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类别:其他 作者:Lucy Maud Montgomery字数:18318更新时间:18/12/21 16:50:16
\"Phil,you’renotreallyfrivolous,\"saidAnnegravely。\"’Waydownunderneaththatfrivolousexteriorofyoursyou’vegotadear,loyal,womanlylittlesoul。Whydoyouhideitso?\" \"Ican’thelpit,QueenAnne。Youareright——I’mnotfrivolousatheart。Butthere’sasortoffrivolousskinovermysoulandIcan’ttakeitoff。AsMrs。Poysersays,I’dhavetobehatchedoveragainandhatcheddifferentbeforeIcouldchangeit。ButJonasknowstherealmeandlovesme,frivolityandall。AndI lovehim。IneverwassosurprisedinmylifeasIwaswhenI foundoutIlovedhim。I’dneverthoughtitpossibletofallinlovewithanuglyman。Fancymecomingdowntoonesolitarybeau。AndonenamedJonas!ButImeantocallhimJo。That’ssuchanice,crisplittlename。Icouldn’tnicknameAlonzo。\" \"WhataboutAlecandAlonzo?\" \"Oh,ItoldthematChristmasthatInevercouldmarryeitherofthem。ItseemssofunnynowtorememberthatIeverthoughtitpossiblethatImight。TheyfeltsobadlyIjustcriedoverbothofthem——howled。ButIknewtherewasonlyonemanintheworldIcouldevermarry。Ihadmadeupmyownmindforonceanditwasrealeasy,too。It’sverydelightfultofeelsosure,andknowit’syourownsurenessandnotsomebodyelse’s。\" \"Doyousupposeyou’llbeabletokeepitup?\" \"Makingupmymind,youmean?Idon’tknow,butJohasgivenmeasplendidrule。Hesays,whenI’mperplexed,justtodowhatI wouldwishIhaddonewhenIshallbeeighty。Anyhow,Jocanmakeuphismindquicklyenough,anditwouldbeuncomfortabletohavetoomuchmindinthesamehouse。\" \"Whatwillyourfatherandmothersay?\" \"Fatherwon’tsaymuch。HethinkseverythingIdoright。 ButmotherWILLtalk。Oh,hertonguewillbeasByrneyashernose。Butintheenditwillbeallright。\" \"You’llhavetogiveupagoodmanythingsyou’vealwayshad,whenyoumarryMr。Blake,Phil。\" \"ButI’llhaveHIM。Iwon’tmisstheotherthings。We’retobemarriedayearfromnextJune。JograduatesfromSt。Columbiathisspring,youknow。Thenhe’sgoingtotakealittlemissionchurchdownonPattersonStreetintheslums。Fancymeintheslums!ButI’dgothereortoGreenland’sicymountainswithhim。\" \"AndthisisthegirlwhowouldNEVERmarryamanwhowasn’trich,\" commentedAnnetoayoungpinetree。 \"Oh,don’tcastupthefolliesofmyyouthtome。IshallbepoorasgailyasI’vebeenrich。You’llsee。I’mgoingtolearnhowtocookandmakeoverdresses。I’velearnedhowtomarketsinceI’velivedatPatty’sPlace;andonceItaughtaSundaySchoolclassforawholesummer。AuntJamesinasaysI’llruinJo’scareerifImarryhim。ButIwon’t。IknowIhaven’tmuchsenseorsobriety,butI’vegotwhatiseversomuchbetter—— theknackofmakingpeoplelikeme。ThereisamaninBolingbrokewholispsandalwaystestifiesinprayer-meeting。 Hesays,’Ifyoucan’tthinelikeanelectricthtarthinelikeacandlethtick。’I’llbeJo’slittlecandlestick。\" \"Phil,you’reincorrigible。Well,IloveyousomuchthatIcan’tmakenice,light,congratulatorylittlespeeches。 ButI’mheart-gladofyourhappiness。\" \"Iknow。Thosebiggrayeyesofyoursarebrimmingoverwithrealfriendship,Anne。SomedayI’lllookthesamewayatyou。 You’regoingtomarryRoy,aren’tyou,Anne?\" \"MydearPhilippa,didyoueverhearofthefamousBettyBaxter,who`refusedamanbeforehe’daxedher’?Iamnotgoingtoemulatethatcelebratedladybyeitherrefusingoracceptinganyonebeforehe`axes’me。\" \"AllRedmondknowsthatRoyiscrazyaboutyou,\"saidPhilcandidly。\" AndyouDOlovehim,don’tyou,Anne?\" \"I——Isupposeso,\"saidAnnereluctantly。Shefeltthatsheoughttobeblushingwhilemakingsuchaconfession;butshewasnot; ontheotherhand,shealwaysblushedhotlywhenanyonesaidanythingaboutGilbertBlytheorChristineStuartinherhearing。 GilbertBlytheandChristineStuartwerenothingtoher—— absolutelynothing。ButAnnehadgivenuptryingtoanalyzethereasonofherblushes。AsforRoy,ofcourseshewasinlovewithhim——madlyso。Howcouldshehelpit?Washenotherideal?Whocouldresistthosegloriousdarkeyes,andthatpleadingvoice?WerenothalftheRedmondgirlswildlyenvious? Andwhatacharmingsonnethehadsenther,withaboxofviolets,onherbirthday!Annekneweverywordofitbyheart。Itwasverygoodstuffofitskind,too。NotexactlyuptothelevelofKeatsorShakespeare——evenAnnewasnotsodeeplyinloveastothinkthat。 Butitwasverytolerablemagazineverse。AnditwasaddressedtoHER—— nottoLauraorBeatriceortheMaidofAthens,buttoher,AnneShirley。 Tobetoldinrhythmicalcadencesthathereyeswerestarsofthemorning——thathercheekhadtheflushitstolefromthesunrise——thatherlipswereredderthantherosesofParadise,wasthrillinglyromantic。 Gilbertwouldneverhavedreamedofwritingasonnettohereyebrows。 Butthen,Gilbertcouldseeajoke。ShehadoncetoldRoyafunnystory——andhehadnotseenthepointofit。SherecalledthechummylaughsheandGilberthadhadtogetheroverit,andwondereduneasilyiflifewithamanwhohadnosenseofhumormightnotbesomewhatuninterestinginthelongrun。Butwhocouldexpectamelancholy,inscrutableherotoseethehumoroussideofthings?Itwouldbeflatlyunreasonable。 ChapterXXVIII AJuneEvening\"IwonderwhatitwouldbeliketoliveinaworldwhereitwasalwaysJune,\"saidAnne,asshecamethroughthespiceandbloomofthetwilitorchardtothefrontdoorsteps,whereMarillaandMrs。Rachelweresitting,talkingoverMrs。SamsonCoates’funeral,whichtheyhadattendedthatday。Dorasatbetweenthem,diligentlystudyingherlessons;butDavywassittingtailor-fashiononthegrass,lookingasgloomyanddepressedashissingledimplewouldlethim。 \"You’dgettiredofit,\"saidMarilla,withasigh。 \"Idaresay;butjustnowIfeelthatitwouldtakemealongtimetogettiredofit,ifitwereallascharmingastoday。 EverythinglovesJune。Davy-boy,whythismelancholyNovemberfaceinblossom-time?\" \"I’mjustsickandtiredofliving,\"saidtheyouthfulpessimist。 \"Attenyears?Dearme,howsad!\" \"I’mnotmakingfun,\"saidDavywithdignity。\"I’mdis——dis—— discouraged\"——bringingoutthebigwordwithavalianteffort。 \"Whyandwherefore?\"askedAnne,sittingdownbesidehim。 \"’CausethenewteacherthatcomewhenMr。HolmesgotsickgivemetensumstodoforMonday。It’lltakemealldaytomorrowtodothem。Itisn’tfairtohavetoworkSaturdays。MiltyBoultersaidhewouldn’tdothem,butMarillasaysI’vegotto。Idon’tlikeMissCarsonabit。\" \"Don’ttalklikethataboutyourteacher,DavyKeith,\"saidMrs。Rachelseverely。\"MissCarsonisaveryfinegirl。 Thereisnononsenseabouther。\" \"Thatdoesn’tsoundveryattractive,\"laughedAnne。\"Ilikepeopletohavealittlenonsenseaboutthem。ButI’minclinedtohaveabetteropinionofMissCarsonthanyouhave。Isawherinprayer-meetinglastnight,andshehasapairofeyesthatcan’talwayslooksensible。Now,Davy-boy,takeheartofgrace。 `Tomorrowwillbringanotherday’andI’llhelpyouwiththesumsasfarasinmelies。Don’twastethislovelyhour`twixtlightanddarkworryingoverarithmetic。\" \"Well,Iwon’t,\"saidDavy,brighteningup。\"IfyouhelpmewiththesumsI’llhave’emdoneintimetogofishingwithMilty。 IwisholdAuntAtossa’sfuneralwastomorrowinsteadoftoday。 Iwantedtogotoit’causeMiltysaidhismothersaidAuntAtossawouldbesuretoriseupinhercoffinandsaysarcasticthingstothefolksthatcometoseeherburied。ButMarillasaidshedidn’t。\" \"PoorAtossalaidinhercoffinpeacefulenough,\"saidMrs。Lyndesolemnly。\"Ineversawherlooksopleasantbefore,that’swhat。 Well,thereweren’tmanytearsshedoverher,pooroldsoul。 TheElishaWrightsarethankfultoberidofher,andIcan’tsayIblamethemamite。\" \"Itseemstomeamostdreadfulthingtogooutoftheworldandnotleaveonepersonbehindyouwhoissorryyouaregone,\"saidAnne,shuddering。 \"NobodyexceptherparentseverlovedpoorAtossa,that’scertain,notevenherhusband,\"averredMrs。Lynde。\"Shewashisfourthwife。He’dsortofgotintothehabitofmarrying。Heonlylivedafewyearsafterhemarriedher。 Thedoctorsaidhediedofdyspepsia,butIshallalwaysmaintainthathediedofAtossa’stongue,that’swhat。Poorsoul,shealwayskneweverythingaboutherneighbors,butsheneverwasverywellacquaintedwithherself。Well,she’sgoneanyhow;andIsupposethenextexcitementwillbeDiana’swedding。\" \"ItseemsfunnyandhorribletothinkofDiana’sbeingmarried,\" sighedAnne,huggingherkneesandlookingthroughthegapintheHauntedWoodtothelightthatwasshininginDiana’sroom。 \"Idon’tseewhat’shorribleaboutit,whenshe’sdoingsowell,\" saidMrs。Lyndeemphatically。\"FredWrighthasafinefarmandheisamodelyoungman。\" \"Hecertainlyisn’tthewild,dashing,wicked,youngmanDianaoncewantedtomarry,\"smiledAnne。\"Fredisextremelygood。\" \"That’sjustwhatheoughttobe。WouldyouwantDianatomarryawickedman?Ormarryoneyourself?\" \"Oh,no。Iwouldn’twanttomarryanybodywhowaswicked,butIthinkI’dlikeitifheCOULDbewickedandWOULDN’T。 Now,FredisHOPELESSLYgood。\" \"You’llhavemoresensesomeday,Ihope,\"saidMarilla。 Marillaspokeratherbitterly。Shewasgrievouslydisappointed。 SheknewAnnehadrefusedGilbertBlythe。Avonleagossipbuzzedoverthefact,whichhadleakedout,nobodyknewhow。PerhapsCharlieSloanehadguessedandtoldhisguessesfortruth。 PerhapsDianahadbetrayedittoFredandFredhadbeenindiscreet。 Atalleventsitwasknown;Mrs。BlythenolongeraskedAnne,inpublicorprivate,ifshehadheardlatelyfromGilbert,butpassedherbywithafrostybow。Anne,whohadalwayslikedGilbert’smerry,young-heartedmother,wasgrievedinsecretoverthis。 Marillasaidnothing;butMrs。LyndegaveAnnemanyexasperateddigsaboutit,untilfreshgossipreachedthatworthylady,throughthemediumofMoodySpurgeonMacPherson’smother,thatAnnehadanother\"beau\"atcollege,whowasrichandhandsomeandgoodallinone。AfterthatMrs。Rachelheldhertongue,thoughshestillwishedinherinmostheartthatAnnehadacceptedGilbert。Richeswereallverywell; butevenMrs。Rachel,practicalsoulthoughshewas,didnotconsiderthemtheoneessential。IfAnne\"liked\"theHandsomeUnknownbetterthanGilberttherewasnothingmoretobesaid; butMrs。RachelwasdreadfullyafraidthatAnnewasgoingtomakethemistakeofmarryingformoney。MarillaknewAnnetoowelltofearthis;butshefeltthatsomethingintheuniversalschemeofthingshadgonesadlyawry。 \"Whatistobe,willbe,\"saidMrs。Rachelgloomily,\"andwhatisn’ttobehappenssometimes。Ican’thelpbelievingit’sgoingtohappeninAnne’scase,ifProvidencedoesn’tinterfere,that’swhat。\" Mrs。Rachelsighed。ShewasafraidProvidencewouldn’tinterfere; andshedidn’tdareto。 AnnehadwandereddowntotheDryad’sBubbleandwascurledupamongthefernsattherootofthebigwhitebirchwheresheandGilberthadsooftensatinsummersgoneby。Hehadgoneintothenewspaperofficeagainwhencollegeclosed,andAvonleaseemedverydullwithouthim。Heneverwrotetoher,andAnnemissedthelettersthatnevercame。Tobesure,Roywrotetwiceaweek;hisletterswereexquisitecompositionswhichwouldhavereadbeautifullyinamemoirorbiography。Annefeltherselfmoredeeplyinlovewithhimthaneverwhenshereadthem;butherheartnevergavethequeer,quick,painfulboundatsightofhisletterswhichithadgivenonedaywhenMrs。HiramSloanehadhandedheroutanenvelopeaddressedinGilbert’sblack,uprighthandwriting。Annehadhurriedhometotheeastgableandopenediteagerly——tofindatypewrittencopyofsomecollegesocietyreport——\"onlythatandnothingmore。\"AnneflungtheharmlessscreedacrossherroomandsatdowntowriteanespeciallyniceepistletoRoy。 Dianawastobemarriedinfivemoredays。ThegrayhouseatOrchardSlopewasinaturmoilofbakingandbrewingandboilingandstewing,fortherewastobeabig,old-timeywedding。Anne,ofcourse,wastobebridesmaid,ashadbeenarrangedwhentheyweretwelveyearsold,andGilbertwascomingfromKingsporttobebestman。Annewasenjoyingtheexcitementofthevariouspreparations,butunderitallshecarriedalittleheartache。 Shewas,inasense,losingherdearoldchum;Diana’snewhomewouldbetwomilesfromGreenGables,andtheoldconstantcompanionshipcouldneverbetheirsagain。AnnelookedupatDiana’slightandthoughthowithadbeaconedtoherformanyyears; butsoonitwouldshinethroughthesummertwilightsnomore。 Twobig,painfultearswelledupinhergrayeyes。 \"Oh,\"shethought,\"howhorribleitisthatpeoplehavetogrowup——andmarry——andCHANGE!\" ChapterXXIX Diana’sWedding\"Afterall,theonlyrealrosesarethepinkones,\"saidAnne,asshetiedwhiteribbonaroundDiana’sbouquetinthewestwardlookinggableatOrchardSlope。\"Theyaretheflowersofloveandfaith。\" Dianawasstandingnervouslyinthemiddleoftheroom,arrayedinherbridalwhite,herblackcurlsfrostedoverwiththefilmofherweddingveil。Annehaddrapedthatveil,inaccordancewiththesentimentalcompactofyearsbefore。 \"It’sallprettymuchasIusedtoimagineitlongago,whenI weptoveryourinevitablemarriageandourconsequentparting,\" shelaughed。\"Youarethebrideofmydreams,Diana,withthe`lovelymistyveil’;andIamYOURbridesmaid。But,alas! Ihaven’tthepuffedsleeves——thoughtheseshortlaceonesareevenprettier。NeitherismyheartwhollybreakingnordoI exactlyhateFred。\" \"Wearenotreallyparting,Anne,\"protestedDiana。\"I’mnotgoingfaraway。We’llloveeachotherjustasmuchasever。 We’vealwayskeptthat`oath’offriendshipwesworelongago,haven’twe?\" \"Yes。We’vekeptitfaithfully。We’vehadabeautifulfriendship,Diana。We’venevermarreditbyonequarrelorcoolnessorunkindword;andIhopeitwillalwaysbeso。 Butthingscan’tbequitethesameafterthis。You’llhaveotherinterests。I’lljustbeontheoutside。But`suchislife’asMrs。Rachelsays。Mrs。Rachelhasgivenyouoneofherbelovedknittedquiltsofthe`tobaccostripe’pattern,andshesayswhenIammarriedshe’llgivemeone,too。\" \"ThemeanthingaboutyourgettingmarriedisthatIwon’tbeabletobeyourbridesmaid,\"lamentedDiana。 \"I’mtobePhil’sbridesmaidnextJune,whenshemarriesMr。Blake,andthenImuststop,foryouknowtheproverb`threetimesabridesmaid,neverabride,’\"saidAnne,peepingthroughthewindowoverthepinkandsnowoftheblossomingorchardbeneath。\"Herecomestheminister,Diana。\" \"Oh,Anne,\"gaspedDiana,suddenlyturningverypaleandbeginningtotremble。\"Oh,Anne——I’msonervous——Ican’tgothroughwithit——Anne,IknowI’mgoingtofaint。\" \"IfyoudoI’lldragyoudowntotherainwaterhogshedanddropyouin,\"saidAnneunsympathetically。\"Cheerup,dearest。 Gettingmarriedcan’tbesoveryterriblewhensomanypeoplesurvivetheceremony。SeehowcoolandcomposedIam,andtakecourage。\" \"Waittillyourturncomes,MissAnne。Oh,Anne,Ihearfathercomingupstairs。Givememybouquet。Ismyveilright?AmI verypale?\" \"Youlookjustlovely。Di,darling,kissmegood-byeforthelasttime。DianaBarrywillneverkissmeagain。\" \"DianaWrightwill,though。There,mother’scalling。Come。\" Followingthesimple,old-fashionedwayinvoguethen,AnnewentdowntotheparloronGilbert’sarm。TheymetatthetopofthestairsforthefirsttimesincetheyhadleftKingsport,forGilberthadarrivedonlythatday。Gilbertshookhandscourteously。 Hewaslookingverywell,though,asAnneinstantlynoted,ratherthin。 Hewasnotpale;therewasaflushonhischeekthathadburnedintoitasAnnecamealongthehalltowardshim,inhersoft,whitedresswithlilies-of-the-valleyintheshiningmassesofherhair。Astheyenteredthecrowdedparlortogetheralittlemurmurofadmirationranaroundtheroom。\"Whatafine-lookingpairtheyare,\"whisperedtheimpressibleMrs。RacheltoMarilla。 Fredambledinalone,withaveryredface,andthenDianasweptinonherfather’sarm。Shedidnotfaint,andnothinguntowardoccurredtointerrupttheceremony。Feastingandmerry-makingfollowed;then,astheeveningwaned,FredandDianadroveawaythroughthemoonlighttotheirnewhome,andGilbertwalkedwithAnnetoGreenGables。 Somethingoftheiroldcomradeshiphadreturnedduringtheinformalmirthoftheevening。Oh,itwasnicetobewalkingoverthatwell-knownroadwithGilbertagain! Thenightwassoverystillthatoneshouldhavebeenabletohearthewhisperofrosesinblossom——thelaughterofdaisies——thepipingofgrasses——manysweetsounds,alltangleduptogether。 Thebeautyofmoonlightonfamiliarfieldsirradiatedtheworld。 \"Can’twetakearambleupLovers’Lanebeforeyougoin?\"askedGilbertastheycrossedthebridgeovertheLakeofShiningWaters,inwhichthemoonlaylikeagreat,drownedblossomofgold。 Anneassentedreadily。Lovers’Lanewasaveritablepathinafairylandthatnight——ashimmering,mysteriousplace,fullofwizardryinthewhite-wovenenchantmentofmoonlight。TherehadbeenatimewhensuchawalkwithGilbertthroughLovers’Lanewouldhavebeenfartoodangerous。ButRoyandChristinehadmadeitverysafenow。AnnefoundherselfthinkingagooddealaboutChristineasshechattedlightlytoGilbert。ShehadmetherseveraltimesbeforeleavingKingsport,andhadbeencharminglysweettoher。Christinehadalsobeencharminglysweet。Indeed,theywereamostcordialpair。Butforallthat,theiracquaintancehadnotripenedintofriendship。EvidentlyChristinewasnotakindredspirit。 \"AreyougoingtobeinAvonleaallsummer?\"askedGilbert。 \"No。I’mgoingdowneasttoValleyRoadnextweek。EstherHaythornewantsmetoteachforherthroughJulyandAugust。 Theyhaveasummerterminthatschool,andEstherisn’tfeelingwell。 SoI’mgoingtosubstituteforher。InonewayIdon’tmind。 Doyouknow,I’mbeginningtofeelalittlebitlikeastrangerinAvonleanow?Itmakesmesorry——butit’strue。It’squiteappallingtoseethenumberofchildrenwhohaveshotupintobigboysandgirls——reallyyoungmenandwomen——thesepasttwoyears。 Halfofmypupilsaregrownup。ItmakesmefeelawfullyoldtoseethemintheplacesyouandIandourmatesusedtofill。\" Annelaughedandsighed。Shefeltveryoldandmatureandwise——whichshowedhowyoungshewas。Shetoldherselfthatshelongedgreatlytogobacktothosedearmerrydayswhenlifewasseenthrougharosymistofhopeandillusion,andpossessedanindefinablesomethingthathadpassedawayforever。Wherewasitnow——thegloryandthedream? \"`Sowagstheworldaway,’\"quotedGilbertpractically,andatrifleabsently。AnnewonderedifhewerethinkingofChristine。 Oh,Avonleawasgoingtobesolonelynow——withDianagone! ChapterXXX Mrs。Skinner’sRomanceAnnesteppedoffthetrainatValleyRoadstationandlookedabouttoseeifanyonehadcometomeether。ShewastoboardwithacertainMissJanetSweet,butshesawnoonewhoansweredintheleasttoherpreconceptionofthatlady,asformedfromEsther’sletter。Theonlypersoninsightwasanelderlywoman,sittinginawagonwithmailbagspiledaroundher。Twohundredwouldhavebeenacharitableguessatherweight;herfacewasasroundandredasaharvest-moonandalmostasfeatureless。 Sheworeatight,black,cashmeredress,madeinthefashionoftenyearsago,alittledustyblackstrawhattrimmedwithbowsofyellowribbon,andfadedblacklacemits。 \"Here,you,\"shecalled,wavingherwhipatAnne。\"AreyouthenewValleyRoadschoolma’am?\" \"Yes。\" \"Well,Ithoughtso。ValleyRoadisnotedforitsgood-lookingschoolma’ams,justasMillersvilleisnotedforitshumlyones。 JanetSweetaskedmethismorningifIcouldbringyouout。I said,`SartinIkin,ifshedon’tmindbeingscrunchedupsome。 Thisrigofmine’skindersmallforthemailbagsandI’msomeheftierthanThomas!’Justwait,miss,tillIshiftthesebagsabitandI’lltuckyouinsomehow。It’sonlytwomilestoJanet’s。 Hernext-doorneighbor’shiredboyiscomingforyourtrunktonight。 MynameisSkinner——AmeliaSkinner。\" Annewaseventuallytuckedin,exchangingamusedsmileswithherselfduringtheprocess。 \"Jogalong,blackmare,\"commandedMrs。Skinner,gatheringupthereinsinherpudgyhands。\"Thisismyfirsttriponthemailrowte。 Thomaswantedtohoehisturnipstodaysoheaskedmetocome。 SoIjestsotdownandtookastanding-upsnackandstarted。 Isorterlikeit。O’courseit’srathertejus。PartofthetimeIsitsandthinksandtherestIjestsits。Jogalong,blackmare。Iwanttogithomeairly。ThomasisterriblelonesomewhenI’maway。Yousee,wehaven’tbeenmarriedverylong。\" \"Oh!\"saidAnnepolitely。 \"Justamonth。Thomascourtedmeforquiteaspell,though。Itwasrealromantic。\"AnnetriedtopictureMrs。Skinneronspeakingtermswithromanceandfailed。 \"Oh?\"shesaidagain。 \"Yes。Y’see,therewasanothermanafterme。Jogalong,blackmare。 I’dbeenawiddersolongfolkshadgivenupexpectingmetomarryagain。 Butwhenmydarter——she’saschoolma’amlikeyou——wentoutWesttoteachIfeltreallonesomeandwasn’tnowisesotagainsttheidea。 Bime-byThomasbegantocomeupandsodidtheotherfeller—— WilliamObadiahSeaman,hisnamewas。ForalongtimeIcouldn’tmakeupmymindwhichofthemtotake,andtheykep’comingandcoming,andIkep’worrying。Y’see,W。O。wasrich——hehadafineplaceandcarriedconsiderablestyle。Hewasbyfarthebestmatch。Jogalong,blackmare。\" \"Whydidn’tyoumarryhim?\"askedAnne。 \"Well,y’see,hedidn’tloveme,\"answeredMrs。Skinner,solemnly。 AnneopenedhereyeswidelyandlookedatMrs。Skinner。Buttherewasnotaglintofhumoronthatlady’sface。EvidentlyMrs。Skinnersawnothingamusinginherowncase。 \"He’dbeenawidder-manforthreeyers,andhissisterkepthouseforhim。 Thenshegotmarriedandhejustwantedsomeonetolookafterhishouse。 Itwasworthlookingafter,too,mindyouthat。It’sahandsomehouse。 Jogalong,blackmare。AsforThomas,hewaspoor,andifhishousedidn’tleakindryweatheritwasaboutallthatcouldbesaidforit,thoughitlookskindofpictureaskew。But,y’see,IlovedThomas,andIdidn’tcareoneredcentforW。O。SoIargueditoutwithmyself。 `SarahCrowe,’sayI——myfirstwasaCrowe——`youcanmarryyourrichmanifyoulikebutyouwon’tbehappy。Folkscan’tgetalongtogetherinthisworldwithoutalittlebitoflove。 You’djustbettertieuptoThomas,forhelovesyouandyoulovehimandnothingelseain’tgoingtodoyou。’Jogalong,blackmare。 SoItoldThomasI’dtakehim。AllthetimeIwasgettingreadyIneverdareddrivepastW。O。’splaceforfearthesightofthatfinehouseofhiswouldputmeintheswithersagain。ButnowI neverthinkofitatall,andI’mjustthatcomfortableandhappywithThomas。Jogalong,blackmare。\" \"HowdidWilliamObadiahtakeit?\"queriedAnne。 \"Oh,herumpussedabit。Buthe’sgoingtoseeaskinnyoldmaidinMillersvillenow,andIguessshe’lltakehimfastenough。 She’llmakehimabetterwifethanhisfirstdid。W。O。neverwantedtomarryher。Hejustaskedhertomarryhim’causehisfatherwantedhimto,neverdreamingbutthatshe’dsay`no。’ Butmindyou,shesaid’yes。’Therewasapredicamentforyou。 Jogalong,blackmare。Shewasagreathousekeeper,butmostawfulmean。Sheworethesamebonnetforeighteenyears。ThenshegotanewoneandW。O。metherontheroadanddidn’tknowher。 Jogalong,blackmare。IfeelthatI’danarrerescape。Imighthavemarriedhimandbeenmostawfulmiserable,likemypoorcousin,JaneAnn。JaneAnnmarriedarichmanshedidn’tcareanythingabout,andshehasn’tthelifeofadog。Shecometoseemelastweekandsays,saysshe,`SarahSkinner,Ienvyyou。 I’dratherliveinalittlehutonthesideoftheroadwithamanIwasfondofthaninmybighousewiththeoneI’vegot。’ JaneAnn’smanain’tsuchabadsort,nuther,thoughhe’ssocontrarythathewearshisfurcoatwhenthethermometer’satninety。Theonlywaytogithimtodoanythingistocoaxhimtodotheopposite。Butthereain’tanylovetosmooththingsdownandit’sapoorwayofliving。Jogalong,blackmare。 There’sJanet’splaceinthehollow——`Wayside,’shecallsit。 Quitepictureaskew,ain’tit?Iguessyou’llbegladtogitoutofthis,withallthemmailbagsjammingroundyou。\" \"Yes,butIhaveenjoyedmydrivewithyouverymuch,\"saidAnnesincerely。 \"Gitawaynow!\"saidMrs。Skinner,highlyflattered。\"WaittillItellThomasthat。HealwaysfeelsdretfultickledwhenIgitacompliment。Jogalong,blackmare。Well,hereweare。Ihopeyou’llgitonwellintheschool,miss。There’sashortcuttoitthroughthema’shbackofJanet’s。Ifyoutakethatwaybeawfulkeerful。Ifyouoncegotstuckinthatblackmudyou’dbesuckedrightdownandneverseenorheardtellofagaintillthedayofjudgment,likeAdamPalmer’scow。Jogalong,blackmare。\" ChapterXXXI AnnetoPhilippa\"AnneShirleytoPhilippaGordon,greeting。 \"Well-beloved,it’shightimeIwaswritingyou。HereamI,installedoncemoreasacountry`schoolma’am’atValleyRoad,boardingat`Wayside,’thehomeofMissJanetSweet。Janetisadearsoulandverynicelooking;tall,butnotover-tall;stoutish,yetwithacertainrestraintofoutlinesuggestiveofathriftysoulwhoisnotgoingtobeoverlavisheveninthematterofavoirdupois。Shehasaknotofsoft,crimpy,brownhairwithathreadofgrayinit,asunnyfacewithrosycheeks,andbig,kindeyesasblueasforget-me-nots。Moreover,sheisoneofthosedelightful,old-fashionedcookswhodon’tcareabitiftheyruinyourdigestionaslongastheycangiveyoufeastsoffatthings。 \"Ilikeher;andshelikesme——principally,itseems,becauseshehadasisternamedAnnewhodiedyoung。 \"`I’mrealgladtoseeyou,’shesaidbriskly,whenIlandedinheryard。 `My,youdon’tlookamitelikeIexpected。Iwassureyou’dbedark—— mysisterAnnewasdark。Andhereyou’reredheaded!’ \"ForafewminutesIthoughtIwasn’tgoingtolikeJanetasmuchasIhadexpectedatfirstsight。ThenIremindedmyselfthatI reallymustbemoresensiblethantobeprejudicedagainstanyonesimplybecauseshecalledmyhairred。Probablytheword`auburn’wasnotinJanet’svocabularyatall。 \"`Wayside’isadearsortoflittlespot。Thehouseissmallandwhite,setdowninadelightfullittlehollowthatdropsawayfromtheroad。Betweenroadandhouseisanorchardandflower-gardenallmixeduptogether。Thefrontdoorwalkisborderedwithquahogclam-shells——`cow-hawks,’Janetcallsthem; thereisVirginiaCreeperovertheporchandmossontheroof。 Myroomisaneatlittlespot`offtheparlor’——justbigenoughforthebedandme。OvertheheadofmybedthereisapictureofRobbyBurnsstandingatHighlandMary’sgrave,shadowedbyanenormousweepingwillowtree。Robby’sfaceissolugubriousthatitisnowonderIhavebaddreams。Why,thefirstnightIwashereIdreamedICOULDN’TLAUGH。 \"Theparloristinyandneat。Itsonewindowissoshadedbyahugewillowthattheroomhasagrotto-likeeffectofemeraldgloom。 Therearewonderfultidiesonthechairs,andgaymatsonthefloor,andbooksandcardscarefullyarrangedonaroundtable,andvasesofdriedgrassonthemantel-piece。Betweenthevasesisacheerfuldecorationofpreservedcoffinplates——fiveinall,pertainingrespectivelytoJanet’sfatherandmother,abrother,hersisterAnne,andahiredmanwhodiedhereonce!IfIgosuddenlyinsanesomeofthesedays`knowallmenbythesepresents’thatthosecoffin-plateshavecausedit。 \"Butit’salldelightfulandIsaidso。Janetlovedmeforit,justasshedetestedpoorEstherbecauseEstherhadsaidsomuchshadewasunhygienicandhadobjectedtosleepingonafeatherbed。 Now,Igloryinfeather-beds,andthemoreunhygienicandfeatherytheyarethemoreIglory。Janetsaysitissuchacomforttoseemeeat;shehadbeensoafraidIwouldbelikeMissHaythorne,whowouldn’teatanythingbutfruitandhotwaterforbreakfastandtriedtomakeJanetgiveupfryingthings。Estherisreallyadeargirl,butsheisrathergiventofads。Thetroubleisthatshehasn’tenoughimaginationandHASatendencytoindigestion。 \"JanettoldmeIcouldhavetheuseoftheparlorwhenanyyoungmencalled!Idon’tthinktherearemanytocall。Ihaven’tseenayoungmaninValleyRoadyet,exceptthenext-doorhiredboy——SamToliver,averytall,lank,tow-hairedyouth。 Hecameoveroneeveningrecentlyandsatforanhouronthegardenfence,nearthefrontporchwhereJanetandIweredoingfancy-work。Theonlyremarkshevolunteeredinallthattimewere,`Hevapeppermint,miss!Dewnow-finethingforcarARRH,peppermints,’and,`Powerfulloto’jump-grassesroundhereternight。Yep。’ \"Butthereisaloveaffairgoingonhere。Itseemstobemyfortunetobemixedup,moreorlessactively,withelderlyloveaffairs。Mr。andMrs。IrvingalwayssaythatIbroughtabouttheirmarriage。Mrs。StephenClarkofCarmodypersistsinbeingmostgratefultomeforasuggestionwhichsomebodyelsewouldprobablyhavemadeifIhadn’t。Idoreallythink,though,thatLudovicSpeedwouldneverhavegotanyfurtheralongthanplacidcourtshipifIhadnothelpedhimandTheodoraDixout。 \"InthepresentaffairIamonlyapassivespectator。I’vetriedoncetohelpthingsalongandmadeanawfulmessofit。SoI shallnotmeddleagain。I’lltellyouallaboutitwhenwemeet。\" ChapterXXXII TeawithMrs。DouglasOnthefirstThursdaynightofAnne’ssojourninValleyRoadJanetaskedhertogotoprayer-meeting。Janetblossomedoutlikearosetoattendthatprayer-meeting。Sheworeapale-blue,pansy-sprinkledmuslindresswithmorerufflesthanonewouldeverhavesupposedeconomicalJanetcouldbeguiltyof,andawhiteleghornhatwithpinkrosesandthreeostrichfeathersonit。 Annefeltquiteamazed。Lateron,shefoundoutJanet’smotiveinsoarrayingherself——amotiveasoldasEden。 ValleyRoadprayer-meetingsseemedtobeessentiallyfeminine。 Therewerethirty-twowomenpresent,twohalf-grownboys,andonesolitaryman,besidetheminister。Annefoundherselfstudyingthisman。Hewasnothandsomeoryoungorgraceful;hehadremarkablylonglegs——solongthathehadtokeepthemcoiledupunderhischairtodisposeofthem——andhewasstoopshouldered。 Hishandswerebig,hishairwantedbarbering,andhismoustachewasunkempt。ButAnnethoughtshelikedhisface;itwaskindandhonestandtender;therewassomethingelseinit,too——justwhat,Annefoundithardtodefine。Shefinallyconcludedthatthismanhadsufferedandbeenstrong,andithadbeenmademanifestinhisface。 Therewasasortofpatient,humorousenduranceinhisexpressionwhichindicatedthathewouldgotothestakeifneedbe,butwouldkeeponlookingpleasantuntilhereallyhadtobeginsquirming。 Whenprayer-meetingwasoverthismancameuptoJanetandsaid,\"MayIseeyouhome,Janet?\" Janettookhisarm——\"asprimlyandshylyasifshewerenomorethansixteen,havingherfirstescorthome,\"AnnetoldthegirlsatPatty’sPlacelateron。 \"MissShirley,permitmetointroduceMr。Douglas,\"shesaidstiffly。 Mr。Douglasnoddedandsaid,\"Iwaslookingatyouinprayer-meeting,miss,andthinkingwhatanicelittlegirlyouwere。\" Suchaspeechfromninety-ninepeopleoutofahundredwouldhaveannoyedAnnebitterly;butthewayinwhichMr。Douglassaiditmadeherfeelthatshehadreceivedaveryrealandpleasingcompliment。 Shesmiledappreciativelyathimanddroppedobliginglybehindonthemoonlitroad。 SoJanethadabeau!Annewasdelighted。Janetwouldmakeaparagonofawife——cheery,economical,tolerant,andaveryqueenofcooks。 ItwouldbeaflagrantwasteonNature’sparttokeepherapermanentoldmaid。 \"JohnDouglasaskedmetotakeyouuptoseehismother,\"saidJanetthenextday。\"She’sbed-ridalotofthetimeandnevergoesoutofthehouse。Butshe’spowerfulfondofcompanyandalwayswantstoseemyboarders。Canyougoupthisevening?\" Anneassented;butlaterinthedayMr。Douglascalledonhismother’sbehalftoinvitethemuptoteaonSaturdayevening。 \"Oh,whydidn’tyouputonyourprettypansydress?\"askedAnne,whentheylefthome。Itwasahotday,andpoorJanet,betweenherexcitementandherheavyblackcashmeredress,lookedasifshewerebeingbroiledalive。 \"OldMrs。Douglaswouldthinkitterriblefrivolousandunsuitable,I’mafraid。Johnlikesthatdress,though,\"sheaddedwistfully。 TheoldDouglashomesteadwashalfamilefrom\"Wayside\"crestingawindyhill。Thehouseitselfwaslargeandcomfortable,oldenoughtobedignified,andgirdledwithmaplegrovesandorchards。 Therewerebig,trimbarnsbehindit,andeverythingbespokeprosperity。 WhateverthepatientenduranceinMr。Douglas’facehadmeantithadn’t,soAnnereflected,meantdebtsandduns。 JohnDouglasmetthematthedoorandtookthemintothesitting-room,wherehismotherwasenthronedinanarmchair。 AnnehadexpectedoldMrs。Douglastobetallandthin,becauseMr。Douglaswas。Instead,shewasatinyscrapofawoman,withsoftpinkcheeks,mildblueeyes,andamouthlikeababy’s。 Dressedinabeautiful,fashionably-madeblacksilkdress,withafluffywhiteshawloverhershoulders,andhersnowyhairsurmountedbyadaintylacecap,shemighthaveposedasagrandmotherdoll。 \"Howdoyoudo,Janetdear?\"shesaidsweetly。\"Iamsogladtoseeyouagain,dear。\"Sheputupherprettyoldfacetobekissed。 \"Andthisisournewteacher。I’mdelightedtomeetyou。MysonhasbeensingingyourpraisesuntilI’mhalfjealous,andI’msureJanetoughttobewhollyso。\" PoorJanetblushed,Annesaidsomethingpoliteandconventional,andtheneverybodysatdownandmadetalk。Itwashardwork,evenforAnne,fornobodyseemedateaseexceptoldMrs。Douglas,whocertainlydidnotfindanydifficultyintalking。ShemadeJanetsitbyherandstrokedherhandoccasionally。Janetsatandsmiled,lookinghorriblyuncomfortableinherhideousdress,andJohnDouglassatwithoutsmiling。 AttheteatableMrs。DouglasgracefullyaskedJanettopourthetea。Janetturnedredderthaneverbutdidit。AnnewroteadescriptionofthatmealtoStella。 \"Wehadcoldtongueandchickenandstrawberrypreserves,lemonpieandtartsandchocolatecakeandraisincookiesandpoundcakeandfruitcake——andafewotherthings,includingmorepie——caramelpie,Ithinkitwas。AfterIhadeatentwiceasmuchaswasgoodforme,Mrs。Douglassighedandsaidshefearedshehadnothingtotemptmyappetite。 \"`I’mafraiddearJanet’scookinghasspoiledyouforanyother,’ shesaidsweetly。`OfcoursenobodyinValleyRoadaspirestorivalHER。WON’Tyouhaveanotherpieceofpie,MissShirley? Youhaven’teatenANYTHING。’ \"Stella,Ihadeatenahelpingoftongueandoneofchicken,threebiscuits,agenerousallowanceofpreserves,apieceofpie,atart,andasquareofchocolatecake!\" AfterteaMrs。DouglassmiledbenevolentlyandtoldJohntotake\"dearJanet\"outintothegardenandgethersomeroses。 \"MissShirleywillkeepmecompanywhileyouareout—— won’tyou?\"shesaidplaintively。Shesettleddowninherarmchairwithasigh。 \"Iamaveryfrailoldwoman,MissShirley。ForovertwentyyearsI’vebeenagreatsufferer。Fortwentylong,wearyyearsI’vebeendyingbyinches。\" \"Howpainful!\"saidAnne,tryingtobesympatheticandsucceedingonlyinfeelingidiotic。 \"Therehavebeenscoresofnightswhenthey’vethoughtIcouldneverlivetoseethedawn,\"wentonMrs。Douglassolemnly。 \"NobodyknowswhatI’vegonethrough——nobodycanknowbutmyself。Well,itcan’tlastverymuchlongernow。Mywearypilgrimagewillsoonbeover,MissShirley。ItisagreatcomforttomethatJohnwillhavesuchagoodwifetolookafterhimwhenhismotherisgone——agreatcomfort,MissShirley。\" \"Janetisalovelywoman,\"saidAnnewarmly。 \"Lovely!Abeautifulcharacter,\"assentedMrs。Douglas。\"Andaperfecthousekeeper——somethingIneverwas。Myhealthwouldnotpermitit,MissShirley。IamindeedthankfulthatJohnhasmadesuchawisechoice。Ihopeandbelievethathewillbehappy。 Heismyonlyson,MissShirley,andhishappinessliesverynearmyheart。\" \"Ofcourse,\"saidAnnestupidly。Forthefirsttimeinherlifeshewasstupid。Yetshecouldnotimaginewhy。Sheseemedtohaveabsolutelynothingtosaytothissweet,smiling,angelicoldladywhowaspattingherhandsokindly。 \"Comeandseemesoonagain,dearJanet,\"saidMrs。Douglaslovingly,whentheyleft。\"Youdon’tcomehalfoftenenough。 ButthenIsupposeJohnwillbebringingyouheretostayallthetimeoneofthesedays。\"Anne,happeningtoglanceatJohnDouglas,ashismotherspoke,gaveapositivestartofdismay。 Helookedasatorturedmanmightlookwhenhistormentorsgavetherackthelastturnofpossibleendurance。ShefeltsurehemustbeillandhurriedpoorblushingJanetaway。 \"Isn’toldMrs。Douglasasweetwoman?\"askedJanet,astheywentdowntheroad。 \"M——m,\"answeredAnneabsently。ShewaswonderingwhyJohnDouglashadlookedso。 \"She’sbeenaterriblesufferer,\"saidJanetfeelingly。 \"Shetakesterriblespells。ItkeepsJohnallworriedup。 He’sscaredtoleavehomeforfearhismotherwilltakeaspellandnobodytherebutthehiredgirl。\" ChapterXXXIII \"HeJustKeptComingandComing\" ThreedayslaterAnnecamehomefromschoolandfoundJanetcrying。 TearsandJanetseemedsoincongruousthatAnnewashonestlyalarmed。 \"Oh,whatisthematter?\"shecriedanxiously。 \"I’m——I’mfortytoday,\"sobbedJanet。 \"Well,youwerenearlythatyesterdayanditdidn’thurt,\" comfortedAnne,tryingnottosmile。 \"But——but,\"wentonJanetwithabiggulp,\"JohnDouglaswon’taskmetomarryhim。\" \"Oh,buthewill,\"saidAnnelamely。\"Youmustgivehimtime,Janet\"Time!\"saidJanetwithindescribablescorn。\"Hehashadtwentyyears。 Howmuchtimedoeshewant?\" \"DoyoumeanthatJohnDouglashasbeencomingtoseeyoufortwentyyears?\" \"Hehas。Andhehasneversomuchasmentionedmarriagetome。 AndIdon’tbelieveheeverwillnow。I’veneversaidawordtoamortalaboutit,butitseemstomeI’vejustgottotalkitoutwithsomeoneatlastorgocrazy。JohnDouglasbeguntogowithmetwentyyearsago,beforemotherdied。Well,hekeptcomingandcoming,andafteraspellIbegunmakingquiltsandthings;butheneversaidanythingaboutgettingmarried,onlyjustkeptcomingandcoming。Therewasn’tanythingIcoulddo。 Motherdiedwhenwe’dbeengoingtogetherforeightyears。 Ithoughthemaybewouldspeakoutthen,seeingasIwasleftaloneintheworld。Hewasrealkindandfeeling,anddideverythinghecouldforme,butheneversaidmarry。Andthat’sthewayithasbeengoingoneversince。PeopleblameMEforit。 TheysayIwon’tmarryhimbecausehismotherissosicklyandI don’twantthebotherofwaitingonher。Why,I’dLOVEtowaitonJohn’smother!ButIletthemthinkso。I’dratherthey’dblamemethanpityme!It’ssodreadfulhumiliatingthatJohnwon’taskme。AndWHYwon’the?SeemstomeifIonlyknewhisreasonIwouldn’tminditsomuch。\" \"Perhapshismotherdoesn’twanthimtomarryanybody,\"suggestedAnne。 \"Oh,shedoes。She’stoldmetimeandagainthatshe’dlovetoseeJohnsettledbeforehertimecomes。She’salwaysgivinghimhints—— youheardheryourselftheotherday。IthoughtI’dha’gonethroughthefloor。\" \"It’sbeyondme,\"saidAnnehelplessly。ShethoughtofLudovicSpeed。 Butthecaseswerenotparallel。JohnDouglaswasnotamanofLudovic’stype。 \"Youshouldshowmorespirit,Janet,\"shewentonresolutely。 \"Whydidn’tyousendhimabouthisbusinesslongago?\" \"Icouldn’t,\"saidpoorJanetpathetically。\"Yousee,Anne,I’vealwaysbeenawfulfondofJohn。Hemightjustaswellkeepcomingasnot,fortherewasneveranybodyelseI’dwant,soitdidn’tmatter。\" \"Butitmighthavemadehimspeakoutlikeaman,\"urgedAnne。 Janetshookherhead。 \"No,Iguessnot。Iwasafraidtotry,anyway,forfearhe’dthinkImeantitandjustgo。IsupposeI’mapoor-spiritedcreature,butthatishowIfeel。AndIcan’thelpit。\" \"Oh,youCOULDhelpit,Janet。Itisn’ttoolateyet。Takeafirmstand。Letthatmanknowyouarenotgoingtoendurehisshillyshallyinganylonger。I’LLbackyouup。\" \"Idunno,\"saidJanethopelessly。\"IdunnoifIcouldevergetupenoughspunk。Thingshavedriftedsolong。ButI’llthinkitover。\" AnnefeltthatshewasdisappointedinJohnDouglas。Shehadlikedhimsowell,andshehadnotthoughthimthesortofmanwhowouldplayfastandloosewithawoman’sfeelingsfortwentyyears。 Hecertainlyshouldbetaughtalesson,andAnnefeltvindictivelythatshewouldenjoyseeingtheprocess。ThereforeshewasdelightedwhenJanettoldher,astheyweregoingtoprayer-meetingthenextnight,thatshemeanttoshowsome\"sperrit。\" \"I’llletJohnDouglasseeI’mnotgoingtobetroddenonanylonger。\" \"Youareperfectlyright,\"saidAnneemphatically。 Whenprayer-meetingwasoverJohnDouglascameupwithhisusualrequest。 Janetlookedfrightenedbutresolute。 \"No,thankyou,\"shesaidicily。\"Iknowtheroadhomeprettywellalone。 Ioughtto,seeingI’vebeentravelingitforfortyyears。Soyouneedn’ttroubleyourself,MR。Douglas。\" AnnewaslookingatJohnDouglas;and,inthatbrilliantmoonlight,shesawthelasttwistoftherackagain。Withoutawordheturnedandstrodedowntheroad。 \"Stop!Stop!\"Annecalledwildlyafterhim,notcaringintheleastfortheotherdumbfoundedonlookers。\"Mr。Douglas,stop!Comeback。\" JohnDouglasstoppedbuthedidnotcomeback。Anneflewdowntheroad,caughthisarmandfairlydraggedhimbacktoJanet。 \"Youmustcomeback,\"shesaidimploringly。\"It’sallamistake,Mr。Douglas——allmyfault。ImadeJanetdoit。Shedidn’twantto——butit’sallrightnow,isn’tit,Janet?\" WithoutawordJanettookhisarmandwalkedaway。Annefollowedthemmeeklyhomeandslippedinbythebackdoor。 \"Well,youareanicepersontobackmeup,\"saidJanetsarcastically。 \"Icouldn’thelpit,Janet,\"saidAnnerepentantly。\"IjustfeltasifIhadstoodbyandseenmurderdone。IHADtorunafterhim。\" \"Oh,I’mjustasgladyoudid。WhenIsawJohnDouglasmakingoffdownthatroadIjustfeltasifeverylittlebitofjoyandhappinessthatwasleftinmylifewasgoingwithhim。Itwasanawfulfeeling。\" \"Didheaskyouwhyyoudidit?\"askedAnne。 \"No,heneversaidawordaboutit,\"repliedJanetdully。