第7章

类别:其他 作者:Jackie Collins字数:24733更新时间:18/12/21 14:04:39
”ButIwantyoutounderstand,Mr……”shehadactuallytothinkofmyname……”Mr。Marlow,thatIhavewrittentoMrs。FynethatIhaven’tbeen——thatIhavedonenothingtomakeCaptainAnthonybehavetomeashehadbehaved。Ihaven’t。Ihaven’t。Itisn’tmydoing。Itisn’tmyfault——ifshelikestoputitinthatway。Butshe,withherideas,oughttounderstandthatIcouldn’t,thatI couldn’t……Iknowshehatesmenow。Ithinksheneverlikedme。 Ithinknobodyevercaredforme。Iwastoldoncenobodycouldcareforme;andIthinkitistrue。AtanyrateIcan’tforgetit。” Herabominableexperiencewiththegovernesshadimplantedinherunluckybreastalastingdoubt,anineradicablesuspicionofherselfandofothers。Isaid:”Remember,MissdeBarral,thattobefairyoumusttrustamanaltogether——ornotatall。” Shedroppedhereyessuddenly。IthoughtIheardafaintsigh。I triedtotakealighttoneagain,andyetitseemedimpossibletogetoffthegroundwhichgavememystandingwithher。”Mrs。Fyneisabsurd。She’sanexcellentwoman,butreallyyoucouldnotbeexpectedtothrowawayyourchanceoflifesimplythatshemightcherishagoodopinionofyourmemory。Thatwouldbeexcessive。””ItwasnotofmylifethatIwasthinkingwhileCaptainAnthonywas——wasspeakingtome,”saidFloradeBarralwithaneffort。 Itoldherthatshewaswrongthen。Sheoughttohavebeenthinkingofherlife,andnotonlyofherlifebutofthelifeofthemanwhowasspeakingtohertoo。Sheletmefinish,thenshookherheadimpatiently。”Imean——death。””Well,”Isaid,”whenhestoodbeforeyouthere,outsidethecottage,hereallystoodbetweenyouandthat。Ihaveitoutofyourownmouth。Youcan’tdenyit。””Ifyouwillhaveitthathesavedmylife,thenhehasgotit。Itwasnotforme。Ohno!ItwasnotformethatI——Itwasnotfear! There!”Shefinishedpetulantly:”Andyoumayjustaswellknowit。” Shehungherheadandswungtheparasolslightlytoandfro。I thoughtalittle。”DoyouknowFrench,MissdeBarral?”Iasked。 Shemadeasignwithherheadthatshedid,butwithoutshowinganysurpriseatthequestionandwithoutceasingtoswingherparasol。”Wellthen,somehoworotherIhavethenotionthatCaptainAnthonyiswhattheFrenchcallungalanthomme。Ishouldliketothinkheisbeingtreatedashedeserves。” Theformofherlips(Icouldseethemunderthebrimofherhat) wassuddenlyalteredintoalineofseriousness。Theparasolstoppedswinging。”Ihavegivenhimwhathewanted——that’smyself,”shesaidwithoutatremorandwithastrikingdignityoftone。 Impressedbythemannerandthedirectnessofthewords,Ihesitatedforamomentwhattosay。Thenmadeupmymindtoclearupthepoint。”Andyouhavegotwhatyouwanted?Isthatit?” ThedaughteroftheegregiousfinancierdeBarraldidnotansweratoncethisquestiongoingtotheheartofthings。Thenraisingherheadandgazingwistfullyacrossthestreetnoisywiththeendlesstransitofinnumerablebargains,shesaidwithintensegravity:”Hehasbeenmostgenerous。” Iwaspleasedtohearthesewords。NotthatIdoubtedtheinfatuationofRoderickAnthony,butIwaspleasedtohearsomethingwhichprovedthatshewassensibleandopentothesentimentofgratitudewhichinthiscasewassignificant。Inthefaceofman’sdesireagirlisexcusableifshethinksherselfpriceless。Imeanagirlofourcivilizationwhichhasestablishedadithyrambicphraseologyfortheexpressionoflove。Amaninlovewillacceptanyconventionexaltingtheobjectofhispassionandinthisindirectwayhispassionitself。InwhatwaythecaptainoftheshipFerndalegaveproofsoflover-likelavishnessIcouldnotguessverywell。ButIwasgladshewasappreciative。Itisluckythatsmallthingspleasewomen。Anditisnotsillyofthemtobethuspleased。Itisinsmallthingsthatthedeepestloyalty,thatwhichtheyneedmost,theloyaltyofthepassingmoment,isbestexpressed。 Shehadremainedthoughtful,lettingherdeepmotionlesseyesrestonthestreamingjumbleoftraffic。Suddenlyshesaid:”AndIwantedtoaskyou……IwasreallygladwhenIsawyouactuallyhere。Whowouldhaveexpectedyouhere,atthisspot,beforethishotel!Icertainlynever……Youseeitmeantalottome。Youaretheonlypersonwhoknows……whoknowsforcertain……””Knowswhat?”Isaid,notdiscoveringatfirstwhatshehadinhermind。ThenIsawit。”Whycan’tyouleavethatalone?”I remonstrated,ratherannoyedattheinvidiouspositionshewasforcingonmeinasense。”It’struethatIwastheonlypersontosee,”Iadded。”But,asithappens,afteryourmysteriousdisappearanceItoldtheFynesthestoryofourmeeting。” Hereyesraisedtominehadanexpressionofdreamy,unfathomablecandour,ifIdaresayso。AndifyouwonderwhatImeanIcanonlysaythatIhaveseentheseawearsuchanexpressionononeortwooccasionsshortlybeforesunriseonacalm,freshday。ShesaidasifmeditatingaloudthatshesupposedtheFyneswerenotlikelytotalkaboutthat。Shecouldn’timagineanyconnectioninwhich…… Whyshouldthey? AshertonehadbecomeinterrogatoryIassented。”Tobesure。 There’snoreasonwhatever——”thinkingtomyselfthattheywouldbemorelikelyindeedtokeepquietaboutit。Theyhadotherthingstotalkof。AndthenrememberinglittleFynestuckupstairsforanunconscionabletime,enoughtoblurtouteverythingheeverknewinhislife,IreflectedthathewouldassumenaturallythatCaptainAnthonyhadnothingtolearnfromhimaboutFloradeBarral。Ithadbeenuptonowmyassumptiontoo。Isawmymistake。Thesincerestofwomenwillmakenounnecessaryconfidencestoaman。Andthisisasitshouldbe。”No——no!”Isaidreassuringly。”It’smostunlikely。Areyoumuchconcerned?””Well,yousee,whenIcamedown,”shesaidagaininthatprecisedemuretone,”whenIcamedown——intothegardenCaptainAnthonymisunderstood——””Ofcoursehewould。Menaresoconceited,”Isaid。 Isawitwellenoughthathemusthavethoughtshehadcomedowntohim。Whatelsecouldhehavethought?Andthenhehadbeen”gentlenessitself。”Anewexperienceforthatpoor,delicate,andyetsoresistingcreature。Gentlenessinpassion!Whatcouldhavebeenmoreseductivetothescared,starvedheartofthatgirl? Perhapshadhebeenviolent,shemighthavetoldhimthatwhatshecamedowntokeepwasthetrystofdeath——notoflove。ItoccurredtomeasIlookedather,young,fragileinaspect,andintenselyaliveinherquietness,thatperhapsshedidnotknowherselfthenwhatsortoftrystshewascomingdowntokeep。 Shesmiledfaintly,almostawkwardlyasifsheweretotallyunusedtosmiling,atmycheapjocularity。Thenshesaidwiththatforcedprecision,asortofconsciousprimness:”Ididn’twanthimtoknow。” Iapprovedheartily。Quiteright。Muchbetter。Lethimeverremainunderhismisapprehensionwhichwassomuchmoreflatteringforhim。 Itriedtokeepitinthetoneofcomedy;butshewas,Ibelieve,toosimpletounderstandmyintention。Shewenton,lookingdown。”Oh!Youthinkso?WhenIsawyouIdidn’tknowwhyyouwerehere。 IwasgladwhenyouspoketomebecausethisisexactlywhatI wantedtoaskyoufor。IwantedtoaskyouifyouevermeetCaptainAnthony——byanychance——anywhere——youareasailortoo,areyounot?——thatyouwouldnevermention——never——that——thatyouhadseenmeoverthere。””Mydearyounglady,”Icried,horror-struckatthesupposition。”WhyshouldI?WhatmakesyouthinkIshoulddreamof……” Shehadraisedherheadatmyvehemence。Shedidnotunderstandit。 Theworldhadtreatedhersodishonourablythatshehadnonotionevenofwhatmeredecencyoffeelingislike。Itwasnotherfault。 Indeed,Idon’tknowwhysheshouldhaveputhertrustinanybody’spromises。 ButIthoughtitwouldbebettertopromise。SoIassuredherthatshecoulddependonmyabsolutesilence。”IamnotlikelytoeverseteyesonCaptainAnthony,”Iaddedwithconviction——asafurtherguarantee。 Sheacceptedmyassuranceinsilence,withoutasign。Hergravityhadinitsomethingacute,perhapsbecauseofthatchin。Whilewewerestilllookingateachothershedeclared:”There’snodeceptioninitreally。IwantyoutobelievethatifI amhere,likethis,to-day,itisnotfromfear。Itisnot!””Iquiteunderstand,”Isaid。Butherfirmyetself-consciousgazebecamedoubtful。”Ido,”Iinsisted。”Iunderstandperfectlythatitwasnotofdeaththatyouwereafraid。” Sheloweredhereyesslowly,andIwenton:”Astolife,that’sanotherthing。AndIdon’tknowthatoneoughttoblameyouverymuch——thoughitseemedratheranexcessivestep。 Iwondernowifitisn’ttheuglinessratherthanthepainofthestrugglewhich……” Sheshudderedvisibly:”ButIdoblamemyself,”sheexclaimedwithfeeling。”Iamashamed。”And,droppingherhead,shelookedinamomenttheverypictureofremorseandshame。”Well,youwillbegoingawayfromallitshorrors,”Isaid。”Andsurelyyouarenotafraidofthesea。Youareasailor’sgranddaughter,Iunderstand。” Shesigheddeeply。Sherememberedhergrandfatheronlyalittle。 Hewasaclean-shavenmanwitharuddycomplexionandlong,perfectlywhitehair。Heusedtotakeheronhisknee,andputtinghisfacenearhers,talktoherinlovingwhispers。Ifonlyhewerealivenow……! Sheremainedsilentforawhile。”Aren’tyouanxioustoseetheship?”Iasked。 SheloweredherheadstillmoresothatIcouldnotseeanythingofherface。”Idon’tknow,”shemurmured。 Ihadalreadythesuspicionthatshedidnotknowherownfeelings。 Allthisworkofthemerestchancehadbeensounexpected,sosudden。Andshehadnothingtofallbackupon,noexperiencebutsuchastoshakeherbeliefineveryhumanbeing。Shewasdreadfullyandpitifullyforlorn。ItwasalmostinordertocomfortmyowndepressionthatIremarkedcheerfully:”Well,Iknowofsomebodywhomustbegrowingextremelyanxioustoseeyou。””Iambeforemytime,”sheconfessedsimply,rousingherself。”I hadnothingtodo。SoIcameout。” Ihadthesuddenvisionofashabby,lonelylittleroomattheotherendofthetown。Ithadgrownintolerabletoherrestlessness。Themerethoughtofitoppressedher。FloradeBarralwaslookingfranklyatherchanceconfidant,”AndIcamethisway,”shewenton。”Iappointedthetimemyselfyesterday,butCaptainAnthonywouldnothaveminded。HetoldmehewasgoingtolookoversomebusinesspaperstillIcame。” Theideaofthesonofthepoet,therescuerofthemostforlorndamselofmoderntimes,themanofviolence,gentlenessandgenerosity,sittinguptohisneckinship’saccountsamusedme。”I amsurehewouldnothaveminded,”Isaid,smiling。Butthegirl’sstarewassombre,herthinwhitefaceseemedpatheticallycareworn。”Icanhardlybelieveyet,”shemurmuredanxiously。”It’squitereal。Neverfear,”Isaidencouragingly,buthadtochangemytoneatonce。”Youhadbettergodownthatwayalittle,” Idirectedherabruptly。 IhadseenFynecomestridingoutofthehoteldoor。Theintelligentgirl,withoutstayingtoaskquestions,walkedawayfrommequietlydownonestreetwhileIhurriedontomeetFynecominguptheotherathisefficientpedestriangait。Myobjectwastostophimgettingasfarasthecorner。Hemusthavebeenthinkingtoohardtobeawareofhissurroundings。Iputmyselfinhisway,andhenearlywalkedintome。”Hallo!”Isaid。 Hissurprisewasextreme。”Youhere!Youdon’tmeantosayyouhavebeenwaitingforme?” IsaidnegligentlythatIhadbeendetainedbyunexpectedbusinessintheneighbourhood,andthushappenedtocatchsightofhimcomingout。 Hestaredatmewithsolemndistraction,obviouslythinkingofsomethingelse。Isuggestedthathehadbettertakethenextcity- wardtramcar。Hewasinattentive,andIperceivedthathewasprofoundlyperturbed。AsMissdeBarral(shehadmovedoutofsight)couldnotpossiblyapproachthehoteldooraslongasweremainedwherewewereIproposedthatweshouldwaitforthecarontheothersideofthestreet。Heobeyedrathertheslighttouchonhisarmthanmywords,andwhilewewerecrossingthewideroadwayinthemidstofthelumberingwheeledtraffic,heexclaimedinhisdeeptone,”Idon’tknowwhichofthesetwoismoremadthantheother!””Really!”Isaid,pullinghimforwardfromunderthenosesoftwoenormoussleepy-headedcart-horses。Heskippedwildlyoutofthewayanduponthecurbstonewithapurelyinstinctiveprecision;hismindhadnothingtodowithhismovements。Inthemiddleofhisleap,andwhileintheactofsailinggravelythroughtheair,hecontinuedtorelievehisoutragedfeelings。”Youwouldneverbelieve!TheyAREmad!” Itookcaretoplacemyselfinsuchapositionthattofacemehehadtoturnhisbackonthehotelacrosstheroad。IbelievehewasgladIwastheretotalkto。ButIthoughttherewassomemisapprehensioninthefirststatementheshotoutatmewithoutlossoftime,thatCaptainAnthonyhadbeengladtoseehim。Itwasindeeddifficulttobelievethat,directlyheopenedthedoor,hiswife’s”sailor-brother”hadpositivelyshouted:”Oh,it’syou!TheverymanIwantedtosee。””Ifoundhimsittingthere,”wentonFyneimpressivelyinhiseffortless,gravechestvoice,”draftinghiswill。” Thiswasunexpected,butIpreservedanoncommittalattitude,knowingfullwellthatouractionsinthemselvesareneithermadnorsane。ButIdidnotseewhattherewastobeexcitedabout。AndFynewasdistinctlyexcited。IunderstooditbetterwhenIlearnedthatthecaptainoftheFerndalewantedlittleFynetobeoneofthetrustees。Hewasleavingeverythingtohiswife。Naturally,arequestwhichinvolvedhimintosanctioninginawayaproceedingwhichhehadbeensentbyhiswifetooppose,musthaveappearedsufficientlymadtoFyne。”Me!Me,ofallpeopleintheworld!”herepeatedportentously。 ButIcouldseethathewasfrightened。Suchwantoftact!”HeknewIcamefromhissister。Youdon’tputamanintosuchanawkwardposition,”complainedFyne。”ItmademespeakmuchmorestronglyagainstallthisverypainfulbusinessthanIwouldhavehadthehearttodootherwise。” Ipointedouttohimconcisely,andkeepingmyeyesonthedoorofthehotel,thatheandhiswifeweretheonlybondwiththelandCaptainAnthonyhad。Whoelsecouldhehaveasked?”Iexplainedtohimthathewasbreakingthisbond,”declaredFynesolemnly。”Breakingitonceforall。Andforwhat——forwhat?” Heglaredatme。Icouldperhapshavegivenhimaninklingforwhat,butIsaidnothing。Hestartedagain:”Mywifeassuresmethatthegirldoesnotlovehimabit。Shegoesbythatlettershereceivedfromher。Thereisapassageinitwhereshepracticallyadmitsthatshewasquiteunscrupulousinacceptingthisofferofmarriage,butsaystomywifethatshesupposesshe,mywife,willnotblameher——asitwasinself- defence。Mywifehasherownideas,butthisisanoutrageousmisapprehensionofherviews。Outrageous。” Thegoodlittlemanpausedandthenaddedweightily:”Ididn’ttellthattomybrother-in-law——Imean,mywife’sviews。””No,”Isaid。”Whatwouldhavebeenthegood?””It’spositiveinfatuation,”agreedlittleFyne,inthetoneasthoughhehadmadeanawfuldiscovery。”Ihaveneverseenanythingsohopelessandinexplicableinmylife。I——Ifeltquitefrightenedandsorry,”headded,whileIlookedathimcuriouslyaskingmyselfwhetherthisexcellentcivilservantandnotablepedestrianhadfeltthebreathofagreatandfatallove-spellpassinghimbyintheroomofthatEast-endhotel。Hedidlookforamomentasthoughhehadseenaghost,another-worldthing。Butthatlookvanishedinstantaneously,andhenoddedatmewithmereexasperationatsomethingquiteofthisworld——whateveritwas。”It’sabadbusiness。Mybrother-in-lawknowsnothingofwomen,”hecriedwithanairofprofound,experiencedwisdom。 WhatheimaginedheknewofwomenhimselfIcan’ttell。Ididnotknowanythingoftheopportunitieshemighthavehad。Butthisisasubjectwhich,ifapproachedwithunduesolemnity,isapttoeludeone’sgraspentirely。NodoubtFyneknewsomethingofawomanwhowasCaptainAnthony’ssister。Butthat,admittedly,hadbeenaverysolemnstudy。Ismiledathimgently,andasifencouragedorprovoked,hecompletedhisthoughtratherexplosively。”Andthatgirlunderstandsnothing……It’ssheerlunacy。””Idon’tknow,”Isaid,”whetherthecircumstancesofisolationatseawouldbeanyalleviationtothedanger。Butit’scertainthattheyshallhavetheopportunitytolearneverythingabouteachotherinalonelytete-e-tete。””Butdashitall,”hecriedinhollowaccentswhichatthesametimehadthetoneofbitterirony——Ihadneverbeforeheardasoundsoquaintlyuglyandalmosthorrible——”YouforgetMr。Smith。””WhatMr。Smith?”Iaskedinnocently。 Fynemadeanextraordinarysimiesquegrimace。Ibelieveitwasquiteinvoluntary,butyouknowthatagrave,much-lined,shavencountenancewhendistortedinanunusualwayisextremelyapelike。 Itwasasurprisingsight,andrenderedmenotonlyspeechlessbutstoppedtheprogressofmythoughtcompletely。Imusthavepresentedaremarkablyimbecileappearance。”Mybrother-in-lawconsidereditamusingtochaffmeaboutusintroducingthegirlasMissSmith,”saidFyne,goingsurlyinamoment。”Hesaidthatperhapsifhehadheardherrealnamefromthefirstitmighthaverestrainedhim。Asitwas,hemadethediscoverytoolate。AskedmetotellZoethistogetherwithalotmorenonsense。” Fynegavemetheimpressionofhavingescapedfromamaninspiredbyagrimlyplayfulebullitionofhighspirits。Itmusthavebeenmostdistastefultohim;andhissolemnitygotdamagedsomehowintheprocess,Iperceived。TherewereholesinitthroughwhichIcouldseeanew,anunknownFyne。”Youwouldn’tbelieveit,”hewenton,”butshelooksuponherfatherexclusivelyasavictim。Idon’tknow,”heburstoutsuddenlythroughanenormousrentinhissolemnity,”ifshethinkshimabsolutelyasaint,butshecertainlyimagineshimtobeamartyr。” Itisoneoftheadvantagesofthatmagnificentinvention,theprison,thatyoumayforgetpeoplewhichareputthereasthoughtheyweredead。Oneneedn’tworryaboutthem。Nothingcanhappentothemthatyoucanhelp。Theycandonothingwhichmightpossiblymattertoanybody。Theycomeoutofit,though,butthatseemshardlyanadvantagetothemselvesoranyoneelse。IhadcompletelyforgottenthefinancierdeBarral。Thegirlformewasanorphan,butnowIperceivedsuddenlytheforceofFyne’squalifyingstatement,”toacertainextent。”Itwouldhavebeeninfinitelymorekindallroundforthelawtohaveshot,beheaded,strangled,orotherwisedestroyedthisabsurddeBarral,whowasadangertoamoralworldinhabitedbyacredulousmultitudenotfittotakecareofitself。ButIobservedtoFynethat,howeverinsanewastheviewsheheld,onecouldnotdeclarethegirlmadonthataccount。”Soshethinksofherfather——doesshe?Isupposeshewouldappeartoussanerifshethoughtonlyofherself。””Iampositive,”Fynesaidearnestly,”thatshewentandmadedesperateeyesatAnthony……””Ohcome!”Iinterrupted。”Youhaven’tseenhermakeeyes。Youdon’tknowthecolourofhereyes。””Verywell!Itdon’tmatter。Butitcouldhardlyhavecometothatifshehadn’t……It’sallone,though。Itellyoushehasledhimon,oracceptedhim,ifyoulike,simplybecauseshewasthinkingofherfather。Shedoesn’tcareabitaboutAnthony,I believe。Shecaresfornoone。Nevercaredforanyone。AskZoe。 FormyselfIdon’tblameher,”addedFyne,givingmeanotherviewofunsuspectedthingsthroughtheragsandtattersofhisdamagedsolemnity。”No!byheavens,Idon’tblameher——thepoordevil。” Iagreedwithhimsilently。Isupposeaffectionsare,inasense,tobelearned。Ifthereexistsanativesparkofloveinallofus,itmustbefannedwhileweareyoung。Hers,ifsheeverhadit,hadbeendrenchedinasuglyalotofcorrosiveliquidascouldbeimagined。ButIwassurprisedatFyneobscurelyfeelingthis。”Shelovesnooneexceptthatpreposterousadvertisingshark,”hepursuedvenomously,butinamoredeliberatemanner。”AndAnthonyknowsit。””Doeshe?”Isaiddoubtfully。”She’squitecapableofhavingtoldhimherself,”affirmedFyne,withamazinginsight。”Butwhetherorno,I’VEtoldhim。””Youdid?FromMrs。Fyne,ofcourse。” Fyneonlyblinkedowlishlyatthispieceofmyinsight。”AndhowdidCaptainAnthonyreceivethisinterestinginformation?” Iaskedfurther。”Mostimproperly,”saidFyne,whoreallywasinastateinwhichhedidn’tmindwhatheblurtedout。”Heisn’thimself。Hebeggedmetotellhissisterthatheofferednoremarksonherconduct。Veryimproperandinconsequent。Hesaid……Iwastiredofthiswrangling。ItoldhimImadeallowancesforthestateofexcitementhewasin。””Youknow,Fyne,”Isaid,”amaninjailseemstomesuchanincredible,cruel,nightmarishsortofthingthatIcanhardlybelieveinhisexistence。Certainlynotinrelationtoanyotherexistences。””Butdashitall,”criedFyne,”heisn’tshutupforlife。Theyaregoingtolethimout。He’scomingout!That’sthewholetrouble。 Whatishecomingoutto,Iwanttoknow?Itseemsamorecruelbusinessthantheshuttinghimupwas。Thishasbeentheworryforweeks。Doyouseenow?” Isaw,allsortsofthings!ImmediatelybeforemeIsawtheexcitementoflittleFyne——merefoodforwonder。Furtheroff,inasortofgloomandbeyondthelightofdayandthemovementofthestreet,Isawthefigureofaman,stifflikearamrod,movingwithsmallsteps,aslightgirlishfigurebyhisside。Andthegloomwaslikethegloomofvillainousslums,ofmisery,ofwretchedness,ofastarvedanddegradedexistence。ItwasareliefthatIcouldseeonlytheirshabbyhopelessbacks。Hewasanawfulghost。Butindeedtocallhimaghostwasonlyarefinementofpolitespeech,andamannerofconcealingone’sterrorofsuchthings。Prisonsarewonderfulcontrivances。Shut——open。Veryneat。Shut——open。Andoutcomessomesortofcorpse,towanderawfullyinaworldinwhichithasnopossibleconnectionsandcarryingwithittheappallingtaintedatmosphereofitssilentabode。Marvellousarrangement。Itworksautomatically,and,whenyoulookatit,theperfectionmakesyousick;whichforameremechanismisnomeantriumph。Sickandscared。Ithadnearlyscaredthatpoorgirltoherdeath。Fancyhavingtotakesuchathingbythehand!NowIunderstoodtheremorsefulstrainIhaddetectedinherspeeches。”ByJove!”Isaid。”Theyareabouttolethimout!Ineverthoughtofthat。” Fynewascontemptuouseitherofmeorofthingsatlarge。”Youdidn’tsupposehewastobekeptinjailforlife?” AtthatmomentIcaughtsightofFloradeBarralatthejunctionofthetwostreets。Thensomevehiclesfollowingeachotherinquicksuccessionhidfrommysighttheblackslightfigurewithjustatouchofcolourinherhat。Shewaswalkingslowly;anditmighthavebeencautionorreluctance。WhilelisteningtoFyneIstaredhardpasthisshouldertryingtocatchsightofheragain。Hewasgoingonwithpositiveheat,theragsofhissolemnitydroppingoffhimateverysecondsentence。 Thatwasjustit。Hiswifeandhehadbeenperfectlyawareofit。 OfcoursethegirlnevertalkedofherfatherwithMrs。Fyne。I supposewithhertheoryofinnocenceshefounditdifficult。Butshemusthavebeenthinkingofitdayandnight。Whattodowithhim?Wheretogo?Howtokeepbodyandsoultogether?Hehadnevermadeanyfriends。TheonlyrelationsweretheatrociousEast- endcousins。Weknowwhattheywere。Nothingbutwretchedness,whicheverwaysheturnedinanunjustandprejudicedworld。Andtolookathimhelplesslyshefeltwouldbetoomuchforher。 Iwon’tsayIwasthinkingthesethoughts。Itwasnotnecessary。 ThiscompleteknowledgewasinmyheadwhileIstaredhardacrossthewideroad,sohardthatIfailedtohearlittleFynetillheraisedhisdeepvoiceindignantly。”Idon’tblamethegirl,”hewassaying。”Heisinfatuatedwithher。Anybodycanseethat。WhysheshouldhavegotsuchaholdonhimIcan’tunderstand。Shesaid”Yes”tohimonlyforthesakeofthatfatuous,swindlingfatherofhers。It’sperfectlyplainifonethinksitoveramoment。Oneneedn’teventhinkofit。Wehaveitunderherownhand。Inthatlettertomywifeshesaysshehasactedunscrupulously。Shehasownedup,then,forwhatelsecanitmean,Ishouldliketoknow。Andsotheyaretobemarriedbeforethatoldidiotcomesout……Hewillbesurprised,”commentedFynesuddenlyinastrangelymalignanttone。”HeshallbemetatthejaildoorbyaMrs。Anthony,aMrs。CaptainAnthony。VerypleasantforZoe。AndforallIknow,mybrother-in-lawmeanstoturnupdutifullytoo。Alittlefamilyevent。It’sextremelypleasanttothinkof。Delightful。Acharmingfamilyparty。Wethreeagainsttheworld——andallthatsortofthing。Andwhatfor。Foragirlthatdoesn’tcaretwopenceforhim。” ThedemonofbitternesshadenteredintolittleFyne。Heamazedmeasthoughhehadchangedhisskinfromwhitetoblack。Itwasquiteaswonderful。Andhekeptitup,too。”Luckilytherearesomeadvantagesinthe——theprofessionofasailor。Aslongastheydefytheworldawayatseasomewhereeighteenthousandmilesfromhere,Idon’tmindsomuch。Iwonderwhatthatinterestingoldpartywillsay。Hewillhaveanothersurprise。Theymeantodraghimalongwiththemonboardtheshipstraightaway。Rescuework。JustthinkofRoderickAnthony,thesonofagentleman,afterall……” Hegavemealittleshock。Ithoughthewasgoingtosaythe”sonofthepoet”asusual;buthismindwasnotrunningonsuchvanitiesnow。Hisunspokenthoughtmusthavegoneon”anduncleofmygirls。”IsuspectthathehadbeenroughlyhandledbyCaptainAnthonyupthere,andtheresentmentgaveatremendousfilliptotheslowplayofhiswits。Thosemenofsoberfancy,whenanythingrousestheirimaginativefaculty,areverythorough。”Justthink!” hecried。”Thethreeofthemcrowdedintoafour-wheeler,andAnthonysittingdeferentiallyoppositethatastonishedoldjail- bird!” Thegoodlittlemanlaughed。Animpropersounditwastocomefromhismanlychest;andwhatmadeitworsewasthethoughtthatfortheleastthing,byamerehair’sbreadth,hemighthavetakenthisaffairsentimentally。ButclearlyAnthonywasnodiplomatist。Hisbrother-in-lawmusthaveappearedtohim,tousethelanguageofshorepeople,aperfectphilistinewithaheartlikeaflint。WhatFynepreciselymeantby”wrangling”Idon’tknow,butIhadnodoubtthatthesetwohad”wrangled”toaprofoundlydisturbingextent。 HowmuchtheotherwasaffectedIcouldnotevenimagine;butthemanbeforemewasquiteamazinglyupset。”Inafour-wheeler!Takehimonboard!”Imuttered,startledbythechangeinFyne。”That’stheplan——nothingless。IfIamtobelievewhatIhavebeentold,hisfeetwillscarcelytouchthegroundbetweentheprison- gatesandthedeckofthatship。” ThetransformedFynespokeinaforciblyloweredtonewhichIheardwithoutdifficulty。Therumbling,compositenoisesofthestreetwerehushedforamoment,duringoneofthesesuddenbreaksinthetrafficasifthestreamofcommercehaddriedupatitssource。 HavinganunobstructedviewpastFyne’sshoulder,Iwasastonishedtoseethatthegirlwasstillthere。Ithoughtshehadgoneuplongbefore。Buttherewasherblackslenderfigure,herwhitefaceundertherosesofherhat。Shestoodontheedgeofthepavementaspeoplestandonthebankofastream,verystill,asifwaiting—— orasifunconsciousofwhereshewas。Thethreedismal,soddenloafers(Icouldseethemtoo;theyhadn’tbudgedaninch)seemedtometobewatchingher。Whichwashorrible。 MeantimeFynewastellingmeratherremarkablethings——forhim。Hedeclaredfirstitwasamercyinasense。Thenheaskedmeifitwerenotrealmadness,tosaddleone’sexistencewithsuchaperpetualreminder。Thedailyexistence。Theisolatedsea-boundexistence。Tobringsuchanadditionalstrainintothesolitudealreadytryingenoughfortwopeoplewasthecraziestthing。 Undesirablerelationswerebadenoughonshore。Onecouldcutthemoratleastforgettheirexistencenowandthen。Hehimselfwaspreparingtoforgethisbrother-in-law’sexistenceasmuchaspossible。 Thatwasthegeneralsenseofhisremarks,nothisexactwords。I thoughtthathiswife’sbrother’sexistencehadneverbeenveryembarrassingtohimbutthatnowofcoursehewouldhavetoabstainfromhisallusionstothe”sonofthepoet——youknow。”Isaid”yes,yes”inthepausesbecauseIdidnotwanthimtoturnround;andallthetimeIwaswatchingthegirlintently。IthoughtIknewnowwhatshemeantwithher——”Hewasmostgenerous。”Yes。Generosityofcharactermaycarryamanthroughanysituation。Butwhydidn’tshegothentohergenerousman?Whystandthereasifclingingtothissolidearthwhichshesurelyhatedasonemusthatetheplacewhereonehasbeentormented,hopeless,unhappy?Suddenlyshestirred。Wasshegoingtocrossover?No。Sheturnedandbegantowalkslowlyclosetothecurbstone,remindingmeofthetimewhenI discoveredherwalkingneartheedgeofaninety-footsheerdrop。 Itwasthesameimpression,thesamecarriage,straight,slim,withrigidheadandthetwohandshanginglightlyclaspedinfront——onlynowasmallsunshadewasdanglingfromthem。IsawsomethingfatefulinthatdeliberatepacingtowardstheinconspicuousdoorwiththewordsHOTELENTRANCEontheglasspanels。 ShewasabreastofitnowandIthoughtthatshewouldstopagain; butno!Sheswervedrigidly——atthemomenttherewasnoonenearher;shehadthatbitofpavementtoherself——withinanimateslownessasifmovedbysomethingoutsideherself。”Aconfoundedconvict,”Fyneburstout。 WiththesoundofthatwordoffendingmyearsIsawthegirlextendherarm,pushthedooropenalittlewayandglidein。Isawplainlythatmovement,thehandputoutinadvancewiththegestureofasleep-walker。 Shehadvanished,herblackfigurehadmeltedinthedarknessoftheopendoor。ForsometimeFynesaidnothing;andIthoughtofthegirlgoingupstairs,appearingbeforetheman。Weretheylookingateachotherinsilenceandfeelingtheywerealoneintheworldasloversshouldatthemomentofmeeting?ButthatfineforgetfulnesswassurelyimpossibletoAnthonytheseamandirectlyafterthewranglinginterviewwithFynetheemissaryofanorderofthingswhichstopsattheedgeofthesea。HowmuchhewasdisturbedI couldn’ttellbecauseIdidnotknowwhatthatimpetuousloverhadhadtolistento。”Goingtotaketheoldfellowtoseawiththem,”Isaid。”WellI reallydon’tseewhatelsetheycouldhavedonewithhim。Youtoldyourbrother-in-lawwhatyouthoughtofit?Iwonderhowhetookit。””Veryimproperly,”repeatedFyne。”Hismannerwasoffensive,derisive,fromthefirst。Idon’tmeanhewasactuallyrudeinwords。Hangitall,Iamnotacontemptibleass。Buthewasexultingathavinggotholdofamiserablegirl。””Itisprettycertainthatshewillbemuchlesspoorandmiserable,”Imurmured。 ItlookedasiftheexultationofCaptainAnthonyhadgotonFyne’snerves。”Itoldthefellowveryplainlythathewasabominablyselfishinthis,”heaffirmedunexpectedly。”Youdid!Selfish!”Isaidrathertakenaback。”Butwhatifthegirlthoughtthat,onthecontrary,hewasmostgenerous。””Whatdoyouknowaboutit,”growledFyne。Therentsandslashesofhissolemnitywereclosingupgraduallybutitwasgoingtobeasurlysolemnity。”Generosity!Iamdisposedtogiveitanothername。No。Notfolly,”heshotoutatmeasthoughIhadmeanttointerrupthim。”Stillanother。Somethingworse。Ineednottellyouwhatitis,”headdedwithgrimmeaning。”Certainly。Youneedn’t——unlessyoulike,”Isaidblankly。LittleFynehadneverinterestedmesomuchsincethebeginningofthedeBarral-AnthonyaffairwhenIfirstperceivedpossibilitiesinhim。 Thepossibilitiesofdullmenareexcitingbecausewhentheyhappentheysuggestlegendarycasesof”possession,”notexactlybythedevilbut,anyhow,byastrangespirit。”Itoldhimitwasashame,”saidFyne。”Evenifthegirldidmakeeyesathim——butIthinkwithyouthatshedidnot。Yes!Ashametotakeadvantageofagirl’s——adistressesgirlthatdoesnotlovehimintheleast。””Youthinkit’ssobadasthat?”Isaid。”BecauseyouknowI don’t。””Whatcanyouthinkaboutit,”heretortedonmewithasolemnstare。”Igobyherlettertomywife。””Ah!thatfamousletter。Butyouhaven’tactuallyreadit,”Isaid。”No,butmywifetoldme。Ofcourseitwasamostimpropersortoflettertowriteconsideringthecircumstances。ItpainedMrs。Fynetodiscoverhowthoroughlyshehadbeenmisunderstood。Butwhatiswrittenisnotall。It’swhatmywifecouldreadbetweenthelines。 Shesaysthatthegirlisreallyterrifiedatheart。””Shehadnotmuchinlifetogiveheranyveryspecialcourageforit,oranygreatconfidenceinmankind。That’sverytrue。Butthisseemsanexaggeration。””Ishouldliketoknowwhatreasonsyouhavetosaythat,”askedFynewithoffendedsolemnity。”Ireallydon’tseeany。ButIhadsufficientauthoritytotellmybrother-in-lawthatifhethoughthewasgoingtodosomethingchivalrousandfinehewasmistaken。I canseeverywellthathewilldoeverythingsheaskshimtodo—— but,allthesame,itisratherapitilesstransaction。” ForamomentIfeltitmightbeso。Fynecaughtsightofanapproachingtram-carandsteppedoutontheroadtomeetit。”Haveyouamorecompassionateschemeready?”Icalledafterhim。Hemadenoanswer,clamberedontotherearplatform,andonlythenlookedback。Weexchangedaperfunctorywaveofthehand。Wealsolookedateachother,heratherangrily,Ifancy,andIwithwonder。Imayalsomentionthatitwasforthelasttime。FromthatdayIneverseteyesontheFynes。Asusualtheunexpectedhappenedtome。IthadnothingtodowithFloradeBarral。ThefactisthatIwentaway。Mycallwasnotlikehercall。Minewasnoturgedonmewithpassionatevehemenceortendergentlenessmadeallthefinerandmorecompellingbytheallurementsofgenerositywhichisavirtueasmysteriousasanyotherbuthavingaglamourofitsown。No,itwasjustaprosaicofferofemploymentonrathergoodtermswhich,withasuddensenseofhavingwastedmytimeonshorelongenough,I acceptedwithoutmisgivings。AndoncestartedoutofmyindolenceI went,asmyhabitwas,very,veryfarawayandforalong,longtime。Whichisanotherproofofmyindolence。HowfarFlorawentI can’tsay。ButIwilltellyoumyidea:myideaisthatshewentasfarasshewasable——asfarasshecouldbearit——asfarasshehadto……” PARTII——THEKNIGHT CHAPTERONE——THEFERNDALE IhavesaidthatthestoryofFloradeBarralwasimpartedtomeinstages。AtthisstageIdidnotseeMarlowforsometime。Atlast,oneeveningratherearly,verysoonafterdinner,heturnedupinmyrooms。 Ihadbeenwaitingforhiscallprimedwitharemarkwhichhadnotoccurredtometillafterhehadgoneaway。”Isay,”Itackledhimatonce,”howcanyoubecertainthatFloradeBarraleverwenttosea?Afterall,thewifeofthecaptainoftheFerndale——”theladythatmustn’tbedisturbed”oftheoldship- keeper——maynothavebeenFlora。””Well,Idoknow,”hesaid,”ifonlybecauseIhavebeenkeepingintouchwithMr。Powell。””Youhave!”Icried。”ThisisthefirstIhearofit。Andsincewhen?””Why,sincethefirstday。Youwentuptotownleavingmeintheinn。Isleptashore。InthemorningMr。Powellcameinforbreakfast;andafterthefirstawkwardnessofmeetingamanyouhavebeenyarningwithover-nighthadwornoff,wediscoveredalikingforeachother。” AsIhaddiscoveredthefactoftheirmutuallikingbeforeeitherofthem,Iwasnotsurprised。”Andsoyoukeptintouch,”Isaid。”Itwasnotsoverydifficult。AshewasalwaysknockingabouttheriverIhiredDingle’ssloop-riggedthree-tonnertobemoreonanequality。Powellwasfriendlybutelusive。Idon’tthinkheeverwantedtoavoidme。Butitisafactthatheusedtodisappearoutoftheriverinaverymysteriousmannersometimes。Amanmaylandanywhereandboltinland——butwhatabouthisfive-toncutter?Youcan’tcarrythatinyourhandlikeasuit-case。”Thenassuddenlyhewouldreappearintheriver,afteronehadgivenhimup。Ididnotliketobebeaten。That’swhyIhiredDingle’sdeckedboat。Therewasjusttheaccommodationinhertosleepamanandadog。ButIhadnodog-friendtoinvite。Fyne’sdogwhosavedFloradeBarral’slifeisthelastdog-friendIhad。 Iwasratherlonelycruisingabout;butthat,too,ontheriverhasitscharm,sometimes。IchasedthemysteryofthevanishingPowelldreamily,lookingaboutmeattheships,thinkingofthegirlFlora,oflife’schances——and,doyouknow,itwasverysimple。””Whatwasverysimple?”Iaskedinnocently。”Themystery。””Theygenerallyarethat,”Isaid。 Marloweyedmeforamomentinapeculiarmanner。”Well,IhavediscoveredthemysteryofPowell’sdisappearances。 ThefellowusedtorunintooneofthesenarrowtidalcreeksontheEssexshore。ThesecreeksaresoinconspicuousthattillIhadstudiedthechartprettycarefullyIdidnotknowoftheirexistence。Oneafternoon,ImadePowell’sboatout,headingintotheshore。BythetimeIgotclosetothemud-flathiscrafthaddisappearedinland。ButIcouldseethemouthofthecreekbythen。 ThetidebeingontheturnItooktheriskofgettingstuckinthemudsuddenlyandheadedin。AllIhadtoguidemewasthetopoftheroofofsomesortofsmallbuilding。Igotinmorebygoodluckthanbygoodmanagement。Thesunhadsetsometimebefore;myboatglidedinasortofwindingditchbetweentwolowgrassybanks;onbothsidesofmewastheflatnessoftheEssexmarsh,perfectlystill。AllIsawmovingwasaheron;hewasflyinglow,anddisappearedinthemurk。BeforeIhadgonehalfamile,IwasupwiththebuildingtheroofofwhichIhadseenfromtheriver。Itlookedlikeasmallbarn。Arowofpilesdrivenintothesoftbankinfrontofitandsupportingafewplanksmadeasortofwharf。 Allthiswasblackinthefallingdusk,andIcouldjustdistinguishthewhitishrutsofacart-trackstretchingoverthemarshtowardsthehigherland,faraway。Notasoundwastobeheard。AgainstthelowstreakoflightintheskyIcouldseethemastofPowell’scuttermooredtothebanksometwentyyards,nomore,beyondthatblackbarnorwhateveritwas。Ihailedhimwithaloudshout。Gotnoanswer。Aftermakingfastmyboatjustastern,IwalkedalongthebanktohavealookatPowell’s。Beingsomuchbiggerthanmineshewasagroundalready。Hersailswerefurled;theslideofherscuttlehatchwasclosedandpadlocked。Powellwasgone。Hehadwalkedoffintothatdark,stillmarshsomewhere。Ihadnotseenasinglehouseanywherenear;theredidnotseemtobeanyhumanhabitationformiles;andnowasdarknessfelldenseroverthelandIcouldn’tseetheglimmerofasinglelight。However,Isupposedthattheremustbesomevillageorhamletnotveryfaraway;oronlyoneofthesemysteriouslittleinnsonecomesuponsometimesinmostunexpectedandlonelyplaces。”Thestillnesswasoppressive。Iwentbacktomyboat,madesomecoffeeoveraspirit-lamp,devouredafewbiscuits,andstretchedmyselfaft,tosmokeandgazeatthestars。Theearthwasamereshadow,formlessandsilent,andempty,tillabullockturnedupfromsomewhere,quiteshadowytoo。Hecamesmartlytotheveryedgeofthebankasthoughhemeanttosteponboard,stretchedhismuzzlerightovermyboat,blewheavilyonce,andwalkedoffcontemptuouslyintothedarknessfromwhichhehadcome。Ihadnotexpectedacallfromabullock,thoughamoment’sthoughtwouldhaveshownmethattheremustbelotsofcattleandsheeponthatmarsh。 Theneverythingbecamestillasbefore。Imighthaveimaginedmyselfarrivedonadesertisland。Infact,asIreclinedsmokingasenseofabsolutelonelinessgrewonme。Andjustasithadbecomeintense,veryabruptlyandwithoutanypreliminarysoundIheardfirm,quickfootstepsonthelittlewharf。Somebodycomingalongthecart-trackhadjuststeppedataswinginggaitontotheplanks。 ThatsomebodycouldonlyhavebeenMr。Powell。Suddenlyhestoppedshort,havingmadeoutthatthereweretwomastsalongsidethebankwherehehadleftonlyone。Thenhecameonsilentonthegrass。 WhenIspoketohimhewasastonished。”Whowouldhavethoughtofseeingyouhere!”heexclaimed,afterreturningmygoodevening。”ItoldhimIhadruninforcompany。Itwasrigorouslytrue。””YouknewIwashere?”heexclaimed。”Ofcourse,”Isaid。”ItellyouIcameinforcompany。””Heisareallygoodfellow,”wentonMarlow。”Andhiscapacityforastonishmentisquicklyexhausted,itseems。Itwasinthemostmatter-of-factmannerthathesaid,’Comeonboardofme,then;I havehereenoughsupperfortwo。’Hewasholdingabulkyparcelinthecrookofhisarm。Ididnotwaittobeaskedtwice,asyoumayguess。Hiscutterhasaveryneatlittlecabin,quitebigenoughfortwomennotonlytosleepbuttositandsmokein。Weleftthescuttlewideopen,ofcourse。Astohisprovisionsforsupper,theywerenotofaluxuriouskind。Hecomplainedthattheshopsinthevillageweremiserable。Therewasabigvillagewithinamileandahalf。Itstruckmehehadbeenverylongdoinghisshopping;butnaturallyImadenoremark。Ididn’twanttotalkatallexceptforthepurposeofsettinghimgoing。””Anddidyousethimgoing?”Iasked。”Idid,”saidMarlow,composinghisfeaturesintoanimpenetrableexpressionwhichsomehowassuredmeofhissuccessbetterthananairoftriumphcouldhavedone。”Youmadehimtalk?”Isaidafterasilence。”Yes,Imadehim……abouthimself。””Andtothepoint?””Ifyoumeanbythis,”saidMarlow,”thatitwasaboutthevoyageoftheFerndale,thenagain,yes。Ibroughthimtotalkaboutthatvoyage,which,bytheby,wasnotthefirstvoyageofFloradeBarral。Themanhimself,asItoldyou,issimple,andhisfacultyofwondernotverygreat。He’soneofthosepeoplewhoformnotheoriesaboutfacts。Straightforwardpeopleseldomdo。Neitherhavetheymuchpenetration。Butinthiscaseitdidnotmatter。I—— we——havealreadytheinnerknowledge。WeknowthehistoryofFloradeBarral。WeknowsomethingofCaptainAnthony。Wehavethesecretofthesituation。Themanwasintoxicatedwiththepityandtendernessofhispart。Ohyes!Intoxicatedisnottoostrongaword;foryouknowthatloveanddesiretakemanydisguises。I believethatthegirlhadbeenfrankwithhim,withthefranknessofwomentowhomperfectfranknessisimpossible,becausesomuchoftheirsafetydependsonjudiciousreticences。Iamnotindulgingincheapsneers。Thereisnecessityinthesethings。Andmoreovershecouldnothavespokenwithacertainvoiceinthefaceofhisimpetuosity,becauseshedidnothavetimetounderstandeitherthestateofherfeelings,ortheprecisenatureofwhatshewasdoing。 Hadshespokeneversoclearlyhewas,Itakeit,tooelatedtohearherdistinctly。Idon’tmeantoimplythathewasafool。Ohdearno!Buthehadnotrainingintheusualconventions,andwemustrememberthathehadnoexperiencewhateverofwomen。Hecouldonlyhaveanidealconceptionofhisposition。Anidealisoftenbutaflamingvisionofreality。 TohimentersFyne,woundup,ifImayexpressmyselfsoirreverently,wounduptoahighpitchbyhiswife’sinterpretationofthegirl’sletter。Heenterswithhistalkofmeannessandcruelty,likeabucketofwaterontheflame。Clearlyashock。Buttheeffectsofabucketofwaterarediverse。Theydependonthekindofflame。Amereblazeofdrystraw,ofcourse……buttherecanbenoquestionofstrawthere。AnthonyoftheFerndalewasnot,couldnothavebeen,astraw-stuffedspecimenofaman。Thereareflamesabucketofwatersendsleapingsky-high。 Wemaywellwonderwhathappenedwhen,afterFynehadlefthim,thehesitatinggirlwentupatlastandopenedthedoorofthatroomwhereourman,Iamcertain,wasnotextinguished。Ohno!Norcold;whateverelsehemighthavebeen。 Itisconceivablehemighthavecriedatherinthefirstmomentofhumiliation,ofexasperation,”Oh,it’syou!Whyareyouhere?IfIamsoodioustoyouthatyoumustwritetomysistertosayso,I giveyoubackyourword。”Butthen,don’tyousee,itcouldnothavebeenthat。Ihavethepracticalcertitudethatsoonafterwardstheywenttogetherinahansomtoseetheship——asagreed。ThatwasmyreasonforsayingthatFloradeBarraldidgotosea……””Yes。Itseemsconclusive,”Iagreed。”Butevenwithoutthat——if,asyouseemtothink,theverydesolationofthatgirlishfigurehadasortofperverselyseductivecharm,makingitswaythroughhiscompassiontohissenses(andeverythingispossible)——thensuchwordscouldnothavebeenspoken。””Theymighthaveescapedhiminvoluntarily,”observedMarlow。”However,aplainfactsettlesit。Theywentofftogethertoseetheship。””Doyouconcludefromthisthatnothingwhateverwassaid?”I inquired。”Ishouldhavelikedtoseethefirstmeetingoftheirglancesupstairsthere,”musedMarlow。”Andperhapsnothingwassaid。Butnomancomesoutofsucha’wrangle’(asFynecalledit)withoutshowingsometracesofit。Andyoumaybesurethatagirlsobruisedalloverwouldfeeltheslightesttouchofanythingresemblingcoldness。Shewasmistrustful;shecouldnotbeotherwise;fortheenergyofevilissomuchmoreforciblethantheenergyofgoodthatshecouldnothelplookingstilluponherabominablegovernessasanauthority。Howcouldonehaveexpectedhertothrowofftheunholyprestigeofthatlongdomination?Shecouldnothelpbelievingwhatshehadbeentold;thatshewasinsomemysteriouswayodiousandunlovable。Itwascruellytrue——TO HER。Theoracleofsomanyyearshadspokenfinally。Onlyotherpeopledidnotfindheroutatonce……Iwouldnotgosofarastosayshebelieveditaltogether。Thatwouldbehardlypossible。 Butthenhaven’tthemostflattered,themostconceitedofustheirmomentsofdoubt?Haven’tthey?Well,Idon’tknow。Theremaybeluckybeingsinthisworldunabletobelieveanyevilofthemselves。 FormyownpartI’lltellyouthatonce,manyyearsagonow,itcametomyknowledgethatafellowIhadbeenmixedupwithinacertaintransaction——acleverfellowwhomIreallydespised——wasgoingaroundtellingpeoplethatIwasaconsummatehypocrite。Hecouldknownothingofit。Itsuitedhishumourtosayso。Ihadgivenhimnogroundforthatparticularcalumny。Yettothisdaytherearemomentswhenitcomesintomymind,andinvoluntarilyIaskmyself,’Whatifitweretrue?’It’sabsurd,butithasononeortwooccasionsnearlyaffectedmyconduct。AndyetIwasnotanimpressionableignorantyounggirl。Ihadtakentheexactmeasureofthefellow’sutterworthlessnesslongbefore。Hehadneverbeenformeapersonofprestigeandpower,likethatawfulgovernesstoFloradeBarral。Seethemightofsuggestion?Weliveatthemercyofamalevolentword。Asound,ameredisturbanceoftheair,sinksintoourverysoulsometimes。FloradeBarralhadbeenmoreastoundedthanconvincedbythefirstimpetuosityofRoderickAnthony。Sheletherselfbecarriedalongbyamysteriousforcewhichherpersonhadcalledintobeing,asherfatherhadbeencarriedawayoutofhisdepthbytheunexpectedpowerofsuccessfuladvertising。 Theywentonboardthatmorning。TheFerndalehadjustcometoherloadingberth。Theonlylivingcreatureonboardwastheship- keeper——whetherthesamewhohadbeendescribedtousbyMr。Powell,oranother,Idon’tknow。Possiblysomeotherman。He,lookingovertheside,saw,inhisownwords,’thecaptaincomesailingroundthecornerofthenearestcargo-shed,incompanywithagirl。’ Heloweredtheaccommodationladderdownontothejetty……””Howdoyouknowallthis?”Iinterrupted。 Marlowinterjectedanimpatient:”Youshallseebyandby……Florawentupfirst,gotdownondeckandstoodstock-stilltillthecaptaintookherbythearmandledheraft。Theship-keeperletthemintothesaloon。Hehadthekeysofallthecabins,andstumpedinafterthem。Thecaptainorderedhimtoopenallthedoors,everyblesseddoor;state-rooms,passages,pantry,fore-cabin——andthensenthimaway。”TheFerndalehadmagnificentaccommodation。Attheendofapassageleadingfromthequarter-decktherewasalongsaloon,itssumptuosityslightlytarnishedperhaps,buthavingagrandairofroominessandcomfort。Theharbourcarpetsweredown,theswinginglampshung,andeverythinginitsplace,eventothesilveronthesideboard。Twolargesterncabinsopenedoutofit,oneoneachsideoftheruddercasing。Thesetwocabinscommunicatedthroughasmallbathroombetweenthem,andonewasfittedupasthecaptain’sstate-room。Theotherwasvacant,andfurnishedwitharm-chairsandaroundtable,morelikearoomonshore,exceptforthelongcurvedsetteefollowingtheshapeoftheship’sstern。Inadiminclinedmirror,Floracaughtsightdowntothewaistofapale-facedgirlinawhitestrawhattrimmedwithroses,distant,shadowy,asifimmersedinwater,andwassurprisedtorecognizeherselfinthosesurroundings。Theyseemedtoherarbitrary,bizarre,strange。 CaptainAnthonymovedon,andshefollowedhim。Heshowedhertheothercabins。Hetalkedallthetimeloudlyinavoicesheseemedtohaveknownextremelywellforalongtime;andyet,shereflected,shehadnothearditofteninherlife。Whathewassayingshedidnotquitefollow。Hewasspeakingofcomparativelyindifferentthingsinarathermoodytone,butshefeltitroundherlikeacaress。Andwhenhestoppedshecouldhear,alarminginthesuddensilence,theprecipitatedbeatingofherheart。 Theship-keeperdodgedaboutthequarter-deck,outofhearing,andtryingtokeepoutofsight。Atthesametime,takingadvantageoftheopendoorswithskillandprudence,hecouldseethecaptainand”thatgirl”thecaptainhadbroughtaboard。Thecaptainwasshowingherroundverythoroughly。Throughthewholelengthofthepassage,farawayaftintheperspectiveofthesaloontheship-keeperhadinterestingglimpsesofthemastheywentinandoutofthevariouscabins,crossingfromsidetoside,remaininginvisibleforatimeinoneoranotherofthestate-rooms,andthenreappearingagaininthedistance。Thegirl,alwaysfollowingthecaptain,hadhersunshadeinherhands。Mostlyshewouldhangherhead,butnowandthenshewouldlookup。Theyhadalottosaytoeachother,andseemedtoforgettheyweren’taloneintheship。Hesawthecaptainputhishandonhershoulder,andwaspreparinghimselfwithacertainzestforwhatmightfollow,whenthe”oldman”seemedtorecollecthimself,andcamestridingdownallthelengthofthesaloon。Atthismovetheship-keeperpromptlydodgedoutofsight,asyoumaybelieve,andheardthecaptainslamtheinnerdoorofthepassage。Afterthatdisappointmenttheship-keeperwaitedresentfullyforthemtoclearoutoftheship。Ithappenedmuchsoonerthanhehadexpected。Thegirlwalkedoutondeckfirst。Asbeforeshedidnotlookround。Shedidn’tlookatanything;andsheseemedtobeinsuchahurrytogetashorethatshemadeforthegangwayandstarteddowntheladderwithoutwaitingforthecaptain。 Whatstrucktheship-keepermostwastheabsent,unseeingexpressionofthecaptain,stridingafterthegirl。Hepassedhim,theship- keeper,withoutnotice,withoutanorder,withoutsomuchasalook。 Thecaptainhadneverdonesobefore。Alwayshadanodandapleasantwordforaman。Fromthisslighttheship-keeperdrewaconclusionunfavourabletothestrangegirl。Hegavethemtimetogetdownonthewharfbeforecrossingthedecktostealonemorelookatthepairovertherail。Thecaptaintookholdofthegirl’sarmjustbeforeacoupleofrailwaytrucksdrawnbyahorsecamerollingalongandhidthemfromtheship-keeper’ssightforgood。 Nextday,whenthechiefmatejoinedtheship,hetoldhimthetaleofthevisit,andexpressedhimselfaboutthegirl”whohadgotholdofthecaptain”disparagingly。Shedidn’tlookhealthy,heexplained。”Shabbyclothes,too,”headdedspitefully。 Thematewasverymuchinterested。HehadbeenwithAnthonyforseveralyears,andhadwonforhimselfinthecourseofmanylongvoyages,afootingoffamiliarity,whichwastobeexpectedwithamanofAnthony’scharacter。Butinthatslowly-grownintimacyofthesea,whichinitsdurationandsolitudehaditsunguardedmoments,nowordshadpassed,evenofthemostcasual,topreparehimforthevisionofhiscaptainassociatedwithanykindofgirl。 HisimpressionhadbeenthatwomendidnotexistforCaptainAnthony。Exhibitinghimselfwithagirl!Agirl!Whatdidhewantwithagirl?Bringingheronboardandshowingherroundthecabin! Thatwasreallyalittlebittoomuch。CaptainAnthonyoughttohaveknownbetter。 Franklin(thechiefmate’snamewasFranklin)feltdisappointed; almostdisillusioned。Sillythingtodo!Herewasaconfoundedoldship-keepersettalking。Hesnubbedtheship-keeper,andtriedtothinkofthatinsignificantbitoffoolishnessnomore;foritdiminishedCaptainAnthonyinhiseyesofajealouslydevotedsubordinate。 Franklinwasoverforty;hismotherwasstillalive。Shestoodintheforefrontofallwomenforhim,justasCaptainAnthonystoodintheforefrontofallmen。Wemaysupposethatthesegroupswerenotverylarge。Hehadgonetoseaataveryearlyage。Thefeelingwhichcausedthesetwopeopletopartlyeclipsetherestofmankindwereofcoursenotsimilar;thoughintimehehadacquiredtheconvictionthathewas”takingcare”ofthemboth。The”oldlady” ofcoursehadtobelookedafteraslongasshelived。InregardtoCaptainAnthony,heusedtosaythat:whyshouldheleavehim?Itwasn’tlikelythathewouldcomeacrossabettersailororabettermanoramorecomfortableship。Astotryingtobetterhimselfinthewayofpromotion,commandswerenotthesortofthingonepickedupinthestreets,andwhenitcametothat,CaptainAnthonywasaslikelytogivehimaliftonoccasionasanyoneintheworld。 FromMr。Powell’sdescriptionFranklinwasashort,thickblack- hairedman,baldonthetop。Hisheadsunkbetweentheshoulders,hisstaringprominenteyesandafloridcolour,gavehimaratherapoplecticappearance。Inrepose,hiscongestedfacehadahumorouslymelancholyexpression。 Theship-keeperhavinggivenhimupallthekeysandhavingbeenchasedforwardwiththeadmonitiontomindhisownbusinessandnottochatteraboutwhatdidnotconcernhim,Mr。Franklinwentunderthepoop。Heopenedonedoorafteranother;and,inthesaloon,inthecaptain’sstate-roomandeverywhere,hestaredanxiouslyasifexpectingtoseeonthebulkheads,onthedeck,intheair,somethingunusual——sign,mark,emanation,shadow——hehardlyknewwhat——somesubtlechangewroughtbythepassageofagirl。Buttherewasnothing。Heenteredtheunoccupiedsterncabinandspentsometimethereunscrewingthetwosternports。Intheabsenceofallmaterialevidenceshisuneasinesswaspassingaway。Withalastglanceroundhecameoutandfoundhimselfinthepresenceofhiscaptainadvancingfromtheotherendofthesaloon。 Franklin,atonce,lookedforthegirl。Shewasn’ttobeseen。Thecaptaincameupquickly。’Oh!youarehere,Mr。Franklin。’Andthematesaid,’Iwasgivingalittleairtotheplace,sir。’Thenthecaptain,hishatpulleddownoverhiseyes,laidhisstickonthetableandaskedinhiskindway:’Howdidyoufindyourmother,Franklin?’——’Theoldlady’sfirst-rate,sir,thankyou。’Andthentheyhadnothingtosaytoeachother。ItwasastrangeanddisturbingfeelingforFranklin。He,justbackfromleave,theshipjustcometoherloadingberth,thecaptainjustcomeonboard,andapparentlynothingtosay!Theseveralquestionshehadbeenanxioustoaskastovariousthingswhichhadtobedonehadslippedoutofhismind。He,too,feltasthoughhehadnothingtosay。 Thecaptain,pickinguphisstickoffthetable,marchedintohisstate-roomandshutthedoorafterhim。Franklinremainedstillforamomentandthenstartedslowlytogoondeck。Butbeforehehadtimetoreachtheotherendofthesaloonheheardhimselfcalledbyname。Heturnedround。Thecaptainwasstaringfromthedoorwayofhisstate-room。Franklinsaid,”Yes,sir。”Butthecaptain,silent,leanedalittleforwardgraspingthedoorhandle。Sohe,Franklin,walkedaftkeepinghiseyesonhim。Whenhehadcomeupquiteclosehesaidagain,”Yes,sir?”interrogatively。Stillsilence。Thematedidn’tliketobestaredatinthatmanner,amannerquitenewinhiscaptain,withadefiantandself-consciousstare,likeamanwhofeelsillanddaresyoutonoticeit。 Franklingazedathiscaptain,feltthattherewassomethingwrong,andinhissimplicityvoicedhisfeelingsbyaskingpoint-blank:”What’swrong,sir?”