第15章 

类别:其他 作者:George Eliot字数:23767更新时间:18/12/21 16:31:11
I’veagreatdealthat’spainfulonmymind,andIfindithardworktobequitesilentaboutmyownfeelingsandonlyattendtoothers。IshareyourconcernforAdam,thoughheisnottheonlyonewhosesufferingsIcareforinthisaffair。HeintendstoremainatStonitontillafterthetrial:itwillcomeonprobablyaweekto-morrow。Hehastakenaroomthere,andIencouragedhimtodoso,becauseIthinkitbetterheshouldbeawayfromhisownhomeatpresent;and,poorfellow,hestillbelievesHettyisinnocent——hewantstosummonupcouragetoseeherifhecan;heisunwillingtoleavethespotwheresheis。\" \"Doyouthinkthecreatur’sguilty,then?\"saidBartle。\"Doyouthinkthey’llhangher?\" \"I’mafraiditwillgohardwithher。Theevidenceisverystrong。Andonebadsymptomisthatshedenieseverything——deniesthatshehashadachildinthefaceofthemostpositiveevidence。Isawhermyself,andshewasobstinatelysilenttome; sheshrankuplikeafrightenedanimalwhenshesawme。Iwasneversoshockedinmylifeasatthechangeinher。ButItrustthat,intheworstcase,wemayobtainapardonforthesakeoftheinnocentwhoareinvolved。\" \"Stuffandnonsense!\"saidBartle,forgettinginhisirritationtowhomhewasspeaking。\"Ibegyourpardon,sir,Imeanit’sstuffandnonsensefortheinnocenttocareaboutherbeinghanged。Formyownpart,Ithinkthesoonersuchwomenareputouto’theworldthebetter;andthementhathelp’emtodomischiefhadbettergoalongwith’emforthatmatter。Whatgoodwillyoudobykeepingsuchverminalive,eatingthevictualthat’udfeedrationalbeings?ButifAdam’sfoolenoughtocareaboutit,I don’twanthimtosuffermorethan’sneedful……Isheverymuchcutup,poorfellow?\"Bartleadded,takingouthisspectaclesandputtingthemon,asiftheywouldassisthisimagination。 \"Yes,I’mafraidthegriefcutsverydeep,\"saidMr。Irwine。\"Helooksterriblyshattered,andacertainviolencecameoverhimnowandthenyesterday,whichmademewishIcouldhaveremainednearhim。ButIshallgotoStonitonagainto-morrow,andIhaveconfidenceenoughinthestrengthofAdam’sprincipletotrustthathewillbeabletoenduretheworstwithoutbeingdriventoanythingrash。\" Mr。Irwine,whowasinvoluntarilyutteringhisownthoughtsratherthanaddressingBartleMasseyinthelastsentence,hadinhismindthepossibilitythatthespiritofvengeanceto-wardsArthur,whichwastheformAdam’sanguishwascontinuallytaking,mightmakehimseekanencounterthatwaslikelytoendmorefatallythantheoneintheGrove。ThispossibilityheightenedtheanxietywithwhichhelookedforwardtoArthur’sarrival。ButBartlethoughtMr。Irwinewasreferringtosuicide,andhisfaceworeanewalarm。 \"I’lltellyouwhatIhaveinmyhead,sir,\"hesaid,\"andIhopeyou’llapproveofit。I’mgoingtoshutupmyschool——ifthescholarscome,theymustgobackagain,that’sall——andIshallgotoStonitonandlookafterAdamtillthisbusinessisover。I’llpretendI’mcometolookonattheassizes;hecan’tobjecttothat。Whatdoyouthinkaboutit,sir?\" \"Well,\"saidMr。Irwine,ratherhesitatingly,\"therewouldbesomerealadvantagesinthat……andIhonouryouforyourfriendshiptowardshim,Bartle。But……youmustbecarefulwhatyousaytohim,youknow。I’mafraidyouhavetoolittlefellow-feelinginwhatyouconsiderhisweaknessaboutHetty。\" \"Trusttome,sir——trusttome。Iknowwhatyoumean。I’vebeenafoolmyselfinmytime,butthat’sbetweenyouandme。Ishan’tthrustmyselfonhimonlykeepmyeyeonhim,andseethathegetssomegoodfood,andputinawordhereandthere。\" \"Then,\"saidMr。Irwine,reassuredalittleastoBartle’sdiscretion,\"Ithinkyou’llbedoingagooddeed;anditwillbewellforyoutoletAdam’smotherandbrotherknowthatyou’regoing。\" \"Yes,sir,yes,\"saidBartle,rising,andtakingoffhisspectacles,\"I’lldothat,I’lldothat;thoughthemother’sawhimperingthing——Idon’tliketocomewithinearshotofher; however,she’sastraight-backed,cleanwoman,noneofyourslatterns。Iwishyougood-bye,sir,andthankyouforthetimeyou’vesparedme。You’reeverybody’sfriendinthisbusiness—— everybody’sfriend。It’saheavyweightyou’vegotonyourshoulders。\" \"Good-bye,Bartle,tillwemeetatStoniton,asIdaresayweshall。\" Bartlehurriedawayfromtherectory,evadingCarroll’sconversationaladvances,andsayinginanexasperatedtonetoVixen,whoseshortlegspatteredbesidehimonthegravel,\"Now,I shallbeobligedtotakeyouwithme,yougood-for-nothingwoman。 You’dgofrettingyourselftodeathifIleftyou——youknowyouwould,andperhapsgetsnappedupbysometramp。Andyou’llberunningintobadcompany,Iexpect,puttingyournoseineveryholeandcornerwhereyou’venobusiness!Butifyoudoanythingdisgraceful,I’lldisownyou——mindthat,madam,mindthat!\" TheEveoftheTrialANupperroominadullStonitonstreet,withtwobedsinit——onelaidonthefloor。Itisteno’clockonThursdaynight,andthedarkwalloppositethewindowshutsoutthemoonlightthatmighthavestruggledwiththelightoftheonedipcandlebywhichBartleMasseyispretendingtoread,whileheisreallylookingoverhisspectaclesatAdamBede,seatednearthedarkwindow。 YouwouldhardlyhaveknownitwasAdamwithoutbeingtold。Hisfacehasgotthinnerthislastweek:hehasthesunkeneyes,theneglectedbeardofamanjustrisenfromasick-bed。Hisheavyblackhairhangsoverhisforehead,andthereisnoactiveimpulseinhimwhichinclineshimtopushitoff,thathemaybemoreawaketowhatisaroundhim。Hehasonearmoverthebackofthechair,andheseemstobelookingdownathisclaspedhands。Heisrousedbyaknockatthedoor。 \"Thereheis,\"saidBartleMassey,risinghastilyandunfasteningthedoor。ItwasMr。Irwine。 Adamrosefromhischairwithinstinctiverespect,asMr。Irwineapproachedhimandtookhishand。 \"I’mlate,Adam,\"hesaid,sittingdownonthechairwhichBartleplacedforhim,\"butIwaslaterinsettingofffromBroxtonthanIintendedtobe,andIhavebeenincessantlyoccupiedsinceI arrived。Ihavedoneeverythingnow,however——everythingthatcanbedoneto-night,atleast。Letusallsitdown。\" Adamtookhischairagainmechanically,andBartle,forwhomtherewasnochairremaining,satonthebedinthebackground。 \"Haveyouseenher,sir?\"saidAdamtremulously。 \"Yes,Adam;Iandthechaplainhavebothbeenwithherthisevening。\" \"Didyouaskher,sir……didyousayanythingaboutme?\" \"Yes,\"saidMr。Irwine,withsomehesitation,\"Ispokeofyou。I saidyouwishedtoseeherbeforethetrial,ifsheconsented。\" AsMr。Irwinepaused,Adamlookedathimwitheager,questioningeyes。 \"Youknowsheshrinksfromseeinganyone,Adam。Itisnotonlyyou——somefatalinfluenceseemstohaveshutupherheartagainstherfellow-creatures。Shehasscarcelysaidanythingmorethan’No’eithertomeorthechaplain。Threeorfourdaysago,beforeyouwerementionedtoher,whenIaskedheriftherewasanyoneofherfamilywhomshewouldliketosee——towhomshecouldopenhermind——shesaid,withaviolentshudder,’Tellthemnottocomenearme——Iwon’tseeanyofthem。’\" Adam’sheadwashangingdownagain,andhedidnotspeak。Therewassilenceforafewminutes,andthenMr。Irwinesaid,\"Idon’tliketoadviseyouagainstyourownfeelings,Adam,iftheynowurgeyoustronglytogoandseeherto-morrowmorning,evenwithoutherconsent。Itisjustpossible,notwithstandingappearancestothecontrary,thattheinterviewmightaffectherfavourably。ButIgrievetosayIhavescarcelyanyhopeofthat。 Shedidn’tseemagitatedwhenImentionedyourname;sheonlysaid’No,’inthesamecold,obstinatewayasusual。Andifthemeetinghadnogoodeffectonher,itwouldbepure,uselesssufferingtoyou——severesuffering,Ifear。Sheisverymuchchanged……\" Adamstartedupfromhischairandseizedhishat,whichlayonthetable。Buthestoodstillthen,andlookedatMr。Irwine,asifhehadaquestiontoaskwhichitwasyetdifficulttoutter。 BartleMasseyrosequietly,turnedthekeyinthedoor,andputitinhispocket。 \"Ishecomeback?\"saidAdamatlast。 \"No,heisnot,\"saidMr。Irwine,quietly。\"Laydownyourhat,Adam,unlessyouliketowalkoutwithmeforalittlefreshair。 Ifearyouhavenotbeenoutagainto-day。\" \"Youneedn’tdeceiveme,sir,\"saidAdam,lookinghardatMr。 Irwineandspeakinginatoneofangrysuspicion。\"Youneedn’tbeafraidofme。Ionlywantjustice。Iwanthimtofeelwhatshefeels。It’shiswork……shewasachildasit’udha’gonet’ anybody’shearttolookat……Idon’tcarewhatshe’sdone……itwashimbroughthertoit。Andheshallknowit……heshallfeelit……ifthere’sajustGod,heshallfeelwhatitist’ha’ broughtachildlikehertosinandmisery。\" \"I’mnotdeceivingyou,Adam,\"saidMr。Irwine。\"ArthurDonnithorneisnotcomeback——wasnotcomebackwhenIleft。I haveleftaletterforhim:hewillknowallassoonashearrives。\" \"Butyoudon’tmindaboutit,\"saidAdamindignantly。\"Youthinkitdoesn’tmatterassheliesthereinshameandmisery,andheknowsnothingaboutit——hesuffersnothing。\" \"Adam,heWILLknow——heWILLsuffer,longandbitterly。Hehasaheartandaconscience:Ican’tbeentirelydeceivedinhischaracter。Iamconvinced——Iamsurehedidn’tfallundertemptationwithoutastruggle。Hemaybeweak,butheisnotcallous,notcoldlyselfish。Iampersuadedthatthiswillbeashockofwhichhewillfeeltheeffectsallhislife。Whydoyoucravevengeanceinthisway?Noamountoftorturethatyoucouldinflictonhimcouldbenefither。\" \"No——OGod,no,\"Adamgroanedout,sinkingonhischairagain; \"butthen,that’sthedeepestcurseofall……that’swhatmakestheblacknessofit……ITCANNEVERBEUNDONE。MypoorHetty……shecanneverbemysweetHettyagain……theprettiestthingGodhadmade—— smilingupatme……Ithoughtshelovedme……andwasgood……\" Adam’svoicehadbeengraduallysinkingintoahoarseundertone,asifhewereonlytalkingtohimself;butnowhesaidabruptly,lookingatMr。Irwine,\"Butsheisn’tasguiltyastheysay?Youdon’tthinksheis,sir?Shecan’tha’doneit。\" \"Thatperhapscanneverbeknownwithcertainty,Adam,\"Mr。Irwineansweredgently。\"Inthesecaseswesometimesformourjudgmentonwhatseemstousstrongevidence,andyet,forwantofknowingsomesmallfact,ourjudgmentiswrong。Butsupposetheworst: youhavenorighttosaythattheguiltofhercrimelieswithhim,andthatheoughttobearthepunishment。Itisnotforusmentoapportionthesharesofmoralguiltandretribution。Wefinditimpossibletoavoidmistakesevenindeterminingwhohascommittedasinglecriminalact,andtheproblemhowfaramanistobeheldresponsiblefortheunforeseenconsequencesofhisowndeedisonethatmightwellmakeustrembletolookintoit。Theevilconsequencesthatmayliefoldedinasingleactofselfishindulgenceisathoughtsoawfulthatitoughtsurelytoawakensomefeelinglesspresumptuousthanarashdesiretopunish。Youhaveamindthatcanunderstandthisfully,Adam,whenyouarecalm。Don’tsupposeIcan’tenterintotheanguishthatdrivesyouintothisstateofrevengefulhatred。Butthinkofthis:ifyouweretoobeyyourpassion——foritISpassion,andyoudeceiveyourselfincallingitjustice——itmightbewithyoupreciselyasithasbeenwithArthur;nay,worse;yourpassionmightleadyouyourselfintoahorriblecrime。\" \"No——notworse,\"saidAdam,bitterly;\"Idon’tbelieveit’sworse—— I’dsoonerdoit——I’dsoonerdoawickednessasIcouldsufferforbymyselfthanha’broughtHERtodowickednessandthenstandbyandsee’empunishherwhiletheyletmealone;andallforabito’pleasure,as,ifhe’dhadaman’sheartinhim,he’dha’ cuthishandoffsoonerthanhe’dha’takenit。Whatifhedidn’tforeseewhat’shappened?Heforesawenough;he’dnorighttoexpectanythingbutharmandshametoher。Andthenhewantedtosmoothitoffwi’lies。No——there’splentyo’thingsfolksarehangedfornothalfsohatefulasthat。Letamandowhathewill,ifheknowshe’stobearthepunishmenthimself,heisn’thalfsobadasameanselfishcowardasmakesthingseasyt’ himselfandknowsallthewhilethepunishment’llfallonsomebodyelse。\" \"Thereagainyoupartlydeceiveyourself,Adam。Thereisnosortofwrongdeedofwhichamancanbearthepunishmentalone;youcan’tisolateyourselfandsaythattheevilwhichisinyoushallnotspread。Men’slivesareasthoroughlyblendedwitheachotherastheairtheybreathe:evilspreadsasnecessarilyasdisease。 Iknow,IfeeltheterribleextentofsufferingthissinofArthur’shascausedtoothers;butsodoeseverysincausesufferingtoothersbesidesthosewhocommitit。AnactofvengeanceonyourpartagainstArthurwouldsimplybeanothereviladdedtothosewearesufferingunder:youcouldnotbearthepunishmentalone;youwouldentailtheworstsorrowsoneveryonewholovesyou。Youwouldhavecommittedanactofblindfurythatwouldleaveallthepresentevilsjustastheywereandaddworseevilstothem。Youmaytellmethatyoumeditatenofatalactofvengeance,butthefeelinginyourmindiswhatgivesbirthtosuchactions,andaslongasyouindulgeit,aslongasyoudonotseethattofixyourmindonArthur’spunishmentisrevenge,andnotjustice,youareindangerofbeingledontothecommissionofsomegreatwrong。RememberwhatyoutoldmeaboutyourfeelingsafteryouhadgiventhatblowtoArthurintheGrove。\" Adamwassilent:thelastwordshadcalledupavividimageofthepast,andMr。Irwinelefthimtohisthoughts,whilehespoketoBartleMasseyaboutoldMr。Donnithorne’sfuneralandothermattersofanindifferentkind。ButatlengthAdamturnedroundandsaid,inamoresubduedtone,\"I’venotaskedabout’ematth’ HallFarm,sir。IsMr。Poysercoming?\" \"Heiscome;heisinStonitonto-night。ButIcouldnotadvisehimtoseeyou,Adam。Hisownmindisinaveryperturbedstate,anditisbestheshouldnotseeyoutillyouarecalmer。\" \"IsDinahMorriscometo’em,sir?Sethsaidthey’dsentforher。\" \"No。Mr。Poysertellsmeshewasnotcomewhenheleft。They’reafraidtheletterhasnotreachedher。Itseemstheyhadnoexactaddress。\" Adamsatruminatingalittlewhile,andthensaid,\"IwonderifDinah’udha’gonetoseeher。ButperhapsthePoyserswouldha’ beensorelyagainstit,sincetheywon’tcomenighherthemselves。 ButIthinkshewould,fortheMethodistsaregreatfolksforgoingintotheprisons;andSethsaidhethoughtshewould。She’daverytenderwaywithher,Dinahhad;Iwonderifshecouldha’ doneanygood。Youneversawher,sir,didyou?\" \"Yes,Idid。Ihadaconversationwithher——shepleasedmeagooddeal。Andnowyoumentionit,Iwishshewouldcome,foritispossiblethatagentlemildwomanlikehermightmoveHettytoopenherheart。Thejailchaplainisratherharshinhismanner。\" \"Butit’so’nouseifshedoesn’tcome,\"saidAdamsadly。 \"IfI’dthoughtofitearlier,Iwouldhavetakensomemeasuresforfindingherout,\"saidMr。Irwine,\"butit’stoolatenow,I fear……Well,Adam,Imustgonow。Trytogetsomerestto-night。 Godblessyou。I’llseeyouearlyto-morrowmorning。\" TheMorningoftheTrialAToneo’clockthenextday,Adamwasaloneinhisdullupperroom;hiswatchlaybeforehimonthetable,asifhewerecountingthelongminutes。Hehadnoknowledgeofwhatwaslikelytobesaidbythewitnessesonthetrial,forhehadshrunkfromalltheparticularsconnectedwithHetty’sarrestandaccusation。 Thisbraveactiveman,whowouldhavehastenedtowardsanydangerortoiltorescueHettyfromanapprehendedwrongormisfortune,felthimselfpowerlesstocontemplateirremediableevilandsuffering。Thesusceptibilitywhichwouldhavebeenanimpellingforcewheretherewasanypossibilityofactionbecamehelplessanguishwhenhewasobligedtobepassive,orelsesoughtanactiveoutletinthethoughtofinflictingjusticeonArthur。 Energeticnatures,strongforallstrenuousdeeds,willoftenrushawayfromahopelesssufferer,asiftheywerehard-hearted。Itistheovermasteringsenseofpainthatdrivesthem。Theyshrinkbyanungovernableinstinct,astheywouldshrinkfromlaceration。 AdamhadbroughthimselftothinkofseeingHetty,ifshewouldconsenttoseehim,becausehethoughtthemeetingmightpossiblybeagoodtoher——mighthelptomeltawaythisterriblehardnesstheytoldhimof。Ifshesawheborehernoillwillforwhatshehaddonetohim,shemightopenherhearttohim。Butthisresolutionhadbeenanimmenseeffort——hetrembledatthethoughtofseeingherchangedface,asatimidwomantremblesatthethoughtofthesurgeon’sknife,andhechosenowtobearthelonghoursofsuspenseratherthanencounterwhatseemedtohimthemoreintolerableagonyofwitnessinghertrial。 Deepunspeakablesufferingmaywellbecalledabaptism,aregeneration,theinitiationintoanewstate。Theyearningmemories,thebitterregret,theagonizedsympathy,thestrugglingappealstotheInvisibleRight——alltheintenseemotionswhichhadfilledthedaysandnightsofthepastweek,andwerecompressingthemselvesagainlikeaneagercrowdintothehoursofthissinglemorning,madeAdamlookbackonallthepreviousyearsasiftheyhadbeenadimsleepyexistence,andhehadonlynowawakedtofullconsciousness。Itseemedtohimasifhehadalwaysbeforethoughtitalightthingthatmenshouldsuffer,asifallthathehadhimselfenduredandcalledsorrowbeforewasonlyamoment’sstrokethathadneverleftabruise。Doubtlessagreatanguishmaydotheworkofyears,andwemaycomeoutfromthatbaptismoffirewithasoulfullofnewaweandnewpity。 \"OGod,\"Adamgroaned,asheleanedonthetableandlookedblanklyatthefaceofthewatch,\"andmenhavesufferedlikethisbefore……andpoorhelplessyoungthingshavesufferedlikeher……Suchalittlewhileagolookingsohappyandsopretty……kissing’emall,hergrandfatherandallof’em,andtheywishingherluck……Omypoor,poorHetty……dostthinkonitnow?\" Adamstartedandlookedroundtowardsthedoor。Vixenhadbeguntowhimper,andtherewasasoundofastickandalamewalkonthestairs。ItwasBartleMasseycomeback。Coulditbeallover? Bartleenteredquietly,and,goinguptoAdam,graspedhishandandsaid,\"I’mjustcometolookatyou,myboy,forthefolksaregoneoutofcourtforabit。\" Adam’sheartbeatsoviolentlyhewasunabletospeak——hecouldonlyreturnthepressureofhisfriend’shand——andBartle,drawinguptheotherchair,cameandsatinfrontofhim,takingoffhishatandhisspectacles。 \"That’sathingneverhappenedtomebefore,\"heobserved,\"togoouto’thedoorwithmyspectacleson。Icleanforgottotake’emoff。\" Theoldmanmadethistrivialremark,thinkingitbetternottorespondatalltoAdam’sagitation:hewouldgather,inanindirectway,thattherewasnothingdecisivetocommunicateatpresent。 \"Andnow,\"hesaid,risingagain,\"Imustseetoyourhavingabitoftheloaf,andsomeofthatwineMr。Irwinesentthismorning。 He’llbeangrywithmeifyoudon’thaveit。Come,now,\"hewenton,bringingforwardthebottleandtheloafandpouringsomewineintoacup,\"Imusthaveabitandasupmyself。Drinkadropwithme,mylad——drinkwithme。\" Adampushedthecupgentlyawayandsaid,entreatingly,\"Tellmeaboutit,Mr。Massey——tellmeallaboutit。Wasshethere?Havetheybegun?\" \"Yes,myboy,yes——it’stakenallthetimesinceIfirstwent;butthey’reslow,they’reslow;andthere’sthecounselthey’vegotforherputsaspokeinthewheelwheneverhecan,andmakesadealtodowithcross-examiningthewitnessesandquarrellingwiththeotherlawyers。That’sallhecandoforthemoneytheygivehim;andit’sabigsum——it’sabigsum。Buthe’sa’cutefellow,withaneyethat’udpicktheneedlesoutofthehayinnotime。 Ifamanhadgotnofeelings,it’udbeasgoodasademonstrationtolistentowhatgoesonincourt;butatenderheartmakesonestupid。I’dhavegivenupfiguresforeveronlytohavehadsomegoodnewstobringtoyou,mypoorlad。\" \"Butdoesitseemtobegoingagainsther?\"saidAdam。\"Tellmewhatthey’vesaid。Imustknowitnow——Imustknowwhattheyhavetobringagainsther。\" \"Why,thechiefevidenceyethasbeenthedoctors;allbutMartinPoyser——poorMartin。Everybodyincourtfeltforhim——itwaslikeonesob,thesoundtheymadewhenhecamedownagain。Theworstwaswhentheytoldhimtolookattheprisoneratthebar。Itwashardwork,poorfellow——itwashardwork。Adam,myboy,theblowfallsheavilyonhimaswellasyou;youmusthelppoorMartin; youmustshowcourage。Drinksomewinenow,andshowmeyoumeantobearitlikeaman。\" Bartlehadmadetherightsortofappeal。Adam,withanairofquietobedience,tookupthecupanddrankalittle。 \"TellmehowSHElooked,\"hesaidpresently。 \"Frightened,veryfrightened,whentheyfirstbroughtherin;itwasthefirstsightofthecrowdandthejudge,poorcreatur。Andthere’saloto’foolishwomeninfineclothes,withgewgawsalluptheirarmsandfeathersontheirheads,sittingnearthejudge: they’vedressedthemselvesoutinthatway,one’udthink,tobescarecrowsandwarningsagainstanymanevermeddlingwithawomanagain。Theyputuptheirglasses,andstaredandwhispered。Butafterthatshestoodlikeawhiteimage,staringdownatherhandsandseemingneithertohearnorseeanything。Andshe’saswhiteasasheet。Shedidn’tspeakwhentheyaskedherifshe’dplead’guilty’or’notguilty,’andtheypleaded’notguilty’forher。 Butwhensheheardheruncle’sname,thereseemedtogoashiverrightthroughher;andwhentheytoldhimtolookather,shehungherheaddown,andcowered,andhidherfaceinherhands。He’dmuchadotospeakpoorman,hisvoicetrembledso。Andthecounsellors——wholookashardasnailsmostly——Isaw,sparedhimasmuchastheycould。Mr。Irwineputhimselfnearhimandwentwithhimouto’court。Ah,it’sagreatthinginaman’slifetobeabletostandbyaneighbourandupholdhiminsuchtroubleasthat。\" \"Godblesshim,andyoutoo,Mr。Massey,\"saidAdam,inalowvoice,layinghishandonBartle’sarm。 \"Aye,aye,he’sgoodmetal;hegivestherightringwhenyoutryhim,ourparsondoes。Amano’sense——saysnomorethan’sneedful。He’snotoneofthosethatthinktheycancomfortyouwithchattering,asiffolkswhostandbyandlookonknewadealbetterwhatthetroublewasthanthosewhohavetobearit。I’vehadtodowithsuchfolksinmytime——inthesouth,whenIwasintroublemyself。Mr。Irwineistobeawitnesshimself,byandby,onherside,youknow,tospeaktohercharacterandbringingup。\" \"Buttheotherevidence……doesitgohardagainsther!\"saidAdam。 \"Whatdoyouthink,Mr。Massey?Tellmethetruth。\" \"Yes,mylad,yes。Thetruthisthebestthingtotell。Itmustcomeatlast。Thedoctors’evidenceisheavyonher——isheavy。 Butshe’sgoneondenyingshe’shadachildfromfirsttolast。 Thesepoorsillywomen-things——they’venotthesensetoknowit’snousedenyingwhat’sproved。It’llmakeagainstherwiththejury,Idoubt,herbeingsoobstinate:theymaybelessforrecommendinghertomercy,iftheverdict’sagainsther。ButMr。 Irwine’ullleavenostoneunturnedwiththejudge——youmayrelyuponthat,Adam。\" \"Istherenobodytostandbyherandseemtocareforherinthecourt?\"saidAdam。 \"There’sthechaplaino’thejailsitsnearher,buthe’sasharpferrety-facedman——anothersorto’fleshandbloodtoMr。Irwine。 Theysaythejailchaplainsaremostlythefag-endo’theclergy。\" \"There’sonemanasoughttobethere,\"saidAdambitterly。 Presentlyhedrewhimselfupandlookedfixedlyoutofthewindow,apparentlyturningoversomenewideainhismind。 \"Mr。Massey,\"hesaidatlast,pushingthehairoffhisforehead,\"I’llgobackwithyou。I’llgointocourt。It’scowardlyofmetokeepaway。I’llstandbyher——I’llownher——forallshe’sbeendeceitful。Theyoughtn’ttocastheroff——herownfleshandblood。WehandfolksovertoGod’smercy,andshownoneourselves。Iusedtobehardsometimes:I’llneverbehardagain。 I’llgo,Mr。Massey——I’llgowithyou。\" TherewasadecisioninAdam’smannerwhichwouldhavepreventedBartlefromopposinghim,evenifhehadwishedtodoso。Heonlysaid,\"Takeabit,then,andanothersup,Adam,fortheloveofme。See,Imuststopandeatamorsel。Now,youtakesome。\" Nervedbyanactiveresolution,Adamtookamorselofbreadanddranksomewine。Hewashaggardandunshaven,ashehadbeenyesterday,buthestooduprightagain,andlookedmoreliketheAdamBedeofformerdays。 TheVerdictTHEplacefittedupthatdayasacourtofjusticewasagrandoldhall,nowdestroyedbyfire。Themiddaylightthatfellontheclosepavementofhumanheadswasshedthroughalineofhighpointedwindows,variegatedwiththemellowtintsofoldpaintedglass。Grimdustyarmourhunginhighreliefinfrontofthedarkoakengalleryatthefartherend,andunderthebroadarchofthegreatmullionedwindowoppositewasspreadacurtainofoldtapestry,coveredwithdimmelancholyfigures,likeadozingindistinctdreamofthepast。Itwasaplacethatthroughtherestoftheyearwashauntedwiththeshadowymemoriesofoldkingsandqueens,unhappy,discrowned,imprisoned;butto-dayallthoseshadowshadfled,andnotasoulinthevasthallfeltthepresenceofanybutalivingsorrow,whichwasquiveringinwarmhearts。 Butthatsorrowseemedtohavemadeititselffeeblyfelthitherto,nowwhenAdamBede’stallfigurewassuddenlyseenbeingusheredtothesideoftheprisoner’sdock。Inthebroadsunlightofthegreathall,amongthesleekshavenfacesofothermen,themarksofsufferinginhisfacewerestartlingeventoMr。Irwine,whohadlastseenhiminthedimlightofhissmallroom;andtheneighboursfromHayslopewhowerepresent,andwhotoldHettySorrel’sstorybytheirfiresidesintheiroldage,neverforgottosayhowitmovedthemwhenAdamBede,poorfellow,tallerbytheheadthanmostofthepeopleroundhim,cameintocourtandtookhisplacebyherside。 ButHettydidnotseehim。ShewasstandinginthesamepositionBartleMasseyhaddescribed,herhandscrossedovereachotherandhereyesfixedonthem。Adamhadnotdaredtolookatherinthefirstmoments,butatlast,whentheattentionofthecourtwaswithdrawnbytheproceedingsheturnedhisfacetowardsherwitharesolutionnottoshrink。 Whydidtheysayshewassochanged?Inthecorpsewelove,itisthelikenesswesee——itisthelikeness,whichmakesitselffeltthemorekeenlybecausesomethingelsewasandisnot。Theretheywere——thesweetfaceandneck,withthedarktendrilsofhair,thelongdarklashes,theroundedcheekandthepoutinglips——paleandthin,yes,butlikeHetty,andonlyHetty。Othersthoughtshelookedasifsomedemonhadcastablightingglanceuponher,witheredupthewoman’ssoulinher,andleftonlyaharddespairingobstinacy。Butthemother’syearning,thatcompletesttypeofthelifeinanotherlifewhichistheessenceofrealhumanlove,feelsthepresenceofthecherishedchildeveninthedebased,degradedman;andtoAdam,thispale,hard-lookingculpritwastheHettywhohadsmiledathiminthegardenundertheapple-treeboughs——shewasthatHetty’scorpse,whichhehadtrembledtolookatthefirsttime,andthenwasunwillingtoturnawayhiseyesfrom。 Butpresentlyheheardsomethingthatcompelledhimtolisten,andmadethesenseofsightlessabsorbing。Awomanwasinthewitness-box,amiddle-agedwoman,whospokeinafirmdistinctvoice。Shesaid,\"MynameisSarahStone。Iamawidow,andkeepasmallshoplicensedtoselltobacco,snuff,andteainChurchLane,Stoniton。Theprisoneratthebaristhesameyoungwomanwhocame,lookingillandtired,withabasketonherarm,andaskedforalodgingatmyhouseonSaturdayevening,the27thofFebruary。Shehadtakenthehouseforapublic,becausetherewasafigureagainstthedoor。AndwhenIsaidIdidn’ttakeinlodgers,theprisonerbegantocry,andsaidshewastootiredtogoanywhereelse,andsheonlywantedabedforonenight。Andherprettiness,andhercondition,andsomethingrespectableaboutherclothesandlooks,andthetroublesheseemedtobeinmademeasIcouldn’tfindinmyhearttosendherawayatonce。Iaskedhertositdown,andgavehersometea,andaskedherwhereshewasgoing,andwhereherfriendswere。Shesaidshewasgoinghometoherfriends:theywerefarmingfolksagoodwayoff,andshe’dhadalongjourneythathadcosthermoremoneythansheexpected,soasshe’dhardlyanymoneyleftinherpocket,andwasafraidofgoingwhereitwouldcosthermuch。Shehadbeenobligedtosellmostofthethingsoutofherbasket,butshe’dthankfullygiveashillingforabed。IsawnoreasonwhyI shouldn’ttaketheyoungwomaninforthenight。Ihadonlyoneroom,butthereweretwobedsinit,andItoldhershemightstaywithme。Ithoughtshe’dbeenledwrong,andgotintotrouble,butifshewasgoingtoherfriends,itwouldbeagoodworktokeepheroutoffurtherharm。\" Thewitnessthenstatedthatinthenightachildwasborn,andsheidentifiedthebaby-clothesthenshowntoherasthoseinwhichshehadherselfdressedthechild。 \"Thosearetheclothes。Imadethemmyself,andhadkeptthembymeeversincemylastchildwasborn。Itookadealoftroublebothforthechildandthemother。Icouldn’thelptakingtothelittlethingandbeinganxiousaboutit。Ididn’tsendforadoctor,forthereseemednoneed。Itoldthemotherintheday- timeshemusttellmethenameofherfriends,andwheretheylived,andletmewritetothem。Shesaid,byandbyshewouldwriteherself,butnotto-day。Shewouldhavenonay,butshewouldgetupandbedressed,inspiteofeverythingIcouldsay。 Shesaidshefeltquitestrongenough;anditwaswonderfulwhatspiritsheshowed。ButIwasn’tquiteeasywhatIshoulddoabouther,andtowardseveningImadeupmymindI’dgo,afterMeetingwasover,andspeaktoourministeraboutit。Ileftthehouseabouthalf-pasteighto’clock。Ididn’tgooutattheshopdoor,butatthebackdoor,whichopensintoanarrowalley。I’veonlygottheground-floorofthehouse,andthekitchenandbedroombothlookintothealley。Ilefttheprisonersittingupbythefireinthekitchenwiththebabyonherlap。Shehadn’tcriedorseemedlowatall,asshedidthenightbefore。Ithoughtshehadastrangelookwithhereyes,andshegotabitflushedtowardsevening。Iwasafraidofthefever,andIthoughtI’dcallandaskanacquaintanceofmine,anexperiencedwoman,tocomebackwithmewhenIwentout。Itwasaverydarknight。Ididn’tfastenthedoorbehindme;therewasnolock;itwasalatchwithaboltinside,andwhentherewasnobodyinthehouseIalwayswentoutattheshopdoor。ButIthoughttherewasnodangerinleavingitunfastenedthatlittlewhile。IwaslongerthanI meanttobe,forIhadtowaitforthewomanthatcamebackwithme。Itwasanhourandahalfbeforewegotback,andwhenwewentin,thecandlewasstandingburningjustasIleftit,buttheprisonerandthebabywerebothgone。She’dtakenhercloakandbonnet,butshe’dleftthebasketandthethingsinit……I wasdreadfulfrightened,andangrywithherforgoing。Ididn’tgotogiveinformation,becauseI’dnothoughtshemeanttodoanyharm,andIknewshehadmoneyinherpockettobuyherfoodandlodging。Ididn’tliketosettheconstableafterher,forshe’darighttogofrommeifsheliked。\" TheeffectofthisevidenceonAdamwaselectrical;itgavehimnewforce。Hettycouldnotbeguiltyofthecrime——herheartmusthaveclungtoherbaby——elsewhyshouldshehavetakenitwithher?Shemighthaveleftitbehind。Thelittlecreaturehaddiednaturally,andthenshehadhiddenit。Babiesweresoliabletodeath——andtheremightbethestrongestsuspicionswithoutanyproofofguilt。Hismindwassooccupiedwithimaginaryargumentsagainstsuchsuspicions,thathecouldnotlistentothecross- examinationbyHetty’scounsel,whotried,withoutresult,toelicitevidencethattheprisonerhadshownsomemovementsofmaternalaffectiontowardsthechild。Thewholetimethiswitnesswasbeingexamined,Hettyhadstoodasmotionlessasbefore:nowordseemedtoarrestherear。Butthesoundofthenextwitness’svoicetouchedachordthatwasstillsensitive,shegaveastartandafrightenedlooktowardshim,butimmediatelyturnedawayherheadandlookeddownatherhandsasbefore。Thiswitnesswasaman,aroughpeasant。Hesaid: \"MynameisJohnOlding。Iamalabourer,andliveatTedd’sHole,twomilesoutofStoniton。AweeklastMonday,towardsoneo’clockintheafternoon,IwasgoingtowardsHettonCoppice,andaboutaquarterofamilefromthecoppiceIsawtheprisoner,inaredcloak,sittingunderabitofahaystacknotfaroffthestile。Shegotupwhenshesawme,andseemedasifshe’dbewalkingontheotherway。Itwasaregularroadthroughthefields,andnothingveryuncommontoseeayoungwomanthere,butItooknoticeofherbecauseshelookedwhiteandscared。I shouldhavethoughtshewasabeggar-woman,onlyforhergoodclothes。Ithoughtshelookedabitcrazy,butitwasnobusinessofmine。Istoodandlookedbackafterher,butshewentrightonwhileshewasinsight。Ihadtogototheothersideofthecoppicetolookaftersomestakes。There’saroadrightthroughit,andbitsofopeningshereandthere,wherethetreeshavebeencutdown,andsomeof’emnotcarriedaway。Ididn’tgostraightalongtheroad,butturnedofftowardsthemiddle,andtookashorterwaytowardsthespotIwantedtogetto。Ihadn’tgotfaroutoftheroadintooneoftheopenplacesbeforeIheardastrangecry。Ithoughtitdidn’tcomefromanyanimalIknew,butIwasn’tforstoppingtolookaboutjustthen。Butitwenton,andseemedsostrangetomeinthatplace,Icouldn’thelpstoppingtolook。IbegantothinkImightmakesomemoneyofit,ifitwasanewthing。ButIhadhardworktotellwhichwayitcamefrom,andforagoodwhileIkeptlookingupattheboughs。 AndthenIthoughtitcamefromtheground;andtherewasalotoftimber-choppingslyingabout,andloosepiecesofturf,andatrunkortwo。AndIlookedaboutamongthem,butcouldfindnothing,andatlastthecrystopped。SoIwasforgivingitup,andIwentonaboutmybusiness。ButwhenIcamebackthesamewayprettynighanhourafter,Icouldn’thelplayingdownmystakestohaveanotherlook。AndjustasIwasstoopingandlayingdownthestakes,Isawsomethingoddandroundandwhitishlyingonthegroundunderanut-bushbythesideofme。AndI stoopeddownonhandsandkneestopickitup。AndIsawitwasalittlebaby’shand。\" Atthesewordsathrillranthroughthecourt。Hettywasvisiblytrembling;now,forthefirsttime,sheseemedtobelisteningtowhatawitnesssaid。 \"Therewasalotoftimber-choppingsputtogetherjustwherethegroundwenthollow,like,underthebush,andthehandcameoutfromamongthem。ButtherewasaholeleftinoneplaceandI couldseedownitandseethechild’shead;andImadehasteanddidawaytheturfandthechoppings,andtookoutthechild。Ithadgotcomfortableclotheson,butitsbodywascold,andI thoughtitmustbedead。Imadehastebackwithitoutofthewood,andtookithometomywife。Shesaiditwasdead,andI’dbettertakeittotheparishandtelltheconstable。AndIsaid,’I’lllaymylifeit’sthatyoungwoman’schildasImetgoingtothecoppice。’Butsheseemedtobegonecleanoutofsight。AndItookthechildontoHettonparishandtoldtheconstable,andwewentontoJusticeHardy。Andthenwewentlookingaftertheyoungwomantilldarkatnight,andwewentandgaveinformationatStoniton,astheymightstopher。Andthenextmorning,anotherconstablecametome,togowithhimtothespotwhereI foundthechild。Andwhenwegotthere,therewastheprisonera- sittingagainstthebushwhereIfoundthechild;andshecriedoutwhenshesawus,butsheneverofferedtomove。She’dgotabigpieceofbreadonherlap。\" Adamhadgivenafaintgroanofdespairwhilethiswitnesswasspeaking。Hehadhiddenhisfaceonhisarm,whichrestedontheboardinginfrontofhim。Itwasthesuprememomentofhissuffering:Hettywasguilty;andhewassilentlycallingtoGodforhelp。Heheardnomoreoftheevidence,andwasunconsciouswhenthecasefortheprosecutionhadclosed——unconsciousthatMr。 Irwinewasinthewitness-box,tellingofHetty’sunblemishedcharacterinherownparishandofthevirtuoushabitsinwhichshehadbeenbroughtup。Thistestimonycouldhavenoinfluenceontheverdict,butitwasgivenaspartofthatpleaformercywhichherowncounselwouldhavemadeifhehadbeenallowedtospeakforher——afavournotgrantedtocriminalsinthosesterntimes。 AtlastAdamlifteduphishead,fortherewasageneralmovementroundhim。Thejudgehadaddressedthejury,andtheywereretiring。ThedecisivemomentwasnotfaroffAdamfeltashudderinghorrorthatwouldnotlethimlookatHetty,butshehadlongrelapsedintoherblankhardindifference。Alleyeswerestrainedtolookather,butshestoodlikeastatueofdulldespair。 ’Therewasamingledrustling,whispering,andlowbuzzingthroughoutthecourtduringthisinterval。Thedesiretolistenwassuspended,andeveryonehadsomefeelingoropiniontoexpressinundertones。Adamsatlookingblanklybeforehim,buthedidnotseetheobjectsthatwererightinfrontofhiseyes—— thecounselandattorneystalkingwithanairofcoolbusiness,andMr。Irwineinlowearnestconversationwiththejudge——didnotseeMr。Irwinesitdownagaininagitationandshakehisheadmournfullywhensomebodywhisperedtohim。TheinwardactionwastoointenseforAdamtotakeinoutwardobjectsuntilsomestrongsensationrousedhim。 Itwasnotverylong,hardlymorethanaquarterofanhour,beforetheknockwhichtoldthatthejuryhadcometotheirdecisionfellasasignalforsilenceoneveryear。Itissublime——thatsuddenpauseofagreatmultitudewhichtellsthatonesoulmovesinthemall。Deeperanddeeperthesilenceseemedtobecome,likethedeepeningnight,whilethejurymen’snameswerecalledover,andtheprisonerwasmadetoholdupherhand,andthejurywereaskedfortheirverdict。 \"Guilty。\" Itwastheverdicteveryoneexpected,buttherewasasighofdisappointmentfromsomeheartsthatitwasfollowedbynorecommendationtomercy。Stillthesympathyofthecourtwasnotwiththeprisoner。Theunnaturalnessofhercrimestoodoutthemoreharshlybythesideofherhardimmovabilityandobstinatesilence。Eventheverdict,todistanteyes,hadnotappearedtomoveher,butthosewhowerenearsawhertrembling。 Thestillnesswaslessintenseuntilthejudgeputonhisblackcap,andthechaplaininhiscanonicalswasobservedbehindhim。 Thenitdeepenedagain,beforethecrierhadhadtimetocommandsilence。Ifanysoundwereheard,itmusthavebeenthesoundofbeatinghearts。Thejudgespoke,\"HesterSorrel……\" ThebloodrushedtoHetty’sface,andthenfledbackagainasshelookedupatthejudgeandkeptherwide-openeyesfixedonhim,asiffascinatedbyfear。Adamhadnotyetturnedtowardsher,therewasadeephorror,likeagreatgulf,betweenthem。Butatthewords\"andthentobehangedbythenecktillyoubedead,\"apiercingshriekrangthroughthehall。ItwasHetty’sshriek。 Adamstartedtohisfeetandstretchedouthisarmstowardsher。 Butthearmscouldnotreachher:shehadfallendowninafainting-fit,andwascarriedoutofcourt。 Arthur’sReturnWhenArthurDonnithornelandedatLiverpoolandreadtheletterfromhisAuntLydia,brieflyannouncinghisgrand-father’sdeath,hisfirstfeelingwas,\"PoorGrandfather!IwishIcouldhavegottohimtobewithhimwhenhedied。HemighthavefeltorwishedsomethingatthelastthatIshallneverknownow。Itwasalonelydeath。\" Itisimpossibletosaythathisgriefwasdeeperthanthat。Pityandsoftenedmemorytookplaceoftheoldantagonism,andinhisbusythoughtsaboutthefuture,asthechaisecarriedhimrapidlyalongtowardsthehomewherehewasnowtobemaster,therewasacontinuallyrecurringefforttorememberanythingbywhichhecouldshowaregardforhisgrandfather’swishes,withoutcounteractinghisowncherishedaimsforthegoodofthetenantsandtheestate。Butitisnotinhumannature——onlyinhumanpretence——forayoungmanlikeArthur,withafineconstitutionandfinespirits,thinkingwellofhimself,believingthatothersthinkwellofhim,andhavingaveryardentintentiontogivethemmoreandmorereasonforthatgoodopinion——itisnotpossibleforsuchayoungman,justcomingintoasplendidestatethroughthedeathofaveryoldmanwhomhewasnotfondof,tofeelanythingverydifferentfromexultantjoy。Nowhisreallifewasbeginning;nowhewouldhaveroomandopportunityforaction,andhewouldusethem。HewouldshowtheLoamshirepeoplewhatafinecountrygentlemanwas;hewouldnotexchangethatcareerforanyotherunderthesun。Hefelthimselfridingoverthehillsinthebreezyautumndays,lookingafterfavouriteplansofdrainageandenclosure;thenadmiredonsombremorningsasthebestrideronthebesthorseinthehunt;spokenwellofonmarket-daysasafirst-ratelandlord;byandbymakingspeechesatelectiondinners,andshowingawonderfulknowledgeofagriculture;thepatronofnewploughsanddrills,thesevereupbraiderofnegligentlandowners,andwithalajollyfellowthateverybodymustlike——happyfacesgreetinghimeverywhereonhisownestate,andtheneighbouringfamiliesonthebesttermswithhim。TheIrwinesshoulddinewithhimeveryweek,andhavetheirowncarriagetocomein,forinsomeverydelicatewaythatArthurwoulddevise,thelay-impropriatoroftheHayslopetitheswouldinsistonpayingacoupleofhundredsmoretothevicar;andhisauntshouldbeascomfortableaspossible,andgoonlivingattheChase,ifsheliked,inspiteofherold-maidishways——atleastuntilhewasmarried,andthateventlayintheindistinctbackground,forArthurhadnotyetseenthewomanwhowouldplaythelady-wifetothefirst-ratecountrygentleman。 ThesewereArthur’schiefthoughts,sofarasaman’sthoughtsthroughhoursoftravellingcanbecompressedintoafewsentences,whichareonlylikethelistofnamestellingyouwhatarethescenesinalonglongpanoramafullofcolour,ofdetail,andoflife。ThehappyfacesArthursawgreetinghimwerenotpaleabstractions,butrealruddyfaces,longfamiliartohim: MartinPoyserwasthere——thewholePoyserfamily。 What——Hetty? Yes;forArthurwasateaseaboutHetty——notquiteateaseaboutthepast,foracertainburningoftheearswouldcomewheneverhethoughtofthesceneswithAdamlastAugust,butateaseaboutherpresentlot。Mr。Irwine,whohadbeenaregularcorrespondent,tellinghimallthenewsabouttheoldplacesandpeople,hadsenthimwordnearlythreemonthsagothatAdamBedewasnottomarryMaryBurge,ashehadthought,butprettyHettySorrel。MartinPoyserandAdamhimselfhadbothtoldMr。Irwineallaboutit—— thatAdamhadbeendeeplyinlovewithHettythesetwoyears,andthatnowitwasagreedtheyweretobemarriedinMarch。ThatstalwartrogueAdamwasmoresusceptiblethantherectorhadthought;itwasreallyquiteanidyllicloveaffair;andifithadnotbeentoolongtotellinaletter,hewouldhavelikedtodescribetoArthurtheblushinglooksandthesimplestrongwordswithwhichthefinehonestfellowtoldhissecret。HeknewArthurwouldliketohearthatAdamhadthissortofhappinessinprospect。 Yes,indeed!Arthurfelttherewasnotairenoughintheroomtosatisfyhisrenovatedlife,whenhehadreadthatpassageintheletter。Hethrewupthewindows,herushedoutofdoorsintotheDecemberair,andgreetedeveryonewhospoketohimwithaneagergaiety,asiftherehadbeennewsofafreshNelsonvictory。ForthefirsttimethatdaysincehehadcometoWindsor,hewasintrueboyishspirits。Theloadthathadbeenpressinguponhimwasgone,thehauntingfearhadvanished。HethoughthecouldconquerhisbitternesstowardsAdamnow——couldofferhimhishand,andasktobehisfriendagain,inspiteofthatpainfulmemorywhichwouldstillmakehisearsburn。Hehadbeenknockeddown,andhehadbeenforcedtotellalie:suchthingsmakeascar,dowhatwewill。ButifAdamwerethesameagainasintheolddays,Arthurwishedtobethesametoo,andtohaveAdammixedupwithhisbusinessandhisfuture,ashehadalwaysdesiredbeforetheaccursedmeetinginAugust。Nay,hewoulddoagreatdealmoreforAdamthanheshouldotherwisehavedone,whenhecameintotheestate;Hetty’shusbandhadaspecialclaimonhim——HettyherselfshouldfeelthatanypainshehadsufferedthroughArthurinthepastwascompensatedtoherahundredfold。Forreallyshecouldnothavefeltmuch,sinceshehadsosoonmadeuphermindtomarryAdam。 YouperceiveclearlywhatsortofpictureAdamandHettymadeinthepanoramaofArthur’sthoughtsonhisjourneyhomeward。ItwasMarchnow;theyweresoontobemarried:perhapstheywerealreadymarried。Andnowitwasactuallyinhispowertodoagreatdealforthem。Sweet——sweetlittleHetty!Thelittlepusshadn’tcaredforhimhalfasmuchashecaredforher;forhewasagreatfoolaboutherstill——wasalmostafraidofseeingher——indeed,hadnotcaredmuchtolookatanyotherwomansincehepartedfromher。ThatlittlefigurecomingtowardshimintheGrove,thosedark-fringedchildisheyes,thelovelylipsputuptokisshim—— thatpicturehadgotnofainterwiththelapseofmonths。Andshewouldlookjustthesame。Itwasimpossibletothinkhowhecouldmeether:heshouldcertainlytremble。Strange,howlongthissortofinfluencelasts,forhewascertainlynotinlovewithHettynow。Hehadbeenearnestlydesiring,formonths,thatsheshouldmarryAdam,andtherewasnothingthatcontributedmoretohishappinessinthesemomentsthanthethoughtoftheirmarriage。 Itwastheexaggeratingeffectofimaginationthatmadehisheartstillbeatalittlemorequicklyatthethoughtofher。Whenhesawthelittlethingagainasshereallywas,asAdam’swife,atworkquiteprosaicallyinhernewhome,heshouldperhapswonderatthepossibilityofhispastfeelings。Thankheavenithadturnedoutsowell!Heshouldhaveplentyofaffairsandintereststofillhislifenow,andnotbeindangerofplayingthefoolagain。 Pleasantthecrackofthepost-boy’swhip!PleasantthesenseofbeinghurriedalonginswifteasethroughEnglishscenes,solikethoseroundhisownhome,onlynotquitesocharming。Herewasamarket-town——verymuchlikeTreddleston——wherethearmsoftheneighbouringlordofthemanorwereborneonthesignoftheprincipalinn;thenmerefieldsandhedges,theirvicinitytoamarket-towncarryinganagreeablesuggestionofhighrent,tillthelandbegantoassumeatrimmerlook,thewoodsweremorefrequent,andatlengthawhiteorredmansionlookeddownfromamoderateeminence,orallowedhimtobeawareofitsparapetandchimneysamongthedense-lookingmassesofoaksandelms——massesreddenednowwithearlybuds。Andcloseathandcamethevillage: thesmallchurch,withitsred-tiledroof,lookinghumbleevenamongthefadedhalf-timberedhouses;theoldgreengravestoneswithnettlesroundthem;nothingfreshandbrightbutthechildren,openingroundeyesattheswiftpost-chaise;nothingnoisyandbusybutthegapingcursofmysteriouspedigree。WhatamuchprettiervillageHayslopewas!Anditshouldnotbeneglectedlikethisplace:vigorousrepairsshouldgooneverywhereamongfarm-buildingsandcottages,andtravellersinpost-chaises,comingalongtheRosseterroad,shoulddonothingbutadmireastheywent。AndAdamBedeshouldsuperintendalltherepairs,forhehadashareinBurge’sbusinessnow,and,ifheliked,Arthurwouldputsomemoneyintotheconcernandbuytheoldmanoutinanotheryearortwo。ThatwasanuglyfaultinArthur’slife,thataffairlastsummer,butthefutureshouldmakeamends。ManymenwouldhaveretainedafeelingofvindictivenesstowardsAdam,buthewouldnot——hewouldresolutelyovercomealllittlenessofthatkind,forhehadcertainlybeenverymuchinthewrong;andthoughAdamhadbeenharshandviolent,andhadthrustonhimapainfuldilemma,thepoorfellowwasinlove,andhadrealprovocation。No,Arthurhadnotanevilfeelinginhismindtowardsanyhumanbeing:hewashappy,andwouldmakeeveryoneelsehappythatcamewithinhisreach。 AndherewasdearoldHayslopeatlast,sleeping,onthehill,likeaquietoldplaceasitwas,inthelateafternoonsunlight,andoppositetoitthegreatshouldersoftheBintonHills,belowthemthepurplishblacknessofthehangingwoods,andatlastthepalefrontoftheAbbey,lookingoutfromamongtheoaksoftheChase,asifanxiousfortheheir’sreturn。\"PoorGrandfather! Andheliesdeadthere。Hewasayoungfellowonce,comingintotheestateandmakinghisplans。Sotheworldgoesround!AuntLydiamustfeelverydesolate,poorthing;butsheshallbeindulgedasmuchassheindulgesherfatFido。\" ThewheelsofArthur’schaisehadbeenanxiouslylistenedforattheChase,forto-daywasFriday,andthefuneralhadalreadybeendeferredtwodays。Beforeitdrewuponthegravelofthecourtyard,alltheservantsinthehousewereassembledtoreceivehimwithagrave,decentwelcome,befittingahouseofdeath。A monthago,perhaps,itwouldhavebeendifficultforthemtohavemaintainedasuitablesadnessintheirfaces,whenMr。Arthurwascometotakepossession;buttheheartsofthehead-servantswereheavythatdayforanothercausethanthedeathoftheoldsquire,andmorethanoneofthemwaslongingtobetwentymilesaway,asMr。Craigwas,knowingwhatwastobecomeofHettySorrel——prettyHettySorrel——whomtheyusedtoseeeveryweek。Theyhadthepartisanshipofhouseholdservantswholiketheirplaces,andwerenotinclinedtogothefulllengthofthesevereindignationfeltagainsthimbythefarmingtenants,butrathertomakeexcusesforhim;nevertheless,theupperservants,whohadbeenontermsofneighbourlyintercoursewiththePoysersformanyyears,couldnothelpfeelingthatthelonged-foreventoftheyoungsquire’scomingintotheestatehadbeenrobbedofallitspleasantness。 ToArthuritwasnothingsurprisingthattheservantslookedgraveandsad:hehimselfwasverymuchtouchedonseeingthemallagain,andfeelingthathewasinanewrelationtothem。Itwasthatsortofpatheticemotionwhichhasmorepleasurethanpaininit——whichisperhapsoneofthemostdeliciousofallstatestoagood-naturedman,consciousofthepowertosatisfyhisgoodnature。Hisheartswelledagreeablyashesaid,\"Well,Mills,howismyaunt?\" ButnowMr。Bygate,thelawyer,whohadbeeninthehouseeversincethedeath,cameforwardtogivedeferentialgreetingsandanswerallquestions,andArthurwalkedwithhimtowardsthelibrary,wherehisAuntLydiawasexpectinghim。AuntLydiawastheonlypersoninthehousewhoknewnothingaboutHetty。Hersorrowasamaidendaughterwasunmixedwithanyotherthoughtsthanthoseofanxietyaboutfuneralarrangementsandherownfuturelot;and,afterthemannerofwomen,shemournedforthefatherwhohadmadeherlifeimportant,allthemorebecauseshehadasecretsensethattherewaslittlemourningforhiminotherhearts。 ButArthurkissedhertearfulfacemoretenderlythanhehadeverdoneinhislifebefore。 \"DearAunt,\"hesaidaffectionately,asheheldherhand,\"YOUR lossisthegreatestofall,butyoumusttellmehowtotryandmakeituptoyoualltherestofyourlife。\" \"Itwassosuddenandsodreadful,Arthur,\"poorMissLydiabegan,pouringoutherlittleplaints,andArthursatdowntolistenwithimpatientpatience。Whenapausecame,hesaid: \"Now,Aunt,I’llleaveyouforaquarterofanhourjusttogotomyownroom,andthenIshallcomeandgivefullattentiontoeverything。\" \"Myroomisallreadyforme,Isuppose,Mills?\"hesaidtothebutler,whoseemedtobelingeringuneasilyabouttheentrance- hall。 \"Yes,sir,andtherearelettersforyou;theyarealllaidonthewriting-tableinyourdressing-room。\" Onenteringthesmallanteroomwhichwascalledadressing-room,butwhichArthurreallyusedonlytoloungeandwritein,hejustcasthiseyesonthewriting-table,andsawthattherewereseverallettersandpacketslyingthere;buthewasintheuncomfortabledustyconditionofamanwhohashadalonghurriedjourney,andhemustreallyrefreshhimselfbyattendingtohistoilettealittle,beforehereadhisletters。Pymwasthere,makingeverythingreadyforhim,andsoon,withadelightfulfreshnessabouthim,asifhewerepreparedtobeginanewday,hewentbackintohisdressing-roomtoopenhisletters。Thelevelraysofthelowafternoonsunentereddirectlyatthewindow,andasArthurseatedhimselfinhisvelvetchairwiththeirpleasantwarmthuponhim,hewasconsciousofthatquietwell-beingwhichperhapsyouandIhavefeltonasunnyafternoonwhen,inourbrightestyouthandhealth,lifehasopenedanewvistaforus,andlongto-morrowsofactivityhavestretchedbeforeuslikealovelyplainwhichtherewasnoneedforhurryingtolookat,becauseitwasallourown。 Thetopletterwasplacedwithitsaddressupwards:itwasinMr。 Irwine’shandwriting,Arthursawatonce;andbelowtheaddresswaswritten,\"Tobedeliveredassoonashearrives。\"NothingcouldhavebeenlesssurprisingtohimthanaletterfromMr。 Irwineatthatmoment:ofcourse,therewassomethinghewishedArthurtoknowearlierthanitwaspossibleforthemtoseeeachother。AtsuchatimeasthatitwasquitenaturalthatIrwineshouldhavesomethingpressingtosay。Arthurbrokethesealwithanagreeableanticipationofsoonseeingthewriter。 \"Isendthislettertomeetyouonyourarrival,Arthur,becauseI maythenbeatStoniton,whitherIamcalledbythemostpainfuldutyithaseverbeengivenmetoperform,anditisrightthatyoushouldknowwhatIhavetotellyouwithoutdelay。 \"Iwillnotattempttoaddbyonewordofreproachtotheretributionthatisnowfallingonyou:anyotherwordsthatI couldwriteatthismomentmustbeweakandunmeaningbythesideofthoseinwhichImusttellyouthesimplefact。 \"HettySorrelisinprison,andwillbetriedonFridayforthecrimeofchild-murder。\"…… Arthurreadnomore。Hestartedupfromhischairandstoodforasingleminutewithasenseofviolentconvulsioninhiswholeframe,asifthelifeweregoingoutofhimwithhorriblethrobs; butthenextminutehehadrushedoutoftheroom,stillclutchingtheletter——hewashurryingalongthecorridor,anddownthestairsintothehall。Millswasstillthere,butArthurdidnotseehim,ashepassedlikeahuntedmanacrossthehallandoutalongthegravel。Thebutlerhurriedoutafterhimasfastashiselderlylimbscouldrun:heguessed,heknew,wheretheyoungsquirewasgoing。 WhenMillsgottothestables,ahorsewasbeingsaddled,andArthurwasforcinghimselftoreadtheremainingwordsoftheletter。Hethrustitintohispocketasthehorsewasleduptohim,andatthatmomentcaughtsightofMills’anxiousfaceinfrontofhim。 \"TellthemI’mgone——gonetoStoniton,\"hesaidinamuffledtoneofagitation——sprangintothesaddle,andsetoffatagallop。