmosphereofthehotelswasnotsoyouthful。 Theair,too,wascolder。Oneveryhandcuriousfigureswere,moving——watchersandpeepers,withoutanimaginarycircle,which,theyseemedafraidtoenter——adozeninall。Presently,withthe,arrivalofakeenersenseofcold,onefigurecameforward。It,crossedBroadwayfromouttheshadowofTwenty-sixthStreet,and,inahalting,circuitousway,arrivedclosetothewaiting,figure。Therewassomethingshamefacedordiffidentaboutthe,movement,asiftheintentionweretoconcealanyideaof,stoppinguntiltheverylastmoment。Thensuddenly,closetothe,soldier,camethehalt。 Thecaptainlookedinrecognition,buttherewasnoespecial,greeting。Thenewcomernoddedslightlyandmurmuredsomething,likeonewhowaitsforgifts。Theothersimplymotionedto-ward,theedgeofthewalk。 “Standoverthere,“hesaid。 Bythisthespellwasbroken。Evenwhilethesoldierresumedhis,short,solemnwalk,otherfiguresshuffledforward。Theydidnot,somuchasgreettheleader,butjoinedtheone,snifflingand,hitchingandscrapingtheirfeet。 “Gold,ain’tit?” “I’mgladwinter’sover。” “Looksasthoughitmightrain。” Themotleycompanyhadincreasedtoten。Oneortwokneweach,otherandconversed。Othersstoodoffafewfeet,notwishingto,beinthecrowdandyetnotcountedout。Theywerepeevish,crusty,silent,eyingnothinginparticularandmovingtheir,feet。 Therewouldhavebeentalkingsoon,butthesoldiergavethemno,chance。Countingsufficienttobegin,hecameforward。 “Beds,eh,allofyou?” Therewasageneralshuffleandmurmurofapproval。 “Well,lineuphere。I’llseewhatIcando。Ihaven’tacent,myself。” Theyfellintoasortofbroken,raggedline。Onemightsee,now,someofthechiefcharacteristicsbycontrast。Therewasa,woodenlegintheline。Hatswerealldrooping,agroupthat,wouldillbecomeasecond-handHesterStreetbasementcollection。 Trouserswereallwarpedandfrayedatthebottomandcoatsworn,andfaded。Intheglareofthestorelights,someofthefaces,lookeddryandchalky;otherswereredwithblotchesandpuffed,inthecheeksandundertheeyes;oneortwowererawbonedand,remindedoneofrailroadhands。Afewspectatorscamenear,drawnbytheseeminglyconferringgroup,thenmoreandmore,and,quicklytherewasapushing,gapingcrowd。Someoneintheline,begantotalk。 “Silence!”exclaimedthecaptain。”Now,then,gentlemen,these,menarewithoutbeds。Theyhavetohavesomeplacetosleepto- night。Theycan’tlieoutinthestreets。Ineedtwelvecents,toputoneofthemtobed。Whowillgiveittome?” Noreply。 “Well,we’llhavetowaithere,boys,untilsomeonedoes。 Twelvecentsisn’tsoverymuchforoneman。” “Here’sfifteen,“exclaimedayoungman,peeringforwardwith,strainedeyes。”It’sallIcanafford。” “Allright。NowIhavefifteen。Stepoutoftheline,“and,seizingonebytheshoulder,thecaptainmarchedhimoffalittle,wayandstoodhimupalone。 Comingback,heresumedhisplaceandbeganagain。 “Ihavethreecentsleft。Thesemenmustbeputtobedsomehow。 Thereare“——counting——“one,two,three,four,five,six,seven,eight,nine,ten,eleven,twelvemen。Ninecentsmorewillput,thenextmantobed;givehimagood,comfortablebedforthe,night。Igorightalongandlookafterthatmyself。Whowill,givemeninecents?” Oneofthewatchers,thistimeamiddle-agedman,handedhima,five-centpiece。 “Now,Ihaveeightcents。Fourmorewillgivethismanabed。 Come,gentlemen。Wearegoingveryslowthisevening。Youall,havegoodbeds。Howaboutthese?” “Hereyouare,“remarkedabystander,puttingacoinintohis,hand。 “That,“saidthecaptain,lookingatthecoin,“paysfortwobeds,fortwomenandgivesmefiveonthenextone。Whowillgiveme,sevencentsmore?” “Iwill,“saidavoice。 ComingdownSixthAvenuethisevening,Hurstwoodchancedtocross,eastthroughTwenty-sixthStreettowardThirdAvenue。Hewas,whollydisconsolateinspirit,hungrytowhathedeemedanalmost,mortalextent,weary,anddefeated。HowshouldhegetatCarrie,now?Itwouldbeelevenbeforetheshowwasover。Ifshecamein,acoach,shewouldgoawayinone。Hewouldneedtointerrupt,undermosttryingcircumstances。Worstofall,hewashungryand,weary,andatbestawholedaymustintervene,forhehadnot,hearttotryagainto-night。Hehadnofoodandnobed。 WhenhenearedBroadway,henoticedthecaptain’sgatheringof,wanderers,butthinkingittobetheresultofastreetpreacher,orsomepatentmedicinefakir,wasabouttopasson。However,in,crossingthestreettowardMadisonSquarePark,henoticedthe,lineofmenwhosebedswerealreadysecured,stretchingoutfrom,themainbodyofthecrowd。Intheglareoftheneighbouring,electriclightherecognisedatypeofhisownkind——thefigures,whomhesawaboutthestreetsandinthelodging-houses,drifting,inmindandbodylikehimself。Hewonderedwhatitcouldbeand,turnedback。 Therewasthecaptaincurtlypleadingasbefore。Heheardwith,astonishmentandasenseofrelieftheoft-repeatedwords:“These,menmusthaveabed。”Beforehimwasthelineofunfortunates,whosebedswereyettobehad,andseeinganewcomerquietlyedge,upandtakeapositionattheendoftheline,hedecidedtodo,likewise。Whatusetocontend?Hewaswearyto-night。Itwasa,simplewayoutofonedifficulty,atleast。To-morrow,maybe,he,woulddobetter。 Backofhim,wheresomeofthosewerewhosebedsweresafe,a,relaxedairwasapparent。Thestrainofuncertaintybeing,removed,heheardthemtalkingwithmoderatefreedomandsome,leaningtowardsociability。Politics,religion,thestateofthe,government,somenewspapersensations,andthemorenotorious,factstheworldover,foundmouthpiecesandauditorsthere。 Crackedandhuskyvoicespronouncedforciblyuponoddmatters。 Vagueandramblingobservationsweremadeinreply。 Thereweresquints,andleers,andsomedull,ox-likestaresfrom,thosewhoweretoodullortoowearytoconverse。 Standingtells。Hurstwoodbecamemorewearywaiting。Hethought,heshoulddropsoonandshiftedrestlesslyfromonefoottothe,other。Atlasthisturncame。Themanaheadhadbeenpaidfor,andgonetotheblessedlineofsuccess。Hewasnowfirst,and,alreadythecaptainwastalkingforhim。 “Twelvecents,gentlemen——twelvecentsputsthismantobed。He,wouldn’tstandhereinthecoldifhehadanyplacetogo。” Hurstwoodswallowedsomethingthatrosetohisthroat。Hunger,andweaknesshadmadeacowardofhim。 “Hereyouare,“saidastranger,handingmoneytothecaptain。 Nowthelatterputakindlyhandontheex-manager’sshoulder。 “Lineupoverthere,“hesaid。 Oncethere,Hurstwoodbreathedeasier。Hefeltasiftheworld,werenotquitesobadwithsuchagoodmaninit。Othersseemed,tofeellikehimselfaboutthis。 “Captain’sagreatfeller,ain’the?”saidthemanahead——a,little,woebegone,helpless-lookingsortofindividual,who,lookedasthoughhehadeverbeenthesportandcareoffortune。 “Yes,“saidHurstwood,indifferently。 “Huh!there’salotbackthereyet,“saidamanfartherup,leaningoutandlookingbackattheapplicantsforwhomthe,captainwaspleading。 “Yes。Mustbeoverahundredto-night,“saidanother。 “Lookattheguyinthecab,“observedathird。 Acabhadstopped。Somegentlemanineveningdressreachedouta,billtothecaptain,whotookitwithsimplethanksandturned,awaytohisline。Therewasageneralcraningofnecksasthe,jewelinthewhiteshirtfrontsparkledandthecabmovedoff。 Eventhecrowdgapedinawe。 “Thatfixesupninemenforthenight,“saidthecaptain,countingoutasmanyofthelinenearhim。”Lineupoverthere。 Now,then,thereareonlyseven。Ineedtwelvecents。” Moneycameslowly。Inthecourseoftimethecrowdthinnedout,toameagrehandful。FifthAvenue,saveforanoccasionalcabor,footpassenger,wasbare。Broadwaywasthinlypeopledwith,pedestrians。Onlynowandthenastrangerpassingnoticedthe,smallgroup,handedoutacoin,andwentaway,unheeding。 Thecaptainremainedstolidanddetermined。Hetalkedon,very,slowly,utteringthefewestwordsandwithacertainassurance,asthoughhecouldnotfail。 “Come;Ican’tstayouthereallnight。Thesemenaregetting,tiredandcold。Someonegivemefourcents。” Therecameatimewhenhesaidnothingatall。Moneywashanded,him,andforeachtwelvecentshesingledoutamanandputhim,intheotherline。Thenhewalkedupanddownasbefore,looking,attheground。 Thetheatresletout。Firesignsdisappeared。Aclockstruck,eleven。Anotherhalf-hourandhewasdowntothelasttwomen。 “Come,now,“heexclaimedtoseveralcuriousobservers;“eighteen,centswillfixusallupforthenight。Eighteencents。Ihave,six。Somebodygivemethemoney。Remember,Ihavetogooverto,Brooklynyetto-night。BeforethatIhavetotakethesemendown,andputthemtobed。Eighteencents。” Nooneresponded。Hewalkedtoandfro,lookingdownforseveral,minutes,occasionallysayingsoftly:“Eighteencents。”Itseemed,asifthispaltrysumwoulddelaythedesiredculminationlonger,thanalltheresthad。Hurstwood,buoyedupslightlybythelong,lineofwhichhewasapart,refrainedwithaneffortfrom,groaning,hewassoweak。 AtlastaladyinoperacapeandrustlingskirtscamedownFifth,Avenue,accompaniedbyherescort。Hurstwoodgazedwearily,remindedbyherbothofCarrieinhernewworldandofthetime,whenhehadescortedhisownwifeinlikemanner。 Whilehewasgazing,sheturnedand,lookingattheremarkable,company,sentherescortover。Hecame,holdingabillinhis,fingers,allelegantandgraceful。 “Hereyouare,“hesaid。 “Thanks,“saidthecaptain,turningtothetworemaining,applicants。”Nowwehavesomeforto-morrownight,“headded。 Therewithhelinedupthelasttwoandproceededtothehead,countingashewent。 “Onehundredandthirty-seven,“heannounced。”Now,boys,line,up。Rightdressthere。Wewon’tbemuchlongeraboutthis。 Steady,now。” Heplacedhimselfattheheadandcalledout“Forward。”Hurstwood,movedwiththeline。AcrossFifthAvenue,throughMadisonSquare,bythewindingpaths,eastonTwenty-thirdStreet,anddownThird,Avenuewoundthelong,serpentinecompany。Midnightpedestrians,andloiterersstoppedandstaredasthecompanypassed。Chatting,policemen,atvariouscorners,staredindifferentlyornoddedto,theleader,whomtheyhadseenbefore。OnThirdAvenuethey,marched,aseeminglywearyway,toEighthStreet,wheretherewas,alodginghouse,closed,apparently,forthenight。Theywere,expected,however。 Outsideinthegloomtheystood,whiletheleaderparleyed,within。Thendoorsswungopenandtheywereinvitedinwitha,“Steady,now。” Someonewasattheheadshowingrooms,sothattherewasno,delayforkeys。Toilingupthecreakystairs,Hurstwoodlooked,backandsawthecaptain,watching;thelastoneoftheline,beingincludedinhisbroadsolicitude。Thenhegatheredhis,cloakabouthimandstrolledoutintothenight。 “Ican’tstandmuchofthis,“saidHurstwood,whoselegsached,himpainfully,ashesatdownuponthemiserablebunkinthe,small,lightlesschamberallottedtohim。”I’vegottoeat,or,I’lldie。” ChapterXLVI STIRRINGTROUBLEDWATERS PlayinginNewYorkoneeveningonthisherreturn,Carriewas,puttingthefinishingtouchestohertoiletbeforeleavingfor,thenight,whenacommotionnearthestagedoorcaughtherear。 Itincludedafamiliarvoice。 “Nevermind,now。IwanttoseeMissMadenda。” “You’llhavetosendinyourcard。” “Oh,comeoff!Here。” Ahalf-dollarwaspassedover,andnowaknockcameather,dressing-roomdoor。 Carrieopenedit。 “Well,well!”saidDrouet。”Idoswear!Why,howareyou?Iknew,thatwasyouthemomentIsawyou。” Carriefellbackapace,expectingamostembarrassing,conversation。 “Aren’tyougoingtoshakehandswithme?Well,you’readandy! That’sallright,shakehands。” Carrieputoutherhand,smiling,iffornothingmorethanthe,man’sexuberantgood-nature。Thougholder,hewasbutslightly,changed。Thesamefineclothes,thesamestockybody,thesame,rosycountenance。 “Thatfellowatthedoortheredidn’twanttoletmein,untilI paidhim。Iknewitwasyou,allright。Say,you’vegotagreat,show。Youdoyourpartfine。Iknewyouwould。Ijusthappened,tobepassingtonightandthoughtI’ddropinforafewminutes。 Isawyournameontheprogramme,butIdidn’trememberituntil,youcameonthestage。Thenitstruckmeallatonce。Say,you,couldhaveknockedmedownwithafeather。That’sthesamename,youusedoutthereinChicago,isn’tit?” “Yes,“answeredCarrie,mildly,overwhelmedbytheman’s,assurance。 “Iknewitwas,themomentIsawyou。Well,howhaveyoubeen,anyhow?” “Oh,verywell,“saidCarrie,lingeringinherdressing-room。 Shewasratherdazedbytheassault。”Howhaveyoubeen?” “Me?Oh,fine。I’mherenow。” “Isthatso?”saidCarrie。 “Yes。I’vebeenhereforsixmonths。I’vegotchargeofa,branchhere。” “Hownice!” “Well,whendidyougoonthestage,anyhow?”inquiredDrouet。 “Aboutthreeyearsago,“saidCarrie。 “Youdon’tsayso!Well,sir,thisisthefirstI’veheardofit。 Iknewyouwould,though。Ialwayssaidyoucouldact——didn’t,I?” Carriesmiled。 “Yes,youdid,“shesaid。 “Well,youdolookgreat,“hesaid。”Ineversawanybodyimprove,so。You’retaller,aren’tyou?” “Me?Oh,alittle,maybe。” Hegazedatherdress,thenatherhair,whereabecominghatwas,setjauntily,thenintohereyes,whichshetookalloccasionto,avert。Evidentlyheexpectedtorestoretheiroldfriendshipat,onceandwithoutmodification。 “Well,“hesaid,seeinghergatherupherpurse,handkerchief,andthelike,preparatorytodeparting,“Iwantyoutocomeout,todinnerwithme;won’tyou?I’vegotafriendouthere。” “Oh,Ican’t,“saidCarrie。”Notto-night。Ihaveanearly,engagementto-morrow。” “Aw,lettheengagementgo。Comeon。Icangetridofhim。I wanttohaveagoodtalkwithyou。” “No,no,“saidCarrie;“Ican’t。Youmustn’taskmeanymore。I don’tcareforalatedinner。” “Well,comeonandhaveatalk,then,anyhow。” “Notto-night,“shesaid,shakingherhead。”We’llhaveatalk,someothertime。” Asaresultofthis,shenoticedashadeofthoughtpassoverhis,face,asifhewerebeginningtorealisethatthingswere,changed。Good-naturedictatedsomethingbetterthanthisforone,whohadalwayslikedher。 “Youcomearoundtothehotelto-morrow,“shesaid,assortof,penanceforerror。”Youcantakedinnerwithme。” “Allright,“saidDrouet,brightening。”Whereareyoustopping?” “AttheWaldorf,“sheanswered,mentioningthefashionable,hostelrythenbutnewlyerected。 “Whattime?” “Well,comeatthree,“saidCarrie,pleasantly。 ThenextdayDrouetcalled,butitwaswithnoespecialdelight,thatCarrierememberedherappointment。However,seeinghim,handsomeasever,afterhiskind,andmostgeniallydisposed,her,doubtsastowhetherthedinnerwouldbedisagreeablewereswept,away。Hetalkedasvolublyasever。 “Theyputonalotoflugshere,don’tthey?”washisfirst,remark。 “Yes;theydo,“saidCarrie。 Genialegotistthathewas,hewentatonceintoadetailed,accountofhisowncareer。 “I’mgoingtohaveabusinessofmyownprettysoon,“heobserved,inoneplace。”Icangetbackingfortwohundredthousand,dollars。” Carrielistenedmostgood-naturedly。 “Say,“hesaid,suddenly;“whereisHurstwoodnow?” Carrieflushedalittle。 “He’shereinNewYork,Iguess,“shesaid。”Ihaven’tseenhim,forsometime。” Drouetmusedforamoment。Hehadnotbeensureuntilnowthat,theex-managerwasnotaninfluentialfigureinthebackground。 Heimaginednot;butthisassurancerelievedhim。Itmustbe,thatCarriehadgotridofhim——aswellsheought,hethought。 “Amanalwaysmakesamistakewhenhedoesanythinglikethat,“ heobserved。 “Likewhat?”saidCarrie,unwittingofwhatwascoming。 “Oh,youknow,“andDrouetwavedherintelligence,asitwere,withhishand。 “No,Idon’t,“sheanswered。”Whatdoyoumean?” “WhythataffairinChicago——thetimeheleft。” “Idon’tknowwhatyouaretalkingabout,“saidCarrie。Couldit,behewouldrefersorudelytoHurstwood’sflightwithher? “Oho!”saidDrouet,incredulously。”Youknewhetookten,thousanddollarswithhimwhenheleft,didn’tyou?” “What!”saidCarrie。”Youdon’tmeantosayhestolemoney,do,you?” “Why,“saidDrouet,puzzledathertone,“youknewthat,didn’t,you?” “Why,no,“saidCarrie。”OfcourseIdidn’t。” “Well,that’sfunny,“saidDrouet。”Hedid,youknow。Itwasin,allthepapers。” “Howmuchdidyousayhetook?”saidCarrie。 “Tenthousanddollars。Iheardhesentmostofitback,afterwards,though。” Carrielookedvacantlyattherichlycarpetedfloor。Anewlight,wasshininguponalltheyearssinceherenforcedflight。She,rememberednowahundredthingsthatindicatedasmuch。Shealso,imaginedthathetookitonheraccount。Insteadofhatred,springinguptherewasakindofsorrowgenerated。Poorfellow! Whatathingtohavehadhangingoverhisheadallthetime。 AtdinnerDrouet,warmedupbyeatinganddrinkingandsoftened,inmood,fanciedhewaswinningCarrietoherold-timegood- naturedregardforhim。Hebegantoimagineitwouldnotbeso,difficulttoenterintoherlifeagain,highasshewas。Ah,whataprize!hethought。Howbeautiful,howelegant,how,famous!InhertheatricalandWaldorfsetting,Carriewastohim,thealldesirable。 “DoyourememberhownervousyouwerethatnightattheAvery?” heasked。 Carriesmiledtothinkofit。 “Ineversawanybodydobetterthanyoudidthen,Cad,“headded,ruefully,asheleanedanelbowonthetable;“Ithoughtyouand,Iweregoingtogetalongfinethosedays。” “Youmustn’ttalkthatway,“saidCarrie,bringingintheleast,touchofcoldness。 “Won’tyouletmetellyou——“ “No,“sheanswered,rising。”Besides,it’stimeIwasgetting,readyforthetheatre。I’llhavetoleaveyou。Come,now。” “Oh,stayaminute,“pleadedDrouet。”You’vegotplentyof,time。” “No,“saidCarrie,gently。 ReluctantlyDrouetgaveupthebrighttableandfollowed。Hesaw,hertotheelevatorand,standingthere,said: “WhendoIseeyouagain?” “Oh,sometime,possibly,“saidCarrie。”I’llbehereall,summer。Good-night!” Theelevatordoorwasopen。 “Good-night!”saidDrouet,assherustledin。 Thenhestrolledsadlydownthehall,allhisoldlonging,revived,becauseshewasnowsofaroff。Themerryfrou-frouof,theplacespokeallofher。Hethoughthimselfhardlydealt,with。Carrie,however,hadotherthoughts。 ThatnightitwasthatshepassedHurstwood,waitingatthe,Casino,withoutobservinghim。 Thenextnight,walkingtothetheatre,sheencounteredhimface,toface。Hewaswaiting,moregauntthanever,determinedtosee,her,ifhehadtosendinword。Atfirstshedidnotrecognise,theshabby,baggyfigure。Hefrightenedher,edgingsoclose,a,seeminglyhungrystranger。 “Carrie,“hehalfwhispered,“canIhaveafewwordswithyou?” Sheturnedandrecognisedhimontheinstant。Ifthereeverhad,lurkedanyfeelinginherheartagainsthim,itdesertedhernow。 Still,sherememberedwhatDrouetsaidabouthishavingstolen,themoney。 “Why,George,“shesaid;“what’sthematterwithyou?” “I’vebeensick,“heanswered。”I’vejustgotoutofthe,hospital。ForGod’ssake,letmehavealittlemoney,willyou?” “Ofcourse,“saidCarrie,herliptremblinginastrongeffortto,maintainhercomposure。”Butwhat’sthematterwithyou,anyhow?” Shewasopeningherpurse,andnowpulledoutallthebillsin,it——afiveandtwotwos。 “I’vebeensick,Itoldyou,“hesaid,peevishly,almost,resentingherexcessivepity。Itcamehardtohimtoreceiveit,fromsuchasource。 “Here,“shesaid。”It’sallIhavewithme。” “Allright,“heanswered,softly。”I’llgiveitbacktoyousome,day。” Carrielookedathim,whilepedestriansstaredather。Shefelt,thestrainofpublicity。SodidHurstwood。 “Whydon’tyoutellmewhat’sthematterwithyou?”sheasked,hardlyknowingwhattodo。”Whereareyouliving?” “Oh,I’vegotaroomdownintheBowery,“heanswered。”There’s,nousetryingtotellyouhere。I’mallrightnow。” Heseemedinawaytoresentherkindlyinquiries——somuchbetter,hadfatedealtwithher。 “Bettergoonin,“hesaid。”I’mmuchobliged,butIwon’t,botheryouanymore。” Shetriedtoanswer,butheturnedawayandshuffledofftoward,theeast。 Fordaysthisapparitionwasadragonhersoulbeforeitbegan,towearpartiallyaway。Drouetcalledagain,butnowhewasnot,evenseenbyher。Hisattentionsseemedoutofplace。 “I’mout,“washerreplytotheboy。 Sopeculiar,indeed,washerlonely,self-withdrawingtemper,thatshewasbecominganinterestingfigureinthepubliceye—— shewassoquietandreserved。 Notlongafterthemanagementdecidedtotransfertheshowto,London。Asecondsummerseasondidnotseemtopromisewell,here。 “HowwouldyouliketotrysubduingLondon?”askedhermanager,oneafternoon。 “Itmightbejusttheotherway,“saidCarrie。 “Ithinkwe’llgoinJune,“heanswered。 Inthehurryofdeparture,Hurstwoodwasforgotten。Bothheand,Drouetwerelefttodiscoverthatshewasgone。Thelatter,calledonce,andexclaimedatthenews。Thenhestoodinthe,lobby,chewingtheendsofhismoustache。Atlasthereacheda,conclusion——theolddayshadgoneforgood。 “Sheisn’tsomuch,“hesaid;butinhisheartofheartshedid,notbelievethis。 Hurstwoodshiftedbycuriousmeansthroughalongsummerand,fall。Asmalljobasjanitorofadancehallhelpedhimfora,month。Begging,sometimesgoinghungry,sometimessleepingin,thepark,carriedhimovermoredays。Resortingtothose,peculiarcharities,severalofwhich,inthepressofhungry,search,heaccidentallystumbledupon,didtherest。Towardthe,deadofwinter,Carriecameback,appearingonBroadwayinanew,play;buthewasnotawareofit。Forweekshewanderedabout,thecity,begging,whilethefiresign,announcingher,engagement,blazednightlyuponthecrowdedstreetofamusements。 Drouetsawit,butdidnotventurein。 AboutthistimeAmesreturnedtoNewYork。Hehadmadealittle,successintheWest,andnowopenedalaboratoryinWooster,Street。Ofcourse,heencounteredCarriethroughMrs。Vance;but,therewasnothingresponsivebetweenthem。Hethoughtshewas,stillunitedtoHurstwood,untilotherwiseinformed。Notknowing,thefactsthen,hedidnotprofesstounderstand,andrefrained,fromcomment。 WithMrs。Vance,hesawthenewplay,andexpressedhimself,accordingly。 “Sheoughtnottobeincomedy,“hesaid。”Ithinkshecoulddo,betterthanthat。” OneafternoontheymetattheVances’accidentally,andbegana,veryfriendlyconversation。Shecouldhardlytellwhytheone- timekeeninterestinhimwasnolongerwithher。 Unquestionably,itwasbecauseatthattimehehadrepresented,somethingwhichshedidnothave;butthisshedidnot,understand。Successhadgivenherthemomentaryfeelingthatshe,wasnowblessedwithmuchofwhichhewouldapprove。Asamatter,offact,herlittlenewspaperfamewasnothingatalltohim。He,thoughtshecouldhavedonebetter,byfar。 “Youdidn’tgointocomedy-drama,afterall?”hesaid,rememberingherinterestinthatformofart。 “No,“sheanswered;“Ihaven’t,sofar。” Helookedatherinsuchapeculiarwaythatsherealisedshehad,failed。Itmovedhertoadd:“Iwantto,though。” “Ishouldthinkyouwould,“hesaid。”Youhavethesortof,dispositionthatwoulddowellincomedy-drama。” Itsurprisedherthatheshouldspeakofdisposition。Wasshe,then,soclearlyinhismind? “Why?”sheasked。 “Well,“hesaid,“Ishouldjudgeyouwererathersympatheticin,yournature。” Carriesmiledandcolouredslightly。Hewassoinnocentlyfrank,withherthatshedrewnearerinfriendship。Theoldcallofthe,idealwassounding。 “Idon’tknow,“sheanswered,pleased,nevertheless,beyondall,concealment。 “Isawyourplay,“heremarked。”It’sverygood。” “I’mgladyoulikedit。” “Verygood,indeed,“hesaid,“foracomedy。” Thisisallthatwassaidatthetime,owingtoaninterruption,butlatertheymetagain。Hewassittinginacornerafter,dinner,staringatthefloor,whenCarriecameupwithanotherof,theguests。Hardworkhadgivenhisfacethelookofonewhois,weary。ItwasnotforCarrietoknowthethinginitwhich,appealedtoher。 “Allalone?”shesaid。 “Iwaslisteningtothemusic。” “I’llbebackinamoment,“saidhercompanion,whosawnothing,intheinventor。 Nowhelookedupinherface,forshewasstandingamoment,whilehesat。 “Isn’tthatapatheticstrain?”heinquired,listening。 “Oh,very,“shereturned,alsocatchingit,nowthather,attentionwascalled。 “Sitdown,“headded,offeringherthechairbesidehim。 Theylistenedafewmomentsinsilence,touchedbythesame,feeling,onlyhersreachedherthroughtheheart。Musicstill,charmedherasintheolddays。 “Idon’tknowwhatitisaboutmusic,“shestartedtosay,moved,bytheinexplicablelongingswhichsurgedwithinher;“butit,alwaysmakesmefeelasifIwantedsomething——I——“ “Yes,“hereplied;“Iknowhowyoufeel。” Suddenlyheturnedtoconsideringthepeculiarityofher,disposition,expressingherfeelingssofrankly。 “Yououghtnottobemelancholy,“hesaid。 Hethoughtawhile,andthenwentoffintoaseeminglyalien,observationwhich,however,accordedwiththeirfeelings。 “Theworldisfullofdesirablesituations,but,unfortunately,wecanoccupybutoneatatime。Itdoesn’tdousanygoodto,wringourhandsoverthefar-offthings。” Themusicceasedandhearose,takingastandingpositionbefore,her,asiftoresthimself。 “Whydon’tyougetintosomegood,strongcomedy-drama?”hesaid。 Hewaslookingdirectlyathernow,studyingherface。Her,large,sympatheticeyesandpain-touchedmouthappealedtohimas,proofsofhisjudgment。 “PerhapsIshall,“shereturned。 “That’syourfield,“headded。 “Doyouthinkso?” “Yes,“hesaid;“Ido。Idon’tsupposeyou’reawareofit,but,thereissomethingaboutyoureyesandmouthwhichfitsyoufor,thatsortofwork。” Carriethrilledtobetakensoseriously。Forthemoment,lonelinessdesertedher。Herewaspraisewhichwaskeenand,analytical。 “It’sinyoureyesandmouth,“hewentonabstractedly。”I rememberthinking,thefirsttimeIsawyou,thattherewas,somethingpeculiaraboutyourmouth。Ithoughtyouwereaboutto,cry。” “Howodd,“saidCarrie,warmwithdelight。Thiswaswhather,heartcraved。 “ThenInoticedthatthatwasyournaturallook,andto-nightI sawitagain。There’sashadowaboutyoureyes,too,whichgives,yourfacemuchthissamecharacter。It’sinthedepthofthem,I think。” Carrielookedstraightintohisface,whollyaroused。 “Youprobablyarenotawareofit,“headded。 Shelookedaway,pleasedthatheshouldspeakthus,longingtobe,equaltothisfeelingwrittenuponhercountenance。Itunlocked,thedoortoanewdesire。 Shehadcausetoponderoverthisuntiltheymetagain——several,weeksormore。Itshowedhershewasdriftingawayfromtheold,idealwhichhadfilledherinthedressing-roomsoftheAvery,stageandthereafter,foralongtime。Whyhadshelostit? “Iknowwhyyoushouldbeasuccess,“hesaid,anothertime,“if,youhadamoredramaticpart。I’vestudieditout——“ “Whatisit?”saidCarrie。 “Well,“hesaid,asonepleasedwithapuzzle,“theexpressionin,yourfaceisonethatcomesoutindifferentthings。Yougetthe,samethinginapatheticsong,oranypicturewhichmovesyou,deeply。It’sathingtheworldlikestosee,becauseit’sa,naturalexpressionofitslonging。” Carriegazedwithoutexactlygettingtheimportofwhathemeant。 “Theworldisalwaysstrugglingtoexpressitself,“hewenton。 “Mostpeoplearenotcapableofvoicingtheirfeelings。They,dependuponothers。Thatiswhatgeniusisfor。Oneman,expressestheirdesiresfortheminmusic;anotheroneinpoetry; anotheroneinaplay。Sometimesnaturedoesitinaface——it,makesthefacerepresentativeofalldesire。That’swhathas,happenedinyourcase。” Helookedatherwithsomuchoftheimportofthethinginhis,eyesthatshecaughtit。Atleast,shegottheideathather,lookwassomethingwhichrepresentedtheworld’slonging。She,tookittoheartasacreditablething,untilheadded: “Thatputsaburdenofdutyonyou。Itsohappensthatyouhave,thisthing。Itisnocredittoyou——thatis,Imean,youmight,nothavehadit。Youpaidnothingtogetit。Butnowthatyou,haveit,youmustdosomethingwithit。” “What?”askedCarrie。 “Ishouldsay,turntothedramaticfield。Youhavesomuch,sympathyandsuchamelodiousvoice。Makethemvaluableto,others。Itwillmakeyourpowersendure。” Carriedidnotunderstandthislast。Alltherestshowedher,thathercomedysuccesswaslittleornothing。 “Whatdoyoumean?”sheasked。 “Why,justthis。Youhavethisqualityinyoureyesandmouth,andinyournature。Youcanloseit,youknow。Ifyouturnaway,fromitandlivetosatisfyyourselfalone,itwillgofast,enough。Thelookwillleaveyoureyes。Yourmouthwillchange。 Yourpowertoactwilldisappear。Youmaythinktheywon’t,but,theywill。Naturetakescareofthat。” Hewassointerestedinforwardingallgoodcausesthathe,sometimesbecameenthusiastic,givingventtothesepreachments。 SomethinginCarrieappealedtohim。Hewantedtostirherup。 “Iknow,“shesaid,absently,feelingslightlyguiltyofneglect。 “IfIwereyou,“hesaid,“I’dchange。” Theeffectofthiswaslikeroilinghelplesswaters。Carrie,troubledoveritinherrocking-chairfordays。 “Idon’tbelieveI’llstayincomedysoverymuchlonger,“she,eventuallyremarkedtoLola。 “Oh,whynot?”saidthelatter。 “Ithink,“shesaid,“Icandobetterinaseriousplay。” “Whatputthatideainyourhead?” “Oh,nothing,“sheanswered;“I’vealwaysthoughtso。” Still,shedidnothing——grieving。Itwasalongwaytothis,betterthing——orseemedso——andcomfortwasabouther;hencethe,inactivityandlonging。 ChapterXLVII THEWAYOFTHEBEATEN——AHARPINTHEWIND Inthecity,atthattime,therewereanumberofcharities,similarinnaturetothatofthecaptain’s,whichHurstwoodnow,patronisedinalikeunfortunateway。Onewasaconventmission- houseoftheSistersofMercyinFifteenthStreet——arowofred,brickfamilydwellings,beforethedoorofwhichhungaplain,woodencontributionbox,onwhichwaspaintedthestatementthat,everynoonamealwasgivenfreetoallthosewhomightapplyand,askforaid。Thissimpleannouncementwasmodestintheextreme,covering,asitdid,acharitysobroad。Institutionsand,charitiesaresolargeandsonumerousinNewYorkthatsuch,thingsasthisarenotoftennoticedbythemorecomfortably,situated。Buttoonewhosemindisuponthematter,theygrow,exceedinglyunderinspection。Unlessonewerelookingupthis,matterinparticular,hecouldhavestoodatSixthAvenueand,FifteenthStreetfordaysaroundthenoonhourandneverhave,noticedthatoutofthevastcrowdthatsurgedalongthatbusy,thoroughfarethereturnedout,everyfewseconds,someweather- beaten,heavy-footedspecimenofhumanity,gauntincountenance,anddilapidatedinthematterofclothes。Thefactisnonethe,lesstrue,however,andthecolderthedaythemoreapparentit,became。Spaceandalackofculinaryroominthemission-house,compelledanarrangementwhichpermittedofonlytwenty-fiveor,thirtyeatingatonetime,sothatalinehadtobeformed,outsideandanorderlyentranceeffected。Thiscausedadaily,spectaclewhich,however,hadbecomesocommonbyrepetition,duringanumberofyearsthatnownothingwasthoughtofit。The,menwaitedpatiently,likecattle,inthecoldestweather——waited,forseveralhoursbeforetheycouldbeadmitted。Noquestions,wereaskedandnoservicerendered。Theyateandwentaway,again,someofthemreturningregularlydayafterdaythewinter,through。 Abig,motherlylookingwomaninvariablystoodguardatthedoor,duringtheentireoperationandcountedtheadmissiblenumber。 Themenmovedupinsolemnorder。Therewasnohasteandno,eagernessdisplayed。Itwasalmostadumbprocession。Inthe,bitterestweatherthislinewastobefoundhere。Underanicy,windtherewasaprodigiousslappingofhandsandadancingof,feet。Fingersandthefeaturesofthefacelookedasifseverely,nippedbythecold。Astudyofthesemeninbroadlightproved,themtobenearlyallofatype。Theybelongedtotheclassthat,sitontheparkbenchesduringtheendurabledaysandsleepupon,themduringthesummernights。TheyfrequenttheBoweryand,thosedown-at-the-heelsEastSidestreetswherepoorclothesand,shrunkenfeaturesarenotsingledoutascurious。Theyarethe,menwhoareinthelodginghousesitting-roomsduringbleakand,bitterweatherandwhoswarmaboutthecheapershelterswhich,onlyopenatsixinanumberofthelowerEastSidestreets。 Miserablefood,ill-timedandgreedilyeaten,hadplayedhavoc,withboneandmuscle。Theywereallpale,flabby,sunken-eyed,hollow-chested,witheyesthatglintedandshoneandlipsthat,wereasicklyredbycontrast。Theirhairwasbuthalfattended,to,theirearsanaemicinhue,andtheirshoesbrokeninleather,andrundownatheelandtoe。Theywereoftheclasswhich,simplyfloatsanddrifts,everywaveofpeoplewashingupone,as,breakersdodriftwooduponastormyshore。 Fornearlyaquarterofacentury,inanothersectionofthe,city,Fleischmann,thebaker,hadgivenaloafofbreadtoany,onewhowouldcomeforittothesidedoorofhisrestaurantat,thecornerofBroadwayandTenthStreet,atmidnight。Every,nightduringtwentyyearsaboutthreehundredmenhadformedin,lineandattheappointedtimemarchedpastthedoorway,picked,theirloaffromagreatboxplacedjustoutside,andvanished,againintothenight。Fromthebeginningtothepresenttime,therehadbeenlittlechangeinthecharacterornumberofthese,men。Thereweretwoorthreefiguresthathadgrownfamiliarto,thosewhohadseenthislittleprocessionpassyearafteryear。 Twoofthemhadmissedscarcelyanightinfifteenyears。There,wereaboutforty,moreorless,regularcallers。Theremainder,ofthelinewasformedofstrangers。Intimesofpanicand,unusualhardshipstherewereseldommorethanthreehundred。In,timesofprosperity,whenlittleisheardoftheunemployed,therewereseldomless。Thesamenumber,winterandsummer,in,stormorcalm,ingoodtimesandbad,heldthismelancholy,midnightrendezvousatFleischmann’sbreadbox。 Atbothofthesetwocharities,duringtheseverewinterwhich,wasnowon,Hurstwoodwasafrequentvisitor。Ononeoccasionit,waspeculiarlycold,andfindingnocomfortinbeggingaboutthe,streets,hewaiteduntilnoonbeforeseekingthisfreeoffering,tothepoor。Already,ateleveno’clockofthismorning,several,suchashehadshambledforwardoutofSixthAvenue,theirthin,clothesflappingandflutteringinthewind。Theyleanedagainst,theironrailingwhichprotectsthewallsoftheNinthRegiment,Armory,whichfrontsuponthatsectionofFifteenthStreet,havingcomeearlyinordertobefirstin。Havinganhourto,wait,theyatfirstlingeredatarespectfuldistance;butothers,comingup,theymovedcloserinordertoprotecttheirrightof,precedence。TothiscollectionHurstwoodcameupfromthewest,outofSeventhAvenueandstoppedclosetothedoor,nearerthan,alltheothers。Thosewhohadbeenwaitingbeforehim,but,fartheraway,nowdrewnear,andbyacertainstolidityof,demeanour,nowordsbeingspoken,indicatedthattheywerefirst。 Seeingtheoppositiontohisaction,helookedsullenlyalongthe,line,thenmovedout,takinghisplaceatthefoot。Whenorder,hadbeenrestored,theanimalfeelingofoppositionrelaxed。 “Mustbeprettynearnoon,“venturedone。 “Itis,“saidanother。”I’vebeenwaitingnearlyanhour。” “Gee,butit’scold!” Theypeeredeagerlyatthedoor,whereallmustenter。Agrocery,mandroveupandcarriedinseveralbasketsofeatables。This,startedsomewordsupongrocerymenandthecostoffoodin,general。 “Iseemeat’sgoneup,“saidone。 “Iftherewuzwar,itwouldhelpthiscountryalot。” Thelinewasgrowingrapidly。Alreadytherewerefiftyormore,andthoseatthehead,bytheirdemeanour,evidently,congratulatedthemselvesuponnothavingsolongtowaitasthose,atthefoot。Therewasmuchjerkingofheads,andlookingdown,theline。 “Itdon’tmatterhownearyougettothefront,solongasyou’re,inthefirsttwenty-five,“commentedoneofthefirsttwenty- five。”Youallgointogether。” “Humph!”ejaculatedHurstwood,whohadbeensosturdily,displaced。 “ThishereSingleTaxisthething,“saidanother。”Thereain’t,goingtobenoordertillitcomes。” Forthemostparttherewassilence;gauntmenshuffling,glancing,andbeatingtheirarms。 Atlastthedooropenedandthemotherly-lookingsisterappeared。 Sheonlylookedanorder。Slowlythelinemovedupand,oneby,one,passedin,untiltwenty-fivewerecounted。Thenshe,interposedastoutarm,andthelinehalted,withsixmenonthe,steps。Ofthesetheex-managerwasone。Waitingthus,some,talked,someejaculatedconcerningthemiseryofit;some,brooded,asdidHurstwood。Atlasthewasadmitted,and,having,eaten,cameaway,almostangeredbecauseofhispainsingetting,it。 Ateleveno’clockofanotherevening,perhapstwoweekslater,he,wasatthemidnightofferingofaloaf——waitingpatiently。It,hadbeenanunfortunatedaywithhim,butnowhetookhisfate,withatouchofphilosophy。Ifhecouldsecurenosupper,orwas,hungrylateintheevening,herewasaplacehecouldcome。A fewminutesbeforetwelve,agreatboxofbreadwaspushedout,andexactlyonthehouraportly,round-facedGermantook,positionbyit,calling“Ready。”Thewholelineatoncemoved,forwardeachtakinghisloafinturnandgoinghisseparateway。 Onthisoccasion,theex-manageratehisashewentploddingthe,darkstreetsinsilencetohisbed。 ByJanuaryhehadaboutconcludedthatthegamewasupwithhim。 Lifehadalwaysseemedapreciousthing,butnowconstantwant,andweakenedvitalityhadmadethecharmsofearthratherdull,andinconspicuous。Severaltimes,whenfortunepressedmost,harshly,hethoughthewouldendhistroubles;butwithachange,ofweather,orthearrivalofaquarteroradime,hismoodwould,change,andhewouldwait。Eachdayhewouldfindsomeoldpaper,lyingaboutandlookintoit,toseeiftherewasanytraceof,Carrie,butallsummerandfallhehadlookedinvain。Thenhe,noticedthathiseyeswerebeginningtohurthim,andthis,ailmentrapidlyincreaseduntil,inthedarkchambersofthe,lodgingshefrequented,hedidnotattempttoread。Badand,irregulareatingwasweakeningeveryfunctionofhisbody。The,onerecourselefthimwastodozewhenaplaceofferedandhe,couldgetthemoneytooccupyit。 Hewasbeginningtofind,inhiswretchedclothingandmeagre,stateofbody,thatpeopletookhimforachronictypeofbumand,beggar。Policehustledhimalong,restaurantandlodginghouse,keepersturnedhimoutpromptlythemomenthehadhisdue; pedestrianswavedhimoff。Hefounditmoreandmoredifficult,togetanythingfromanybody。 Atlastheadmittedtohimselfthatthegamewasup。Itwas,afteralongseriesofappealstopedestrians,inwhichhehad,beenrefusedandrefused——everyonehasteningfromcontact。 “Givemealittlesomething,willyou,mister?”hesaidtothe,lastone。”ForGod’ssake,do;I’mstarving。” “Aw,getout,“saidtheman,whohappenedtobeacommontype,himself。”You’renogood。I’llgiveyounawthin’。” Hurstwoodputhishands,redfromcold,downinhispockets。 Tearscameintohiseyes。 “That’sright,“hesaid;“I’mnogoodnow。Iwasallright。I hadmoney。I’mgoingtoquitthis,“and,withdeathinhis,heart,hestarteddowntowardtheBowery。Peoplehadturnedon,thegasbeforeanddied;whyshouldn’the?Heremembereda,lodginghousewheretherewerelittle,closerooms,withgas-jets,inthem,almostpre-arranged,hethought,forwhathewantedto,do,whichrentedforfifteencents。Thenherememberedthathe,hadnofifteencents。 Onthewayhemetacomfortable-lookinggentleman,coming,clean- shaven,outofafinebarbershop。 “Wouldyoumindgivingmealittlesomething?”heaskedthisman,boldly。 Thegentlemanlookedhimoverandfishedforadime。Nothingbut,quarterswereinhispocket。 “Here,“hesaid,handinghimone,toberidofhim。”Beoff,now。” Hurstwoodmovedon,wondering。Thesightofthelarge,bright,coinpleasedhimalittle。Herememberedthathewashungryand,thathecouldgetabedfortencents。Withthis,theideaof,deathpassed,forthetimebeing,outofhismind。Itwasonly,whenhecouldgetnothingbutinsultsthatdeathseemedworth,while。 Oneday,inthemiddleofthewinter,thesharpestspellofthe,seasonsetin。Itbrokegreyandcoldinthefirstday,andon,thesecondsnowed。Poorluckpursuinghim,hehadsecuredbut,tencentsbynightfall,andthishehadspentforfood。At,eveninghefoundhimselfattheBoulevardandSixty-seventh,Street,wherehefinallyturnedhisfaceBowery-ward。Especially,fatiguedbecauseofthewanderingpropensitywhichhadseizedhim,inthemorning,henowhalfdraggedhiswetfeet,shufflingthe,solesuponthesidewalk。Anold,thincoatwasturnedupabout,hisredears——hiscrackedderbyhatwaspulleddownuntilit,turnedthemoutward。Hishandswereinhispockets。 “I’lljustgodownBroadway,“hesaidtohimself。 WhenhereachedForty-secondStreet,thefiresignswerealready,blazingbrightly。Crowdswerehasteningtodine。Throughbright,windows,ateverycorner,mightbeseengaycompaniesin,luxuriantrestaurants。Therewerecoachesandcrowdedcable,cars。 Inhiswearyandhungrystate,heshouldneverhavecomehere。 Thecontrastwastoosharp。Evenhewasrecalledkeenlyto,betterthings。 “What’stheuse?”hethought。”It’sallupwithme。I’llquit,this。” Peopleturnedtolookafterhim,souncouthwashisshambling,figure。Severalofficersfollowedhimwiththeireyes,tosee,thathedidnotbegofanybody。 Oncehepausedinanaimless,incoherentsortofwayandlooked,throughthewindowsofanimposingrestaurant,beforewhich,blazedafiresign,andthroughthelarge,platewindowsofwhich,couldbeseentheredandgolddecorations,thepalms,thewhite,napery,andshiningglassware,and,aboveall,thecomfortable,crowd。Weakashismindhadbecome,hishungerwassharpenough,toshowtheimportanceofthis。Hestoppedstockstill,his,frayedtrouserssoakingintheslush,andpeeredfoolishlyin。 “Eat,“hemumbled。”That’sright,eat。Nobodyelsewantsany。” Thenhisvoicedroppedevenlower,andhismindhalflostthe,fancyithad。 “It’smightycold,“hesaid。”Awfulcold。” AtBroadwayandThirty-ninthStreetwasblazing,inincandescent,fire,Carrie’sname。”CarrieMadenda,“itread,“andtheCasino,Company。”Allthewet,snowysidewalkwasbrightwiththis,radiatedfire。ItwassobrightthatitattractedHurstwood’s,gaze。Helookedup,andthenatalarge,gilt-framed,posterboard,onwhichwasafinelithographofCarrie,lifesize。 Hurstwoodgazedatitamoment,snufflingandhunchingone,shoulder,asifsomethingwerescratchinghim。Hewassorun,down,however,thathismindwasnotexactlyclear。 Heapproachedthatentranceandwentin。 “Well?”saidtheattendant,staringathim。Seeinghimpause,he,wentoverandshovedhim。”Getoutofhere,“hesaid。 “IwanttoseeMissMadenda,“hesaid。 “Youdo,eh?”theothersaid,almosttickledatthespectacle。 “Getoutofhere,“andheshovedhimagain。Hurstwoodhadno,strengthtoresist。 “IwanttoseeMissMadenda,“hetriedtoexplain,evenashewas,beinghustledaway。”I’mallright。I——“ Themangavehimalastpushandclosedthedoor。Ashedidso,Hurstwoodslippedandfellinthesnow。Ithurthim,andsome,vaguesenseofshamereturned。Hebegantocryandswear,foolishly。 “Goddamneddog!”hesaid。”Damnedoldcur,“wipingtheslush,fromhisworthlesscoat。”I——Ihiredsuchpeopleasyouonce。” NowafiercefeelingagainstCarriewelledup——justonefierce,angrythoughtbeforethewholethingslippedoutofhismind。 “Sheowesmesomethingtoeat,“hesaid。”Sheowesittome。” HopelesslyheturnedbackintoBroadwayagainandsloppedonward,andaway,begging,crying,losingtrackofhisthoughts,one,afteranother,asaminddecayedanddisjointediswonttodo。 Itwastrulyawintryevening,afewdayslater,whenhisone,distinctmentaldecisionwasreached。Already,atfouro’clock,thesombrehueofnightwasthickeningtheair。Aheavysnowwas,falling——afinepicking,whippingsnow,borneforwardbyaswift,windinlong,thinlines。Thestreetswerebeddedwithit——six,inchesofcold,softcarpet,churnedtoadirtybrownbythe,crushofteamsandthefeetofmen。AlongBroadwaymenpicked,theirwayinulstersandumbrellas。AlongtheBowery,men,slouchedthroughitwithcollarsandhatspulledovertheirears。 Intheformerthoroughfarebusinessmenandtravellersweremaking,forcomfortablehotels。Inthelatter,crowdsoncolderrands,shiftedpastdingystores,inthedeeprecessesofwhichlights,werealreadygleaming。Therewereearlylightsinthecable,cars,whoseusualclatterwasreducedbythemantleaboutthe,wheels。Thewholecitywasmuffledbythisfast-thickening,mantle。 InhercomfortablechambersattheWaldorf,Carriewasreadingat,thistime“PereGoriot,“whichAmeshadrecommendedtoher。It,wassostrong,andAmes’smererecommendationhadsoarousedher,interest,thatshecaughtnearlythefullsympathetic,significanceofit。Forthefirsttime,itwasbeingbornein,uponherhowsillyandworthlesshadbeenherearlierreading,as,awhole。Becomingwearied,however,sheyawnedandcametothe,window,lookingoutupontheoldwindingprocessionofcarriages,rollingupFifthAvenue。 “Isn’titbad?”sheobservedtoLola。 “Terrible!”saidthatlittlelady,joiningher。”Ihopeitsnows,enoughtogosleighriding。” “Oh,dear,“saidCarrie,withwhomthesufferingsofFather,Goriotwerestillkeen。”That’sallyouthinkof。Aren’tyou,sorryforthepeoplewhohaven’tanythingto-night?” “OfcourseIam,“saidLola;“butwhatcanIdo?Ihaven’t,anything。” Carriesmiled。 “Youwouldn’tcare,ifyouhad,“shereturned。 “Iwould,too,“saidLola。”Butpeoplenevergavemeanything,whenIwashardup。” “Isn’titjustawful?”saidCarrie,studyingthewinter’sstorm。 “Lookatthatmanoverthere,“laughedLola,whohadcaughtsight,ofsomeonefallingdown。”Howsheepishmenlookwhentheyfall,don’tthey?” “We’llhavetotakeacoachto-night,“answeredCarrieabsently。 InthelobbyoftheImperial,Mr。CharlesDrouetwasjust,arriving,shakingthesnowfromaveryhandsomeulster。Bad,weatherhaddrivenhimhomeearlyandstirredhisdesirefor,thosepleasureswhichshutoutthesnowandgloomoflife。A gooddinner,thecompanyofayoungwoman,andaneveningatthe,theatrewerethechiefthingsforhim。 “Why,hello,Harry!”hesaid,addressingaloungerinoneofthe,comfortablelobbychairs。”Howareyou?” “Oh,aboutsixandsix,“saidtheother。 “Rottenweather,isn’tit?” “Well,Ishouldsay,“saidtheother。”I’vebeenjustsitting,herethinkingwhereI’dgoto-night。” “Comealongwithme,“saidDrouet。”Icanintroduceyouto,somethingdeadswell。” “Whoisit?”saidtheother。 “Oh,acoupleofgirlsoverhereinFortiethStreet。Wecould,haveadandytime。Iwasjustlookingforyou。” “Supposingyouget’emandtake’emouttodinner?” “Sure,“saidDrouet。”Wait’llIgoupstairsandchangemy,clothes。” “Well,I’llbeinthebarbershop,“saidtheother。”Iwantto,getashave。” “Allright,“saidDrouet,creakingoffinhisgoodshoestoward,theelevator。Theoldbutterflywasaslightonthewingas,ever。 OnanincomingvestibuledPullman,speedingatfortymilesan,hourthroughthesnowoftheevening,werethreeothers,all,related。 “Firstcallfordinnerinthedining-car,“aPullmanservitorwas,announcing,ashehastenedthroughtheaisleinsnow-whiteapron,andjacket。 “Idon’tbelieveIwanttoplayanymore,“saidtheyoungest,a,black-hairedbeauty,turnedsuperciliousbyfortune,asshe,pushedaeuchrehandawayfromher。 “Shallwegointodinner?”inquiredherhusband,whowasallthat,fineraimentcanmake。 “Oh,notyet,“sheanswered。”Idon’twanttoplayanymore,though。” “Jessica,“saidhermother,whowasalsoastudyinwhatgood,clothingcandoforage,“pushthatpindowninyourtie——it’s,comingup。” Jessicaobeyed,incidentallytouchingatherlovelyhairand,lookingatalittlejewel-facedwatch。Herhusbandstudiedher,forbeauty,evencold,isfascinatingfromonepointofview。 “Well,wewon’thavemuchmoreofthisweather,“hesaid。”It,onlytakestwoweekstogettoRome。” Mrs。Hurstwoodnestledcomfortablyinhercornerandsmiled。It,wassonicetobethemother-in-lawofarichyoungman——one,whosefinancialstatehadborneherpersonalinspection。 “Doyousupposetheboatwillsailpromptly?”askedJessica,“if,itkeepsuplikethis?” “Oh,yes,“answeredherhusband。”Thiswon’tmakeany,difference。” Passingdowntheaislecameaveryfair-hairedbanker’sson,also,ofChicago,whohadlongeyedthissuperciliousbeauty。Evennow,hedidnothesitatetoglanceather,andshewasconsciousof,it。Withaspeciallyconjuredshowofindifference,sheturned,herprettyfacewhollyaway。Itwasnotwifelymodestyatall。 Bysomuchwasherpridesatisfied。 AtthismomentHurstwoodstoodbeforeadirtyfourstorybuilding,inasidestreetquiteneartheBowery,whoseone-timecoatof,buffhadbeenchangedbysootandrain。Hemingledwithacrowd,ofmen——acrowdwhichhadbeen,andwasstill,gatheringby,degrees。 Itbeganwiththeapproachoftwoorthree,whohungaboutthe,closedwoodendoorsandbeattheirfeettokeepthemwarm。They,hadonfadedderbyhatswithdentsinthem。Theirmisfitcoats,wereheavywithmeltedsnowandturnedupatthecollars。Their,trousersweremerebags,frayedatthebottomandwobblingover,big,soppyshoes,tornatthesidesandwornalmosttoshreds。 Theymadenoefforttogoin,butshiftedruefullyabout,digging,theirhandsdeepintheirpocketsandleeringatthecrowdand,theincreasinglamps。Withtheminutes,increasedthenumber。 Therewereoldmenwithgrizzledbeardsandsunkeneyes,menwho,werecomparativelyyoungbutshrunkenbydiseases,menwhowere,middle-aged。Nonewerefat。Therewasafaceinthethickof,thecollectionwhichwasaswhiteasdrainedveal。Therewas,anotherredasbrick。Somecamewiththin,roundedshoulders,otherswithwoodenlegs,stillotherswithframessoleanthat,clothesonlyflappedaboutthem。Thereweregreatears,swollen,noses,thicklips,and,aboveall,red,blood-shoteyes。Nota,normal,healthyfaceinthewholemass;notastraightfigure; notastraightforward,steadyglance。 Inthedriveofthewindandsleettheypushedinononeanother。 Therewerewrists,unprotectedbycoatorpocket,whichwerered,withcold。Therewereears,halfcoveredbyeveryconceivable,semblanceofahat,whichstilllookedstiffandbitten。Inthe,snowtheyshifted,nowonefoot,nowanother,almostrockingin,unison。 Withthegrowthofthecrowdaboutthedoorcameamurmur。It,wasnotconversation,butarunningcommentdirectedatanyone,ingeneral。Itcontainedoathsandslangphrases。 “Bydamn,Iwishthey’dhurryup。” “Lookatthecopperwatchin’。” “Maybeitain’twinter,nuther!” “IwishtIwasinSingSing。” Nowasharperlashofwindcutdownandtheyhuddledcloser。It,wasanedging,shifting,pushingthrong。Therewasnoanger,no,pleading,nothreateningwords。Itwasallsullenendurance,unlightenedbyeitherwitorgoodfellowship。 Acarriagewentjinglingbywithsomerecliningfigureinit。 Oneofthemennearestthedoorsawit。 “Lookattheblokeridin’。” “Heain’tsocold。” “Eh,eh,eh!”yelledanother,thecarriagehavinglongsince,passedoutofhearing。 Littlebylittlethenightcrepton。Alongthewalkacrowd,turnedoutonitswayhome。Menandshop-girlswentbywith,quicksteps。Thecross-towncarsbegantobecrowded。Thegas,lampswereblazing,andeverywindowbloomedruddywithasteady,flame。Stillthecrowdhungaboutthedoor,unwavering。 “Ain’ttheyevergoin’toopenup?”queriedahoarsevoice,suggestively。 Thisseemedtorenewthegeneralinterestinthecloseddoor,and,manygazedinthatdirection。Theylookedatitasdumbbrutes,look,asdogspawandwhineandstudytheknob。Theyshiftedand,blinkedandmuttered,nowacurse,nowacomment。Stillthey,waitedandstillthesnowwhirledandcutthemwithbiting,flakes。Ontheoldhatsandpeakedshouldersitwaspiling。It,gatheredinlittleheapsandcurvesandnoonebrusheditoff。 Inthecentreofthecrowdthewarmthandsteammeltedit,and,watertrickledoffhatrimsanddownnoses,whichtheowners,couldnotreachtoscratch。Ontheouterrimthepilesremained,unmelted。Hurstwood,whocouldnotgetinthecentre,stoodwith,headloweredtotheweatherandbenthisform。 Alightappearedthroughthetransomoverhead。Itsentathrill,ofpossibilitythroughthewatchers。Therewasamurmurof,recognition。Atlastthebarsgratedinsideandthecrowd,prickedupitsears。Footstepsshuffledwithinanditmurmured,again。Someonecalled:“Slowupthere,now,“andthenthedoor,opened。Itwaspushandjamforaminute,withgrim,beast,silencetoproveitsquality,andthenitmeltedinward,like,logsfloating,anddisappeared。Therewerewethatsandwet,shoulders,acold,shrunken,disgruntledmass,pouringinbetween,bleakwalls。Itwasjustsixo’clockandtherewassupperin,everyhurryingpedestrian’sface。Andyetnosupperwasprovided,here——nothingbutbeds。 Hurstwoodlaiddownhisfifteencentsandcreptoffwithweary,stepstohisallottedroom。Itwasadingyaffair——wooden,dusty,hard。Asmallgas-jetfurnishedsufficientlightforso,ruefulacorner。 “Hm!”hesaid,clearinghisthroatandlockingthedoor。 Nowhebeganleisurelytotakeoffhisclothes,butstoppedfirst,withhiscoat,andtuckeditalongthecrackunderthedoor。His,vesthearrangedinthesameplace。Hisoldwet,crackedhathe,laidsoftlyuponthetable。Thenhepulledoffhisshoesandlay,down。 Itseemedasifhethoughtawhile,fornowhearoseandturned,thegasout,standingcalmlyintheblackness,hiddenfromview。 Afterafewmoments,inwhichhereviewednothing,butmerely,hesitated,heturnedthegasonagain,butappliednomatch。 Eventhenhestoodthere,hiddenwhollyinthatkindnesswhichis,night,whiletheuprisingfumesfilledtheroom。Whentheodour,reachedhisnostrils,hequithisattitudeandfumbledforthe,bed。”What’stheuse?”hesaid,weakly,ashestretchedhimself,torest。 AndnowCarriehadattainedthatwhichinthebeginningseemed,life’sobject,or,atleast,suchfractionofitashumanbeings,everattainoftheiroriginaldesires。Shecouldlookabouton,hergownsandcarriage,herfurnitureandbankaccount。Friends,therewere,astheworldtakesit——thosewhowouldbowandsmile,inacknowledgmentofhersuccess。Fortheseshehadoncecraved。 Applausetherewas,andpublicity——oncefaroff,essential,things,butnowgrowntrivialandindifferent。Beautyalso——her,typeofloveliness——andyetshewaslonely。Inherrocking-chair,shesat,whennototherwiseengaged——singinganddreaming。 Thusinlifethereisevertheintellectualandtheemotional,nature——themindthatreasons,andthemindthatfeels。Ofone,comethemenofaction——generalsandstatesmen;oftheother,the,poetsanddreamers——artistsall。 Asharpsinthewind,thelatterrespondtoeverybreathof,fancy,voicingintheirmoodsalltheebbandflowoftheideal。 Manhasnotyetcomprehendedthedreameranymorethanhehasthe,ideal。Forhimthelawsandmoralsoftheworldareunduly,severe。Everhearkeningtothesoundofbeauty,strainingfor,theflashofitsdistantwings,hewatchestofollow,wearying,hisfeetintravelling。SowatchedCarrie,sofollowed,rocking,andsinging。 Anditmustberememberedthatreasonhadlittlepartinthis。 Chicagodawning,shesawthecityofferingmoreofloveliness,thanshehadeverknown,andinstinctively,byforceofhermoods,alone,clungtoit。Infineraimentandelegantsurroundings,menseemedtobecontented。Hence,shedrewnearthesethings。 Chicago,NewYork;Drouet,Hurstwood;theworldoffashionand,theworldofstage——thesewerebutincidents。Notthem,butthat,whichtheyrepresented,shelongedfor。Timeprovedthe,representationfalse。 Oh,thetangleofhumanlife!,Howdimlyasyetwesee。Herewas,Carrie,inthebeginningpoor,unsophisticated。emotional; respondingwithdesiretoeverythingmostlovelyinlife,yet,findingherselfturnedasbyawall。Lawstosay:“Beallured,ifyouwill,byeverythinglovely,butdrawnotnighunlessby,righteousness。”Conventiontosay:“Youshallnotbetteryour,situationsavebyhonestlabour。”Ifhonestlabourbe,unremunerativeanddifficulttoendure;ifitbethelong,long,roadwhichneverreachesbeauty,butweariesthefeetandthe,heart;ifthedragtofollowbeautybesuchthatoneabandonsthe,admiredway,takingratherthedespisedpathleadingtoher,dreamsquickly,whoshallcastthefirststone?Notevil,but,longingforthatwhichisbetter,moreoftendirectsthestepsof,theerring。Notevil,butgoodnessmoreoftenalluresthe,feelingmindunusedtoreason。 AmidthetinselandshineofherstatewalkedCarrie,unhappy。 AswhenDrouettookher,shehadthought:“NowIamliftedinto,thatwhichisbest“;aswhenHurstwoodseeminglyofferedherthe,betterway:“NowamIhappy。”Butsincetheworldgoesitsway,pastallwhowillnotpartakeofitsfolly,shenowfoundherself,alone。Herpursewasopentohimwhoseneedwasgreatest。In,herwalksonBroadway,shenolongerthoughtoftheeleganceof,thecreatureswhopassedher。Hadtheymoreofthatpeaceand,beautywhichglimmeredafaroff,thenweretheytobeenvied。 Drouetabandonedhisclaimandwasseennomore。OfHurstwood’s,deathshewasnotevenaware。Aslow,blackboatsettingout,fromthepieratTwenty-seventhStreetuponitsweeklyerrand,bore,withmanyothers,hisnamelessbodytothePotter’sField。 Thuspassedallthatwasofinterestconcerningthesetwainin,theirrelationtoher。Theirinfluenceuponherlifeis,explicablealonebythenatureofherlongings。Timewaswhen,bothrepresentedforherallthatwasmostpotentinearthly,success。Theywerethepersonalrepresentativesofastatemost,blessedtoattain——thetitledambassadorsofcomfortandpeace,aglowwiththeircredentials。Itisbutnaturalthatwhenthe,worldwhichtheyrepresentednolongeralluredher,its,ambassadorsshouldbediscredited。EvenhadHurstwoodreturned,inhisoriginalbeautyandglory,hecouldnotnowhaveallured,her。Shehadlearnedthatinhisworld,asinherownpresent,state,wasnothappiness。 Sittingalone,shewasnowanillustrationofthedeviouswaysby,whichonewhofeels,ratherthanreasons,maybeledinthe,pursuitofbeauty。Thoughoftendisillusioned,shewasstill,waitingforthathalcyondaywhenshewouldbeledforthamong,dreamsbecomereal。Ameshadpointedoutafartherstep,buton,andonbeyondthat,ifaccomplished,wouldlieothersforher。 Itwasforevertobethepursuitofthatradianceofdelight,whichtintsthedistanthilltopsoftheworld。 Oh,Carrie,Carrie!Oh,blindstrivingsofthehumanheart! Onwardonward,itsaith,andwherebeautyleads,thereit,follows。Whetheritbethetinkleofalonesheepbello’ersome,quietlandscape,ortheglimmerofbeautyinsylvanplaces,or,theshowofsoulinsomepassingeye,theheartknowsandmakes,answer,following。Itiswhenthefeetwearyandhopeseemsvain,thattheheartachesandthelongingsarise。Know,then,thatfor,youisneithersurfeitnorcontent。Inyourrocking-chair,by,yourwindowdreaming,shallyoulong,alone。Inyourrocking- chair,byyourwindow,shallyoudreamsuchhappinessasyoumay,neverfeel。 TheEnd