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类别:其他 作者:Lucy Maud Montgomery字数:23905更新时间:18/12/21 16:51:48
OWENFORDCOMES OneeveningMissCorneliatelephoneddowntoAnne。 \"Thewritermanhasjustarrivedhere。I’mgoingtodrivehimdowntoyourplace,andyoucanshowhimthewayovertoLeslie’s。It’sshorterthandrivingroundbytheotherroad,andI’minamortalhurry。TheReesebabyhasgoneandfallenintoapailofhotwaterattheGlen,andgotnearlyscaldedtodeathandtheywantmerightoff——toputanewskinonthechild,I presume。Mrs。Reeseisalwayssocareless,andthenexpectsotherpeopletomendhermistakes。Youwon’tmind,willyou,dearie?Histrunkcangodowntomorrow。\" \"Verywell,\"saidAnne。\"Whatishelike,MissCornelia?\" \"You’llseewhathe’slikeoutsidewhenItakehimdown。Asforwhathe’slikeinsideonlytheLordwhomadehimknowsTHAT。I’mnotgoingtosayanotherword,foreveryreceiverintheGlenisdown。\" \"MissCorneliaevidentlycan’tfindmuchfaultwithMr。 Ford’slooks,orshewouldfinditinspiteofthereceivers,\"saidAnne。\"Iconcludetherefore,Susan,thatMr。Fordisratherhandsomethanotherwise。\" \"Well,Mrs。Doctor,dear,IDOenjoyseeingawell-lookingman,\"saidSusancandidly。\"HadInotbettergetupasnackforhim?Thereisastrawberrypiethatwouldmeltinyourmouth。\" \"No,Leslieisexpectinghimandhashissupperready。 Besides,Iwantthatstrawberrypieformyownpoorman。Hewon’tbehometilllate,soleavethepieandaglassofmilkoutforhim,Susan。\" \"ThatIwill,Mrs。Doctor,dear。Susanisatthehelm。 Afterall,itisbettertogivepietoyourownmenthantostrangers,whomaybeonlyseekingtodevour,andthedoctorhimselfisaswell-lookingamanasyouoftencomeacross。\" WhenOwenFordcameAnnesecretlyadmitted,asMissCorneliatowedhimin,thathewasvery\"well-looking\" indeed。Hewastallandbroad-shouldered,withthick,brownhair,finely-cutnoseandchin,largeandbrilliantdark-grayeyes。 \"Anddidyounoticehisearsandhisteeth,Mrs。 Doctor,dear?\"queriedSusanlateron。\"Hehasgotthenicest-shapedearsIeversawonaman’shead。I amchoiceaboutears。WhenIwasyoungIwasscaredthatImighthavetomarryamanwithearslikeflaps。 ButIneednothaveworried,forneverachancedidI havewithanykindofears。\" AnnehadnotnoticedOwenFord’sears,butshedidseehisteeth,ashislipspartedovertheminafrankandfriendlysmile。Unsmiling,hisfacewasrathersadandabsentinexpression,notunlikethemelancholy,inscrutableheroofAnne’sownearlydreams;butmirthandhumorandcharmlighteditupwhenhesmiled。 Certainly,ontheoutside,asMissCorneliasaid,OwenFordwasaverypresentablefellow。 \"YoucannotrealisehowdelightedIamtobehere,Mrs。 Blythe,\"hesaid,lookingaroundhimwitheager,interestedeyes。\"Ihaveanoddfeelingofcominghome。Mymotherwasbornandspentherchildhoodhere,youknow。Sheusedtotalkagreatdealtomeofheroldhome。IknowthegeographyofitaswellasoftheoneIlivedin,and,ofcourse,shetoldmethestoryofthebuildingofthehouse,andofmygrandfather’sagonisedwatchfortheRoyalWilliam。I hadthoughtthatsooldahousemusthavevanishedyearsago,orIshouldhavecometoseeitbeforethis。\" \"Oldhousesdon’tvanisheasilyonthisenchantedcoast,\"smiledAnne。\"Thisisa`landwhereallthingsalwaysseemthesame’——nearlyalways,atleast。 JohnSelwyn’shousehasn’tevenbeenmuchchanged,andoutsidetherose-bushesyourgrandfatherplantedforhisbridearebloomingthisveryminute。\" \"Howthethoughtlinksmewiththem!WithyourleaveI mustexplorethewholeplacesoon。\" \"Ourlatch-stringwillalwaysbeoutforyou,\" promisedAnne。\"AnddoyouknowthattheoldseacaptainwhokeepstheFourWindslightknewJohnSelwynandhisbridewellinhisboyhood?HetoldmetheirstorythenightIcamehere——thethirdbrideoftheoldhouse。\" \"Canitbepossible?ThisISadiscovery。Imusthunthimup。\" \"Itwon’tbedifficult;weareallcroniesofCaptainJim。Hewillbeaseagertoseeyouasyoucouldbetoseehim。Yourgrandmothershineslikeastarinhismemory。ButIthinkMrs。Mooreisexpectingyou。I’llshowyouour`cross-lots’road。\" Annewalkedwithhimtothehouseupthebrook,overafieldthatwasaswhiteassnowwithdaisies。A boat-loadofpeopleweresingingfaracrosstheharbor。 Thesounddriftedoverthewaterlikefaint,unearthlymusicwind-blownacrossastarlitsea。Thebiglightflashedandbeaconed。OwenFordlookedaroundhimwithsatisfaction。 \"AndsothisisFourWinds,\"hesaid。\"Iwasn’tpreparedtofinditquitesobeautiful,inspiteofallmother’spraises。Whatcolors——whatscenery——whatcharm!Ishallgetasstrongasahorseinnotime。 Andifinspirationcomesfrombeauty,IshouldcertainlybeabletobeginmygreatCanadiannovelhere。\" \"Youhaven’tbegunityet?\"askedAnne。 \"Alack-a-day,no。I’veneverbeenabletogettherightcentralideaforit。Itlurksbeyondme——itallures——andbeckons——andrecedes——Ialmostgraspitanditisgone。Perhapsamidthispeaceandloveliness,Ishallbeabletocaptureit。MissBryanttellsmethatyouwrite。\" \"Oh,Idolittlethingsforchildren。Ihaven’tdonemuchsinceIwasmarried。And——IhavenodesignsonagreatCanadiannovel,\"laughedAnne。\"Thatisquitebeyondme。\" OwenFordlaughedtoo。 \"Idaresayitisbeyondmeaswell。AllthesameI meantohaveatryatitsomeday,ifIcanevergettime。Anewspapermandoesn’thavemuchchanceforthatsortofthing。I’vedoneagooddealofshortstorywritingforthemagazines,butI’veneverhadtheleisurethatseemstobenecessaryforthewritingofabook。WiththreemonthsoflibertyIoughttomakeastart,though——ifIcouldonlygetthenecessarymotifforit——theSOULofthebook。\" AnideawhiskedthroughAnne’sbrainwithasuddennessthatmadeherjump。Butshedidnotutterit,fortheyhadreachedtheMoorehouse。AstheyenteredtheyardLesliecameoutontheverandafromthesidedoor,peeringthroughthegloomforsomesignofherexpectedguest。Shestoodjustwherethewarmyellowlightfloodedherfromtheopendoor。Sheworeaplaindressofcheap,cream-tintedcottonvoile,withtheusualgirdleofcrimson。Lesliewasneverwithouthertouchofcrimson。ShehadtoldAnnethatsheneverfeltsatisfiedwithoutagleamofredsomewhereabouther,ifitwereonlyaflower。ToAnne,italwaysseemedtosymboliseLeslie’sglowing,pent-uppersonality,deniedallexpressionsaveinthatflamingglint。 Leslie’sdresswascutalittleawayattheneckandhadshortsleeves。Herarmsgleamedlikeivory-tintedmarble。Everyexquisitecurveofherformwasoutlinedinsoftdarknessagainstthelight。Herhairshoneinitlikeflame。Beyondherwasapurplesky,floweringwithstarsovertheharbor。 Anneheardhercompaniongiveagasp。Evenintheduskshecouldseetheamazementandadmirationonhisface。 \"Whoisthatbeautifulcreature?\"heasked。 \"ThatisMrs。Moore,\"saidAnne。\"Sheisverylovely,isn’tshe?\" \"I——Ineversawanythinglikeher,\"heanswered,ratherdazedly。\"Iwasn’tprepared——Ididn’texpect——goodheavens,oneDOESN’Texpectagoddessforalandlady!Why,ifshewereclothedinagownofsea-purple,witharopeofamethystsinherhair,shewouldbeaveritablesea-queen。Andshetakesinboarders!\" \"Evengoddessesmustlive,\"saidAnne。\"AndLeslieisn’tagoddess。She’sjustaverybeautifulwoman,ashumanastherestofus。DidMissBryanttellyouaboutMr。Moore?\" \"Yes,——he’smentallydeficient,orsomethingofthesort,isn’the?ButshesaidnothingaboutMrs。Moore,andIsupposedshe’dbetheusualhustlingcountryhousewifewhotakesinboarderstoearnanhonestpenny。\" \"Well,that’sjustwhatLeslieisdoing,\"saidAnnecrisply。\"Anditisn’taltogetherpleasantforher,either。Ihopeyouwon’tmindDick。Ifyoudo,pleasedon’tletLeslieseeit。Itwouldhurtherhorribly。 He’sjustabigbaby,andsometimesaratherannoyingone。\" \"Oh,Iwon’tmindhim。Idon’tsupposeI’llbemuchinthehouseanyhow,exceptformeals。Butwhatashameitallis!Herlifemustbeahardone。\" \"Itis。Butshedoesn’tliketobepitied。\" Lesliehadgonebackintothehouseandnowmetthematthefrontdoor。ShegreetedOwenFordwithcoldcivility,andtoldhiminabusiness-liketonethathisroomandhissupperwerereadyforhim。Dick,withapleasedgrin,shambledupstairswiththevalise,andOwenFordwasinstalledasaninmateoftheoldhouseamongthewillows。 CHAPTER24 THELIFE-BOOKOFCAPTAINJIM \"Ihavealittlebrowncocoonofanideathatmaypossiblyexpandintoamagnificentmothoffulfilment,\"AnnetoldGilbertwhenshereachedhome。 Hehadreturnedearlierthanshehadexpected,andwasenjoyingSusan’scherrypie。Susanherselfhoveredinthebackground,likearathergrimbutbeneficentguardianspirit,andfoundasmuchpleasureinwatchingGilberteatpieashedidineatingit。 \"Whatisyouridea?\"heasked。 \"Isha’n’ttellyoujustyet——nottillIseeifIcanbringthethingabout。\" \"WhatsortofachapisFord?\" \"Oh,verynice,andquitegood-looking。\" \"Suchbeautifulears,doctor,dear,\"interjectedSusanwitharelish。 \"Heisaboutthirtyorthirty-five,Ithink,andhemeditateswritinganovel。Hisvoiceispleasantandhissmiledelightful,andheknowshowtodress。Helooksasiflifehadn’tbeenaltogethereasyforhim,somehow。\" OwenFordcameoverthenexteveningwithanotetoAnnefromLeslie;theyspentthesunsettimeinthegardenandthenwentforamoonlitsailontheharbor,inthelittleboatGilberthadsetupforsummeroutings。TheylikedOwenimmenselyandhadthatfeelingofhavingknownhimformanyyearswhichdistinguishesthefreemasonryofthehouseofJoseph。 \"Heisasniceashisears,Mrs。Doctor,dear,\"saidSusan,whenhehadgone。HehadtoldSusanthathehadnevertastedanythinglikeherstrawberryshortcakeandSusan’ssusceptibleheartwashisforever。 \"Hehasgotawaywithhim。\"shereflected,asshecleareduptherelicsofthesupper。\"Itisrealqueerheisnotmarried,foramanlikethatcouldhaveanybodyfortheasking。Well,maybeheislikeme,andhasnotmettherightoneyet。\" Susanreallygrewquiteromanticinhermusingsasshewashedthesupperdishes。 TwonightslaterAnnetookOwenForddowntoFourWindsPointtointroducehimtoCaptainJim。Thecloverfieldsalongtheharborshorewerewhiteninginthewesternwind,andCaptainJimhadoneofhisfinestsunsetsonexhibition。Hehimselfhadjustreturnedfromatripovertheharbor。 \"IhadtogooverandtellHenryPollackhewasdying。 Everybodyelsewasafraidtotellhim。Theyexpectedhe’dtakeonturrible,forhe’sbeendreadfuldeterminedtolive,andbeenmakingnoendofplansforthefall。HiswifethoughtheoughterbetoldandthatI’dbethebestonetobreakittohimthathecouldn’tgetbetter。Henryandmeareoldcronies——wesailedintheGrayGullforyearstogether。Well,IwentoverandsatdownbyHenry’sbedandIsaystohim,saysI,jestrightoutplainandsimple,forifathing’sgottobetolditmayaswellbetoldfirstaslast,saysI,`Mate,Ireckonyou’vegotyoursailingordersthistime,’Iwassorterquakinginside,forit’sanawfulthingtohavetotellamanwhohain’tanyideahe’sdyingthatheis。Butloandbehold,MistressBlythe,Henrylooksupatme,withthosebrightoldblackeyesofhisinhiswizenedfaceandsays,sayshe,`TellmesomethingIdon’tknow,JimBoyd,ifyouwanttogivemeinformation。I’veknownTHATforaweek。’Iwastooastonishedtospeak,andHenry,hechuckled。`Toseeyoucominginhere,’sayshe,`withyourfaceassolemnasatombstoneandsittingdowntherewithyourhandsclaspedoveryourstomach,andpassingmeoutablue-mouldyolditemofnewslikethat!It’dmakeacatlaugh,JimBoyd,’sayshe。`Whotoldyou?’saysI,stupidlike。`Nobody,’sayshe。`AweekagoTuesdaynightIwaslyinghereawake——andIjestknew。I’dsuspicioneditbefore,butthenIKNEW。I’vebeenkeepingupforthewife’ssake。AndI’dLIKEtohavegotthatbarnbuilt,forEben’llnevergetitright。 Butanyhow,nowthatyou’veeasedyourmind,Jim,putonasmileandtellmesomethinginteresting,’Well,thereitwas。They’dbeensoscaredtotellhimandheknewitallthetime。Strangehownaturelooksoutforus,ain’tit,andletsusknowwhatweshouldknowwhenthetimecomes?DidInevertellyoutheyarnaboutHenrygettingthefishhookinhisnose,MistressBlythe?\" \"No。\" \"Well,himandmehadalaughoverittoday。Ithappenednighuntothirtyyearsago。Himandmeandseveralmorewasoutmackerelfishingoneday。Itwasagreatday——neversawsuchaschoolofmackerelinthegulf——andinthegeneralexcitementHenrygotquitewildandcontrivedtostickafishhookcleanthroughonesideofhisnose。Well,therehewas;therewasbarbononeendandabigpieceofleadontheother,soitcouldn’tbepulledout。Wewantedtotakehimashoreatonce,butHenrywasgame;hesaidhe’dbejiggeredifhe’dleaveaschoollikethatforanythingshortoflockjaw;thenhekeptfishingaway,haulinginhandoverfistandgroaningbetweentimes。Fin’llytheschoolpassedandwecomeinwithaload;Igotafileandbeguntotrytofilethroughthathook。ItriedtobeaseasyasIcould,butyoushouldhaveheardHenry——no,youshouldn’teither。Itwaswellnoladieswerearound。Henrywasn’taswearingman,buthe’dheardsomefewmattersofthatsortalongshoreinhistime,andhefished’emalloutofhisrecollectionandhurled’ematme。Fin’llyhedeclaredhecouldn’tstanditandIhadnobowelsofcompassion。SowehitchedupandIdrovehimtoadoctorinCharlottetown,thirty-fivemiles——thereweren’tnonenearerinthemdays——withthatblessedhookstillhangingfromhisnose。WhenwegotthereoldDr。CrabbjesttookafileandfiledthathookjestthesameasI’dtriedtodo,onlyheweren’tamiteparticularaboutdoingiteasy!\" CaptainJim’svisittohisoldfriendhadrevivedmanyrecollectionsandhewasnowinthefulltideofreminiscences。 \"HenrywasaskingmetodayifIrememberedthetimeoldFatherChiniquyblessedAlexanderMacAllister’sboat。 Anotheroddyarn——andtrueasgospel。Iwasintheboatmyself。Wewentout,himandme,inAlexanderMacAllister’sboatonemorningatsunrise。Besides,therewasaFrenchboyintheboat——Catholicofcourse。 YouknowoldFatherChiniquyhadturnedProtestant,sotheCatholicshadn’tmuchuseforhim。Well,wesatoutinthegulfinthebroilingsuntillnoon,andnotabitedidweget。WhenwewentashoreoldFatherChiniquyhadtogo,sohesaidinthatpolitewayofhis,`I’mverysorryIcannotgooutwithyoudisafternoon,Mr。MacAllister,butIleaveyoumyblessing。Youwillcatchat’ousanddisafternoon。 `Well,wedidnotcatchathousand,butwecaughtexactlyninehundredandninety-nine——thebiggestcatchforasmallboatonthewholenorthshorethatsummer。 Curious,wasn’tit?AlexanderMacAllister,hesaystoAndrewPeters,`Well,andwhatdoyouthinkofFatherChiniquynow?’`Vell,’growledAndrew,`It’inkdeolddevilhasgotablessingleftyet。’Laws,howHenrydidlaughoverthattoday!\" \"DoyouknowwhoMr。Fordis,CaptainJim?\"askedAnne,seeingthatCaptainJim’sfountainofreminiscencehadrunoutforthepresent。\"Iwantyoutoguess。\" CaptainJimshookhishead。 \"Ineverwasanyhandatguessing,MistressBlythe,andyetsomehowwhenIcomeinIthought,`WherehaveI seenthemeyesbefore?’——forIHAVEseen’em。\" \"ThinkofaSeptembermorningmanyyearsago,\"saidAnne,softly。\"Thinkofashipsailinguptheharbor——ashiplongwaitedforanddespairedof。ThinkofthedaytheRoyalWilliamcameinandthefirstlookyouhadattheschoolmaster’sbride。\" CaptainJimsprangup。 \"They’rePersisSelwyn’seyes,\"healmostshouted。 \"Youcan’tbeherson——youmustbeher——\" \"Grandson;yes,IamAliceSelwyn’sson。\" CaptainJimswoopeddownonOwenFordandshookhishandoveragain。 \"AliceSelwyn’sson!Lord,butyou’rewelcome!Many’sthetimeI’vewonderedwherethedescendantsoftheschoolmasterwereliving。IknewtherewasnoneontheIsland。Alice——Alice——thefirstbabyeverborninthatlittlehouse。Nobabyeverbroughtmorejoy!I’vedandledherahundredtimes。Itwasfrommykneeshetookherfirststepsalone。Can’tIseehermother’sfacewatchingher——anditwasnearsixtyyearsago。Isshelivingyet?\" \"No,shediedwhenIwasonlyaboy。\" \"Oh,itdoesn’tseemrightthatIshouldbelivingtohearthat,\"sighedCaptainJim。\"ButI’mheart-gladtoseeyou。It’sbroughtbackmyyouthforalittlewhile。Youdon’tknowyetwhataboonTHATis。 MistressBlytheherehasthetrick——shedoesitquiteoftenforme。\" CaptainJimwasstillmoreexcitedwhenhediscoveredthatOwenFordwaswhathecalleda\"realwritingman。\"Hegazedathimasatasuperiorbeing。 CaptainJimknewthatAnnewrote,buthehadnevertakenthatfactveryseriously。CaptainJimthoughtwomenweredelightfulcreatures,whooughttohavethevote,andeverythingelsetheywanted,blesstheirhearts;buthedidnotbelievetheycouldwrite。 \"JestlookatAMadLove,\"hewouldprotest。\"Awomanwrotethatandjestlookatit——onehundredandthreechapterswhenitcouldallhavebeentoldinten。A writingwomanneverknowswhentostop;that’sthetrouble。Thep’intofgoodwritingistoknowwhentostop。\" \"Mr。Fordwantstohearsomeofyourstories,CaptainJim\"saidAnne。\"TellhimtheoneaboutthecaptainwhowentcrazyandimaginedhewastheFlyingDutchman。\" ThiswasCaptainJim’sbeststory。Itwasacompoundofhorrorandhumor,andthoughAnnehadhearditseveraltimesshelaughedasheartilyandshiveredasfearsomelyoveritasMr。Forddid。Othertalesfollowed,forCaptainJimhadanaudienceafterhisownheart。Hetoldhowhisvesselhadbeenrundownbyasteamer;howhehadbeenboardedbyMalaypirates;howhisshiphadcaughtfire;howhehelpedapoliticalprisonerescapefromaSouthAfricanrepublic;howhehadbeenwreckedonefallontheMagdalensandstrandedthereforthewinter;howatigerhadbrokenlooseonboardship;howhiscrewhadmutiniedandmaroonedhimonabarrenisland——theseandmanyothertales,tragicorhumorousorgrotesque,didCaptainJimrelate。Themysteryofthesea,thefascinationoffarlands,thelureofadventure,thelaughteroftheworld——hishearersfeltandrealisedthemall。OwenFordlistened,withhisheadonhishand,andtheFirstMatepurringonhisknee,hisbrillianteyesfastenedonCaptainJim’srugged,eloquentface。 \"Won’tyouletMr。Fordseeyourlife-book,CaptainJim?\"askedAnne,whenCaptainJimfinallydeclaredthatyarn-spinningmustendforthetime。 \"Oh,hedon’twanttobebotheredwithTHAT,\" protestedCaptainJim,whowassecretlydyingtoshowit。 \"Ishouldlikenothingbetterthantoseeit,CaptainBoyd,\"saidOwen。\"Ifitishalfaswonderfulasyourtalesitwillbeworthseeing。\" WithpretendedreluctanceCaptainJimdughislife-bookoutofhisoldchestandhandedittoOwen。 \"Ireckonyouwon’tcaretowrastlelongwithmyoldhando’write。Ineverhadmuchschooling,\"heobservedcarelessly。\"JustwrotethattheretoamusemynephewJoe。He’salwayswantingstories。Comeshereyesterdayandsaystome,reproachful-like,asI wasliftingatwenty-poundcodfishoutofmyboat,`UncleJim,ain’tacodfishadumbanimal?’I’dbeena-tellinghim,yousee,thathemustberealkindtodumbanimals,andneverhurt’eminanyway。Igotoutofthescrapebysayingacodfishwasdumbenoughbutitwasn’tananimal,butJoedidn’tlooksatisfied,andIwasn’tsatisfiedmyself。You’vegottobemightycarefulwhatyoutellthemlittlecritters。THEYcanseethroughyou。\" Whiletalking,CaptainJimwatchedOwenFordfromthecornerofhiseyeasthelatterexaminedthelife-book; andpresentlyobservingthathisguestwaslostinitspages,heturnedsmilinglytohiscupboardandproceededtomakeapotoftea。OwenFordseparatedhimselffromthelife-book,withasmuchreluctanceasamiserwrencheshimselffromhisgold,longenoughtodrinkhistea,andthenreturnedtoithungrily。 \"Oh,youcantakethatthinghomewithyouifyouwantto,\"saidCaptainJim,asifthe\"thing\"werenothismosttreasuredpossession。\"Imustgodownandpullmyboatupabitontheskids。There’sawindcoming。 Didyounoticetheskytonight? Mackerelskiesandmares’tailsMaketallshipscarryshortsails。\" OwenFordacceptedtheofferofthelife-bookgladly。 OntheirwayhomeAnnetoldhimthestoryoflostMargaret。 \"Thatoldcaptainisawonderfuloldfellow,\"hesaid。 \"Whatalifehehasled!Why,themanhadmoreadventuresinoneweekofhislifethanmostofushaveinalifetime。Doyoureallythinkhistalesarealltrue?\" \"Icertainlydo。IamsureCaptainJimcouldnottellalie;andbesides,allthepeopleaboutheresaythateverythinghappenedasherelatesit。Thereusedtobeplentyofhisoldshipmatesalivetocorroboratehim。 He’soneofthelastoftheoldtypeofP。E。Islandsea-captains。Theyarealmostextinctnow。\" CHAPTER25 THEWRITINGOFTHEBOOK OwenFordcameovertothelittlehousethenextmorninginastateofgreatexcitement。\"Mrs。Blythe,thisisawonderfulbook——absolutelywonderful。IfI couldtakeitandusethematerialforabookIfeelcertainIcouldmakethenoveloftheyearoutofit。 DoyousupposeCaptainJimwouldletmedoit?\" \"Letyou!I’msurehewouldbedelighted,\"criedAnne。\"IadmitthatitwaswhatwasinmyheadwhenI tookyoudownlastnight。CaptainJimhasalwaysbeenwishinghecouldgetsomebodytowritehislife-bookproperlyforhim。\" \"WillyougodowntothePointwithmethisevening,Mrs。Blythe?I’llaskhimaboutthatlife-bookmyself,butIwantyoutotellhimthatyoutoldmethestoryoflostMargaretandaskhimifhewillletmeuseitasathreadofromancewithwhichtoweavethestoriesofthelife-bookintoaharmoniouswhole。\" CaptainJimwasmoreexcitedthaneverwhenOwenFordtoldhimofhisplan。Atlasthischerisheddreamwastoberealizedandhis\"life-book\"giventotheworld。 HewasalsopleasedthatthestoryoflostMargaretshouldbewovenintoit。 \"Itwillkeephernamefrombeingforgotten,\"hesaidwistfully。 \"That’swhyIwantitputin。\" \"We’llcollaborate,\"criedOwendelightedly。\"YouwillgivethesoulandIthebody。Oh,we’llwriteafamousbookbetweenus,CaptainJim。Andwe’llgetrighttowork。\" \"Andtothinkmybookistobewritbytheschoolmaster’sgrandson!\"exclaimedCaptainJim。 \"Lad,yourgrandfatherwasmydearestfriend。I thoughttherewasnobodylikehim。IseenowwhyIhadtowaitsolong。Itcouldn’tbewrittilltherightmancome。YouBELONGhere——you’vegotthesoulofthisoldnorthshoreinyou——you’retheonlyonewhoCOULD writeit。\" ItwasarrangedthatthetinyroomoffthelivingroomatthelighthouseshouldbegivenovertoOwenforaworkshop。ItwasnecessarythatCaptainJimshouldbenearhimashewrote,forconsultationuponmanymattersofsea-faringandgulfloreofwhichOwenwasquiteignorant。 Hebeganworkonthebooktheverynextmorning,andflunghimselfintoitheartandsoul。AsforCaptainJim,hewasahappymanthatsummer。HelookeduponthelittleroomwhereOwenworkedasasacredshrine。 OwentalkedeverythingoverwithCaptainJim,buthewouldnotlethimseethemanuscript。 \"Youmustwaituntilitispublished,\"hesaid。\"Thenyou’llgetitallatonceinitsbestshape。\" Hedelvedintothetreasuresofthelife-bookandusedthemfreely。HedreamedandbroodedoverlostMargaretuntilshebecameavividrealitytohimandlivedinhispages。Asthebookprogressedittookpossessionofhimandheworkedatitwithfeverisheagerness。HeletAnneandLesliereadthemanuscriptandcriticiseit;andtheconcludingchapterofthebook,whichthecritics,lateron,werepleasedtocallidyllic,wasmodelleduponasuggestionofLeslie’s。 Annefairlyhuggedherselfwithdelightoverthesuccessofheridea。 \"IknewwhenIlookedatOwenFordthathewastheverymanforit,\"shetoldGilbert。\"Bothhumorandpassionwereinhisface,andthat,togetherwiththeartofexpression,wasjustwhatwasnecessaryforthewritingofsuchabook。AsMrs。Rachelwouldsay,hewaspredestinedforthepart。\" OwenFordwroteinthemornings。TheafternoonsweregenerallyspentinsomemerryoutingwiththeBlythes。 Leslieoftenwent,too,forCaptainJimtookchargeofDickfrequently,inordertosetherfree。Theywentboatingontheharborandupthethreeprettyriversthatflowedintoit;theyhadclambakesonthebarandmussel-bakesontherocks;theypickedstrawberriesonthesand-dunes;theywentoutcod-fishingwithCaptainJim;theyshotploverintheshorefieldsandwildducksinthecove——atleast,themendid。Intheeveningstheyrambledinthelow-lying,daisied,shorefieldsunderagoldenmoon,ortheysatinthelivingroomatthelittlehousewhereoftenthecoolnessoftheseabreezejustifiedadriftwoodfire,andtalkedofthethousandandonethingswhichhappy,eager,cleveryoungpeoplecanfindtotalkabout。 EversincethedayonwhichshehadmadeherconfessiontoAnneLesliehadbeenachangedcreature。Therewasnotraceofheroldcoldnessandreserve,noshadowofheroldbitterness。Thegirlhoodofwhichshehadbeencheatedseemedtocomebacktoherwiththeripenessofwomanhood;sheexpandedlikeaflowerofflameandperfume;nolaughwasreadierthanhers,nowitquicker,inthetwilightcirclesofthatenchantedsummer。Whenshecouldnotbewiththemallfeltthatsomeexquisitesavorwaslackingintheirintercourse。 Herbeautywasilluminedbytheawakenedsoulwithin,assomerosylampmightshinethroughaflawlessvaseofalabaster。TherewerehourswhenAnne’seyesseemedtoachewiththesplendorofher。AsforOwenFord,the\"Margaret\"ofhisbook,althoughshehadthesoftbrownhairandelfinfaceoftherealgirlwhohadvanishedsolongago,\"pillowedwherelostAtlantissleeps,\"hadthepersonalityofLeslieMoore,asitwasrevealedtohiminthosehalcyondaysatFourWindsHarbor。 Allinall,itwasanever-to-be-forgottensummer——oneofthosesummerswhichcomeseldomintoanylife,butleavearichheritageofbeautifulmemoriesintheirgoing——oneofthosesummerswhich,inafortunatecombinationofdelightfulweather,delightfulfriendsanddelightfuldoings,comeasneartoperfectionasanythingcancomeinthisworld。 \"Toogoodtolast,\"Annetoldherselfwithalittlesigh,ontheSeptemberdaywhenacertainnipinthewindandacertainshadeofintenseblueonthegulfwatersaidthatautumnwashardby。 ThateveningOwenFordtoldthemthathehadfinishedhisbookandthathisvacationmustcometoanend。 \"Ihaveagooddealtodotoityet——revisingandpruningandsoforth,\"hesaid,\"butinthemainit’sdone。Iwrotethelastsentencethismorning。IfI canfindapublisherforititwillprobablybeoutnextsummerorfall。\" Owenhadnotmuchdoubtthathewouldfindapublisher。 Heknewthathehadwrittenagreatbook——abookthatwouldscoreawonderfulsuccess——abookthatwouldLIVE。Heknewthatitwouldbringhimbothfameandfortune;butwhenhehadwrittenthelastlineofithehadbowedhisheadonthemanuscriptandsosatforalongtime。Andhisthoughtswerenotofthegoodworkhehaddone。 CHAPTER26 OWENFORD’SCONFESSION \"I’msosorryGilbertisaway,\"saidAnne。\"Hehadtogo——AllanLyonsattheGlenhasmetwithaseriousaccident。Hewillnotlikelybehometillverylate。 Buthetoldmetotellyouhe’dbeupandoverearlyenoughinthemorningtoseeyoubeforeyouleft。It’stooprovoking。SusanandIhadplannedsuchanicelittlejamboreeforyourlastnighthere。\" ShewassittingbesidethegardenbrookonthelittlerusticseatGilberthadbuilt。OwenFordstoodbeforeher,leaningagainstthebronzecolumnofayellowbirch。Hewasverypaleandhisfaceborethemarksoftheprecedingsleeplessnight。Anne,glancingupathim,wonderedif,afterall,hissummerhadbroughthimthestrengthitshould。Hadheworkedtoohardoverhisbook?Sherememberedthatforaweekhehadnotbeenlookingwell。 \"I’mrathergladthedoctorisaway,\"saidOwenslowly。\"Iwantedtoseeyoualone,Mrs。Blythe。 ThereissomethingImusttellsomebody,orIthinkitwilldrivememad。I’vebeentryingforaweektolookitintheface——andIcan’t。IknowIcantrustyou——and,besides,youwillunderstand。Awomanwitheyeslikeyoursalwaysunderstands。Youareoneofthefolkspeopleinstinctivelytellthingsto。Mrs。 Blythe,IloveLeslie。LOVEher!Thatseemstooweakaword!\" Hisvoicesuddenlybrokewiththesuppressedpassionofhisutterance。Heturnedhisheadawayandhidhisfaceonhisarm。Hiswholeformshook。Annesatlookingathim,paleandaghast。Shehadneverthoughtofthis!Andyet——howwasitshehadneverthoughtofit?Itnowseemedanaturalandinevitablething。Shewonderedatherownblindness。 But——but——thingslikethisdidnothappeninFourWinds。Elsewhereintheworldhumanpassionsmightsetatdefiancehumanconventionsandlaws——butnotHERE,surely。Lesliehadkeptsummerboardersoffandonfortenyears,andnothinglikethishadhappened。ButperhapstheyhadnotbeenlikeOwenFord;andthevivid,LIVINGLeslieofthissummerwasnotthecold,sullengirlofotheryears。Oh,SOMEBODYshouldhavethoughtofthis!Whyhadn’tMissCorneliathoughtofit?MissCorneliawasalwaysreadyenoughtosoundthealarmwheremenwereconcerned。AnnefeltanunreasonableresentmentagainstMissCornelia。Thenshegavealittleinwardgroan。Nomatterwhowastoblamethemischiefwasdone。AndLeslie——whatofLeslie?ItwasforLeslieAnnefeltmostconcerned。 \"DoesLeslieknowthis,Mr。Ford?\"sheaskedquietly。 \"No——no,——unlessshehasguessedit。Yousurelydon’tthinkI’dbecadandscoundrelenoughtotellher,Mrs。 Blythe。Icouldn’thelplovingher——that’sall——andmymiseryisgreaterthanIcanbear。\" \"DoesSHEcare?\"askedAnne。Themomentthequestioncrossedherlipsshefeltthatsheshouldnothaveaskedit。OwenFordanswereditwithovereagerprotest。 \"No——no,ofcoursenot。ButIcouldmakehercareifshewerefree——IknowIcould。\" \"Shedoescare——andheknowsit,\"thoughtAnne。Aloudshesaid,sympatheticallybutdecidedly: \"Butsheisnotfree,Mr。Ford。Andtheonlythingyoucandoistogoawayinsilenceandleavehertoherownlife。\" \"Iknow——Iknow,\"groanedOwen。Hesatdownonthegrassybankandstaredmoodilyintotheamberwaterbeneathhim。\"Iknowthere’snothingtodo——nothingbuttosayconventionally,`Good-bye,Mrs。Moore。 Thankyouforallyourkindnesstomethissummer,’ justasIwouldhavesaidittothesonsy,bustling,keen-eyedhousewifeIexpectedhertobewhenIcame。 ThenI’llpaymyboardmoneylikeanyhonestboarderandgo!Oh,it’sverysimple。Nodoubt——noperplexity——astraightroadtotheendoftheworld! AndI’llwalkit——youneedn’tfearthatIwon’t,Mrs。 Blythe。Butitwouldbeeasiertowalkoverred-hotploughshares。\" Anneflinchedwiththepainofhisvoice。Andtherewassolittleshecouldsaythatwouldbeadequatetothesituation。Blamewasoutofthequestion——advicewasnotneeded——sympathywasmockedbytheman’sstarkagony。Shecouldonlyfeelwithhiminamazeofcompassionandregret。HerheartachedforLeslie! Hadnotthatpoorgirlsufferedenoughwithoutthis? \"Itwouldn’tbesohardtogoandleaveherifshewereonlyhappy,\"resumedOwenpassionately。\"Buttothinkofherlivingdeath——torealisewhatitistowhichI doleaveher!THATistheworstofall。Iwouldgivemylifetomakeherhappy——andIcandonothingeventohelpher——nothing。Sheisboundforevertothatpoorwretch——withnothingtolookforwardtobutgrowingoldinasuccessionofempty,meaningless,barrenyears。 Itdrivesmemadtothinkofit。ButImustgothroughmylife,neverseeingher,butalwaysknowingwhatsheisenduring。It’shideous——hideous!\" \"Itisveryhard,\"saidAnnesorrowfully。\"We——herfriendshere——allknowhowharditisforher。\" \"Andsheissorichlyfittedforlife,\"saidOwenrebelliously。 \"Herbeautyistheleastofherdower——andsheisthemostbeautifulwomanI’veeverknown。Thatlaughofhers!I’veangledallsummertoevokethatlaugh,justforthedelightofhearingit。Andhereyes——theyareasdeepandblueasthegulfoutthere。Ineversawsuchblueness——andgold!Didyoueverseeherhairdown,Mrs。Blythe?\" \"No。\" \"Idid——once。IhadgonedowntothePointtogofishingwithCaptainJimbutitwastooroughtogoout,soIcameback。Shehadtakentheopportunityofwhatsheexpectedtobeanafternoonalonetowashherhair,andshewasstandingontheverandainthesunshinetodryit。Itfellallabouthertoherfeetinafountainoflivinggold。Whenshesawmeshehurriedin,andthewindcaughtherhairandswirleditallaroundher——Danaeinhercloud。Somehow,justthentheknowledgethatIlovedhercamehometome——andrealisedthatIhadlovedherfromthemomentIfirstsawherstandingagainstthedarknessinthatglowoflight。Andshemustliveonhere——pettingandsoothingDick,pinchingandsavingforamereexistence,whileI spendmylifelongingvainlyforher,anddebarred,bythatveryfact,fromevengivingherthelittlehelpafriendmight。Iwalkedtheshorelastnight,almosttilldawn,andthrasheditalloutoverandoveragain。 Andyet,inspiteofeverything,Ican’tfinditinmyhearttobesorrythatIcametoFourWinds。Itseemstomethat,badaseverythingis,itwouldbestillworsenevertohaveknownLeslie。It’sburning,searingpaintoloveherandleaveher——butnottohavelovedherisunthinkable。Isupposeallthissoundsverycrazy——alltheseterribleemotionsalwaysdosoundfoolishwhenweputthemintoourinadequatewords。 Theyarenotmeanttobespoken——onlyfeltandendured。 Ishouldn’thavespoken——butithashelped——some。Atleast,ithasgivenmestrengthtogoawayrespectablytomorrowmorning,withoutmakingascene。You’llwritemenowandthen,won’tyou,Mrs。Blythe,andgivemewhatnewsthereistogiveofher?\" \"Yes,\"saidAnne。\"Oh,I’msosorryyouaregoing——we’llmissyouso——we’veallbeensuchfriends! Ifitwerenotforthisyoucouldcomebackothersummers。Perhaps,evenyet——by-and-by——whenyou’veforgotten,perhaps——\" \"Ishallneverforget——andIshallnevercomebacktoFourWinds,\"saidOwenbriefly。 Silenceandtwilightfelloverthegarden。Farawaytheseawaslappinggentlyandmonotonouslyonthebar。 Thewindofeveninginthepoplarssoundedlikesomesad,weird,oldrune——somebrokendreamofoldmemories。Aslendershapelyyoungaspenroseupbeforethemagainstthefinemaizeandemeraldandpalingroseofthewesternsky,whichbroughtouteveryleafandtwigindark,tremulous,elfinloveliness。 \"Isn’tthatbeautiful?\"saidOwen,pointingtoitwiththeairofamanwhoputsacertainconversationbehindhim。 \"It’ssobeautifulthatithurtsme,\"saidAnnesoftly。\"Perfectthingslikethatalwaysdidhurtme——IrememberIcalledit`thequeerache’whenIwasachild。Whatisthereasonthatpainlikethisseemsinseparablefromperfection?Isitthepainoffinality——whenwerealisethattherecanbenothingbeyondbutretrogression?\" \"Perhaps,\"saidOwendreamily,\"itistheprisonedinfiniteinuscallingouttoitskindredinfiniteasexpressedinthatvisibleperfection。\" \"Youseemtohaveacoldinthehead。Betterrubsometallowonyournosewhenyougotobed,\"saidMissCornelia,whohadcomeinthroughthelittlegatebetweenthefirsintimetocatchOwen’slastremark。 MissCornelialikedOwen;butitwasamatterofprinciplewithhertovisitany\"high-falutin\" languagefromamanwithasnub。 MissCorneliapersonatedthecomedythateverpeepsaroundthecorneratthetragedyoflife。Anne,whosenerveshadbeenratherstrained,laughedhysterically,andevenOwensmiled。Certainly,sentimentandpassionhadawayofshrinkingoutofsightinMissCornelia’spresence。AndyettoAnnenothingseemedquiteashopelessanddarkandpainfulasithadseemedafewmomentsbefore。Butsleepwasfarfromhereyesthatnight。 CHAPTER27 ONTHESANDBAR OwenFordleftFourWindsthenextmorning。IntheeveningAnnewentovertoseeLeslie,butfoundnobody。 Thehousewaslockedandtherewasnolightinanywindow。Itlookedlikeahomeleftsoulless。Lesliedidnotrunoveronthefollowingday——whichAnnethoughtabadsign。 Gilberthavingoccasiontogointheeveningtothefishingcove,AnnedrovewithhimtothePoint,intendingtostayawhilewithCaptainJim。Butthegreatlight,cuttingitsswathesthroughthefogoftheautumnevening,wasincareofAlecBoydandCaptainJimwasaway。 \"Whatwillyoudo?\"askedGilbert。\"Comewithme?\" \"Idon’twanttogotothecove——butI’llgooverthechannelwithyou,androamaboutonthesandshoretillyoucomeback。Therockshoreistooslipperyandgrimtonight。\" AloneonthesandsofthebarAnnegaveherselfuptotheeeriecharmofthenight。ItwaswarmforSeptember,andthelateafternoonhadbeenveryfoggy; butafullmoonhadinpartlessenedthefogandtransformedtheharborandthegulfandthesurroundingshoresintoastrange,fantastic,unrealworldofpalesilvermist,throughwhicheverythingloomedphantom-like。CaptainJosiahCrawford’sblackschoonersailingdownthechannel,ladenwithpotatoesforBluenoseports,wasaspectralshipboundforafarunchartedland,everreceding,nevertobereached。 Thecallsofunseengullsoverheadwerethecriesofthesoulsofdoomedseamen。Thelittlecurlsoffoamthatblewacrossthesandwereelfinthingsstealingupfromthesea-caves。Thebig,round-shoulderedsand-duneswerethesleepinggiantsofsomeoldnortherntale。Thelightsthatglimmeredpalelyacrosstheharborwerethedelusivebeaconsonsomecoastoffairyland。Annepleasedherselfwithahundredfanciesasshewanderedthroughthemist。Itwasdelightful——romantic——mysterioustoberoamingherealoneonthisenchantedshore。 Butwasshealone?Somethingloomedinthemistbeforeher——tookshapeandform——suddenlymovedtowardsheracrossthewave-rippledsand。 \"Leslie!\"exclaimedAnneinamazement。\"Whateverareyoudoing——HERE——tonight?\" \"Ifitcomestothat,whateverareYOUdoinghere?\" saidLeslie,tryingtolaugh。Theeffortwasafailure。Shelookedverypaleandtired;butthelovelocksunderherscarletcapwerecurlingaboutherfaceandeyeslikelittlesparklingringsofgold。 \"I’mwaitingforGilbert——he’soverattheCove。I intendedtostayatthelight,butCaptainJimisaway。\" \"Well,_I_cameherebecauseIwantedtowalk——andwalk——andWALK,\"saidLeslierestlessly。\"Icouldn’tontherockshore——thetidewastoohighandtherocksprisonedme。Ihadtocomehere——orIshouldhavegonemad,Ithink。IrowedmyselfoverthechannelinCaptainJim’sflat。I’vebeenhereforanhour。 Come——come——letuswalk。Ican’tstandstill。Oh,Anne!\" \"Leslie,dearest,whatisthetrouble?\"askedAnne,thoughsheknewtoowellalready。 \"Ican’ttellyou——don’taskme。Iwouldn’tmindyourknowing——Iwishyoudidknow——butIcan’ttellyou——I can’ttellanyone。I’vebeensuchafool,Anne——andoh,ithurtssoterriblytobeafool。There’snothingsopainfulintheworld。\" Shelaughedbitterly。Anneslippedherarmaroundher。 \"Leslie,isitthatyouhavelearnedtocareforMr。 Ford?\" Leslieturnedherselfaboutpassionately。 \"Howdidyouknow?\"shecried。\"Anne,howdidyouknow?Oh,isitwritteninmyfaceforeveryonetosee?Isitasplainasthat?\" \"No,no。I——Ican’ttellyouhowIknew。Itjustcameintomymind,somehow。Leslie,don’tlookatmelikethat!\" \"Doyoudespiseme?\"demandedLeslieinafierce,lowtone。\"DoyouthinkI’mwicked——unwomanly?OrdoyouthinkI’mjustplainfool?\" \"Idon’tthinkyouanyofthosethings。Come,dear,let’sjusttalkitoversensibly,aswemighttalkoveranyotherofthegreatcrisesoflife。You’vebeenbroodingoveritandletyourselfdriftintoamorbidviewofit。Youknowyouhavealittletendencytodothatabouteverythingthatgoeswrong,andyoupromisedmethatyouwouldfightagainstit。\" \"But——oh,it’sso——soshameful,\"murmuredLeslie。\"Tolovehim——unsought——andwhenI’mnotfreetoloveanybody。\" \"There’snothingshamefulaboutit。ButI’mverysorrythatyouhavelearnedtocareforOwen,because,asthingsare,itwillonlymakeyoumoreunhappy。\" \"Ididn’tLEARNtocare,\"saidLeslie,walkingonandspeakingpassionately。\"IfithadbeenlikethatI couldhavepreventedit。Ineverdreamedofsuchathinguntilthatday,aweekago,whenhetoldmehehadfinishedhisbookandmustsoongoaway。Then—— thenIknew。Ifeltasifsomeonehadstruckmeaterribleblow。Ididn’tsayanything——Icouldn’tspeak——butIdon’tknowwhatIlookedlike。I’msoafraidmyfacebetrayedme。Oh,IwoulddieofshameifIthoughtheknew——orsuspected。\" Annewasmiserablysilent,hamperedbyherdeductionsfromherconversationwithOwen。Lesliewentonfeverishly,asifshefoundreliefinspeech。 \"Iwassohappyallthissummer,Anne——happierthanI everwasinmylife。Ithoughtitwasbecauseeverythinghadbeenmadeclearbetweenyouandme,andthatitwasourfriendshipwhichmadelifeseemsobeautifulandfulloncemore。AnditWAS,inpart——butnotall——oh,notnearlyall。Iknownowwhyeverythingwassodifferent。Andnowit’sallover——andhehasgone。HowcanIlive,Anne?WhenIturnedbackintothehousethismorningafterhehadgonethesolitudestruckmelikeablowintheface。\" \"Itwon’tseemsohardbyandby,dear,\"saidAnne,whoalwaysfeltthepainofherfriendssokeenlythatshecouldnotspeakeasy,fluentwordsofcomforting。 Besides,sherememberedhowwell-meantspeecheshadhurtherinherownsorrowandwasafraid。 \"Oh,itseemstomeitwillgrowharderallthetime,\" saidLesliemiserably。\"I’venothingtolookforwardto。Morningwillcomeaftermorning——andhewillnotcomeback——hewillnevercomeback。Oh,whenIthinkthatIwillneverseehimagainIfeelasifagreatbrutalhandhadtwisteditselfamongmyheartstrings,andwaswrenchingthem。Once,longago,Idreamedoflove——andIthoughtitmustbebeautiful——andNOW——itslikeTHIS。Whenhewentawayyesterdaymorninghewassocoldandindifferent。Hesaid`Good-bye,Mrs。 Moore’inthecoldesttoneintheworld——asifwehadnotevenbeenfriends——asifImeantabsolutelynothingtohim。IknowIdon’t——Ididn’twanthimtocare——butheMIGHThavebeenalittlekinder。\" \"Oh,IwishGilbertwouldcome,\"thoughtAnne。ShewasrackedbetweenhersympathyforLeslieandthenecessityofavoidinganythingthatwouldbetrayOwen’sconfidence。Sheknewwhyhisgood-byehadbeensocold——whyitcouldnothavethecordialitythattheirgood-comradeshipdemanded——butshecouldnottellLeslie。 \"Icouldn’thelpit,Anne——Icouldn’thelpit,\"saidpoorLeslie。 \"Iknowthat。\" \"Doyoublamemesoverymuch?\" \"Idon’tblameyouatall。\" \"Andyouwon’t——youwon’ttellGilbert?\" \"Leslie!DoyouthinkIwoulddosuchathing?\" \"Oh,Idon’tknow——youandGilbertaresuchCHUMS。I don’tseehowyoucouldhelptellinghimeverything。\" \"Everythingaboutmyownconcerns——yes。Butnotmyfriends’secrets。\" \"Icouldn’thaveHIMknow。ButI’mgladYOUknow。I wouldfeelguiltyiftherewereanythingIwasashamedtotellyou。IhopeMissCorneliawon’tfindout。 SometimesIfeelasifthoseterrible,kindbrowneyesofhersreadmyverysoul。Oh,Iwishthismistwouldneverlift——IwishIcouldjuststayinitforever,hiddenawayfromeverylivingbeing。Idon’tseehowI cangoonwithlife。Thissummerhasbeensofull。I neverwaslonelyforamoment。BeforeOwencamethereusedtobehorriblemoments——whenIhadbeenwithyouandGilbert——andthenhadtoleaveyou。YoutwowouldwalkawaytogetherandIwouldwalkawayALONE。AfterOwencamehewasalwaystheretowalkhomewithme——wewouldlaughandtalkasyouandGilbertweredoing——therewerenomorelonely,enviousmomentsforme。AndNOW!Oh,yes,I’vebeenafool。Let’shavedonetalkingaboutmyfolly。I’llneverboreyouwithitagain。\" \"HereisGilbert,andyouarecomingbackwithus,\" saidAnne,whohadnointentionofleavingLeslietowanderaloneonthesand-baronsuchanightandinsuchamood。\"There’splentyofroominourboatforthree,andwe’lltietheflatonbehind。\" \"Oh,IsupposeImustreconcilemyselftobeingtheoddoneagain,\"saidpoorLesliewithanotherbitterlaugh。\"Forgiveme,Anne——thatwashateful。Ioughttobethankful——andIAM——thatIhavetwogoodfriendswhoaregladtocountmeinasathird。Don’tmindmyhatefulspeeches。Ijustseemtobeonegreatpainalloverandeverythinghurtsme。\" \"Leslieseemedveryquiettonight,didn’tshe?\"saidGilbert,whenheandAnnereachedhome。\"Whatintheworldwasshedoingoverthereonthebaralone?\" \"Oh,shewastired——andyouknowshelikestogototheshoreafteroneofDick’sbaddays。\" \"Whatapityshehadn’tmetandmarriedafellowlikeFordlongago,\"ruminatedGilbert。\"They’dhavemadeanidealcouple,wouldn’tthey?\" \"Forpity’ssake,Gilbert,don’tdevelopintoamatch-maker。It’sanabominableprofessionforaman,\"criedAnnerathersharply,afraidthatGilbertmightblunderonthetruthifhekeptoninthisstrain。 \"Blessus,Anne-girl,I’mnotmatchmaking,\"protestedGilbert,rathersurprisedathertone。\"Iwasonlythinkingofoneofthemight-have-beens。\" \"Well,don’t。It’sawasteoftime,\"saidAnne。Thensheaddedsuddenly: \"Oh,Gilbert,Iwisheverybodycouldbeashappyasweare。\" CHAPTER28 ODDSANDENDS \"I’vebeenreadingobituarynotices,\"saidMissCornelia,layingdowntheDailyEnterpriseandtakinguphersewing。 TheharborwaslyingblackandsullenunderadourNovembersky;thewet,deadleavesclungdrenchedandsoddentothewindowsills;butthelittlehousewasgaywithfirelightandspring-likewithAnne’sfernsandgeraniums。 \"It’salwayssummerhere,Anne,\"Lesliehadsaidoneday;andallwhoweretheguestsofthathouseofdreamsfeltthesame。 \"TheEnterpriseseemstoruntoobituariesthesedays,\"quothMissCornelia。\"Italwayshasacoupleofcolumnsofthem,andIreadeveryline。It’soneofmyformsofrecreation,especiallywhenthere’ssomeoriginalpoetryattachedtothem。Here’sachoicesampleforyou: She’sgonetobewithherMaker,Nevermoretoroam。SheusedtoplayandsingwithjoyThesongofHome,SweetHome。 Whosayswehaven’tanypoeticaltalentontheIsland! Haveyouevernoticedwhatheapsofgoodpeopledie,Anne,dearie?It’skindofpitiful。Here’stenobituaries,andeveryoneofthemsaintsandmodels,eventhemen。Here’soldPeterStimson,whohas`leftalargecircleoffriendstomournhisuntimelyloss。’ Lord,Anne,dearie,thatmanwaseighty,andeverybodywhoknewhimhadbeenwishinghimdeadthesethirtyyears。Readobituarieswhenyou’reblue,Anne,dearie——especiallytheonesoffolksyouknow。Ifyou’veanysenseofhumoratallthey’llcheeryouup,believeME。Ijustwish_I_hadthewritingoftheobituariesofsomepeople。Isn’t`obituary’anawfuluglyword?ThisveryPeterI’vebeenspeakingofhadafaceexactlylikeone。IneversawitbutIthoughtofthewordOBITUARYthenandthere。There’sonlyoneuglierwordthatIknowof,andthat’sRELICT。Lord,Anne,dearie,Imaybeanoldmaid,butthere’sthiscomfortinit——I’llneverbeanyman’s`relict。’\" \"ItISanuglyword,\"saidAnne,laughing。\"Avonleagraveyardwasfullofoldtombstones`sacredtothememoryofSo-and-So,RELICTofthelateSo-and-So。’Italwaysmademethinkofsomethingwornoutandmotheaten。Whyisitthatsomanyofthewordsconnectedwithdeatharesodisagreeable?Idowishthatthecustomofcallingadeadbody`theremains’couldbeabolished。IpositivelyshiverwhenIheartheundertakersayatafuneral,`Allwhowishtoseetheremainspleasestepthisway。’ItalwaysgivesmethehorribleimpressionthatIamabouttoviewthesceneofacannibalfeast。\" \"Well,allIhope,\"saidMissCorneliacalmly,\"isthatwhenI’mdeadnobodywillcallme`ourdepartedsister。’Itookascunneratthissister-and-brotheringbusinessfiveyearsagowhentherewasatravellingevangelistholdingmeetingsattheGlen。Ihadn’tanyuseforhimfromthestart。I feltinmybonesthattherewassomethingwrongwithhim。Andtherewas。Mindyou,hewaspretendingtobeaPresbyterian——PresbyTARian,HEcalledit——andallthetimehewasaMethodist。Hebrotheredandsisteredeverybody。Hehadalargecircleofrelations,thatmanhad。Heclutchedmyhandferventlyonenight,andsaidimploringly,`MyDEARsisterBryant,areyouaChristian?’Ijustlookedhimoverabit,andthenI saidcalmly,`TheonlybrotherIeverhad,MR。Fiske,wasburiedfifteenyearsago,andIhaven’tadoptedanysince。AsforbeingaChristian,Iwasthat,Ihopeandbelieve,whenyouwerecrawlingaboutthefloorinpetticoats。’THATsquelchedhim,believeME。Mindyou,Annedearie,I’mnotdownonallevangelists。 We’vehadsomerealfine,earnestmen,whodidalotofgoodandmadetheoldsinnerssquirm。ButthisFiske-manwasn’toneofthem。Ihadagoodlaughalltomyselfoneevening。FiskehadaskedallwhowereChristianstostandup。_I_didn’t,believeme!I neverhadanyuseforthatsortofthing。Butmostofthemdid,andthenheaskedallwhowantedtobeChristianstostandup。Nobodystirredforaspell,soFiskestartedupahymnatthetopofhisvoice。JustinfrontofmepoorlittleIkeyBakerwassittingintheMillisonpew。Hewasahomeboy,tenyearsold,andMillisonjustaboutworkedhimtodeath。Thepoorlittlecreaturewasalwayssotiredhefellasleeprightoffwheneverhewenttochurchoranywherehecouldsitstillforafewminutes。He’dbeensleepingallthroughthemeeting,andIwasthankfultoseethepoorchildgettingarest,believeME。Well,whenFiske’svoicewentsoaringskywardandtherestjoinedin,poorIkeywakenedwithastart。Hethoughtitwasjustanordinarysingingandthateverybodyoughttostandup,sohescrambledtohisfeetmightyquick,knowinghe’dgetacombingdownfromMariaMillisonforsleepinginmeeting。Fiskesawhim,stoppedandshouted,`Anothersoulsaved!GloryHallelujah!’Andtherewaspoor,frightenedIkey,onlyhalfawakeandyawning,neverthinkingabouthissoulatall。Poorchild,heneverhadtimetothinkofanythingbuthistired,overworkedlittlebody。 \"LesliewentonenightandtheFiske-mangotrightafterher——oh,hewasespeciallyanxiousaboutthesoulsofthenice-lookinggirls,believeme!——andhehurtherfeelingssosheneverwentagain。Andthenheprayedeverynightafterthat,rightinpublic,thattheLordwouldsoftenherhardheart。FinallyIwenttoMr。Leavitt,ourministerthen,andtoldhimifhedidn’tmakeFiskestopthatI’djustriseupthenextnightandthrowmyhymnbookathimwhenhementionedthat`beautifulbutunrepentantyoungwoman。’I’dhavedoneittoo,believeME。Mr。Leavittdidputastoptoit,butFiskekeptonwithhismeetingsuntilCharleyDouglasputanendtohiscareerintheGlen。Mrs。 CharleyhadbeenoutinCaliforniaallwinter。She’dbeenrealmelancholyinthefall——religiousmelancholy——itraninherfamily。Herfatherworriedsomuchoverbelievingthathehadcommittedtheunpardonablesinthathediedintheasylum。SowhenRoseDouglasgotthatwayCharleypackedherofftovisithersisterinLosAngeles。ShegotperfectlywellandcamehomejustwhentheFiskerevivalwasinfullswing。ShesteppedoffthetrainattheGlen,realsmilingandchipper,andthefirstthingshesawstaringherinthefaceontheblack,gable-endofthefreightshed,wasthequestion,inbigwhiteletters,twofeethigh,`Whithergoestthou——toheavenorhell?’ ThathadbeenoneofFiske’sideas,andhehadgotHenryHammondtopaintit。Rosejustgaveashriekandfainted;andwhentheygotherhomeshewasworsethanever。CharleyDouglaswenttoMr。LeavittandtoldhimthateveryDouglaswouldleavethechurchifFiskewaskeptthereanylonger。Mr。Leavitthadtogivein,fortheDouglasespaidhalfhissalary,soFiskedeparted,andwehadtodependonourBiblesoncemoreforinstructionsonhowtogettoheaven。AfterhewasgoneMr。LeavittfoundouthewasjustamasqueradingMethodist,andhefeltprettysick,believeME。Mr。 Leavittfellshortinsomeways,buthewasagood,soundPresbyterian。\" \"Bytheway,IhadaletterfromMr。Fordyesterday,\" saidAnne。\"Heaskedmetorememberhimkindlytoyou。\" \"Idon’twanthisremembrances,\"saidMissCornelia,curtly。 \"Why?\"saidAnne,inastonishment。\"Ithoughtyoulikedhim。\" \"Well,soIdid,inakindofway。ButI’llneverforgivehimforwhathedonetoLeslie。There’sthatpoorchildeatingherheartoutabouthim——asifshehadn’thadtroubleenough——andhimrantingroundToronto,I’venodoubt,enjoyinghimselfsameasever。 Justlikeaman。\" \"Oh,MissCornelia,howdidyoufindout?\" \"Lord,Anne,dearie,I’vegoteyes,haven’tI?AndI’veknownLesliesinceshewasababy。There’sbeenanewkindofheartbreakinhereyesallthefall,andIknowthatwriter-manwasbehinditsomehow。I’llneverforgivemyselfforbeingthemeansofbringinghimhere。ButIneverexpectedhe’dbelikehewas。I thoughthe’djustbeliketheothermenLesliehadboarded——conceitedyoungasses,everyoneofthem,thatsheneverhadanyusefor。Oneofthemdidtrytoflirtwithheronceandshefrozehimout——sobad,I feelsurehe’snevergothimselfthawedsince。SoI neverthoughtofanydanger。\" \"Don’tletLesliesuspectyouknowhersecret,\"saidAnnehurriedly。\"Ithinkitwouldhurther。\" \"Trustme,Anne,dearie。_I_wasn’tbornyesterday。 Oh,aplagueonallthemen!OneofthemruinedLeslie’slifetobeginwith,andnowanotherofthetribecomesandmakesherstillmorewretched。Anne,thisworldisanawfulplace,believeme。\" \"There’ssomethingintheworldamissWillbeunriddledbyandby,\" quotedAnnedreamily。 \"Ifitis,it’llbeinaworldwheretherearen’tanymen,\"saidMissCorneliagloomily。 \"Whathavethemenbeendoingnow?\"askedGilbert,entering。 \"Mischief——mischief!Whatelsedidtheyeverdo?\" \"ItwasEveatetheapple,MissCornelia。\" \"’Twasahe-creaturetemptedher,\"retortedMissCorneliatriumphantly。 Leslie,afterherfirstanguishwasover,founditpossibletogoonwithlifeafterall,asmostofusdo,nomatterwhatourparticularformoftormenthasbeen。Itisevenpossiblethatsheenjoyedmomentsofit,whenshewasoneofthegaycircleinthelittlehouseofdreams。ButifAnneeverhopedthatshewasforgettingOwenFordshewouldhavebeenundeceivedbythefurtivehungerinLeslie’seyeswheneverhisnamewasmentioned。Pitifultothathunger,AnnealwayscontrivedtotellCaptainJimorGilbertbitsofnewsfromOwen’sletterswhenLesliewaswiththem。Thegirl’sflushandpalloratsuchmomentsspokealltooeloquentlyoftheemotionthatfilledherbeing。ButsheneverspokeofhimtoAnne,ormentionedthatnightonthesand-bar。 Onedayherolddogdiedandshegrievedbitterlyoverhim。 \"He’sbeenmyfriendsolong,\"shesaidsorrowfullytoAnne。\"HewasDick’solddog,youknow——Dickhadhimforayearorsobeforeweweremarried。HelefthimwithmewhenhesailedontheFourSisters。Carlogotveryfondofme——andhisdog-lovehelpedmethroughthatfirstdreadfulyearaftermotherdied,whenIwasalone。WhenIheardthatDickwascomingbackIwasafraidCarlowouldn’tbesomuchmine。ButheneverseemedtocareforDick,thoughhehadbeensofondofhimonce。Hewouldsnapandgrowlathimasifhewereastranger。Iwasglad。Itwasnicetohaveonethingwhoselovewasallmine。Thatolddoghasbeensuchacomforttome,Anne。HegotsofeebleinthefallthatIwasafraidhecouldn’tlivelong——butIhopedIcouldnursehimthroughthewinter。Heseemedprettywellthismorning。Hewaslyingontherugbeforethefire; then,allatonce,hegotupandcreptovertome;heputhisheadonmylapandgavemeonelovinglookoutofhisbig,soft,dogeyes——andthenhejustshiveredanddied。Ishallmisshimso。\" \"Letmegiveyouanotherdog,Leslie,\"saidAnne。 \"I’mgettingalovelyGordonsetterforaChristmaspresentforGilbert。Letmegiveyouonetoo。\"