第8章

类别:其他 作者:Don Marquis字数:11105更新时间:18/12/21 14:34:15
Martha,shehadbeenfussingaroundsomeflowerbusheswithapairofshearsandgloveson。ShelooksupwhenIsaysthat,andshesizesusallupstandingbythegate,andhereyespopsopen,andsodoeshermouth,andsheissosurprisedtoseemeshedropshershears。 Andshelooksscared,too。 “IsMissBucknerathome?”astsColonelTom,liftinghishatverypolite。 “MissB-B-Buckner?”Marthastutters,veryscared-like,andnottakinghereyesoffofmetoanswerhim。 “MissHampton,Martha,“Isays。 “Y-y-y-es,s-sh-sheis,“saysMartha。Iwonderedwhatwasthematterwithher。 Itisalwaysmylucktogetleftallalonewithmytroubles。Thedoctorandthecolonel,theywalkedrightpastuswhenshesaidyes,anduptowardthehouse,andleftherandmestandingthere。I couldofwentalongandbuttedin,mebby。ButI saystomyselfIwillhavethedernedthingouthereandnow,andknowtheworst。AndIwassointerestedinmytroubleandMarthathatIdidn\'tevennoticeifMissLucymet\'ematthedoor,andifso,howsheacted。WhenInextlookeduptheywasallinthehouse。 “Martha——“Ibegins。Butshebreaksin。 “Danny,“shesays,lookinglikesheisgoingtocry,“don\'tl-l-lookatmel-l-likethat。IfyouknewALLyouwouldn\'tblameme。You——“ “Wouldn\'tblameyoufurwhat?”Iastsher。 “Iknowit\'swrongofme,“shesays,begging-like。 “Mebbyitisandmebbyitain\'t,“Isays。“Butwhatisit?” “Butyouneverwrotetome,“shesays。 “Youneverwrotetome,“Isays,notwantinghertogetthebestofme,whateveritwasshemightbetalkingabout。 “AndthenHEcametotown!——“ “Who?”Iastsher。 “Don\'tyouknow?”shesays。“ThemanIamgoingtomarry。“ WhenshesaidthatIfelt,allofasudden,likewhenyouarebrokeandhungryandrunacrostahalfdollaryouhadforgotaboutinyourotherpants。 IwassogladIjumped。 “Greatguns!”Isays。 Ihadneverreallyknowedwhatbeinggladwasbefore。 “Oh,Danny,Danny,“shesays,puttingherhandsinfrontofherface,“andhereyouhavecometoclaimmeforyourbride!” Whichshowedmewhyshehadlookedsoscared。 Thattheregirlhadwentandgotengagedtoanotherfeller。AndhadbeenlayingawakenightssufferingfurfearIwouldturnupagin。AndnowIhad。 Looey,healwayssaidnevertotrustawoman! “Martha,“Isays,“youain\'tactedrightwithme。“ “Oh,Danny,Danny,“shesays,“Iknowit!I knowit!” “Somefellersinmyplace,“Isays,“wouldraiseadickensofarow。“ “IDIDloveyouonce,“shesays,lookingatmefrombetweenherfingers。 “Yes,“saysI,actingrealmelancholy,“youdid。 Andnowyou\'vequitit,theydon\'tseemtometobenothinglefttolivefur。“Martha,shewasanawfulromancefulgirl。Igotthenotionthatmebbyshewasenjoyingherownremorsefulnessalittlebit。 IfetchedadeepsighandIsays: “Somefellerswouldkilltheirselvesonthespot!” “Oh!——Oh!——Oh!——“saysMartha。 “But,Martha,“saysI,“Iain\'tthatmean。I ain\'tgoingtodothat。“ Thatderngirlackshellaygivemeadisappointedlook!Ifanything,shewasjestabitTOOromanceful,Marthawas。 “No,“saysI,cheeringupalittle,“Iamgoingtodosomethingtheyain\'tmanyfellerswoulddo,Martha。I\'mgoingtoforgiveyou。Freeandfairandopen。Andgiveyoubackmyhalfofthatring,and——“ Dernit!IhadforgotIhadlostthathalfofthattherering!Irememberedsoquickitstoppedme。 “Youalwayskeptit,Danny?”sheastsme,verysoft-spoken,soasnottogivepaintoonesofaithfulandsonobleaswhatIwas。“Letmeseeit,Danny。“ ImadelikeIwasfeelingthroughallmypocketsfurit。Butthatcouldn\'tlastforever。Irunoutofpocketspurtysoon。Andherfacebeguntoshowshewassmellingarat。FinallyIsays: “Theseain\'tmyotherclothes——itmustbeinthem。“ “Danny,“shesays,“IbelieveyouLOSTit。“ “Martha,“Isays,takingachancet,“youknowyoulostYOURhalf!” Sheownsupshehaslostitalongwhileago。 Andwhenshelostit,shesays,sheknowedthatwasfateandthatourlovewasomenedinunderanevilstar。Andwhowasshe,shesays,tostruggleaginfate? “Martha,“Isays,“I\'llbehonestwithyou。 FategotawaywithmyhalftooonedaywhenI didn\'tknowtheywascrookslikeherstickingaround。“ Well,Iseenthatgirlseenthroughmethen。 Marthawasawfulsmartsometimes。Andeachonewassodernedtickledtheotheronewasn\'tgo- ingtodoanypiningawayweliketooffellintolovealloveragin。Butnotquite。Furneitheronewouldevertrusttheotheroneagin。Sowefeltmorecomfortablewitheachother。Youain\'tnevercomfortablewithapersonyouknowismorehonestthanyoube。 “But,“saysMartha,afteraminute,“ifyoudidn\'tcomebacktomakememarryyou,whatdoesDoctorKirbywanttoseeMissHamptonabout? Andwhowasthatwithhim?” Ihadbeennightoforgettingthemainthingwehadallcomeherefur,inmygladnessatgettingridofanydangerofmarryingMartha。ButitcometomealltooncetIhadbeenmissingalotthatmustbetakingplaceinsidethathouse。Ihadevenmissedthewaytheyfirstlookedwhenshemet\'ematthedoor,andIwouldn\'tofmissedthatfuralot。AndIseenalltooncetwhatabigpieceofnewsitwillbetoMartha。 “Martha,“Isays,“theyain\'tnoDr。HartleyL。 Kirby。ThemanknownassuchisDavidArm- strong!” IneverseenanyonesopeetrifiedasMarthawasfuraminute。 “Yes,“saysI,“andtheotheroneisMissLucy\'sbrother。Andtheyareallthreeintherestraighten- ingthemselvesoutandfindingwhereeverybodygetsoffat,andwhy。Oneofthesehereserioustimesyoureadabout。Andyouandmearemissingitall,likeacoupleofgumps。Howcanwehear?” Marthasaysshedon\'tknow。 “YouTHINK,“Itoldher。“We\'vewastedfivegoodminutesalready。I\'veGOTtoheartherestofit。Wherewouldtheybe?” Marthaguessestheywillallbeinthesittingroom,whichhasgotthebestchairsinit。 “Whatisnexttoit?Abackparlour,orabed- room,orwhat?”IwasthinkingofhowIhappenedtooverhearPerfessorBoothandhisfamblythat-a-way。 Marthasaystheyisnothinglikethattobetried。 “Martha,“Isays,“thisisserious。Thisherestorytheyarethrashingoutinthereistheonlydernedsure-enoughromancefulstoryeitheryouormeiseverlibletorunupagainstpersonalinallourlives。Itwouldofbeenagooddealniceriftheyhadastusintoseethewind-upofit。Fur,ifithadn\'tofbeenfurme,theyneverwouldofbeenreunitedandrejuvenatedthewaytheybe。Butsomepeoplegetstingystreakswiththeirconcerns。 Youthink!” Martha,shesays:“Danny,itwouldn\'tbehonourabletolisten。“ “Martha,“Itellsher,“afterthewayyouandmewentandjiltedeachother,whatkindofsensesofhonourhaveWEgottobragabout?” Sheremembersthatthesparebedroomisrightoverthesittingroom。Thehouseisheatedwithstovesinthewintertime。Thereisaregisterrightthroughthefloorofthesparebedroomandtheceilingofthesittingroom。Notthekindofaregisterthatcomesfromatwisted-aroundshaftinahousethatusesfurnaceheat。Butjestreallyaholeinthefloor,withacast-irongrating,tolettheheatfromtheroombelowintotheoneabove。 Shesayssheguessestwopeoplethatwasn\'tsoveryhonourablemightsneakintothehousethebackway,andupthebackstairs,andintothesparebedroom,andlaydownontheirstummicksonthefloor,beingcarefultomakenonoise,andbothseeandhearthroughthatregister。Whichwedoneit。 CHAPTERXXIV Icouldhearwellenough,butatfirstIcouldn\'tseeanyofthem。ButIgatheredthatMissLucywasstandingupwhilstshewastalking,andmovingaroundabitnowandthen。Iseenoneofhersleeves,andthenawispofherhair。Whichwasaggervating,furIwantedtoknowwhatshewaslike。Buthervoicewassosoftandquietthatyoukindofknowedbeforeyouseenherhowsheorterlook。 “PrentissMcMakincametomethatday,“shewassaying,“withanappeal——Ihardlyknowhowtotellyou。“Shebrokeoff。 “Goahead,Lucy,“saysColonelTom\'svoice。 “Hewasinsulting,“shesaid。“Hehadbeendrink- ing。Hewantedmeto——to——heappealedtometorunoffwithhim。 “Iwasfurious——NATURALLY。“HervoicechangedasshesaiditenoughsoyoucouldfeelhowfuriousMissLucycouldget。ShewaslikeherbrotherTominsomeways。 “Iorderedhimoutofthehouse。Hisanswertothatwasanoffertomarryme。YoucanimaginethatIwassurprisedaswellasangry——Iwasperplexed。 “\'ButIAMmarried!\'Icried。Theideathatanyofmyownpeople,oranyonewhomIhadknownathome,wouldthinkIwasn\'tmarriedwastoomuchformetotakeinallatonce。 “\'YouTHINKyouare,\'saidPrentissMcMakin,withasmile。 “Inspiteofmyselfmybreathstopped。Itwasasifachillyhandhadtakenholdofmyheart。 Imean,physically,Ifeltlikethat。 “\'IAMmarried,\'Irepeated,simply。 “IsupposethatMcMakinhadgotthestoryofourweddingfromYOU。“Shestoppedaminute。 Thedoctor\'svoiceanswered: “Isupposeso,“likehewasaverytiredman。 “Anyhow,“shewenton,“heknewthatwewentfirsttoClarksville。Hesaid: “\'Youthinkyouaremarried,Lucy,butyouarenot。\' “IwishyoutounderstandthatPrentissMcMakindiditallvery,verywell。Thatismyexcuse。Heactedwell。Therewassomethingabouthim——I scarcelyknowhowtoputit。Itsoundsodd,butthetruthisthatPrentissMcMakinwasalwaysamoreconvincingsortofapersonwhenhehadbeendrinkingalittlethanwhenhewassober。Helackedwarmth——helackedtemperament。Isupposejusttherightamountputitintohim。Itputthedevilintohim,too,Ireckon。 “Hetoldmethatyouandhe,Tom,hadbeentoClarksville,andhadmadeinvestigations,andthattheweddingwasafraud。Andhetolditwithawealthofconvincingdetail。Inthemidstofithebrokeofftoasktoseemyweddingcertificate。Ashetalked,helaughedatit,andtoreitup,sayingthatthethingwasnotworththepaperitwason,andhethrewthepiecesofpaperintothegrate。I listened,andIlethimdoit——notthatthepaperitselfmatteredparticularly。ButtheveryfactthatIlethimtearitshowedme,myself,thatIwasbelievinghim。 “Heendedwithanimpassionedappealtometogowithhim。 “Ishowedhimthedoor。IpretendedtothelastthatIthoughthewaslyingtome。ButIdidnotthinkso。Ibelievedhim。Hehaddoneitallverycleverly。YoucanunderstandhowImight—— inviewofwhathadhappened?” IwantedtoseeMissLucy——howshelookedwhenshesaiddifferentthings,soIcouldmakeupmymindwhethershewasforgivingthedoctorornot。NotthatIhadmuchdoubtbutwhattheywouldgettheirpersonaltroublesfixedupintheend。Theirongratinginthefloorwashelddownbyfourgood-sizedscrews,oneateachcorner。Theywasn\'tnofillingatallbetwixtitandtheirongratingthatwasintheceilingoftheroombelow。Thespacewashollow。Igotanideaandtookoutmyjack-knife。 “Whatareyougoingtodo?”whispersMartha。 “S-sh-sh,“Isays,“shutup,andyou\'llsee。“ Oneofthescrewswasloose,andIpickedherouteasyenough。ThesecondoneIbrokethepointoffofmyknifebladeon。Likeyounearlyalwaysdoonascrew。WhenitsnappedColonelTomhesays: “What\'sthat?”Hewaspowerfulquickofhear- ing,ColonelTomwas。Ilaidlowtilltheywentontalkingagin。ThenMarthaslidesoutontiptoeandcomesbackinthreesecondswithoneoftheseherelittlescrew-driverstheyusearoundsewing-machinesandthelittleoilcanthatgoeswithit。Ioilsthemscrewsandhasthemoutinaholyminute,andliftsthegratingfromthefloorcarefulandlaysitcarefulontherug。 BydoingallofwhichIcouldgetmyheadandshouldersdownintothattherehole。Andbytwist- ingmyneckagooddeal,seealittlewaystoeachsideintotheroom,insteadofjestunderneaththegrating。ThedoctorIcouldn\'tseeyet,andonlyalittleofColonelTom,butMissLucyquiteplain。 “Youmeanthing,“Marthawhispers,“youareblockingitupsoIcan\'thear。“ “Keepstill,“Iwhispers,pullingmyheadoutoftheholesothesoundwouldn\'tfloatdownwardintotheroombelow。“Youarejestlikeallotherwomen——yougottoomuchcuriosity。“ “Howaboutyourself?”saysshe。 “Whowasitthoughtoftakingthegratingoff?” Iwhispersbacktoher。Whichsettleshertem- porary,butshesaysifIdon\'tgiveherachancetatitpurtysoonshewillticklemyribs。 WhenIlistensagintheyareburyingthattherePrentMcMakin。Butwithoutanyflowers。 MissLucy,shewashalfsettingon,halfleaningagainst,thearmofachair。WhichherheadwasjestabitboweddownsothatIcouldn\'tseehereyes。Buttheywasthebeginningsofasmileontoherface。Itwasbothsoftandsad。 “Well,“saysColonelTom,“youtwohavewastedalmosttwentyyearsoflife。“ “Thereisonegoodthing,“saysthedoctor。“Itisagoodthingthattherewasnochildtosufferbyourmistakes。“ Sheraisedherfacewhenhesaidthat,MissLucydid,andlookedinhisdirection。 “Youcallthatagoodthing?”shesays,inakindofwonder。Andafteraminuteshesighs。“Per- haps,“shesays,“youareright。Heavenonlyknows。PerhapsitWASbetterthathedied。“ “DIED!”singsoutthedoctor。 AndIhearnhischairscrapeback,likehehadriztohisfeetsudden。Inearlybustedmynecktryingfurtoseehim,butIcouldn\'t。Iwasalltwistedup,headdown,andthebloodgettingintomyheadfromitsoIhadtopullitouteverylittlewhile。 “Yes,“shesays,withhereyeswide,“didn\'tyouknowhedied?”AndthensheturnsquicktowardColonelTom。“Didn\'tyoutellhim——“shebegins。Butthedoctorcutsin。 “Lucy,“hesays,hisvoiceshakingandcroakinginhisthroat,“Ineverknewtherewasachild!” IhearsColonelTomhawkinHISthroatlikeamanwhoiseithergoingtospitorelsesaysomething。 Buthedon\'tdoeitherone。Noonesaysanythingfuraminute。AndthenMissLucysaysagin: “Yes——hedied。“ Andthenshefellintoakindofamuse。Ihavebeenmyselfinthefixshelookedtobeinthen——soyouforgetfurawhilewhereyouare,orwhoisthere,whilstyouthinkaboutsomethingthathasbeeninthebackpartofyourmindfuralong,longtime。 Whatshewasmusingaboutwasthatchildthathadn\'tlived。Icouldtellthatbyherface。I couldtellhowshemusthavethoughtofit,oftenandoften,furyearsandyears,andlongedfurit,sothatitseemedtoherattimesshecouldalmosttouchit。Andhowgoodamothershewouldofbeentoit。SomewomenhasjestnatcherallyGOTtomothersomethingorother。MissLucywasoneofthatkind。Iknowedallinaflash,whilstI lookedatherthere,whyshehadadoptedMarthafurherchild。 Itwasawonderfullookthatwasontoherface。 Anditwasawonderfulfacethatlookwasonto。I feltlikeIhadknowedherforeverwhenIseenherthere。Likethethoughtsofherthedoctorhadbeencarryingaroundwithhimfuryearsandyears,andthatIhadcaughthimthinkingoncetortwicet,hadbeenmythoughtstoo,allmylife。 MissLucy,shewasoneofthekindthere\'snousetryingtodescribe。Thefellerthatcouldseeherthat-a-wayandnotfeelmadegoodbyitorterhaveawhaling。Notthekindofsticky,goodfeelingthatmakesyouuncomfortable,likebeingpesteredbyyourconsciencetojineachurchorquitcussing。 Butthekindofgoodthatmakesyouforgettheyisanythingonearthbutjestbravenessofheartandbeingwillingtobearthingsyoucan\'thelp。Youknowedtheworldhadhurtheralotwhenyouseenherstandingthere;butyoudidn\'thavethenervetopityhernone,either。Furyoucouldseeshehadgotoverpityingherself。Evenwhenshewasinthatmuse,longingwithallhersoulfurthatchildshehadneverknowed,youdidn\'thavethenervetopityhernone。 “Hedied,“shesaysagin,purtysoon,withthatgentlekindofsmile。 ColonelTom,heclearshisthroatagin。Likewhenyouareawfuldry。 “Thetruthis——“hebegins。 Andthenhebreaksoffagin。MissLucyturnstowardhimwhenhespeaks。Bythestrangelookthatcomeontoherfacetheremustofbeensome- thingrightcuriousinHISmannertoo。Iwasjestsimplylayingontomyforeheadmashingoneofmyderneyeballsthroughalittleholeinthegrating。 ButIcouldn\'t,eventhatway,seefurenoughtoonesidetoseehowHElooked。 “Thetruthis,“saysColonelTom,tryingitagin,“thatI——well,Lucy,thechildmaybedead,buthedidn\'tdiewhenyouthoughthedid。“ TherewasaflashofhopeflaredintoherfacethatIhatedtoseecomethere。Becausewhenitdiedoutinaminute,asIexpecteditwouldhaveto,itlookedtomelikeitmighttakeallherlifeoutwithit。Herlipspartedlikeshewasgoingtosaysomethingwiththem。Butshedidn\'t。Shejestlookedit。 “Whydidyounevertellmethis——thattherewasachild?”saysthedoctor,veryeager。 “Wait,“saysColonelTom,“letmetellthestoryinmyownway。“ Whichhedoneit。ItseemswhenhehadwenttoGalesburgthisherechildhadonlybeenbornafewdays。AndMissLucywasstillsick。Andthekiditselfwassick,andliabletodieanyminute,bythelooksofthings。 WhichColonelTomwishesthatitwoulddie,inhisheart。Hethinksthatitisanillegitimatechild,andhehatestheideaofitandhehatesthesightofit。Thesecondnightheisthereheissettinginhissister\'sroom,andthewomanthathasbeennursingthekidandMissLucytooisinthenextroomwiththekid。 Shecomestothedoorandbeckonstohim,thenursedoes。Hetiptoestowardher,andshesaystohim,verylow-voiced,that“itisallover。“ Meaningthekidhasquitstrugglingfurtolive,andjestnatcherallyfloatedaway。ThenursehadthoughtMissLucyasleep,butasbothherandColonelTomturnquicktowardherbedtheyseethatshehasheardandseen,andsheturnsherfacetowardthewall。Whichhetriesfurtocomforther,ColonelTomdoes,tellingherashowitisanillegitimatechild,andfuritsownsakeitwasbetteritwasdeadbeforeiteverlivedany。Whichshedon\'tanswerofhimback,butonlystaresinawild- eyedwayathim,andlaysthereandlooksdesperate,andsaysnothing。 InhisheartColonelTomisawfulgladthatitisdead。Hecan\'thelpfeelingthatway。Andhequitstryingtotalktohissister,furhesuspicionsthatshewillketchontothefactthatheisgladthatitisdead。Hegoesonintothenextroom。 Hefindsthenurselookingawfulfunny,andbendingoverthedeadkid。Sheisputtingalook- ing-glasstoitslips。Heastsherwhy。 Shesaysshethoughtshemightbemistakenafterall。Shecouldn\'tsayjestWHENitdied。Itwasaliveandfeeble,andthenpurtysoonitshowednosignsoflife。Itwaslikeithadn\'thadenoughstrengthtostayandhadjestwent。Ididn\'tshowanypulse,anditdidn\'tappeartobebreathing。 Andshehadwatcheditanddoneeverythingbe- foreshebeckonedtoColonelTomandtoldhimthatitwasdead。Butasshecomebackintotheroomwhereitwasshethoughtshenoticedsomethingthatwastoolighttobecalledarealfluttermoveitseyelids,whichshehadcloseddownoveritseyes。 Itwastheghostofamove,likeithadtriedtoraisethelids,ortheyhadtriedtoraisetheirselves,andhadbeentooweak。Soshehasgotbusyandwrappedahotclotharoundit,andgotadropofbrandyortwobetweenitslips,andwasfightingtobringitbacktolife。Andthoughtshewasdoingit。Thoughtshehadfeltalittleflutterinitschest,andwastryingifithadbreathatall。 ColonelTomthinksofwhatbigfolkstheBucknerfamblyhasalwaysbeenathome。Andhowhightheyhadalwaysheldtheirheads。Andhownoneofthewomenhaseverbeenlikethisbefore。Nornodisgraceofanykind。Andthattherekid,ifitisalive,isasignofdisgrace。AndhehopedtoGod,hesaid,itwasn\'talive。 Buthedon\'tsayso。Hestandsthereandwatchesthatnursefightfurtoholdontothelittlemistoflifeshethinksnowisstillintoit。Sheun- buttonsherdressandlaysthekidagainsttheheatofherownbreast。Andwillsfurittolive,andfightsfuritto,anddeterminesthatitmust,andjestnatcherallytriesfurtobullyragdeathintogoingaway。AndColonelTomwatching,andwishingthatitwouldn\'t。Buthegetsinterestedinthattherefight,andsopurtysoonheishopingbothwaysbyspells。Andthefightallgoingonwithoutawordspoken。 Butfinallythenursebeginsfurtocry。Notbe- causesheissureitisdead。Butbecausesheissureitiscomingback。Whichitdoes,slow。 “\'ButIhavetoldHERthatitisdead,\'“saysColonelTom,jerkinghisheadtowardtheotherroomwhereMissLucyislying。Hespeaksinalowvoiceandclosesthedoorwhenhespeaks。Furitlooksnowlikeitwasgettingstrongenoughsoitmightevensquallalittle。 “Idon\'tknowwhatkindofalooktherewasonmyface,“saysColonelTom,tellingofthestorytohissisterandthedoctor,“butshemusthaveseenthatIwas——andheavenhelpme,butIWAS!——sorrythatthebabywasalive。Itwouldhavebeensuchaneasywayoutofithaditbeenreallydead! “\'Shemustn\'tknowthatitisliving,\'Isaidtothenurse,finally,“saysColonelTom,goingonwithhisstory。IhadbeenwatchingMissLucy\'sfaceasColonelTomtalkedandshewassoworkedupbythatfightfurthekid\'slifeshewasbreath- less。Buthereyeswascastdown,Iguesssoherbrothercouldn\'tseethem。ColonelTomgoesonwithhisstory: “\'Youdon\'tmean——\'saidthenurse,startled。 “\'No!No!\'Isaid,\'ofcourse——notthat!But—— whyshouldsheeverknowthatitdidn\'tdie?\'“ “\'Itisillegitimate?\'askedthenurse。 “\'Yes,\'Isaid。“Thelongandshortofitwas,ColonelTomwentontotell,thatthenursewentoutandgothermother。Whichthetwoofthemlivedalone,onlyaroundthecorner。Andgivethechildintothekeepingofhermother,whotookitawaythenandthere。 ColonelTomhadmadeuphismindtherewasn\'tgoingtobenobastardsintheBucknerfambly。 AndnowthatMissLucythoughtitwasdeadhewouldletherkeeponthinkingso。Andthatwouldbesettledforgoodandall。Hefiggeredthatitwouldn\'teverhurthernoneifsheneverknowedit。 Thenurse\'smotherkeptitallthatweek,anditthrove。ColonelTomwascoaxingofhissistertogobacktoTennessee。Butshewouldn\'tgo。SohehadmadeuphismindtogobackandgethisAuntLucyDavistocomeandhelphimcoax。Hewasonlywaitingfurhissistertogetwellenoughsohecouldleaveher。Shegotbetter,andsheneverastfurthekid,norsaidnothingaboutit。Whichwasprobablebecausesheseenhehateditso。Hehadmadeuphismind,beforehewentbackaftertheirAuntLucyDavis,totakethebabyhimselfandputitintosomekindofaninstitution。 “Ithought,“hesaystoMissLucy,tellingofthestory,“thatyouyourselfwerealmostreconciledtothethoughtthatithadn\'tlived。“ MissLucyinterruptedhimwithalittlesound。 Shewasbreathinghard,andshakingfromheadtofoot。Noonewouldhavethoughttolookatherthenshewasreconciledtotheideathatithadn\'tlived。Itwascruelhardonhertotearhertopieceswiththenewsthatitreallyhadlived,buthadlivedawayfromheralltheseyearsshehadbeenlongingfurit。Andnochancetfurherevertomotherit。 Andnowaytotellwhathadeverbecomeofit。I feltawfulsorryfurMissLucythen。 “ButwhenIgotreadytoleaveGalesburg,“ ColonelTomgoeson,“itsuddenlyoccurredtomethattherewouldbedifficultiesinthewayofputtingitinahomeofanysort。Ididn\'tknowwhattodowithit——“ “WhatDIDyou?WhatDIDyou?WHATDIDYOU?” criesoutMissLucy,pressingherhandtoherchest,likeshewassmothering。 “ThefirstthingIdid,“saysColonelTom,“wastogetyoutoanotherhouse——youremember,Lucy?” “Yes,yes!”shesays,excited,“andwhatthen?” “PerhapsIdidaveryfoolishthing,“saysColonelTom。 “AfterIhadseenyouinstalledinthenewplaceandhadbiddenyougood-bye,Igotacarriageanddrovebytheplacewherethenurseandhermotherlived。ItoldthewomanthatIhadchangedmymind——thatyouweregoingtoraisethebaby—— thatIwasgoingtopermitit。Idon\'tthinkshequitebelievedme,butshegavemethebaby。Whatelsecouldshedo?Besides,Ihadpaidherwell,whenIdischargedher,tosaynothingtoyou,andtokeepthebabyuntilIshouldcomeforit。Theyneededmoney;theywerepoor。 “Iwasdeterminedthatitshouldneverbeheardofagain。ItwasaboutnoonwhenIleftGalesburg。 Idroveallthatafternoon,withthebabyinabasketontheseatofthecarriagebesideme。Everybodyhasreadinbooks,sincebookswerefirstwritten—— andseeninnewspapers,too——aboutchildrenbeingleftondoorsteps。Givenaninfanttodisposeof,thatisperhapsthefirstthingthatoccurstoaper- son。Therewasathickplaidshawlwrappedaboutthechild。Inthebasket,besidethebaby,wasanursingbottle。AboutduskIhaditrefilledwithwarmmilkatafarmhousenear——“ Myheadwasbeginningfurtoswim。Ipulledmyheadoutofthattherehole,andrammedmyfootintoit。Itbangedagainstthatgratingandloosenedit。Itbustedloosesomeplaster,whichshowereddownintotheroomunderneath。MissLucy,shescreamed。AndthedoctorandColonelTombothyelledouttooncet: “Who\'sthat?” “It\'sme,“Iyells,bangingthatgratingagin。 “Watchoutbelowthere!”AndthethirdlickI givehershebrokelooseandclattereddownrightontoacentretableandspilledoversomepho- tographsandavasefullofflowers,andbouncedoffontothefloor。 “Lookoutbelow,“Iyells,“I\'mcomingdown!” Iletmylegsthroughfirst,andswungthemsoI wouldlandtoonesideofthetable,andheldbymyhands,anddropped。Butstruckthetableaside- waysswipeandturneditover,andfellontothefloor。Thedoctor,hegrabbedmebythecollarandstraightenedmeup,andgivemeashakeandstoodmeontomyfeet。 “Whatdoyoumean——“hebegins。ButI breaksin。 “Nowthen,“IsaystoColonelTom,“didyouleavethattherechildsuckingthattherebottleonthedoorstepofablacksmith\'shousenexttohisshopattheedgeofalittlecountrytownabouttwentymilesnortheastofGalesburgwrappedupinthatthereplaidshawl?” “Idid,“saysColonelTom。 “Then,“saysI,turningtoMissLucy,“IcanunderstandwhyIhavebeenfeelingdrawedtoYOU furquiteaspell。I\'mhim。“ End