第5章 

类别:其他 作者:George Eliot字数:25773更新时间:18/12/21 16:31:11
Dinahtookcarenottobetraythatshehadhadhertea,andacceptedLisbeth’sinvitationveryreadily,forthesakeofpersuadingtheoldwomanherselftotakethefoodanddrinkshesomuchneededafteradayofhardworkandfasting。 SethwassohappynowDinahwasinthehousethathecouldnothelpthinkingherpresencewasworthpurchasingwithalifeinwhichgriefincessantlyfollowedupongrief;butthenextmomenthereproachedhimself——itwasalmostasifhewererejoicinginhisfather’ssaddeath。NeverthelessthejoyofbeingwithDinahWOULDtriumph——itwasliketheinfluenceofclimate,whichnoresistancecanovercome。Andthefeelingevensuffuseditselfoverhisfacesoastoattracthismother’snotice,whileshewasdrinkinghertea。 \"Theemay’stwelltalko’troublebein’agoodthing,Seth,fortheethriv’ston’t。Theelook’stasiftheeknow’dstnomoreo’ carean’cumbernorwhentheewastababbya-lyin’awakei’th’ cradle。Forthee’dstallaysliestillwi’thyeyesopen,an’Adamne’er’udliestillaminutewhenhewakened。Theewastallayslikeabago’mealascanne’erbebruised——though,forthemattero’that,thypoorfeytherwarjustsuchanother。Butye’vegotthesamelooktoo\"(hereLisbethturnedtoDinah)。\"Ireckonit’swi’bein’aMethody。NotasI’ma-findin’fautwi’yefor’t,forye’venocalltobefrettin’,an’somehowyelookensorrytoo。 Eh!Well,iftheMethodiesarefondo’trouble,they’reliketothrive:it’sapitytheycannaha’tall,an’takeitawayfromthemasdonnalikeit。Icouldha’gi’en’emplenty;forwhenI’dgottenmyoldmanIwarworretedfrommorntillnight;andnowhe’sgone,I’dbegladfortheworsto’eragain。\" \"Yes,\"saidDinah,carefulnottoopposeanyfeelingofLisbeth’s,forherreliance,inhersmallestwordsanddeeds,onadivineguidance,alwaysissuedinthatfinestwoman’stactwhichproceedsfromacuteandreadysympathy;\"yes,Iremembertoo,whenmydearauntdied,Ilongedforthesoundofherbadcoughinthenights,insteadofthesilencethatcamewhenshewasgone。Butnow,dearfriend,drinkthisothercupofteaandeatalittlemore。\" \"What!\"saidLisbeth,takingthecupandspeakinginalessqueruloustone,\"hadyegotnofeytherandmother,then,asyewarsosorryaboutyouraunt?\" \"No,Ineverknewafatherormother;myauntbroughtmeupfromababy。Shehadnochildren,forshewasnevermarriedandshebroughtmeupastenderlyasifI’dbeenherownchild。\" \"Eh,she’dfineworkwi’ye,I’llwarrant,bringin’yeupfromababby,an’heralonewoman——it’sillbringin’upacadelamb。 ButIdaresayyewarnafranzy,foryelookasifye’dne’erbeenangeredi’yourlife。Butwhatdidyedowhenyourauntdied,an’ whydidnayecometoliveinthiscountry,bein’asMrs。Poyser’syouraunttoo?\" Dinah,seeingthatLisbeth’sattentionwasattracted,toldherthestoryofherearlylife——howshehadbeenbroughtuptoworkhard,andwhatsortofplaceSnowfieldwas,andhowmanypeoplehadahardlifethere——allthedetailsthatshethoughtlikelytointerestLisbeth。Theoldwomanlistened,andforgottobefretful,unconsciouslysubjecttothesoothinginfluenceofDinah’sfaceandvoice。Afterawhileshewaspersuadedtoletthekitchenbemadetidy;forDinahwasbentonthis,believingthatthesenseoforderandquietudearoundherwouldhelpindisposingLisbethtojoinintheprayershelongedtopourforthatherside。Seth,meanwhile,wentouttochopwood,forhesurmisedthatDinahwouldliketobeleftalonewithhismother。 Lisbethsatwatchingherasshemovedaboutinherstillquickway,andsaidatlast,\"Ye’vegotanotiono’cleanin’up。I wouldnamindha’inyeforadaughter,foryewouldnaspendthelad’swagei’fineclothesan’waste。Ye’renotlikethelasseso’thiscountryside。IreckonfolksisdifferentatSnowfieldfromwhattheyarehere。\" \"Theyhaveadifferentsortoflife,manyof’em,\"saidDinah; \"theyworkatdifferentthings——someinthemill,andmanyinthemines,inthevillagesroundabout。Buttheheartofmanisthesameeverywhere,andtherearethechildrenofthisworldandthechildrenoflightthereaswellaselsewhere。Butwe’vemanymoreMethodiststherethaninthiscountry。\" \"Well,IdidnaknowastheMethodywomenwarlikeye,forthere’sWillMaskery’swife,astheysay’sabigMethody,isnapleasanttolookat,atall。I’daslieflookatatooad。An’I’mthinkin’I wouldnamindifye’dstayan’sleephere,forIshouldliketoseeyei’th’housei’th’mornin’。Butmayhappenthey’llbelookinforyeatMesterPoyser’s。\" \"No,\"saidDinah,\"theydon’texpectme,andIshouldliketostay,ifyou’llletme。\" \"Well,there’sroom;I’ngotmybedlaidi’th’littleroomo’erthebackkitchen,an’yecanliebesideme。I’dbegladtoha’yewi’metospeaktoi’th’night,forye’vegotanicewayo’ talkin’。Itputsmei’mindo’theswallowsaswasunderthethacklast’earwhentheyfustbeguntosinglowan’soft-likei’ th’mornin’。Eh,butmyoldmanwarfondo’thembirds!An’sowarAdam,butthey’nne’ercomedagainthis’ear。HappenTHEY’RE deadtoo。\" \"There,\"saidDinah,\"nowthekitchenlookstidy,andnow,dearMother——forI’myourdaughterto-night,youknow——Ishouldlikeyoutowashyourfaceandhaveacleancapon。DoyourememberwhatDaviddid,whenGodtookawayhischildfromhim?WhilethechildwasyetalivehefastedandprayedtoGodtospareit,andhewouldneithereatnordrink,butlayonthegroundallnight,beseechingGodforthechild。Butwhenheknewitwasdead,heroseupfromthegroundandwashedandanointedhimself,andchangedhisclothes,andateanddrank;andwhentheyaskedhimhowitwasthatheseemedtohaveleftoffgrievingnowthechildwasdead,hesaid,’Whilethechildwasyetalive,Ifastedandwept;forIsaid,WhocantellwhetherGodwillbegracioustome,thatthechildmaylive?Butnowheisdead,whereforeshouldI fast?CanIbringhimbackagain?Ishallgotohim,butheshallnotreturntome。’\" \"Eh,that’satrueword,\"saidLisbeth。\"Yea,myoldmanwonnacomebacktome,butIshallgotohim——thesoonerthebetter。 Well,yemaydoasyelikewi’me:there’sacleancapi’thatdrawer,an’I’llgoi’thebackkitchenan’washmyface。An’ Seth,theemay’streachdownAdam’snewBiblewi’th’pictersin,an’sheshallreadusachapter。Eh,Ilikethemwords——’Ishallgotohim,buthewonnacomebacktome。’\" DinahandSethwerebothinwardlyofferingthanksforthegreaterquietnessofspiritthathadcomeoverLisbeth。ThiswaswhatDinahhadbeentryingtobringabout,throughallherstillsympathyandabsencefromexhortation。Fromhergirlhoodupwardsshehadhadexperienceamongthesickandthemourning,amongmindshardenedandshrivelledthroughpovertyandignorance,andhadgainedthesubtlestperceptionofthemodeinwhichtheycouldbestbetouchedandsoftenedintowillingnesstoreceivewordsofspiritualconsolationorwarning。AsDinahexpressedit,\"shewasneverlefttoherself;butitwasalwaysgivenherwhentokeepsilenceandwhentospeak。\"Anddowenotallagreetocallrapidthoughtandnobleimpulsebythenameofinspiration?Afteroursubtlestanalysisofthementalprocess,wemuststillsay,asDinahdid,thatourhighestthoughtsandourbestdeedsareallgiventous。 Andsotherewasearnestprayer——therewasfaith,love,andhopepouringforththateveninginthelittiekitchen。Andpoor,aged,fretfulLisbeth,withoutgraspinganydistinctidea,withoutgoingthroughanycourseofreligiousemotions,feltavaguesenseofgoodnessandlove,andofsomethingrightlyingunderneathandbeyondallthissorrowinglife。Shecouldn’tunderstandthesorrow;but,forthesemoments,underthesubduinginfluenceofDinah’sspirit,shefeltthatshemustbepatientandstill。 IntheCottageITwasbuthalf-pastfourthenextmorningwhenDinah,tiredoflyingawakelisteningtothebirdsandwatchingthegrowinglightthroughthelittlewindowinthegarretroof,roseandbegantodressherselfveryquietly,lestsheshoulddisturbLisbeth。Butalreadysomeoneelsewasastirinthehouse,andhadgonedownstairs,precededbyGyp。Thedog’spatteringstepwasasuresignthatitwasAdamwhowentdown;butDinahwasnotawareofthis,andshethoughtitwasmorelikelytobeSeth,forhehadtoldherhowAdamhadstayedupworkingthenightbefore。Seth,however,hadonlyjustawakenedatthesoundoftheopeningdoor。 Theexcitinginfluenceofthepreviousday,heightenedatlastbyDinah’sunexpectedpresence,hadnotbeencounteractedbyanybodilyweariness,forhehadnotdonehisordinaryamountofhardwork;andsowhenhewenttobed;itwasnottillhehadtiredhimselfwithhoursoftossingwakefulnessthatdrowsinesscame,andledonaheaviermorningsleepthanwasusualwithhim。 ButAdamhadbeenrefreshedbyhislongrest,andwithhishabitualimpatienceofmerepassivity,hewaseagertobeginthenewdayandsubduesadnessbyhisstrongwillandstrongarm。Thewhitemistlayinthevalley;itwasgoingtobeabrightwarmday,andhewouldstarttoworkagainwhenhehadhadhisbreakfast。 \"There’snothingbutwhat’sbearableaslongasamancanwork,\" hesaidtohimself;\"thenaturo’thingsdoesn’tchange,thoughitseemsasifone’sownlifewasnothingbutchange。Thesquareo’ fourissixteen,andyoumustlengthenyourleverinproportiontoyourweight,isastruewhenaman’smiserableaswhenhe’shappy; andthebesto’workingis,itgivesyouagripholdo’thingsoutsideyourownlot。\" Ashedashedthecoldwateroverhisheadandface,hefeltcompletelyhimselfagain,andwithhisblackeyesaskeenaseverandhisthickblackhairallglisteningwiththefreshmoisture,hewentintotheworkshoptolookoutthewoodforhisfather’scoffin,intendingthatheandSethshouldcarryitwiththemtoJonathanBurge’sandhavethecoffinmadebyoneoftheworkmenthere,sothathismothermightnotseeandhearthesadtaskgoingforwardathome。 Hehadjustgoneintotheworkshopwhenhisquickeardetectedalightrapidfootonthestairs——certainlynothismother’s。HehadbeeninbedandasleepwhenDinahhadcomein,intheevening,andnowhewonderedwhosestepthiscouldbe。Afoolishthoughtcame,andmovedhimstrangely。AsifitcouldbeHetty!Shewasthelastpersonlikelytobeinthehouse。Andyethefeltreluctanttogoandlookandhavetheclearproofthatitwassomeoneelse。Hestoodleaningonaplankhehadtakenholdof,listeningtosoundswhichhisimaginationinterpretedforhimsopleasantlythatthekeenstrongfacebecamesuffusedwithatimidtenderness。Thelightfootstepmovedaboutthekitchen,followedbythesoundofthesweepingbrush,hardlymakingsomuchnoiseasthelightestbreezethatchasestheautumnleavesalongthedustypath;andAdam’simaginationsawadimpledface,withdarkbrighteyesandroguishsmileslookingbackwardatthisbrush,andaroundedfigurejustleaningalittletoclaspthehandle。Averyfoolishthought——itcouldnotbeHetty;buttheonlywayofdismissingsuchnonsensefromhisheadwastogoandseeWHOitwas,forhisfancyonlygotnearerandnearertobeliefwhilehestoodtherelistening。Heloosedtheplankandwenttothekitchendoor。 \"Howdoyoudo,AdamBede?\"saidDinah,inhercalmtreble,pausingfromhersweepingandfixinghermildgraveeyesuponhim。 \"Itrustyoufeelrestedandstrengthenedagaintobeartheburdenandheatoftheday。\" Itwaslikedreamingofthesunshineandawakinginthemoonlight。 AdamhadseenDinahseveraltimes,butalwaysattheHallFarm,wherehewasnotveryvividlyconsciousofanywoman’spresenceexceptHetty’s,andhehadonlyinthelastdayortwobeguntosuspectthatSethwasinlovewithher,sothathisattentionhadnothithertobeendrawntowardsherforhisbrother’ssake。Butnowherslimfigure,herplainblackgown,andherpaleserenefaceimpressedhimwithalltheforcethatbelongstoarealitycontrastedwithapreoccupyingfancy。Forthefirstmomentortwohemadenoanswer,butlookedatherwiththeconcentrated,examiningglancewhichamangivestoanobjectinwhichhehassuddenlybeguntobeinterested。Dinah,forthefirsttimeinherlife,feltapainfulself-consciousness;therewassomethinginthedarkpenetratingglanceofthisstrongmansodifferentfromthemildnessandtimidityofhisbrotherSeth。Afaintblushcame,whichdeepenedasshewonderedatit。ThisblushrecalledAdamfromhisforgetfulness。 \"Iwasquitetakenbysurprise;itwasverygoodofyoutocomeandseemymotherinhertrouble,\"hesaid,inagentlegratefultone,forhisquickmindtoldhimatoncehowshecametobethere。\"Ihopemymotherwasthankfultohaveyou,\"headded,wonderingratheranxiouslywhathadbeenDinah’sreception。 \"Yes,\"saidDinah,resumingherwork,\"sheseemedgreatlycomfortedafterawhile,andshe’shadagooddealofrestinthenight,bytimes。ShewasfastasleepwhenIlefther。\" \"WhowasittookthenewstotheHallFarm?\"saidAdam,histhoughtsrevertingtosomeonethere;hewonderedwhetherSHEhadfeltanythingaboutit。 \"ItwasMr。Irwine,theclergyman,toldme,andmyauntwasgrievedforyourmotherwhensheheardit,andwantedmetocome; andsoismyuncle,I’msure,nowhe’sheardit,buthewasgoneouttoRosseterallyesterday。They’lllookforyouthereassoonasyou’vegottimetogo,forthere’snobodyroundthathearthbutwhat’sgladtoseeyou。\" Dinah,withhersympatheticdivination,knewquitewellthatAdamwaslongingtohearifHettyhadsaidanythingabouttheirtrouble;shewastoorigorouslytruthfulforbenevolentinvention,butshehadcontrivedtosaysomethinginwhichHettywastacitlyincluded。Lovehasawayofcheatingitselfconsciously,likeachildwhoplaysatsolitaryhide-and-seek;itispleasedwithassurancesthatitallthewhiledisbelieves。AdamlikedwhatDinahhadsaidsomuchthathismindwasdirectlyfullofthenextvisitheshouldpaytotheHallFarm,whenHettywouldperhapsbehavemorekindlytohimthanshehadeverdonebefore。 \"Butyouwon’tbethereyourselfanylonger?\"hesaidtoDinah。 \"No,IgobacktoSnowfieldonSaturday,andIshallhavetosetouttoTreddlestonearly,tobeintimefortheOakbournecarrier。 SoImustgobacktothefarmto-night,thatImayhavethelastdaywithmyauntandherchildren。ButIcanstayhereallto- day,ifyourmotherwouldlikeme;andherheartseemedinclinedtowardsmelastnight。\" \"Ah,then,she’ssuretowantyouto-day。Ifmothertakestopeopleatthebeginning,she’ssuretogetfondof’em;butshe’sastrangewayofnotlikingyoungwomen。Though,tobesure,\" Adamwenton,smiling,\"hernotlikingotheryoungwomenisnoreasonwhysheshouldn’tlikeyou。\" HithertoGyphadbeenassistingatthisconversationinmotionlesssilence,seatedonhishaunches,andalternatelylookingupinhismaster’sfacetowatchitsexpressionandobservingDinah’smovementsaboutthekitchen。ThekindsmilewithwhichAdamutteredthelastwordswasapparentlydecisivewithGypofthelightinwhichthestrangerwastoberegarded,andassheturnedroundafterputtingasidehersweeping-brush,hetrottedtowardsherandputuphismuzzleagainstherhandinafriendlyway。 \"YouseeGypbidsyouwelcome,\"saidAdam,\"andhe’sveryslowtowelcomestrangers。\" \"Poordog!\"saidDinah,pattingtheroughgreycoat,\"I’veastrangefeelingaboutthedumbthingsasiftheywantedtospeak,anditwasatroubleto’embecausetheycouldn’t。Ican’thelpbeingsorryforthedogsalways,thoughperhapsthere’snoneed。 Buttheymaywellhavemoreinthemthantheyknowhowtomakeusunderstand,forwecan’tsayhalfwhatwefeel,withallourwords。\" Sethcamedownnow,andwaspleasedtofindAdamtalkingwithDinah;hewantedAdamtoknowhowmuchbettershewasthanallotherwomen。Butafterafewwordsofgreeting,Adamdrewhimintotheworkshoptoconsultaboutthecoffin,andDinahwentonwithhercleaning。 Bysixo’clocktheywereallatbreakfastwithLisbethinakitchenascleanasshecouldhavemadeitherself。Thewindowanddoorwereopen,andthemorningairbroughtwithitamingledscentofsouthernwood,thyme,andsweet-briarfromthepatchofgardenbythesideofthecottage。Dinahdidnotsitdownatfirst,butmovedabout,servingtheotherswiththewarmporridgeandthetoastedoat-cake,whichshehadgotreadyintheusualway,forshehadaskedSethtotellherjustwhathismothergavethemforbreakfast。Lisbethhadbeenunusuallysilentsinceshecamedownstairs,apparentlyrequiringsometimetoadjustherideastoastateofthingsinwhichshecamedownlikealadytofindalltheworkdone,andsatstilltobewaitedon。Hernewsensationsseemedtoexcludetheremembranceofhergrief。Atlast,aftertastingtheporridge,shebrokesilence: \"Yemightha’madetheparridgeworse,\"shesaidtoDinah;\"Icanateitwi’outitsturnin’mystomach。Itmightha’beenatriflethickeran’noharm,an’Iallaysputtenasprigo’mintinmysen; buthow’syet’knowthat?Theladsarenaliketogetfolksas’llmaketheirparridgeasI’nmadeitfor’em;it’swelliftheygetonybodyas’llmakeparridgeatall。Butyemightdo,wi’abito’showin’;forye’reastirrin’bodyinamornin’,an’ye’vealightheel,an’ye’vecleanedth’housewellenoughforama’shift。\" \"Makeshift,mother?\"saidAdam。\"Why,Ithinkthehouselooksbeautiful。Idon’tknowhowitcouldlookbetter。\" \"Theedostnaknow?Nay;how’stheetoknow?Th’menne’erknowwhetherthefloor’scleanedorcat-licked。Butthee’ltknowwhentheegetsthyparridgeburnt,asit’slikeenoughtobewhenI’ngi’eno’ermakin’it。Thee’ltthinkthymotherwargoodforsummatthen。\" \"Dinah,\"saidSeth,\"docomeandsitdownnowandhaveyourbreakfast。We’reallservednow。\" \"Aye,comean’sityedown——do,\"saidLisbeth,\"an’ateamorsel; ye’dneed,arterbein’upo’yourlegsthishouran’halfa’ready。 Come,then,\"sheadded,inatoneofcomplainingaffection,asDinahsatdownbyherside,\"I’llbeloathforyet’go,butyecannastaymuchlonger,Idoubt。Icouldputupwi’yei’th’ housebetternorwi’mostfolks。\" \"I’llstaytillto-nightifyou’rewilling,\"saidDinah。\"I’dstaylonger,onlyI’mgoingbacktoSnowfieldonSaturday,andI mustbewithmyauntto-morrow。\" \"Eh,I’dne’ergobacktothatcountry。MyoldmancomefromthatStonyshireside,butheleftitwhenhewarayoungun,an’i’therighton’ttoo;forhesaidastherewarnowoodthere,an’it’udha’beenabadcountryforacarpenter。\" \"Ah,\"saidAdam,\"IrememberfathertellingmewhenIwasalittleladthathemadeuphismindifeverhemoveditshouldbesouth’ard。ButI’mnotsosureaboutit。BartleMasseysays——andheknowstheSouth——asthenorthernmenareafinerbreedthanthesouthern,harder-headedandstronger-bodied,andadealtaller。 Andthenhesaysinsomeo’thosecountiesit’sasflatasthebacko’yourhand,andyoucanseenothingofadistancewithoutclimbingupthehighesttrees。Icouldn’tabidethat。Iliketogotoworkbyaroadthat’lltakemeupabitofahill,andseethefieldsformilesroundme,andabridge,oratown,orabitofasteeplehereandthere。Itmakesyoufeeltheworld’sabigplace,andthere’sothermenworkinginitwiththeirheadsandhandsbesidesyourself。\" \"Iliketh’hillsbest,\"saidSeth,\"whenthecloudsareoveryourheadandyouseethesunshiningeversofaroff,overtheLoamfordway,asI’veoftendoneo’late,onthestormydays。Itseemstomeasifthatwasheavenwherethere’salwaysjoyandsunshine,thoughthislife’sdarkandcloudy。\" \"Oh,IlovetheStonyshireside,\"saidDinah;\"Ishouldn’tliketosetmyfacetowardsthecountrieswherethey’rerichincornandcattle,andthegroundsolevelandeasytotread;andtoturnmybackonthehillswherethepoorpeoplehavetolivesuchahardlifeandthemenspendtheirdaysintheminesawayfromthesunlight。It’sveryblessedonableakcoldday,whentheskyishangingdarkoverthehill,tofeeltheloveofGodinone’ssoul,andcarryittothelonely,bare,stonehouses,wherethere’snothingelsetogivecomfort。\" \"Eh!\"saidLisbeth,\"that’sverywellforyetotalk,aslookswellylikethesnowdrop-flowersasha’livedfordaysan’dayswhenI’ngethered’em,wi’nothin’butadropo’wateran’apeepo’daylight;butth’hungryfoulkshadbetterleaveth’hungrycountry。Itmakeslessmouthsforthescantcake。But,\"shewenton,lookingatAdam,\"donnatheetalko’goin’south’ardornorth’ard,an’leavin’thyfeytherandmotheri’thechurchyard,an’goin’toacountryastheyknownothin’on。I’llne’erresti’mygraveifIdonnaseetheei’thechurchyardofaSunday。\" \"Donnafear,mother,\"saidAdam。\"IfIhadnamadeupmymindnottogo,Ishouldha’beengonebeforenow。\" Hehadfinishedhisbreakfastnow,androseashewasspeaking。 \"Whatartgoin’todo?\"askedLisbeth。\"Setaboutthyfeyther’scoffin?\" \"No,mother,\"saidAdam;\"we’regoingtotakethewoodtothevillageandhaveitmadethere。\" \"Nay,mylad,nay,\"Lisbethburstoutinaneager,wailingtone; \"theewotnaletnobodymakethyfeyther’scoffinbutthysen? Who’dmakeitsowell?An’himasknow’dwhatgoodworkwar,an’sgotasonasistheheado’thevillagean’allTreddles’ontoo,forcleverness。\" \"Verywell,mother,ifthat’sthywish,I’llmakethecoffinathome;butIthoughttheewouldstnaliketoheartheworkgoingon。\" \"An’whyshouldnaIlike’t?It’stherightthingtobedone。 An’what’slikinggottodowi’t?It’schoiceo’mislikingsisallI’ngoti’thisworld。Onemorsel’sasgoodasanotherwhenyourmouth’souto’taste。Theemunsetaboutitnowthismornin’ fustthing。Iwonnaha’nobodytotouchthecoffinbutthee。\" Adam’seyesmetSeth’s,whichlookedfromDinahtohimratherwistfully。 \"No,Mother,\"hesaid,\"I’llnotconsentbutSethshallhaveahandinittoo,ifit’stobedoneathome。I’llgotothevillagethisforenoon,becauseMr。Burge’ullwanttoseeme,andSethshallstayathomeandbeginthecoffin。Icancomebackatnoon,andthenhecango。\" \"Nay,nay,\"persistedLisbeth,beginningtocry,\"I’nsetmyhearton’tastheeshaltma’thyfeyther’scoffin。Thee’tsostiffan’ masterful,thee’tne’erdoasthymotherwantsthee。Theewastoftenangeredwi’thyfeytherwhenhewaralive;theemustbethebettertohimnowhe’sgone。He’dha’thoughtnothin’on’tforSethtoma’scoffin。\" \"Saynomore,Adam,saynomore,\"saidSeth,gently,thoughhisvoicetoldthathespokewithsomeeffort;\"Mother’sintheright。 I’llgotowork,anddotheestayathome。\" Hepassedintotheworkshopimmediately,followedbyAdam;whileLisbeth,automaticallyobeyingheroldhabits,begantoputawaythebreakfastthings,asifshedidnotmeanDinahtotakeherplaceanylonger。Dinahsaidnothing,butpresentlyusedtheopportunityofquietlyjoiningthebrothersintheworkshop。 Theyhadalreadygotontheirapronsandpapercaps,andAdamwasstandingwithhislefthandonSeth’sshoulder,whilehepointedwiththehammerinhisrighttosomeboardswhichtheywerelookingat。TheirbackswereturnedtowardsthedoorbywhichDinahentered,andshecameinsogentlythattheywerenotawareofherpresencetilltheyheardhervoicesaying,\"SethBede!\" Sethstarted,andtheybothturnedround。DinahlookedasifshedidnotseeAdam,andfixedhereyesonSeth’sface,sayingwithcalmkindness,\"Iwon’tsayfarewell。Ishallseeyouagainwhenyoucomefromwork。SoasI’matthefarmbeforedark,itwillbequitesoonenough。\" \"Thankyou,Dinah;Ishouldliketowalkhomewithyouoncemore。 It’llperhapsbethelasttime。\" TherewasalittletremorinSeth’svoice。Dinahputoutherhandandsaid,\"You’llhavesweetpeaceinyourmindto-day,Seth,foryourtendernessandlong-sufferingtowardsyouragedmother。\" Sheturnedroundandlefttheworkshopasquicklyandquietlyasshehadenteredit。Adamhadbeenobservinghercloselyallthewhile,butshehadnotlookedathim。Assoonasshewasgone,hesaid,\"Idon’twonderattheeforlovingher,Seth。She’sgotafacelikealily。\" Seth’ssoulrushedtohiseyesandlips:hehadneveryetconfessedhissecrettoAdam,butnowhefeltadelicioussenseofdisburdenment,asheanswered,\"Aye,Addy,Idoloveher——toomuch,Idoubt。Butshedoesnaloveme,lad,onlyasonechildo’ Godlovesanother。She’llneverloveanymanasahusband——that’smybelief。\" \"Nay,lad,there’snotelling;theemustnaloseheart。She’smadeouto’stuffwithafinergrainthanmosto’thewomen;Icanseethatclearenough。Butifshe’sbetterthantheyareinotherthings,Icannathinkshe’llfallshortof’eminloving。\" Nomorewassaid。Sethsetouttothevillage,andAdambeganhisworkonthecoffin。 \"Godhelpthelad,andmetoo,\"hethought,asheliftedtheboard。\"We’relikeenoughtofindlifeatoughjob——hardworkinsideandout。It’sastrangethingtothinkofamanascanliftachairwithhisteethandwalkfiftymileonend,tremblingandturninghotandcoldatonlyalookfromonewomanoutofalltheresti’theworld。It’samysterywecangivenoaccountof; butnomorewecanofthesproutingo’theseed,forthatmatter。\" IntheWoodTHATsameThursdaymorning,asArthurDonnithornewasmovingaboutinhisdressing-roomseeinghiswell-lookingBritishpersonreflectedintheold-fashionedmirrors,andstaredat,fromadingyolive-greenpieceoftapestry,byPharaoh’sdaughterandhermaidens,whooughttohavebeenmindingtheinfantMoses,hewasholdingadiscussionwithhimself,which,bythetimehisvaletwastyingtheblacksilkslingoverhisshoulder,hadissuedinadistinctpracticalresolution。 \"ImeantogotoEagledaleandfishforaweekorso,\"hesaidaloud。\"Ishalltakeyouwithme,Pym,andsetoffthismorning; sobereadybyhalf-pasteleven。\" Thelowwhistle,whichhadassistedhiminarrivingatthisresolution,herebrokeoutintohisloudestringingtenor,andthecorridor,ashehurriedalongit,echoedtohisfavouritesongfromtheBeggar’sOpera,\"Whentheheartofamanisoppressedwithcare。\"Notanheroicstrain;neverthelessArthurfelthimselfveryheroicashestrodetowardsthestablestogivehisordersaboutthehorses。Hisownapprobationwasnecessarytohim,anditwasnotanapprobationtobeenjoyedquitegratuitously;itmustbewonbyafairamountofmerit。Hehadneveryetforfeitedthatapprobation,andhehadconsiderablerelianceonhisownvirtues。Noyoungmancouldconfesshisfaultsmorecandidly;candourwasoneofhisfavouritevirtues; andhowcanaman’scandourbeseeninallitslustreunlesshehasafewfailingstotalkof?Buthehadanagreeableconfidencethathisfaultswereallofagenerouskind——impetuous,warm- blooded,leonine;nevercrawling,crafty,reptilian。ItwasnotpossibleforArthurDonnithornetodoanythingmean,dastardly,orcruel。\"No!I’madevilofafellowforgettingmyselfintoahobble,butIalwaystakecaretheloadshallfallonmyownshoulders。\"Unhappily,thereisnoinherentpoeticaljusticeinhobbles,andtheywillsometimesobstinatelyrefusetoinflicttheirworstconsequencesontheprimeoffender,inspiteofhisloudlyexpressedwish。ItwasentirelyowingtothisdeficiencyintheschemeofthingsthatArthurhadeverbroughtanyoneintotroublebesideshimself。Hewasnothingifnotgood-natured;andallhispicturesofthefuture,whenheshouldcomeintotheestate,weremadeupofaprosperous,contentedtenantry,adoringtheirlandlord,whowouldbethemodelofanEnglishgentleman—— mansioninfirst-rateorder,alleleganceandhightaste——jollyhousekeeping,fineststudinLoamshire——purseopentoallpublicobjects——inshort,everythingasdifferentaspossiblefromwhatwasnowassociatedwiththenameofDonnithorne。AndoneofthefirstgoodactionshewouldperforminthatfutureshouldbetoincreaseIrwine’sincomeforthevicarageofHayslope,sothathemightkeepacarriageforhismotherandsisters。Hisheartyaffectionfortherectordatedfromtheageoffrocksandtrousers。Itwasanaffectionpartlyfilial,partlyfraternal—— fraternalenoughtomakehimlikeIrwine’scompanybetterthanthatofmostyoungermen,andfilialenoughtomakehimshrinkstronglyfromincurringIrwine’sdisapprobation。 YouperceivethatArthurDonnithornewas\"agoodfellow\"——allhiscollegefriendsthoughthimsuch。Hecouldn’tbeartoseeanyoneuncomfortable;hewouldhavebeensorryeveninhisangriestmoodsforanyharmtohappentohisgrandfather;andhisAuntLydiaherselfhadthebenefitofthatsoft-heartednesswhichheboretowardsthewholesex。Whetherhewouldhaveself-masteryenoughtobealwaysasharmlessandpurelybeneficentashisgood-natureledhimtodesire,wasaquestionthatnoonehadyetdecidedagainsthim;hewasbuttwenty-one,youremember,andwedon’tinquiretoocloselyintocharacterinthecaseofahandsomegenerousyoungfellow,whowillhavepropertyenoughtosupportnumerouspeccadilloes——who,ifheshouldunfortunatelybreakaman’slegsinhisrashdriving,willbeabletopensionhimhandsomely;orifheshouldhappentospoilawoman’sexistenceforher,willmakeituptoherwithexpensivebon-bons,packedupanddirectedbyhisownhand。Itwouldberidiculoustobepryingandanalyticinsuchcases,asifonewereinquiringintothecharacterofaconfidentialclerk。Weuseround,general,gentlemanlyepithetsaboutayoungmanofbirthandfortune;andladies,withthatfineintuitionwhichisthedistinguishingattributeoftheirsex,seeatoncethatheis\"nice。\"Thechancesarethathewillgothroughlifewithoutscandalizinganyone;aseaworthyvesselthatnoonewouldrefusetoinsure。 Ships,certainly,areliabletocasualties,whichsometimesmaketerriblyevidentsomeflawintheirconstructionthatwouldneverhavebeendiscoverableinsmoothwater;andmanya\"goodfellow,\" throughadisastrouscombinationofcircumstances,hasundergonealikebetrayal。 ButwehavenofairgroundforentertainingunfavourableauguriesconcerningArthurDonnithorne,whothismorningproveshimselfcapableofaprudentresolutionfoundedonconscience。Onethingisclear:Naturehastakencarethatheshallnevergofarastraywithperfectcomfortandsatisfactiontohimself;hewillnevergetbeyondthatborder-landofsin,wherehewillbeperpetuallyharassedbyassaultsfromtheothersideoftheboundary。HewillneverbeacourtierofVice,andwearherordersinhisbutton- hole。 Itwasaboutteno’clock,andthesunwasshiningbrilliantly; everythingwaslookinglovelierfortheyesterday’srain。Itisapleasantthingonsuchamorningtowalkalongthewell-rolledgravelonone’swaytothestables,meditatinganexcursion。Butthescentofthestables,which,inanaturalstateofthings,oughttobeamongthesoothinginfluencesofaman’slife,alwaysbroughtwithitsomeirritationtoArthur。Therewasnohavinghisownwayinthestables;everythingwasmanagedinthestingiestfashion。Hisgrandfatherpersistedinretainingasheadgroomanolddoltwhomnosortoflevercouldmoveoutofhisoldhabits,andwhowasallowedtohireasuccessionofrawLoamshireladsashissubordinates,oneofwhomhadlatelytestedanewpairofshearsbyclippinganoblongpatchonArthur’sbaymare。Thisstateofthingsisnaturallyembittering;onecanputupwithannoyancesinthehouse,buttohavethestablemadeasceneofvexationanddisgustisapointbeyondwhathumanfleshandbloodcanbeexpectedtoendurelongtogetherwithoutdangerofmisanthropy。 OldJohn’swooden,deep-wrinkledfacewasthefirstobjectthatmetArthur’seyesasheenteredthestable-yard,anditquitepoisonedforhimthebarkofthetwobloodhoundsthatkeptwatchthere。Hecouldneverspeakquitepatientlytotheoldblockhead。 \"YoumusthaveMegsaddledformeandbroughttothedoorathalf- pasteleven,andIshallwantRattlersaddledforPymatthesametime。Doyouhear?\" \"Yes,Ihear,Ihear,Cap’n,\"saidoldJohnverydeliberately,followingtheyoungmasterintothestable。Johnconsideredayoungmasterasthenaturalenemyofanoldservant,andyoungpeopleingeneralasapoorcontrivanceforcarryingontheworld。 ArthurwentinforthesakeofpattingMeg,decliningasfaraspossibletoseeanythinginthestables,lestheshouldlosehistemperbeforebreakfast。Theprettycreaturewasinoneoftheinnerstables,andturnedhermildheadashermastercamebesideher。LittleTrot,atinyspaniel,herinseparablecompanioninthestable,wascomfortablycurleduponherback。 \"Well,Meg,myprettygirl,\"saidArthur,pattingherneck,\"we’llhaveagloriouscanterthismorning。\" \"Nay,yourhonour,Idonnaseeasthatcanbe,\"saidJohn。 \"Notbe?Whynot?\" \"Why,she’sgotlamed。\" \"Lamed,confoundyou!Whatdoyoumean?\" \"Why,th’ladtookhertooclosetoDalton’shosses,an’oneon’emflungoutather,an’she’sgothershankbruisedo’thenearforeleg。\" Thejudicioushistorianabstainsfromnarratingpreciselywhatensued。Youunderstandthattherewasagreatdealofstronglanguage,mingledwithsoothing\"who-ho’s\"whilethelegwasexamined;thatJohnstoodbywithquiteasmuchemotionasifhehadbeenacunninglycarvedcrab-treewalking-stick,andthatArthurDonnithornepresentlyrepassedtheirongatesofthepleasure-groundwithoutsingingashewent。 Heconsideredhimselfthoroughlydisappointedandannoyed。TherewasnotanothermountinthestableforhimselfandhisservantbesidesMegandRattler。Itwasvexatious;justwhenhewantedtogetoutofthewayforaweekortwo。ItseemedculpableinProvidencetoallowsuchacombinationofcircumstances。TobeshutupattheChasewithabrokenarmwheneveryotherfellowinhisregimentwasenjoyinghimselfatWindsor——shutupwithhisgrandfather,whohadthesamesortofaffectionforhimasforhisparchmentdeeds!Andtobedisgustedateveryturnwiththemanagementofthehouseandtheestate!Insuchcircumstancesamannecessarilygetsinanillhumour,andworksofftheirritationbysomeexcessorother。\"Salkeldwouldhavedrunkabottleofporteveryday,\"hemutteredtohimself,\"butI’mnotwellseasonedenoughforthat。Well,sinceIcan’tgotoEagledale,I’llhaveagalloponRattlertoNorburnethismorning,andlunchwithGawaine。\" Behindthisexplicitresolutiontherelayanimplicitone。IfhelunchedwithGawaineandlingeredchatting,heshouldnotreachtheChaseagaintillnearlyfive,whenHettywouldbesafeoutofhissightinthehousekeeper’sroom;andwhenshesetouttogohome,itwouldbehislazytimeafterdinner,soheshouldkeepoutofherwayaltogether。Therereallywouldhavebeennoharminbeingkindtothelittlething,anditwasworthdancingwithadozenballroombellesonlytolookatHettyforhalfanhour。Butperhapshehadbetternottakeanymorenoticeofher;itmightputnotionsintoherhead,asIrwinehadhinted;thoughArthur,forhispart,thoughtgirlswerenotbyanymeanssosoftandeasilybruised;indeed,hehadgenerallyfoundthemtwiceascoolandcunningashewashimself。AsforanyrealharminHetty’scase,itwasoutofthequestion:ArthurDonnithorneacceptedhisownbondforhimselfwithperfectconfidence。 Sothetwelveo’clocksunsawhimgallopingtowardsNorburne;andbygoodfortuneHalsellCommonlayinhisroadandgavehimsomefineleapsforRattler。Nothinglike\"taking\"afewbushesandditchesforexorcisingademon;anditisreallyastonishingthattheCentaurs,withtheirimmenseadvantagesinthisway,haveleftsobadareputationinhistory。 Afterthis,youwillperhapsbesurprisedtohearthatalthoughGawainewasathome,thehandofthedialinthecourtyardhadscarcelyclearedthelaststrokeofthreewhenArthurreturnedthroughtheentrance-gates,gotdownfromthepantingRattler,andwentintothehousetotakeahastyluncheon。ButIbelievetherehavebeenmensincehisdaywhohaveriddenalongwaytoavoidarencontre,andthengallopedhastilybacklesttheyshouldmissit。Itisthefavouritestratagemofourpassionstoshamaretreat,andtoturnsharprounduponusatthemomentwehavemadeupourmindsthatthedayisourown。 \"Thecap’n’sbeenridin’thedevil’sownpace,\"saidDaltonthecoachman,whosepersonstoodoutinhighreliefashesmokedhispipeagainstthestablewall,whenJohnbroughtupRattler。 \"An’Iwishhe’dgetthedeviltodo’sgroomingfor’n,\"growledJohn。 \"Aye;he’dhevadealhaimablergroomnorwhathehasnow,\" observedDalton——andthejokeappearedtohimsogoodthat,beingleftaloneuponthescene,hecontinuedatintervalstotakehispipefromhismouthinordertowinkatanimaginaryaudienceandshakeluxuriouslywithasilent,ventrallaughter,mentallyrehearsingthedialoguefromthebeginning,thathemightreciteitwitheffectintheservants’hall。 WhenArthurwentuptohisdressing-roomagainafterluncheon,itwasinevitablethatthedebatehehadhadwithhimselfthereearlierinthedayshouldflashacrosshismind;butitwasimpossibleforhimnowtodwellontheremembrance——impossibletorecallthefeelingsandreflectionswhichhadbeendecisivewithhimthen,anymorethantorecallthepeculiarscentoftheairthathadfreshenedhimwhenhefirstopenedhiswindow。ThedesiretoseeHettyhadrushedbacklikeanill-stemmedcurrent; hewasamazedhimselfattheforcewithwhichthistrivialfancyseemedtograsphim:hewasevenrathertremulousashebrushedhishair——pooh!itwasridinginthatbreak-neckway。Itwasbecausehehadmadeaseriousaffairofanidlematter,bythinkingofitasifitwereofanyconsequence。HewouldamusehimselfbyseeingHettyto-day,andgetridofthewholethingfromhismind。ItwasallIrwine’sfault。\"IfIrwinehadsaidnothing,Ishouldn’thavethoughthalfsomuchofHettyasofMeg’slameness。\"However,itwasjustthesortofdayforlollingintheHermitage,andhewouldgoandfinishDr。Moore’sZelucotherebeforedinner。TheHermitagestoodinFir-treeGrove——thewayHettywassuretocomeinwalkingfromtheHallFarm。Sonothingcouldbesimplerandmorenatural:meetingHettywasamerecircumstanceofhiswalk,notitsobject。 Arthur’sshadowflittedratherfasteramongthesturdyoaksoftheChasethanmighthavebeenexpectedfromtheshadowofatiredmanonawarmafternoon,anditwasstillscarcelyfouro’clockwhenhestoodbeforethetallnarrowgateleadingintothedeliciouslabyrinthinewoodwhichskirtedonesideoftheChase,andwhichwascalledFir-treeGrove,notbecausethefirsweremany,butbecausetheywerefew。Itwasawoodofbeechesandlimes,withhereandtherealightsilver-stemmedbirch——justthesortofwoodmosthauntedbythenymphs:youseetheirwhitesunlitlimbsgleamingathwarttheboughs,orpeepingfrombehindthesmooth- sweepingoutlineofatalllime;youheartheirsoftliquidlaughter——butifyoulookwithatoocurioussacrilegiouseye,theyvanishbehindthesilverybeeches,theymakeyoubelievethattheirvoicewasonlyarunningbrooklet,perhapstheymetamorphosethemselvesintoatawnysquirrelthatscampersawayandmocksyoufromthetopmostbough。Itwasnotagrovewithmeasuredgrassorrolledgravelforyoutotreadupon,butwithnarrow,hollow- shaped,earthypaths,edgedwithfaintdashesofdelicatemoss—— pathswhichlookasiftheyweremadebythefreewillofthetreesandunderwood,movingreverentlyasidetolookatthetallqueenofthewhite-footednymphs。 ItwasalongthebroadestofthesepathsthatArthurDonnithornepassed,underanavenueoflimesandbeeches。Itwasastillafternoon——thegoldenlightwaslingeringlanguidlyamongtheupperboughs,onlyglancingdownhereandthereonthepurplepathwayanditsedgeoffaintlysprinkledmoss:anafternooninwhichdestinydisguiseshercoldawfulfacebehindahazyradiantveil,enclosesusinwarmdownywings,andpoisonsuswithviolet- scentedbreath。Arthurstrolledalongcarelessly,withabookunderhisarm,butnotlookingonthegroundasmeditativemenareapttodo;hiseyesWOULDfixthemselvesonthedistantbendintheroadroundwhichalittlefiguremustsurelyappearbeforelong。Ah!Thereshecomes。Firstabrightpatchofcolour,likeatropicbirdamongtheboughs;thenatrippingfigure,witharoundhaton,andasmallbasketunderherarm;thenadeep- blushing,almostfrightened,butbright-smilinggirl,makinghercurtsywithaflutteredyethappyglance,asArthurcameuptoher。IfArthurhadhadtimetothinkatall,hewouldhavethoughtitstrangethatheshouldfeelflutteredtoo,beconsciousofblushingtoo——infact,lookandfeelasfoolishasifhehadbeentakenbysurpriseinsteadofmeetingjustwhatheexpected。 Poorthings!Itwasapitytheywerenotinthatgoldenageofchildhoodwhentheywouldhavestoodfacetoface,eyeingeachotherwithtimidliking,thengiveneachotheralittlebutterflykiss,andtoddledofftoplaytogether。Arthurwouldhavegonehometohissilk-curtainedcot,andHettytoherhome-spunpillow,andbothwouldhavesleptwithoutdreams,andto-morrowwouldhavebeenalifehardlyconsciousofayesterday。 ArthurturnedroundandwalkedbyHetty’ssidewithoutgivingareason。Theywerealonetogetherforthefirsttime。Whatanoverpoweringpresencethatfirstprivacyis!Heactuallydarednotlookatthislittlebutter-makerforthefirstminuteortwo。 AsforHetty,herfeetrestedonacloud,andshewasbornealongbywarmzephyrs;shehadforgottenherrose-colouredribbons;shewasnomoreconsciousofherlimbsthanifherchildishsoulhadpassedintoawater-lily,restingonaliquidbedandwarmedbythemidsummersun-beams。Itmayseemacontradiction,butArthurgatheredacertaincarelessnessandconfidencefromhistimidity: itwasanentirelydifferentstateofmindfromwhathehadexpectedinsuchameetingwithHetty;andfullashewasofvaguefeeling,therewasroom,inthosemomentsofsilence,forthethoughtthathispreviousdebatesandscrupleswereneedless。 \"YouarequiterighttochoosethiswayofcomingtotheChase,\" hesaidatlast,lookingdownatHetty;\"itissomuchprettieraswellasshorterthancomingbyeitherofthelodges。\" \"Yes,sir,\"Hettyanswered,withatremulous,almostwhisperingvoice。Shedidn’tknowonebithowtospeaktoagentlemanlikeMr。Arthur,andherveryvanitymadehermorecoyofspeech。 \"DoyoucomeeveryweektoseeMrs。Pomfret?\" \"Yes,sir,everyThursday,onlywhenshe’sgottogooutwithMissDonnithorne。\" \"Andshe’steachingyousomething,isshe?\" \"Yes,sir,thelace-mendingasshelearntabroad,andthestocking-mending——itlooksjustlikethestocking,youcan’ttellit’sbeenmended;andsheteachesmecutting-outtoo。\" \"What!areYOUgoingtobealady’smaid?\" \"Ishouldliketobeoneverymuchindeed。\"Hettyspokemoreaudiblynow,butstillrathertremulously;shethought,perhapssheseemedasstupidtoCaptainDonnithorneasLukeBrittondidtoher。 \"IsupposeMrs。Pomfretalwaysexpectsyouatthistime?\" \"Sheexpectsmeatfouro’clock。I’mratherlateto-day,becausemyauntcouldn’tspareme;buttheregulartimeisfour,becausethatgivesustimebeforeMissDonnithorne’sbellrings。\" \"Ah,then,Imustnotkeepyounow,elseIshouldliketoshowyoutheHermitage。Didyoueverseeit?\" \"No,sir。\" \"Thisisthewalkwhereweturnuptoit。Butwemustnotgonow。 I’llshowityousomeothertime,ifyou’dliketoseeit。\" \"Yes,please,sir。\" \"Doyoualwayscomebackthiswayintheevening,orareyouafraidtocomesolonelyaroad?\" \"Ohno,sir,it’sneverlate;Ialwayssetoutbyeighto’clock,andit’ssolightnowintheevening。MyauntwouldbeangrywithmeifIdidn’tgethomebeforenine。\" \"PerhapsCraig,thegardener,comestotakecareofyou?\" AdeepblushoverspreadHetty’sfaceandneck。\"I’msurehedoesn’t;I’msureheneverdid;Iwouldn’tlethim;Idon’tlikehim,\"shesaidhastily,andthetearsofvexationhadcomesofastthatbeforeshehaddonespeakingabrightdroprolleddownherhotcheek。Thenshefeltashamedtodeaththatshewascrying,andforonelonginstantherhappinesswasallgone。Butinthenextshefeltanarmstealroundher,andagentlevoicesaid,\"Why,Hetty,whatmakesyoucry?Ididn’tmeantovexyou。I wouldn’tvexyoufortheworld,youlittleblossom。Come,don’tcry;lookatme,elseIshallthinkyouwon’tforgiveme。\" Arthurhadlaidhishandonthesoftarmthatwasnearesttohim,andwasstoopingtowardsHettywithalookofcoaxingentreaty。 Hettyliftedherlongdewylashes,andmettheeyesthatwerebenttowardsherwithasweet,timid,beseechinglook。Whataspaceoftimethosethreemomentswerewhiletheireyesmetandhisarmstouchedher!Loveissuchasimplethingwhenwehaveonlyone- and-twentysummersandasweetgirlofseventeentremblesunderourglance,asifshewereabudfirstopeningherheartwithwonderingrapturetothemorning。Suchyoungunfurrowedsoulsrolltomeeteachotherliketwovelvetpeachesthattouchsoftlyandareatrest;theymingleaseasilyastwobrookletsthataskfornothingbuttoentwinethemselvesandripplewithever- interlacingcurvesintheleafiesthiding-places。WhileArthurgazedintoHetty’sdarkbeseechingeyes,itmadenodifferencetohimwhatsortofEnglishshespoke;andevenifhoopsandpowderhadbeeninfashion,hewouldverylikelynothavebeensensiblejustthenthatHettywantedthosesignsofhighbreeding。 Buttheystartedasunderwithbeatinghearts:somethinghadfallenonthegroundwitharattlingnoise;itwasHetty’sbasket;allherlittleworkwoman’smatterswerescatteredonthepath,someofthemshowingacapabilityofrollingtogreatlengths。Therewasmuchtobedoneinpickingup,andnotawordwasspoken;butwhenArthurhungthebasketoverherarmagain,thepoorchildfeltastrangedifferenceinhislookandmanner。Hejustpressedherhand,andsaid,withalookandtonethatwerealmostchillingtoher,\"Ihavebeenhinderingyou;Imustnotkeepyouanylongernow。Youwillbeexpectedatthehouse。Good-bye。\" Withoutwaitingforhertospeak,heturnedawayfromherandhurriedbacktowardstheroadthatledtotheHermitage,leavingHettytopursueherwayinastrangedreamthatseemedtohavebeguninbewilderingdelightandwasnowpassingintocontrarietiesandsadness。Wouldhemeetheragainasshecamehome?Whyhadhespokenalmostasifheweredispleasedwithher? Andthenrunawaysosuddenly?Shecried,hardlyknowingwhy。 Arthurtoowasveryuneasy,buthisfeelingswerelitupforhimbyamoredistinctconsciousness。HehurriedtotheHermitage,whichstoodintheheartofthewood,unlockedthedoorwithahastywrench,slammeditafterhim,pitchedZelucointothemostdistantcorner,andthrustinghisrighthandintohispocket,firstwalkedfourorfivetimesupanddownthescantylengthofthelittleroom,andthenseatedhimselfontheottomaninanuncomfortablestiffway,asweoftendowhenwewishnottoabandonourselvestofeeling。 HewasgettinginlovewithHetty——thatwasquiteplain。Hewasreadytopitcheverythingelse——nomatterwhere——forthesakeofsurrenderinghimselftothisdeliciousfeelingwhichhadjustdiscloseditself。Itwasnouseblinkingthefactnow——theywouldgettoofondofeachother,ifhewentontakingnoticeofher—— andwhatwouldcomeofit?Heshouldhavetogoawayinafewweeks,andthepoorlittlethingwouldbemiserable。HeMUSTNOT seeheraloneagain;hemustkeepoutofherway。WhatafoolhewasforcomingbackfromGawaine’s! Hegotupandthrewopenthewindows,toletinthesoftbreathoftheafternoon,andthehealthyscentofthefirsthatmadeabeltroundtheHermitage。Thesoftairdidnothelphisresolution,asheleanedoutandlookedintotheleafydistance。Butheconsideredhisresolutionsufficientlyfixed:therewasnoneedtodebatewithhimselfanylonger。HehadmadeuphismindnottomeetHettyagain;andnowhemightgivehimselfuptothinkinghowimmenselyagreeableitwouldbeifcircumstancesweredifferent—— howpleasantitwouldhavebeentomeetherthiseveningasshecameback,andputhisarmroundheragainandlookintohersweetface。Hewonderedifthedearlittlethingwerethinkingofhimtoo——twentytooneshewas。Howbeautifulhereyeswerewiththetearontheirlashes!Hewouldliketosatisfyhissoulforadaywithlookingatthem,andheMUSTseeheragain——hemustseeher,simplytoremoveanyfalseimpressionfromhermindabouthismannertoherjustnow。Hewouldbehaveinaquiet,kindwaytoher——justtopreventherfromgoinghomewithherheadfullofwrongfancies。Yes,thatwouldbethebestthingtodoafterall。 Itwasalongwhile——morethananhourbeforeArthurhadbroughthismeditationstothispoint;butoncearrivedthere,hecouldstaynolongerattheHermitage。ThetimemustbefilledupwithmovementuntilheshouldseeHettyagain。Anditwasalreadylateenoughtogoanddressfordinner,forhisgrandfather’sdinner- hourwassix。 EveningintheWoodIThappenedthatMrs。PomfrethadhadaslightquarrelwithMrs。 Best,thehousekeeper,onthisThursdaymorning——afactwhichhadtwoconsequenceshighlyconvenienttoHetty。ItcausedMrs。 Pomfrettohaveteasentuptoherownroom,anditinspiredthatexemplarylady’smaidwithsolivelyarecollectionofformerpassagesinMrs。Best’sconduct,andofdialoguesinwhichMrs。 BesthaddecidedlytheinferiorityasaninterlocutorwithMrs。 Pomfret,thatHettyrequirednomorepresenceofmindthanwasdemandedforusingherneedle,andthrowinginanoccasional\"yes\" or\"no。\"Shewouldhavewantedtoputonherhatearlierthanusual;onlyshehadtoldCaptainDonnithornethatsheusuallysetoutabouteighto’clock,andifheSHOULDgototheGroveagainexpectingtoseeher,andsheshouldbegone!Wouldhecome?Herlittlebutterflysoulflutteredincessantlybetweenmemoryanddubiousexpectation。Atlasttheminute-handoftheold-fashionedbrazen-facedtimepiecewasonthelastquartertoeight,andtherewaseveryreasonforitsbeingtimetogetreadyfordeparture。 EvenMrs。Pomfret’spreoccupiedminddidnotpreventherfromnoticingwhatlookedlikeanewflushofbeautyinthelittlethingasshetiedonherhatbeforethelooking-glass。 \"Thatchildgetsprettierandprettiereveryday,Idobelieve,\" washerinwardcomment。\"Themore’sthepity。She’llgetneitheraplacenorahusbandanythesoonerforit。Soberwell-to-domendon’tlikesuchprettywives。WhenIwasagirl,IwasmoreadmiredthanifIhadbeensoverypretty。However,she’sreasontobegratefultomeforteachinghersomethingtogetherbreadwith,betterthanfarm-housework。TheyalwaystoldmeIwasgood-natured——andthat’sthetruth,andtomyhurttoo,elsethere’stheminthishousethatwouldn’tbeherenowtolorditovermeinthehousekeeper’sroom。\" Hettywalkedhastilyacrosstheshortspaceofpleasure-groundwhichshehadtotraverse,dreadingtomeetMr。Craig,towhomshecouldhardlyhavespokencivilly。HowrelievedshewaswhenshehadgotsafelyundertheoaksandamongthefernoftheChase! Eventhenshewasasreadytobestartledasthedeerthatleapedawayatherapproach。Shethoughtnothingoftheeveninglightthatlaygentlyinthegrassyalleysbetweenthefern,andmadethebeautyoftheirlivinggreenmorevisiblethanithadbeenintheoverpoweringfloodofnoon:shethoughtofnothingthatwaspresent。Sheonlysawsomethingthatwaspossible:Mr。ArthurDonnithornecomingtomeetheragainalongtheFir-treeGrove。 ThatwastheforegroundofHetty’spicture;behinditlayabrighthazysomething——daysthatwerenottobeastheotherdaysofherlifehadbeen。Itwasasifshehadbeenwooedbyariver-god,whomightanytimetakehertohiswondroushallsbelowawateryheaven。Therewasnoknowingwhatwouldcome,sincethisstrangeentrancingdelighthadcome。Ifachestfulloflaceandsatinandjewelshadbeensentherfromsomeunknownsource,howcouldshebuthavethoughtthatherwholelotwasgoingtochange,andthatto-morrowsomestillmorebewilderingjoywouldbefallher? Hettyhadneverreadanovel;ifshehadeverseenone,Ithinkthewordswouldhavebeentoohardforher;howthencouldshefindashapeforherexpectations?TheywereasformlessasthesweetlanguidodoursofthegardenattheChase,whichhadfloatedpastherasshewalkedbythegate。 Sheisatanothergatenow——thatleadingintoFir-treeGrove。Sheentersthewood,whereitisalreadytwilight,andateverystepshetakes,thefearatherheartbecomescolder。Ifheshouldnotcome!Oh,howdrearyitwas——thethoughtofgoingoutattheotherendofthewood,intotheunshelteredroad,withouthavingseenhim。ShereachesthefirstturningtowardstheHermitage,walkingslowly——heisnotthere。Shehatestheleveretthatrunsacrossthepath;shehateseverythingthatisnotwhatshelongsfor。Shewalkson,happywheneversheiscomingtoabendintheroad,forperhapsheisbehindit。No。Sheisbeginningtocry: herhearthasswelledso,thetearsstandinhereyes;shegivesonegreatsob,whilethecornersofhermouthquiver,andthetearsrolldown。 Shedoesn’tknowthatthereisanotherturningtotheHermitage,thatsheiscloseagainstit,andthatArthurDonnithorneisonlyafewyardsfromher,fullofonethought,andathoughtofwhichsheonlyistheobject。HeisgoingtoseeHettyagain:thatisthelongingwhichhasbeengrowingthroughthelastthreehourstoafeverishthirst。Not,ofcourse,tospeakinthecaressingwayintowhichhehadunguardedlyfallenbeforedinner,buttosetthingsrightwithherbyakindnesswhichwouldhavetheairoffriendlycivility,andpreventherfromrunningawaywithwrongnotionsabouttheirmutualrelation。 IfHettyhadknownhewasthere,shewouldnothavecried;anditwouldhavebeenbetter,forthenArthurwouldperhapshavebehavedaswiselyashehadintended。Asitwas,shestartedwhenheappearedattheendoftheside-alley,andlookedupathimwithtwogreatdropsrollingdownhercheeks。Whatelsecouldhedobutspeaktoherinasoft,soothingtone,asifshewereabright-eyedspanielwithathorninherfoot? \"Hassomethingfrightenedyou,Hetty?Haveyouseenanythinginthewood?Don’tbefrightened——I’lltakecareofyounow。\" Hettywasblushingso,shedidn’tknowwhethershewashappyormiserable。Tobecryingagain——whatdidgentlementhinkofgirlswhocriedinthatway?Shefeltunableeventosay\"no,\"butcouldonlylookawayfromhimandwipethetearsfromhercheek。 Notbeforeagreatdrophadfallenonherrose-colouredstrings—— sheknewthatquitewell。 \"Come,becheerfulagain。Smileatme,andtellmewhat’sthematter。Come,tellme。\" Hettyturnedherheadtowardshim,whispered,\"Ithoughtyouwouldn’tcome,\"andslowlygotcouragetolifthereyestohim。 Thatlookwastoomuch:hemusthavehadeyesofEgyptiangranitenottolooktoolovinglyinreturn。 \"Youlittlefrightenedbird!Littletearfulrose!Sillypet! Youwon’tcryagain,nowI’mwithyou,willyou?\" Ah,hedoesn’tknowintheleastwhatheissaying。Thisisnotwhathemeanttosay。Hisarmisstealingroundthewaistagain; itistighteningitsclasp;heisbendinghisfacenearerandnearertotheroundcheek;hislipsaremeetingthosepoutingchild-lips,andforalongmomenttimehasvanished。HemaybeashepherdinArcadiaforaughtheknows,hemaybethefirstyouthkissingthefirstmaiden,hemaybeEroshimself,sippingthelipsofPsyche——itisallone。 Therewasnospeakingforminutesafter。Theywalkedalongwithbeatingheartstilltheycamewithinsightofthegateattheendofthewood。Thentheylookedateachother,notquiteastheyhadlookedbefore,forintheireyestherewasthememoryofakiss。 Butalreadysomethingbitterhadbeguntomingleitselfwiththefountainofsweets:alreadyArthurwasuncomfortable。HetookhisarmfromHetty’swaist,andsaid,\"Hereweare,almostattheendoftheGrove。Iwonderhowlateitis,\"headded,pullingouthiswatch。\"Twentyminutespasteight——butmywatchistoofast。 However,I’dbetternotgoanyfurthernow。Trotalongquicklywithyourlittlefeet,andgethomesafely。Good-bye。\" Hetookherhand,andlookedatherhalf-sadly,halfwithaconstrainedsmile。Hetty’seyesseemedtobeseechhimnottogoawayyet;buthepattedhercheekandsaid\"Good-bye\"again。Shewasobligedtoturnawayfromhimandgoon。 AsforArthur,herushedbackthroughthewood,asifhewantedtoputawidespacebetweenhimselfandHetty。HewouldnotgototheHermitageagain;herememberedhowhehaddebatedwithhimselftherebeforedinner,andithadallcometonothing——worsethannothing。HewalkedrightonintotheChase,gladtogetoutoftheGrove,whichsurelywashauntedbyhisevilgenius。Thosebeechesandsmoothlimes——therewassomethingenervatingintheverysightofthem;butthestrongknottedoldoakshadnobendinglanguorinthem——thesightofthemwouldgiveamansomeenergy。 Arthurlosthimselfamongthenarrowopeningsinthefern,windingaboutwithoutseekinganyissue,tillthetwilightdeepenedalmosttonightunderthegreatboughs,andtheharelookedblackasitdartedacrosshispath。 Hewasfeelingmuchmorestronglythanhehaddoneinthemorning: itwasasifhishorsehadwheeledroundfromaleapanddaredtodisputehismastery。Hewasdissatisfiedwithhimself,irritated,mortified。Henosoonerfixedhismindontheprobableconsequencesofgivingwaytotheemotionswhichhadstolenoverhimto-day——ofcontinuingtonoticeHetty,ofallowinghimselfanyopportunityforsuchslightcaressesashehadbeenbetrayedintoalready——thanherefusedtobelievesuchafuturepossibleforhimself。ToflirtwithHettywasaverydifferentaffairfromflirtingwithaprettygirlofhisownstation:thatwasunderstoodtobeanamusementonbothsides,or,ifitbecameserious,therewasnoobstacletomarriage。Butthislittlethingwouldbespokenillofdirectly,ifshehappenedtobeseenwalkingwithhim;andthenthoseexcellentpeople,thePoysers,towhomagoodnamewasaspreciousasiftheyhadthebestbloodinthelandintheirveins——heshouldhatehimselfifhemadeascandalofthatsort,ontheestatethatwastobehisownsomeday,andamongtenantsbywhomheliked,aboveall,toberespected。Hecouldnomorebelievethatheshouldsofallinhisownesteemthanthatheshouldbreakbothhislegsandgooncrutchesalltherestofhislife。Hecouldn’timaginehimselfinthatposition;itwastooodious,toounlikehim。 Andevenifnooneknewanythingaboutit,theymightgettoofondofeachother,andthentherecouldbenothingbutthemiseryofparting,afterall。Nogentleman,outofaballad,couldmarryafarmer’sniece。Theremustbeanendtothewholethingatonce。 Itwastoofoolish。 Andyethehadbeensodeterminedthismorning,beforehewenttoGawaine’s;andwhilehewastheresomethinghadtakenholdofhimandmadehimgallopback。Itseemedhecouldn’tquitedependonhisownresolution,ashehadthoughthecould;healmostwishedhisarmwouldgetpainfulagain,andthenheshouldthinkofnothingbutthecomfortitwouldbetogetridofthepain。Therewasnoknowingwhatimpulsemightseizehimto-morrow,inthisconfoundedplace,wheretherewasnothingtooccupyhimimperiouslythroughthelivelongday。Whatcouldhedotosecurehimselffromanymoreofthisfolly? Therewasbutoneresource。HewouldgoandtellIrwine——tellhimeverything。Themereactoftellingitwouldmakeitseemtrivial;thetemptationwouldvanish,asthecharmoffondwordsvanisheswhenonerepeatsthemtotheindifferent。IneverywayitwouldhelphimtotellIrwine。HewouldridetoBroxtonRectorythefirstthingafterbreakfastto-morrow。 Arthurhadnosoonercometothisdeterminationthanhebegantothinkwhichofthepathswouldleadhimhome,andmadeasshortawalkthitherashecould。Hefeltsureheshouldsleepnow:hehadhadenoughtotirehim,andtherewasnomoreneedforhimtothink。