”ButIwantyoutounderstand,Mr……”shehadactuallytothinkofmyname……”Mr。Marlow,thatIhavewrittentoMrs。FynethatIhaven’tbeen——thatIhavedonenothingtomakeCaptainAnthonybehavetomeashehadbehaved。Ihaven’t。Ihaven’t。Itisn’tmydoing。Itisn’tmyfault——ifshelikestoputitinthatway。Butshe,withherideas,oughttounderstandthatIcouldn’t,thatI couldn’t……Iknowshehatesmenow。Ithinksheneverlikedme。
Ithinknobodyevercaredforme。Iwastoldoncenobodycouldcareforme;andIthinkitistrue。AtanyrateIcan’tforgetit。”
Herabominableexperiencewiththegovernesshadimplantedinherunluckybreastalastingdoubt,anineradicablesuspicionofherselfandofothers。Isaid:”Remember,MissdeBarral,thattobefairyoumusttrustamanaltogether——ornotatall。”
Shedroppedhereyessuddenly。IthoughtIheardafaintsigh。I
triedtotakealighttoneagain,andyetitseemedimpossibletogetoffthegroundwhichgavememystandingwithher。”Mrs。Fyneisabsurd。She’sanexcellentwoman,butreallyyoucouldnotbeexpectedtothrowawayyourchanceoflifesimplythatshemightcherishagoodopinionofyourmemory。Thatwouldbeexcessive。””ItwasnotofmylifethatIwasthinkingwhileCaptainAnthonywas——wasspeakingtome,”saidFloradeBarralwithaneffort。
Itoldherthatshewaswrongthen。Sheoughttohavebeenthinkingofherlife,andnotonlyofherlifebutofthelifeofthemanwhowasspeakingtohertoo。Sheletmefinish,thenshookherheadimpatiently。”Imean——death。””Well,”Isaid,”whenhestoodbeforeyouthere,outsidethecottage,hereallystoodbetweenyouandthat。Ihaveitoutofyourownmouth。Youcan’tdenyit。””Ifyouwillhaveitthathesavedmylife,thenhehasgotit。Itwasnotforme。Ohno!ItwasnotformethatI——Itwasnotfear!
There!”Shefinishedpetulantly:”Andyoumayjustaswellknowit。”
Shehungherheadandswungtheparasolslightlytoandfro。I
thoughtalittle。”DoyouknowFrench,MissdeBarral?”Iasked。
Shemadeasignwithherheadthatshedid,butwithoutshowinganysurpriseatthequestionandwithoutceasingtoswingherparasol。”Wellthen,somehoworotherIhavethenotionthatCaptainAnthonyiswhattheFrenchcallungalanthomme。Ishouldliketothinkheisbeingtreatedashedeserves。”
Theformofherlips(Icouldseethemunderthebrimofherhat)
wassuddenlyalteredintoalineofseriousness。Theparasolstoppedswinging。”Ihavegivenhimwhathewanted——that’smyself,”shesaidwithoutatremorandwithastrikingdignityoftone。
Impressedbythemannerandthedirectnessofthewords,Ihesitatedforamomentwhattosay。Thenmadeupmymindtoclearupthepoint。”Andyouhavegotwhatyouwanted?Isthatit?”
ThedaughteroftheegregiousfinancierdeBarraldidnotansweratoncethisquestiongoingtotheheartofthings。Thenraisingherheadandgazingwistfullyacrossthestreetnoisywiththeendlesstransitofinnumerablebargains,shesaidwithintensegravity:”Hehasbeenmostgenerous。”
Iwaspleasedtohearthesewords。NotthatIdoubtedtheinfatuationofRoderickAnthony,butIwaspleasedtohearsomethingwhichprovedthatshewassensibleandopentothesentimentofgratitudewhichinthiscasewassignificant。Inthefaceofman’sdesireagirlisexcusableifshethinksherselfpriceless。Imeanagirlofourcivilizationwhichhasestablishedadithyrambicphraseologyfortheexpressionoflove。Amaninlovewillacceptanyconventionexaltingtheobjectofhispassionandinthisindirectwayhispassionitself。InwhatwaythecaptainoftheshipFerndalegaveproofsoflover-likelavishnessIcouldnotguessverywell。ButIwasgladshewasappreciative。Itisluckythatsmallthingspleasewomen。Anditisnotsillyofthemtobethuspleased。Itisinsmallthingsthatthedeepestloyalty,thatwhichtheyneedmost,theloyaltyofthepassingmoment,isbestexpressed。
Shehadremainedthoughtful,lettingherdeepmotionlesseyesrestonthestreamingjumbleoftraffic。Suddenlyshesaid:”AndIwantedtoaskyou……IwasreallygladwhenIsawyouactuallyhere。Whowouldhaveexpectedyouhere,atthisspot,beforethishotel!Icertainlynever……Youseeitmeantalottome。Youaretheonlypersonwhoknows……whoknowsforcertain……””Knowswhat?”Isaid,notdiscoveringatfirstwhatshehadinhermind。ThenIsawit。”Whycan’tyouleavethatalone?”I
remonstrated,ratherannoyedattheinvidiouspositionshewasforcingonmeinasense。”It’struethatIwastheonlypersontosee,”Iadded。”But,asithappens,afteryourmysteriousdisappearanceItoldtheFynesthestoryofourmeeting。”
Hereyesraisedtominehadanexpressionofdreamy,unfathomablecandour,ifIdaresayso。AndifyouwonderwhatImeanIcanonlysaythatIhaveseentheseawearsuchanexpressionononeortwooccasionsshortlybeforesunriseonacalm,freshday。ShesaidasifmeditatingaloudthatshesupposedtheFyneswerenotlikelytotalkaboutthat。Shecouldn’timagineanyconnectioninwhich……
Whyshouldthey?
AshertonehadbecomeinterrogatoryIassented。”Tobesure。
There’snoreasonwhatever——”thinkingtomyselfthattheywouldbemorelikelyindeedtokeepquietaboutit。Theyhadotherthingstotalkof。AndthenrememberinglittleFynestuckupstairsforanunconscionabletime,enoughtoblurtouteverythingheeverknewinhislife,IreflectedthathewouldassumenaturallythatCaptainAnthonyhadnothingtolearnfromhimaboutFloradeBarral。Ithadbeenuptonowmyassumptiontoo。Isawmymistake。Thesincerestofwomenwillmakenounnecessaryconfidencestoaman。Andthisisasitshouldbe。”No——no!”Isaidreassuringly。”It’smostunlikely。Areyoumuchconcerned?””Well,yousee,whenIcamedown,”shesaidagaininthatprecisedemuretone,”whenIcamedown——intothegardenCaptainAnthonymisunderstood——””Ofcoursehewould。Menaresoconceited,”Isaid。
Isawitwellenoughthathemusthavethoughtshehadcomedowntohim。Whatelsecouldhehavethought?Andthenhehadbeen”gentlenessitself。”Anewexperienceforthatpoor,delicate,andyetsoresistingcreature。Gentlenessinpassion!Whatcouldhavebeenmoreseductivetothescared,starvedheartofthatgirl?
Perhapshadhebeenviolent,shemighthavetoldhimthatwhatshecamedowntokeepwasthetrystofdeath——notoflove。ItoccurredtomeasIlookedather,young,fragileinaspect,andintenselyaliveinherquietness,thatperhapsshedidnotknowherselfthenwhatsortoftrystshewascomingdowntokeep。
Shesmiledfaintly,almostawkwardlyasifsheweretotallyunusedtosmiling,atmycheapjocularity。Thenshesaidwiththatforcedprecision,asortofconsciousprimness:”Ididn’twanthimtoknow。”
Iapprovedheartily。Quiteright。Muchbetter。Lethimeverremainunderhismisapprehensionwhichwassomuchmoreflatteringforhim。
Itriedtokeepitinthetoneofcomedy;butshewas,Ibelieve,toosimpletounderstandmyintention。Shewenton,lookingdown。”Oh!Youthinkso?WhenIsawyouIdidn’tknowwhyyouwerehere。
IwasgladwhenyouspoketomebecausethisisexactlywhatI
wantedtoaskyoufor。IwantedtoaskyouifyouevermeetCaptainAnthony——byanychance——anywhere——youareasailortoo,areyounot?——thatyouwouldnevermention——never——that——thatyouhadseenmeoverthere。””Mydearyounglady,”Icried,horror-struckatthesupposition。”WhyshouldI?WhatmakesyouthinkIshoulddreamof……”
Shehadraisedherheadatmyvehemence。Shedidnotunderstandit。
Theworldhadtreatedhersodishonourablythatshehadnonotionevenofwhatmeredecencyoffeelingislike。Itwasnotherfault。
Indeed,Idon’tknowwhysheshouldhaveputhertrustinanybody’spromises。
ButIthoughtitwouldbebettertopromise。SoIassuredherthatshecoulddependonmyabsolutesilence。”IamnotlikelytoeverseteyesonCaptainAnthony,”Iaddedwithconviction——asafurtherguarantee。
Sheacceptedmyassuranceinsilence,withoutasign。Hergravityhadinitsomethingacute,perhapsbecauseofthatchin。Whilewewerestilllookingateachothershedeclared:”There’snodeceptioninitreally。IwantyoutobelievethatifI
amhere,likethis,to-day,itisnotfromfear。Itisnot!””Iquiteunderstand,”Isaid。Butherfirmyetself-consciousgazebecamedoubtful。”Ido,”Iinsisted。”Iunderstandperfectlythatitwasnotofdeaththatyouwereafraid。”
Sheloweredhereyesslowly,andIwenton:”Astolife,that’sanotherthing。AndIdon’tknowthatoneoughttoblameyouverymuch——thoughitseemedratheranexcessivestep。
Iwondernowifitisn’ttheuglinessratherthanthepainofthestrugglewhich……”
Sheshudderedvisibly:”ButIdoblamemyself,”sheexclaimedwithfeeling。”Iamashamed。”And,droppingherhead,shelookedinamomenttheverypictureofremorseandshame。”Well,youwillbegoingawayfromallitshorrors,”Isaid。”Andsurelyyouarenotafraidofthesea。Youareasailor’sgranddaughter,Iunderstand。”
Shesigheddeeply。Sherememberedhergrandfatheronlyalittle。
Hewasaclean-shavenmanwitharuddycomplexionandlong,perfectlywhitehair。Heusedtotakeheronhisknee,andputtinghisfacenearhers,talktoherinlovingwhispers。Ifonlyhewerealivenow……!
Sheremainedsilentforawhile。”Aren’tyouanxioustoseetheship?”Iasked。
SheloweredherheadstillmoresothatIcouldnotseeanythingofherface。”Idon’tknow,”shemurmured。
Ihadalreadythesuspicionthatshedidnotknowherownfeelings。
Allthisworkofthemerestchancehadbeensounexpected,sosudden。Andshehadnothingtofallbackupon,noexperiencebutsuchastoshakeherbeliefineveryhumanbeing。Shewasdreadfullyandpitifullyforlorn。ItwasalmostinordertocomfortmyowndepressionthatIremarkedcheerfully:”Well,Iknowofsomebodywhomustbegrowingextremelyanxioustoseeyou。””Iambeforemytime,”sheconfessedsimply,rousingherself。”I
hadnothingtodo。SoIcameout。”
Ihadthesuddenvisionofashabby,lonelylittleroomattheotherendofthetown。Ithadgrownintolerabletoherrestlessness。Themerethoughtofitoppressedher。FloradeBarralwaslookingfranklyatherchanceconfidant,”AndIcamethisway,”shewenton。”Iappointedthetimemyselfyesterday,butCaptainAnthonywouldnothaveminded。HetoldmehewasgoingtolookoversomebusinesspaperstillIcame。”
Theideaofthesonofthepoet,therescuerofthemostforlorndamselofmoderntimes,themanofviolence,gentlenessandgenerosity,sittinguptohisneckinship’saccountsamusedme。”I
amsurehewouldnothaveminded,”Isaid,smiling。Butthegirl’sstarewassombre,herthinwhitefaceseemedpatheticallycareworn。”Icanhardlybelieveyet,”shemurmuredanxiously。”It’squitereal。Neverfear,”Isaidencouragingly,buthadtochangemytoneatonce。”Youhadbettergodownthatwayalittle,”
Idirectedherabruptly。
IhadseenFynecomestridingoutofthehoteldoor。Theintelligentgirl,withoutstayingtoaskquestions,walkedawayfrommequietlydownonestreetwhileIhurriedontomeetFynecominguptheotherathisefficientpedestriangait。Myobjectwastostophimgettingasfarasthecorner。Hemusthavebeenthinkingtoohardtobeawareofhissurroundings。Iputmyselfinhisway,andhenearlywalkedintome。”Hallo!”Isaid。
Hissurprisewasextreme。”Youhere!Youdon’tmeantosayyouhavebeenwaitingforme?”
IsaidnegligentlythatIhadbeendetainedbyunexpectedbusinessintheneighbourhood,andthushappenedtocatchsightofhimcomingout。
Hestaredatmewithsolemndistraction,obviouslythinkingofsomethingelse。Isuggestedthathehadbettertakethenextcity-
wardtramcar。Hewasinattentive,andIperceivedthathewasprofoundlyperturbed。AsMissdeBarral(shehadmovedoutofsight)couldnotpossiblyapproachthehoteldooraslongasweremainedwherewewereIproposedthatweshouldwaitforthecarontheothersideofthestreet。Heobeyedrathertheslighttouchonhisarmthanmywords,andwhilewewerecrossingthewideroadwayinthemidstofthelumberingwheeledtraffic,heexclaimedinhisdeeptone,”Idon’tknowwhichofthesetwoismoremadthantheother!””Really!”Isaid,pullinghimforwardfromunderthenosesoftwoenormoussleepy-headedcart-horses。Heskippedwildlyoutofthewayanduponthecurbstonewithapurelyinstinctiveprecision;hismindhadnothingtodowithhismovements。Inthemiddleofhisleap,andwhileintheactofsailinggravelythroughtheair,hecontinuedtorelievehisoutragedfeelings。”Youwouldneverbelieve!TheyAREmad!”
Itookcaretoplacemyselfinsuchapositionthattofacemehehadtoturnhisbackonthehotelacrosstheroad。IbelievehewasgladIwastheretotalkto。ButIthoughttherewassomemisapprehensioninthefirststatementheshotoutatmewithoutlossoftime,thatCaptainAnthonyhadbeengladtoseehim。Itwasindeeddifficulttobelievethat,directlyheopenedthedoor,hiswife’s”sailor-brother”hadpositivelyshouted:”Oh,it’syou!TheverymanIwantedtosee。””Ifoundhimsittingthere,”wentonFyneimpressivelyinhiseffortless,gravechestvoice,”draftinghiswill。”
Thiswasunexpected,butIpreservedanoncommittalattitude,knowingfullwellthatouractionsinthemselvesareneithermadnorsane。ButIdidnotseewhattherewastobeexcitedabout。AndFynewasdistinctlyexcited。IunderstooditbetterwhenIlearnedthatthecaptainoftheFerndalewantedlittleFynetobeoneofthetrustees。Hewasleavingeverythingtohiswife。Naturally,arequestwhichinvolvedhimintosanctioninginawayaproceedingwhichhehadbeensentbyhiswifetooppose,musthaveappearedsufficientlymadtoFyne。”Me!Me,ofallpeopleintheworld!”herepeatedportentously。
ButIcouldseethathewasfrightened。Suchwantoftact!”HeknewIcamefromhissister。Youdon’tputamanintosuchanawkwardposition,”complainedFyne。”ItmademespeakmuchmorestronglyagainstallthisverypainfulbusinessthanIwouldhavehadthehearttodootherwise。”
Ipointedouttohimconcisely,andkeepingmyeyesonthedoorofthehotel,thatheandhiswifeweretheonlybondwiththelandCaptainAnthonyhad。Whoelsecouldhehaveasked?”Iexplainedtohimthathewasbreakingthisbond,”declaredFynesolemnly。”Breakingitonceforall。Andforwhat——forwhat?”
Heglaredatme。Icouldperhapshavegivenhimaninklingforwhat,butIsaidnothing。Hestartedagain:”Mywifeassuresmethatthegirldoesnotlovehimabit。Shegoesbythatlettershereceivedfromher。Thereisapassageinitwhereshepracticallyadmitsthatshewasquiteunscrupulousinacceptingthisofferofmarriage,butsaystomywifethatshesupposesshe,mywife,willnotblameher——asitwasinself-
defence。Mywifehasherownideas,butthisisanoutrageousmisapprehensionofherviews。Outrageous。”
Thegoodlittlemanpausedandthenaddedweightily:”Ididn’ttellthattomybrother-in-law——Imean,mywife’sviews。””No,”Isaid。”Whatwouldhavebeenthegood?””It’spositiveinfatuation,”agreedlittleFyne,inthetoneasthoughhehadmadeanawfuldiscovery。”Ihaveneverseenanythingsohopelessandinexplicableinmylife。I——Ifeltquitefrightenedandsorry,”headded,whileIlookedathimcuriouslyaskingmyselfwhetherthisexcellentcivilservantandnotablepedestrianhadfeltthebreathofagreatandfatallove-spellpassinghimbyintheroomofthatEast-endhotel。Hedidlookforamomentasthoughhehadseenaghost,another-worldthing。Butthatlookvanishedinstantaneously,andhenoddedatmewithmereexasperationatsomethingquiteofthisworld——whateveritwas。”It’sabadbusiness。Mybrother-in-lawknowsnothingofwomen,”hecriedwithanairofprofound,experiencedwisdom。
WhatheimaginedheknewofwomenhimselfIcan’ttell。Ididnotknowanythingoftheopportunitieshemighthavehad。Butthisisasubjectwhich,ifapproachedwithunduesolemnity,isapttoeludeone’sgraspentirely。NodoubtFyneknewsomethingofawomanwhowasCaptainAnthony’ssister。Butthat,admittedly,hadbeenaverysolemnstudy。Ismiledathimgently,andasifencouragedorprovoked,hecompletedhisthoughtratherexplosively。”Andthatgirlunderstandsnothing……It’ssheerlunacy。””Idon’tknow,”Isaid,”whetherthecircumstancesofisolationatseawouldbeanyalleviationtothedanger。Butit’scertainthattheyshallhavetheopportunitytolearneverythingabouteachotherinalonelytete-e-tete。””Butdashitall,”hecriedinhollowaccentswhichatthesametimehadthetoneofbitterirony——Ihadneverbeforeheardasoundsoquaintlyuglyandalmosthorrible——”YouforgetMr。Smith。””WhatMr。Smith?”Iaskedinnocently。
Fynemadeanextraordinarysimiesquegrimace。Ibelieveitwasquiteinvoluntary,butyouknowthatagrave,much-lined,shavencountenancewhendistortedinanunusualwayisextremelyapelike。
Itwasasurprisingsight,andrenderedmenotonlyspeechlessbutstoppedtheprogressofmythoughtcompletely。Imusthavepresentedaremarkablyimbecileappearance。”Mybrother-in-lawconsidereditamusingtochaffmeaboutusintroducingthegirlasMissSmith,”saidFyne,goingsurlyinamoment。”Hesaidthatperhapsifhehadheardherrealnamefromthefirstitmighthaverestrainedhim。Asitwas,hemadethediscoverytoolate。AskedmetotellZoethistogetherwithalotmorenonsense。”
Fynegavemetheimpressionofhavingescapedfromamaninspiredbyagrimlyplayfulebullitionofhighspirits。Itmusthavebeenmostdistastefultohim;andhissolemnitygotdamagedsomehowintheprocess,Iperceived。TherewereholesinitthroughwhichIcouldseeanew,anunknownFyne。”Youwouldn’tbelieveit,”hewenton,”butshelooksuponherfatherexclusivelyasavictim。Idon’tknow,”heburstoutsuddenlythroughanenormousrentinhissolemnity,”ifshethinkshimabsolutelyasaint,butshecertainlyimagineshimtobeamartyr。”
Itisoneoftheadvantagesofthatmagnificentinvention,theprison,thatyoumayforgetpeoplewhichareputthereasthoughtheyweredead。Oneneedn’tworryaboutthem。Nothingcanhappentothemthatyoucanhelp。Theycandonothingwhichmightpossiblymattertoanybody。Theycomeoutofit,though,butthatseemshardlyanadvantagetothemselvesoranyoneelse。IhadcompletelyforgottenthefinancierdeBarral。Thegirlformewasanorphan,butnowIperceivedsuddenlytheforceofFyne’squalifyingstatement,”toacertainextent。”Itwouldhavebeeninfinitelymorekindallroundforthelawtohaveshot,beheaded,strangled,orotherwisedestroyedthisabsurddeBarral,whowasadangertoamoralworldinhabitedbyacredulousmultitudenotfittotakecareofitself。ButIobservedtoFynethat,howeverinsanewastheviewsheheld,onecouldnotdeclarethegirlmadonthataccount。”Soshethinksofherfather——doesshe?Isupposeshewouldappeartoussanerifshethoughtonlyofherself。””Iampositive,”Fynesaidearnestly,”thatshewentandmadedesperateeyesatAnthony……””Ohcome!”Iinterrupted。”Youhaven’tseenhermakeeyes。Youdon’tknowthecolourofhereyes。””Verywell!Itdon’tmatter。Butitcouldhardlyhavecometothatifshehadn’t……It’sallone,though。Itellyoushehasledhimon,oracceptedhim,ifyoulike,simplybecauseshewasthinkingofherfather。Shedoesn’tcareabitaboutAnthony,I
believe。Shecaresfornoone。Nevercaredforanyone。AskZoe。
FormyselfIdon’tblameher,”addedFyne,givingmeanotherviewofunsuspectedthingsthroughtheragsandtattersofhisdamagedsolemnity。”No!byheavens,Idon’tblameher——thepoordevil。”
Iagreedwithhimsilently。Isupposeaffectionsare,inasense,tobelearned。Ifthereexistsanativesparkofloveinallofus,itmustbefannedwhileweareyoung。Hers,ifsheeverhadit,hadbeendrenchedinasuglyalotofcorrosiveliquidascouldbeimagined。ButIwassurprisedatFyneobscurelyfeelingthis。”Shelovesnooneexceptthatpreposterousadvertisingshark,”hepursuedvenomously,butinamoredeliberatemanner。”AndAnthonyknowsit。””Doeshe?”Isaiddoubtfully。”She’squitecapableofhavingtoldhimherself,”affirmedFyne,withamazinginsight。”Butwhetherorno,I’VEtoldhim。””Youdid?FromMrs。Fyne,ofcourse。”
Fyneonlyblinkedowlishlyatthispieceofmyinsight。”AndhowdidCaptainAnthonyreceivethisinterestinginformation?”
Iaskedfurther。”Mostimproperly,”saidFyne,whoreallywasinastateinwhichhedidn’tmindwhatheblurtedout。”Heisn’thimself。Hebeggedmetotellhissisterthatheofferednoremarksonherconduct。Veryimproperandinconsequent。Hesaid……Iwastiredofthiswrangling。ItoldhimImadeallowancesforthestateofexcitementhewasin。””Youknow,Fyne,”Isaid,”amaninjailseemstomesuchanincredible,cruel,nightmarishsortofthingthatIcanhardlybelieveinhisexistence。Certainlynotinrelationtoanyotherexistences。””Butdashitall,”criedFyne,”heisn’tshutupforlife。Theyaregoingtolethimout。He’scomingout!That’sthewholetrouble。
Whatishecomingoutto,Iwanttoknow?Itseemsamorecruelbusinessthantheshuttinghimupwas。Thishasbeentheworryforweeks。Doyouseenow?”
Isaw,allsortsofthings!ImmediatelybeforemeIsawtheexcitementoflittleFyne——merefoodforwonder。Furtheroff,inasortofgloomandbeyondthelightofdayandthemovementofthestreet,Isawthefigureofaman,stifflikearamrod,movingwithsmallsteps,aslightgirlishfigurebyhisside。Andthegloomwaslikethegloomofvillainousslums,ofmisery,ofwretchedness,ofastarvedanddegradedexistence。ItwasareliefthatIcouldseeonlytheirshabbyhopelessbacks。Hewasanawfulghost。Butindeedtocallhimaghostwasonlyarefinementofpolitespeech,andamannerofconcealingone’sterrorofsuchthings。Prisonsarewonderfulcontrivances。Shut——open。Veryneat。Shut——open。Andoutcomessomesortofcorpse,towanderawfullyinaworldinwhichithasnopossibleconnectionsandcarryingwithittheappallingtaintedatmosphereofitssilentabode。Marvellousarrangement。Itworksautomatically,and,whenyoulookatit,theperfectionmakesyousick;whichforameremechanismisnomeantriumph。Sickandscared。Ithadnearlyscaredthatpoorgirltoherdeath。Fancyhavingtotakesuchathingbythehand!NowIunderstoodtheremorsefulstrainIhaddetectedinherspeeches。”ByJove!”Isaid。”Theyareabouttolethimout!Ineverthoughtofthat。”
Fynewascontemptuouseitherofmeorofthingsatlarge。”Youdidn’tsupposehewastobekeptinjailforlife?”
AtthatmomentIcaughtsightofFloradeBarralatthejunctionofthetwostreets。Thensomevehiclesfollowingeachotherinquicksuccessionhidfrommysighttheblackslightfigurewithjustatouchofcolourinherhat。Shewaswalkingslowly;anditmighthavebeencautionorreluctance。WhilelisteningtoFyneIstaredhardpasthisshouldertryingtocatchsightofheragain。Hewasgoingonwithpositiveheat,theragsofhissolemnitydroppingoffhimateverysecondsentence。
Thatwasjustit。Hiswifeandhehadbeenperfectlyawareofit。
OfcoursethegirlnevertalkedofherfatherwithMrs。Fyne。I
supposewithhertheoryofinnocenceshefounditdifficult。Butshemusthavebeenthinkingofitdayandnight。Whattodowithhim?Wheretogo?Howtokeepbodyandsoultogether?Hehadnevermadeanyfriends。TheonlyrelationsweretheatrociousEast-
endcousins。Weknowwhattheywere。Nothingbutwretchedness,whicheverwaysheturnedinanunjustandprejudicedworld。Andtolookathimhelplesslyshefeltwouldbetoomuchforher。
Iwon’tsayIwasthinkingthesethoughts。Itwasnotnecessary。
ThiscompleteknowledgewasinmyheadwhileIstaredhardacrossthewideroad,sohardthatIfailedtohearlittleFynetillheraisedhisdeepvoiceindignantly。”Idon’tblamethegirl,”hewassaying。”Heisinfatuatedwithher。Anybodycanseethat。WhysheshouldhavegotsuchaholdonhimIcan’tunderstand。Shesaid”Yes”tohimonlyforthesakeofthatfatuous,swindlingfatherofhers。It’sperfectlyplainifonethinksitoveramoment。Oneneedn’teventhinkofit。Wehaveitunderherownhand。Inthatlettertomywifeshesaysshehasactedunscrupulously。Shehasownedup,then,forwhatelsecanitmean,Ishouldliketoknow。Andsotheyaretobemarriedbeforethatoldidiotcomesout……Hewillbesurprised,”commentedFynesuddenlyinastrangelymalignanttone。”HeshallbemetatthejaildoorbyaMrs。Anthony,aMrs。CaptainAnthony。VerypleasantforZoe。AndforallIknow,mybrother-in-lawmeanstoturnupdutifullytoo。Alittlefamilyevent。It’sextremelypleasanttothinkof。Delightful。Acharmingfamilyparty。Wethreeagainsttheworld——andallthatsortofthing。Andwhatfor。Foragirlthatdoesn’tcaretwopenceforhim。”
ThedemonofbitternesshadenteredintolittleFyne。Heamazedmeasthoughhehadchangedhisskinfromwhitetoblack。Itwasquiteaswonderful。Andhekeptitup,too。”Luckilytherearesomeadvantagesinthe——theprofessionofasailor。Aslongastheydefytheworldawayatseasomewhereeighteenthousandmilesfromhere,Idon’tmindsomuch。Iwonderwhatthatinterestingoldpartywillsay。Hewillhaveanothersurprise。Theymeantodraghimalongwiththemonboardtheshipstraightaway。Rescuework。JustthinkofRoderickAnthony,thesonofagentleman,afterall……”
Hegavemealittleshock。Ithoughthewasgoingtosaythe”sonofthepoet”asusual;buthismindwasnotrunningonsuchvanitiesnow。Hisunspokenthoughtmusthavegoneon”anduncleofmygirls。”IsuspectthathehadbeenroughlyhandledbyCaptainAnthonyupthere,andtheresentmentgaveatremendousfilliptotheslowplayofhiswits。Thosemenofsoberfancy,whenanythingrousestheirimaginativefaculty,areverythorough。”Justthink!”
hecried。”Thethreeofthemcrowdedintoafour-wheeler,andAnthonysittingdeferentiallyoppositethatastonishedoldjail-
bird!”
Thegoodlittlemanlaughed。Animpropersounditwastocomefromhismanlychest;andwhatmadeitworsewasthethoughtthatfortheleastthing,byamerehair’sbreadth,hemighthavetakenthisaffairsentimentally。ButclearlyAnthonywasnodiplomatist。Hisbrother-in-lawmusthaveappearedtohim,tousethelanguageofshorepeople,aperfectphilistinewithaheartlikeaflint。WhatFynepreciselymeantby”wrangling”Idon’tknow,butIhadnodoubtthatthesetwohad”wrangled”toaprofoundlydisturbingextent。
HowmuchtheotherwasaffectedIcouldnotevenimagine;butthemanbeforemewasquiteamazinglyupset。”Inafour-wheeler!Takehimonboard!”Imuttered,startledbythechangeinFyne。”That’stheplan——nothingless。IfIamtobelievewhatIhavebeentold,hisfeetwillscarcelytouchthegroundbetweentheprison-
gatesandthedeckofthatship。”
ThetransformedFynespokeinaforciblyloweredtonewhichIheardwithoutdifficulty。Therumbling,compositenoisesofthestreetwerehushedforamoment,duringoneofthesesuddenbreaksinthetrafficasifthestreamofcommercehaddriedupatitssource。
HavinganunobstructedviewpastFyne’sshoulder,Iwasastonishedtoseethatthegirlwasstillthere。Ithoughtshehadgoneuplongbefore。Buttherewasherblackslenderfigure,herwhitefaceundertherosesofherhat。Shestoodontheedgeofthepavementaspeoplestandonthebankofastream,verystill,asifwaiting——
orasifunconsciousofwhereshewas。Thethreedismal,soddenloafers(Icouldseethemtoo;theyhadn’tbudgedaninch)seemedtometobewatchingher。Whichwashorrible。
MeantimeFynewastellingmeratherremarkablethings——forhim。Hedeclaredfirstitwasamercyinasense。Thenheaskedmeifitwerenotrealmadness,tosaddleone’sexistencewithsuchaperpetualreminder。Thedailyexistence。Theisolatedsea-boundexistence。Tobringsuchanadditionalstrainintothesolitudealreadytryingenoughfortwopeoplewasthecraziestthing。
Undesirablerelationswerebadenoughonshore。Onecouldcutthemoratleastforgettheirexistencenowandthen。Hehimselfwaspreparingtoforgethisbrother-in-law’sexistenceasmuchaspossible。
Thatwasthegeneralsenseofhisremarks,nothisexactwords。I
thoughtthathiswife’sbrother’sexistencehadneverbeenveryembarrassingtohimbutthatnowofcoursehewouldhavetoabstainfromhisallusionstothe”sonofthepoet——youknow。”Isaid”yes,yes”inthepausesbecauseIdidnotwanthimtoturnround;andallthetimeIwaswatchingthegirlintently。IthoughtIknewnowwhatshemeantwithher——”Hewasmostgenerous。”Yes。Generosityofcharactermaycarryamanthroughanysituation。Butwhydidn’tshegothentohergenerousman?Whystandthereasifclingingtothissolidearthwhichshesurelyhatedasonemusthatetheplacewhereonehasbeentormented,hopeless,unhappy?Suddenlyshestirred。Wasshegoingtocrossover?No。Sheturnedandbegantowalkslowlyclosetothecurbstone,remindingmeofthetimewhenI
discoveredherwalkingneartheedgeofaninety-footsheerdrop。
Itwasthesameimpression,thesamecarriage,straight,slim,withrigidheadandthetwohandshanginglightlyclaspedinfront——onlynowasmallsunshadewasdanglingfromthem。IsawsomethingfatefulinthatdeliberatepacingtowardstheinconspicuousdoorwiththewordsHOTELENTRANCEontheglasspanels。
ShewasabreastofitnowandIthoughtthatshewouldstopagain;
butno!Sheswervedrigidly——atthemomenttherewasnoonenearher;shehadthatbitofpavementtoherself——withinanimateslownessasifmovedbysomethingoutsideherself。”Aconfoundedconvict,”Fyneburstout。
WiththesoundofthatwordoffendingmyearsIsawthegirlextendherarm,pushthedooropenalittlewayandglidein。Isawplainlythatmovement,thehandputoutinadvancewiththegestureofasleep-walker。
Shehadvanished,herblackfigurehadmeltedinthedarknessoftheopendoor。ForsometimeFynesaidnothing;andIthoughtofthegirlgoingupstairs,appearingbeforetheman。Weretheylookingateachotherinsilenceandfeelingtheywerealoneintheworldasloversshouldatthemomentofmeeting?ButthatfineforgetfulnesswassurelyimpossibletoAnthonytheseamandirectlyafterthewranglinginterviewwithFynetheemissaryofanorderofthingswhichstopsattheedgeofthesea。HowmuchhewasdisturbedI
couldn’ttellbecauseIdidnotknowwhatthatimpetuousloverhadhadtolistento。”Goingtotaketheoldfellowtoseawiththem,”Isaid。”WellI
reallydon’tseewhatelsetheycouldhavedonewithhim。Youtoldyourbrother-in-lawwhatyouthoughtofit?Iwonderhowhetookit。””Veryimproperly,”repeatedFyne。”Hismannerwasoffensive,derisive,fromthefirst。Idon’tmeanhewasactuallyrudeinwords。Hangitall,Iamnotacontemptibleass。Buthewasexultingathavinggotholdofamiserablegirl。””Itisprettycertainthatshewillbemuchlesspoorandmiserable,”Imurmured。
ItlookedasiftheexultationofCaptainAnthonyhadgotonFyne’snerves。”Itoldthefellowveryplainlythathewasabominablyselfishinthis,”heaffirmedunexpectedly。”Youdid!Selfish!”Isaidrathertakenaback。”Butwhatifthegirlthoughtthat,onthecontrary,hewasmostgenerous。””Whatdoyouknowaboutit,”growledFyne。Therentsandslashesofhissolemnitywereclosingupgraduallybutitwasgoingtobeasurlysolemnity。”Generosity!Iamdisposedtogiveitanothername。No。Notfolly,”heshotoutatmeasthoughIhadmeanttointerrupthim。”Stillanother。Somethingworse。Ineednottellyouwhatitis,”headdedwithgrimmeaning。”Certainly。Youneedn’t——unlessyoulike,”Isaidblankly。LittleFynehadneverinterestedmesomuchsincethebeginningofthedeBarral-AnthonyaffairwhenIfirstperceivedpossibilitiesinhim。
Thepossibilitiesofdullmenareexcitingbecausewhentheyhappentheysuggestlegendarycasesof”possession,”notexactlybythedevilbut,anyhow,byastrangespirit。”Itoldhimitwasashame,”saidFyne。”Evenifthegirldidmakeeyesathim——butIthinkwithyouthatshedidnot。Yes!Ashametotakeadvantageofagirl’s——adistressesgirlthatdoesnotlovehimintheleast。””Youthinkit’ssobadasthat?”Isaid。”BecauseyouknowI
don’t。””Whatcanyouthinkaboutit,”heretortedonmewithasolemnstare。”Igobyherlettertomywife。””Ah!thatfamousletter。Butyouhaven’tactuallyreadit,”Isaid。”No,butmywifetoldme。Ofcourseitwasamostimpropersortoflettertowriteconsideringthecircumstances。ItpainedMrs。Fynetodiscoverhowthoroughlyshehadbeenmisunderstood。Butwhatiswrittenisnotall。It’swhatmywifecouldreadbetweenthelines。
Shesaysthatthegirlisreallyterrifiedatheart。””Shehadnotmuchinlifetogiveheranyveryspecialcourageforit,oranygreatconfidenceinmankind。That’sverytrue。Butthisseemsanexaggeration。””Ishouldliketoknowwhatreasonsyouhavetosaythat,”askedFynewithoffendedsolemnity。”Ireallydon’tseeany。ButIhadsufficientauthoritytotellmybrother-in-lawthatifhethoughthewasgoingtodosomethingchivalrousandfinehewasmistaken。I
canseeverywellthathewilldoeverythingsheaskshimtodo——
but,allthesame,itisratherapitilesstransaction。”
ForamomentIfeltitmightbeso。Fynecaughtsightofanapproachingtram-carandsteppedoutontheroadtomeetit。”Haveyouamorecompassionateschemeready?”Icalledafterhim。Hemadenoanswer,clamberedontotherearplatform,andonlythenlookedback。Weexchangedaperfunctorywaveofthehand。Wealsolookedateachother,heratherangrily,Ifancy,andIwithwonder。Imayalsomentionthatitwasforthelasttime。FromthatdayIneverseteyesontheFynes。Asusualtheunexpectedhappenedtome。IthadnothingtodowithFloradeBarral。ThefactisthatIwentaway。Mycallwasnotlikehercall。Minewasnoturgedonmewithpassionatevehemenceortendergentlenessmadeallthefinerandmorecompellingbytheallurementsofgenerositywhichisavirtueasmysteriousasanyotherbuthavingaglamourofitsown。No,itwasjustaprosaicofferofemploymentonrathergoodtermswhich,withasuddensenseofhavingwastedmytimeonshorelongenough,I
acceptedwithoutmisgivings。AndoncestartedoutofmyindolenceI
went,asmyhabitwas,very,veryfarawayandforalong,longtime。Whichisanotherproofofmyindolence。HowfarFlorawentI
can’tsay。ButIwilltellyoumyidea:myideaisthatshewentasfarasshewasable——asfarasshecouldbearit——asfarasshehadto……”
PARTII——THEKNIGHT
CHAPTERONE——THEFERNDALE
IhavesaidthatthestoryofFloradeBarralwasimpartedtomeinstages。AtthisstageIdidnotseeMarlowforsometime。Atlast,oneeveningratherearly,verysoonafterdinner,heturnedupinmyrooms。
Ihadbeenwaitingforhiscallprimedwitharemarkwhichhadnotoccurredtometillafterhehadgoneaway。”Isay,”Itackledhimatonce,”howcanyoubecertainthatFloradeBarraleverwenttosea?Afterall,thewifeofthecaptainoftheFerndale——”theladythatmustn’tbedisturbed”oftheoldship-
keeper——maynothavebeenFlora。””Well,Idoknow,”hesaid,”ifonlybecauseIhavebeenkeepingintouchwithMr。Powell。””Youhave!”Icried。”ThisisthefirstIhearofit。Andsincewhen?””Why,sincethefirstday。Youwentuptotownleavingmeintheinn。Isleptashore。InthemorningMr。Powellcameinforbreakfast;andafterthefirstawkwardnessofmeetingamanyouhavebeenyarningwithover-nighthadwornoff,wediscoveredalikingforeachother。”
AsIhaddiscoveredthefactoftheirmutuallikingbeforeeitherofthem,Iwasnotsurprised。”Andsoyoukeptintouch,”Isaid。”Itwasnotsoverydifficult。AshewasalwaysknockingabouttheriverIhiredDingle’ssloop-riggedthree-tonnertobemoreonanequality。Powellwasfriendlybutelusive。Idon’tthinkheeverwantedtoavoidme。Butitisafactthatheusedtodisappearoutoftheriverinaverymysteriousmannersometimes。Amanmaylandanywhereandboltinland——butwhatabouthisfive-toncutter?Youcan’tcarrythatinyourhandlikeasuit-case。”Thenassuddenlyhewouldreappearintheriver,afteronehadgivenhimup。Ididnotliketobebeaten。That’swhyIhiredDingle’sdeckedboat。Therewasjusttheaccommodationinhertosleepamanandadog。ButIhadnodog-friendtoinvite。Fyne’sdogwhosavedFloradeBarral’slifeisthelastdog-friendIhad。
Iwasratherlonelycruisingabout;butthat,too,ontheriverhasitscharm,sometimes。IchasedthemysteryofthevanishingPowelldreamily,lookingaboutmeattheships,thinkingofthegirlFlora,oflife’schances——and,doyouknow,itwasverysimple。””Whatwasverysimple?”Iaskedinnocently。”Themystery。””Theygenerallyarethat,”Isaid。
Marloweyedmeforamomentinapeculiarmanner。”Well,IhavediscoveredthemysteryofPowell’sdisappearances。
ThefellowusedtorunintooneofthesenarrowtidalcreeksontheEssexshore。ThesecreeksaresoinconspicuousthattillIhadstudiedthechartprettycarefullyIdidnotknowoftheirexistence。Oneafternoon,ImadePowell’sboatout,headingintotheshore。BythetimeIgotclosetothemud-flathiscrafthaddisappearedinland。ButIcouldseethemouthofthecreekbythen。
ThetidebeingontheturnItooktheriskofgettingstuckinthemudsuddenlyandheadedin。AllIhadtoguidemewasthetopoftheroofofsomesortofsmallbuilding。Igotinmorebygoodluckthanbygoodmanagement。Thesunhadsetsometimebefore;myboatglidedinasortofwindingditchbetweentwolowgrassybanks;onbothsidesofmewastheflatnessoftheEssexmarsh,perfectlystill。AllIsawmovingwasaheron;hewasflyinglow,anddisappearedinthemurk。BeforeIhadgonehalfamile,IwasupwiththebuildingtheroofofwhichIhadseenfromtheriver。Itlookedlikeasmallbarn。Arowofpilesdrivenintothesoftbankinfrontofitandsupportingafewplanksmadeasortofwharf。
Allthiswasblackinthefallingdusk,andIcouldjustdistinguishthewhitishrutsofacart-trackstretchingoverthemarshtowardsthehigherland,faraway。Notasoundwastobeheard。AgainstthelowstreakoflightintheskyIcouldseethemastofPowell’scuttermooredtothebanksometwentyyards,nomore,beyondthatblackbarnorwhateveritwas。Ihailedhimwithaloudshout。Gotnoanswer。Aftermakingfastmyboatjustastern,IwalkedalongthebanktohavealookatPowell’s。Beingsomuchbiggerthanmineshewasagroundalready。Hersailswerefurled;theslideofherscuttlehatchwasclosedandpadlocked。Powellwasgone。Hehadwalkedoffintothatdark,stillmarshsomewhere。Ihadnotseenasinglehouseanywherenear;theredidnotseemtobeanyhumanhabitationformiles;andnowasdarknessfelldenseroverthelandIcouldn’tseetheglimmerofasinglelight。However,Isupposedthattheremustbesomevillageorhamletnotveryfaraway;oronlyoneofthesemysteriouslittleinnsonecomesuponsometimesinmostunexpectedandlonelyplaces。”Thestillnesswasoppressive。Iwentbacktomyboat,madesomecoffeeoveraspirit-lamp,devouredafewbiscuits,andstretchedmyselfaft,tosmokeandgazeatthestars。Theearthwasamereshadow,formlessandsilent,andempty,tillabullockturnedupfromsomewhere,quiteshadowytoo。Hecamesmartlytotheveryedgeofthebankasthoughhemeanttosteponboard,stretchedhismuzzlerightovermyboat,blewheavilyonce,andwalkedoffcontemptuouslyintothedarknessfromwhichhehadcome。Ihadnotexpectedacallfromabullock,thoughamoment’sthoughtwouldhaveshownmethattheremustbelotsofcattleandsheeponthatmarsh。
Theneverythingbecamestillasbefore。Imighthaveimaginedmyselfarrivedonadesertisland。Infact,asIreclinedsmokingasenseofabsolutelonelinessgrewonme。Andjustasithadbecomeintense,veryabruptlyandwithoutanypreliminarysoundIheardfirm,quickfootstepsonthelittlewharf。Somebodycomingalongthecart-trackhadjuststeppedataswinginggaitontotheplanks。
ThatsomebodycouldonlyhavebeenMr。Powell。Suddenlyhestoppedshort,havingmadeoutthatthereweretwomastsalongsidethebankwherehehadleftonlyone。Thenhecameonsilentonthegrass。
WhenIspoketohimhewasastonished。”Whowouldhavethoughtofseeingyouhere!”heexclaimed,afterreturningmygoodevening。”ItoldhimIhadruninforcompany。Itwasrigorouslytrue。””YouknewIwashere?”heexclaimed。”Ofcourse,”Isaid。”ItellyouIcameinforcompany。””Heisareallygoodfellow,”wentonMarlow。”Andhiscapacityforastonishmentisquicklyexhausted,itseems。Itwasinthemostmatter-of-factmannerthathesaid,’Comeonboardofme,then;I
havehereenoughsupperfortwo。’Hewasholdingabulkyparcelinthecrookofhisarm。Ididnotwaittobeaskedtwice,asyoumayguess。Hiscutterhasaveryneatlittlecabin,quitebigenoughfortwomennotonlytosleepbuttositandsmokein。Weleftthescuttlewideopen,ofcourse。Astohisprovisionsforsupper,theywerenotofaluxuriouskind。Hecomplainedthattheshopsinthevillageweremiserable。Therewasabigvillagewithinamileandahalf。Itstruckmehehadbeenverylongdoinghisshopping;butnaturallyImadenoremark。Ididn’twanttotalkatallexceptforthepurposeofsettinghimgoing。””Anddidyousethimgoing?”Iasked。”Idid,”saidMarlow,composinghisfeaturesintoanimpenetrableexpressionwhichsomehowassuredmeofhissuccessbetterthananairoftriumphcouldhavedone。”Youmadehimtalk?”Isaidafterasilence。”Yes,Imadehim……abouthimself。””Andtothepoint?””Ifyoumeanbythis,”saidMarlow,”thatitwasaboutthevoyageoftheFerndale,thenagain,yes。Ibroughthimtotalkaboutthatvoyage,which,bytheby,wasnotthefirstvoyageofFloradeBarral。Themanhimself,asItoldyou,issimple,andhisfacultyofwondernotverygreat。He’soneofthosepeoplewhoformnotheoriesaboutfacts。Straightforwardpeopleseldomdo。Neitherhavetheymuchpenetration。Butinthiscaseitdidnotmatter。I——
we——havealreadytheinnerknowledge。WeknowthehistoryofFloradeBarral。WeknowsomethingofCaptainAnthony。Wehavethesecretofthesituation。Themanwasintoxicatedwiththepityandtendernessofhispart。Ohyes!Intoxicatedisnottoostrongaword;foryouknowthatloveanddesiretakemanydisguises。I
believethatthegirlhadbeenfrankwithhim,withthefranknessofwomentowhomperfectfranknessisimpossible,becausesomuchoftheirsafetydependsonjudiciousreticences。Iamnotindulgingincheapsneers。Thereisnecessityinthesethings。Andmoreovershecouldnothavespokenwithacertainvoiceinthefaceofhisimpetuosity,becauseshedidnothavetimetounderstandeitherthestateofherfeelings,ortheprecisenatureofwhatshewasdoing。
Hadshespokeneversoclearlyhewas,Itakeit,tooelatedtohearherdistinctly。Idon’tmeantoimplythathewasafool。Ohdearno!Buthehadnotrainingintheusualconventions,andwemustrememberthathehadnoexperiencewhateverofwomen。Hecouldonlyhaveanidealconceptionofhisposition。Anidealisoftenbutaflamingvisionofreality。
TohimentersFyne,woundup,ifImayexpressmyselfsoirreverently,wounduptoahighpitchbyhiswife’sinterpretationofthegirl’sletter。Heenterswithhistalkofmeannessandcruelty,likeabucketofwaterontheflame。Clearlyashock。Buttheeffectsofabucketofwaterarediverse。Theydependonthekindofflame。Amereblazeofdrystraw,ofcourse……buttherecanbenoquestionofstrawthere。AnthonyoftheFerndalewasnot,couldnothavebeen,astraw-stuffedspecimenofaman。Thereareflamesabucketofwatersendsleapingsky-high。
Wemaywellwonderwhathappenedwhen,afterFynehadlefthim,thehesitatinggirlwentupatlastandopenedthedoorofthatroomwhereourman,Iamcertain,wasnotextinguished。Ohno!Norcold;whateverelsehemighthavebeen。
Itisconceivablehemighthavecriedatherinthefirstmomentofhumiliation,ofexasperation,”Oh,it’syou!Whyareyouhere?IfIamsoodioustoyouthatyoumustwritetomysistertosayso,I
giveyoubackyourword。”Butthen,don’tyousee,itcouldnothavebeenthat。Ihavethepracticalcertitudethatsoonafterwardstheywenttogetherinahansomtoseetheship——asagreed。ThatwasmyreasonforsayingthatFloradeBarraldidgotosea……””Yes。Itseemsconclusive,”Iagreed。”Butevenwithoutthat——if,asyouseemtothink,theverydesolationofthatgirlishfigurehadasortofperverselyseductivecharm,makingitswaythroughhiscompassiontohissenses(andeverythingispossible)——thensuchwordscouldnothavebeenspoken。””Theymighthaveescapedhiminvoluntarily,”observedMarlow。”However,aplainfactsettlesit。Theywentofftogethertoseetheship。””Doyouconcludefromthisthatnothingwhateverwassaid?”I
inquired。”Ishouldhavelikedtoseethefirstmeetingoftheirglancesupstairsthere,”musedMarlow。”Andperhapsnothingwassaid。Butnomancomesoutofsucha’wrangle’(asFynecalledit)withoutshowingsometracesofit。Andyoumaybesurethatagirlsobruisedalloverwouldfeeltheslightesttouchofanythingresemblingcoldness。Shewasmistrustful;shecouldnotbeotherwise;fortheenergyofevilissomuchmoreforciblethantheenergyofgoodthatshecouldnothelplookingstilluponherabominablegovernessasanauthority。Howcouldonehaveexpectedhertothrowofftheunholyprestigeofthatlongdomination?Shecouldnothelpbelievingwhatshehadbeentold;thatshewasinsomemysteriouswayodiousandunlovable。Itwascruellytrue——TO
HER。Theoracleofsomanyyearshadspokenfinally。Onlyotherpeopledidnotfindheroutatonce……Iwouldnotgosofarastosayshebelieveditaltogether。Thatwouldbehardlypossible。
Butthenhaven’tthemostflattered,themostconceitedofustheirmomentsofdoubt?Haven’tthey?Well,Idon’tknow。Theremaybeluckybeingsinthisworldunabletobelieveanyevilofthemselves。
FormyownpartI’lltellyouthatonce,manyyearsagonow,itcametomyknowledgethatafellowIhadbeenmixedupwithinacertaintransaction——acleverfellowwhomIreallydespised——wasgoingaroundtellingpeoplethatIwasaconsummatehypocrite。Hecouldknownothingofit。Itsuitedhishumourtosayso。Ihadgivenhimnogroundforthatparticularcalumny。Yettothisdaytherearemomentswhenitcomesintomymind,andinvoluntarilyIaskmyself,’Whatifitweretrue?’It’sabsurd,butithasononeortwooccasionsnearlyaffectedmyconduct。AndyetIwasnotanimpressionableignorantyounggirl。Ihadtakentheexactmeasureofthefellow’sutterworthlessnesslongbefore。Hehadneverbeenformeapersonofprestigeandpower,likethatawfulgovernesstoFloradeBarral。Seethemightofsuggestion?Weliveatthemercyofamalevolentword。Asound,ameredisturbanceoftheair,sinksintoourverysoulsometimes。FloradeBarralhadbeenmoreastoundedthanconvincedbythefirstimpetuosityofRoderickAnthony。Sheletherselfbecarriedalongbyamysteriousforcewhichherpersonhadcalledintobeing,asherfatherhadbeencarriedawayoutofhisdepthbytheunexpectedpowerofsuccessfuladvertising。
Theywentonboardthatmorning。TheFerndalehadjustcometoherloadingberth。Theonlylivingcreatureonboardwastheship-
keeper——whetherthesamewhohadbeendescribedtousbyMr。Powell,oranother,Idon’tknow。Possiblysomeotherman。He,lookingovertheside,saw,inhisownwords,’thecaptaincomesailingroundthecornerofthenearestcargo-shed,incompanywithagirl。’
Heloweredtheaccommodationladderdownontothejetty……””Howdoyouknowallthis?”Iinterrupted。
Marlowinterjectedanimpatient:”Youshallseebyandby……Florawentupfirst,gotdownondeckandstoodstock-stilltillthecaptaintookherbythearmandledheraft。Theship-keeperletthemintothesaloon。Hehadthekeysofallthecabins,andstumpedinafterthem。Thecaptainorderedhimtoopenallthedoors,everyblesseddoor;state-rooms,passages,pantry,fore-cabin——andthensenthimaway。”TheFerndalehadmagnificentaccommodation。Attheendofapassageleadingfromthequarter-decktherewasalongsaloon,itssumptuosityslightlytarnishedperhaps,buthavingagrandairofroominessandcomfort。Theharbourcarpetsweredown,theswinginglampshung,andeverythinginitsplace,eventothesilveronthesideboard。Twolargesterncabinsopenedoutofit,oneoneachsideoftheruddercasing。Thesetwocabinscommunicatedthroughasmallbathroombetweenthem,andonewasfittedupasthecaptain’sstate-room。Theotherwasvacant,andfurnishedwitharm-chairsandaroundtable,morelikearoomonshore,exceptforthelongcurvedsetteefollowingtheshapeoftheship’sstern。Inadiminclinedmirror,Floracaughtsightdowntothewaistofapale-facedgirlinawhitestrawhattrimmedwithroses,distant,shadowy,asifimmersedinwater,andwassurprisedtorecognizeherselfinthosesurroundings。Theyseemedtoherarbitrary,bizarre,strange。
CaptainAnthonymovedon,andshefollowedhim。Heshowedhertheothercabins。Hetalkedallthetimeloudlyinavoicesheseemedtohaveknownextremelywellforalongtime;andyet,shereflected,shehadnothearditofteninherlife。Whathewassayingshedidnotquitefollow。Hewasspeakingofcomparativelyindifferentthingsinarathermoodytone,butshefeltitroundherlikeacaress。Andwhenhestoppedshecouldhear,alarminginthesuddensilence,theprecipitatedbeatingofherheart。
Theship-keeperdodgedaboutthequarter-deck,outofhearing,andtryingtokeepoutofsight。Atthesametime,takingadvantageoftheopendoorswithskillandprudence,hecouldseethecaptainand”thatgirl”thecaptainhadbroughtaboard。Thecaptainwasshowingherroundverythoroughly。Throughthewholelengthofthepassage,farawayaftintheperspectiveofthesaloontheship-keeperhadinterestingglimpsesofthemastheywentinandoutofthevariouscabins,crossingfromsidetoside,remaininginvisibleforatimeinoneoranotherofthestate-rooms,andthenreappearingagaininthedistance。Thegirl,alwaysfollowingthecaptain,hadhersunshadeinherhands。Mostlyshewouldhangherhead,butnowandthenshewouldlookup。Theyhadalottosaytoeachother,andseemedtoforgettheyweren’taloneintheship。Hesawthecaptainputhishandonhershoulder,andwaspreparinghimselfwithacertainzestforwhatmightfollow,whenthe”oldman”seemedtorecollecthimself,andcamestridingdownallthelengthofthesaloon。Atthismovetheship-keeperpromptlydodgedoutofsight,asyoumaybelieve,andheardthecaptainslamtheinnerdoorofthepassage。Afterthatdisappointmenttheship-keeperwaitedresentfullyforthemtoclearoutoftheship。Ithappenedmuchsoonerthanhehadexpected。Thegirlwalkedoutondeckfirst。Asbeforeshedidnotlookround。Shedidn’tlookatanything;andsheseemedtobeinsuchahurrytogetashorethatshemadeforthegangwayandstarteddowntheladderwithoutwaitingforthecaptain。
Whatstrucktheship-keepermostwastheabsent,unseeingexpressionofthecaptain,stridingafterthegirl。Hepassedhim,theship-
keeper,withoutnotice,withoutanorder,withoutsomuchasalook。
Thecaptainhadneverdonesobefore。Alwayshadanodandapleasantwordforaman。Fromthisslighttheship-keeperdrewaconclusionunfavourabletothestrangegirl。Hegavethemtimetogetdownonthewharfbeforecrossingthedecktostealonemorelookatthepairovertherail。Thecaptaintookholdofthegirl’sarmjustbeforeacoupleofrailwaytrucksdrawnbyahorsecamerollingalongandhidthemfromtheship-keeper’ssightforgood。
Nextday,whenthechiefmatejoinedtheship,hetoldhimthetaleofthevisit,andexpressedhimselfaboutthegirl”whohadgotholdofthecaptain”disparagingly。Shedidn’tlookhealthy,heexplained。”Shabbyclothes,too,”headdedspitefully。
Thematewasverymuchinterested。HehadbeenwithAnthonyforseveralyears,andhadwonforhimselfinthecourseofmanylongvoyages,afootingoffamiliarity,whichwastobeexpectedwithamanofAnthony’scharacter。Butinthatslowly-grownintimacyofthesea,whichinitsdurationandsolitudehaditsunguardedmoments,nowordshadpassed,evenofthemostcasual,topreparehimforthevisionofhiscaptainassociatedwithanykindofgirl。
HisimpressionhadbeenthatwomendidnotexistforCaptainAnthony。Exhibitinghimselfwithagirl!Agirl!Whatdidhewantwithagirl?Bringingheronboardandshowingherroundthecabin!
Thatwasreallyalittlebittoomuch。CaptainAnthonyoughttohaveknownbetter。
Franklin(thechiefmate’snamewasFranklin)feltdisappointed;
almostdisillusioned。Sillythingtodo!Herewasaconfoundedoldship-keepersettalking。Hesnubbedtheship-keeper,andtriedtothinkofthatinsignificantbitoffoolishnessnomore;foritdiminishedCaptainAnthonyinhiseyesofajealouslydevotedsubordinate。
Franklinwasoverforty;hismotherwasstillalive。Shestoodintheforefrontofallwomenforhim,justasCaptainAnthonystoodintheforefrontofallmen。Wemaysupposethatthesegroupswerenotverylarge。Hehadgonetoseaataveryearlyage。Thefeelingwhichcausedthesetwopeopletopartlyeclipsetherestofmankindwereofcoursenotsimilar;thoughintimehehadacquiredtheconvictionthathewas”takingcare”ofthemboth。The”oldlady”
ofcoursehadtobelookedafteraslongasshelived。InregardtoCaptainAnthony,heusedtosaythat:whyshouldheleavehim?Itwasn’tlikelythathewouldcomeacrossabettersailororabettermanoramorecomfortableship。Astotryingtobetterhimselfinthewayofpromotion,commandswerenotthesortofthingonepickedupinthestreets,andwhenitcametothat,CaptainAnthonywasaslikelytogivehimaliftonoccasionasanyoneintheworld。
FromMr。Powell’sdescriptionFranklinwasashort,thickblack-
hairedman,baldonthetop。Hisheadsunkbetweentheshoulders,hisstaringprominenteyesandafloridcolour,gavehimaratherapoplecticappearance。Inrepose,hiscongestedfacehadahumorouslymelancholyexpression。
Theship-keeperhavinggivenhimupallthekeysandhavingbeenchasedforwardwiththeadmonitiontomindhisownbusinessandnottochatteraboutwhatdidnotconcernhim,Mr。Franklinwentunderthepoop。Heopenedonedoorafteranother;and,inthesaloon,inthecaptain’sstate-roomandeverywhere,hestaredanxiouslyasifexpectingtoseeonthebulkheads,onthedeck,intheair,somethingunusual——sign,mark,emanation,shadow——hehardlyknewwhat——somesubtlechangewroughtbythepassageofagirl。Buttherewasnothing。Heenteredtheunoccupiedsterncabinandspentsometimethereunscrewingthetwosternports。Intheabsenceofallmaterialevidenceshisuneasinesswaspassingaway。Withalastglanceroundhecameoutandfoundhimselfinthepresenceofhiscaptainadvancingfromtheotherendofthesaloon。
Franklin,atonce,lookedforthegirl。Shewasn’ttobeseen。Thecaptaincameupquickly。’Oh!youarehere,Mr。Franklin。’Andthematesaid,’Iwasgivingalittleairtotheplace,sir。’Thenthecaptain,hishatpulleddownoverhiseyes,laidhisstickonthetableandaskedinhiskindway:’Howdidyoufindyourmother,Franklin?’——’Theoldlady’sfirst-rate,sir,thankyou。’Andthentheyhadnothingtosaytoeachother。ItwasastrangeanddisturbingfeelingforFranklin。He,justbackfromleave,theshipjustcometoherloadingberth,thecaptainjustcomeonboard,andapparentlynothingtosay!Theseveralquestionshehadbeenanxioustoaskastovariousthingswhichhadtobedonehadslippedoutofhismind。He,too,feltasthoughhehadnothingtosay。
Thecaptain,pickinguphisstickoffthetable,marchedintohisstate-roomandshutthedoorafterhim。Franklinremainedstillforamomentandthenstartedslowlytogoondeck。Butbeforehehadtimetoreachtheotherendofthesaloonheheardhimselfcalledbyname。Heturnedround。Thecaptainwasstaringfromthedoorwayofhisstate-room。Franklinsaid,”Yes,sir。”Butthecaptain,silent,leanedalittleforwardgraspingthedoorhandle。Sohe,Franklin,walkedaftkeepinghiseyesonhim。Whenhehadcomeupquiteclosehesaidagain,”Yes,sir?”interrogatively。Stillsilence。Thematedidn’tliketobestaredatinthatmanner,amannerquitenewinhiscaptain,withadefiantandself-consciousstare,likeamanwhofeelsillanddaresyoutonoticeit。
Franklingazedathiscaptain,feltthattherewassomethingwrong,andinhissimplicityvoicedhisfeelingsbyaskingpoint-blank:”What’swrong,sir?”