第2章

类别:其他 作者:Pietro Cossa字数:25785更新时间:18/12/21 14:10:56
Wedismountedatthepylon,andweremetbeneaththeporticobyamannotgreatofstature,butofnobleaspect,havinghisheadshaven,andwithdarkeyesthattwinkledlikethefurtherstars。”Hold!”hecried,inagreatvoicewhichfittedhisweakbodybutill。”Hold!IamSepa,whoopensthemouthoftheGods!””AndI,”Isaid,”amHarmachis,sonofAmenemhat,HereditaryHighPriestandRuleroftheHolyCityAbouthis;andIbearletterstothee,OSepa!””Enter,”hesaid。”Enter!”scanningmeallthewhilewithhistwinklingeyes。”Enter,myson!”Andhetookmeandledmetoachamberintheinnerhall,closedtothedoor,andthen,havingglancedatthelettersthatIbrought,ofasuddenhefelluponmyneckandembracedme。”Welcome,”hecried,”welcome,sonofmyownsister,andhopeofKhem! NotinvainhaveIprayedtheGodsthatImightlivetolookuponthyfaceandimparttotheethewisdomwhichperchanceIalonehavemasteredofthosewhoareleftaliveinEgypt。TherearefewwhomitislawfulthatIshouldteach。Butthineisthegreatdestiny,andthineshallbetheearstohearthelessonsoftheGods。” Andheembracedmeoncemoreandbademegobatheandeat,sayingthatonthemorrowhewouldspeakwithmefurther。 Thisofatruthhedid,andatsuchlengththatIwillforbeartosetdownallhesaidboththenandafterwards,forifIdidsotherewouldbenopapyrusleftinEgyptwhenthetaskwasended。Therefore,havingmuchtotellandbutlittletimetotellit,Iwillpassovertheeventsoftheyearsthatfollowed。 Forthiswasthemannerofmylife。Iroseearly,IattendedtheworshipoftheTemple,andIgavemydaystostudy。Ilearntoftheritesofreligionandtheirmeaning,andofthebeginningoftheGodsandthebeginningoftheUpperWorld。Ilearntofthemysteryofthemovementsofthestars,andofhowtheearthrollsonamongthem。I wasinstructedinthatancientknowledgewhichiscalledmagic,andinthewayofinterpretationofdreams,andofthedrawingnightoGod。I wastaughtthelanguageofsymbolsandtheirouterandinnersecrets。 IbecameacquaintedwiththeeternallawsofGoodandEvil,andwiththemysteryofthattrustwhichisheldofman;alsoIlearntthesecretsofthepyramids——whichIwouldthatIhadneverknown。 Further,Ireadtherecordsofthepast,andoftheactsandwordsoftheancientkingswhowerebeforemesincetheruleofHorusuponearth;andIwasmadetoknowallcraftofstate,theloreofearth,andwithitthehistoryofGreeceandRome。AlsoIlearnttheGrecianandRomantongues,ofwhichindeedIalreadyhadsomeknowledge——andallthiswhile,forfivelongyears,Ikeptmyhandscleanandmyheartpure,anddidnoevilinthesightofGodorman;butlabouredheavilytoacquireallthings,andtopreparemyselfforthedestinythatawaitedme。 TwiceeveryyeargreetingsandletterscamefrommyfatherAmenemhat,andtwiceeveryyearIsentbackmyanswersaskingifthetimehadcometoceasefromlabour。AndsothedaysofmyprobationspedawaytillIgrewfaintandwearyatheart,forbeingnowaman,ayandlearned,Ilongedtomakeabeginningofthelifeofmen。AndoftenI wonderedifthistalkandprophecyofthethingsthatweretobewasbutadreambornofthebrainsofmenwhosewishranbeforetheirthought。Iwas,indeed,oftheRoyalblood,thatIknew:formyuncle,SepathePriest,showedmeasecretrecordofthedescent,tracedwithoutbreakfromfathertoson,andgraveninmysticsymbolsonatabletofthestoneofSyene。ButofwhatavailwasittobeRoyalbyrightwhenEgypt,myheritage,wasaslave——aslavetodothepleasureandministertotheluxuryoftheMacedonianLagid?——ay,andwhenshehadbeensolongaserfthat,perchance,shehadforgottenhowtoputofftheservilesmileofBondageandoncemoretolookacrosstheworldwithFreedom’shappyeyes? ThenIbethoughtmeofmyprayeruponthepylontowerofAbouthisandoftheanswergiventomyprayer,andwonderedifthat,too,wereadream。 Andonenight,as,wearywithstudy,Iwalkedwithinthesacredgrovethatisinthegardenofthetemple,andmusedthus,ImetmyuncleSepa,whoalsowaswalkingandthinking。”Hold!”hecriedinhisgreatvoice;”whyisthyfacesosad,Harmachis?Hasthelastproblemthatwestudiedoverwhelmedthee?””Nay,myuncle,”Ianswered,”Iamoverwhelmedindeed,butnotoftheproblem;itwasalightone。Myheartisheavy,forIamwearyoflifewithinthesecloisters,andthepiled-upweightofknowledgecrushesme。Itisofnoavailtostoreupforcewhichcannotbeused。””Ah,thouartimpatient,Harmachis,”heanswered;”itiseverthewayoffoolishyouth。Thouwouldsttasteofthebattle;thoudosttireofwatchingthebreakersfalluponthebeach,thouwouldstplungeintothemandventurethedesperatehazardofthewar。Andsothouwouldstbegoing,Harmachis?Thebirdwouldflythenestas,whentheyaregrown,theswallowsflyfromtheeavesoftheTemple。Well,itshallbeasthoudesirest;thehourisathand。IhavetaughttheeallthatIhavelearned,andmethinksthatthepupilhasoutrunhismaster,” andhepausedandwipedhisbrightblackeyes,forhewasverysadatthethoughtofmydeparture。”AndwhithershallIgo,myuncle?”Iaskedrejoicing;”backtoAbouthistobeinitiatedintothemysteriesoftheGods?””Ay,backtoAbouthis,andfromAbouthistoAlexandria,andfromAlexandriatotheThroneofthyfathers,Harmachis!Listen,now; thingsarethus:ThouknowesthowCleopatra,theQueen,fledintoSyriawhenthatfalseeunuchPothinussetthewillofherfatherAulêtesatnaughtandraisedherbrotherPtolemytothesolelordshipofEgypt。Thouknowestalsohowshecameback,likeaQueenindeed,withagreatarmyinhertrain,andlayatPelusium,andhowatthisjuncturethemightyC?sar,thatgreatman,thatgreatestofallmen,sailedwithaweakcompanyhithertoAlexandriafromPharsalia’sbloodyfieldinhotpursuitofPompey。ButhefoundPompeyalreadydead,havingbeenbaselymurderedbyAchillas,theGeneral,andLuciusSeptimius,thechiefoftheRomanlegionsinEgypt,andthouknowesthowtheAlexandriansweretroubledathiscomingandwouldhaveslainhislictors。Then,asthouhastheard,C?sarseizedPtolemy,theyoungKing,andhissisterArsino?,andbadethearmyofCleopatraandthearmyofPtolemy,underAchillas,whichlayfacingeachotheratPelusium,disbandandgotheirways。AndforanswerAchillasmarchedonC?sar,andbesiegedhimstraitlyintheBruchiumatAlexandria,andso,forawhile,thingswere,andnoneknewwhoshouldreigninEgypt。 ButthenCleopatratookupthedice,andthrewthem,andthiswasthethrowshemade——intruth,itwasaboldone。For,leavingthearmyatPelusium,shecameatdusktotheharbourofAlexandria,andalonewiththeSicilianApollodorusenteredandlanded。ThenApollodorusboundherinabaleofrichrugs,suchasaremadeinSyria,andsenttherugsasapresenttoC?sar。Andwhentherugswereunboundinthepalace,behold!withinthemwasthefairestgirlonalltheearth——ay,andthemostwittyandthemostlearned。AndsheseducedthegreatC?sar——evenhisweightofyearsdidnotavailtoprotecthimfromhercharms——sothat,asafruitofhisfolly,hewellnighlosthislife,andallthegloryhehadgainedinahundredwars。””Thefool!”Ibrokein——”thefool!Thoucallesthimgreat;buthowcanthemanbetrulygreatwhohasnostrengthtostandagainstawoman’swiles?C?sar,withtheworldhangingonhisword!C?sar,atwhosebreathfortylegionsmarchedandchangedthefateofpeoples!C?sarthecold!thefar-seeing!thehero!——C?sartofalllikearipefruitintoafalsegirl’slap!Why,intheissue,ofwhatcommonclaywasthisRomanC?sar,andhowpoorathing!” ButSepalookedatmeandshookhishead。”Benotsorash,Harmachis,andtalknotwithsoproudavoice。Knowestthounotthatineverysuitofmailthereisajoint,andwoetohimwhowearstheharnessiftheswordshouldsearchitout!ForWoman,inherweakness,isyetthestrongestforceupontheearth。Sheisthehelmofallthingshuman; shecomesinmanyshapesandknocksatmanydoors;sheisquickandpatient,andherpassionisnotungovernablelikethatofman,butasagentlesteedthatshecanguidee’enwhereshewill,andasoccasionofferscannowbitupandnowgiverein。Shehasacaptain’seye,andstoutmustbethatfortressoftheheartinwhichshefindsnoplaceofvantage。Doesthybloodbeatfastinyouth?Shewilloutrunit,norwillherkissestire。Artthousettowardambition?Shewillunlockthyinnerheart,andshowtheeroadsthatleadtoglory。Artthouwornandweary?Shehascomfortinherbreast。Artthoufallen?Shecanlifttheeup,andtotheillusionofthysensegilddefeatwithtriumph。Ay,Harmachis,shecandothesethings,forNatureeverfightsuponherside;andwhileshedoesthemshecandeceiveandshapeasecretendinwhichthouhastnopart。AndthusWomanrulestheworld。Forherarewars;forhermenspendtheirstrengthingatheringgains;forhertheydowellandill,andseekforgreatness,tofindoblivion。ButstillshesitslikeyonderSphinx,andsmiles; andnomanhaseverreadalltheriddleofhersmile,orknownallthemysteryofherheart。Mocknot!mocknot!Harmachis;forhemustbegreatindeedwhocandefythepowerofWoman,which,pressingroundhimliketheinvisibleair,isoftenstrongestwhenthesensesleastdiscoverit。” Ilaughedaloud。”Thouspeakestearnestly,myuncleSepa,”Isaid;”onemightalmostthinkthatthouhadstnotcomeunscathedthroughthisfiercefireoftemptation。Well,formyself,Ifearnotwomanandherwiles;Iknownaughtofthem,andnaughtdoIwishtoknow;andI stillholdthatthisC?sarwasafool。HadIstoodwhereC?sarstood,tocoolitswantonnessthatbaleofrugsshouldhavebeenrolleddownthepalacesteps,intotheharbourmud。””Nay,cease!cease!”hecriedaloud。”Itiseviltospeakthus;maytheGodsaverttheomenandpreservetotheethiscoldstrengthofwhichthouboastest。Oh!man,thouknowestnot!——thouinthystrengthandbeautythatiswithoutcompare,inthepowerofthylearningandthesweetnessofthytongue——thouknowestnot!TheworldwherethoumustmixisnotasanctuaryasthatoftheDivineIsis。Butthere——itmaybeso!Praythatthyheart’sicemaynevermelt,sothoushaltbegreatandhappyandEgyptshallbedelivered。Andnowletmetakeupmytale——thouseest,Harmachis,eveninsograveastorywomanclaimsherplace。TheyoungPtolemy,Cleopatra’sbrother,beingloosedofC?sar,treacherouslyturnedonhim。ThenC?sarandMithridatesstormedthecampofPtolemy,whotooktoflightacrosstheriver。Buthisboatwassunkbythefugitiveswhopresseduponit,andsuchwasthemiserableendofPtolemy。”Thereon,thewarbeingended,thoughshehadbutthenbornehimason,C?sarion,C?sarappointedtheyoungerPtolemytorulewithCleopatra,andbeherhusbandinname,andhehimselfdepartedforRome,bearingwithhimthebeautifulPrincessArsino?tofollowhistriumphinherchains。ButthegreatC?sarisnomore。Hediedashehadlived,inblood,andrightroyally。AndbutnowCleopatra,theQueen,ifmytidingsmaybetrusted,hasslainPtolemy,herbrotherandhusband,bypoison,andtakenthechildC?sariontobeherfellowonthethrone,whichsheholdsbythehelpoftheRomanlegions,and,astheysay,ofyoungSextusPompeius,whohassucceededC?sarinherlove。But,Harmachis,thewholelandboilsandseethesagainsther。IneverycitythechildrenofKhemtalkofthedelivererwhoistocome—— andthouarthe,Harmachis。Thetimeisalmostripe。Thehourisnighathand。GothoubacktoAbouthisandlearnthelastsecretsoftheGods,andmeetthosewhoshalldirecttheburstingofthestorm。Thenact,Harmachis——act,Isay,andstrikehomeforKhem,ridthelandoftheRomanandtheGreek,andtakethyplaceuponthethroneofthydivinefathersandbeaKingofmen。Fortothisendthouwastborn,O Prince!” CHAPTERV OFTHERETURNOFHARMACHISTOABOUTHIS;OFTHECELEBRATION OFTHEMYSTERIES;OFTHECHANTOFISIS;ANDOFTHEWARNING OFAMENEMHAT OnthenextdayIembracedmyuncleSepa,andwithaneagerheartdepartedfromAnnubacktoAbouthis。Tobeshort,Icamethitherinsafety,havingbeenabsentfiveyearsandamonth,beingnownomoreaboybutamanfullgrownandhavingmymindwellstockedwiththeknowledgeofmenandtheancientwisdomofEgypt。SoonceagainIsawtheoldlands,andtheknownfaces,thoughofthesesomefewwerewanting,havingbeengatheredtoOsiris。Now,as,ridingacrossthefields,IcamenightotheenclosureoftheTemple,thepriestsandpeopleissuedforthtobidmewelcome,andwiththemtheoldwife,Atoua,who,butforafewaddedwrinklesthatTimehadcutuponherforehead,wasjustasshehadbeenwhenshethrewthesandalaftermefivelongyearsbefore。”/La!la!la!/”shecried;”andtherethouart,mybonnylad;morebonnyeventhanthouwert!/La!/whataman!whatshoulders!andwhatafaceandform!Ah,itdoesanoldwomancredittohavedandledthee! Butthouartover-pale;thosepriestsdownthereatAnnuhavestarvedthee,surely?Starvenotthyself:theGodslovenotaskeleton。’Emptystomachmakesemptyhead’astheysayatAlexandria。Butthisisagladhour;ay,ajoyoushour。Comein——comein!”andasIlighteddownsheembracedme。 ButIthrustheraside。”Myfather!whereismyfather?”Icried;”I seehimnot!””Nay,nay,havenofear,”sheanswered;’hisHolinessiswell;hewaitstheeinhischamber。There,passon。Ohappyday!OhappyAbouthis!” SoIwent,orratherran,andreachedthechamberofwhichIhavewritten,andthereatthetablesatmyfather,Amenemhat,thesameashehadbeen,butveryold。Icametohimand,kneelingbeforehim,kissedhishand,andheblessedme。”Lookup,myson,”hesaid,”letmyoldeyesgazeuponthyface,thatImayreadthyheart。” SoIliftedupmyhead,andhelookeduponmelongandearnestly。”Ireadthee,”hesaidatlength;”thouartpureandstronginwisdom; Ihavenotbeendeceivedinthee。Oh,theyearshavebeenlonely;butIdidwelltosendtheehence。Now,tellmeofthylife;forthylettershavetoldmelittle,andthoucanstnotknow,myson,howhungryisafather’sheart。” AndsoItoldhim;wesatfarintothenightandtalkedtogether。AndintheendhebademeknowthatImustnowpreparetobeinitiatedintothoselastmysteriesthatarelearnedofthechosenoftheGods。 AndsoitcameaboutthatforaspaceofthreemonthsIpreparedmyselfaccordingtotheholycustoms。Iatenomeat。Iwasconstantinthesanctuaries,inthestudyofthesecretsoftheGreatSacrificeandofthewoeoftheHolyMother。Iwatchedandprayedbeforethealtars。IliftedupmysoultoGod;ay,indreamsIcommunedwiththeInvisible,tillatlengthearthandearth’sdesiresseemedtopassfromme。Ilongednomoreforthegloryofthisworld,myhearthungaboveitasaneagleonhisoutstretchedwings,andthevoiceoftheworld’sblamecouldnotstirit,andthevisionofitsbeautybroughtnodelight。Forabovemewasthevastvaultofheaven,whereinunalterableprocessionthestarspasson,drawingafterthemthedestiniesofmen;wheretheHolyOnessitupontheirburningthrones,andwatchthechariot-wheelsofFateastheyrollfromspheretosphere。Ohoursofholycontemplation!who,havingoncetastedofyourjoycouldwishagaintogrovelontheearth?Ovilefleshtodragusdown!Iwouldthatthouhadstthenaltogetherfallenfromme,andleftmyspiritfreetoseekOsiris! Themonthsofprobationpassedbuttooswiftly,andnowtheholydaydrewnearwhenIwasintruthtobeunitedtotheuniversalMother。 NeverhathNightsolongedforthepromiseoftheDawn;neverhaththeheartofaloversopassionatelydesiredthesweetcomingofhisbride,asIlongedtoseeThygloriousface,OIsis!EvennowthatI havebeenfaithlesstoThee,andThouartfarfromme,ODivine!mysoulgoesouttoThee,andoncemoreIknow——ButasitisbiddenthatIshoulddrawtheveil,andspeakofthingswhichhavenotbeentoldsincethebeginningofthisworld,letmepassonandreverentlysetdownthehistoryofthatholymorn。 Forsevendaysthegreatfestivalhadbeencelebrated,thesufferingoftheLordOsirishadbeencommemorated,thegriefoftheMotherIsishadbeensungandgloryhadbeendonetothememoryofthecomingoftheDivineChildHorus,theSon,theAvenger,theGod-begot。Allthesethingshadbeencarriedoutaccordingtotheancientrites。Theboatshadfloatedonthesacredlake,thepriestshadscourgedthemselvesbeforethesanctuaries,andtheimageshadbeenbornethroughthestreetsatnight。 Andnow,asthesunsankontheseventhday,oncemorethegreatprocessiongatheredtochantthewoesofIsisandtellhowtheevilwasavenged。Wewentinsilencefromthetemple,andpassedthroughthecityways。Firstcamethosewhoclearthepath,thenmyfatherAmenemhatinallhispriestlyrobes,andthewandofcedarinhishand。Then,cladinpurelinen,I,theneophyte,followedalone;andaftermethewhite-robedpriests,holdingaloftbannersandemblemsoftheGods。Nextcamethosewhobearthesacredboat,andafterthemthesingersandthemourners;while,stretchingasfarastheeyecouldreach,allthepeoplemarched,cladinmelancholyblackbecauseOsiriswasnomore。Wewentinsilencethroughthecitystreetstillatlengthwecametothewallofthetempleandpassedin。Andasmyfather,theHighPriest,enteredbeneaththegatewayoftheouterpylon,asweet-voicedwomansingerbegantosingtheHolyChant,andthusshesang:”SingweOsirisdead,Lamentthefallenhead: Thelighthaslefttheworld,theworldisgrey。 AthwartthestarryskiesThewebofDarknessflies,AndIsisweepsOsirispassedaway。 Yourtears,yestars,yefires,yerivers,shed,Weep,childrenoftheNile,weepforyourLordisdead!” Shepausedinhermostsweetsong,andthewholemultitudetookupthemelancholydirge:”Softlywetread,ourmeasuredfootstepsfallingWithintheSanctuarySevenfold; SoftontheDeadthatlivetharewecalling: ’Return,Osiris,fromthyKingdomcold! Returntothemthatworshiptheeofold!’” Thechorusceased,andonceagainshesang:”WithinthecourtdivineTheSevenfoldsacredshrineWepass,whileechoesoftheTemplewallsRepeatthelonglamentThesoundofsorrowsentFarupwithintheimperishablehalls,Where,eachintheother’sarms,theSistersweep,IsisandNephthys,o’erHisunawakingsleep。” Andthenagainrolledforththesolemnchorusofathousandvoices:”Softlywetread,ourmeasuredfootstepsfallingWithintheSanctuarySevenfold; SoftontheDeadthatlivetharewecalling: ’Return,Osiris,fromthyKingdomcold! Returntothemthatworshiptheeofold!’” Itceased,andsweetlyshetookupthesong:”OdwellerintheWest,LoverandLordliest,Thylove,thySisterIsis,callstheehome! ComefromthychamberdunThouMasteroftheSun,Thyshadowychamberfarbelowthefoam! WithwearywingsandspentThroughallthefirmament,Throughallthehorror-hauntedwaysofHell,Iseektheenearandfar,Fromstartowanderingstar,FreewiththedeadthatinAmentidwell。 Isearchtheheight,thedeep,thelands,theskies,Risefromthedeadandlive,ourLordOsiris,rise!””Softlywetread,ourmeasuredfootstepsfallingWithintheSanctuarySevenfold; SoftontheDeadthatlivetharewecalling: ’Return,Osiris,fromthyKingdomcold! Returntothemthatworshiptheeofold!’” Nowinastrainmorehighandgladthesingersang:”Hewakes——fromforththeprisonWesingOsirisrisen,WesingthechildthatNoutconceivedandbare。 Thineownlove,Isis,waitsTheWardenoftheGates,ShebreathesthebreathofLifeonbreastandhair,AndinherbreastandbreathBehold!hewaketh,Behold!atlengthherisethoutofrest; Touchedwithherholyhands,TheLordofalltheLands,Hestirs,herisesfromherbreath,herbreast! Butthou,fellTyphon,fly,Thejudgmentdaydrawnnigh,FleetonthytrackasflamespeedsHorusfromthesky。””Softlywetread,ourmeasuredfootstepsfallingWithintheSanctuarySevenfold; SoftontheDeadthatlivetharewecalling: ’Return,Osiris,fromthyKingdomcold! Returntothemthatworshiptheeofold!’” Oncemore,aswebowedbeforetheHoly,shesang,andsentthefullbreathofhergladmusicringinguptheeverlastingwallstillthesilencequiveredwithherroundnotesofmelody,andtheheartsofthosewhohearkenedstirredstrangelyinthebreast。Andthus,aswewalked,shesangthesongofOsirisrisen,thesongofHope,thesongofVictory:”SingwetheTrinity,SingwetheHolyThree,Singwe,andpraiseweandworshiptheThrone,ThronethatourLordhathset—— TherepeaceandtrutharemetThereintheHallsoftheHolyalone! ThereintheshadowingsFaintofthefoldedwings,Thereshallwedwellandrejoiceinourrest,Wethatthyservantsare! Horusdriveillafar! FarinthefoldsofthedarkoftheWest!” Again,ashernotesdiedaway,thunderedforththechorusofallthevoices:”Softlywetread,ourmeasuredfootstepsfallingWithintheSanctuarySevenfold; SoftontheDeadthatlivetharewecalling: ’Return,Osiris,fromthyKingdomcold! Returntothemthatworshiptheeofold!’” Thechantingceased,andasthesunsanktheHighPriestraisedthestatueofthelivingGodandhelditbeforethemultitudethatwasnowgatheredinthecourtofthetemple。Then,withamightyandjoyfulshoutof:”/Osirisourhope!Osiris!Osiris!/” thepeopletoretheirblackwrappingsfromtheirdress,revealingthewhiterobestheyworebeneath,and,asoneman,theybowedbeforetheGod,andthefeastwasended。 Butformetheceremonywasonlybegun,forto-nightwasthenightofmyinitiation。LeavingtheinnercourtIbathedmyself,and,cladinpurelinen,passed,asitisordained,intoaninner,butnottheinmost,sanctuary,andlaidtheaccustomedofferingsonthealtar。 Then,liftingmyhandstoheaven,Iremainedformanyhoursincontemplation,striving,byholythoughtsandprayer,togatherupmystrengthagainstthemightymomentofmytrial。 Thehoursspedslowlyinthesilenceofthetemple,tillatlengththedooropenedandmyfatherAmenemhat,theHighPriest,camein,cladinwhite,andleadingbythehandthePriestofIsis。For,havingbeenmarried,hedidnothimselfenterintothemysteriesoftheHolyMother。 Irosetomyfeetandstoodhumblybeforethem。”Artthouready?”saidthepriest,liftingthelampheheldsothatitslightfelluponmyface。”Othouchosenone,artthoureadytoseethegloryoftheGoddessfacetoface?””Iamready,”Ianswered。”Beholdthee,”hesaidagain,insolemntones,”itisnosmallthing。 Ifthouwiltcarryoutthisthylastdesire,understand,royalHarmachis,thatnowthisverynightthoumustdieforawhileintheflesh,whattimethysoulshalllookonspiritualthings。Andifthoudiestandanyevilshallbefoundwithinthyheart,whenthoucomestatlastintothatawfulpresence,woeuntothee,Harmachis,forthebreathoflifeshallnomoreenterinatthegatewayofthymouth,thybodyshallutterlyperish,andwhatshallbefallthyotherparts,ifI know,Imaynotsay。[*]ArtthoupreparedtobetakentothebreastofHerwhoWasandIsandShallBe,andinallthingstodoHerholywill;forHer,whilesheshallsocommand,toputawaythethoughtofearthlywoman;andtolabouralwaysforHerglorytillattheendthylifeisgatheredtoHereternallife?” [*]AccordingtotheEgyptianreligionthebeingManiscomposedoffourparts:thebody,thedoubleorastralshape(/ka/),thesoul(/bi/),andthesparkoflifesprungfromtheGodhead(/khou/)—— Editor。”Iam,”Ianswered;”leadon。””Itiswell,”saidthepriest。”NobleAmenemhat,wegohencealone。””Farewell,myson,”saidmyfather;”befirmandtriumphoverthingsspiritualasthoushalttriumphoverthingsearthly。Hewhowouldtrulyruletheworldmustfirstbeliftedupabovetheworld。HemustbeatonewithGod,forthusonlyshallhelearnthesecretsoftheDivine。Butbeware!TheGodsdemandmuchofthosewhodaretoenterthecircleoftheirDivinity。Iftheygobacktherefrom,theyshallbejudgedofasharperlaw,andscourgedwithaheavierrod,forastheirgloryis,soshalltheirshamebe。Therefore,makethyheartstrong,royalHarmachis!AndwhenthouspeedestdownthewaysofNightandenteresttheHolies,rememberthatfromhimtowhomgreatgiftshavebeengivenshallgiftsberequiredagain。Andnow——if,indeed,thymindbefixed——gowhitheritisnotasyetgivenmetofollowthee。 Farewell!” Foramomentasmyheartweighedtheseheavywords,Iwavered,aswellasImight。ButIwasfilledwithlongingtobegatheredtothecompanyoftheDivineones,andIknewthatIhadnoevilinme,anddesiredtodoonlythethingthatisjust。Therefore,havingwithsomuchlabourdrawnthebowstringtomyear,Iwasfaintoletflytheshaft。”Leadon,”Icriedwithaloudvoice;”leadon,thouholyPriest!Ifollowthee!” Andwewentforth。 CHAPTERVI OFTHEINITIATIONOFHARMACHIS;OFHISVISIONS;OFHISPASSING TOTHECITYTHATISINTHEPLACEOFDEATH;ANDOFTHEDECLARATIONS OFISIS,THEMESSENGER InsilencewepassedintotheShrineofIsis。Itwasdarkandbare—— onlythefeeblelightfromthelampgleamedfaintlyuponthesculpturedwalls,where,inahundredeffigies,theHolyMothersuckledtheHolyChild。 Thepriestclosedthedoorsandboltedthem。”Onceagain,”hesaid,”artthouready,Harmachis?””Onceagain,”Ianswered,”Iamready。” Hespokenomore;but,havinglifteduphishandsinprayer,ledmetothecentreoftheHoly,andwithaswiftmotionputoutthelamp。”Lookbeforethee,Harmachis!”hecried;andhisvoicesoundedhollowinthesolemnplace。 Igazedandsawnothing。Butfromthenichethatishighinthewall,whereishidthatsacredsymboloftheGoddessonwhichfewmaylook,therecameasoundasoftherattlingrodsofthesistrum。[*]AndasI listened,awestruck,behold!Isawtheoutlineofthesymboldrawnaswithfireupontheblacknessoftheair。Ithungabovemyhead,andrattledwhileithung。And,asitturned,IclearlysawthefaceoftheMotherIsisthatisgravenontheoneside,andsignifiesunendingBirth,andthefaceofherholysister,Nephthys,thatisgravenontheother,andsignifiestheendingofallbirthinDeath。 [*]AmusicalinstrumentpeculiarlysacredtoIsisofwhichtheshapeandrodshadamysticsignificance——Editor。 Slowlyitturnedandswungasthoughsomemysticdancertrodtheairaboveme,andshookitinherhand。Butatlengththelightwentout,andtherattlingceased。 Thenofasuddentheendofthechamberbecameluminous,andinthatwhitelightIbeheldpictureafterpicture。IsawtheancientNilerollingthroughdesertstothesea。Therewerenomenuponitsbanks,noranysignsofman,noranytemplestotheGods。OnlywildbirdsmovedonSihor’slonelyface,andmonstrousbrutesplungedandwallowedinhiswaters。ThesunsankinmajestybehindtheLibyanDesertandstainedthewatersred;themountainstowereduptowardsthesilentsky;butinmountain,desert,andrivertherewasnosignofhumanlife。ThenIknewthatIsawtheworldasithadbeenbeforemanwas,andaterrorofitslonelinessenteredmysoul。 Thepicturepassedandanotherroseupinitsplace。OnceagainIsawthebanksofSihor,andonthemcrowdedwild-facedcreatures,partakingofthenatureoftheapemorethanofthenatureofmankind。 Theyfoughtandsleweachother。Thewildbirdssprangupinaffrightasthefireleaptfromreedhutsgivenbyfoemen’shandstoflameandpillage。Theystoleandrentandmurdered,dashingoutthebrainsofchildrenwithaxesofstone。And,thoughnovoicetoldme,IknewthatIsawmanashewastensofthousandsofyearsago,whenfirsthemarchedacrosstheearth。 Yetanotherpicture。AgainIbeheldthebanksofSihor;butonthemfaircitiesbloomedlikeflowers。Inandouttheirgateswentmenandwomen,passingtoandfrofromwide,well-tilledlands。ButIsawnoguardsorarmies,andnoweaponsofwar。Allwaswisdom,prosperity,andpeace。AndwhileIwondered,agloriousFigure,cladinraimentthatshoneasflame,camefromthegatesofashrine,andthesoundofmusicwentbeforeandfollowedafterhim。Hemountedanivorythronewhichwassetinamarket-placefacingthewater:andasthesunsankcalledinallthemultitudestoprayer。Withonevoicetheyprayed,bendinginadoration。AndIunderstoodthathereinwasshownthereignoftheGodsonearth,whichwaslongbeforethedaysofMenes。 Achangecameoverthedream。Stillthesamefaircity,butothermen——menwithgreedandevilontheirfaces——whohatedthebondsofrighteousdoing,andsettheirheartsonsin。Theeveningcame;thegloriousFiguremountedthethroneandcalledtoprayer,butnonebowedthemselvesinadoration。”Weareawearyofthee!”theycried。”MakeEvilKing!Slayhim!slayhim!andloosethebondsofEvil!MakeEvilKing!” ThegloriousShaperoseup,gazingwithmildeyesuponthosewickedmen。”Yeknownotwhatyeask,”hecried;”butasyewill,sobeit!ForifIdie,byme,aftermuchtravail,shallyeonceagainfindapathtotheKingdomofGood!” Evenashespoke,aForm,foulandhideoustobehold,leaptuponhim,cursing,slewhim,torehimlimbfromlimb,andamidsttheclamourofthepeoplesathimselfuponthethroneandruled。ButaShapewhosefacewasveiledpasseddownfromheavenonshadowywings,andwithlamentationsgathereduptherentfragmentsoftheBeing。Amomentshebentherselfuponthem,thenliftedupherhandsandwept。Andasshewept,behold!fromhersidetheresprangawarriorarmedandwithafacelikethefaceofRaatnoon。He,theAvenger,hurledhimselfwithashoutupontheMonsterwhohadusurpedthethrone,andtheyclosedinbattle,and,strugglingeverinastraitembrace,passedupwardtotheskies。 Thencamepictureafterpicture。IsawPowersandPeoplescladinvariousrobesandspeakingmanytongues。Isawthempassandpassinmillions——loving,hating,struggling,dying。Somefewwerehappyandsomehadwoestampedupontheirfaces;butmostborenotthesealofhappinessnorofwoe,butratherthatofpatience。Andeverastheypassedfromagetoage,highaboveintheheavenstheAvengerfoughtonwiththeEvilThing,whilethescaleofvictoryswungnowherenowthere。Butneitherconquered,norwasitgiventometoknowhowthebattleended。 AndIunderstoodthatwhatIhadbeheldwastheholyvisionofthestrugglebetweentheGoodandtheEvilPowers。Isawthatmanwascreatedvile,butThosewhoareabovetookpityonhim,andcamedowntohimtomakehimgoodandhappy,forthetwothingsareonething。 Butmanreturnedtohiswickedway,andthenthebrightSpiritofGood,whoisofuscalledOsiris,butwhohasmanynames,offeredhimselfupfortheevil-doingoftheracethathaddethronedhim。AndfromhimandtheDivineMother,ofwhomallnatureis,spranganotherspiritwhoistheProtectorofusonearth,asOsirisisourjustifierinAmenti。 ForthisisthemysteryoftheOsiris。 Ofasudden,asIsawthevisions,thesethingsbecamecleartome。 ThemummyclothsofsymbolandofceremonythatwrapOsirisroundfellfromhim,andIunderstoodthesecretofreligion,whichisSacrifice。 Thepicturespassed,andagainthepriest,myguide,spoketome。”Hastthouunderstood,Harmachis,thosethingswhichithasbeengrantedtheetosee?””Ihave,”Isaid。”Aretheritesended?””Nay,theyarebutbegun。Thatwhichfollowsthoumustendurealone! BeholdIleavethee,toreturnatthemorninglight。OncemoreIwarnthee。Thatwhichthoushaltsee,fewmaylookuponandlive。InallmydaysIhaveknownbutthreewhodaredtofacethisdreadhour,andofthosethreeatdawnbutonewasfoundalive。Myself,Ihavenottrodthispath。Itistoohighforme。””Depart,”Isaid;”mysoulisathirstforknowledge。Iwilldareit。” Helaidhishanduponmyshoulderandblessedme。Hewent。Iheardthedoorshuttobehindhim,theechoesofhisfootstepsslowlydiedaway。 ThenIfeltthatIwasalone,aloneintheHolyPlacewithThingswhicharenotoftheearth。Silencefell——silencedeepandblackasthedarknesswhichwasaroundme。Thesilencefell,itgatheredasthecloudgatheredonthefaceofthemoonthatnightwhen,alad,I prayeduponthepylontowers。Itgathereddenserandyetmoredensetillitseemedtocreepintomyheartandcallaloudtherein;foruttersilencehasavoicethatismoreterriblethananycry。Ispoke; theechoesofmywordscamebackuponmefromthewallsandseemedtobeatmedown。Thestillnesswaslightertoendurethananechosuchasthis。WhatwasIabouttosee?ShouldIdie,evennow,inthefulnessofmyyouthandstrength?Terriblewerethewarningsthathadbeengiventome。Iwasfear-stricken,andbethoughtmethatIwouldfly。 Fly!——flywhither?Thetempledoorwasbarred;Icouldnotfly。IwasalonewiththeGodhead,alonewiththePowerthatIhadinvoked。Nay,myheartwaspure——myheartwaspure。Iwouldfacetheterrorthatwastocome,ay,eventhoughIdied。”Isis,HolyMother,”Iprayed。”Isis,SpouseofHeaven,comeuntome,bewithmenow;Ifaint!bewithmenow。” AndthenIknewthatthingswerenotasthingshadbeen。Theairaroundmebegantostir,itrustledasthewingsofeaglesrustle,ittooklife。Brighteyesgazeduponme,strangewhispersshookmysoul。 Uponthedarknesswerebarsoflight。Theychangedandinterchanged,theymovedtoandfroandwovemysticsymbolswhichIcouldnotread。 Swifterandswifterflewthatshuttleofthelight:thesymbolsgrouped,gathered,faded,gatheredyetagain,fasterandstillmorefast,tillmyeyescouldcountthemnomore。NowIwasafloatuponaseaofglory;itsurgedandrolled,astheoceanrolls;ittossedmehigh,itbroughtmelow。Glorywaspiledonglory,splendourheapedonsplendour’shead,andIrodeaboveitall! Soonthelightsbegantopaleintherollingseaofair。Greatshadowsshotacrossit,linesofdarknesspierceditandrushedtogetheronitsbreast,till,atlength,IwasonlyaShapeofFlamesetlikeastaronthebosomofimmeasurablenight。Burstsofawfulmusicgatheredfromfaraway。MilesandmilesawayIheardthem,thrillingfaintlythroughthegloom。Ontheycame,nearerandmorenear,louderandmoreloud,tilltheysweptpast,above,below,aroundme,sweptonrushingpinions,terrifyingandenchantingme。Theyfloatedby,evergrowingfainter,tilltheydiedinspace。Thenotherscame,andnotwowereakin。Somerattledastenthousandsistrashakenalltotune。 Somerankfromthebrazenthroatsofunnumberedclarions。Somepealedwithaloud,sweetchantofvoicesthatweremorethanhuman;andsomerolledalongintheslowthunderofamilliondrums。Theypassed; theirnoteswerelostindyingechoes;andthesilenceoncemorepressedinuponmeandovercameme。 Thestrengthwithinmebegantofail。Ifeltmylifeebbingatitssprings。Deathdrewneartomeandhisshapewas/Silence/。Heenteredatmyheart,enteredwithasenseofnumbingcold,butmybrainwasstillalive,Icouldyetthink。IknewthatIwasdrawingneartheconfinesoftheDead。Nay,Iwasdyingfast,andoh,thehorrorofit! Istrovetoprayandcouldnot;therewasnomoretimeforprayer。Onestruggleandthestillnesscreptintomybrain。Theterrorpassed;anunfathomableweightofsleeppressedmedown。Iwasdying,Iwasdying,andthen——nothingness! /Iwasdead!/ Achange——lifecamebacktome,butbetweenthenewlifeandthelifethathadbeenwasagulfanddifference。OnceagainIstoodinthedarknessoftheshrine,butitblindedmenomore。Itwasclearasthelightofday,althoughitstillwasblack。Istood;andyetitwasnotIwhostood,butrathermyspiritualpart,foratmyfeetlaymydeadSelf。Thereitlay,rigidandstill,astampofawfulcalmsealeduponitsface,whileIgazedonit。 AndasIgazed,filledwithwonder,IwascaughtupontheWingsofFlameandwhirledaway!away!fasterthanthelightningsflash。DownI fell,throughdepthsofemptyspacesethereandtherewithglitteringcrownsofstars。Downfortenmillionmilesandtentimestenmillion,tillatlengthIhoveredoveraplaceofsoft,unchanginglight,whereinwereTemples,Palaces,andAbodes,suchasnomaneversawinthevisionsofhissleep。TheywerebuiltofFlame,andtheywerebuiltofBlackness。Theirspirespiercedupandup;theirgreatcourtsstretchedaround。EvenasIhoveredtheychangedcontinuallytotheeye;whatwasFlamebecameBlackness,whatwasBlacknessbecameFlame。 Herewastheflashofcrystal,andtheretheblazeofgemsshoneeventhroughtheglorythatrollsaroundthecitywhichisinthePlaceofDeath。Thereweretrees,andtheirvoiceastheyrustledwasthevoiceofmusic;therewasair,and,asitblew,itsbreathwasthesobbingnotesofsong。 Shapes,changing,mysterious,wonderful,rusheduptomeetme,andboremedowntillIseemedtostanduponanotherearth。”Whocomes?”criedagreatVoice。”Harmachis,”answeredtheShapes,thatchangedcontinually。”HarmachiswhohathbeensummonedfromtheearthtolookuponthefaceofHerthatWasandIsandShallBe。Harmachis,ChildofEarth!””ThrowbacktheGatesandopenwidetheDoors!”pealedtheawfulVoice。”ThrowbacktheGatesandopenwidetheDoors;sealuphislipsinsilence,lesthisvoicejarupontheharmoniesofHeaven,takeawayhissightlestheseethatwhichmaynotbeseen,andletHarmachis,whohathbeensummoned,passdownthepaththatleadstotheplaceoftheUnchanging。Passon,ChildofEarth;butbeforethougoest,lookupthatthoumayestlearnhowfarthouartremovedfromEarth。” Ilookedup。Beyondtheglorythatshoneaboutthecitywasblacknight,andhighonitsbosomtwinkledonetinystar。”Beholdtheworldthatthouhastleft,”saidtheVoice,”beholdandtremble。” Thenmylipsandeyesweresealedwithsilenceandwithdarkness,sothatIwasdumbandblind。TheGatesrolledback,theDoorsswungwide,andIwassweptintothecitythatisinthePlaceofDeath。I wassweptswiftlyIknownotwhither,tillatlengthIstooduponmyfeet。AgainthegreatVoicepealed:”Drawtheveilofblacknessfromhiseyes,unsealthesilenceonhislips,thatHarmachis,ChildofEarth,maysee,hear,andunderstand,andmakeadorationattheShrineofHerthatWasandIsandShallBe。” Andmylipsandeyesweretouchedoncemore,sothatmysightandspeechcameback。 Behold!Istoodwithinahallofblackestmarble,soloftythatevenintherosylightscarcecouldmyvisionreachthegreatgroinsoftheroof。Musicwailedaboutitsspaces,andalladownitslengthstoodwingedSpiritsfashionedinlivingfire,andsuchwasthebrightnessoftheirformsthatIcouldnotlookonthem。Initscentrewasanaltar,smallandsquare,andIstoodbeforetheemptyaltar。ThenagaintheVoicecried:”OThouthathastbeen,art,andshaltbe;Thouwho,havingmanynames,artyetwithoutaname;MeasurerofTime;MessengerofGod; GuardianoftheWorldsandtheRacesthatdwellthereon;UniversalMotherbornofNothingness;Creatixuncreated;LivingSplendourwithoutForm,LivingFormwithoutSubstance;ServantoftheInvisible; ChildofLaw;HolderoftheScalesandSwordofFate;VesselofLife,throughwhomallLifeflows,towhomitagainisgathered;RecorderofThingsDone;ExecutrixofDecrees——/Hear!/”HarmachistheEgyptian,whobyThywillhathbeensummonedfromtheearth,waitsbeforeThineAltar,withearsunstopped,witheyesunsealed,andwithanopenheart。Hearanddescend!Descend,OMany- shaped!DescendinFlame!DescendinSound!DescendinSpirit!Hearanddescend!” TheVoiceceasedandtherewassilence。Thenthroughthesilencecameasoundliketheboomingofthesea。Itpassedandpresently,movedtheretobyIknownotwhat,IraisedmyeyesfrommyhandswithwhichIhadcoveredthem,andsawasmalldarkcloudhangingovertheAltarinandoutofwhichafierySerpentclimbed。 ThenalltheSpiritscladinlightfelluponthemarblefloor,andwithaloudvoiceadored;butwhattheysaidIcouldnotunderstand。 Behold!thedarkcloudcamedownandrestedontheAltar,theSerpentoffirestretcheditselftowardsme,touchedmeontheforeheadwithitsforkytongueandwasgone。FromwithinthecloudaVoicesweetandlowandclearspokeinheavenlyaccents:”Depart,yeMinisters,leaveMewithmysonwhomIhavesummoned。” Thenlikearrowsrushingfromabowtheflame-cladSpiritsleaptfromthegroundandspedaway。”OHarmachis,”saidtheVoice,”benotafraid,IamShewhomthoudostknowasIsisoftheEgyptians;butwhatelseIamstrivenotthoutolearn,itisbeyondthystrength。ForIamallthings,Lifeismyspirit,andNatureismyraiment。Iamthelaughterofthebabe,Iamthemaiden’slove,Iamthemother’skiss。IamtheChildandServantoftheInvisiblethatisGod,thatisLaw,thatisFate——thoughmyselfIbenotGodandFateandLaw。WhenwindsblowandoceansroaruponthefaceoftheEarththouhearestmyvoice;whenthougazestonthestarryfirmamentthouseestmycountenance;whenthespringbloomsoutinflowers,thatismysmile,Harmachis。ForIamNature’sself,andallhershapesareshapesofMe。Ibreatheinallthatbreathes。Iwaxandwaneinthechangefulmoon:Igrowandgatherinthetides:Irisewiththesuns:Iflashwiththelightningandthunderinthestorms。 Nothingistoogreatforthemeasureofmymajesty,nothingissosmallthatIcannotfindahometherein。IamintheeandthouartinMe,OHarmachis。ThatwhichbadetheebebadeMealsobe。Therefore,thoughIamgreatandthouartlittle,havenofear。Forweareboundtogetherbythecommonbondoflife——thatlifewhichflowsthroughsunsandstarsandspaces,throughSpiritsandthesoulsofmen,weldingallNaturetoawholethat,changingever,isyeteternallythesame。” Ibowedmyhead——Icouldnotspeak,forIwasafraid。”FaithfullyhastthouservedMe,Omyson,”wentonthelowsweetVoice;”greatlythouhastlongedtobebroughtfacetofacewithMehereinAmenti;andgreatlyhastthoudaredtoaccomplishthydesire。 ForitisnosmallthingtocastoffthetabernacleoftheFleshandbeforetheappointedtime,ifonlyforanhour,putontheraimentoftheSpirit。Andgreatly,Omyservantandmyson,haveI,too,desiredtolookontheetherewhereIam。FortheGodslovethosewholovethem,butwithawideranddeeperlove,andunderOnewhoisasfarfromMeasIamfromthee,mortal,IamaGodofGods。ThereforeI havecausedtheetobebroughthither,Harmachis;andthereforeI speaktothee,myson,andbidtheecommunewithMenowfacetoface,asthoudidstcommunethatnightuponthetempletowersofAbouthis。 ForIwastherewiththee,Harmachis,asIwasintenthousandotherworlds。ItwasI,OHarmachis,wholaidthelotusinthyhand,givingtheethesignwhichthoudidstseek。ForthouartofthekinglybloodofmychildrenwhoservedMefromagetoage。Andifthoudostnotfailthoushaltsituponthatkinglythroneandrestoremyancientworshipinitspurity,andsweepmytemplesfromtheirdefilements。 Butifthoudostfail,thenshalltheeternalSpiritIsisbecomebutamemoryinEgypt。” TheVoicepaused;and,gatheringupmystrength,atlengthIspokealoud:”Tellme,OHoly,”Isaid,”shallIthenfail?””AskMenot,”answeredtheVoice,”thatwhichitisnotlawfulthatI shouldanswerthee。PerchanceIcanreadthatwhichshallbefallthee,perchanceitdothnotpleaseMesotoread。WhatcanitprofittheDivine,thathathalltimewhereintoawaittheissues,tobeeagertolookupontheblossomthatisnotblown,butwhich,lyingaseedinthebosomoftheearth,shallblowinitsseason?Know,Harmachis,thatIdonotshapetheFuture;theFutureistotheeandnottoMe; foritisbornofLawandoftheruleordainedoftheInvisible。Yetthouartfreetoacttherein,andthoushaltwinorthoushaltfailaccordingtothystrengthandthemeasureofthyheart’spurity。Thinebetheburden,Harmachis,asthineintheeventshallbethegloryortheshame。LittledoIreckoftheissue,IwhoambuttheMinisterofwhatiswritten。Nowhearme:Iwillalwaysbewiththee,myson,formyloveoncegivencanneverbetakenaway,thoughbysinitmayseemlosttothee。Rememberthenthis:ifthoudosttriumph,thyguerdonshallbegreat;ifthoudostfail,heavyindeedshallbethypunishmentbothinthefleshandinthelandthatthoucallestAmenti。 Yetthisforthycomfort:shameandagonyshallnotbeeternal。Forhoweverdeepthefallfromrighteousness,ifbutrepentanceholdstheheart,thereisapath——astonyandacruelpath——wherebytheheightmaybeclimbedagain。Letitnotbethylottofollowit,Harmachis!”Andnow,becausethouhastlovedMe,myson,and,wanderingthroughthemazeoffable,whereinmenlosethemselvesupontheearth,mistakingthesubstancefortheSpirit,andtheAltarfortheGod,hastyetgraspedaclueofTruththeMany-faced;andbecauseIlovetheeandlookontothedaythat,perchance,shallcomewhenthoushaltdwellblessedinmylightandinthedoingofmytasks:becauseofthis,Isay,itshallbegiventothee,OHarmachis,toheartheWordwherebyImaybesummonedfromtheUttermost,byonewhohathcommunedwithMe,andtolookuponthefaceofIsis——evenintotheeyesoftheMessenger,andnotdiethedeath。”/Behold!/” ThesweetVoiceceased;thedarkclouduponthealtarchangedandchanged——itgrewwhite,itshone,andseemedatlengthtotaketheshroudedshapeofawoman。ThenthegoldenSnakecreptfromitsheartoncemore,and,likealivingdiadem,twineditselfaboutthecloudybrows。 NowsuddenlyaVoicecalledaloudtheawfulWord,thenthevapoursburstandmelted,andwithmyeyesIsawthatGlory,attheverythoughtofwhichmyspiritfaints。ButwhatIsawitisnotlawfultoutter。For,thoughIhavebeenbiddentowritewhatIhavewrittenofthismatter,perchancethatarecordmayremain,thereonIhavebeenwarned——ay,evennow,afterthesemanyyears。Isaw,andwhatIsawcannotbeimagined;forthereareGloriesandthereareShapeswhicharebeyondthereachofman’simagination。Isaw——then,withtheechoofthatWord,andthememoryofthatsightstampedforeveronmyheart,myspiritfailedme,andIsankdownbeforetheGlory。 And,asIfell,itseemedthatthegreathallburstopenandcrumbledintoflakesoffireroundme。Thenagreatwindblew:therewasasoundasthesoundofWorldsrushingdownthefloodofTime——andI knewnomore! CHAPTERVII OFTHEAWAKINGOFHARMACHIS;OFTHECEREMONYOFHISCROWNING ASPHARAOHOFTHEUPPERANDTHELOWERLAND;ANDOFTHE OFFERINGSMADETOPHARAOH OnceagainIwoke——tofindmyselfstretchedatlengthuponthestoneflooringoftheHolyPlaceofIsisthatisatAbouthis。BymestoodtheoldPriestoftheMysteries,andinhishandwasalamp。Hebentoverme,andgazedearnestlyuponmyface。”Itisday——thedayofthynewbirth,andthouhastlivedtoseeit,Harmachis!”hesaidatlength。”Igivethanks。Arise,royalHarmachis——nay,tellmenaughtofthatwhichhasbefallenthee。Arise,belovedoftheHolyMother。Comeforth,thouwhohastpassedthefireandlearnedwhatliesbehindthedarkness——comeforth,Onewly-born!” Iroseand,walkingfaintly,wentwithhim,and,passingoutofthedarknessoftheShrinesfilledwiththoughtandwonder,cameoncemoreintothepurelightofthemorning。AndthenIwenttomyownchamberandslept;nordidanydreamscometotroubleme。Butnoman——notevenmyfather——askedmeaughtofwhatIsawuponthatdreadnight,orafterwhatfashionIhadcommunedwiththeGoddess。 Afterthesethingswhichhavebeenwritten,IappliedmyselfforaspacetotheworshipoftheMotherIsis,andtothefurtherstudyoftheoutwardformsofthosemysteriestowhichInowheldthekey。 Moreover,Iwasinstructedinmatterspolitic,formanygreatmenofourfollowingcamesecretlytoseemefromallquartersofEgypt,andtoldmemuchofthehatredofthepeopletowardsCleopatra,theQueen,andofotherthings。Atlastthehourdrewnigh;itwasthreemonthsandtendaysfromthenightwhen,forawhile,Ilefttheflesh,andyetlivingwithourlife,wasgatheredtothebreastofIsis,onwhichitwasagreedthatwithdueandcustomaryrites,althoughinuttersecrecy,IshouldbecalledtothethroneoftheUpperandtheLowerLand。Soitcameaboutthat,asthesolemntimedrewnigh,greatmenofthepartyofEgyptgatheredtothenumberofthirty-sevenfromeverynome,andeachgreatcityoftheirnome,meetingtogetheratAbouthis。Theycameineveryguise——someaspriests,someaspilgrimstotheShrine,andsomeasbeggars。Amongthemwasmyuncle,Sepa,who,thoughhecladhimselfasatravellingdoctor,hadmuchadotokeephisloudvoicefrombetrayinghim。Indeed,Imyselfknewhimbyit,meetinghimasIwalkedinthoughtuponthebanksofthecanal,althoughitwasthenduskandthegreatcape,which,afterthefashionofsuchdoctors,hehadthrownabouthishead,halfhidhisface。”Apestonthee!”hecried,whenIgreetedhimbyhisname。”Cannotamanceasetobehimselfforasinglehour?Didstthoubutknowthepainsthatithascostmetolearntoplaythispart——andnowthoureadestwhoIameveninthedark!” Andthen,stilltalkinginhisloudvoice,hetoldmehowhehadtravelledhitheronfoot,thebettertoescapethespieswhoplytoandfroupontheriver。Buthesaidheshouldreturnbythewater,ortakeanotherguise;forsincehehadcomeasadoctorhehadbeenforcedtoplayadoctor’spart,knowingbutlittleoftheartsofmedicine;and,ashegreatlyfeared,thereweremanybetweenAnnuandAbouthiswhohadsufferedfromit。[*]Andhelaughedloudlyandembracedme,forgettinghispart。Forhewastoowholeathearttobeanactorandotherthanhimself,andwouldhaveenteredAbouthiswithmeholdingmyhand,hadInotchidhimforhisfolly。 [*]InAncientEgyptanunskilfulornegligentphysicianwasliabletoveryheavypenalties——Editor。 Atlengthallweregathered。 Itwasnight,andthegatesofthetemplewereshut。Nonewereleftwithinthem,exceptthethirty-seven;myfather,theHighPriestAmenemhat;thatagedpriestwhohadledmetotheShrineofIsis;theoldwife,Atoua,who,accordingtoancientcustom,wastopreparemefortheanointing;andsomefiveotherpriests,sworntosecrecybythatoathwhichnonemaybreak。Theygatheredinthesecondhallofthegreattemple;butIremainedalone,cladinmywhiterobe,inthepassagewherearethenamesofsix-and-seventyancientKings,whowerebeforethedayofthedivineSethi。ThereIrestedindarkness,tillatlengthmyfather,Amenemhat,came,bearingalamp,and,bowinglowbeforeme,ledmebythehandforthintothegreathall。Hereandthere,betweenitsmightypillars,lightswereburningthatdimlyshowedthesculpturedimagesuponthewalls,anddimlyfelluponthelonglineoftheseven-and-thirtyLords,Priests,andPrinces,who,seateduponcarvenchairs,awaitedmycominginsilence。Beforethem,facingawayfromthesevenSanctuaries,athronewasset,aroundwhichstoodthepriestsholdingthesacredimagesandbanners。AsIcameintothedimandholyplace,theDignitariesrose,andbowedbeforeme,speakingnoword;whilemyfatherledmetothestepsofthethrone,andinalowvoicebademestandbeforeit。 Thenhespoke:”Lords,Priests,andPrincesoftheancientordersofthelandofKhem——NoblesfromtheUpperandtheLowerCountry,havegatheredinanswertomysummons,hearme:Ipresenttoyou,withsuchscantformalityastheoccasioncanafford,thePrinceHarmachis,byrightandtruedescentofbloodthedescendantandheiroftheancientPharaohsofourmostunhappyland。HeispriestoftheinmostcircleoftheMysteriesoftheDivineIsis,MasteroftheMysteries——HereditaryPriestofthePyramids,whicharebyMemphis,InstructedintheSolemnRitesoftheHolyOsiris。Isthereanyamongyouwhohasaughttourgeagainstthetruelineofhisblood?” Hepaused,andmyuncleSepa,risingfromhischair,spoke:”Wehavemadeexaminationoftherecordsandthereisnone,OAmenemhat。HeisoftheRoyalblood,hisdescentistrue。””Isthereanyamongyou,”wentonmyfather,”whocandenythatthisroyalHarmachis,bysanctionoftheveryGods,hasbeengatheredtoIsis,beenshownthewayoftheOsiris,beenadmittedtobetheHereditaryHighPriestofthePyramidswhicharebyMemphis,andoftheTemplesofthePyramids?” ThenthatoldpriestrosewhohadbeenmyguideintheSanctuaryoftheMotherandmadeanswer:”Thereisnone;OAmenemhat;Iknowthesethingsofmyownknowledge。” Oncemoremyfatherspoke:”IsthereanyamongyouwhohasaughttourgeagainstthisroyalHarmachis,inthatbywickednessofheartorlife,byuncleanlinessorfalsity,itisnotfitormeetthatweshouldcrownhimLordofalltheLands?” ThenanagedPrinceofMemphisaroseandmadeanswer:”Wehaveinquiredofthesematters:thereisnone,OAmenemhat。””Itiswell,”saidmyfather;”thennaughtiswantinginthePrinceHarmachis,seedofNekt-nebf,theOsirian。LetthewomanAtouastandforthandtellthiscompanythosethingsthatcametopasswhen,atthehourofherdeath,shewhowasmywifeprophesiedoverthisPrince,beingfilledwiththeSpiritoftheHathors。” ThereonoldAtouacreptforwardfromtheshadowofthecolumns,andearnestlytoldthosethingsthathavebeenwritten。”Yehaveheard,”saidmyfather:”doyoubelievethatthewomanwhowasmywifespakewiththeDivinevoice?””Wedo,”theyanswered。 NowmyuncleSeparoseandspoke:”RoyalHarmachis,thouhastheard。KnownowthatwearegatheredheretocrowntheeKingoftheUpperandtheLowerLands——thyholyfather,Amenemhat,renouncingallhisrightonthybehalf。Wearemet,not,indeed,inthatpompandceremonywhichisduetotheoccasion——forwhatwedomustbedoneinsecret,lestourlives,andthecausethatismoredeartousthanlife,shouldpaytheforfeit——butyetwithsuchdignityandobservanceoftheancientritesasourcircumstancemaycommand。Learn,now,howthismatterhangs,andif,afterlearning,thymindconsentsthereto,thenmountthythrone,OPharaoh——andsweartheoath!”LonghasKhemigroanedbeneaththemailedheeloftheGreek,andtrembledattheshadowoftheRoman’sspear;longhastheancientworshipofitsGodsbeendesecrated,anditspeoplecrushedwithoppression。Butwebelievethatthehourofdeliveranceisathand,andwiththesolemnvoiceofEgyptandbytheancientGodsofEgypt,towhosecausethouartofallmenbound,wecalluponthee,Prince,tobetheswordofourdeliverance。Hearken!Twentythousandgoodandlealmenaresworntowaituponthyword,andatthysignaltoriseasone,toputtheGreciantothesword,andwiththeirbloodandsubstancetobuildtheeathronesetmoresurelyonthesoilofKhemthanareitsancientpyramids——suchathroneasshallevenrolltheRomanlegionsback。Andforthesignal,itshallbethedeathofthatboldharlot,Cleopatra。Thoumustcompassherdeath,Harmachis,insuchfashionasshallbeshowntothee,andwithherbloodanointtheRoyalthroneofEgypt。”Canstthourefuse,OourHope?Dothnottheholyloveofcountryswellwithinthyheart?CanstthoudashthecupofFreedomfromthylipsandbeartodrinkthebitterdraughtofslaves?Theempriseisgreat;maybeitshallfail,andthouwiththylife,aswewithours,shaltpaythepriceofourendeavour。Butwhatofit,Harmachis?Islife,then,sosweet?Arewesosoftlycushionedonthestonybedofearth?Isbitternessandsorrowinitssumsosmallandscantathing? Doweherebreathesodivineanairthatweshouldfeartofacethepassageofourbreath?Whathaveweherebuthopeandmemory?Whatseeweherebutshadows?Shallwethenfeartopasspure-handedwhereFulfilmentisandmemoryislostinitsownsource,andshadowsdieinthelightwhichcastthem?OHarmachis,thatmanaloneistrulyblestwhocrownshislifewithFame’smostsplendidwreath。For,sincetoalltheBroodofEarthDeathhandshispoppy-flowers,heindeedishappytowhomthereisoccasiongiventoweavetheminacrownofglory。AndhowcanamandiebetterthaninagreatendeavourtostrikethegyvesfromhisCountry’slimbssothatsheagainmaystandinthefaceofHeavenandraisetheshrillshoutofFreedom,and,cladoncemoreinapanoplyofstrength,trampleunderfootthefettersofherservitude,defyingthetyrantnationsoftheearthtosettheirsealuponherbrow?”Khemcallsthee,Harmachis。Comethen,thouDeliverer;leaplikeHorusfromthefirmament,breakherchains,scatterherfoes,andruleaPharaohonPharaoh’sThrone——””Enough,enough!”Icried,whilethelongmurmurofapplausesweptaboutthecolumnsandupthemassywalls。”Enough;isthereanyneedtoadjuremethus?HadIahundredlives,wouldInotmostgladlylaythemdownforEgypt?””Wellsaid,wellsaid!”answeredSepa。”Nowgoforthwiththewomanyonder,thatshemaymakethyhandscleanbeforetheytouchthesacredemblems,andanointthybrowbeforeitisencircledofthediadem。” AndsoIwentintoachamberapartwiththeoldwife,Atoua。There,mutteringprayers,shepouredpurewaterovermyhandsintoaewerofgold,andhavingdippedafineclothintooilwipedmybrowwithit。”OhappyEgypt!”shesaid;”OhappyPrince,thatartcometoruleinEgypt!ORoyalyouth!——tooRoyaltobeapriest——soshallmanyafairwomanthink;but,perchance,fortheetheywillrelaxthepriestlyrule,elsehowshalltheraceofPharaohbecarriedon?OhappyI,whodandledtheeandgavemyfleshandbloodtosavethee!OroyalandbeautifulHarmachis,bornforsplendour,happiness,andlove!””Cease,cease,”Isaid,forhertalkjarreduponme;”callmenothappytillthouknowestmyend,andspeaknottomeoflove,forwithlovecomessorrow,andmineisanotherandahigherway。””Ay,ay,sothousayest——andjoy,too,thatcomeswithlove!Nevertalklightlyoflove,myKing,foritbroughttheehere!/La!la!/butitisalwaystheway——’Thegooseonthewinglaughsatcrocodiles,’sogoestheirsayingdownatAlexandria;’butwhenthegooseisasleeponthewater,itisthecrocodilesthatlaugh。’Notbutwhatwomenareprettycrocodiles。MenworshipthecrocodilesatAnthribis—— Crocodilopolistheycallitnow,don’tthey?——buttheyworshipwomenalltheworldover!/La!/howmytonguerunson,andthouabouttobecrownedPharaoh!DidInotprophesyittothee?Well,thouartclean,LordoftheDoubleCrown。Goforth!” SoIwentfromthechamberwiththeoldwife’sfoolishtalkringinginmyears,thoughofatruthherfollyhadeveragrainofwitinit。 AsIcame,theDignitariesroseoncemoreandbowedbeforeme。Thenmyfather,withoutdelay,drewnearme,andplacedinmyhandsagoldenimageofthedivineMa,theGoddessofTruth,andgoldenimagesofthearksoftheGodAmen-Ra,ofthedivineMout,andthedivineKhons,andspokesolemnly:”ThouswearestbythelivingmajestyofMa,bythemajestyofAmen-Ra,ofMout,andofKhons?””Iswear,”Isaid。”ThouswearestbytheholylandofKhem,bySihor’sflood,bytheTemplesoftheGodsandtheeternalPyramids?””Iswear。””Rememberingthyhideousdoomifthoushouldstfailtherein,thouswearestthatthouwiltinallthingsgovernEgyptaccordingtoitsancientlaws,thatthouwiltpreservetheworshipofitsGods,thatthouwiltdoequaljustice,thatthouwiltnotoppress,thatthouwiltnotbetray,thatthouwiltmakenoalliancewiththeRomanortheGreek,thatthouwiltcastouttheforeignIdols,thatthouwiltdevotethylifetothelibertyofthelandofKhem?””Iswear。””Itiswell。Mount,then,thethrone,thatinthepresenceofthesethysubjects,ImaynametheePharaoh。”