Hettyheardthewarning。Itrecalledtoherthenecessityofrallyinghernativepowersofconcealment,whichhadhalfgivenwayundertheshockofAdam’swords。Andshehadtheletterinherpocket:shewassuretherewascomfortinthatletterinspiteofAdam。SherantofindTotty,andsoonreappearedwithrecoveredcolour,leadingTotty,whowasmakingasourfacebecauseshehadbeenobligedtothrowawayanunripeapplethatshehadsethersmallteethin。
\"Hegh,Totty,\"saidAdam,\"comeandrideonmyshoulder——eversohigh——you’lltouchthetopso’thetrees。\"
Whatlittlechildeverrefusedtobecomfortedbythatglorioussenseofbeingseizedstronglyandswungupward?Idon’tbelieveGanymedecriedwhentheeaglecarriedhimaway,andperhapsdepositedhimonJove’sshoulderattheend。Tottysmileddowncomplacentlyfromhersecureheight,andpleasantwasthesighttothemother’seyes,asshestoodatthehousedoorandsawAdamcomingwithhissmallburden。
\"Blessyoursweetface,mypet,\"shesaid,themother’sstronglovefillingherkeeneyeswithmildness,asTottyleanedforwardandputoutherarms。ShehadnoeyesforHettyatthatmoment,andonlysaid,withoutlookingather,\"Yougoanddrawsomeale,Hetty;thegellsarebothatthecheese。\"
Afterthealehadbeendrawnandheruncle’spipelighted,therewasTottytobetakentobed,andbroughtdownagaininhernight-
gownbecauseshewouldcryinsteadofgoingtosleep。Thentherewassuppertobegotready,andHettymustbecontinuallyinthewaytogivehelp。AdamstayedtillheknewMrs。Poyserexpectedhimtogo,engagingherandherhusbandintalkasconstantlyashecould,forthesakeofleavingHettymoreatease。Helingered,becausehewantedtoseehersafelythroughthatevening,andhewasdelightedtofindhowmuchself-commandsheshowed。Heknewshehadnothadtimetoreadtheletter,buthedidnotknowshewasbuoyedupbyasecrethopethattheletterwouldcontradicteverythinghehadsaid。Itwashardworkforhimtoleaveher——hardtothinkthatheshouldnotknowfordayshowshewasbearinghertrouble。Buthemustgoatlast,andallhecoulddowastopressherhandgentlyashesaid\"Good-bye,\"andhopeshewouldtakethatasasignthatifhislovecouldeverbearefugeforher,itwastherethesameasever。Howbusyhisthoughtswere,ashewalkedhome,indevisingpityingexcusesforherfolly,inreferringallherweaknesstothesweetlovingnessofhernature,inblamingArthur,withlessandlessinclinationtoadmitthathisconductmightbeextenuatedtoo!HisexasperationatHetty’ssuffering——andalsoatthesensethatshewaspossiblythrustforeveroutofhisownreach——deafenedhimtoanypleaforthemiscalledfriendwhohadwroughtthismisery。
Adamwasaclear-sighted,fair-mindedman——afinefellow,indeed,morallyaswellasphysically。ButifAristidestheJustwaseverinloveandjealous,hewasatthatmomentnotperfectlymagnanimous。AndIcannotpretendthatAdam,inthesepainfuldays,feltnothingbutrighteousindignationandlovingpity。Hewasbitterlyjealous,andinproportionashislovemadehimindulgentinhisjudgmentofHetty,thebitternessfoundaventinhisfeelingtowardsArthur。
\"Herheadwasallayslikelytobeturned,\"hethought,\"whenagentleman,withhisfinemanners,andfineclothes,andhiswhitehands,andthatwayo’talkinggentlefolkshave,cameabouther,makinguptoherinaboldway,asamancouldn’tdothatwasonlyherequal;andit’smuchifshe’lleverlikeacommonmannow。\"
Hecouldnothelpdrawinghisownhandsoutofhispocketandlookingatthem——atthehardpalmsandthebrokenfinger-nails。
\"I’maroughishfellow,altogether;Idon’tknow,nowIcometothinkon’t,whatthereismuchforawomantolikeaboutme;andyetImightha’gotanotherwifeeasyenough,ifIhadn’tsetmyheartonher。Butit’slittlematterwhatotherwomenthinkaboutme,ifshecan’tloveme。Shemightha’lovedme,perhaps,aslikelyasanyotherman——there’snobodyhereaboutsasI’mafraidof,ifhehadn’tcomebetweenus;butnowIshallbelikebehatefultoherbecauseI’msodifferenttohim。Andyetthere’snotelling——shemayturnroundtheotherway,whenshefindshe’smadelightofherallthewhile。Shemaycometofeelthevallyofamanas’udbethankfultobeboundtoherallhislife。ButImustputupwithitwhicheverwayitis——I’veonlytobethankfulit’sbeennoworse。Iamnotth’onlymanthat’sgottodowithoutmuchhappinessi’thislife。There’smanyagoodbito’workdonewithabadheart。It’sGod’swill,andthat’senoughforus:weshouldn’tknowbetterhowthingsoughttobethanHedoes,Ireckon,ifwewastospendourlivesi’puzzling。Butit’udha’goneneartospoilmyworkforme,ifI’dseenherbroughttosorrowandshame,andthroughthemanasI’vealwaysbeenproudtothinkon。SinceI’vebeensparedthat,I’venorighttogrumble。Whenaman’sgothislimbswhole,hecanbearasmartcutortwo。\"
AsAdamwasgettingoverastileatthispointinhisreflections,heperceivedamanwalkingalongthefieldbeforehim。HeknewitwasSeth,returningfromaneveningpreaching,andmadehastetoovertakehim。
\"Ithoughtthee’dstbeathomebeforeme,\"hesaid,asSethturnedroundtowaitforhim,\"forI’mlaterthanusualto-night。\"
\"Well,I’mlatertoo,forIgotintotalk,aftermeeting,withJohnBarnes,whohaslatelyprofessedhimselfinastateofperfection,andI’daquestiontoaskhimabouthisexperience。
It’soneo’themsubjectsthatleadyoufurtherthany’expect——
theydon’tliealongthestraightroad。\"
Theywalkedalongtogetherinsilencetwoorthreeminutes。Adamwasnotinclinedtoenterintothesubtletiesofreligiousexperience,buthewasinclinedtointerchangeawordortwoofbrotherlyaffectionandconfidencewithSeth。Thatwasarareimpulseinhim,muchasthebrotherslovedeachother。Theyhardlyeverspokeofpersonalmatters,orutteredmorethananallusiontotheirfamilytroubles。Adamwasbynaturereservedinallmattersoffeeling,andSethfeltacertaintimiditytowardshismorepracticalbrother。
\"Seth,lad,\"Adamsaid,puttinghisarmonhisbrother’sshoulder,\"hastheardanythingfromDinahMorrissinceshewentaway?\"
\"Yes,\"saidSeth。\"ShetoldmeImightwriteherwordafterawhile,howwewenton,andhowmotherboreupunderhertrouble。
SoIwrotetoherafortnightago,andtoldherabouttheehavinganewemployment,andhowMotherwasmorecontented;andlastWednesday,whenIcalledatthepostatTreddles’on,Ifoundaletterfromher。Ithinkthee’dstperhapsliketoreadit,butI
didnasayanythingaboutitbecausethee’stseemedsofullofotherthings。It’squiteeasyt’read——shewriteswonderfulforawoman。\"
SethhaddrawntheletterfromhispocketandhelditouttoAdam,whosaid,ashetookit,\"Aye,lad,I’vegotatoughloadtocarryjustnow——theemustnatakeitillifI’mabitsilenterandcrustiernorusual。Troubledoesnamakemecarethelessforthee。Iknowweshallsticktogethertothelast。\"
\"Itakenoughtillo’thee,Adam。Iknowwellenoughwhatitmeansifthee’tabitshortwi’menowandthen。\"
\"There’sMotheropeningthedoortolookoutforus,\"saidAdam,astheymountedtheslope。\"She’sbeensittingi’thedarkasusual。Well,Gyp,well,artgladtoseeme?\"
Lisbethwentinagainquicklyandlightedacandle,forshehadheardthewelcomerustlingoffootstepsonthegrass,beforeGyp’sjoyfulbark。
\"Eh,mylads!Th’hourswarne’ersolongsin’Iwarbornasthey’nbeenthisblessedSundaynight。Whatcanyebothha’beendoin’tillthistime?\"
\"Theeshouldstnasiti’thedark,Mother,\"saidAdam;\"thatmakesthetimeseemlonger。\"
\"Eh,whatamItodowi’burnin’candleofaSunday,whenthere’son’ymean’it’ssintodoabito’knittin’?Thedaylight’slongenoughformetostarei’thebookeasIcannaread。It’udbeafinewayo’shortenin’thetime,tomakeitwastethegoodcandle。
Butwhichonyou’sforha’in’supper?Yemunaytherbeclemmedorfull,Ishouldthink,seein’whattimeo’nightitis。\"
\"I’mhungry,Mother,\"saidSeth,seatinghimselfatthelittletable,whichhadbeenspreadeversinceitwaslight。
\"I’vehadmysupper,\"saidAdam。\"Here,Gyp,\"headded,takingsomecoldpotatofromthetableandrubbingtheroughgreyheadthatlookeduptowardshim。
\"Theeneedstnabegi’in’th’dog,\"saidLisbeth;\"I’nfedhimwella’ready。I’mnotliketoforgethim,Ireckon,whenhe’sallo’
theeIcangetsighton。\"
\"Come,then,Gyp,\"saidAdam,\"we’llgotobed。Good-night,Mother;I’mverytired。\"
\"Whatailshim,dostknow?\"LisbethsaidtoSeth,whenAdamwasgoneupstairs。\"He’slikeasifhewasstruckfordeaththisdayortwo——he’ssocastdown。Ifoundhimi’theshopthisforenoon,artertheewastgone,a-sittin’an’doin’nothin’——notsomuchasabookeaforehim。\"
\"He’sadealo’workuponhimjustnow,Mother,\"saidSeth,\"andI
thinkhe’sabittroubledinhismind。Don’tyoutakenoticeofit,becauseithurtshimwhenyoudo。Beaskindtohimasyoucan,Mother,anddon’tsayanythingtovexhim。\"
\"Eh,whatdosttalko’myvexin’him?An’whatamIliketobebutkind?I’llma’himakettle-cakeforbreakfasti’themornin’。\"
Adam,meanwhile,wasreadingDinah’sletterbythelightofhisdipcandle。
DEARBROTHERSETH——Yourletterlaythreedaysbeyondmyknowingofitatthepost,forIhadnotmoneyenoughbymetopaythecarriage,thisbeingatimeofgreatneedandsicknesshere,withtherainsthathavefallen,asifthewindowsofheavenwereopenedagain;andtolaybymoney,fromdaytoday,insuchatime,whentherearesomanyinpresentneedofallthings,wouldbeawantoftrustlikethelayingupofthemanna。Ispeakofthis,becauseIwouldnothaveyouthinkmeslowtoanswer,orthatIhadsmalljoyinyourrejoicingattheworldlygoodthathasbefallenyourbrotherAdam。Thehonourandloveyoubearhimisnothingbutmeet,forGodhasgivenhimgreatgifts,andheusesthemasthepatriarchJosephdid,who,whenhewasexaltedtoaplaceofpowerandtrust,yetyearnedwithtendernesstowardshisparentandhisyoungerbrother。
\"Myheartisknittoyouragedmothersinceitwasgrantedmetobenearherinthedayoftrouble。Speaktoherofme,andtellherIoftenbearherinmythoughtsateveningtime,whenIamsittinginthedimlightasIdidwithher,andweheldoneanother’shands,andIspokethewordsofcomfortthatweregiventome。Ah,thatisablessedtime,isn’tit,Seth,whentheoutwardlightisfading,andthebodyisalittleweariedwithitsworkanditslabour。Thentheinwardlightshinesthebrighter,andwehaveadeepersenseofrestingontheDivinestrength。I
sitonmychairinthedarkroomandclosemyeyes,anditisasifIwasoutofthebodyandcouldfeelnowantforevermore。Forthen,theveryhardship,andthesorrow,andtheblindness,andthesinIhavebeheldandbeenreadytoweepover——yea,alltheanguishofthechildrenofmen,whichsometimeswrapsmeroundlikesuddendarkness——Icanbearwithawillingpain,asifIwassharingtheRedeemer’scross。ForIfeelit,Ifeelit——infiniteloveissufferingtoo——yea,inthefulnessofknowledgeitsuffers,ityearns,itmourns;andthatisablindself-seekingwhichwantstobefreedfromthesorrowwherewiththewholecreationgroanethandtravaileth。Surelyitisnottrueblessednesstobefreefromsorrow,whilethereissorrowandsinintheworld:sorrowisthenapartoflove,andlovedoesnotseektothrowitoff。Itisnotthespiritonlythattellsmethis——IseeitinthewholeworkandwordoftheGospel。Istherenotpleadinginheaven?IsnottheManofSorrowsthereinthatcrucifiedbodywherewithheascended?AndisHenotonewiththeInfiniteLoveitself——asourloveisonewithoursorrow?
\"Thesethoughtshavebeenmuchborneinonmeoflate,andIhaveseenwithnewclearnessthemeaningofthosewords,’Ifanymanloveme,lethimtakeupmycross。’IhaveheardthisenlargedonasifitmeantthetroublesandpersecutionswebringonourselvesbyconfessingJesus。Butsurelythatisanarrowthought。ThetruecrossoftheRedeemerwasthesinandsorrowofthisworld——
thatwaswhatlayheavyonhisheart——andthatisthecrossweshallsharewithhim,thatisthecupwemustdrinkofwithhim,ifwewouldhaveanypartinthatDivineLovewhichisonewithhissorrow。
\"Inmyoutwardlot,whichyouaskabout,Ihaveallthingsandabound。Ihavehadconstantworkinthemill,thoughsomeoftheotherhandshavebeenturnedoffforatime,andmybodyisgreatlystrengthened,sothatIfeellittlewearinessafterlongwalkingandspeaking。Whatyousayaboutstayinginyourowncountrywithyourmotherandbrothershowsmethatyouhaveatrueguidance;yourlotisappointedtherebyaclearshowing,andtoseekagreaterblessingelsewherewouldbelikelayingafalseofferingonthealtarandexpectingthefirefromheaventokindleit。Myworkandmyjoyarehereamongthehills,andIsometimesthinkIclingtoomuchtomylifeamongthepeoplehere,andshouldberebelliousifIwascalledaway。
\"IwasthankfulforyourtidingsaboutthedearfriendsattheHallFarm,forthoughIsentthemaletter,bymyaunt’sdesire,afterIcamebackfrommysojournamongthem,Ihavehadnowordfromthem。Myaunthasnotthepenofareadywriter,andtheworkofthehouseissufficientfortheday,forsheisweakinbody。Myheartcleavestoherandherchildrenasthenearestofalltomeintheflesh——yea,andtoallinthathouse。Iamcarriedawaytothemcontinuallyinmysleep,andofteninthemidstofwork,andevenofspeech,thethoughtofthemisborneinonmeasiftheywereinneedandtrouble,whichyetisdarktome。Theremaybesomeleadinghere;butIwaittobetaught。Yousaytheyareallwell。
\"Weshallseeeachotheragaininthebody,Itrust,though,itmaybe,notforalongwhile;forthebrethrenandsistersatLeedsaredesiroustohavemeforashortspaceamongthem,whenI
haveadooropenedmeagaintoleaveSnowfield。
\"Farewell,dearbrother——andyetnotfarewell。ForthosechildrenofGodwhomithasbeengrantedtoseeeachotherfacetoface,andtoholdcommuniontogether,andtofeelthesamespiritworkinginbothcannevermorebesunderedthoughthehillsmayliebetween。Fortheirsoulsareenlargedforevermorebythatunion,andtheybearoneanotheraboutintheirthoughtscontinuallyasitwereanewstrength——YourfaithfulSisterandfellow-workerinChrist,DINAHMORRIS。\"
\"Ihavenotskilltowritethewordssosmallasyoudoandmypenmovesslow。AndsoIamstraitened,andsaybutlittleofwhatisinmymind。Greetyourmotherformewithakiss。Sheaskedmetokisshertwicewhenweparted。\"
Adamhadrefoldedtheletter,andwassittingmeditativelywithhisheadrestingonhisarmattheheadofthebed,whenSethcameupstairs。
\"Hastreadtheletter?\"saidSeth。
\"Yes,\"saidAdam。\"Idon’tknowwhatIshouldha’thoughtofherandherletterifI’dneverseenher:IdaresayIshouldha’
thoughtapreachingwomanhateful。Butshe’soneasmakeseverythingseemrightshesaysanddoes,andIseemedtoseeherandhearherspeakingwhenIreadtheletter。It’swonderfulhowIrememberherlooksandhervoice。She’dmaketheerareandhappy,Seth;she’sjustthewomanforthee。\"
\"It’snousethinkingo’that,\"saidSeth,despondingly。\"Shespokesofirm,andshe’snotthewomantosayonethingandmeananother。\"
\"Nay,butherfeelingsmaygrowdifferent。Awomanmaygettolovebydegrees——thebestfiredosnaflareupthesoonest。I’dhavetheegoandseeherbyandby:I’dmakeitconvenientfortheetobeawaythreeorfourdays,andit’udbenowalkforthee——onlybetweentwentyandthirtymile。\"
\"Ishouldliketoseeheragain,whetherorno,ifshewouldnabedispleasedwithmeforgoing,\"saidSeth。
\"She’llbenonedispleased,\"saidAdamemphatically,gettingupandthrowingoffhiscoat。\"Itmightbeagreathappinesstousallifshe’dhavethee,formothertooktohersowonderfulandseemedsocontentedtobewithher。\"
\"Aye,\"saidSeth,rathertimidly,\"andDinah’sfondo’Hettytoo;
shethinksadealabouther。\"
Adammadenoreplytothat,andnootherwordbut\"good-night\"
passedbetweenthem。
InHetty’sBed-ChamberITwasnolongerlightenoughtogotobedwithoutacandle,eveninMrs。Poyser’searlyhousehold,andHettycarriedonewithherasshewentupatlasttoherbedroomsoonafterAdamwasgone,andboltedthedoorbehindher。
Nowshewouldreadherletter。Itmust——itmusthavecomfortinit。HowwasAdamtoknowthetruth?Itwasalwayslikelyheshouldsaywhathedidsay。
Shesetdownthecandleandtookouttheletter。Ithadafaintscentofroses,whichmadeherfeelasifArthurwereclosetoher。Sheputittoherlips,andarushofrememberedsensationsforamomentortwosweptawayallfear。Butherheartbegantoflutterstrangely,andherhandstotrembleasshebroketheseal。
Shereadslowly;itwasnoteasyforhertoreadagentleman’shandwriting,thoughArthurhadtakenpainstowriteplainly。
\"DEARESTHETTY——IhavespokentrulywhenIhavesaidthatIlovedyou,andIshallneverforgetourlove。Ishallbeyourtruefriendaslongaslifelasts,andIhopetoprovethistoyouinmanyways。IfIsayanythingtopainyouinthisletter,donotbelieveitisforwantofloveandtendernesstowardsyou,forthereisnothingIwouldnotdoforyou,ifIknewittobereallyforyourhappiness。IcannotbeartothinkofmylittleHettysheddingtearswhenIamnottheretokissthemaway;andifI
followedonlymyowninclinations,Ishouldbewithheratthismomentinsteadofwriting。Itisveryhardformetopartfromher——harderstillformetowritewordswhichmayseemunkind,thoughtheyspringfromthetruestkindness。
\"Dear,dearHetty,sweetasourlovehasbeentome,sweetasitwouldbetomeforyoutolovemealways,Ifeelthatitwouldhavebeenbetterforusbothifwehadneverhadthathappiness,andthatitismydutytoaskyoutolovemeandcareformeaslittleasyoucan。Thefaulthasallbeenmine,forthoughIhavebeenunabletoresistthelongingtobenearyou,Ihavefeltallthewhilethatyouraffectionformemightcauseyougrief。I
oughttohaveresistedmyfeelings。Ishouldhavedoneso,ifI
hadbeenabetterfellowthanIam;butnow,sincethepastcannotbealtered,IamboundtosaveyoufromanyevilthatIhavepowertoprevent。AndIfeelitwouldbeagreatevilforyouifyouraffectionscontinuedsofixedonmethatyoucouldthinkofnoothermanwhomightbeabletomakeyouhappierbyhislovethanI
evercan,andifyoucontinuedtolooktowardssomethinginthefuturewhichcannotpossiblyhappen。For,dearHetty,ifIweretodowhatyouonedayspokeof,andmakeyoumywife,Ishoulddowhatyouyourselfwouldcometofeelwasforyourmiseryinsteadofyourwelfare。Iknowyoucanneverbehappyexceptbymarryingamaninyourownstation;andifIweretomarryyounow,I
shouldonlybeaddingtoanywrongIhavedone,besidesoffendingagainstmydutyintheotherrelationsoflife。Youknownothing,dearHetty,oftheworldinwhichImustalwayslive,andyouwouldsoonbegintodislikeme,becausetherewouldbesolittleinwhichweshouldbealike。
\"AndsinceIcannotmarryyou,wemustpart——wemusttrynottofeellikeloversanymore。IammiserablewhileIsaythis,butnothingelsecanbe。Beangrywithme,mysweetone,Ideserveit;butdonotbelievethatIshallnotalwayscareforyou——
alwaysbegratefultoyou——alwaysremembermyHetty;andifanytroubleshouldcomethatwedonotnowforesee,trustinmetodoeverythingthatliesinmypower。
\"Ihavetoldyouwhereyouaretodirectaletterto,ifyouwanttowrite,butIputitdownbelowlestyoushouldhaveforgotten。
DonotwriteunlessthereissomethingIcanreallydoforyou;
for,dearHetty,wemusttrytothinkofeachotheraslittleaswecan。Forgiveme,andtrytoforgeteverythingaboutme,exceptthatIshallbe,aslongasIlive,youraffectionatefriend,ARTHURDONNITHORNE。
SlowlyHettyhadreadthisletter;andwhenshelookedupfromittherewasthereflectionofablanchedfaceintheolddimglass——
awhitemarblefacewithroundedchildishforms,butwithsomethingsadderthanachild’spaininit。Hettydidnotseetheface——shesawnothing——sheonlyfeltthatshewascoldandsickandtrembling。Thelettershookandrustledinherhand。Shelaiditdown。Itwasahorriblesensation——thiscoldandtrembling。Itsweptawaytheveryideasthatproducedit,andHettygotuptoreachawarmcloakfromherclothes-press,wrappeditroundher,andsatasifshewerethinkingofnothingbutgettingwarm。Presentlyshetookuptheletterwithafirmerhand,andbegantoreaditthroughagain。Thetearscamethistime——greatrushingtearsthatblindedherandblotchedthepaper。
ShefeltnothingbutthatArthurwascruel——crueltowriteso,cruelnottomarryher。Reasonswhyhecouldnotmarryherhadnoexistenceforhermind;howcouldshebelieveinanymiserythatcouldcometoherfromthefulfilmentofallshehadbeenlongingforanddreamingof?Shehadnottheideasthatcouldmakeupthenotionofthatmisery。
Asshethrewdowntheletteragain,shecaughtsightofherfaceintheglass;itwasreddenednow,andwetwithtears;itwasalmostlikeacompanionthatshemightcomplainto——thatwouldpityher。Sheleanedforwardonherelbows,andlookedintothosedarkoverfloodingeyesandatthequiveringmouth,andsawhowthetearscamethickerandthicker,andhowthemouthbecameconvulsedwithsobs。
Theshatteringofallherlittledream-world,thecrushingblowonhernew-bornpassion,afflictedherpleasure-cravingnaturewithanoverpoweringpainthatannihilatedallimpulsetoresistance,andsuspendedheranger。Shesatsobbingtillthecandlewentout,andthen,wearied,aching,stupefiedwithcrying,threwherselfonthebedwithoutundressingandwenttosleep。
TherewasafeebledawnintheroomwhenHettyawoke,alittleafterfouro’clock,withasenseofdullmisery,thecauseofwhichbrokeuponhergraduallyasshebegantodiscerntheobjectsroundherinthedimlight。Andthencamethefrighteningthoughtthatshehadtoconcealhermiseryaswellastobearit,inthisdrearydaylightthatwascoming。Shecouldlienolonger。Shegotupandwenttowardsthetable:therelaytheletter。Sheopenedhertreasure-drawer:therelaytheear-ringsandthelocket——thesignsofallhershorthappiness——thesignsofthelifelongdrearinessthatwastofollowit。Lookingatthelittletrinketswhichshehadonceeyedandfingeredsofondlyastheearnestofherfutureparadiseoffinery,shelivedbackinthemomentswhentheyhadbeengiventoherwithsuchtendercaresses,suchstrangelyprettywords,suchglowinglooks,whichfilledherwithabewilderingdelicioussurprise——theyweresomuchsweeterthanshehadthoughtanythingcouldbe。AndtheArthurwhohadspokentoherandlookedatherinthisway,whowaspresentwithhernow——whosearmshefeltroundher,hischeekagainsthers,hisverybreathuponher——wasthecruel,cruelArthurwhohadwrittenthatletter,thatletterwhichshesnatchedandcrushedandthenopenedagain,thatshemightreaditoncemore。Thehalf-benumbedmentalconditionwhichwastheeffectofthelastnight’sviolentcryingmadeitnecessarytohertolookagainandseeifherwretchedthoughtswereactuallytrue——iftheletterwasreallysocruel。Shehadtoholditclosetothewindow,elseshecouldnothavereaditbythefaintlight。Yes!Itwasworse——itwasmorecruel。Shecrusheditupagaininanger。Shehatedthewriterofthatletter——hatedhimfortheveryreasonthatshehunguponhimwithallherlove——allthegirlishpassionandvanitythatmadeupherlove。
Shehadnotearsthismorning。Shehadweptthemallawaylastnight,andnowshefeltthatdry-eyedmorningmisery,whichisworsethanthefirstshockbecauseithasthefutureinitaswellasthepresent。Everymorningtocome,asfarasherimaginationcouldstretch,shewouldhavetogetupandfeelthatthedaywouldhavenojoyforher。Forthereisnodespairsoabsoluteasthatwhichcomeswiththefirstmomentsofourfirstgreatsorrow,whenwehavenotyetknownwhatitistohavesufferedandbehealed,tohavedespairedandtohaverecoveredhope。AsHettybeganlanguidlytotakeofftheclothesshehadwornallthenight,thatshemightwashherselfandbrushherhair,shehadasickeningsensethatherlifewouldgooninthisway。Sheshouldalwaysbedoingthingsshehadnopleasurein,gettinguptotheoldtasksofwork,seeingpeopleshecarednothingabout,goingtochurch,andtoTreddleston,andtoteawithMrs。Best,andcarryingnohappythoughtwithher。Forhershortpoisonousdelightshadspoiledforeverallthelittlejoysthathadoncemadethesweetnessofherlife——thenewfrockreadyforTreddlestonFair,thepartyatMr。Britton’satBroxtonwake,thebeauxthatshewouldsay\"No\"toforalongwhile,andtheprospectoftheweddingthatwastocomeatlastwhenshewouldhaveasilkgownandagreatmanyclothesallatonce。Thesethingswereallflatanddrearytohernow;everythingwouldbeaweariness,andshewouldcarryaboutforeverahopelessthirstandlonging。
Shepausedinthemidstofherlanguidundressingandleanedagainstthedarkoldclothes-press。Herneckandarmswerebare,herhairhungdownindelicaterings——andtheywerejustasbeautifulastheywerethatnighttwomonthsago,whenshewalkedupanddownthisbed-chamberglowingwithvanityandhope。Shewasnotthinkingofherneckandarmsnow;evenherownbeautywasindifferenttoher。Hereyeswanderedsadlyoverthedulloldchamber,andthenlookedoutvacantlytowardsthegrowingdawn。
DidaremembranceofDinahcomeacrosshermind?Ofherforebodingwords,whichhadmadeherangry?OfDinah’saffectionateentreatytothinkofherasafriendintrouble?No,theimpressionhadbeentooslighttorecur。AnyaffectionorcomfortDinahcouldhavegivenherwouldhavebeenasindifferenttoHettythismorningaseverythingelsewasexceptherbruisedpassion。Shewasonlythinkingshecouldneverstayhereandgoonwiththeoldlife——shecouldbetterbearsomethingquitenewthansinkingbackintotheoldeverydayround。Shewouldliketorunawaythatverymorning,andneverseeanyoftheoldfacesagain。ButHetty’swasnotanaturetofacedifficulties——todaretolooseherholdonthefamiliarandrushblindlyonsomeunknowncondition。Herswasaluxuriousandvainnature——notapassionateone——andifshewereevertotakeanyviolentmeasure,shemustbeurgedtoitbythedesperationofterror。Therewasnotmuchroomforherthoughtstotravelinthenarrowcircleofherimagination,andshesoonfixedontheonethingshewoulddotogetawayfromheroldlife:shewouldaskheruncletolethergotobealady’smaid。MissLydia’smaidwouldhelphertogetasituation,ifshekrewHettyhadheruncle’sleave。
Whenshehadthoughtofthis,shefastenedupherhairandbegantowash:itseemedmorepossibletohertogodownstairsandtrytobehaveasusual。Shewouldaskherunclethisveryday。OnHetty’sbloominghealthitwouldtakeagreatdealofsuchmentalsufferingasherstoleaveanydeepimpress;andwhenshewasdressedasneatlyasusualinherworking-dress,withherhairtuckedupunderherlittlecap,anindifferentobserverwouldhavebeenmorestruckwiththeyoungroundnessofhercheekandneckandthedarknessofhereyesandeyelashesthanwithanysignsofsadnessabouther。Butwhenshetookupthecrushedletterandputitinherdrawer,thatshemightlockitoutofsight,hardsmartingtears,havingnoreliefinthemasthegreatdropshadthatfelllastnight,forcedtheirwayintohereyes。Shewipedthemawayquickly:shemustnotcryintheday-time。Nobodyshouldfindouthowmiserableshewas,nobodyshouldknowshewasdisappointedaboutanything;andthethoughtthattheeyesofherauntandunclewouldbeuponhergavehertheself-commandwhichoftenaccompaniesagreatdread。ForHettylookedoutfromhersecretmiserytowardsthepossibilityoftheireverknowingwhathadhappened,asthesickandwearyprisonermightthinkofthepossiblepillory。Theywouldthinkherconductshameful,andshamewastorture。ThatwaspoorlittleHetty’sconscience。
Soshelockedupherdrawerandwentawaytoherearlywork。
Intheevening,whenMr。Poyserwassmokinghispipe,andhisgood-naturewasthereforeatitssuperlativemoment,Hettyseizedtheopportunityofheraunt’sabsencetosay,\"Uncle,Iwishyou’dletmegoforalady’smaid。\"
Mr。PoysertookthepipefromhismouthandlookedatHettyinmildsurpriseforsomemoments。Shewassewing,andwentonwithherworkindustriously。
\"Why,what’sputthatintoyourhead,mywench?\"hesaidatlast,afterhehadgivenoneconservativepuff。
\"Ishouldlikeit——Ishouldlikeitbetterthanfarm-work。\"
\"Nay,nay;youfancysobecauseyoudonnaknowit,mywench。Itwouldn’tbehalfsogoodforyourhealth,norforyourlucki’
life。I’dlikeyoutostaywi’ustillyou’vegotagoodhusband:
you’remyownniece,andIwouldn’thaveyougotoservice,thoughitwasagentleman’shouse,aslongasI’vegotahomeforyou。\"
Mr。Poyserpaused,andpuffedawayathispipe。
\"Iliketheneedlework,\"saidHetty,\"andIshouldgetgoodwages。\"
\"Hasyourauntbeenabitsharpwi’you?\"saidMr。Poyser,notnoticingHetty’sfurtherargument。\"Youmustnamindthat,mywench——shedoesitforyourgood。Shewishesyouwell;an’thereisn’tmanyauntsasarenokintoyou’udha’donebyyouasshehas。\"
\"No,itisn’tmyaunt,\"saidHetty,\"butIshouldliketheworkbetter。\"
\"Itwasallverywellforyoutolearntheworkabit——an’Igevmyconsenttothatfastenough,sin’Mrs。Pomfretwaswillingtoteachyou。Forifanythingwast’happen,it’swelltoknowhowtoturnyourhandtodifferentsortso’things。ButInivermeantyoutogotoservice,mywench;myfamily’satetheirownbreadandcheeseasfurbackasanybodyknows,hannathey,Father?Youwouldnalikeyourgrand-childtotakewage?\"
\"Na-a-y,\"saidoldMartin,withanelongationoftheword,meanttomakeitbitteraswellasnegative,whileheleanedforwardandlookeddownonthefloor。\"Butthewenchtakesarterhermother。
I’dhardworkt’houldHERin,an’shemarriedi’spiteo’me——afellerwi’on’ytwoheado’stockwhenthereshouldha’beentenon’sfarm——shemightwelldieo’th’inflammationaforeshewarthirty。\"
Itwasseldomtheoldmanmadesolongaspeech,buthisson’squestionhadfallenlikeabitofdryfuelontheembersofalongunextinguishedresentment,whichhadalwaysmadethegrandfathermoreindifferenttoHettythantohisson’schildren。Hermother’sfortunehadbeenspentbythatgood-for-noughtSorrel,andHettyhadSorrel’sbloodinherveins。
\"Poorthing,poorthing!\"saidMartintheyounger,whowassorrytohaveprovokedthisretrospectiveharshness。\"She’dbutbadluck。ButHetty’sgotasgoodachanceo’gettingasolid,soberhusbandasanygelli’thiscountry。\"
Afterthrowingoutthispregnanthint,Mr。Poyserrecurredtohispipeandhissilence,lookingatHettytoseeifshedidnotgivesomesignofhavingrenouncedherill-advisedwish。Butinsteadofthat,Hetty,inspiteofherself,begantocry,halfoutofilltemperatthedenial,halfoutoftheday’srepressedsadness。
\"Hegh,hegh!\"saidMr。Poyser,meaningtocheckherplayfully,\"don’tlet’shaveanycrying。Crying’sforthemasha’gotnohome,notforthemaswanttogetrido’one。Whatdostthink?\"
hecontinuedtohiswife,whonowcamebackintothehouse-place,knittingwithfiercerapidity,asifthatmovementwereanecessaryfunction,likethetwitteringofacrab’santennae。
\"Think?Why,Ithinkweshallhavethefowlstolebeforewearemucholder,wi’thatgellforgettingtolockthepensupo’
nights。What’sthematternow,Hetty?Whatareyoucryingat?\"
\"Why,she’sbeenwantingtogoforalady’smaid,\"saidMr。
Poyser。\"Itellherwecandobetterforhernorthat。\"
\"Ithoughtshe’dgotsomemaggotinherhead,she’sgoneaboutwi’
hermouthbuttonedupsoallday。It’sallwi’goingsoamongthemservantsattheChase,aswewarfoolsforlettingher。Shethinksit’udbeafinerlifethanbeingwi’themasareakintoherandha’broughtherupsin’shewarnobiggernorMarty。Shethinksthere’snothingbelongstobeingalady’smaidbutwearingfinerclothesnorshewasbornto,I’llbebound。It’swhatragshecangettostickonherasshe’sthinkingonfrommorningtillnight,asIoftenaskherifshewouldn’tliketobethemawkini’
thefield,forthenshe’dbemadeo’ragsinsideandout。I’llnevergi’myconsenttohergoingforalady’smaid,whileshe’sgotgoodfriendstotakecareonhertillshe’smarriedtosomebodybetternoroneo’themvalets,asisneitheracommonmannoragentleman,an’mustliveonthefato’theland,an’slikeenoughtostickhishandsunderhiscoat-tailsandexpecthiswifetoworkforhim。\"
\"Aye,aye,\"saidMr。Poyser,\"wemusthaveabetterhusbandforhernorthat,andthere’sbetterathand。Come,mywench,giveovercryingandgettobed。I’lldobetterforyounorlettingyougoforalady’smaid。Let’shearnomoreon’t。\"
WhenHettywasgoneupstairshesaid,\"Icannamakeitoutassheshouldwanttogoaway,forIthoughtshe’dgotamindt’AdamBede。She’slookedlikeito’late。\"
\"Eh,there’snoknowingwhatshe’sgotalikingto,forthingstakenomoreholdonherthanifshewasadriedpea。Ibelievethatgell,Molly——asisaggravatin’enough,forthemattero’
that——butIbelieveshe’dcaremoreaboutleavingusandthechildren,forallshe’sbeenherebutayearcomeMichaelmas,norHettywould。Butshe’sgotthisnotiono’beingalady’smaidwi’
goingamongthemservants——wemightha’knownwhatit’udleadtowhenwelethergotolearnthefinework。ButI’llputastoptoitprettyquick。\"
\"Thee’dstbesorrytopartwi’her,ifitwasn’tforhergood,\"
saidMr。Poyser。\"She’susefultotheei’thework。\"
\"Sorry?Yes,I’mfonderonhernorshedeserves——alittlehard-
heartedhussy,wantingtoleaveusi’thatway。Ican’tha’hadheraboutmethesesevenyear,Ireckon,anddoneforher,andtaughthereverythingwi’outcaringabouther。An’hereI’mhavinglinenspun,an’thinkingallthewhileit’llmakesheetingandtable-clothingforherwhenshe’smarried,an’she’lllivei’
theparishwi’us,andnevergooutofoursights——likeafoolasIamforthinkingaughtabouther,asisnobetternoracherrywi’ahardstoneinsideit。\"
\"Nay,nay,theemustnamakemuchofatrifle,\"saidMr。Poyser,soothingly。\"She’sfondonus,I’llbebound;butshe’syoung,an’getsthingsinherheadasshecan’trightlygiveaccounton。
Themyoungfillies’ullrunawayoftenwi’-ou;knowingwhy。\"
Heruncle’sanswers,however,hadhadanothereffectonHettybesidesthatofdisappointingherandmakinghercry。Sheknewquitewellwhomhehadinhismindinhisallusionstomarriage,andtoasober,solidhusband;andwhenshewasinherbedroomagain,thepossibilityofhermarryingAdampresenteditselftoherinanewlight。Inamindwherenostrongsympathiesareatwork,wherethereisnosupremesenseofrighttowhichtheagitatednaturecanclingandsteadyitselftoquietendurance,oneofthefirstresultsofsorrowisadesperatevagueclutchingafteranydeedthatwillchangetheactualcondition。PoorHetty’svisionofconsequences,atnotimemorethananarrowfantasticcalculationofherownprobablepleasuresandpains,wasnowquiteshutoutbyrecklessirritationunderpresentsuffering,andshewasreadyforoneofthoseconvulsive,motivelessactionsbywhichwretchedmenandwomenleapfromatemporarysorrowintoalifelongmisery。
WhyshouldshenotmarryAdam?Shedidnotcarewhatshedid,sothatitmadesomechangeinherlife。Shefeltconfidentthathewouldstillwanttomarryher,andanyfurtherthoughtaboutAdam’shappinessinthematterhadneveryetvisitedher。
\"Strange!\"perhapsyouwillsay,\"thisrushofimpulseto-wardsacoursethatmighthaveseemedthemostrepugnanttoherpresentstateofmind,andinonlythesecondnightofhersadness!\"
Yes,theactionsofalittletrivialsoullikeHetty’s,strugglingamidsttheserioussaddestiniesofahumanbeing,arestrange。
Soarethemotionsofalittlevesselwithoutballasttossedaboutonastormysea。Howprettyitlookedwithitsparti-colouredsailinthesunlight,mooredinthequietbay!
\"Letthatmanbearthelosswholooseditfromitsmoorings。\"
Butthatwillnotsavethevessel——theprettythingthatmighthavebeenalastingjoy。
Mrs。Poyser\"HasHerSayOut\"
THEnextSaturdayeveningtherewasmuchexciteddiscussionattheDonnithorneArmsconcerninganincidentwhichhadoccurredthatveryday——nolessthanasecondappearanceofthesmartmanintop-bootssaidbysometobeamerefarmerintreatyfortheChaseFarm,byotherstobethefuturesteward,butbyMr。Cassonhimself,thepersonalwitnesstothestranger’svisit,pronouncedcontemptuouslytobenothingbetterthanabailiff,suchasSatchellhadbeenbeforehim。NoonehadthoughtofdenyingMr。
Casson’stestimonytothefactthathehadseenthestranger;
nevertheless,heprofferedvariouscorroboratingcircumstances。
\"Iseehimmyself,\"hesaid;\"IseehimcomingalongbytheCrab-
treeMeadowonabald-facedhoss。I’djustbeent’hevapint——itwashalfafterteni’thefore-noon,whenIhevmypintasreg’larastheclock——andIsaystoKnowles,asdruvupwithhiswaggon,’You’llgetabito’barleyto-day,Knowles,’Isays,’ifyoulookaboutyou’;andthenIwentroundbytherick-yard,andtowarttheTreddles’onroad,andjustasIcomeupbythebigash-tree,Iseethemani’top-bootscomingalongonabald-facedhoss——IwishI
mayneverstirifIdidn’t。AndIstoodstilltillhecomeup,andIsays,’Goodmorning,sir,’Isays,forIwantedtoheartheturnofhistongue,asImightknowwhetherhewasathis-countryman;soIsays,’Goodmorning,sir:it’ll’oldhupforthebarleythismorning,Ithink。There’llbeabitgothin,ifwe’vegoodluck。’Andhesays,’Eh,yemayberaight,there’snootallin’,’
hesays,andIknowedbythat\"——hereMr。Cassongaveawink——\"ashedidn’tcomefromahundredmileoff。Idaresayhe’dthinkmeahoddtalker,asyouLoamshirefolksallaysdoeshanyoneastalkstherightlanguage。\"
\"Therightlanguage!\"saidBartleMassey,contemptuously。\"You’reaboutasneartherightlanguageasapig’ssqueakingislikeatuneplayedonakey-bugle。\"
\"Well,Idon’tknow,\"answeredMr。Casson,withanangrysmile。
\"Ishouldthinkamanashaslivedamongthegentryfromaby,islikelytoknowwhat’stherightlanguageprettynighaswellasaschoolmaster。\"
\"Aye,aye,man,\"saidBartle,withatoneofsarcasticconsolation,\"youtalktherightlanguageforyou。WhenMikeHoldsworth’sgoatsaysba-a-a,it’sallright——it’udbeunnaturalforittomakeanyothernoise。\"
TherestofthepartybeingLoamsniremen,Mr。Cassonhadthelaughstronglyagainsthim,andwiselyfellbackonthepreviousquestion,which,farfrombeingexhaustedinasingleevening,wasrenewedinthechurchyard,beforeservice,thenextday,withthefreshinterestconferredonallnewswhenthereisafreshpersontohearit;andthatfreshhearerwasMartinPoyser,who,ashiswifesaid,\"neverwentboozin’withthatsetatCasson’s,a-
sittin’soakin’indrink,andlookingaswiseasaloto’cod-fishwi’redfaces。\"
ItwasprobablyowingtotheconversationshehadhadwithherhusbandontheirwayfromchurchconcerningthisproblematicstrangerthatMrs。Poyser’sthoughtsimmediatelyrevertedtohimwhen,adayortwoafterwards,asshewasstandingatthehouse-
doorwithherknitting,inthateagerleisurewhichcametoherwhentheafternooncleaningwasdone,shesawtheoldsquireentertheyardonhisblackpony,followedbyJohnthegroom。Shealwaysciteditafterwardsasacaseofprevision,whichreallyhadsomethingmoreinitthanherownremarkablepenetration,thatthemomentsheseteyesonthesquireshesaidtoherself,\"I
shouldnawonderifhe’scomeaboutthatmanasisa-goingtotaketheChaseFarm,wantingPoysertodosomethingforhimwithoutpay。ButPoyser’safoolifhedoes。\"
Somethingunwontedmustclearlybeinthewind,fortheoldsquire’svisitstohistenantrywererare;andthoughMrs。Poyserhadduringthelasttwelvemonthrecitedmanyimaginaryspeeches,meaningevenmorethanmettheear,whichshewasquitedeterminedtomaketohimthenexttimeheappearedwithinthegatesoftheHallFarm,thespeecheshadalwaysremainedimaginary。
\"Good-day,Mrs。Poyser,\"saidtheoldsquire,peeringatherwithhisshort-sightedeyes——amodeoflookingatherwhich,asMrs。
Poyserobserved,\"allaysaggravatedme:itwasasifyouwasainsect,andhewasgoingtodabhisfinger-nailonyou。\"
However,shesaid,\"Yourservant,sir,\"andcurtsiedwithanairofperfectdeferenceassheadvancedtowardshim:shewasnotthewomantomisbehavetowardsherbetters,andflyinthefaceofthecatechism,withoutsevereprovocation。
\"Isyourhusbandathome,Mrs。Poyser?\"
\"Yes,sir;he’sonlyi’therick-yard。I’llsendforhiminaminute,ifyou’llpleasetogetdownandstepin。\"
\"Thankyou;Iwilldoso。Iwanttoconsulthimaboutalittlematter;butyouarequiteasmuchconcernedinit,ifnotmore。I
musthaveyouropiniontoo。\"
\"Hetty,runandtellyouruncletocomein,\"saidMrs。Poyser,astheyenteredthehouse,andtheoldgentlemanbowedlowinanswertoHetty’scurtsy;whileTotty,consciousofapinaforestainedwithgooseberryjam,stoodhidingherfaceagainsttheclockandpeepingroundfurtively。
\"Whatafineoldkitchenthisis!\"saidMr。Donnithorne,lookingroundadmiringly。Healwaysspokeinthesamedeliberate,well-
chiselled,politeway,whetherhiswordsweresugaryorvenomous。
\"Andyoukeepitsoexquisitelyclean,Mrs。Poyser。Ilikethesepremises,doyouknow,beyondanyontheestate。\"
\"Well,sir,sinceyou’refondof’em,Ishouldbegladifyou’dletabito’repairsbedoneto’em,fortheboarding’si’thatstateaswe’reliketobeeatenupwi’ratsandmice;andthecellar,youmaystan’uptoyourkneesi’waterin’t,ifyouliketogodown;butperhapsyou’dratherbelievemywords。Won’tyoupleasetositdown,sir?\"
\"Notyet;Imustseeyourdairy。Ihavenotseenitforyears,andIhearonallhandsaboutyourfinecheeseandbutter,\"saidthesquire,lookingpolitelyunconsciousthattherecouldbeanyquestiononwhichheandMrs。Poysermighthappentodisagree。\"I
thinkIseethedooropen,there。YoumustnotbesurprisedifI
castacovetouseyeonyourcreamandbutter。Idon’texpectthatMrs。Satchell’screamandbutterwillbearcomparisonwithyours。\"
\"Ican’tsay,sir,I’msure。It’sseldomIseeotherfolks’sbutter,thoughthere’ssomeonitasone’snoneedtosee——thesmell’senough。\"
\"Ah,nowthisIlike,\"saidMr。Donnithorne,lookingroundatthedamptempleofcleanliness,butkeepingnearthedoor。\"I’msureIshouldlikemybreakfastbetterifIknewthebutterandcreamcamefromthisdairy。Thankyou,thatreallyisapleasantsight。
Unfortunately,myslighttendencytorheumatismmakesmeafraidofdamp:I’llsitdowninyourcomfortablekitchen。Ah,Poyser,howdoyoudo?Inthemidstofbusiness,Isee,asusual。I’vebeenlookingatyourwife’sbeautifuldairy——thebestmanagerintheparish,isshenot?\"
Mr。Poyserhadjustenteredinshirt-sleevesandopenwaistcoat,withafaceashaderedderthanusual,fromtheexertionof\"pitching。\"Ashestood,red,rotund,andradiant,beforethesmall,wiry,coololdgentleman,helookedlikeaprizeapplebythesideofawitheredcrab。
\"Willyoupleasetotakethischair,sir?\"hesaid,liftinghisfather’sarm-chairforwardalittle:\"you’llfinditeasy。\"
\"No,thankyou,Ineversitineasy-chairs,\"saidtheoldgentleman,seatinghimselfonasmallchairnearthedoor。\"Doyouknow,Mrs。Poyser——sitdown,pray,bothofyou——I’vebeenfarfromcontented,forsometime,withMrs。Satchell’sdairymanagement。Ithinkshehasnotagoodmethod,asyouhave。\"
\"Indeed,sir,Ican’tspeaktothat,\"saidMrs。Poyserinahardvoice,rollingandunrollingherknittingandlookingicilyoutofthewindow,asshecontinuedtostandoppositethesquire。Poysermightsitdownifheliked,shethought;shewasn’tgoingtositdown,asifshe’dgiveintoanysuchsmooth-tonguedpalaver。Mr。
Poyser,wholookedandfeltthereverseoficy,didsitdowninhisthree-corneredchair。
\"Andnow,Poyser,asSatchellislaidup,IamintendingtolettheChaseFarmtoarespectabletenant。I’mtiredofhavingafarmonmyownhands——nothingismadethebestofinsuchcases,asyouknow。Asatisfactorybailiffishardtofind;andIthinkyouandI,Poyser,andyourexcellentwifehere,canenterintoalittlearrangementinconsequence,whichwillbetoourmutualadvantage。\"
\"Oh,\"saidMr。Poyser,withagood-naturedblanknessofimaginationastothenatureofthearrangement。
\"IfI’mcalledupontospeak,sir,\"saidMrs。Poyser,afterglancingatherhusbandwithpityathissoftness,\"youknowbetterthanme;butIdon’tseewhattheChaseFarmist’us——
we’vecumberenoughwi’ourownfarm。NotbutwhatI’mgladtohearo’anybodyrespectablecomingintotheparish;there’ssomeasha’beenbroughtinashasn’tbeenlookedoni’thatcharacter。\"
\"You’relikelytofindMr。Thurleanexcellentneighbour,Iassureyou——suchaoneasyouwillfeelgladtohaveaccommodatedbythelittleplanI’mgoingtomention,especiallyasIhopeyouwillfinditasmuchtoyourownadvantageashis。\"
\"Indeed,sir,ifit’sanythingt’ouradvantage,it’llbethefirstoffero’thesortI’vehearedon。It’sthemastakeadvantagethatgetadvantagei’thisworld,Ithink。Folkshavetowaitlongenoughaforeit’sbroughtto’em。\"
\"Thefactis,Poyser,\"saidthesquire,ignoringMrs。Poyser’stheoryofworldlyprosperity,\"thereistoomuchdairyland,andtoolittleploughland,ontheChaseFarmtosuitThurle’spurpose——indeed,hewillonlytakethefarmonconditionofsomechangeinit:hiswife,itappears,isnotacleverdairy-woman,likeyours。Now,theplanI’mthinkingofistoeffectalittleexchange。IfyouweretohavetheHollowPastures,youmightincreaseyourdairy,whichmustbesoprofitableunderyourwife’smanagement;andIshouldrequestyou,Mrs。Poyser,tosupplymyhousewithmilk,cream,andbutteratthemarketprices。Ontheotherhand,Poyser,youmightletThurlehavetheLowerandUpperRidges,whichreally,withourwetseasons,wouldbeagoodriddanceforyou。Thereismuchlessriskindairylandthancornland。\"
Mr。Poyserwasleaningforward,withhiselbowsonhisknees,hisheadononeside,andhismouthscrewedup——apparentlyabsorbedinmakingthetipsofhisfingersmeetsoastorepresentwithperfectaccuracytheribsofaship。Hewasmuchtooacuteamannottoseethroughthewholebusiness,andtoforeseeperfectlywhatwouldbehiswife’sviewofthesubject;buthedislikedgivingunpleasantanswers。Unlessitwasonapointoffarmingpractice,hewouldrathergiveupthanhaveaquarrel,anyday;
and,afterall,itmatteredmoretohiswifethantohim。So,afterafewmoments’silence,helookedupatherandsaidmildly,\"Whatdostsay?\"
Mrs。Poyserhadhadhereyesfixedonherhusbandwithcoldseverityduringhissilence,butnowsheturnedawayherheadwithatoss,lookedicilyattheoppositeroofofthecow-shed,andspearingherknittingtogetherwiththeloosepin,helditfirmlybetweenherclaspedhands。
\"Say?Why,Isayyoumaydoasyoulikeaboutgivingupanyo’
yourcorn-landaforeyourleaseisup,whichitwon’tbeforayearcomenextMichaelmas,butI’llnotconsenttotakemoredairyworkintomyhands,eitherforloveormoney;andthere’snaytherlovenormoneyhere,asIcansee,on’yotherfolks’sloveo’
theirselves,andthemoneyasistogointootherfolks’spockets。
Iknowthere’sthemasisbornt’owntheland,andthemasisborntosweaton’t\"——hereMrs。Poyserpausedtogaspalittle——
\"andIknowit’schristenedfolks’sdutytosubmittotheirbettersasfurasfleshandblood’ullbearit;butI’llnotmakeamartyro’myself,andwearmyselftoskinandbone,andworretmyselfasifIwasachurnwi’buttera-comingin’t,fornolandlordinEngland,notifhewasKingGeorgehimself。\"
\"No,no,mydearMrs。Poyser,certainlynot,\"saidthesquire,stillconfidentinhisownpowersofpersuasion,\"youmustnotoverworkyourself;butdon’tyouthinkyourworkwillratherbelessenedthanincreasedinthisway?ThereissomuchmilkrequiredattheAbbeythatyouwillhavelittleincreaseofcheeseandbuttermakingfromtheadditiontoyourdairy;andIbelievesellingthemilkisthemostprofitablewayofdisposingofdairyproduce,isitnot?\"
\"Aye,that’strue,\"saidMr。Poyser,unabletorepressanopiniononaquestionoffarmingprofits,andforgettingthatitwasnotinthiscaseapurelyabstractquestion。
\"Idaresay,\"saidMrs。Poyserbitterly,turningherheadhalf-waytowardsherhusbandandlookingatthevacantarm-chair——\"I
daresayit’strueformenassiti’th’chimney-cornerandmakebelieveaseverything’scutwi’insan’outstofitint’
everythingelse。Ifyoucouldmakeapuddingwi’thinkingo’thebatter,it’udbeeasygettingdinner。HowdoIknowwhetherthemilk’ullbewantedconstant?What’stomakemesureasthehousewon’tbeputo’boardwageaforewe’remanymonthsolder,andthenImayhavetolieawakeo’nightswi’twentygallonso’milkonmymind——andDingall’ulltakenomorebutter,letalonepayingforit;andwemustfatpigstillwe’reobligedtobegthebutcheronourkneestobuy’em,andlosehalfof’emwi’themeasles。Andthere’sthefetchingandcarrying,as’udbewellyhalfaday’sworkforamanan’hoss——that’stobetookouto’theprofits,I
reckon?Butthere’sfolks’udholdasieveunderthepumpandexpecttocarryawaythewater。\"
\"Thatdifficulty——aboutthefetchingandcarrying——youwillnothave,Mrs。Poyser,\"saidthesquire,whothoughtthatthisentranceintoparticularsindicatedadistantinclinationtocompromiseonMrs。Poyser’spart。\"Bethellwilldothatregularlywiththecartandpony。\"
\"Oh,sir,beggingyourpardon,I’veneverbeenusedt’havinggentlefolks’sservantscomingaboutmybackplaces,a-makinglovetoboththegellsatonceandkeeping’emwiththeirhandsontheirhipslisteningtoallmannero’gossipwhentheyshouldbedownontheirkneesa-scouring。Ifwe’retogotoruin,itshannabewi’havingourbackkitchenturnedintoapublic。\"
\"Well,Poyser,\"saidthesquire,shiftinghistacticsandlookingasifhethoughtMrs。Poyserhadsuddenlywithdrawnfromtheproceedingsandlefttheroom,\"youcanturntheHollowsintofeeding-land。Icaneasilymakeanotherarrangementaboutsupplyingmyhouse。AndIshallnotforgetyourreadinesstoaccommodateyourlandlordaswellasaneighbour。Iknowyouwillbegladtohaveyourleaserenewedforthreeyears,whenthepresentoneexpires;otherwise,IdaresayThurle,whoisamanofsomecapital,wouldbegladtotakeboththefarms,astheycouldbeworkedsowelltogether。ButIdon’twanttopartwithanoldtenantlikeyou。\"
TobethrustoutofthediscussioninthiswaywouldhavebeenenoughtocompleteMrs。Poyser’sexasperation,evenwithoutthefinalthreat。Herhusband,reallyalarmedatthepossibilityoftheirleavingtheoldplacewherehehadbeenbredandborn——forhebelievedtheoldsquirehadsmallspiteenoughforanything——
wasbeginningamildremonstranceexplanatoryoftheinconvenienceheshouldfindinhavingtobuyandsellmorestock,with,\"Well,sir,Ithinkasit’sretherhard……\"whenMrs。Poyserburstinwiththedesperatedeterminationtohavehersayoutthisonce,thoughitweretorainnoticestoquitandtheonlyshelterwerethework-house。
\"Then,sir,ifImayspeak——as,forallI’mawoman,andthere’sfolksasthinksawoman’sfoolenoughtostan’byan’lookonwhilethemensignhersoulaway,I’vearighttospeak,forI
makeonequartero’therent,andsaveanotherquarter——Isay,ifMr。Thurle’ssoreadytotakefarmsunderyou,it’sapitybutwhatheshouldtakethis,andseeifhelikestoliveinahousewi’alltheplagueso’Egyptin’t——wi’thecellarfullo’water,andfrogsandtoadshoppin’upthestepsbydozens——andthefloorsrotten,andtheratsandmicegnawingeverybito’cheese,andrunnin’overourheadsasweliei’bedtillweexpect’emtoeatusupalive——asit’samercytheyhannaeatthechildrenlongago。
Ishouldliketoseeifthere’sanothertenantbesidesPoyseras’udputupwi’neverhavingabito’repairsdonetillaplacetumblesdown——andnotthen,on’ywi’beggingandprayingandhavingtopayhalf——andbeingstrungupwi’therentasit’smuchifhegetsenoughouto’thelandtopay,forallhe’sputhisownmoneyintothegroundbeforehand。Seeifyou’llgetastrangertoleadsuchalifehereasthat:amaggotmustbeborni’therottencheesetolikeit,Ireckon。Youmayrunawayfrommywords,sir,\"continuedMrs。Poyser,followingtheoldsquirebeyondthedoor——forafterthefirstmomentsofstunnedsurprisehehadgotup,and,wavinghishandtowardsherwithasmile,hadwalkedouttowardshispony。Butitwasimpossibleforhimtogetawayimmediately,forJohnwaswalkingtheponyupanddowntheyard,andwassomedistancefromthecausewaywhenhismasterbeckoned。
\"Youmayrunawayfrommywords,sir,andyoumaygospinnin’
underhandwayso’doingusamischief,foryou’vegotOldHarrytoyourfriend,thoughnobodyelseis,butItellyouforonceaswe’renotdumbcreaturestobeabusedandmademoneyonbythemasha’gotthelashi’theirhands,forwanto’knowinghowt’undothetackle。An’ifI’mth’onlyoneasspeaksmymind,there’splentyo’thesamewayo’thinkingi’thisparishandthenextto’t,foryourname’snobetterthanabrimstonematchineverybody’snose——ifitisnatwo-threeoldfolksasyouthinko’
savingyoursoulbygiving’emabito’flannelandadropo’
porridge。An’youmayberighti’thinkingit’lltakebutlittletosaveyoursoul,forit’llbethesmallestsavin’y’ivermade,wi’allyourscrapin’。\"
Thereareoccasionsonwhichtwoservant-girlsandawaggonermaybeaformidableaudience,andasthesquirerodeawayonhisblackpony,eventhegiftofshort-sightednessdidnotpreventhimfrombeingawarethatMollyandNancyandTimweregrinningnotfarfromhim。PerhapshesuspectedthatsouroldJohnwasgrinningbehindhim——whichwasalsothefact。Meanwhilethebull-dog,theblack-and-tanterrier,Alick’ssheep-dog,andtheganderhissingatasafedistancefromthepony’sheelscarriedouttheideaofMrs。Poyser’ssoloinanirnpressivequartet。
Mrs。Poyser,however,hadnosoonerseentheponymoveoffthansheturnedround,gavethetwohilariousdamselsalookwhichdrovethemintothebackkitchen,andunspearingherknitting,begantoknitagainwithherusualrapidityasshere-enteredthehouse。
\"Thee’stdoneitnow,\"saidMr。Poyser,alittlealarmedanduneasy,butnotwithoutsometriumphantamusementathiswife’soutbreak。
\"Yes,IknowI’vedoneit,\"saidMrs。Poyser;\"butI’vehadmysayout,andIshallbeth’easierfor’tallmylife。There’snopleasurei’livingifyou’retobecorkedupforever,andonlydribbleyourmindoutbythesly,likealeakybarrel。Ishan’trepentsayingwhatIthink,ifIlivetobeasoldasth’oldsquire;andthere’slittlelikelihood——foritseemsasifthemasaren’twantedhereareth’onlyfolksasaren’twantedi’th’
otherworld。\"
\"Buttheewutnalikemovingfromth’oldplace,thisMichaelmastwelvemonth,\"saidMr。Poyser,\"andgoingintoastrangeparish,wheretheeknow’stnobody。It’llbeharduponusboth,andupo’
Fathertoo。\"
\"Eh,it’snouseworreting;there’splentyo’thingsmayhappenbetweenthisandMichaelmastwelvemonth。Thecaptainmaybemasteraforethem,forwhatweknow,\"saidMrs。Poyser,inclinedtotakeanunusuallyhopefulviewofanembarrassmentwhichhadbeenbroughtaboutbyherownmeritandnotbyotherpeople’sfault。
\"I’Mnoneforworreting,\"saidMr。Poyser,risingfromhisthree-
corneredchairandwalkingslowlytowardsthedoor;\"butIshouldbeloathtoleaveth’oldplace,andtheparishwhereIwasbredandborn,andFatheraforeme。Weshouldleaveourrootsbehindus,Idoubt,andniverthriveagain。\"
MoreLinksTHEbarleywasallcarriedatlast,andtheharvestsupperswentbywithoutwaitingforthedismalblackcropofbeans。Theapplesandnutsweregatheredandstored;thescentofwheydepartedfromthefarm-houses,andthescentofbrewingcameinitsstead。ThewoodsbehindtheChase,andallthehedgerowtrees,tookonasolemnsplendourunderthedarklow-hangingskies。Michaelmaswascome,withitsfragrantbasketfulsofpurpledamsons,anditspalerpurpledaisies,anditsladsandlassesleavingorseekingserviceandwindingalongbetweentheyellowhedges,withtheirbundlesundertheirarms。ButthoughMichaelmaswascome,Mr。
Thurle,thatdesirabletenant,didnotcometotheChaseFarm,andtheoldsquire,aflerall,hadbeenobligedtoputinanewbailiff。Itwasknownthroughoutthetwoparishesthatthesquire’splanhadbeenfrustratedbecausethePoysershadrefusedtobe\"putupon,\"andMrs。Poyser’soutbreakwasdiscussedinallthefarm-houseswithazestwhichwasonlyheightenedbyfrequentrepetition。Thenewsthat\"Bony\"wascomebackfromEgyptwascomparativelyinsipid,andtherepulseoftheFrenchinItalywasnothingtoMrs。Poyser’srepulseoftheoldsquire。Mr。Irwinehadheardaversionofitineveryparishioner’shouse,withtheoneexceptionoftheChase。Butsincehehadalways,withmarvellousskill,avoidedanyquarrelwithMr。Donnithorne,hecouldnotallowhimselfthepleasureoflaughingattheoldgentleman’sdiscomfiturewithanyonebesideshismother,whodeclaredthatifshewererichsheshouldliketoallowMrs。
Poyserapensionforlife,andwantedtoinvitehertotheparsonagethatshemighthearanaccountofthescenefromMrs。
Poyser’sownlips。
\"No,no,Mother,\"saidMr。Irwine;\"itwasalittlebitofirregularjusticeonMrs。Poyser’spart,butamagistratelikememustnotcountenanceirregularjustice。TheremustbenoreportspreadthatIhavetakennoticeofthequarrel,elseIshalllosethelittlegoodinfluenceIhaveovertheoldman。\"
\"Well,Ilikethatwomanevenbetterthanhercream-cheeses,\"saidMrs。Irwine。\"Shehasthespiritofthreemen,withthatpalefaceofhers。Andshesayssuchsharpthingstoo。\"
\"Sharp!Yes,hertongueislikeanew-setrazor。She’squiteoriginalinhertalktoo;oneofthoseuntaughtwitsthathelptostockacountrywithproverbs。ItoldyouthatcapitalthingI
heardhersayaboutCraig——thathewaslikeacock,whothoughtthesunhadrisentohearhimcrow。Nowthat’sanAEsop’sfableinasentence。\"
\"ButitwillbeabadbusinessiftheoldgentlemanturnsthemoutofthefarmnextMichaelmas,eh?\"saidMrs。Irwine。
\"Oh,thatmustnotbe;andPoyserissuchagoodtenantthatDonnithorneislikelytothinktwice,anddigesthisspleenratherthanturnthemout。ButifheshouldgivethemnoticeatLadyDay,ArthurandImustmoveheavenandearthtomollifyhim。Sucholdparishionersastheyaremustnotgo。\"
\"Ah,there’snoknowingwhatmayhappenbeforeLadyday,\"saidMrs。Irwine。\"ItstruckmeonArthur’sbirthdaythattheoldmanwasalittleshaken:he’seighty-three,youknow。It’sreallyanunconscionableage。It’sonlywomenwhohavearighttoliveaslongasthat。\"
\"Whenthey’vegotold-bachelorsonswhowouldbeforlornwithoutthem,\"saidMr。Irwine,laughing,andkissinghismother’shand。
Mrs。Poyser,too,metherhusband’soccasionalforebodingsofanoticetoquitwith\"There’snoknowingwhatmayhappenbeforeLadyday\"——oneofthoseundeniablegeneralpropositionswhichareusuallyintendedtoconveyaparticularmeaningveryfarfromundeniable。Butitisreallytooharduponhumannaturethatitshouldbeheldacriminaloffencetoimaginethedeathevenofthekingwhenheisturnedeighty-three。ItisnottobebelievedthatanybutthedullestBritonscanbegoodsubjectsunderthathardcondition。
Apartfromthisforeboding,thingswentonmuchasusualinthePoyserhousehold。Mrs。PoyserthoughtshenoticedasurprisingimprovementinHetty。Tobesure,thegirlgot\"closertempered,andsometimessheseemedasifthere’dbenodrawingawordfromherwithcart-ropes,\"butshethoughtmuchlessaboutherdress,andwentaftertheworkquiteeagerly,withoutanytelling。Anditwaswonderfulhowsheneverwantedtogooutnow——indeed,couldhardlybepersuadedtogo;andsheboreheraunt’sputtingastoptoherweeklylessoninfine-workattheChasewithouttheleastgrumblingorpouting。Itmustbe,afterall,thatshehadsetherheartonAdamatlast,andhersuddenfreakofwantingtobealady’smaidmusthavebeencausedbysomelittlepiqueormisunderstandingbetweenthem,whichhadpassedby。ForwheneverAdamcametotheHallFarm,Hettyseemedtobeinbetterspiritsandtotalkmorethanatothertimes,thoughshewasalmostsullenwhenMr。Craigoranyotheradmirerhappenedtopayavisitthere。
Adamhimselfwatchedheratfirstwithtremblinganxiety,whichgavewaytosurpriseanddelicioushope。FivedaysafterdeliveringArthur’sletter,hehadventuredtogototheHallFarmagain——notwithoutdreadlestthesightofhimmightbepainfultoher。Shewasnotinthehouse-placewhenheentered,andhesattalkingtoMr。andMrs。PoyserforafewminuteswithaheavyfearonhisheartthattheymightpresentlytellhimHettywasill。
Butbyandbytherecamealightstepthatheknew,andwhenMrs。
Poysersaid,\"Come,Hetty,wherehaveyoubeen?\"Adamwasobligedtoturnround,thoughhewasafraidtoseethechangedlooktheremustbeinherface。Healmoststartedwhenhesawhersmilingasifshewerepleasedtoseehim——lookingthesameaseveratafirstglance,onlythatshehadhercapon,whichhehadneverseenherinbeforewhenhecameofanevening。Still,whenhelookedatheragainandagainasshemovedaboutorsatatherwork,therewasachange:thecheekswereaspinkasever,andshesmiledasmuchasshehadeverdoneoflate,buttherewassomethingdifferentinhereyes,intheexpressionofherface,inallhermovements,Adamthought——somethingharder,older,lesschild-like。\"Poorthing!\"hesaidtohimself,\"that’sallayslikely。It’sbecauseshe’shadherfirstheartache。Butshe’sgotaspirittobearupunderit。ThankGodforthat。\"
Astheweekswentby,andhesawheralwayslookingpleasedtoseehim——turningupherlovelyfacetowardshimasifshemeanthimtounderstandthatshewasgladforhimtocome——andgoingaboutherworkinthesameequableway,makingnosignofsorrow,hebegantobelievethatherfeelingtowardsArthurmusthavebeenmuchslighterthanhehadimaginedinhisfirstindignationandalarm,andthatshehadbeenabletothinkofhergirlishfancythatArthurwasinlovewithherandwouldmarryherasafollyofwhichshewastimelycured。Anditperhapswas,ashehadsometimesinhismorecheerfulmomentshopeditwouldbe——herheartwasreallyturningwithallthemorewarmthtowardsthemansheknewtohaveaseriousloveforher。
PossiblyyouthinkthatAdamwasnotatallsagaciousinhisinterpretations,andthatitwasaltogetherextremelyunbecominginasensiblemantobehaveashedid——fallinginlovewithagirlwhoreallyhadnothingmorethanherbeautytorecommendher,attributingimaginaryvirtuestoher,andevencondescendingtocleavetoheraftershehadfalleninlovewithanotherman,waitingforherkindlooksasapatienttremblingdogwaitsforhismaster’seyetobeturneduponhim。Butinsocomplexathingashumannature,wemustconsider,itishardtofindruleswithoutexceptions。Ofcourse,Iknowthat,asarule,sensiblemenfallinlovewiththemostsensiblewomenoftheiracquaintance,seethroughalltheprettydeceitsofcoquettishbeauty,neverimaginethemselveslovedwhentheyarenotloved,ceaselovingonallproperoccasions,andmarrythewomanmostfittedforthemineveryrespect——indeed,soastocompeltheapprobationofallthemaidenladiesintheirneighbourhood。Buteventothisruleanexceptionwilloccurnowandtheninthelapseofcenturies,andmyfriendAdamwasone。Formyownpart,however,Irespecthimnonetheless——nay,Ithinkthedeeplovehehadforthatsweet,rounded,blossom-like,dark-eyedHetty,ofwhoseinwardselfhewasreallyveryignorant,cameoutoftheverystrengthofhisnatureandnotoutofanyinconsistentweakness。Isitanyweakness,pray,tobewroughtonbyexquisitemusic?Tofeelitswondrousharmoniessearchingthesubtlestwindingsofyoursoul,thedelicatefibresoflifewherenomemorycanpenetrate,andbindingtogetheryourwholebeingpastandpresentinoneunspeakablevibration,meltingyouinonemomentwithallthetenderness,allthelovethathasbeenscatteredthroughthetoilsomeyears,concentratinginoneemotionofheroiccourageorresignationallthehard-learntlessonsofself-
renouncingsympathy,blendingyourpresentjoywithpastsorrowandyourpresentsorrowwithallyourpastjoy?Ifnot,thenneitherisitaweaknesstobesowroughtuponbytheexquisitecurvesofawoman’scheekandneckandarms,bytheliquiddepthsofherbeseechingeyes,orthesweetchildishpoutofherlips。
Forthebeautyofalovelywomanislikemusic:whatcanonesaymore?Beautyhasanexpressionbeyondandfarabovetheonewoman’ssoulthatitclothes,asthewordsofgeniushaveawidermeaningthanthethoughtthatpromptedthem。Itismorethanawoman’slovethatmovesusinawoman’seyes——itseemstobeafar-offmightylovethathascomeneartous,andmadespeechforitselfthere;theroundedneck,thedimpledarm,moveusbysomethingmorethantheirprettiness——bytheirclosekinshipwithallwehaveknownoftendernessandpeace。Thenoblestnatureseesthemostofthisimpersonalexpressioninbeauty(itisneedlesstosaythattherearegentlemenwithwhiskersdyedandundyedwhoseenoneofitwhatever),andforthisreason,thenoblestnatureisoftenthemostblindedtothecharacteroftheonewoman’ssoulthatthebeautyclothes。Whence,Ifear,thetragedyofhumanlifeislikelytocontinueforalongtimetocome,inspiteofmentalphilosopherswhoarereadywiththebestreceiptsforavoidingallmistakesofthekind。
OurgoodAdamhadnofinewordsintowhichhecouldputhisfeelingforHetty:hecouldnotdisguisemysteryinthiswaywiththeappearanceofknowledge;hecalledhislovefranklyamystery,asyouhaveheardhim。Heonlyknewthatthesightandmemoryofhermovedhimdeeply,touchingthespringofallloveandtenderness,allfaithandcouragewithinhim。Howcouldheimaginenarrowness,selfishness,hardnessinher?Hecreatedthemindhebelievedinoutofhisown,whichwaslarge,unselfish,tender。
ThehopeshefeltaboutHettysoftenedalittlehisfeelingtowardsArthur。SurelyhisattentionstoHettymusthavebeenofaslightkind;theywerealtogetherwrong,andsuchasnomaninArthur’spositionoughttohaveallowedhimself,buttheymusthavehadanairofplayfulnessaboutthem,whichhadprobablyblindedhimtotheirdangerandhadpreventedthemfromlayinganystrongholdonHetty’sheart。AsthenewpromiseofhappinessroseforAdam,hisindignationandjealousybegantodieout。
Hettywasnotmadeunhappy;healmostbelievedthatshelikedhimbest;andthethoughtsometimescrossedhismindthatthefriendshipwhichhadonceseemeddeadforevermightreviveinthedaystocome,andhewouldnothavetosay\"good-bye\"tothegrandoldwoods,butwouldlikethembetterbecausetheywereArthur’s。
ForthisnewpromiseofhappinessfollowingsoquicklyontheshockofpainhadanintoxicatingeffectonthesoberAdam,whohadallhislifebeenusedtomuchhardshipandmoderatehope。
Washereallygoingtohaveaneasylotafterall?Itseemedso,foratthebeginningofNovember,JonathanBurge,findingitimpossibletoreplaceAdam,hadatlastmadeuphismindtoofferhimashareinthebusiness,withoutfurtherconditionthanthatheshouldcontinuetogivehisenergiestoitandrenounceallthoughtofhavingaseparatebusinessofhisown。Son-in-lawornoson-in-law,Adamhadmadehimselftoonecessarytobepartedwith,andhisheadworkwassomuchmoreimportanttoBurgethanhisskillinhandicraftthathishavingthemanagementofthewoodsmadelittledifferenceinthevalueofhisservices;andastothebargainsaboutthesquire’stimber,itwouldbeeasytocallinathirdperson。Adamsawhereanopeningintoabroadeningpathofprosperousworksuchashehadthoughtofwithambitiouslongingeversincehewasalad:hemightcometobuildabridge,oratownhall,orafactory,forhehadalwayssaidtohimselfthatJonathanBurge’sbuildingbuisnesswaslikeanacorn,whichmightbethemotherofagreattree。SohegavehishandtoBurgeonthatbargain,andwenthomewithhismindfullofhappyvisions,inwhich(myrefinedreaderwillperhapsbeshockedwhenIsayit)theimageofHettyhovered,andsmiledoverplansforseasoningtimberatatriflingexpense,calculationsastothecheapeningofbricksperthousandbywater-carriage,andafavouriteschemeforthestrengtheningofroofsandwallswithapeculiarformofirongirder。Whatthen?Adam’senthusiasmlayinthesethings;andourloveisinwroughtinourenthusiasmaselectricityisinwroughtintheair,exaltingitspowerbyasubtlepresence。
Adamwouldbeabletotakeaseparatehousenow,andprovideforhismotherintheoldone;hisprospectswouldjustifyhismarryingverysoon,andifDinahconsentedtohaveSeth,theirmotherwouldperhapsbemorecontentedtoliveapartfromAdam。
Buthetoldhimselfthathewouldnotbehasty——hewouldnottryHetty’sfeelingforhimuntilithadhadtimetogrowstrongandfirm。However,tomorrow,afterchurch,hewouldgototheHallFarmandtellthemthenews。Mr。Poyser,heknew,wouldlikeitbetterthanafive-poundnote,andheshouldseeifHetty’seyesbrightenedatit。Themonthswouldbeshortwithallhehadtofillhismind,andthisfoolisheagernesswhichhadcomeoverhimoflatemustnothurryhimintoanyprematurewords。Yetwhenhegothomeandtoldhismotherthegoodnews,andatehissupper,whileshesatbyalmostcryingforjoyandwantinghimtoeattwiceasmuchasusualbecauseofthisgood-luck,hecouldnothelppreparinghergentlyforthecomingchangebytalkingoftheoldhousebeingtoosmallforthemalltogoonlivinginitalways。