Isawtheomen,andeveninthebitteranguishofmyheartknewitsevilimport。Butthesetwaintooknonote。”Thoulovestme?”shesaid,mostsweetly;”howknowIthatthoulovestme?PerchanceitisFulviawhomthoulovest——Fulvia,thyweddedwife?””Nay,itisnotFulvia,’tisthou,Cleopatra,andthoualone。Manywomenhavelookedfavourablyuponmefrommyboyhoodup,buttoneveraonehaveIknownsuchdesireastothee,OthouWonderoftheWorld,likeuntowhomnowomaneverwas!Canstthouloveme,Cleopatra,andtomebetrue,notformyplaceorpower,notforthatwhichIcangiveorcanwithhold,notforthesternmusicofmylegion’stramp,orforthelightthatflowsfrommybrightStarofFortune;butformyself,forthesakeofAntony,theroughcaptain,grownoldincamps?
Ay,forthesakeofAntonythereveller,thefrail,theunfixedofpurpose,butwhoyetneverdiddesertafriend,orrobapoorman,ortakeanenemyunawares?Say,canstthouloveme,Egypt?Oh!ifthouwilt,why,IammorehappythanthoughIsatto-nightintheCapitolatRomecrownedabsoluteMonarchoftheWorld!”
And,everashespoke,shegazedonhimwithwonderfuleyes,andinthemshonealightoftruthandhonestysuchaswasstrangetome。”Thouspeakestplainly,”shesaid,”andthywordsaresweettomineears——theywouldbesweet,evenwerethingsotherwisethantheyare,forwhatwomanwouldnotlovetoseetheworld’smasteratherfeet?
Butthingsbeingastheyare,why,Antony,whatcanbesosweetasthysweetwords?Theharbourofhisresttothestorm-tossedmariner——
surelythatissweet!ThedreamofHeaven’sblisswhichcheersthepoorasceticpriestonhispathofsacrifice——surelythatissweet!
ThesightofDawn,therosy-fingered,cominginhispromisetogladthewatchingEarth——surelythatissweet!But,ah!notoneofthese,noralldeardelightfulthingsthatare,canmatchthehoney-sweetnessofthywordstome,OAntony!Forthouknowestnot——nevercanstthouknow——howdrearmylifehathbeen,andempty,sincethusitisordainedthatinloveonlycanwomanlosehersolitude!AndIhave/never/loved——nevermightIlove——tillthishappynight!Ay,takemeinthyarms,andletusswearagreatvowoflove——anoaththatmaynotbebrokenwhilelifeisinus!Behold!Antony!nowandforeverI
dovowmoststrictfidelityuntothee!NowandforeverIamthine,andthinealone!”
ThenCharmiontookmebythehandanddrewmethence。”Hastseenenough?”sheasked,whenwewereoncemorewithinthechamberandthelampwaslit。”Yea,”Ianswered;”myeyesareopened。”
CHAPTERXVI
OFTHEPLANOFCHARMION;OFTHECONFESSIONOFCHARMION;AND
OFTHEANSWEROFHARMACHIS
ForsomewhileIsatwithbowedhead,andthelastbitternessofshamesankintomysoul。This,then,wastheend。ForthisIhadbetrayedmyoaths;forthisIhadtoldthesecretofthepyramid;forthisIhadlostmyCrown,myHonour,and,perchance,myhopeofHeaven!CouldtherebeanothermaninthewideworldsosteepedinsorrowasIwasthatnight?Surelynotone!WhereshouldIturn?WhatcouldIdo?Andeventhroughthetempestofmytornheartthebittervoiceofjealousycalledaloud。ForIlovedthiswoman,towhomIhadgivenall;andsheatthismoment——shewas——Ah!Icouldnotbeartothinkofit;andinmyutteragony,myheartburstinariveroftearssuchasareterribletoweep!
ThenCharmiondrewnearme,andIsawthatshe,too,wasweeping。”Weepnot,Harmachis!”shesobbed,kneelingatmyside。”Icannotenduretoseetheeweep。Oh!whywouldstthounotbewarned?Thenhadstthoubeengreatandhappy,andnotasnow。Listen,Harmachis!
Thoudidsthearwhatthatfalseandtigerishwomansaid——to-morrowshehandstheeovertothemurderers!””Itiswell,”Igasped。”Nay:itisnotwell。Harmachis,givehernotthislasttriumphoverthee。Thouhastlostallsavelife:butwhileliferemains,hoperemainsalso,andwithhopethechanceofvengeance。””Ah!”Isaid,startingfrommyseat。”Ihadnotthoughtofthat。Ay——
thechanceofvengeance!Itwouldbesweettobeavenged!””Itwouldbesweet,Harmachis,andyetthis——Vengeanceisanarrowthatinfallingoftpierceshimwhoshotit。Myself——Iknowit,”andshesighed。”Butatrucetotalkandgrief。Therewillbetimeforustwaintogrieve,ifnottotalk,inalltheheavycomingyears。Thoumustfly——beforethecomingofthelightmustthoufly。Hereisaplan。To-morrow,erethedawn,agalleythatbutyesterdaycamefromAlexandria,bearingfruitandstores,sailsthitheragain,anditscaptainisknowntome,buttotheeheisnotknown。Now,IwillfindtheethegarbofaSyrianmerchant,andcloakthee,asIknowhow,andfurnishtheewithalettertothecaptainofthegalley。HeshallgivetheepassagetoAlexandria;fortohimthouwiltseembutasamerchantgoingonthebusinessofthytrade。Brennusisofficeroftheguardto-night,andBrennusisafriendtomeandthee。Perhapshewillguesssomewhat;or,perhaps,hewillnotguess;attheleast,theSyrianmerchantshallsafelypassthelines。Whatsayestthou?””Itiswell,”Iansweredwearily;”littledoIrecktheissue。””Restthou,then,here,Harmachis,whileImakethesemattersready;
and,Harmachis,grievenotovermuch;thereareotherswhoshouldgrievemoreheavilythanthou。”Andshewent,leavingmealonewithmyagonywhichrentmelikeatorture-bed。Haditnotbeenforthatfiercedesireofvengeancewhichfromtimetotimeflashedacrossmytormentedmindasthelightningoveramidnightsea,methinksmyreasonhadleftmeinthatdarkhour。AtlengthIheardherfootstepatthedoor,andsheentered,breathingheavily,forsheboreasackofclothinginherarms。”Itiswell,”shesaid:”hereisthegarbwithsparelinen,andwriting-tablets,andallthingsneedful。IhaveseenBrennusalso,andtoldhimthataSyrianmerchantwouldpasstheguardanhourbeforethedawn。Andthoughhemadepretenceofsleep,Ithinkheunderstood,forheanswered,yawning,thatiftheybuthadthepass-word,’Antony,’fiftySyrianmerchantsmightgothroughabouttheirlawfulbusiness。Andhereisthelettertothecaptain——thoucanstnotmistakethegalley,forsheismooredalongtotheright——asmallgalley,paintedblack,asthoudostenteronthegreatquay,and,moreover,thesailorsmakereadyforsailing。NowIwillwaitherewithout,whilethoudostputofftheliveryofthyserviceandarraythyself。”
WhenshewasgoneItoreoffmygorgeousgarmentsandspatuponthemandtrodthemontheground。ThenIputonthemodestrobeofamerchant,andboundthetabletsroundme,onmyfeetthesandalsofuntannedhide,andatmywaisttheknife。WhenitwasdoneCharmionenteredonceagainandlookedonme。”ToomuchartthoustilltheroyalHarmachis,”shesaid;”see,itmustbechanged。”
Thenshetookscissorsfromhertiring-table,and,biddingmebeseated,shecutoffmylocks,clippingthehairclosetothehead。
Nextshefoundstainsofsuchsortaswomenusetomakedarktheeyes,andmixedthemcunningly,rubbingthestuffonmyfaceandhandsandonthewhitemarkinmyhairwheretheswordofBrennushadbittentothebone。”Nowthouartchanged——somewhatfortheworse,Harmachis,”shesaid,withadrearylaugh,”scarcemyselfshouldIknowthee。Stay,thereisonemorething,”and,goingtoachestofgarments,shedrewthenceaheavybagofgold。”Takethouthis,”shesaid;”thouwilthaveneedofmoney。””Icannottakethygold,Charmion。””Yes,takeit。ItwasSepawhogaveittomeforthefurtheranceofourcause,andthereforeitisfittingthatthoushouldstspendit。
Moreover,ifIwantmoney,doubtlessAntony,whoishenceforthmymaster,willgivememore;heismuchbeholdentome,andthisheknowswell。There,wastenottheprecioustimeinhagglingo’erthepelf——notyetartthouallamerchant,Harmachis;”and,withoutmorewords,shethrustthepiecesintotheleatherbagthathungacrossmyshoulders。Thenshemadefastthesackcontainingthesparegarments,and,sowomanlythoughtfulwasshe,placedinitanalabasterjarofpigment,withwhichImightstainmycountenanceafresh,and,takingthebroideredrobesofmyofficethatIhadcastoff,hidtheminthesecretpassage。Andsoatlastallwasmadeready。”IsittimethatIshouldgo,”Iasked。”Notyetawhile。Bepatient,Harmachis,forbutonelittlehourmoremustthouenduremypresence,andthen,perchance,farewellforever。”
Imadeagesturesignifyingthatthiswasnotimeforsharpwords。”Forgivememyquicktongue,”shesaid;”butfromasaltspringbitterwaterswell。Beseated,Harmachis;Ihaveheavierwordstospeaktotheebeforethougoest。””Sayon,”Ianswered;”words,howeverheavy,canmovemenomore。”
Shestoodbeforemewithfoldedhands,andthelamp-lightshoneuponherbeauteousface。Inoticedidlyhowgreatwasitspallorandhowwideanddarkweretheringsaboutthedeepblackeyes。Twicesheliftedherwhitefaceandstrovetospeak,twicehervoicefailedher;
andwhenatlastitcameitwasinahoarsewhisper。”Icannotlettheego,”shesaid——”Icannotlettheegounwittingofthetruth。”/Harmachis,’twasIwhodidbetraythee!/”
Isprangtomyfeet,anoathuponmylips;butshecaughtmebythehand。”Oh,beseated,”shesaid——”beseatedandhearme;then,whenthouhastheart,dotomeasthouwilt。Listen。Fromthatevilmomentwhen,inthepresenceofthyuncleSepa,forthesecondtimeIseteyesuponthyface,Ilovedthee——howmuch,thoucanstlittleguess。ThinkuponthineownloveforCleopatra,anddoubleit,anddoubleitagain,andperchancethoumaystcomeneartomylove’smightysum。Ilovedthee,daybydayIlovedtheemore,tillintheeandfortheealoneIseemedtolive。Butthouwastcold——thouwastworsethancold!thoudidstdealwithmenotasabreathingwoman,butratherastheinstrumenttoanend——asatoolwithwhichtogravethyfortunes。AndthenIsaw——
yes,longbeforethouknewestitthyself——thyheart’stidewassettingstrongtowardsthatruinousshorewhereonto-daythylifeisbroken。
Andatlastthatnightcame,thatdreadfulnightwhen,hidwithinthechamber,Isawtheecastmykerchieftothewinds,andwithsweetwordscherishmyroyalRival’sgift。Then——oh,thouknowest——inmypainIbetrayedthesecretthatthouwouldstnotsee,andthoudidstmakeamockofme,Harmachis!Oh!theshameofit——thouinthyfoolishnessdidstmakeamockofme!Iwentthence,andwithinmewererisingallthetormentswhichcantearawoman’sheart,fornowIwassurethatthoudidstloveCleopatra!Ay,andsomadwasI,eventhatnightIwasmindedtobetraythee:butIthought——notyet,notyet;
to-morrowhemaysoften。Thencamethemorrow,andallwasreadyfortheburstingofthegreatplotthatshouldmaketheePharaoh。AndI
toocame——thoudostremember——andagainthoudidstputmeawaywhenI
spaketotheeinparables,assomethingoflittleworth——asathingtoosmalltoclaimamoment’sweightythought。And,knowingthatthiswasbecause——thoughthouknewestitnot——thoudidstloveCleopatra,whomnowthoumuststraightwayslay,Igrewmad,andawickedSpiritenteredintome,possessingmeutterly,sothatIwasmyselfnolonger,norcouldcontrolmyself。Andbecausethouhadstscornedme,I
didthis,tomyeverlastingshameandsorrow!——IpassedintoCleopatra’spresenceandbetrayedtheeandthosewiththee,andourholycause,sayingthatIhadfoundawritingwhichthouhadstletfallandreadallthistherein。”
Igaspedandsatsilent;andgazingsadlyatmeshewenton:”Whensheunderstoodhowgreatwastheplot,andhowdeepitsroots,Cleopatrawasmuchtroubled;and,atfirst,shewouldhavefledtoSaisortakenshipandrunforCyprus,butIshowedherthatthewayswerebarred。Thenshesaidshewouldcausetheetobeslain,there,inthechamber,andIlefthersobelieving;for,atthathour,Iwasgladthatthoushouldstbeslain——ay,evenifIweptoutmyheartuponthygrave,Harmachis。ButwhatsaidIjustnow?——Vengeanceisanarrowthatoftfallsonhimwholoosesit。Soitwaswithme;forbetweenmygoingandthycomingCleopatrahatchedadeeperplan。Shefearedthattoslaytheewouldonlybetolightafiercerfireofrevolt;butshesawthattobindtheetoher,and,havingleftmenawhileindoubt,toshowtheefaithless,wouldstriketheimminentdangeratitsrootsandwitherit。Thisplotonceformed,beinggreat,shedareditsdoubtfulissue,and——needIgoon?Thouknowest,Harmachis,howshewon;andthustheshaftofvengeancethatIloosedfelluponmyownhead。ForonthemorrowIknewthatIhadsinnedfornaught,thattheburdenofmybetrayalhadbeenlaidonthewretchedPaulus,andthatIhadbutruinedthecausetowhichIwasswornandgiventhemanIlovedtothearmsofwantonEgypt。”
Shebowedherheadawhile,andthen,asIspokenot,oncemorewenton:”Letallmysinbetold,Harmachis,andthenletjusticecome。Seenow,thisthinghappened。HalfdidCleopatralearntolovethee,anddeepinherheartshebethoughtheroftakingtheetoweddedhusband。
Forthesakeofthishalfloveofhersshesparedthelivesofthoseintheplotwhomshehadmeshed,bethinkingherthatifsheweddedtheeshemightusethemandtheetodrawtheheartofEgypt,whichlovesnothernoranyPtolemy。Andthen,onceagainsheentrappedthee,andinthyfollythoudidstbetraytoherthesecretofthehiddenwealthofEgypt,whichto-dayshesquanderstodelighttheluxuriousAntony;and,ofatruth,atthattimeshepurposedtomakegoodheroathandmarrythee。ButontheverymornwhenDelliuscameforanswershesentforme,andtellingmeall——formywit,aboveany,sheholdsatprice——demandedofmemyjudgmentwhethersheshoulddefyAntonyandwedthee,orwhethersheshouldputthethoughtawayandcometoAntony。AndI——nowmarkthouallmysin——I,inmybitterjealousy,ratherthanIwouldseeherthyweddedwifeandthouherlovinglord,counselledhermoststrictlythatsheshouldcometoAntony,wellknowing——forIhadhadspeechwithDellius——thatifshecame,thisweakAntonywouldfalllikearipefruitatherfeet,as,indeed,hehasfallen。AndbutnowIhaveshowntheetheissueofthescheme。AntonylovesCleopatraandCleopatralovesAntony,andthouartrobbed,andmattershavegonewellforme,whoofallwomenontheearthto-nightamthewretchedestbyfar。ForwhenIsawhowthyheartbrokebutnow,myheartseemedtobreakwiththine,andIcouldnolongerbeartheburdenofmyevildeeds,butknewthatImusttellthemandtakemypunishment。”Andnow,Harmachis,Ihavenomoretosay;savethatIthanktheeforthycourtesyinhearkening,andthisonethingIadd。DrivenbymygreatloveIhavesinnedagainsttheeuntodeath!Ihaveruinedthee,IhaveruinedKhem,andmyselfalsoIhaveruined!Letdeathrewardme!Slaythoume,Harmachis——Iwillgladlydieuponthysword;ay,andkissitsblade!Slaythoumeandgo;forifthouslayestmenot,myselfIwillsurelyslay!”Andshethrewherselfuponherknees,liftingherfairbreasttowardme,thatImightsmiteherwithmydagger。And,inmybitterfury,Iwasmindedtostrike;for,aboveall,Ithoughthow,whenIwasfallen,thiswoman,whoherselfwasmycauseofshame,hadscourgedmewithherwhipofscorn。Butitishardtoslayafairwoman;and,evenasIliftedmyhandtostrike,I
rememberedthatshehadnowtwicesavedmylife。”Woman!thoushamelesswoman!”Isaid,”arise!Islaytheenot!WhoamI,thatIshouldjudgethycrime,that,withmineown,dothovertopallearthlyjudgment?””Slayme,Harmachis!”shemoaned;”slayme,orIslaymyself!Myburdenistoogreatformetobear!Benotsodeadlycalm!Curseme,andslay!””Whatwasitthatthoudidstsaytomejustnow,Charmion——thatasI
hadsownsoImustreap?Itisnotlawfulthatthoushouldstslaythyself;itisnotlawfulthatI,thineequalinsin,shouldslaytheebecausethroughtheeIsinned。As/thou/hastsown,Charmion,somust/thou/alsoreap。Basewoman!whosecrueljealousyhasbroughtallthesewoesonmeandEgypt,live——liveon,andfromyeartoyearpluckthebitterfruitofcrime!HauntedbethysleepbyvisionsofthyoutragedGods,whosevengeanceawaitstheeandmeintheirdimAmenti!
Hauntedbethydaysbymemoriesofthatmanwhomthyfiercelovebroughttoshameandruin,andbythesightofKhemapreytotheinsatiateCleopatraandaslavetoRomanAntony。””Oh,speaknotthus,Harmachis!Thywordsaresharperthananysword;
andmoresurely,ifmoreslowly,shalltheyslay!Listen,Harmachis,”
andshegraspedmyrobe:”whenthouwastgreat,andallpowerlaywithinthygrasp,thoudidstrejectme。WiltrejectmenowthatCleopatrahastcasttheefromher——nowthatthouartpoorandshamedandwithnopillowtothyhead?StillamIfair,andstillIworshipthee。Letmeflywiththee,andmakeatonementformylifelonglove。
Or,ifthisbetoogreatathingtoask,letmebebutasthysisterandthyservant——thyveryslave,sothatImaystilllookuponthyface,andsharethytroubleandministertothee。OHarmachis,letmebutcomeandIwillbraveallthingsandendureallthings,andnothingbutDeathhimselfshallstaymefromthyside。ForIdobelievethatthelovethatsankmetosolowadepth,draggingtheewithme,canyetliftmetoanequalheight,andtheewithme!””Wouldsttemptmetofreshsin,woman?Anddostthouthink,Charmion,thatinsomehovelwhereImusthide,Icouldbear,daybyday,tolookuponthyfairface,andseeing,rememberthatthoselipsbetrayedme?Notthuseasilyshaltthouatone!ThisIknowevennow:manyandheavyshallbethylonelydaysofpenance!Perchancethathourofvengeanceyetmaycome,andperchancethoushaltlivetoplaythypartinit。ThoumuststillabideintheCourtofCleopatra;and,whilethouartthere,ifIyetlive,Iwillfromtimetotimefindmeanstogivetheetidings。PerhapsadaymaydawnwhenoncemoreIshallneedthyservice。Now,swearthat,inthisevent,thouwiltnotfailmeasecondtime。””Iswear,Harmachis!——Iswear!Mayeverlastingtorments,toohideoustobedreamed——morehideous,even,byfar,thanthosethatwringmenow——bemyportionifIfailtheeinonejotortittle——ay,thoughI
waitalifetimeforthyword!””Itiswell;seethatthoukeeptheoath——nottwicemaywebetray。I
gotoworkoutmyfate;abidethoutoworkoutthine。Perchanceourdiversthreadswilloncemoremingleerethewebbespun。Charmion,whounaskeddidstloveme——andwho,promptedbythatgentleloveofthine,didstbetrayandruinme——faretheewell!”
Shegazedwildlyuponmyface——shestretchedoutherarmsasthoughtoclaspme;then,intheagonyofherdespair,shecastherselfatlengthandgrovelledupontheground。
Itookupthesackofclothingandthestaffandgainedthedoor,and,asIpassedit,Ithrewonelastglanceuponher。Thereshelay,witharmsoutstretched——morewhitethanherwhiterobes——herdarkhairstreamingabouther,andherfairbrowshiddeninthedust。
AndthusIlefther,nordidIagainsetmyeyesuponhertillninelongyearshadcomeandgone。
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BOOKIII
THEVENGEANCEOFHARMACHIS
CHAPTERI
OFTHEESCAPEOFHARMACHISFROMTARSUS;OFHISBEINGCAST
FORTHASANOFFERINGTOTHEGODSOFTHESEA;OFHISSOJOURNIN
THEISLEOFCYPRUS;OFHISRETURNTOABOUTHIS;ANDOFTHE
DEATHOFAMENEMHAT
Imademywaydownthestairinsafety,andpresentlystoodinthecourtyardofthatgreathouse。Itwasbutanhourfromdawn,andnonewerestirring。Thelastrevellerhaddrunkhisfill,thedancing-girlshadceasedtheirdancing,andsilencelayuponthecity。Idrewnearthegate,andwaschallengedbyanofficerwhostoodonguard,wrappedinaheavycloak。”Whopasses,”saidthevoiceofBrennus。”Amerchant,mayitpleaseyou,Sir,who,havingbroughtgiftsfromAlexandriatoaladyoftheQueen’shousehold,and,havingbeenentertainedofthelady,nowdepartstohisgalley,”Iansweredinafeignedvoice。”Umph!”hegrowled。”TheladiesoftheQueen’shouseholdkeeptheirguestslate。Well;itisatimeoffestival。Thepass-word,SirShopkeeper?Withoutthepass-wordyoumustneedsreturnandcravethelady’sfurtherhospitality。””’/Antony/,’Sir;andarightgoodword,too。Ah!I’vewanderedfar,andneversawIsogoodlyamanorsogreatageneral。And,markyou,Sir!I’vetravelledfar,andseenmanygenerals。””Ay;’/Antony/’’stheword!AndAntonyisagoodgeneralinhisway——
whenitisasoberway,andwhenhecannotfindaskirttofollow。
I’veservedwithAntony——andagainsthim,too;andknowhispoints。
Well,well;he’sgotanarmfulnow!”
Andallthiswhilethathewasholdingmeintalk,thesentryhadbeenpacingtoandfrobeforethegate。Butnowhemovedalittlewaytotheright,leavingtheentranceclear。”Faretheewell,Harmachis,andbegone!”whisperedBrennus,leaningforwardandspeakingquickly。”Lingernot。ButattimesbethinktheeofBrennuswhoriskedhisnecktosavethine。Farewell,lad,IwouldthatweweresailingNorthtogether,”andheturnedhisbackuponmeandbegantohumatune。”Farewell,Brennus,thouhonestman,”Ianswered,andwasgone。And,asIheardlongafterwards,whenonthemorrowthehueandcrywasraisedbecausethemurdererscouldnotfindme,thoughtheysoughtmeeverywheretoslayme,Brennusdidmeaservice。Forhesworethatashekepthiswatchaloneanhouraftermidnighthesawmecomeandstandupontheparapetoftheroof,thatthenIstretchedoutmyrobesandtheybecamewingsonwhichIfloateduptoHeaven,leavinghimastonished。AndallthoseabouttheCourtlenteartothishistory,believinginit,becauseofthegreatfameofmymagic;andtheywonderedmuchwhatthemarvelmightportend。ThetalealsotravelledintoEgypt,anddidmuchtosavemygoodnameamongthosewhomIhadbetrayed;forthemoreignorantamongthembelievedthatIactednotofmywill,butofthewillofthedreadGods,whooftheirownpurposewaftedmeintoHeaven。Andthustothisdaythesayingrunsthat”/WhenHarmachiscomesagainEgyptshallbefree。/”Butalas,Harmachiscomesnomore!OnlyCleopatra,thoughshewasmuchafraid,doubtedherofthetale,andsentanarmedvesseltosearchfortheSyrianmerchant,butnottofindhim,asshallbetold。
WhenIreachedthegalleyofwhichCharmionhadspoken,Ifoundherabouttosail,andgavethewritingtothecaptain,whoconnedit,lookingonmecuriously,butsaidnothing。
SoIwentaboard,andimmediatelywedroppedswiftlydowntheriverwiththecurrent。Andhavingcometothemouthoftheriverunchallenged,thoughwepassedmanyvessels,weputouttoseawithastrongfavouringwindthatbeforenightfreshenedtoagreatgale。
Thenthesailormen,beingmuchafraid,wouldhaveputaboutandrunforthemouthofCydnusagain,butcouldnotbecauseofthewildnessofthesea。Allthatnightitblewfuriously,andbydawnourmastwascarriedaway,andwerolledhelplesslyinthetroughofthegreatwaves。ButIsatwrappedinacloak,littleheeding;andbecauseI
showednofearthesailorscriedoutthatIwasawizard,andsoughttocastmeintothesea,butthecaptainwouldnot。Atdawnthewindslackened,buterenoonitoncemoreblewinterriblefury,andatthefourthhourfromnoonwecameinsightoftherockycoastofthatcapeintheislandofCypruswhichiscalledDinaretum,whereisamountainnamedOlympus,andthither-wardswedriftedswiftly。Then,whenthesailorssawtheterriblerocks,andhowthegreatwavesthatsmoteonthemspoutedupinfoam,oncemoretheygrewmuchafraid,andcriedoutintheirfear。For,seeingthatIstillsatunmoved,theysworethatIcertainlywasawizard,andcametocastmeforthasasacrificetotheGodsofthesea。Andthistimethecaptainwasover-
ruled,andsaidnothing。Therefore,whentheycametomeIroseanddefiedthem,saying,”Castmeforth,ifyewill;butifyecastmeforthyeshallperish。”
ForinmyheartIcaredlittle,havingnomoreanyloveoflife,butratheradesiretodie,thoughIgreatlyfearedtopassintothepresenceofmyHolyMotherIsis。Butmywearinessandsorrowatthebitternessofmylotovercameeventhisheavyfear;sothatwhen,beingmadasbrutebeasts,theyseizedmeand,liftingme,hurledmeintotheragingwaters,IdidbututteroneprayertoIsisandmadereadyfordeath。ButitwasfatedthatIshouldnotdie;for,whenI
rosetothesurfaceofthewater,Isawasparofwoodfloatingnearme,towhichIswamandclung。Andagreatwavecameandsweptme,riding,asitwere,uponthespar,aswhenaboyIhadlearnedtodointhewatersoftheNile,pastthebulwarksofthegalleywherethefierce-facedsailorsclusteredtoseemedrown。Andwhentheysawmecomemountedonthewave,cursingthemasIcame,andsaw,too,thatthecolourofmyfacehadchanged——forthesaltwaterhadwashedwaythepigment,theyshriekedwithfearandthrewthemselvesdownuponthedeck。Andwithinaverylittlewhile,asIrodetowardtherockycoast,agreatwavepouredintothevessel,thatrolledbroadsideon,andpressedherdownintothedeep,whencesherosenomore。
Soshesankwithallhercrew。AndinthatsamestormalsosankthegalleywhichCleopatrahadsenttosearchfortheSyrianmerchant。
Thusalltracesofmewerelost,andofasuretyshebelievedthatI
wasdead。
ButIrodeontowardtheshore。Thewindshriekedandthesaltwaveslashedmyfaceas,alonewiththetempest,Irusheduponmyway,whilethesea-birdsscreamedaboutmyhead。Ifeltnofear,butratherawildupliftingoftheheart;andinthestressofmyimminentperiltheloveoflifeseemedtowakenagain。AndsoIplungedanddrifted,nowtossedhightowardtheloweringclouds,nowcastintothedeepvalleysofthesea,tillatlengththerockyheadlandloomedbeforeme,andIsawthebreakerssmiteuponthestubbornrocks,andthroughthescreamingofthewindheardthesullenthunderoftheirfallandthegroanofstonessuckedseawardfromthebeach。On!high-throneduponthemaneofamightybillow——fiftycubitsbeneathmethelevelofthehissingwaters;abovemetheinkysky!Itwasdone!Thesparwastornfromme,and,draggeddownwardsbytheweightofthebagofgoldandtheclingingofmygarments,Isankstrugglingfuriously。
NowIwasunder——thegreenlightforamomentstreamedthroughthewaters,andthencamedarkness,andonthedarknesspicturesofthepast。Pictureafterpicture——allthelongsceneoflifewaswrittenhere。TheninmyearsIonlyheardthesongofthenightingale,themurmurofthesummersea,andthemusicofCleopatra’slaughofvictory,followingmesoftlyandyetmoresoftasIsankawaytosleep。
Oncemoremylifecameback,andwithitasenseofdeadlysicknessandofachingpain。Iopenedmyeyesandsawakindfacebendingoverme,andknewthatIwasintheroomofabuildedhouse。”HowcameIhither?”Iaskedfaintly。”Ofatruth,Poseidonbroughtthee,Stranger,”answeredaroughvoiceinbarbarousGreek;”wefoundtheecasthighuponthebeachlikeadeaddolphinandbroughttheetoourhouse,forwearefisher-folk。
Andhere,methinks,thoumustlieawhile,forthyleftlegisbrokenbytheforceofthewaves。”
Istrovetomovemyfootandcouldnot。Itwastrue,thebonewasbrokenabovetheknee。”Whoartthou,andhowartthounamed?”askedtherough-beardedsailor。”IamanEgyptiantravellerwhoseshiphassunkinthefuryofthegale,andIamnamedOlympus,”Ianswered,forthesepeoplecalledamountainthatwehadsightedOlympus,andthereforeItookthenameathazard。AndasOlympusIwashenceforthknown。
Herewiththeseroughfisher-folkIabodeforthehalfofayear,payingthemalittleoutofthesumofgoldthathadcomesafelyashoreuponme。Foritwaslongbeforemybonesgrewtogetheragain,andthenIwasleftsomewhatofacripple;forI,whohadbeensotallandstraightandstrong,nowlimped——onelimbbeingshorterthantheother。AndafterIrecoveredfrommyhurt,Istilllivedthere,andtoiledwiththematthetradeoffishing;forIknewnotwhitherI
shouldgoorwhatIshoulddo,and,forawhile,Iwasfaintobecomeapeasantfisherman,andsowearmywearylifeaway。Andthesepeopleentreatedmekindly,though,asothers,theyfearedmemuch,holdingmetobeawizardbroughthitherbythesea。Formysorrowshadstampedsostrangeanaspectonmyfacethatmengazingatmegrewfearfulofwhatlaybeneathitscalm。
There,then,Iabode,tillatlength,onenightasIlayandstrovetosleep,greatrestlessnesscameuponme,andamightydesireoncemoretoseethefaceofSihor。ButwhetherthisdesirewasoftheGodsorbornofmyownheart,notknowing,Icannottell。Sostrongwasit,attheleast,thatbeforeitwasdawnIrosefrommybedofstrawandclothedmyselfinmyfishergarb,and,becauseIhadnowishtoanswerquestions,thusItookfarewellofmyhumblehosts。FirstIplacedsomepiecesofgoldonthewell-cleanedtableofwood,andthentakingapotofflourIstreweditintheformofletters,writing:”ThisgiftfromOlympus,theEgyptian,whoreturnsintothesea。”
ThenIwent,andonthethirddayIcametothegreatcityofSalamis,thatisalsoonthesea。HereIabodeinthefishermen’squarterstillavesselwasabouttosailforAlexandria,andtothecaptainofthisvessel,amanofPaphos,Ihiredmyselfasasailor。Wesailedwithafavouringwind,andonthefifthdayIcametoAlexandria,thathatefulcity,andsawthelightdancingonitsgoldendomes。
HereImightnotabide。SoagainIhiredmyselfoutasasailor,givingmylabourinreturnforpassage,andwepasseduptheNile。AndIlearnedfromthetalkofmenthatCleopatrahadcomebacktoAlexandria,drawingAntonywithherandthattheylivedtogetherwithroyalstateinthepalaceontheLochias。Indeed,theboatmenalreadyhadasongthereon,whichtheysangastheylabouredattheoar。AlsoIheardhowthegalleythatwassenttosearchforthevesselwhichcarriedtheSyrianmerchanthadfounderedwithallhercrew,andthetalethattheQueen’sastronomer,Harmachis,hadflowntoHeavenfromtheroofofthehouseatTarsus。AndthesailorswonderedbecauseI
satandlabouredandwouldnotsingtheirribaldsongofthelovesofCleopatra。Forthey,too,begantofearme,andmutterconcerningmeamongthemselves。ThenIknewthatIwasamanaccursedandsetapart——amanwhomnonemightlove。
OnthesixthdaywedrewnightoAbouthis,whereIleftthecraft,andthesailorswererightgladtoseemego。And,withabreakingheart,Iwalkedthroughthefertilefields,seeingfacesthatIknewwell。
Butinmyroughdisguiseandlimpinggaitnoneknewme。Atlength,asthesunsank,Icameneartothegreatouterpylonofthetemple;andhereIcroucheddownintheruinsofahouse,notknowingwhyIhadcomeorwhatIwasabouttodo。LikealostoxIhadstrayedfromfar,backtothefieldsofmybirth,andforwhat?Ifmyfather,Amenemhat,stilllived,surelyhewouldturnhisfacefromme。Idarednotgointothepresenceofmyfather。Isathiddenthereamongthebrokenrafters,andidlywatchedthepylongates,toseeif,perchance,afaceIknewshouldissuefromthem。Butnonecameforthorenteredin,thoughthegreatgatesstoodwide;andthenIsawthatherbsweregrowingbetweenthestones,wherenoherbshadgrownforages。Whatcouldthisbe?Wasthetempledeserted?Nay;howcouldtheworshipoftheeternalGodshaveceased,thatforthousandsofyearshad,daybyday,beenofferedintheholyplace?Was,then,myfatherdead?Itwellmightbe。Andyet,whythissilence?Wherewerethepriests:
wheretheworshippers?
Icouldbearthedoubtnomore,butasthesunsankredIcreptlikeahuntedjackalthroughtheopengates,andontillIreachedthefirstgreatHallofPillars。HereIpausedandgazedaroundme——notasight,notasound,inthedimandholyplace!Iwentonwithabeatinghearttothesecondgreathall,thehallofsix-and-thirtypillarswhereI
hadbeencrownedLordofalltheLands:stillnotasightorasound!
Thence,halffearfulofmyownfootfall,soterriblydiditechointhesilenceofthedesertedHolies,IpasseddownthepassageofthenamesofthePharaohstowardsmyfather’schamber。Thecurtainstillswungoverthedoorway;butwhatwouldtherebewithin?——alsoemptiness?Iliftedit,andnoiselesslypassedin,andthereinhiscarvenchairatthetableonwhichhislongwhitebeardflowed,satmyfather,Amenemhat,cladinhispriestlyrobes。AtfirstIthoughtthathewasdead,hesatsostill;butatlengthheturnedhishead,andI
sawthathiseyeswerewhiteandsightless。Hewasblind,andhisfacewasthinasthefaceofadeadman,andwoefulwithageandgrief。
Istoodstillandfelttheblindeyeswanderingoverme。Icouldnotspeaktohim——Idarednotspeaktohim;Iwouldgoandhidemyselfafresh。
Ihadalreadyturnedandgraspedthecurtain,whenmyfatherspokeinadeep,slowvoice:”Comehither,thouwhowastmysonandartatraitor。Comehither,thouHarmachis,onwhomKhembuildedupherhope。Notinvain,then,haveIdrawntheefromfaraway!NotinvainhaveIheldmylifeinmetillIheardthyfootfallcreepingdowntheseemptyHolies,likethefootfallofathief!””Oh!myfather,”Igasped,astonished。”Thouartblind:howknowestthoume?””HowdoIknowthee?——andaskestthouthatwhohastlearnedofourlore?Enough,IknowtheeandIbroughttheehither。Would,Harmachis,thatIknewtheenot!WouldthatIhadbeenblastedoftheInvisibleereIdrewtheedownfromthewombofNout,tobemycurseandshame,andthelastwoeofKhem!””Oh,speaknotthus!”Imoaned;”isnotmyburdenalreadymorethanI
canbear?AmInotmyselfbetrayedandutterlyoutcast?Bepitiful,myfather!””Bepitiful!——bepitifultotheewhohastshownsogreatpity?ItwasthypitywhichgaveupnobleSepatodiebeneaththehandsofthetormentors!””Oh,notthat——notthat!”Icried。”Ay,traitor,that!——todieinagony,withhislastpoorbreathproclaimingthee,hismurderer,honestandinnocent!Bepitifultothee,whogavestalltheflowerofKhemasthepriceofawanton’sarms!——thinkestthouthat,labouringinthedarksomedesertmines,thosenobleonesinthoughtarepitifultothee,Harmachis?Bepitifultothee,bywhomthisHolyTempleofAbouthishathbeenravaged,itslandsseized,itspriestsscattered,andIalone,oldandwithered,lefttocountoutitsruin——tothee,whohastpouredthetreasuresof/Her/intothyleman’slap,whohastforswornThyself,thyCountry,thyBirthright,andthyGods!Yea,thusamIpitiful:Accursedbethou,fruitofmyloins!——Shamebethyportion,Agonythyend,andHellreceivetheeatthelast!Whereartthou?Yea,IgrewblindwithweepingwhenIheardthetruth——sure,theystrovetohideitfromme。
LetmefindtheethatImayspituponthee,thouRenegade!thouApostate!thouOutcast!”——andherosefromhisseatandstaggeredlikealivingWrathtowardme,smitingtheairwithhiswand。Andashecamewithoutstretchedarms,awfultosee,suddenlyhisendfoundhim,andwithacryhesankdownupontheground,theredbloodstreamingfromhislips。Irantohimandliftedhim;andashedied,hebabbled:”Hewasmyson,abright-eyedlovelyboy,andfullofpromiseastheSpring;andnow——andnow——oh,wouldthatheweredead!”
Thencameapauseandthebreathrattledinhisthroat。”Harmachis,”hegasped,”artthere?””Yea,father。””Harmachis,atone!——atone!Vengeancecanstillbewreaked——forgivenessmaystillbewon。There’sgold;I’vehiddenit——Atoua——shecantellthee——ah,thispain!Farewell!”
Andhestruggledfaintlyinmyarmsandwasdead。
Thus,then,didIandmyholyfather,thePrinceAmenemhat,meettogetherforthelasttimeintheflesh,andforthelasttimepart。
CHAPTERII
OFTHELASTMISERYOFHARMACHIS;OFTHECALLINGDOWNOFTHE
HOLYISISBYTHEWORDOFFEAR;OFTHEPROMISEOFISIS;OFTHE
COMINGOFATOUA,ANDOFTHEWORDSOFATOUA
Icroucheduponthefloorgazingatthedeadbodyofmyfather,whohadlivedtocurseme,theutterlyaccursed,whilethedarknesscreptandgatheredroundus,tillatlengththedeadandIwerealoneintheblacksilence。Oh,howtellthemiseryofthathour!Imaginationcannotdreamit,norwordspaintitforth。OncemoreinmywretchednessIbethoughtmeofdeath。Aknifewasatmygirdle,withwhichImightcutthethreadofsorrowandsetmyspiritfree。Free?
ay,freetoflyandfacethelastvengeanceoftheHolyGods!Alas!
andalas!Ididnotdaretodie。Bettertheearthwithallitswoesthanthequickapproachofthoseunimaginedterrorsthat,hoveringindimAmenti,waittheadventofthefallen。
Igrovelledonthegroundandwepttearsofagonyforthelostunchangingpast——wepttillIcouldweepnomore;butnoanswercamefromthesilence——noanswerbuttheechoesofmygrief。Notarayofhope!Mysoulwanderedinadarknessmoreutterthanthatwhichwasaboutme——IwasforsakenoftheGodsandcastoutofmen。TerrortookholduponmecrouchinginthatlonelyplacehardbythemajestyoftheawfulDead。Irosetofly。HowcouldIflyinthisgloom?——AndwhereshouldIflywhohadnoplaceofrefuge?OncemoreIcroucheddown,andthegreatfeargrewonmetillthecoldsweatranfrommybrowandmysoulwasfaintwithinme。Then,inmylastdespair,IprayedaloudtoIsis,towhomIhadnotdaredtoprayformanydays。”OIsis!HolyMother!”Icried;”putawayThywrath,andofThineinfinitepity,OThouall-pitiful,hearkentothevoiceoftheanguishofhimwhowasThysonandservant,butwhobysinhathfallenfromthevisionofThylove。OthronedGlory,who,beinginallthings,hastofallthingsunderstandingandofallgriefsknowledge,casttheweightofThymercyagainstthescaleofmyevil-doing,andmakethebalanceequal。Lookdownuponmywoe,andmeasureit;countupthesumofmyrepentanceandtakeThounoteofthefloodofsorrowthatsweepsmysoulaway。OThouHoly,whomitwasgiventometolookuponfacetoface,bythatdreadhourofcommuneIsummonThee;IsummonTheebythemysticword。Come,then,inmercy,tosaveme;or,inanger,tomakeanendofthatwhichcannomorebeborne。”
And,risingfrommyknees,IstretchedoutmyarmsanddaredtocryaloudtheWordofFear,tousewhichunworthilyisdeath。
Swiftlytheanswercame。ForinthesilenceIheardthesoundoftheshakensistraheraldingthecomingoftheGlory。Then,atthefarendofthechamber,grewthesemblanceofthehornedmoon,gleamingfaintlyinthedarkness,andbetwixtthegoldenhornsrestedasmalldarkcloud,inandoutofwhichthefieryserpentclimbed。
MykneeswaxedlooseinthepresenceoftheGlory,andIsankdownbeforeit。
Thenspakethesmall,sweetVoicewithinthecloud:”Harmachis,whowastmyservantandmyson,Ihaveheardthyprayer,andthesummonsthatthouhastdaredtoutter,whichonthelipsofonewithwhomIhavecommuned,hathpowertodrawMefromtheUttermost。Nomore,Harmachis,maywebeoneinthebondofLoveDivine,forthouhastputMeawayofthineownact。Therefore,afterthislongsilenceIcome,Harmachis,clothedinterrors,and,perchance,readyforvengeance,fornotlightlycanIsisbedrawnfromthehallsofHerDivinity。””Smite,Goddess!”Ianswered。”Smite,andgivemeovertothosewhowreakThyvengeance;forIcannolongerbeartheburdenofmywoe!””Andifthoucanstnotbearthyburdenhere,uponthisupperearth,”
camethesoftreply,”howthenshaltthoubearthegreaterburdenthatshallbelaidupontheethere,comingdefiledandyetunpurifiedintomydimrealmofDeath,thatisLifeandChangeunending?Nay,Harmachis,Ismitetheenot,fornotallamIwroththatthouhastdaredtouttertheawfulWordwhichcallsMedowntothee。Hearken,Harmachis;Ipraisenot,andIreproachnot,forIamtheMinisterofRewardandPunishmentandtheExecutrixofDecrees;andifIgive,I
giveinsilence;andifIsmite,insilencedoIsmite。Therefore,I
willaddnaughttothyburdenbytheweightofheavywords,thoughthroughtheeithascometopassthatsoonshallIsis,theMother-
Mystery,bebutamemoryinEgypt。Thouhastsinned,andheavyshallbethypunishment,asIdidwarnthee,bothinthefleshandinmykingdomofAmenti。ButItoldtheethatthereisaroadofrepentance,andsurelythyfeetaresetthereon,andthereinmustthouwalkwithahumbleheart,eatingofthebreadofbitterness,tillsuchtimeasthydoombemeasured。””HaveI,then,nohope,Oholy?””Thatwhichisdone,Harmachis,isdone,norcanitsissuesbealtered。Khemshallnomorebefreetillallitstemplesareasthedesertdust;strangePeoplesshall,fromagetoage,holdherhostageandinbonds;newReligionsshallariseandwitherwithintheshadowofherpyramids,fortoeveryWorld,Race,andAgethecountenancesoftheGodsarechanged。Thisisthetreethatshallspringfromthyseedofsin,Harmachis,andfromthesinofthosewhotemptedthee!””Alas!Iamundone!”Icried。”Yea,thouartundone;andyetshallthisbegiventothee:thyDestroyerthoushaltdestroy——forso,inthepurposeofmyjustice,itisordained。Whenthesigncomestothee,arise,gotoCleopatra,andinsuchmannerasIshallputintothyheartdoHeaven’svengeanceuponher!Andnowforthyselfoneword,forthouhastputMefromthee,Harmachis,andnomoreshallIcomefacetofacewiththeetill,cycleshence,thelastfruitofthysinhathceasedtobeuponthisearth!Yet,throughthevastnessoftheunnumberedyears,rememberthouthis:theLoveDivineisLoveEternal,whichcannotbeextinguished,thoughitbeeverlastinglyestranged。Repent,myson;
repentanddowellwhilethereisyettime,thatatthedimendofagesthoumayestoncemorebegathereduntoMe。Still,Harmachis,thoughthouseestMenot;still,whentheverynamebywhichthouknowestMehasbecomeameaninglessmysterytothosewhoshallbeafterthee;stillI,whosehoursareeternal——I,whohavewatchedUniverseswither,wane,and,beneaththebreathofTime,meltintonothingness;againtogather,and,re-born,threadthemazeofspace——
still,Isay,Ishallcompanionthee。Whereverthougoest,inwhateverformoflifethoulivest,thereIshallbe!Artthouwaftedtothefartheststar,artthouburiedinAmenti’slowestdeep——inlives,indeaths,insleeps,inwakings,inremembrances,inoblivions,inallthefeversoftheouterLife,inallthechangesoftheSpirit——still,ifthouwiltbutatoneandforgetMenomore,Ishallbewiththee,waitingthinehourofredemption。ForthisisthenatureofLoveDivine,wherewithitlovesthatwhichpartakesofitsdivinityandbytheholytiehathoncebeenboundtoit。Judgethen,Harmachis:wasitwelltoputthisfromtheetowinthedustofearthlywoman?And,now,darenotagaintouttertheWordofPowertillthesethingsaredone!
Harmachis,forthisseason,faretheewell!”
AsthelastnoteofthesweetVoicediedaway,thefierysnakeclimbedintotheheartofthecloud。Nowthecloudrolledfromthehornsoflight,andwasgatheredintotheblackness。Thevisionofthecrescentmoongrewdimandvanished。Then,astheGoddesspassed,oncemorecamethefaintanddreadfulmusicoftheshakensistra,andallwasstill。
Ihidmyfaceinmyrobe,andeventhen,thoughmyoutstretchedhandcouldtouchthechillcorpseofthatfatherwhohaddiedcursingme,I
felthopecomebackintomyheart,knowingthatIwasnotaltogetherlostnorutterlyrejectedofHerwhomIhadforsaken,butwhomIyetloved。Andthenwearinessoverpoweredme,andIslept。
Iwoke,thefaintlightsofdawnwerecreepingfromtheopeningintheroof。Ghastlytheylayupontheshadowysculpturedwallsandghastlyuponthedeadfaceandwhitebeardofmyfather,thegatheredtoOsiris。Istartedup,rememberingallthings,andwonderinginmyheartwhatIshoulddo,andasIroseIheardafaintfootfallcreepingdownthepassageofthenamesofthePharaohs。”/La!La!La!/”mumbledavoicethatIknewforthevoiceoftheoldwife,Atoua。”Why,’tisdarkastheHouseoftheDead!TheHolyOneswhobuiltthisTemplelovednottheblessedsun,howevermuchtheyworshippedhim。Now,where’sthecurtain?”
Presentlyitwasdrawn,andAtouaentered,astickinonehandandabasketintheother。Herfacewassomewhatmorewrinkled,andherscantylocksweresomewhatwhiterthanaforetime,butfortherestshewasasshehadeverbeen。Shestoodandpeeredaroundwithhersharpblackeyes,forasyetshecouldseenothingbecauseoftheshadows。”Nowwhereishe?”shemuttered。”Osiris——glorytoHisname——sendthathehasnotwanderedinthenight,andheblind!Alack!thatIcouldnotreturnbeforethedark。Alack!andalack!whattimeshavewefallenon,whentheHolyHighPriestandtheGovernor,bydescent,ofAbouthis,isleftwithoneagedcronetoministertohisinfirmity!O
Harmachis,mypoorboy,thouhastlaidtroubleatourdoors!Why,what’sthis?Surelyhesleepsnot,thereupontheground?——’twillbehisdeath!Prince!HolyFather!Amenemhat!awake,arise!”andshehobbledtowardsthecorpse。”Why,howisit!ByHimwhosleeps,he’sdead!untendedandalone——/dead!dead!/”andshesentherlongwailofgriefringingupthesculpturedwalls。”Hush!woman,bestill!”Isaid,glidingfromtheshadows。”Oh,whatartthou?”shecried,castingdownherbasket。”Wickedman,hastthoumurderedthisHolyOne,theonlyHolyOneinEgypt?Surelythecursewillfallonthee,forthoughtheGodsdoseemtohaveforsakenusnowinourhouroftrial,yetistheirarmlong,andcertainlytheywillbeavengedonhimwhohathslaintheiranointed!””Lookonme,Atoua,”Icried。”Look!ay,Ilook——thouwickedwandererwhohastdaredthiscrueldeed!Harmachisisatraitorandlostfaraway,andAmenemhathisholyfatherismurdered,andnowI’mallalonewithoutkithorkin。Igavethemforhim。IgavethemforHarmachis,thetraitor!Come,slaymealso,thouwickedone!”
Itookasteptowardher,andshe,thinkingthatIwasabouttosmiteher,criedoutinfear:”Nay,goodSir,spareme!Eightyandsix,bytheHolyOnes,eightyandsix,comenextfloodofNile,andyetIwouldnotdie,thoughOsirisismercifultotheoldwhoservedhim!Comenonearer——help!help!””Thoufool,besilent,”Isaid;”knowestthoumenot?””Knowthee?CanIknoweverywanderingboatmantowhomSebekgrantstoearnalivelihoodtillTyphonclaimshisown?Andyet——why,’tisstrange——thatchangedcountenance!——thatscar!——thatstumblinggait!
Itisthou,Harmachis!——’tisthou,Omyboy!Artcomebacktogladmineoldeyes?Ihopedtheedead!Letmekissthee?——nay,Iforget。
Harmachisisatraitor,ay,andamurderer!HereliestheholyAmenemhat,murderedbythetraitor,Harmachis!Gettheegone!I’llhavenoneoftraitorsandofparricides!Gettheetothywanton!——itisnotthouwhomIdidnurse。””Peace!woman;peace!Islewnotmyfather——hedied,alas!——hediedeveninmyarms。””Ay,surely,andcursingthee,Harmachis!Thouhastgivendeathtohimwhogavetheelife!/La!la!/Iamold,andI’veseenmanyatrouble;
butthisistheheaviestofthemall!Ineverlikedthelooksofmummies;butIwouldIwereonethishour!Gettheegone,Ipraythee!””Oldnurse,reproachmenot!HaveInotenoughtobear?””Ah!yes,yes!——Ididforget!Well;andwhatisthysin?Awomanwasthybane,aswomenhavebeentothosebeforethee,andshallbetothoseafterthee。Andwhatawoman!/La!la!/Isawher,abeautysuchasneverwas——anarrowpointedbytheevilGodsfordestruction!Andthou,ayoungmanbredasapriest——anilltraining——averyilltraining!’Twasnofairmatch。Whocanwonderthatshemasteredthee?
Come,Harmachis;letmekissthee!Itisnotforawomantobehardonamanbecausehelovedoursextoomuch。Why,thatisbutnature;andNatureknowsherbusiness,elseshehadmadeusotherwise。Buthereisanevilcase。KnowestthouthatthisMacedonianQueenofthinehathseizedthetemplelandsandrevenues,anddrivenawaythepriests——
all,savetheholyAmenemhat,wholieshere,andwhomsheleft,Iknownotwhy;ay,andcausedtheworshipoftheGodstoceasewithinthesewalls。Well,he’sgone!——he’sgone!andindeedheisbetterwithOsiris,forhislifewasasoreburdentohim。Andharkthou,Harmachis:hehathnotlefttheeempty-handed;for,sosoonastheplotfailed,hegatheredallhiswealth,anditislarge,andhidit——
where,Icanshowthee——anditisthinebyrightofdescent。””Talknottomeofwealth,Atoua。WhereshallIgoandhowshallI
hidemyshame?””Ah!true,true;heremaystthounotabide,foriftheyfoundthee,surelytheywouldputtheetothedreadfuldeath——ay,tothedeathbythewaxencloth。Nay,Iwillhidethee,and,whenthefuneralritesoftheholyAmenemhathavebeenperformed,wewillflyhence,andcoverusfromtheeyesofmentillthesesorrowsareforgotten。/La!la!/itisasadworld,andfulloftroubleastheNilemudisfullofbeetles。Come,Harmachis,come。”
CHAPTERIII
OFTHELIFEOFHIMWHOWASNAMEDTHELEARNEDOLYMPUS,IN
THETOMBOFTHEHARPERSTHATISBYTáPé;OFHISCOUNSELTO
CLEOPATRA;OFTHEMESSAGEOFCHARMION;ANDOFTHEPASSING
OFOLYMPUSDOWNTOALEXANDRIA
Thesethingsthencametopass。ForeightydaysIwashiddenoftheoldwife,Atoua,whilethebodyofthePrince,myfather,wasmadereadyforburialbythoseskilledintheartsofembalming。Andwhenatlastallthingsweredoneinorder,Icreptfrommyhiding-placeandmadeofferingstothespiritofmyfather,andplacinglotus-
flowersonhisbreastwentthencesorrowing。Andonthefollowingday,fromwhereIlayhid,IsawthePriestsoftheTempleofOsirisandoftheholyshrineofIsiscomeforth,andinslowprocessionbearhispaintedcoffintothesacredlakeandlayitbeneaththefuneraltentintheconsecratedboat。Isawthemcelebratethesymbolofthetrialofthedead,andnamehimaboveallmenjust,andthenbearhimthencetolayhimbyhiswife,mymother,inthedeeptombthathehadhewnintherockneartotheresting-placeoftheHolyOsiris,where,notwithstandingmysins,I,too,hopetosleeperelong。Andwhenallthesethingsweredoneandthedeeptombsealed,thewealthofmyfatherhavingbeenremovedfromthehiddentreasuryandplacedinsafety,Ifled,disguised,withtheoldwife,Atoua,uptheNiletillwecametoTápé,[*]andhereinthisgreatcityIlayawhile,tillaplacecouldbefoundwhereIshouldhidemyself。
[*]Thebes——Editor。
AndsuchaplaceIfound。Fortothenorthofthegreatcityarebrownandruggedhills,anddesertvalleyblastedofthesun,andinthisplaceofdesolationtheDivinePharaohs,myforefathers,hollowedouttheirtombsinthesolidrock,themostpartofwhicharelosttothisday,socunninglyhavetheybeenhidden。Butsomeareopen,fortheaccursedPersiansandotherthievesbrokeintotheminsearchoftreasure。Andonenight——forbynightonlydidIleavemyhiding-place——justasthedawnwasbreakingonthemountaintops,Iwanderedaloneinthissadvalleyofdeath,liketowhichthereisnoother,andpresentlycametothemouthofatombhiddenamidgreatrocks,whichafterwardsIknewfortheplaceoftheburyingoftheDivineRameses,thethirdofthatname,nowlonggatheredtoOsiris。AndbythefaintlightofthedawncreepingthroughtheentranceIsawthatitwasspaciousandthatwithinwerechambers。
Onthefollowingnight,therefore,Ireturned,bearinglights,withAtoua,mynurse,whoeverministeredfaithfullytomeaswhenIwaslittleandwithoutdiscretion。AndwesearchedthemightytombandcametothegreatHalloftheSarcophagusofgranite,inwhichtheDivineRamesessleeps,andsawthemysticpaintingsonthewalls:thesymboloftheSnakeunending,thesymbolofRarestingupontheScarab?us,thesymbolofRarestinguponNout,thesymboloftheHeadlessmen,andmanyothers,whereof,beinginitiated,wellIreadthemysteries。AndopeningfromthelongdescendingpassageIfoundchambersinwhichwerepaintingsbeautifultobehold,andofallmannerofthings。Forbeneatheachchamberisentombedthemasterofthecraftofwhichthepaintingstell,hewhowasthechiefoftheservantsofthatcraftinthehouseofthisDivineRameses。Andonthewallsofthelastchamber——ontheleft-handside,lookingtowardtheHalloftheSarcophagus——arepaintingsexceedinglybeautiful,andtwoblindharpersplayingupontheirbentharpsbeforetheGodMou;andbeneaththeflooringtheseharpers,whoharpnomore,aresoftatsleep。Here,then,inthisgloomyplace,eveninthetomboftheHarpersandthecompanyofthedead,Itookupmyabode;andhereforeightlongyearsIworkedoutmypenanceandmadeatonementformysin。ButAtoua,becauseshelovedtobenearthelight,abodeinthechamberoftheBoats——thatis,thefirstchamberontheright-handsideofthegallerylookingtowardtheHalloftheSarcophagus。
Andthiswasthemannerofmylife。Oneveryseconddaytheoldwife,Atoua,wentforthandbroughtwaterfromthecityandsuchfoodasisnecessarytokeepthelifefromfailing,andalsotapersmadefromfat。AndonehouratthetimeofsunriseandonehouratthetimeofsunsetIdidgoforthalsotowanderinthevalleyformyhealth’ssakeandtosavemysightfromfailinginthegreatdarknessofthetomb。Buttheotherhoursofthedayandnight,exceptwhenIclimbedthemountaintowatchthecourseofthestars,Ispentinprayerandmeditationandsleep,tillthecloudofsinliftedfrommyheartandoncemoreIdrewneartotheGods,thoughwithIsis,myheavenlyMother,Imightspeaknomore。AndIgrewexceedinglywisealso,ponderingonallthosemysteriestowhichIheldthekey。Forabstinenceandprayerandsorrowfulsolitudeworeawaythegrossnessofmyflesh,andwiththeeyesoftheSpiritIlearnedtolookdeepintotheheartofthingstillthejoyofWisdomfelllikedewuponmysoul。
SoontherumourwaswaftedaboutthecitythatacertainholymannamedOlympusabodeinsolitudeinthetombsoftheawfulValleyoftheDead;andhithercamepeoplebearingsickthatImightcurethem。
AndIgavemymindtothestudyofsimples,inwhichAtouainstructedme;andbyloreandtheweightofmythoughtIgainedgreatskillinmedicine,andhealedmanysick。Andthusever,astimewenton,myfamewasnoisedabroad;foritwassaidthatIwasalsoamagicianandthatinthetombsIhadcommunewiththeSpiritsoftheDead。Andthis,indeed,Idid——thoughitisnotlawfulformetospeakofthesematters。Thus,then,itcametopassthatnomoreneedAtouagoforthtoseekfoodandwater,forthepeoplebroughtit——morethanwasneedful,forIwouldreceivenofee。Nowatfirst,fearinglestsomeinthehermitOlympusmightknowthelostHarmachis,Iwouldonlymeetthosewhocameinthedarknessofthetomb。Butafterwards,whenI
learnedhowitwasheldthroughallthelandthatHarmachiswascertainlynomore,Icameforthandsatinthemouthofthetomb,andministeredtothesick,andattimescalculatednativitiesforthegreat。Andthusmyfamegrewcontinually,tillatlengthfolkjourneyedevenfromMemphisandAlexandriatovisitme;andfromthemIlearnedhowAntonyhadleftCleopatraforawhile,and,Fulviabeingdead,hadmarriedOctavia,thesisterofC?sar。ManyotherthingsI
learnedalso。
AndinthesecondyearIdidthis:Idespatchedtheoldwife,Atoua,disguisedasasellerofsimples,toAlexandria,biddingherseekoutCharmion,and,ifyetshefoundherfaithful,revealtoherthesecretofmywayoflife。Soshewent,andinthefifthmonthfromhersailingreturned,bearingCharmion’sgreetingsandatoken。AndshetoldmethatshehadfoundmeanstoseeCharmion,and,intalk,hadletfallthenameofHarmachis,speakingofmeasonedead;atwhichCharmion,unabletocontrolhergrief,weptaloud。Then,readingherheart——fortheoldwifewasveryclever,andheldthekeyofknowledge——shetoldherthatHarmachisyetlived,andsenthergreetings。
ThereonCharmionweptyetmorewithjoy,andkissedtheoldwife,andmadehergifts,biddinghertellmethatshehadkepthervow,andwaitedformycomingandthehourofvengeance。So,havinglearnedmanysecrets,AtouareturnedagaintoTápé。
AndinthefollowingyearmessengerscametomefromCleopatra,bearingasealedrollandgreatgifts。Iopenedtheroll,andreadthisinit:”CleopatratoOlympus,thelearnedEgyptianwhodwellsintheValleyofDeathbyTápé——”Thefameofthyrenown,OlearnedOlympus,hathreachedourears。
Tellthou,then,thistous,andifthoutellestarightgreaterhonourandwealthshaltthouhavethananyinEgypt:HowshallwewinbacktheloveofnobleAntony,whoisbewitchedofcunningOctavia,andtarrieslongfromus?”
Now,inthisIsawthehandofCharmion,whohadmademyrenownknowntoCleopatra。
AllthatnightItookcounselwithmywisdom,andonthemorrowwrotemyanswerasitwasputintomyhearttothedestructionofCleopatraandAntony。AndthusIwrote:”OlympustheEgyptiantoCleopatratheQueen——”GoforthintoSyriawithonewhoshallbesenttoleadthee;thusshaltthouwinAntonytothyarmsagain,andwithhimgiftsmoregreatthanthoucanstdream。”
AndwiththisletterIdismissedthemessengers,biddingthemsharethepresentssentbyCleopatraamongtheircompany。
Sotheywentwondering。
ButCleopatra,seizingontheadvicetowhichherpassionpromptedher,departedstraightwaywithFonteiusCapitointoSyria,andtherethethingcameaboutasIhadforetold,forAntonywassubduedofherandgaveherthegreaterpartofCilicia,theoceanshoreofArabiaNabath?a,thebalm-bearingprovincesofJud?a,theprovinceofPh?nicia,theprovinceofC?le-Syria,therichisleofCyprus,andallthelibraryofPergamus。Andtothetwinchildrenthat,withthesonPtolemy,CleopatrahadbornetoAntony,heimpiouslygavethenamesof”Kings,theChildrenofKings”——ofAlexanderHelios,astheGreeksnamethesun,andofCleopatraSelene,themoon,thelong-winged。
Thesethingsthencametopass。
NowonherreturntoAlexandriaCleopatrasentmegreatgifts,ofwhichIwouldhavenone,andprayedme,thelearnedOlympus,tocometoheratAlexandria;butitwasnotyettime,andIwouldnot。ButthereaftersheandAntonysentmanytimestomeforcounsel,andI
evercounselledthemtotheirruin,nordidmypropheciesfail。
Thusthelongyearsrolledaway,andI,thehermitOlympus,thedwellerinatomb,theeaterofbreadandthedrinkerofwater,bystrengthofthewisdomthatwasgivenmeoftheavengingPower,becameoncemoregreatinKhem。ForIgreweverwiserasItrampledthedesiresofthefleshbeneathmyfeetandturnedmyeyestoheaven。
Atlengtheightfullyearswereaccomplished。ThewarwiththeParthianshadcomeandgone,andArtavasdes,KingofArmenia,hadbeenledintriumphthroughthestreetsofAlexandria。CleopatrahadvisitedSamosandAthens;and,byhercounselling,thenobleOctaviahadbeendriven,likesomediscardedconcubine,fromthehouseofAntonyatRome。Andnow,atthelast,themeasureofthefollyofAntonywasfulleventothebrim。ForthisMasteroftheWorldhadnolongerthegoodgiftofreason;hewaslostinCleopatraasIhadbeenlost。Therefore,intheevent,Octavianusdeclaredwaragainsthim。
AndasIsleptuponacertaindayinthechamberoftheHarpers,inthetombofPharaohthatisbyTápé,therecametomeavisionofmyfather,theagedAmenemhat,andhestoodoverme,leaningonhisstaff,andspoke,saying:”Lookforth,myson。”
ThenIlookedforth,andwiththeeyesofmyspiritsawthesea,andtwogreatfleetsgrapplinginwarhardbyarockycoast。AndtheemblemswerethoseofOctavian,andoftheotherthoseofCleopatraandAntony。TheshipsofAntonyandCleopatraboredownupontheshipsofC?sar,anddrovethemon,forvictoryinclinedtoAntony。
Ilookedagain。TheresatCleopatrainagold-deckedgalleywatchingthefightwitheagereyes。ThenIcastmySpiritonhersothatsheseemedtohearthevoiceofdeadHarmachiscryinginherear。”/Fly,Cleopatra,/”itseemedtosay,”/flyorperish!/”
Shelookedupwildly,andagainsheheardmySpirit’scry。Nowamightyfeartookholdofher。Shecalledaloudtothesailorstohoistthesailsandmakesignaltoherfleettoputabout。Thistheydidwonderingbutlittleloath,andfledinhastefromthebattle。
Thenagreatroarwentupfromfriendandfoe。”Cleopatraisfled!Cleopatraisfled!”AndIsawwreckandredruinfalluponthefleetofAntonyandawokefrommytrance。
Thedayspassed,andagainavisionofmyfathercametomeandspoke,saying:”Arise,myson!——thehourofvengeanceisathand!Thyplotshavenotfailed;thyprayershavebeenheard。BythebiddingoftheGods,asshesatinhergalleyatthefightofActium,theheartofCleopatrawasfilledwithfears,sothat,deemingsheheardthyvoicebiddingherflyorperish,shefledwithallherfleet。NowthestrengthofActiumisbrokenonthesea。Goforth,andasitshallbeputintothymind,sodothou。”
InthemorningIawoke,wondering,andwenttothemouthofthetomb,andthere,comingupthevalley,IsawthemessengersofCleopatra,andwiththemaRomanguard。”Whatwillyewithmenow?”Iasked,sternly。”ThisisthemessageoftheQueenandofgreatAntony,”answeredtheCaptain,bowinglowbeforeme,forIwasmuchfearedbyallmen。”TheQueencommandsthypresenceatAlexandria。Manytimeshasshesent,andthouwouldstnotcome;nowshebidstheetocome,andthatswiftly,forshehasneedofthycounsel。””AndifIsayNay,soldier,whatthen?””Thesearemyorders,mostholyOlympus;thatIbringtheebyforce。”
Ilaughedaloud。”Byforce,thoufool!Usenotsuchtalktome,lestI
smitetheewherethouart。Know,then,thatIcankillaswellascure!””Pardon,Ibeseechthee!”heanswered,shrinking。”IsaybutthosethingsthatIambid。””Well,Iknowit,Captain。Fearnot;Icome。”
SoonthatverydayIdeparted,togetherwiththeagedAtoua。Ay,I
wentassecretlyasIhadcome;andthetomboftheDivineRamesesknewmenomore。AndwithmeItookallthetreasuresofmyfather,Amenemhat,forIwasnotmindedtogotoAlexandriaempty-handedandasasuppliant,butratherasamanofmuchwealthandcondition。Now,asIwent,IlearnedthatAntony,followingCleopatra,had,indeed,fledfromActium,andknewthattheenddrewnigh。ForthisandmanyotherthingshadIforeseeninthedarknessofthetombofTápé,andplannedtobringabout。
Thus,then,IcametoAlexandria,andenteredintoahousewhichhadbeenmadereadyformeatthepalacegates。
AndthatverynightCharmioncametome——CharmionwhomIhadnotseenforninelongyears。