Martha,shehadbeenfussingaroundsomeflowerbusheswithapairofshearsandgloveson。ShelooksupwhenIsaysthat,andshesizesusallupstandingbythegate,andhereyespopsopen,andsodoeshermouth,andsheissosurprisedtoseemeshedropshershears。
Andshelooksscared,too。
“IsMissBucknerathome?”astsColonelTom,liftinghishatverypolite。
“MissB-B-Buckner?”Marthastutters,veryscared-like,andnottakinghereyesoffofmetoanswerhim。
“MissHampton,Martha,“Isays。
“Y-y-y-es,s-sh-sheis,“saysMartha。Iwonderedwhatwasthematterwithher。
Itisalwaysmylucktogetleftallalonewithmytroubles。Thedoctorandthecolonel,theywalkedrightpastuswhenshesaidyes,anduptowardthehouse,andleftherandmestandingthere。I
couldofwentalongandbuttedin,mebby。ButI
saystomyselfIwillhavethedernedthingouthereandnow,andknowtheworst。AndIwassointerestedinmytroubleandMarthathatIdidn\'tevennoticeifMissLucymet\'ematthedoor,andifso,howsheacted。WhenInextlookeduptheywasallinthehouse。
“Martha——“Ibegins。Butshebreaksin。
“Danny,“shesays,lookinglikesheisgoingtocry,“don\'tl-l-lookatmel-l-likethat。IfyouknewALLyouwouldn\'tblameme。You——“
“Wouldn\'tblameyoufurwhat?”Iastsher。
“Iknowit\'swrongofme,“shesays,begging-like。
“Mebbyitisandmebbyitain\'t,“Isays。“Butwhatisit?”
“Butyouneverwrotetome,“shesays。
“Youneverwrotetome,“Isays,notwantinghertogetthebestofme,whateveritwasshemightbetalkingabout。
“AndthenHEcametotown!——“
“Who?”Iastsher。
“Don\'tyouknow?”shesays。“ThemanIamgoingtomarry。“
WhenshesaidthatIfelt,allofasudden,likewhenyouarebrokeandhungryandrunacrostahalfdollaryouhadforgotaboutinyourotherpants。
IwassogladIjumped。
“Greatguns!”Isays。
Ihadneverreallyknowedwhatbeinggladwasbefore。
“Oh,Danny,Danny,“shesays,puttingherhandsinfrontofherface,“andhereyouhavecometoclaimmeforyourbride!”
Whichshowedmewhyshehadlookedsoscared。
Thattheregirlhadwentandgotengagedtoanotherfeller。AndhadbeenlayingawakenightssufferingfurfearIwouldturnupagin。AndnowIhad。
Looey,healwayssaidnevertotrustawoman!
“Martha,“Isays,“youain\'tactedrightwithme。“
“Oh,Danny,Danny,“shesays,“Iknowit!I
knowit!”
“Somefellersinmyplace,“Isays,“wouldraiseadickensofarow。“
“IDIDloveyouonce,“shesays,lookingatmefrombetweenherfingers。
“Yes,“saysI,actingrealmelancholy,“youdid。
Andnowyou\'vequitit,theydon\'tseemtometobenothinglefttolivefur。“Martha,shewasanawfulromancefulgirl。Igotthenotionthatmebbyshewasenjoyingherownremorsefulnessalittlebit。
IfetchedadeepsighandIsays:
“Somefellerswouldkilltheirselvesonthespot!”
“Oh!——Oh!——Oh!——“saysMartha。
“But,Martha,“saysI,“Iain\'tthatmean。I
ain\'tgoingtodothat。“
Thatderngirlackshellaygivemeadisappointedlook!Ifanything,shewasjestabitTOOromanceful,Marthawas。
“No,“saysI,cheeringupalittle,“Iamgoingtodosomethingtheyain\'tmanyfellerswoulddo,Martha。I\'mgoingtoforgiveyou。Freeandfairandopen。Andgiveyoubackmyhalfofthatring,and——“
Dernit!IhadforgotIhadlostthathalfofthattherering!Irememberedsoquickitstoppedme。
“Youalwayskeptit,Danny?”sheastsme,verysoft-spoken,soasnottogivepaintoonesofaithfulandsonobleaswhatIwas。“Letmeseeit,Danny。“
ImadelikeIwasfeelingthroughallmypocketsfurit。Butthatcouldn\'tlastforever。Irunoutofpocketspurtysoon。Andherfacebeguntoshowshewassmellingarat。FinallyIsays:
“Theseain\'tmyotherclothes——itmustbeinthem。“
“Danny,“shesays,“IbelieveyouLOSTit。“
“Martha,“Isays,takingachancet,“youknowyoulostYOURhalf!”
Sheownsupshehaslostitalongwhileago。
Andwhenshelostit,shesays,sheknowedthatwasfateandthatourlovewasomenedinunderanevilstar。Andwhowasshe,shesays,tostruggleaginfate?
“Martha,“Isays,“I\'llbehonestwithyou。
FategotawaywithmyhalftooonedaywhenI
didn\'tknowtheywascrookslikeherstickingaround。“
Well,Iseenthatgirlseenthroughmethen。
Marthawasawfulsmartsometimes。Andeachonewassodernedtickledtheotheronewasn\'tgo-
ingtodoanypiningawayweliketooffellintolovealloveragin。Butnotquite。Furneitheronewouldevertrusttheotheroneagin。Sowefeltmorecomfortablewitheachother。Youain\'tnevercomfortablewithapersonyouknowismorehonestthanyoube。
“But,“saysMartha,afteraminute,“ifyoudidn\'tcomebacktomakememarryyou,whatdoesDoctorKirbywanttoseeMissHamptonabout?
Andwhowasthatwithhim?”
Ihadbeennightoforgettingthemainthingwehadallcomeherefur,inmygladnessatgettingridofanydangerofmarryingMartha。ButitcometomealltooncetIhadbeenmissingalotthatmustbetakingplaceinsidethathouse。Ihadevenmissedthewaytheyfirstlookedwhenshemet\'ematthedoor,andIwouldn\'tofmissedthatfuralot。AndIseenalltooncetwhatabigpieceofnewsitwillbetoMartha。
“Martha,“Isays,“theyain\'tnoDr。HartleyL。
Kirby。ThemanknownassuchisDavidArm-
strong!”
IneverseenanyonesopeetrifiedasMarthawasfuraminute。
“Yes,“saysI,“andtheotheroneisMissLucy\'sbrother。Andtheyareallthreeintherestraighten-
ingthemselvesoutandfindingwhereeverybodygetsoffat,andwhy。Oneofthesehereserioustimesyoureadabout。Andyouandmearemissingitall,likeacoupleofgumps。Howcanwehear?”
Marthasaysshedon\'tknow。
“YouTHINK,“Itoldher。“We\'vewastedfivegoodminutesalready。I\'veGOTtoheartherestofit。Wherewouldtheybe?”
Marthaguessestheywillallbeinthesittingroom,whichhasgotthebestchairsinit。
“Whatisnexttoit?Abackparlour,orabed-
room,orwhat?”IwasthinkingofhowIhappenedtooverhearPerfessorBoothandhisfamblythat-a-way。
Marthasaystheyisnothinglikethattobetried。
“Martha,“Isays,“thisisserious。Thisherestorytheyarethrashingoutinthereistheonlydernedsure-enoughromancefulstoryeitheryouormeiseverlibletorunupagainstpersonalinallourlives。Itwouldofbeenagooddealniceriftheyhadastusintoseethewind-upofit。Fur,ifithadn\'tofbeenfurme,theyneverwouldofbeenreunitedandrejuvenatedthewaytheybe。Butsomepeoplegetstingystreakswiththeirconcerns。
Youthink!”
Martha,shesays:“Danny,itwouldn\'tbehonourabletolisten。“
“Martha,“Itellsher,“afterthewayyouandmewentandjiltedeachother,whatkindofsensesofhonourhaveWEgottobragabout?”
Sheremembersthatthesparebedroomisrightoverthesittingroom。Thehouseisheatedwithstovesinthewintertime。Thereisaregisterrightthroughthefloorofthesparebedroomandtheceilingofthesittingroom。Notthekindofaregisterthatcomesfromatwisted-aroundshaftinahousethatusesfurnaceheat。Butjestreallyaholeinthefloor,withacast-irongrating,tolettheheatfromtheroombelowintotheoneabove。
Shesayssheguessestwopeoplethatwasn\'tsoveryhonourablemightsneakintothehousethebackway,andupthebackstairs,andintothesparebedroom,andlaydownontheirstummicksonthefloor,beingcarefultomakenonoise,andbothseeandhearthroughthatregister。Whichwedoneit。
CHAPTERXXIV
Icouldhearwellenough,butatfirstIcouldn\'tseeanyofthem。ButIgatheredthatMissLucywasstandingupwhilstshewastalking,andmovingaroundabitnowandthen。Iseenoneofhersleeves,andthenawispofherhair。Whichwasaggervating,furIwantedtoknowwhatshewaslike。Buthervoicewassosoftandquietthatyoukindofknowedbeforeyouseenherhowsheorterlook。
“PrentissMcMakincametomethatday,“shewassaying,“withanappeal——Ihardlyknowhowtotellyou。“Shebrokeoff。
“Goahead,Lucy,“saysColonelTom\'svoice。
“Hewasinsulting,“shesaid。“Hehadbeendrink-
ing。Hewantedmeto——to——heappealedtometorunoffwithhim。
“Iwasfurious——NATURALLY。“HervoicechangedasshesaiditenoughsoyoucouldfeelhowfuriousMissLucycouldget。ShewaslikeherbrotherTominsomeways。
“Iorderedhimoutofthehouse。Hisanswertothatwasanoffertomarryme。YoucanimaginethatIwassurprisedaswellasangry——Iwasperplexed。
“\'ButIAMmarried!\'Icried。Theideathatanyofmyownpeople,oranyonewhomIhadknownathome,wouldthinkIwasn\'tmarriedwastoomuchformetotakeinallatonce。
“\'YouTHINKyouare,\'saidPrentissMcMakin,withasmile。
“Inspiteofmyselfmybreathstopped。Itwasasifachillyhandhadtakenholdofmyheart。
Imean,physically,Ifeltlikethat。
“\'IAMmarried,\'Irepeated,simply。
“IsupposethatMcMakinhadgotthestoryofourweddingfromYOU。“Shestoppedaminute。
Thedoctor\'svoiceanswered:
“Isupposeso,“likehewasaverytiredman。
“Anyhow,“shewenton,“heknewthatwewentfirsttoClarksville。Hesaid:
“\'Youthinkyouaremarried,Lucy,butyouarenot。\'
“IwishyoutounderstandthatPrentissMcMakindiditallvery,verywell。Thatismyexcuse。Heactedwell。Therewassomethingabouthim——I
scarcelyknowhowtoputit。Itsoundsodd,butthetruthisthatPrentissMcMakinwasalwaysamoreconvincingsortofapersonwhenhehadbeendrinkingalittlethanwhenhewassober。Helackedwarmth——helackedtemperament。Isupposejusttherightamountputitintohim。Itputthedevilintohim,too,Ireckon。
“Hetoldmethatyouandhe,Tom,hadbeentoClarksville,andhadmadeinvestigations,andthattheweddingwasafraud。Andhetolditwithawealthofconvincingdetail。Inthemidstofithebrokeofftoasktoseemyweddingcertificate。Ashetalked,helaughedatit,andtoreitup,sayingthatthethingwasnotworththepaperitwason,andhethrewthepiecesofpaperintothegrate。I
listened,andIlethimdoit——notthatthepaperitselfmatteredparticularly。ButtheveryfactthatIlethimtearitshowedme,myself,thatIwasbelievinghim。
“Heendedwithanimpassionedappealtometogowithhim。
“Ishowedhimthedoor。IpretendedtothelastthatIthoughthewaslyingtome。ButIdidnotthinkso。Ibelievedhim。Hehaddoneitallverycleverly。YoucanunderstandhowImight——
inviewofwhathadhappened?”
IwantedtoseeMissLucy——howshelookedwhenshesaiddifferentthings,soIcouldmakeupmymindwhethershewasforgivingthedoctorornot。NotthatIhadmuchdoubtbutwhattheywouldgettheirpersonaltroublesfixedupintheend。Theirongratinginthefloorwashelddownbyfourgood-sizedscrews,oneateachcorner。Theywasn\'tnofillingatallbetwixtitandtheirongratingthatwasintheceilingoftheroombelow。Thespacewashollow。Igotanideaandtookoutmyjack-knife。
“Whatareyougoingtodo?”whispersMartha。
“S-sh-sh,“Isays,“shutup,andyou\'llsee。“
Oneofthescrewswasloose,andIpickedherouteasyenough。ThesecondoneIbrokethepointoffofmyknifebladeon。Likeyounearlyalwaysdoonascrew。WhenitsnappedColonelTomhesays:
“What\'sthat?”Hewaspowerfulquickofhear-
ing,ColonelTomwas。Ilaidlowtilltheywentontalkingagin。ThenMarthaslidesoutontiptoeandcomesbackinthreesecondswithoneoftheseherelittlescrew-driverstheyusearoundsewing-machinesandthelittleoilcanthatgoeswithit。Ioilsthemscrewsandhasthemoutinaholyminute,andliftsthegratingfromthefloorcarefulandlaysitcarefulontherug。
BydoingallofwhichIcouldgetmyheadandshouldersdownintothattherehole。Andbytwist-
ingmyneckagooddeal,seealittlewaystoeachsideintotheroom,insteadofjestunderneaththegrating。ThedoctorIcouldn\'tseeyet,andonlyalittleofColonelTom,butMissLucyquiteplain。
“Youmeanthing,“Marthawhispers,“youareblockingitupsoIcan\'thear。“
“Keepstill,“Iwhispers,pullingmyheadoutoftheholesothesoundwouldn\'tfloatdownwardintotheroombelow。“Youarejestlikeallotherwomen——yougottoomuchcuriosity。“
“Howaboutyourself?”saysshe。
“Whowasitthoughtoftakingthegratingoff?”
Iwhispersbacktoher。Whichsettleshertem-
porary,butshesaysifIdon\'tgiveherachancetatitpurtysoonshewillticklemyribs。
WhenIlistensagintheyareburyingthattherePrentMcMakin。Butwithoutanyflowers。
MissLucy,shewashalfsettingon,halfleaningagainst,thearmofachair。WhichherheadwasjestabitboweddownsothatIcouldn\'tseehereyes。Buttheywasthebeginningsofasmileontoherface。Itwasbothsoftandsad。
“Well,“saysColonelTom,“youtwohavewastedalmosttwentyyearsoflife。“
“Thereisonegoodthing,“saysthedoctor。“Itisagoodthingthattherewasnochildtosufferbyourmistakes。“
Sheraisedherfacewhenhesaidthat,MissLucydid,andlookedinhisdirection。
“Youcallthatagoodthing?”shesays,inakindofwonder。Andafteraminuteshesighs。“Per-
haps,“shesays,“youareright。Heavenonlyknows。PerhapsitWASbetterthathedied。“
“DIED!”singsoutthedoctor。
AndIhearnhischairscrapeback,likehehadriztohisfeetsudden。Inearlybustedmynecktryingfurtoseehim,butIcouldn\'t。Iwasalltwistedup,headdown,andthebloodgettingintomyheadfromitsoIhadtopullitouteverylittlewhile。
“Yes,“shesays,withhereyeswide,“didn\'tyouknowhedied?”AndthensheturnsquicktowardColonelTom。“Didn\'tyoutellhim——“shebegins。Butthedoctorcutsin。
“Lucy,“hesays,hisvoiceshakingandcroakinginhisthroat,“Ineverknewtherewasachild!”
IhearsColonelTomhawkinHISthroatlikeamanwhoiseithergoingtospitorelsesaysomething。
Buthedon\'tdoeitherone。Noonesaysanythingfuraminute。AndthenMissLucysaysagin:
“Yes——hedied。“
Andthenshefellintoakindofamuse。Ihavebeenmyselfinthefixshelookedtobeinthen——soyouforgetfurawhilewhereyouare,orwhoisthere,whilstyouthinkaboutsomethingthathasbeeninthebackpartofyourmindfuralong,longtime。
Whatshewasmusingaboutwasthatchildthathadn\'tlived。Icouldtellthatbyherface。I
couldtellhowshemusthavethoughtofit,oftenandoften,furyearsandyears,andlongedfurit,sothatitseemedtoherattimesshecouldalmosttouchit。Andhowgoodamothershewouldofbeentoit。SomewomenhasjestnatcherallyGOTtomothersomethingorother。MissLucywasoneofthatkind。Iknowedallinaflash,whilstI
lookedatherthere,whyshehadadoptedMarthafurherchild。
Itwasawonderfullookthatwasontoherface。
Anditwasawonderfulfacethatlookwasonto。I
feltlikeIhadknowedherforeverwhenIseenherthere。Likethethoughtsofherthedoctorhadbeencarryingaroundwithhimfuryearsandyears,andthatIhadcaughthimthinkingoncetortwicet,hadbeenmythoughtstoo,allmylife。
MissLucy,shewasoneofthekindthere\'snousetryingtodescribe。Thefellerthatcouldseeherthat-a-wayandnotfeelmadegoodbyitorterhaveawhaling。Notthekindofsticky,goodfeelingthatmakesyouuncomfortable,likebeingpesteredbyyourconsciencetojineachurchorquitcussing。
Butthekindofgoodthatmakesyouforgettheyisanythingonearthbutjestbravenessofheartandbeingwillingtobearthingsyoucan\'thelp。Youknowedtheworldhadhurtheralotwhenyouseenherstandingthere;butyoudidn\'thavethenervetopityhernone,either。Furyoucouldseeshehadgotoverpityingherself。Evenwhenshewasinthatmuse,longingwithallhersoulfurthatchildshehadneverknowed,youdidn\'thavethenervetopityhernone。
“Hedied,“shesaysagin,purtysoon,withthatgentlekindofsmile。
ColonelTom,heclearshisthroatagin。Likewhenyouareawfuldry。
“Thetruthis——“hebegins。
Andthenhebreaksoffagin。MissLucyturnstowardhimwhenhespeaks。Bythestrangelookthatcomeontoherfacetheremustofbeensome-
thingrightcuriousinHISmannertoo。Iwasjestsimplylayingontomyforeheadmashingoneofmyderneyeballsthroughalittleholeinthegrating。
ButIcouldn\'t,eventhatway,seefurenoughtoonesidetoseehowHElooked。
“Thetruthis,“saysColonelTom,tryingitagin,“thatI——well,Lucy,thechildmaybedead,buthedidn\'tdiewhenyouthoughthedid。“
TherewasaflashofhopeflaredintoherfacethatIhatedtoseecomethere。Becausewhenitdiedoutinaminute,asIexpecteditwouldhaveto,itlookedtomelikeitmighttakeallherlifeoutwithit。Herlipspartedlikeshewasgoingtosaysomethingwiththem。Butshedidn\'t。Shejestlookedit。
“Whydidyounevertellmethis——thattherewasachild?”saysthedoctor,veryeager。
“Wait,“saysColonelTom,“letmetellthestoryinmyownway。“
Whichhedoneit。ItseemswhenhehadwenttoGalesburgthisherechildhadonlybeenbornafewdays。AndMissLucywasstillsick。Andthekiditselfwassick,andliabletodieanyminute,bythelooksofthings。
WhichColonelTomwishesthatitwoulddie,inhisheart。Hethinksthatitisanillegitimatechild,andhehatestheideaofitandhehatesthesightofit。Thesecondnightheisthereheissettinginhissister\'sroom,andthewomanthathasbeennursingthekidandMissLucytooisinthenextroomwiththekid。
Shecomestothedoorandbeckonstohim,thenursedoes。Hetiptoestowardher,andshesaystohim,verylow-voiced,that“itisallover。“
Meaningthekidhasquitstrugglingfurtolive,andjestnatcherallyfloatedaway。ThenursehadthoughtMissLucyasleep,butasbothherandColonelTomturnquicktowardherbedtheyseethatshehasheardandseen,andsheturnsherfacetowardthewall。Whichhetriesfurtocomforther,ColonelTomdoes,tellingherashowitisanillegitimatechild,andfuritsownsakeitwasbetteritwasdeadbeforeiteverlivedany。Whichshedon\'tanswerofhimback,butonlystaresinawild-
eyedwayathim,andlaysthereandlooksdesperate,andsaysnothing。
InhisheartColonelTomisawfulgladthatitisdead。Hecan\'thelpfeelingthatway。Andhequitstryingtotalktohissister,furhesuspicionsthatshewillketchontothefactthatheisgladthatitisdead。Hegoesonintothenextroom。
Hefindsthenurselookingawfulfunny,andbendingoverthedeadkid。Sheisputtingalook-
ing-glasstoitslips。Heastsherwhy。
Shesaysshethoughtshemightbemistakenafterall。Shecouldn\'tsayjestWHENitdied。Itwasaliveandfeeble,andthenpurtysoonitshowednosignsoflife。Itwaslikeithadn\'thadenoughstrengthtostayandhadjestwent。Ididn\'tshowanypulse,anditdidn\'tappeartobebreathing。
Andshehadwatcheditanddoneeverythingbe-
foreshebeckonedtoColonelTomandtoldhimthatitwasdead。Butasshecomebackintotheroomwhereitwasshethoughtshenoticedsomethingthatwastoolighttobecalledarealfluttermoveitseyelids,whichshehadcloseddownoveritseyes。
Itwastheghostofamove,likeithadtriedtoraisethelids,ortheyhadtriedtoraisetheirselves,andhadbeentooweak。Soshehasgotbusyandwrappedahotclotharoundit,andgotadropofbrandyortwobetweenitslips,andwasfightingtobringitbacktolife。Andthoughtshewasdoingit。Thoughtshehadfeltalittleflutterinitschest,andwastryingifithadbreathatall。
ColonelTomthinksofwhatbigfolkstheBucknerfamblyhasalwaysbeenathome。Andhowhightheyhadalwaysheldtheirheads。Andhownoneofthewomenhaseverbeenlikethisbefore。Nornodisgraceofanykind。Andthattherekid,ifitisalive,isasignofdisgrace。AndhehopedtoGod,hesaid,itwasn\'talive。
Buthedon\'tsayso。Hestandsthereandwatchesthatnursefightfurtoholdontothelittlemistoflifeshethinksnowisstillintoit。Sheun-
buttonsherdressandlaysthekidagainsttheheatofherownbreast。Andwillsfurittolive,andfightsfuritto,anddeterminesthatitmust,andjestnatcherallytriesfurtobullyragdeathintogoingaway。AndColonelTomwatching,andwishingthatitwouldn\'t。Buthegetsinterestedinthattherefight,andsopurtysoonheishopingbothwaysbyspells。Andthefightallgoingonwithoutawordspoken。
Butfinallythenursebeginsfurtocry。Notbe-
causesheissureitisdead。Butbecausesheissureitiscomingback。Whichitdoes,slow。
“\'ButIhavetoldHERthatitisdead,\'“saysColonelTom,jerkinghisheadtowardtheotherroomwhereMissLucyislying。Hespeaksinalowvoiceandclosesthedoorwhenhespeaks。Furitlooksnowlikeitwasgettingstrongenoughsoitmightevensquallalittle。
“Idon\'tknowwhatkindofalooktherewasonmyface,“saysColonelTom,tellingofthestorytohissisterandthedoctor,“butshemusthaveseenthatIwas——andheavenhelpme,butIWAS!——sorrythatthebabywasalive。Itwouldhavebeensuchaneasywayoutofithaditbeenreallydead!
“\'Shemustn\'tknowthatitisliving,\'Isaidtothenurse,finally,“saysColonelTom,goingonwithhisstory。IhadbeenwatchingMissLucy\'sfaceasColonelTomtalkedandshewassoworkedupbythatfightfurthekid\'slifeshewasbreath-
less。Buthereyeswascastdown,Iguesssoherbrothercouldn\'tseethem。ColonelTomgoesonwithhisstory:
“\'Youdon\'tmean——\'saidthenurse,startled。
“\'No!No!\'Isaid,\'ofcourse——notthat!But——
whyshouldsheeverknowthatitdidn\'tdie?\'“
“\'Itisillegitimate?\'askedthenurse。
“\'Yes,\'Isaid。“Thelongandshortofitwas,ColonelTomwentontotell,thatthenursewentoutandgothermother。Whichthetwoofthemlivedalone,onlyaroundthecorner。Andgivethechildintothekeepingofhermother,whotookitawaythenandthere。
ColonelTomhadmadeuphismindtherewasn\'tgoingtobenobastardsintheBucknerfambly。
AndnowthatMissLucythoughtitwasdeadhewouldletherkeeponthinkingso。Andthatwouldbesettledforgoodandall。Hefiggeredthatitwouldn\'teverhurthernoneifsheneverknowedit。
Thenurse\'smotherkeptitallthatweek,anditthrove。ColonelTomwascoaxingofhissistertogobacktoTennessee。Butshewouldn\'tgo。SohehadmadeuphismindtogobackandgethisAuntLucyDavistocomeandhelphimcoax。Hewasonlywaitingfurhissistertogetwellenoughsohecouldleaveher。Shegotbetter,andsheneverastfurthekid,norsaidnothingaboutit。Whichwasprobablebecausesheseenhehateditso。Hehadmadeuphismind,beforehewentbackaftertheirAuntLucyDavis,totakethebabyhimselfandputitintosomekindofaninstitution。
“Ithought,“hesaystoMissLucy,tellingofthestory,“thatyouyourselfwerealmostreconciledtothethoughtthatithadn\'tlived。“
MissLucyinterruptedhimwithalittlesound。
Shewasbreathinghard,andshakingfromheadtofoot。Noonewouldhavethoughttolookatherthenshewasreconciledtotheideathatithadn\'tlived。Itwascruelhardonhertotearhertopieceswiththenewsthatitreallyhadlived,buthadlivedawayfromheralltheseyearsshehadbeenlongingfurit。Andnochancetfurherevertomotherit。
Andnowaytotellwhathadeverbecomeofit。I
feltawfulsorryfurMissLucythen。
“ButwhenIgotreadytoleaveGalesburg,“
ColonelTomgoeson,“itsuddenlyoccurredtomethattherewouldbedifficultiesinthewayofputtingitinahomeofanysort。Ididn\'tknowwhattodowithit——“
“WhatDIDyou?WhatDIDyou?WHATDIDYOU?”
criesoutMissLucy,pressingherhandtoherchest,likeshewassmothering。
“ThefirstthingIdid,“saysColonelTom,“wastogetyoutoanotherhouse——youremember,Lucy?”
“Yes,yes!”shesays,excited,“andwhatthen?”
“PerhapsIdidaveryfoolishthing,“saysColonelTom。
“AfterIhadseenyouinstalledinthenewplaceandhadbiddenyougood-bye,Igotacarriageanddrovebytheplacewherethenurseandhermotherlived。ItoldthewomanthatIhadchangedmymind——thatyouweregoingtoraisethebaby——
thatIwasgoingtopermitit。Idon\'tthinkshequitebelievedme,butshegavemethebaby。Whatelsecouldshedo?Besides,Ihadpaidherwell,whenIdischargedher,tosaynothingtoyou,andtokeepthebabyuntilIshouldcomeforit。Theyneededmoney;theywerepoor。
“Iwasdeterminedthatitshouldneverbeheardofagain。ItwasaboutnoonwhenIleftGalesburg。
Idroveallthatafternoon,withthebabyinabasketontheseatofthecarriagebesideme。Everybodyhasreadinbooks,sincebookswerefirstwritten——
andseeninnewspapers,too——aboutchildrenbeingleftondoorsteps。Givenaninfanttodisposeof,thatisperhapsthefirstthingthatoccurstoaper-
son。Therewasathickplaidshawlwrappedaboutthechild。Inthebasket,besidethebaby,wasanursingbottle。AboutduskIhaditrefilledwithwarmmilkatafarmhousenear——“
Myheadwasbeginningfurtoswim。Ipulledmyheadoutofthattherehole,andrammedmyfootintoit。Itbangedagainstthatgratingandloosenedit。Itbustedloosesomeplaster,whichshowereddownintotheroomunderneath。MissLucy,shescreamed。AndthedoctorandColonelTombothyelledouttooncet:
“Who\'sthat?”
“It\'sme,“Iyells,bangingthatgratingagin。
“Watchoutbelowthere!”AndthethirdlickI
givehershebrokelooseandclattereddownrightontoacentretableandspilledoversomepho-
tographsandavasefullofflowers,andbouncedoffontothefloor。
“Lookoutbelow,“Iyells,“I\'mcomingdown!”
Iletmylegsthroughfirst,andswungthemsoI
wouldlandtoonesideofthetable,andheldbymyhands,anddropped。Butstruckthetableaside-
waysswipeandturneditover,andfellontothefloor。Thedoctor,hegrabbedmebythecollarandstraightenedmeup,andgivemeashakeandstoodmeontomyfeet。
“Whatdoyoumean——“hebegins。ButI
breaksin。
“Nowthen,“IsaystoColonelTom,“didyouleavethattherechildsuckingthattherebottleonthedoorstepofablacksmith\'shousenexttohisshopattheedgeofalittlecountrytownabouttwentymilesnortheastofGalesburgwrappedupinthatthereplaidshawl?”
“Idid,“saysColonelTom。
“Then,“saysI,turningtoMissLucy,“IcanunderstandwhyIhavebeenfeelingdrawedtoYOU
furquiteaspell。I\'mhim。“
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