第3章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:21944更新时间:18/12/21 14:43:47
She\'sanextraordinarypictureofwomankind——veryextraordinary。\' \'Inwhatwaybesides?\' \'You\'llknowsoonenough,miss。Shehashadsevenlady\'s-maidsthislasttwelvemonth。Iassureyou\'tisonebody\'sworktofetch\'emfromthestationandtake\'embackagain。TheLordmustbeaneglectfulpartyatheart,orhe\'dneverpermitsuchoverbearengoingson!\' \'Doesshedismissthemdirectlytheycome!\' \'Notatall——sheneverdismissesthem——theygotheirselves。Yesee\'tislikethis。She\'sgotaveryquicktemper;shefleesinapassionwiththemfornothingatall;nextmornentheycomeupandsaytheyaregoing;she\'ssorryforitandwishesthey\'dstay,butshe\'sasproudasalucifer,andherpridewon\'tlethersay,“Stay,“andawaytheygo。\'Tislikethisinfact。Ifyousaytoheraboutanybody,“Ah,poorthing!”shesays,“Pooh!indeed!”Ifyousay,“Pooh,indeed!”“Ah,poorthing!”shesaysdirectly。Shehangsthechiefbaker,asmidbe,andrestoresthechiefbutler,asmidbe,thoughthedevilbutPharaohherselfcanseethedifferencebetween\'em。\' Cythereawassilent。Shefearedshemightbeagainaburdentoherbrother。 \'However,youstandaverygoodchance,\'themanwenton,\'forI thinkshelikesyoumorethancommon。Ihaveneverknownhersendthepony-carriagetomeetonebefore;\'tisalwaysthetrap,butthistimeshesaid,inaveryparticularladyliketone,“Roobert,gaowwiththepony-kerriage。“……There,\'tistrue,ponyandcarriagetooaregettenrathershabbynow,\'headded,lookingrounduponthevehicleasiftokeepCytherea\'spridewithinreasonablelimits。 \'\'Tistobehopedyou\'llpleaseindressenherto-night。\' \'Whyto-night?\' \'There\'sadinner-partyofseventeen;\'tisherfather\'sbirthday,andshe\'sveryparticularaboutherlooksatsuchtimes。Nowsee; thisisthehouse。Livelieruphere,isn\'tit,miss?\' Theywerenowonrisingground,andhadjustemergedfromaclumpoftrees。Stillalittlehigherthanwheretheystoodwassituatedthemansion,calledKnapwaterHouse,theofficesgraduallylosingthemselvesamongthetreesbehind。 2。EVENING Thehousewasregularlyandsubstantiallybuiltofcleangreyfreestonethroughout,inthatplainerfashionofGreekclassicismwhichprevailedatthelatterendofthelastcentury,whenthecopyistscalleddesignershadgrownwearyoffantasticvariationsintheRomanorders。Themainblockapproximatedtoasquareonthegroundplan,havingaprojectioninthecentreofeachside,surmountedbyapediment。Fromeachangleoftheinferiorsideranalineofbuildingslowerthantherest,turninginwardsagainattheirfurtherend,andformingwithinthemaspaciousopencourt,withinwhichresoundedanechoofastonishingclearness。Theseerectionswereintheirturnbackedbyivy-coveredice-houses,laundries,andstables,thewholemassofsubsidiarybuildingsbeinghalfburiedbeneathclose-setshrubsandtrees。 Therewasopeningsufficientthroughthefoliageontherighthandtoenableheronnearerapproachtoformanideaofthearrangementoftheremoterorlawnfrontalso。Thenaturalfeaturesandcontourofthisquarterofthesitehadevidentlydictatedthepositionofthehouseprimarily,andwereoftheordinary,anduponthewhole,mostsatisfactorykind,namely,abroad,gracefulsloperunningfromtheterracebeneaththewallstothemarginofaplacidlakelyingbelow,uponthesurfaceofwhichadozenswansandagreenpuntfloatedatleisure。Anirregularwoodedislandstoodinthemidstofthelake;beyondthisandthefurthermarginofthewaterwereplantationsandgreenswardofvariedoutlines,thetreesheightening,byhalfveiling,thesoftnessoftheexquisitelandscapestretchingbehind。 Theglimpsesshehadobtainedofthisportionwerenowcheckedbytheangleofthebuilding。Inaminuteortwotheyreachedthesidedoor,atwhichCythereaalighted。Shewaswelcomedbyanelderlywomanoflengthysmilesandgeneralpleasantness,whoannouncedherselftobeMrs。Morris,thehousekeeper。 \'Mrs。Graye,Ibelieve?\'shesaid。 \'Iamnot——Oyes,yes,weareallmistresses,\'saidCytherea,smiling,butforcedly。Thetitleaccordedherseemeddisagreeablylikethefirstslightscarofabrand,andshethoughtofOwen\'sprophecy。 Mrs。MorrisledherintoacomfortableparlourcalledTheRoom。 Hereteawasmadeready,andCythereasatdown,looking,wheneveroccasionallowed,atMrs。Morriswithgreatinterestandcuriosity,todiscover,ifpossible,somethinginherwhichshouldgiveacluetothesecretofherknowledgeofherself,andtherecommendationbaseduponit。Butnothingwastobelearnt,atanyratejustthen。 Mrs。Morriswasperpetuallygettingup,feelinginherpockets,goingtocupboards,leavingtheroomtwoorthreeminutes,andtrottingbackagain。 \'You\'llexcuseme,Mrs。Graye,\'shesaid,\'but\'tistheoldgentleman\'sbirthday,andtheyalwayshavealotofpeopletodinneronthatday,thoughhe\'sgettingupinyearsnow。However,noneofthemaresleepers——shegenerallykeepsthehouseprettyclearoflodgers(beingaladywithnointimatefriends,thoughmanyacquaintances),which,thoughitgivesuslesstodo,makesitallthedullerfortheyoungermaidsinthehouse。\'Mrs。Morristhenproceededtogiveinfragmentaryspeechesanoutlineoftheconstitutionandgovernmentoftheestate。 \'Now,areyousureyouhavequitedonetea?Notabitordropmore? Why,you\'veeatennothing,I\'msure……Well,now,itisratherinconvenientthattheothermaidisnotheretoshowyouthewaysofthehousealittle,butsheleftlastSaturday,andMissAldclyffehasbeenmakingshiftwithpooroldclumsymeforamaidallyesterdayandthismorning。Sheisnotcomeinyet。Iexpectshewillaskforyou,Mrs。Graye,thefirstthing……Iwasgoingtosaythatifyouhavereallydonetea,Iwilltakeyouupstairs,andshowyouthroughthewardrobes——MissAldclyffe\'sthingsarenotlaidoutforto-nightyet。\' SheprecededCythereaupstairs,pointedoutherownroom,andthentookherintoMissAldclyffe\'sdressing-room,onthefirst-floor; where,afterexplainingthewhereaboutsofvariousarticlesofapparel,thehousekeeperlefther,tellingherthatshehadanhouryetuponherhandsbeforedressing-time。Cytherealaidoutuponthebedinthenextroomallthatshehadbeentoldwouldberequiredthatevening,andthenwentagaintothelittleroomwhichhadbeenappropriatedtoherself。 Hereshesatdownbytheopenwindow,leantoutuponthesilllikeanotherBlessedDamozel,andlistlesslylookeddownuponthebrilliantpatternofcoloursformedbytheflower-bedsonthelawn—— nowrichlycrowdedwithlatesummerblossom。Butthevivacityofspiritwhichhadhithertoenlivenedher,wasfastebbingunderthepressureofprosaicrealities,andthewarmscarletofthegeraniums,glowingmostconspicuously,andminglingwiththevividcoldredandgreenoftheverbenas,therichdepthofthedahlia,andtheripemellownessofthecalceolaria,backedbythepalehueofaflockofmeeksheepfeedingintheopenpark,closetotheothersideofthefence,were,toagreatextent,lostuponhereyes。Shewasthinkingthatnothingseemedworthwhile;thatitwaspossibleshemightdieinaworkhouse;andwhatdiditmatter?Thepetty,vulgardetailsofservitudethatshehadjustpassedthrough,herdependenceuponthewhimsofastrangewoman,thenecessityofquenchingallindividualityofcharacterinherself,andrelinquishingherownpeculiartastestohelponthewheelofthisalienestablishment,madehersickandsad,andshealmostlongedtopursuesomefree,out-of-doorsemployment,sleepundertreesorahut,andknownoenemybutwinterandcoldweather,likeshepherdsandcowkeepers,andbirdsandanimals——ay,likethesheepshesawthereunderherwindow。Shelookedsympathizinglyatthemforseveralminutes,imaginingtheirenjoymentoftherichgrass。 \'Yes——likethosesheep,\'shesaidaloud;andherfacereddenedwithsurpriseatadiscoveryshemadethatveryinstant。 Theflockconsistedofsomeninetyorahundredyoungstockewes: thesurfaceoftheirfleecewasasroundedandevenasacushion,andwhiteasmilk。Nowshehadjustobservedthatontheleftbuttockofeveryoneofthemweremarkedindistinctredletterstheinitials\'E。S。\' \'E。S。\'couldbringtoCytherea\'smindonlyonethought;butthatimmediatelyandforever——thenameofherlover,EdwardSpringrove。 \'O,ifitshouldbe——!\'Sheinterruptedherwordsbyaresolve。 MissAldclyffe\'scarriageatthesamemomentmadeitsappearanceinthedrive;butMissAldclyffewasnotherobjectnow。Itwastoascertaintowhomthesheepbelonged,andtosethersurmiseatrestonewayortheother。SheflewdownstairstoMrs。Morris。 \'Whosesheeparethoseinthepark,Mrs。Morris?\' \'FarmerSpringrove\'s。\' \'WhatFarmerSpringroveisthat?\'shesaidquickly。 \'Why,surelyyouknow?Yourfriend,FarmerSpringrove,thecider- maker,andwhokeepstheThreeTrantersInn;whorecommendedyoutomewhenhecameintoseemetheotherday?\' Cytherea\'smother-witsuddenlywarnedherinthemidstofherexcitementthatitwasnecessarynottobetraythesecretofherlove。\'Oyes,\'shesaid,\'ofcourse。\'Herthoughtshadrunasfollowsinthatshortinterval:—— \'FarmerSpringroveisEdward\'sfather,andhisnameisEdwardtoo。 \'EdwardknewIwasgoingtoadvertiseforasituationofsomekind。 \'HewatchedtheTimes,andsawit,myaddressbeingattached。 \'Hethoughtitwouldbeexcellentformetobeherethatwemightmeetwheneverhecamehome。 \'HetoldhisfatherthatImightberecommendedasalady\'s-maid; andheknewmybrotherandmyself。 \'HisfathertoldMrs。Morris;Mrs。MorristoldMissAldclyffe。\' Thewholechainofincidentsthatdrewhertherewasplain,andtherewasnosuchthingaschanceinthematter。ItwasallEdward\'sdoing。 Thesoundofabellwasheard。Cythereadidnotheedit,andstillcontinuedinherreverie。 \'That\'sMissAldclyffe\'sbell,\'saidMrs。Morris。 \'Isupposeitis,\'saidtheyoungwomanplacidly。 \'Well,itmeansthatyoumustgouptoher,\'thematroncontinued,inatoneofsurprise。 Cythereafeltaburningheatcomeoverher,mingledwithasuddenirritationatMrs。Morris\'shint。Butthegoodsensewhichhadrecognizedsternnecessityprevailedoverrebelliousindependence; theflushpassed,andshesaidhastily—— \'Yes,yes;ofcourse,Imustgotoherwhenshepullsthebell—— whetherIwanttoorno。\' However,inspiteofthispainfulreminderofhernewpositioninlife,Cytherealefttheapartmentinamoodfardifferentfromthegloomysadnessoftenminutesprevious。Theplacefeltlikehometohernow;shedidnotmindthepettinessofheroccupation,becauseEdwardevidentlydidnotmindit;andthiswasEdward\'sownspot。 ShefoundtimeonherwaytoMissAldclyffe\'sdressing-roomtohurriedlyglideoutbyasidedoor,andlookforamomentattheunconscioussheepbearingthefriendlyinitials。Shewentuptothemtotrytotouchoneoftheflock,andfeltvexedthattheyallstaredscepticallyatherkindadvances,andthenranpell-melldownthehill。Then,fearinganyoneshoulddiscoverherchildishmovements,sheslippedindoorsagain,andascendedthestaircase,catchingglimpses,asshepassed,ofsilver-buttonedfootmen,whoflashedaboutthepassageslikelightning。 MissAldclyffe\'sdressing-roomwasanapartmentwhich,onacasualsurvey,conveyedanimpressionthatitwasavailableforalmostanypurposesavetheadornmentofthefeminineperson。Initshoursofperfectordernothingpertainingtothetoiletwasvisible;eventheinevitablemirrorswiththeiraccessorieswerearrangedinaroomyrecessnotnoticeablefromthedoor,lightedbyawindowofitsown,calledthedressing-window。 Thewashing-standfiguredasavastoakchest,carvedwithgrotesqueRenaissanceornament。Thedressingtablewasinappearancesomethingbetweenahighaltarandacabinetpiano,thesurfacebeingrichlyworkedinthesamestyleofsemi-classicdecoration,buttheextraordinaryoutlinehavingbeenarrivedatbyaningeniousjoineranddecoratorfromtheneighbouringtown,aftermonthsofpainfultoilincuttingandfitting,underMissAldclyffe\'simmediateeye;thematerialsbeingtheremainsoftwoorthreeoldcabinetstheladyhadfoundinthelumber-room。Abouttwo-thirdsofthefloorwascarpeted,theremainingportionbeinglaidwithparquetryoflightanddarkwoods。 MissAldclyffewasstandingatthelargerwindow,awayfromthedressing-niche。Shebowed,andsaidpleasantly,\'Iamgladyouhavecome。Weshallgetoncapitally,Idaresay。\' Herbonnetwasoff。Cythereadidnotthinkhersohandsomeasontheearlierday;thequeenlinessofherbeautywasharderandlesswarm。ButaworsediscoverythanthiswasthatMissAldclyffe,withtheusualobliviousnessofrichpeopletotheirdependents\' specialities,seemedtohavequiteforgottenCytherea\'sinexperience,andmechanicallydeliveredupherbodytoherhandmaidwithoutathoughtofdetails,andwithamildyawn。 Everythingwentwellatfirst。Thedresswasremoved,stockingsandblackbootsweretakenoff,andsilkstockingsandwhiteshoeswereputon。MissAldclyffethenretiredtobatheherhandsandface,andCythereadrewbreath。Ifshecouldgetthroughthisfirstevening,allwouldberight。Shefeltthatitwasunfortunatethatsuchacrucialtestforherpowersasabirthdaydinnershouldhavebeenappliedonthethresholdofherarrival;butsettoagain。 MissAldclyffewasnowarrayedinawhitedressing-gown,anddroppedlanguidlyintoaneasy-chair,pushedupbeforetheglass。TheinstinctsofhersexandherownpracticetoldCythereathenextmovement。SheletMissAldclyffe\'shairfallabouthershoulders,andbegantoarrangeit。Itprovedtobeallreal;asatisfaction。 MissAldclyffewasmusinglylookingonthefloor,andtheoperationwentonforsomeminutesinsilence。Atlengthherthoughtsseemedtoturntothepresent,andsheliftedhereyestotheglass。 \'Why,whatonearthareyoudoingwithmyhead?\'sheexclaimed,withwidelyopenedeyes。AtthewordsshefeltthebackofCytherea\'slittlehandtrembleagainstherneck。 \'Perhapsyoupreferitdonetheotherfashion,madam?\'saidthemaiden。 \'No,no;that\'sthefashionrightenough,butyoumustmakemoreshowofmyhairthanthat,orIshallhavetobuysome,whichGodforbid!\' \'ItishowIdomyown,\'saidCythereanaively,andwithasweetnessoftonethatwouldhavepleasedthemostacrimoniousunderfavourablecircumstances;buttyrannywasintheascendantwithMissAldclyffeatthismoment,andshewasassuredofpalatablefoodforhervicebyhavingfeltthetremblingofCytherea\'shand。 \'Yours,indeed!YOURhair!Come,goon。\'ConsideringthatCythereapossessedatleastfivetimesasmuchofthatvaluableauxiliarytowoman\'sbeautyastheladybeforeher,therewasatthesametimesomeexcuseforMissAldclyffe\'soutburst。Sherememberedherself,however,andsaidmorequietly,\'Nowthen,Graye——By-the- bye,whatdotheycallyoudownstairs?\' \'Mrs。Graye,\'saidthehandmaid。 \'Thentellthemnottodoanysuchabsurdthing——notbutthatitisquiteaccordingtousage;butyouaretooyoungyet。\' ThisdialoguetidedCythereasafelyonwardthroughthehairdressingtilltheflowersanddiamondsweretobeplaceduponthelady\'sbrow。Cythereabeganarrangingthemtastefully,andtotheverybestofherjudgment。 \'Thatwon\'tdo,\'saidMissAldclyffeharshly。 \'Why?\' \'Ilooktooyoung——anolddresseddoll。\' \'Willthat,madam?\' \'No,Ilookafright——aperfectfright!\' \'Thisway,perhaps?\' \'Heavens!Don\'tworrymeso。\'Sheshutherlipslikeatrap。 Havingonceworkedherselfuptothebeliefthatherhead-dresswastobeafailurethatevening,noclevernessofCytherea\'sinarrangingitcouldpleaseher。Shecontinuedinasmoulderingpassionduringtheremainderoftheperformance,keepingherlipsfirmlyclosed,andthemusclesofherbodyrigid。Finally,snatchinguphergloves,andtakingherhandkerchiefandfaninherhand,shesilentlysailedoutoftheroom,withoutbetrayingtheleastconsciousnessofanotherwoman\'spresencebehindher。 Cytherea\'sfearsthatattheundressingthissuppressedangerwouldfindavent,keptheronthornsthroughouttheevening。Shetriedtoread;shecouldnot。Shetriedtosew;shecouldnot。Shetriedtomuse;shecouldnotdothatconnectedly。\'Ifthisisthebeginning,whatwilltheendbe!\'shesaidinawhisper,andfeltmanymisgivingsastothepolicyofbeingoverhastyinestablishinganindependenceattheexpenseofcongruitywithacherishedpast。 3。MIDNIGHT Theclockstrucktwelve。TheAldclyffestatedinnerwasover。Thecompanyhadallgone,andMissAldclyffe\'sbellrangloudlyandjerkingly。 Cythereastartedtoherfeetatthesound,whichbrokeinuponafitfulsleepthathadovertakenher。Shehadbeensittingdrearilyinherchairwaitingminuteafterminuteforthesignal,herbraininthatstateofintentnesswhichtakescognizanceofthepassageofTimeasarealmotion——motionwithoutmatter——theinstantsthrobbingpastinthecompanyofafeverishpulse。Shehastenedtotheroom,tofindtheladysittingbeforethedressingshrine,illuminatedonbothsides,andlookingsoqueenlyinherattitudeofabsoluterepose,thattheyoungerwomanfelttheawfullestsenseofresponsibilityatherVandalisminhavingundertakentodemolishsoimposingapile。 Thelady\'sjewelledornamentsweretakenoffinsilence——somebyherownlistlesshands,somebyCytherea\'s。Thenfollowedtheouterstratumofclothing。Thedressbeingremoved,Cythereatookitinherhandandwentwithitintothebedroomadjoining,intendingtohangitinthewardrobe。Butonsecondthoughts,inorderthatshemightnotkeepMissAldclyffewaitingamomentlongerthannecessary,sheflungitdownonthefirstresting-placethatcametohand,whichhappenedtobethebed,andre-enteredthedressing-roomwiththenoiselessfootfallofakitten。Shepausedinthemiddleoftheroom。 Shewasunnoticed,andhersuddenreturnhadplainlynotbeenexpected。DuringtheshorttimeofCytherea\'sabsence,MissAldclyffehadpulledoffakindofchemisetteofBrusselsnet,drawnhighabovethethroat,whichshehadwornwithhereveningdressasasemi-opaquecoveringtohershoulders,andinitsplacehadputhernight-gownroundher。Herrighthandwasliftedtoherneck,asifengagedinfasteninghernight-gown。 ButonasecondglanceMissAldclyffe\'sproceedingwasclearertoCytherea。Shewasnotfasteninghernight-gown;ithadbeencarelesslythrownroundher,andMissAldclyffewasreallyoccupiedinholdinguptohereyessomesmallobjectthatshewaskeenlyscrutinizing。AndnowonsuddenlydiscoveringthepresenceofCythereaatthebackoftheapartment,insteadofnaturallycontinuingorconcludingherinspection,shedesistedhurriedly;thetinysnapofaspringwasheard,herhandwasremoved,andshebeganadjustingherrobes。 Modestymighthavedirectedherhastyactionofenwrappinghershoulders,butitwasscarcelylikely,consideringMissAldclyffe\'stemperament,thatshehadallherlifebeenusedtoamaid,Cytherea\'syouth,andtheelderlady\'smarkedtreatmentofherasifshewereamerechildorplaything。Thematterwastooslighttoreasonabout,andyetuponthewholeitseemedthatMissAldclyffemusthaveapracticalreasonforconcealingherneck。 WithatimidsenseofbeinganintruderCythereawasabouttostepbackandoutoftheroom;butatthesamemomentMissAldclyffeturned,sawtheimpulse,andtoldhercompaniontostay,lookingintohereyesasifshehadhalfanintentiontoexplainsomething。 Cythereafeltcertainitwasthelittlemysteryofherlatemovements。Theotherwithdrewhereyes;Cythereawenttofetchthedressing-gown,andwheeledroundagaintobringituptoMissAldclyffe,whohadnowpartlyremovedhernight-dresstoputitontheproperway,andstillsatwithherbacktowardsCytherea。 Herneckwasagainquiteopenanduncovered,andthoughhiddenfromthedirectlineofCytherea\'svision,shesawitreflectedintheglass——thefairwhitesurface,andtheinimitablecombinationofcurvesbetweenthroatandbosomwhichartistsadore,beingbrightlylitupbythelightburningoneitherside。 Andthelady\'spriorproceedingswerenowexplainedinthesimplestmanner。Inthemidstofherbreast,likeanislandinaseaofpearl,reclinedanexquisitelittlegoldlocket,embellishedwitharabesqueworkofblue,red,andwhiteenamel。ThatwasundoubtedlywhatMissAldclyffehadbeencontemplating;and,moreover,nothavingbeenputoffwithherotherornaments,itwastoberetainedduringthenight——aslightdeparturefromthecustomofladieswhichMissAldclyffehadatfirstnotcaredtoexhibittohernewassistant,thoughnow,onfurtherthought,sheseemedtohavebecomeindifferentonthematter。 \'Mydressing-gown,\'shesaid,quietlyfasteninghernight-dressasshespoke。 Cythereacameforwardwithit。MissAldclyffedidnotturnherhead,butlookedinquiringlyathermaidintheglass。 \'YousawwhatIwearonmyneck,Isuppose?\'shesaidtoCytherea\'sreflectedface。 \'Yes,madam,Idid,\'saidCythereatoMissAldclyffe\'sreflectedface。 MissAldclyffeagainlookedatCytherea\'sreflectionasifshewereonthepointofexplaining。Againshecheckedherresolve,andsaidlightly—— \'FewofmymaidsdiscoverthatIwearitalways。Igenerallykeepitasecret——notthatitmattersmuch。ButIwascarelesswithyou,andseemedtowanttotellyou。Youwinmetomakeconfidencesthat……\' Sheceased,tookCytherea\'shandinherown,liftedthelocketwiththeother,touchedthespringanddisclosedaminiature。 \'Itisahandsomeface,isitnot?\'shewhisperedmournfully,andeventimidly。 \'Itis。\' ButthesighthadgonethroughCytherealikeanelectricshock,andtherewasaninstantaneousawakeningofperceptioninher,sothrillinginitspresenceastobewell-nighinsupportable。Thefaceintheminiaturewasthefaceofherownfather——youngerandfresherthanshehadeverknownhim——butherfather! Wasthisthewomanofhiswildandunquenchableearlylove?Andwasthisthewomanwhohadfiguredinthegate-man\'sstoryasansweringthenameofCythereabeforeherjudgmentwasawake?Surelyitwas。 Andifso,herewasthetangibleoutcropofaromanticandhiddenstratumofthepasthithertoseenonlyinherimagination;butasfarasherscopeallowed,clearlydefinedthereinbyreasonofitsstrangeness。 MissAldclyffe\'seyesandthoughtsweresointentupontheminiaturethatshehadnotbeenconsciousofCytherea\'sstartofsurprise。 Shewentonspeakinginalowandabstractedtone。 \'Yes,Ilosthim。\'Sheinterruptedherwordsbyashortmeditation,andwentonagain。\'Ilosthimbyexcessofhonestyasregardedmypast。Butitwasbestthatitshouldbeso……Iwasledtothinkrathermorethanusualofthecircumstancesto-nightbecauseofyourname。Itispronouncedthesameway,thoughdifferentlyspelt。\' TheonlymeansbywhichCytherea\'ssurnamecouldhavebeenspelttoMissAldclyffemusthavebeenbyMrs。MorrisorFarmerSpringrove。 ShefanciedFarmerSpringrovewouldhavespeltitproperlyifEdwardwashisinformant,whichmadeMissAldclyffe\'sremarkobscure。 Womenmakeconfidencesandthenregretthem。TheimpulsiverushoffeelingwhichhadledMissAldclyffetoindulgeinthisrevelation,triflingasitwas,diedoutimmediatelyherwordswerebeyondrecall;andtheturmoil,occasionedinherbydwellinguponthatchapterofherlife,foundventinanotherkindofemotion——theresultofatrivialaccident。 Cytherea,afterlettingdownMissAldclyffe\'shair,adoptedsomeplanwithittowhichtheladyhadnotbeenaccustomed。Arapidrevulsiontoirritationensued。Themaiden\'smeretouchseemedtodischargethepent-upregretoftheladyasifshehadbeenajarofelectricity。 \'Howstrangelyyoutreatmyhair!\'sheexclaimed。 Asilence。 \'IhavetoldyouwhatInevertellmymaidsasarule;ofcourseNOTHINGthatIsayinthisroomistobementionedoutsideit。\'Shespokecrosslynolessthanemphatically。 \'Itshallnotbe,madam,\'saidCytherea,agitatedandvexedthatthewomanofherromanticwonderingsshouldbesodisagreeabletoher。 \'WhyonearthdidItellyouofmypast?\'shewenton。 Cythereamadenoanswer。 Thelady\'svexationwithherself,andtheaccidentwhichhadledtothedisclosureswelledlittlebylittletillitknewnobounds。Butwhatwasdonecouldnotbeundone,andthoughCythereahadshownamostwinningresponsiveness,quarrelMissAldclyffemust。SherecurredtothesubjectofCytherea\'swantofexpertness,likeabitterreviewer,whofindingthesentimentsofapoetunimpeachable,quarrelswithhisrhymes。 \'Never,neverbeforedidIservemyselfsuchatrickasthisinengagingamaid!\'Shewaitedforanexpostulation:nonecame。 MissAldclyffetriedagain。 \'Theideaofmytakingagirlwithoutaskinghermorethanthreequestions,orhavingasinglereference,allbecauseofhergoodl—— ,theshapeofherfaceandbody!ItWASafool\'strick。There,I amservedright,quiteright——bybeingdeceivedinsuchaway。\' \'Ididn\'tdeceiveyou,\'saidCytherea。Thespeechwasanunfortunateone,andwasthevery\'fueltomaintainitsfires\'thattheother\'spetulancedesired。 \'Youdid,\'shesaidhotly。 \'ItoldyouIcouldn\'tpromisetobeacquaintedwitheverydetailofroutinejustatfirst。\' \'Willyoucontradictmeinthisway!Youaretellinguntruths,I say。\' Cytherea\'slipquivered。\'Iwouldanswertheremarkif——if——\' \'Ifwhat?\' \'Ifitwerealady\'s!\' \'Yougirlofimpudence——whatdoyousay?Leavetheroomthisinstant,Itellyou。\' \'AndItellyouthatapersonwhospeakstoaladyasyoudotome,isnoladyherself!\' \'Toalady?Alady\'s-maidspeaksinthisway。Theidea!\' \'Don\'t“lady\'s-maid“me:nobodyismymistressIwon\'thaveit!\' \'GoodHeavens!\' \'Iwouldn\'thavecome——no——Iwouldn\'t!ifIhadknown!\' \'What?\' \'Thatyouweresuchanill-tempered,unjustwoman!\' \'PossestbeyondtheMuse\'spainting,\'MissAldclyffeexclaimed—— \'AWoman,amI!I\'llteachyouifIamaWoman!\'andliftedherhandasifshewouldhavelikedtostrikehercompanion。Thisstungthemaidenintoabsolutedefiance。 \'Idareyoutotouchme!\'shecried。\'Strikemeifyoudare,madam! Iamnotafraidofyou——whatdoyoumeanbysuchanactionasthat?\' MissAldclyffewasdisconcertedatthisunexpectedshowofspirit,andashamedofherunladylikeimpulsenowitwasputintowords。 Shesankbackinthechair。\'Iwasnotgoingtostrikeyou——gotoyourroom——Ibegyoutogotoyourroom!\'sherepeatedinahuskywhisper。 Cytherea,redandpanting,tookuphercandlestickandadvancedtothetabletogetalight。Asshestoodclosetothemtheraysfromthecandlesstrucksharplyonherface。Sheusuallyboreamuchstrongerlikenesstohermotherthantoherfather,butnow,lookingwithagrave,reckless,andangeredexpressionofcountenanceatthekindlingwickasshehelditslantingintotheotherflame,herfather\'sfeaturesweredistinctinher。ItwasthefirsttimeMissAldclyffehadseenherinapassionatemood,andwearingthatexpressionwhichwasinvariablyitsconcomitant。ItwasMissAldclyffe\'sturntostartnow;andtheremarkshemadewasaninstanceofthatsuddenchangeoftonefromhigh-flowninvectivetothepettinessofcuriositywhichsooftenmakeswomen\'squarrelsridiculous。EvenMissAldclyffe\'sdignityhadnotsufficientpowertopostponetheabsorbingdesireshenowfelttosettlethestrangesuspicionthathadenteredherhead。 \'Youspellyournamethecommonway,G,R,E,Y,don\'tyou?\'shesaid,withassumedindifference。 \'No,\'saidCytherea,poisedonthesideofherfoot,andstilllookingintotheflame。 \'Yes,surely?Thenamewasspeltthatwayonyourboxes:Ilookedandsawitmyself。\' TheenigmaofMissAldclyffe\'smistakewassolved。\'O,wasit?\' saidCytherea。\'Ah,IrememberMrs。Jackson,thelodging-housekeeperatBudmouth,labelledthem。WespellournameG,R,A,Y,E。\' \'Whatwasyourfather\'strade?\' Cythereathoughtitwouldbeuselesstoattempttoconcealfactsanylonger。\'Hiswasnotatrade,\'shesaid。\'Hewasanarchitect。\' \'Theideaofyourbeinganarchitect\'sdaughter!\' \'There\'snothingtooffend,youinthat,Ihope?\' \'Ono。\' \'Whydidyousay“theidea“?\' \'Leavethatalone。DidheevervisitinGowerStreet,Bloomsbury,oneChristmas,manyyearsago?——butyouwouldnotknowthat。\' \'IhaveheardhimsaythatMr。Huntway,acuratesomewhereinthatpartofLondon,andwhodiedthere,wasanoldcollegefriendofhis。\' \'WhatisyourChristianname?\' \'Cytherea。\' \'No!Andisitreally?AndyouknewthatfaceIshowedyou?Yes,Iseeyoudid。\'MissAldclyffestopped,andclosedherlipsimpassibly。Shewasalittleagitated。 \'Doyouwantmeanylonger?\'saidCytherea,standingcandleinhandandlookingquietlyinMissAldclyffe\'sface。 \'Well——no:nolonger,\'saidtheotherlingeringly。 \'Withyourpermission,Iwillleavethehousetomorrowmorning,madam。\' \'Ah。\'MissAldclyffehadnonotionofwhatshewassaying。 \'AndIknowyouwillbesogoodasnottointrudeuponmeduringtheshortremainderofmystay?\' SayingthisCytherealefttheroombeforehercompanionhadanswered。MissAldclyffe,then,hadrecognizedheratlast,andhadbeencuriousabouthernamefromthebeginning。 Theothermembersofthehouseholdhadretiredtorest。AsCythereawentalongthepassageleadingtoherroomherskirtsrustledagainstthepartition。Adooronherleftopened,andMrs。Morrislookedout。 \'Iwaitedoutofbedtillyoucameup,\'shesaid,\'itbeingyourfirstnight,incaseyoushouldbeatalossforanything。HowhaveyougotonwithMissAldclyffe?\' \'Prettywell——thoughnotsowellasIcouldhavewished。\' \'Hasshebeenscolding?\' \'Alittle。\' \'She\'saveryoddlady——\'tisallonewayortheotherwithher。 She\'snotbadatheart,butunbearableinclosequarters。Thoseofuswhodon\'thavemuchtodowithherpersonally,stayonforyearsandyears。\' \'HasMissAldclyffe\'sfamilyalwaysbeenrich?\'saidCytherea。 \'Ono。Theproperty,withthename,camefromhermother\'suncle。 HerfamilyisabranchoftheoldAldclyffefamilyonthematernalside。HermothermarriedaBradleigh——amerenobodyatthattime—— andwasonthataccountcutbyherrelations。Butverysingularlytheotherbranchofthefamilydiedoutonebyone——threeofthem,andMissAldclyffe\'sgreat-unclethenleftallhisproperty,includingthisestate,toCaptainBradleighandhiswife——MissAldclyffe\'sfatherandmother——onconditionthattheytooktheoldfamilynameaswell。There\'sallaboutitinthe“LandedGentry。“ \'Tisathingveryoftendone。\' \'O,Isee。Thankyou。Well,nowIamgoing。Good-night。\' VI。THEEVENTSOFTWELVEHOURS 1。AUGUSTTHENINTH。ONETOTWOO\'CLOCKA。M。 Cythereaenteredherbedroom,andflungherselfonthe,bed,bewilderedbyawhirlofthought。Onlyonesubjectwasclearinhermind,anditwasthat,inspiteoffamilydiscoveries,thatdaywastobethefirstandlastofherexperienceasalady\'s-maid。 Starvationitselfshouldnotcompelhertoholdsuchahumiliatingpostforanotherinstant。\'Ah,\'shethought,withasigh,atthemartyrdomofherlastlittlefragmentofself-conceit,\'OwenknowseverythingbetterthanI。\' Shejumpedupandbeganmakingreadyforherdepartureinthemorning,thetearsstreamingdownwhenshegrievedandwonderedwhatpracticalmatteronearthshecouldturnherhandtonext。Allthesepreparationscompleted,shebegantoundress,hermindunconsciouslydriftingawaytothecontemplationofherlatesurprises。Tolookintheglassforaninstantatthereflectionofherownmagnificentresourcesinfaceandbosom,andtomarktheirattractivenessunadorned,wasperhapsbutthenaturalactionofayoungwomanwhohadsolatelybeenchiddenwhilstpassingthroughtheharassingexperienceofdecoratinganolderbeautyofMissAldclyffe\'stemper。 Butshedirectlycheckedherweaknessbysympathizingreflectionsonthehiddentroubleswhichmusthavethrongedthepastyearsofthesolitarylady,tokeepher,thoughsorichandcourted,inamoodsorepellentandgloomyasthatinwhichCythereafoundher;andthentheyounggirlmarvelledagainandagain,asshehadmarvelledbefore,atthestrangeconfluenceofcircumstanceswhichhadbroughtherselfintocontactwiththeonewomanintheworldwhosehistorywassoromanticallyintertwinedwithherown。Shealmostbegantowishshewerenotobligedtogoawayandleavethelonelybeingtolonelinessstill。 Inbedandinthedark,MissAldclyffehauntedhermindmorepersistentlythanever。Insteadofsleeping,shecalledupstaringvisionsofthepossiblepastofthisqueenlylady,hermother\'srival。Upthelongvistaofbygoneyearsshesaw,behindall,theyounggirl\'sflirtation,littleormuch,withthecousin,thatseemedtohavebeennippedinthebud,ortohaveterminatedhastilyinsomeway。ThenthesecretmeetingsbetweenMissAldclyffeandtheotherwomanatthelittleinnatHammersmithandotherplaces: thecommonplacenamesheadopted:herswoonatsomepainfulnews,andtheveryslightknowledgetheelderfemalehadofherpartnerinmystery。Then,morethanayearafterwards,theacquaintanceshipofherownfatherwiththishisfirstlove;theawakeningofthepassion,hisactsofdevotion,theunreasoningheatofhisrapture,hertacitacceptanceofit,andyetheruneasinessunderthedelight。Thenhisdeclarationamidtheevergreens:theutterchangeproducedinhermannerthereby,seeminglytheresultofarigiddetermination:andthetotalconcealmentofherreasonbyherselfandherparents,whateveritwas。Thenthelady\'scoursedroppedintodarkness,andnothingmorewasvisibletillshewasdiscoveredhereatKnapwater,nearlyfiftyyearsold,stillunmarriedandstillbeautiful,butlonely,embittered,andhaughty。 Cythereaimaginedthatherfather\'simagewasstillwarmlycherishedinMissAldclyffe\'sheart,andwasthankfulthatsheherselfhadnotbeenbetrayedintoannouncingthatsheknewmanyparticularsofthispageofherfather\'shistory,andthechiefone,thelady\'sunaccountablerenunciationofhim。Itwouldhavemadeherbearingtowardsthemistressofthemansionmoreawkward,andwouldhavebeennobenefittoeither。 Thusconjuringupthepast,andtheorizingonthepresent,shelayrestless,changingherposturefromonesidetotheotherandbackagain。Finally,whencourtingsleepwithallherart,sheheardaclockstriketwo。Aminutelater,andshefanciedshecoulddistinguishasoftrustleinthepassageoutsideherroom。 Toburyherheadinthesheetswasherfirstimpulse;thentouncoverit,raiseherselfonherelbow,andstretchhereyeswideopeninthedarkness;herlipsbeingpartedwiththeintentnessofherlistening。Whateverthenoisewas,ithadceasedforthetime。 Itbeganagainandcameclosetoherdoor,lightlytouchingthepanels。Thentherewasanotherstillness;Cythereamadeamovementwhichcausedafaintrustlingofthebed-clothes。 Beforeshehadtimetothinkanotherthoughtalighttapwasgiven。 Cythereabreathed:thepersonoutsidewasevidentlybentuponfindingherawake,andtherustleshehadmadehadencouragedthehope。Themaiden\'sphysicalconditionshiftedfromonepoletoitsopposite。Thecoldsweatofterrorforsookher,andmodestytookthealarm。Shebecamehotandred;herdoorwasnotlocked。 Adistinctwoman\'swhispercametoherthroughthekeyhole: \'Cytherea!\' OnlyonebeinginthehouseknewherChristianname,andthatwasMissAldclyffe。Cythereasteppedoutofbed,wenttothedoor,andwhisperedback,\'Yes?\' \'Letmecomein,darling。\' Theyoungwomanpausedinaconflictbetweenjudgmentandemotion。 Itwasnowmistressandmaidnolonger;womanandwomanonly。Yes; shemustlethercomein,poorthing。 Shegotalightinaninstant,openedthedoor,andraisinghereyesandthecandle,sawMissAldclyffestandingoutsideinherdressing- gown。 \'Nowyouseethatitisreallymyself;putoutthelight,\'saidthevisitor。\'Iwanttostayherewithyou,Cythie。Icametoaskyoutocomedownintomybed,butitissnuggerhere。Butrememberthatyouaremistressinthisroom,andthatIhavenobusinesshere,andthatyoumaysendmeawayifyouchoose。ShallIgo?\' \'Ono;youshan\'tindeedifyoudon\'twantto,\'saidCythiegenerously。 TheinstanttheywereinbedMissAldclyffefreedherselffromthelastremnantofrestraint。Sheflungherarmsroundtheyounggirl,andpressedhergentlytoherheart。 \'Nowkissme,\'shesaid。 Cytherea,uponthewhole,wasratherdiscomposedatthischangeoftreatment;and,discomposedorno,herpassionswerenotsoimpetuousasMissAldclyffe\'s。Shecouldnotbringhersoultoherlipsforamoment,tryhowshewould。 \'Come,kissme,\'repeatedMissAldclyffe。 Cythereagaveheraverysmallone,assoftintouchandinsoundastheburstingofabubble。 \'Moreearnestlythanthat——come。\' Shegaveanother,alittlebutnotmuchmoreexpressively。 \'Idon\'tdeserveamorefeelingone,Isuppose,\'saidMissAldclyffe,withanemphasisofsadbitternessinhertone。\'Iamanill-temperedwoman,youthink;halfoutofmymind。Well,perhapsI am;butIhavehadgriefmorethanyoucanthinkordreamof。ButI can\'thelplovingyou——yournameisthesameasmine——isn\'titstrange?\' Cythereawasinclinedtosayno,butremainedsilent。 \'Now,don\'tyouthinkImustloveyou?\'continuedtheother。 \'Yes,\'saidCythereaabsently。ShewasstillthinkingwhetherdutytoOwenandherfather,whichaskedforsilenceonherknowledgeofherfather\'sunfortunatelove,ordutytothewomanembracingher,whichseemedtoaskforconfidence,oughttopredominate。Herewasasolution。ShewouldwaittillMissAldclyffereferredtoheracquaintanceshipandattachmenttoCytherea\'sfatherinpasttimes: thenshewouldtellherallsheknew:thatwouldbehonour。 \'Whycan\'tyoukissmeasIcankissyou?Whycan\'tyou!\'SheimpresseduponCytherea\'slipsawarmmotherlysalute,givenasifintheoutburstofstrongfeeling,longchecked,andyearningforsomethingtoloveandbelovedbyinreturn。 \'Doyouthinkbadlyofmeformybehaviourthisevening,child?I don\'tknowwhyIamsofoolishastospeaktoyouinthisway。Iamaveryfool,Ibelieve。Yes。Howoldareyou?\' \'Eighteen。\' \'Eighteen!……Well,whydon\'tyouaskmehowoldIam?\' \'BecauseIdon\'twanttoknow。\' \'Nevermindifyoudon\'t。Iamforty-six;anditgivesmegreaterpleasuretotellyouthisthanitdoestoyoutolisten。Ihavenottoldmyagetrulyforthelasttwentyyearstillnow。\' \'Whyhaven\'tyou?\' \'Ihavemetdeceitbydeceit,tillIamwearyofit——weary,weary—— andIlongtobewhatIshallneverbeagain——artlessandinnocent,likeyou。ButIsupposethatyou,too,will,provetobenotworthathought,aseverynewfrienddoesonmoreintimateknowledge。 Come,whydon\'tyoutalktome,child?Haveyousaidyourprayers?\' \'Yes——no!Iforgotthemto-night。\' \'Isupposeyousaythemeverynightasarule?\' \'Yes。\' \'Whydoyoudothat?\' \'BecauseIhavealwaysdoneso,anditwouldseemstrangeifIwerenotto。Doyou?\' \'I?Awickedoldsinnerlikeme!No,Ineverdo。Ihavethoughtallsuchmattershumbugforyears——thoughtsosolongthatIshouldbegladtothinkotherwisefromveryweariness;andyet,suchisthecodeofthepoliteworld,thatIsubscriberegularlytoMissionarySocietiesandothersofthesort……Well,sayyourprayers,dear——youwon\'tomitthemnowyourecollectit。Ishouldliketohearyouverymuch。Willyou?\' \'Itseemshardly——\' \'Itwouldseemsolikeoldtimestome——whenIwasyoung,andnearer——farnearerHeaventhanIamnow。Do,sweetone,\' Cythereawasembarrassed,andherembarrassmentarosefromthefollowingconjunctureofaffairs。SinceshehadlovedEdwardSpringrove,shehadlinkedhisnamewithherbrotherOwen\'sinhernightlysupplicationstotheAlmighty。Shewishedtokeepherloveforhimasecret,and,aboveall,asecretfromawomanlikeMissAldclyffe;yetherconscienceandthehonestyofherlovewouldnotforaninstantallowhertothinkofomittinghisdearname,andsoendangertheefficacyofallherpreviousprayersforhissuccessbyanunworthyshamenow:itwouldbewickedofher,shethought,andagrievouswrongtohim。Underanyworldlycircumstancesshemighthavethoughtthepositionjustifiedalittlefinesse,andhaveskippedhimforonce;butprayerwastoosolemnathingforsuchtrifling。 \'Iwouldrathernotsaythem,\'shemurmuredfirst。Itstruckherthenthatthisdecliningaltogetherwasthesamecowardiceinanotherdress,andwasdeliveringherpoorEdwardovertoSatanjustasunceremoniouslyasbefore。\'Yes;Iwillsaymyprayers,andyoushallhearme,\'sheaddedfirmly。 Sheturnedherfacetothepillowandrepeatedinlowsofttonesthesimplewordsshehadusedfromchildhoodonsuchoccasions。Owen\'snamewasmentionedwithoutfaltering,butintheothercase,maidenlyshynesswastoostrongevenforreligion,andthatwhensupportedbyexcellentintentions。AtthenameofEdwardshestammered,andhervoicesanktothefaintestwhisperinspiteofher。 \'Thankyou,dearest,\'saidMissAldclyffe。\'Ihaveprayedtoo,I verilybelieve。Youareagoodgirl,Ithink。\'Thentheexpectedquestioncame。 \'“BlessOwen,“andwhom,didyousay?\' Therewasnohelpforitnow,andoutitcame。\'OwenandEdward,\' saidCytherea。 \'WhoareOwenandEdward?\' \'Owenismybrother,madam,\'falteredthemaid。 \'Ah,Iremember。WhoisEdward?\' Asilence。 \'Yourbrother,too?\'continuedMissAldclyffe。 \'No。\' MissAldclyffereflectedamoment。\'Don\'tyouwanttotellmewhoEdwardis?\'shesaidatlast,inatoneofmeaning。 \'Idon\'tmindtelling;only……\' \'Youwouldrathernot,Isuppose?\' \'Yes。\' MissAldclyffeshiftedherground。\'Wereyoueverinlove?\'sheinquiredsuddenly。 Cythereawassurprisedtohearhowquicklythevoicehadalteredfromtendernesstoharshness,vexation,anddisappointment。 \'Yes——IthinkIwas——once,\'shemurmured。 \'Aha!Andwereyoueverkissedbyaman?\' Apause。 \'Well,wereyou?\'saidMissAldclyffe,rathersharply。 \'Don\'tpressmetotell——Ican\'t——indeed,Iwon\'t,madam!\' MissAldclyfferemovedherarmsfromCytherea\'sneck。\'\'Tisnowwithyouasitisalwayswithallgirls,\'shesaid,injealousandgloomyaccents。\'Youarenot,afterall,theinnocentItookyoufor。No,no。\'Shethenchangedhertonewithfitfulrapidity。 \'Cytherea,trytolovememorethanyoulovehim——do。Iloveyoumoresincerelythananymancan。Do,Cythie:don\'tletanymanstandbetweenus。O,Ican\'tbearthat!\'SheclaspedCytherea\'sneckagain。 \'ImustlovehimnowIhavebegun,\'repliedtheother。 \'Must——yes——must,\'saidtheelderladyreproachfully。\'Yes,womenareallalike。IthoughtIhadatlastfoundanartlesswomanwhohadnotbeensulliedbyaman\'slips,andwhohadnotpractisedorbeenpractiseduponbytheartswhichruinallthetruthandsweetnessandgoodnessinus。Findagirl,ifyoucan,whosemouthandearshavenotbeenmadearegularhighwayofbysomemanoranother!Leavetheadmittedlynotoriousspots——thedrawing-roomsofsociety——andlookinthevillages——leavethevillagesandsearchintheschools——andyoucanhardlyfindagirlwhosehearthasnotbeenHAD——isnotanoldthinghalfwornoutbysomeHeoranother!Ifmenonlyknewthestalenessofthefreshestofus!thatninetimesoutoftenthe“firstlove“theythinktheyarewinningfromawomanisbutthehulkofanoldwreckedaffection,fittedwithnewsailsandre-used。OCytherea,canitbethatyou,too,areliketherest?\' \'No,no,no,\'urgedCytherea,awedbythestormshehadraisedintheimpetuouswoman\'smind。\'Heonlykissedmeonce——twiceImean。\' \'Hemighthavedoneitathousandtimesifhehadcaredto,there\'snodoubtaboutthat,whoeverhislordshipis。YouareasbadasI—— weareallalike;andI——anoldfool——havebeensippingatyourmouthasifitwerehoney,becauseIfanciednowastingloverknewthespot。Butaminuteago,andyouseemedtomelikeafreshspringmeadow——nowyouseemadustyhighway。\' \'Ono,no!\'Cythereawasnotweakenoughtoshedtearsexceptonextraordinaryoccasions,butshewasfaintobeginsobbingnow。ShewishedMissAldclyffewouldgotoherownroom,andleaveherandhertreasureddreamsalone。Thisvehementimperiousaffectionwasinonesensesoothing,butyetitwasnotofthekindthatCytherea\'sinstinctsdesired。Thoughitwasgenerous,itseemedsomewhattoorankandcapriciousforendurance。 \'Well,\'saidtheladyincontinuation,\'whoishe?\' Hercompanionwasdesperatelydeterminednottotellhisname:shetoomuchfearedatauntwhenMissAldclyffe\'sfierymoodagainruledhertongue。 \'Won\'tyoutellme?nottellmeafteralltheaffectionIhaveshown?\' \'Iwill,perhaps,anotherday。\' \'DidyouwearahatandwhitefeatherinBudmouthfortheweekortwoprevioustoyourcominghere?\' \'Yes。\' \'ThenIhaveseenyouandyourloveratadistance!Herowedyouroundthebaywithyourbrother。\' \'Yes。\' \'Andwithoutyourbrother——fie!There,there,don\'tletthatlittleheartbeatitselftodeath:throb,throb:itshakesthebed,yousillything。Ididn\'tmeanthattherewasanyharmingoingalonewithhim。IonlysawyoufromtheEsplanade,incommonwiththerestofthepeople。IoftenrundowntoBudmouth。Hewasaverygoodfigure:nowwhowashe?\' \'I——Iwon\'ttell,madam——Icannotindeed!\' \'Won\'ttell——verywell,don\'t。Youareveryfoolishtotreasureuphisnameandimageasyoudo。Why,hehashadlovesbeforeyou,trusthimforthat,whoeverheis,andyouarebutatemporarylinkinalongchainofotherslikeyou:whoonlyhaveyourlittledayastheyhavehadtheirs。\' \'\'Tisn\'ttrue!\'tisn\'ttrue!\'tisn\'ttrue!\'criedCythereainanagonyoftorture。\'Hehasneverlovedanybodyelse,Iknow——Iamsurehehasn\'t。\' MissAldclyffewasasjealousasanymancouldhavebeen。Shecontinued—— \'Heseesabeautifulfaceandthinkshewillneverforgetit,butinafewweeksthefeelingpassesoff,andhewondershowhecouldhavecaredforanybodysoabsurdlymuch。\' \'No,no,hedoesn\'t——Whatdoeshedowhenhehasthoughtthat——Come,tellme——tellme!\' \'Youareashotasfire,andthethrobbingofyourheartmakesmenervous。Ican\'ttellyouifyougetinthatflusteredstate。\' \'Do,dotell——O,itmakesmesomiserable!buttell——cometellme!\' \'Ah——thetablesareturnednow,dear!\'shecontinued,inatonewhichmingledpitywithderision—— \'“Love\'spassionsshallrocktheeAsthestormrockstheravensonhigh,BrightreasonwillmocktheeLikethesunfromawintrysky。“ \'Whatdoeshedonext?——Why,thisiswhathedoesnext:ruminateonwhathehasheardofwomen\'sromanticimpulses,andhoweasilymentorturethemwhentheyhavegivenwaytothosefeelings,andhaveresignedeverythingfortheirhero。Itmaybethatthoughhelovesyouheartilynow——thatis,asheartilyasamancan——andyoulovehiminreturn,yourlovesmaybeimpracticableandhopeless,andyoumaybeseparatedforever。You,astheweary,wearyyearspassbywillfadeandfade——brighteyesWILLfade——andyouwillperhapsthendieearly——truetohimtoyourlatestbreath,andbelievinghimtobetruetothelatestbreathalso;whilsthe,insomegayandbusyspotfarawayfromyourlastquietnook,willhavemarriedsomedashinglady,andnotpurelyobliviousofyou,willlonghaveceasedtoregretyou——willchataboutyou,asyouwereinlongpastyears—— willsay,“Ah,littleCythereausedtotieherhairlikethat——poorinnocenttrustingthing;itwasapleasantuselessidledream——thatdreamofmineforthemaidwiththebrighteyesandsimple,sillyheart;butIwasafoolishladatthattime。“ThenhewilltellthetaleofallyourlittleWillsandWont\'sandparticularways,andashespeaks,turntohiswifewithaplacidsmile。\' \'Itisnottrue!Hecan\'t,hec-can\'tbes-socruel——andyouarecrueltome——youare,youare!\'Shewasatlastdriventodesperation:hernaturalcommonsenseandshrewdnesshadseenallthroughthepiecehowimaginaryheremotionswere——shefeltherselftobeweakandfoolishinpermittingthemtorise;buteventhenshecouldnotcontrolthem:beagonizedshemust。Shewasonlyeighteen,andthelongday\'slabour,herweariness,herexcitement,hadcompletelyunnervedher,andwornherout:shewasbenthitherandthitherbythistyrannicalworkinguponherimagination,asayoungrushinthewind。Sheweptbitterly。\'AndnowthinkhowmuchIlikeyou,\'resumedMissAldclyffe,whenCythereagrewcalmer。\'I shallneverforgetyouforanybodyelse,asmendo——never。Iwillbeexactlyasamothertoyou。Nowwillyoupromisetolivewithmealways,andalwaysbetakencareof,andneverdeserted?\' \'Icannot。Iwillnotbeanybody\'smaidforanotherdayonanyconsideration。\' \'No,no,no。Youshan\'tbealady\'s-maid。Youshallbemycompanion。Iwillgetanothermaid。\' Companion——thatwasanewidea。Cythereacouldnotresisttheevidentlyheartfeltdesireofthestrange-temperedwomanforherpresence。Butshecouldnottrusttothemoment\'simpulse。 \'Iwillstay,Ithink。Butdonotaskforafinalanswerto-night。\' \'Nevermindnow,then。Putyourhairroundyourmamma\'sneck,andgivemeonegoodlongkiss,andIwon\'ttalkanymoreinthatwayaboutyourlover。Afterall,someyoungmenarenotsofickleasothers;butevenifhe\'stheficklest,thereisconsolation。Theloveofaninconstantmanistentimesmoreardentthanthatofafaithfulman——thatis,whileitlasts。\' Cythereadidasshewastold,toescapethepunishmentoffurthertalk;flungthetwiningtressesofherlong,richhairoverMissAldclyffe\'sshouldersasdirected,andthetwoceasedconversing,makingthemselvesupforsleep。MissAldclyffeseemedtogiveherselfovertoaluxurioussenseofcontentandquiet,asifthemaidenathersideaffordedheraprotectionagainstdangerswhichhadmenacedherforyears;shewassoonsleepingcalmly。 2。TWOTOFIVEA。M。 WithCythereaitwasotherwise。Unusedtotheplaceandcircumstances,shecontinuedwakeful,illatease,andmentallydistressed。Shewithdrewherselffromhercompanion\'sembrace,turnedtotheotherside,andendeavouredtorelieveherbusybrainbylookingatthewindow-blind,andnoticingthelightoftherisingmoon——nowinherlastquarter——creeprounduponit:itwasthelightofanoldwaningmoonwhichhadbutafewdayslongertolive。 Thesightledhertothinkagainofwhathadhappenedundertheraysofthesamemonth\'smoon,alittlebeforeitsfull,theecstaticeveningscenewithEdward:thekiss,andtheshortnessofthosehappymoments——maidenimaginationbringingabouttheapotheosisofastatusquowhichhadhadseveralunpleasantnessesinitsearthlyreality。 Butsoundswereintheascendantthatnight。Herearsbecameawareofastrangeandgloomymurmur。 Sherecognizedit:itwasthegushingofthewaterfall,faintandlow,broughtfromitssourcetotheunwonteddistanceoftheHousebyafaintbreezewhichmadeitdistinctandrecognizablebyreasonoftheutterabsenceofalldisturbingsounds。Thegroom\'smelancholyrepresentationlenttothesoundamoredismaleffectthanitwouldhavehadofitsownnature。Shebegantofancywhatthewaterfallmustbelikeatthathour,underthetreesintheghostlymoonlight。Blackatthehead,andoverthesurfaceofthedeepcoldholeintowhichitfell;whiteandfrothyatthefall; blackandwhite,likeapallanditsborder;sadeverywhere。 Shewasinthemoodforsoundsofeverykindnow,andstrainedherearstocatchthefaintest,inwaywardenmitytoherquietofmind。 Anothersooncame。