Death
Weepnotforthosewhomtheveilofthetomb,
Inlife’searlymorning,hathhidfromoureyes。1
Eva’sbed-roomwasaspaciousapartment,which,likealltheotherrobinsinthehouse,openedontothebroadverandah。Theroomcommunicated,ononeside,withherfatherandmother’sapartment;ontheother,withthatappropriatedtoMissOphelia。St。Clarehadgratifiedhisowneyeandtaste,infurnishingthisroominastylethathadapeculiarkeepingwiththecharacterofherforwhomitwasintended。Thewindowswerehungwithcurtainsofrose-coloredandwhitemuslin,thefloorwasspreadwithamattingwhichhadbeenorderedinParis,toapatternofhisowndevice,havingrounditaborderofrose-budsandleaves,andacentre-piecewithfull-flownroses。Thebedstead,chairs,andlounges,wereofbamboo,wroughtinpeculiarlygracefulandfancifulpatterns。Overtheheadofthebedwasanalabasterbracket,onwhichabeautifulsculpturedangelstood,withdroopingwings,holdingoutacrownofmyrtle-leaves。Fromthisdepended,overthebed,lightcurtainsofrose-coloredgauze,stripedwithsilver,supplyingthatprotectionfrommosquitoswhichisanindispensableadditiontoallsleepingaccommodationinthatclimate。Thegracefulbambooloungeswereamplysuppliedwithcushionsofrose-coloreddamask,whileoverthem,dependingfromthehandsofsculpturedfigures,weregauzecurtainssimilartothoseofthebed。Alight,fancifulbambootablestoodinthemiddleoftheroom,whereaParianvase,wroughtintheshapeofawhitelily,withitsbuds,stood,everfilledwithflowers。OnthistablelayEva’sbooksandlittletrinkets,withanelegantlywroughtalabasterwriting-stand,whichherfatherhadsuppliedtoherwhenhesawhertryingtoimproveherselfinwriting。Therewasafireplaceintheroom,andonthemarblemantleabovestoodabeautifullywroughtstatuetteofJesusreceivinglittlechildren,andoneithersidemarblevases,forwhichitwasTom’sprideanddelighttoofferbouquetseverymorning。Twoorthreeexquisitepaintingsofchildren,invariousattitudes,embellishedthewall。Inshort,theeyecouldturnnowherewithoutmeetingimagesofchildhood,ofbeauty,andofpeace。Thoselittleeyesneveropened,inthemorninglight,withoutfallingonsomethingwhichsuggestedtotheheartsoothingandbeautifulthoughts。
ThedeceitfulstrengthwhichhadbuoyedEvaupforalittlewhilewasfastpassingaway;seldomandmoreseldomherlightfootstepwasheardintheverandah,andoftenerandoftenershewasfoundreclinedonalittleloungebytheopenwindow,herlarge,deepeyesfixedontherisingandfallingwatersofthelake。
Itwastowardsthemiddleoftheafternoon,asshewassoreclining,—herBiblehalfopen,herlittletransparentfingerslyinglistlesslybetweentheleaves,—suddenlysheheardhermother’svoice,insharptones,intheverandah。
“Whatnow,youbaggage!—whatnewpieceofmischief!You’vebeenpickingtheflowers,hey?”andEvaheardthesoundofasmartslap。
“Law,Missis!they’sforMissEva,”sheheardavoicesay,whichsheknewbelongedtoTopsy。
“MissEva!Aprettyexcuse!—yousupposeshewantsyourflowers,yougood-for-nothingnigger!Getalongoffwithyou!”
Inamoment,Evawasofffromherlounge,andintheverandah。
“O,don’t,mother!Ishouldliketheflowers;dogivethemtome;Iwantthem!”
“Why,Eva,yourroomisfullnow。”
“Ican’thavetoomany,”saidEva。“Topsy,dobringthemhere。”
Topsy,whohadstoodsullenly,holdingdownherhead,nowcameupandofferedherflowers。Shediditwithalookofhesitationandbashfulness,quiteunliketheeldrichboldnessandbrightnesswhichwasusualwithher。
“It’sabeautifulbouquet!”saidEva,lookingatit。
Itwasratherasingularone,—abrilliantscarletgeranium,andonesinglewhitejaponica,withitsglossyleaves。Itwastiedupwithanevidenteyetothecontrastofcolor,andthearrangementofeveryleafhadcarefullybeenstudied。
Topsylookedpleased,asEvasaid,—“Topsy,youarrangeflowersveryprettily。Here,”shesaid,“isthisvaseIhaven’tanyflowersfor。Iwishyou’darrangesomethingeverydayforit。”
“Well,that’sodd!”saidMarie。“Whatintheworlddoyouwantthatfor?”
“Nevermind,mamma;you’dasliefasnotTopsyshoulddoit,—hadyounot?”
“Ofcourse,anythingyouplease,dear!Topsy,youhearyouryoungmistress;—seethatyoumind。”
Topsymadeashortcourtesy,andlookeddown;and,assheturnedaway,Evasawatearrolldownherdarkcheek。
“Yousee,mamma,IknewpoorTopsywantedtodosomethingforme,”saidEvatohermother。
“O,nonsense!it’sonlybecauseshelikestodomischief。Sheknowsshemustn’tpickflowers,—soshedoesit;that’sallthereistoit。But,ifyoufancytohaveherpluckthem,sobeit。”
“Mamma,IthinkTopsyisdifferentfromwhatsheusedtobe;she’stryingtobeagoodgirl。”
“She’llhavetotryagoodwhilebeforeshegetstobegood,”saidMarie,withacarelesslaugh。
“Well,youknow,mamma,poorTopsy!everythinghasalwaysbeenagainsther。”
“Notsinceshe’sbeenhere,I’msure。Ifshehasn’tbeentalkedto,andpreachedto,andeveryearthlythingdonethatanybodycoulddo;—andshe’sjustsougly,andalwayswillbe;youcan’tmakeanythingofthecreature!”
“But,mamma,it’ssodifferenttobebroughtupasI’vebeen,withsomanyfriends,somanythingstomakemegoodandhappy;andtobebroughtupasshe’sbeen,allthetime,tillshecamehere!”
“Mostlikely,”saidMarie,yawning,—“dearme,howhotitis!”
“Mamma,youbelieve,don’tyou,thatTopsycouldbecomeanangel,aswellasanyofus,ifshewereaChristian?”
“Topsy!whataridiculousidea!Nobodybutyouwouldeverthinkofit。Isupposeshecould,though。”
“But,mamma,isn’tGodherfather,asmuchasours?Isn’tJesusherSaviour?”
“Well,thatmaybe。IsupposeGodmadeeverybody,”saidMarie。“Whereismysmelling-bottle?”
“It’ssuchapity,—oh!suchapity!”saidEva,lookingoutonthedistantlake,andspeakinghalftoherself。
“What’sapity?”saidMarie。
“Why,thatanyone,whocouldbeabrightangel,andlivewithangels,shouldgoalldown,downdown,andnobodyhelpthem!—ohdear!”
“Well,wecan’thelpit;it’snouseworrying,Eva!Idon’tknowwhat’stobedone;weoughttobethankfulforourownadvantages。”
“Ihardlycanbe,”saidEva,“I’msosorrytothinkofpoorfolksthathaven’tany。”
That’soddenough,”saidMarie;—“I’msuremyreligionmakesmethankfulformyadvantages。”
“Mamma,”saidEva,“Iwanttohavesomeofmyhaircutoff,—agooddealofit。”
“Whatfor?”saidMarie。
“Mamma,Iwanttogivesomeawaytomyfriends,whileIamabletogiveittothemmyself。Won’tyouaskauntytocomeandcutitforme?”
Marieraisedhervoice,andcalledMissOphelia,fromtheotherroom。
Thechildhalfrosefromherpillowasshecamein,and,shakingdownherlonggolden-browncurls,said,ratherplayfully,“Comeaunty,shearthesheep!”
“What’sthat?”saidSt。Clare,whojustthenenteredwithsomefruithehadbeenouttogetforher。
“Papa,Ijustwantauntytocutoffsomeofmyhair;—there’stoomuchofit,anditmakesmyheadhot。Besides,Iwanttogivesomeofitaway。”
MissOpheliacame,withherscissors。
“Takecare,—don’tspoilthelooksofit!”saidherfather;“cutunderneath,whereitwon’tshow。Eva’scurlsaremypride。”
“O,papa!”saidEva,sadly。
“Yes,andIwantthemkepthandsomeagainstthetimeItakeyouuptoyouruncle’splantation,toseeCousinHenrique,”saidSt。Clare,inagaytone。
“Ishallnevergothere,papa;—Iamgoingtoabettercountry。O,dobelieveme!Don’tyousee,papa,thatIgetweaker,everyday?”
“WhydoyouinsistthatIshallbelievesuchacruelthing,Eva?”saidherfather。
“Onlybecauseitistrue,papa:and,ifyouwillbelieveitnow,perhapsyouwillgettofeelaboutitasIdo。”
St。Clareclosedhislips,andstoodgloomilyeyingthelong,beautifulcurls,which,astheywereseparatedfromthechild’shead,werelaid,onebyone,inherlap。Sheraisedthemup,lookedearnestlyatthem,twinedthemaroundherthinfingers,andlookedfromtimetotime,anxiouslyatherfather。
“It’sjustwhatI’vebeenforeboding!”saidMarie;“it’sjustwhathasbeenpreyingonmyhealth,fromdaytoday,bringingmedownwardtothegrave,thoughnobodyregardsit。Ihaveseenthis,long。St。Clare,youwillsee,afterawhile,thatIwasright。”
“Whichwillaffordyougreatconsolation,nodoubt!”saidSt。Clare,inadry,bittertone。
Marielaybackonalounge,andcoveredherfacewithhercambrichandkerchief。
Eva’sclearblueeyelookedearnestlyfromonetotheother。Itwasthecalm,comprehendinggazeofasoulhalfloosedfromitsearthlybonds;itwasevidentshesaw,felt,andappreciated,thedifferencebetweenthetwo。
Shebeckonedwithherhandtoherfather。Hecameandsatdownbyher。
“Papa,mystrengthfadesawayeveryday,andIknowImustgo。TherearesomethingsIwanttosayanddo,—thatIoughttodo;andyouaresounwillingtohavemespeakawordonthissubject。Butitmustcome;there’snoputtingitoff。DobewillingIshouldspeaknow!”
“Mychild,Iamwilling!”saidSt。Clare,coveringhiseyeswithonehand,andholdingupEva’shandwiththeother。
“Then,Iwanttoseeallourpeopletogether。IhavesomethingsImustsaytothem,”saidEva。
“Well,”saidSt。Clare,inatoneofdryendurance。
MissOpheliadespatchedamessenger,andsoonthewholeoftheservantswereconvenedintheroom。
Evalaybackonherpillows;herhairhanginglooselyaboutherface,hercrimsoncheekscontrastingpainfullywiththeintensewhitenessofhercomplexionandthethincontourofherlimbsandfeatures,andherlarge,soul-likeeyesfixedearnestlyoneveryone。
Theservantswerestruckwithasuddenemotion。Thespiritualface,thelonglocksofhaircutoffandlyingbyher,herfather’savertedface,andMarie’ssobs,struckatonceuponthefeelingsofasensitiveandimpressiblerace;and,astheycamein,theylookedoneonanother,sighed,andshooktheirheads。Therewasadeepsilence,likethatofafuneral。
Evaraisedherself,andlookedlongandearnestlyroundateveryone。Alllookedsadandapprehensive。Manyofthewomenhidtheirfacesintheiraprons。
“Isentforyouall,mydearfriends,”saidEva,“becauseIloveyou。Iloveyouall;andIhavesomethingtosaytoyou,whichIwantyoualwaystoremember……Iamgoingtoleaveyou。Inafewmoreweeksyouwillseemenomore—”
Herethechildwasinterruptedbyburstsofgroans,sobs,andlamentations,whichbrokefromallpresent,andinwhichherslendervoicewaslostentirely。Shewaitedamoment,andthen,speakinginatonethatcheckedthesobsofall,shesaid,
“Ifyouloveme,youmustnotinterruptmeso。ListentowhatIsay。Iwanttospeaktoyouaboutyoursouls……Manyofyou,Iamafraid,areverycareless。Youarethinkingonlyaboutthisworld。Iwantyoutorememberthatthereisabeautifulworld,whereJesusis。Iamgoingthere,andyoucangothere。Itisforyou,asmuchasme。But,ifyouwanttogothere,youmustnotliveidle,careless,thoughtlesslives。YoumustbeChristians。Youmustrememberthateachoneofyoucanbecomeangels,andbeangelsforever……IfyouwanttobeChristians,Jesuswillhelpyou。Youmustpraytohim;youmustread—”
Thechildcheckedherself,lookedpiteouslyatthem,andsaid,sorrowfully,
“Odear!youcan’tread—poorsouls!”andshehidherfaceinthepillowandsobbed,whilemanyasmotheredsobfromthoseshewasaddressing,whowerekneelingonthefloor,arousedher。
“Nevermind,”shesaid,raisingherfaceandsmilingbrightlythroughhertears,“Ihaveprayedforyou;andIknowJesuswillhelpyou,evenifyoucan’tread。Tryalltodothebestyoucan;prayeveryday;askHimtohelpyou,andgettheBiblereadtoyouwheneveryoucan;andIthinkIshallseeyouallinheaven。”
“Amen,”wasthemurmuredresponsefromthelipsofTomandMammy,andsomeoftheelderones,whobelongedtotheMethodistchurch。Theyoungerandmorethoughtlessones,forthetimecompletelyovercome,weresobbing,withtheirheadsbowedupontheirknees。
“Iknow,”saidEva,“youallloveme。”
“Yes;oh,yes!indeedwedo!Lordblessher!”wastheinvoluntaryanswerofall。
“Yes,Iknowyoudo!Thereisn’toneofyouthathasn’talwaysbeenverykindtome;andIwanttogiveyousomethingthat,whenyoulookat,youshallalwaysrememberme,I’mgoingtogiveallofyouacurlofmyhair;and,whenyoulookatit,thinkthatIlovedyouandamgonetoheaven,andthatIwanttoseeyouallthere。”
Itisimpossibletodescribethescene,as,withtearsandsobs,theygatheredroundthelittlecreature,andtookfromherhandswhatseemedtothemalastmarkofherlove。Theyfellontheirknees;theysobbed,andprayed,andkissedthehemofhergarment;andtheelderonespouredforthwordsofendearment,mingledinprayersandblessings,afterthemanneroftheirsusceptiblerace。
Aseachonetooktheirgift,MissOphelia,whowasapprehensivefortheeffectofallthisexcitementonherlittlepatient,signedtoeachonetopassoutoftheapartment。
Atlast,allweregonebutTomandMammy。
“Here,UncleTom,”saidEva,“isabeautifuloneforyou。O,Iamsohappy,UncleTom,tothinkIshallseeyouinheaven,—forI’msureIshall;andMammy,—dear,good,kindMammy!”shesaid,fondlythrowingherarmsroundheroldnurse,—“Iknowyou’llbethere,too。”
“O,MissEva,don’tseehowIcanlivewithoutye,nohow!”saidthefaithfulcreature。“’Pearslikeit’sjusttakingeverythingofftheplacetooncet!”andMammygavewaytoapassionofgrief。
MissOpheliapushedherandTomgentlyfromtheapartment,andthoughttheywereallgone;but,assheturned,Topsywasstandingthere。
“Wheredidyoustartupfrom?”shesaid,suddenly。
“Iwashere,”saidTopsy,wipingthetearsfromhereyes。“O,MissEva,I’vebeenabadgirl;butwon’tyougivemeone,too?”
“Yes,poorTopsy!tobesure,Iwill。There—everytimeyoulookatthat,thinkthatIloveyou,andwantedyoutobeagoodgirl!”
“O,MissEva,Iistryin!”saidTopsy,earnestly;“but,Lor,it’ssohardtobegood!’PearslikeIan’tusedtoit,noways!”
“Jesusknowsit,Topsy;heissorryforyou;hewillhelpyou。”
Topsy,withhereyeshidinherapron,wassilentlypassedfromtheapartmentbyMissOphelia;but,asshewent,shehidthepreciouscurlinherbosom。
Allbeinggone,MissOpheliashutthedoor。Thatworthyladyhadwipedawaymanytearsofherown,duringthescene;butconcernfortheconsequenceofsuchanexcitementtoheryoungchargewasuppermostinhermind。
St。Clarehadbeensitting,duringthewholetime,withhishandshadinghiseyes,inthesameattitude。
Whentheywereallgone,hesatsostill。
“Papa!”saidEva,gently,layingherhandonhis。
Hegaveasuddenstartandshiver;butmadenoanswer。
“Dearpapa!”saidEva。
“Icannot,”saidSt。Clare,rising,“Icannothaveitso!TheAlmightyhathdealtverybitterlywithme!”andSt。Clarepronouncedthesewordswithabitteremphasis,indeed。
“Augustine!hasnotGodarighttodowhathewillwithhisown?”saidMissOphelia。
“Perhapsso;butthatdoesn’tmakeitanyeasiertobear,”saidhe,withadry,hard,tearlessmanner,asheturnedaway。
“Papa,youbreakmyheart!”saidEva,risingandthrowingherselfintohisarms;“youmustnotfeelso!”andthechildsobbedandweptwithaviolencewhichalarmedthemall,andturnedherfather’sthoughtsatoncetoanotherchannel。
“There,Eva,—there,dearest!Hush!hush!Iwaswrong;Iwaswicked。Iwillfeelanyway,doanyway,—onlydon’tdistressyourself;don’tsobso。Iwillberesigned;IwaswickedtospeakasIdid。”
Evasoonlaylikeawearieddoveinherfather’sarms;andhe,bendingoverher,soothedherbyeverytenderwordhecouldthinkof。
Marieroseandthrewherselfoutoftheapartmentintoherown,whenshefellintoviolenthysterics。
“Youdidn’tgivemeacurl,Eva,”saidherfather,smilingsadly。
“Theyareallyours,papa,”saidshe,smiling—“yoursandmamma’s;andyoumustgivedearauntyasmanyasshewants。Ionlygavethemtoourpoorpeoplemyself,becauseyouknow,papa,theymightbeforgottenwhenIamgone,andbecauseIhopeditmighthelpthemremember……YouareaChristian,areyounot,papa?”saidEva,doubtfully。
“Whydoyouaskme?”
“Idon’tknow。Youaresogood,Idon’tseehowyoucanhelpit。”
“WhatisbeingaChristian,Eva?”
“LovingChristmostofall,”saidEva。
“Doyou,Eva?”
“CertainlyIdo。”
“Youneversawhim,”saidSt。Clare。
“Thatmakesnodifference,”saidEva。“Ibelievehim,andinafewdaysIshallseehim;”andtheyoungfacegrewfervent,radiantwithjoy。
St。Claresaidnomore。Itwasafeelingwhichhehadseenbeforeinhismother;butnochordwithinvibratedtoit。
Eva,afterthis,declinedrapidly;therewasnomoreanydoubtoftheevent;thefondesthopecouldnotbeblinded。Herbeautifulroomwasavowedlyasickroom;andMissOpheliadayandnightperformedthedutiesofanurse,—andneverdidherfriendsappreciatehervaluemorethaninthatcapacity。Withsowell-trainedahandandeye,suchperfectadroitnessandpracticeineveryartwhichcouldpromoteneatnessandcomfort,andkeepoutofsighteverydisagreeableincidentofsickness,—withsuchaperfectsenseoftime,suchaclear,untroubledhead,suchexactaccuracyinrememberingeveryprescriptionanddirectionofthedoctors,—shewaseverythingtohim。Theywhohadshruggedtheirshouldersatherlittlepeculiaritiesandsetnesses,sounlikethecarelessfreedomofsouthernmanners,acknowledgedthatnowshewastheexactpersonthatwaswanted。
UncleTomwasmuchinEva’sroom。Thechildsufferedmuchfromnervousrestlessness,anditwasarelieftohertobecarried;anditwasTom’sgreatestdelighttocarryherlittlefrailforminhisarms,restingonapillow,nowupanddownherroom,nowoutintotheverandah;andwhenthefreshsea-breezesblewfromthelake,—andthechildfeltfreshestinthemorning,—hewouldsometimeswalkwithherundertheorange-treesinthegarden,or,sittingdowninsomeoftheiroldseats,singtohertheirfavoriteoldhymns。
Herfatheroftendidthesamething;buthisframewasslighter,andwhenhewasweary,Evawouldsaytohim,
“O,papa,letTomtakeme。Poorfellow!itpleaseshim;andyouknowit’sallhecandonow,andhewantstodosomething!”
“SodoI,Eva!”saidherfather。
“Well,papa,youcandoeverything,andareeverythingtome。Youreadtome,—yousitupnights,—andTomhasonlythisonething,andhissinging;andIknow,too,hedoesiteasierthanyoucan。Hecarriesmesostrong!”
ThedesiretodosomethingwasnotconfinedtoTom。Everyservantintheestablishmentshowedthesamefeeling,andintheirwaydidwhattheycould。
PoorMammy’sheartyearnedtowardsherdarling;butshefoundnoopportunity,nightorday,asMariedeclaredthatthestateofhermindwassuch,itwasimpossibleforhertorest;and,ofcourse,itwasagainstherprinciplestoletanyoneelserest。Twentytimesinanight,Mammywouldberousedtorubherfeet,tobatheherhead,tofindherpocket-handkerchief,toseewhatthenoisewasinEva’sroom,toletdownacurtainbecauseitwastoolight,ortoputitupbecauseitwastoodark;and,inthedaytime,whenshelongedtohavesomeshareinthenursingofherpet,Marieseemedunusuallyingeniousinkeepingherbusyanywhereandeverywherealloverthehouse,oraboutherownperson;sothatstoleninterviewsandmomentaryglimpseswereallshecouldobtain。
“Ifeelitmydutytobeparticularlycarefulofmyself,now,”shewouldsay,“feebleasIam,andwiththewholecareandnursingofthatdearchilduponme。”
“Indeed,mydear,”saidSt。Clare,“Ithoughtourcousinrelievedyouofthat。”
“Youtalklikeaman,St。Clare,—justasifamothercouldberelievedofthecareofachildinthatstate;but,then,it’sallalike,—nooneeverknowswhatIfeel!Ican’tthrowthingsoff,asyoudo。”
St。Claresmiled。Youmustexcusehim,hecouldn’thelpit,—forSt。Clarecouldsmileyet。Forsobrightandplacidwasthefarewellvoyageofthelittlespirit,—bysuchsweetandfragrantbreezeswasthesmallbarkbornetowardstheheavenlyshores,—thatitwasimpossibletorealizethatitwasdeaththatwasapproaching。Thechildfeltnopain,—onlyatranquil,softweakness,dailyandalmostinsensiblyincreasing;andshewassobeautiful,soloving,sotrustful,sohappy,thatonecouldnotresistthesoothinginfluenceofthatairofinnocenceandpeacewhichseemedtobreathearoundher。St。Clarefoundastrangecalmcomingoverhim。Itwasnothope,—thatwasimpossible;itwasnotresignation;itwasonlyacalmrestinginthepresent,whichseemedsobeautifulthathewishedtothinkofnofuture。Itwaslikethathushofspiritwhichwefeelamidthebright,mildwoodsofautumn,whenthebrighthecticflushisonthetrees,andthelastlingeringflowersbythebrook;andwejoyinitallthemore,becauseweknowthatsoonitwillallpassaway。
ThefriendwhoknewmostofEva’sownimaginingsandforeshadowingswasherfaithfulbearer,Tom。Tohimshesaidwhatshewouldnotdisturbherfatherbysaying。Tohimsheimpartedthosemysteriousintimationswhichthesoulfeels,asthecordsbegintounbind,ereitleavesitsclayforever。
Tom,atlast,wouldnotsleepinhisroom,butlayallnightintheouterverandah,readytorouseateverycall。
“UncleTom,whatalivehaveyoutakentosleepinganywhereandeverywhere,likeadog,for?”saidMissOphelia。“Ithoughtyouwasoneoftheorderlysort,thatlikedtolieinbedinaChristianway。”
“Ido,MissFeely,”saidTom,mysteriously。“Ido,butnow—”
“Well,whatnow?”
“Wemustn’tspeakloud;Mas’rSt。Clarewon’thearon’t;butMissFeely,youknowtheremustbesomebodywatchin’forthebridegroom。”
“Whatdoyoumean,Tom?”
“YouknowitsaysinScripture,‘Atmidnighttherewasagreatcrymade。Behold,thebridegroomcometh。’That’swhatI’mspectinnow,everynight,MissFeely,—andIcouldn’tsleepouto’hearin,noways。”
“Why,UncleTom,whatmakesyouthinkso?”
“MissEva,shetalkstome。TheLord,hesendshismessengerinthesoul。Imustbethar,MissFeely;forwhenthatarblessedchildgoesintothekingdom,they’llopenthedoorsowide,we’llallgetalookinattheglory,MissFeely。”
“UncleTom,didMissEvasayshefeltmoreunwellthanusualtonight?”
“No;butshetelledme,thismorning,shewascomingnearer,—thar’sthemthattellsittothechild,MissFeely。It’stheangels,—‘it’sthetrumpetsoundaforethebreako’day,’”saidTom,quotingfromafavoritehymn。
ThisdialoguepassedbetweenMissOpheliaandTom,betweentenandeleven,oneevening,afterherarrangementshadallbeenmadeforthenight,when,ongoingtoboltherouterdoor,shefoundTomstretchedalongbyit,intheouterverandah。
Shewasnotnervousorimpressible;butthesolemn,heart-feltmannerstruckher。Evahadbeenunusuallybrightandcheerful,thatafternoon,andhadsatraisedinherbed,andlookedoverallherlittletrinketsandpreciousthings,anddesignatedthefriendstowhomshewouldhavethemgiven;andhermannerwasmoreanimated,andhervoicemorenatural,thantheyhadknownitforweeks。Herfatherhadbeenin,intheevening,andhadsaidthatEvaappearedmorelikeherformerselfthanevershehaddonesincehersickness;andwhenhekissedherforthenight,hesaidtoMissOphelia,—“Cousin,wemaykeepherwithus,afterall;sheiscertainlybetter;”andhehadretiredwithalighterheartinhisbosomthanhehadhadthereforweeks。
Butatmidnight,—strange,mystichour!—whentheveilbetweenthefrailpresentandtheeternalfuturegrowsthin,—thencamethemessenger!
Therewasasoundinthatchamber,firstofonewhosteppedquickly。ItwasMissOphelia,whohadresolvedtositupallnightwithherlittlecharge,andwho,attheturnofthenight,haddiscernedwhatexperiencednursessignificantlycall“achange。”Theouterdoorwasquicklyopened,andTom,whowaswatchingoutside,wasonthealert,inamoment。
“Goforthedoctor,Tom!losenotamoment,”saidMissOphelia;and,steppingacrosstheroom,sherappedatSt。Clare’sdoor。
“Cousin,”shesaid,“Iwishyouwouldcome。”
Thosewordsfellonhisheartlikeclodsuponacoffin。Whydidthey?Hewasupandintheroominaninstant,andbendingoverEva,whostillslept。
Whatwasithesawthatmadehisheartstandstill?Whywasnowordspokenbetweenthetwo?Thoucanstsay,whohastseenthatsameexpressiononthefacedearesttothee;—thatlookindescribable,hopeless,unmistakable,thatsaystotheethatthybelovedisnolongerthine。
Onthefaceofthechild,however,therewasnoghastlyimprint,—onlyahighandalmostsublimeexpression,—theovershadowingpresenceofspiritualnatures,thedawningofimmortallifeinthatchildishsoul。
Theystoodtheresostill,gazinguponher,thateventhetickingofthewatchseemedtooloud。Inafewmoments,Tomreturned,withthedoctor。Heentered,gaveonelook,andstoodsilentastherest。
“Whendidthischangetakeplace?”saidhe,inalowwhisper,toMissOphelia。
“Abouttheturnofthenight,”wasthereply。
Marie,rousedbytheentranceofthedoctor,appeared,hurriedly,fromthenextroom。
“Augustine!Cousin!—O!—what!”shehurriedlybegan。
“Hush!”saidSt。Clare,hoarsely;“sheisdying!”
Mammyheardthewords,andflewtoawakentheservants。Thehousewassoonroused,—lightswereseen,footstepsheard,anxiousfacesthrongedtheverandah,andlookedtearfullythroughtheglassdoors;butSt。Clareheardandsaidnothing,—hesawonlythatlookonthefaceofthelittlesleeper。
“O,ifshewouldonlywake,andspeakoncemore!”hesaid;and,stoopingoverher,hespokeinherear,—“Eva,darling!”
Thelargeblueeyesunclosed—asmilepassedoverherface;—shetriedtoraiseherhead,andtospeak。
“Doyouknowme,Eva?”
“Dearpapa,”saidthechild,withalasteffort,throwingherarmsabouthisneck。Inamomenttheydroppedagain;and,asSt。Clareraisedhishead,hesawaspasmofmortalagonypassovertheface,—shestruggledforbreath,andthrewupherlittlehands。
“O,God,thisisdreadful!”hesaid,turningawayinagony,andwringingTom’shand,scarceconsciouswhathewasdoing。“O,Tom,myboy,itiskillingme!”
Tomhadhismaster’shandsbetweenhisown;and,withtearsstreamingdownhisdarkcheeks,lookedupforhelpwherehehadalwaysbeenusedtolook。
“Praythatthismaybecutshort!”saidSt。Clare,—“thiswringsmyheart。”
“O,blesstheLord!it’sover,—it’sover,dearMaster!”saidTom;“lookather。”
Thechildlaypantingonherpillows,asoneexhausted,—thelargecleareyesrolledupandfixed。Ah,whatsaidthoseeyes,thatspokesomuchofheaven!Earthwaspast,—andearthlypain;butsosolemn,somysterious,wasthetriumphantbrightnessofthatface,thatitcheckedeventhesobsofsorrow。Theypressedaroundher,inbreathlessstillness。
“Eva,”saidSt。Clare,gently。
Shedidnothear。
“O,Eva,telluswhatyousee!Whatisit?”saidherfather。
Abright,aglorioussmilepassedoverherface,andshesaid,brokenly,—“O!love,—joy,—peace!”gaveonesighandpassedfromdeathuntolife!
“Farewell,belovedchild!thebright,eternaldoorshaveclosedafterthee;weshallseethysweetfacenomore。O,woeforthemwhowatchedthyentranceintoheaven,whentheyshallwakeandfindonlythecoldgrayskyofdailylife,andthougoneforever!”
1“WeepNotforThose,”apoembyThomasMoore(1779-1852)。
“ThisIstheofEarth”1
ThestatuettesandpicturesinEva’sroomwereshroudedinwhitenapkins,andonlyhushedbreathingsandmuffledfootfallswereheardthere,andthelightstoleinsolemnlythroughwindowspartiallydarkenedbyclosedblinds。
Thebedwasdrapedinwhite;andthere,beneaththedroopingangel-figure,layalittlesleepingform,—sleepingnevertowaken!
Thereshelay,robedinoneofthesimplewhitedressesshehadbeenwonttowearwhenliving;therose-coloredlightthroughthecurtainscastovertheicycoldnessofdeathawarmglow。Theheavyeyelashesdroopedsoftlyonthepurecheek;theheadwasturnedalittletooneside,asifinnaturalsteep,buttherewasdiffusedovereverylineamentofthefacethathighcelestialexpression,thatminglingofraptureandrepose,whichshoweditwasnoearthlyortemporarysleep,butthelong,sacredrestwhich“Hegivethtohisbeloved。”
Thereisnodeathtosuchasthou,dearEva!neitherdarknessnorshadowofdeath;onlysuchabrightfadingaswhenthemorningstarfadesinthegoldendawn。Thineisthevictorywithoutthebattle,—thecrownwithouttheconflict。
SodidSt。Clarethink,as,withfoldedarms,hestoodtheregazing。Ah!whoshallsaywhathedidthink?for,fromthehourthatvoiceshadsaid,inthedyingchamber,“sheisgone,”ithadbeenalladrearymist,aheavy“dimnessofanguish。”Hehadheardvoicesaroundhim;hehadhadquestionsasked,andansweredthem;theyhadaskedhimwhenhewouldhavethefuneral,andwheretheyshouldlayher;andhehadanswered,impatiently,thathecarednot。
AdolphandRosahadarrangedthechamber;volatile,fickleandchildish,astheygenerallywere,theyweresoft-heartedandfulloffeeling;and,whileMissOpheliapresidedoverthegeneraldetailsoforderandneatness,itwastheirhandsthataddedthosesoft,poetictouchestothearrangements,thattookfromthedeath-roomthegrimandghastlyairwhichtoooftenmarksaNewEnglandfuneral。
Therewerestillflowersontheshelves,—allwhite,delicateandfragrant,withgraceful,droopingleaves。Eva’slittletable,coveredwithwhite,boreonitherfavoritevase,withasinglewhitemossrose-budinit。Thefoldsofthedrapery,thefallofthecurtains,hadbeenarrangedandrearranged,byAdolphandRosa,withthatnicetyofeyewhichcharacterizestheirrace。Evennow,whileSt。Clarestoodtherethinking,littleRosatrippedsoftlyintothechamberwithabasketofwhiteflowers。ShesteppedbackwhenshesawSt。Clare,andstoppedrespectfully;but,seeingthathedidnotobserveher,shecameforwardtoplacethemaroundthedead。St。Claresawherasinadream,whilesheplacedinthesmallhandsafaircapejessamine,and,withadmirabletaste,disposedotherflowersaroundthecouch。
Thedooropenedagain,andTopsy,hereyesswelledwithcrying,appeared,holdingsomethingunderherapron。Rosamadeaquickforbiddinggesture;butshetookastepintotheroom。
“Youmustgoout,”saidRosa,inasharp,positivewhisper;“youhaven’tanybusinesshere!”
“O,doletme!Ibroughtaflower,—suchaprettyone!”saidTopsy,holdingupahalf-blowntearose-bud。“Doletmeputjustonethere。”
“Getalong!”saidRosa,moredecidedly。
“Letherstay!”saidSt。Clare,suddenlystampinghisfoot。“Sheshallcome。”
Rosasuddenlyretreated,andTopsycameforwardandlaidherofferingatthefeetofthecorpse;thensuddenly,withawildandbittercry,shethrewherselfontheflooralongsidethebed,andwept,andmoanedaloud。
MissOpheliahastenedintotheroom,andtriedtoraiseandsilenceher;butinvain。
“O,MissEva!oh,MissEva!IwishI’sdead,too,—Ido!”
Therewasapiercingwildnessinthecry;thebloodflushedintoSt。Clare’swhite,marble-likeface,andthefirsttearshehadshedsinceEvadiedstoodinhiseyes。
“Getup,child,”saidMissOphelia,inasoftenedvoice;“don’tcryso。MissEvaisgonetoheaven;sheisanangel。”
“ButIcan’tseeher!”saidTopsy。“Inevershallseeher!”andshesobbedagain。
Theyallstoodamomentinsilence。
“Shesaidshelovedme,”saidTopsy,—“shedid!O,dear!oh,dear!therean’tnobodyleftnow,—therean’t!”
“That’strueenough”saidSt。Clare;“butdo,”hesaidtoMissOphelia,“seeifyoucan’tcomfortthepoorcreature。”
“IjistwishIhadn’tneverbeenborn,”saidTopsy。“Ididn’twanttobeborn,noways;andIdon’tseenouseon’t。”
MissOpheliaraisedhergently,butfirmly,andtookherfromtheroom;but,asshedidso,sometearsfellfromhereyes。
“Topsy,youpoorchild,”shesaid,assheledherintoherroom,“don’tgiveup!Icanloveyou,thoughIamnotlikethatdearlittlechild。IhopeI’velearntsomethingoftheloveofChristfromher。Icanloveyou;Ido,andI’lltrytohelpyoutogrowupagoodChristiangirl。”
MissOphelia’svoicewasmorethanherwords,andmorethanthatwerethehonesttearsthatfelldownherface。Fromthathour,sheacquiredaninfluenceoverthemindofthedestitutechildthatsheneverlost。
“O,myEva,whoselittlehouronearthdidsomuchofgood,”thoughtSt。Clare,“whataccounthaveItogiveformylongyears?”
Therewere,forawhile,softwhisperingsandfootfallsinthechamber,asoneafteranotherstolein,tolookatthedead;andthencamethelittlecoffin;andthentherewasafuneral,andcarriagesdrovetothedoor,andstrangerscameandwereseated;andtherewerewhitescarfsandribbons,andcrapebands,andmournersdressedinblackcrape;andtherewerewordsreadfromtheBible,andprayersoffered;andSt。Clarelived,andwalked,andmoved,asonewhohasshedeverytear;—tothelasthesawonlyonething,thatgoldenheadinthecoffin;butthenhesawtheclothspreadoverit,thelidofthecoffinclosed;andhewalked,whenhewasputbesidetheothers,downtoalittleplaceatthebottomofthegarden,andthere,bythemossyseatwheresheandTomhadtalked,andsung,andreadsooften,wasthelittlegrave。St。Clarestoodbesideit,—lookedvacantlydown;hesawthemlowerthelittlecoffin;heheard,dimly,thesolemnwords,“IamtheresurrectionandtheLife;hethatbelievethinme,thoughheweredead,yetshallhelive;”and,astheearthwascastinandfilledupthelittlegrave,hecouldnotrealizethatitwashisEvathattheywerehidingfromhissight。
Norwasit!—notEva,butonlythefrailseedofthatbright,immortalformwithwhichsheshallyetcomeforth,inthedayoftheLordJesus!
Andthenallweregone,andthemournerswentbacktotheplacewhichshouldknowhernomore;andMarie’sroomwasdarkened,andshelayonthebed,sobbingandmoaninginuncontrollablegrief,andcallingeverymomentfortheattentionsofallherservants。Ofcourse,theyhadnotimetocry,—whyshouldthey?thegriefwashergrief,andshewasfullyconvincedthatnobodyonearthdid,could,orwouldfeelitasshedid。
“St。Claredidnotshedatear,”shesaid;“hedidn’tsympathizewithher;itwasperfectlywonderfultothinkhowhard-heartedandunfeelinghewas,whenhemustknowhowshesuffered。”
Somucharepeopletheslaveoftheireyeandear,thatmanyoftheservantsreallythoughtthatMissiswastheprincipalsuffererinthecase,especiallyasMariebegantohavehystericalspasms,andsentforthedoctor,andatlastdeclaredherselfdying;and,intherunningandscampering,andbringinguphotbottles,andheatingofflannels,andchafing,andfussing,thatensued,therewasquiteadiversion。
Tom,however,hadafeelingathisownheart,thatdrewhimtohismaster。Hefollowedhimwhereverhewalked,wistfullyandsadly;andwhenhesawhimsitting,sopaleandquiet,inEva’sroom,holdingbeforehiseyesherlittleopenBible,thoughseeingnoletterorwordofwhatwasinit,therewasmoresorrowtoTominthatstill,fixed,tearlesseye,thaninallMarie’smoansandlamentations。
InafewdaystheSt。Clarefamilywerebackagaininthecity;Augustine,withtherestlessnessofgrief,longingforanotherscene,tochangethecurrentofhisthoughts。Sotheyleftthehouseandgarden,withitslittlegrave,andcamebacktoNewOrleans;andSt。Clarewalkedthestreetsbusily,andstrovetofillupthechasminhisheartwithhurryandbustle,andchangeofplace;andpeoplewhosawhiminthestreet,ormethimatthecafe,knewofhislossonlybytheweedonhishat;fortherehewas,smilingandtalking,andreadingthenewspaper,andspeculatingonpolitics,andattendingtobusinessmatters;andwhocouldseethatallthissmilingoutsidewasbutahollowedshelloveraheartthatwasadarkandsilentsepulchre?
“Mr。St。Clareisasingularman,”saidMarietoMissOphelia,inacomplainingtone。“Iusedtothink,iftherewasanythingintheworldhedidlove,itwasourdearlittleEva;butheseemstobeforgettingherveryeasily。Icannotevergethimtotalkabouther。Ireallydidthinkhewouldshowmorefeeling!”
“Stillwatersrundeepest,theyusedtotellme,”saidMissOphelia,oracularly。
“O,Idon’tbelieveinsuchthings;it’salltalk。Ifpeoplehavefeeling,theywillshowit,—theycan’thelpit;but,then,it’sagreatmisfortunetohavefeeling。I’dratherhavebeenmadelikeSt。Clare。Myfeelingspreyuponmeso!”
“Sure,Missis,Mas’rSt。Clareisgettin’thinasashader。Theysay,hedon’tnevereatnothin’,”saidMammy。“Iknowhedon’tforgetMissEva;Iknowtherecouldn’tnobody,—dear,little,blessedcretur!”sheadded,wipinghereyes。
“Well,atallevents,hehasnoconsiderationforme,”saidMarie;“hehasn’tspokenonewordofsympathy,andhemustknowhowmuchmoreamotherfeelsthananymancan。”
“Theheartknowethitsownbitterness,”saidMissOphelia,gravely。
“That’sjustwhatIthink。IknowjustwhatIfeel,—nobodyelseseemsto。Evausedto,butsheisgone!”andMarielaybackonherlounge,andbegantosobdisconsolately。
Mariewasoneofthoseunfortunatelyconstitutedmortals,inwhoseeyeswhateverislostandgoneassumesavaluewhichitneverhadinpossession。Whatevershehad,sheseemedtosurveyonlytopickflawsinit;but,oncefairlyaway,therewasnoendtohervaluationofit。
WhilethisconversationwastakingplaceintheparloranotherwasgoingoninSt。Clare’slibrary。
Tom,whowasalwaysuneasilyfollowinghismasterabout,hadseenhimgotohislibrary,somehoursbefore;and,aftervainlywaitingforhimtocomeout,determined,atlast,tomakeanerrandin。Heenteredsoftly。St。Clarelayonhislounge,atthefurtherendoftheroom。Hewaslyingonhisface,withEva’sBibleopenbeforehim,atalittledistance。Tomwalkedup,andstoodbythesofa。Hehesitated;and,whilehewashesitating,St。Claresuddenlyraisedhimselfup。Thehonestface,sofullofgrief,andwithsuchanimploringexpressionofaffectionandsympathy,struckhismaster。HelaidhishandonTom’s,andboweddownhisforeheadonit。
“O,Tom,myboy,thewholeworldisasemptyasanegg-shell。”
“Iknowit,Mas’r,—Iknowit,”saidTom;“but,oh,ifMas’rcouldonlylookup,—upwhereourdearMissEvais,—uptothedearLordJesus!”
“Ah,Tom!Idolookup;butthetroubleis,Idon’tseeanything,whenIdo,IwishIcould。”
Tomsighedheavily。
“Itseemstobegiventochildren,andpoor,honestfellows,likeyou,toseewhatwecan’t,”saidSt。Clare。“Howcomesit?”
“Thouhas‘hidfromthewiseandprudent,andrevealeduntobabes,’”murmuredTom;“‘evenso,Father,forsoitseemedgoodinthysight。’”
“Tom,Idon’tbelieve,—Ican’tbelieve,—I’vegotthehabitofdoubting,”saidSt。Clare。“IwanttobelievethisBible,—andIcan’t。”
“DearMas’r,praytothegoodLord,—‘Lord,Ibelieve;helpthoumyunbelief。’”
“Whoknowsanythingaboutanything?”saidSt。Clare,hiseyeswanderingdreamily,andspeakingtohimself。“Wasallthatbeautifulloveandfaithonlyoneoftheever-shiftingphasesofhumanfeeling,havingnothingrealtoreston,passingawaywiththelittlebreath?AndistherenomoreEva,—noheaven,—noChrist,—nothing?”
“O,dearMas’r,thereis!Iknowit;I’msureofit,”saidTom,fallingonhisknees。“Do,do,dearMas’r,believeit!”
“Howdoyouknowthere’sanyChrist,Tom!YouneversawtheLord。”
“FeltHiminmysoul,Mas’r,—feelHimnow!O,Mas’r,whenIwassoldawayfrommyoldwomanandthechildren,Iwasjesta’mostbrokeup。Ifeltasiftherewarn’tnothin’left;andthenthegoodLord,hestoodbyme,andhesays,‘Fearnot,Tom;’andhebringslightandjoyinapoorfeller’ssoul,—makesallpeace;andI’ssohappy,andloveseverybody,andfeelswillin’jesttobetheLord’s,andhavetheLord’swilldone,andbeputjestwheretheLordwantstoputme。Iknowitcouldn’tcomefromme,causeI’sapoor,complainin’cretur;itcomesfromtheLord;andIknowHe’swillin’todoforMas’r。”
Tomspokewithfast-runningtearsandchokingvoice。St。Clareleanedhisheadonhisshoulder,andwrungthehard,faithful,blackhand。
“Tom,youloveme,”hesaid。
“I’swillin’tolaydownmylife,thisblessedday,toseeMas’raChristian。”
“Poor,foolishboy!”saidSt。Clare,half-raisinghimself。“I’mnotworththeloveofonegood,honestheart,likeyours。”
“O,Mas’r,dere’smorethanmelovesyou,—theblessedLordJesuslovesyou。”
“HowdoyouknowthatTom?”saidSt。Clare。
“Feelsitinmysoul。O,Mas’r!‘theloveofChrist,thatpassethknowledge。’”
“Singular!”saidSt。Clare,turningaway,“thatthestoryofamanthatlivedanddiedeighteenhundredyearsagocanaffectpeoplesoyet。Buthewasnoman,”headded,suddenly。“Nomaneverhadsuchlongandlivingpower!O,thatIcouldbelievewhatmymothertaughtme,andprayasIdidwhenIwasaboy!”
“IfMas’rpleases,”saidTom,“MissEvausedtoreadthissobeautifully。IwishMas’r’dbesogoodasreadit。Don’tgetnoreadin’,hardly,nowMissEva’sgone。”
ThechapterwastheeleventhofJohn,—thetouchingaccountoftheraisingofLazarus,St。Clarereaditaloud,oftenpausingtowrestledownfeelingswhichwererousedbythepathosofthestory。Tomkneltbeforehim,withclaspedhands,andwithanabsorbedexpressionoflove,trust,adoration,onhisquietface。
“Tom,”saidhisMaster,“thisisallrealtoyou!”
“IcanjestfairlyseeitMas’r,”saidTom。
“IwishIhadyoureyes,Tom。”
“Iwish,tothedearLord,Mas’rhad!”
“But,Tom,youknowthatIhaveagreatdealmoreknowledgethanyou;whatifIshouldtellyouthatIdon’tbelievethisBible?”
“O,Mas’r!”saidTom,holdinguphishands,withadeprecatinggesture。
“Wouldn’titshakeyourfaithsome,Tom?”
“Notagrain,”saidTom。
“Why,Tom,youmustknowIknowthemost。”
“O,Mas’r,haven’tyoujestreadhowhehidesfromthewiseandprudent,andrevealsuntobabes?ButMas’rwasn’tinearnest,forsartin,now?”saidTom,anxiously。
“No,Tom,Iwasnot。Idon’tdisbelieve,andIthinkthereisreasontobelieve;andstillIdon’t。It’satroublesomebadhabitI’vegot,Tom。”
“IfMas’rwouldonlypray!”
“HowdoyouknowIdon’t,Tom?”
“DoesMas’r?”
“Iwould,Tom,iftherewasanybodytherewhenIpray;butit’sallspeakinguntonothing,whenIdo。Butcome,Tom,youpraynow,andshowmehow。”
Tom’sheartwasfull;hepoureditoutInprayer,likewatersthathavebeenlongsuppressed。Onethingwasplainenough;Tomthoughttherewassomebodytohear,whethertherewereornot。Infact,St。Clarefelthimselfborne,onthetideofhisfaithandfeeling,almosttothegatesofthatheavenheseemedsovividlytoconceive。ItseemedtobringhimnearertoEva。
“Thankyou,myboy,”saidSt。Clare,whenTomrose。“Iliketohearyou,Tom;butgo,now,andleavemealone;someothertime,I’lltalkmore。”
Tomsilentlylefttheroom。
1“ThisisthelastofEarth!Iamcontent,”lastwordsofJohnQuincyAdams,utteredFebruary21,1848。
Reunion
WeekafterweekglidedawayintheSt。Claremansion,andthewavesoflifesettledbacktotheirusualflow,wherethatlittlebarkhadgonedown。Forhowimperiously,howcoolly,indisregardofallone’sfeeling,doesthehard,cold,uninterestingcourseofdailyrealitiesmoveon!Stillmustweeat,anddrink,andsleep,andwakeagain,—stillbargain,buy,sell,askandanswerquestions,—pursue,inshort,athousandshadows,thoughallinterestinthembeover;thecoldmechanicalhabitoflivingremaining,afterallvitalinterestinithasfled。
AlltheinterestsandhopesofSt。Clare’slifehadunconsciouslywoundthemselvesaroundthischild。ItwasforEvathathehadmanagedhisproperty;itwasforEvathathehadplannedthedisposalofhistime;and,todothisandthatforEva,—tobuy,improve,alter,andarrange,ordisposesomethingforher,—hadbeensolonghishabit,thatnowshewasgone,thereseemednothingtobethoughtof,andnothingtobedone。
True,therewasanotherlife,—alifewhich,oncebelievedin,standsasasolemn,significantfigurebeforetheotherwiseunmeaningciphersoftime,changingthemtoordersofmysterious,untoldvalue。St。Clareknewthiswell;andoften,inmanyawearyhour,heheardthatslender,childishvoicecallinghimtotheskies,andsawthatlittlehandpointingtohimthewayoflife;butaheavylethargyofsorrowlayonhim,—hecouldnotarise。Hehadoneofthosenatureswhichcouldbetterandmoreclearlyconceiveofreligiousthingsfromitsownperceptionsandinstincts,thanmanyamatter-of-factandpracticalChristian。Thegifttoappreciateandthesensetofeelthefinershadesandrelationsofmoralthings,oftenseemsanattributeofthosewhosewholelifeshowsacarelessdisregardofthem。HenceMoore,Byron,Goethe,oftenspeakwordsmorewiselydescriptiveofthetruereligioussentiment,thananotherman,whosewholelifeisgovernedbyit。Insuchminds,disregardofreligionisamorefearfultreason,—amoredeadlysin。
St。Clarehadneverpretendedtogovernhimselfbyanyreligiousobligation;andacertainfinenessofnaturegavehimsuchaninstinctiveviewoftheextentoftherequirementsofChristianity,thatheshrank,byanticipation,fromwhathefeltwouldbetheexactionsofhisownconscience,ifheoncedidresolvetoassumethem。For,soinconsistentishumannature,especiallyintheideal,thatnottoundertakeathingatallseemsbetterthantoundertakeandcomeshort。
StillSt。Clarewas,inmanyrespects,anotherman。HereadhislittleEva’sBibleseriouslyandhonestly;hethoughtmoresoberlyandpracticallyofhisrelationstohisservants,—enoughtomakehimextremelydissatisfiedwithbothhispastandpresentcourse;andonethinghedid,soonafterhisreturntoNewOrleans,andthatwastocommencethelegalstepsnecessarytoTom’semancipation,whichwastobeperfectedassoonashecouldgetthroughthenecessaryformalities。Meantime,heattachedhimselftoTommoreandmore,everyday。Inallthewideworld,therewasnothingthatseemedtoremindhimsomuchofEva;andhewouldinsistonkeepinghimconstantlyabouthim,and,fastidiousandunapproachableashewaswithregardtohisdeeperfeelings,healmostthoughtaloudtoTom。Norwouldanyonehavewonderedatit,whohadseentheexpressionofaffectionanddevotionwithwhichTomcontinuallyfollowedhisyoungmaster。
“Well,Tom,”saidSt。Clare,thedayafterhehadcommencedthelegalformalitiesforhisenfranchisement,“I’mgoingtomakeafreemanofyou;—sohaveyourtrunkpacked,andgetreadytosetoutforKentuck。”
ThesuddenlightofjoythatshoneinTom’sfaceasheraisedhishandstoheaven,hisemphatic“BlesstheLord!”ratherdiscomposedSt。Clare;hedidnotlikeitthatTomshouldbesoreadytoleavehim。
“Youhaven’thadsuchverybadtimeshere,thatyouneedbeinsucharapture,Tom,”hesaiddrily。
“No,no,Mas’r!’tan’tthat,—it’sbein’afreeman!that’swhatI’mjoyin’for。”
“Why,Tom,don’tyouthink,foryourownpart,you’vebeenbetteroffthantobefree?”
“No,indeed,Mas’rSt。Clare,”saidTom,withaflashofenergy。“No,indeed!”
“Why,Tom,youcouldn’tpossiblyhaveearned,byyourwork,suchclothesandsuchlivingasIhavegivenyou。”
“Knowsallthat,Mas’rSt。Clare;Mas’r’sbeentoogood;but,Mas’r,I’dratherhavepoorclothes,poorhouse,pooreverything,andhave’emmine,thanhavethebest,andhave’emanyman’selse,—Ihadso,Mas’r;Ithinkit’snatur,Mas’r。”
“Isupposeso,Tom,andyou’llbegoingoffandleavingme,inamonthorso,”headded,ratherdiscontentedly。“Thoughwhyyoushouldn’t,nomortalknows,”hesaid,inagayertone;and,gettingup,hebegantowalkthefloor。
“NotwhileMas’risintrouble,”saidTom。“I’llstaywithMas’raslongashewantsme,—soasIcanbeanyuse。”
“NotwhileI’mintrouble,Tom?”saidSt。Clare,lookingsadlyoutofthewindow……“Andwhenwillmytroublebeover?”
“WhenMas’rSt。Clare’saChristian,”saidTom。
“Andyoureallymeantostaybytillthatdaycomes?”saidSt。Clare,halfsmiling,asheturnedfromthewindow,andlaidhishandonTom’sshoulder。“Ah,Tom,yousoft,sillyboy!Iwon’tkeepyoutillthatday。Gohometoyourwifeandchildren,andgivemylovetoall。”
“I’sfaithtobelievethatdaywillcome,”saidTom,earnestly,andwithtearsinhiseyes;“theLordhasaworkforMas’r。”
“Awork,hey?”saidSt。Clare,“well,now,Tom,givemeyourviewsonwhatsortofaworkitis;—let’shear。”
“Why,evenapoorfellowlikemehasaworkfromtheLord;andMas’rSt。Clare,thathaslarnin,andriches,andfriends,—howmuchhemightdofortheLord!”
“Tom,youseemtothinktheLordneedsagreatdealdoneforhim,”saidSt。Clare,smiling。
“WedoesfortheLordwhenwedoesforhiscritturs,”saidTom。
“Goodtheology,Tom;betterthanDr。B。preaches,Idareswear,”saidSt。Clare。
Theconversationwashereinterruptedbytheannouncementofsomevisitors。
MarieSt。ClarefeltthelossofEvaasdeeplyasshecouldfeelanything;and,asshewasawomanthathadagreatfacultyofmakingeverybodyunhappywhenshewas,herimmediateattendantshadstillstrongerreasontoregretthelossoftheiryoungmistress,whosewinningwaysandgentleintercessionshadsooftenbeenashieldtothemfromthetyrannicalandselfishexactionsofhermother。PooroldMammy,inparticular,whoseheart,severedfromallnaturaldomesticties,hadconsoleditselfwiththisonebeautifulbeing,wasalmostheart-broken。Shecrieddayandnight,andwas,fromexcessofsorrow,lessskilfulandalertinherministrationsofhermistressthanusual,whichdrewdownaconstantstormofinvectivesonherdefencelesshead。
MissOpheliafelttheloss;but,inhergoodandhonestheart,itborefruituntoeverlastinglife。Shewasmoresoftened,moregentle;and,thoughequallyassiduousineveryduty,itwaswithachastenedandquietair,asonewhocommunedwithherownheartnotinvain。ShewasmorediligentinteachingTopsy,—taughthermainlyfromtheBible,—didnotanylongershrinkfromhertouch,ormanifestanill-represseddisgust,becauseshefeltnone。SheviewedhernowthroughthesoftenedmediumthatEva’shandhadfirstheldbeforehereyes,andsawinheronlyanimmortalcreature,whomGodhadsenttobeledbyhertogloryandvirtue。Topsydidnotbecomeatonceasaint;butthelifeanddeathofEvadidworkamarkedchangeinher。Thecallousindifferencewasgone;therewasnowsensibility,hope,desire,andthestrivingforgood,—astrifeirregular,interrupted,suspendedoft,butyetrenewedagain。
Oneday,whenTopsyhadbeensentforbyMissOphelia,shecame,hastilythrustingsomethingintoherbosom。
“Whatareyoudoingthere,youlimb?You’vebeenstealingsomething,I’llbebound,”saidtheimperiouslittleRosa,whohadbeensenttocallher,seizingher,atthesametime,roughlybythearm。
“Yougo’long,MissRosa!”saidTopsy,pullingfromher;“’tan’tnoneo’yourbusiness!”
“Noneo’yoursa’ce!”saidRosa,“Isawyouhidingsomething,—Iknowyertricks,”andRosaseizedherarm,andtriedtoforceherhandintoherbosom,whileTopsy,enraged,kickedandfoughtvaliantlyforwhatsheconsideredherrights。TheclamorandconfusionofthebattledrewMissOpheliaandSt。Clarebothtothespot。
“She’sbeenstealing!”saidRosa。
“Ihan’t,neither!”vociferatedTopsy,sobbingwithpassion。
“Givemethat,whateveritis!”saidMissOphelia,firmly。
Topsyhesitated;but,onasecondorder,pulledoutofherbosomalittleparceldoneupinthefootofoneofherownoldstockings。
MissOpheliaturneditout。Therewasasmallbook,whichhadbeengiventoTopsybyEva,containingasingleverseofScripture,arrangedforeverydayintheyear,andinapaperthecurlofhairthatshehadgivenheronthatmemorabledaywhenshehadtakenherlastfarewell。
St。Clarewasagooddealaffectedatthesightofit;thelittlebookhadbeenrolledinalongstripofblackcrape,tornfromthefuneralweeds。
“Whatdidyouwrapthisroundthebookfor?”saidSt。Clare,holdingupthecrape。
“Cause,—cause,—cause’twasMissEva。O,don’ttake’emaway,please!”shesaid;and,sittingflatdownonthefloor,andputtingherapronoverherhead,shebegantosobvehemently。
Itwasacuriousmixtureofthepatheticandtheludicrous,—thelittleoldstockings,—blackcrape,—text-book,—fair,softcurl,—andTopsy’sutterdistress。
St。Claresmiled;butthereweretearsinhiseyes,ashesaid,
“Come,come,—don’tcry;youshallhavethem!”and,puttingthemtogether,hethrewthemintoherlap,anddrewMissOpheliawithhimintotheparlor。
“Ireallythinkyoucanmakesomethingofthatconcern,”hesaid,pointingwithhisthumbbackwardoverhisshoulder。“Anymindthatiscapableofarealsorrowiscapableofgood。Youmusttryanddosomethingwithher。”
“Thechildhasimprovedgreatly,”saidMissOphelia。“Ihavegreathopesofher;but,Augustine,”shesaid,layingherhandonhisarm,“onethingIwanttoask;whoseisthischildtobe?—yoursormine?”
“Why,Igavehertoyou,“saidAugustine。
“Butnotlegally;—Iwanthertobeminelegally,”saidMissOphelia。
“Whew!cousin,”saidAugustine。“WhatwilltheAbolitionSocietythink?They’llhaveadayoffastingappointedforthisbacksliding,ifyoubecomeaslaveholder!”
“O,nonsense!Iwanthermine,thatImayhavearighttotakehertothefreeStates,andgiveherherliberty,thatallIamtryingtodobenotundone。”
“O,cousin,whatanawful‘doingevilthatgoodmaycome’!Ican’tencourageit。”
“Idon’twantyoutojoke,buttoreason,”saidMissOphelia。“ThereisnouseinmytryingtomakethischildaChristianchild,unlessIsaveherfromallthechancesandreversesofslavery;and,ifyoureallyarewillingIshouldhaveher,Iwantyoutogivemeadeedofgift,orsomelegalpaper。”
“Well,well,”saidSt。Clare,“Iwill;”andhesatdown,andunfoldedanewspapertoread。
“ButIwantitdonenow,”saidMissOphelia。
“What’syourhurry?”
“Becausenowistheonlytimethereeveristodoathingin,”saidMissOphelia。“Come,now,here’spaper,pen,andink;justwriteapaper。”
St。Clare,likemostmenofhisclassofmind,cordiallyhatedthepresenttenseofaction,generally;and,therefore,hewasconsiderablyannoyedbyMissOphelia’sdownrightness。
“Why,what’sthematter?”saidhe。“Can’tyoutakemyword?OnewouldthinkyouhadtakenlessonsoftheJews,comingatafellowso!”
“Iwanttomakesureofit,”saidMissOphelia。“Youmaydie,orfail,andthenTopsybehustledofftoauction,spiteofallIcando。”
“Really,youarequiteprovident。Well,seeingI’minthehandsofaYankee,thereisnothingforitbuttoconcede;”andSt。Clarerapidlywroteoffadeedofgift,which,ashewaswellversedintheformsoflaw,hecouldeasilydo,andsignedhisnametoitinsprawlingcapitals,concludingbyatremendousflourish。
“There,isn’tthatblackandwhite,now,MissVermont?”hesaid,ashehandedittoher。
“Goodboy,”saidMissOphelia,smiling。“Butmustitnotbewitnessed?”
“O,bother!—yes。Here,”hesaid,openingthedoorintoMarie’sapartment,“Marie,Cousinwantsyourautograph;justputyournamedownhere。”
“What’sthis?”saidMarie,assheranoverthepaper。“Ridiculous!IthoughtCousinwastoopiousforsuchhorridthings,”sheadded,asshecarelesslywrotehername;“but,ifshehasafancyforthatarticle,Iamsureshe’swelcome。”
“There,now,she’syours,bodyandsoul,”saidSt。Clare,handingthepaper。
“Nomoreminenowthanshewasbefore,”MissOphelia。“NobodybutGodhasarighttogivehertome;butIcanprotecthernow。”
“Well,she’syoursbyafictionoflaw,then,”saidSt。Clare,asheturnedbackintotheparlor,andsatdowntohispaper。
MissOphelia,whoseldomsatmuchinMarie’scompany,followedhimintotheparlor,havingfirstcarefullylaidawaythepaper。
“Augustine,”shesaid,suddenly,asshesatknitting,“haveyouevermadeanyprovisionforyourservants,incaseofyourdeath?”
“No,”saidSt。Clare,ashereadon。
“Thenallyourindulgencetothemmayproveagreatcruelty,byandby。”
St。Clarehadoftenthoughtthesamethinghimself;butheanswered,negligently。
“Well,Imeantomakeaprovision,byandby。”
“When?”saidMissOphelia。
“O,oneofthesedays。”
“Whatifyoushoulddiefirst?”
“Cousin,what’sthematter?”saidSt。Clare,layingdownhispaperandlookingather。“DoyouthinkIshowsymptomsofyellowfeverorcholera,thatyouaremakingpostmortemarrangementswithsuchzeal?”
“‘Inthemidstoflifeweareindeath,’”saidMissOphelia。
St。Clareroseup,andlayingthepaperdown,carelessly,walkedtothedoorthatstoodopenontheverandah,toputanendtoaconversationthatwasnotagreeabletohim。Mechanically,herepeatedthelastwordagain,—“Death!”—and,asheleanedagainsttherailings,andwatchedthesparklingwaterasitroseandfellinthefountain;and,asinadimanddizzyhaze,sawflowersandtreesandvasesofthecourts,herepeated,againthemysticwordsocommonineverymouth,yetofsuchfearfulpower,—“DEATH!”“Strangethatthereshouldbesuchaword,”hesaid,“andsuchathing,andweeverforgetit;thatoneshouldbeliving,warmandbeautiful,fullofhopes,desiresandwants,oneday,andthenextbegone,utterlygone,andforever!”
Itwasawarm,goldenevening;and,ashewalkedtotheotherendoftheverandah,hesawTombusilyintentonhisBible,pointing,ashedidso,withhisfingertoeachsuccessiveword,andwhisperingthemtohimselfwithanearnestair。
“Wantmetoreadtoyou,Tom?”saidSt。Clare,seatinghimselfcarelesslybyhim。
“IfMas’rpleases,”saidTom,gratefully,“Mas’rmakesitsomuchplainer。”
St。Claretookthebookandglancedattheplace,andbeganreadingoneofthepassageswhichTomhaddesignatedbytheheavymarksaroundit。Itranasfollows:
“WhentheSonofmanshallcomeinhisglory,andallhisholyangelswithhim,thenshallhesituponthethroneofhisglory:andbeforehimshallbegatheredallnations;andheshallseparatethemonefromanother,asashepherddividethhissheepfromthegoats。”St。Clarereadoninananimatedvoice,tillhecametothelastoftheverses。
“Thenshallthekingsayuntohimonhislefthand,Departfromme,yecursed,intoeverlastingfire:forIwasanhungered,andyegavemenomeat:Iwasthirsty,andyegavemenodrink:Iwasastranger,anyetookmenotin:naked,andyeclothedmenot:Iwassick,andinprison,andyevisitedmenot。ThenshalltheyansweruntoHim,Lordwhensawwetheeanhungered,orathirst,orastranger,ornaked,orsick,orinprison,anddidnotministeruntothee?Thenshallhesayuntothem,Inasmuchasyediditnottooneoftheleastofthesemybrethren,yediditnottome。”
St。Clareseemedstruckwiththislastpassage,forhereadittwice,—thesecondtimeslowly,andasifhewererevolvingthewordsinhismind。
“Tom,”hesaid,“thesefolksthatgetsuchhardmeasureseemtohavebeendoingjustwhatIhave,—livinggood,easy,respectablelives;andnottroublingthemselvestoinquirehowmanyoftheirbrethrenwerehungryorathirst,orsick,orinprison。”
Tomdidnotanswer。
St。Clareroseupandwalkedthoughtfullyupanddowntheverandah,seemingtoforgeteverythinginhisownthoughts;soabsorbedwashe,thatTomhadtoremindhimtwicethattheteabellhadrung,beforehecouldgethisattention。
St。Clarewasabsentandthoughtful,alltea-time。Aftertea,heandMarieandMissOpheliatookpossessionoftheparloralmostinsilence。
Mariedisposedherselfonalounge,underasilkenmosquitocurtain,andwassoonsoundasleep。MissOpheliasilentlybusiedherselfwithherknitting。St。Claresatdowntothepiano,andbeganplayingasoftandmelancholymovementwiththe?olianaccompaniment。Heseemedinadeepreverie,andtobesoliloquizingtohimselfbymusic。Afteralittle,heopenedoneofthedrawers,tookoutanoldmusic-bookwhoseleaveswereyellowwithage,andbeganturningitover。
“There,”hesaidtoMissOphelia,“thiswasoneofmymother’sbooks,—andhereisherhandwriting,—comeandlookatit。ShecopiedandarrangedthisfromMozart’sRequiem。”MissOpheliacameaccordingly。
“Itwassomethingsheusedtosingoften,”saidSt。Clare。“IthinkIcanhearhernow。”
Hestruckafewmajesticchords,andbegansingingthatgrandoldLatinpiece,the“DiesIrae。”
Tom,whowaslisteningintheouterverandah,wasdrawnbythesoundtotheverydoor,wherehestoodearnestly。Hedidnotunderstandthewords,ofcourse;butthemusicandmannerofsingingappearedtoaffecthimstrongly,especiallywhenSt。Claresangthemorepatheticparts。Tomwouldhavesympathizedmoreheartily,ifhehadknownthemeaningofthebeautifulwords:
RecordareJesupie
Quodsumcausatuarviae
Nemeperdas,illadie
Querensmesedistilassus
Redemisticrucempassus
Tantuslaornonsitcassus。1
St。Clarethrewadeepandpatheticexpressionintothewords;fortheshadowyveilofyearsseemeddrawnaway,andheseemedtohearhismother’svoiceleadinghis。Voiceandinstrumentseemedbothliving,andthrewoutwithvividsympathythosestrainswhichtheetherealMozartfirstconceivedashisowndyingrequiem。
WhenSt。Clarehaddonesinging,hesatleaninghisheaduponhishandafewmoments,andthenbeganwalkingupanddownthefloor。
“Whatasublimeconceptionisthatofalastjudgment!”saidhe,—“arightingofallthewrongsofages!—asolvingofallmoralproblems,byanunanswerablewisdom!Itis,indeed,awonderfulimage。”
“Itisafearfulonetous,”saidMissOphelia。
“Itoughttobetome,Isuppose,”saidSt。Clarestopping,thoughtfully。“IwasreadingtoTom,thisafternoon,thatchapterinMatthewthatgivesanaccountofit,andIhavebeenquitestruckwithit。OneshouldhaveexpectedsometerribleenormitieschargedtothosewhoareexcludedfromHeaven,asthereason;butno,—theyarecondemnedfornotdoingpositivegood,asifthatincludedeverypossibleharm。”
“Perhaps,”saidMissOphelia,“itisimpossibleforapersonwhodoesnogoodnottodoharm。”
“Andwhat,”saidSt。Clare,speakingabstractedly,butwithdeepfeeling,“whatshallbesaidofonewhoseownheart,whoseeducation,andthewantsofsociety,havecalledinvaintosomenoblepurpose;whohasfloatedon,adreamy,neutralspectatorofthestruggles,agonies,andwrongsofman,whenheshouldhavebeenaworker?”
“Ishouldsay,”saidMissOphelia,“thatheoughttorepent,andbeginnow。”
“Alwayspracticalandtothepoint!”saidSt。Clare,hisfacebreakingoutintoasmile。“Youneverleavemeanytimeforgeneralreflections,Cousin;youalwaysbringmeshortupagainsttheactualpresent;youhaveakindofeternalnow,alwaysinyourmind。”
“NowisallthetimeIhaveanythingtodowith,”saidMissOphelia。
“DearlittleEva,—poorchild!”saidSt。Clare,“shehadsetherlittlesimplesoulonagoodworkforme。”
ItwasthefirsttimesinceEva’sdeaththathehadeversaidasmanywordsasthesetoher,andhespokenowevidentlyrepressingverystrongfeeling。
“MyviewofChristianityissuch,”headded,“thatIthinknomancanconsistentlyprofessitwithoutthrowingthewholeweightofhisbeingagainstthismonstroussystemofinjusticethatliesatthefoundationofalloursociety;and,ifneedbe,sacrificinghimselfinthebattle。Thatis,ImeanthatIcouldnotbeaChristianotherwise,thoughIhavecertainlyhadintercoursewithagreatmanyenlightenedandChristianpeoplewhodidnosuchthing;andIconfessthattheapathyofreligiouspeopleonthissubject,theirwantofperceptionofwrongsthatfilledmewithhorror,haveengenderedinmemorescepticismthananyotherthing。”
“Ifyouknewallthis,”saidMissOphelia,“whydidn’tyoudoit?”
“O,becauseIhavehadonlythatkindofbenevolencewhichconsistsinlyingonasofa,andcursingthechurchandclergyfornotbeingmartyrsandconfessors。Onecansee,youknow,veryeasily,howothersoughttobemartyrs。”
“Well,areyougoingtododifferentlynow?”saidMissOphelia。
“Godonlyknowsthefuture,”saidSt。Clare。“IambraverthanIwas,becauseIhavelostall;andhewhohasnothingtolosecanaffordallrisks。”
“Andwhatareyougoingtodo?”
“Myduty,Ihope,tothepoorandlowly,asfastasIfinditout,”saidSt。Clare,“beginningwithmyownservants,forwhomIhaveyetdonenothing;and,perhaps,atsomefutureday,itmayappearthatIcandosomethingforawholeclass;somethingtosavemycountryfromthedisgraceofthatfalsepositioninwhichshenowstandsbeforeallcivilizednations。”
“Doyousupposeitpossiblethatanationeverwillvoluntarilyemancipate?”saidMissOphelia。
“Idon’tknow,”saidSt。Clare。“Thisisadayofgreatdeeds。Heroismanddisinterestednessarerisingup,hereandthere,intheearth。TheHungariannoblessetfreemillionsofserfs,atanimmensepecuniaryloss;and,perhaps,amongusmaybefoundgenerousspirits,whodonotestimatehonorandjusticebydollarsandcents。”
“Ihardlythinkso,”saidMissOphelia。
“But,supposeweshouldriseuptomorrowandemancipate,whowouldeducatethesemillions,andteachthemhowtousetheirfreedom?Theyneverwouldrisetodomuchamongus。Thefactis,wearetoolazyandunpractical,ourselves,evertogivethemmuchofanideaofthatindustryandenergywhichisnecessarytoformthemintomen。Theywillhavetogonorth,wherelaboristhefashion,—theuniversalcustom;andtellme,now,isthereenoughChristianphilanthropy,amongyournorthernstates,tobearwiththeprocessoftheireducationandelevation?Yousendthousandsofdollarstoforeignmissions;butcouldyouenduretohavetheheathensentintoyourtownsandvillages,andgiveyourtime,andthoughts,andmoney,toraisethemtotheChristianstandard?That’swhatIwanttoknow。Ifweemancipate,areyouwillingtoeducate?Howmanyfamilies,inyourtown,wouldtakeanegromanandwoman,teachthem,bearwiththem,andseektomakethemChristians?HowmanymerchantswouldtakeAdolph,ifIwantedtomakehimaclerk;ormechanics,ifIwantedhimtaughtatrade?IfIwantedtoputJaneandRosatoaschool,howmanyschoolsarethereinthenorthernstatesthatwouldtakethemin?howmanyfamiliesthatwouldboardthem?andyettheyareaswhiteasmanyawoman,northorsouth。Yousee,Cousin,Iwantjusticedoneus。Weareinabadposition。Wearethemoreobviousoppressorsofthenegro;buttheunchristianprejudiceofthenorthisanoppressoralmostequallysevere。”
“Well,Cousin,Iknowitisso,”saidMissOphelia,—“Iknowitwassowithme,tillIsawthatitwasmydutytoovercomeit;but,ItrustIhaveovercomeit;andIknowtherearemanygoodpeopleatthenorth,whointhismatterneedonlytobetaughtwhattheirdutyis,todoit。Itwouldcertainlybeagreaterself-denialtoreceiveheathenamongus,thantosendmissionariestothem;butIthinkwewoulddoit。”
“YouwouldIknow,”saidSt。Clare。“I’dliketoseeanythingyouwouldn’tdo,ifyouthoughtityourduty!”
“Well,I’mnotuncommonlygood,”saidMissOphelia。“Otherswould,iftheysawthingsasIdo。IintendtotakeTopsyhome,whenIgo。Isupposeourfolkswillwonder,atfirst;butIthinktheywillbebroughttoseeasIdo。Besides,Iknowtherearemanypeopleatthenorthwhodoexactlywhatyousaid。”
“Yes,buttheyareaminority;and,ifweshouldbegintoemancipatetoanyextent,weshouldsoonhearfromyou。”
MissOpheliadidnotreply。Therewasapauseofsomemoments;andSt。Clare’scountenancewasovercastbyasad,dreamyexpression。
“Idon’tknowwhatmakesmethinkofmymothersomuch,tonight,”hesaid。”Ihaveastrangekindoffeeling,asifshewerenearme。Ikeepthinkingofthingssheusedtosay。Strange,whatbringsthesepastthingssovividlybacktous,sometimes!”
St。Clarewalkedupanddowntheroomforsomeminutesmore,andthensaid,
“IbelieveI’llgodownstreet,afewmoments,andhearthenews,tonight。”
Hetookhishat,andpassedout。
Tomfollowedhimtothepassage,outofthecourt,andaskedifheshouldattendhim。
“No,myboy,”saidSt。Clare。“Ishallbebackinanhour。”
Tomsatdownintheverandah。Itwasabeautifulmoonlightevening,andhesatwatchingtherisingandfallingsprayofthefountain,andlisteningtoitsmurmur。Tomthoughtofhishome,andthatheshouldsoonbeafreeman,andabletoreturntoitatwill。Hethoughthowheshouldworktobuyhiswifeandboys。Hefeltthemusclesofhisbrawnyarmswithasortofjoy,ashethoughttheywouldsoonbelongtohimself,andhowmuchtheycoulddotoworkoutthefreedomofhisfamily。Thenhethoughtofhisnobleyoungmaster,and,eversecondtothat,camethehabitualprayerthathehadalwaysofferedforhim;andthenhisthoughtspassedontothebeautifulEva,whomhenowthoughtofamongtheangels;andhethoughttillhealmostfanciedthatthatbrightfaceandgoldenhairwerelookinguponhim,outofthesprayofthefountain。And,somusing,hefellasleep,anddreamedhesawhercomingboundingtowardshim,justassheusedtocome,withawreathofjessamineinherhair,hercheeksbright,andhereyesradiantwithdelight;but,ashelooked,sheseemedtorisefromtheground;hercheeksworeapalerhue,—hereyeshadadeep,divineradiance,agoldenhaloseemedaroundherhead,—andshevanishedfromhissight;andTomwasawakenedbyaloudknocking,andasoundofmanyvoicesatthegate。
Hehastenedtoundoit;and,withsmotheredvoicesandheavytread,cameseveralmen,bringingabody,wrappedinacloak,andlyingonashutter。Thelightofthelampfellfullontheface;andTomgaveawildcryofamazementanddespair,thatrungthroughallthegalleries,asthemenadvanced,withtheirburden,totheopenparlordoor,whereMissOpheliastillsatknitting。
St。Clarehadturnedintoacafe,tolookoveraneveningpaper。Ashewasreading,anaffrayarosebetweentwogentlemenintheroom,whowerebothpartiallyintoxicated。St。Clareandoneortwoothersmadeanefforttoseparatethem,andSt。Clarereceivedafatalstabinthesidewithabowie-knife,whichhewasattemptingtowrestfromoneofthem。
Thehousewasfullofcriesandlamentations,shrieksandscreams,servantsfranticallytearingtheirhair,throwingthemselvesontheground,orrunningdistractedlyabout,lamenting。TomandMissOpheliaaloneseemedtohaveanypresenceofmind;forMariewasinstronghystericconvulsions。AtMissOphelia’sdirection,oneoftheloungesintheparlorwashastilyprepared,andthebleedingformlaiduponit。St。Clarehadfainted,throughpainandlossofblood;but,asMissOpheliaappliedrestoratives,herevived,openedhiseyes,lookedfixedlyonthem,lookedearnestlyaroundtheroom,hiseyestravellingwistfullyovereveryobject,andfinallytheyrestedonhismother’spicture。
Thephysiciannowarrived,andmadehisexamination。Itwasevident,fromtheexpressionofhisface,thattherewasnohope;butheappliedhimselftodressingthewound,andheandMissOpheliaandTomproceededcomposedlywiththiswork,amidthelamentationsandsobsandcriesoftheaffrightedservants,whohadclusteredaboutthedoorsandwindowsoftheverandah。
“Now,”saidthephysician,“wemustturnallthesecreaturesout;alldependsonhisbeingkeptquiet。”
St。Clareopenedhiseyes,andlookedfixedlyonthedistressedbeings,whomMissOpheliaandthedoctorweretryingtourgefromtheapartment。“Poorcreatures!”hesaid,andanexpressionofbitterself-reproachpassedoverhisface。Adolphabsolutelyrefusedtogo。Terrorhaddeprivedhimofallpresenceofmind;hethrewhimselfalongthefloor,andnothingcouldpersuadehimtorise。TherestyieldedtoMissOphelia’surgentrepresentations,thattheirmaster’ssafetydependedontheirstillnessandobedience。
St。Clarecouldsaybutlittle;helaywithhiseyesshut,butitwasevidentthathewrestledwithbitterthoughts。Afterawhile,helaidhishandonTom’s,whowaskneelingbesidehim,andsaid,“Tom!poorfellow!”
“What,Mas’r?”saidTom,earnestly。
“Iamdying!”saidSt。Clare,pressinghishand;“pray!”
“Ifyouwouldlikeaclergyman—”saidthephysician。
St。Clarehastilyshookhishead,andsaidagaintoTom,moreearnestly,“Pray!”
AndTomdidpray,withallhismindandstrength,forthesoulthatwaspassing,—thesoulthatseemedlookingsosteadilyandmournfullyfromthoselarge,melancholyblueeyes。Itwasliterallyprayerofferedwithstrongcryingandtears。
WhenTomceasedtospeak,St。Clarereachedoutandtookhishand,lookingearnestlyathim,butsayingnothing。Heclosedhiseyes,butstillretainedhishold;for,inthegatesofeternity,theblackhandandthewhiteholdeachotherwithanequalclasp。Hemurmuredsoftlytohimself,atbrokenintervals,
“RecordareJesupie—
Nemeperdas—illadie
Querensme—sedistilassus。”
Itwasevidentthatthewordshehadbeensingingthateveningwerepassingthroughhismind,—wordsofentreatyaddressedtoInfinitePity。Hislipsmovedatintervals,aspartsofthehymnfellbrokenlyfromthem。
“Hismindiswandering,”saidthedoctor。
“No!itiscomingHOME,atlast!”saidSt。Clare,energetically;“atlast!atlast!”
Theeffortofspeakingexhaustedhim。Thesinkingpalenessofdeathfellonhim;butwithittherefell,asifshedfromthewingsofsomepityingspirit,abeautifulexpressionofpeace,likethatofaweariedchildwhosleeps。
Sohelayforafewmoments。Theysawthatthemightyhandwasonhim。Justbeforethespiritparted,heopenedhiseyes,withasuddenlight,asofjoyandrecognition,andsaid“Mother!”andthenhewasgone!
1Theselineshavebeenthusratherinadequatelytranslated:
Think,OJesus,forwhatreason
Thouendured’stearth’sspiteandtreason,
Normelose,inthatdreadseason;
Seekingme,thywomfeethasted,
Onthecrossthysouldeathtasted,
Letnotallthesetoilsbewasted。
[Mrs。Stowe’snote。]