verysingularexpressionwhich,asitwere,detainedhimforamoment。Inordertocoverhisembarrassment,hemadesomeinaneremarkontheweather,uponwhich,insteadofreturninganotherinaneremarkaccordingtothetacitrulesofthegame,sheonlygavehimasmileofunfathomablemeaning。Nothingcouldhavebeenmoresingular。Thegood-lookingyounggentlemanofquestionableappearancetooknottheslightestnoticeofhiminthehall。Noservantwastobeseen。Helethimselfoutpullingthedoortobehindhimwithacrashas,inamanner,hewasforcedtodotogetitshutatall。
Whentheechoofithaddiedawaythewomanonthelandingleanedoverthebanisterandcalledoutbitterlytothemanbelow”Don’tyouwanttocomeupandsaygood-bye。”Hehadanimpatientmovementoftheshouldersandwentonpacingtoandfroasthoughhehadnotheard。Butsuddenlyhecheckedhimself,stoodstillforamoment,thenwithagloomyfaceandwithouttakinghishandsoutofhispocketsransmartlyupthestairs。Alreadyfacingthedoorsheturnedherheadforawhisperedtaunt:”Come!Confessyouweredyingtoseeherstupidlittlefaceoncemore,”——towhichhedisdainedtoanswer。
FloradeBarral,stillseatedbeforethetableatwhichshehadbeenwordingonhersketch,raisedherheadatthenoiseoftheopeningdoor。Theinvadingmanneroftheirentrancegaveherthesenseofsomethingshehadneverseenbefore。Sheknewthemwell。Sheknewthewomanbetterthansheknewherfather。Therehadbeenbetweenthemanintimacyofrelationasgreatasitcanpossiblybewithoutthefinalclosenessofaffection。ThedelightfulCharleywalkedin,withhiseyesfixedonthebackofhergovernesswhoseraisedveilhidherforeheadlikeabrownbandabovetheblacklineoftheeyebrows。Thegirlwasastoundedandalarmedbythealtogetherunknownexpressioninthewoman’sface。Thestressofpassionoftendisclosesanaspectofthepersonalitycompletelyignoredtillthenbyitsclosestintimates。Therewassomethinglikeanemanationofevilfromhereyesandfromthefaceoftheother,who,exactlybehindherandovertoppingherbyhalfahead,kepthiseyelidsloweredinasinisterfashion——whichinthepoorgirl,reached,stirred,setfreethatfacultyofunreasoningexplosiveterrorlyinglockedupatthebottomofallhumanheartsandoftheheartsofanimalsaswell。Withsuddenlyenlargedpupilsandamovementasinstinctivealmostastheboundingofastartledfawn,shejumpedupandfoundherselfinthemiddleofthebigroom,exclaimingatthoseamazingandfamiliarstrangers。”Whatdoyouwant?”
Youwillnotethatshecried:Whatdoyouwant?Not:Whathashappened?ShetoldMrs。Fynethatshehadreceivedsuddenlythefeelingofbeingpersonallyattacked。Andthatmusthavebeenveryterrifying。Thewomanbeforeherhadbeenthewisdom,theauthority,theprotectionoflife,securityembodiedandvisibleandundisputed。
Youmayimaginethentheforceoftheshockintheintuitiveperceptionnotmerelyofdanger,forshedidnotknowwhatwasalarmingher,butinthesenseofthesecuritybeinggone。Andnotonlysecurity。Idon’tknowhowtoexplainitclearly。Look!Evenasmallchildlives,playsandsuffersintermsofitsconceptionofitsownexistence。Imagine,ifyoucan,afactcominginsuddenlywithaforcecapableofshatteringthatveryconceptionitself。Itwasonlybecauseofthegirlbeingstillsomuchofachildthatsheescapedmentaldestruction;that,inotherwordsshegotoverit。
Couldoneconceiveofhermoremature,whilestillasignorantasshewas,onemustconcludethatshewouldhavebecomeanidiotonthespot——longbeforetheendofthatexperience。Luckily,people,whethermatureornotmature(andwhoreallyisevermature?)areforthemostpartquiteincapableofunderstandingwhatishappeningtothem:amercifulprovisionofnaturetopreserveanaverageamountofsanityforworkingpurposesinthisworld……””Butwe,mydearMarlow,havetheinestimableadvantageofunderstandingwhatishappeningtoothers,”Istruckin。”Oratleastsomeofusseemto。Isthattooaprovisionofnature?Andwhatisitfor?Isitthatwemayamuseourselvesgossipingabouteachother’saffairs?Youforinstanceseem——””Idon’tknowwhatIseem,”Marlowsilencedme,”andsurelylifemustbeamusedsomehow。Itwouldbestillaveryrespectableprovisionifitwereonlyforthatend。Butfromthatsameprovisionofunderstanding,therespringsinuscompassion,charity,indignation,thesenseofsolidarity;andinmindsofanylargenessaninclinationtothatindulgencewhichisnextdoortoaffection。
Idon’tmeantosaythatIaminclinedtoanindulgentviewofthepreciouscouplewhichbrokeinuponanunsuspectinggirl。Theycamemarchingin(it’stheveryexpressionsheusedlaterontoMrs。
Fyne)butathercrytheystopped。Itmusthavebeenstartlingenoughtothem。Itwaslikehavingthemasktornoffwhenyoudon’texpectit。Themanstoppedforgood;hedidn’toffertomoveastepfurther。But,thoughthegovernesshadcomeintherefortheverypurposeoftakingthemaskoffforthefirsttimeinherlife,sheseemedtolookuponthefrightenedcryasafreshprovocation。”Whatareyouscreamingfor,youlittlefool?”shesaidadvancingaloneclosetothegirlwhowasaffectedexactlyasifshehadseenMedusa’sheadwithserpentinelockssetmysteriouslyontheshouldersofthatfamiliarperson,inthatbrowndress,underthathatsheknewsowell。Itmadeherloseallherholdonreality。
ShetoldMrs。Fyne:”Ididn’tknowwhereIwas。Ididn’tevenknowthatIwasfrightened。IfshehadtoldmeitwasajokeIwouldhavelaughed。IfshehadtoldmetoputonmyhatandgooutwithherIwouldhavegonetoputonmyhatandgoneoutwithherandneversaidasingleword;IshouldhavebeenconvincedIhadbeenmadforaminuteorso,andIwouldhaveworriedmyselftodeathratherthanbreatheahintofittoheroranyone。ButthewretchputherfaceclosetomineandIcouldnotmove。DirectlyIhadlookedintohereyesIfeltgrownontothecarpet。”
ItwasyearsafterwardsthatsheusedtotalklikethistoMrs。
Fyne——andtoMrs。Fynealone。Nobodyelseeverheardthestoryfromherlips。Butitwasneverforgotten。Itwasalwaysfelt;itremainedlikeamarkonhersoul,asortofmysticwound,tobecontemplated,tobemeditatedover。AndshesaidfurthertoMrs。
Fyne,inthecourseofmanyconfidencesprovokedbythatcontemplation,that,aslongasthatwomancalledhernames,itwasalmostsoothing,itwasinamannerreassuring。Herimaginationhad,likeherbody,goneoffinawildboundtomeettheunknown;
andthentohearafterallsomethingwhichmoreinitstonethaninitssubstancewasmerevenomousabuse,hadsteadiedtheinwardflutterofallherbeing。”ShecalledmealittlefoolmoretimesthanIcanremember。I!A
fool!Why,Mrs。Fyne!IdoassureyouIhadneveryetthoughtatall;neverofanythingintheworld,tillthen。Ijustwentonliving。Andonecan’tbeafoolwithoutonehasatleasttriedtothink。ButwhathadIevertothinkabout?””Andnodoubt,”commentedMarlow,”herlifehadbeenamerelifeofsensations——theresponsetowhichcanneitherbefoolishnorwise。
Itcanonlybetemperamental;andIbelievethatshewasofagenerallyhappydisposition,achildoftheaveragekind。Evenwhenshewasaskedviolentlywhethersheimaginedthattherewasanythinginher,apartfromhermoney,toinduceanyintelligentpersontotakeanysortofinterestinherexistence,sheonlycaughtherbreathinonedrysobandsaidnothing,madenoothersound,madenomovement。Whenshewasviciouslyassuredthatshewasinheart,mind,mannerandappearance,anutterlycommonandinsipidcreature,sheremainedstill,withoutindignation,withoutanger。Shestood,afrailandpassivevesselintowhichtheotherwentonpouringalltheaccumulateddislikeforallherpupils,herscornofallheremployers(theducaloneincluded),theaccumulatedresentment,theinfinitehatredofalltheseunrelievedyearsof——Iwon’tsayhypocrisy。Thepracticeofperfecthypocrisyisareliefinitself,asecrettriumphofthevilestsort,nodoubt,butstillawayofgettingevenwiththecommonmoralityfromwhichsomeofusappeartosuffersomuch。No!Iwillsaytheyears,thepassionate,bitteryears,ofrestraint,theiron,admirablymanneredrestraintateverymoment,inanever-failingperfectcorrectnessofspeech,glances,movements,smiles,gestures,establishingforherahighreputation,animpressiverecordofsuccessinhersphere。Ithadbeenlikelivinghalfstrangledforyears。
Andallthistorturefornothing,intheend!Whatlookedatlastlikeapossibleprize(oh,withoutillusions!butstillaprize)
brokeninherhands,falleninthedust,thebitterdust,ofdisappointment,sherevelledinthemiserablerevenge——prettysafetoo——onlyregrettingtheunworthinessofthegirlishfigurewhichstoodforsomuchshehadlongedtobeabletospitvenomat,ifonlyonce,inperfectliberty。Thepresenceoftheyoungmanatherbackincreasedbothhersatisfactionandherrage。Buttheveryviolenceoftheattackseemedtodefeatitsendbyrenderingtherepresentativevictimasitwereinsensible。Thecauseofthisoutragenaturallyescapingthegirl’simaginationherattitudewasineffectthatofdense,hopelessstupidity。Anditisafactthattheworstshocksoflifeareoftenreceivedwithoutoutcries,withoutgestures,withoutaflowoftearsandtheconvulsionsofsobbing。Theinsatiablegovernessmissedthesesignsexceedingly。
Thispitifulstoliditywasonlyafreshprovocation。Yetthepoorgirlwasdeadlypale。”Iwascold,”sheusedtoexplaintoMrs。Fyne。”Ihadhadtimetogetterrified。Shehadpushedherfacesonearmineandherteethlookedasthoughshewantedtobiteme。Hereyesseemedtohavebecomequitedry,hardandsmallinalotofhorriblewrinkles。I
wastooafraidofhertoshudder,tooafraidofhertoputmyfingerstomyears。Ididn’tknowwhatIexpectedhertocallmenext,butwhenshetoldmeIwasnobetterthanabeggar——thattherewouldbenomoremasters,nomoreservants,nomorehorsesforme——I
saidtomyself:Isthatall?IshouldhavelaughedifIhadn’tbeentooafraidofhertomaketheleastlittlesound。”
ItseemedthatpoorFlorahadtoknowallthepossiblephasesofthatsortofanguish,beginningwithinstinctivepanic,throughthebewilderedstage,thefrozenstageandthestageofblanchedapprehension,downtotheinstinctiveprudenceofextremeterror——
thestillnessofthemouse。Butwhensheheardherselfcalledthechildofacheatandaswindler,theverymonstrousunexpectednessofthiscausedinherarevulsiontowardslettingherselfgo。Shescreamedoutallatonce”Youmustn’tspeaklikethisofPapa!”
Theeffortofituprootedherfromthatspotwhereherlittlefeetseemeddugdeepintothethickluxuriouscarpet,andsheretreatedbackwardstoadistantpartoftheroom,hearingherselfrepeat”Youmustn’t,youmustn’t”asifitweresomebodyelsescreaming。Shecametoachairandflungherselfintoit。Thereuponthesomebodyelseceasedscreamingandshelolled,exhausted,sightless,inasilentroom,asifindifferenttoeverythingandwithoutasinglethoughtinherhead。
Thenextfewsecondsseemedtolastforeversolong;ablackabyssoftimeseparatingwhatwaspastandgonefromthereappearanceofthegovernessandthereawakeningoffear。Andthatwomanwasforcingthewordsthroughhersetteeth:”YousayImustn’t,I
mustn’t。Alltheworldwillbespeakingofhimlikethisto-morrow。
Theywillsayit,andthey’llprintit。Youshallhearitandyoushallreadit——andthenyoushallknowwhosedaughteryouare。”
Herfacelightedupwithanatrocioussatisfaction。”He’snothingbutathief,”shecried,”thisfatherofyours。AstoyouIhaveneverbeendeceivedinyouforamoment。Ihavebeengrowingmoreandmoresickofyouforyears。Youareavulgar,sillynonentity,andyoushallgobacktowhereyoubelong,whateverlowplaceyouhavesprungfrom,andbegyourbread——thatisifanybody’scharitywillhaveanythingtodowithyou,whichIdoubt——”
Shewouldhavegoneonregardlessoftheenormouseyes,oftheopenmouthofthegirlwhosatupsuddenlywiththewildstaringexpressionofbeingchokedbyinvisiblefingersonherthroat,andyethorriblypale。Theeffectonherconstitutionwassoprofound,Mrs。Fynetoldme,thatshewhoasachildhadaratherprettydelicatecolouring,showedawhitebloodlessfaceforacoupleofyearsafterwards,andremainedalwaysliableattheslightestemotiontoanextraordinaryghost-likewhiteness。Theendcameintheabominationofdesolationofthepoorchild’smiserablecryforhelp:”Charley!Charley!”comingfromherthroatinhiddengaspingefforts。Herenlargedeyeshaddiscoveredhimwherehestoodmotionlessanddumb。
Hestartedfromhisimmobility,ahandwithdrawnbrusquelyfromthepocketofhisovercoat,strodeuptothewoman,seizedherbythearmfrombehind,sayinginaroughcommandingtone:”Comeaway,Eliza。”Inaninstantthechildsawthemclosetogetherandremote,nearthedoor,gonethroughthedoor,whichsheneitherheardnorsawbeingopenedorshut。Butitwasshut。Ohyes,itwasshut。
Herslowunseeingglancewanderedallovertheroom。Forsometimelongersheremainedleaningforward,collectingherstrength,doubtingifshewouldbeabletostand。Shestoodupatlast。
Everythingaboutherspunroundinanoppressivesilence。Sherememberedperfectly——asshetoldMrs。Fyne——thatclingingtothearmofthechairshecalledouttwice”Papa!Papa!”AtthethoughtthathewasfarawayinLondoneverythingaboutherbecamequitestill。Then,frightenedsuddenlybythesolitudeofthatemptyroom,sherushedoutofitblindly。
Withthatfataldiffidenceinwelldoing,inherentinthepresentconditionofhumanity,theFynescontinuedtowatchattheirwindow。”It’salwayssodifficulttoknowwhattodoforthebest,”Fyneassuredme。Itis。Goodintentionsstandintheirownwaysomuch。
Whereasifyouwanttodoharmtoanyoneyouneedn’thesitate。Youhaveonlytogoon。Noonewillreproachyouwithyourmistakesorcallyouaconfounded,clumsymeddler。TheFyneswatchedthedoor,theclosedstreetdoorinimicalsomehowtotheirbenevolentthoughts,thefaceofthehousecruellyimpenetrable。Itwasjustasonanyotherday。TheunchangeddailyaspectofinanimatethingsissoimpressivethatFynewentbackintotheroomforamoment,pickedupthepaperagain,andranhiseyesovertheitemofnews。
Nodoubtofit。Itlookedverybad。HecamebacktothewindowandMrs。Fyne。Tiredoutasshewasshesatthereresoluteandreadyforresponsibility。Butshehadnosuggestiontooffer。Peopledofeararebuffwonderfully,andallheraudacitywasinherthoughts。
Sheshrankfromtheincomparablyinsolentmannerofthegoverness。
Fynestoodbyherside,asinthoseold-fashionedphotographsofmarriedcoupleswhereyouseeahusbandwithhishandonthebackofhiswife’schair。Andtheywereaboutasefficientasanoldphotograph,andasstill,tillMrs。Fynestartedslightly。Thestreetdoorhadswungopen,and,burstingout,appearedtheyoungman,hishat(Mrs。Fyneobserved)tiltedforwardoverhiseyes。
Afterhimthegovernessslippedthrough,turningroundatoncetoshutthedoorbehindherwithcare。Meantimethemanwentdownthewhitestepsandstrodealongthepavement,hishandsrammeddeepintothepocketsofhisfawnovercoat。Thewoman,thatwomanofcomposedmovements,ofdeliberatesuperiormanner,tookalittleruntocatchupwithhim,anddirectlyshehadcaughtupwithhimtriedtointroduceherhandunderhisarm。Mrs。Fynesawthebrusquehalfturnofthefellow’sbodyasoneavoidsanimportunatecontact,defeatingherattemptrudely。Shedidnottryagainbutkeptpacewithhisstride,andMrs。Fynewatchedthem,walkingindependently,turnthecornerofthestreetsidebyside,disappearforever。
TheFyneslookedateachothereloquently,doubtfully:Whatdoyouthinkofthis?Thenwithcommonaccordturnedtheireyesbacktothestreetdoor,closed,massive,dark;thegreat,clear-brassknockershininginaquietslantofsunshinecutbyadiagonallineofheavyshadefillingthefurtherendofthestreet。Couldthegirlbealreadygone?Sentawaytoherfather?Hadsheanyrelations?NobodybutdeBarralhimselfevercametoseeher,Mrs。
Fyneremembered;andshehadtheinstantaneous,profound,maternalperceptionofthechild’sloneliness——andagirltoo!Itwasirresistible。And,besides,thedepartureofthegovernesswasnotwithoutitsencouraginginfluence。”Iamgoingoveratoncetofindout,”shedeclaredresolutelybutstillstaringacrossthestreet。
Herintentionwasarrestedbythesightofthatawful,sombrelyglisteningdoor,swingingbacksuddenlyontheyawningdarknessofthehall,outofwhichliterallyflewout,rightoutonthepavement,almostwithouttouchingthewhitesteps,alittlefigureswathedinahollandpinaforeuptothechin,itshairstreamingbackfromitshead,dartingpastalamp-post,pasttheredpillar-
box……”Here,”criedMrs。Fyne;”she’scominghere!Run,John!
Run!”
Fyneboundedoutoftheroom。Thisishisownword。Bounded!Heassuredmewithintensifiedsolemnitythathebounded;andthesightoftheshortandmuscularFyneboundinggravelyaboutthecircumscribedpassagesandstaircasesofasmall,veryhighclass,privatehotel,wouldhavebeenworthanyamountofmoneytoamangreedyofmemorableimpressions。ButasIlookedathim,thedesireoflaughteratmyverylips,Iaskedmyself:howmanymencouldbefoundreadytocompromisetheircherishedgravityforthesakeoftheunimportantchildofaruinedfinancierwithanugly,blackcloudalreadywreathinghishead。Ididn’tlaughatlittleFyne。I
encouragedhim:”Youdid!——verygood……Well?”
Hismainthoughtwastosavethechildfromsomeunpleasantinterference。Therewasaporterdownstairs,pageboys;somepeoplegoingawaywiththeirtrunksinthepassage;arailwayomnibusatthedoor,white-breastedwaitersdodgingabouttheentrance。
Hewasintime。Hewasatthedoorbeforeshereacheditinherblindcourse。Shedidnotrecognizehim;perhapsshedidnotseehim。Hecaughtherbythearmassheranpastand,verysensibly,withouttryingtocheckher,simplydartedinwithherandupthestairs,causingnoendofconsternationamongstthepeopleinhisway。Theyscattered。Whatmighthavebeentheirthoughtsatthespectacleofashamelessmiddle-agedmanabductingheadlongintotheupperregionsofarespectablehotelaterrifiedyounggirlobviouslyunderage,Idon’tknow。AndFyne(hetoldmeso)didnotcareforwhatpeoplemightthink。Allhewantedwastoreachhiswifebeforethegirlcollapsed。Foratimesheranwithhimbutatthelastflightofstairshehadtoseizeandhalfdrag,halfcarryhertohiswife。Mrs。Fynewaitedatthedoorwithherquiteunmovedphysiognomyandherreadinesstoconfrontanysortofresponsibility,whichalreadycharacterizedher,longbeforeshebecamearuthlesstheorist。Relieved,hismissionaccomplished,Fyneclosedhastilythedoorofthesitting-room。
ButbeforelongbothFynesbecamefrightened。AfteraperiodofimmobilityinthearmsofMrs。Fyne,thegirl,whohadnotsaidaword,toreherselfoutfromthatslightlyrigidembrace。Shestruggleddumblybetweenthem,theydidnotknowwhy,soundlessandghastly,tillshesankexhaustedonacouch。Luckilythechildrenwereoutwiththetwonurses。ThehotelhousemaidhelpedMrs。FynetoputFloradeBarraltobed。Shewasasifgonespeechlessandinsane。Shelayonherback,herfacewhitelikeapieceofpaper,herdarkeyesstaringattheceiling,herawfulimmobilitybrokenbysuddenshiveringfitswithaloudchatteringofteethintheshadowysilenceoftheroom,theblindspulleddown,Mrs。Fynesittingbypatiently,herarmsfolded,yetinwardlymovedbytheriddleofthatdistressofwhichshecouldnotguesstheword,andsayingtoherself:”Thatchildistooemotional——muchtooemotionaltobeeverreallysound!”Asifanyonenotmadeofstonecouldbeperfectlysoundinthisworld。Andthenhowsound?Inwhatsense——
toresistwhat?Forceorcorruption?Andeveninthebestarmourofsteeltherearejointsatreacherousstrokecanalwaysfindifchancegivestheopportunity。
GeneralconsiderationsneverhadthepowertotroubleMrs。Fynemuch。Thegirlnotbeinginastatetobequestionedshewaitedbythebedside。Fynehadcrossedovertothehouse,hisscruplesovercomebyhisanxietytodiscoverwhatreallyhadhappened。Hedidnothavetolifttheknocker;thedoorstoodopenontheinsidegloomofthehall;hewalkedintoitandsawnooneabout,theservantshavingassembledforafatuousconsultationinthebasement。Fyne’supliftedbassvoicestartledthemdownthere,thebutlercomingup,staringandinhisshirtsleeves,verysuspiciousatfirst,andthen,onFyne’sexplanationthathewasthehusbandofaladywhohadcalledseveraltimesatthehouse——MissdeBarral’smother’sfriend——becominghumanelyconcernedandcommunicative,inamantomantone,butpreservinghistrainedhigh-classservant’svoice:”Ohblessyou,sir,no!Shedoesnotmeantocomeback。
Shetoldmesoherself”——heassuredFynewithafaintshadeofcontemptcreepingintohistone。
Asregardstheiryoungladynobodydownstairshadanyideathatshehadrunoutofthehouse。Hedaredsaytheyallwouldhavebeenwillingtodotheirverybestforher,forthetimebeing;butsinceshewasnowwithhermother’sfriends……
Hefidgeted。Hemurmuredthatallthiswasveryunexpected。Hewantedtoknowwhathehadbetterdowithlettersortelegramswhichmightarriveinthecourseoftheday。”LettersaddressedtoMissdeBarral,youhadbetterbringovertomyhoteloverthere,”saidFynebeginningtofeelextremelyworriedaboutthefuture。Themansaid”Yes,sir,”adding,”andifalettercomesaddressedtoMrs……”
Fynestoppedhimbyagesture。”Idon’tknow……Anythingyoulike。””Verywell,sir。”
ThebutlerdidnotshutthestreetdoorafterFyne,butremainedonthedoorstepforawhile,lookingupanddownthestreetinthespiritofindependentexpectationlikeamanwhoisagainhisownmaster。Mrs。Fynehearingherhusbandreturncameoutoftheroomwherethegirlwaslyinginbed。”Nochange,”shewhispered;andFynecouldonlymakeahopelesssignofignoranceastowhatallthismeantandhowitwouldend。
Hefearedfuturecomplications——naturally;amanoflimitedmeans,inapublicposition,histimenothisown。Yes。Heownedtomeintheparlourofmyfarmhousethathehadbeenverymuchconcernedthenatthepossibleconsequences。ButashewasmakingthisartlessconfessionIsaidtomyselfthat,whateverconsequencesandcomplicationshemighthaveimagined,thecomplicationfromwhichhewassufferingnowcouldnever,neverhavepresenteditselftohismind。Slowbutsure(forIconceivethattheBookofDestinyhasbeenwrittenupfromthebeginningtothelastpage)ithadbeencomingforsomethinglikesixyears——andnowithadcome。Thecomplicationwasthere!Ilookedathisunshakensolemnitywiththeamusedpitywegivethevictimofafunnyifsomewhatill-naturedpracticaljoke。”Ohhangit,”heexclaimed——innologicalconnectionwithwhathehadbeenrelatingtome。Neverthelesstheexclamationwasintelligibleenough。
Howeveratfirsttherewere,headmitted,nountowardcomplications,noembarrassingconsequences。ToatelegraminguardedtermsdispatchedtodeBarralnoanswerwasreceivedformorethantwenty-
fourhours。ThiscertainlycausedtheFynessomeanxiety。Whentheanswerarrivedlateontheeveningofnextdayitwasintheshapeofanelderlyman。Anunexpectedsortofman。Fyneexplainedtomewithprecisionthatheevidentlybelongedtowhatismostrespectableinthelowermiddleclasses。Hewascalmandslowinhisspeech。Hewaswearingafrock-coat,hadgreywhiskersmeetingunderhischin,anddeclaredonenteringthatMr。deBarralwashiscousin。Hehastenedtoaddthathehadnotseenhiscousinformanyyears,whilehelookeduponFyne(whoreceivedhimalone)withsomuchdistrustthatFynefelthurt(thepersonactuallyrefusingatfirstthechairofferedtohim)andretortedtartlythathe,forhispart,hadNEVERseenMr。deBarral,inhislife,andthat,sincethevisitordidnotwanttositdown,he,Fyne,beggedhimtostatehisbusinessasshortlyaspossible。Themaninblacksatdownthenwithafaintsuperiorsmile。
Hehadcomeforthegirl。HiscousinhadaskedhiminanotedeliveredbyamessengertogotoBrightonatonceandtake”hisgirl”overfromagentlemannamedFyneandgiveherhouse-roomforatimeinhisfamily。Andtherehewas。Hisbusinesshadnotallowedhimtocomesooner。Hisbusinesswasthemanufactureonalargescaleofcardboardboxes。Hehadtwogrown-upgirlsofhisown。Hehadconsultedhiswifeandsothatwasallright。Thegirlwouldgetawelcomeinhishome。Hishomemostlikelywasnotwhatshehadbeenusedtobut,etc。etc。
AllthetimeFynefeltsubtlyinthatman’smanneraderisivedisapprovalofeverythingthatwasnotlowermiddleclass,aprofoundrespectformoney,ameansortofcontemptforspeculatorsthatfail,andaconceitedsatisfactionwithhisownrespectablevulgarity。
WithMrs。FynethemanneroftheobscurecousinofdeBarralwasbutlittlelessoffensive。Helookedatherratherslylybuthercold,decideddemeanourimpressedhim。Mrs。Fyneonhersidewassimplyappalledbythepersonage,butdidnotshowitoutwardly。NotevenwhenthemanremarkedwithfalsesimplicitythatFlorrie——hernamewasFlorriewasn’tit?wouldprobablymissatfirstallhergrandfriends。Andwhenhewasinformedthatthegirlwasinbed,notfeelingwellatallheshowedanunsympatheticalarm。Shewasn’taninvalidwasshe?No。Whatwasthematterwithherthen?
AnextremedistasteforthatrespectablememberofsocietywasdepictedinFyne’sfaceevenashewastellingmeofhimafteralltheseyears。HewasaspecimenofpreciselytheclassofwhichpeopleliketheFyneshavetheleastexperience;andIimaginehejarredonthempainfully。Hepossessedallthecivicvirtuesintheirverymeanestform,andthefinishingtouchwasgivenbyalowsortofconsciousnesshemanifestedofpossessingthem。Hisindustrywasexemplary。Hewishedtocatchtheearliestpossibletrainnextmorning。Itseemsthatforsevenandtwentyyearshehadnevermissedbeingseatedonhisoffice-stoolatthefactorypunctuallyatteno’clockeveryday。HelistenedtoMrs。Fyne’sobjectionswithundisguisedimpatience。Whycouldn’tFlorriegetupandhaveherbreakfastateightlikeotherpeople?Inhishousethebreakfastwasateightsharp。Mrs。Fyne’spolitestoicismovercamehimatlast。Hehadcomedownataverygreatpersonalinconvenience,heassuredherwithdispleasure,buthegaveuptheearlytrain。
ThegoodFynesdidn’tdaretolookateachotherbeforethisunforeseenbutperfectlyauthorizedguardian,thesamethoughtspringingupintheirminds:Poorgirl!Poorgirl!Ifthewomenofthefamilywerelikethistoo!……Andofcoursetheywouldbe。
Poorgirl!Butwhatcouldtheyhavedoneeveniftheyhadbeenpreparedtoraiseobjections。Thepersoninthefrock-coathadthefather’snote;hehadshownittoFyne。Justarequesttotakecareofthegirl——ashernearestrelative——withoutanyexplanationorasingleallusiontothefinancialcatastrophe,itstonestrangelydetachedandinitsverysilenceonthepointgivingoccasiontothinkthatthewriterwasnotuneasyastothechild’sfuture。
Probablyitwasthatveryideawhichhadsetthecousinsoreadilyinmotion。Menhadcomebeforeoutofcommercialcrasheswithestatesinthecountryandacomfortableincome,ifnotforthemselvesthenfortheirwives。Andifawifecouldbemadecomfortablebyalittledexterousmanagementthenwhynotadaughter?Yes。Thispossibilitymighthavebeendiscussedintheperson’shouseholdandjudgedworthactingupon。
ThemanactuallyhintedbroadlythatsuchwashisbeliefandinfaceofFyne’sguardedrepliesgavehimtounderstandthathewasnotthedupeofsuchreticences。ObviouslyhelookedupontheFynesasbeingdisappointedbecausethegirlwastakenawayfromthem。They,byadiplomaticsacrificeintheinterestsofpoorFlora,hadaskedthemantodinner。Heacceptedungraciously,remarkingthathewasnotusedtolatehours。Hehadgenerallyabitofsupperabouthalf-pasteightornine。However……
Hegazedcontemptuouslyroundtheprettilydecorateddining-room。
Hewrinkledhisnoseinapuzzledwayatthedishesofferedtohimbythewaiterbutrefusednone,devouringthefoodwithagreatappetiteanddrinking(”swilling”Fynecalledit)gallonsofgingerbeer,whichwasprocuredforhim(instonebottles)athisrequest。
ThedifficultyofkeepingupaconversationwiththatbeingexhaustedMrs。Fyneherself,whohadcometothetablearmedwithadamantineresolution。Theonlymemorablethinghesaidwaswhen,inapauseofgorginghimself”withtheseFrenchdishes”hedeliberatelylethiseyesroamoverthelittletablesoccupiedbypartiesofdiners,andremarkedthathiswifedidforamomentthinkofcomingdownwithhim,butthathewasgladshedidn’tdoso。”Shewouldn’thavebeenatallhappyseeingallthisalcoholabout。
Notatallhappy,”hedeclaredweightily。”Youmusthavehadacharmingevening,”IsaidtoFyne,”ifImayjudgefromthewayyouhavekeptthememorygreen。””Delightful,”hegrowledwith,positively,aflashofangerattherecollection,butlapsedbackintohissolemnityatonce。AfterwehadbeensilentforawhileIaskedwhetherthemantookawaythegirlnextday。
Fynesaidthathedid;intheafternoon,inafly,withafewclothesthemaidhadgottogetherandbroughtacrossfromthebighouse。HeonlysawFloraagaintenminutesbeforetheyleftfortherailwaystation,intheFynes’sitting-roomatthehotel。ItwasamostpainfultenminutesfortheFynes。TherespectablecitizenaddressedMissdeBarralas”Florrie”and”mydear,”remarkingtoherthatshewasnotverybig”there’snotmuchofyoumydear”inafamiliarlydisparagingtone。ThenturningtoMrs。Fyne,andquiteloud”She’sverywhiteintheface。Why’sthat?”TothisMrs。Fynemadenoreply。Shehadputthegirl’shairupthatmorningwithherownhands。Itchangedherverymuch,observedFyne。He,naturally,playedasubordinate,merelyapprovingpart。AllhecoulddoforMissdeBarralpersonallywastogodownstairsandputherintotheflyhimself,whileMissdeBarral’snearestrelation,havingbeenshoulderedoutoftheway,stoodby,withanumbrellaandalittleblackbag,watchingthisproceedingwithgrimamusement,asitseemed。Itwasdifficulttoguesswhatthegirlthoughtorwhatshefelt。Shenolongerlookedachild。ShewhisperedtoFyneafaint”Thankyou,”fromthefly,andhesaidtoherinverydistincttonesandwhilestillholdingherhand:”Praydon’tforgettowritefullytomywifeinadayortwo,MissdeBarral。”ThenFynesteppedbackandthecousinclimbedintotheflymutteringquiteaudibly:”I
don’tthinkyou’llbetroubledmuchwithherinthefuture;”withouthoweverlookingatFyneonwhomhedidnotevenbestowanod。Theflydroveaway。
CHAPTERFIVE——THETEA-PARTY”Amiablepersonality,”IobservedseeingFyneonthepointoffallingintoabrownstudy。ButIcouldnothelpaddingwithmeaning:”Hehadn’tthegiftofprophecythough。”
Fynegotupsuddenlywithamuttered”No,evidentlynot。”Hewasgloomy,hesitating。Isupposedthathewouldnotwishtoplaychessthatafternoon。Thiswoulddispensemefromleavingmyroomsonadaymuchtoofinetobewastedinwalkingexercise。AndIwasdisappointedwhenpickinguphiscapheintimatedtomehishopeofseeingmeatthecottageaboutfouro’clock——asusual。”Itwouldn’tbeasusual。”Iputaparticularstressonthatremark。Headmitted,afterashortreflection,thatitwouldnotbe。No。Notasusual。Infactitwashiswifewhohoped,rather,formypresence。Shehadformedaveryfavourableopinionofmypracticalsagacity。
ThiswasthefirstIeverheardofit。IhadneversuspectedthatMrs。Fynehadtakenthetroubletodistinguishinmethesignsofsagacityorfolly。Thefewwordswehadexchangedlastnightintheexcitement——orthebother——ofthegirl’sdisappearance,werethefirstmoderatelysignificantwordswhichhadeverpassedbetweenus。
IhadfeltmyselfalwaystobeinMrs。Fyne’sviewherhusband’schess-playerandnothingelse——aconvenience——almostanimplement。”Iamhighlyflattered,”Isaid。”Ihavealwaysheardthattherearenolimitstofeminineintuition;andnowIamhalfinclinedtobelieveitisso。ButstillIfailtoseeinwhatwaymysagacity,practicalorotherwise,canbeofanyservicetoMrs。Fyne。Oneman’ssagacityisverymuchlikeanyotherman’ssagacity。Andwithyouathand——”
Fyne,manifestlynotattendingtowhatIwassaying,directedstraightatmehisworriedsolemneyesandstruckin:”Yes,yes。Verylikely。Butyouwillcome——won’tyou?”
IhadmadeupmymindthatnoFyneofeithersexwouldmakemewalkthreemiles(thereandbacktotheircottage)onthisfineday。IftheFyneshadbeenanaveragesociablecoupleoneknowsonlybecauseleisuremustbegotthroughsomehow,Iwouldhavemadeshortworkofthatspecialinvitation。Buttheywerenotthat。Theirundeniablehumanityhadtobeacknowledged。AtthesametimeIwantedtohavemyownway。SoIproposedthatIshouldbeallowedthepleasureofofferingthemacupofteaatmyrooms。
Ashortreflectivepause——andFyneacceptedeagerlyinhisownandhiswife’sname。AmomentafterIheardtheclickofthegate-latchandtheninanecstasyofbarkingfromhisdemonstrativedoghisseriousheadwentpastmywindowontheothersideofthehedge,itstroubledgazefixedforward,andthemindinsideobviouslyemployedinearnestspeculationofanintricatenature。Oneatleastofhiswife’sgirl-friendshadbecomemorethanamereshadowforhim。I
surmisedhoweverthatitwasnotofthegirl-friendbutofhiswifethatFynewasthinking。Hewasanexcellenthusband。
Ipreparedmyselffortheafternoon’shospitalities,callinginthefarmer’swifeandreviewingwithhertheresourcesofthehouseandthevillage。Shewasahelpfulwoman。ButtheresourcesofmysagacityIdidnotreview。ExceptinthegrossmaterialsenseoftheafternoonteaImadenopreparationsforMrs。Fyne。
Itwasimpossibleformetomakeanysuchpreparations。Icouldnottellwhatsortofsustenanceshewouldlookforfrommysagacity。
AndastotakingstockofthewaresofmymindnooneIimagineisanxioustodothatsortofthingifitcanbeavoided。Avaguelygrandiosestateofmentalself-confidenceismuchtooagreeabletobedisturbedrecklesslybysuchadelicateinvestigation。PerhapsifIhadhadahelpfulwomanatmyelbow,adear,flatteringacute,devotedwoman……Thereareinlifemomentswhenonepositivelyregretsnotbeingmarried。No!Idon’texaggerate。Ihavesaid——
moments,notyearsorevendays。Moments。Thefarmer’swifeobviouslycouldnotbeaskedtoassist。ShecouldnothavebeenexpectedtopossessthenecessaryinsightandIdoubtwhethershewouldhaveknownhowtobeflatteringenough。Shewasbeinghelpfulinherownway,withanextraordinaryblackbonnetonherhead,agoodmileoffbythattime,tryingtodiscoverinthevillageshopsapieceofeatablecake。Thepluckofwomen!Theoptimismofthedearcreatures!
Andshemanagedtofindsomethingwhichlookedeatable。That’sallIknowasIhadnoopportunitytoobservethemoreintimateeffectsofthatcomestible。Imyselfnevereatcake,andMrs。Fyne,whenshearrivedpunctually,broughtwithhernoappetiteforcake。Shehadnoappetiteforanything。Butshehadathirst——thesignofdeep,oftormentingemotion。Yesitwasemotion,notthebrilliantsunshine——morebrilliantthanwarmasisthewayofourdiscreetself-repressed,distinguished,insularsun,whichwouldnotturnarealladyscarlet——notonanyaccount。Mrs。Fynelookedevencool。
Sheworeawhiteskirtandcoat;awhitehatwithalargebrimreposedonhersmoothlyarrangedhair。Thecoatwascutsomethinglikeanarmymess-jacketandthestylesuitedher。Idaresaytherearemanyyouthfulsubalterns,andnottheworst-lookingtoo,whoresembleMrs。Fyneinthetypeofface,inthesunburntcomplexion,downtothatsomethingalertinbearing。ButnotmanywouldhavehadthataspectbreathingareadinesstoassumeanyresponsibilityunderHeaven。ThisisthesortofcouragewhichripenslateinlifeandofcourseMrs。Fynewasofmatureyearsforallherunwrinkledface。
Shelookedroundtheroom,toldmepositivelythatIwasverycomfortablethere;towhichIassented,humbly,acknowledgingmyundeservedgoodfortune。”Whyundeserved?”shewantedtoknow。”Iengagedtheseroomsbyletterwithoutaskinganyquestions。Itmighthavebeenanabominablehole,”Iexplainedtoher。”Ialwaysdothingslikethat。Idon’tliketobebothered。Thisisnogreatproofofsagacity——isit?SagaciouspeopleIbelieveliketoexercisethatfaculty。Ihaveheardthattheycan’tevenhelpshowingitintheveriesttrifles。Itmustbeverydelightful。ButIknownothingofit。IthinkthatIhavenosagacity——nopracticalsagacity。”
Fynemadeaninarticulatebassmurmurofprotest。IaskedafterthechildrenwhomIhadnotseenyetsincemyreturnfromtown。Theyhadbeenverywell。Theywerealwayswell。BothFyneandMrs。Fynespokeoftherudehealthoftheirchildrenasifitwerearesultofmoralexcellence;inapeculiartonewhichseemedtoimplysomecontemptforpeoplewhosechildrenwereliabletobeunwellattimes。Onealmostfeltinclinedtoapologizefortheinquiry。Andthisannoyedme;unreasonably,Iadmit,becausetheassumptionofsuperiormeritisnotaveryexceptionalweakness。AnxioustomakemyselfdisagreeablebywayofretaliationIobservedinaccentsofinterestedcivilitythatthedeargirlsmusthavebeenwonderingatthesuddendisappearanceoftheirmother’syoungfriend。HadtheybeenputtinganyawkwardquestionsaboutMissSmith。Wasn’titasMissSmiththatMissdeBarralhadbeenintroducedtome?
Mrs。Fyne,staringfixedlybutalsocolouringdeeperunderhertan,toldmethatthechildrenhadneverlikedFloraverymuch。Shehadn’tthehighspiritswhichendeargrown-upstohealthychildren,Mrs。Fyneexplainedunflinchingly。Florahadbeenstayingatthecottageseveraltimesbefore。Mrs。Fyneassuredmethatsheoftenfounditverydifficulttohaveherinthehouse。”Butwhatelsecouldwedo?”sheexclaimed。
Thatlittlecryofdistressquitegenuineinitsinexpressiveness,alteredmyfeelingtowardsMrs。Fyne。Itwouldhavebeensoeasytohavedonenothingandtohavethoughtnomoreaboutit。Mylikingforherbeganwhileshewastryingtotellmeofthenightshespentbythegirl’sbedside,thenightbeforeherdeparturewithherunprepossessingrelative。ThatMrs。FynefoundmeanstocomfortthechildIdoubtverymuch。Shehadnotthegeniusforthetaskofundoingthatwhichthehateofaninfuriatedwomanhadplannedsowell。
Youwilltellmeperhapsthatchildren’simpressionsarenotdurable。That’strueenough。Buthere,childisonlyamannerofspeaking。Thegirlwaswithinafewdaysofhersixteenthbirthday;
shewasoldenoughtobematuredbytheshock。TheveryeffortshehadtomakeinconveyingtheimpressiontoMrs。Fyne,inrememberingthedetails,infindingadequatewords——oranywordsatall——wasinitselfaterriblyenlightening,anageingprocess。Shehadtalkedalongtime,uninterruptedbyMrs。Fyne,childlikeenoughinherwonderandpain,pausingnowandthentointerjectthepitifulquery:”Itwascruelofher。Wasn’titcruel,Mrs。Fyne?”
ForCharleyshefoundexcuses。Heatanyratehadnotsaidanything,whilehehadlookedverygloomyandmiserable。Hecouldn’thavetakenpartagainsthisaunt——couldhe?Butafterallhedid,whenshecalleduponhim,take”thatcruelwomanaway。”Hehaddraggedheroutbythearm。Shehadseenthatplainly。Sherememberedit。Thatwasit!Thewomanwasmad。”Oh!Mrs。Fyne,don’ttellmeshewasn’tmad。Ifyouhadonlyseenherface……”
ButMrs。Fynewasunflinchinginherideathatasmuchtruthascouldbetoldwasdueinthewayofkindnesstothegirl,whosefateshefearedwouldbetoliveexposedtothehardestrealitiesofunprivilegedexistences。Sheexplainedtoherthattherewereintheworldevil-minded,selfishpeople。Unscrupulouspeople……
Thesetwopersonshadbeenafterherfather’smoney。Thebestthingshecoulddowastoforgetallaboutthem。”Afterpapa’smoney?Idon’tunderstand,”poorFloradeBarralhadmurmured,andlaystillasiftryingtothinkitoutinthesilenceandshadowsoftheroomwhereonlyanight-lightwasburning。ThenshehadalongshiveringfitwhileholdingtightthehandofMrs。
Fynewhosepatientimmobilitybythebedsideofthatbrutallymurderedchildhooddidinfinitehonourtoherhumanity。ThatvigilmusthavebeenthemoretryingbecauseIcouldseeverywellthatatnotimedidshethinkthevictimparticularlycharmingorsympathetic。Itwasamanifestationofpurecompassion,ofcompassioninitself,sotospeak,notmanywomenwouldhavebeencapableofdisplayingwiththatunflinchingsteadiness。Theshiveringfitover,thegirl’snextwordsinanoutburstofsobswere,”Oh!Mrs。Fyne,amIreallysuchahorridthingasshehasmademeouttobe?””No,no!”protestedMrs。Fyne。”Itisyourformergovernesswhoishorridandodious。Sheisavilewoman。IcannottellyouthatshewasmadbutIthinkshemusthavebeenbesideherselfwithrageandfullofevilthoughts。Youmusttrynottothinkoftheseabominations,mydearchild。”
Theywerenotfitforanyonetothinkofmuch,Mrs。Fynecommentedtomeinacurtpositivetone。Allthathadbeenverytrying。Thegirlwaslikeacreaturestrugglingunderanet。”ButhowcanIforget?shecalledmyfatheracheatandaswindler!
DotellmeMrs。Fynethatitisn’ttrue。Itcan’tbetrue。Howcanitbetrue?”
Shesatupinbedwithasuddenwildmotionasiftojumpoutandfleeawayfromthesoundofthewordswhichhadjustpassedherownlips。Mrs。Fynerestrainedher,soothedher,inducedheratlasttolayherheadonherpillowagain,assuringherallthetimethatnothingthiswomanhadhadthecrueltytosaydeservedtobetakentoheart。Thegirl,exhausted,criedquietlyforatime。ItmaybeshehadnoticedsomethingevasiveinMrs。Fyne’sassurances。Afterawhile,withoutstirring,shewhisperedbrokenly:”Thatawfulwomantoldmethatalltheworldwouldcallpapatheseawfulnames。Isitpossible?Isitpossible?”
Mrs。Fynekeptsilent。”Dosaysomethingtome,Mrs。Fyne,”thedaughterofdeBarralinsistedinthesamefeeblewhisper。
AgainMrs。Fyneassuredmethatithadbeenverytrying。Terriblytrying。”Yes,thanks,Iwill。”SheleanedbackinthechairwithfoldedarmswhileIpouredanothercupofteaforher,andFynewentouttopacifythedogwhich,tiedupundertheporch,hadbecomesuddenlyveryindignantatsomebodyhavingtheaudacitytowalkalongthelane。Mrs。Fynestirredherteaforalongtime,drankalittle,putthecupdownandsaidwiththatairofacceptingalltheconsequences:”Silencewouldhavebeenunfair。Idon’tthinkitwouldhavebeenkindeither。Itoldherthatshemustbepreparedfortheworldpassingaveryseverejudgmentonherfather……””Wasn’titadmirable,”criedMarlowinterruptinghisnarrative。”Admirable!”AndasIlookeddubiouslyatthisunexpectedenthusiasmhestartedjustifyingitafterhisownmanner。”Isayadmirablebecauseitwassocharacteristic。Itwasperfect。
Nothingshortofgeniuscouldhavefoundbetter。Andthiswasnature!Astheysayofanartist’swork:thiswasaperfectFyne。
Compassion——judiciousness——somethingcorrectlymeasured。Noneofyourdishevelledsentiment。Andright!Youmustconfessthatnothingcouldhavebeenmoreright。Ihadamindtoshout”Brava!
Brava!”butIdidnotdothat。ItookapieceofcakeandwentouttobribetheFynedogintosomesortofself-control。Hissharpcomicalyappingwasunbearable,likestabsthroughone’sbrain,andFyne’sdeeplymodulatedremonstrancesabashedthevivaciousanimalnomorethanthedeep,patientmurmuroftheseaabashesaniggerminstrelonapopularbeach。Fynewasbeginningtoswearathiminlow,sepulchraltoneswhenIappeared。Thedogbecameatoncewildlydemonstrative,halfstranglinghimselfinhiscollar,hiseyesandtonguehangingoutintheexcessofhisincomprehensibleaffectionforme。Thiswasbeforehecaughtsightofthecakeinmyhand。Aseriesofverticalspringshighupintheairfollowed,andthen,whenhegotthecake,heinstantlylosthisinterestineverythingelse。
Fynewasslightlyvexedwithme。Askindamasterasanydogcouldwishtohave,heyetdidnotapproveofcakebeinggiventodogs。
TheFynedogwassupposedtoleadaSpartanexistenceonadietofrepulsivebiscuitswithanoccasionaldry,hygienic,bonethrownin。
Fynelookeddowngloomilyattheappeasedanimal,Itoolookedatthatfool-dog;and(youknowhowone’smemorygetssuddenlystimulated)Iwasremindedvisually,withanalmostpainfuldistinctness,oftheghostlywhitefaceofthegirlIsawlastaccompaniedbythatdog——desertedbythatdog。Ialmostheardherdistressedvoiceasifonthevergeofresentfultearscallingtothedog,theunsympatheticdog。Perhapsshehadnotthepowerofevokingsympathy,thatpersonalgiftofdirectappealtothefeelings。IsaidtoFyne,mistrustingthesupineattitudeofthedog:”Whydon’tyoulethimcomeinside?”
Ohdearno!Hecouldn’tthinkofit!Imightindeedhavesavedmybreath,IknewitwasoneoftheFynes’rulesoflife,partoftheirsolemnityandresponsibility,oneofthosethingsthatwerepartoftheirunassertivebuteverpresentsuperiority,thattheirdogmustnotbeallowedin。Itwasmostimpropertointrudethedogintothehousesofthepeopletheywerecallingon——ifitwereonlyacarelessbachelorinfarmhouselodgingsandapersonalfriendofthedog。Itwasoutofthequestion。Buttheywouldlethimbarkone’ssanityawayoutsideone’swindow。Theywerestrangelyconsistentintheirlackofimaginativesympathy。Ididn’tinsistbutsimplyledthewaybacktotheparlour,hopingthatnowayfarerwouldhappenalongthelaneforthenexthourorsotodisturbthedog’scomposure。
Mrs。Fyneseatedimmovablebeforethetablechargedwithplates,cups,jugs,acoldteapot,crumbs,andthegenerallitteroftheentertainmentturnedherheadtowardsus。”Yousee,Mr。Marlow,”shesaidinanunexpectedlyconfidentialtone:”theyaresoutterlyunsuitedforeachother。”
AtthemomentIdidnotknowhowtoapplythisremark。IthoughtatfirstofFyneandthedog。ThenIadjustedittothematterinhandwhichwasneithermorenorlessthananelopement。Yes,byJove!
Itwassomethingverymuchlikeanelopement——withcertainunusualcharacteristicsofitsownwhichmadeitinasenseequivocal。WithamusedwonderIrememberedthatmysagacitywasrequisitionedinsuchaconnection。Howunexpected!Butweneverknowwhattestsourgiftsmaybeputto。Sagacitydictatedcautionfirstofall。I
believecautiontobethefirstdutyofsagacity。Fynesatdownasifpreparinghimselftowitnessajoust,Ithought。”Doyouthinkso,Mrs。Fyne?”Isaidsagaciously。”Ofcourseyouareinaposition……”Iwascontinuingwithcautionwhenshestruckoutvivaciouslyforimmediateassent。”Obviously!Clearly!Youyourselfmustadmit……””But,Mrs。Fyne,”Iremonstrated,”youforgetthatIdon’tknowyourbrother。”
Thisargumentwhichwasnotonlysagaciousbuttrue,overwhelminglytrue,unanswerablytrue,seemedtosurpriseher。
Iwonderedwhy。Ididnotknowenoughofherbrotherfortheremotestguessatwhathemightbelike。Ihadneverseteyesontheman。Ididn’tknowhimsocompletelythatbycontrastIseemedtohaveknownMissdeBarral——whomIhadseentwice(altogetheraboutsixtyminutes)andwithwhomIhadexchangedaboutsixtywords——fromthecradlesotospeak。Andperhaps,Ithought,lookingdownatMrs。Fyne(Ihadremainedstanding)perhapsshethinksthatthisoughttobeenoughforasagaciousassent。
Shekeptsilent;andIlookingatherwithpoliteexpectation,wentonaddressinghermentallyinamoodoffamiliarapprovalwhichwouldhaveastonishedherhaditbeenaudible:Youmydearatanyrateareasincerewoman……””Icallawomansincere,”Marlowbeganagainaftergivingmeacigarandlightingonehimself,”Icallawomansincerewhenshevolunteersastatementresemblingremotelyinformwhatshereallywouldliketosay,whatshereallythinksoughttobesaidifitwerenotforthenecessitytosparethestupidsensitivenessofmen。
Thewomen’srougher,simpler,moreuprightjudgment,embracesthewholetruth,whichtheirtact,theirmistrustofmasculineidealism,everpreventsthemfromspeakinginitsentirety。Andtheirtactisunerring。Wecouldnotstandwomenspeakingthetruth。Wecouldnotbearit。Itwouldcauseinfinitemiseryandbringaboutmostawfuldisturbancesinthisrathermediocre,butstillidealisticfool’sparadiseinwhicheachofusliveshisownlittlelife——theunitinthegreatsumofexistence。Andtheyknowit。Theyaremerciful。ThisgeneralizationdoesnotapplyexactlytoMrs。Fyne’soutburstofsincerityinamatterinwhichneithermyaffectionsnormyvanitywereengaged。That’swhy,maybe,sheventuredsofar。
Forawomanshechosetobeasopenasthedaywithme。Therewasnotonlytheformbutalmostthewholesubstanceofherthoughtinwhatshesaid。Shebelievedshecouldriskit。Shehadreasonedsomewhatinthisway;there’saman,possessingacertainamountofsagacity……”
Marlowpausedwithawhimsicallookatme。Thelastfewwordshehadspokenwiththecigarinhisteeth。Hetookitoutnowbyanamplemovementofhisarmandblewathincloud。”Yousmile?Itwouldhavebeenmorekindtosparemyblushes。ButasamatteroffactIneednotblush。Thisisnotvanity;itisanalysis。We’llletsagacitystand。Butwemustalsonotewhatsagacityinthisconnectionstandsfor。Whenyouseethisyoushallseealsothattherewasnothinginittoalarmmymodesty。Idon’tthinkMrs。Fynecreditedmewiththepossessionofwisdomtemperedbycommonsense。AndhadIhadthewisdomoftheSevenSagesofAntiquity,shewouldnothavebeenmovedtoconfidenceoradmiration。Thesecretscornofwomenforthecapacitytoconsiderjudiciouslyandtoexpressprofoundlyameditatedconclusionisunbounded。Theyhavenousefortheseloftyexerciseswhichtheylookuponasasortofpurelymasculinegame——gamemeaningarespectableoccupationdevisedtokilltimeinthisman-arrangedlifewhichmustbegotthroughsomehow。Whatwomen’sacutenessreallyrespectsaretheinept”ideas”andthesheeplikeimpulsesbywhichouractionsandopinionsaredeterminedinmattersofrealimportance。Forifwomenarenotrationaltheyareindeedacute。
EvenMrs。Fynewasacute。Thegoodwomanwasmakinguptoherhusband’schess-playersimplybecauseshehadscentedinhimthatsmallportionof’femininity,’thatdropofsuperioressenceofwhichIammyselfaware;which,Igratefullyacknowledge,hassavedmefromoneortwomisadventuresinmylifeeitherridiculousorlamentable,Iamnotverycertainwhich。Itmattersverylittle。
Anyhowmisadventures。ObservethatIsay’femininity,’aprivilege——
not’feminism,’anattitude。Iamnotafeminist。ItwasFynewhooncertainsolemngroundshadadoptedthatmentalattitude;butitwasenoughtoglanceathimsittingononeside,toseethathewaspurelymasculinetohisfinger-tips,masculinesolidly,densely,amusingly,——hopelessly。
Ididglanceathim。Youdon’tgetyoursagacityrecognizedbyaman’swifewithoutfeelingtheproprietyandeventheneedtoglanceatthemannowandagain。SoIglancedathim。Verymasculine。Somuchsothat”hopelessly”wasnotthelastwordofit。Hewashelpless。Hewasboundanddeliveredbyit。AndifbytheobscurepromptingsofmycompositetemperamentIbeheldhimwithmaliciousamusement,yetbeinginfact,bydefinitionandespeciallyfromprofoundconviction,aman,Icouldnothelpsympathizingwithhimlargely。Seeinghimthusdisarmed,socompletelycaptivebytheverynatureofthingsIwasmovedtospeaktohimkindly。”Well。Andwhatdoyouthinkofit?””Idon’tknow。How’sonetotell?ButIsaythatthethingisdonenowandthere’sanendofit,”saidthemasculinecreatureasbluntlyashisinnatesolemnitypermitted。
Mrs。Fynemovedalittleinherchair。Iturnedtoherandremarkedgentlythatthiswasacharge,acriticism,whichwasoftenmade。
Somepeoplealwaysask:Whatcouldheseeinher?Otherswonderwhatshecouldhaveseeninhim?Expressionsofunsuitability。
Shesaidwithalltheemphasisofherquietlyfoldedarms:”IknowperfectlywellwhatFlorahasseeninmybrother。”
Ibowedmyheadtothegustbutpursuedmypoint。”Andthenthemarriageinmostcasesturnsoutnoworsethantheaverage,tosaytheleastofit。”
Mrs。Fynewasdisappointedbytheoptimisticturnofmysagacity。
SherestedhereyesonmyfaceasthoughindoubtwhetherIhadenoughfemininityinmycompositiontounderstandthecase。
Iwaitedforhertospeak。Sheseemedtobeaskingherself;Isitafterall,worthwhiletotalktothatman?Youunderstandhowprovokingthiswas。Ilookedinmymindforsomethingappallinglystupidtosay,withtheobjectofdistressingandteasingMrs。Fyne。
Itishumiliatingtoconfessafailure。Onewouldthinkthatamanofaverageintelligencecouldcommandstupidityatwill。Butitisn’tso。Isupposeit’saspecialgiftorelsethedifficultyconsistsinbeingrelevant。DiscoveringthatIcouldfindnoreallytellingstupidity,Iturnedtothenextbestthing;aplatitude。I
advanced,inacommon-sensetone,that,surely,inthematterofmarriageamanhadonlyhimselftoplease。
Mrs。Fynereceivedthiswithouttheflutterofaneyelid。Fyne’smasculinebreast,asmighthavebeenexpected,waspiercedbythatold,regulationshaft。Hegruntedmostfeelingly。Iturnedtohimwithfalsesimplicity。”Don’tyouagreewithme?””TheverythingI’vebeentellingmywife,”heexclaimedinhisextra-manlybass。”Wehavebeendiscussing——”
AdiscussionintheFynemenage!Howportentous!Perhapstheveryfirstdifferencetheyhadeverhad:Mrs。Fyneunflinchingandreadyforanyresponsibility,Fynesolemnandshrinking——thechildreninbedupstairs;andoutsidethedarkfields,theshadowycontoursofthelandonthestarrybackgroundoftheuniverse,withthecrudelightoftheopenwindowlikeabeaconforthetruantwhowouldnevercomebacknow;atruantnolongerbutadownrightfugitive。
Yetafugitivecarryingoffspoils。Itwastheflightofaraider——
oratraitor?Thisaffairofthepurloinedbrother,asIhadnamedittomyself,hadaverypuzzlingphysiognomy。Thegirlmusthavebeendesperate,Ithought,hearingthegravevoiceofFynewellenoughbutcatchingthesenseofhiswordsnotatall,excepttheverylastwordswhichwere:”Ofcourse,it’sextremelydistressing。”
Ilookedathiminquisitively。Whatwasdistressinghim?Thepurloiningofthesonofthepoet-tyrantbythedaughterofthefinancier-convict。Oronly,ifImaysayso,thewindoftheirflightdisturbingthesolemnplacidityoftheFynes’domesticatmosphere。Myincertitudedidnotlastlong,forheadded:”Mrs。FyneurgesmetogotoLondonatonce。”
Onecouldguessat,almostsee,hisprofounddistasteforthejourney,hisdistressatadifferenceoffeelingwithhiswife。
WithhisseriousviewofthesublunarycomedyFynesufferedfromnotbeingabletoagreesolemnlywithhersentimentashewasaccustomedtodo,inrecognitionofhavinghadhiswayinonesupremeinstance;
whenhemadeherelopewithhim——themostmomentousstepimaginableinayounglady’slife。Hehadbeenreallytryingtoacknowledgeitbytakingtherightnessofherfeelingforgrantedoneveryotheroccasion。Ithadbecomeasortofhabitatlast。Anditisneverpleasanttobreakahabit。Themanwasdeeplytroubled。Isaid:”Really!TogotoLondon!”
Helookeddumblyintomyeyes。Itwaspatheticandfunny。”Andyouofcoursefeelitwouldbeuseless,”Ipursued。
Heevidentlyfeltthat,thoughhesaidnothing。Heonlywentonblinkingatmewithasolemnandcomicalslowness。”Unlessitbetocarrytherethefamily’sblessing,”Iwenton,indulgingmychaffinghumoursteadily,inarathersneakingfashion,forIdarednotlookatMrs。Fyne,tomyright。Nosoundormovementcamefromthatdirection。”Youthinkverynaturallythattomatchmeregood,soundreasons,againstthepassionateconclusionsofloveisawasteofintellectborderingontheabsurd。”
HelookedsurprisedasifIhaddiscoveredsomethingveryclever。
He,dearman,hadthoughtofnothingatall。
HesimplyknewthathedidnotwanttogotoLondononthatmission。
Meremasculinedelicacy。Inamomenthebecameenthusiastic。”Yes!Yes!Exactly。Amaninlove……Youhear,mydear?Hereyouhaveanindependentopinion——””Cananythingbemorehopeless,”IinsistedtothefascinatedlittleFyne,”thantopitreasonagainstlove。ImustconfesshoweverthatinthiscasewhenIthinkofthatpoorgirl’ssharpchinIwonderif……”
MylevitywastoomuchforMrs。Fyne。Stillleaningbackinherchairsheexclaimed:”Mr。Marlow!”
AsifmysteriouslyaffectedbyherindignationtheabsurdFynedogbegantobarkintheporch。Itmighthavebeenatatrespassingbumble-beehowever。Thatanimalwascapableofanyeccentricity。
Fynegotupquicklyandwentouttohim。IthinkhewasgladtoleaveusalonetodiscussthatmatterofhisjourneytoLondon。A
sortofanti-sentimentaljourney。He,too,apparently,hadconfidenceinmysagacity。Itwastouching,thisconfidence。Itwasatanyratemoregenuinethantheconfidencehiswifepretendedtohaveinherhusband’schess-player,ofthreesuccessiveholidays。
Confidencebehanged!Sagacity——indeed!Shehadsimplymarchedinwithoutashadowofmisgivingtomakemebackherup。Butshehaddeliveredherselfintomyhands……”
InterruptinghisnarrativeMarlowaddressedmeinhistonebetweengrimjestandgrimearnest:”Perhapsyoudidn’tknowthatmycharacterisuponthewholerathervindictive。””No,Ididn’tknow,”Isaidwithagrin。”That’sratherunusualforasailor。Theyalwaysseemedtometheleastvindictivebodyofmenintheworld。””H’m!Simplesouls,”Marlowmutteredmoodily。”Wantofopportunity。Theworldleavesthemaloneforthemostpart。Formyselfit’stowardswomenthatIfeelvindictivemostly,inmysmallway。Iadmitthatitissmall。Butthentheoccasionsinthemselvesarenotgreat。MainlyIresentthatpretenceofwindingusroundtheirdearlittlefingers,asofright。Notthattheresulteveramountstomuchgenerally。Therearesoveryfewmomentousopportunities。ItistheassumptionthateachofusisacombinationofakidandanimbecilewhichIfindprovoking——inasmallway;inaverysmallway。Youneedn’tstareasthoughIwerebreathingfireandsmokeoutofmynostrils。Iamnotawomen-
devouringmonster。Iamnotevenwhatistechnicallycalled”abrute。”Ihopethere’senoughofakidandanimbecileinmetoanswertherequirementsofsomereallygoodwomaneventually——someday……Someday。Whydoyougasp?Youdon’tsupposeIshouldbeafraidofgettingmarried?Thatsuppositionwouldbeoffensive……””Iwouldn’tdreamofoffendingyou,”Isaid。”Verywell。ButmeantimepleaserememberthatIwasnotmarriedtoMrs。Fyne。Thatlady’slittlefingerwasnoneofmylegalproperty。
Ihadnotrunoffwithit。ItwasFynewhohaddonethatthing。
Lethimbewoundroundasmuchashisbackbonecouldstand——orevenmore,forallIcared。Hisrushingawayfromthediscussiononthetransparentpretenceofquietingthedogconfirmedmynotionoftherebeingaconsiderablestrainonhiselasticity。IconfrontedMrs。Fyneresolvednottoassistherinhereminentlyfeminineoccupationofthrustingastickinthespokesofanotherwoman’swheel。
Shetriedtopreservehercalm-eyedsuperiority。Shewasfamiliarandolympian,fencedinbythetea-table,thatexcellentsymbolofdomesticlifeinitslighterhouranditsperfectsecurity。Inafewseverelyunadornedwordsshegavemetounderstandthatshehadventuredtohopeforsomereallyhelpfulsuggestionfromme。Tothisalmostchidingdeclaration——becausemyvindictivenessseldomgoesfurtherthanabitofteasing——IsaidthatIwasreallydoingmybest。Andbeingaphysiognomist……””Beingwhat?”sheinterruptedme。”Aphysiognomist,”Irepeatedraisingmyvoicealittle。”A
physiognomist,Mrs。Fyne。Andontheprinciplesofthatscienceapointedlittlechinisasufficientgroundforinterference。Youwanttointerfere——doyounot?”
Hereyesgrewdistinctlybigger。Shehadneverbeenbanteredbeforeinherlife。Thelatesubtlepoet’smethodofmakinghimselfunpleasantwasmerelysavageandabusive。Fynehadbeenalwayssolemnlysubservient。WhatothermensheknewIcannottellbutI
assumetheymusthavebeengentlemanlycreatures。Thegirl-friendssatatherfeet。Howcouldsherecognizemyintention。Shedidn’tknowwhattomakeofmytone。”Areyouseriousinwhatyousay?”sheaskedslowly。Anditwastouching。Itwasasifaveryyoung,confidinggirlhadspoken。I
feltmyselfrelenting。”No。Iamnot,Mrs。Fyne,”Isaid。”Ididn’tknowIwasexpectedtobeseriousaswellassagacious。No。ThatscienceisfarcicalandthereforeIamnotserious。It’struethatmostsciencesarefarcicalexceptthosewhichteachushowtoputthingstogether。””Thequestionishowtokeepthesetwopeopleapart,”shestruckin。
Shehadrecovered。Iadmiredthequicknessofwomen’swit。Mentalagilityisarareperfection。Andaren’ttheyagile!Aren’tthey——
just!Andtenacious!Whentheyoncegetholdyoumayuprootthetreebutyouwon’tshakethemoffthebranch。Infactthemoreyoushake……Butonlylookatthecharmofcontradictoryperfections!
Nowondermengivein——generally。Iwon’tsayIwasactuallycharmedbyMrs。Fyne。Iwasnotdelightedwithher。Whataffectedmewasnotwhatshedisplayedbutsomethingwhichshecouldnotconceal。Andthatwasemotion——nothingless。Theformofherdeclarationwasdry,almostperemptory——butnotitstone。Hervoicefalteredjusttheleastbit,shesmiledfaintly;andaswewerelookingstraightateachotherIobservedthathereyeswereglisteninginapeculiarmanner。Shewasdistressed。AndindeedthatMrs。Fyneshouldhaveappealedtomeatallwasinitselftheevidenceofherprofounddistress。”ByJoveshe’sdesperatetoo,”I
thought。Thisdiscoverywasfollowedbyamovementofinstinctiveshrinkingfromthisunreasonableandunmasculineaffair。Theywereallalike,withtheirsupremeinterestarousedonlybyfightingwitheachotheraboutsomeman:alover,ason,abrother。”Butdoyouthinkthere’stimeyettodoanything?”Iasked。
Shehadanimpatientmovementofhershoulderswithoutdetachingherselffromthebackofthechair。Time!Ofcourse?Itwaslessthanforty-eighthourssinceshehadfollowedhimtoLondon……I
amnogreatclerkatthosemattersbutImurmuredvaguelyanallusiontospeciallicences。Wecouldn’ttellwhatmighthavehappenedto-dayalready。Butsheknewbetter,scornfully。Nothinghadhappened。”Nothing’slikelytohappenbeforenextFridayweek,——ifthen。”
Thiswaswonderfullyprecise。Thenafterapausesheaddedthatsheshouldneverforgiveherselfifsomeeffortwerenotmade,anappeal。”Toyourbrother?”Iasked。”Yes。Johnoughttogoto-morrow。Nineo’clocktrain。””Soearlyasthat!”Isaid。ButIcouldnotfinditinmyhearttopursuethisdiscussioninajoculartone。Isubmittedtoherseveralobviousarguments,dictatedapparentlybycommonsensebutinrealitybymysecretcompassion。Mrs。Fynebrushedthemaside,withthesemi-consciousegoismofallsafe,established,existences。
Theyhadknowneachothersolittle。Justthreeweeks。Andofthattime,tooshortforthebirthofanyserioussentiment,thefirstweekhadtobededucted。Theywouldhardlylookateachothertobeginwith。FlorabarelyconsentedtoacknowledgeCaptainAnthony’spresence。Goodmorning——goodnight——thatwasall——absolutelythewholeextentoftheirintercourse。CaptainAnthonywasasilentman,completelyunusedtothesocietyofgirlsofanysortandsoshyinfactthatheavoidedraisinghiseyestoherfaceatthetable。Itwasperfectlyabsurd。Itwaseveninconvenient,embarrassingtoher——Mrs。Fyne。AfterbreakfastFlorawouldgooffbyherselfforalongwalkandCaptainAnthony(Mrs。FynereferredtohimattimesalsoasRoderick)joinedthechildren。Buthewasactuallytooshytogetontermswithhisownnieces。
ThiswouldhavesoundedpatheticifIhadn’tknowntheFynechildrenwhowereatthesametimesolemnandmalicious,andnursedasecretcontemptforalltheworld。Noonecouldgetontermswiththosefreshandcomelyyoungmonsters!Theyjusttoleratedtheirparentsandseemedtohaveasortofmockingunderstandingamongthemselvesagainstalloutsiders,yetwithnovisibleaffectionforeachother。