Therewasanotherpause——solongandsodreadfulthatAnnewasdrivenatlasttolookup。Gilbert’sfacewaswhitetothelips。
Andhiseyes——butAnneshudderedandlookedaway。Therewasnothingromanticaboutthis。Mustproposalsbeeithergrotesqueor——horrible?CouldsheeverforgetGilbert’sface?
\"Isthereanybodyelse?\"heaskedatlastinalowvoice。
\"No——no,\"saidAnneeagerly。\"Idon’tcareforanyonelikeTHAT——andILIKEyoubetterthananybodyelseintheworld,Gilbert。Andwemust——wemustgoonbeingfriends,Gilbert。\"
Gilbertgaveabitterlittlelaugh。
\"Friends!Yourfriendshipcan’tsatisfyme,Anne。Iwantyourlove——andyoutellmeIcanneverhavethat。\"
\"I’msorry。Forgiveme,Gilbert,\"wasallAnnecouldsay。
Where,oh,wherewereallthegraciousandgracefulspeecheswherewith,inimagination,shehadbeenwonttodismissrejectedsuitors?
Gilbertreleasedherhandgently。
\"Thereisn’tanythingtoforgive。TherehavebeentimeswhenIthoughtyoudidcare。I’vedeceivedmyself,that’sall。Goodbye,Anne。\"
Annegotherselftoherroom,satdownonherwindowseatbehindthepines,andcriedbitterly。Shefeltasifsomethingincalculablyprecioushadgoneoutofherlife。ItwasGilbert’sfriendship,ofcourse。Oh,whymustsheloseitafterthisfashion?
\"Whatisthematter,honey?\"askedPhil,cominginthroughthemoonlitgloom。
Annedidnotanswer。AtthatmomentshewishedPhilwereathousandmilesaway。
\"Isupposeyou’vegoneandrefusedGilbertBlythe。Youareanidiot,AnneShirley!\"
\"DoyoucallitidiotictorefusetomarryamanIdon’tlove?\"
saidAnnecoldly,goadedtoreply。
\"Youdon’tknowlovewhenyouseeit。You’vetrickedsomethingoutwithyourimaginationthatyouthinklove,andyouexpecttherealthingtolooklikethat。There,that’sthefirstsensiblethingI’veeversaidinmylife。IwonderhowImanagedit?\"
\"Phil,\"pleadedAnne,\"pleasegoawayandleavemealoneforalittlewhile。Myworldhastumbledintopieces。Iwanttoreconstructit。\"
\"WithoutanyGilbertinit?\"saidPhil,going。
AworldwithoutanyGilbertinit!Annerepeatedthewordsdrearily。
Woulditnotbeaverylonely,forlornplace?Well,itwasallGilbert’sfault。Hehadspoiledtheirbeautifulcomradeship。
Shemustjustlearntolivewithoutit。
ChapterXXI
RosesofYesterdayThefortnightAnnespentinBolingbrokewasaverypleasantone,withalittleundercurrentofvaguepainanddissatisfactionrunningthroughitwhenevershethoughtaboutGilbert。Therewasnot,however,muchtimetothinkabouthim。\"MountHolly,\"thebeautifuloldGordonhomestead,wasaverygayplace,overrunbyPhil’sfriendsofbothsexes。Therewasquiteabewilderingsuccessionofdrives,dances,picnicsandboatingparties,allexpressivelylumpedtogetherbyPhilundertheheadof\"jamborees\";
AlecandAlonzoweresoconstantlyonhandthatAnnewonderediftheyeverdidanythingbutdanceattendanceonthatwill-o’-the-wispofaPhil。Theywerebothnice,manlyfellows,butAnnewouldnotbedrawnintoanyopinionastowhichwasthenicer。
\"AndIdependedsoonyoutohelpmemakeupmymindwhichofthemI
shouldpromisetomarry,\"mournedPhil。
\"Youmustdothatforyourself。Youarequiteexpertatmakingupyourmindastowhomotherpeopleshouldmarry,\"retortedAnne,rathercaustically。
\"Oh,that’saverydifferentthing,\"saidPhil,truly。
ButthesweetestincidentofAnne’ssojourninBolingbrokewasthevisittoherbirthplace——thelittleshabbyyellowhouseinanout-of-the-waystreetshehadsooftendreamedabout。Shelookedatitwithdelightedeyes,assheandPhilturnedinatthegate。
\"It’salmostexactlyasI’vepicturedit,\"shesaid。\"Thereisnohoneysuckleoverthewindows,butthereisalilactreebythegate,and——yes,therearethemuslincurtainsinthewindows。
HowgladIamitisstillpaintedyellow。\"
Averytall,verythinwomanopenedthedoor。
\"Yes,theShirleyslivedheretwentyyearsago,\"shesaid,inanswertoAnne’squestion。\"Theyhaditrented。Iremember’em。
Theybothdiedoffeveratonct。Itwasturriblesad。Theyleftababy。Iguessit’sdeadlongago。Itwasasicklything。OldThomasandhiswifetookit——asiftheyhadn’tenoughoftheirown。\"
\"Itdidn’tdie,\"saidAnne,smiling。\"Iwasthatbaby。\"
\"Youdon’tsayso!Why,youhavegrown,\"exclaimedthewoman,asifsheweremuchsurprisedthatAnnewasnotstillababy。
\"Cometolookatyou,Iseetheresemblance。You’recomplectedlikeyourpa。Hehadredhair。Butyoufavoryourmainyoureyesandmouth。Shewasanicelittlething。Mydarterwenttoschooltoherandwasnighcrazyabouther。TheywasburiedintheonegraveandtheSchoolBoardputupatombstonetothemasarewardforfaithfulservice。Willyoucomein?\"
\"Willyouletmegoalloverthehouse?\"askedAnneeagerly。
\"Laws,yes,youcanifyoulike。’Twon’ttakeyoulong——thereain’tmuchofit。Ikeepatmymantobuildanewkitchen,butheain’toneofyourhustlers。Theparlor’sinthereandthere’stworoomsupstairs。Justprowlaboutyourselves。I’vegottoseetothebaby。Theeastroomwastheoneyouwerebornin。
Irememberyourmasayingshelovedtoseethesunrise;andI
mindhearingthatyouwasbornjustasthesunwasrisinganditslightonyourfacewasthefirstthingyourmasaw。\"
Annewentupthenarrowstairsandintothatlittleeastroomwithafullheart。Itwasasashrinetoher。Herehermotherhaddreamedtheexquisite,happydreamsofanticipatedmotherhood;
herethatredsunriselighthadfallenoverthembothinthesacredhourofbirth;herehermotherhaddied。Annelookedaboutherreverently,hereyeswithtears。Itwasforheroneofthejeweledhoursoflifethatgleamoutradiantlyforeverinmemory。
\"Justtothinkofit——motherwasyoungerthanIamnowwhenIwasborn,\"
shewhispered。
WhenAnnewentdownstairstheladyofthehousemetherinthehall。
Sheheldoutadustylittlepackettiedwithfadedblueribbon。
\"Here’sabundleofoldlettersIfoundinthatclosetupstairswhenIcamehere,\"shesaid。\"Idunnowhattheyare——Ineverbotheredtolookin’em,buttheaddressonthetoponeis`MissBerthaWillis,’andthatwasyourma’smaidenname。
Youcantake’emifyou’dkeertohave’em。\"
\"Oh,thankyou——thankyou,\"criedAnne,claspingthepacketrapturously。
\"Thatwasallthatwasinthehouse,\"saidherhostess。\"Thefurniturewasallsoldtopaythedoctorbills,andMrs。Thomasgotyourma’sclothesandlittlethings。Ireckontheydidn’tlastlongamongthatdroveofThomasyoungsters。Theywasdestructiveyounganimals,asImind’em。\"
\"Ihaven’tonethingthatbelongedtomymother,\"saidAnne,chokily。\"I——Icanneverthankyouenoughfortheseletters。\"
\"You’requitewelcome。Laws,butyoureyesislikeyourma’s。
Shecouldjustabouttalkwithhers。Yourfatherwassorterhomelybutawfulnice。Imindhearingfolkssaywhentheywasmarriedthatthereneverwastwopeoplemoreinlovewitheachother——Porecreatures,theydidn’tlivemuchlonger;buttheywasawfulhappywhiletheywasalive,andIs’posethatcountsforagooddeal。\"
Annelongedtogethometoreadherpreciousletters;butshemadeonelittlepilgrimagefirst。Shewentalonetothegreencornerofthe\"old\"Bolingbrokecemeterywhereherfatherandmotherwereburied,andleftontheirgravethewhiteflowersshecarried。ThenshehastenedbacktoMountHolly,shutherselfupinherroom,andreadtheletters。Somewerewrittenbyherfather,somebyhermother。Therewerenotmany——onlyadozeninall——forWalterandBerthaShirleyhadnotbeenoftenseparatedduringtheircourtship。Theletterswereyellowandfadedanddim,blurredwiththetouchofpassingyears。
Noprofoundwordsofwisdomweretracedonthestainedandwrinkledpages,butonlylinesofloveandtrust。Thesweetnessofforgottenthingsclungtothem——thefar-off,fondimaginingsofthoselong-deadlovers。BerthaShirleyhadpossessedthegiftofwritingletterswhichembodiedthecharmingpersonalityofthewriterinwordsandthoughtsthatretainedtheirbeautyandfragranceafterthelapseoftime。Thelettersweretender,intimate,sacred。ToAnne,thesweetestofallwastheonewrittenafterherbirthtothefatheronabriefabsence。
Itwasfullofaproudyoungmother’saccountsof\"baby\"——
hercleverness,herbrightness,herthousandsweetnesses。
\"Iloveherbestwhensheisasleepandbetterstillwhensheisawake,\"
BerthaShirleyhadwritteninthepostscript。Probablyitwasthelastsentenceshehadeverpenned。Theendwasverynearforher。
\"Thishasbeenthemostbeautifuldayofmylife,\"AnnesaidtoPhilthatnight。\"I’veFOUNDmyfatherandmother。ThoselettershavemadethemREALtome。I’mnotanorphananylonger。IfeelasifIhadopenedabookandfoundrosesofyesterday,sweetandbeloved,betweenitsleaves。\"
ChapterXXII
SpringandAnneReturntoGreenGablesThefirelightshadowsweredancingoverthekitchenwallsatGreenGables,forthespringeveningwaschilly;throughtheopeneastwindowdriftedinthesubtlysweetvoicesofthenight。
Marillawassittingbythefire——atleast,inbody。Inspiritshewasroamingoldenways,withfeetgrownyoung。OflateMarillahadthusspentmanyanhour,whenshethoughtsheshouldhavebeenknittingforthetwins。
\"IsupposeI’mgrowingold,\"shesaid。
YetMarillahadchangedbutlittleinthepastnineyears,savetogrowsomethingthinner,andevenmoreangular;therewasalittlemoregrayinthehairthatwasstilltwistedupinthesamehardknot,withtwohairpins——WEREtheythesamehairpins?——
stillstuckthroughit。Butherexpressionwasverydifferent;
thesomethingaboutthemouthwhichhadhintedatasenseofhumorhaddevelopedwonderfully;hereyesweregentlerandmilder,hersmilemorefrequentandtender。
Marillawasthinkingofherwholepastlife,hercrampedbutnotunhappychildhood,thejealouslyhiddendreamsandtheblightedhopesofhergirlhood,thelong,gray,narrow,monotonousyearsofdullmiddlelifethatfollowed。AndthecomingofAnne——
thevivid,imaginative,impetuouschildwithherheartoflove,andherworldoffancy,bringingwithhercolorandwarmthandradiance,untilthewildernessofexistencehadblossomedliketherose。MarillafeltthatoutofhersixtyyearsshehadlivedonlytheninethathadfollowedtheadventofAnne。
AndAnnewouldbehometomorrownight。
Thekitchendooropened。MarillalookedupexpectingtoseeMrs。
Lynde。Annestoodbeforeher,tallandstarry-eyed,withherhandsfullofMayflowersandviolets。
\"AnneShirley!\"exclaimedMarilla。Foronceinherlifeshewassurprisedoutofherreserve;shecaughthergirlinherarmsandcrushedherandherflowersagainstherheart,kissingthebrighthairandsweetfacewarmly。\"Ineverlookedforyoutilltomorrownight。HowdidyougetfromCarmody?\"
\"Walked,dearestofMarillas。Haven’tIdoneitascoreoftimesintheQueen’sdays?Themailmanistobringmytrunktomorrow;
Ijustgothomesickallatonce,andcameadayearlier。Andoh!
I’vehadsuchalovelywalkintheMaytwilight;IstoppedbythebarrensandpickedtheseMayflowers;IcamethroughViolet-Vale;
it’sjustabigbowlfulofvioletsnow——thedear,sky-tintedthings。Smellthem,Marilla——drinkthemin。\"
Marillasniffedobligingly,butshewasmoreinterestedinAnnethanindrinkingviolets。
\"Sitdown,child。Youmustberealtired。I’mgoingtogetyousomesupper。\"
\"There’sadarlingmoonrisebehindthehillstonight,Marilla,andoh,howthefrogssangmehomefromCarmody!Idolovethemusicofthefrogs。Itseemsboundupwithallmyhappiestrecollectionsofoldspringevenings。AnditalwaysremindsmeofthenightIcameherefirst。Doyourememberit,Marilla?\"
\"Well,yes,\"saidMarillawithemphasis。\"I’mnotlikelytoforgetitever。\"
\"Theyusedtosingsomadlyinthemarshandbrookthatyear。
Iwouldlistentothematmywindowinthedusk,andwonderhowtheycouldseemsogladandsosadatthesametime。Oh,butit’sgoodtobehomeagain!RedmondwassplendidandBolingbrokedelightful——butGreenGablesisHOME。\"
\"Gilbertisn’tcominghomethissummer,Ihear,\"saidMarilla。
\"No。\"SomethinginAnne’stonemadeMarillaglanceathersharply,butAnnewasapparentlyabsorbedinarranginghervioletsinabowl。\"See,aren’ttheysweet?\"shewentonhurriedly。\"Theyearisabook,isn’tit,Marilla?Spring’spagesarewritteninMayflowersandviolets,summer’sinroses,autumn’sinredmapleleaves,andwinterinhollyandevergreen。\"
\"DidGilbertdowellinhisexaminations?\"persistedMarilla。
\"Excellentlywell。Heledhisclass。ButwherearethetwinsandMrs。Lynde?\"
\"RachelandDoraareoveratMr。Harrison’s。DavyisdownatBoulters’。IthinkIhearhimcomingnow。\"
Davyburstin,sawAnne,stopped,andthenhurledhimselfuponherwithajoyfulyell。
\"Oh,Anne,ain’tIgladtoseeyou!Say,Anne,I’vegrowntwoinchessincelastfall。Mrs。Lyndemeasuredmewithhertapetoday,andsay,Anne,seemyfronttooth。It’sgone。Mrs。Lyndetiedoneendofastringtoitandtheotherendtothedoor,andthenshutthedoor。
IsoldittoMiltyfortwocents。Milty’scollectingteeth。\"
\"Whatintheworlddoeshewantteethfor?\"askedMarilla。
\"TomakeanecklaceforplayingIndianChief,\"explainedDavy,climbinguponAnne’slap。\"He’sgotfifteenalready,andeverybody’selse’spromised,sothere’snouseintherestofusstartingtocollect,too。ItellyoutheBoultersaregreatbusinesspeople。\"
\"WereyouagoodboyatMrs。Boulter’s?\"askedMarillaseverely。
\"Yes;butsay,Marilla,I’mtiredofbeinggood。\"
\"You’dgettiredofbeingbadmuchsooner,Davy-boy,\"saidAnne。
\"Well,it’dbefunwhileitlasted,wouldn’tit?\"persistedDavy。
\"Icouldbesorryforitafterwards,couldn’tI?\"
\"Beingsorrywouldn’tdoawaywiththeconsequencesofbeingbad,Davy。Don’tyouremembertheSundaylastsummerwhenyouranawayfromSundaySchool?Youtoldmethenthatbeingbadwasn’tworthwhile。WhatwereyouandMiltydoingtoday?\"
\"Oh,wefishedandchasedthecat,andhuntedforeggs,andyelledattheecho。There’sagreatechointhebushbehindtheBoulterbarn。Say,whatisecho,Anne;Iwanttoknow。\"
\"Echoisabeautifulnymph,Davy,livingfarawayinthewoods,andlaughingattheworldfromamongthehills。\"
\"Whatdoesshelooklike?\"
\"Herhairandeyesaredark,butherneckandarmsarewhiteassnow。
Nomortalcaneverseehowfairsheis。Sheisfleeterthanadeer,andthatmockingvoiceofhersisallwecanknowofher。Youcanhearhercallingatnight;youcanhearherlaughingunderthestars。
Butyoucanneverseeher。Shefliesafarifyoufollowher,andlaughsatyoualwaysjustoverthenexthill。\"
\"Isthattrue,Anne?Orisitawhopper?\"demandedDavystaring。
\"Davy,\"saidAnnedespairingly,\"haven’tyousenseenoughtodistinguishbetweenafairytaleandafalsehood?\"
\"ThenwhatisitthatsassesbackfromtheBoulterbush?Iwanttoknow,\"insistedDavy。
\"Whenyouarealittleolder,Davy,I’llexplainitalltoyou。\"
ThementionofageevidentlygaveanewturntoDavy’sthoughtsforafterafewmomentsofreflection,hewhisperedsolemnly:
\"Anne,I’mgoingtobemarried。\"
\"When?\"askedAnnewithequalsolemnity。
\"Oh,notuntilI’mgrown-up,ofcourse。\"
\"Well,that’sarelief,Davy。Whoisthelady?\"
\"StellaFletcher;she’sinmyclassatschool。Andsay,Anne,she’stheprettiestgirlyoueversaw。IfIdiebeforeIgrowupyou’llkeepaneyeonher,won’tyou?\"
\"DavyKeith,dostoptalkingsuchnonsense,\"saidMarillaseverely。
\"’Tisn’tnonsense,\"protestedDavyinaninjuredtone。\"She’smypromisedwife,andifIwastodieshe’dbemypromisedwidow,wouldn’tshe?Andshehasn’tgotasoultolookafterherexceptheroldgrandmother。\"
\"Comeandhaveyoursupper,Anne,\"saidMarilla,\"anddon’tencouragethatchildinhisabsurdtalk。\"
ChapterXXIII
PaulCannotFindtheRockPeopleLifewasverypleasantinAvonleathatsummer,althoughAnne,amidallhervacationjoys,washauntedbyasenseof\"somethinggonewhichshouldbethere。\"Shewouldnotadmit,eveninherinmostreflections,thatthiswascausedbyGilbert’sabsence。
ButwhenshehadtowalkhomealonefromprayermeetingsandA。V。I。S。pow-wows,whileDianaandFred,andmanyothergaycouples,loiteredalongthedusky,starlitcountryroads,therewasaqueer,lonelyacheinherheartwhichshecouldnotexplainaway。Gilbertdidnotevenwritetoher,asshethoughthemighthavedone。
SheknewhewrotetoDianaoccasionally,butshewouldnotinquireabouthim;andDiana,supposingthatAnneheardfromhim,volunteerednoinformation。Gilbert’smother,whowasagay,frank,light-heartedlady,butnotoverburdenedwithtact,hadaveryembarrassinghabitofaskingAnne,alwaysinapainfullydistinctvoiceandalwaysinthepresenceofacrowd,ifshehadheardfromGilbertlately。PoorAnnecouldonlyblushhorriblyandmurmur,\"notverylately,\"whichwastakenbyall,Mrs。Blytheincluded,tobemerelyamaidenlyevasion。
Apartfromthis,Anneenjoyedhersummer。PriscillacameforamerryvisitinJune;and,whenshehadgone,Mr。andMrs。Irving,PaulandCharlottatheFourthcame\"home\"forJulyandAugust。
EchoLodgewasthesceneofgaietiesoncemore,andtheechoesovertheriverwerekeptbusymimickingthelaughterthatrangintheoldgardenbehindthespruces。
\"MissLavendar\"hadnotchanged,excepttogrowevensweeterandprettier。Pauladoredher,andthecompanionshipbetweenthemwasbeautifultosee。
\"ButIdon’tcallher`mother’justbyitself,\"heexplainedtoAnne。\"Yousee,THATnamebelongsjusttomyownlittlemother,andIcan’tgiveittoanyoneelse。Youknow,teacher。ButI
callher`MotherLavendar’andIlovehernextbesttofather。
I——IevenloveheraLITTLEbetterthanyou,teacher。\"
\"Whichisjustasitoughttobe,\"answeredAnne。
Paulwasthirteennowandverytallforhisyears。Hisfaceandeyeswereasbeautifulasever,andhisfancywasstilllikeaprism,separatingeverythingthatfelluponitintorainbows。HeandAnnehaddelightfulramblestowoodandfieldandshore。Neverweretheretwomorethoroughly\"kindredspirits。\"
CharlottatheFourthhadblossomedoutintoyoungladyhood。Sheworeherhairnowinanenormouspompadorandhaddiscardedtheblueribbonbowsofauldlangsyne,butherfacewasasfreckled,hernoseassnubbed,andhermouthandsmilesaswideasever。
\"Youdon’tthinkItalkwithaYankeeaccent,doyou,MissShirley,ma’am?\"shedemandedanxiously。
\"Idon’tnoticeit,Charlotta。\"
\"I’mrealgladofthat。TheysaidIdidathome,butIthoughtlikelytheyjustwantedtoaggravateme。Idon’twantnoYankeeaccent。NotthatI’veawordtosayagainsttheYankees,MissShirley,ma’am。They’rerealcivilized。ButgivemeoldP。E。
Islandeverytime。\"
PaulspenthisfirstfortnightwithhisgrandmotherIrvinginAvonlea。Annewastheretomeethimwhenhecame,andfoundhimwildwitheagernesstogettotheshore——NoraandtheGoldenLadyandtheTwinSailorswouldbethere。Hecouldhardlywaittoeathissupper。CouldhenotseeNora’selfinfacepeeringaroundthepoint,watchingforhimwistfully?ButitwasaverysoberPaulwhocamebackfromtheshoreinthetwilight。
\"Didn’tyoufindyourRockPeople?\"askedAnne。
Paulshookhischestnutcurlssorrowfully。
\"TheTwinSailorsandtheGoldenLadynevercameatall,\"hesaid。
\"Norawasthere——butNoraisnotthesame,teacher。Sheischanged。\"
\"Oh,Paul,itisyouwhoarechanged,\"saidAnne。\"YouhavegrowntoooldfortheRockPeople。Theylikeonlychildrenforplayfellows。IamafraidtheTwinSailorswillneveragaincometoyouinthepearly,enchantedboatwiththesailofmoonshine;
andtheGoldenLadywillplaynomoreforyouonhergoldenharp。
EvenNorawillnotmeetyoumuchlonger。Youmustpaythepenaltyofgrowing-up,Paul。Youmustleavefairylandbehindyou。\"
\"Youtwotalkasmuchfoolishnessaseveryoudid,\"saidoldMrs。Irving,half-indulgently,half-reprovingly。
\"Oh,no,wedon’t,\"saidAnne,shakingherheadgravely。\"Wearegettingvery,verywise,anditissuchapity。Weareneverhalfsointerestingwhenwehavelearnedthatlanguageisgivenustoenableustoconcealourthoughts。\"
\"Butitisn’t——itisgivenustoexchangeourthoughts,\"saidMrs。Irvingseriously。ShehadneverheardofTallyrandanddidnotunderstandepigrams。
AnnespentafortnightofhalcyondaysatEchoLodgeinthegoldenprimeofAugust。WhiletheresheincidentallycontrivedtohurryLudovicSpeedinhisleisurelycourtingofTheodoraDix,asrelateddulyinanotherchronicleofherhistory。[1]ArnoldSherman,anelderlyfriendoftheIrvings,wasthereatthesametime,andaddednotalittletothegeneralpleasantnessoflife。
([1]ChroniclesofAvonlea。)
\"Whataniceplay-timethishasbeen,\"saidAnne。\"Ifeellikeagiantrefreshed。Andit’sonlyafortnightmoretillIgobacktoKingsport,andRedmondandPatty’sPlace。Patty’sPlaceisthedearestspot,MissLavendar。IfeelasifIhadtwohomes——oneatGreenGablesandoneatPatty’sPlace。Butwherehasthesummergone?Itdoesn’tseemadaysinceIcamehomethatspringeveningwiththeMayflowers。WhenIwaslittleIcouldn’tseefromoneendofthesummertotheother。Itstretchedbeforemelikeanunendingseason。Now,`’tisahandbreadth,’tisatale。’\"
\"Anne,areyouandGilbertBlytheasgoodfriendsasyouusedtobe?\"
askedMissLavendarquietly。
\"IamjustasmuchGilbert’sfriendaseverIwas,MissLavendar。\"
MissLavendarshookherhead。
\"Iseesomething’sgonewrong,Anne。I’mgoingtobeimpertinentandaskwhat。Haveyouquarrelled?\"
\"No;it’sonlythatGilbertwantsmorethanfriendshipandIcan’tgivehimmore。\"
\"Areyousureofthat,Anne?\"
\"Perfectlysure。\"
\"I’mvery,verysorry。\"
\"IwonderwhyeverybodyseemstothinkIoughttomarryGilbertBlythe,\"
saidAnnepetulantly。
\"Becauseyouweremadeandmeantforeachother,Anne——thatiswhy。
Youneedn’ttossthatyoungheadofyours。It’safact。\"
ChapterXXIV
EnterJonas\"PROSPECTPOINT,\"August20th。
\"DearAnne——spelled——with——an——E,\"wrotePhil,\"Imustpropmyeyelidsopenlongenoughtowriteyou。I’veneglectedyoushamefullythissummer,honey,butallmyothercorrespondentshavebeenneglected,too。Ihaveahugepileofletterstoanswer,soImustgirduptheloinsofmymindandhoein。Excusemymixedmetaphors。I’mfearfullysleepy。LastnightCousinEmilyandIwerecallingataneighbor’s。Therewereseveralothercallersthere,andassoonasthoseunfortunatecreaturesleft,ourhostessandherthreedaughterspickedthemalltopieces。
IknewtheywouldbeginonCousinEmilyandmeassoonasthedoorshutbehindus。WhenwecamehomeMrs。Lillyinformedusthattheaforesaidneighbor’shiredboywassupposedtobedownwithscarletfever。YoucanalwaystrustMrs。Lillytotellyoucheerfulthingslikethat。Ihaveahorrorofscarletfever。Icouldn’tsleepwhenIwenttobedforthinkingofit。Itossedandtumbledabout,dreamingfearfuldreamswhenIdidsnoozeforaminute;andatthreeIwakenedupwithahighfever,asorethroat,andaragingheadache。IknewIhadscarletfever;IgotupinapanicandhuntedupCousinEmily’s’doctorbook’toreadupthesymptoms。Anne,Ihadthemall。SoIwentbacktobed,andknowingtheworst,sleptlikeatoptherestofthenight。
ThoughwhyatopshouldsleepsounderthananythingelseI
nevercouldunderstand。ButthismorningIwasquitewell,soitcouldn’thavebeenthefever。IsupposeifIdidcatchitlastnightitcouldn’thavedevelopedsosoon。Icanrememberthatindaytime,butatthreeo’clockatnightInevercanbelogical。
\"IsupposeyouwonderwhatI’mdoingatProspectPoint。Well,I
alwaysliketospendamonthofsummerattheshore,andfatherinsiststhatIcometohissecond-cousinEmily’s`selectboardinghouse’atProspectPoint。SoafortnightagoIcameasusual。Andasusualold`UncleMarkMiller’broughtmefromthestationwithhisancientbuggyandwhathecallshis`generouspurpose’horse。Heisaniceoldmanandgavemeahandfulofpinkpeppermints。Peppermintsalwaysseemtomesuchareligioussortofcandy——IsupposebecausewhenIwasalittlegirlGrandmotherGordonalwaysgavethemtomeinchurch。OnceI
asked,referringtothesmellofpeppermints,`Isthattheodorofsanctity?’Ididn’tliketoeatUncleMark’speppermintsbecausehejustfishedthemlooseoutofhispocket,andhadtopicksomerustynailsandotherthingsfromamongthembeforehegavethemtome。ButIwouldn’thurthisdearoldfeelingsforanything,soIcarefullysowedthemalongtheroadatintervals。
Whenthelastonewasgone,UncleMarksaid,alittlerebukingly,`Yeshouldn’ta’etallthemcandiestoonct,MissPhil。You’lllikelyhavethestummick-ache。’
\"CousinEmilyhasonlyfiveboardersbesidesmyself——fouroldladiesandoneyoungman。Myright-handneighborisMrs。Lilly。
Sheisoneofthosepeoplewhoseemtotakeagruesomepleasureindetailingalltheirmanyachesandpainsandsicknesses。
Youcannotmentionanyailmentbutshesays,shakingherhead,`Ah,Iknowtoowellwhatthatis’——andthenyougetallthedetails。
Jonasdeclaresheoncespokeoflocomotorataxiainhearingandshesaidsheknewtoowellwhatthatwas。Shesufferedfromitfortenyearsandwasfinallycuredbyatravelingdoctor。
\"WhoisJonas?Justwait,AnneShirley。You’llhearallaboutJonasinthepropertimeandplace。Heisnottobemixedupwithestimableoldladies。
\"Myleft-handneighboratthetableisMrs。Phinney。Shealwaysspeakswithawailing,dolorousvoice——youarenervouslyexpectinghertoburstintotearseverymoment。Shegivesyoutheimpressionthatlifetoherisindeedavaleoftears,andthatasmile,nevertospeakofalaugh,isafrivolitytrulyreprehensible。ShehasaworseopinionofmethanAuntJamesina,andshedoesn’tlovemehardtoatoneforit,asAuntyJ。does,either。
\"MissMariaGrimsbysitscati-cornerfromme。ThefirstdayI
cameIremarkedtoMissMariathatitlookedalittlelikerain——andMissMarialaughed。Isaidtheroadfromthestationwasverypretty——andMissMarialaughed。Isaidthereseemedtobeafewmosquitoesleftyet——andMissMarialaughed。IsaidthatProspectPointwasasbeautifulasever——andMissMarialaughed。
IfIweretosaytoMissMaria,`Myfatherhashangedhimself,mymotherhastakenpoison,mybrotherisinthepenitentiary,andIaminthelaststagesofconsumption,’MissMariawouldlaugh。
Shecan’thelpit——shewasbornso;butisverysadandawful。
\"ThefiftholdladyisMrs。Grant。Sheisasweetoldthing;
butsheneversaysanythingbutgoodofanybodyandsosheisaveryuninterestingconversationalist。
\"AndnowforJonas,Anne。
\"ThatfirstdayIcameIsawayoungmansittingoppositemeatthetable,smilingatmeasifhehadknownmefrommycradle。
Iknew,forUncleMarkhadtoldme,thathisnamewasJonasBlake,thathewasaTheologicalStudentfromSt。Columbia,andthathehadtakenchargeofthePointProspectMissionChurchforthesummer。
\"Heisaveryuglyyoungman——really,theugliestyoungmanI’veeverseen。Hehasabig,loose-jointedfigurewithabsurdlylonglegs。Hishairistow-colorandlank,hiseyesaregreen,andhismouthisbig,andhisears——butIneverthinkabouthisearsifIcanhelpit。
\"Hehasalovelyvoice——ifyoushutyoureyesheisadorable——
andhecertainlyhasabeautifulsoulanddisposition。
\"Weweregoodchumsrightway。OfcourseheisagraduateofRedmond,andthatisalinkbetweenus。Wefishedandboatedtogether;andwewalkedonthesandsbymoonlight。Hedidn’tlooksohomelybymoonlightandoh,hewasnice。Nicenessfairlyexhaledfromhim。Theoldladies——exceptMrs。Grant——don’tapproveofJonas,becausehelaughsandjokes——andbecauseheevidentlylikesthesocietyoffrivolousmebetterthantheirs。
\"Somehow,Anne,Idon’twanthimtothinkmefrivolous。Thisisridiculous。WhyshouldIcarewhatatow-hairedpersoncalledJonas,whomIneversawbeforethinksofme?
\"LastSundayJonaspreachedinthevillagechurch。Iwent,ofcourse,butIcouldn’trealizethatJonaswasgoingtopreach。
Thefactthathewasaminister——orgoingtobeone——persistedinseemingahugejoketome。
\"Well,Jonaspreached。And,bythetimehehadpreachedtenminutes,IfeltsosmallandinsignificantthatIthoughtImustbeinvisibletothenakedeye。Jonasneversaidawordaboutwomenandheneverlookedatme。ButIrealizedthenandtherewhatapitiful,frivilous,small-souledlittlebutterflyIwas,andhowhorriblydifferentImustbefromJonas’idealwoman。
SHEwouldbegrandandstrongandnoble。Hewassoearnestandtenderandtrue。Hewaseverythingaministeroughttobe。
IwonderedhowIcouldeverhavethoughthimugly——buthereallyis!——withthoseinspiredeyesandthatintellectualbrowwhichtheroughly-fallinghairhidonweekdays。
\"ItwasasplendidsermonandIcouldhavelistenedtoitforever,anditmademefeelutterlywretched。Oh,IwishIwaslikeYOU,Anne。
\"Hecaughtupwithmeontheroadhome,andgrinnedascheerfullyasusual。Buthisgrincouldneverdeceivemeagain。IhadseentheREALJonas。IwonderedifhecouldeverseetheREALPHIL——
whomNOBODY,notevenyou,Anne,haseverseenyet。
\"`Jonas,’Isaid——IforgottocallhimMr。Blake。Wasn’titdreadful?
Buttherearetimeswhenthingslikethatdon’tmatter——`Jonas,youwereborntobeaminister。YouCOULDN’Tbeanythingelse。’
\"`No,Icouldn’t,’hesaidsoberly。`Itriedtobesomethingelseforalongtime——Ididn’twanttobeaminister。ButI
cametoseeatlastthatitwastheworkgivenmetodo——andGodhelpingme,Ishalltrytodoit。’
\"Hisvoicewaslowandreverent。Ithoughtthathewoulddohisworkanddoitwellandnobly;andhappythewomanfittedbynatureandtrainingtohelphimdoit。SHEwouldbenofeather,blownaboutbyeveryficklewindoffancy。SHEwouldalwaysknowwhathattoputon。Probablyshewouldhaveonlyone。Ministersneverhavemuchmoney。Butshewouldn’tmindhavingonehatornoneatall,becauseshewouldhaveJonas。
\"AnneShirley,don’tyoudaretosayorhintorthinkthatI’vefalleninlovewithMr。Blake。CouldIcareforalank,poor,uglytheologue——namedJonas?AsUncleMarksays,`It’simpossible,andwhat’smoreit’simprobable。’
Goodnight,PHIL。\"
\"P。S。Itisimpossible——butIamhorriblyafraidit’strue。
I’mhappyandwretchedandscared。HEcanNEVERcareforme,Iknow。DoyouthinkIcouldeverdevelopintoapassableminister’swife,Anne?AndWOULDtheyexpectmetoleadinprayer?PG。\"
ChapterXXV
EnterPrinceCharming\"I’mcontrastingtheclaimsofindoorsandout,\"saidAnne,lookingfromthewindowofPatty’sPlacetothedistantpinesofthepark。
\"I’veanafternoontospendinsweetdoingnothing,AuntJimsie。
ShallIspenditherewherethereisacosyfire,aplatefulofdeliciousrussets,threepurringandharmoniouscats,andtwoimpeccablechinadogswithgreennoses?OrshallIgotothepark,wherethereisthelureofgraywoodsandofgraywaterlappingontheharborrocks?\"
\"IfIwasasyoungasyou,I’ddecideinfavorofthepark,\"saidAuntJamesina,ticklingJoseph’syellowearwithaknittingneedle。
\"Ithoughtthatyouclaimedtobeasyoungasanyofus,Aunty,\"
teasedAnne。
\"Yes,inmysoul。ButI’lladmitmylegsaren’tasyoungasyours。
Yougoandgetsomefreshair,Anne。Youlookpalelately。\"
\"IthinkI’llgotothepark,\"saidAnnerestlessly。\"Idon’tfeelliketamedomesticjoystoday。Iwanttofeelaloneandfreeandwild。Theparkwillbeempty,foreveryonewillbeatthefootballmatch。\"
\"Whydidn’tyougotoit?\"
\"`Nobodyaxedme,sir,shesaid’——atleast,nobodybutthathorridlittleDanRanger。Iwouldn’tgoanywherewithhim;
butratherthanhurthispoorlittletenderfeelingsIsaidI
wasn’tgoingtothegameatall。Idon’tmind。I’mnotinthemoodforfootballtodaysomehow。\"
\"Yougoandgetsomefreshair,\"repeatedAuntJamesina,\"buttakeyourumbrella,forIbelieveit’sgoingtorain。I’verheumatisminmyleg。\"
\"Onlyoldpeopleshouldhaverheumatism,Aunty。\"
\"Anybodyisliabletorheumatisminherlegs,Anne。It’sonlyoldpeoplewhoshouldhaverheumatismintheirsouls,though。
Thankgoodness,Ineverhave。Whenyougetrheumatisminyoursoulyoumightaswellgoandpickoutyourcoffin。\"
ItwasNovember——themonthofcrimsonsunsets,partingbirds,deep,sadhymnsofthesea,passionatewind-songsinthepines。
Anneroamedthroughthepinelandalleysintheparkand,asshesaid,letthatgreatsweepingwindblowthefogsoutofhersoul。
Annewasnotwonttobetroubledwithsoulfog。But,somehow,sinceherreturntoRedmondforthisthirdyear,lifehadnotmirroredherspiritbacktoherwithitsold,perfect,sparklingclearness。
Outwardly,existenceatPatty’sPlacewasthesamepleasantroundofworkandstudyandrecreationthatithadalwaysbeen。
OnFridayeveningsthebig,fire-lightedlivingroomwascrowdedbycallersandechoedtoendlessjestandlaughter,whileAuntJamesinasmiledbeaminglyonthemall。The\"Jonas\"ofPhil’slettercameoften,runningupfromSt。Columbiaontheearlytrainanddepartingonthelate。
HewasageneralfavoriteatPatty’sPlace,thoughAuntJamesinashookherheadandopinedthatdivinitystudentswerenotwhattheyusedtobe。
\"He’sVERYnice,mydear,\"shetoldPhil,\"butministersoughttobegraverandmoredignified。\"
\"Can’tamanlaughandlaughandbeaChristianstill?\"demandedPhil。
\"Oh,MEN——yes。ButIwasspeakingofMINISTERS,mydear,\"
saidAuntJamesinarebukingly。\"Andyoushouldn’tflirtsowithMr。Blake——youreallyshouldn’t。\"
\"I’mnotflirtingwithhim,\"protestedPhil。
Nobodybelievedher,exceptAnne。Theothersthoughtshewasamusingherselfasusual,andtoldherroundlythatshewasbehavingverybadly。
\"Mr。Blakeisn’toftheAlec-and-Alonzotype,Phil,\"saidStellaseverely。
\"Hetakesthingsseriously。Youmaybreakhisheart。\"
\"DoyoureallythinkIcould?\"askedPhil。\"I’dlovetothinkso。\"
\"PhilippaGordon!Ineverthoughtyouwereutterlyunfeeling。
Theideaofyousayingyou’dlovetobreakaman’sheart!\"
\"Ididn’tsayso,honey。Quotemecorrectly。IsaidI’dliketothinkICOULDbreakit。IwouldliketoknowIhadthePOWERtodoit。\"
\"Idon’tunderstandyou,Phil。Youareleadingthatmanondeliberately——andyouknowyoudon’tmeananythingbyit。\"
\"ImeantomakehimaskmetomarryhimifIcan,\"saidPhilcalmly。
\"Igiveyouup,\"saidStellahopelessly。
GilbertcameoccasionallyonFridayevenings。Heseemedalwaysingoodspirits,andheldhisowninthejestsandreparteethatflewabout。HeneithersoughtnoravoidedAnne。
Whencircumstancesbroughtthemincontacthetalkedtoherpleasantlyandcourteously,astoanynewly-madeacquaintance。
Theoldcamaraderiewasgoneentirely。Annefeltitkeenly;
butshetoldherselfshewasverygladandthankfulthatGilberthadgotsocompletelyoverhisdisappointmentinregardtoher。
Shehadreallybeenafraid,thatAprileveningintheorchard,thatshehadhurthimterriblyandthatthewoundwouldbelonginhealing。Nowshesawthatsheneednothaveworried。
Menhavediedandthewormshaveeatenthembutnotforlove。
Gilbertevidentlywasinnodangerofimmediatedissolution。
Hewasenjoyinglife,andhewasfullofambitionandzest。
Forhimtherewastobenowastingindespairbecauseawomanwasfairandcold。Anne,asshelistenedtotheceaselessbadinagethatwentonbetweenhimandPhil,wonderedifshehadonlyimaginedthatlookinhiseyeswhenshehadtoldhimshecouldnevercareforhim。
TherewerenotlackingthosewhowouldgladlyhavesteppedintoGilbert’svacantplace。ButAnnesnubbedthemwithoutfearandwithoutreproach。IftherealPrinceCharmingwasnevertocomeshewouldhavenoneofasubstitute。Soshesternlytoldherselfthatgraydayinthewindypark。
SuddenlytherainofAuntJamesina’sprophecycamewithaswishandrush。Anneputupherumbrellaandhurrieddowntheslope。
Assheturnedoutontheharborroadasavagegustofwindtorealongit。Instantlyherumbrellaturnedwrongsideout。Anneclutchedatitindespair。Andthen——therecameavoiceclosetoher。
\"Pardonme——mayIofferyoutheshelterofmyumbrella?\"
Annelookedup。Tallandhandsomeanddistinguished-looking——dark,melancholy,inscrutableeyes——melting,musical,sympatheticvoice——yes,theveryheroofherdreamsstoodbeforeherintheflesh。Hecouldnothavemorecloselyresembledheridealifhehadbeenmadetoorder。
\"Thankyou,\"shesaidconfusedly。
\"We’dbetterhurryovertothatlittlepavilliononthepoint,\"
suggestedtheunknown。\"Wecanwaitthereuntilthisshowerisover。Itisnotlikelytorainsoheavilyverylong。\"
Thewordswereverycommonplace,butoh,thetone!Andthesmilewhichaccompaniedthem!Annefeltherheartbeatingstrangely。
Togethertheyscurriedtothepavilionandsatbreathlesslydownunderitsfriendlyroof。Annelaughinglyheldupherfalseumbrella。
\"ItiswhenmyumbrellaturnsinsideoutthatIamconvincedofthetotaldepravityofinanimatethings,\"shesaidgaily。
Theraindropssparkledonhershininghair;itsloosenedringscurledaroundherneckandforehead。Hercheekswereflushed,hereyesbigandstarry。Hercompanionlookeddownatheradmiringly。Shefeltherselfblushingunderhisgaze。
Whocouldhebe?Why,therewasabitoftheRedmondwhiteandscarletpinnedtohiscoatlapel。Yetshehadthoughtsheknew,bysightatleast,alltheRedmondstudentsexcepttheFreshmen。
AndthiscourtlyyouthsurelywasnoFreshman。
\"Weareschoolmates,Isee,\"hesaid,smilingatAnne’scolors。
\"Thatoughttobesufficientintroduction。MynameisRoyalGardner。
AndyouaretheMissShirleywhoreadtheTennysonpaperatthePhilomathictheotherevening,aren’tyou?\"
\"Yes;butIcannotplaceyouatall,\"saidAnne,frankly。
\"Please,whereDOyoubelong?\"
\"IfeelasifIdidn’tbelonganywhereyet。IputinmyFreshmanandSophomoreyearsatRedmondtwoyearsago。I’vebeeninEuropeeversince。NowI’vecomebacktofinishmyArtscourse。\"
\"ThisismyJunioryear,too,\"saidAnne。
\"Soweareclassmatesaswellascollegemates。Iamreconciledtothelossoftheyearsthatthelocusthaseaten,\"saidhercompanion,withaworldofmeaninginthosewonderfuleyesofhis。
Theraincamesteadilydownforthebestpartofanhour。Butthetimeseemedreallyveryshort。WhenthecloudspartedandaburstofpaleNovembersunshinefellathwarttheharborandthepinesAnneandhercompanionwalkedhometogether。BythetimetheyhadreachedthegateofPatty’sPlacehehadaskedpermissiontocall,andhadreceivedit。Annewentinwithcheeksofflameandherheartbeatingtoherfingertips。Rusty,whoclimbedintoherlapandtriedtokissher,foundaveryabsentwelcome。Anne,withhersoulfullofromanticthrills,hadnoattentiontosparejustthenforacrop-earedpussycat。
ThateveningaparcelwasleftatPatty’sPlaceforMissShirley。
Itwasaboxcontainingadozenmagnificentroses。Philpouncedimpertinentlyonthecardthatfellfromit,readthenameandthepoeticalquotationwrittenontheback。
\"RoyalGardner!\"sheexclaimed。\"Why,Anne,Ididn’tknowyouwereacquaintedwithRoyGardner!\"
\"Imethimintheparkthisafternoonintherain,\"explainedAnnehurriedly。\"Myumbrellaturnedinsideoutandhecametomyrescuewithhis。\"
\"Oh!\"PhilpeeredcuriouslyatAnne。\"Andisthatexceedinglycommonplaceincidentanyreasonwhyheshouldsenduslongstemmedrosesbythedozen,withaverysentimentalrhyme?Orwhyweshouldblushdivinestrosy-redwhenwelookathiscard?Anne,thyfacebetrayeththee。\"
\"Don’ttalknonsense,Phil。DoyouknowMr。Gardner?\"
\"I’vemethistwosisters,andIknowofhim。SodoeseverybodyworthwhileinKingsport。TheGardnersareamongtherichest,bluest,ofBluenoses。Royisadorablyhandsomeandclever。
Twoyearsagohismother’shealthfailedandhehadtoleavecollegeandgoabroadwithher——hisfatherisdead。Hemusthavebeengreatlydisappointedtohavetogiveuphisclass,buttheysayhewasperfectlysweetaboutit。Fee——fi——fo——fum,Anne。Ismellromance。AlmostdoIenvyyou,butnotquite。
Afterall,RoyGardnerisn’tJonas。\"
\"Yougoose!\"saidAnneloftily。Butshelaylongawakethatnight,nordidshewishforsleep。Herwakingfanciesweremorealluringthananyvisionofdreamland。HadtherealPrincecomeatlast?
Recallingthosegloriousdarkeyeswhichhadgazedsodeeplyintoherown,Annewasverystronglyinclinedtothinkhehad。
ChapterXXVI
EnterChristineThegirlsatPatty’sPlaceweredressingforthereceptionwhichtheJuniorsweregivingfortheSeniorsinFebruary。Annesurveyedherselfinthemirroroftheblueroomwithgirlishsatisfaction。
Shehadaparticularlyprettygownon。Originallyithadbeenonlyasimplelittleslipofcreamsilkwithachiffonoverdress。
ButPhilhadinsistedontakingithomewithherintheChristmasholidaysandembroideringtinyrosebudsalloverthechiffon。
Phil’sfingersweredeft,andtheresultwasadresswhichwastheenvyofeveryRedmondgirl。EvenAllieBoone,whosefrockscamefromParis,waswonttolookwithlongingeyesonthatrosebudconcoctionasAnnetrailedupthemainstaircaseatRedmondinit。
Annewastryingtheeffectofawhiteorchidinherhair。
RoyGardnerhadsentherwhiteorchidsforthereception,andsheknewnootherRedmondgirlwouldhavethemthatnight——whenPhilcameinwithadmiringgaze。
\"Anne,thisiscertainlyyournightforlookinghandsome。
NinenightsoutoftenIcaneasilyoutshineyou。Thetenthyoublossomoutsuddenlyintosomethingthateclipsesmealtogether。
Howdoyoumanageit?\"
\"It’sthedress,dear。Finefeathers。\"
\"`Tisn’t。ThelasteveningyouflamedoutintobeautyyouworeyouroldblueflannelshirtwaistthatMrs。Lyndemadeyou。
IfRoyhadn’talreadylostheadandheartaboutyouhecertainlywouldtonight。ButIdon’tlikeorchidsonyou,Anne。No;itisn’tjealousy。Orchidsdon’tseemtoBELONGtoyou。They’retooexotic——tootropical——tooinsolent。Don’tputtheminyourhair,anyway。\"
\"Well,Iwon’t。IadmitI’mnotfondoforchidsmyself。Idon’tthinkthey’rerelatedtome。Roydoesn’toftensendthem——heknowsIlikeflowersIcanlivewith。Orchidsareonlythingsyoucanvisitwith。\"
\"Jonassentmesomedearpinkrosebudsfortheevening——but——
heisn’tcominghimself。Hesaidhehadtoleadaprayer-meetingintheslums!Idon’tbelievehewantedtocome。Anne,I’mhorriblyafraidJonasdoesn’treallycareanythingaboutme。AndI’mtryingtodecidewhetherI’llpineawayanddie,orgoonandgetmyB。A。andbesensibleanduseful。\"
\"Youcouldn’tpossiblybesensibleanduseful,Phil,soyou’dbetterpineawayanddie,\"saidAnnecruelly。
\"HeartlessAnne!\"
\"SillyPhil!YouknowquitewellthatJonaslovesyou。\"
\"But——hewon’tTELLmeso。AndIcan’tMAKEhim。HeLOOKSit,I’lladmit。Butspeak-to-me-only-with-thine-eyesisn’tareallyreliablereasonforembroideringdoiliesandhemstitchingtablecloths。Idon’twanttobeginsuchworkuntilI’mreallyengaged。ItwouldbetemptingFate。\"
\"Mr。Blakeisafraidtoaskyoutomarryhim,Phil。Heispoorandcan’tofferyouahomesuchasyou’vealwayshad。Youknowthatistheonlyreasonhehasn’tspokenlongago。\"
\"Isupposeso,\"agreedPhildolefully。\"Well\"——brighteningup——\"ifheWON’TaskmetomarryhimI’llaskhim,that’sall。
Soit’sboundtocomeright。Iwon’tworry。Bytheway,GilbertBlytheisgoingaboutconstantlywithChristineStuart。
Didyouknow?\"
Annewastryingtofastenalittlegoldchainaboutherthroat。
Shesuddenlyfoundtheclaspdifficulttomanage。WHATwasthematterwithit——orwithherfingers?
\"No,\"shesaidcarelessly。\"WhoisChristineStuart?\"
\"RonaldStuart’ssister。She’sinKingsportthiswinterstudyingmusic。Ihaven’tseenher,buttheysayshe’sveryprettyandthatGilbertisquitecrazyoverher。HowangryIwaswhenyourefusedGilbert,Anne。ButRoyGardnerwasforeordainedforyou。
Icanseethatnow。Youwereright,afterall。\"
Annedidnotblush,assheusuallydidwhenthegirlsassumedthathereventualmarriagetoRoyGardnerwasasettledthing。
Allatonceshefeltratherdull。Phil’schatterseemedtrivialandthereceptionabore。SheboxedpoorRusty’sears。
\"Getoffthatcushioninstantly,youcat,you!Whydon’tyoustaydownwhereyoubelong?\"
Annepickedupherorchidsandwentdownstairs,whereAuntJamesinawaspresidingoverarowofcoatshungbeforethefiretowarm。
RoyGardnerwaswaitingforAnneandteasingtheSarah-catwhilehewaited。TheSarah-catdidnotapproveofhim。Shealwaysturnedherbackonhim。ButeverybodyelseatPatty’sPlacelikedhimverymuch。AuntJamesina,carriedawaybyhisunfailinganddeferentialcourtesy,andthepleadingtonesofhisdelightfulvoice,declaredhewasthenicestyoungmansheeverknew,andthatAnnewasaveryfortunategirl。SuchremarksmadeAnnerestive。Roy’swooinghadcertainlybeenasromanticasgirlishheartcoulddesire,but——shewishedAuntJamesinaandthegirlswouldnottakethingssoforgranted。WhenRoymurmuredapoeticalcomplimentashehelpedheronwithhercoat,shedidnotblushandthrillasusual;andhefoundherrathersilentintheirbriefwalktoRedmond。Hethoughtshelookedalittlepalewhenshecameoutofthecoeds’dressingroom;
butastheyenteredthereceptionroomhercolorandsparklesuddenlyreturnedtoher。SheturnedtoRoywithhergayestexpression。
HesmiledbackatherwithwhatPhilcalled\"hisdeep,black,velvetysmile。\"YetshereallydidnotseeRoyatall。ShewasacutelyconsciousthatGilbertwasstandingunderthepalmsjustacrosstheroomtalkingtoagirlwhomustbeChristineStuart。
Shewasveryhandsome,inthestatelystyledestinedtobecomerathermassiveinmiddlelife。Atallgirl,withlargedark-blueeyes,ivoryoutlines,andaglossofdarknessonhersmoothhair。
\"ShelooksjustasI’vealwayswantedtolook,\"thoughtAnnemiserably。\"Rose-leafcomplexion——starryvioleteyes——ravenhair——yes,shehasthemall。It’sawonderhernameisn’tCordeliaFitzgeraldintothebargain!ButIdon’tbelieveherfigureisasgoodasmine,andhernosecertainlyisn’t。\"
Annefeltalittlecomfortedbythisconclusion。
ChapterXXVII
MutualConfidencesMarchcameinthatwinterlikethemeekestandmildestoflambs,bringingdaysthatwerecrispandgoldenandtingling,eachfollowedbyafrostypinktwilightwhichgraduallylostitselfinanelflandofmoonshine。
OverthegirlsatPatty’sPlacewasfallingtheshadowofAprilexaminations。Theywerestudyinghard;evenPhilhadsettleddowntotextandnotebookswithadoggednessnottobeexpectedofher。
\"I’mgoingtotaketheJohnsonScholarshipinMathematics,\"sheannouncedcalmly。\"IcouldtaketheoneinGreekeasily,butI’drathertakethemathematicalonebecauseIwanttoprovetoJonasthatI’mreallyenormouslyclever。\"
\"Jonaslikesyoubetterforyourbigbrowneyesandyourcrookedsmilethanforallthebrainsyoucarryunderyourcurls,\"saidAnne。
\"WhenIwasagirlitwasn’tconsideredlady-liketoknowanythingaboutMathematics,\"saidAuntJamesina。\"Buttimeshavechanged。
Idon’tknowthatit’sallforthebetter。Canyoucook,Phil?\"
\"No,Inevercookedanythinginmylifeexceptagingerbreadanditwasafailure——flatinthemiddleandhillyroundtheedges。
Youknowthekind。But,Aunty,whenIbeginingoodearnesttolearntocookdon’tyouthinkthebrainsthatenablemetowinamathematicalscholarshipwillalsoenablemetolearncookingjustaswell?\"
\"Maybe,\"saidAuntJamesinacautiously。\"Iamnotdecryingthehighereducationofwomen。MydaughterisanM。A。Shecancook,too。ButItaughthertocookBEFOREIletacollegeprofessorteachherMathematics。\"
Inmid-MarchcamealetterfromMissPattySpofford,sayingthatsheandMissMariahaddecidedtoremainabroadforanotheryear。
\"SoyoumayhavePatty’sPlacenextwinter,too,\"shewrote。
\"MariaandIaregoingtorunoverEgypt。IwanttoseetheSphinxoncebeforeIdie。\"
\"Fancythosetwodames`runningoverEgypt’!Iwonderifthey’lllookupattheSphinxandknit,\"laughedPriscilla。
\"I’msogladwecankeepPatty’sPlaceforanotheryear,\"saidStella。\"Iwasafraidthey’dcomeback。Andthenourjollylittlenestherewouldbebrokenup——andwepoorcallownestlingsthrownoutonthecruelworldofboardinghousesagain。\"
\"I’moffforatrampinthepark,\"announcedPhil,tossingherbookaside。\"IthinkwhenIameightyI’llbegladIwentforawalkintheparktonight。\"
\"Whatdoyoumean?\"askedAnne。
\"ComewithmeandI’lltellyou,honey。\"
TheycapturedintheirrambleallthemysteriesandmagicsofaMarchevening。Verystillandmilditwas,wrappedinagreat,white,broodingsilence——asilencewhichwasyetthreadedthroughwithmanylittlesilverysoundswhichyoucouldhearifyouhearkenedasmuchwithyoursoulasyourears。Thegirlswandereddownalongpinelandaislethatseemedtoleadrightoutintotheheartofadeep-red,overflowingwintersunset。
\"I’dgohomeandwriteapoemthisblessedminuteifIonlyknewhow,\"
declaredPhil,pausinginanopenspacewherearosylightwasstainingthegreentipsofthepines。\"It’sallsowonderfulhere——thisgreat,whitestillness,andthosedarktreesthatalwaysseemtobethinking。\"
\"`ThewoodswereGod’sfirsttemples,’\"quotedAnnesoftly。
\"Onecan’thelpfeelingreverentandadoringinsuchaplace。
IalwaysfeelsonearHimwhenIwalkamongthepines。\"
\"Anne,I’mthehappiestgirlintheworld,\"confessedPhilsuddenly。
\"SoMr。Blakehasaskedyoutomarryhimatlast?\"saidAnnecalmly。
\"Yes。AndIsneezedthreetimeswhilehewasaskingme。
Wasn’tthathorrid?ButIsaid`yes’almostbeforehefinished——Iwassoafraidhemightchangehismindandstop。I’mbesottedlyhappy。Icouldn’treallybelievebeforethatJonaswouldevercareforfrivolousme。\"