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类别:其他 作者:George Eliot字数:29307更新时间:18/12/21 16:31:11
TheReturnHomeWHILEthatpartinginthewoodwashappening,therewasapartinginthecottagetoo,andLisbethhadstoodwithAdamatthedoor,strainingheragedeyestogetthelastglimpseofSethandDinah,astheymountedtheoppositeslope。 \"Eh,I’mloathtoseethelastonher,\"shesaidtoAdam,astheyturnedintothehouseagain。\"I’dha’beenwillin’t’ha’heraboutmetillIdiedandwenttoliebymyoldman。She’dmakeiteasierdyin’——shespakessogentlean’movesaboutsostill。I couldbefastsurethatpictur’wasdrawedforheri’thynewBible——th’angela-sittin’onthebigstonebythegrave。Eh,I wouldnamindha’inadaughterlikethat;butnobodyne’ermarriesthemasisgoodforaught。\" \"Well,Mother,IhopetheeWILThaveherforadaughter;forSeth’sgotalikingforher,andIhopeshe’llgetalikingforSethintime。\" \"Where’sth’useo’talkin’a-that’n?ShecaresnaforSeth。 She’sgoin’awaytwentymileaff。How’sshetogetalikin’forhim,I’dliketoknow?Nomorenorthecake’ullcomewi’outtheleaven。Thyfigurin’booksmightha’touldtheebetternorthat,Ishouldthink,elsetheemightstaswellreadthecomminprint,asSethallaysdoes。\" \"Nay,Mother,\"saidAdam,laughing,\"thefigurestellusafinedeal,andwecouldn’tgofarwithout’em,buttheydon’ttellusaboutfolks’sfeelings。It’sanicerjobtocalculateTHEM。ButSeth’sasgood-heartedaladaseverhandledatool,andplentyo’ sense,andgood-lookingtoo;andhe’sgotthesamewayo’thinkingasDinah。Hedeservestowinher,thoughthere’snodenyingshe’sararebito’workmanship。Youdon’tseesuchwomenturnedoffthewheeleveryday。\" \"Eh,thee’tallaysstickupforthybrother。Thee’stbeenjustthesame,e’ersin’yewarlittleunstogether。Theewartallaysforhalvingiverythingwi’him。Butwhat’sSethgottodowithmarryin’,asison’ythree-an’-twenty?He’dmoreneedtolearnan’laybysixpence。An’asforhisdesarvingher——she’stwo’earoldernorSeth:she’sprettynearasoldasthee。Butthat’stheway;folksmunallayschoosebycontrairies,asiftheymustbesortedlikethepork——abito’goodmeatwi’abito’offal。\" Tothefemininemindinsomeofitsmoods,allthingsthatmightbereceiveatemporarycharmfromcomparisonwithwhatis;andsinceAdamdidnotwanttomarryDinahhimself,Lisbethfeltratherpeevishonthatscore——aspeevishasshewouldhavebeenifheHADwantedtomarryher,andsoshuthimselfoutfromMaryBurgeandthepartnershipaseffectuallyasbymarryingHetty。 Itwasmorethanhalf-pasteightwhenAdamandhismotherweretalkinginthisway,sothatwhen,abouttenminuteslater,Hettyreachedtheturningofthelanethatledtothefarmyardgate,shesawDinahandSethapproachingitfromtheoppositedirection,andwaitedforthemtocomeuptoher。They,too,likeHetty,hadlingeredalittleintheirwalk,forDinahwastryingtospeakwordsofcomfortandstrengthtoSethinthesepartingmoments。 ButwhentheysawHetty,theypausedandshookhands;Sethturnedhomewards,andDinahcameonalone。 \"SethBedewouldhavecomeandspokentoyou,mydear,\"shesaid,asshereachedHetty,\"buthe’sveryfulloftroubleto-night。\" Hettyansweredwithadimpledsmile,asifshedidnotquiteknowwhathadbeensaid;anditmadeastrangecontrasttoseethatsparklingself-engrossedlovelinesslookedatbyDinah’scalmpityingface,withitsopenglancewhichtoldthatherheartlivedinnocherishedsecretsofitsown,butinfeelingswhichitlongedtosharewithalltheworld。HettylikedDinahaswellasshehadeverlikedanywoman;howwasitpossibletofeelotherwisetowardsonewhoalwaysputinakindwordforherwhenherauntwasfindingfault,andwhowasalwaysreadytotakeTottyoffherhands——littletiresomeTotty,thatwasmadesuchapetofbyeveryone,andthatHettycouldseenointerestinatall? DinahhadneversaidanythingdisapprovingorreproachfultoHettyduringherwholevisittotheHallFarm;shehadtalkedtoheragreatdealinaseriousway,butHettydidn’tmindthatmuch,forsheneverlistened:whateverDinahmightsay,shealmostalwaysstrokedHetty’scheekafterit,andwantedtodosomemendingforher。Dinahwasariddletoher;Hettylookedathermuchinthesamewayasonemightimaginealittleperchingbirdthatcouldonlyflutterfromboughtobough,tolookattheswoopoftheswalloworthemountingofthelark;butshedidnotcaretosolvesuchriddles,anymorethanshecaredtoknowwhatwasmeantbythepicturesinthePilgrim’sProgress,orintheoldfolioBiblethatMartyandTommyalwaysplaguedheraboutonaSunday。 Dinahtookherhandnowanddrewitunderherownarm。 \"Youlookveryhappyto-night,dearchild,\"shesaid。\"IshallthinkotyouoftenwhenI’matSnowfield,andseeyourfacebeforemeasitisnow。It’sastrangething——sometimeswhenI’mquitealone,sittinginmyroomwithmyeyesclosed,orwalkingoverthehills,thepeopleI’veseenandknown,ifit’sonlybeenforafewdays,arebroughtbeforeme,andIheartheirvoicesandseethemlookandmovealmostplainerthanIeverdidwhentheywerereallywithmesoasIcouldtouchthem。Andthenmyheartisdrawnouttowardsthem,andIfeeltheirlotasifitwasmyown,andItakecomfortinspreadingitbeforetheLordandrestinginHislove,ontheirbehalfaswellasmyown。AndsoIfeelsureyouwillcomebeforeme。\" Shepausedamoment,butHettysaidnothing。 \"Ithasbeenaveryprecioustimetome,\"Dinahwenton,\"lastnightandto-day——seeingtwosuchgoodsonsasAdamandSethBede。 Theyaresotenderandthoughtfulfortheiragedmother。AndshehasbeentellingmewhatAdamhasdone,forthesemanyyears,tohelphisfatherandhisbrother;it’swonderfulwhataspiritofwisdomandknowledgehehas,andhowhe’sreadytouseitallinbehalfofthemthatarefeeble。AndI’msurehehasalovingspirittoo。I’venoticeditoftenamongmyownpeopleroundSnowfield,thatthestrong,skilfulmenareoftenthegentlesttothewomenandchildren;andit’sprettytosee’emcarryingthelittlebabiesasiftheywerenoheavierthanlittlebirds。Andthebabiesalwaysseemtolikethestrongarmbest。IfeelsureitwouldbesowithAdamBede。Don’tyouthinkso,Hetty?\" \"Yes,\"saidHettyabstractedly,forhermindhadbeenallthewhileinthewood,andshewouldhavefounditdifficulttosaywhatshewasassentingto。Dinahsawshewasnotinclinedtotalk,buttherewouldnothavebeentimetosaymuchmore,fortheywerenowattheyard-gate。 Thestilltwilight,withitsdyingwesternredanditsfewfaintstrugglingstars,restedonthefarm-yard,wheretherewasnotasoundtobeheardbutthestampingofthecart-horsesinthestable。Itwasabouttwentyminutesaftersunset。Thefowlswereallgonetoroost,andthebull-doglaystretchedonthestrawoutsidehiskennel,withtheblack-and-tanterrierbyhisside,whenthefalling-toofthegatedisturbedthemandsetthembarking,likegoodofficials,beforetheyhadanydistinctknowledgeofthereason。 Thebarkinghaditseffectinthehouse,for,asDinahandHettyapproached,thedoorwaywasfilledbyaportlyfigure,witharuddyblack-eyedfacewhichboreinitthepossibilityoflookingextremelyacute,andoccasionallycontemptuous,onmarket-days,buthadnowapredominantafter-supperexpressionofheartygood- nature。Itiswellknownthatgreatscholarswhohaveshownthemostpitilessacerbityintheircriticismofothermen’sscholarshiphaveyetbeenofarelentingandindulgenttemperinprivatelife;andIhaveheardofalearnedmanmeeklyrockingthetwinsinthecradlewithhislefthand,whilewithhisrightheinflictedthemostlaceratingsarcasmsonanopponentwhohadbetrayedabrutalignoranceofHebrew。Weaknessesanderrorsmustbeforgiven——alas!theyarenotalientous——butthemanwhotakesthewrongsideonthemomentoussubjectoftheHebrewpointsmustbetreatedastheenemyofhisrace。TherewasthesamesortofantitheticmixtureinMartinPoyser:hewasofsoexcellentadispositionthathehadbeenkinderandmorerespectfulthanevertohisoldfathersincehehadmadeadeedofgiftofallhisproperty,andnomanjudgedhisneighboursmorecharitablyonallpersonalmatters;butforafarmer,likeLukeBritton,forexample,whosefallowswerenotwellcleaned,whodidn’tknowtherudimentsofhedgingandditching,andshowedbutasmallshareofjudgmentinthepurchaseofwinterstock,MartinPoyserwasashardandimplacableasthenorth-eastwind。LukeBrittoncouldnotmakearemark,evenontheweather,butMartinPoyserdetectedinitataintofthatunsoundnessandgeneralignorancewhichwaspalpableinallhisfarmingoperations。HehatedtoseethefellowliftthepewterpinttohismouthinthebaroftheRoyalGeorgeonmarket-day,andthemeresightofhimontheothersideoftheroadbroughtasevereandcriticalexpressionintohisblackeyes,asdifferentaspossiblefromthefatherlyglancehebentonhistwoniecesastheyapproachedthedoor。Mr。Poyserhadsmokedhiseveningpipe,andnowheldhishandsinhispockets,astheonlyresourceofamanwhocontinuestositupaftertheday’sbusinessisdone。 \"Why,lasses,ye’reratherlateto-night,\"hesaid,whentheyreachedthelittlegateleadingintothecauseway。\"Themother’sbeguntofidgetaboutyou,an’she’sgotthelittleunill。An’ howdidyouleavetheoldwomanBede,Dinah?Isshemuchdownabouttheoldman?He’dbeenbutapoorbargaintoherthisfiveyear。\" \"She’sbeengreatlydistressedforthelossofhim,\"saidDinah,\"butshe’sseemedmorecomfortedto-day。HersonAdam’sbeenathomeallday,workingathisfather’scoffin,andshelovestohavehimathome。She’sbeentalkingabouthimtomealmostalltheday。Shehasalovingheart,thoughshe’ssorelygiventofretandbefearful。Iwishshehadasurertrusttocomfortherinheroldage。\" \"Adam’ssureenough,\"saidMr。Poyser,misunderstandingDinah’swish。\"There’snofearbuthe’llyieldwelli’thethreshing。 He’snotoneo’themasisallstrawandnograin。I’llbebondforhimanyday,ashe’llbeagoodsontothelast。Didhesayhe’dbecomingtoseeussoon?Butcomein,comein,\"headded,makingwayforthem;\"Ihadn’tneedkeepy’outanylonger。\" Thetallbuildingsroundtheyardshutoutagooddealofthesky,butthelargewindowletinabundantlighttoshoweverycornerofthehouse-place。 Mrs。Poyser,seatedintherocking-chair,whichhadbeenbroughtoutofthe\"right-handparlour,\"wastryingtosootheTottytosleep。ButTottywasnotdisposedtosleep;andwhenhercousinsentered,sheraisedherselfupandshowedapairofflushedcheeks,whichlookedfatterthanevernowtheyweredefinedbytheedgeofherlinennight-cap。 Inthelargewicker-bottomedarm-chairintheleft-handchimney- nooksatoldMartinPoyser,ahalebutshrunkenandbleachedimageofhisportlyblack-hairedson——hisheadhangingforwardalittle,andhiselbowspushedbackwardssoastoallowthewholeofhisforearmtorestonthearmofthechair。Hisbluehandkerchiefwasspreadoverhisknees,aswasusualindoors,whenitwasnothangingoverhishead;andhesatwatchingwhatwentforwardwiththequietOUTWARDglanceofhealthyoldage,which,disengagedfromanyinterestinaninwarddrama,spiesoutpinsuponthefloor,followsone’sminutestmotionswithanunexpectantpurposelesstenacity,watchestheflickeringoftheflameorthesun-gleamsonthewall,countsthequarriesonthefloor,watcheseventhehandoftheclock,andpleasesitselfwithdetectingarhythminthetick。 \"Whatatimeo’nightthisistocomehome,Hetty!\"saidMrs。 Poyser。\"Lookattheclock,do;why,it’sgoingonforhalf-pastnine,andI’vesentthegellstobedthishalf-hour,andlateenoughtoo;whenthey’vegottogetupathalfafterfour,andthemowers’bottlestofill,andthebaking;andhere’sthisblessedchildwi’thefeverforwhatIknow,andaswakefulasifitwasdinner-time,andnobodytohelpmetogiveherthephysicbutyouruncle,andfineworkthere’sbeen,andhalfofitspiltonhernight-gown——it’swellifshe’sswallowedmorenor’ullmakeherworsei’steado’better。Butfolksashavenomindtobeo’usehaveallaysthelucktobeouto’theroadwhenthere’sanythingtobedone。\" \"Ididsetoutbeforeeight,aunt,\"saidHetty,inapettishtone,withaslighttossofherhead。Butthisclock’ssomuchbeforetheclockattheChase,there’snotellingwhattimeit’llbewhenIgethere。\" \"What!You’dbewantingtheclocksetbygentlefolks’stime,wouldyou?An’situpburnin’candle,an’liea-bedwi’thesuna-bakin’youlikeacowcumberi’theframe?Theclockhasn’tbeenputforrardforthefirsttimeto-day,Ireckon。\" Thefactwas,HettyhadreallyforgottenthedifferenceoftheclockswhenshetoldCaptainDonnithornethatshesetoutateight,andthis,withherlingeringpace,hadmadehernearlyhalfanhourlaterthanusual。Buthereheraunt’sattentionwasdivertedfromthistendersubjectbyTotty,who,perceivingatlengththatthearrivalofhercousinswasnotlikelytobringanythingsatisfactorytoherinparticular,begantocry,\"Munny,munny,\"inanexplosivemanner。 \"Well,then,mypet,Mother’sgother,Motherwon’tleaveher; Tottybeagooddilling,andgotosleepnow,\"saidMrs。Poyser,leaningbackandrockingthechair,whileshetriedtomakeTottynestleagainsther。ButTottyonlycriedlouder,andsaid,\"Don’tyock!\"Sothemother,withthatwondrouspatiencewhichlovegivestothequickesttemperament,satupagain,andpressedhercheekagainstthelinennight-capandkissedit,andforgottoscoldHettyanylonger。 \"Come,Hetty,\"saidMartinPoyser,inaconciliatorytone,\"goandgetyoursupperi’thepantry,asthethingsareallputaway;an’ thenyoucancomeandtakethelittleunwhileyourauntundressesherself,forshewon’tliedowninbedwithouthermother。An’I reckonYOUcouldeatabit,Dinah,fortheydon’tkeepmuchofahousedownthere。\" \"No,thankyou,Uncle,\"saidDinah;\"IateagoodmealbeforeI cameaway,forMrs。Bedewouldmakeakettle-cakeforme。\" \"Idon’twantanysupper,\"saidHetty,takingoffherhat。\"IcanholdTottynow,ifAuntwantsme。\" \"Why,whatnonsensethatistotalk!\"saidMrs。Poyser。\"Doyouthinkyoucanlivewi’outeatin’,an’nourishyourinsidewi’ stickin’redribbonsonyourhead?Goan’getyoursupperthisminute,child;there’sanicebito’coldpuddingi’thesafe—— justwhatyou’refondof。\" Hettycompliedsilentlybygoingtowardsthepantry,andMrs。 PoyserwentonspeakingtoDinah。 \"Sitdown,mydear,an’lookasifyouknowedwhatitwastomakeyourselfabitcomfortablei’theworld。Iwarranttheoldwomanwasgladtoseeyou,sinceyoustayedsolong。\" \"Sheseemedtolikehavingmethereatlast;buthersonssayshedoesn’tlikeyoungwomenabouthercommonly;andIthoughtjustatfirstshewasalmostangrywithmeforgoing。\" \"Eh,it’sapoorlook-outwhenth’ouldfolksdoesnaliketheyounguns,\"saidoldMartin,bendinghisheaddownlower,andseemingtotracethepatternofthequarrieswithhiseye。 \"Aye,it’silllivin’inahen-roostforthemasdoesn’tlikefleas,\"saidMrs。Poyser。\"We’veallhadourturnatbein’young,Ireckon,be’tgoodluckorill。\" \"Butshemustlearnto’commodateherselftoyoungwomen,\"saidMr。Poyser,\"foritisn’ttobecountedonasAdamandSeth’ullkeepbachelorsforthenexttenyeartopleasetheirmother。That’udbeunreasonable。Itisn’trightforoldnoryoungnaythertomakeabargainallo’theirownside。What’sgoodforone’sgoodallroundi’thelongrun。I’mnofriendtoyoungfellowsa- marryingaforetheyknowthedifferenceatweenacraban’aapple; buttheymaywaito’erlong。\" \"Tobesure,\"saidMrs。Poyser;\"ifyougopastyourdinner-time,there’llbelittlerelisho’yourmeat。Youturnito’eran’o’erwi’yourfork,an’don’teatitafterall。Youfindfautwi’yourmeat,an’thefaut’salli’yourownstomach。\" Hettynowcamebackfromthepantryandsaid,\"IcantakeTottynow,Aunt,ifyoulike。\" \"Come,Rachel,\"saidMr。Poyser,ashiswifeseemedtohesitate,seeingthatTottywasatlastnestlingquietly,\"thee’dstbetterletHettycarryherupstairs,whiletheetak’stthythingsoff。 Thee’ttired。It’stimetheewastinbed。Thee’tbringonthepaininthysideagain。\" \"Well,shemayholdherifthechild’ullgotoher,\"saidMrs。 Poyser。 Hettywentclosetotherocking-chair,andstoodwithoutherusualsmile,andwithoutanyattempttoenticeTotty,simplywaitingforheraunttogivethechildintoherhands。 \"WiltgotoCousinHetty,mydilling,whilemothergetsreadytogotobed?ThenTottyshallgointoMother’sbed,andsleepthereallnight。\" Beforehermotherhaddonespeaking,Tottyhadgivenheranswerinanunmistakablemanner,byknittingherbrow,settinghertinyteethagainstherunderlip,andleaningforwardtoslapHettyonthearmwithherutmostforce。Then,withoutspeaking,shenestledtohermotheragain。 \"Hey,hey,\"saidMr。Poyser,whileHettystoodwithoutmoving,\"notgotoCousinHetty?That’slikeababby。Totty’salittlewoman,an’notababby。\" \"It’snousetryingtopersuadeher,\"saidMrs。Poyser。\"SheallaystakesagainstHettywhensheisn’twell。Happenshe’llgotoDinah。\" Dinah,havingtakenoffherbonnetandshawl,hadhithertokeptquietlyseatedinthebackground,notlikingtothrustherselfbetweenHettyandwhatwasconsideredHetty’sproperwork。Butnowshecameforward,and,puttingoutherarms,said,\"ComeTotty,comeandletDinahcarryherupstairsalongwithMother: poor,poorMother!she’ssotired——shewantstogotobed。\" TottyturnedherfacetowardsDinah,andlookedatheraninstant,thenliftedherselfup,putoutherlittlearms,andletDinahliftherfromhermother’slap。Hettyturnedawaywithoutanysignofillhumour,and,takingherhatfromthetable,stoodwaitingwithanairofindifference,toseeifsheshouldbetoldtodoanythingelse。 \"Youmaymakethedoorfastnow,Poyser;Alick’sbeencomeinthislongwhile,\"saidMrs。Poyser,risingwithanappearanceofrelieffromherlowchair。\"Getmethematchesdown,Hetty,forImusthavetherushlightburningi’myroom。Come,Father。\" Theheavywoodenboltsbegantorollinthehousedoors,andoldMartinpreparedtomove,bygatheringuphisbluehandkerchief,andreachinghisbrightknobbedwalnut-treestickfromthecorner。 Mrs。Poyserthenledthewayoutofthekitchen,followedbythegandfather,andDinahwithTottyinherarms——allgoingtobedbytwilight,likethebirds。Mrs。Poyser,onherway,peepedintotheroomwherehertwoboyslay;justtoseetheirruddyroundcheeksonthepillow,andtohearforamomenttheirlightregularbreathing。 \"Come,Hetty,gettobed,\"saidMr。Poyser,inasoothingtone,ashehimselfturnedtogoupstairs。\"Youdidnameantobelate,I’llbebound,butyouraunt’sbeenworritedto-day。Good-night,mywench,good-night。\" TheTwoBed-ChambersHETTYandDinahbothsleptinthesecondstory,inroomsadjoiningeachother,meagrelyfurnishedrooms,withnoblindstoshutoutthelight,whichwasnowbeginningtogathernewstrengthfromtherisingofthemoon——morethanenoughstrengthtoenableHettytomoveaboutandundresswithperfectcomfort。Shecouldseequitewellthepegsintheoldpaintedlinen-pressonwhichshehungherhatandgown;shecouldseetheheadofeverypinonherredclothpin-cushion;shecouldseeareflectionofherselfintheold- fashionedlooking-glass,quiteasdistinctaswasneedful,consideringthatshehadonlytobrushherhairandputonhernight-cap。Aqueeroldlooking-glass!Hettygotintoanilltemperwithitalmosteverytimeshedressed。Ithadbeenconsideredahandsomeglassinitsday,andhadprobablybeenboughtintothePoyserfamilyaquarterofacenturybefore,atasaleofgenteelhouseholdfurniture。Evennowanauctioneercouldsaysomethingforit:ithadagreatdealoftarnishedgildingaboutit;ithadafirmmahoganybase,wellsuppliedwithdrawers,whichopenedwithadecidedjerkandsentthecontentsleapingoutfromthefarthestcorners,withoutgivingyouthetroubleofreachingthem;aboveall,ithadabrasscandle-socketoneachside,whichwouldgiveitanaristocraticairtotheverylast。 ButHettyobjectedtoitbecauseithadnumerousdimblotchessprinkledoverthemirror,whichnorubbingwouldremove,andbecause,insteadofswingingbackwardsandforwards,itwasfixedinanuprightposition,sothatshecouldonlygetonegoodviewofherheadandneck,andthatwastobehadonlybysittingdownonalowchairbeforeherdressing-table。Andthedressing-tablewasnodressing-tableatall,butasmalloldchestofdrawers,themostawkwardthingintheworldtositdownbefore,forthebigbrasshandlesquitehurtherknees,andshecouldn’tgetneartheglassatallcomfortably。Butdevoutworshippersneverallowinconveniencestopreventthemfromperformingtheirreligiousrites,andHettythiseveningwasmorebentonherpeculiarformofworshipthanusual。 Havingtakenoffhergownandwhitekerchief,shedrewakeyfromthelargepocketthathungoutsideherpetticoat,and,unlockingoneofthelowerdrawersinthechest,reachedfromittwoshortbitsofwaxcandle——secretlyboughtatTreddleston——andstucktheminthetwobrasssockets。Thenshedrewforthabundleofmatchesandlightedthecandles;andlastofall,asmallred-framedshillinglooking-glass,withoutblotches。Itwasintothissmallglassthatshechosetolookfirstafterseatingherself。Shelookedintoit,smilingandturningherheadononeside,foraminute,thenlaiditdownandtookoutherbrushandcombfromanupperdrawer。Shewasgoingtoletdownherhair,andmakeherselflooklikethatpictureofaladyinMissLydiaDonnithorne’sdressing-room。Itwassoondone,andthedarkhyacinthinecurvesfellonherneck。Itwasnotheavy,massive,merelyripplinghair,butsoftandsilken,runningateveryopportunityintodelicaterings。Butshepusheditallbackwardtolooklikethepicture,andformadarkcurtain,throwingintoreliefherroundwhiteneck。Thensheputdownherbrushandcombandlookedatherself,foldingherarmsbeforeher,stilllikethepicture。Eventheoldmottledglasscouldn’thelpsendingbackalovelyimage,nonethelesslovelybecauseHetty’sstayswerenotofwhitesatin——suchasIfeelsureheroinesmustgenerallywear—— butofadarkgreenishcottontexture。 Ohyes!Shewasverypretty。CaptainDonnithornethoughtso。 PrettierthananybodyaboutHayslope——prettierthananyoftheladiesshehadeverseenvisitingattheChase——indeeditseemedfineladieswereratheroldandugly——andprettierthanMissBacon,themiller’sdaughter,whowascalledthebeautyofTreddleston。AndHettylookedatherselfto-nightwithquiteadifferentsensationfromwhatshehadeverfeltbefore;therewasaninvisiblespectatorwhoseeyerestedonherlikemorningontheflowers。Hissoftvoicewassayingoverandoveragainthoseprettythingsshehadheardinthewood;hisarmwasroundher,andthedelicaterose-scentofhishairwaswithherstill。Thevainestwomanisneverthoroughlyconsciousofherownbeautytillsheislovedbythemanwhosetsherownpassionvibratinginreturn。 ButHettyseemedtohavemadeuphermindthatsomethingwaswanting,forshegotupandreachedanoldblacklacescarfoutofthelinen-press,andapairoflargeear-ringsoutofthesacreddrawerfromwhichshehadtakenhercandles。Itwasanoldoldscarf,fullofrents,butitwouldmakeabecomingborderroundhershoulders,andsetoffthewhitenessofherupperarm。Andshewouldtakeoutthelittleear-ringsshehadinherears——oh,howheraunthadscoldedherforhavingherearsbored!——andputinthoselargeones。Theywerebutcolouredglassandgilding,butifyoudidn’tknowwhattheyweremadeof,theylookedjustaswellaswhattheladieswore。Andsoshesatdownagain,withthelargeear-ringsinherears,andtheblacklacescarfadjustedroundhershoulders。Shelookeddownatherarms:noarmscouldbeprettierdowntoalittlewaybelowtheelbow——theywerewhiteandplump,anddimpledtomatchhercheeks;buttowardsthewrist,shethoughtwithvexationthattheywerecoarsenedbybutter- makingandotherworkthatladiesneverdid。 CaptainDonnithornecouldn’tlikehertogoondoingwork:hewouldliketoseeherinniceclothes,andthinshoes,andwhitestockings,perhapswithsilkclockstothem;forhemustloveherverymuch——nooneelsehadeverputhisarmroundherandkissedherinthatway。Hewouldwanttomarryherandmakealadyofher;shecouldhardlydaretoshapethethought——yethowelsecoulditbe?Marryherquitesecretly,asMr。James,thedoctor’sassistant,marriedthedoctor’sniece,andnobodyeverfounditoutforalongwhileafter,andthenitwasofnousetobeangry。 ThedoctorhadtoldherauntallaboutitinHetty’shearing。Shedidn’tknowhowitwouldbe,butitwasquiteplaintheoldSquirecouldneverbetoldanythingaboutit,forHettywasreadytofaintwithaweandfrightifshecameacrosshimattheChase。Hemighthavebeenearth-born,forwhatsheknew。Ithadneverenteredhermindthathehadbeenyounglikeothermen;hehadalwaysbeentheoldSquireatwhomeverybodywasfrightened。Oh,itwasimpossibletothinkhowitwouldbe!ButCaptainDonnithornewouldknow;hewasagreatgentleman,andcouldhavehiswayineverything,andcouldbuyeverythingheliked。Andnothingcouldbeasithadbeenagain:perhapssomedaysheshouldbeagrandlady,andrideinhercoach,anddressfordinnerinabrocadedsilk,withfeathersinherhair,andherdresssweepingtheground,likeMissLydiaandLadyDacey,whenshesawthemgoingintothedining-roomoneeveningasshepeepedthroughthelittleroundwindowinthelobby;onlysheshouldnotbeoldanduglylikeMissLydia,orallthesamethicknesslikeLadyDacey,butverypretty,withherhairdoneinagreatmanydifferentways,andsometimesinapinkdress,andsometimesinawhiteone—— shedidn’tknowwhichshelikedbest;andMaryBurgeandeverybodywouldperhapsseehergoingoutinhercarriage——orrather,theywouldHEARofit:itwasimpossibletoimaginethesethingshappeningatHayslopeinsightofheraunt。Atthethoughtofallthissplendour,Hettygotupfromherchair,andindoingsocaughtthelittlered-framedglasswiththeedgeofherscarf,sothatitfellwithabangonthefloor;butshewastooeagerlyoccupiedwithhervisiontocareaboutpickingitup;andafteramomentarystart,begantopacewithapigeon-likestatelinessbackwardsandforwardsalongherroom,inhercolouredstaysandcolouredskirt,andtheoldblacklacescarfroundhershoulders,andthegreatglassear-ringsinherears。 Howprettythelittlepusslooksinthatodddress!Itwouldbetheeasiestfollyintheworldtofallinlovewithher:thereissuchasweetbabylikeroundnessaboutherfaceandfigure;thedelicatedarkringsofhairliesocharminglyaboutherearsandneck;hergreatdarkeyeswiththeirlongeye-lashestouchonesostrangely,asifanimprisonedfriskyspritelookedoutofthem。 Ah,whataprizethemangetswhowinsasweetbridelikeHetty! Howthemenenvyhimwhocometotheweddingbreakfast,andseeherhangingonhisarminherwhitelaceandorangeblossoms。Thedear,young,round,soft,flexiblething!Herheartmustbejustassoft,hertemperjustasfreefromangles,hercharacterjustaspliant。Ifanythingevergoeswrong,itmustbethehusband’sfaultthere:hecanmakeherwhathelikes——thatisplain。Andtheloverhimselfthinkssotoo:thelittledarlingissofondofhim,herlittlevanitiesaresobewitching,hewouldn’tconsenttoherbeingabitwiser;thosekittenlikeglancesandmovementsarejustwhatonewantstomakeone’shearthaparadise。Everymanundersuchcircumstancesisconsciousofbeingagreatphysiognomist。Nature,heknows,hasalanguageofherown,whichsheuseswithstrictveracity,andheconsidershimselfanadeptinthelanguage。Naturehaswrittenouthisbride’scharacterforhiminthoseexquisitelinesofcheekandlipandchin,inthoseeyelidsdelicateaspetals,inthoselonglashescurledlikethestamenofaflower,inthedarkliquiddepthsofthosewonderfuleyes。Howshewilldoteonherchildren!Sheisalmostachildherself,andthelittlepinkroundthingswillhangaboutherlikefloretsroundthecentralflower;andthehusbandwilllookon,smilingbenignly,able,wheneverhechooses,towithdrawintothesanctuaryofhiswisdom,towardswhichhissweetwifewilllookreverently,andneverliftthecurtain。Itisamarriagesuchastheymadeinthegoldenage,whenthemenwereallwiseandmajesticandthewomenalllovelyandloving。 ItwasverymuchinthiswaythatourfriendAdamBedethoughtaboutHetty;onlyheputhisthoughtsintodifferentwords。Ifevershebehavedwithcoldvanitytowardshim,hesaidtohimselfitisonlybecauseshedoesn’tlovemewellenough;andhewassurethatherlove,whenevershegaveit,wouldbethemostpreciousthingamancouldpossessonearth。BeforeyoudespiseAdamasdeficientinpenetration,prayaskyourselfifyouwereeverpredisposedtobelieveevilofanyprettywoman——ifyoueverCOULD,withouthardhead-breakingdemonstration,believeeviloftheONEsupremelyprettywomanwhohasbewitchedyou。No:peoplewholovedownypeachesareaptnottothinkofthestone,andsometimesjartheirteethterriblyagainstit。 ArthurDonnithorne,too,hadthesamesortofnotionaboutHetty,sofarashehadthoughtofhernatureofall。Hefeltsureshewasadear,affectionate,goodlittlething。Themanwhoawakesthewonderingtremulouspassionofayounggirlalwaysthinksheraffectionate;andifhechancestolookforwardtofutureyears,probablyimagineshimselfbeingvirtuouslytendertoher,becausethepoorthingissoclinginglyfondofhim。Godmadethesedearwomenso——anditisaconvenientarrangementincaseofsickness。 Afterall,Ibelievethewisestofusmustbebeguiledinthiswaysometimes,andmustthinkbothbetterandworseofpeoplethantheydeserve。Naturehasherlanguage,andsheisnotunveracious;butwedon’tknowalltheintricaciesofhersyntaxjustyet,andinahastyreadingwemayhappentoextracttheveryoppositeofherrealmeaning。Longdarkeyelashes,now——whatcanbemoreexquisite?Ifinditimpossiblenottoexpectsomedepthofsoulbehindadeepgreyeyewithalongdarkeyelash,inspiteofanexperiencewhichhasshownmethattheymaygoalongwithdeceit,peculation,andstupidity。Butif,inthereactionofdisgust,Ihavebetakenmyselftoafishyeye,therehasbeenasurprisingsimilarityofresult。Onebeginstosuspectatlengththatthereisnodirectcorrelationbetweeneyelashesandmorals; orelse,thattheeyelashesexpressthedispositionofthefairone’sgrandmother,whichisonthewholelessimportanttous。 NoeyelashescouldbemorebeautifulthanHetty’s;andnow,whileshewalkswithherpigeonlikestatelinessalongtheroomandlooksdownonhershouldersborderedbytheoldblacklace,thedarkfringeshowstoperfectiononherpinkcheek。Theyarebutdimill-definedpicturesthathernarrowbitofanimaginationcanmakeofthefuture;butofeverypicturesheisthecentralfigureinfineclothes;CaptainDonnithorneisveryclosetoher,puttinghisarmroundher,perhapskissingher,andeverybodyelseisadmiringandenvyingher——especiallyMaryBurge,whosenewprintdresslooksverycontemptiblebythesideofHetty’sresplendenttoilette。Doesanysweetorsadmemoryminglewiththisdreamofthefuture——anylovingthoughtofhersecondparents——ofthechildrenshehadhelpedtotend——ofanyyouthfulcompanion,anypetanimal,anyrelicofherownchildhoodeven?Notone。Therearesomeplantsthathavehardlyanyroots:youmaytearthemfromtheirnativenookofrockorwall,andjustlaythemoveryourornamentalflower-pot,andtheyblossomnonetheworse。Hettycouldhavecastallherpastlifebehindherandnevercaredtoberemindedofitagain。Ithinkshehadnofeelingatalltowardstheoldhouse,anddidnotliketheJacob’sLadderandthelongrowofhollyhocksinthegardenbetterthanotherflowers——perhapsnotsowell。Itwaswonderfulhowlittlesheseemedtocareaboutwaitingonheruncle,whohadbeenagoodfathertoher——shehardlyeverrememberedtoreachhimhispipeattherighttimewithoutbeingtold,unlessavisitorhappenedtobethere,whowouldhaveabetteropportunityofseeingherasshewalkedacrossthehearth。Hettydidnotunderstandhowanybodycouldbeveryfondofmiddle-agedpeople。Andasforthosetiresomechildren,MartyandTommyandTotty,theyhadbeentheverynuisanceofherlife——asbadasbuzzinginsectsthatwillcometeasingyouonahotdaywhenyouwanttobequiet。Marty,theeldest,wasababywhenshefirstcametothefarm,forthechildrenbornbeforehimhaddied,andsoHettyhadhadthemallthree,oneaftertheother,toddlingbyhersideinthemeadow,orplayingaboutheronwetdaysinthehalf-emptyroomsofthelargeoldhouse。Theboyswereoutofhandnow,butTottywasstilladay-longplague,worsethaneitheroftheothershadbeen,becausetherewasmorefussmadeabouther。Andtherewasnoendtothemakingandmendingofclothes。Hettywouldhavebeengladtohearthatsheshouldneverseeachildagain;theywereworsethanthenastylittlelambsthattheshepherdwasalwaysbringingintobetakenspecialcareofinlambingtime;forthelambsWEREgotridofsoonerorlater。 Asfortheyoungchickensandturkeys,Hettywouldhavehatedtheveryword\"hatching,\"ifheraunthadnotbribedhertoattendtotheyoungpoultrybypromisinghertheproceedsofoneoutofeverybrood。Therounddownychickspeepingoutfromundertheirmother’swingnevertouchedHettywithanypleasure;thatwasnotthesortofprettinessshecaredabout,butshedidcareabouttheprettinessofthenewthingsshewouldbuyforherselfatTreddlestonFairwiththemoneytheyfetched。Andyetshelookedsodimpled,socharming,asshestoopeddowntoputthesoakedbreadunderthehen-coop,thatyoumusthavebeenaveryacutepersonageindeedtosuspectherofthathardness。Molly,thehousemaid,withaturn-upnoseandaprotuberantjaw,wasreallyatender-heartedgirl,and,asMrs。Poysersaid,ajeweltolookafterthepoultry;butherstolidfaceshowednothingofthismaternaldelight,anymorethanabrownearthenwarepitcherwillshowthelightofthelampwithinit。 Itisgenerallyafeminineeyethatfirstdetectsthemoraldeficiencieshiddenunderthe\"deardeceit\"ofbeauty,soitisnotsurprisingthatMrs。Poyser,withherkeennessandabundantopportunityforobservation,shouldhaveformedatolerablyfairestimateofwhatmightbeexpectedfromHettyinthewayoffeeling,andinmomentsofindignationshehadsometimesspokenwithgreatopennessonthesubjecttoherhusband。 \"She’snobetterthanapeacock,as’udstrutaboutonthewallandspreaditstailwhenthesunshoneifallthefolksi’theparishwasdying:there’snothingseemstogiveheraturni’th’ inside,notevenwhenwethoughtTottyhadtumbledintothepit。 Tothinko’thatdearcherub!Andwefoundherwi’herlittleshoesstucki’themudan’cryingfittobreakherheartbythefarhorse-pit。ButHettynevermindedit,Icouldsee,thoughshe’sbeenatthenussin’o’thechildeversinceitwasababby。 It’smybeliefherheart’sashardasapebble。\" \"Nay,nay,\"saidMr。Poyser,\"theemustn’tjudgeHettytoohard。 Themyounggellsareliketheunripegrain;they’llmakegoodmealbyandby,butthey’resquashyasyet。Thee’tseeHetty’llbeallrightwhenshe’sgotagoodhusbandandchildrenofherown。\" \"Idon’twanttobehardupo’thegell。She’sgotcliverfingersofherown,andcanbeusefulenoughwhenshelikesandIshouldmissherwi’thebutter,forshe’sgotacoolhand。An’letbewhatmay,I’dstrivetodomypartbyanieceo’yours——an’THAT I’vedone,forI’vetaughthereverythingasbelongstoahouse,an’I’vetoldherherdutyoftenenough,though,Godknows,I’venobreathtospare,an’thatcatchin’paincomesondreadfulbytimes。Wi’themthreegellsinthehouseI’dneedhavetwicethestrengthtokeep’emuptotheirwork。It’slikehavingroastmeatatthreefires;assoonasyou’vebastedone,another’sburnin’。\" Hettystoodsufficientlyinaweofheraunttobeanxioustoconcealfromhersomuchofhervanityascouldbehiddenwithouttoogreatasacrifice。ShecouldnotresistspendinghermoneyinbitsoffinerywhichMrs。Poyserdisapproved;butshewouldhavebeenreadytodiewithshame,vexation,andfrightifheraunthadthismomentopenedthedoor,andseenherwithherbitsofcandlelighted,andstruttingaboutdeckedinherscarfandear-rings。 Topreventsuchasurprise,shealwaysboltedherdoor,andshehadnotforgottentodosoto-night。Itwaswell:fortherenowcamealighttap,andHetty,withaleapingheart,rushedtoblowoutthecandlesandthrowthemintothedrawer。Shedarednotstaytotakeoutherear-rings,butshethrewoffherscarf,andletitfallonthefloor,beforethelighttapcameagain。Weshallknowhowitwasthatthelighttapcame,ifweleaveHettyforashorttimeandreturntoDinah,atthemomentwhenshehaddeliveredTottytohermother’sarms,andwascomeupstairstoherbedroom,adjoiningHetty’s。 Dinahdelightedinherbedroomwindow。Beingonthesecondstoryofthattallhouse,itgaveherawideviewoverthefields。Thethicknessofthewallformedabroadstepaboutayardbelowthewindow,whereshecouldplaceherchair。Andnowthefirstthingshedidonenteringherroomwastoseatherselfinthischairandlookoutonthepeacefulfieldsbeyondwhichthelargemoonwasrising,justabovethehedgerowelms。Shelikedthepasturebestwherethemilchcowswerelying,andnexttothatthemeadowwherethegrasswashalf-mown,andlayinsilveredsweepinglines。Herheartwasveryfull,fortherewastobeonlyonemorenightonwhichshewouldlookoutonthosefieldsforalongtimetocome; butshethoughtlittleofleavingthemerescene,for,toher,bleakSnowfieldhadjustasmanycharms。Shethoughtofallthedearpeoplewhomshehadlearnedtocareforamongthesepeacefulfields,andwhowouldnowhaveaplaceinherlovingremembranceforever。Shethoughtofthestrugglesandthewearinessthatmightliebeforethemintherestoftheirlife’sjourney,whenshewouldbeawayfromthem,andknownothingofwhatwasbefallingthem;andthepressureofthisthoughtsoonbecametoostrongforhertoenjoytheunrespondingstillnessofthemoonlitfields。Sheclosedhereyes,thatshemightfeelmoreintenselythepresenceofaLoveandSympathydeeperandmoretenderthanwasbreathedfromtheearthandsky。ThatwasoftenDinah’smodeofprayinginsolitude。SimplytoclosehereyesandtofeelherselfenclosedbytheDivinePresence;thengraduallyherfears,heryearninganxietiesforothers,meltedawaylikeice-crystalsinawarmocean。Shehadsatinthiswayperfectlystill,withherhandscrossedonherlapandthepalelightrestingonhercalmface,foratleasttenminuteswhenshewasstartledbyaloudsound,apparentlyofsomethingfallinginHetty’sroom。Butlikeallsoundsthatfallonourearsinastateofabstraction,ithadnodistinctcharacter,butwassimplyloudandstartling,sothatshefeltuncertainwhethershehadinterpreteditrightly。 Sheroseandlistened,butallwasquietafterwards,andshereflectedthatHettymightmerelyhaveknockedsomethingdowningettingintobed。Shebeganslowlytoundress;butnow,owingtothesuggestionsofthissound,herthoughtsbecameconcentratedonHetty——thatsweetyoungthing,withlifeandallitstrialsbeforeher——thesolemndailydutiesofthewifeandmother——andhermindsounpreparedforthemall,bentmerelyonlittlefoolish,selfishpleasures,likeachildhuggingitstoysinthebeginningofalongtoilsomejourneyinwhichitwillhavetobearhungerandcoldandunsheltereddarkness。DinahfeltadoublecareforHetty,becauseshesharedSeth’sanxiousinterestinhisbrother’slot,andshehadnotcometotheconclusionthatHettydidnotloveAdamwellenoughtomarryhim。Shesawtooclearlytheabsenceofanywarm,self-devotingloveinHetty’snaturetoregardthecoldnessofherbehaviourtowardsAdamasanyindicationthathewasnotthemanshewouldliketohaveforahusband。AndthisblankinHetty’snature,insteadofexcitingDinah’sdislike,onlytouchedherwithadeeperpity:thelovelyfaceandformaffectedherasbeautyalwaysaffectsapureandtendermind,freefromselfishjealousies。Itwasanexcellentdivinegift,thatgaveadeeperpathostotheneed,thesin,thesorrowwithwhichitwasmingled,asthecankerinalily-whitebudismoregrievoustobeholdthaninacommonpot-herb。 BythetimeDinahhadundressedandputonhernight-gown,thisfeelingaboutHettyhadgatheredapainfulintensity;herimaginationhadcreatedathornythicketofsinandsorrow,inwhichshesawthepoorthingstrugglingtornandbleeding,lookingwithtearsforrescueandfindingnone。ItwasinthiswaythatDinah’simaginationandsympathyactedandreactedhabitually,eachheighteningtheother。ShefeltadeeplongingtogonowandpourintoHetty’searallthewordsoftenderwarningandappealthatrushedintohermind。ButperhapsHettywasalreadyasleep。 Dinahputhereartothepartitionandheardstillsomeslightnoises,whichconvincedherthatHettywasnotyetinbed。Stillshehesitated;shewasnotquitecertainofadivinedirection; thevoicethattoldhertogotoHettyseemednostrongerthattheothervoicewhichsaidthatHettywasweary,andthatgoingtohernowinanunseasonablemomentwouldonlytendtocloseherheartmoreobstinately。Dinahwasnotsatisfiedwithoutamoreunmistakableguidancethanthoseinwardvoices。Therewaslightenoughforher,ifsheopenedherBible,todiscernthetextsufficientlytoknowwhatitwouldsaytoher。Sheknewthephysiognomyofeverypage,andcouldtellonwhatbooksheopened,sometimesonwhatchapter,withoutseeingtitleornumber。ItwasasmallthickBible,wornquiteroundattheedges。Dinahlaiditsidewaysonthewindowledge,wherethelightwasstrongest,andthenopeneditwithherforefinger。Thefirstwordsshelookedatwerethoseatthetopoftheleft-handpage:\"Andtheyallweptsore,andfellonPaul’sneckandkissedhim。\"ThatwasenoughforDinah;shehadopenedonthatmemorablepartingatEphesus,whenPaulhadfeltboundtoopenhisheartinalastexhortationandwarning。Shehesitatednolonger,but,openingherowndoorgently,wentandtappedonHetty’s。Weknowshehadtotaptwice,becauseHettyhadtoputouthercandlesandthrowoffherblacklacescarf;butafterthesecondtapthedoorwasopenedimmediately。Dinahsaid,\"Willyouletmecomein,Hetty?\"andHetty,withoutspeaking,forshewasconfusedandvexed,openedthedoorwiderandletherin。 Whatastrangecontrastthetwofiguresmade,visibleenoughinthatmingledtwilightandmoonlight!Hetty,hercheeksflushedandhereyesglisteningfromherimaginarydrama,herbeautifulneckandarmsbare,herhairhanginginacurlytangledownherback,andthebaublesinherears。Dinah,coveredwithherlongwhitedress,herpalefacefullofsubduedemotion,almostlikealovelycorpseintowhichthesoulhasreturnedchargedwithsublimersecretsandasublimerlove。Theywerenearlyofthesameheight;DinahevidentlyalittlethetallerassheputherarmroundHetty’swaistandkissedherforehead。 \"Iknewyouwerenotinbed,mydear,\"shesaid,inhersweetclearvoice,whichwasirritatingtoHetty,minglingwithherownpeevishvexationlikemusicwithjanglingchains,\"forIheardyoumoving;andIlongedtospeaktoyouagainto-night,foritisthelastbutonethatIshallbehere,andwedon’tknowwhatmayhappento-morrowtokeepusapart。ShallIsitdownwithyouwhileyoudoupyourhair?\" \"Ohyes,\"saidHetty,hastilyturningroundandreachingthesecondchairintheroom,gladthatDinahlookedasifshedidnotnoticeherear-rings。 Dinahsatdown,andHettybegantobrushtogetherherhairbeforetwistingitup,doingitwiththatairofexcessiveindifferencewhichbelongstoconfusedself-consciousness。ButtheexpressionofDinah’seyesgraduallyrelievedher;theyseemedunobservantofalldetails。 \"DearHetty,\"shesaid,\"Ithasbeenborneinuponmymindto- nightthatyoumaysomedaybeintrouble——troubleisappointedforusallherebelow,andtherecomesatimewhenweneedmorecomfortandhelpthanthethingsofthislifecangive。Iwanttotellyouthatifeveryouareintrouble,andneedafriendthatwillalwaysfeelforyouandloveyou,youhavegotthatfriendinDinahMorrisatSnowfield,andifyoucometoher,orsendforher,she’llneverforgetthisnightandthewordssheisspeakingtoyounow。Willyourememberit,Hetty?\" \"Yes,\"saidHetty,ratherfrightened。\"ButwhyshouldyouthinkI shallbeintrouble?Doyouknowofanything?\" Hettyhadseatedherselfasshetiedonhercap,andnowDinahleanedforwardsandtookherhandsassheanswered,\"Because,dear,troublecomestousallinthislife:wesetourheartsonthingswhichitisn’tGod’swillforustohave,andthenwegosorrowing;thepeoplewelovearetakenfromus,andwecanjoyinnothingbecausetheyarenotwithus;sicknesscomes,andwefaintundertheburdenofourfeeblebodies;wegoastrayanddowrong,andbringourselvesintotroublewithourfellow-men。Thereisnomanorwomanbornintothisworldtowhomsomeofthesetrialsdonotfall,andsoIfeelthatsomeofthemmusthappentoyou;andIdesireforyou,thatwhileyouareyoungyoushouldseekforstrengthfromyourHeavenlyFather,thatyoumayhaveasupportwhichwillnotfailyouintheevilday。\" DinahpausedandreleasedHetty’shandsthatshemightnothinderher。Hettysatquitestill;shefeltnoresponsewithinherselftoDinah’sanxiousaffection;butDinah’swordsutteredwithsolemnpatheticdistinctness,affectedherwithachillfear。Herflushhaddiedawayalmosttopaleness;shehadthetimidityofaluxuriouspleasure-seekingnature,whichshrinksfromthehintofpain。Dinahsawtheeffect,andhertenderanxiouspleadingbecamethemoreearnest,tillHetty,fullofavaguefearthatsomethingevilwassometimetobefallher,begantocry。 Itisourhabittosaythatwhilethelowernaturecanneverunderstandthehigher,thehighernaturecommandsacompleteviewofthelower。ButIthinkthehighernaturehastolearnthiscomprehension,aswelearntheartofvision,byagooddealofhardexperience,oftenwithbruisesandgashesincurredintakingthingsupbythewrongend,andfancyingourspacewiderthanitis。DinahhadneverseenHettyaffectedinthiswaybefore,and,withherusualbenignanthopefulness,shetrusteditwasthestirringofadivineimpulse。Shekissedthesobbingthing,andbegantocrywithherforgratefuljoy。ButHettywassimplyinthatexcitablestateofmindinwhichthereisnocalculatingwhatturnthefeelingsmaytakefromonemomenttoanother,andforthefirsttimeshebecameirritatedunderDinah’scaress。Shepushedherawayimpatiently,andsaid,withachildishsobbingvoice,\"Don’ttalktomeso,Dinah。Whydoyoucometofrightenme? I’veneverdoneanythingtoyou。Whycan’tyouletmebe?\" PoorDinahfeltapang。Shewastoowisetopersist,andonlysaidmildly,\"Yes,mydear,you’retired;Iwon’thinderyouanylonger。Makehasteandgetintobed。Good-night。\" Shewentoutoftheroomalmostasquietlyandquicklyasifshehadbeenaghost;butoncebythesideofherownbed,shethrewherselfonherkneesandpouredoutindeepsilenceallthepassionatepitythatfilledherheart。 AsforHetty,shewassooninthewoodagain——herwakingdreamsbeingmergedinasleepinglifescarcelymorefragmentaryandconfused。 LinksARTHURDONNITHORNE,youremember,isunderanengagementwithhimselftogoandseeMr。IrwinethisFridaymorning,andheisawakeanddressingsoearlythathedeterminestogobeforebreakfast,insteadofafter。Therector,heknows,breakfastsaloneathalf-pastnine,theladiesofthefamilyhavingadifferentbreakfast-hour;Arthurwillhaveanearlyrideoverthehillandbreakfastwithhim。Onecansayeverythingbestoverameal。 Theprogressofcivilizationhasmadeabreakfastoradinneraneasyandcheerfulsubstituteformoretroublesomeanddisagreeableceremonies。Wetakealessgloomyviewofourerrorsnowourfatherconfessorlistenstousoverhiseggandcoffee。Wearemoredistinctlyconsciousthatrudepenancesareoutofthequestionforgentlemeninanenlightenedage,andthatmortalsinisnotincompatiblewithanappetiteformuffins。Anassaultonourpockets,whichinmorebarbaroustimeswouldhavebeenmadeinthebrusqueformofapistol-shot,isquiteawell-bredandsmilingprocedurenowithasbecomearequestforaloanthrowninasaneasyparenthesisbetweenthesecondandthirdglassesofclaret。 Still,therewasthisadvantageintheoldrigidforms,thattheycommittedyoutothefulfilmentofaresolutionbysomeoutwarddeed:whenyouhaveputyourmouthtooneendofaholeinastonewallandareawarethatthereisanexpectantearattheotherend,youaremorelikelytosaywhatyoucameoutwiththeintentionofsayingthanifyouwereseatedwithyourlegsinaneasyattitudeunderthemahoganywithacompanionwhowillhavenoreasontobesurprisedifyouhavenothingparticulartosay。 However,ArthurDonnithorne,ashewindsamongthepleasantlanesonhorsebackinthemorningsunshine,hasasinceredeterminationtoopenhishearttotherector,andtheswirlingsoundofthescytheashepassesbythemeadowisallthepleasantertohimbecauseofthishonestpurpose。Heisgladtoseethepromiseofsettledweathernow,forgettinginthehay,aboutwhichthefarmershavebeenfearful;andthereissomethingsohealthfulinthesharingofajoythatisgeneralandnotmerelypersonal,thatthisthoughtaboutthehay-harvestreactsonhisstateofmindandmakeshisresolutionseemaneasiermatter。Amanabouttownmightperhapsconsiderthattheseinfluenceswerenottobefeltoutofachild’sstory-book;butwhenyouareamongthefieldsandhedgerows,itisimpossibletomaintainaconsistentsuperioritytosimplenaturalpleasures。 ArthurhadpassedthevillageofHayslopeandwasapproachingtheBroxtonsideofthehill,when,ataturningintheroad,hesawafigureaboutahundredyardsbeforehimwhichitwasimpossibletomistakeforanyoneelsethanAdamBede,eveniftherehadbeennogrey,taillessshepherd-dogathisheels。Hewasstridingalongathisusualrapidpace,andArthurpushedonhishorsetoovertakehim,forheretainedtoomuchofhisboyishfeelingforAdamtomissanopportunityofchattingwithhim。Iwillnotsaythathisloveforthatgoodfellowdidnotowesomeofitsforcetotheloveofpatronage:ourfriendArthurlikedtodoeverythingthatwashandsome,andtohavehishandsomedeedsrecognized。 Adamlookedroundasheheardthequickeningclatterofthehorse’sheels,andwaitedforthehorseman,liftinghispapercapfromhisheadwithabrightsmileofrecognition。NexttohisownbrotherSeth,AdamwouldhavedonemoreforArthurDonnithornethanforanyotheryoungmanintheworld。Therewashardlyanythinghewouldnotratherhavelostthanthetwo-feetrulerwhichhealwayscarriedinhispocket;itwasArthur’spresent,boughtwithhispocket-moneywhenhewasafair-hairedladofeleven,andwhenhehadprofitedsowellbyAdam’slessonsincarpenteringandturningastoembarrasseveryfemaleinthehousewithgiftsofsuperfluousthread-reelsandroundboxes。Adamhadquiteaprideinthelittlesquireinthoseearlydays,andthefeelinghadonlybecomeslightlymodifiedasthefair-hairedladhadgrownintothewhiskeredyoungman。Adam,Iconfess,wasverysusceptibletotheinfluenceofrank,andquitereadytogiveanextraamountofrespecttoeveryonewhohadmoreadvantagesthanhimself,notbeingaphilosopheroraproletairewithdemocraticideas,butsimplyastout-limbedclevercarpenterwlthalargefundofreverenceinhisnature,whichinclinedhimtoadmitallestablishedclaimsunlesshesawverycleargroundsforquestioningthem。Hehadnotheoriesaboutsettingtheworldtorights,buthesawtherewasagreatdealofdamagedonebybuildingwithill-seasonedtimber——byignorantmeninfineclothesmakingplansforouthousesandworkshopsandthelikewithoutknowingthebearingsofthings——byslovenlyjoiners’work,andbyhastycontractsthatcouldneverbefulfilledwithoutruiningsomebody;andheresolved,forhispart,tosethisfaceagainstsuchdoings。OnthesepointshewouldhavemaintainedhisopinionagainstthelargestlandedproprietorinLoamshireorStonyshireeither;buthefeltthatbeyondtheseitwouldbebetterforhimtodefertopeoplewhoweremoreknowingthanhimself。Hesawasplainlyaspossiblehowillthewoodsontheestateweremanaged,andtheshamefulstateofthefarm-buildings;andifoldSquireDonnithornehadaskedhimtheeffectofthismismanagement,hewouldhavespokenhisopinionwithoutflinching,buttheimpulsetoarespectfuldemeanourtowardsa\"gentleman\"wouldhavebeenstrongwithinhimallthewhile。Theword\"gentleman\"hadaspellforAdam,and,asheoftensaid,he\"couldn’tabideafellowwhothoughthemadehimselffinebybeingcoxyto’sbetters。\"ImustremindyouagainthatAdamhadthebloodofthepeasantinhisveins,andthatsincehewasinhisprimehalfacenturyago,youmustexpectsomeofhischaracteristicstobeobsolete。 TowardstheyoungsquirethisinstinctivereverenceofAdam’swasassistedbyboyishmemoriesandpersonalregardsoyoumayimaginethathethoughtfarmoreofArthur’sgoodqualities,andattachedfarmorevaluetoveryslightactionsofhis,thaniftheyhadbeenthequalitiesandactionsofacommonworkmanlikehimself。 HefeltsureitwouldbeafinedayforeverybodyaboutHayslopewhentheyoungsquirecameintotheestate——suchagenerousopen- hearteddispositionashehad,andan\"uncommon\"notionaboutimprovementsandrepairs,consideringhewasonlyjustcomingofage。ThustherewasbothrespectandaffectioninthesmilewithwhichheraisedhispapercapasArthurDonnithornerodeup。 \"Well,Adam,howareyou?\"saidArthur,holdingouthishand。Henevershookhandswithanyofthefarmers,andAdamfeltthehonourkeenly。\"Icouldsweartoyourbackalongwayoff。It’sjustthesameback,onlybroader,aswhenyouusedtocarrymeonit。Doyouremember?\" \"Aye,sir,Iremember。It’udbeapoorlook-outiffolksdidn’trememberwhattheydidandsaidwhentheywerelads。Weshouldthinknomoreaboutoldfriendsthanwedoaboutnewuns,then。\" \"You’regoingtoBroxton,Isuppose?\"saidArthur,puttinghishorseonataslowpacewhileAdamwalkedbyhisside。\"Areyougoingtotherectory?\" \"No,sir,I’mgoingtoseeaboutBradwell’sbarn。They’reafraidoftheroofpushingthewallsout,andI’mgoingtoseewhatcanbedonewithitbeforewesendthestuffandtheworkmen。\" \"Why,Burgetrustsalmosteverythingtoyounow,Adam,doesn’the? Ishouldthinkhewillmakeyouhispartnersoon。Hewill,ifhe’swise。\" \"Nay,sir,Idon’tseeashe’dbemuchthebetteroffforthat。A foreman,ifhe’sgotaconscienceanddelightsinhiswork,willdohisbusinessaswellasifhewasapartner。Iwouldn’tgiveapennyforamanas’uddriveanailinslackbecausehedidn’tgetextrapayforit。\" \"Iknowthat,Adam;Iknowyouworkforhimaswellasifyouwereworkingforyourself。Butyouwouldhavemorepowerthanyouhavenow,andcouldturnthebusinesstobetteraccountperhaps。Theoldmanmustgiveuphisbusinesssometime,andhehasnoson;I supposehe’llwantason-in-lawwhocantaketoit。Buthehasrathergraspingfingersofhisown,Ifancy。Idaresayhewantsamanwhocanputsomemoneyintothebusiness。IfIwerenotaspoorasarat,Iwouldgladlyinvestsomemoneyinthatway,forthesakeofhavingyousettledontheestate。I’msureIshouldprofitbyitintheend。AndperhapsIshallbebetteroffinayearortwo。IshallhavealargerallowancenowI’mofage;andwhenI’vepaidoffadebtortwo,Ishallbeabletolookaboutme。\" \"You’reverygoodtosayso,sir,andI’mnotunthankful。But\"—— Adamcontinued,inadecidedtone——\"Ishouldn’tliketomakeanyofferstoMr。Burge,ort’haveanymadeforme。Iseenoclearroadtoapartnership。Ifheshouldeverwanttodisposeofthebusiness,that’udbeadifferentmatter。Ishouldbegladofsomemoneyatafairinterestthen,forIfeelsureIcouldpayitoffintime。\" \"Verywell,Adam,\"saidArthur,rememberingwhatMr。Irwinehadsaidaboutaprobablehitchinthelove-makingbetweenAdamandMaryBurge,\"we’llsaynomoreaboutitatpresent。Whenisyourfathertobeburied?\" \"OnSunday,sir;Mr。Irwine’scomingearlieronpurpose。Ishallbegladwhenit’sover,forIthinkmymother’ullperhapsgeteasierthen。Itcutsonesadlytoseethegriefofoldpeople; they’venowayo’workingitoff,andthenewspringbringsnonewshootsoutonthewitheredtree。\" \"Ah,you’vehadagooddealoftroubleandvexationinyourlife,Adam。Idon’tthinkyou’veeverbeenhare-brainedandlight- hearted,likeotheryoungsters。You’vealwayshadsomecareonyourmind。\" \"Why,yes,sir;butthat’snothingtomakeafussabout。Ifwe’remenandhavemen’sfeelings,Ireckonwemusthavemen’stroubles。 Wecan’tbelikethebirds,asflyfromtheirnestassoonasthey’vegottheirwings,andneverknowtheirkinwhentheysee’em,andgetafreshloteveryyear。I’vehadenoughtobethankfulfor:I’veallayshadhealthandstrengthandbrainstogivemeadelightinmywork;andIcountitagreatthingasI’vehadBartleMassey’snight-schooltogoto。He’shelpedmetoknowledgeIcouldneverha’gotbymyself。\" \"Whatararefellowyouare,Adam!\"saidArthur,afterapause,inwhichhehadlookedmusinglyatthebigfellowwalkingbyhisside。\"IcouldhitoutbetterthanmostmenatOxford,andyetI believeyouwouldknockmeintonextweekifIweretohaveabaltlewithyou。\" \"GodforbidIshouldeverdothat,sir,\"saidAdam,lookingroundatArthurandsmiling。\"Iusedtofightforfun,butI’veneverdonethatsinceIwasthecauseo’poorGilTranterbeinglaidupforafortnight。I’llneverfightanymanagain,onlywhenhebehaveslikeascoundrel。Ifyougetholdofachapthat’sgotnoshamenorconsciencetostophim,youmusttrywhatyoucandobybunginghiseyesup。\" Arthurdidnotlaugh,forhewaspreoccupiedwithsomethoughtthatmadehimsaypresently,\"Ishouldthinknow,Adam,youneverhaveanystruggleswithinyourself。Ifancyyouwouldmasterawishthatyouhadmadeupyourminditwasnotquiterighttoindulge,aseasilyasyouwouldknockdownadrunkenfellowwhowasquarrelsomewithyou。Imean,youarenevershilly-shally,firstmakingupyourmindthatyouwon’tdoathing,andthendoingitafterall?\" \"Well,\"saidAdam,slowly,afteramoment’shesitation,\"no。I don’tremembereverbeingsee-sawinthatway,whenI’dmademymindup,asyousay,thatathingwaswrong。Ittakesthetasteouto’mymouthforthings,whenIknowIshouldhaveaheavyconscienceafter’em。I’veseenprettyclear,eversinceIcouldcastupasum,asyoucanneverdowhat’swrongwithoutbreedingsinandtroublemorethanyoucaneversee。It’slikeabito’ badworkmanship——youneverseeth’endo’themischiefit’lldo。 Andit’sapoorlook-outtocomeintotheworldtomakeyourfellow-creaturesworseoffinsteado’better。Butthere’sadifferencebetweenthethingsfolkscallwrong。I’mnotformakingasinofeverylittlefool’strick,orbito’nonsenseanybodymaybeletinto,likesomeo’themdissenters。Andamanmayhavetwomindswhetheritisn’tworthwhiletogetabruiseortwoforthesakeofabito’fun。Butitisn’tmywaytobesee- sawaboutanything:Ithinkmyfaultliesth’otherway。WhenI’vesaidathing,ifit’sonlytomyself,it’shardformetogoback。\" \"Yes,that’sjustwhatIexpectedofyou,\"saidArthur。\"You’vegotanironwill,aswellasanironarm。Buthoweverstrongaman’sresolutionmaybe,itcostshimsomethingtocarryitout,nowandthen。Wemaydeterminenottogatheranycherriesandkeepourhandssturdilyinourpockets,butwecan’tpreventourmouthsfromwatering。\" \"That’strue,sir,butthere’snothinglikesettlingwithourselvesasthere’sadealwemustdowithouti’thislife。It’snouselookingonlifeasifitwasTreddles’onFair,wherefolksonlygotoseeshowsandgetfairings。Ifwedo,weshallfinditdifferent。Butwhere’stheuseo’metalkingtoyou,sir?YouknowbetterthanIdo。\" \"I’mnotsosureofthat,Adam。You’vehadfourorfiveyearsofexperiencemorethanI’vehad,andIthinkyourlifehasbeenabetterschooltoyouthancollegehasbeentome。\" \"Why,sir,youseemtothinko’collegesomethinglikewhatBartleMasseydoes。Hesayscollegemostlymakespeoplelikebladders—— justgoodfornothingbutt’holdthestuffasispouredinto’em。 Buthe’sgotatonguelikeasharpblade,Bartlehas——itnevertouchesanythingbutitcuts。Here’stheturning,sir。Imustbidyougood-morning,asyou’regoingtotherectory。\" \"Good-bye,Adam,good-bye。\" Arthurgavehishorsetothegroomattherectorygate,andwalkedalongthegraveltowardsthedoorwhichopenedonthegarden。Heknewthattherectoralwaysbreakfastedinhisstudy,andthestudylayonthelefthandofthisdoor,oppositethedining-room。 Itwasasmalllowroom,belongingtotheoldpartofthehouse—— darkwiththesombrecoversofthebooksthatlinedthewalls;yetitlookedverycheerythismorningasArthurreachedtheopenwindow。Forthemorningsunfellaslantonthegreatglassglobewithgoldfishinit,whichstoodonascagliolapillarinfrontoftheready-spreadbachelorbreakfast-table,andbythesideofthisbreakfast-tablewasagroupwhichwouldhavemadeanyroomenticing。Inthecrimsondamaskeasy-chairsatMr。Irwine,withthatradiantfreshnesswhichhealwayshadwhenhecamefromhismorningtoilet;hisfinelyformedplumpwhitehandwasplayingalongJuno’sbrowncurlyback;andclosetoJuno’stail,whichwaswaggingwithcalmmatronlypleasure,thetwobrownpupswererollingovereachotherinanecstaticduetofworryingnoises。 OnacushionalittleremovedsatPug,withtheairofamaidenlady,wholookedonthesefamiliaritiesasanimalweaknesses,whichshemadeaslittleshowaspossibleofobserving。Onthetable,atMr。Irwine~selbow,laythefirstvolumeoftheFoulisAEschylus,whichArthurknewwellbysight;andthesilvercoffee- pot,whichCarrollwasbringingin,sentforthafragrantsteamwhichcompletedthedelightsofabachelorbreakfast。 \"Hallo,Arthur,that’sagoodfellow!You’rejustintime,\"saidMr。Irwine,asArthurpausedandsteppedinoverthelowwindow- sill。\"Carroll,weshallwantmorecoffeeandeggs,andhaven’tyougotsomecoldfowlforustoeatwiththatham?Why,thisislikeolddays,Arthur;youhaven’tbeentobreakfastwithmethesefiveyears。\" \"Itwasatemptingmorningforaridebeforebreakfast,\"saidArthur;\"andIusedtolikebreakfastingwithyousowhenIwasreadingwithyou。Mygrandfatherisalwaysafewdegreescolderatbreakfastthanatanyotherhourintheday。Ithinkhismorningbathdoesn’tagreewithhim。\" Arthurwasanxiousnottoimplythathecamewithanyspecialpurpose。HehadnosoonerfoundhimselfinMr。Irwine’spresencethantheconfidencewhichhehadthoughtquiteeasybefore,suddenlyappearedthemostdifficultthingintheworldtohim,andattheverymomentofshakinghandshesawhispurposeinquiteanewlight。HowcouldhemakeIrwineunderstandhispositionunlesshetoldhimthoselittlescenesinthewood;andhowcouldhetellthemwithoutlookinglikeafool?AndthenhisweaknessincomingbackfromGawaine’s,anddoingtheveryoppositeofwhatheintended!Irwinewouldthinkhimashilly- shallyfelloweverafter。However,itmustcomeoutinanunpremeditatedway;theconversationmightleaduptoit。 \"Ilikebreakfast-timebetterthananyothermomentintheday,\" saidMr。Irwine。\"Nodusthassettledonone’smindthen,anditpresentsaclearmirrortotheraysofthings。Ialwayshaveafavouritebookbymeatbreakfast,andIenjoythebitsIpickupthensomuch,thatregularlyeverymorningitseemstomeasifI shouldcertainlybecomestudiousagain。ButpresentlyDentbringsupapoorfellowwhohaskilledahare,andwhenI’vegotthroughmy’justicing,’asCarrollcallsit,I’minclinedforarideroundtheglebe,andonmywaybackImeetwiththemasteroftheworkhouse,whohasgotalongstoryofamutinouspaupertotellme;andsothedaygoeson,andI’malwaysthesamelazyfellowbeforeeveningsetsin。Besides,onewantsthestimulusofsympathy,andIhaveneverhadthatsincepoorD’OyleyleftTreddleston。Ifyouhadstucktoyourbookswell,yourascal,I shouldhavehadapleasanterprospectbeforeme。Butscholarshipdoesn’truninyourfamilyblood。\" \"Noindeed。It’swellifIcanrememberalittleinapplicableLatintoadornmymaidenspeechinParliamentsixorsevenyearshence。’Crasingensiterabimusaequor,’andafewshredsofthatsort,willperhapssticktome,andIshallarrangemyopinionssoastointroducethem。ButIdon’tthinkaknowledgeoftheclassicsisapressingwanttoacountrygentleman;asfarasI cansee,he’dmuchbetterhaveaknowledgeofmanures。I’vebeenreadingyourfriendArthurYoung’sbookslately,andthere’snothingIshouldlikebetterthantocarryoutsomeofhisideasinputtingthefarmersonabettermanagementoftheirland;and,ashesays,makingwhatwasawildcountry,allofthesamedarkhue,brightandvariegatedwithcornandcattle。Mygrandfatherwillneverletmehaveanypowerwhilehelives,butthere’snothingIshouldlikebetterthantoundertaketheStonyshiresideoftheestate——it’sinadismalcondition——andsetimprovementsonfoot,andgallopaboutfromoneplacetoanotherandoverlookthem。Ishouldliketoknowallthelabourers,andseethemtouchingtheirhatstomewithalookofgoodwill。\" \"Bravo,Arthur!Amanwhohasnofeelingfortheclassicscouldn’tmakeabetterapologyforcomingintotheworldthanbyincreasingthequantityoffoodtomaintainscholars——andrectorswhoappreciatescholars。AndwheneveryouenteronyourcareerofmodellandlordmayIbetheretosee。You’llwantaportlyrectortocompletethepicture,andtakehistitheofalltherespectandhonouryougetbyyourhardwork。Onlydon’tsetyourhearttoostronglyonthegoodwillyouaretogetinconsequence。I’mnotsurethatmenarethefondestofthosewhotrytobeusefultothem。YouknowGawainehasgotthecursesofthewholeneighbourhooduponhimaboutthatenclosure。Youmustmakeitquitecleartoyourmindwhichyouaremostbentupon,oldboy—— popularityorusefulness——elseyoumayhappentomissboth。\" \"Oh!Gawaineisharshinhismanners;hedoesn’tmakehimselfpersonallyagreeabletohistenants。Idon’tbelievethere’sanythingyoucan’tprevailonpeopletodowithkindness。Formypart,Icouldn’tliveinaneighbourhoodwhereIwasnotrespectedandbeloved。Andit’sverypleasanttogoamongthetenantshere—— theyseemallsowellinclinedtomeIsupposeitseemsonlytheotherdaytothemsinceIwasalittlelad,ridingonaponyaboutasbigasasheep。Andiffairallowancesweremadetothem,andtheirbuildingsattendedto,onecouldpersuadethemtofarmonabetterplan,stupidastheyare。\" \"Thenmindyoufallinloveintherightplace,anddon’tgetawifewhowilldrainyourpurseandmakeyouniggardlyinspiteofyourself。MymotherandIhavealittlediscussionaboutyousometimes:shesays,’IllneverriskasingleprophecyonArthuruntilIseethewomanhefallsinlovewith。’Shethinksyourlady-lovewillruleyouasthemoonrulesthetides。ButIfeelboundtostandupforyou,asmypupilyouknow,andImaintainthatyou’renotofthatwateryquality。Somindyoudon’tdisgracemyjudgment。\"