Carrielookedandbeheldanewcontractmadeoutliketheother,one,withtheexceptionofthenewfiguresofsalaryandtime。
Withahandtremblingfromexcitementsheaffixedhername。
“Onehundredandfiftyaweek!”shemurmured,whenshewasagain,alone。Shefound,afterall——aswhatmillionairehasnot?——that,therewasnorealising,inconsciousness,themeaningoflarge,sums。Itwasonlyashimmering,glitteringphraseinwhichlaya,worldofpossibilities。
Downinathird-rateBleeckerStreethotel,thebrooding,HurstwoodreadthedramaticitemcoveringCarrie’ssuccess,withoutatfirstrealisingwhowasmeant。Thensuddenlyitcame,tohimandhereadthewholethingoveragain。
“That’sher,allright,Iguess,“hesaid。
Thenhelookedaboutuponadingy,moth-eatenhotellobby。
“Iguessshe’sstruckit,“hethought,apictureoftheold,shiny,plush-coveredworldcomingback,withitslights,its,ornaments,itscarriages,andflowers。Ah,shewasinthewalled,citynow!Itssplendidgateshadopened,admittingherfroma,cold,drearyoutside。Sheseemedacreatureafaroff——likeevery,othercelebrityhehadknown。
“Well,letherhaveit,“hesaid。”Iwon’tbotherher。”
Itwasthegrimresolutionofabent,bedraggled,butunbroken,pride。
ChapterXLIV
ANDTHISISNOTELFLAND——WHATGOLDWILLNOTBUY
WhenCarriegotbackonthestage,shefoundthatovernighther,dressing-roomhadbeenchanged。
“Youaretousethisroom,MissMadenda,“saidoneofthestage,lackeys。
Nolongeranyneedofclimbingseveralflightsofstepstoa,smallcoopsharedwithanother。Instead,acomparativelylarge,andcommodiouschamberwithconveniencesnotenjoyedbythesmall,fryoverhead。Shebreatheddeeplyandwithdelight。Her,sensationsweremorephysicalthanmental。Infact,shewas,scarcelythinkingatall。Heartandbodywerehavingtheirsay。
Graduallythedeferenceandcongratulationgaveheramental,appreciationofherstate。Shewasnolongerordered,but,requested,andthatpolitely。Theothermembersofthecast,lookedatherenviouslyasshecameoutarrayedinhersimple,habit,whichsheworeallthroughtheplay。Allthosewhohad,supposedlybeenherequalsandsuperiorsnowsmiledthesmileof,sociability,asmuchastosay:“Howfriendlywehavealways,been。”Onlythestarcomedianwhoseparthadbeensodeeply,injuredstalkedbyhimself。Figuratively,hecouldnotkissthe,handthatsmotehim。
Doinghersimplepart,Carriegraduallyrealisedthemeaningof,theapplausewhichwasforher,anditwassweet。Shefelt,mildlyguiltyofsomething——perhapsunworthiness。Whenher,associatesaddressedherinthewingssheonlysmiledweakly。
Theprideanddaringofplacewerenotforher。Itneveronce,crossedhermindtobereservedorhaughty——tobeotherthanshe,hadbeen。AftertheperformancessherodetoherroomwithLola,inacarriageprovided。
Thencameaweekinwhichthefirstfruitsofsuccesswere,offeredtoherlips——bowlafterbowl。Itdidnotmatterthather,splendidsalaryhadnotbegun。Theworldseemedsatisfiedwith,thepromise。Shebegantogetlettersandcards。AMr。Withers——
whomshedidnotknowfromAdam——havinglearnedbysomehookor,crookwheresheresided,bowedhimselfpolitelyin。
“Youwillexcusemeforintruding,“hesaid;“buthaveyoubeen,thinkingofchangingyourapartments?”
“Ihadn’tthoughtofit,“returnedCarrie。
“Well,IamconnectedwiththeWellington——thenewhotelon,Broadway。Youhaveprobablyseennoticesofitinthepapers。”
Carrierecognisedthenameasstandingforoneofthenewestand,mostimposinghostelries。Shehadhearditspokenofashavinga,splendidrestaurant。
“Justso,“wentonMr。Withers,acceptingheracknowledgmentof,familiarity。”Wehavesomeveryelegantroomsatpresentwhich,wewouldliketohaveyoulookat,ifyouhavenotmadeupyour,mindwhereyouintendtoresideforthesummer。Ourapartments,areperfectineverydetail——hotandcoldwater,privatebaths,specialhallserviceforeveryfloor,elevators,andallthat。
Youknowwhatourrestaurantis。”
Carrielookedathimquietly。Shewaswonderingwhetherhetook,hertobeamillionaire。
“Whatareyourrates?”sheinquired。
“Well,now,thatiswhatIcametotalkwithyouprivatelyabout。
Ourregularratesareanywherefromthreetofiftydollarsa,day。”
“Mercy!”interruptedCarrie。”Icouldn’tpayanysuchrateas,that。”
“Iknowhowyoufeelaboutit,“exclaimedMr。Withers,halting。
“Butjustletmeexplain。Isaidthoseareourregularrates。
Likeeveryotherhotelwemakespecialoneshowever。Possibly,youhavenotthoughtaboutit,butyournameisworthsomething,tous。”
“Oh!”ejaculatedCarrie,seeingataglance。
“Ofcourse。Everyhoteldependsuponthereputeofitspatrons。
Awell-knownactresslikeyourself,“andhebowedpolitely,while,Carrieflushed,“drawsattentiontothehotel,and——althoughyou,maynotbelieveit——patrons。”
“Oh,yes,“returnedCarrie,vacantly,tryingtoarrangethis,curiouspropositioninhermind。
“Now,“continuedMr。Withers,swayinghisderbyhatsoftlyand,beatingoneofhispolishedshoesuponthefloor,“Iwantto,arrange,ifpossible,tohaveyoucomeandstopatthe,Wellington。Youneednottroubleaboutterms。Infact,weneed,hardlydiscussthem。Anythingwilldoforthesummer——amere,figure——anythingthatyouthinkyoucouldaffordtopay。”
Carriewasabouttointerrupt,buthegavehernochance。
“Youcancometo-dayorto-morrow——theearlierthebetter——andwe,willgiveyouyourchoiceofnice,light,outsiderooms——thevery,bestwehave。”
“You’reverykind,“saidCarrie,touchedbytheagent’sextreme,affability。”Ishouldliketocomeverymuch。Iwouldwantto,paywhatisright,however。Ishouldn’twantto——“
“Youneednottroubleaboutthatatall,“interruptedMr。
Withers。”Wecanarrangethattoyourentiresatisfactionatany,time。Ifthreedollarsadayissatisfactorytoyou,itwillbe,sotous。Allyouhavetodoistopaythatsumtotheclerkat,theendoftheweekormonth,justasyouwish,andhewillgive,youareceiptforwhattheroomswouldcostifchargedforatour,regularrates。”
Thespeakerpaused。
“Supposeyoucomeandlookattherooms,“headded。
“I’dbegladto,“saidCarrie,“butIhavearehearsalthis,morning。”
“Ididnotmeanatonce,“hereturned。”Anytimewilldo。Would,thisafternoonbeinconvenient?”
“Notatall,“saidCarrie。
SuddenlysherememberedLola,whowasoutatthetime。
“Ihavearoom-mate,“sheadded,“whowillhavetogowhereverI
do。Iforgotaboutthat。”
“Oh,verywell,“saidMr。Withers,blandly。”Itisforyouto,saywhomyouwantwithyou。AsIsay,allthatcanbearranged,tosuityourself。”
Hebowedandbackedtowardthedoor。
“Atfour,then,wemayexpectyou?”
“Yes,“saidCarrie。
“Iwillbetheretoshowyou,“andsoMr。Witherswithdrew。
AfterrehearsalCarrieinformedLola。
“Didtheyreally?”exclaimedthelatter,thinkingofthe,Wellingtonasagroupofmanagers。”Isn’tthatfine?Oh,jolly!
It’ssoswell。That’swherewedinedthatnightwewentwith,thosetwoCushingboys。Don’tyouknow?”
“Iremember,“saidCarrie。
“Oh,it’sasfineasitcanbe。”
“We’dbetterbegoingupthere,“observedCarrielaterinthe,afternoon。
TheroomswhichMr。WithersdisplayedtoCarrieandLolawere,threeandbath——asuiteontheparlourfloor。Theyweredonein,chocolateanddarkred,withrugsandhangingstomatch。Three,windowslookeddownintobusyBroadwayontheeast,threeintoa,sidestreetwhichcrossedthere。Thereweretwolovelybedrooms,setwithbrassandwhiteenamelbeds,whiteribbon-trimmedchairs,andchiffonierstomatch。Inthethirdroom,orparlour,wasa,piano,aheavypianolamp,withashadeofgorgeouspattern,a,librarytable,severalhugeeasyrockers,somedadobookshelves,andagiltcuriocase,filledwithoddities。Pictureswereupon,thewalls,softTurkishpillowsuponthedivanfootstoolsof,brownplushuponthefloor。Suchaccommodationswouldordinarily,costahundreddollarsaweek。
“Oh,lovely!”exclaimedLola,walkingabout。
“Itiscomfortable,“saidCarrie,whowasliftingalacecurtain,andlookingdownintocrowdedBroadway。
Thebathwasahandsomeaffair,doneinwhiteenamel,witha,large,blue-borderedstonetubandnickeltrimmings。Itwas,brightandcommodious,withabevelledmirrorsetinthewallat,oneendandincandescentlightsarrangedinthreeplaces。
“Doyoufindthesesatisfactory?”observedMr。Withers。
“Oh,very,“answeredCarrie。
“Well,then,anytimeyoufinditconvenienttomovein,theyare,ready。Theboywillbringyouthekeysatthedoor。”
Carrienotedtheelegantlycarpetedanddecoratedhall,the,marbledlobby,andshowywaiting-room。Itwassuchaplaceas,shehadoftendreamedofoccupying。
“Iguesswe’dbettermoverightaway,don’tyouthinkso?”she,observedtoLola,thinkingofthecommonplacechamberin,SeventeenthStreet。
“Oh,byallmeans,“saidthelatter。
Thenextdayhertrunksleftforthenewabode。
Dressing,afterthematineeonWednesday,aknockcameather,dressing-roomdoor。
Carrielookedatthecardhandedbytheboyandsufferedashock,ofsurprise。
“TellherI’llberightout,“shesaidsoftly。Then,lookingat,thecard,added:“Mrs。Vance。”
“Why,youlittlesinner,“thelatterexclaimed,asshesawCarrie,comingtowardheracrossthenowvacantstage。”Howintheworld,didthishappen?”
Carrielaughedmerrily。Therewasnotraceofembarrassmentin,herfriend’smanner。Youwouldhavethoughtthatthelong,separationhadcomeaboutaccidentally。
“Idon’tknow,“returnedCarrie,warming,inspiteofherfirst,troubledfeelings,towardthishandsome,good-naturedyoung,matron。
“Well,youknow,IsawyourpictureintheSundaypaper,butyour,namethrewmeoff。Ithoughtitmustbeyouorsomebodythat,lookedjustlikeyou,andIsaid:’Well,now,Iwillgoright,downthereandsee。’Iwasnevermoresurprisedinmylife。How,areyou,anyway?”
“Oh,verywell,“returnedCarrie。”Howhaveyoubeen?”
“Fine。Butaren’tyouasuccess!Dear,oh!Allthepapers,talkingaboutyou。Ishouldthinkyouwouldbejusttooproudto,breathe。Iwasalmostafraidtocomebackherethisafternoon。”
“Oh,nonsense,“saidCarrie,blushing。”YouknowI’dbegladto,seeyou。”
“Well,anyhow,hereyouare。Can’tyoucomeupandtakedinner,withmenow?Whereareyoustopping?”
“AttheWellington,“saidCarrie,whopermittedherselfatouch,ofprideintheacknowledgment。
“Oh,areyou?”exclaimedtheother,uponwhomthenamewasnot,withoutitspropereffect。
Tactfully,Mrs。VanceavoidedthesubjectofHurstwood,ofwhom,shecouldnothelpthinking。NodoubtCarriehadlefthim。That,muchshesurmised。
“Oh,Idon’tthinkIcan,“saidCarrie,“to-night。Ihaveso,littletime。Imustbebackhereby7。30。Won’tyoucomeand,dinewithme?”
“I’dbedelighted,butIcan’tto-night,“saidMrs。Vance,studyingCarrie’sfineappearance。Thelatter’sgoodfortune,madeherseemmorethaneverworthyanddelightfulintheothers,eyes。”Ipromisedfaithfullytobehomeatsix。”Glancingatthe,smallgoldwatchpinnedtoherbosom,sheadded:“Imustbe,going,too。Tellmewhenyou’recomingup,ifatall。”
“Why,anytimeyoulike,“saidCarrie。
“Well,to-morrowthen。I’mlivingattheChelseanow。”
“Movedagain?”exclaimedCarrie,laughing。
“Yes。YouknowIcan’tstaysixmonthsinoneplace。Ijust,havetomove。Remembernow——half-pastfive。”
“Iwon’tforget,“saidCarrie,castingaglanceatherasshe,wentaway。Thenitcametoherthatshewasasgoodasthis,womannow——perhapsbetter。Somethingintheother’ssolicitude,andinterestmadeherfeelasifsheweretheonetocondescend。
Now,asoneachprecedingday,letterswerehandedherbythe,doormanattheCasino。Thiswasafeaturewhichhadrapidly,developedsinceMonday。Whattheycontainedshewellknew。MASH
NOTESwereoldaffairsintheirmildestform。Sheremembered,havingreceivedherfirstonefarbackinColumbiaCity。Since,then,asachorusgirl,shehadreceivedothers——gentlemenwho,prayedforanengagement。Theywerecommonsportbetweenherand,Lola,whoreceivedsomealso。Theybothfrequentlymadelightof,them。
Now,however,theycamethickandfast。Gentlemenwithfortunes,didnothesitatetonote,asanadditiontotheirownamiable,collectionofvirtues,thattheyhadtheirhorsesandcarriages。
Thusone:
“Ihaveamillioninmyownright。Icouldgiveyouevery,luxury。Thereisn’tanythingyoucouldaskforthatyoucouldn’t,have。Isaythis,notbecauseIwanttospeakofmymoney,but,becauseIloveyouandwishtogratifyyoureverydesire。Itis,lovethatpromptsmetowrite。Willyounotgivemeonehalf-
hourinwhichtopleadmycause?”
SuchoftheselettersascamewhileCarriewasstillinthe,SeventeenthStreetplacewerereadwithmoreinterest——though,neverdelight——thanthosewhicharrivedaftershewasinstalled,inherluxuriousquartersattheWellington。Eventhereher,vanity——orthatself-appreciationwhich,initsmorerabidform,iscalledvanity——wasnotsufficientlycloyedtomakethese,thingswearisome。Adulation,beingnewinanyform,pleasedher。
Onlyshewassufficientlywisetodistinguishbetweenherold,conditionandhernewone。Shehadnothadfameormoneybefore。
Nowtheyhadcome。Shehadnothadadulationandaffectionate,propositionsbefore。Nowtheyhadcome。Wherefore?Shesmiled,tothinkthatmenshouldsuddenlyfindhersomuchmore,attractive。Intheleastwayitincitedhertocoolnessand,indifference。
“Dolookhere,“sheremarkedtoLola。”Seewhatthismansays:
’Ifyouwillonlydeigntograntmeonehalf-hour,’“she,repeated,withanimitationoflanguor。”Theidea。Aren’tmen,silly?”
“Hemusthavelotsofmoney,thewayhetalks,“observedLola。
“That’swhattheyallsay,“saidCarrie,innocently。
“Whydon’tyouseehim,“suggestedLola,“andhearwhathehasto,say?”
“IndeedIwon’t,“saidCarrie。”Iknowwhathe’dsay。Idon’t,wanttomeetanybodythatway。”
Lolalookedatherwithbig,merryeyes。
“Hecouldn’thurtyou,“shereturned。”Youmighthavesomefun,withhim。”
Carrieshookherhead。
“You’reawfullyqueer,“returnedthelittle,blue-eyedsoldier。
Thuscrowdedfortune。Forthiswholeweek,thoughherlarge,salaryhadnotyetarrived,itwasasiftheworldunderstoodand,trustedher。Withoutmoney——ortherequisitesum,atleast——she,enjoyedtheluxurieswhichmoneycouldbuy。Forherthedoorsof,fineplacesseemedtoopenquitewithouttheasking。These,palatialchambers,howmarvellouslytheycametoher。The,elegantapartmentsofMrs。VanceintheChelsea——thesewerehers。
Mensentflowers,lovenotes,offersoffortune。Andstillher,dreamsranriot。Theonehundredandfifty!theonehundredand,fifty!WhatadoortoanAladdin’scaveitseemedtobe。Each,day,herheadalmostturnedbydevelopments,herfanciesofwhat,herfortunemustbe,withamplemoney,grewandmultiplied。She,conceivedofdelightswhichwerenot——sawlightsofjoythat,neverwereonlandorsea。Then,atlast,afteraworldof,anticipation,cameherfirstinstallmentofonehundredandfifty,dollars。
Itwaspaidtoheringreenbacks——threetwenties,sixtens,and,sixfives。Thuscollecteditmadeaveryconvenientroll。It,wasaccompaniedbyasmileandasalutationfromthecashierwho,paidit。
“Ah,yes,“saidthelatter,whensheapplied;“MissMadenda——one,hundredandfiftydollars。Quiteasuccesstheshowseemsto,havemade。”
“Yes,indeed,“returnedCarrie。
Rightaftercameoneoftheinsignificantmembersofthecompany,andsheheardthechangedtoneofaddress。
“Howmuch?”saidthesamecashier,sharply。One,suchasshehad,onlyrecentlybeen,waswaitingforhermodestsalary。Ittook,herbacktothefewweeksinwhichshehadcollected——orrather,hadreceived——almostwiththeairofadomestic,four-fiftyper,weekfromalordlyforemaninashoefactory——amanwho,in,distributingtheenvelopes,hadthemannerofaprincedolingout,favourstoaservilegroupofpetitioners。Sheknewthatoutin,Chicagothisverydaythesamefactorychamberwasfullofpoor,homely-cladgirlsworkinginlonglinesatclatteringmachines;
thatatnoontheywouldeatamiserablelunchinahalf-hour;
thatSaturdaytheywouldgather,astheyhadwhenshewasoneof,them,andacceptthesmallpayforworkahundredtimesharder,thanshewasnowdoing。Oh,itwassoeasynow!Theworldwasso,rosyandbright。Shefeltsothrilledthatshemustneedswalk,backtothehoteltothink,wonderingwhatsheshoulddo。
Itdoesnottakemoneylongtomakeplainitsimpotence,providingthedesiresareintherealmofaffection。Withher,onehundredandfiftyinhand,Carriecouldthinkofnothing,particularlytodo。Initself,asatangible,apparentthing,whichshecouldtouchandlookupon,itwasadivertingthingfor,afewdays,butthissoonpassed。Herhotelbilldidnotrequire,itsuse。Herclotheshadforsometimebeenwhollysatisfactory。
Anotherdayortwoandshewouldreceiveanotherhundredand,fifty。Itbegantoappearasifthiswerenotsostartlingly,necessarytomaintainherpresentstate。Ifshewantedtodo,anythingbetterormovehighershemusthavemore——agreatdeal,more。
Nowacriticcalledtogetuponeofthosetinselinterviews,whichshinewithcleverobservations,showupthewitofcritics,displaythefollyofcelebrities,anddivertthepublic。He,likedCarrie,andsaidso,publicly——adding,however,thatshe,wasmerelypretty,good-natured,andlucky。Thiscutlikea,knife。The“Herald,“gettingupanentertainmentforthebenefit,ofitsfreeicefund,didherthehonourtobeghertoappear,alongwithcelebritiesfornothing。Shewasvisitedbyayoung,author,whohadaplaywhichhethoughtshecouldproduce。Alas,shecouldnotjudge。Ithurthertothinkit。Thenshefound,shemustputhermoneyinthebankforsafety,andsomoving,finallyreachedtheplacewhereitstruckherthatthedoorto,life’sperfectenjoymentwasnotopen。
Graduallyshebegantothinkitwasbecauseitwassummer。
Nothingwasgoingonmuchsavesuchentertainmentsastheonein,whichshewasthestar。FifthAvenuewasboardedupwherethe,richhaddesertedtheirmansions。MadisonAvenuewaslittle,better。Broadwaywasfullofloafingthespiansinsearchofnext,season’sengagements。Thewholecitywasquietandhernights,weretakenupwithherwork。Hencethefeelingthattherewas,littletodo。
“Idon’tknow,“shesaidtoLolaoneday,sittingatoneofthe,windowswhichlookeddownintoBroadway,“Igetlonely;don’t,you?”
“No,“saidLola,“notveryoften。Youwon’tgoanywhere。That’s,what’sthematterwithyou。”
“WherecanIgo?”
“Why,there’relotsofplaces,“returnedLola,whowasthinking,ofherownlightsometourneyswiththegayyouths。”Youwon’tgo,withanybody。”
“Idon’twanttogowiththesepeoplewhowritetome。Iknow,whatkindtheyare。”
“Yououghtn’ttobelonely,“saidLola,thinkingofCarrie’s,success。”There’relotswouldgivetheirearstobeinyour,shoes。”
Carrielookedoutagainatthepassingcrowd。
“Idon’tknow,“shesaid。
Unconsciouslyheridlehandswerebeginningtoweary。
ChapterXLV
CURIOUSSHIFTSOFTHEPOOR
ThegloomyHurstwood,sittinginhischeaphotel,wherehehad,takenrefugewithseventydollars——thepriceofhisfurniture——
betweenhimandnothing,sawahotsummeroutandacoolfallin,reading。Hewasnotwhollyindifferenttothefactthathis,moneywasslippingaway。Asfiftycentsafterfiftycentswere,paidoutforaday’slodginghebecameuneasy,andfinallytooka,cheaperroom——thirty-fivecentsaday——tomakehismoneylast,longer。FrequentlyhesawnoticesofCarrie。Herpicturewasin,the“World“onceortwice,andanold“Herald“hefoundina,chairinformedhimthatshehadrecentlyappearedwithsome,othersatabenefitforsomethingorother。Hereadthesethings,withmingledfeelings。Eachoneseemedtoputherfartherand,fartherawayintoarealmwhichbecamemoreimposingasit,recededfromhim。Onthebillboards,too,hesawapretty,poster,showingherastheQuakerMaid,demureanddainty。More,thanoncehestoppedandlookedatthese,gazingatthepretty,faceinasullensortofway。Hisclotheswereshabby,andhe,presentedamarkedcontrasttoallthatshenowseemedtobe。
Somehow,solongasheknewshewasattheCasino,thoughhehad,neveranyintentionofgoingnearher,therewasasubconscious,comfortforhim——hewasnotquitealone。Theshowseemedsucha,fixturethat,afteramonthortwo,hebegantotakeitfor,grantedthatitwasstillrunning。InSeptemberitwentonthe,roadandhedidnotnoticeit。Whenallbuttwentydollarsof,hismoneywasgone,hemovedtoafifteen-centlodging-housein,theBowery,wheretherewasabarelounging-roomfilledwith,tablesandbenchesaswellassomechairs。Herehispreference,wastoclosehiseyesanddreamofotherdays,ahabitwhichgrew,uponhim。Itwasnotsleepatfirst,butamentalhearkening,backtoscenesandincidentsinhisChicagolife。Asthepresent,becamedarker,thepastgrewbrighter,andallthatconcernedit,stoodinrelief。
Hewasunconsciousofjusthowmuchthishabithadholdofhim,untilonedayhefoundhislipsrepeatinganoldanswerhehad,madetooneofhisfriends。TheywereinFitzgeraldandMoy’s。
Itwasasifhestoodinthedoorofhiselegantlittleoffice,comfortablydressed,talkingtoSagarMorrisonaboutthevalueof,SouthChicagorealestateinwhichthelatterwasaboutto,invest。
“Howwouldyouliketocomeinonthatwithme?”heheard,Morrisonsay。
“Notme,“heanswered,justashehadyearsbefore。”Ihavemy,handsfullnow。”
Themovementofhislipsarousedhim。Hewonderedwhetherhehad,reallyspoken。Thenexttimehenoticedanythingofthesorthe,reallydidtalk。
“Whydon’tyoujump,youbloodyfool?”hewassaying。”Jump!”
ItwasafunnyEnglishstoryhewastellingtoacompanyof,actors。Evenashisvoicerecalledhim,hewassmiling。A
crustyoldcodger,sittingnearby,seemeddisturbed;atleast,hestaredinamostpointedway。Hurstwoodstraightenedup。The,humourofthememoryfledinaninstantandhefeltashamed。For,relief,helefthischairandstrolledoutintothestreets。
Oneday,lookingdownthead。columnsofthe“EveningWorld,“he,sawwhereanewplaywasattheCasino。Instantly,hecametoa,mentalhalt。Carriehadgone!Herememberedseeingaposterof,heronlyyesterday,butnodoubtitwasoneleftuncoveredbythe,newsigns。Curiously,thisfactshookhimup。Hehadalmostto,admitthatsomehowhewasdependinguponherbeinginthecity。
Nowshewasgone。Hewonderedhowthisimportantfacthad,skippedhim。Goodnessknowswhenshewouldbebacknow。
Impelledbyanervousfear,heroseandwentintothedingyhall,wherehecountedhisremainingmoney,unseen。Therewerebutten,dollarsinall。
Hewonderedhowalltheseotherlodging-housepeoplearoundhim,gotalong。Theydidn’tseemtodoanything。Perhapsthey,begged——unquestionablytheydid。Manywasthedimehehadgiven,tosuchastheyinhisday。Hehadseenothermenaskingfor,moneyonthestreets。Maybehecouldgetsomethatway。There,washorrorinthisthought。
Sittinginthelodging-houseroom,hecametohislastfifty,cents。Hehadsavedandcounteduntilhishealthwasaffected。
Hisstoutnesshadgone。Withit,eventhesemblanceofafitin,hisclothes。Nowhedecidedhemustdosomething,and,walking,about,sawanotherdaygoby,bringinghimdowntohislast,twentycents——notenoughtoeatforthemorrow。
Summoningallhiscourage,hecrossedtoBroadwayanduptothe,BroadwayCentralhotel。Withinablockhehalted,undecided。A
big,heavy-facedporterwasstandingatoneoftheside,entrances,lookingout。Hurstwoodpurposedtoappealtohim。
Walkingstraightup,hewasuponhimbeforehecouldturnaway。
“Myfriend,“hesaid,recognisingeveninhisplighttheman’s,inferiority,“isthereanythingaboutthishotelthatIcouldget,todo?”
Theporterstaredathimthewhilehecontinuedtotalk。
“I’moutofworkandoutofmoneyandI’vegottogetsomething,——
itdoesn’tmatterwhat。Idon’tcaretotalkaboutwhatI’ve,been,butifyou’dtellmehowtogetsomethingtodo,I’dbe,muchobligedtoyou。Itwouldn’tmatterifitonlylastedafew,daysjustnow。I’vegottohavesomething。”
Theporterstillgazed,tryingtolookindifferent。Then,seeing,thatHurstwoodwasabouttogoon,hesaid:
“I’venothingtodowithit。You’llhavetoaskinside。”
Curiously,thisstirredHurstwoodtofurthereffort。
“Ithoughtyoumighttellme。”
Thefellowshookhisheadirritably。
Insidewenttheex-managerandstraighttoanofficeoffthe,clerk’sdesk。Oneofthemanagersofthehotelhappenedtobe,there。Hurstwoodlookedhimstraightintheeye。
“Couldyougivemesomethingtodoforafewdays?”hesaid。
“I’minapositionwhereIhavetogetsomethingatonce。”
Thecomfortablemanagerlookedathim,asmuchastosay:“Well,Ishouldjudgeso。”
“Icamehere,“explainedHurstwood,nervously,“becauseI’vebeen,amanagermyselfinmyday。I’vehadbadluckinawaybutI’m,notheretotellyouthat。Iwantsomethingtodo,ifonlyfora,week。”
Themanimaginedhesawafeverishgleamintheapplicant’seye。
“Whathoteldidyoumanage?”heinquired。
“Itwasn’tahotel,“saidHurstwood。”Iwasmanagerof,FitzgeraldandMoy’splaceinChicagoforfifteenyears。”
“Isthatso?”saidthehotelman。”Howdidyoucometogetout,ofthat?”
ThefigureofHurstwoodwasrathersurprisingincontrasttothe,fact。
“Well,byfoolishnessofmyown。Itisn’tanythingtotalkabout,now。Youcouldfindoutifyouwantedto。I’m’broke’nowand,ifyouwillbelieveme,Ihaven’teatenanythingto-day。”
Thehotelmanwasslightlyinterestedinthisstory。Hecould,hardlytellwhattodowithsuchafigure,andyetHurstwood’s,earnestnessmadehimwishtodosomething。
“CallOlsen,“hesaid,turningtotheclerk。
Inreplytoabellandadisappearinghall-boy,Olsen,thehead,porter,appeared。
“Olsen,“saidthemanager,“isthereanythingdownstairsyou,couldfindforthismantodo?I’dliketogivehimsomething。”
“Idon’tknow,sir,“saidOlsen。”Wehaveaboutallthehelpwe,need。IthinkIcouldfindsomething,sir,though,ifyoulike。”
“Do。TakehimtothekitchenandtellWilsontogivehim,somethingtoeat。”
“Allright,sir,“saidOlsen。
Hurstwoodfollowed。Outofthemanager’ssight,thehead,porter’smannerchanged。
“Idon’tknowwhatthedevilthereistodo,“heobserved。
Hurstwoodsaidnothing。Tohimthebigtrunkhustlerwasa,subjectforprivatecontempt。
“You’retogivethismansomethingtoeat,“heobservedtothe,cook。
ThelatterlookedHurstwoodover,andseeingsomethingkeenand,intellectualinhiseyes,said:
“Well,sitdownoverthere。”
ThuswasHurstwoodinstalledintheBroadwayCentral,butnotfor,long。Hewasinnoshapeormoodtodothescrubworkthat,existsaboutthefoundationofeveryhotel。Nothingbetter,offering,hewassettoaidthefireman,toworkaboutthe,basement,todoanythingandeverythingthatmightoffer。
Porters,cooks,firemen,clerks——allwereoverhim。Moreoverhis,appearancedidnotpleasetheseindividuals——histemperwastoo,lonely——andtheymadeitdisagreeableforhim。
Withthestolidityandindifferenceofdespair,however,he,endureditall,sleepinginanatticattheroofofthehouse,eatingwhatthecookgavehim,acceptingafewdollarsaweek,whichhetriedtosave。Hisconstitutionwasinnoshapeto,endure。
OnedaythefollowingFebruaryhewassentonanerrandtoa,largecoalcompany’soffice。Ithadbeensnowingandthawingand,thestreetsweresloppy。Hesoakedhisshoesinhisprogressand,camebackfeelingdullandweary。Allthenextdayhefelt,unusuallydepressedandsataboutasmuchaspossible,tothe,irritationofthosewhoadmiredenergyinothers。
Intheafternoonsomeboxesweretobemovedtomakeroomfornew,culinarysupplies。Hewasorderedtohandleatruck。
Encounteringabigbox,hecouldnotliftit。
“What’sthematterthere?”saidtheheadporter。”Can’tyou,handleit?”
Hewasstrainingtoliftit,butnowhequit。
“No,“hesaid,weakly。
Themanlookedathimandsawthathewasdeathlypale。
“Notsick,areyou?”heasked。
“IthinkIam,“returnedHurstwood。
“Well,you’dbettergositdown,then。”
Thishedid,butsoongrewrapidlyworse。Itseemedallhecould,dotocrawltohisroom,whereheremainedforaday。
“ThatmanWheeler’ssick,“reportedoneofthelackeystothe,nightclerk。
“What’sthematterwithhim?”
“Idon’tknow。He’sgotahighfever。”
Thehotelphysicianlookedathim。
“BettersendhimtoBellevue,“herecommended。”He’sgot,pneumonia。”
Accordingly,hewascartedaway。
Inthreeweekstheworstwasover,butitwasnearlythefirstof,Maybeforehisstrengthpermittedhimtobeturnedout。Thenhe,wasdischarged。
Nomoreweaklylookingobjecteverstrolledoutintothespring,sunshinethantheoncehale,lustymanager。Allhiscorpulency,hadfled。Hisfacewasthinandpale,hishandswhite,hisbody,flabby。Clothesandall,heweighedbutonehundredandthirty-
fivepounds。Someoldgarmentshadbeengivenhim——acheapbrown,coatandmisfitpairoftrousers。Alsosomechangeandadvice。
Hewastoldtoapplytothecharities。
AgainheresortedtotheBowerylodging-house,broodingover,wheretolook。Fromthisitwasbutasteptobeggary。
“Whatcanamando?”hesaid。”Ican’tstarve。”
HisfirstapplicationwasinsunnySecondAvenue。Awell-dressed,mancameleisurelystrollingtowardhimoutofStuyvesantPark。
Hurstwoodnervedhimselfandsidlednear。
“Wouldyoumindgivingmetencents?”hesaid,directly。”I’min,apositionwhereImustasksomeone。”
Themanscarcelylookedathim,fishedinhisvestpocketand,tookoutadime。
“Thereyouare,“hesaid。
“Muchobliged,“saidHurstwood,softly,buttheotherpaidno,moreattentiontohim。
Satisfiedwithhissuccessandyetashamedofhissituation,he,decidedthathewouldonlyaskfortwenty-fivecentsmore,since,thatwouldbesufficient。Hestrolledaboutsizinguppeople,butitwaslongbeforejusttherightfaceandsituationarrived。
Whenheasked,hewasrefused。Shockedbythisresult,hetook,anhourtorecoverandthenaskedagain。Thistimeanickelwas,givenhim。Bythemostwatchfulefforthedidgettwentycents,more,butitwaspainful。
Thenextdayheresortedtothesameeffort,experiencinga,varietyofrebuffsandoneortwogenerousreceptions。Atlast,itcrossedhismindthattherewasascienceoffaces,andthata,mancouldpicktheliberalcountenanceifhetried。
Itwasnopleasuretohim,however,thisstoppingofpassers-by。
Hesawonemantakenupforitandnowtroubledlestheshouldbe,arrested。Nevertheless,hewenton,vaguelyanticipatingthat,indefinitesomethingwhichisalwaysbetter。
Itwaswithasenseofsatisfaction,then,thathesawannounced,onemorningthereturnoftheCasinoCompany,“withMissCarrie,Madenda。”Hehadthoughtofheroftenenoughindayspast。How,successfulshewas——howmuchmoneyshemusthave!Evennow,however,ittookasevererunofilllucktodecidehimtoappeal,toher。Hewastrulyhungrybeforehesaid:
“I’llaskher。Shewon’trefusemeafewdollars。”
Accordingly,heheadedfortheCasinooneafternoon,passingit,severaltimesinanefforttolocatethestageentrance。Thenhe,satinBryantPark,ablockaway,waiting。”Shecan’trefuseto,helpmealittle,“hekeptsayingtohimself。
Beginningwithhalf-pastsix,hehoveredlikeashadowaboutthe,Thirty-ninthStreetentrance,pretendingalwaystobeahurrying,pedestrianandyetfearfullestheshouldmisshisobject。He,wasslightlynervous,too,nowthattheeventfulhourhad,arrived;butbeingweakandhungry,hisabilitytosufferwas,modified。Atlasthesawthattheactorswerebeginningto,arrive,andhisnervoustensionincreased,untilitseemedasif,hecouldnotstandmuchmore。
OncehethoughthesawCarriecomingandmovedforward,onlyto,seethathewasmistaken。
“Shecan’tbelong,now,“hesaidtohimself,halffearingto,encounterherandequallydepressedatthethoughtthatshemight,havegoneinbyanotherway。Hisstomachwassoemptythatit,ached。
Individualafterindividualpassedhim,nearlyallwelldressed,almostallindifferent。Hesawcoachesrollingby,gentlemen,passingwithladies——theevening’smerrimentwasbeginningin,thisregionoftheatresandhotels。
Suddenlyacoachrolledupandthedriverjumpeddowntoopenthe,door。BeforeHurstwoodcouldact,twoladiesflouncedacrossthe,broadwalkanddisappearedinthestagedoor。Hethoughthesaw,Carrie,butitwassounexpected,soelegantandfaraway,he,couldhardlytell。Hewaitedawhilelonger,growingfeverish,withwant,andthenseeingthatthestagedoornolongeropened,andthatamerryaudiencewasarriving,heconcludeditmusthave,beenCarrieandturnedaway。
“Lord,“hesaid,hasteningoutofthestreetintowhichthemore,fortunatewerepouring,“I’vegottogetsomething。”
Atthathour,whenBroadwayiswonttoassumeitsmost,interestingaspect,apeculiarindividualinvariablytookhis,standatthecornerofTwenty-sixthStreetandBroadway——aspot,whichisalsointersectedbyFifthAvenue。Thiswasthehour,whenthetheatreswerejustbeginningtoreceivetheirpatrons。
Firesignsannouncingthenight’samusementsblazedonevery,hand。Cabsandcarriages,theirlampsgleaminglikeyelloweyes,patteredby。Couplesandpartiesofthreeandfourfreely,mingledinthecommoncrowd,whichpouredbyinathickstream,laughingandjesting。OnFifthAvenuewereloungers——afew,wealthystrollers,agentlemanineveningdresswithhisladyon,hisarm,someclub-menpassingfromonesmoking-roomtoanother。
Acrossthewaythegreathotelsshowedahundredgleaming,windows,theircafesandbilliard-roomsfilledwitha,comfortable,well-dressed,andpleasure-lovingthrong。Allabout,wasthenight,pulsatingwiththethoughtsofpleasureand,exhilaration——thecuriousenthusiasmofagreatcitybentupon,findingjoyinathousanddifferentways。
Thisuniqueindividualwasnolessthananex-soldierturned,religionist,who,havingsufferedthewhipsandprivationsofour,peculiarsocialsystem,hadconcludedthathisdutytotheGod,whichheconceivedlayinaidinghisfellow-man。Theformofaid,whichhechosetoadministerwasentirelyoriginalwithhimself。
Itconsistedofsecuringabedforallsuchhomelesswayfarersas,shouldapplytohimatthisparticularspot,thoughhehad,scarcelythewherewithaltoprovideacomfortablehabitationfor,himself。Takinghisplaceamidthislightsomeatmosphere,he,wouldstand,hisstockyfigurecloakedinagreatcapeovercoat,hisheadprotectedbyabroadslouchhat,awaitingtheapplicants,whohadinvariouswayslearnedthenatureofhischarity。Fora,whilehewouldstandalone,gazinglikeanyidleruponanever-
fascinatingscene。Ontheeveninginquestion,apoliceman,passingsalutedhimas“captain,“inafriendlyway。Anurchin,whohadfrequentlyseenhimbefore,stoppedtogaze。Allothers,tookhimfornothingoutoftheordinary,saveinthematterof,dress,andconceivedofhimasastrangerwhistlingandidling,forhisownamusement。
Asthefirsthalf-hourwaned,certaincharactersappeared。Here,andthereinthepassingcrowdsonemightsee,nowandthen,a,loitereredginginterestedlynear。Aslouchyfigurecrossedthe,oppositecornerandglancedfurtivelyinhisdirection。Another,camedownFifthAvenuetothecornerofTwenty-sixthStreet,took,ageneralsurvey,andhobbledoffagain。Twoorthreenoticeable,BowerytypesedgedalongtheFifthAvenuesideofMadisonSquare,butdidnotventureover。Thesoldier,inhiscapeovercoat,walkedashortlineoftenfeetathiscorner,toandfro,indifferentlywhistling。
Asnineo’clockapproached,someofthehubbuboftheearlier,hourpassed。Theatmosphereofthehotelswasnotsoyouthful。
Theair,too,wascolder。Oneveryhandcuriousfigureswere,moving——watchersandpeepers,withoutanimaginarycircle,which,theyseemedafraidtoenter——adozeninall。Presently,withthe,arrivalofakeenersenseofcold,onefigurecameforward。It,crossedBroadwayfromouttheshadowofTwenty-sixthStreet,and,inahalting,circuitousway,arrivedclosetothewaiting,figure。Therewassomethingshamefacedordiffidentaboutthe,movement,asiftheintentionweretoconcealanyideaof,stoppinguntiltheverylastmoment。Thensuddenly,closetothe,soldier,camethehalt。
Thecaptainlookedinrecognition,buttherewasnoespecial,greeting。Thenewcomernoddedslightlyandmurmuredsomething,likeonewhowaitsforgifts。Theothersimplymotionedto-ward,theedgeofthewalk。
“Standoverthere,“hesaid。
Bythisthespellwasbroken。Evenwhilethesoldierresumedhis,short,solemnwalk,otherfiguresshuffledforward。Theydidnot,somuchasgreettheleader,butjoinedtheone,snifflingand,hitchingandscrapingtheirfeet。
“Gold,ain’tit?”
“I’mgladwinter’sover。”
“Looksasthoughitmightrain。”
Themotleycompanyhadincreasedtoten。Oneortwokneweach,otherandconversed。Othersstoodoffafewfeet,notwishingto,beinthecrowdandyetnotcountedout。Theywerepeevish,crusty,silent,eyingnothinginparticularandmovingtheir,feet。
Therewouldhavebeentalkingsoon,butthesoldiergavethemno,chance。Countingsufficienttobegin,hecameforward。
“Beds,eh,allofyou?”
Therewasageneralshuffleandmurmurofapproval。
“Well,lineuphere。I’llseewhatIcando。Ihaven’tacent,myself。”
Theyfellintoasortofbroken,raggedline。Onemightsee,now,someofthechiefcharacteristicsbycontrast。Therewasa,woodenlegintheline。Hatswerealldrooping,agroupthat,wouldillbecomeasecond-handHesterStreetbasementcollection。
Trouserswereallwarpedandfrayedatthebottomandcoatsworn,andfaded。Intheglareofthestorelights,someofthefaces,lookeddryandchalky;otherswereredwithblotchesandpuffed,inthecheeksandundertheeyes;oneortwowererawbonedand,remindedoneofrailroadhands。Afewspectatorscamenear,drawnbytheseeminglyconferringgroup,thenmoreandmore,and,quicklytherewasapushing,gapingcrowd。Someoneintheline,begantotalk。
“Silence!”exclaimedthecaptain。”Now,then,gentlemen,these,menarewithoutbeds。Theyhavetohavesomeplacetosleepto-
night。Theycan’tlieoutinthestreets。Ineedtwelvecents,toputoneofthemtobed。Whowillgiveittome?”
Noreply。
“Well,we’llhavetowaithere,boys,untilsomeonedoes。
Twelvecentsisn’tsoverymuchforoneman。”
“Here’sfifteen,“exclaimedayoungman,peeringforwardwith,strainedeyes。”It’sallIcanafford。”
“Allright。NowIhavefifteen。Stepoutoftheline,“and,seizingonebytheshoulder,thecaptainmarchedhimoffalittle,wayandstoodhimupalone。
Comingback,heresumedhisplaceandbeganagain。
“Ihavethreecentsleft。Thesemenmustbeputtobedsomehow。
Thereare“——counting——“one,two,three,four,five,six,seven,eight,nine,ten,eleven,twelvemen。Ninecentsmorewillput,thenextmantobed;givehimagood,comfortablebedforthe,night。Igorightalongandlookafterthatmyself。Whowill,givemeninecents?”
Oneofthewatchers,thistimeamiddle-agedman,handedhima,five-centpiece。
“Now,Ihaveeightcents。Fourmorewillgivethismanabed。
Come,gentlemen。Wearegoingveryslowthisevening。Youall,havegoodbeds。Howaboutthese?”
“Hereyouare,“remarkedabystander,puttingacoinintohis,hand。
“That,“saidthecaptain,lookingatthecoin,“paysfortwobeds,fortwomenandgivesmefiveonthenextone。Whowillgiveme,sevencentsmore?”
“Iwill,“saidavoice。
ComingdownSixthAvenuethisevening,Hurstwoodchancedtocross,eastthroughTwenty-sixthStreettowardThirdAvenue。Hewas,whollydisconsolateinspirit,hungrytowhathedeemedanalmost,mortalextent,weary,anddefeated。HowshouldhegetatCarrie,now?Itwouldbeelevenbeforetheshowwasover。Ifshecamein,acoach,shewouldgoawayinone。Hewouldneedtointerrupt,undermosttryingcircumstances。Worstofall,hewashungryand,weary,andatbestawholedaymustintervene,forhehadnot,hearttotryagainto-night。Hehadnofoodandnobed。
WhenhenearedBroadway,henoticedthecaptain’sgatheringof,wanderers,butthinkingittobetheresultofastreetpreacher,orsomepatentmedicinefakir,wasabouttopasson。However,in,crossingthestreettowardMadisonSquarePark,henoticedthe,lineofmenwhosebedswerealreadysecured,stretchingoutfrom,themainbodyofthecrowd。Intheglareoftheneighbouring,electriclightherecognisedatypeofhisownkind——thefigures,whomhesawaboutthestreetsandinthelodging-houses,drifting,inmindandbodylikehimself。Hewonderedwhatitcouldbeand,turnedback。
Therewasthecaptaincurtlypleadingasbefore。Heheardwith,astonishmentandasenseofrelieftheoft-repeatedwords:“These,menmusthaveabed。”Beforehimwasthelineofunfortunates,whosebedswereyettobehad,andseeinganewcomerquietlyedge,upandtakeapositionattheendoftheline,hedecidedtodo,likewise。Whatusetocontend?Hewaswearyto-night。Itwasa,simplewayoutofonedifficulty,atleast。To-morrow,maybe,he,woulddobetter。
Backofhim,wheresomeofthosewerewhosebedsweresafe,a,relaxedairwasapparent。Thestrainofuncertaintybeing,removed,heheardthemtalkingwithmoderatefreedomandsome,leaningtowardsociability。Politics,religion,thestateofthe,government,somenewspapersensations,andthemorenotorious,factstheworldover,foundmouthpiecesandauditorsthere。
Crackedandhuskyvoicespronouncedforciblyuponoddmatters。
Vagueandramblingobservationsweremadeinreply。
Thereweresquints,andleers,andsomedull,ox-likestaresfrom,thosewhoweretoodullortoowearytoconverse。
Standingtells。Hurstwoodbecamemorewearywaiting。Hethought,heshoulddropsoonandshiftedrestlesslyfromonefoottothe,other。Atlasthisturncame。Themanaheadhadbeenpaidfor,andgonetotheblessedlineofsuccess。Hewasnowfirst,and,alreadythecaptainwastalkingforhim。
“Twelvecents,gentlemen——twelvecentsputsthismantobed。He,wouldn’tstandhereinthecoldifhehadanyplacetogo。”
Hurstwoodswallowedsomethingthatrosetohisthroat。Hunger,andweaknesshadmadeacowardofhim。
“Hereyouare,“saidastranger,handingmoneytothecaptain。
Nowthelatterputakindlyhandontheex-manager’sshoulder。
“Lineupoverthere,“hesaid。
Oncethere,Hurstwoodbreathedeasier。Hefeltasiftheworld,werenotquitesobadwithsuchagoodmaninit。Othersseemed,tofeellikehimselfaboutthis。
“Captain’sagreatfeller,ain’the?”saidthemanahead——a,little,woebegone,helpless-lookingsortofindividual,who,lookedasthoughhehadeverbeenthesportandcareoffortune。
“Yes,“saidHurstwood,indifferently。
“Huh!there’salotbackthereyet,“saidamanfartherup,leaningoutandlookingbackattheapplicantsforwhomthe,captainwaspleading。
“Yes。Mustbeoverahundredto-night,“saidanother。
“Lookattheguyinthecab,“observedathird。
Acabhadstopped。Somegentlemanineveningdressreachedouta,billtothecaptain,whotookitwithsimplethanksandturned,awaytohisline。Therewasageneralcraningofnecksasthe,jewelinthewhiteshirtfrontsparkledandthecabmovedoff。
Eventhecrowdgapedinawe。
“Thatfixesupninemenforthenight,“saidthecaptain,countingoutasmanyofthelinenearhim。”Lineupoverthere。
Now,then,thereareonlyseven。Ineedtwelvecents。”
Moneycameslowly。Inthecourseoftimethecrowdthinnedout,toameagrehandful。FifthAvenue,saveforanoccasionalcabor,footpassenger,wasbare。Broadwaywasthinlypeopledwith,pedestrians。Onlynowandthenastrangerpassingnoticedthe,smallgroup,handedoutacoin,andwentaway,unheeding。
Thecaptainremainedstolidanddetermined。Hetalkedon,very,slowly,utteringthefewestwordsandwithacertainassurance,asthoughhecouldnotfail。
“Come;Ican’tstayouthereallnight。Thesemenaregetting,tiredandcold。Someonegivemefourcents。”
Therecameatimewhenhesaidnothingatall。Moneywashanded,him,andforeachtwelvecentshesingledoutamanandputhim,intheotherline。Thenhewalkedupanddownasbefore,looking,attheground。
Thetheatresletout。Firesignsdisappeared。Aclockstruck,eleven。Anotherhalf-hourandhewasdowntothelasttwomen。
“Come,now,“heexclaimedtoseveralcuriousobservers;“eighteen,centswillfixusallupforthenight。Eighteencents。Ihave,six。Somebodygivemethemoney。Remember,Ihavetogooverto,Brooklynyetto-night。BeforethatIhavetotakethesemendown,andputthemtobed。Eighteencents。”
Nooneresponded。Hewalkedtoandfro,lookingdownforseveral,minutes,occasionallysayingsoftly:“Eighteencents。”Itseemed,asifthispaltrysumwoulddelaythedesiredculminationlonger,thanalltheresthad。Hurstwood,buoyedupslightlybythelong,lineofwhichhewasapart,refrainedwithaneffortfrom,groaning,hewassoweak。
AtlastaladyinoperacapeandrustlingskirtscamedownFifth,Avenue,accompaniedbyherescort。Hurstwoodgazedwearily,remindedbyherbothofCarrieinhernewworldandofthetime,whenhehadescortedhisownwifeinlikemanner。
Whilehewasgazing,sheturnedand,lookingattheremarkable,company,sentherescortover。Hecame,holdingabillinhis,fingers,allelegantandgraceful。
“Hereyouare,“hesaid。
“Thanks,“saidthecaptain,turningtothetworemaining,applicants。”Nowwehavesomeforto-morrownight,“headded。
Therewithhelinedupthelasttwoandproceededtothehead,countingashewent。
“Onehundredandthirty-seven,“heannounced。”Now,boys,line,up。Rightdressthere。Wewon’tbemuchlongeraboutthis。
Steady,now。”
Heplacedhimselfattheheadandcalledout“Forward。”Hurstwood,movedwiththeline。AcrossFifthAvenue,throughMadisonSquare,bythewindingpaths,eastonTwenty-thirdStreet,anddownThird,Avenuewoundthelong,serpentinecompany。Midnightpedestrians,andloiterersstoppedandstaredasthecompanypassed。Chatting,policemen,atvariouscorners,staredindifferentlyornoddedto,theleader,whomtheyhadseenbefore。OnThirdAvenuethey,marched,aseeminglywearyway,toEighthStreet,wheretherewas,alodginghouse,closed,apparently,forthenight。Theywere,expected,however。
Outsideinthegloomtheystood,whiletheleaderparleyed,within。Thendoorsswungopenandtheywereinvitedinwitha,“Steady,now。”
Someonewasattheheadshowingrooms,sothattherewasno,delayforkeys。Toilingupthecreakystairs,Hurstwoodlooked,backandsawthecaptain,watching;thelastoneoftheline,beingincludedinhisbroadsolicitude。Thenhegatheredhis,cloakabouthimandstrolledoutintothenight。
“Ican’tstandmuchofthis,“saidHurstwood,whoselegsached,himpainfully,ashesatdownuponthemiserablebunkinthe,small,lightlesschamberallottedtohim。”I’vegottoeat,or,I’lldie。”
ChapterXLVI
STIRRINGTROUBLEDWATERS
PlayinginNewYorkoneeveningonthisherreturn,Carriewas,puttingthefinishingtouchestohertoiletbeforeleavingfor,thenight,whenacommotionnearthestagedoorcaughtherear。
Itincludedafamiliarvoice。
“Nevermind,now。IwanttoseeMissMadenda。”
“You’llhavetosendinyourcard。”
“Oh,comeoff!Here。”
Ahalf-dollarwaspassedover,andnowaknockcameather,dressing-roomdoor。
Carrieopenedit。
“Well,well!”saidDrouet。”Idoswear!Why,howareyou?Iknew,thatwasyouthemomentIsawyou。”
Carriefellbackapace,expectingamostembarrassing,conversation。
“Aren’tyougoingtoshakehandswithme?Well,you’readandy!
That’sallright,shakehands。”
Carrieputoutherhand,smiling,iffornothingmorethanthe,man’sexuberantgood-nature。Thougholder,hewasbutslightly,changed。Thesamefineclothes,thesamestockybody,thesame,rosycountenance。
“Thatfellowatthedoortheredidn’twanttoletmein,untilI
paidhim。Iknewitwasyou,allright。Say,you’vegotagreat,show。Youdoyourpartfine。Iknewyouwould。Ijusthappened,tobepassingtonightandthoughtI’ddropinforafewminutes。
Isawyournameontheprogramme,butIdidn’trememberituntil,youcameonthestage。Thenitstruckmeallatonce。Say,you,couldhaveknockedmedownwithafeather。That’sthesamename,youusedoutthereinChicago,isn’tit?”
“Yes,“answeredCarrie,mildly,overwhelmedbytheman’s,assurance。
“Iknewitwas,themomentIsawyou。Well,howhaveyoubeen,anyhow?”
“Oh,verywell,“saidCarrie,lingeringinherdressing-room。
Shewasratherdazedbytheassault。”Howhaveyoubeen?”
“Me?Oh,fine。I’mherenow。”
“Isthatso?”saidCarrie。
“Yes。I’vebeenhereforsixmonths。I’vegotchargeofa,branchhere。”
“Hownice!”
“Well,whendidyougoonthestage,anyhow?”inquiredDrouet。
“Aboutthreeyearsago,“saidCarrie。
“Youdon’tsayso!Well,sir,thisisthefirstI’veheardofit。
Iknewyouwould,though。Ialwayssaidyoucouldact——didn’t,I?”
Carriesmiled。
“Yes,youdid,“shesaid。
“Well,youdolookgreat,“hesaid。”Ineversawanybodyimprove,so。You’retaller,aren’tyou?”
“Me?Oh,alittle,maybe。”
Hegazedatherdress,thenatherhair,whereabecominghatwas,setjauntily,thenintohereyes,whichshetookalloccasionto,avert。Evidentlyheexpectedtorestoretheiroldfriendshipat,onceandwithoutmodification。
“Well,“hesaid,seeinghergatherupherpurse,handkerchief,andthelike,preparatorytodeparting,“Iwantyoutocomeout,todinnerwithme;won’tyou?I’vegotafriendouthere。”
“Oh,Ican’t,“saidCarrie。”Notto-night。Ihaveanearly,engagementto-morrow。”
“Aw,lettheengagementgo。Comeon。Icangetridofhim。I
wanttohaveagoodtalkwithyou。”
“No,no,“saidCarrie;“Ican’t。Youmustn’taskmeanymore。I
don’tcareforalatedinner。”
“Well,comeonandhaveatalk,then,anyhow。”
“Notto-night,“shesaid,shakingherhead。”We’llhaveatalk,someothertime。”
Asaresultofthis,shenoticedashadeofthoughtpassoverhis,face,asifhewerebeginningtorealisethatthingswere,changed。Good-naturedictatedsomethingbetterthanthisforone,whohadalwayslikedher。
“Youcomearoundtothehotelto-morrow,“shesaid,assortof,penanceforerror。”Youcantakedinnerwithme。”
“Allright,“saidDrouet,brightening。”Whereareyoustopping?”
“AttheWaldorf,“sheanswered,mentioningthefashionable,hostelrythenbutnewlyerected。
“Whattime?”
“Well,comeatthree,“saidCarrie,pleasantly。
ThenextdayDrouetcalled,butitwaswithnoespecialdelight,thatCarrierememberedherappointment。However,seeinghim,handsomeasever,afterhiskind,andmostgeniallydisposed,her,doubtsastowhetherthedinnerwouldbedisagreeablewereswept,away。Hetalkedasvolublyasever。
“Theyputonalotoflugshere,don’tthey?”washisfirst,remark。
“Yes;theydo,“saidCarrie。
Genialegotistthathewas,hewentatonceintoadetailed,accountofhisowncareer。
“I’mgoingtohaveabusinessofmyownprettysoon,“heobserved,inoneplace。”Icangetbackingfortwohundredthousand,dollars。”
Carrielistenedmostgood-naturedly。
“Say,“hesaid,suddenly;“whereisHurstwoodnow?”
Carrieflushedalittle。
“He’shereinNewYork,Iguess,“shesaid。”Ihaven’tseenhim,forsometime。”
Drouetmusedforamoment。Hehadnotbeensureuntilnowthat,theex-managerwasnotaninfluentialfigureinthebackground。
Heimaginednot;butthisassurancerelievedhim。Itmustbe,thatCarriehadgotridofhim——aswellsheought,hethought。
“Amanalwaysmakesamistakewhenhedoesanythinglikethat,“
heobserved。
“Likewhat?”saidCarrie,unwittingofwhatwascoming。
“Oh,youknow,“andDrouetwavedherintelligence,asitwere,withhishand。
“No,Idon’t,“sheanswered。”Whatdoyoumean?”
“WhythataffairinChicago——thetimeheleft。”
“Idon’tknowwhatyouaretalkingabout,“saidCarrie。Couldit,behewouldrefersorudelytoHurstwood’sflightwithher?
“Oho!”saidDrouet,incredulously。”Youknewhetookten,thousanddollarswithhimwhenheleft,didn’tyou?”
“What!”saidCarrie。”Youdon’tmeantosayhestolemoney,do,you?”
“Why,“saidDrouet,puzzledathertone,“youknewthat,didn’t,you?”
“Why,no,“saidCarrie。”OfcourseIdidn’t。”
“Well,that’sfunny,“saidDrouet。”Hedid,youknow。Itwasin,allthepapers。”
“Howmuchdidyousayhetook?”saidCarrie。
“Tenthousanddollars。Iheardhesentmostofitback,afterwards,though。”
Carrielookedvacantlyattherichlycarpetedfloor。Anewlight,wasshininguponalltheyearssinceherenforcedflight。She,rememberednowahundredthingsthatindicatedasmuch。Shealso,imaginedthathetookitonheraccount。Insteadofhatred,springinguptherewasakindofsorrowgenerated。Poorfellow!
Whatathingtohavehadhangingoverhisheadallthetime。
AtdinnerDrouet,warmedupbyeatinganddrinkingandsoftened,inmood,fanciedhewaswinningCarrietoherold-timegood-
naturedregardforhim。Hebegantoimagineitwouldnotbeso,difficulttoenterintoherlifeagain,highasshewas。Ah,whataprize!hethought。Howbeautiful,howelegant,how,famous!InhertheatricalandWaldorfsetting,Carriewastohim,thealldesirable。
“DoyourememberhownervousyouwerethatnightattheAvery?”
heasked。
Carriesmiledtothinkofit。
“Ineversawanybodydobetterthanyoudidthen,Cad,“headded,ruefully,asheleanedanelbowonthetable;“Ithoughtyouand,Iweregoingtogetalongfinethosedays。”
“Youmustn’ttalkthatway,“saidCarrie,bringingintheleast,touchofcoldness。
“Won’tyouletmetellyou——“
“No,“sheanswered,rising。”Besides,it’stimeIwasgetting,readyforthetheatre。I’llhavetoleaveyou。Come,now。”
“Oh,stayaminute,“pleadedDrouet。”You’vegotplentyof,time。”
“No,“saidCarrie,gently。
ReluctantlyDrouetgaveupthebrighttableandfollowed。Hesaw,hertotheelevatorand,standingthere,said:
“WhendoIseeyouagain?”
“Oh,sometime,possibly,“saidCarrie。”I’llbehereall,summer。Good-night!”
Theelevatordoorwasopen。
“Good-night!”saidDrouet,assherustledin。
Thenhestrolledsadlydownthehall,allhisoldlonging,revived,becauseshewasnowsofaroff。Themerryfrou-frouof,theplacespokeallofher。Hethoughthimselfhardlydealt,with。Carrie,however,hadotherthoughts。
ThatnightitwasthatshepassedHurstwood,waitingatthe,Casino,withoutobservinghim。
Thenextnight,walkingtothetheatre,sheencounteredhimface,toface。Hewaswaiting,moregauntthanever,determinedtosee,her,ifhehadtosendinword。Atfirstshedidnotrecognise,theshabby,baggyfigure。Hefrightenedher,edgingsoclose,a,seeminglyhungrystranger。
“Carrie,“hehalfwhispered,“canIhaveafewwordswithyou?”
Sheturnedandrecognisedhimontheinstant。Ifthereeverhad,lurkedanyfeelinginherheartagainsthim,itdesertedhernow。
Still,sherememberedwhatDrouetsaidabouthishavingstolen,themoney。
“Why,George,“shesaid;“what’sthematterwithyou?”
“I’vebeensick,“heanswered。”I’vejustgotoutofthe,hospital。ForGod’ssake,letmehavealittlemoney,willyou?”
“Ofcourse,“saidCarrie,herliptremblinginastrongeffortto,maintainhercomposure。”Butwhat’sthematterwithyou,anyhow?”
Shewasopeningherpurse,andnowpulledoutallthebillsin,it——afiveandtwotwos。
“I’vebeensick,Itoldyou,“hesaid,peevishly,almost,resentingherexcessivepity。Itcamehardtohimtoreceiveit,fromsuchasource。
“Here,“shesaid。”It’sallIhavewithme。”
“Allright,“heanswered,softly。”I’llgiveitbacktoyousome,day。”
Carrielookedathim,whilepedestriansstaredather。Shefelt,thestrainofpublicity。SodidHurstwood。
“Whydon’tyoutellmewhat’sthematterwithyou?”sheasked,hardlyknowingwhattodo。”Whereareyouliving?”
“Oh,I’vegotaroomdownintheBowery,“heanswered。”There’s,nousetryingtotellyouhere。I’mallrightnow。”
Heseemedinawaytoresentherkindlyinquiries——somuchbetter,hadfatedealtwithher。
“Bettergoonin,“hesaid。”I’mmuchobliged,butIwon’t,botheryouanymore。”
Shetriedtoanswer,butheturnedawayandshuffledofftoward,theeast。
Fordaysthisapparitionwasadragonhersoulbeforeitbegan,towearpartiallyaway。Drouetcalledagain,butnowhewasnot,evenseenbyher。Hisattentionsseemedoutofplace。
“I’mout,“washerreplytotheboy。
Sopeculiar,indeed,washerlonely,self-withdrawingtemper,thatshewasbecominganinterestingfigureinthepubliceye——
shewassoquietandreserved。
Notlongafterthemanagementdecidedtotransfertheshowto,London。Asecondsummerseasondidnotseemtopromisewell,here。
“HowwouldyouliketotrysubduingLondon?”askedhermanager,oneafternoon。
“Itmightbejusttheotherway,“saidCarrie。
“Ithinkwe’llgoinJune,“heanswered。
Inthehurryofdeparture,Hurstwoodwasforgotten。Bothheand,Drouetwerelefttodiscoverthatshewasgone。Thelatter,calledonce,andexclaimedatthenews。Thenhestoodinthe,lobby,chewingtheendsofhismoustache。Atlasthereacheda,conclusion——theolddayshadgoneforgood。
“Sheisn’tsomuch,“hesaid;butinhisheartofheartshedid,notbelievethis。
Hurstwoodshiftedbycuriousmeansthroughalongsummerand,fall。Asmalljobasjanitorofadancehallhelpedhimfora,month。Begging,sometimesgoinghungry,sometimessleepingin,thepark,carriedhimovermoredays。Resortingtothose,peculiarcharities,severalofwhich,inthepressofhungry,search,heaccidentallystumbledupon,didtherest。Towardthe,deadofwinter,Carriecameback,appearingonBroadwayinanew,play;buthewasnotawareofit。Forweekshewanderedabout,thecity,begging,whilethefiresign,announcingher,engagement,blazednightlyuponthecrowdedstreetofamusements。
Drouetsawit,butdidnotventurein。
AboutthistimeAmesreturnedtoNewYork。Hehadmadealittle,successintheWest,andnowopenedalaboratoryinWooster,Street。Ofcourse,heencounteredCarriethroughMrs。Vance;but,therewasnothingresponsivebetweenthem。Hethoughtshewas,stillunitedtoHurstwood,untilotherwiseinformed。Notknowing,thefactsthen,hedidnotprofesstounderstand,andrefrained,fromcomment。
WithMrs。Vance,hesawthenewplay,andexpressedhimself,accordingly。
“Sheoughtnottobeincomedy,“hesaid。”Ithinkshecoulddo,betterthanthat。”
OneafternoontheymetattheVances’accidentally,andbegana,veryfriendlyconversation。Shecouldhardlytellwhytheone-
timekeeninterestinhimwasnolongerwithher。
Unquestionably,itwasbecauseatthattimehehadrepresented,somethingwhichshedidnothave;butthisshedidnot,understand。Successhadgivenherthemomentaryfeelingthatshe,wasnowblessedwithmuchofwhichhewouldapprove。Asamatter,offact,herlittlenewspaperfamewasnothingatalltohim。He,thoughtshecouldhavedonebetter,byfar。
“Youdidn’tgointocomedy-drama,afterall?”hesaid,rememberingherinterestinthatformofart。
“No,“sheanswered;“Ihaven’t,sofar。”
Helookedatherinsuchapeculiarwaythatsherealisedshehad,failed。Itmovedhertoadd:“Iwantto,though。”
“Ishouldthinkyouwould,“hesaid。”Youhavethesortof,dispositionthatwoulddowellincomedy-drama。”
Itsurprisedherthatheshouldspeakofdisposition。Wasshe,then,soclearlyinhismind?
“Why?”sheasked。
“Well,“hesaid,“Ishouldjudgeyouwererathersympatheticin,yournature。”
Carriesmiledandcolouredslightly。Hewassoinnocentlyfrank,withherthatshedrewnearerinfriendship。Theoldcallofthe,idealwassounding。
“Idon’tknow,“sheanswered,pleased,nevertheless,beyondall,concealment。
“Isawyourplay,“heremarked。”It’sverygood。”
“I’mgladyoulikedit。”
“Verygood,indeed,“hesaid,“foracomedy。”
Thisisallthatwassaidatthetime,owingtoaninterruption,butlatertheymetagain。Hewassittinginacornerafter,dinner,staringatthefloor,whenCarriecameupwithanotherof,theguests。Hardworkhadgivenhisfacethelookofonewhois,weary。ItwasnotforCarrietoknowthethinginitwhich,appealedtoher。
“Allalone?”shesaid。
“Iwaslisteningtothemusic。”
“I’llbebackinamoment,“saidhercompanion,whosawnothing,intheinventor。
Nowhelookedupinherface,forshewasstandingamoment,whilehesat。
“Isn’tthatapatheticstrain?”heinquired,listening。
“Oh,very,“shereturned,alsocatchingit,nowthather,attentionwascalled。
“Sitdown,“headded,offeringherthechairbesidehim。
Theylistenedafewmomentsinsilence,touchedbythesame,feeling,onlyhersreachedherthroughtheheart。Musicstill,charmedherasintheolddays。
“Idon’tknowwhatitisaboutmusic,“shestartedtosay,moved,bytheinexplicablelongingswhichsurgedwithinher;“butit,alwaysmakesmefeelasifIwantedsomething——I——“
“Yes,“hereplied;“Iknowhowyoufeel。”
Suddenlyheturnedtoconsideringthepeculiarityofher,disposition,expressingherfeelingssofrankly。
“Yououghtnottobemelancholy,“hesaid。
Hethoughtawhile,andthenwentoffintoaseeminglyalien,observationwhich,however,accordedwiththeirfeelings。
“Theworldisfullofdesirablesituations,but,unfortunately,wecanoccupybutoneatatime。Itdoesn’tdousanygoodto,wringourhandsoverthefar-offthings。”
Themusicceasedandhearose,takingastandingpositionbefore,her,asiftoresthimself。
“Whydon’tyougetintosomegood,strongcomedy-drama?”hesaid。
Hewaslookingdirectlyathernow,studyingherface。Her,large,sympatheticeyesandpain-touchedmouthappealedtohimas,proofsofhisjudgment。
“PerhapsIshall,“shereturned。
“That’syourfield,“headded。
“Doyouthinkso?”
“Yes,“hesaid;“Ido。Idon’tsupposeyou’reawareofit,but,thereissomethingaboutyoureyesandmouthwhichfitsyoufor,thatsortofwork。”
Carriethrilledtobetakensoseriously。Forthemoment,lonelinessdesertedher。Herewaspraisewhichwaskeenand,analytical。
“It’sinyoureyesandmouth,“hewentonabstractedly。”I
rememberthinking,thefirsttimeIsawyou,thattherewas,somethingpeculiaraboutyourmouth。Ithoughtyouwereaboutto,cry。”
“Howodd,“saidCarrie,warmwithdelight。Thiswaswhather,heartcraved。
“ThenInoticedthatthatwasyournaturallook,andto-nightI
sawitagain。There’sashadowaboutyoureyes,too,whichgives,yourfacemuchthissamecharacter。It’sinthedepthofthem,I
think。”
Carrielookedstraightintohisface,whollyaroused。
“Youprobablyarenotawareofit,“headded。
Shelookedaway,pleasedthatheshouldspeakthus,longingtobe,equaltothisfeelingwrittenuponhercountenance。Itunlocked,thedoortoanewdesire。
Shehadcausetoponderoverthisuntiltheymetagain——several,weeksormore。Itshowedhershewasdriftingawayfromtheold,idealwhichhadfilledherinthedressing-roomsoftheAvery,stageandthereafter,foralongtime。Whyhadshelostit?
“Iknowwhyyoushouldbeasuccess,“hesaid,anothertime,“if,youhadamoredramaticpart。I’vestudieditout——“
“Whatisit?”saidCarrie。
“Well,“hesaid,asonepleasedwithapuzzle,“theexpressionin,yourfaceisonethatcomesoutindifferentthings。Yougetthe,samethinginapatheticsong,oranypicturewhichmovesyou,deeply。It’sathingtheworldlikestosee,becauseit’sa,naturalexpressionofitslonging。”
Carriegazedwithoutexactlygettingtheimportofwhathemeant。
“Theworldisalwaysstrugglingtoexpressitself,“hewenton。
“Mostpeoplearenotcapableofvoicingtheirfeelings。They,dependuponothers。Thatiswhatgeniusisfor。Oneman,expressestheirdesiresfortheminmusic;anotheroneinpoetry;
anotheroneinaplay。Sometimesnaturedoesitinaface——it,makesthefacerepresentativeofalldesire。That’swhathas,happenedinyourcase。”
Helookedatherwithsomuchoftheimportofthethinginhis,eyesthatshecaughtit。Atleast,shegottheideathather,lookwassomethingwhichrepresentedtheworld’slonging。She,tookittoheartasacreditablething,untilheadded:
“Thatputsaburdenofdutyonyou。Itsohappensthatyouhave,thisthing。Itisnocredittoyou——thatis,Imean,youmight,nothavehadit。Youpaidnothingtogetit。Butnowthatyou,haveit,youmustdosomethingwithit。”
“What?”askedCarrie。
“Ishouldsay,turntothedramaticfield。Youhavesomuch,sympathyandsuchamelodiousvoice。Makethemvaluableto,others。Itwillmakeyourpowersendure。”
Carriedidnotunderstandthislast。Alltherestshowedher,thathercomedysuccesswaslittleornothing。
“Whatdoyoumean?”sheasked。
“Why,justthis。Youhavethisqualityinyoureyesandmouth,andinyournature。Youcanloseit,youknow。Ifyouturnaway,fromitandlivetosatisfyyourselfalone,itwillgofast,enough。Thelookwillleaveyoureyes。Yourmouthwillchange。
Yourpowertoactwilldisappear。Youmaythinktheywon’t,but,theywill。Naturetakescareofthat。”
Hewassointerestedinforwardingallgoodcausesthathe,sometimesbecameenthusiastic,givingventtothesepreachments。
SomethinginCarrieappealedtohim。Hewantedtostirherup。
“Iknow,“shesaid,absently,feelingslightlyguiltyofneglect。
“IfIwereyou,“hesaid,“I’dchange。”
Theeffectofthiswaslikeroilinghelplesswaters。Carrie,troubledoveritinherrocking-chairfordays。
“Idon’tbelieveI’llstayincomedysoverymuchlonger,“she,eventuallyremarkedtoLola。
“Oh,whynot?”saidthelatter。
“Ithink,“shesaid,“Icandobetterinaseriousplay。”
“Whatputthatideainyourhead?”
“Oh,nothing,“sheanswered;“I’vealwaysthoughtso。”
Still,shedidnothing——grieving。Itwasalongwaytothis,betterthing——orseemedso——andcomfortwasabouther;hencethe,inactivityandlonging。
ChapterXLVII
THEWAYOFTHEBEATEN——AHARPINTHEWIND
Inthecity,atthattime,therewereanumberofcharities,similarinnaturetothatofthecaptain’s,whichHurstwoodnow,patronisedinalikeunfortunateway。Onewasaconventmission-
houseoftheSistersofMercyinFifteenthStreet——arowofred,brickfamilydwellings,beforethedoorofwhichhungaplain,woodencontributionbox,onwhichwaspaintedthestatementthat,everynoonamealwasgivenfreetoallthosewhomightapplyand,askforaid。Thissimpleannouncementwasmodestintheextreme,covering,asitdid,acharitysobroad。Institutionsand,charitiesaresolargeandsonumerousinNewYorkthatsuch,thingsasthisarenotoftennoticedbythemorecomfortably,situated。Buttoonewhosemindisuponthematter,theygrow,exceedinglyunderinspection。Unlessonewerelookingupthis,matterinparticular,hecouldhavestoodatSixthAvenueand,FifteenthStreetfordaysaroundthenoonhourandneverhave,noticedthatoutofthevastcrowdthatsurgedalongthatbusy,thoroughfarethereturnedout,everyfewseconds,someweather-
beaten,heavy-footedspecimenofhumanity,gauntincountenance,anddilapidatedinthematterofclothes。Thefactisnonethe,lesstrue,however,andthecolderthedaythemoreapparentit,became。Spaceandalackofculinaryroominthemission-house,compelledanarrangementwhichpermittedofonlytwenty-fiveor,thirtyeatingatonetime,sothatalinehadtobeformed,outsideandanorderlyentranceeffected。Thiscausedadaily,spectaclewhich,however,hadbecomesocommonbyrepetition,duringanumberofyearsthatnownothingwasthoughtofit。The,menwaitedpatiently,likecattle,inthecoldestweather——waited,forseveralhoursbeforetheycouldbeadmitted。Noquestions,wereaskedandnoservicerendered。Theyateandwentaway,again,someofthemreturningregularlydayafterdaythewinter,through。
Abig,motherlylookingwomaninvariablystoodguardatthedoor,duringtheentireoperationandcountedtheadmissiblenumber。
Themenmovedupinsolemnorder。Therewasnohasteandno,eagernessdisplayed。Itwasalmostadumbprocession。Inthe,bitterestweatherthislinewastobefoundhere。Underanicy,windtherewasaprodigiousslappingofhandsandadancingof,feet。Fingersandthefeaturesofthefacelookedasifseverely,nippedbythecold。Astudyofthesemeninbroadlightproved,themtobenearlyallofatype。Theybelongedtotheclassthat,sitontheparkbenchesduringtheendurabledaysandsleepupon,themduringthesummernights。TheyfrequenttheBoweryand,thosedown-at-the-heelsEastSidestreetswherepoorclothesand,shrunkenfeaturesarenotsingledoutascurious。Theyarethe,menwhoareinthelodginghousesitting-roomsduringbleakand,bitterweatherandwhoswarmaboutthecheapershelterswhich,onlyopenatsixinanumberofthelowerEastSidestreets。
Miserablefood,ill-timedandgreedilyeaten,hadplayedhavoc,withboneandmuscle。Theywereallpale,flabby,sunken-eyed,hollow-chested,witheyesthatglintedandshoneandlipsthat,wereasicklyredbycontrast。Theirhairwasbuthalfattended,to,theirearsanaemicinhue,andtheirshoesbrokeninleather,andrundownatheelandtoe。Theywereoftheclasswhich,simplyfloatsanddrifts,everywaveofpeoplewashingupone,as,breakersdodriftwooduponastormyshore。
Fornearlyaquarterofacentury,inanothersectionofthe,city,Fleischmann,thebaker,hadgivenaloafofbreadtoany,onewhowouldcomeforittothesidedoorofhisrestaurantat,thecornerofBroadwayandTenthStreet,atmidnight。Every,nightduringtwentyyearsaboutthreehundredmenhadformedin,lineandattheappointedtimemarchedpastthedoorway,picked,theirloaffromagreatboxplacedjustoutside,andvanished,againintothenight。Fromthebeginningtothepresenttime,therehadbeenlittlechangeinthecharacterornumberofthese,men。Thereweretwoorthreefiguresthathadgrownfamiliarto,thosewhohadseenthislittleprocessionpassyearafteryear。
Twoofthemhadmissedscarcelyanightinfifteenyears。There,wereaboutforty,moreorless,regularcallers。Theremainder,ofthelinewasformedofstrangers。Intimesofpanicand,unusualhardshipstherewereseldommorethanthreehundred。In,timesofprosperity,whenlittleisheardoftheunemployed,therewereseldomless。Thesamenumber,winterandsummer,in,stormorcalm,ingoodtimesandbad,heldthismelancholy,midnightrendezvousatFleischmann’sbreadbox。
Atbothofthesetwocharities,duringtheseverewinterwhich,wasnowon,Hurstwoodwasafrequentvisitor。Ononeoccasionit,waspeculiarlycold,andfindingnocomfortinbeggingaboutthe,streets,hewaiteduntilnoonbeforeseekingthisfreeoffering,tothepoor。Already,ateleveno’clockofthismorning,several,suchashehadshambledforwardoutofSixthAvenue,theirthin,clothesflappingandflutteringinthewind。Theyleanedagainst,theironrailingwhichprotectsthewallsoftheNinthRegiment,Armory,whichfrontsuponthatsectionofFifteenthStreet,havingcomeearlyinordertobefirstin。Havinganhourto,wait,theyatfirstlingeredatarespectfuldistance;butothers,comingup,theymovedcloserinordertoprotecttheirrightof,precedence。TothiscollectionHurstwoodcameupfromthewest,outofSeventhAvenueandstoppedclosetothedoor,nearerthan,alltheothers。Thosewhohadbeenwaitingbeforehim,but,fartheraway,nowdrewnear,andbyacertainstolidityof,demeanour,nowordsbeingspoken,indicatedthattheywerefirst。
Seeingtheoppositiontohisaction,helookedsullenlyalongthe,line,thenmovedout,takinghisplaceatthefoot。Whenorder,hadbeenrestored,theanimalfeelingofoppositionrelaxed。
“Mustbeprettynearnoon,“venturedone。
“Itis,“saidanother。”I’vebeenwaitingnearlyanhour。”
“Gee,butit’scold!”
Theypeeredeagerlyatthedoor,whereallmustenter。Agrocery,mandroveupandcarriedinseveralbasketsofeatables。This,startedsomewordsupongrocerymenandthecostoffoodin,general。
“Iseemeat’sgoneup,“saidone。
“Iftherewuzwar,itwouldhelpthiscountryalot。”
Thelinewasgrowingrapidly。Alreadytherewerefiftyormore,andthoseatthehead,bytheirdemeanour,evidently,congratulatedthemselvesuponnothavingsolongtowaitasthose,atthefoot。Therewasmuchjerkingofheads,andlookingdown,theline。
“Itdon’tmatterhownearyougettothefront,solongasyou’re,inthefirsttwenty-five,“commentedoneofthefirsttwenty-
five。”Youallgointogether。”
“Humph!”ejaculatedHurstwood,whohadbeensosturdily,displaced。
“ThishereSingleTaxisthething,“saidanother。”Thereain’t,goingtobenoordertillitcomes。”
Forthemostparttherewassilence;gauntmenshuffling,glancing,andbeatingtheirarms。
Atlastthedooropenedandthemotherly-lookingsisterappeared。
Sheonlylookedanorder。Slowlythelinemovedupand,oneby,one,passedin,untiltwenty-fivewerecounted。Thenshe,interposedastoutarm,andthelinehalted,withsixmenonthe,steps。Ofthesetheex-managerwasone。Waitingthus,some,talked,someejaculatedconcerningthemiseryofit;some,brooded,asdidHurstwood。Atlasthewasadmitted,and,having,eaten,cameaway,almostangeredbecauseofhispainsingetting,it。
Ateleveno’clockofanotherevening,perhapstwoweekslater,he,wasatthemidnightofferingofaloaf——waitingpatiently。It,hadbeenanunfortunatedaywithhim,butnowhetookhisfate,withatouchofphilosophy。Ifhecouldsecurenosupper,orwas,hungrylateintheevening,herewasaplacehecouldcome。A
fewminutesbeforetwelve,agreatboxofbreadwaspushedout,andexactlyonthehouraportly,round-facedGermantook,positionbyit,calling“Ready。”Thewholelineatoncemoved,forwardeachtakinghisloafinturnandgoinghisseparateway。
Onthisoccasion,theex-manageratehisashewentploddingthe,darkstreetsinsilencetohisbed。
ByJanuaryhehadaboutconcludedthatthegamewasupwithhim。
Lifehadalwaysseemedapreciousthing,butnowconstantwant,andweakenedvitalityhadmadethecharmsofearthratherdull,andinconspicuous。Severaltimes,whenfortunepressedmost,harshly,hethoughthewouldendhistroubles;butwithachange,ofweather,orthearrivalofaquarteroradime,hismoodwould,change,andhewouldwait。Eachdayhewouldfindsomeoldpaper,lyingaboutandlookintoit,toseeiftherewasanytraceof,Carrie,butallsummerandfallhehadlookedinvain。Thenhe,noticedthathiseyeswerebeginningtohurthim,andthis,ailmentrapidlyincreaseduntil,inthedarkchambersofthe,lodgingshefrequented,hedidnotattempttoread。Badand,irregulareatingwasweakeningeveryfunctionofhisbody。The,onerecourselefthimwastodozewhenaplaceofferedandhe,couldgetthemoneytooccupyit。
Hewasbeginningtofind,inhiswretchedclothingandmeagre,stateofbody,thatpeopletookhimforachronictypeofbumand,beggar。Policehustledhimalong,restaurantandlodginghouse,keepersturnedhimoutpromptlythemomenthehadhisdue;
pedestrianswavedhimoff。Hefounditmoreandmoredifficult,togetanythingfromanybody。
Atlastheadmittedtohimselfthatthegamewasup。Itwas,afteralongseriesofappealstopedestrians,inwhichhehad,beenrefusedandrefused——everyonehasteningfromcontact。
“Givemealittlesomething,willyou,mister?”hesaidtothe,lastone。”ForGod’ssake,do;I’mstarving。”
“Aw,getout,“saidtheman,whohappenedtobeacommontype,himself。”You’renogood。I’llgiveyounawthin’。”
Hurstwoodputhishands,redfromcold,downinhispockets。
Tearscameintohiseyes。
“That’sright,“hesaid;“I’mnogoodnow。Iwasallright。I
hadmoney。I’mgoingtoquitthis,“and,withdeathinhis,heart,hestarteddowntowardtheBowery。Peoplehadturnedon,thegasbeforeanddied;whyshouldn’the?Heremembereda,lodginghousewheretherewerelittle,closerooms,withgas-jets,inthem,almostpre-arranged,hethought,forwhathewantedto,do,whichrentedforfifteencents。Thenherememberedthathe,hadnofifteencents。
Onthewayhemetacomfortable-lookinggentleman,coming,clean-
shaven,outofafinebarbershop。
“Wouldyoumindgivingmealittlesomething?”heaskedthisman,boldly。
Thegentlemanlookedhimoverandfishedforadime。Nothingbut,quarterswereinhispocket。
“Here,“hesaid,handinghimone,toberidofhim。”Beoff,now。”
Hurstwoodmovedon,wondering。Thesightofthelarge,bright,coinpleasedhimalittle。Herememberedthathewashungryand,thathecouldgetabedfortencents。Withthis,theideaof,deathpassed,forthetimebeing,outofhismind。Itwasonly,whenhecouldgetnothingbutinsultsthatdeathseemedworth,while。
Oneday,inthemiddleofthewinter,thesharpestspellofthe,seasonsetin。Itbrokegreyandcoldinthefirstday,andon,thesecondsnowed。Poorluckpursuinghim,hehadsecuredbut,tencentsbynightfall,andthishehadspentforfood。At,eveninghefoundhimselfattheBoulevardandSixty-seventh,Street,wherehefinallyturnedhisfaceBowery-ward。Especially,fatiguedbecauseofthewanderingpropensitywhichhadseizedhim,inthemorning,henowhalfdraggedhiswetfeet,shufflingthe,solesuponthesidewalk。Anold,thincoatwasturnedupabout,hisredears——hiscrackedderbyhatwaspulleddownuntilit,turnedthemoutward。Hishandswereinhispockets。
“I’lljustgodownBroadway,“hesaidtohimself。
WhenhereachedForty-secondStreet,thefiresignswerealready,blazingbrightly。Crowdswerehasteningtodine。Throughbright,windows,ateverycorner,mightbeseengaycompaniesin,luxuriantrestaurants。Therewerecoachesandcrowdedcable,cars。
Inhiswearyandhungrystate,heshouldneverhavecomehere。
Thecontrastwastoosharp。Evenhewasrecalledkeenlyto,betterthings。
“What’stheuse?”hethought。”It’sallupwithme。I’llquit,this。”
Peopleturnedtolookafterhim,souncouthwashisshambling,figure。Severalofficersfollowedhimwiththeireyes,tosee,thathedidnotbegofanybody。
Oncehepausedinanaimless,incoherentsortofwayandlooked,throughthewindowsofanimposingrestaurant,beforewhich,blazedafiresign,andthroughthelarge,platewindowsofwhich,couldbeseentheredandgolddecorations,thepalms,thewhite,napery,andshiningglassware,and,aboveall,thecomfortable,crowd。Weakashismindhadbecome,hishungerwassharpenough,toshowtheimportanceofthis。Hestoppedstockstill,his,frayedtrouserssoakingintheslush,andpeeredfoolishlyin。
“Eat,“hemumbled。”That’sright,eat。Nobodyelsewantsany。”
Thenhisvoicedroppedevenlower,andhismindhalflostthe,fancyithad。
“It’smightycold,“hesaid。”Awfulcold。”
AtBroadwayandThirty-ninthStreetwasblazing,inincandescent,fire,Carrie’sname。”CarrieMadenda,“itread,“andtheCasino,Company。”Allthewet,snowysidewalkwasbrightwiththis,radiatedfire。ItwassobrightthatitattractedHurstwood’s,gaze。Helookedup,andthenatalarge,gilt-framed,posterboard,onwhichwasafinelithographofCarrie,lifesize。
Hurstwoodgazedatitamoment,snufflingandhunchingone,shoulder,asifsomethingwerescratchinghim。Hewassorun,down,however,thathismindwasnotexactlyclear。
Heapproachedthatentranceandwentin。
“Well?”saidtheattendant,staringathim。Seeinghimpause,he,wentoverandshovedhim。”Getoutofhere,“hesaid。
“IwanttoseeMissMadenda,“hesaid。
“Youdo,eh?”theothersaid,almosttickledatthespectacle。
“Getoutofhere,“andheshovedhimagain。Hurstwoodhadno,strengthtoresist。
“IwanttoseeMissMadenda,“hetriedtoexplain,evenashewas,beinghustledaway。”I’mallright。I——“
Themangavehimalastpushandclosedthedoor。Ashedidso,Hurstwoodslippedandfellinthesnow。Ithurthim,andsome,vaguesenseofshamereturned。Hebegantocryandswear,foolishly。
“Goddamneddog!”hesaid。”Damnedoldcur,“wipingtheslush,fromhisworthlesscoat。”I——Ihiredsuchpeopleasyouonce。”
NowafiercefeelingagainstCarriewelledup——justonefierce,angrythoughtbeforethewholethingslippedoutofhismind。
“Sheowesmesomethingtoeat,“hesaid。”Sheowesittome。”
HopelesslyheturnedbackintoBroadwayagainandsloppedonward,andaway,begging,crying,losingtrackofhisthoughts,one,afteranother,asaminddecayedanddisjointediswonttodo。
Itwastrulyawintryevening,afewdayslater,whenhisone,distinctmentaldecisionwasreached。Already,atfouro’clock,thesombrehueofnightwasthickeningtheair。Aheavysnowwas,falling——afinepicking,whippingsnow,borneforwardbyaswift,windinlong,thinlines。Thestreetswerebeddedwithit——six,inchesofcold,softcarpet,churnedtoadirtybrownbythe,crushofteamsandthefeetofmen。AlongBroadwaymenpicked,theirwayinulstersandumbrellas。AlongtheBowery,men,slouchedthroughitwithcollarsandhatspulledovertheirears。
Intheformerthoroughfarebusinessmenandtravellersweremaking,forcomfortablehotels。Inthelatter,crowdsoncolderrands,shiftedpastdingystores,inthedeeprecessesofwhichlights,werealreadygleaming。Therewereearlylightsinthecable,cars,whoseusualclatterwasreducedbythemantleaboutthe,wheels。Thewholecitywasmuffledbythisfast-thickening,mantle。
InhercomfortablechambersattheWaldorf,Carriewasreadingat,thistime“PereGoriot,“whichAmeshadrecommendedtoher。It,wassostrong,andAmes’smererecommendationhadsoarousedher,interest,thatshecaughtnearlythefullsympathetic,significanceofit。Forthefirsttime,itwasbeingbornein,uponherhowsillyandworthlesshadbeenherearlierreading,as,awhole。Becomingwearied,however,sheyawnedandcametothe,window,lookingoutupontheoldwindingprocessionofcarriages,rollingupFifthAvenue。
“Isn’titbad?”sheobservedtoLola。
“Terrible!”saidthatlittlelady,joiningher。”Ihopeitsnows,enoughtogosleighriding。”
“Oh,dear,“saidCarrie,withwhomthesufferingsofFather,Goriotwerestillkeen。”That’sallyouthinkof。Aren’tyou,sorryforthepeoplewhohaven’tanythingto-night?”
“OfcourseIam,“saidLola;“butwhatcanIdo?Ihaven’t,anything。”
Carriesmiled。
“Youwouldn’tcare,ifyouhad,“shereturned。
“Iwould,too,“saidLola。”Butpeoplenevergavemeanything,whenIwashardup。”
“Isn’titjustawful?”saidCarrie,studyingthewinter’sstorm。
“Lookatthatmanoverthere,“laughedLola,whohadcaughtsight,ofsomeonefallingdown。”Howsheepishmenlookwhentheyfall,don’tthey?”
“We’llhavetotakeacoachto-night,“answeredCarrieabsently。
InthelobbyoftheImperial,Mr。CharlesDrouetwasjust,arriving,shakingthesnowfromaveryhandsomeulster。Bad,weatherhaddrivenhimhomeearlyandstirredhisdesirefor,thosepleasureswhichshutoutthesnowandgloomoflife。A
gooddinner,thecompanyofayoungwoman,andaneveningatthe,theatrewerethechiefthingsforhim。
“Why,hello,Harry!”hesaid,addressingaloungerinoneofthe,comfortablelobbychairs。”Howareyou?”
“Oh,aboutsixandsix,“saidtheother。
“Rottenweather,isn’tit?”
“Well,Ishouldsay,“saidtheother。”I’vebeenjustsitting,herethinkingwhereI’dgoto-night。”
“Comealongwithme,“saidDrouet。”Icanintroduceyouto,somethingdeadswell。”
“Whoisit?”saidtheother。
“Oh,acoupleofgirlsoverhereinFortiethStreet。Wecould,haveadandytime。Iwasjustlookingforyou。”
“Supposingyouget’emandtake’emouttodinner?”
“Sure,“saidDrouet。”Wait’llIgoupstairsandchangemy,clothes。”
“Well,I’llbeinthebarbershop,“saidtheother。”Iwantto,getashave。”
“Allright,“saidDrouet,creakingoffinhisgoodshoestoward,theelevator。Theoldbutterflywasaslightonthewingas,ever。
OnanincomingvestibuledPullman,speedingatfortymilesan,hourthroughthesnowoftheevening,werethreeothers,all,related。
“Firstcallfordinnerinthedining-car,“aPullmanservitorwas,announcing,ashehastenedthroughtheaisleinsnow-whiteapron,andjacket。
“Idon’tbelieveIwanttoplayanymore,“saidtheyoungest,a,black-hairedbeauty,turnedsuperciliousbyfortune,asshe,pushedaeuchrehandawayfromher。
“Shallwegointodinner?”inquiredherhusband,whowasallthat,fineraimentcanmake。
“Oh,notyet,“sheanswered。”Idon’twanttoplayanymore,though。”
“Jessica,“saidhermother,whowasalsoastudyinwhatgood,clothingcandoforage,“pushthatpindowninyourtie——it’s,comingup。”
Jessicaobeyed,incidentallytouchingatherlovelyhairand,lookingatalittlejewel-facedwatch。Herhusbandstudiedher,forbeauty,evencold,isfascinatingfromonepointofview。
“Well,wewon’thavemuchmoreofthisweather,“hesaid。”It,onlytakestwoweekstogettoRome。”
Mrs。Hurstwoodnestledcomfortablyinhercornerandsmiled。It,wassonicetobethemother-in-lawofarichyoungman——one,whosefinancialstatehadborneherpersonalinspection。
“Doyousupposetheboatwillsailpromptly?”askedJessica,“if,itkeepsuplikethis?”
“Oh,yes,“answeredherhusband。”Thiswon’tmakeany,difference。”
Passingdowntheaislecameaveryfair-hairedbanker’sson,also,ofChicago,whohadlongeyedthissuperciliousbeauty。Evennow,hedidnothesitatetoglanceather,andshewasconsciousof,it。Withaspeciallyconjuredshowofindifference,sheturned,herprettyfacewhollyaway。Itwasnotwifelymodestyatall。
Bysomuchwasherpridesatisfied。
AtthismomentHurstwoodstoodbeforeadirtyfourstorybuilding,inasidestreetquiteneartheBowery,whoseone-timecoatof,buffhadbeenchangedbysootandrain。Hemingledwithacrowd,ofmen——acrowdwhichhadbeen,andwasstill,gatheringby,degrees。
Itbeganwiththeapproachoftwoorthree,whohungaboutthe,closedwoodendoorsandbeattheirfeettokeepthemwarm。They,hadonfadedderbyhatswithdentsinthem。Theirmisfitcoats,wereheavywithmeltedsnowandturnedupatthecollars。Their,trousersweremerebags,frayedatthebottomandwobblingover,big,soppyshoes,tornatthesidesandwornalmosttoshreds。
Theymadenoefforttogoin,butshiftedruefullyabout,digging,theirhandsdeepintheirpocketsandleeringatthecrowdand,theincreasinglamps。Withtheminutes,increasedthenumber。
Therewereoldmenwithgrizzledbeardsandsunkeneyes,menwho,werecomparativelyyoungbutshrunkenbydiseases,menwhowere,middle-aged。Nonewerefat。Therewasafaceinthethickof,thecollectionwhichwasaswhiteasdrainedveal。Therewas,anotherredasbrick。Somecamewiththin,roundedshoulders,otherswithwoodenlegs,stillotherswithframessoleanthat,clothesonlyflappedaboutthem。Thereweregreatears,swollen,noses,thicklips,and,aboveall,red,blood-shoteyes。Nota,normal,healthyfaceinthewholemass;notastraightfigure;
notastraightforward,steadyglance。
Inthedriveofthewindandsleettheypushedinononeanother。
Therewerewrists,unprotectedbycoatorpocket,whichwerered,withcold。Therewereears,halfcoveredbyeveryconceivable,semblanceofahat,whichstilllookedstiffandbitten。Inthe,snowtheyshifted,nowonefoot,nowanother,almostrockingin,unison。
Withthegrowthofthecrowdaboutthedoorcameamurmur。It,wasnotconversation,butarunningcommentdirectedatanyone,ingeneral。Itcontainedoathsandslangphrases。
“Bydamn,Iwishthey’dhurryup。”
“Lookatthecopperwatchin’。”
“Maybeitain’twinter,nuther!”
“IwishtIwasinSingSing。”
Nowasharperlashofwindcutdownandtheyhuddledcloser。It,wasanedging,shifting,pushingthrong。Therewasnoanger,no,pleading,nothreateningwords。Itwasallsullenendurance,unlightenedbyeitherwitorgoodfellowship。
Acarriagewentjinglingbywithsomerecliningfigureinit。
Oneofthemennearestthedoorsawit。
“Lookattheblokeridin’。”
“Heain’tsocold。”
“Eh,eh,eh!”yelledanother,thecarriagehavinglongsince,passedoutofhearing。
Littlebylittlethenightcrepton。Alongthewalkacrowd,turnedoutonitswayhome。Menandshop-girlswentbywith,quicksteps。Thecross-towncarsbegantobecrowded。Thegas,lampswereblazing,andeverywindowbloomedruddywithasteady,flame。Stillthecrowdhungaboutthedoor,unwavering。
“Ain’ttheyevergoin’toopenup?”queriedahoarsevoice,suggestively。
Thisseemedtorenewthegeneralinterestinthecloseddoor,and,manygazedinthatdirection。Theylookedatitasdumbbrutes,look,asdogspawandwhineandstudytheknob。Theyshiftedand,blinkedandmuttered,nowacurse,nowacomment。Stillthey,waitedandstillthesnowwhirledandcutthemwithbiting,flakes。Ontheoldhatsandpeakedshouldersitwaspiling。It,gatheredinlittleheapsandcurvesandnoonebrusheditoff。
Inthecentreofthecrowdthewarmthandsteammeltedit,and,watertrickledoffhatrimsanddownnoses,whichtheowners,couldnotreachtoscratch。Ontheouterrimthepilesremained,unmelted。Hurstwood,whocouldnotgetinthecentre,stoodwith,headloweredtotheweatherandbenthisform。
Alightappearedthroughthetransomoverhead。Itsentathrill,ofpossibilitythroughthewatchers。Therewasamurmurof,recognition。Atlastthebarsgratedinsideandthecrowd,prickedupitsears。Footstepsshuffledwithinanditmurmured,again。Someonecalled:“Slowupthere,now,“andthenthedoor,opened。Itwaspushandjamforaminute,withgrim,beast,silencetoproveitsquality,andthenitmeltedinward,like,logsfloating,anddisappeared。Therewerewethatsandwet,shoulders,acold,shrunken,disgruntledmass,pouringinbetween,bleakwalls。Itwasjustsixo’clockandtherewassupperin,everyhurryingpedestrian’sface。Andyetnosupperwasprovided,here——nothingbutbeds。
Hurstwoodlaiddownhisfifteencentsandcreptoffwithweary,stepstohisallottedroom。Itwasadingyaffair——wooden,dusty,hard。Asmallgas-jetfurnishedsufficientlightforso,ruefulacorner。
“Hm!”hesaid,clearinghisthroatandlockingthedoor。
Nowhebeganleisurelytotakeoffhisclothes,butstoppedfirst,withhiscoat,andtuckeditalongthecrackunderthedoor。His,vesthearrangedinthesameplace。Hisoldwet,crackedhathe,laidsoftlyuponthetable。Thenhepulledoffhisshoesandlay,down。
Itseemedasifhethoughtawhile,fornowhearoseandturned,thegasout,standingcalmlyintheblackness,hiddenfromview。
Afterafewmoments,inwhichhereviewednothing,butmerely,hesitated,heturnedthegasonagain,butappliednomatch。
Eventhenhestoodthere,hiddenwhollyinthatkindnesswhichis,night,whiletheuprisingfumesfilledtheroom。Whentheodour,reachedhisnostrils,hequithisattitudeandfumbledforthe,bed。”What’stheuse?”hesaid,weakly,ashestretchedhimself,torest。
AndnowCarriehadattainedthatwhichinthebeginningseemed,life’sobject,or,atleast,suchfractionofitashumanbeings,everattainoftheiroriginaldesires。Shecouldlookabouton,hergownsandcarriage,herfurnitureandbankaccount。Friends,therewere,astheworldtakesit——thosewhowouldbowandsmile,inacknowledgmentofhersuccess。Fortheseshehadoncecraved。
Applausetherewas,andpublicity——oncefaroff,essential,things,butnowgrowntrivialandindifferent。Beautyalso——her,typeofloveliness——andyetshewaslonely。Inherrocking-chair,shesat,whennototherwiseengaged——singinganddreaming。
Thusinlifethereisevertheintellectualandtheemotional,nature——themindthatreasons,andthemindthatfeels。Ofone,comethemenofaction——generalsandstatesmen;oftheother,the,poetsanddreamers——artistsall。
Asharpsinthewind,thelatterrespondtoeverybreathof,fancy,voicingintheirmoodsalltheebbandflowoftheideal。
Manhasnotyetcomprehendedthedreameranymorethanhehasthe,ideal。Forhimthelawsandmoralsoftheworldareunduly,severe。Everhearkeningtothesoundofbeauty,strainingfor,theflashofitsdistantwings,hewatchestofollow,wearying,hisfeetintravelling。SowatchedCarrie,sofollowed,rocking,andsinging。
Anditmustberememberedthatreasonhadlittlepartinthis。
Chicagodawning,shesawthecityofferingmoreofloveliness,thanshehadeverknown,andinstinctively,byforceofhermoods,alone,clungtoit。Infineraimentandelegantsurroundings,menseemedtobecontented。Hence,shedrewnearthesethings。
Chicago,NewYork;Drouet,Hurstwood;theworldoffashionand,theworldofstage——thesewerebutincidents。Notthem,butthat,whichtheyrepresented,shelongedfor。Timeprovedthe,representationfalse。
Oh,thetangleofhumanlife!,Howdimlyasyetwesee。Herewas,Carrie,inthebeginningpoor,unsophisticated。emotional;
respondingwithdesiretoeverythingmostlovelyinlife,yet,findingherselfturnedasbyawall。Lawstosay:“Beallured,ifyouwill,byeverythinglovely,butdrawnotnighunlessby,righteousness。”Conventiontosay:“Youshallnotbetteryour,situationsavebyhonestlabour。”Ifhonestlabourbe,unremunerativeanddifficulttoendure;ifitbethelong,long,roadwhichneverreachesbeauty,butweariesthefeetandthe,heart;ifthedragtofollowbeautybesuchthatoneabandonsthe,admiredway,takingratherthedespisedpathleadingtoher,dreamsquickly,whoshallcastthefirststone?Notevil,but,longingforthatwhichisbetter,moreoftendirectsthestepsof,theerring。Notevil,butgoodnessmoreoftenalluresthe,feelingmindunusedtoreason。
AmidthetinselandshineofherstatewalkedCarrie,unhappy。
AswhenDrouettookher,shehadthought:“NowIamliftedinto,thatwhichisbest“;aswhenHurstwoodseeminglyofferedherthe,betterway:“NowamIhappy。”Butsincetheworldgoesitsway,pastallwhowillnotpartakeofitsfolly,shenowfoundherself,alone。Herpursewasopentohimwhoseneedwasgreatest。In,herwalksonBroadway,shenolongerthoughtoftheeleganceof,thecreatureswhopassedher。Hadtheymoreofthatpeaceand,beautywhichglimmeredafaroff,thenweretheytobeenvied。
Drouetabandonedhisclaimandwasseennomore。OfHurstwood’s,deathshewasnotevenaware。Aslow,blackboatsettingout,fromthepieratTwenty-seventhStreetuponitsweeklyerrand,bore,withmanyothers,hisnamelessbodytothePotter’sField。
Thuspassedallthatwasofinterestconcerningthesetwainin,theirrelationtoher。Theirinfluenceuponherlifeis,explicablealonebythenatureofherlongings。Timewaswhen,bothrepresentedforherallthatwasmostpotentinearthly,success。Theywerethepersonalrepresentativesofastatemost,blessedtoattain——thetitledambassadorsofcomfortandpeace,aglowwiththeircredentials。Itisbutnaturalthatwhenthe,worldwhichtheyrepresentednolongeralluredher,its,ambassadorsshouldbediscredited。EvenhadHurstwoodreturned,inhisoriginalbeautyandglory,hecouldnotnowhaveallured,her。Shehadlearnedthatinhisworld,asinherownpresent,state,wasnothappiness。
Sittingalone,shewasnowanillustrationofthedeviouswaysby,whichonewhofeels,ratherthanreasons,maybeledinthe,pursuitofbeauty。Thoughoftendisillusioned,shewasstill,waitingforthathalcyondaywhenshewouldbeledforthamong,dreamsbecomereal。Ameshadpointedoutafartherstep,buton,andonbeyondthat,ifaccomplished,wouldlieothersforher。
Itwasforevertobethepursuitofthatradianceofdelight,whichtintsthedistanthilltopsoftheworld。
Oh,Carrie,Carrie!Oh,blindstrivingsofthehumanheart!
Onwardonward,itsaith,andwherebeautyleads,thereit,follows。Whetheritbethetinkleofalonesheepbello’ersome,quietlandscape,ortheglimmerofbeautyinsylvanplaces,or,theshowofsoulinsomepassingeye,theheartknowsandmakes,answer,following。Itiswhenthefeetwearyandhopeseemsvain,thattheheartachesandthelongingsarise。Know,then,thatfor,youisneithersurfeitnorcontent。Inyourrocking-chair,by,yourwindowdreaming,shallyoulong,alone。Inyourrocking-
chair,byyourwindow,shallyoudreamsuchhappinessasyoumay,neverfeel。
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