She\'sanextraordinarypictureofwomankind——veryextraordinary。\'
\'Inwhatwaybesides?\'
\'You\'llknowsoonenough,miss。Shehashadsevenlady\'s-maidsthislasttwelvemonth。Iassureyou\'tisonebody\'sworktofetch\'emfromthestationandtake\'embackagain。TheLordmustbeaneglectfulpartyatheart,orhe\'dneverpermitsuchoverbearengoingson!\'
\'Doesshedismissthemdirectlytheycome!\'
\'Notatall——sheneverdismissesthem——theygotheirselves。Yesee\'tislikethis。She\'sgotaveryquicktemper;shefleesinapassionwiththemfornothingatall;nextmornentheycomeupandsaytheyaregoing;she\'ssorryforitandwishesthey\'dstay,butshe\'sasproudasalucifer,andherpridewon\'tlethersay,“Stay,“andawaytheygo。\'Tislikethisinfact。Ifyousaytoheraboutanybody,“Ah,poorthing!”shesays,“Pooh!indeed!”Ifyousay,“Pooh,indeed!”“Ah,poorthing!”shesaysdirectly。Shehangsthechiefbaker,asmidbe,andrestoresthechiefbutler,asmidbe,thoughthedevilbutPharaohherselfcanseethedifferencebetween\'em。\'
Cythereawassilent。Shefearedshemightbeagainaburdentoherbrother。
\'However,youstandaverygoodchance,\'themanwenton,\'forI
thinkshelikesyoumorethancommon。Ihaveneverknownhersendthepony-carriagetomeetonebefore;\'tisalwaysthetrap,butthistimeshesaid,inaveryparticularladyliketone,“Roobert,gaowwiththepony-kerriage。“……There,\'tistrue,ponyandcarriagetooaregettenrathershabbynow,\'headded,lookingrounduponthevehicleasiftokeepCytherea\'spridewithinreasonablelimits。
\'\'Tistobehopedyou\'llpleaseindressenherto-night。\'
\'Whyto-night?\'
\'There\'sadinner-partyofseventeen;\'tisherfather\'sbirthday,andshe\'sveryparticularaboutherlooksatsuchtimes。Nowsee;
thisisthehouse。Livelieruphere,isn\'tit,miss?\'
Theywerenowonrisingground,andhadjustemergedfromaclumpoftrees。Stillalittlehigherthanwheretheystoodwassituatedthemansion,calledKnapwaterHouse,theofficesgraduallylosingthemselvesamongthetreesbehind。
2。EVENING
Thehousewasregularlyandsubstantiallybuiltofcleangreyfreestonethroughout,inthatplainerfashionofGreekclassicismwhichprevailedatthelatterendofthelastcentury,whenthecopyistscalleddesignershadgrownwearyoffantasticvariationsintheRomanorders。Themainblockapproximatedtoasquareonthegroundplan,havingaprojectioninthecentreofeachside,surmountedbyapediment。Fromeachangleoftheinferiorsideranalineofbuildingslowerthantherest,turninginwardsagainattheirfurtherend,andformingwithinthemaspaciousopencourt,withinwhichresoundedanechoofastonishingclearness。Theseerectionswereintheirturnbackedbyivy-coveredice-houses,laundries,andstables,thewholemassofsubsidiarybuildingsbeinghalfburiedbeneathclose-setshrubsandtrees。
Therewasopeningsufficientthroughthefoliageontherighthandtoenableheronnearerapproachtoformanideaofthearrangementoftheremoterorlawnfrontalso。Thenaturalfeaturesandcontourofthisquarterofthesitehadevidentlydictatedthepositionofthehouseprimarily,andwereoftheordinary,anduponthewhole,mostsatisfactorykind,namely,abroad,gracefulsloperunningfromtheterracebeneaththewallstothemarginofaplacidlakelyingbelow,uponthesurfaceofwhichadozenswansandagreenpuntfloatedatleisure。Anirregularwoodedislandstoodinthemidstofthelake;beyondthisandthefurthermarginofthewaterwereplantationsandgreenswardofvariedoutlines,thetreesheightening,byhalfveiling,thesoftnessoftheexquisitelandscapestretchingbehind。
Theglimpsesshehadobtainedofthisportionwerenowcheckedbytheangleofthebuilding。Inaminuteortwotheyreachedthesidedoor,atwhichCythereaalighted。Shewaswelcomedbyanelderlywomanoflengthysmilesandgeneralpleasantness,whoannouncedherselftobeMrs。Morris,thehousekeeper。
\'Mrs。Graye,Ibelieve?\'shesaid。
\'Iamnot——Oyes,yes,weareallmistresses,\'saidCytherea,smiling,butforcedly。Thetitleaccordedherseemeddisagreeablylikethefirstslightscarofabrand,andshethoughtofOwen\'sprophecy。
Mrs。MorrisledherintoacomfortableparlourcalledTheRoom。
Hereteawasmadeready,andCythereasatdown,looking,wheneveroccasionallowed,atMrs。Morriswithgreatinterestandcuriosity,todiscover,ifpossible,somethinginherwhichshouldgiveacluetothesecretofherknowledgeofherself,andtherecommendationbaseduponit。Butnothingwastobelearnt,atanyratejustthen。
Mrs。Morriswasperpetuallygettingup,feelinginherpockets,goingtocupboards,leavingtheroomtwoorthreeminutes,andtrottingbackagain。
\'You\'llexcuseme,Mrs。Graye,\'shesaid,\'but\'tistheoldgentleman\'sbirthday,andtheyalwayshavealotofpeopletodinneronthatday,thoughhe\'sgettingupinyearsnow。However,noneofthemaresleepers——shegenerallykeepsthehouseprettyclearoflodgers(beingaladywithnointimatefriends,thoughmanyacquaintances),which,thoughitgivesuslesstodo,makesitallthedullerfortheyoungermaidsinthehouse。\'Mrs。Morristhenproceededtogiveinfragmentaryspeechesanoutlineoftheconstitutionandgovernmentoftheestate。
\'Now,areyousureyouhavequitedonetea?Notabitordropmore?
Why,you\'veeatennothing,I\'msure……Well,now,itisratherinconvenientthattheothermaidisnotheretoshowyouthewaysofthehousealittle,butsheleftlastSaturday,andMissAldclyffehasbeenmakingshiftwithpooroldclumsymeforamaidallyesterdayandthismorning。Sheisnotcomeinyet。Iexpectshewillaskforyou,Mrs。Graye,thefirstthing……Iwasgoingtosaythatifyouhavereallydonetea,Iwilltakeyouupstairs,andshowyouthroughthewardrobes——MissAldclyffe\'sthingsarenotlaidoutforto-nightyet。\'
SheprecededCythereaupstairs,pointedoutherownroom,andthentookherintoMissAldclyffe\'sdressing-room,onthefirst-floor;
where,afterexplainingthewhereaboutsofvariousarticlesofapparel,thehousekeeperlefther,tellingherthatshehadanhouryetuponherhandsbeforedressing-time。Cytherealaidoutuponthebedinthenextroomallthatshehadbeentoldwouldberequiredthatevening,andthenwentagaintothelittleroomwhichhadbeenappropriatedtoherself。
Hereshesatdownbytheopenwindow,leantoutuponthesilllikeanotherBlessedDamozel,andlistlesslylookeddownuponthebrilliantpatternofcoloursformedbytheflower-bedsonthelawn——
nowrichlycrowdedwithlatesummerblossom。Butthevivacityofspiritwhichhadhithertoenlivenedher,wasfastebbingunderthepressureofprosaicrealities,andthewarmscarletofthegeraniums,glowingmostconspicuously,andminglingwiththevividcoldredandgreenoftheverbenas,therichdepthofthedahlia,andtheripemellownessofthecalceolaria,backedbythepalehueofaflockofmeeksheepfeedingintheopenpark,closetotheothersideofthefence,were,toagreatextent,lostuponhereyes。Shewasthinkingthatnothingseemedworthwhile;thatitwaspossibleshemightdieinaworkhouse;andwhatdiditmatter?Thepetty,vulgardetailsofservitudethatshehadjustpassedthrough,herdependenceuponthewhimsofastrangewoman,thenecessityofquenchingallindividualityofcharacterinherself,andrelinquishingherownpeculiartastestohelponthewheelofthisalienestablishment,madehersickandsad,andshealmostlongedtopursuesomefree,out-of-doorsemployment,sleepundertreesorahut,andknownoenemybutwinterandcoldweather,likeshepherdsandcowkeepers,andbirdsandanimals——ay,likethesheepshesawthereunderherwindow。Shelookedsympathizinglyatthemforseveralminutes,imaginingtheirenjoymentoftherichgrass。
\'Yes——likethosesheep,\'shesaidaloud;andherfacereddenedwithsurpriseatadiscoveryshemadethatveryinstant。
Theflockconsistedofsomeninetyorahundredyoungstockewes:
thesurfaceoftheirfleecewasasroundedandevenasacushion,andwhiteasmilk。Nowshehadjustobservedthatontheleftbuttockofeveryoneofthemweremarkedindistinctredletterstheinitials\'E。S。\'
\'E。S。\'couldbringtoCytherea\'smindonlyonethought;butthatimmediatelyandforever——thenameofherlover,EdwardSpringrove。
\'O,ifitshouldbe——!\'Sheinterruptedherwordsbyaresolve。
MissAldclyffe\'scarriageatthesamemomentmadeitsappearanceinthedrive;butMissAldclyffewasnotherobjectnow。Itwastoascertaintowhomthesheepbelonged,andtosethersurmiseatrestonewayortheother。SheflewdownstairstoMrs。Morris。
\'Whosesheeparethoseinthepark,Mrs。Morris?\'
\'FarmerSpringrove\'s。\'
\'WhatFarmerSpringroveisthat?\'shesaidquickly。
\'Why,surelyyouknow?Yourfriend,FarmerSpringrove,thecider-
maker,andwhokeepstheThreeTrantersInn;whorecommendedyoutomewhenhecameintoseemetheotherday?\'
Cytherea\'smother-witsuddenlywarnedherinthemidstofherexcitementthatitwasnecessarynottobetraythesecretofherlove。\'Oyes,\'shesaid,\'ofcourse。\'Herthoughtshadrunasfollowsinthatshortinterval:——
\'FarmerSpringroveisEdward\'sfather,andhisnameisEdwardtoo。
\'EdwardknewIwasgoingtoadvertiseforasituationofsomekind。
\'HewatchedtheTimes,andsawit,myaddressbeingattached。
\'Hethoughtitwouldbeexcellentformetobeherethatwemightmeetwheneverhecamehome。
\'HetoldhisfatherthatImightberecommendedasalady\'s-maid;
andheknewmybrotherandmyself。
\'HisfathertoldMrs。Morris;Mrs。MorristoldMissAldclyffe。\'
Thewholechainofincidentsthatdrewhertherewasplain,andtherewasnosuchthingaschanceinthematter。ItwasallEdward\'sdoing。
Thesoundofabellwasheard。Cythereadidnotheedit,andstillcontinuedinherreverie。
\'That\'sMissAldclyffe\'sbell,\'saidMrs。Morris。
\'Isupposeitis,\'saidtheyoungwomanplacidly。
\'Well,itmeansthatyoumustgouptoher,\'thematroncontinued,inatoneofsurprise。
Cythereafeltaburningheatcomeoverher,mingledwithasuddenirritationatMrs。Morris\'shint。Butthegoodsensewhichhadrecognizedsternnecessityprevailedoverrebelliousindependence;
theflushpassed,andshesaidhastily——
\'Yes,yes;ofcourse,Imustgotoherwhenshepullsthebell——
whetherIwanttoorno。\'
However,inspiteofthispainfulreminderofhernewpositioninlife,Cytherealefttheapartmentinamoodfardifferentfromthegloomysadnessoftenminutesprevious。Theplacefeltlikehometohernow;shedidnotmindthepettinessofheroccupation,becauseEdwardevidentlydidnotmindit;andthiswasEdward\'sownspot。
ShefoundtimeonherwaytoMissAldclyffe\'sdressing-roomtohurriedlyglideoutbyasidedoor,andlookforamomentattheunconscioussheepbearingthefriendlyinitials。Shewentuptothemtotrytotouchoneoftheflock,andfeltvexedthattheyallstaredscepticallyatherkindadvances,andthenranpell-melldownthehill。Then,fearinganyoneshoulddiscoverherchildishmovements,sheslippedindoorsagain,andascendedthestaircase,catchingglimpses,asshepassed,ofsilver-buttonedfootmen,whoflashedaboutthepassageslikelightning。
MissAldclyffe\'sdressing-roomwasanapartmentwhich,onacasualsurvey,conveyedanimpressionthatitwasavailableforalmostanypurposesavetheadornmentofthefeminineperson。Initshoursofperfectordernothingpertainingtothetoiletwasvisible;eventheinevitablemirrorswiththeiraccessorieswerearrangedinaroomyrecessnotnoticeablefromthedoor,lightedbyawindowofitsown,calledthedressing-window。
Thewashing-standfiguredasavastoakchest,carvedwithgrotesqueRenaissanceornament。Thedressingtablewasinappearancesomethingbetweenahighaltarandacabinetpiano,thesurfacebeingrichlyworkedinthesamestyleofsemi-classicdecoration,buttheextraordinaryoutlinehavingbeenarrivedatbyaningeniousjoineranddecoratorfromtheneighbouringtown,aftermonthsofpainfultoilincuttingandfitting,underMissAldclyffe\'simmediateeye;thematerialsbeingtheremainsoftwoorthreeoldcabinetstheladyhadfoundinthelumber-room。Abouttwo-thirdsofthefloorwascarpeted,theremainingportionbeinglaidwithparquetryoflightanddarkwoods。
MissAldclyffewasstandingatthelargerwindow,awayfromthedressing-niche。Shebowed,andsaidpleasantly,\'Iamgladyouhavecome。Weshallgetoncapitally,Idaresay。\'
Herbonnetwasoff。Cythereadidnotthinkhersohandsomeasontheearlierday;thequeenlinessofherbeautywasharderandlesswarm。ButaworsediscoverythanthiswasthatMissAldclyffe,withtheusualobliviousnessofrichpeopletotheirdependents\'
specialities,seemedtohavequiteforgottenCytherea\'sinexperience,andmechanicallydeliveredupherbodytoherhandmaidwithoutathoughtofdetails,andwithamildyawn。
Everythingwentwellatfirst。Thedresswasremoved,stockingsandblackbootsweretakenoff,andsilkstockingsandwhiteshoeswereputon。MissAldclyffethenretiredtobatheherhandsandface,andCythereadrewbreath。Ifshecouldgetthroughthisfirstevening,allwouldberight。Shefeltthatitwasunfortunatethatsuchacrucialtestforherpowersasabirthdaydinnershouldhavebeenappliedonthethresholdofherarrival;butsettoagain。
MissAldclyffewasnowarrayedinawhitedressing-gown,anddroppedlanguidlyintoaneasy-chair,pushedupbeforetheglass。TheinstinctsofhersexandherownpracticetoldCythereathenextmovement。SheletMissAldclyffe\'shairfallabouthershoulders,andbegantoarrangeit。Itprovedtobeallreal;asatisfaction。
MissAldclyffewasmusinglylookingonthefloor,andtheoperationwentonforsomeminutesinsilence。Atlengthherthoughtsseemedtoturntothepresent,andsheliftedhereyestotheglass。
\'Why,whatonearthareyoudoingwithmyhead?\'sheexclaimed,withwidelyopenedeyes。AtthewordsshefeltthebackofCytherea\'slittlehandtrembleagainstherneck。
\'Perhapsyoupreferitdonetheotherfashion,madam?\'saidthemaiden。
\'No,no;that\'sthefashionrightenough,butyoumustmakemoreshowofmyhairthanthat,orIshallhavetobuysome,whichGodforbid!\'
\'ItishowIdomyown,\'saidCythereanaively,andwithasweetnessoftonethatwouldhavepleasedthemostacrimoniousunderfavourablecircumstances;buttyrannywasintheascendantwithMissAldclyffeatthismoment,andshewasassuredofpalatablefoodforhervicebyhavingfeltthetremblingofCytherea\'shand。
\'Yours,indeed!YOURhair!Come,goon。\'ConsideringthatCythereapossessedatleastfivetimesasmuchofthatvaluableauxiliarytowoman\'sbeautyastheladybeforeher,therewasatthesametimesomeexcuseforMissAldclyffe\'soutburst。Sherememberedherself,however,andsaidmorequietly,\'Nowthen,Graye——By-the-
bye,whatdotheycallyoudownstairs?\'
\'Mrs。Graye,\'saidthehandmaid。
\'Thentellthemnottodoanysuchabsurdthing——notbutthatitisquiteaccordingtousage;butyouaretooyoungyet。\'
ThisdialoguetidedCythereasafelyonwardthroughthehairdressingtilltheflowersanddiamondsweretobeplaceduponthelady\'sbrow。Cythereabeganarrangingthemtastefully,andtotheverybestofherjudgment。
\'Thatwon\'tdo,\'saidMissAldclyffeharshly。
\'Why?\'
\'Ilooktooyoung——anolddresseddoll。\'
\'Willthat,madam?\'
\'No,Ilookafright——aperfectfright!\'
\'Thisway,perhaps?\'
\'Heavens!Don\'tworrymeso。\'Sheshutherlipslikeatrap。
Havingonceworkedherselfuptothebeliefthatherhead-dresswastobeafailurethatevening,noclevernessofCytherea\'sinarrangingitcouldpleaseher。Shecontinuedinasmoulderingpassionduringtheremainderoftheperformance,keepingherlipsfirmlyclosed,andthemusclesofherbodyrigid。Finally,snatchinguphergloves,andtakingherhandkerchiefandfaninherhand,shesilentlysailedoutoftheroom,withoutbetrayingtheleastconsciousnessofanotherwoman\'spresencebehindher。
Cytherea\'sfearsthatattheundressingthissuppressedangerwouldfindavent,keptheronthornsthroughouttheevening。Shetriedtoread;shecouldnot。Shetriedtosew;shecouldnot。Shetriedtomuse;shecouldnotdothatconnectedly。\'Ifthisisthebeginning,whatwilltheendbe!\'shesaidinawhisper,andfeltmanymisgivingsastothepolicyofbeingoverhastyinestablishinganindependenceattheexpenseofcongruitywithacherishedpast。
3。MIDNIGHT
Theclockstrucktwelve。TheAldclyffestatedinnerwasover。Thecompanyhadallgone,andMissAldclyffe\'sbellrangloudlyandjerkingly。
Cythereastartedtoherfeetatthesound,whichbrokeinuponafitfulsleepthathadovertakenher。Shehadbeensittingdrearilyinherchairwaitingminuteafterminuteforthesignal,herbraininthatstateofintentnesswhichtakescognizanceofthepassageofTimeasarealmotion——motionwithoutmatter——theinstantsthrobbingpastinthecompanyofafeverishpulse。Shehastenedtotheroom,tofindtheladysittingbeforethedressingshrine,illuminatedonbothsides,andlookingsoqueenlyinherattitudeofabsoluterepose,thattheyoungerwomanfelttheawfullestsenseofresponsibilityatherVandalisminhavingundertakentodemolishsoimposingapile。
Thelady\'sjewelledornamentsweretakenoffinsilence——somebyherownlistlesshands,somebyCytherea\'s。Thenfollowedtheouterstratumofclothing。Thedressbeingremoved,Cythereatookitinherhandandwentwithitintothebedroomadjoining,intendingtohangitinthewardrobe。Butonsecondthoughts,inorderthatshemightnotkeepMissAldclyffewaitingamomentlongerthannecessary,sheflungitdownonthefirstresting-placethatcametohand,whichhappenedtobethebed,andre-enteredthedressing-roomwiththenoiselessfootfallofakitten。Shepausedinthemiddleoftheroom。
Shewasunnoticed,andhersuddenreturnhadplainlynotbeenexpected。DuringtheshorttimeofCytherea\'sabsence,MissAldclyffehadpulledoffakindofchemisetteofBrusselsnet,drawnhighabovethethroat,whichshehadwornwithhereveningdressasasemi-opaquecoveringtohershoulders,andinitsplacehadputhernight-gownroundher。Herrighthandwasliftedtoherneck,asifengagedinfasteninghernight-gown。
ButonasecondglanceMissAldclyffe\'sproceedingwasclearertoCytherea。Shewasnotfasteninghernight-gown;ithadbeencarelesslythrownroundher,andMissAldclyffewasreallyoccupiedinholdinguptohereyessomesmallobjectthatshewaskeenlyscrutinizing。AndnowonsuddenlydiscoveringthepresenceofCythereaatthebackoftheapartment,insteadofnaturallycontinuingorconcludingherinspection,shedesistedhurriedly;thetinysnapofaspringwasheard,herhandwasremoved,andshebeganadjustingherrobes。
Modestymighthavedirectedherhastyactionofenwrappinghershoulders,butitwasscarcelylikely,consideringMissAldclyffe\'stemperament,thatshehadallherlifebeenusedtoamaid,Cytherea\'syouth,andtheelderlady\'smarkedtreatmentofherasifshewereamerechildorplaything。Thematterwastooslighttoreasonabout,andyetuponthewholeitseemedthatMissAldclyffemusthaveapracticalreasonforconcealingherneck。
WithatimidsenseofbeinganintruderCythereawasabouttostepbackandoutoftheroom;butatthesamemomentMissAldclyffeturned,sawtheimpulse,andtoldhercompaniontostay,lookingintohereyesasifshehadhalfanintentiontoexplainsomething。
Cythereafeltcertainitwasthelittlemysteryofherlatemovements。Theotherwithdrewhereyes;Cythereawenttofetchthedressing-gown,andwheeledroundagaintobringituptoMissAldclyffe,whohadnowpartlyremovedhernight-dresstoputitontheproperway,andstillsatwithherbacktowardsCytherea。
Herneckwasagainquiteopenanduncovered,andthoughhiddenfromthedirectlineofCytherea\'svision,shesawitreflectedintheglass——thefairwhitesurface,andtheinimitablecombinationofcurvesbetweenthroatandbosomwhichartistsadore,beingbrightlylitupbythelightburningoneitherside。
Andthelady\'spriorproceedingswerenowexplainedinthesimplestmanner。Inthemidstofherbreast,likeanislandinaseaofpearl,reclinedanexquisitelittlegoldlocket,embellishedwitharabesqueworkofblue,red,andwhiteenamel。ThatwasundoubtedlywhatMissAldclyffehadbeencontemplating;and,moreover,nothavingbeenputoffwithherotherornaments,itwastoberetainedduringthenight——aslightdeparturefromthecustomofladieswhichMissAldclyffehadatfirstnotcaredtoexhibittohernewassistant,thoughnow,onfurtherthought,sheseemedtohavebecomeindifferentonthematter。
\'Mydressing-gown,\'shesaid,quietlyfasteninghernight-dressasshespoke。
Cythereacameforwardwithit。MissAldclyffedidnotturnherhead,butlookedinquiringlyathermaidintheglass。
\'YousawwhatIwearonmyneck,Isuppose?\'shesaidtoCytherea\'sreflectedface。
\'Yes,madam,Idid,\'saidCythereatoMissAldclyffe\'sreflectedface。
MissAldclyffeagainlookedatCytherea\'sreflectionasifshewereonthepointofexplaining。Againshecheckedherresolve,andsaidlightly——
\'FewofmymaidsdiscoverthatIwearitalways。Igenerallykeepitasecret——notthatitmattersmuch。ButIwascarelesswithyou,andseemedtowanttotellyou。Youwinmetomakeconfidencesthat……\'
Sheceased,tookCytherea\'shandinherown,liftedthelocketwiththeother,touchedthespringanddisclosedaminiature。
\'Itisahandsomeface,isitnot?\'shewhisperedmournfully,andeventimidly。
\'Itis。\'
ButthesighthadgonethroughCytherealikeanelectricshock,andtherewasaninstantaneousawakeningofperceptioninher,sothrillinginitspresenceastobewell-nighinsupportable。Thefaceintheminiaturewasthefaceofherownfather——youngerandfresherthanshehadeverknownhim——butherfather!
Wasthisthewomanofhiswildandunquenchableearlylove?Andwasthisthewomanwhohadfiguredinthegate-man\'sstoryasansweringthenameofCythereabeforeherjudgmentwasawake?Surelyitwas。
Andifso,herewasthetangibleoutcropofaromanticandhiddenstratumofthepasthithertoseenonlyinherimagination;butasfarasherscopeallowed,clearlydefinedthereinbyreasonofitsstrangeness。
MissAldclyffe\'seyesandthoughtsweresointentupontheminiaturethatshehadnotbeenconsciousofCytherea\'sstartofsurprise。
Shewentonspeakinginalowandabstractedtone。
\'Yes,Ilosthim。\'Sheinterruptedherwordsbyashortmeditation,andwentonagain。\'Ilosthimbyexcessofhonestyasregardedmypast。Butitwasbestthatitshouldbeso……Iwasledtothinkrathermorethanusualofthecircumstancesto-nightbecauseofyourname。Itispronouncedthesameway,thoughdifferentlyspelt。\'
TheonlymeansbywhichCytherea\'ssurnamecouldhavebeenspelttoMissAldclyffemusthavebeenbyMrs。MorrisorFarmerSpringrove。
ShefanciedFarmerSpringrovewouldhavespeltitproperlyifEdwardwashisinformant,whichmadeMissAldclyffe\'sremarkobscure。
Womenmakeconfidencesandthenregretthem。TheimpulsiverushoffeelingwhichhadledMissAldclyffetoindulgeinthisrevelation,triflingasitwas,diedoutimmediatelyherwordswerebeyondrecall;andtheturmoil,occasionedinherbydwellinguponthatchapterofherlife,foundventinanotherkindofemotion——theresultofatrivialaccident。
Cytherea,afterlettingdownMissAldclyffe\'shair,adoptedsomeplanwithittowhichtheladyhadnotbeenaccustomed。Arapidrevulsiontoirritationensued。Themaiden\'smeretouchseemedtodischargethepent-upregretoftheladyasifshehadbeenajarofelectricity。
\'Howstrangelyyoutreatmyhair!\'sheexclaimed。
Asilence。
\'IhavetoldyouwhatInevertellmymaidsasarule;ofcourseNOTHINGthatIsayinthisroomistobementionedoutsideit。\'Shespokecrosslynolessthanemphatically。
\'Itshallnotbe,madam,\'saidCytherea,agitatedandvexedthatthewomanofherromanticwonderingsshouldbesodisagreeabletoher。
\'WhyonearthdidItellyouofmypast?\'shewenton。
Cythereamadenoanswer。
Thelady\'svexationwithherself,andtheaccidentwhichhadledtothedisclosureswelledlittlebylittletillitknewnobounds。Butwhatwasdonecouldnotbeundone,andthoughCythereahadshownamostwinningresponsiveness,quarrelMissAldclyffemust。SherecurredtothesubjectofCytherea\'swantofexpertness,likeabitterreviewer,whofindingthesentimentsofapoetunimpeachable,quarrelswithhisrhymes。
\'Never,neverbeforedidIservemyselfsuchatrickasthisinengagingamaid!\'Shewaitedforanexpostulation:nonecame。
MissAldclyffetriedagain。
\'Theideaofmytakingagirlwithoutaskinghermorethanthreequestions,orhavingasinglereference,allbecauseofhergoodl——
,theshapeofherfaceandbody!ItWASafool\'strick。There,I
amservedright,quiteright——bybeingdeceivedinsuchaway。\'
\'Ididn\'tdeceiveyou,\'saidCytherea。Thespeechwasanunfortunateone,andwasthevery\'fueltomaintainitsfires\'thattheother\'spetulancedesired。
\'Youdid,\'shesaidhotly。
\'ItoldyouIcouldn\'tpromisetobeacquaintedwitheverydetailofroutinejustatfirst。\'
\'Willyoucontradictmeinthisway!Youaretellinguntruths,I
say。\'
Cytherea\'slipquivered。\'Iwouldanswertheremarkif——if——\'
\'Ifwhat?\'
\'Ifitwerealady\'s!\'
\'Yougirlofimpudence——whatdoyousay?Leavetheroomthisinstant,Itellyou。\'
\'AndItellyouthatapersonwhospeakstoaladyasyoudotome,isnoladyherself!\'
\'Toalady?Alady\'s-maidspeaksinthisway。Theidea!\'
\'Don\'t“lady\'s-maid“me:nobodyismymistressIwon\'thaveit!\'
\'GoodHeavens!\'
\'Iwouldn\'thavecome——no——Iwouldn\'t!ifIhadknown!\'
\'What?\'
\'Thatyouweresuchanill-tempered,unjustwoman!\'
\'PossestbeyondtheMuse\'spainting,\'MissAldclyffeexclaimed——
\'AWoman,amI!I\'llteachyouifIamaWoman!\'andliftedherhandasifshewouldhavelikedtostrikehercompanion。Thisstungthemaidenintoabsolutedefiance。
\'Idareyoutotouchme!\'shecried。\'Strikemeifyoudare,madam!
Iamnotafraidofyou——whatdoyoumeanbysuchanactionasthat?\'
MissAldclyffewasdisconcertedatthisunexpectedshowofspirit,andashamedofherunladylikeimpulsenowitwasputintowords。
Shesankbackinthechair。\'Iwasnotgoingtostrikeyou——gotoyourroom——Ibegyoutogotoyourroom!\'sherepeatedinahuskywhisper。
Cytherea,redandpanting,tookuphercandlestickandadvancedtothetabletogetalight。Asshestoodclosetothemtheraysfromthecandlesstrucksharplyonherface。Sheusuallyboreamuchstrongerlikenesstohermotherthantoherfather,butnow,lookingwithagrave,reckless,andangeredexpressionofcountenanceatthekindlingwickasshehelditslantingintotheotherflame,herfather\'sfeaturesweredistinctinher。ItwasthefirsttimeMissAldclyffehadseenherinapassionatemood,andwearingthatexpressionwhichwasinvariablyitsconcomitant。ItwasMissAldclyffe\'sturntostartnow;andtheremarkshemadewasaninstanceofthatsuddenchangeoftonefromhigh-flowninvectivetothepettinessofcuriositywhichsooftenmakeswomen\'squarrelsridiculous。EvenMissAldclyffe\'sdignityhadnotsufficientpowertopostponetheabsorbingdesireshenowfelttosettlethestrangesuspicionthathadenteredherhead。
\'Youspellyournamethecommonway,G,R,E,Y,don\'tyou?\'shesaid,withassumedindifference。
\'No,\'saidCytherea,poisedonthesideofherfoot,andstilllookingintotheflame。
\'Yes,surely?Thenamewasspeltthatwayonyourboxes:Ilookedandsawitmyself。\'
TheenigmaofMissAldclyffe\'smistakewassolved。\'O,wasit?\'
saidCytherea。\'Ah,IrememberMrs。Jackson,thelodging-housekeeperatBudmouth,labelledthem。WespellournameG,R,A,Y,E。\'
\'Whatwasyourfather\'strade?\'
Cythereathoughtitwouldbeuselesstoattempttoconcealfactsanylonger。\'Hiswasnotatrade,\'shesaid。\'Hewasanarchitect。\'
\'Theideaofyourbeinganarchitect\'sdaughter!\'
\'There\'snothingtooffend,youinthat,Ihope?\'
\'Ono。\'
\'Whydidyousay“theidea“?\'
\'Leavethatalone。DidheevervisitinGowerStreet,Bloomsbury,oneChristmas,manyyearsago?——butyouwouldnotknowthat。\'
\'IhaveheardhimsaythatMr。Huntway,acuratesomewhereinthatpartofLondon,andwhodiedthere,wasanoldcollegefriendofhis。\'
\'WhatisyourChristianname?\'
\'Cytherea。\'
\'No!Andisitreally?AndyouknewthatfaceIshowedyou?Yes,Iseeyoudid。\'MissAldclyffestopped,andclosedherlipsimpassibly。Shewasalittleagitated。
\'Doyouwantmeanylonger?\'saidCytherea,standingcandleinhandandlookingquietlyinMissAldclyffe\'sface。
\'Well——no:nolonger,\'saidtheotherlingeringly。
\'Withyourpermission,Iwillleavethehousetomorrowmorning,madam。\'
\'Ah。\'MissAldclyffehadnonotionofwhatshewassaying。
\'AndIknowyouwillbesogoodasnottointrudeuponmeduringtheshortremainderofmystay?\'
SayingthisCytherealefttheroombeforehercompanionhadanswered。MissAldclyffe,then,hadrecognizedheratlast,andhadbeencuriousabouthernamefromthebeginning。
Theothermembersofthehouseholdhadretiredtorest。AsCythereawentalongthepassageleadingtoherroomherskirtsrustledagainstthepartition。Adooronherleftopened,andMrs。Morrislookedout。
\'Iwaitedoutofbedtillyoucameup,\'shesaid,\'itbeingyourfirstnight,incaseyoushouldbeatalossforanything。HowhaveyougotonwithMissAldclyffe?\'
\'Prettywell——thoughnotsowellasIcouldhavewished。\'
\'Hasshebeenscolding?\'
\'Alittle。\'
\'She\'saveryoddlady——\'tisallonewayortheotherwithher。
She\'snotbadatheart,butunbearableinclosequarters。Thoseofuswhodon\'thavemuchtodowithherpersonally,stayonforyearsandyears。\'
\'HasMissAldclyffe\'sfamilyalwaysbeenrich?\'saidCytherea。
\'Ono。Theproperty,withthename,camefromhermother\'suncle。
HerfamilyisabranchoftheoldAldclyffefamilyonthematernalside。HermothermarriedaBradleigh——amerenobodyatthattime——
andwasonthataccountcutbyherrelations。Butverysingularlytheotherbranchofthefamilydiedoutonebyone——threeofthem,andMissAldclyffe\'sgreat-unclethenleftallhisproperty,includingthisestate,toCaptainBradleighandhiswife——MissAldclyffe\'sfatherandmother——onconditionthattheytooktheoldfamilynameaswell。There\'sallaboutitinthe“LandedGentry。“
\'Tisathingveryoftendone。\'
\'O,Isee。Thankyou。Well,nowIamgoing。Good-night。\'
VI。THEEVENTSOFTWELVEHOURS
1。AUGUSTTHENINTH。ONETOTWOO\'CLOCKA。M。
Cythereaenteredherbedroom,andflungherselfonthe,bed,bewilderedbyawhirlofthought。Onlyonesubjectwasclearinhermind,anditwasthat,inspiteoffamilydiscoveries,thatdaywastobethefirstandlastofherexperienceasalady\'s-maid。
Starvationitselfshouldnotcompelhertoholdsuchahumiliatingpostforanotherinstant。\'Ah,\'shethought,withasigh,atthemartyrdomofherlastlittlefragmentofself-conceit,\'OwenknowseverythingbetterthanI。\'
Shejumpedupandbeganmakingreadyforherdepartureinthemorning,thetearsstreamingdownwhenshegrievedandwonderedwhatpracticalmatteronearthshecouldturnherhandtonext。Allthesepreparationscompleted,shebegantoundress,hermindunconsciouslydriftingawaytothecontemplationofherlatesurprises。Tolookintheglassforaninstantatthereflectionofherownmagnificentresourcesinfaceandbosom,andtomarktheirattractivenessunadorned,wasperhapsbutthenaturalactionofayoungwomanwhohadsolatelybeenchiddenwhilstpassingthroughtheharassingexperienceofdecoratinganolderbeautyofMissAldclyffe\'stemper。
Butshedirectlycheckedherweaknessbysympathizingreflectionsonthehiddentroubleswhichmusthavethrongedthepastyearsofthesolitarylady,tokeepher,thoughsorichandcourted,inamoodsorepellentandgloomyasthatinwhichCythereafoundher;andthentheyounggirlmarvelledagainandagain,asshehadmarvelledbefore,atthestrangeconfluenceofcircumstanceswhichhadbroughtherselfintocontactwiththeonewomanintheworldwhosehistorywassoromanticallyintertwinedwithherown。Shealmostbegantowishshewerenotobligedtogoawayandleavethelonelybeingtolonelinessstill。
Inbedandinthedark,MissAldclyffehauntedhermindmorepersistentlythanever。Insteadofsleeping,shecalledupstaringvisionsofthepossiblepastofthisqueenlylady,hermother\'srival。Upthelongvistaofbygoneyearsshesaw,behindall,theyounggirl\'sflirtation,littleormuch,withthecousin,thatseemedtohavebeennippedinthebud,ortohaveterminatedhastilyinsomeway。ThenthesecretmeetingsbetweenMissAldclyffeandtheotherwomanatthelittleinnatHammersmithandotherplaces:
thecommonplacenamesheadopted:herswoonatsomepainfulnews,andtheveryslightknowledgetheelderfemalehadofherpartnerinmystery。Then,morethanayearafterwards,theacquaintanceshipofherownfatherwiththishisfirstlove;theawakeningofthepassion,hisactsofdevotion,theunreasoningheatofhisrapture,hertacitacceptanceofit,andyetheruneasinessunderthedelight。Thenhisdeclarationamidtheevergreens:theutterchangeproducedinhermannerthereby,seeminglytheresultofarigiddetermination:andthetotalconcealmentofherreasonbyherselfandherparents,whateveritwas。Thenthelady\'scoursedroppedintodarkness,andnothingmorewasvisibletillshewasdiscoveredhereatKnapwater,nearlyfiftyyearsold,stillunmarriedandstillbeautiful,butlonely,embittered,andhaughty。
Cythereaimaginedthatherfather\'simagewasstillwarmlycherishedinMissAldclyffe\'sheart,andwasthankfulthatsheherselfhadnotbeenbetrayedintoannouncingthatsheknewmanyparticularsofthispageofherfather\'shistory,andthechiefone,thelady\'sunaccountablerenunciationofhim。Itwouldhavemadeherbearingtowardsthemistressofthemansionmoreawkward,andwouldhavebeennobenefittoeither。
Thusconjuringupthepast,andtheorizingonthepresent,shelayrestless,changingherposturefromonesidetotheotherandbackagain。Finally,whencourtingsleepwithallherart,sheheardaclockstriketwo。Aminutelater,andshefanciedshecoulddistinguishasoftrustleinthepassageoutsideherroom。
Toburyherheadinthesheetswasherfirstimpulse;thentouncoverit,raiseherselfonherelbow,andstretchhereyeswideopeninthedarkness;herlipsbeingpartedwiththeintentnessofherlistening。Whateverthenoisewas,ithadceasedforthetime。
Itbeganagainandcameclosetoherdoor,lightlytouchingthepanels。Thentherewasanotherstillness;Cythereamadeamovementwhichcausedafaintrustlingofthebed-clothes。
Beforeshehadtimetothinkanotherthoughtalighttapwasgiven。
Cythereabreathed:thepersonoutsidewasevidentlybentuponfindingherawake,andtherustleshehadmadehadencouragedthehope。Themaiden\'sphysicalconditionshiftedfromonepoletoitsopposite。Thecoldsweatofterrorforsookher,andmodestytookthealarm。Shebecamehotandred;herdoorwasnotlocked。
Adistinctwoman\'swhispercametoherthroughthekeyhole:
\'Cytherea!\'
OnlyonebeinginthehouseknewherChristianname,andthatwasMissAldclyffe。Cythereasteppedoutofbed,wenttothedoor,andwhisperedback,\'Yes?\'
\'Letmecomein,darling。\'
Theyoungwomanpausedinaconflictbetweenjudgmentandemotion。
Itwasnowmistressandmaidnolonger;womanandwomanonly。Yes;
shemustlethercomein,poorthing。
Shegotalightinaninstant,openedthedoor,andraisinghereyesandthecandle,sawMissAldclyffestandingoutsideinherdressing-
gown。
\'Nowyouseethatitisreallymyself;putoutthelight,\'saidthevisitor。\'Iwanttostayherewithyou,Cythie。Icametoaskyoutocomedownintomybed,butitissnuggerhere。Butrememberthatyouaremistressinthisroom,andthatIhavenobusinesshere,andthatyoumaysendmeawayifyouchoose。ShallIgo?\'
\'Ono;youshan\'tindeedifyoudon\'twantto,\'saidCythiegenerously。
TheinstanttheywereinbedMissAldclyffefreedherselffromthelastremnantofrestraint。Sheflungherarmsroundtheyounggirl,andpressedhergentlytoherheart。
\'Nowkissme,\'shesaid。
Cytherea,uponthewhole,wasratherdiscomposedatthischangeoftreatment;and,discomposedorno,herpassionswerenotsoimpetuousasMissAldclyffe\'s。Shecouldnotbringhersoultoherlipsforamoment,tryhowshewould。
\'Come,kissme,\'repeatedMissAldclyffe。
Cythereagaveheraverysmallone,assoftintouchandinsoundastheburstingofabubble。
\'Moreearnestlythanthat——come。\'
Shegaveanother,alittlebutnotmuchmoreexpressively。
\'Idon\'tdeserveamorefeelingone,Isuppose,\'saidMissAldclyffe,withanemphasisofsadbitternessinhertone。\'Iamanill-temperedwoman,youthink;halfoutofmymind。Well,perhapsI
am;butIhavehadgriefmorethanyoucanthinkordreamof。ButI
can\'thelplovingyou——yournameisthesameasmine——isn\'titstrange?\'
Cythereawasinclinedtosayno,butremainedsilent。
\'Now,don\'tyouthinkImustloveyou?\'continuedtheother。
\'Yes,\'saidCythereaabsently。ShewasstillthinkingwhetherdutytoOwenandherfather,whichaskedforsilenceonherknowledgeofherfather\'sunfortunatelove,ordutytothewomanembracingher,whichseemedtoaskforconfidence,oughttopredominate。Herewasasolution。ShewouldwaittillMissAldclyffereferredtoheracquaintanceshipandattachmenttoCytherea\'sfatherinpasttimes:
thenshewouldtellherallsheknew:thatwouldbehonour。
\'Whycan\'tyoukissmeasIcankissyou?Whycan\'tyou!\'SheimpresseduponCytherea\'slipsawarmmotherlysalute,givenasifintheoutburstofstrongfeeling,longchecked,andyearningforsomethingtoloveandbelovedbyinreturn。
\'Doyouthinkbadlyofmeformybehaviourthisevening,child?I
don\'tknowwhyIamsofoolishastospeaktoyouinthisway。Iamaveryfool,Ibelieve。Yes。Howoldareyou?\'
\'Eighteen。\'
\'Eighteen!……Well,whydon\'tyouaskmehowoldIam?\'
\'BecauseIdon\'twanttoknow。\'
\'Nevermindifyoudon\'t。Iamforty-six;anditgivesmegreaterpleasuretotellyouthisthanitdoestoyoutolisten。Ihavenottoldmyagetrulyforthelasttwentyyearstillnow。\'
\'Whyhaven\'tyou?\'
\'Ihavemetdeceitbydeceit,tillIamwearyofit——weary,weary——
andIlongtobewhatIshallneverbeagain——artlessandinnocent,likeyou。ButIsupposethatyou,too,will,provetobenotworthathought,aseverynewfrienddoesonmoreintimateknowledge。
Come,whydon\'tyoutalktome,child?Haveyousaidyourprayers?\'
\'Yes——no!Iforgotthemto-night。\'
\'Isupposeyousaythemeverynightasarule?\'
\'Yes。\'
\'Whydoyoudothat?\'
\'BecauseIhavealwaysdoneso,anditwouldseemstrangeifIwerenotto。Doyou?\'
\'I?Awickedoldsinnerlikeme!No,Ineverdo。Ihavethoughtallsuchmattershumbugforyears——thoughtsosolongthatIshouldbegladtothinkotherwisefromveryweariness;andyet,suchisthecodeofthepoliteworld,thatIsubscriberegularlytoMissionarySocietiesandothersofthesort……Well,sayyourprayers,dear——youwon\'tomitthemnowyourecollectit。Ishouldliketohearyouverymuch。Willyou?\'
\'Itseemshardly——\'
\'Itwouldseemsolikeoldtimestome——whenIwasyoung,andnearer——farnearerHeaventhanIamnow。Do,sweetone,\'
Cythereawasembarrassed,andherembarrassmentarosefromthefollowingconjunctureofaffairs。SinceshehadlovedEdwardSpringrove,shehadlinkedhisnamewithherbrotherOwen\'sinhernightlysupplicationstotheAlmighty。Shewishedtokeepherloveforhimasecret,and,aboveall,asecretfromawomanlikeMissAldclyffe;yetherconscienceandthehonestyofherlovewouldnotforaninstantallowhertothinkofomittinghisdearname,andsoendangertheefficacyofallherpreviousprayersforhissuccessbyanunworthyshamenow:itwouldbewickedofher,shethought,andagrievouswrongtohim。Underanyworldlycircumstancesshemighthavethoughtthepositionjustifiedalittlefinesse,andhaveskippedhimforonce;butprayerwastoosolemnathingforsuchtrifling。
\'Iwouldrathernotsaythem,\'shemurmuredfirst。Itstruckherthenthatthisdecliningaltogetherwasthesamecowardiceinanotherdress,andwasdeliveringherpoorEdwardovertoSatanjustasunceremoniouslyasbefore。\'Yes;Iwillsaymyprayers,andyoushallhearme,\'sheaddedfirmly。
Sheturnedherfacetothepillowandrepeatedinlowsofttonesthesimplewordsshehadusedfromchildhoodonsuchoccasions。Owen\'snamewasmentionedwithoutfaltering,butintheothercase,maidenlyshynesswastoostrongevenforreligion,andthatwhensupportedbyexcellentintentions。AtthenameofEdwardshestammered,andhervoicesanktothefaintestwhisperinspiteofher。
\'Thankyou,dearest,\'saidMissAldclyffe。\'Ihaveprayedtoo,I
verilybelieve。Youareagoodgirl,Ithink。\'Thentheexpectedquestioncame。
\'“BlessOwen,“andwhom,didyousay?\'
Therewasnohelpforitnow,andoutitcame。\'OwenandEdward,\'
saidCytherea。
\'WhoareOwenandEdward?\'
\'Owenismybrother,madam,\'falteredthemaid。
\'Ah,Iremember。WhoisEdward?\'
Asilence。
\'Yourbrother,too?\'continuedMissAldclyffe。
\'No。\'
MissAldclyffereflectedamoment。\'Don\'tyouwanttotellmewhoEdwardis?\'shesaidatlast,inatoneofmeaning。
\'Idon\'tmindtelling;only……\'
\'Youwouldrathernot,Isuppose?\'
\'Yes。\'
MissAldclyffeshiftedherground。\'Wereyoueverinlove?\'sheinquiredsuddenly。
Cythereawassurprisedtohearhowquicklythevoicehadalteredfromtendernesstoharshness,vexation,anddisappointment。
\'Yes——IthinkIwas——once,\'shemurmured。
\'Aha!Andwereyoueverkissedbyaman?\'
Apause。
\'Well,wereyou?\'saidMissAldclyffe,rathersharply。
\'Don\'tpressmetotell——Ican\'t——indeed,Iwon\'t,madam!\'
MissAldclyfferemovedherarmsfromCytherea\'sneck。\'\'Tisnowwithyouasitisalwayswithallgirls,\'shesaid,injealousandgloomyaccents。\'Youarenot,afterall,theinnocentItookyoufor。No,no。\'Shethenchangedhertonewithfitfulrapidity。
\'Cytherea,trytolovememorethanyoulovehim——do。Iloveyoumoresincerelythananymancan。Do,Cythie:don\'tletanymanstandbetweenus。O,Ican\'tbearthat!\'SheclaspedCytherea\'sneckagain。
\'ImustlovehimnowIhavebegun,\'repliedtheother。
\'Must——yes——must,\'saidtheelderladyreproachfully。\'Yes,womenareallalike。IthoughtIhadatlastfoundanartlesswomanwhohadnotbeensulliedbyaman\'slips,andwhohadnotpractisedorbeenpractiseduponbytheartswhichruinallthetruthandsweetnessandgoodnessinus。Findagirl,ifyoucan,whosemouthandearshavenotbeenmadearegularhighwayofbysomemanoranother!Leavetheadmittedlynotoriousspots——thedrawing-roomsofsociety——andlookinthevillages——leavethevillagesandsearchintheschools——andyoucanhardlyfindagirlwhosehearthasnotbeenHAD——isnotanoldthinghalfwornoutbysomeHeoranother!Ifmenonlyknewthestalenessofthefreshestofus!thatninetimesoutoftenthe“firstlove“theythinktheyarewinningfromawomanisbutthehulkofanoldwreckedaffection,fittedwithnewsailsandre-used。OCytherea,canitbethatyou,too,areliketherest?\'
\'No,no,no,\'urgedCytherea,awedbythestormshehadraisedintheimpetuouswoman\'smind。\'Heonlykissedmeonce——twiceImean。\'
\'Hemighthavedoneitathousandtimesifhehadcaredto,there\'snodoubtaboutthat,whoeverhislordshipis。YouareasbadasI——
weareallalike;andI——anoldfool——havebeensippingatyourmouthasifitwerehoney,becauseIfanciednowastingloverknewthespot。Butaminuteago,andyouseemedtomelikeafreshspringmeadow——nowyouseemadustyhighway。\'
\'Ono,no!\'Cythereawasnotweakenoughtoshedtearsexceptonextraordinaryoccasions,butshewasfaintobeginsobbingnow。ShewishedMissAldclyffewouldgotoherownroom,andleaveherandhertreasureddreamsalone。Thisvehementimperiousaffectionwasinonesensesoothing,butyetitwasnotofthekindthatCytherea\'sinstinctsdesired。Thoughitwasgenerous,itseemedsomewhattoorankandcapriciousforendurance。
\'Well,\'saidtheladyincontinuation,\'whoishe?\'
Hercompanionwasdesperatelydeterminednottotellhisname:shetoomuchfearedatauntwhenMissAldclyffe\'sfierymoodagainruledhertongue。
\'Won\'tyoutellme?nottellmeafteralltheaffectionIhaveshown?\'
\'Iwill,perhaps,anotherday。\'
\'DidyouwearahatandwhitefeatherinBudmouthfortheweekortwoprevioustoyourcominghere?\'
\'Yes。\'
\'ThenIhaveseenyouandyourloveratadistance!Herowedyouroundthebaywithyourbrother。\'
\'Yes。\'
\'Andwithoutyourbrother——fie!There,there,don\'tletthatlittleheartbeatitselftodeath:throb,throb:itshakesthebed,yousillything。Ididn\'tmeanthattherewasanyharmingoingalonewithhim。IonlysawyoufromtheEsplanade,incommonwiththerestofthepeople。IoftenrundowntoBudmouth。Hewasaverygoodfigure:nowwhowashe?\'
\'I——Iwon\'ttell,madam——Icannotindeed!\'
\'Won\'ttell——verywell,don\'t。Youareveryfoolishtotreasureuphisnameandimageasyoudo。Why,hehashadlovesbeforeyou,trusthimforthat,whoeverheis,andyouarebutatemporarylinkinalongchainofotherslikeyou:whoonlyhaveyourlittledayastheyhavehadtheirs。\'
\'\'Tisn\'ttrue!\'tisn\'ttrue!\'tisn\'ttrue!\'criedCythereainanagonyoftorture。\'Hehasneverlovedanybodyelse,Iknow——Iamsurehehasn\'t。\'
MissAldclyffewasasjealousasanymancouldhavebeen。Shecontinued——
\'Heseesabeautifulfaceandthinkshewillneverforgetit,butinafewweeksthefeelingpassesoff,andhewondershowhecouldhavecaredforanybodysoabsurdlymuch。\'
\'No,no,hedoesn\'t——Whatdoeshedowhenhehasthoughtthat——Come,tellme——tellme!\'
\'Youareashotasfire,andthethrobbingofyourheartmakesmenervous。Ican\'ttellyouifyougetinthatflusteredstate。\'
\'Do,dotell——O,itmakesmesomiserable!buttell——cometellme!\'
\'Ah——thetablesareturnednow,dear!\'shecontinued,inatonewhichmingledpitywithderision——
\'“Love\'spassionsshallrocktheeAsthestormrockstheravensonhigh,BrightreasonwillmocktheeLikethesunfromawintrysky。“
\'Whatdoeshedonext?——Why,thisiswhathedoesnext:ruminateonwhathehasheardofwomen\'sromanticimpulses,andhoweasilymentorturethemwhentheyhavegivenwaytothosefeelings,andhaveresignedeverythingfortheirhero。Itmaybethatthoughhelovesyouheartilynow——thatis,asheartilyasamancan——andyoulovehiminreturn,yourlovesmaybeimpracticableandhopeless,andyoumaybeseparatedforever。You,astheweary,wearyyearspassbywillfadeandfade——brighteyesWILLfade——andyouwillperhapsthendieearly——truetohimtoyourlatestbreath,andbelievinghimtobetruetothelatestbreathalso;whilsthe,insomegayandbusyspotfarawayfromyourlastquietnook,willhavemarriedsomedashinglady,andnotpurelyobliviousofyou,willlonghaveceasedtoregretyou——willchataboutyou,asyouwereinlongpastyears——
willsay,“Ah,littleCythereausedtotieherhairlikethat——poorinnocenttrustingthing;itwasapleasantuselessidledream——thatdreamofmineforthemaidwiththebrighteyesandsimple,sillyheart;butIwasafoolishladatthattime。“ThenhewilltellthetaleofallyourlittleWillsandWont\'sandparticularways,andashespeaks,turntohiswifewithaplacidsmile。\'
\'Itisnottrue!Hecan\'t,hec-can\'tbes-socruel——andyouarecrueltome——youare,youare!\'Shewasatlastdriventodesperation:hernaturalcommonsenseandshrewdnesshadseenallthroughthepiecehowimaginaryheremotionswere——shefeltherselftobeweakandfoolishinpermittingthemtorise;buteventhenshecouldnotcontrolthem:beagonizedshemust。Shewasonlyeighteen,andthelongday\'slabour,herweariness,herexcitement,hadcompletelyunnervedher,andwornherout:shewasbenthitherandthitherbythistyrannicalworkinguponherimagination,asayoungrushinthewind。Sheweptbitterly。\'AndnowthinkhowmuchIlikeyou,\'resumedMissAldclyffe,whenCythereagrewcalmer。\'I
shallneverforgetyouforanybodyelse,asmendo——never。Iwillbeexactlyasamothertoyou。Nowwillyoupromisetolivewithmealways,andalwaysbetakencareof,andneverdeserted?\'
\'Icannot。Iwillnotbeanybody\'smaidforanotherdayonanyconsideration。\'
\'No,no,no。Youshan\'tbealady\'s-maid。Youshallbemycompanion。Iwillgetanothermaid。\'
Companion——thatwasanewidea。Cythereacouldnotresisttheevidentlyheartfeltdesireofthestrange-temperedwomanforherpresence。Butshecouldnottrusttothemoment\'simpulse。
\'Iwillstay,Ithink。Butdonotaskforafinalanswerto-night。\'
\'Nevermindnow,then。Putyourhairroundyourmamma\'sneck,andgivemeonegoodlongkiss,andIwon\'ttalkanymoreinthatwayaboutyourlover。Afterall,someyoungmenarenotsofickleasothers;butevenifhe\'stheficklest,thereisconsolation。Theloveofaninconstantmanistentimesmoreardentthanthatofafaithfulman——thatis,whileitlasts。\'
Cythereadidasshewastold,toescapethepunishmentoffurthertalk;flungthetwiningtressesofherlong,richhairoverMissAldclyffe\'sshouldersasdirected,andthetwoceasedconversing,makingthemselvesupforsleep。MissAldclyffeseemedtogiveherselfovertoaluxurioussenseofcontentandquiet,asifthemaidenathersideaffordedheraprotectionagainstdangerswhichhadmenacedherforyears;shewassoonsleepingcalmly。
2。TWOTOFIVEA。M。
WithCythereaitwasotherwise。Unusedtotheplaceandcircumstances,shecontinuedwakeful,illatease,andmentallydistressed。Shewithdrewherselffromhercompanion\'sembrace,turnedtotheotherside,andendeavouredtorelieveherbusybrainbylookingatthewindow-blind,andnoticingthelightoftherisingmoon——nowinherlastquarter——creeprounduponit:itwasthelightofanoldwaningmoonwhichhadbutafewdayslongertolive。
Thesightledhertothinkagainofwhathadhappenedundertheraysofthesamemonth\'smoon,alittlebeforeitsfull,theecstaticeveningscenewithEdward:thekiss,andtheshortnessofthosehappymoments——maidenimaginationbringingabouttheapotheosisofastatusquowhichhadhadseveralunpleasantnessesinitsearthlyreality。
Butsoundswereintheascendantthatnight。Herearsbecameawareofastrangeandgloomymurmur。
Sherecognizedit:itwasthegushingofthewaterfall,faintandlow,broughtfromitssourcetotheunwonteddistanceoftheHousebyafaintbreezewhichmadeitdistinctandrecognizablebyreasonoftheutterabsenceofalldisturbingsounds。Thegroom\'smelancholyrepresentationlenttothesoundamoredismaleffectthanitwouldhavehadofitsownnature。Shebegantofancywhatthewaterfallmustbelikeatthathour,underthetreesintheghostlymoonlight。Blackatthehead,andoverthesurfaceofthedeepcoldholeintowhichitfell;whiteandfrothyatthefall;
blackandwhite,likeapallanditsborder;sadeverywhere。
Shewasinthemoodforsoundsofeverykindnow,andstrainedherearstocatchthefaintest,inwaywardenmitytoherquietofmind。
Anothersooncame。