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类别:其他 作者:Anthony Trollope字数:29753更新时间:18/12/21 14:45:11
Thiswasratheradifficultquestiontoanswer;andFrankwasnotveryquickinattemptingit。\'Iknowyouwillnotforgiveme,\'hesaidatlast;\'and,indeed,Idonotseehowyoucan。Idon\'tknowhowitcameabout;butthisiscertain,MissDunstable;Ihaveneverforamomentthoughtaboutyourfortune;thatis,thoughtaboutitinthewayofcovetingit。\' \'Youneverthoughtofmakingmeyourwife,then?\' \'Never,\'saidFrank,lookingboldlyintoherface。 \'Youneverintendedreallytoproposetogowithmetothealtar,andthenmakeyourselfrichbyonegreatperjury?\' \'Neverforamoment,\'saidhe。 \'Youhavenevergloatedovermeasthebirdofpreygloatsoverthepoorbeastthatissoontobecomecarrionbeneathitsclaws?Youhavenotcountedmeoutasequaltosomuchland,andcalculatedonmeasabalanceatyourbanker\'s?Ah,MrGresham,\'shecontinued,seeingthathestaredasthoughstruckalmostwithawebyherstronglanguage;\'youlittleguesswhatawomansituatedasIamhastosuffer。\' \'Ihavebehavedbadlytoyou,MissDunstable,andIbegyourpardon; butIhaveneverthoughtofyourmoney。\' \'Thenwewillbefriendsagain,MrGresham,won\'twe?Itissonicetohaveafriendlikeyou。There,IthinkIunderstanditnow;youneednottellme。\' \'Itwashalfbywayofmakingafoolofmyaunt,\'saidFrank,inanapologetictone。 \'Thereismeritinthat,atanyrate,\'saidMissDunstable。\'I understanditallnow;youthoughttomakeafoolofmeinrealearnest。Well,Icanforgivethat;atanyrateitisnotmean。\' Itmaybe,thatMissDunstabledidnotfeelmuchacuteangeratfindingthatthisyoungmanhadaddressedherwithwordsofloveinthecourseofanordinaryflirtation,althoughthatflirtationhadbeenunmeaningandsilly。Thiswasnottheoffenceagainstwhichherheartandbreasthadfoundpeculiarcausetoarmitself;thiswasnottheinjuryfromwhichshehadhithertoexperiencedsuffering。 Atanyrate,sheandFrankagainbecamefriends,and,beforetheeveningwasover,theyperfectlyunderstoodeachother。Twiceduringthislongtete-a-teteLadydeCourcycameintotheroomtoseehowthingsweregoingon,andtwiceshewentoutalmostunnoticed。Itwasquitecleartoherthatsomethinguncommonhadtakenplace,wastakingplace,orwouldtakeplace;andthatshouldthisbeforwealorforwoe,nogoodcouldnotcomefromherinterference。Oneachoccasion,therefore,shesmiledsweetlyonthepairofturtle-doves,andglidedoutoftheroomasquietlyasshehadglidedintoit。 Butatlastitbecamenecessarytoremovethem;fortheworldhadgonetobed。Frank,inthemeantime,hadtoldtoMissDunstableallhisloveforMaryThorne,andMissDunstablehadenjoinedhimtobetruetohisvows。Tohereyestherewassomethingofheavenlybeautyinyoung,truelove——ofbeautythatwasheavenlybecauseithadbeenunknowntoher。 \'Mindyouletmehear,MrGresham,\'saidshe。\'Mindyoudo;and,MrGresham,never,neverforgetherforonemoment;notforonemoment,MrGresham。\' Frankwasabouttoswearthatheneverwould——again,whenthecountess,forthethirdtime,sailedintotheroom。 \'Youngpeople,\'saidshe,\'doyouknowwhato\'clockitis?\' \'Dearme,LadydeCourcy,Ideclareitispasttwelve;Ireallyamashamedofmyself。Howgladyouwillbetogetridofmeto-morrow!\' \'No,no,indeedweshan\'t;shallwe,Frank?\'andsoMissDunstablepassedout。 Thenonceagaintheaunttappedhernephewwithherfan。Itwasthelasttimeinherlifethatshedidso。Helookedupinherface,andhislookwasenoughtotellherthattheacresofGreshamsburywerenottobereclaimedbytheointmentofLebanon。 Nothingfurtheronthesubjectwassaid。OnthefollowingmorningMissDunstabletookherdeparture,notmuchheedingtherathercoldwordsoffarewellwhichherhostessgaveher;andonthefollowingdayFrankstartedforGreshamsbury。 CHAPTERXXI MRMOFFATFALLSINTOTROUBLE Wewillnow,withthereader\'skindpermission,skipoversomemonthsinournarrative。FrankreturnedfromCourcyCastletoGreshamsbury,andhavingcommunicatedtohismother——muchinthesamemannerashehadtothecountess——thefactthathismissionhadbeenunsuccessful,hewentupafteradayortwotoCambridge。DuringhisshortstayatGreshamsburyhedidnotevencatchaglimpseofMary。Heaskedforher,ofcourse,andwastoldthatitwasnotlikelythatshewouldbeatthehousejustatpresent。Hecalledatthedoctor\'s,butshewasdeniedtohimthere;\'shewasout,\'Janetsaid,——\'probablywithMissOriel。\'HewenttotheparsonageandfoundMissOrielathome;butMaryhadnotbeenseenthatmorning。Hethenreturnedtothehouse; and,havingcometotheconclusionthatshehadnotthusvanishedintoair,otherwisethanbypreconcertedarrangement,heboldlytaxedBeatriceonthesubject。 Beatricelookedverydemure;declaredthatnooneinthehousehadquarrelledwithMary;confessedthatithadbeenthoughtprudentthatsheshouldforawhilestayawayfromGreshamsbury;and,ofcourse,endedbytellingherbrothereverything,includingallthescenesthathadpassedbetweenMaryandherself。 \'Itisoutofthequestionyourthinkingofmarryingher,Frank,\'saidshe。\'YoumustknowthatnobodyfeelsitmorestronglythanpoorMaryherself;\'andBeatricelookedtheverypersonificationofdomesticprudence。 \'Iknownothingofthekind,\'saidhe,withtheheadlongimperativeairthatwasusualwithhimindiscussingmatterswithhissisters。\'I knownothingofthekind。OfcourseIcannotsaywhatMary\'sfeelingsmaybe:aprettylifeshemusthavehadofitamongyou。Butyoumaybesureofthis,Beatrice,andsomaymymother,thatnothingonearthshallmakemegiveherup——nothing。\'AndFrank,ashemadethisprotestation,strengthenedhisownresolutionbythinkingofallthecounselthatMissDunstablehadgivenhim。 Thebrotherandsistercouldhardlyagree,asBeatricewasdeadagainstthematch。NotthatshewouldnothavelikedMaryThorneforasister-in-law,butthatshesharedtoacertaindegreethefeelingwhichwasnowcommontoalltheGreshams——thatFrankmustmarrymoney。 Itseemed,atanyrate,tobeimperativethatheshouldeitherdothatornotmarryatall。PoorBeatricewasnotverymercenaryinherviews:shehadnowishtosacrificeherbrothertoanyMissDunstable; butyetshefelt,astheyallfelt——MaryThorneincluded——thatsuchasamatchasthat,oftheyoungheirwiththedoctor\'sniece,wasnottobethoughtof;——nottobespokenofasathingthatwasinanywaypossible。Therefore,Beatrice,thoughshewasMary\'sgreatfriend,thoughshewasherbrother\'sfavouritesister,couldgiveFranknoencouragement。PoorFrank!circumstanceshadmadebutonebridepossibletohim:hemustmarrymoney。 Hismothersaidnothingtohimonthesubject:whenshelearntthattheaffairwithMissDunstablewasnottocomeoff,shemerelyremarkedthatitwouldperhapsbebestforhimtoreturntoCambridgeassoonaspossible。Hadshespokenhermindout,shewouldprobablyhavealsoadvisedhimtoremainthereaslongaspossible。ThecountesshadnotomittedtowritetoherwhenFrankhadleftCourcyCastle;andthecountess\'slettercertainlymadetheanxiousmotherthinkthatherson\'seducationhadhardlyyetbeencompleted。Withthissecondaryobject,butwiththatofkeepinghimoutofthewayofMaryThorneinthefirstplace,LadyArabellawasnowquitesatisfiedthathersonshouldenjoysuchadvantagesasaneducationcompletedattheuniversitymightgivehim。 WithhisfatherFrankhadalongconversation;but,alas!thegistofhisfather\'sconversationwasthis,thatitbehovedhim,Frank,tomarrymoney。Thefather,however,didnotputittohiminthecold,callouswayinwhichhislady-aunthaddone,andhislady-mother。Hedidnotbidhimgoandsellhimselftothefirstfemalehecouldfindpossessedofwealth。Itwaswithinwardself-reproaches,andtruegriefofspirit,thatthefathertoldthesonthatitwasnotpossibleforhimtodoasthosewhomaydowhoarebornreallyrich,orreallypoor。 \'Ifyoumarryagirlwithoutafortune,Frank,howareyoutolive?\' thefatherasked,afterhavingconfessedhowdeephehimselfhadinjuredhisownheir。 \'Idon\'tcareaboutmoney,sir,\'saidFrank。\'IshallbejustashappyifBoxallHillhadneverbeensold。Idon\'tcareastrawaboutthatsortofthing。\' \'Ah!myboy;butyouwillcare:youwillsoonfindthatyoudocare。\' \'Letmegointosomeprofession。LetmegototheBar。IamsureI couldearnmyownliving。Earnit!ofcourseIcould,whynotIaswellasothers?Ishouldlikeofallthingstobeabarrister。\' Therewasmuchmoreofthesamekind,inwhichFranksaidallthathecouldthinkoftolessenhisfather\'sregrets。IntheirconversationnotawordwasspokenaboutMaryThorne。Frankwasnotawarewhetherornohisfatherhadbeentoldofthegreatfamilydangerwhichwasdreadedinthatquarter。Thathehadbeentold,wemaysurmise,asLadyArabellawasnotwonttoconfinethefamilydangerstoherownbosom。Moreover,Mary\'spresencehad,ofcourse,beenmissed。Thetruthwas,thatthesquirehadbeentold,withgreatbitterness,ofwhathadcometopass,andalltheevilhadbeenlaidathisdoor。HeithadbeenwhohandencouragedMarytoberegardedalmostasadaughterofthehouseofGreshamsbury:heitwaswhotaughtthatodiousdoctor——odiousonallbuthisaptitudeforgooddoctoring——tothinkhimselfafitmatchforthearistocracyofthecounty。Ithadbeenhisfault,thisgreatnecessitythatFrankshouldmarrymoney;andnowitwashisfaultthatFrankwasabsolutelytalkingofmarryingapauper。 Bynomeansinquiescencedidthesquirehearthesechargesbroughtagainsthim。TheLadyArabella,ineachattack,gotquiteasmuchasshegave,and,atlast,wasdriventoretreatinastateofheadache,whichshedeclaredtobechronic;andwhich,sosheassuredherdaughterAugusta,mustpreventherfromhavinganymorelengthenedconversationswithherlord——atanyrateforthenextthreemonths。Butthoughthesquiremaybesaidtohavecomeoffonthewholeasthevictorinthesecombats,theydidnotperhapshave,onthataccount,thelesseffectuponhim。Heknewitwastruethathehaddonemuchtowardsruininghisson;andhealsocouldthinkofnootherremedythanmatrimony。ItwasFrank\'sdoom,pronouncedevenbythevoiceofhisfather,thathemustmarrymoney。 Andso,FrankwentoffagaintoCambridge,feelinghimself,ashewent,tobeamuchlessermaninGreshamsburyestimationthanhehadbeensometwomonthsearlier,whenhisbirthdayhadbeencelebrated。OnceduringhisshortstayatGreshamsburyhehadseenthedoctor;butthemeetinghadbeenanythingbutpleasant。HehadbeenafraidtoaskafterMary;andthedoctorhadbeentoodiffidentofhimselftospeakofher。Theyhadmetcasuallyontheroad,and,thougheachinhisheartlovedtheother,themeetinghadbeenanythingbutpleasant。 AndsoFrankwenttoCambridge;and,ashedidso,hestoutlyresolvedthatnothingshouldmakehimuntruetoMaryThorne。\'Beatrice,\'saidhe,onthemorninghewentaway,whenshecameintohisroomtosuperintendhispacking——\'Beatrice,ifsheevertalksaboutme——\' \'Oh,Frank,mydarlingFrank,don\'tthinkofit——itismadness;sheknowsitismadness。\' \'Nevermind;ifsheevertalksaboutme,tellherthatthelastwordI saidwas,thatIwouldneverforgether。Shecandoasshelikes。\' Beatricemadenopromise,neverhintedthatshewouldgivethemessage; butitmaybetakenforgrantedthatshehadnotbeenlongincompanywithMaryThornebeforeshedidgiveit。 AndthentherewereothertroublesatGreshamsbury。IthadbeendecidedthatAugusta\'smarriagewastotakeplaceinSeptember;butMrMoffathad,unfortunately,beenobligedtopostponethehappyday。HehimselfhadtoldAugusta——not,ofcourse,withoutprotestationsastohisregret——andhadwrittentothiseffecttoMrGresham,\'Electioneeringmatters,andothertroubleshad,\'hesaid,\'madethispeculiarlypainfulpostponementabsolutelynecessary。\' Augustaseemedtobearhermisfortunewithmoreequanimitythanis,webelieve,usualwithyoungladiesundersuchcircumstances。Shespokeofittohermotherinaverymatter-of-factway,andseemedalmostcontentedattheideaofremainingatGreshamsburytillFebruary;whichwasthetimenownamedforthemarriage。ButLadyArabellawasnotequallywellsatisfied,norwasthesquire。 \'Ihalfbelievethatfellowisnothonest,\'hehadoncesaidoutloudbeforeFrank,andthissetFranka-thinkingofwhatdishonestyinthematteritwasprobablethatMrMoffatmightbeguilty,andwhatwouldbethefittingpunishmentforsuchacrime。Nordidhethinkonthesubjectinvain;especiallyafteraconferenceonthematterwhichhehadwithhisfriendHarryBaker。ThisconferencetookplaceduringtheChristmasvacation。 Itshouldbementioned,thatthetimespentbyFrankatCourcyCastlehadnotdonemuchtoassisthiminhisviewsastoanearlydegree,andthatithadatlastbeensettledthatheshouldstayupatCambridgeanotheryear。WhenhecamehomeatChristmashefoundthatthehousewasnotpeculiarlylively。MarywasabsentonavisitwithMissOriel。BoththeseyoungladieswerestayingwithMissOriel\'saunt,intheneighbourhoodofLondon;andFranksoonlearntthattherewasnochancethateitherofthemwouldbehomebeforehisreturn。NomessagehadbeenleftforhimbyMary——noneatleasthadbeenleftwithBeatrice;andhebeganinhishearttoaccuseherofcoldnessandperfidy;——not,certainly,withmuchjustice,seeingthatshehadnevergivenhimtheslightestencouragement。 TheabsenceofPatienceOrieladdedtothedullnessoftheplace。ItwascertainlyharduponFrankthatalltheattractionofthevillageshouldberemovedtomakewayandprepareforhisreturn——harder,perhaps,onthem;for,totellthetruth,MissOriel\'svisithadbeenentirelyplannedtoenablehertogiveMaryacomfortablewayofleavingGreshamsburyduringthetimethatFrankshouldremainathome。 Frankthoughthimselfcruellyused。ButwhatdidMrOrielthinkwhendoomedtoeathisChristmaspuddingalone,becausetheyoungsquirewouldbeunreasonableinhislove?Whatdidthedoctorthink,ashesatsolitarybyhisdesertedhearth——thedoctor,whonolongerpermittedhimselftoenjoythecomfortsoftheGreshamsburydining-table?Frankhintedandgrumbled;talkedtoBeatriceofthedeterminedconstancyofhislove,andoccasionallyconsoledhimselfbyastraysmilefromsomeoftheneighbouringbelles。Theblackhorsewasmadeperfect;theoldgreyponywasbynomeansdiscarded;andmuchthatwassatisfactorywasdoneinthesportingline。Butstillthehousewasdull,andFrankfeltthathewasthecauseofitsbeingso。Ofthedoctorhesawbutlittle:henevercametoGreshamsbury,unlesstoseeLadyArabellaasdoctor,ortobeclosetedwiththesquire。Therewerenospecialeveningswithhim;noanimatedconfabulationsatthedoctor\'shouse;nodiscoursesbetweenthem,astherewaswonttobe,aboutthemeritsofthedifferentcovers,andthecapacitiesofthedifferenthounds。TheseweredulldaysonthewholeforFrank;andsadenough,wemaysay,forourfriendthedoctor。 InFebruaryFrankagainwentbacktocollege;havingsettledwithHarryBakercertainaffairswhichweighedonhismind。HewentbacktoCambridge,promisingtobehomeonthetwentiethofthemonth,soastobepresentathissister\'swedding。Acoldandchillingtimehadbeennamedforthesehymenealjoys,butonenotaltogetherunsuitedtothefeelingsofthehappypair。Februaryiscertainlynotawarmmonth; butwiththerichitisgenerallyacosy,comfortabletime。Goodfires,wintercheer,groaningtables,andwarmblankets,makeafictitioussummer,which,tosometastes,ismoredelightfulthanthelongdaysandthehotsun。Andsomemarriagesareespeciallywintermatches。Theydependfortheircharmonthesamesubstantialattractions:insteadofheartbeatingtoheartinsympatheticunison,pursechinkstopurse。Therichnewfurnitureofthenewabodeislookedtoinsteadoftheraptureofapureembrace。Thenewcarriageisdependedonratherthanthenewheart\'scompanion;andthefirstbrightgloss,preparedbytheupholsterer\'shands,standsinlieuoftherosytintswhichyounglovelendstohistruevotaries。 MrMoffathadnotspenthisChristmasatGreshamsbury。Thateternalelectionpetition,thoseeternallawyers,theeternalcareofhiswell-managedwealth,forbadehimtheenjoymentofanysuchpleasures。 HecouldnotcometoGreshamsburyforChristmas,noryetforthefestivitiesofthenewyear;butnowandthenhewroteprettilywordednotes,sendingoccasionallyasilver-giltpencil-case,orasmallbrooch,andinformedLadyArabellathathelookedforwardtothetwentiethofFebruarywithgreatsatisfaction。But,inthemeanwhile,thesquirebecameanxious,andatlastwentuptoLondon;andFrank,whowasatCambridge,boughttheheaviest-cuttingwhiptobefoundinthattown,andwroteaconfidentiallettertoHarryBaker。 PoorMrMoffat!Itiswellknownthatnonebutthebravedeservethefair;butthou,withoutmuchexcuseforbravery,hadsecuredforthyselfonewho,atanyrate,wasfairenoughforthee。Woulditnothavebeenwellhadstthoulookedtothyselftoseewhatrealbraverymightbeinthee,beforethouhadstpreparedtodesertthisfaironethouhadstalreadywon?Thatlastachievement,onemaysay,didrequiresomespecialcourage。 PoorMrMoffat!Itiswonderfulthatashesatinthatgig,goingtoGatherumCastle,planninghowhewouldbeoffwithMissGreshamandafterwardsonwithMissDunstable,itiswonderfulthatheshouldnotthenhavecasthiseyebehindhim,andlookedatthatstalwartpairofshoulderswhichweresoclosetohisownback。Asheafterwardsponderedonhisschemewhilesippingtheduke\'sclaret,itisoddthatheshouldnothaveobservedthefieryprideofpurposeandpowerofwrathwhichwassoplainlywrittenonthatyoungman\'sbrow:or,whenhematured,andfinished,andcarriedouthispurpose,thathedidnotthinkofthatkeengraspwhichhadalreadysqueezedhisownhandwithsomewhattoowarmavigour,eveninthewayoffriendship。 PoorMrMoffat!itisprobablethatheforgottothinkofFrankatallasconnectedwithhispromisedbride;itisprobablethathelookedforwardonlytothesquire\'sviolenceandtheenmityofthehouseofCourcy;andthathefoundfromenquiryathisheart\'spulses,thathewasmanenoughtomeetthese。CouldhehaveguessedwhatawhipFrankGreshamwouldhaveboughtatCambridge——couldhehavedivinedwhataletterwouldhavebeenwrittentoHarryBaker——itisprobable,nay,wethinkwemaysaycertain,thatMissGreshamwouldhavebecomeMrsMoffat。 MissGresham,however,neverdidbecomeMrsMoffat。AbouttwodaysafterFrank\'sdepartureforCambridge——itisjustpossiblethatMrMoffatwassoprudentastomakehimselfawareofthefact——butjusttwodaysafterFrank\'sdeparture,averylong,elaborate,andclearlyexplanatoryletterwasreceivedatGreshamsbury。MrMoffatwasquitesurethatMissGreshamandherveryexcellentparentswoulddohimthejusticetobelievethathewasnotactuated,&c,&c,&c。Thelongandtheshortofthiswas,thatMrMoffatsignifiedhisintentionofbreakingoffthematchwithoutofferinganyintelligiblereason。 Augustaagainboreherdisappointmentwell:not,indeed,withoutsorrowandheartache,andinward,hiddentears;butstillwell。Sheneitherraved,norfainted,norwalkedaboutbymoonlightalone。Shewrotenopoetry,andneveroncethoughtofsuicide。When,indeed,sherememberedtherosy-tintedlining,theunfathomablesoftnessofthatLong-acrecarriage,herspiritdidforonemomentgiveway;but,onthewhole,sheboreitasastrong-mindedwomanandaDeCourcyshoulddo。 ButbothLadyArabellaandthesquireweregreatlyvexed。Theformerhadmadethematch,andthelatter,havingconsentedtoit,hadincurreddeeperresponsibilitiestoenablehimtobringitabout。ThemoneywhichwastohavebeengiventoMrMoffatwasstilltothefore; butalas!howmuch,howmuchthathecouldillspare,hadbeenthrownawayinbridalpreparations!Itis,moreover,anunpleasantthingforagentlemantohavehisdaughterjilted;perhapspeculiarlysotohaveherjiltedbyatailor\'sson。 LadyArabella\'swoewasreallypiteous。ItseemedtoherasthoughcruelfatewereheapingmiseryaftermiseryuponthewretchedhouseofGreshamsbury。Afewweekssincethingsweregoingsowellwithher! Frankthenwasstillallbuttheacceptedhusbandofalmostuntoldwealth——so,atleast,shewasinformedbyhersister-in-law——whereas,Augusta,wastheacceptedwifeofwealth,notindeeduntold,butofdimensionsquitesufficientlyrespectabletocausemuchjoyinthetelling。Wherenowwerehergoldenhopes?Wherenowthesplendidfutureofherpoordupedchildren?Augustawaslefttopinealone;andFrank,inastillworseplight,insistedonmaintaininghisloveforabastardandapauper。 ForFrank\'saffairsshehadreceivedsomepoorconsolationbylayingalltheblameonthesquire\'sshoulders。Whatshehadthensaidwasnowrepaidtoherwithinterest;fornotonlyhadshebeenthemakerofAugusta\'smatch,butshehadboastedofthedeedwithallamother\'spride。 ItwasfromBeatricethatFrankhadobtainedhistidings。ThislastresolveonthepartofMrMoffathadnotaltogetherbeenunsuspectedbysomeoftheGreshams,thoughaltogetherunsuspectedbytheLadyArabella。FrankhadspokenofitasapossibilitytoBeatrice,andwasnotquiteunpreparedwhentheinformationreachedhim。Heconsequentlyboughthiscutting-whip,andwrotehisconfidentiallettertoHarryBaker。 OnthefollowingdayFrankandHarrymighthavebeenseen,withtheirheadsnearlyclosetogether,leaningoveroneofthetablesinthelargebreakfast-roomattheTavistockHotelinCoventGarden。Theominouswhip,tothehandleofwhichFrankhadalreadymadehishandwellaccustomed,waslyingonthetablebetweenthem;andeverandanonHarryBakerwouldtakeitupandfeelitsweightapprovingly。Oh,MrMoffat!poorMrMoffat!gonotoutintothefashionableworldto-day; aboveall,gonottothatclubofthineinPallMall;but,oh! especiallygonotthere,asisthywonttodo,atthreeo\'clockintheafternoon! Withmuchcaredidthosetwoyounggeneralslaytheirplansofattack。 Letitnotforamomentbethoughtthatitwaseverinthemindsofeitherofthemthattwomenshouldattackone。ButitwasthoughtthatMrMoffatmightberathercoyincomingoutfromhisseclusiontomeettheprofferedhandofhisonceintendedbrother-in-lawwhenheshouldseethathandarmedwithaheavywhip。Baker,therefore,wascontenttoactasadecoyduck,andremarkedthathemightnodoubtmakehimselfusefulinrestrainingthepublicmercy,and,probably,incontrollingtheinterferenceofpolicemen。 \'ItwillbedeucedhardifIcan\'tgetfiveorsixshiesathim,\'saidFrank,againclutchinghisweaponalmostspasmodically。Oh,MrMoffat!fiveorsixshieswithsuchawhip,andsuchanarm!Formyself,IwouldsoonerjointhesecondBalaclavagallopthanencounterit。 AttenminutesbeforefourthesetwoheroesmightbeseenwalkingupPallMall,towardsthe——Club。YoungBakerwalkedwithaneagerdisengagedair。MrMoffatdidnotknowhisappearance;hehad,therefore,noanxietytopassalongunnoticed。ButFrankhadinsomemysteriouswaydrawnhishatveryfaroverhisforehead,andhadbuttonedhisshooting-coatuproundhischin。Harryhadrecommendedtohimagreat-coat,inorderthathemightthebetterconcealhisface; butFrankhadfoundthegreat-coatwasanencumbrancetohisarm。Heputiton,andwhenthusclothedhehadtriedthewhip,hefoundthathecuttheairwithmuchlesspotencythaninthelightergarment。Hecontentedhimself,therefore,withlookingdownonthepavementashewalkedalong,lettingthelongpointofthewhipstickupfromhispocket,andflatteringhimselfthatevenMrMoffatwouldnotrecognisehimatthefirstglance。PoorMrMoffat!Ifhehadbuthadthechance! Andnow,havingarrivedatthefrontoftheclub,thetwofriendsforamomentseparate:Frankremainsstandingonthepavement,undertheshadeofthehighstonearea-railing,whileHarryjauntilyskipsupthreestepsatatime,andwithaverycivilwordofinquiryofthehallporter,sendshiscardtoMrMoffat—— \'MRHARRYBAKER\' MrMoffat,neverhavingheardofsuchagentlemaninhislife,unwittinglycomesoutintothehall,andHarry,withthesweetestsmile,addresseshim。 Nowtheplanofthecampaignhadbeensettledinthiswise:BakerwastosendintotheclubforMrMoffat,andinvitethatgentlemandownintothestreet。Itwasprobablethattheinvitationmightbedeclined;andithadbeencalculatedinsuchcasethetwogentlemenwouldretireforparleyintothestrangers\'room,whichwasknowntobeimmediatelyoppositethehalldoor。Frankwastokeephiseyeontheportals,andifhefoundthatMrMoffatdidnotappearasreadilyasmightbedesired,healsowastoascendthestepsandhurryintothestrangers\'room。Then,whetherhemetMrMoffatthereorelsewhere,orwherever,hemightmeethim,hewastogreethimwithallthefriendlyvigourinhispower,whileHarrydisposedoftheclubporters。 Butfortune,whoeverfavoursthebrave,speciallyfavouredFrankGreshamonthisoccasion。JustasHarryBakerhadputhiscardintotheservant\'shand,MrMoffat,withhishaton,preparedforthestreet,appearedinthehall;MrBakeraddressedhimwithhissweetestsmile,andbeggedthepleasureofsayingawordortwoastheydescendedintothestreet。HadnotMrMoffatbeengoingthitheritwouldhavebeenveryimprobablethatheshouldhavedonesoatHarry\'sinstance。But,asitwas,hemerelylookedrathersolemnathisvisitor——itwashiswonttolooksolemn——andcontinuedthedescentofthesteps。 Frank,hisheartleapingthewhile,sawhisprey,andretreatedtwostepsbehindthearea-railing,thedreadweaponalreadywellpoisedinhishand。Oh!MrMoffat!MrMoffat!iftherebeanygoddesstointerfereinthyfavour,lethercomeforwardnowwithoutdelay;lethernowbeartheeoffonacloudiftherebeonetowhomthouartsufficientlydear!Butthereisnosuchgoddess。 Harrysmiledblandlytilltheywerewellonthepavement,sayingsomenothing,andkeepingthevictim\'sfaceavertedfromtheavengingangel; andthen,whentheraisedhandwassufficientlynigh,hewithdrewtwostepstowardsthenearestlamp-post。Notforhimwasthehonouroftheinterview;——unless,indeed,succouringpolicemenmightgiveoccasionforsomegleamofglory。 Butsuccouringpolicemenwerenomoretobecomebythangoddesses。 Wherewereye,men,whenthatsavagewhipfellabouttheearsofthepoorex-legislator?InScotlandYard,sittingdozingonyourbenches,ortalkingsoftnothingstothehousemaidsroundthecorner;foryewerenotwalkingonyourbeats,norstandingatcoignofvantage,towatchthetumultsoftheday。HadSirRichardhimselfbeenonthespotFrankGreshamwouldstill,wemaysay,havehadhisfiveshiesatthatunfortunateone。 WhenHarryBakerquicklysecededfromtheway,MrMoffatatoncesawthefatebeforehim。Hishairdoubtlessstoodonend,andhisvoicerefusedtogivetheloudscreechwithwhichhesoughttoinvoketheclub。Anashypalenesssuffusedhischeeks,andhistotteringstepswereunabletobearhimawayinflight。Once,andtwice,thecuttingwhipcamewelldownacrosshisback。Hadhebeenwiseenoughtostandstillandtakehisthrashinginthatattitude,itwouldhavebeenwellforhim。Butmensocircumstancedhaveneversuchprudence。Aftertwoblowshemadeadashatthesteps,thinkingtogetbackintotheclub; butHarry,whohadbynomeansreclinedinidlenessagainstthelamp-post,herestoppedhim:\'Youhadbettergobackintothestreet,\' saidHarry;\'indeedyouhad,\'givinghimashovefromoffthesecondstep。 ThenofcourseFrankcoulddonootherthanhithimanywhere。Whenagentlemanisdancingaboutwithmuchenergyitishardlypossibletostrikehimfairlyonhisback。Theblows,therefore,camenowonhislegsandnowonhishead;andFrankunfortunatelygotmorethanhisfiveorsixshiesbeforehewasinterrupted。 Theinterruptionhowevercame,alltoosoonforFrank\'sideaofjustice。ThoughtherebenopolicemantotakepartinaLondonrow,therearealwaysothersreadyenoughtodoso;amateurpolicemen,whogenerallysympathizewiththewrongside,and,inninecasesoutoften,expendtheirgenerousenergyinprotectingthievesandpickpockets。Whenitwasseenwithwhattremendousardourthatdreadweaponfellabouttheearsofthepoorundefendedgentleman,interferencewasatlast,inspiteofHarryBaker\'sbestendeavours,andloudestprotestations。 \'Donotinterruptthem,sir,\'saidhe;\'praydonot。Itisafamilyaffair,andtheywillneitherofthemlikeit。\' Intheteeth,however,oftheseassurances,rudepeopledidinterfere,andaftersomenineortenshiesFrankfoundhimselfencompassedbythearms,andencumberedbytheweightofaverystoutgentleman,whohungaffectionatelyabouthisneckandshoulders;whereas,MrMoffatwasalreadysittinginastateofsyncopeonthegood-naturedkneesofafishmonger\'sapprentice。 Frankwasthoroughlyoutofbreath:nothingcamefromhislipsbuthalf-mutteredexpletivesandunintelligibledenunciationsoftheiniquityofhisfoe。Butstillhestruggledtobeathimagain。Weallknowhowdangerousisthetasteofblood;nowcruellyitwillbecomeacustomevenwiththemosttender-hearted。Frankfeltthathehadhardlyfleshedhisvirginlash:hethought,almostwithdespair,thathehadnotyetatallsucceededasbecameamanandabrother;hismemorytoldhimofbutoneortwooftheslightesttouchesthathadgonewellhometotheoffender。Hemadeadesperateefforttothrowoffthatincubusroundhisneckandrushagaintothecombat。 \'Harry——Harry;don\'tlethimgo——don\'tlethimgo,\'hebarelyarticulated。 \'Doyouwanttomurdertheman,sir;tomurderhim?\'saidthestoutgentlemanoverhisshoulder,speakingsolemnlyintohisveryear。 \'Idon\'tcare,\'saidFrank,strugglingmanfullybutuselessly。\'Letmeout,Isay;Idon\'tcare——don\'tlethimgo,Harry,whateveryoudo。\' \'Hehasgotitprettilytidily,\'saidHarry;\'Ithinkthatwillperhapsdoforthepresent。\' Bythistimetherewasaconsiderableconcourse。Theclubstepswerecrowdedwithmembers;amongwhomthereweremayofMrMoffat\'sacquaintance。Policemennowflockedup,andthequestionaroseastowhatshouldbedonewiththeoriginatorsoftheaffray。FrankandHarryfoundthattheyweretoconsiderthemselvesunderagentlearrest,andMrMoffat,inafaintingstate,wascarriedintotheinterioroftheclub。 Frank,inhisinnocence,hadintendedtohavecelebratedthislittleaffairwhenitwasoverbyalightrepastandabottleofclaretwithhisfriend,andthentohavegonebacktoCambridgebythemailtrain。 Hefound,however,thathisschemesinthisrespectwerefrustrated。HehadtogetbailtoattendatMarlboroughStreetpolice-officeshouldhebewantedwithinthenexttwoorthreedays;andwasgiventounderstandthathewouldbeundertheeyeofthepolice,atanyrateuntilMrMoffatshouldbeoutofdanger。 \'Outofdanger!\'saidFranktohisfriendwithastartledlook。\'WhyI hardlygotathim。\'Nevertheless,theydidhavetheirslightrepast,andalsotheirbottleofclaret。 Onthesecondmorningafterthisoccurrence,FrankwasagainsittinginthatpublicroomattheTavistock,andHarrywasagainsittingoppositetohim。Thewhipwasnotnowsoconspicuouslyproducedbetweenthem,havingbeencarefullypackedupandputawayamongFrank\'sothertravellingproperties。Theyweresositting,ratherglum,whenthedoorswungopen,andaheavyquickstepwasheardadvancingtowardsthem。Itwasthesquire;whosearrivaltherehadbeenmomentarilyexpected。 \'Frank,\'saidhe——\'Frank,whatonearthisallthis?\'andashespokehestretchedoutbothhands,therighttohissonandthelefttohisfriend。 \'Hehasgivenablackguardalicking,thatisall,\'saidHarry。 Frankfeltthathishandwasheldwithapeculiarlywarmgrasp;andhecouldnotbutthinkthathisfather\'sface,raisedthoughhiseyebrowswere——thoughtherewasonitanintendedexpressionofamazementand,perhaps,regret——neverthelesshecouldnotbutthinkthathisfather\'sfacelookedkindlyathim。 \'Godblessmysoul,mydearboy!whathaveyoudonetotheman?\' \'He\'snotaha\'porththeworse,sir,\'saidFrank,stillholdinghisfather\'shand。 \'Oh,isn\'the!\'saidHarry,shrugginghisshoulders。\'Hemustbemadeofsomeverystrongarticlethen。\' \'Butmydearboys,Ihopethere\'snodanger。Ihopethere\'snodanger。\' \'Danger!\'saidFrank,whocouldnotyetinducehimselftobelievethathehadbeenallowedafairchancewithMrMoffat。 \'Oh,Frank!Frank!howcouldyoubesorash?InthemiddleofPallMall,too。Well!well!well!AllthewomendownatGreshamsburywillhaveitthatyouhavekilledhim。\' \'IalmostwishIhad,\'saidFrank。 \'Oh,Frank!Frank!Butnowtellme——\' Andthenthefathersatwellpleasedwhileheheard,chieflyfromHarryBaker,thefullstoryofhisson\'sprowess。Andthentheydidnotseparatewithoutanotherslightrepastandanotherbottleofclaret。 MrMoffatretiredtothecountryforawhile,andthenwentabroad; havingdoubtlesslearntthatthepetitionwasnotlikelytogivehimaseatforthecityofBarchester。AndthiswastheendofthewooingwithMissGresham。 CHAPTERXXII SIRROGERISUNSEATED Afterthis,littleoccurredatGreshamsbury,oramongGreshamsburypeople,whichitwillbenecessaryforustorecord。Somenoticewas,ofcourse,takingofFrank\'sprolongedabsencefromhiscollege;andtidings,perhapsexaggeratedtidings,ofwhathadhappenedatPallMallwerenotslowtoreachtheHighStreetofCambridge。Butthataffairwasgraduallyhushedup;andFrankwentonwithhisstudies。 Hewentbacktohisstudies:itthenbeinganunderstoodarrangementbetweenhimandhisfatherthatheshouldnotreturntoGreshamsburytillthesummervacation。Onthisoccasion,thesquireandLadyArabellahad,strangetosay,beenofthesamemind。TheybothwishedtokeeptheirsonawayfromMissThorne;andbothcalculated,thatathisageandwithhisdisposition,itwasnotprobablethatanypassionwouldlastoutasixmonthabsence。\'Andwhenthatsummercomesitwillbeanexcellentopportunityforustogoabroad,\'saidLadyArabella。\'PoorAugustawillrequiresomechangetorenovateherspirits。\' Tothislastpropositionthesquiredidnotassent。Itwas,however,allowedtopassover;andthismuchwasfixed,thatFrankwasnottoreturntillmidsummer。 ItwillberememberedthatSirRogerScatcherdhadbeenelectedassittingmemberforthecityofBarchester;butitwillalsoberememberedthatapetitionagainsthisreturnwasthreatened。HadthepetitiondependedsolelyonMrMoffat,SirRoger\'sseatnodoubtwouldhavebeensavedbyFrankGresham\'scuttingwhip。Butsuchwasnotthecase。MrMoffathadbeenputforwardbytheDeCourcyinterest;andthatnoblefamilywithitsdependantswasnottogotothewallbecauseMrMoffathadhadathrashing。No;thepetitionwastogoon;andMrNearthewindedeclared,thatnopetitioninhishandshadhalfsogoodachanceofsuccess。\'Chance,no,butcertainty,\'saidMrNearthewinde; forMrNearthewindehadlearntsomethingwithreferencetothathonestpublicanandthepaymentofhislittlebill。 Thepetitionwaspresentedanddulybacked;therecognisancesweresigned,andalltheproperformalitiesformallyexecuted;andSirRogerfoundthathisseatwasinjeopardy。Hisreturnhadbeenagreattriumphtohim;and,unfortunately,hehadcelebratedthattriumphashehadbeeninthehabitofcelebratingmostoftheverytriumphantoccasionsofhislife。Thoughhewasthanhardlyyetrecoveredfromtheeffectsofhislastattack,heindulgedinanotherviolentdrinkingbout;and,strangetosay,didsowithoutanyimmediatevisiblebadeffects。 InFebruaryhetookhisseatamidstthewarmcongratulationsofallmenofhisownclass,andearlyinthemonthofAprilhiscasecameonfortrial。Everykindofelectioneeringsinknowntotheelectioneeringworldwasbroughttohischarge;hewasaccusedoffalseness,dishonesty,andbriberyofeverysort:hehad,itwassaidinthepaperofindictment,boughtvotes,obtainedthembytreating,carriedthemoffbyviolence,conqueredthembystrongdrink,polledthemtwiceover,countedthoseofdeadmen,stolenthem,forgedthem,andcreatedthembyeverypossible,fictitiouscontrivance:therewasnodescriptionofwickednessappertainingtothetaskofprocuringvotesofwhichSirRogerhadnotbeenguilty,eitherbyhimselforbyhisagents。Hewasquitehorror-struckatthelistofhisownenormities。 ButhewassomewhatcomfortedwhenMrCloserstiltoldhimthatthemeaningofitallwasthatMrRomer,thebarrister,hadpaidaformerbillduetoMrReddypalm,thepublican。 \'Ifearhewasindiscreet,SirRoger;Ireallyfearhewas。Thoseyoungmeanalwaysare。Beingenergetic,theyworklikehorses;butwhat\'stheuseofenergywithoutdiscretion,SirRoger?\' \'But,MrCloserstil,Iknewnothingofitfromfirsttolast。\' \'Theagencycanbeproved,SirRoger,\'saidMrCloserstil,shakinghishead。Andthentherewasnothingfurthertobesaidonthematter。 Inthesedaysofsnow-whitepurityallpoliticaldelinquencyisabominableintheeyesofBritishpoliticians;butnodelinquencyissoabominablethanthevenalityatelections。Thesinofbriberyisdamnable。Itistheonesinforwhich,intheHouseofCommons,therecanbenoforgiveness。Whendiscovered,itshouldrendertheculpritliabletopoliticaldeath,withouthopeofpardon。ItistreasonagainstahigherthronethanthatonwhichtheQueensits。Itisaheresywhichrequiresanauto-da-fe。ItisapollutiontothewholeHouse,whichcanonlybecleansedbyagreatsacrifice。Anathemamaranatha!outwithitfromamongstus,eventhoughhalfofourheart\'sbloodbepouredfromtheconflict!Outwithit,andforever! Suchisthelanguageofpatrioticmemberswithregardtobribery;anddoubtless,ifsincere,theyareintheright。Itisabadthing,certainly,thatarichmanshouldbuyvotes;badalsothatapoormanshouldsellthem。Byallmeansletusrepudiatesuchasystemwithheartfeltdisgust。 Withheartfeltdisgust,ifwecandoso,byallmeans;butnotwithdisgustpretendedonlyandnotfeltintheheartatall。Thelawsagainstbriberyatelectionsarenowsostringentthatanunfortunatecandidatemayeasilybecomeguilty,eventhoughactuatedbythepurestintentions。Butnotthelessonthataccountdoesanygentleman,ambitiousofthehonourofservinghiscountryinParliament,thinkitnecessaryasapreliminarymeasuretoprovidearoundsumofmoneyathisbanker\'s。Acandidatemustpayfornotreating,norefreshments,nobandofmusic;hemustgiveneitherribbonstothegirlsnoraletothemen。Ifahuzzabeutteredinhisfavour,itisathisperil;itmaybenecessaryforhimtoprovebeforeacommitteethatitwasthespontaneousresultofBritishfeelinginhisfavour,andnotthepurchasedresultofBritishbeer。Hecannotsafelyaskanyonetosharehishoteldinner。Briberyhidesitselfnowinthemostimpalpableshapes,andmaybeeffectedbytheofferofaglassofsherry。Butnotthelessonthisaccountdoesapoormanfindthatheisquiteunabletoovercomethedifficultiesofacontestedelection。 Westrainatourgnatswithavengeance,butweswallowourcamelswithease。Forwhatpurposeisitthatweemploythosepeculiarlysafemenofbusiness——MessrsNearthewindeandCloserstil——whenwewishtowinourpaththroughallobstaclesintothatsacredrecess?Alas!themoneyisstillnecessary,isstillprepared,oratanyrate,expended。Thepoorcandidateofcourseknowsnothingofthemattertilltheattorney\'sbillislaidbeforehim,whenalldangerofpetitionshaspassedaway。 Helittledreamedtillthen,nothe,thattherehadbeenbanquetingsandjunketings,secretdoingsanddeepdrinkingsathisexpense。Poorcandidate!Poormember!Whowassoignorantashe!\'Tistruehehaspaidbillsbefore;but\'tisequallytruethathespeciallybeggedhismanagingfriendMrNearthewinde,tobeverycarefulthatallwasdoneaccordingtolaw!Hepaysthebill,however,andonthenextelectionwillagainemployMrNearthewinde。 Nowandagain,atrareintervals,someglimpseintotheinnersanctuarydoesreachtheeyesofordinarymortalmenwithout;someslightaccidentalpeepintothosemysteriesfromwhenallcorruptionhasbeensothoroughlyexpelled;andthen,howdelightfullyrefreshingisthesight,when,perhaps,someex-member,hurledfromhisparadiselikeafallenperi,revealsthesecretofthatpureheaven,and,intheagonyofhisdespair,tellsusallthatitcosthimtositfor——throughthosefewhalcyonyears! ButMrNearthewindeisasafeman,andeasytobeemployedwithbutlittledanger。AllthesestringentbriberylawsonlyenhancethevalueofsuchverysafemenasMrNearthewinde。Tohim,stringentlawsagainstbriberyarethestrongestassuranceofvaluableemployment。 Weretheselawsofanaturetobeevadedwithease,anyindifferentattorneymightmanageacandidate\'saffairsandenablehimtotakehisseatwithsecurity。 ItwouldhavebeenwellforSirRogerifhehadtrustedsolelytoMrCloserstil;wellalsoforMrRomerhadheneverfishedinthosetroubledwaters。Indueprocessoftimethehearingofthepetitioncameon,andthenwhosohappy,sittingathiseaseintheLondoninn,blowinghiscloudfromalongpipe,withmeasurelesscontent,asMrReddypalm?MrReddypalmwastheonegreatmanofthecontest。AlldependedonMrReddypalm;andwellhedidhisduty。 Theresultofthepetitionwasdeclaredbythecommitteetobereadasfollows:——thatSirRoger\'selectionwasnullandvoid——thatSirRogerhad,byhisagent,beenguiltyofbriberyinobtainingavote,bythepaymentofabillallegedtohavebeenpreviouslyrefusedpayment——thisisalwaysamatterofcourse;——butthatSirRoger\'sagent,MrRomer,hadbeenwillinglyguiltyofbriberywithreferencetothetransactionabovedeclared。PoorSirRoger!PoorMrRomer。 PoorMrRomerindeed!Hisfatewasperhapsassadaswellmightbe,andasfoulablottothepurismoftheseverypuretimesinwhichwelive。Notlongafterthosedays,itsohappeningthatsomeconsiderableamountofyouthfulenergyandquidnuncabilitywererequiredtosetlitigationafloatatHongKong,MrRomerwassentthitherasthefittestmanforsuchwork,withrichassuranceoffutureguerdon。WhoaresohappythenasMrRomer!Butevenamongthepurethereisroomforenvyanddetraction。MrRomerhadnotyetceasedtowonderatnewworlds,asheskimmedamongtheislandsofthatsouthernocean,beforetheedicthadgoneforthforhisreturn。ThereweremensittinginthathugecourtofParliamentonwhosebreastsitlayasanintolerableburden,thatEnglandshouldberepresentedamongtheantipodesbyonewhohadtamperedwiththepurityofthefranchise。Forthemtherewasnoresttillthisgreatdisgraceshouldbewipedoutandatonedfor。Mentheywereofthatcalibre,thattheslightestreflectiononthemofsuchastigmaseemedtothemselvestoblackentheirowncharacter。TheycouldnotbreakbreadwithsatisfactiontillMrRomerwasrecalled。Hewasrecalled,andofcourseruined——andthemindsofthosejustmenwerethenatpeace。 Toanyhonourablegentlemanwhoreallyfelthisbrowsuffusedwithapatrioticblush,ashethoughtofhiscountrydishonouredbyMrRomer\'spresenceatHongKong——toanysuchgentleman,ifanysuchtherewere,letallhonourbegiven,eventhoughtheintensityofhispuritymaycreateamazementtoourlessfinelyorganizedsouls。Butifnosuchblushsuffusedthebrowofanyhonourablegentleman;ifMrRomerwasrecalledfromquiteotherfeelings——whattheninlieuofhonourshallweallottothosehonourablegentlemenwhoweremostconcerned? SirRoger,however,losthisseat,and,afterthreemonthsofthejoysoflegislation,foundhimselfreducedbyaterribleblowtothelowlevelofprivatelife。 Andtheblowtohimwasveryheavy。Menbutseldomtellthetruthofwhatisinthem,eventotheirdearestfriends;theyareashamedofhavingfeelings,orratherofshowingthattheyaretroubledbyanyintensityoffeeling。Itisthepracticeofthetimetotreatallpursuitsasthoughtheywereonlyhalfimportanttous,asthoughinwhatwedesirewewereonlyhalfinearnest。Tobevisiblyeagerseemschildish,andisalwaysbadpolicy;andmen,therefore,nowadays,thoughtheystriveashardaseverintheserviceofambition——harderthaneverinthatofmammon——usuallydosowithapleasantsmileon,asthoughafteralltheywerebutamusingthemselveswiththelittlematterinhand。 PerhapsithadbeensowithSirRogerinthoseelectioneeringdayswhenhewaslookingforvotes。Atanyrate,hehadspokenofhisseatinParliamentasbutadoubtfulgood。\'Hewaswilling,indeed,tostand,havingbeenasked;butthethingwouldinterferewonderfullywithhisbusiness;andthen,whatdidheknowaboutParliament?Nothingonearth:itwasthemaddestscheme,butnevertheless,hewasnotgoingtohangbackwhencalledupon——hehadalwaysbeenroughandreadywhenwanted——andtherehewasnowreadyasever,androughenoughtoo,Godknows。\' \'Twasthusthathehadspokenofhiscomingparliamentaryhonours;andmenhadgenerallytakenhimathisword。Hehadbeenreturned,andthissuccesshadbeenhailedasagreatthingforthecauseandclasstowhichhebelonged。Butmendidnotknowthathisinnerheartwillswellingwithtriumph,andthathisbosomcouldhardlycontainhisprideashereflectedthatthepoorBarchesterstone-masonwasnowtherepresentativeofhisnativecity。Andso,whenhisseatwasattacked,hestilllaughedandjoked。\'Theywerewelcometoitforhim,\'hesaid;\'hecouldkeepitorwantit;andofthetwo,perhaps,thewantofitwouldcomemostconvenienttohim。Hedidnotexactlythinkthathehadbribedanyone;butifthebigwigschosetosayso,itwasallonetohim。Hewasroughandready,nowasever,\'&c&c。 Butwhenthestrugglecame,itwastohimafearfulone;notthelessfearfulbecausetherewasnoone,no,notonefriendinalltheworld,towhomhecouldopenhismindandspeakouthonestlywhatwasinhisheart。ToDrThornehemightperhapshavedonesohadhisintercoursewiththedoctorbeensufficientlyfrequent;butitwasonlynowandthenwhenhewasill,orwhenthesquirewantedtoborrowmoney,thathesawDrThorne。Hehadplentyoffriends,heapsoffriendsintheparliamentarysense;friendswhotalkedabouthim,andlaudedhimatpublicmeetings;whoshookhandswithhimonplatformsanddrankhishealthatdinners;buthehadnofriendswhocouldsitwithhimoverhisownhearth,intruefriendship,andlistento,andsympathizewith,andmoderatethesighingsoftheinnerman。Forhimtherewasnosympathy;notendernessoflove;noretreat,saveintohimself,fromtheloudbrassbandoftheouterworld。 Theblowhithimterriblyhard。Itdidnotcomealtogetherunexpectedly,andyet,whenitdidcome,itwasallbutunendurable。Hehadmadesomuchofthepowerofwalkingintothataugustchamber,andsittingshouldertoshoulderinlegislativeequalitywiththesonsofdukesandthecurleddarlingsofthenation。Moneyhadgivenhimnothing,nothingbutthemerefeelingofbrutepower:withhisthreehundredthousandpoundshehadfelthimselftobenomorepalpablyneartothegoalofhisambitionthanwhenhehadchippedstonesforthreeshillingsandsixpenceaday。Butwhenhewasledupandintroducedatthattable,whenheshooktheoldpremier\'shandontheflooroftheHouseofCommons,whenheheardthehonourablememberforBarchesteralludedtoingravedebateasthegreatestlivingauthorityonrailwaymatters,then,indeed,hefeltthathehadachievedsomething。 Andnowthiscupwasravishedfromhislips,almostbeforeitwastasted。Whenhewasfirsttoldasacertaintythatthedecisionofthecommitteewasagainsthim,heboreupagainstthemisfortunelikeaman。Helaughedheartily,anddeclaredhimselfwellridofaveryprofitlessprofession;cutsomelittlejokeaboutMrMoffatandhisthrashing,andleftonthosearoundhimanimpressionthathewasamansoconstituted,sostronginhisownresolves,sosteadilypursuantofhisownwork,thatnolittlecontentionsofthiskindcouldaffecthim。Menadmiredhiseasylaughter,as,shufflinghishalf-crownswithbothhishandsinhistrouser-pockets,hedeclaredthatMessrsRomerandReddypalmwerethebestfriendshehadknownformanyaday。 Butnotthelessdidhewalkoutfromtheroominwhichhewasstandingabroken-heartedman。Hopecouldnotbuoyhimupasshemaydootherex-membersinsimilarlydisagreeablecircumstances。Hecouldnotaffordtolookforwardtowhatfurtherfavoursparliamentaryfuturehaveinstoreforhimafteralapseoffiveorsixyears。Fiveorsixyears!Why,hislifewasnotworthfouryears\'purchase;ofthathewasperfectlyaware:hecouldnotnowlivewithoutthestimulusofbrandy;andyet,whilehetookit,heknewhewaskillinghimself。 Deathhedidnotfear;buthewouldfainhavewished,afterhislifeoflabour,tohavelived,whileyethecouldlive,intheblazeofthathighworldtowhichforamomenthehadattained。 Helaughedloudandcheerilyashelefthisparliamentaryfriends,and,puttinghimselfintothetrain,wentdowntoBoxallHill。Helaughedloudandcheerily;butheneverlaughedagain。IthadnotbeenhishabittolaughmuchatBoxallHill。Itwastherehekepthiswife,andMrWinterbones,andthebrandybottlebehindhispillow。Hehadnotoftentherefounditnecessarytoassumethatloudandcheerylaugh。 Onthisoccasionhewasapparentlywellinhealthwhenhegothome;butbothLadyScatcherdandMrWinterbonesfoundhimmorethanordinarilycross。Hemadeanaffectationatsittingveryhardtobusiness,andeventalkedofgoingabroadtolookatsomeofhisforeigncontracts。 ButevenWinterbonesfoundthathispatrondidnotworkashehadbeenwonttodo;andatlast,withsomemisgivings,hetoldLadyScatcherdthathefearedthateverythingwasnotright。 \'He\'salwaysatit,mylady,always,\'saidMrWinterbones。 \'Ishe?\'saidLadyScatcherd,wellunderstandingwhatMrWinterbones\'sallusionmeant。 \'Always,mylady。Ineversawnothinglikeit。Now,there\'sme——Icanalwaysgomyhalf-hourwhenI\'vehadmydrop;buthe,why,hedon\'tgotenminutes,notnow。\' ThiswasnotcheerfultoLadyScatcherd;butwhatwasthepoorwomantodo?Whenshespoketohimonanysubjectheonlysnarledather;andnowthattheheavyfitwasonhim,shedidnotdareeventomentionthesubjectofhisdrinking。Shehadneverknownhimsosavageinhishumourashewasnow,sobearishinhishabits,solittleinclinedtohumanity,sodeterminedtorushheadlongdown,withhisheadbetweenhislegs,intothebottomlessabyss。 ShethoughtofsendingforDrThorne;butshedidnotknowunderwhatguisetosendforhim,——whetherasdoctororasfriend:underneitherwouldhenowbewelcome;andshewellknewthatSirRogerwasnotthemantoacceptingoodparteitheradoctororafriendwhomightbeunwelcome。Sheknewthatthishusbandofhers,thisman,who,withallhisfaults,wasthebestofherfriendswhomshelovedbest——sheknewthathewaskillinghimself,andyetshecoulddonothing。SirRogerwashisownmaster,andifkillhimselfhewould,killhimselfhemust。 Andkillhimselfhedid。Notindeedbyonesuddenblow。Hedidnottakeonehugedoseofhisconsumingpoison,andthenfalldeaduponthefloor。Itwouldperhapshavebeenbetterforhimself,andbetterforthosearoundhim,hadhedoneso。No;thedoctorshadtimetocongregateroundhisbed;LadyScatcherdwasallowedaperiodofnurse-tending;thesickmanwasabletosayhislastfewwordsandbidhisadieutohisportionofthelowerworldwithdyingdecency。Astheselastwordswillhavesomelastingeffectuponthesurvivingpersonagesofourstory,thereadermustbecontenttostandforashortwhilebythesideofSirRoger\'ssick-bed,andhelpusbidhimGod-speedonthejourneywhichliesbeforehim。 CHAPTERXXIII RETROSPECTIVE ItwasdeclaredintheearlypagesofthisworkthatDrThornewastobeourhero;butitwouldappearverymuchasthoughhehadlatterlybeenforgotten。SincethateveningwhenheretiredtorestwithoutlettingMarysharethegrievousweightwhichwasonhismind,wehaveneitherseennorheardaughtofhim。 Itwasthenfullmidsummer,anditnowearlyspring:andduringtheinterveningmonthsthedoctorhadnothadahappytimeofit。Onthatnight,aswehavebeforetold,hetookhisniecetohisheart;buthecouldnotthenbringhimselftotellherthatwhichitwassoimperativethatsheshouldknow。Likeacoward,hewouldputofftheevilhour,tillthenextmorning,andthusrobbedhimselfofhisnight\'ssleep。 Butwhenthemorningcamethedutycouldnotbepostponed。LadyArabellahadgivenhimtounderstandthathisniecewouldnolongerbeaguestatGreshamsbury;anditwasquiteoutofthequestionthatMary,afterthis,shouldbeallowedtoputherfootwithinthegateofthedomainwithouthavinglearntwhatLadyArabellahadsaid。Sohetolditbeforebreakfast,walkingroundtheirlittlegarden,shewithherhandinhis。 Hewasperfectlythunderstruckbythecollected——nay,coolwayinwhichshereceivedhistidings。Sheturnedpale,indeed;hefeltalsothatherhandsomewhattrembledinhisown,andheperceivedthatforamomenthervoiceshook;butnoangrywordescapedherlip,nordidsheevendeigntorepudiatethecharge,whichwas,asitwere,conveyedinLadyArabella\'srequest。Thedoctorknew,orthoughtheknew——nay,hedidknow——thatMarywaswhollyblamelessinthematter:thatshehadatleastgivennoencouragementtoanyloveonthepartoftheyoungheir; but,nevertheless,hehadexpectedthatshewouldavouchherowninnocence。This,however,shebynomeansdid。 \'LadyArabellaisquiteright,\'shesaid,\'quiteright;ifshehasanyfearofthatkind,shecannotbetoocareful。\' \'Sheisaselfish,proudwoman,\'saidthedoctor;\'quiteindifferenttothefeelingsofothers;quitecarelesshowdeeplyshemayhurtherneighbours,if,indoingso,shemaypossiblybenefitherself。\' \'Shewillnothurtme,uncle,noryetyou。IcanlivewithoutgoingtoGreshamsbury。\' \'Butitisnottobeenduredthatsheshoulddaretocastanimputationonmydarling。\' \'Onme,uncle?Shecastsnoimputationonme。Frankhasbeenfoolish: Ihavesaidnothingofit,foritwasnotworthwhiletotroubleyou。 ButasLadyArabellachoosestointerfere,Ihavenorighttoblameher。Hehassaidwhatheshouldnothavesaid;hehasbeenfoolish。 Uncle,youknowIcouldnotpreventit。\' \'Lethersendhimawaythen,notyou;letherbanishhim。\' \'Uncle,heisherson。Amothercanhardlysendhersonawaysoeasily:couldyousendmeaway,uncle?\' Hemerelyansweredherbytwininghisarmroundherwaistandpressinghertohisside。Hewaswellsurethatshewasbadlytreated;andyetnowthatshesounaccountablytookLadyArabella\'spart,hehardlyknewhowtomakethisoutplainlytobethecase。 \'Besides,uncle,Greshamsburyisinamannerhisown;howcanhebebanishedfromhisfather\'shouse?No,uncle;thereisanendofmyvisitsthere。TheyshallfindthatIwillnotthrustmyselfintheirway。\' AndthenMary,withacalmbrowandsteadygait,wentinandmadethetea。 AndwhatmightbethefeelingsofherheartwhenshesosententiouslytoldherunclethatFrankhadbeenfoolish?Shewasofthesameagewithhim;asimpressionable,thoughmorepowerfulinhidingsuchimpressions,——asallwomenshouldbe;herheartwasaswarm,herbloodasfulloflife,herinnatedesireforthecompanionshipofsomemuch-lovedobjectasstrongashis。Frankhadbeenfoolishinavowinghispassion。Nosuchfollyasthatcouldbelaidatherdoor。Buthadshebeenproofagainsttheotherfolly?Hadshebeenabletowalkheart-wholebyhisside,whilehechattedhiscommonplacesaboutlove? Yes,theyarecommonplaceswhenwereadtheminnovels;commonenough,too,tosomeofuswhenwewritethem;buttheyarebynomeanscommonplacewhenfirstheardbyayounggirlintherich,balmyfragranceofJulyeveningstroll。 Noraretheycommonplaceswhensoutteredforthefirstorsecondtimeatleast,orperhapsthethird。\'Tisapitythatsoheavenlyapleasureshouldpalluponthesenses。 IfitwassothatFrank\'sfollyhadbeenlistenedtowithacertainamountofpleasure,Marydidnotevenadmitsomuchtoherself。Butwhyshouldithavebeenotherwise?Whyshouldshehavebeenlesspronetolovethanhewas?Hadhenoteverythingwhichgirlsdolove?whichgirlsshouldlove?whichGodcreatednoble,beautiful,allbutgodlike,inorderthatwomen,allbutgoddesslike,mightlove?Tolovethoroughly,truly,heartily,withherwholebody,soul,heart,andstrength;shouldnotthatbecountedforameritinawoman?Andyetwearewonttomakeadisgraceofit。Wedosomostunnaturally,mostunreasonably;forweexpectourdaughterstogetthemselvesmarriedoffourhands。Whentheperiodofthatstepcomes,thenloveisproperenough;butuptothat——beforethat——asregardsallthosepreliminarypassageswhichmust,wesuppose,benecessary——inallthoseitbecomesayoungladytobeicy-heartedasariver-godinwinter。 \'OwhistleandI\'llcometoyoumylad! OwhistleandI\'llcometoyoumylad! Tho\'fatherandmitheranda\'shouldgomadOwhistleandI\'llcometoyoumylad!\' Thisisthekindoflovewhichagirlshouldfeelbeforesheputsherhandproudlyinthatofherlover,andconsentsthattheytwoshallbemadeoneflesh。 Maryfeltnosuchloveasthis。She,too,hadsomeinnerperceptionofthatdreaddestinybywhichitbehovedFrankGreshamtobeforewarned。 She,too——thoughshehadneverheardsomuchsaidinwords——hadanalmostinstinctiveknowledgethathisfaterequiredhimtomarrymoney。 Thinkingoverthisinherownway,shewasnotslowtoconvinceherselfthatitwasoutofthequestionthatsheshouldallowherselftoloveFrankGresham。Howeverwellherheartmightbeinclinedtosuchafeeling,itwasherdutytorepressit。Sheresolved,therefore,todoso;andshesometimesflatteredherselfthatshehadkeptherresolution。 Thesewerebadtimesforthedoctor,andbadtimesforMarytoo。ShehaddeclaredthatshecouldlivewithoutgoingtoGreshamsbury;butshedidnotfinditsoeasy。ShehadbeengoingtoGreshamburyallherlife,anditwascustomarywithhertobethereasathome。Sucholdcustomsarenotbrokenwithoutpain。Hadshelefttheplaceitwouldhavebeenfardifferent;but,asitwas,shedailypassedthegates,dailysawandspoketosomeoftheservants,whoknewheraswellastheydidtheyoungladiesofthefamily——wasinhourlycontact,asitwere,withGreshamsbury。Itwasnotonlythatshedidnotgothere,butthateveryoneknewthatshehadsuddenlydiscontinueddoingso。Yes,shecouldlivewithoutgoingtoGreshamsbury;butforsometimeshehadbutapoorlifeofit。Shefelt,nay,almostheard,thateverymanandwoman,boyandgirlinthevillagewastellinghisandherneighbourthatMaryThornenolongerwenttothehousebecauseofLadyArabellaandtheyoungsquire。 ButBeatrice,ofcourse,cametoher。WhatwasshetosaytoBeatrice?Thetruth!Nay,butitisnotalwayssoeasytosaythetruth,eventoone\'sdearestfriends。 \'Butyou\'llcomeupnowhehasgone?\'saidBeatrice。 \'No,indeed,\'saidMary;\'thatwouldhardlybepleasanttoLadyArabella,nortomeeither。No,Trichy,dearest;myvisitstodearoldGreshamsburyaredone,done,done:perhapsinsometwentyyears\'timeI maybewalkingdownthelawnwithyourbrother,anddiscussingthechildishdays——thatis,always,ifthethenMrsGreshamshallhaveinvitedme。\' \'HowcanFrankhavebeensowrong,sounkind,socruel?\'saidBeatrice。 This,however,wasalightinwhichMissThornedidnottakeanypleasure,indiscussingthematter。HerideasofFrank\'sfault,andunkindnessandcruelty,weredoubtlessdifferentfromthoseofhersister。SuchcrueltywasnotunnaturallyexcusedinhereyesbymanycircumstanceswhichBeatricedidnotfullyunderstand。MarywasquitereadytogohandinhandwithLadyArabellaandtherestofGreshamsburyfoldinputtinganend,ifpossible,toFrank\'spassion: shewouldgivenotonearighttoaccuseherofassistingtoruintheyoungheir;butshecouldhardlybringherselftoadmitthathewassoverywrong——no,noryetevensoverycruel。 Andthenthesquirecametoseeher,andthiswasayethardertrialthanthevisitofBeatrice。Itwassodifficultforhertospeaktohimthatshecouldnotbutwishhimaway;andyet,hadhenotcome,hadhealtogetherneglectedher,shewouldhavefeltittobeunkind。Shehadeverbeenhispet,hadalwaysreceivedkindnessfromhim。 \'Iamsorryforallthis,Mary;verysorry,\'saidhe,standingup,andholdingbothherhandsinhis。 \'Itcan\'tbehelped,sir,\'saidshe,smiling。 \'Idon\'tknow,\'saidhe;\'Idon\'tknow——itoughttobehelpedsomehow——I amquitesureyouhavenotbeentoblame。\' \'No,\'saidshe,veryquietly,asthoughthepositionwasonequiteamatterofcourse。\'Idon\'tthinkIhavebeenverymuchtoblame。Therewillbemisfortunessometimeswhennobodyistoblame。\' \'Idonotquiteunderstanditall,\'saidthesquire;\'butifFrank——\' \'Oh!wewillnottalkabouthim,\'saidshe,stilllaughinggently。 \'Youcanunderstand,Mary,howdearhemustbetome;butif——\' \'MrGresham,Iwouldnotforworldsbethecauseofanyunpleasantnessbetweenyouandhim。\' \'ButIcannotbeartothinkthatwehavebanishedyou,Mary。\' \'Itcannotbehelped。Thingswillallcomerightintime。\' \'Butyouwillbelonelyhere。\' \'Oh!Ishallgotoverallthat。Here,youknow,MrGresham,“IammonarchofallIsurvey“;andthereisagreatdealinthat。\' Thesquiredidnotcatchhermeaning,butaglimmeringofitdidreachhim。ItwascompetenttoLadyArabellatobanishherfromGreshamsbury;itwaswithinthesphereofthesquire\'sdutiestoprohibithissonfromanimprudentmatch;itwasfortheGreshamstoguardtheirGreshamsburytreasureasbesttheycouldwithintheirownterritories:butletthembewarethattheydidnotattackheronhers。 Inobediencetothefirstexpressionoftheirwishes,shehadsubmittedherselftothispublicmarkoftheirdisapprovalbecauseshehadseenatonce,withherclearintellect,thattheywereonlydoingthatwhichherconsciencemustapprove。Withoutamurmur,therefore,sheconsentedtobepointedatastheyoungladywhohadbeenturnedoutofGreshamsburybecauseoftheyoungsquire。Shehadnohelpforit。Butletthemtakecarethattheydidnotgobeyondthat。OutsidethoseGreshamsburygatessheandFrankGresham,sheandLadyArabellametonequalterms;letthemeachfighttheirownbattle。 Thesquirekissedherforeheadaffectionatelyandtookhisleave,feelingsomehow,thathehadbeenexcusedandpitied,andmademuchof; whereashehadcalledonhisyoungneighbourwiththeintentionofexcusing,andpitying,andmakingmuchofher。Hewasnotquitecomfortableasheleftthehouse;but,nevertheless,hewassufficientlyhonest-heartedtoowntohimselfthatMaryThornewasafinegirl。OnlythatitwassoabsolutelynecessarythatFrankshouldmarrymoney——andonly,also,thatpoorMarywassuchabirthlessfoundlingintheworld\'sesteem——only,butforthesethings,whatawifeshewouldhavemadeforthatsonofhis! Toonepersononlydidshetalkfreelyonthesubject,andthatonewasPatienceOriel;andevenwithherthefreedomwasratherofthemindthanoftheheart。SheneversaidawordofherfeelingwithreferencetoFrank,butshesaidmuchofherpositioninthevillage,andofthenecessityshewasundertokeepoutoftheway。 \'Itisveryhard,\'saidPatience,\'thattheoffenceshouldbeallwithhim,andthepunishmentallwithyou。\' \'Oh!asforthat,\'saidMary,laughing,\'Iwillnotconfesstoanyoffence,notyettoanypunishment;certainlynottoanypunishment。\' \'Itcomestothesamethingintheend。\' \'No,notso,Patience;thereisalwayssomelittlestingofdisgraceinpunishment:nowIamnotgoingtoholdmyselfintheleastdisgraced。\' \'But,Mary,youmustmeettheGreshamssometimes。\' \'Meetthem!Ihavenottheslightestobjectiononearthtomeetall,oranyofthem。Theyarenotawhitdangeroustome,mydear。\'TisthatIamthewildbeast,and\'tisthattheymustavoidme,\'andthensheadded,afterapause——slightlyblushing——\'Ihavenottheslightestobjectioneventomeethimifchancebringshiminmyway。Letthemlooktothat。Myundertakinggoesnofurtherthanthis,thatIwillnotbeseenwithintheirgates。\' ButthegirlssofarunderstoodeachotherthatPatienceundertook,ratherthanpromised,togiveMarywhatassistanceshecould;and,despiteMary\'sbravado,shewasinsuchapositionthatshemuchwantedtheassistanceofsuchafriendasPatienceOriel。 Afteranabsenceofsomesixweeks,Frank,aswehaveseen,returnedhome。Nothingwassaidtohim,exceptbyBeatrice,astothosenewGreshamsburyarrangements;andhe,whenhefoundMarywasnotattheplace,wentboldlytothedoctor\'shousetoseekher。Butithasbeenseen,also,thatshediscreetlykeptoutofhisway。Thisshehadthoughtfittodowhenthetimecame,althoughshehadbeensoreadywithherboastthatshehadnoobjectiononearthtomeethim。 AfterthattherehadbeentheChristmasvacation,andMaryhadagainfounddiscretionthebetterpartofvalour。Thiswasdoubtlessdisagreeableenough。ShehadnoparticularwishtospendherChristmaswithMissOriel\'sauntinsteadofatheruncle\'sfireside。Indeed,herChristmasfestivitieshadhithertobeenkeptatGreshamsbury,thedoctorandherselfhavingapartofthefamilycirclethereassembled。 Thiswasoutofthequestionnow;andperhapstheabsolutechangetooldMissOriel\'shousewasbetterforherthanthelesserchangetoheruncle\'sdrawing-room。Besides,howcouldshehavedemeanedherselfwhenshemetFrankintheirparishchurch?AllthishadbeenfullyunderstoodbyPatience,and,therefore,hadthisChristmasvisitbeenplanned。 AndthenthisaffairofFrankandMaryThorneceasedforawhiletobetalkedofatGreshamsbury,forthatotheraffairofMrMoffatandAugustamonopolizedtheruralattention。Augusta,aswehavesaid,boreitwell,andsustainedthepublicgazewithoutmuchflinching。Herperiodofmartyrdom,however,didnotlastlong,forsoonthenewsarrivedofFrank\'sexploitinPallMall;andthentheGreshamburyitesforgottothinkmuchmoreofAugusta,beingfullyoccupiedinthinkingofwhatFrankhaddone。 Thetale,asitwasfirsttold,declaredtheFrankhadfollowedMrMoffatupintohisclub;haddraggedhimthenceintothemiddleofPallMall,andhadthenslaughteredhimonthespot。Thiswasbydegreesmodifiedtillasoberedfictionbecamegenerallyprevalent,thatMrMoffatwaslyingsomewhere,stillalive,butwithallhisbonesinastateofcompoundfracture。ThisadventureagainbroughtFrankintotheascendant,andrestoredtoMaryherformerpositionastheGreshamsburyheroine。 \'Onecannotwonderathisbeingveryangry,\'saidBeatrice,discussingthematterwithMary——veryimprudently。 \'Wonder——no;thewonderwouldhavebeenifhehadnotbeenangry。Onemighthavebeenquitesurethathewouldhavebeenangryenough。\' \'IsupposeitwasnotabsolutelyrightforhimtobeatMrMoffat,\'saidBeatrice,apologetically。 \'Notright,Trichy?Ithinkhewasveryright。\' \'Nottobeathimsomuch,Mary!\' \'Oh,Isupposeamancan\'texactlystandmeasuringhowmuchhedoesthesethings。Ilikeyourbrotherforwhathehasdone,andImaysaysofrankly——thoughIsupposeIoughttoeatmytongueoutbeforeI shouldsaysuchathing,ehTrichy?\' \'Idon\'tknowthatthere\'sanyharminthat,\'saidBeatrice,demurely。 \'Ifyoubothlikedeachothertherewouldbenoharminthat——ifthatwereall。\' \'Wouldn\'tthere?\'saidMary,inalowtoneofbanteringsatire;\'thatissokind,Trichy,comingfromyou——fromoneofthefamily,youknow。\' \'Youarewellaware,Mary,thatifIcouldhavemywishes——\' \'Yes:Iamwellawarewhataparagonofgoodnessyouare。IfyoucouldhaveyourwayIshouldbeadmittedintoheavenagain;shouldn\'tI?Onlywiththisproviso,thatifastrayangelshouldeverwhispertomewithbatedbreath,mistakingme,perchance,foroneofhisownclass,I shouldbeboundtoclosemyearstohiswhispering,andremindhimhumblythatIwasonlyapoormortal。Youwouldtrustmesofar,wouldn\'tyou,Trichy?\' \'Iwouldtrustyouinanyway,Mary。ButIthinkyouareunkindinsayingsuchthingstome。\' \'IntowhateverheavenIamadmitted,Iwillgoonlyonthisunderstanding:thatIamtobeasgoodanangelasanyofthosearoundme。\' \'But,Marydear,whydoyousaythistome?\' \'Because——because——because——ahme!Why,indeed,butbecauseIhavenooneelsetosayitto。Certainlynotbecauseyouhavedeservedit。\' \'Itseemsasifyouwerefindingfaultwithme。\' \'AndsoIam;howcanIdootherthanfindfault?HowcanIhelpbeingsore?Trichy,youhardlyrealizemyposition;youhardlyseehowIamtreated;howIamforcedtoallowmyselftobetreatedwithoutasignofcomplaint。Youdon\'tseeitall。Ifyoudid,youwouldnotwonderthatIshouldbesore。\'