Thiswasratheradifficultquestiontoanswer;andFrankwasnotveryquickinattemptingit。\'Iknowyouwillnotforgiveme,\'hesaidatlast;\'and,indeed,Idonotseehowyoucan。Idon\'tknowhowitcameabout;butthisiscertain,MissDunstable;Ihaveneverforamomentthoughtaboutyourfortune;thatis,thoughtaboutitinthewayofcovetingit。\'
\'Youneverthoughtofmakingmeyourwife,then?\'
\'Never,\'saidFrank,lookingboldlyintoherface。
\'Youneverintendedreallytoproposetogowithmetothealtar,andthenmakeyourselfrichbyonegreatperjury?\'
\'Neverforamoment,\'saidhe。
\'Youhavenevergloatedovermeasthebirdofpreygloatsoverthepoorbeastthatissoontobecomecarrionbeneathitsclaws?Youhavenotcountedmeoutasequaltosomuchland,andcalculatedonmeasabalanceatyourbanker\'s?Ah,MrGresham,\'shecontinued,seeingthathestaredasthoughstruckalmostwithawebyherstronglanguage;\'youlittleguesswhatawomansituatedasIamhastosuffer。\'
\'Ihavebehavedbadlytoyou,MissDunstable,andIbegyourpardon;
butIhaveneverthoughtofyourmoney。\'
\'Thenwewillbefriendsagain,MrGresham,won\'twe?Itissonicetohaveafriendlikeyou。There,IthinkIunderstanditnow;youneednottellme。\'
\'Itwashalfbywayofmakingafoolofmyaunt,\'saidFrank,inanapologetictone。
\'Thereismeritinthat,atanyrate,\'saidMissDunstable。\'I
understanditallnow;youthoughttomakeafoolofmeinrealearnest。Well,Icanforgivethat;atanyrateitisnotmean。\'
Itmaybe,thatMissDunstabledidnotfeelmuchacuteangeratfindingthatthisyoungmanhadaddressedherwithwordsofloveinthecourseofanordinaryflirtation,althoughthatflirtationhadbeenunmeaningandsilly。Thiswasnottheoffenceagainstwhichherheartandbreasthadfoundpeculiarcausetoarmitself;thiswasnottheinjuryfromwhichshehadhithertoexperiencedsuffering。
Atanyrate,sheandFrankagainbecamefriends,and,beforetheeveningwasover,theyperfectlyunderstoodeachother。Twiceduringthislongtete-a-teteLadydeCourcycameintotheroomtoseehowthingsweregoingon,andtwiceshewentoutalmostunnoticed。Itwasquitecleartoherthatsomethinguncommonhadtakenplace,wastakingplace,orwouldtakeplace;andthatshouldthisbeforwealorforwoe,nogoodcouldnotcomefromherinterference。Oneachoccasion,therefore,shesmiledsweetlyonthepairofturtle-doves,andglidedoutoftheroomasquietlyasshehadglidedintoit。
Butatlastitbecamenecessarytoremovethem;fortheworldhadgonetobed。Frank,inthemeantime,hadtoldtoMissDunstableallhisloveforMaryThorne,andMissDunstablehadenjoinedhimtobetruetohisvows。Tohereyestherewassomethingofheavenlybeautyinyoung,truelove——ofbeautythatwasheavenlybecauseithadbeenunknowntoher。
\'Mindyouletmehear,MrGresham,\'saidshe。\'Mindyoudo;and,MrGresham,never,neverforgetherforonemoment;notforonemoment,MrGresham。\'
Frankwasabouttoswearthatheneverwould——again,whenthecountess,forthethirdtime,sailedintotheroom。
\'Youngpeople,\'saidshe,\'doyouknowwhato\'clockitis?\'
\'Dearme,LadydeCourcy,Ideclareitispasttwelve;Ireallyamashamedofmyself。Howgladyouwillbetogetridofmeto-morrow!\'
\'No,no,indeedweshan\'t;shallwe,Frank?\'andsoMissDunstablepassedout。
Thenonceagaintheaunttappedhernephewwithherfan。Itwasthelasttimeinherlifethatshedidso。Helookedupinherface,andhislookwasenoughtotellherthattheacresofGreshamsburywerenottobereclaimedbytheointmentofLebanon。
Nothingfurtheronthesubjectwassaid。OnthefollowingmorningMissDunstabletookherdeparture,notmuchheedingtherathercoldwordsoffarewellwhichherhostessgaveher;andonthefollowingdayFrankstartedforGreshamsbury。
CHAPTERXXI
MRMOFFATFALLSINTOTROUBLE
Wewillnow,withthereader\'skindpermission,skipoversomemonthsinournarrative。FrankreturnedfromCourcyCastletoGreshamsbury,andhavingcommunicatedtohismother——muchinthesamemannerashehadtothecountess——thefactthathismissionhadbeenunsuccessful,hewentupafteradayortwotoCambridge。DuringhisshortstayatGreshamsburyhedidnotevencatchaglimpseofMary。Heaskedforher,ofcourse,andwastoldthatitwasnotlikelythatshewouldbeatthehousejustatpresent。Hecalledatthedoctor\'s,butshewasdeniedtohimthere;\'shewasout,\'Janetsaid,——\'probablywithMissOriel。\'HewenttotheparsonageandfoundMissOrielathome;butMaryhadnotbeenseenthatmorning。Hethenreturnedtothehouse;
and,havingcometotheconclusionthatshehadnotthusvanishedintoair,otherwisethanbypreconcertedarrangement,heboldlytaxedBeatriceonthesubject。
Beatricelookedverydemure;declaredthatnooneinthehousehadquarrelledwithMary;confessedthatithadbeenthoughtprudentthatsheshouldforawhilestayawayfromGreshamsbury;and,ofcourse,endedbytellingherbrothereverything,includingallthescenesthathadpassedbetweenMaryandherself。
\'Itisoutofthequestionyourthinkingofmarryingher,Frank,\'saidshe。\'YoumustknowthatnobodyfeelsitmorestronglythanpoorMaryherself;\'andBeatricelookedtheverypersonificationofdomesticprudence。
\'Iknownothingofthekind,\'saidhe,withtheheadlongimperativeairthatwasusualwithhimindiscussingmatterswithhissisters。\'I
knownothingofthekind。OfcourseIcannotsaywhatMary\'sfeelingsmaybe:aprettylifeshemusthavehadofitamongyou。Butyoumaybesureofthis,Beatrice,andsomaymymother,thatnothingonearthshallmakemegiveherup——nothing。\'AndFrank,ashemadethisprotestation,strengthenedhisownresolutionbythinkingofallthecounselthatMissDunstablehadgivenhim。
Thebrotherandsistercouldhardlyagree,asBeatricewasdeadagainstthematch。NotthatshewouldnothavelikedMaryThorneforasister-in-law,butthatshesharedtoacertaindegreethefeelingwhichwasnowcommontoalltheGreshams——thatFrankmustmarrymoney。
Itseemed,atanyrate,tobeimperativethatheshouldeitherdothatornotmarryatall。PoorBeatricewasnotverymercenaryinherviews:shehadnowishtosacrificeherbrothertoanyMissDunstable;
butyetshefelt,astheyallfelt——MaryThorneincluded——thatsuchasamatchasthat,oftheyoungheirwiththedoctor\'sniece,wasnottobethoughtof;——nottobespokenofasathingthatwasinanywaypossible。Therefore,Beatrice,thoughshewasMary\'sgreatfriend,thoughshewasherbrother\'sfavouritesister,couldgiveFranknoencouragement。PoorFrank!circumstanceshadmadebutonebridepossibletohim:hemustmarrymoney。
Hismothersaidnothingtohimonthesubject:whenshelearntthattheaffairwithMissDunstablewasnottocomeoff,shemerelyremarkedthatitwouldperhapsbebestforhimtoreturntoCambridgeassoonaspossible。Hadshespokenhermindout,shewouldprobablyhavealsoadvisedhimtoremainthereaslongaspossible。ThecountesshadnotomittedtowritetoherwhenFrankhadleftCourcyCastle;andthecountess\'slettercertainlymadetheanxiousmotherthinkthatherson\'seducationhadhardlyyetbeencompleted。Withthissecondaryobject,butwiththatofkeepinghimoutofthewayofMaryThorneinthefirstplace,LadyArabellawasnowquitesatisfiedthathersonshouldenjoysuchadvantagesasaneducationcompletedattheuniversitymightgivehim。
WithhisfatherFrankhadalongconversation;but,alas!thegistofhisfather\'sconversationwasthis,thatitbehovedhim,Frank,tomarrymoney。Thefather,however,didnotputittohiminthecold,callouswayinwhichhislady-aunthaddone,andhislady-mother。Hedidnotbidhimgoandsellhimselftothefirstfemalehecouldfindpossessedofwealth。Itwaswithinwardself-reproaches,andtruegriefofspirit,thatthefathertoldthesonthatitwasnotpossibleforhimtodoasthosewhomaydowhoarebornreallyrich,orreallypoor。
\'Ifyoumarryagirlwithoutafortune,Frank,howareyoutolive?\'
thefatherasked,afterhavingconfessedhowdeephehimselfhadinjuredhisownheir。
\'Idon\'tcareaboutmoney,sir,\'saidFrank。\'IshallbejustashappyifBoxallHillhadneverbeensold。Idon\'tcareastrawaboutthatsortofthing。\'
\'Ah!myboy;butyouwillcare:youwillsoonfindthatyoudocare。\'
\'Letmegointosomeprofession。LetmegototheBar。IamsureI
couldearnmyownliving。Earnit!ofcourseIcould,whynotIaswellasothers?Ishouldlikeofallthingstobeabarrister。\'
Therewasmuchmoreofthesamekind,inwhichFranksaidallthathecouldthinkoftolessenhisfather\'sregrets。IntheirconversationnotawordwasspokenaboutMaryThorne。Frankwasnotawarewhetherornohisfatherhadbeentoldofthegreatfamilydangerwhichwasdreadedinthatquarter。Thathehadbeentold,wemaysurmise,asLadyArabellawasnotwonttoconfinethefamilydangerstoherownbosom。Moreover,Mary\'spresencehad,ofcourse,beenmissed。Thetruthwas,thatthesquirehadbeentold,withgreatbitterness,ofwhathadcometopass,andalltheevilhadbeenlaidathisdoor。HeithadbeenwhohandencouragedMarytoberegardedalmostasadaughterofthehouseofGreshamsbury:heitwaswhotaughtthatodiousdoctor——odiousonallbuthisaptitudeforgooddoctoring——tothinkhimselfafitmatchforthearistocracyofthecounty。Ithadbeenhisfault,thisgreatnecessitythatFrankshouldmarrymoney;andnowitwashisfaultthatFrankwasabsolutelytalkingofmarryingapauper。
Bynomeansinquiescencedidthesquirehearthesechargesbroughtagainsthim。TheLadyArabella,ineachattack,gotquiteasmuchasshegave,and,atlast,wasdriventoretreatinastateofheadache,whichshedeclaredtobechronic;andwhich,sosheassuredherdaughterAugusta,mustpreventherfromhavinganymorelengthenedconversationswithherlord——atanyrateforthenextthreemonths。Butthoughthesquiremaybesaidtohavecomeoffonthewholeasthevictorinthesecombats,theydidnotperhapshave,onthataccount,thelesseffectuponhim。Heknewitwastruethathehaddonemuchtowardsruininghisson;andhealsocouldthinkofnootherremedythanmatrimony。ItwasFrank\'sdoom,pronouncedevenbythevoiceofhisfather,thathemustmarrymoney。
Andso,FrankwentoffagaintoCambridge,feelinghimself,ashewent,tobeamuchlessermaninGreshamsburyestimationthanhehadbeensometwomonthsearlier,whenhisbirthdayhadbeencelebrated。OnceduringhisshortstayatGreshamsburyhehadseenthedoctor;butthemeetinghadbeenanythingbutpleasant。HehadbeenafraidtoaskafterMary;andthedoctorhadbeentoodiffidentofhimselftospeakofher。Theyhadmetcasuallyontheroad,and,thougheachinhisheartlovedtheother,themeetinghadbeenanythingbutpleasant。
AndsoFrankwenttoCambridge;and,ashedidso,hestoutlyresolvedthatnothingshouldmakehimuntruetoMaryThorne。\'Beatrice,\'saidhe,onthemorninghewentaway,whenshecameintohisroomtosuperintendhispacking——\'Beatrice,ifsheevertalksaboutme——\'
\'Oh,Frank,mydarlingFrank,don\'tthinkofit——itismadness;sheknowsitismadness。\'
\'Nevermind;ifsheevertalksaboutme,tellherthatthelastwordI
saidwas,thatIwouldneverforgether。Shecandoasshelikes。\'
Beatricemadenopromise,neverhintedthatshewouldgivethemessage;
butitmaybetakenforgrantedthatshehadnotbeenlongincompanywithMaryThornebeforeshedidgiveit。
AndthentherewereothertroublesatGreshamsbury。IthadbeendecidedthatAugusta\'smarriagewastotakeplaceinSeptember;butMrMoffathad,unfortunately,beenobligedtopostponethehappyday。HehimselfhadtoldAugusta——not,ofcourse,withoutprotestationsastohisregret——andhadwrittentothiseffecttoMrGresham,\'Electioneeringmatters,andothertroubleshad,\'hesaid,\'madethispeculiarlypainfulpostponementabsolutelynecessary。\'
Augustaseemedtobearhermisfortunewithmoreequanimitythanis,webelieve,usualwithyoungladiesundersuchcircumstances。Shespokeofittohermotherinaverymatter-of-factway,andseemedalmostcontentedattheideaofremainingatGreshamsburytillFebruary;whichwasthetimenownamedforthemarriage。ButLadyArabellawasnotequallywellsatisfied,norwasthesquire。
\'Ihalfbelievethatfellowisnothonest,\'hehadoncesaidoutloudbeforeFrank,andthissetFranka-thinkingofwhatdishonestyinthematteritwasprobablethatMrMoffatmightbeguilty,andwhatwouldbethefittingpunishmentforsuchacrime。Nordidhethinkonthesubjectinvain;especiallyafteraconferenceonthematterwhichhehadwithhisfriendHarryBaker。ThisconferencetookplaceduringtheChristmasvacation。
Itshouldbementioned,thatthetimespentbyFrankatCourcyCastlehadnotdonemuchtoassisthiminhisviewsastoanearlydegree,andthatithadatlastbeensettledthatheshouldstayupatCambridgeanotheryear。WhenhecamehomeatChristmashefoundthatthehousewasnotpeculiarlylively。MarywasabsentonavisitwithMissOriel。BoththeseyoungladieswerestayingwithMissOriel\'saunt,intheneighbourhoodofLondon;andFranksoonlearntthattherewasnochancethateitherofthemwouldbehomebeforehisreturn。NomessagehadbeenleftforhimbyMary——noneatleasthadbeenleftwithBeatrice;andhebeganinhishearttoaccuseherofcoldnessandperfidy;——not,certainly,withmuchjustice,seeingthatshehadnevergivenhimtheslightestencouragement。
TheabsenceofPatienceOrieladdedtothedullnessoftheplace。ItwascertainlyharduponFrankthatalltheattractionofthevillageshouldberemovedtomakewayandprepareforhisreturn——harder,perhaps,onthem;for,totellthetruth,MissOriel\'svisithadbeenentirelyplannedtoenablehertogiveMaryacomfortablewayofleavingGreshamsburyduringthetimethatFrankshouldremainathome。
Frankthoughthimselfcruellyused。ButwhatdidMrOrielthinkwhendoomedtoeathisChristmaspuddingalone,becausetheyoungsquirewouldbeunreasonableinhislove?Whatdidthedoctorthink,ashesatsolitarybyhisdesertedhearth——thedoctor,whonolongerpermittedhimselftoenjoythecomfortsoftheGreshamsburydining-table?Frankhintedandgrumbled;talkedtoBeatriceofthedeterminedconstancyofhislove,andoccasionallyconsoledhimselfbyastraysmilefromsomeoftheneighbouringbelles。Theblackhorsewasmadeperfect;theoldgreyponywasbynomeansdiscarded;andmuchthatwassatisfactorywasdoneinthesportingline。Butstillthehousewasdull,andFrankfeltthathewasthecauseofitsbeingso。Ofthedoctorhesawbutlittle:henevercametoGreshamsbury,unlesstoseeLadyArabellaasdoctor,ortobeclosetedwiththesquire。Therewerenospecialeveningswithhim;noanimatedconfabulationsatthedoctor\'shouse;nodiscoursesbetweenthem,astherewaswonttobe,aboutthemeritsofthedifferentcovers,andthecapacitiesofthedifferenthounds。TheseweredulldaysonthewholeforFrank;andsadenough,wemaysay,forourfriendthedoctor。
InFebruaryFrankagainwentbacktocollege;havingsettledwithHarryBakercertainaffairswhichweighedonhismind。HewentbacktoCambridge,promisingtobehomeonthetwentiethofthemonth,soastobepresentathissister\'swedding。Acoldandchillingtimehadbeennamedforthesehymenealjoys,butonenotaltogetherunsuitedtothefeelingsofthehappypair。Februaryiscertainlynotawarmmonth;
butwiththerichitisgenerallyacosy,comfortabletime。Goodfires,wintercheer,groaningtables,andwarmblankets,makeafictitioussummer,which,tosometastes,ismoredelightfulthanthelongdaysandthehotsun。Andsomemarriagesareespeciallywintermatches。Theydependfortheircharmonthesamesubstantialattractions:insteadofheartbeatingtoheartinsympatheticunison,pursechinkstopurse。Therichnewfurnitureofthenewabodeislookedtoinsteadoftheraptureofapureembrace。Thenewcarriageisdependedonratherthanthenewheart\'scompanion;andthefirstbrightgloss,preparedbytheupholsterer\'shands,standsinlieuoftherosytintswhichyounglovelendstohistruevotaries。
MrMoffathadnotspenthisChristmasatGreshamsbury。Thateternalelectionpetition,thoseeternallawyers,theeternalcareofhiswell-managedwealth,forbadehimtheenjoymentofanysuchpleasures。
HecouldnotcometoGreshamsburyforChristmas,noryetforthefestivitiesofthenewyear;butnowandthenhewroteprettilywordednotes,sendingoccasionallyasilver-giltpencil-case,orasmallbrooch,andinformedLadyArabellathathelookedforwardtothetwentiethofFebruarywithgreatsatisfaction。But,inthemeanwhile,thesquirebecameanxious,andatlastwentuptoLondon;andFrank,whowasatCambridge,boughttheheaviest-cuttingwhiptobefoundinthattown,andwroteaconfidentiallettertoHarryBaker。
PoorMrMoffat!Itiswellknownthatnonebutthebravedeservethefair;butthou,withoutmuchexcuseforbravery,hadsecuredforthyselfonewho,atanyrate,wasfairenoughforthee。Woulditnothavebeenwellhadstthoulookedtothyselftoseewhatrealbraverymightbeinthee,beforethouhadstpreparedtodesertthisfaironethouhadstalreadywon?Thatlastachievement,onemaysay,didrequiresomespecialcourage。
PoorMrMoffat!Itiswonderfulthatashesatinthatgig,goingtoGatherumCastle,planninghowhewouldbeoffwithMissGreshamandafterwardsonwithMissDunstable,itiswonderfulthatheshouldnotthenhavecasthiseyebehindhim,andlookedatthatstalwartpairofshoulderswhichweresoclosetohisownback。Asheafterwardsponderedonhisschemewhilesippingtheduke\'sclaret,itisoddthatheshouldnothaveobservedthefieryprideofpurposeandpowerofwrathwhichwassoplainlywrittenonthatyoungman\'sbrow:or,whenhematured,andfinished,andcarriedouthispurpose,thathedidnotthinkofthatkeengraspwhichhadalreadysqueezedhisownhandwithsomewhattoowarmavigour,eveninthewayoffriendship。
PoorMrMoffat!itisprobablethatheforgottothinkofFrankatallasconnectedwithhispromisedbride;itisprobablethathelookedforwardonlytothesquire\'sviolenceandtheenmityofthehouseofCourcy;andthathefoundfromenquiryathisheart\'spulses,thathewasmanenoughtomeetthese。CouldhehaveguessedwhatawhipFrankGreshamwouldhaveboughtatCambridge——couldhehavedivinedwhataletterwouldhavebeenwrittentoHarryBaker——itisprobable,nay,wethinkwemaysaycertain,thatMissGreshamwouldhavebecomeMrsMoffat。
MissGresham,however,neverdidbecomeMrsMoffat。AbouttwodaysafterFrank\'sdepartureforCambridge——itisjustpossiblethatMrMoffatwassoprudentastomakehimselfawareofthefact——butjusttwodaysafterFrank\'sdeparture,averylong,elaborate,andclearlyexplanatoryletterwasreceivedatGreshamsbury。MrMoffatwasquitesurethatMissGreshamandherveryexcellentparentswoulddohimthejusticetobelievethathewasnotactuated,&c,&c,&c。Thelongandtheshortofthiswas,thatMrMoffatsignifiedhisintentionofbreakingoffthematchwithoutofferinganyintelligiblereason。
Augustaagainboreherdisappointmentwell:not,indeed,withoutsorrowandheartache,andinward,hiddentears;butstillwell。Sheneitherraved,norfainted,norwalkedaboutbymoonlightalone。Shewrotenopoetry,andneveroncethoughtofsuicide。When,indeed,sherememberedtherosy-tintedlining,theunfathomablesoftnessofthatLong-acrecarriage,herspiritdidforonemomentgiveway;but,onthewhole,sheboreitasastrong-mindedwomanandaDeCourcyshoulddo。
ButbothLadyArabellaandthesquireweregreatlyvexed。Theformerhadmadethematch,andthelatter,havingconsentedtoit,hadincurreddeeperresponsibilitiestoenablehimtobringitabout。ThemoneywhichwastohavebeengiventoMrMoffatwasstilltothefore;
butalas!howmuch,howmuchthathecouldillspare,hadbeenthrownawayinbridalpreparations!Itis,moreover,anunpleasantthingforagentlemantohavehisdaughterjilted;perhapspeculiarlysotohaveherjiltedbyatailor\'sson。
LadyArabella\'swoewasreallypiteous。ItseemedtoherasthoughcruelfatewereheapingmiseryaftermiseryuponthewretchedhouseofGreshamsbury。Afewweekssincethingsweregoingsowellwithher!
Frankthenwasstillallbuttheacceptedhusbandofalmostuntoldwealth——so,atleast,shewasinformedbyhersister-in-law——whereas,Augusta,wastheacceptedwifeofwealth,notindeeduntold,butofdimensionsquitesufficientlyrespectabletocausemuchjoyinthetelling。Wherenowwerehergoldenhopes?Wherenowthesplendidfutureofherpoordupedchildren?Augustawaslefttopinealone;andFrank,inastillworseplight,insistedonmaintaininghisloveforabastardandapauper。
ForFrank\'saffairsshehadreceivedsomepoorconsolationbylayingalltheblameonthesquire\'sshoulders。Whatshehadthensaidwasnowrepaidtoherwithinterest;fornotonlyhadshebeenthemakerofAugusta\'smatch,butshehadboastedofthedeedwithallamother\'spride。
ItwasfromBeatricethatFrankhadobtainedhistidings。ThislastresolveonthepartofMrMoffathadnotaltogetherbeenunsuspectedbysomeoftheGreshams,thoughaltogetherunsuspectedbytheLadyArabella。FrankhadspokenofitasapossibilitytoBeatrice,andwasnotquiteunpreparedwhentheinformationreachedhim。Heconsequentlyboughthiscutting-whip,andwrotehisconfidentiallettertoHarryBaker。
OnthefollowingdayFrankandHarrymighthavebeenseen,withtheirheadsnearlyclosetogether,leaningoveroneofthetablesinthelargebreakfast-roomattheTavistockHotelinCoventGarden。Theominouswhip,tothehandleofwhichFrankhadalreadymadehishandwellaccustomed,waslyingonthetablebetweenthem;andeverandanonHarryBakerwouldtakeitupandfeelitsweightapprovingly。Oh,MrMoffat!poorMrMoffat!gonotoutintothefashionableworldto-day;
aboveall,gonottothatclubofthineinPallMall;but,oh!
especiallygonotthere,asisthywonttodo,atthreeo\'clockintheafternoon!
Withmuchcaredidthosetwoyounggeneralslaytheirplansofattack。
Letitnotforamomentbethoughtthatitwaseverinthemindsofeitherofthemthattwomenshouldattackone。ButitwasthoughtthatMrMoffatmightberathercoyincomingoutfromhisseclusiontomeettheprofferedhandofhisonceintendedbrother-in-lawwhenheshouldseethathandarmedwithaheavywhip。Baker,therefore,wascontenttoactasadecoyduck,andremarkedthathemightnodoubtmakehimselfusefulinrestrainingthepublicmercy,and,probably,incontrollingtheinterferenceofpolicemen。
\'ItwillbedeucedhardifIcan\'tgetfiveorsixshiesathim,\'saidFrank,againclutchinghisweaponalmostspasmodically。Oh,MrMoffat!fiveorsixshieswithsuchawhip,andsuchanarm!Formyself,IwouldsoonerjointhesecondBalaclavagallopthanencounterit。
AttenminutesbeforefourthesetwoheroesmightbeseenwalkingupPallMall,towardsthe——Club。YoungBakerwalkedwithaneagerdisengagedair。MrMoffatdidnotknowhisappearance;hehad,therefore,noanxietytopassalongunnoticed。ButFrankhadinsomemysteriouswaydrawnhishatveryfaroverhisforehead,andhadbuttonedhisshooting-coatuproundhischin。Harryhadrecommendedtohimagreat-coat,inorderthathemightthebetterconcealhisface;
butFrankhadfoundthegreat-coatwasanencumbrancetohisarm。Heputiton,andwhenthusclothedhehadtriedthewhip,hefoundthathecuttheairwithmuchlesspotencythaninthelightergarment。Hecontentedhimself,therefore,withlookingdownonthepavementashewalkedalong,lettingthelongpointofthewhipstickupfromhispocket,andflatteringhimselfthatevenMrMoffatwouldnotrecognisehimatthefirstglance。PoorMrMoffat!Ifhehadbuthadthechance!
Andnow,havingarrivedatthefrontoftheclub,thetwofriendsforamomentseparate:Frankremainsstandingonthepavement,undertheshadeofthehighstonearea-railing,whileHarryjauntilyskipsupthreestepsatatime,andwithaverycivilwordofinquiryofthehallporter,sendshiscardtoMrMoffat——
\'MRHARRYBAKER\'
MrMoffat,neverhavingheardofsuchagentlemaninhislife,unwittinglycomesoutintothehall,andHarry,withthesweetestsmile,addresseshim。
Nowtheplanofthecampaignhadbeensettledinthiswise:BakerwastosendintotheclubforMrMoffat,andinvitethatgentlemandownintothestreet。Itwasprobablethattheinvitationmightbedeclined;andithadbeencalculatedinsuchcasethetwogentlemenwouldretireforparleyintothestrangers\'room,whichwasknowntobeimmediatelyoppositethehalldoor。Frankwastokeephiseyeontheportals,andifhefoundthatMrMoffatdidnotappearasreadilyasmightbedesired,healsowastoascendthestepsandhurryintothestrangers\'room。Then,whetherhemetMrMoffatthereorelsewhere,orwherever,hemightmeethim,hewastogreethimwithallthefriendlyvigourinhispower,whileHarrydisposedoftheclubporters。
Butfortune,whoeverfavoursthebrave,speciallyfavouredFrankGreshamonthisoccasion。JustasHarryBakerhadputhiscardintotheservant\'shand,MrMoffat,withhishaton,preparedforthestreet,appearedinthehall;MrBakeraddressedhimwithhissweetestsmile,andbeggedthepleasureofsayingawordortwoastheydescendedintothestreet。HadnotMrMoffatbeengoingthitheritwouldhavebeenveryimprobablethatheshouldhavedonesoatHarry\'sinstance。But,asitwas,hemerelylookedrathersolemnathisvisitor——itwashiswonttolooksolemn——andcontinuedthedescentofthesteps。
Frank,hisheartleapingthewhile,sawhisprey,andretreatedtwostepsbehindthearea-railing,thedreadweaponalreadywellpoisedinhishand。Oh!MrMoffat!MrMoffat!iftherebeanygoddesstointerfereinthyfavour,lethercomeforwardnowwithoutdelay;lethernowbeartheeoffonacloudiftherebeonetowhomthouartsufficientlydear!Butthereisnosuchgoddess。
Harrysmiledblandlytilltheywerewellonthepavement,sayingsomenothing,andkeepingthevictim\'sfaceavertedfromtheavengingangel;
andthen,whentheraisedhandwassufficientlynigh,hewithdrewtwostepstowardsthenearestlamp-post。Notforhimwasthehonouroftheinterview;——unless,indeed,succouringpolicemenmightgiveoccasionforsomegleamofglory。
Butsuccouringpolicemenwerenomoretobecomebythangoddesses。
Wherewereye,men,whenthatsavagewhipfellabouttheearsofthepoorex-legislator?InScotlandYard,sittingdozingonyourbenches,ortalkingsoftnothingstothehousemaidsroundthecorner;foryewerenotwalkingonyourbeats,norstandingatcoignofvantage,towatchthetumultsoftheday。HadSirRichardhimselfbeenonthespotFrankGreshamwouldstill,wemaysay,havehadhisfiveshiesatthatunfortunateone。
WhenHarryBakerquicklysecededfromtheway,MrMoffatatoncesawthefatebeforehim。Hishairdoubtlessstoodonend,andhisvoicerefusedtogivetheloudscreechwithwhichhesoughttoinvoketheclub。Anashypalenesssuffusedhischeeks,andhistotteringstepswereunabletobearhimawayinflight。Once,andtwice,thecuttingwhipcamewelldownacrosshisback。Hadhebeenwiseenoughtostandstillandtakehisthrashinginthatattitude,itwouldhavebeenwellforhim。Butmensocircumstancedhaveneversuchprudence。Aftertwoblowshemadeadashatthesteps,thinkingtogetbackintotheclub;
butHarry,whohadbynomeansreclinedinidlenessagainstthelamp-post,herestoppedhim:\'Youhadbettergobackintothestreet,\'
saidHarry;\'indeedyouhad,\'givinghimashovefromoffthesecondstep。
ThenofcourseFrankcoulddonootherthanhithimanywhere。Whenagentlemanisdancingaboutwithmuchenergyitishardlypossibletostrikehimfairlyonhisback。Theblows,therefore,camenowonhislegsandnowonhishead;andFrankunfortunatelygotmorethanhisfiveorsixshiesbeforehewasinterrupted。
Theinterruptionhowevercame,alltoosoonforFrank\'sideaofjustice。ThoughtherebenopolicemantotakepartinaLondonrow,therearealwaysothersreadyenoughtodoso;amateurpolicemen,whogenerallysympathizewiththewrongside,and,inninecasesoutoften,expendtheirgenerousenergyinprotectingthievesandpickpockets。Whenitwasseenwithwhattremendousardourthatdreadweaponfellabouttheearsofthepoorundefendedgentleman,interferencewasatlast,inspiteofHarryBaker\'sbestendeavours,andloudestprotestations。
\'Donotinterruptthem,sir,\'saidhe;\'praydonot。Itisafamilyaffair,andtheywillneitherofthemlikeit。\'
Intheteeth,however,oftheseassurances,rudepeopledidinterfere,andaftersomenineortenshiesFrankfoundhimselfencompassedbythearms,andencumberedbytheweightofaverystoutgentleman,whohungaffectionatelyabouthisneckandshoulders;whereas,MrMoffatwasalreadysittinginastateofsyncopeonthegood-naturedkneesofafishmonger\'sapprentice。
Frankwasthoroughlyoutofbreath:nothingcamefromhislipsbuthalf-mutteredexpletivesandunintelligibledenunciationsoftheiniquityofhisfoe。Butstillhestruggledtobeathimagain。Weallknowhowdangerousisthetasteofblood;nowcruellyitwillbecomeacustomevenwiththemosttender-hearted。Frankfeltthathehadhardlyfleshedhisvirginlash:hethought,almostwithdespair,thathehadnotyetatallsucceededasbecameamanandabrother;hismemorytoldhimofbutoneortwooftheslightesttouchesthathadgonewellhometotheoffender。Hemadeadesperateefforttothrowoffthatincubusroundhisneckandrushagaintothecombat。
\'Harry——Harry;don\'tlethimgo——don\'tlethimgo,\'hebarelyarticulated。
\'Doyouwanttomurdertheman,sir;tomurderhim?\'saidthestoutgentlemanoverhisshoulder,speakingsolemnlyintohisveryear。
\'Idon\'tcare,\'saidFrank,strugglingmanfullybutuselessly。\'Letmeout,Isay;Idon\'tcare——don\'tlethimgo,Harry,whateveryoudo。\'
\'Hehasgotitprettilytidily,\'saidHarry;\'Ithinkthatwillperhapsdoforthepresent。\'
Bythistimetherewasaconsiderableconcourse。Theclubstepswerecrowdedwithmembers;amongwhomthereweremayofMrMoffat\'sacquaintance。Policemennowflockedup,andthequestionaroseastowhatshouldbedonewiththeoriginatorsoftheaffray。FrankandHarryfoundthattheyweretoconsiderthemselvesunderagentlearrest,andMrMoffat,inafaintingstate,wascarriedintotheinterioroftheclub。
Frank,inhisinnocence,hadintendedtohavecelebratedthislittleaffairwhenitwasoverbyalightrepastandabottleofclaretwithhisfriend,andthentohavegonebacktoCambridgebythemailtrain。
Hefound,however,thathisschemesinthisrespectwerefrustrated。HehadtogetbailtoattendatMarlboroughStreetpolice-officeshouldhebewantedwithinthenexttwoorthreedays;andwasgiventounderstandthathewouldbeundertheeyeofthepolice,atanyrateuntilMrMoffatshouldbeoutofdanger。
\'Outofdanger!\'saidFranktohisfriendwithastartledlook。\'WhyI
hardlygotathim。\'Nevertheless,theydidhavetheirslightrepast,andalsotheirbottleofclaret。
Onthesecondmorningafterthisoccurrence,FrankwasagainsittinginthatpublicroomattheTavistock,andHarrywasagainsittingoppositetohim。Thewhipwasnotnowsoconspicuouslyproducedbetweenthem,havingbeencarefullypackedupandputawayamongFrank\'sothertravellingproperties。Theyweresositting,ratherglum,whenthedoorswungopen,andaheavyquickstepwasheardadvancingtowardsthem。Itwasthesquire;whosearrivaltherehadbeenmomentarilyexpected。
\'Frank,\'saidhe——\'Frank,whatonearthisallthis?\'andashespokehestretchedoutbothhands,therighttohissonandthelefttohisfriend。
\'Hehasgivenablackguardalicking,thatisall,\'saidHarry。
Frankfeltthathishandwasheldwithapeculiarlywarmgrasp;andhecouldnotbutthinkthathisfather\'sface,raisedthoughhiseyebrowswere——thoughtherewasonitanintendedexpressionofamazementand,perhaps,regret——neverthelesshecouldnotbutthinkthathisfather\'sfacelookedkindlyathim。
\'Godblessmysoul,mydearboy!whathaveyoudonetotheman?\'
\'He\'snotaha\'porththeworse,sir,\'saidFrank,stillholdinghisfather\'shand。
\'Oh,isn\'the!\'saidHarry,shrugginghisshoulders。\'Hemustbemadeofsomeverystrongarticlethen。\'
\'Butmydearboys,Ihopethere\'snodanger。Ihopethere\'snodanger。\'
\'Danger!\'saidFrank,whocouldnotyetinducehimselftobelievethathehadbeenallowedafairchancewithMrMoffat。
\'Oh,Frank!Frank!howcouldyoubesorash?InthemiddleofPallMall,too。Well!well!well!AllthewomendownatGreshamsburywillhaveitthatyouhavekilledhim。\'
\'IalmostwishIhad,\'saidFrank。
\'Oh,Frank!Frank!Butnowtellme——\'
Andthenthefathersatwellpleasedwhileheheard,chieflyfromHarryBaker,thefullstoryofhisson\'sprowess。Andthentheydidnotseparatewithoutanotherslightrepastandanotherbottleofclaret。
MrMoffatretiredtothecountryforawhile,andthenwentabroad;
havingdoubtlesslearntthatthepetitionwasnotlikelytogivehimaseatforthecityofBarchester。AndthiswastheendofthewooingwithMissGresham。
CHAPTERXXII
SIRROGERISUNSEATED
Afterthis,littleoccurredatGreshamsbury,oramongGreshamsburypeople,whichitwillbenecessaryforustorecord。Somenoticewas,ofcourse,takingofFrank\'sprolongedabsencefromhiscollege;andtidings,perhapsexaggeratedtidings,ofwhathadhappenedatPallMallwerenotslowtoreachtheHighStreetofCambridge。Butthataffairwasgraduallyhushedup;andFrankwentonwithhisstudies。
Hewentbacktohisstudies:itthenbeinganunderstoodarrangementbetweenhimandhisfatherthatheshouldnotreturntoGreshamsburytillthesummervacation。Onthisoccasion,thesquireandLadyArabellahad,strangetosay,beenofthesamemind。TheybothwishedtokeeptheirsonawayfromMissThorne;andbothcalculated,thatathisageandwithhisdisposition,itwasnotprobablethatanypassionwouldlastoutasixmonthabsence。\'Andwhenthatsummercomesitwillbeanexcellentopportunityforustogoabroad,\'saidLadyArabella。\'PoorAugustawillrequiresomechangetorenovateherspirits。\'
Tothislastpropositionthesquiredidnotassent。Itwas,however,allowedtopassover;andthismuchwasfixed,thatFrankwasnottoreturntillmidsummer。
ItwillberememberedthatSirRogerScatcherdhadbeenelectedassittingmemberforthecityofBarchester;butitwillalsoberememberedthatapetitionagainsthisreturnwasthreatened。HadthepetitiondependedsolelyonMrMoffat,SirRoger\'sseatnodoubtwouldhavebeensavedbyFrankGresham\'scuttingwhip。Butsuchwasnotthecase。MrMoffathadbeenputforwardbytheDeCourcyinterest;andthatnoblefamilywithitsdependantswasnottogotothewallbecauseMrMoffathadhadathrashing。No;thepetitionwastogoon;andMrNearthewindedeclared,thatnopetitioninhishandshadhalfsogoodachanceofsuccess。\'Chance,no,butcertainty,\'saidMrNearthewinde;
forMrNearthewindehadlearntsomethingwithreferencetothathonestpublicanandthepaymentofhislittlebill。
Thepetitionwaspresentedanddulybacked;therecognisancesweresigned,andalltheproperformalitiesformallyexecuted;andSirRogerfoundthathisseatwasinjeopardy。Hisreturnhadbeenagreattriumphtohim;and,unfortunately,hehadcelebratedthattriumphashehadbeeninthehabitofcelebratingmostoftheverytriumphantoccasionsofhislife。Thoughhewasthanhardlyyetrecoveredfromtheeffectsofhislastattack,heindulgedinanotherviolentdrinkingbout;and,strangetosay,didsowithoutanyimmediatevisiblebadeffects。
InFebruaryhetookhisseatamidstthewarmcongratulationsofallmenofhisownclass,andearlyinthemonthofAprilhiscasecameonfortrial。Everykindofelectioneeringsinknowntotheelectioneeringworldwasbroughttohischarge;hewasaccusedoffalseness,dishonesty,andbriberyofeverysort:hehad,itwassaidinthepaperofindictment,boughtvotes,obtainedthembytreating,carriedthemoffbyviolence,conqueredthembystrongdrink,polledthemtwiceover,countedthoseofdeadmen,stolenthem,forgedthem,andcreatedthembyeverypossible,fictitiouscontrivance:therewasnodescriptionofwickednessappertainingtothetaskofprocuringvotesofwhichSirRogerhadnotbeenguilty,eitherbyhimselforbyhisagents。Hewasquitehorror-struckatthelistofhisownenormities。
ButhewassomewhatcomfortedwhenMrCloserstiltoldhimthatthemeaningofitallwasthatMrRomer,thebarrister,hadpaidaformerbillduetoMrReddypalm,thepublican。
\'Ifearhewasindiscreet,SirRoger;Ireallyfearhewas。Thoseyoungmeanalwaysare。Beingenergetic,theyworklikehorses;butwhat\'stheuseofenergywithoutdiscretion,SirRoger?\'
\'But,MrCloserstil,Iknewnothingofitfromfirsttolast。\'
\'Theagencycanbeproved,SirRoger,\'saidMrCloserstil,shakinghishead。Andthentherewasnothingfurthertobesaidonthematter。
Inthesedaysofsnow-whitepurityallpoliticaldelinquencyisabominableintheeyesofBritishpoliticians;butnodelinquencyissoabominablethanthevenalityatelections。Thesinofbriberyisdamnable。Itistheonesinforwhich,intheHouseofCommons,therecanbenoforgiveness。Whendiscovered,itshouldrendertheculpritliabletopoliticaldeath,withouthopeofpardon。ItistreasonagainstahigherthronethanthatonwhichtheQueensits。Itisaheresywhichrequiresanauto-da-fe。ItisapollutiontothewholeHouse,whichcanonlybecleansedbyagreatsacrifice。Anathemamaranatha!outwithitfromamongstus,eventhoughhalfofourheart\'sbloodbepouredfromtheconflict!Outwithit,andforever!
Suchisthelanguageofpatrioticmemberswithregardtobribery;anddoubtless,ifsincere,theyareintheright。Itisabadthing,certainly,thatarichmanshouldbuyvotes;badalsothatapoormanshouldsellthem。Byallmeansletusrepudiatesuchasystemwithheartfeltdisgust。
Withheartfeltdisgust,ifwecandoso,byallmeans;butnotwithdisgustpretendedonlyandnotfeltintheheartatall。Thelawsagainstbriberyatelectionsarenowsostringentthatanunfortunatecandidatemayeasilybecomeguilty,eventhoughactuatedbythepurestintentions。Butnotthelessonthataccountdoesanygentleman,ambitiousofthehonourofservinghiscountryinParliament,thinkitnecessaryasapreliminarymeasuretoprovidearoundsumofmoneyathisbanker\'s。Acandidatemustpayfornotreating,norefreshments,nobandofmusic;hemustgiveneitherribbonstothegirlsnoraletothemen。Ifahuzzabeutteredinhisfavour,itisathisperil;itmaybenecessaryforhimtoprovebeforeacommitteethatitwasthespontaneousresultofBritishfeelinginhisfavour,andnotthepurchasedresultofBritishbeer。Hecannotsafelyaskanyonetosharehishoteldinner。Briberyhidesitselfnowinthemostimpalpableshapes,andmaybeeffectedbytheofferofaglassofsherry。Butnotthelessonthisaccountdoesapoormanfindthatheisquiteunabletoovercomethedifficultiesofacontestedelection。
Westrainatourgnatswithavengeance,butweswallowourcamelswithease。Forwhatpurposeisitthatweemploythosepeculiarlysafemenofbusiness——MessrsNearthewindeandCloserstil——whenwewishtowinourpaththroughallobstaclesintothatsacredrecess?Alas!themoneyisstillnecessary,isstillprepared,oratanyrate,expended。Thepoorcandidateofcourseknowsnothingofthemattertilltheattorney\'sbillislaidbeforehim,whenalldangerofpetitionshaspassedaway。
Helittledreamedtillthen,nothe,thattherehadbeenbanquetingsandjunketings,secretdoingsanddeepdrinkingsathisexpense。Poorcandidate!Poormember!Whowassoignorantashe!\'Tistruehehaspaidbillsbefore;but\'tisequallytruethathespeciallybeggedhismanagingfriendMrNearthewinde,tobeverycarefulthatallwasdoneaccordingtolaw!Hepaysthebill,however,andonthenextelectionwillagainemployMrNearthewinde。
Nowandagain,atrareintervals,someglimpseintotheinnersanctuarydoesreachtheeyesofordinarymortalmenwithout;someslightaccidentalpeepintothosemysteriesfromwhenallcorruptionhasbeensothoroughlyexpelled;andthen,howdelightfullyrefreshingisthesight,when,perhaps,someex-member,hurledfromhisparadiselikeafallenperi,revealsthesecretofthatpureheaven,and,intheagonyofhisdespair,tellsusallthatitcosthimtositfor——throughthosefewhalcyonyears!
ButMrNearthewindeisasafeman,andeasytobeemployedwithbutlittledanger。AllthesestringentbriberylawsonlyenhancethevalueofsuchverysafemenasMrNearthewinde。Tohim,stringentlawsagainstbriberyarethestrongestassuranceofvaluableemployment。
Weretheselawsofanaturetobeevadedwithease,anyindifferentattorneymightmanageacandidate\'saffairsandenablehimtotakehisseatwithsecurity。
ItwouldhavebeenwellforSirRogerifhehadtrustedsolelytoMrCloserstil;wellalsoforMrRomerhadheneverfishedinthosetroubledwaters。Indueprocessoftimethehearingofthepetitioncameon,andthenwhosohappy,sittingathiseaseintheLondoninn,blowinghiscloudfromalongpipe,withmeasurelesscontent,asMrReddypalm?MrReddypalmwastheonegreatmanofthecontest。AlldependedonMrReddypalm;andwellhedidhisduty。
Theresultofthepetitionwasdeclaredbythecommitteetobereadasfollows:——thatSirRoger\'selectionwasnullandvoid——thatSirRogerhad,byhisagent,beenguiltyofbriberyinobtainingavote,bythepaymentofabillallegedtohavebeenpreviouslyrefusedpayment——thisisalwaysamatterofcourse;——butthatSirRoger\'sagent,MrRomer,hadbeenwillinglyguiltyofbriberywithreferencetothetransactionabovedeclared。PoorSirRoger!PoorMrRomer。
PoorMrRomerindeed!Hisfatewasperhapsassadaswellmightbe,andasfoulablottothepurismoftheseverypuretimesinwhichwelive。Notlongafterthosedays,itsohappeningthatsomeconsiderableamountofyouthfulenergyandquidnuncabilitywererequiredtosetlitigationafloatatHongKong,MrRomerwassentthitherasthefittestmanforsuchwork,withrichassuranceoffutureguerdon。WhoaresohappythenasMrRomer!Butevenamongthepurethereisroomforenvyanddetraction。MrRomerhadnotyetceasedtowonderatnewworlds,asheskimmedamongtheislandsofthatsouthernocean,beforetheedicthadgoneforthforhisreturn。ThereweremensittinginthathugecourtofParliamentonwhosebreastsitlayasanintolerableburden,thatEnglandshouldberepresentedamongtheantipodesbyonewhohadtamperedwiththepurityofthefranchise。Forthemtherewasnoresttillthisgreatdisgraceshouldbewipedoutandatonedfor。Mentheywereofthatcalibre,thattheslightestreflectiononthemofsuchastigmaseemedtothemselvestoblackentheirowncharacter。TheycouldnotbreakbreadwithsatisfactiontillMrRomerwasrecalled。Hewasrecalled,andofcourseruined——andthemindsofthosejustmenwerethenatpeace。
Toanyhonourablegentlemanwhoreallyfelthisbrowsuffusedwithapatrioticblush,ashethoughtofhiscountrydishonouredbyMrRomer\'spresenceatHongKong——toanysuchgentleman,ifanysuchtherewere,letallhonourbegiven,eventhoughtheintensityofhispuritymaycreateamazementtoourlessfinelyorganizedsouls。Butifnosuchblushsuffusedthebrowofanyhonourablegentleman;ifMrRomerwasrecalledfromquiteotherfeelings——whattheninlieuofhonourshallweallottothosehonourablegentlemenwhoweremostconcerned?
SirRoger,however,losthisseat,and,afterthreemonthsofthejoysoflegislation,foundhimselfreducedbyaterribleblowtothelowlevelofprivatelife。
Andtheblowtohimwasveryheavy。Menbutseldomtellthetruthofwhatisinthem,eventotheirdearestfriends;theyareashamedofhavingfeelings,orratherofshowingthattheyaretroubledbyanyintensityoffeeling。Itisthepracticeofthetimetotreatallpursuitsasthoughtheywereonlyhalfimportanttous,asthoughinwhatwedesirewewereonlyhalfinearnest。Tobevisiblyeagerseemschildish,andisalwaysbadpolicy;andmen,therefore,nowadays,thoughtheystriveashardaseverintheserviceofambition——harderthaneverinthatofmammon——usuallydosowithapleasantsmileon,asthoughafteralltheywerebutamusingthemselveswiththelittlematterinhand。
PerhapsithadbeensowithSirRogerinthoseelectioneeringdayswhenhewaslookingforvotes。Atanyrate,hehadspokenofhisseatinParliamentasbutadoubtfulgood。\'Hewaswilling,indeed,tostand,havingbeenasked;butthethingwouldinterferewonderfullywithhisbusiness;andthen,whatdidheknowaboutParliament?Nothingonearth:itwasthemaddestscheme,butnevertheless,hewasnotgoingtohangbackwhencalledupon——hehadalwaysbeenroughandreadywhenwanted——andtherehewasnowreadyasever,androughenoughtoo,Godknows。\'
\'Twasthusthathehadspokenofhiscomingparliamentaryhonours;andmenhadgenerallytakenhimathisword。Hehadbeenreturned,andthissuccesshadbeenhailedasagreatthingforthecauseandclasstowhichhebelonged。Butmendidnotknowthathisinnerheartwillswellingwithtriumph,andthathisbosomcouldhardlycontainhisprideashereflectedthatthepoorBarchesterstone-masonwasnowtherepresentativeofhisnativecity。Andso,whenhisseatwasattacked,hestilllaughedandjoked。\'Theywerewelcometoitforhim,\'hesaid;\'hecouldkeepitorwantit;andofthetwo,perhaps,thewantofitwouldcomemostconvenienttohim。Hedidnotexactlythinkthathehadbribedanyone;butifthebigwigschosetosayso,itwasallonetohim。Hewasroughandready,nowasever,\'&c&c。
Butwhenthestrugglecame,itwastohimafearfulone;notthelessfearfulbecausetherewasnoone,no,notonefriendinalltheworld,towhomhecouldopenhismindandspeakouthonestlywhatwasinhisheart。ToDrThornehemightperhapshavedonesohadhisintercoursewiththedoctorbeensufficientlyfrequent;butitwasonlynowandthenwhenhewasill,orwhenthesquirewantedtoborrowmoney,thathesawDrThorne。Hehadplentyoffriends,heapsoffriendsintheparliamentarysense;friendswhotalkedabouthim,andlaudedhimatpublicmeetings;whoshookhandswithhimonplatformsanddrankhishealthatdinners;buthehadnofriendswhocouldsitwithhimoverhisownhearth,intruefriendship,andlistento,andsympathizewith,andmoderatethesighingsoftheinnerman。Forhimtherewasnosympathy;notendernessoflove;noretreat,saveintohimself,fromtheloudbrassbandoftheouterworld。
Theblowhithimterriblyhard。Itdidnotcomealtogetherunexpectedly,andyet,whenitdidcome,itwasallbutunendurable。Hehadmadesomuchofthepowerofwalkingintothataugustchamber,andsittingshouldertoshoulderinlegislativeequalitywiththesonsofdukesandthecurleddarlingsofthenation。Moneyhadgivenhimnothing,nothingbutthemerefeelingofbrutepower:withhisthreehundredthousandpoundshehadfelthimselftobenomorepalpablyneartothegoalofhisambitionthanwhenhehadchippedstonesforthreeshillingsandsixpenceaday。Butwhenhewasledupandintroducedatthattable,whenheshooktheoldpremier\'shandontheflooroftheHouseofCommons,whenheheardthehonourablememberforBarchesteralludedtoingravedebateasthegreatestlivingauthorityonrailwaymatters,then,indeed,hefeltthathehadachievedsomething。
Andnowthiscupwasravishedfromhislips,almostbeforeitwastasted。Whenhewasfirsttoldasacertaintythatthedecisionofthecommitteewasagainsthim,heboreupagainstthemisfortunelikeaman。Helaughedheartily,anddeclaredhimselfwellridofaveryprofitlessprofession;cutsomelittlejokeaboutMrMoffatandhisthrashing,andleftonthosearoundhimanimpressionthathewasamansoconstituted,sostronginhisownresolves,sosteadilypursuantofhisownwork,thatnolittlecontentionsofthiskindcouldaffecthim。Menadmiredhiseasylaughter,as,shufflinghishalf-crownswithbothhishandsinhistrouser-pockets,hedeclaredthatMessrsRomerandReddypalmwerethebestfriendshehadknownformanyaday。
Butnotthelessdidhewalkoutfromtheroominwhichhewasstandingabroken-heartedman。Hopecouldnotbuoyhimupasshemaydootherex-membersinsimilarlydisagreeablecircumstances。Hecouldnotaffordtolookforwardtowhatfurtherfavoursparliamentaryfuturehaveinstoreforhimafteralapseoffiveorsixyears。Fiveorsixyears!Why,hislifewasnotworthfouryears\'purchase;ofthathewasperfectlyaware:hecouldnotnowlivewithoutthestimulusofbrandy;andyet,whilehetookit,heknewhewaskillinghimself。
Deathhedidnotfear;buthewouldfainhavewished,afterhislifeoflabour,tohavelived,whileyethecouldlive,intheblazeofthathighworldtowhichforamomenthehadattained。
Helaughedloudandcheerilyashelefthisparliamentaryfriends,and,puttinghimselfintothetrain,wentdowntoBoxallHill。Helaughedloudandcheerily;butheneverlaughedagain。IthadnotbeenhishabittolaughmuchatBoxallHill。Itwastherehekepthiswife,andMrWinterbones,andthebrandybottlebehindhispillow。Hehadnotoftentherefounditnecessarytoassumethatloudandcheerylaugh。
Onthisoccasionhewasapparentlywellinhealthwhenhegothome;butbothLadyScatcherdandMrWinterbonesfoundhimmorethanordinarilycross。Hemadeanaffectationatsittingveryhardtobusiness,andeventalkedofgoingabroadtolookatsomeofhisforeigncontracts。
ButevenWinterbonesfoundthathispatrondidnotworkashehadbeenwonttodo;andatlast,withsomemisgivings,hetoldLadyScatcherdthathefearedthateverythingwasnotright。
\'He\'salwaysatit,mylady,always,\'saidMrWinterbones。
\'Ishe?\'saidLadyScatcherd,wellunderstandingwhatMrWinterbones\'sallusionmeant。
\'Always,mylady。Ineversawnothinglikeit。Now,there\'sme——Icanalwaysgomyhalf-hourwhenI\'vehadmydrop;buthe,why,hedon\'tgotenminutes,notnow。\'
ThiswasnotcheerfultoLadyScatcherd;butwhatwasthepoorwomantodo?Whenshespoketohimonanysubjectheonlysnarledather;andnowthattheheavyfitwasonhim,shedidnotdareeventomentionthesubjectofhisdrinking。Shehadneverknownhimsosavageinhishumourashewasnow,sobearishinhishabits,solittleinclinedtohumanity,sodeterminedtorushheadlongdown,withhisheadbetweenhislegs,intothebottomlessabyss。
ShethoughtofsendingforDrThorne;butshedidnotknowunderwhatguisetosendforhim,——whetherasdoctororasfriend:underneitherwouldhenowbewelcome;andshewellknewthatSirRogerwasnotthemantoacceptingoodparteitheradoctororafriendwhomightbeunwelcome。Sheknewthatthishusbandofhers,thisman,who,withallhisfaults,wasthebestofherfriendswhomshelovedbest——sheknewthathewaskillinghimself,andyetshecoulddonothing。SirRogerwashisownmaster,andifkillhimselfhewould,killhimselfhemust。
Andkillhimselfhedid。Notindeedbyonesuddenblow。Hedidnottakeonehugedoseofhisconsumingpoison,andthenfalldeaduponthefloor。Itwouldperhapshavebeenbetterforhimself,andbetterforthosearoundhim,hadhedoneso。No;thedoctorshadtimetocongregateroundhisbed;LadyScatcherdwasallowedaperiodofnurse-tending;thesickmanwasabletosayhislastfewwordsandbidhisadieutohisportionofthelowerworldwithdyingdecency。Astheselastwordswillhavesomelastingeffectuponthesurvivingpersonagesofourstory,thereadermustbecontenttostandforashortwhilebythesideofSirRoger\'ssick-bed,andhelpusbidhimGod-speedonthejourneywhichliesbeforehim。
CHAPTERXXIII
RETROSPECTIVE
ItwasdeclaredintheearlypagesofthisworkthatDrThornewastobeourhero;butitwouldappearverymuchasthoughhehadlatterlybeenforgotten。SincethateveningwhenheretiredtorestwithoutlettingMarysharethegrievousweightwhichwasonhismind,wehaveneitherseennorheardaughtofhim。
Itwasthenfullmidsummer,anditnowearlyspring:andduringtheinterveningmonthsthedoctorhadnothadahappytimeofit。Onthatnight,aswehavebeforetold,hetookhisniecetohisheart;buthecouldnotthenbringhimselftotellherthatwhichitwassoimperativethatsheshouldknow。Likeacoward,hewouldputofftheevilhour,tillthenextmorning,andthusrobbedhimselfofhisnight\'ssleep。
Butwhenthemorningcamethedutycouldnotbepostponed。LadyArabellahadgivenhimtounderstandthathisniecewouldnolongerbeaguestatGreshamsbury;anditwasquiteoutofthequestionthatMary,afterthis,shouldbeallowedtoputherfootwithinthegateofthedomainwithouthavinglearntwhatLadyArabellahadsaid。Sohetolditbeforebreakfast,walkingroundtheirlittlegarden,shewithherhandinhis。
Hewasperfectlythunderstruckbythecollected——nay,coolwayinwhichshereceivedhistidings。Sheturnedpale,indeed;hefeltalsothatherhandsomewhattrembledinhisown,andheperceivedthatforamomenthervoiceshook;butnoangrywordescapedherlip,nordidsheevendeigntorepudiatethecharge,whichwas,asitwere,conveyedinLadyArabella\'srequest。Thedoctorknew,orthoughtheknew——nay,hedidknow——thatMarywaswhollyblamelessinthematter:thatshehadatleastgivennoencouragementtoanyloveonthepartoftheyoungheir;
but,nevertheless,hehadexpectedthatshewouldavouchherowninnocence。This,however,shebynomeansdid。
\'LadyArabellaisquiteright,\'shesaid,\'quiteright;ifshehasanyfearofthatkind,shecannotbetoocareful。\'
\'Sheisaselfish,proudwoman,\'saidthedoctor;\'quiteindifferenttothefeelingsofothers;quitecarelesshowdeeplyshemayhurtherneighbours,if,indoingso,shemaypossiblybenefitherself。\'
\'Shewillnothurtme,uncle,noryetyou。IcanlivewithoutgoingtoGreshamsbury。\'
\'Butitisnottobeenduredthatsheshoulddaretocastanimputationonmydarling。\'
\'Onme,uncle?Shecastsnoimputationonme。Frankhasbeenfoolish:
Ihavesaidnothingofit,foritwasnotworthwhiletotroubleyou。
ButasLadyArabellachoosestointerfere,Ihavenorighttoblameher。Hehassaidwhatheshouldnothavesaid;hehasbeenfoolish。
Uncle,youknowIcouldnotpreventit。\'
\'Lethersendhimawaythen,notyou;letherbanishhim。\'
\'Uncle,heisherson。Amothercanhardlysendhersonawaysoeasily:couldyousendmeaway,uncle?\'
Hemerelyansweredherbytwininghisarmroundherwaistandpressinghertohisside。Hewaswellsurethatshewasbadlytreated;andyetnowthatshesounaccountablytookLadyArabella\'spart,hehardlyknewhowtomakethisoutplainlytobethecase。
\'Besides,uncle,Greshamsburyisinamannerhisown;howcanhebebanishedfromhisfather\'shouse?No,uncle;thereisanendofmyvisitsthere。TheyshallfindthatIwillnotthrustmyselfintheirway。\'
AndthenMary,withacalmbrowandsteadygait,wentinandmadethetea。
AndwhatmightbethefeelingsofherheartwhenshesosententiouslytoldherunclethatFrankhadbeenfoolish?Shewasofthesameagewithhim;asimpressionable,thoughmorepowerfulinhidingsuchimpressions,——asallwomenshouldbe;herheartwasaswarm,herbloodasfulloflife,herinnatedesireforthecompanionshipofsomemuch-lovedobjectasstrongashis。Frankhadbeenfoolishinavowinghispassion。Nosuchfollyasthatcouldbelaidatherdoor。Buthadshebeenproofagainsttheotherfolly?Hadshebeenabletowalkheart-wholebyhisside,whilehechattedhiscommonplacesaboutlove?
Yes,theyarecommonplaceswhenwereadtheminnovels;commonenough,too,tosomeofuswhenwewritethem;buttheyarebynomeanscommonplacewhenfirstheardbyayounggirlintherich,balmyfragranceofJulyeveningstroll。
Noraretheycommonplaceswhensoutteredforthefirstorsecondtimeatleast,orperhapsthethird。\'Tisapitythatsoheavenlyapleasureshouldpalluponthesenses。
IfitwassothatFrank\'sfollyhadbeenlistenedtowithacertainamountofpleasure,Marydidnotevenadmitsomuchtoherself。Butwhyshouldithavebeenotherwise?Whyshouldshehavebeenlesspronetolovethanhewas?Hadhenoteverythingwhichgirlsdolove?whichgirlsshouldlove?whichGodcreatednoble,beautiful,allbutgodlike,inorderthatwomen,allbutgoddesslike,mightlove?Tolovethoroughly,truly,heartily,withherwholebody,soul,heart,andstrength;shouldnotthatbecountedforameritinawoman?Andyetwearewonttomakeadisgraceofit。Wedosomostunnaturally,mostunreasonably;forweexpectourdaughterstogetthemselvesmarriedoffourhands。Whentheperiodofthatstepcomes,thenloveisproperenough;butuptothat——beforethat——asregardsallthosepreliminarypassageswhichmust,wesuppose,benecessary——inallthoseitbecomesayoungladytobeicy-heartedasariver-godinwinter。
\'OwhistleandI\'llcometoyoumylad!
OwhistleandI\'llcometoyoumylad!
Tho\'fatherandmitheranda\'shouldgomadOwhistleandI\'llcometoyoumylad!\'
Thisisthekindoflovewhichagirlshouldfeelbeforesheputsherhandproudlyinthatofherlover,andconsentsthattheytwoshallbemadeoneflesh。
Maryfeltnosuchloveasthis。She,too,hadsomeinnerperceptionofthatdreaddestinybywhichitbehovedFrankGreshamtobeforewarned。
She,too——thoughshehadneverheardsomuchsaidinwords——hadanalmostinstinctiveknowledgethathisfaterequiredhimtomarrymoney。
Thinkingoverthisinherownway,shewasnotslowtoconvinceherselfthatitwasoutofthequestionthatsheshouldallowherselftoloveFrankGresham。Howeverwellherheartmightbeinclinedtosuchafeeling,itwasherdutytorepressit。Sheresolved,therefore,todoso;andshesometimesflatteredherselfthatshehadkeptherresolution。
Thesewerebadtimesforthedoctor,andbadtimesforMarytoo。ShehaddeclaredthatshecouldlivewithoutgoingtoGreshamsbury;butshedidnotfinditsoeasy。ShehadbeengoingtoGreshamburyallherlife,anditwascustomarywithhertobethereasathome。Sucholdcustomsarenotbrokenwithoutpain。Hadshelefttheplaceitwouldhavebeenfardifferent;but,asitwas,shedailypassedthegates,dailysawandspoketosomeoftheservants,whoknewheraswellastheydidtheyoungladiesofthefamily——wasinhourlycontact,asitwere,withGreshamsbury。Itwasnotonlythatshedidnotgothere,butthateveryoneknewthatshehadsuddenlydiscontinueddoingso。Yes,shecouldlivewithoutgoingtoGreshamsbury;butforsometimeshehadbutapoorlifeofit。Shefelt,nay,almostheard,thateverymanandwoman,boyandgirlinthevillagewastellinghisandherneighbourthatMaryThornenolongerwenttothehousebecauseofLadyArabellaandtheyoungsquire。
ButBeatrice,ofcourse,cametoher。WhatwasshetosaytoBeatrice?Thetruth!Nay,butitisnotalwayssoeasytosaythetruth,eventoone\'sdearestfriends。
\'Butyou\'llcomeupnowhehasgone?\'saidBeatrice。
\'No,indeed,\'saidMary;\'thatwouldhardlybepleasanttoLadyArabella,nortomeeither。No,Trichy,dearest;myvisitstodearoldGreshamsburyaredone,done,done:perhapsinsometwentyyears\'timeI
maybewalkingdownthelawnwithyourbrother,anddiscussingthechildishdays——thatis,always,ifthethenMrsGreshamshallhaveinvitedme。\'
\'HowcanFrankhavebeensowrong,sounkind,socruel?\'saidBeatrice。
This,however,wasalightinwhichMissThornedidnottakeanypleasure,indiscussingthematter。HerideasofFrank\'sfault,andunkindnessandcruelty,weredoubtlessdifferentfromthoseofhersister。SuchcrueltywasnotunnaturallyexcusedinhereyesbymanycircumstanceswhichBeatricedidnotfullyunderstand。MarywasquitereadytogohandinhandwithLadyArabellaandtherestofGreshamsburyfoldinputtinganend,ifpossible,toFrank\'spassion:
shewouldgivenotonearighttoaccuseherofassistingtoruintheyoungheir;butshecouldhardlybringherselftoadmitthathewassoverywrong——no,noryetevensoverycruel。
Andthenthesquirecametoseeher,andthiswasayethardertrialthanthevisitofBeatrice。Itwassodifficultforhertospeaktohimthatshecouldnotbutwishhimaway;andyet,hadhenotcome,hadhealtogetherneglectedher,shewouldhavefeltittobeunkind。Shehadeverbeenhispet,hadalwaysreceivedkindnessfromhim。
\'Iamsorryforallthis,Mary;verysorry,\'saidhe,standingup,andholdingbothherhandsinhis。
\'Itcan\'tbehelped,sir,\'saidshe,smiling。
\'Idon\'tknow,\'saidhe;\'Idon\'tknow——itoughttobehelpedsomehow——I
amquitesureyouhavenotbeentoblame。\'
\'No,\'saidshe,veryquietly,asthoughthepositionwasonequiteamatterofcourse。\'Idon\'tthinkIhavebeenverymuchtoblame。Therewillbemisfortunessometimeswhennobodyistoblame。\'
\'Idonotquiteunderstanditall,\'saidthesquire;\'butifFrank——\'
\'Oh!wewillnottalkabouthim,\'saidshe,stilllaughinggently。
\'Youcanunderstand,Mary,howdearhemustbetome;butif——\'
\'MrGresham,Iwouldnotforworldsbethecauseofanyunpleasantnessbetweenyouandhim。\'
\'ButIcannotbeartothinkthatwehavebanishedyou,Mary。\'
\'Itcannotbehelped。Thingswillallcomerightintime。\'
\'Butyouwillbelonelyhere。\'
\'Oh!Ishallgotoverallthat。Here,youknow,MrGresham,“IammonarchofallIsurvey“;andthereisagreatdealinthat。\'
Thesquiredidnotcatchhermeaning,butaglimmeringofitdidreachhim。ItwascompetenttoLadyArabellatobanishherfromGreshamsbury;itwaswithinthesphereofthesquire\'sdutiestoprohibithissonfromanimprudentmatch;itwasfortheGreshamstoguardtheirGreshamsburytreasureasbesttheycouldwithintheirownterritories:butletthembewarethattheydidnotattackheronhers。
Inobediencetothefirstexpressionoftheirwishes,shehadsubmittedherselftothispublicmarkoftheirdisapprovalbecauseshehadseenatonce,withherclearintellect,thattheywereonlydoingthatwhichherconsciencemustapprove。Withoutamurmur,therefore,sheconsentedtobepointedatastheyoungladywhohadbeenturnedoutofGreshamsburybecauseoftheyoungsquire。Shehadnohelpforit。Butletthemtakecarethattheydidnotgobeyondthat。OutsidethoseGreshamsburygatessheandFrankGresham,sheandLadyArabellametonequalterms;letthemeachfighttheirownbattle。
Thesquirekissedherforeheadaffectionatelyandtookhisleave,feelingsomehow,thathehadbeenexcusedandpitied,andmademuchof;
whereashehadcalledonhisyoungneighbourwiththeintentionofexcusing,andpitying,andmakingmuchofher。Hewasnotquitecomfortableasheleftthehouse;but,nevertheless,hewassufficientlyhonest-heartedtoowntohimselfthatMaryThornewasafinegirl。OnlythatitwassoabsolutelynecessarythatFrankshouldmarrymoney——andonly,also,thatpoorMarywassuchabirthlessfoundlingintheworld\'sesteem——only,butforthesethings,whatawifeshewouldhavemadeforthatsonofhis!
Toonepersononlydidshetalkfreelyonthesubject,andthatonewasPatienceOriel;andevenwithherthefreedomwasratherofthemindthanoftheheart。SheneversaidawordofherfeelingwithreferencetoFrank,butshesaidmuchofherpositioninthevillage,andofthenecessityshewasundertokeepoutoftheway。
\'Itisveryhard,\'saidPatience,\'thattheoffenceshouldbeallwithhim,andthepunishmentallwithyou。\'
\'Oh!asforthat,\'saidMary,laughing,\'Iwillnotconfesstoanyoffence,notyettoanypunishment;certainlynottoanypunishment。\'
\'Itcomestothesamethingintheend。\'
\'No,notso,Patience;thereisalwayssomelittlestingofdisgraceinpunishment:nowIamnotgoingtoholdmyselfintheleastdisgraced。\'
\'But,Mary,youmustmeettheGreshamssometimes。\'
\'Meetthem!Ihavenottheslightestobjectiononearthtomeetall,oranyofthem。Theyarenotawhitdangeroustome,mydear。\'TisthatIamthewildbeast,and\'tisthattheymustavoidme,\'andthensheadded,afterapause——slightlyblushing——\'Ihavenottheslightestobjectioneventomeethimifchancebringshiminmyway。Letthemlooktothat。Myundertakinggoesnofurtherthanthis,thatIwillnotbeseenwithintheirgates。\'
ButthegirlssofarunderstoodeachotherthatPatienceundertook,ratherthanpromised,togiveMarywhatassistanceshecould;and,despiteMary\'sbravado,shewasinsuchapositionthatshemuchwantedtheassistanceofsuchafriendasPatienceOriel。
Afteranabsenceofsomesixweeks,Frank,aswehaveseen,returnedhome。Nothingwassaidtohim,exceptbyBeatrice,astothosenewGreshamsburyarrangements;andhe,whenhefoundMarywasnotattheplace,wentboldlytothedoctor\'shousetoseekher。Butithasbeenseen,also,thatshediscreetlykeptoutofhisway。Thisshehadthoughtfittodowhenthetimecame,althoughshehadbeensoreadywithherboastthatshehadnoobjectiononearthtomeethim。
AfterthattherehadbeentheChristmasvacation,andMaryhadagainfounddiscretionthebetterpartofvalour。Thiswasdoubtlessdisagreeableenough。ShehadnoparticularwishtospendherChristmaswithMissOriel\'sauntinsteadofatheruncle\'sfireside。Indeed,herChristmasfestivitieshadhithertobeenkeptatGreshamsbury,thedoctorandherselfhavingapartofthefamilycirclethereassembled。
Thiswasoutofthequestionnow;andperhapstheabsolutechangetooldMissOriel\'shousewasbetterforherthanthelesserchangetoheruncle\'sdrawing-room。Besides,howcouldshehavedemeanedherselfwhenshemetFrankintheirparishchurch?AllthishadbeenfullyunderstoodbyPatience,and,therefore,hadthisChristmasvisitbeenplanned。
AndthenthisaffairofFrankandMaryThorneceasedforawhiletobetalkedofatGreshamsbury,forthatotheraffairofMrMoffatandAugustamonopolizedtheruralattention。Augusta,aswehavesaid,boreitwell,andsustainedthepublicgazewithoutmuchflinching。Herperiodofmartyrdom,however,didnotlastlong,forsoonthenewsarrivedofFrank\'sexploitinPallMall;andthentheGreshamburyitesforgottothinkmuchmoreofAugusta,beingfullyoccupiedinthinkingofwhatFrankhaddone。
Thetale,asitwasfirsttold,declaredtheFrankhadfollowedMrMoffatupintohisclub;haddraggedhimthenceintothemiddleofPallMall,andhadthenslaughteredhimonthespot。Thiswasbydegreesmodifiedtillasoberedfictionbecamegenerallyprevalent,thatMrMoffatwaslyingsomewhere,stillalive,butwithallhisbonesinastateofcompoundfracture。ThisadventureagainbroughtFrankintotheascendant,andrestoredtoMaryherformerpositionastheGreshamsburyheroine。
\'Onecannotwonderathisbeingveryangry,\'saidBeatrice,discussingthematterwithMary——veryimprudently。
\'Wonder——no;thewonderwouldhavebeenifhehadnotbeenangry。Onemighthavebeenquitesurethathewouldhavebeenangryenough。\'
\'IsupposeitwasnotabsolutelyrightforhimtobeatMrMoffat,\'saidBeatrice,apologetically。
\'Notright,Trichy?Ithinkhewasveryright。\'
\'Nottobeathimsomuch,Mary!\'
\'Oh,Isupposeamancan\'texactlystandmeasuringhowmuchhedoesthesethings。Ilikeyourbrotherforwhathehasdone,andImaysaysofrankly——thoughIsupposeIoughttoeatmytongueoutbeforeI
shouldsaysuchathing,ehTrichy?\'
\'Idon\'tknowthatthere\'sanyharminthat,\'saidBeatrice,demurely。
\'Ifyoubothlikedeachothertherewouldbenoharminthat——ifthatwereall。\'
\'Wouldn\'tthere?\'saidMary,inalowtoneofbanteringsatire;\'thatissokind,Trichy,comingfromyou——fromoneofthefamily,youknow。\'
\'Youarewellaware,Mary,thatifIcouldhavemywishes——\'
\'Yes:Iamwellawarewhataparagonofgoodnessyouare。IfyoucouldhaveyourwayIshouldbeadmittedintoheavenagain;shouldn\'tI?Onlywiththisproviso,thatifastrayangelshouldeverwhispertomewithbatedbreath,mistakingme,perchance,foroneofhisownclass,I
shouldbeboundtoclosemyearstohiswhispering,andremindhimhumblythatIwasonlyapoormortal。Youwouldtrustmesofar,wouldn\'tyou,Trichy?\'
\'Iwouldtrustyouinanyway,Mary。ButIthinkyouareunkindinsayingsuchthingstome。\'
\'IntowhateverheavenIamadmitted,Iwillgoonlyonthisunderstanding:thatIamtobeasgoodanangelasanyofthosearoundme。\'
\'But,Marydear,whydoyousaythistome?\'
\'Because——because——because——ahme!Why,indeed,butbecauseIhavenooneelsetosayitto。Certainlynotbecauseyouhavedeservedit。\'
\'Itseemsasifyouwerefindingfaultwithme。\'
\'AndsoIam;howcanIdootherthanfindfault?HowcanIhelpbeingsore?Trichy,youhardlyrealizemyposition;youhardlyseehowIamtreated;howIamforcedtoallowmyselftobetreatedwithoutasignofcomplaint。Youdon\'tseeitall。Ifyoudid,youwouldnotwonderthatIshouldbesore。\'