”Pardon,royalEgypt,”Iansweredcoldly,butwithsuchwitasIcouldsummon,”beforetheQueenofHeavenevenstarsgrowpale!”ThisIsaidofthemoon,whichisthesignoftheHolyMotherwhomCleopatradaredtorival,namingherselfIsiscometoearth。”Happilysaid,”sheanswered,clappingherwhitehands。”Why,here’sanastronomerwhohaswitandcanshapeacompliment!Nay,suchawondermustnotpassunnoted,lesttheGodsresentit。Charmion,takethisrose-chapletfrommyhairandsetituponthelearnedbrowofourHarmachis。Heshallbecrowned/KingofLove/,whetherhewillitornot。” CharmionliftedthechapletfromCleopatra’sbrowsand,bearingittowhereIwas,withasmilesetituponmyheadyetwarmandfragrantfromtheQueen’shair,butsoroughlythatshepainedmesomewhat。Shedidthisbecauseshewaswroth,althoughshesmiledwithherlipsandwhispered,”Anomen,royalHarmachis。”Forthoughshewassoverymuchawoman,yet,whenshewasangeredorsufferedjealousy,Charmionhadachildishway。
Havingthusfixedthechaplet,shecurtsiedlowbeforeme,andwiththesoftesttoneofmockerynamedme,intheGreektongue,”Harmachis,KingofLove。”ThenCleopatralaughedandpledgedmeas”KingofLove,”andsodidallthecompany,findingthejestamerryone。ForinAlexandriatheylovenotthosewholivestraitlyandturnasidefromwomen。
ButIsatthere,asmileuponmylips,andblackwrathinmyheart。
For,knowingwhoandwhatIwas,itirkedmetothinkmyselfajestforthefrivolousnoblesandlightbeautiesofCleopatra’sCourt。ButIwaschieflyangeredagainstCharmion,becauseshelaughedtheloudest,andIdidnotthenknowthatlaughterandbitternessareoftentheveilswithwhichasoreheartwrapsitsweaknessfromtheworld。”Anomen”shesaiditwas——thatcrownofflowers——andsoitprovedindeed。ForIwasfatedtobartertheDoubleDiademoftheUpperandtheLowerLandforawreathofpassion’srosesthatfadebeforetheyfullybloom,andPharaoh’sivorybedofstateforthepillowofafaithlesswoman’sbreast。”/KingofLove!/”theycrownedmeintheirmockery;ay,andKingofShame!AndI,withtheperfumedrosesonmybrow——I,bydescentandordinationthePharaohofEgypt——thoughtoftheimperishablehallsofAbouthisandofthatothercrowningwhichonthemorrowshouldbeconsummate。
Butstillsmiling,Ipledgedthemback,andansweredwithajest。Forrising,IbowedbeforeCleopatraandcravedleavetogo。”Venus,”I
said,speakingoftheplanetthatweknowasDonaouinthemorningandBonouintheevening,”wasintheascendant。Therefore,asnew-crownedKingofLove,ImustnowpasstodomyhomagetoitsQueen。”ForthesebarbariansnameVenusQueenofLove。
AndsoamidsttheirlaughterIwithdrawtomywatch-tower,and,dashingthatshamefulchapletdownamidsttheinstrumentsofmycraft,madepretencetonotetherollingofthestars。ThereIwaited,thinkingonmanythingsthatweretobe,untilCharmionshouldcomewiththelastlistsofthedoomedandthemessagesofmyuncleSepa,whomshehadseenthatevening。
Atlengththedooropenedsoftly,andshecamejewelledandcladinherwhiterobes,asshehadleftthefeast。
CHAPTERV
OFTHECOMINGOFCLEOPATRATOTHECHAMBEROFHARMACHIS;OF
THETHROWINGFORTHOFTHEKERCHIEFOFCHARMION;OFTHE
STARS;ANDOFTHEGIFTBYCLEOPATRAOFHERFRIENDSHIPTOHER
SERVANTHARMACHIS”Atlengththouartcome,Charmion,”Isaid。”Itisover-late。””Yea,myLord;butbynomeanscouldIescapeCleopatra。Hermoodisstrangelycrossedto-night。Iknownotwhatitmayportend。Strangewhimsandfanciesblowacrossitlikelightandcontraryairsuponasummersea,andIcannotreadherpurpose。””Well,well;enoughofCleopatra。Hastthouseenouruncle?””Yes,royalHarmachis。””Andhastthouthelastlists?””Yes;heretheyare,”andshedrewthemfromherbosom。”Hereisthelistofthosewho,aftertheQueen,mustcertainlybeputtothesword。AmongthemthouwiltnoteisthenameofthatoldGaulBrennus。
Igrieveforhim,forwearefriends;butitmustbe。Itisaheavylist。””Itisso,”Iansweredconningit;”whenmenwriteouttheircounttheyforgetnoitem,andourcountislong。Whatmustbemustbe。Nowforthenext。””Hereisthelistofthosetobespared,asfriendlyoruncertain;andherethatofthetownswhichwillcertainlyriseassoonasthemessengerreachestheirgateswithtidingsofthedeathofCleopatra。””Good。Andnow”——andIpaused——”andnowastothemannerofCleopatra’sdeath。Howhastthousettledit?Mustitbebymyownhand?””Yea,myLord,”sheanswered,andagainIcaughtthatnoteofbitternessinhervoice。”DoubtlessPharaohwillrejoicethathisshouldbethehandtoridthelandofthisfalseQueenandwantonwoman,andatoneblowbreakthechainswhichgalltheneckofEgypt。””Talknotthus,girl,”Isaid;”thouknowestwellthatIdonotrejoice,beingbutdriventotheactbydeepnecessityandthepressureofmyvows。Canshenot,then,bepoisoned?Orcannooneoftheeunuchsbesubornedtoslayher?Mysoulturnsfromthisbloodywork!Indeed,Imarvel,howeverheavybehercrimes,thatthoucanstspeaksolightlyofthedeathbytreacheryofonewholovesthee!””SurelyPharaohisover-tender,forgettingthegreatnessofthemomentandallthathangsuponthisdagger-strokethatshallcutthethreadofCleopatra’slife。Listen,Harmachis。/Thou/mustdothedeed,and/thou/alone!MyselfIwoulddoit,hadmyarmthestrength;butithasnot。Itcannotbedonebypoison,foreverydropshedrinksandeverymorselthatshalltouchherlipsisstrictlytastedbythreeseparatetasters,whocannotbesuborned。Normaytheeunuchsoftheguardbetrusted。Two,indeed,aresworntous;butthethirdcannotbecomeat。Hemustbecutdownafterwards;and,indeed,whensomanymenmustfall,whatmattersaeunuchmoreorless?Thusitshallbe,then。To-morrownight,atthreehoursbeforemidnightthoudostcastthefinalauguryoftheissueofthewar。Andthenthouwilt,asisagreed,descendalonewithme,havingthesignet,totheouterchamberoftheQueen’sapartment。ForthevesselbearingorderstotheLegionssailsfromAlexandriaatthefollowingdawn;andalonewithCleopatra,sinceshewillsthatthethingbekeptsecretasthesea,thouwiltreadthemessageofthestars。Andassheporesoverthepapyrus,thenmustthoustabherintheback,sothatshedies;andseethouthatthywillandarmfailtheenot!Thedeedbeingdone——andindeeditwillbeeasy——thouwilttakethesignetandpassouttowheretheeunuchis——fortheotherswillbewanting。Ifbyanychancethereistroublewithhim——buttherewillbenotrouble,forhedarenotentertheprivaterooms,andthesoundsofdeathcannotreachsofar——thoumustcuthimdown。ThenIwillmeetthee;and,passingon,wewillcometoPaulus,anditshallbemycaretoseethatheisneitherdrunknorbackward,forIknowhowtoholdhimtothetask。Andheandthosewithhimshallthrowopenthesidegate,whenSepaandthefivehundredchosenmenwhoareinwaitingshallpourinandcastthemselvesuponthesleepinglegionaries,puttingthemtothesword。
Why,thethingiseasysothouresttruetothyself,andletnowomanishfearscreepintothyheart。Whatisthisdagger’sthrust?Itisnothing,andyetuponithangthedestiniesofEgyptandtheworld。””Hush!”Isaid。”Whatisthat?——Ihearasound。”
Charmionrantothedoor,and,gazingdownthelong,darkpassage,listened。Inamomentshecameback,herfingeronherlips。”ItistheQueen,”shewhisperedhurriedly;”theQueenwhomountsthestairalone。IheardherbidIrastoleaveher。Imaynotbefoundalonewiththeeatthishour;ithasastrangelook,andshemaysuspect。
Whatwantsshehere?WherecanIhide?”
Iglancedround。AtthefurtherendofthechamberwasaheavycurtainthathidalittleplacebuiltinthethicknessofthewallwhichI
usedforthestorageofrollsandinstruments。”Hastethee——there!”Isaid,andsheglidedbehindthecurtain,whichswungbackandcoveredher。ThenIthrustthefatalscrollofdeathintothebosomofmyrobeandbentoverthemysticchart。PresentlyI
heardthesweepofwoman’srobesandtherecamealowknockuponthedoor。”Enter,whoeverthouart,”Isaid。
Thelatchlifted,andCleopatrasweptin,royallyarrayed,herdarkhairhangingaboutherandthesacredsnakeofroyaltyglisteningonherbrow。”Ofatruth,Harmachis,”shesaidwithasigh,asshesankintoaseat,”thepathtoheavenishardtoclimb!Ah!Iamweary,forthosestairsaremany。ButIwasminded,myastronomer,toseetheeinthyhaunts。””Iamhonouredovermuch,OQueen!”Isaidbowinglowbeforeher。”Artthounow?Andyetthatdarkfaceofthinehasasomewhatangrylook——thouarttooyoungandhandsomeforthisdrytrade,Harmachis。
Why,Ivowthouhastcastmywreathofrosesdownamidstthyrustytools!Kingswouldhavecherishedthatwreathalongwiththeirchoicestdiadems,Harmachis!andthoudostthrowitawayasathingofnoaccount!Why,whatamanartthou!Butstay;whatisthis?Alady’skerchief,byIsis!Nay,now,myHarmachis,howcame/this/here?Areourpoorkerchiefsalsoinstrumentsofthyhighart?Oh,fie,fie!——
haveIcaughtthee,then?Artthouindeedafox?””Nay,mostroyalCleopatra,nay!”Isaid,turning;forthekerchiefwhichhadfallenfromCharmion’sneckhadanawkwardlook。”Iknownot,indeed,howthefripperycamehere。Perhaps,someoneofthewomenwhokeepsthechambermayhaveletitfall。””Ah!so——so!”shesaiddryly,andstilllaughinglikearipplingbrook。”Yes,surely,theslave-womenwhokeepchambersownsuchtoysasthis,oftheveryfinestsilk,worthtwiceitsweightingold,andbroidered,too,inmanycolours。Why,myselfIshouldnotshametowearit!Ofatruthitseemsfamiliartomysight。”Andshethrewitroundherneckandsmoothedtheendswithherwhitehand。”Butthere;
doubtless,itisathingunholyinthineeyesthatthescarfofthybelovedshouldrestuponmypoorbreast。Takeit,Harmachis;takeit,andhideitinthybosom——nighthyheartindeed!”
Itooktheaccursedthing,and,mutteringwhatImaynotwrite,steppedontothegiddyplatformwhenceIwatchedthestars。Then,crushingitintoaball,Ithrewittothewindsofheaven。
AtthisthelovelyQueenlaughedoncemore。”Nay,thinknow,”shecried;”whatwouldtheladysaycouldsheseeherlove-gaugethuscasttoalltheworld?Mayhap,Harmachis,thouwouldstdealthuswithmywreathalso?See,therosesfade;castitforth,”and,stooping,shetookupthewreathandgaveittome。
Foramoment,sovexedwasI,Ihadamindtotakeheratherwordandsendthewreathtojointhekerchief。ButIthoughtbetterofit。”Nay,”Isaidmoresoftly,”itisaQueen’sgift,andIwillkeepit,”
and,asIspoke,Isawthecurtainshake。OftensincethatnightI
havesorrowedoverthosesimplewords。”GraciousthanksbetotheKingofLoveforthissmallmercy,”sheanswered,lookingatmestrangely。”Now,enoughofwit;comeforthuponthisbalcony——tellmeofthemysteryofthosestarsofthine。ForIalwayslovedthestars,thataresopureandbrightandcold,andsofarawayfromourfeveredtroubling。ThereIwouldwishtodwell,rockedonthedarkbosomofthenight,andlosingthelittlesenseofselfasIgazedforeveronthecountenanceofyonsweet-eyedspace。
Nay——whocantell,Harmachis?——perhapsthosestarspartakeofourverysubstance,and,linkedtousbyNature’sinvisiblechain,do,indeed,drawourdestinywiththemastheyroll。WhatsaystheGreekfableofhimwhobecameastar?Perchanceithastruth,foryondertinysparksmaybethesoulsofmen,butgrownmorepurelybrightandplacedinhappyresttoillumetheturmoiloftheirmother-earth。OraretheylampshunghighintheheavenlyvaultthatnightbynightsomeGodhead,whosewingsareDarkness,toucheswithhisimmortalfiresothattheyleapoutinansweringflame?Givemeofthywisdomandopenthesewonderstome,myservant,forIhavelittleknowledge。Yetmyheartislarge,andIwouldfillit,forIhavethewit,couldIbutfindtheteacher。”
Thereon,beinggladtofindfootingonasafershore,andmarvellingsomewhattolearnthatCleopatrahadaplaceforloftythoughts,I
spokeandwillinglytoldhersuchthingsasarelawful。Itoldherhowtheskyisaliquidmasspressingroundtheearthandrestingontheelasticpillarsoftheair,andhowaboveistheheavenlyoceanNout,inwhichtheplanetsfloatlikeshipsastheyrushupontheirradiantway。Itoldhermanythings,andamongstthemhow,throughthecertainnever-ceasingmovementoftheorbsoflight,theplanetVenus,thatwascalledDonaouwhensheshowedastheMorningStar,becametheplanetBonouwhenshecameasthesweetStarofEve。AndwhileIstoodandspokewatchingthestars,shesat,herhandsclaspeduponherknee,andwatchedmyface。”Ah!”shebrokeinatlength,”andsoVenusistobeseenbothinthemorningandtheeveningsky。Well,ofatruth,sheiseverywhere,thoughshebestlovesthenight。ButthoulovestnotthatIshouldusetheseLatinnamestothee。Come,wewilltalkintheancienttongueofKhem,whichIknowwell;Iamthefirst,markthou,ofalltheLagid?
whoknowit。Andnow,”shewenton,speakinginmyowntongue,butwithalittleforeignaccentthatdidbutmakehertalkmoresweet,”enoughofstars,for,whenallissaid,theyarebutficklethings,andperhapsmayevennowbestoringupanevilhourfortheeorme,orforbothofustogether。NotbutwhatIlovetoheartheespeakofthem,forthenthyfacelosesthatgloomycloudofthoughtwhichmarsitandgrowsquickandhuman。Harmachis,thouarttooyoungforsuchasolemntrade;methinksthatImustfindtheeabetter。Youthcomesbutonce;whywasteitinthesemusings?Itistimetothinkwhenwecannolongeract。Tellmehowoldartthou,Harmachis?””Ihavesix-and-twentyyears,OQueen,”Ianswered,”forIwasborninthefirstmonthofShomou,inthesummerseason,andonthethirddayofthemonth。””Why,then,weareofanageeventoaday,”shecried,”forItoohavesix-and-twentyyears,andItoowasbornonthethirddayofthefirstmonthofShomou。Well,thismaywesay:thosewhobegotusneedhavenoshame。ForifIbethefairestwomaninEgypt,methinks,Harmachis,thatthereisinEgyptnomanmorefairandstrongthanthou,ay,ormorelearned。Bornofthesameday,why,’tismanifestthatweweredestinedtostandtogether,I,astheQueen,andthou,perchance,Harmachis,asoneofthechiefpillarsofmythrone,andthustoworkeachother’sweal。””Ormaybeeachother’swoe,”Ianswered,lookingup;forhersweetspeechesstungmyearsandbroughtmorecolourtomyfacethanIlovedthatsheshouldseethere。”Nay,nevertalkofwoe。Beseatedherebyme,Harmachis,andletustalk,notasQueenandsubject,butasfriendtofriend。Thouwastangeredwithmeatthefeastto-nightbecauseImockedtheewithyonderwreath——wasitnotso?Nay,itwasbutajest。Didstthouknowhowheavyisthetaskofmonarchsandhowwearisomearetheirhours,thouwouldstnotbewrothbecauseIlitmydulnesswithajest。Oh,theywearyme,thoseprincesandthosenobles,andthosestiff-neckedpompousRomans。Tomyfacetheyvowthemselvesmyslaves,andbehindmybacktheymockmeandproclaimmetheservantoftheirTriumvirate,ortheirEmpire,ortheirRepublic,asthewheelofFortuneturns,andeachrisesonitsround!Thereisneveramanamongthem——nothingbutfools,parasites,andpuppets——neveramansincewiththeircowarddaggerstheyslewthatC?sarwhomalltheworldinarmswasnotstrongenoughtotame。AndImustplayoffoneagainsttheother,ifmaybe,bysodoing,IcankeepEgyptfromtheirgrip。Andforreward,what?
Why,thisismyreward——thatallmenspeakillofme——and,Iknowit,mysubjectshateme!Yes,Ibelievethat,womanthoughIam,theywouldmurdermecouldtheyfindameans!”
Shepaused,coveringhereyeswithherhand,anditwaswell,forherwordspiercedmesothatIshrankupontheseatbesideher。”Theythinkillofme,Iknowit;andcallmewanton,whohaveneversteppedasidesaveonce,whenIlovedthegreatestmanofalltheworld,andatthetouchoflovemypassionflamedindeed,butburntahallowedflame。TheseribaldAlexandriansswearthatIpoisonedPtolemy,mybrother——whomtheRomanSenatewould,mostunnaturally,haveforcedonme,hissister,asahusband!Butitisfalse:hesickenedanddiedoffever。AndevensotheysaythatIwouldslayArsino?,mysister——who,indeed,wouldslayme!——butthat,too,isfalse!Thoughshewillhavenoneofme,Ilovemysister。Yes,theyallthinkillofmewithoutacause;eventhoudostthinkillofme,Harmachis。”OHarmachis,beforethoujudgest,rememberwhatathingisenvy!——
thatfoulsicknessofthemindwhichmakesthejaundicedeyeofpettinesstoseeallthingsdistraught——toreadEvilwrittenontheopenfaceofGood,andfindimpurityinthewhitestvirgin’ssoul!
Thinkwhatathingitis,Harmachis,tobesetonhighabovethegapingcrowdofknaveswhohatetheeforthyfortuneandthywit;whognashtheirteethandshootthearrowsoftheirliesfromthecoveroftheirownobscureness,whencetheyhavenowingstosoar;andwhosehearts’questitistodragdownthynobilitytothelevelofthegroundlingandthefool!”Benot,then,swifttothinkeviloftheGreat,whoseeverywordandactissearchedforerrorbyamillionangryeyes,andwhosemosttinyfaultistrumpetedbyathousandthroats,tilltheworldshakeswithechoesoftheirsin!Saynot:’Itisthus,’tiscertainlythus’——say,rather:’Mayitnotbeotherwise?Haveweheardaright?Didshethisthingofherownwill?’Judgegently,Harmachis,aswertthouIthouwouldstbejudged。RememberthataQueenisneverfree。Sheis,indeed,butthepointandinstrumentofthoseforcespoliticwithwhichtheironbooksofhistoryaregraved。OHarmachis!bethoumyfriend——myfriendandcounsellor!——myfriendwhomIcantrustindeed!——
forhere,inthiscrowdedCourt,Iammoreutterlyalonethananysoulthatbreathesaboutitscorridors。But/thee/Itrust;thereisfaithwritteninthosequieteyes,andIammindedtolifttheehigh,Harmachis。Icannolongerbearmysolitudeofmind——ImustfindonewithwhomImaycommuneandspeakthatwhichlieswithinmyheart。I
havefaults,Iknowit;butIamnotallunworthyofthyfaith,forthereisgoodgrainamongtheevilseed。Say,Harmachis,wiltthoutakepityonmylonelinessandbefriendme,whohavelovers,courtiers,slaves,dependents,morethickthanIcancount,butneveronesingle/friend/?”andsheleanttowardsme,touchingmelightly,andgazedonmewithherwonderfulblueeyes。
Iwasovercome;thinkingofthemorrownight,shameandsorrowsmoteme。/I/,herfriend!——/I/,whoseassassindaggerlayagainstmybreast!Ibentmyhead,andasoboragroan,Iknownotwhich,burstfromtheagonyofmyheart。
ButCleopatra,thinkingonlythatIwasmovedbeyondmyselfbythesurpriseofhergraciousness,smiledsweetly,andsaid:”Itgrowslate;to-morrownightwhenthoubringesttheaugurieswewillspeakagain,OmyfriendHarmachis,andthoushaltanswerme。”
Andshegavemeherhandtokiss。ScarceknowingwhatIdid,Ikissedit,andinanothermomentshewasgone。
ButIstoodinthechamber,gazingafterherlikeoneasleep。
CHAPTERVI
OFTHEWORDSANDJEALOUSYOFCHARMION;OFTHELAUGHTEROF
HARMACHIS;OFTHEMAKINGREADYFORTHEDEEDOFBLOOD;ANDOFTHE
Istoodstill,plungedinthought。ThenbyhazardasitwereItookupthewreathofrosesandlookedonit。HowlongIstoodsoIknownot,butwhennextIliftedupmyeyestheyfellupontheformofCharmion,whom,indeed,Ihadaltogetherforgotten。AndthoughatthemomentI
thoughtbutlittleofit,Inotedvaguelythatshewasflushedasthoughwithanger,andbeatherfootuponthefloor。”Oh,itisthou,Charmion!”Isaid。”Whatailsthee?Artthoucrampedwithstandingsolonginthyhiding-place?WhydidstnotthousliphencewhenCleopatraledmetothebalcony?””Whereismykerchief?”sheasked,shootinganangryglanceatme。”I
letfallmybroideredkerchief。””Thykerchief!——why,didstthounotsee?Cleopatratwittedmeaboutit,andIflungitfromthebalcony。””Yes,Isaw,”answeredthegirl,”Isawbuttoowell。Thoudidstflingawaymykerchief,butthewreathofroses——thatthouwouldstnotflingaway。Itwas’aQueen’sgift,’forsooth,andthereforetheroyalHarmachis,thePriestofIsis,thechosenoftheGods,thecrownedPharaohwedtothewealofKhem,cherisheditandsavedit。Butmykerchief,stungbythelaughterofthatlightQueen,hecastaway!””Whatmeanestthou?”Iasked,astonishedatherbittertone。”Icannotreadthyriddles。””WhatmeanI?”sheanswered,tossingupherheadandshowingthewhitecurvesofherthroat。”Nay,Imeannaught,orall;takeitasthouwilt。WouldstknowwhatImean,Harmachis,mycousinandmyLord?”shewentoninahard,lowvoice。”ThenIwilltellthee——thouartindangerofthegreatoffence。ThisCleopatrahascastherfatalwilesaboutthee,andthougoestneartolovingher,Harmachis——tolovingherwhomto-morrowthoumustslay!Ay,standandstareatthatwreathinthyhand——thewreaththoucouldstnotsendtojoinmykerchief——
sureCleopatraworeitbutto-night!TheperfumeofthehairofC?sar’smistress——C?sar’sandothers’——yetmingleswiththeodourofitsroses!Now,prithee,Harmachis,howfardidstthoucarrythematteronyonderbalcony?forinthatholewhereIlayhidIcouldnothearorsee。’Tisasweetspotforlovers,isitnot?——ay,andasweethour,too?Venussurelyrulesthestarsto-night?”
Allofthisshesaidsoquietlyandinsosoftandmodestaway,thoughherwordswerenotmodest,andyetsobitterly,thateverysyllablecutmetotheheart,andangeredmetillIcouldfindnospeech。”Ofatruththouhastawiseeconomy,”shewenton,seeingheradvantage:”to-nightthoudostkissthelipsthatto-morrowthoushaltstillforever!Itisfrugaldealingwiththeoccasionofthemoment;
ay,worthyandhonourabledealing!”
ThenatlastIbrokeforth。”Girl,”Icried,”howdarestthouspeakthustome?MindestthouwhoandwhatIamthatthouloosestthypeevishgibesuponme?””Imindwhatitbehovestheetobe,”sheansweredquick。”Whatthouart,thatImindnotnow。Surelythouknowestalone——thouandCleopatra!””Whatmeanestthou?”Isaid。”AmItoblameiftheQueen——””TheQueen!Whathavewehere?PharaohownsaQueen!””IfCleopatrawillstocomehitherofanightandtalk——””Ofstars,Harmachis——surelyofstarsandroses,andnaughtbeside!”
AfterthatIknownotwhatIsaid;for,troubledasIwas,thegirl’sbittertongueandquietwaydrovemewellnightomadness。ButthisI
know:IspokesofiercelythatshecoweredbeforemeasshehadcoweredbeforemyuncleSepawhenheratedherbecauseofherGreciangarb。Andassheweptthen,sosheweptnow,onlymorepassionatelyandwithgreatsobs。
AtlengthIceased,half-shamedbutstillangryandsmartingsorely。
Forevenwhilesheweptshecouldfindatonguetoanswerwith——andawoman’sshaftsaresharp。”Thoushouldstnotspeaktomethus!”shesobbed;”itiscruel——itisunmanly!ButIforgetthouartbutapriest,notaman——except,mayhap,forCleopatra!””Whatrighthastthou?”Isaid。”Whatcanstthoumean?””WhatrighthaveI?”sheasked,lookingup,herdarkeyesallafloodwithtearsthatrandownhersweetfacelikethedewofmorningdownalily’sheart。”WhatrighthaveI?OHarmachis!artthoublind?DidstthounotknowbywhatrightIspeakthustothee?ThenImusttellthee。Well,itisthefashioninAlexandria!Bythatfirstandholyrightofwoman——bytherightofthegreatloveIbearthee,andwhich,itseems,thouhastnoeyestosee——bytherightofmygloryandmyshame。Oh,benotwrothwithme,Harmachis,norsetmedownaslight,becausethetruthatlasthasburstfromme;forIamnotso。Iamwhatthouwiltmakeme。Iamthewaxwithinthemoulder’shands,andasthoudostfashionmesoIshallbe。Therebreatheswithinmenowabreathofglory,blowingacrossthewatersofmysoul,thatcanwaftmetoendsmorenoblethaneverIhavedreamedafore,ifthouwiltbemypilotandmyguide。ButifIlosethee,thenIloseallthatholdsmefrommyworseself——andletshipwreckcome!Thouknowestmenot,Harmachis!thoucanstnotseehowbigaspiritstrugglesinthisfrailformofmine!TotheeIamagirl,clever,wayward,shallow。ButIammore!ShowmethyloftiestthoughtandIwillmatchit,thedeepestpuzzleofthymindandIwillmakeitclear。Ofonebloodweare,andlovecanravelupourlittledifferenceandmakeusgrowoneindeed。
Oneendwehave,onelandwelove,onevowbindsusboth。Takemetothyheart,Harmachis,setmebytheeontheDoubleThrone,andIswearthatIwilllifttheehigherthanevermanhasclimbed。Rejectme,andbewarelestIpulltheedown!Andnow,puttingasidethecolddelicacyofcustom,stungtoitbywhatIsawoftheartsofthatlovelylivingfalsehood,Cleopatra,whichforpastimeshepractisesonthyfolly,I
havespokenoutmyheart,andanswerthou!”Andsheclaspedherhandsand,drawingonepacenearer,gazed,allwhiteandtrembling,onmyface。
ForamomentIstoodstruckdumb,forthemagicofhervoiceandthepowerofherspeech,despitemyself,stirredmeliketherushofmusic。HadIlovedthewoman,doubtlessshemighthavefiredmewithherflame;butIlovedhernot,andIcouldnotplayatpassion。Andsothoughtcame,andwiththoughtthatlaughingmood,whichiseverapttofashionuponnervesstrainedtothepointofbreaking。Inaflash,asitwere,Ibethoughtmeofthewayinwhichshehadthatverynightforcedthewreathofrosesonmyhead,IthoughtofthekerchiefandhowIhadflungitforth。IthoughtofCharmioninthelittlechamberwatchingwhatsheheldtobetheartsofCleopatra,andofherbitterspeeches。Lastly,IthoughtofwhatmyuncleSepawouldsayofhercouldheseehernow,andofthestrangeandtangledskeininwhichIwasinmeshed。AndIlaughedaloud——thefool’slaughterthatwasmyknellofruin!
Sheturnedwhiteryet——whiteasthedead——andalookgrewuponherfacethatcheckedmyfoolishmirth。”Thoufindest,then,Harmachis,”
shesaidinalow,chokedvoice,anddroppingthelevelofhereyes,”thoufindestcauseofmerrimentinwhatIhavesaid?””Nay,”Ianswered;”nay,Charmion;forgivemeifIlaughed。Itwasratheralaughofdespair;forwhatamItosaytothee?Thouhastspokenhighwordsofallthoumightestbe:isitleftformetotelltheewhatthouart?”
Sheshrank,andIpaused。”Speak,”shesaid。”Thouknowest——nonesowell!——whoIamandwhatmymissionis:thouknowest——nonesowell!——thatIamsworntoIsis,andmay,bylawDivine,havenaughttodowiththee。””Ay,”shebrokein,inherlowvoice,andwithhereyesstillfixedupontheground——”ay,andIknowthatthyvowsarebrokeninspirit,ifnotinform——brokenlikewreathsofcloud;for,Harmachis——/thoulovestCleopatra!/””Itisalie!”Icried。”Thouwantongirl,whowouldstseducemefrommydutyandputmetoanopenshame!——who,ledbypassionorambition,ortheloveofevil,hastnotshamedtobreakthebarriersofthysexandspeakasthouhastspoken——bewarelestthougotoofar!Andifthouwilthaveananswer,hereitis,putstraightly,asthyquestion。
Charmion,outsidethematterofmydutyandmyvows,thouart/naught/
tome!——norforallthytenderglanceswillmyheartbeatonepulsemorefast!Hardlyartthounowmyfriend——for,ofatruth,Iscarcecantrustthee。But,oncemore:beware!Tomethoumayestdothyworst;butifthoudostdaretoliftafingeragainstourcause,thatdaythoudiest!Andnow,isthisplaydone?”
Andas,wildwithanger,Ispokethus,sheshrankback,andyetfurtherback,tillatlengthsherestedagainstthewall,hereyescoveredwithherhand。ButwhenIceasedshedroppedherhand,glancingup,andherfacewasasthefaceofastatue,inwhichthegreateyesglowedlikeembers,androundthemwasaringofpurpleshadow。”Notaltogetherdone,”sheansweredgently;”thearenamustyetbesanded!”Thisshesaidhavingreferencetothecoveringupofthebloodstainsatthegladiatorialshowswithfinesand。”Well,”shewenton,”wastenotthineangeronathingsovile。IhavethrownmythrowandIhavelost。/V?victis!/——ah!/V?victis!/Wiltthounotlendmethedaggerinthyrobe,thathereandnowImayendmyshame?No?Thenonewordmore,mostroyalHarmachis:ifthoucanst,forgetmyfolly;
but,attheleast,havenofearfromme。Iamnow,asever,thyservantandtheservantofourcause。Farewell!”
Andshewent,leaningherhandagainstthewall。ButI,passingtomychamber,flungmyselfuponmycouch,andgroanedinbitternessofspirit。Alas!weshapeourplans,andbyslowdegreesbuildupourhouseofHope,nevercountingonthegueststhattimeshallbringtolodgetherein。Forwhocanguardagainst——theUnforeseen?
AtlengthIslept,andmydreamswereevil。WhenIwokethelightofthedaywhichshouldseetheredfulfilmentoftheplotwasstreamingthroughthecasement,andthebirdssangmerrilyamongthegardenpalms。Iwoke,andasIwokethesenseoftroublepressedinuponme,forIrememberedthatbeforethisdaywasgatheredtothepastImustdipmyhandsinblood——yes,inthebloodofCleopatra,whotrustedme!
WhycouldInothateherasIshould?TherehadbeenatimewhenI
lookedontothisactofvengeancewithsomewhatofarighteousglowofzeal。Andnow——andnow——why,Iwouldfranklygivemyroyalbirthrighttobefreefromitsnecessity!But,alas!Iknewthattherewasnoescape。Imustdrainthiscuporbeforevercastaway。IfelttheeyesofEgyptwatchingme,andtheeyesofEgypt’sGods。IprayedtomyMotherIsistogivemestrengthtodothisdeed,andprayedasI
hadneverprayedbefore;andoh,wonder!noanswercame。Nay,howwasthis?What,then,hadloosedthelinkbetweenusthat,forthefirsttime,theGoddessdeignednoreplytohersonandchosenservant?
CoulditbethatIhadsinnedinheartagainsther?WhathadCharmionsaid——thatIlovedCleopatra?Wasthissicknesslove?Nay!athousandtimesnay!——itwasbuttherevoltofNatureagainstanactoftreacheryandblood。TheGoddessdidbuttrymystrength,orperchanceshealsoturnedherholycountenancefrommurder?
Irosefilledwithterroranddespair,andwentaboutmytasklikeamanwithoutasoul。Iconnedthefatallistsandnotedalltheplans——
ay,inmybrainIgathereduptheverywordsofthatproclamationofmyRoyaltywhich,onthemorrow,Ishouldissuetothestartledworld。”CitizensofAlexandriaanddwellersinthelandofEgypt,”itbegan,”CleopatratheMacedonianhath,bythecommandoftheGods,sufferedjusticeforhercrimes——”
AlltheseandotherthingsIdid,butIdidthemasamanwithoutasoul——asamanmovedbyaforcefromwithoutandnotfromwithin。Andsotheminutesworeaway。InthethirdhouroftheafternoonIwentasbyappointmentfixedtothehousewheremyuncleSepalodged,thatsamehousetowhichIhadbeenbroughtsomethreemonthsgonewhenI
enteredAlexandriaforthefirsttime。AndhereIfoundtheleadersoftherevoltinthecityassembledinsecretconclavetothenumberofseven。WhenIhadentered,andthedoorswerebarred,theyprostratedthemselves,andcried,”Hail,Pharaoh!”butIbadethemrise,sayingthatIwasnotyetPharaoh,forthechickenwasstillintheegg。”Yea,Prince,”saidmyuncle,”buthisbeakshowsthrough。NotinvainhathEgyptbroodedalltheseyears,ifthoufailnotwiththatdagger-
strokeofthineto-night;andhowcanstthoufail?Nothingcannowstopourcoursetovictory!””ItisonthekneesoftheGods,”Ianswered。”Nay,”hesaid,”theGodshaveplacedtheissueinthehandsofamortal——inthyhands,Harmachis!——andthereitissafe。See:herearethelastlists。Thirty-onethousandmenwhobeararmsaresworntorisewhenthetidingscometothem。WithinfivedayseverycitadelinEgyptwillbeinourhands,andthenwhathavewetofear?FromRomebutlittle,forherhandsarefull;and,besides,wewillmakealliancewiththeTriumvirate,and,ifneedbe,buythemoff。Forofmoneythereisplentyintheland,andifmorebewantedthou,Harmachis,knowestwhereitisstoredagainsttheneedofKhem,andoutsidetheRoman’sreachofarm。Whoistheretoharmus?Thereisnone。Perchance,inthisturbulentcity,theremaybestruggle,andacounter-plottobringArsino?toEgyptandsetheronthethrone。
ThereforeAlexandriamustbeseverelydealtwith——ay,eventodestruction,ifneedbe。AsforArsino?,thosegoforthto-morrowonthenewsoftheQueen’sdeathwhoshallslayhersecretly。””ThereremainstheladC?sarion,”Isaid。”RomemightclaimthroughC?sar’sson,andthechildofCleopatrainheritsCleopatra’srights。
Hereisadoubledanger。””Fearnot,”saidmyuncle;”to-morrowC?sarionjoinsthosewhobegathiminAmenti。Ihavemadeprovision。ThePtolemiesmustbestampedout,sothatnoshootshalleverspringfromthatrootblastedbyHeaven’svengeance。””Istherenoothermeans?”Iaskedsadly。”Myheartissickatthepromiseofthisredrainofblood。Iknowthechildwell;hehasCleopatra’sfireandbeautyandgreatC?sar’swit。Itwereshametomurderhim。””Nay,benotsochicken-hearted,Harmachis,”saidmyuncle,sternly。”Whatailsthee,then?Iftheladisthus,themorereasonthatheshoulddie。Wouldstthounurseupayoungliontoteartheefromthethrone?””Beitso,”Ianswered,sighing。”Atleastheissparedmuch,andwillgohenceinnocentofevil。Nowfortheplans。”
Wesatlongtakingcounsel,tillatlength,infaceofthegreatemergencyandourhighemprise,Ifeltsomethingofthespiritofformerdaysflowbackintomyheart。Atthelastallwasordered,andsoorderedthatitcouldscarcemiscarry,foritwasfixedthatifbyanychanceIcouldnotcometoslayCleopatraonthisnight,thentheplotshouldhanginthescaletillthemorrow,whenthedeedmustbedoneuponoccasion。ForthedeathofCleopatrawasthesignal。Thesemattersbeingfinished,oncemorewestoodand,ourhandsuponthesacredsymbol,sworetheoaththatmaynotbewritten。Andthenmyunclekissedmewithtearsofhopeandjoystandinginhiskeenblackeyes。Heblessedme,sayingthathewouldgladlygivehislife,ay,andahundredlives,iftheywerehis,ifhemightbutlivetoseeEgyptoncemoreanation,andme,Harmachis,thedescendantofitsroyalandancientblood,seatedonthethrone。Forhewasapatriotindeed,askingnothingforhimself,andgivingallthingstohiscause。AndIkissedhiminturn,andthusweparted。NordidIeverseehimmoreinthefleshwhohasearnedtherestthatasyetisdeniedtome。
SoIwent,and,therebeingyettime,walkedswiftlyfromplacetoplaceinthegreatcity,takingnoteofthepositionsofthegatesandoftheplaceswhereourforcesmustbegathered。AtlengthIcametothatquaywhereIhadlanded,andsawavesselsailingfortheopensea。Ilooked,andinmyheavinessofheartlongedthatIwereaboardofher,tobebornebyherwhitewingstosomefarshorewhereImightliveobscureanddieforgotten。AlsoIsawanothervesselthathaddroppeddowntheNile,fromwhosedeckthepassengerswerestreaming。
ForamomentIstoodwatchingthem,idlywonderingiftheywerefromAbouthis,whensuddenlyIheardafamiliarvoicebesideme。”/La!la!/”saidthevoice。”Why,whatacityisthisforanoldwomantoseekherfortunein!AndhowshallIfindthosetowhomIamknown?
Aswelllookfortherushinthepapyrus-roll。[*]Begone!thouknave!
andletmybasketofsimpleslie;or,bytheGods,I’lldoctortheewiththem!”
[*]Papyruswasmanufacturedfromthepithofrushes。HenceAtoua’ssaying——Editor。
Iturned,wondering,andfoundmyselffacetofacewithmyfoster-
nurse,Atoua。Sheknewmeinstantly,forIsawherstart,butinthepresenceofthepeopleshecheckedhersurprise。”GoodSir,”shewhined,liftingherwitheredcountenancetowardsme,andatthesametimemakingthesecretsign。”Bythydressthoushouldstbeanastronomer,andIwasspeciallytoldtoavoidastronomersasapackoflyingtricksterswhoworshiptheirownstaronly;and,therefore,Ispeaktothee,actingontheprincipleofcontraries,whichislawtouswomen。ForsurelyinthisAlexandria,whereallthingsareupsidedown,theastronomersmaybethehonestmen,sincetherestareclearlyknaves。”Andthen,beingbynowoutofearshotofthepress,”royalHarmachis,IamcomechargedwithamessagetotheefromthyfatherAmenemhat。””Ishewell?”Iasked。”Yes,heiswell,thoughwaitingforthemomenttrieshimsorely。””Andhismessage?””Itisthis。Hesendsgreetingtotheeandwithitwarningthatagreatdangerthreatensthee,thoughhecannotreadit。Thesearehiswords:’Besteadfastandprosper。’”
Ibowedmyheadandthewordsstruckanewchilloffearintomysoul。”Whenisthetime?”sheasked。”Thisverynight。Wheregoestthou?””TothehouseofthehonourableSepa,PriestofAnnu。Canstthouguidemethither?””Nay,Imaynotstay;norisitwisethatIshouldbeseenwiththee。
Hold!”andIcalledaporterwhowasidlingonthequay,and,givinghimapieceofmoney,badehimguidetheoldwifetothehouse。”Farewell,”shewhispered;”farewelltillto-morrow。Besteadfastandprosper。”
ThenIturnedandwentmywaythroughthecrowdedstreets,wherethepeoplemadeplaceforme,theastronomerofCleopatra,formyfamehadspreadabroad。
AndevenasIwentmyfootstepsseemedtobeat/Besteadfast,Besteadfast,Besteadfast/,tillatlastitwasasthoughtheverygroundcriedoutitswarningtome。
CHAPTERVII
OFTHEVEILEDWORDSOFCHARMION;OFTHEPASSINGOFHARMACHIS
INTOTHEPRESENCEOFCLEOPATRA;ANDOFTHEOVERTHROWOFHARMACHIS
Itwasnight,andIsataloneinmychamber,waitingthemomentwhen,asitwasagreed,CharmionshouldsummonmetopassdowntoCleopatra。
Isatalone,andtherebeforemelaythedaggerthatwastopierceher。Itwaslongandkeen,andthehandlewasformedofasphinxofsolidgold。Isatalone,questioningthefuture,butnoanswercame。
AtlengthIlookedup,andCharmionstoodbeforeme——Charmion,nolongergayandbright,butpaleoffaceandhollow-eyed。”RoyalHarmachis,”shesaid,”Cleopatrasummonsthee,presentlytodeclaretoherthevoicesofthestars。”
Sothehourhadfallen!”Itiswell,Charmion,”Ianswered。”Areallthingsinorder?””Yea,myLord;allthingsareinorder:wellprimedwithwine,Paulusguardsthegates,theeunuchsarewithdrawnsaveone,thelegionariessleep,andalreadySepaandhisforceliehidwithout。Nothinghasbeenneglected,andnolambskippingattheshambledoorscanbemoreinnocentofitsdoomthanisQueenCleopatra。””Itiswell,”Isaidagain;”letusbegoing,”andrising,Iplacedthedaggerinthebosomofmyrobe。Takingacupofwinethatstoodnear,Idrankdeepofit,forIhadscarcetastedfoodallthatday。”Oneword,”Charmionsaidhurriedly,”foritisnotyettime:lastnight——ah,lastnight——”andherbosomheaved,”Idreamedadreamthathauntsmestrangely,andperchancethoualsodidstdreamadream。Itwasalladreamand’tisforgotten:isitnotso,myLord?””Yes,yes,”Isaid;”whytroublestthoumethusatsuchanhour?””Nay,Iknownot;butto-night,Harmachis,Fateisinlabourofagreatevent,andinherpainfulthroesmayhapshe’llcrushmeinhergrip——meorthee,orthetwainofus,Harmachis。Andifthatbeso——
well,Iwouldhearfromthee,beforeitisdone,that’twasnaughtbutadream,andthatdreamforgot——””Yes,itisalladream,”Isaididly;”thouandI,andthesolidearth,andthisheavynightofterror,ay,andthiskeenknife——whatarethesebutdreams,andwithwhatfaceshallthewakingcome?””Sonow,thoufallestinmyhumour,royalHarmachis。Asthousayest,wedream;andwhilewedreamyetcanthevisionchange。Forthephantasiesofdreamsarewonderful,seeingthattheyhavenostability,butvarylikethevaporousedgeofsunsetclouds,buildingnowthisthing,andnowthat;beingnowdarkandheavy,andnowalightwithsplendour。Therefore,beforewewaketo-morrowtellmeoneword。
Isthatvisionoflastnight,whereinI/seemed/tobequiteshamed,andthoudidst/seem/tolaughuponmyshame,afixedphantasy,orcanit,perchance,yetchangeitscountenance?Forremember,whenthatwakingcomes,thevagariesofoursleepwillbemoreunalterableandmoreenduringthanarethepyramids。Thentheywillbegatheredintothatchangelessregionofthepastwhereallthings,greatandsmall——
ay,evendreams,Harmachis,are,eachinitsownsemblance,frozentostoneandbuiltintotheTombofTimeimmortal。””Nay,Charmion,”Ireplied,”IgrieveifIdidpainthee;butoverthatvisioncomesnochange。Isaidwhatwasinmyheartandthere’sanend。Thouartmycousinandmyfriend,Icanneverbemoretothee。””Itiswell——’tisverywell,”shesaid;”letitbeforgotten。Andnowonfromdream——todream,”andshesmiledwithsuchasmileasIhadneverseenherwearbefore;itwassadderandmorefatefulthananystampthatgriefcansetuponthebrow。
For,thoughbeingblindedbymyownfollyandthetroubleatmyheartIknewitnot,withthatsmile,thehappinessofyouthdiedforCharmiontheEgyptian;thehopeoflovefled;andtheholylinksofdutyburstasunder。WiththatsmilesheconsecratedherselftoEvil,sherenouncedherCountryandherGods,andtrampledonheroath。Ay,thatsmilemarksthemomentwhenthestreamofhistorychangeditscourse。ForhadIneverseenitonherfaceOctavianushadnotbestriddentheworld,andEgypthadoncemorebeenfreeandgreat。
Andyetitwasbutawoman’ssmile!”Whylookestthouthusstrangely,girl?”Iasked。”Indreamswesmile,”sheanswered。”Andnowitistime;followthoume。Befirmandprosper,royalHarmachis!”andbendingforwardshetookmyhandandkissedit。Then,withonestrangelastlook,sheturnedandledthewaydownthestairandthroughtheemptyhalls。
InthechamberthatiscalledtheAlabasterHall,theroofofwhichisupbornebycolumnsofblackmarble,westayed。ForbeyondwastheprivatechamberofCleopatra,thesameinwhichIhadseenhersleeping。”Abidethouhere,”shesaid,”whileItellCleopatraofthycoming,”
andsheglidedfrommyside。
Istoodforlong,mayhapinallthehalfofanhour,countingmyownheart-beats,and,asinadream,strivingtogatherupmystrengthtothatwhichlaybeforeme。
AtlengthCharmioncameback,herheadheldlowandwalkingheavily。”Cleopatrawaitsthee,”shesaid:”passon,thereisnoguard。””WheredoImeettheewhenwhatmustbedoneisdone?”Iaskedhoarsely。”Thoumeetestmehere,andthentoPaulus。Befirmandprosper。
Harmachis,faretheewell!”
AndsoIwent;butatthecurtainIturnedsuddenly,andthereinthemidstofthatlonelylamplithallIsawastrangesight。Faraway,insuchafashionthatthelightstruckfulluponher,stoodCharmion,herheadthrownback,herwhitearmsoutstretchedasthoughtoclasp,andonhergirlishfaceastampofanguishedpassionsoterribletoseethat,indeed,Icannottellit!ForshebelievedthatI,whomsheloved,waspassingtomydeath,andthiswasherlastfarewelltome。
ButIknewnaughtofthismatter;sowithanotherpassingpangofwonderIdrewasidethecurtains,gainedthedoorway,andstoodinCleopatra’schamber。Andthere,uponasilkencouchatthefarendoftheperfumedchamber,cladinwonderfulwhiteattire,restedCleopatra。Inherhandwasajewelledfanofostrichplumes,withwhichshegentlyfannedherself,andbyhersidewasherharpofivory,andalittletablewhereonwerefigsandgobletsandaflaskofruby-colouredwine。IdrewnearslowlythroughthesoftdimlighttowheretheWonderoftheWorldlayinallherglowingbeauty。And,indeed,Ihaveneverseenherlooksofairasshediduponthatfatalnight。Couchedinherambercushions,sheseemedtoshineasastaronthetwilight’sglow。Perfumecamefromherhairandrobes,musicfellfromherlips,andinherheavenlyeyesalllightschangedandgatheredasintheominousopal’sdisc。
Andthiswasthewomanwhom,presently,Imustslay!
SlowlyIdrewnear,bowingasIcame;butshetooknoheed。Shelaythere,andthejewelledfanfloatedtoandfrolikethebrightwingofsomehoveringbird。
AtlengthIstoodbeforeher,andsheglancedup,theostrich-plumespressedagainstherbreastasthoughtohideitsbeauty。”What!friend;artthoucome?”shesaid。”Itiswell;forIgrewlonelyhere。Nay;’tisawearyworld!Weknowsomanyfaces,andtherearesofewwhomwelovetoseeagain。Well,standnottheresomute,butbeseated。”Andshepointedwithherfantoacarvenchairthatwasplacednearherfeet。
OncemoreIbowedandtooktheseat。”IhaveobeyedtheQueen’sdesire,”Isaid,”andwithmuchcareandskillworkedoutthelessonsofthestars;andhereistherecordofmylabour。IftheQueenpermits,Iwillexpoundittoher。”AndI
rose,inorderthatImightpassroundthecouchand,assheread,stabherintheback。”Nay,Harmachis,”shesaidquietly,andwithaslowandlovelysmile。”Bidethouwherethouart,andgivemethewriting。BySerapis!thyfaceistoocomelyformetowishtolosethesightofit!”
Checkedinthisdesign,Icoulddonothingbuthandherthepapyrus,thinkingtomyselfthatwhileshereadIwouldarisesuddenlyandplungethedaggertoherheart。Shetookit,andasshedidsotouchedmyhand。Thenshemadepretencetoread。Butshereadnoword,forI
sawthathereyeswerefixeduponmeovertheedgeofthescroll。”Whyplacestthouthyhandwithinthyrobe?”sheaskedpresently;for,indeed,Iclutchedthedagger’shilt。”Isthyheartstirred?””Yea,OQueen,”Isaid;”itbeatshigh。”
Shegavenoanswer,butoncemoremadepretencetoread,andthewhileshewatchedme。
Itookcounselwithmyself。HowshouldIdothehatefuldeed?IfI
flungmyselfuponhernowshewouldseemeandscreamandstruggle。
Nay,Imustwaitachance。”Theauguriesarefavourable,then,Harmachis?”shesaidatlength,thoughthisshemusthaveguessed。”Yes,OQueen,”Ianswered。”Itiswell,”andshecastthewritingonthemarble。”Theshipsshallsail。For,goodorbad,Iamwearyofweighingchances。””Thisisaheavymatter,OQueen,”Isaid。”IhadwishedtoshowuponwhatcircumstanceIbasemyforecast。””Nay,notso,Harmachis;Ihaveweariedofthewaysofstars。Thouhastprophesied;thatisenoughforme;for,doubtless,beinghonest,thouhastwrittenhonestly。Therefore,savethouthyreasonsandwe’llbemerry。Whatshallwedo?Icoulddancetothee——therearenonewhocandancesowell!——butitwouldscarcebequeenly。Nay,Ihaveit。I
willsing。”And,leaningforward,sheraisedherself,and,bendingtheharptowardsher,strucksomewanderingchords。Thenherlowvoicebrokeoutinperfectandmostsweetsong。
Andthusshesang:”Nightonthesea,andnightuponthesky,Andmusicinourhearts,wefloatedthere,Lulledbythelowseavoices,thouandI,Andthewind’skissesinmycloudyhair:
Andthoudidstgazeonmeandcallmefair——
Enfoldedbythestarryrobeofnight——
Andthenthysingingthrilledupontheair,Voiceoftheheart’sdesireandLove’sdelight。
’Adrift,withstarlitskiesabove,Withstarlitseasbelow,Wemovewithallthesunsthatmove,Withalltheseasthatflow;
Forbondorfree,Earth,Sky,andSea,Wheelwithonecirclingwill,Andthyheartdriftethontome,Andonlytimestandsstill。
BetweentwoshoresofDeathwedrift,Behindarethingsforgot:
BeforethetideisdrivingswiftTolandsbeholdennot。
Above,theskyisfarandcold;
Below,themoaningseaSweepso’erthelovesthatwereofold,But,oh,Love!kissthoume。
Ah,lonelyaretheoceanways,Anddangerousthedeep,AndfrailthefairybarquethatstraysAbovetheseasasleep!
Ah,toilnomoreatsailnoroar,Wedrift,orbondorfree;
Onyonfarshorethebreakersroar,But,oh,Love!kissthoume。’”AndeverasthousangestIdrewnear,Thensuddensilenceheardourheartsthatbeat,Fornowtherewasanendofdoubtandfear,Nowpassionfilledmysoulandledmyfeet;
Thensilentdidstthourisethylovetomeet,Who,sinkingonthybreast,knewnaughtbutthee,AndinthehappynightIkissedthee,Sweet;
Ah,Sweet!betweenthestarlightandthesea。”
Thelastechoesofherrichnotesfloateddownthechamber,andslowlydiedaway;butinmyhearttheyrolledonandon。Ihaveheardamongthewomen-singersatAbouthisvoicesmoreperfectthanthevoiceofCleopatra,butneverhaveIheardonesothrillingorsosweetwithpassion’shoney-notes。Andindeeditwasnotthevoicealone,itwastheperfumedchamberinwhichwassetallthatcouldmovethesense;
itwasthepassionofthethoughtandwords,andthesurpassinggraceandlovelinessofthatmostroyalwomanwhosangthem。For,asshesang,Iseemedtothinkthatwetwainwereindeedfloatingalonewiththenight,uponthestarlitsummersea。Andwhensheceasedtotouchtheharp,and,rising,suddenlystretchedoutherarmstowardsme,andwiththelastlownotesofsongyetquiveringuponherlips,letfallthewonderofhereyesuponmyeyes,shealmostdrewmetoher。ButI
remembered,andwouldnot。”Hastthou,then,nowordofthanksformypoorsinging,Harmachis?”
shesaidatlength。”Yea,OQueen,”Ianswered,speakingverylow,formyvoicewaschoked;”butthysongsarenotgoodforthesonsofmentohear——ofatruththeyoverwhelmme!””Nay,Harmachis;thereisnofearforthee,”shesaidlaughingsoftly,”seeingthatIknowhowfarthythoughtsaresetfromwoman’sbeautyandthecommonweaknessofthysex。Withcoldironwemaysafelytoy。”
Ithoughtwithinmyselfthatcoldestironcanbebroughttowhitestheatifthefirebefierceenough。ButIsaidnothing,and,thoughmyhandtrembled,Ioncemoregraspedthedagger’shilt,and,wildwithfearatmyownweakness,setmyselftofindameanstoslayherwhileyetmysenseremained。”Comehither,Harmachis,”shewenton,inhersoftestvoice。”Come,sitbyme,andwewilltalktogether;forIhavemuchtotellthee,”
andshemadeplaceformeathersideuponthesilkenseat。
AndI,thinkingthatImightsomoreswiftlystrike,roseandseatedmyselfsomelittlewayfromheronthecouch,while,flingingbackherhead,shegazedonmewithherslumbrouseyes。
Nowwasmyoccasion,forherthroatandbreastwerebare,and,withamightyeffort,onceagainIliftedmyhandtoclutchthedagger-hilt。
But,morequickthanthought,shecaughtmyfingerswithherownandgentlyheldthem。”Whylookestthousowildly,Harmachis?”shesaid。”Artsick?””Ay,sickindeed!”Igasped。”Thenleanthouonthecushionsandrestthee,”sheanswered,stillholdingmyhand,fromwhichthestrengthhadfled。”Thefitwillsurelypass。Toolonghastthoulabouredwiththystars。Howsoftisthenightairthatflowsfromyondercasementheavywiththebreathoflilies!Harktothewhisperofthesealappingagainsttherocks,that,thoughitisfaint,yet,beingsostrong,dothalmostdrownthequickcoolfallofyonderfountain。ListtoPhilomel;howsweetfromafullheartofloveshesingshermessagetoherdear!Indeeditisalovelynight,andmostbeautifulisNature’smusic,sungwithahundredvoicesfromwindandtreesandbirdsandocean’swrinkledlips,andyetsungalltotune。Listen,Harmachis:Ihaveguessedsomethingconcerningthee。Thou,too,artofaroyalrace;nohumblebloodpoursinthoseveinsofthine。SurelysuchashootcouldspringbutfromthestockofPrinces?What!gazestthouattheleafmarkonmybreast?ItwasprickedthereinhonourofgreatOsiris,whomwiththeeIworship。See!””Letmehence,”Igroaned,strivingtorise;butallmystrengthhadgone。”Nay,notyetawhile。Thouwouldstnotleavemeyet?thou/canst/notleavemeyet。Harmachis,hastthouneverloved?””Nay,nay,OQueen!WhathaveItodowithlove?Letmehence!——Iamfaint——Iamfordone!””Nevertohaveloved——’tisstrange!Nevertohaveknownsomewoman-
heartbeatallintunetothine——nevertohaveseentheeyesofthyadoredaswimwithpassion’stears,asshesighedhervowsuponthybreast!——Nevertohaveloved!——nevertohavelostthyselfinthemysteryofanother’ssoul;nortohavelearnedhowNaturecanovercomeournakedloneliness,andwiththegoldenwebofloveoftwainweaveoneidentity!Why,itisnevertohavelived,Harmachis!”
Andeverasshemurmuredshedrewnearertome,tillatlast,withalong,sweetsigh,sheflungonearmaboutmyneck,andgazeduponmewithblue,unfathomableeyes,andsmiledherdark,slowsmile,that,likeanopeningflower,revealedbeautywithinbeautyhidden。Nearershebentherqueenlyform,andstillmorenear——nowherperfumedbreathplayeduponmyhair,andnowherlipsmetmine。
Andwoeisme!Inthatkiss,moredeadlyandmorestrongthantheembraceofDeath,wereforgottenIsis,myheavenlyHope,Oaths,Honour,Country,Friends,allthings——allthingssavethatCleopatraclaspedmeinherarms,andcalledmeLoveandLord。”Nowpledgeme,”shesighed;”pledgemeonecupofwineintokenofthylove。”
Itookthedraught,andIdrankdeep;thentoolateIknewthatitwasdrugged。
Ifelluponthecouch,and,thoughmysensesstillwerewithme,I
couldneitherspeaknorrise。
ButCleopatra,bendingoverme,drewthedaggerfrommyrobe。”/I’vewon!/”shecried,shakingbackherlonghair。”I’vewon,andforthestakeofEgypt,why,’twasagameworthplaying!Withthisdagger,then,thouwouldsthaveslainme,OmyroyalRival,whosemyrmidonsevennowaregatheredatmypalacegate?Artstillawake?
NowwhathindersmethatIshouldnotplungeitto/thy/heart?”
Iheardandfeeblypointedtomybreast,forIwasfaintodie。Shedrewherselftothefullofherimperialheight,andthegreatknifeglitteredinherhand。Downitcametillitsedgeprickedmyflesh。”Nay,”shecriedagain,andcastitfromher,”toowellIlikethee。
Itwerepitytoslaysuchaman!Igivetheethylife。Liveon,lostPharaoh!Liveon,poorfallenPrince,blastedbyawoman’swit!Liveon,Harmachis——toadornmytriumph!”
Thensightleftme;andinmyearsIonlyheardthesongofthenightingale,themurmurofthesea,andthemusicofCleopatra’slaughofvictory。AndasIsankaway,thesoundofthatlowlaughstillfollowedmeintothelandofsleep,andstillitfollowsmethroughlifetodeath。