第10章

类别:其他 作者:William Dean Howells字数:23378更新时间:18/12/21 16:56:19
EuniceMaveringacknowledgedAlice’sfirstletter。Shesaidthathermotherreaditaloudtothemall,andhadbeendelightedwiththegoodaccountshegaveofDan,andfascinatedwithallthestoryoftheirdailydoingsandsayings。ShewishedEunicetotellAlicehowfullysheappreciatedherthoughtfulnessofasickoldwoman,andthatshewasgoingtowriteherselfandthankher。ButEuniceaddedthatAlicemustnotbesurprisedifhermotherwasnotverypromptinthis,andshesentmessagesfromallthefamily,affectionateforAlice,andpoliteforherfatherandmother。 AliceshowedDantheletter,andheseemedtofindnothingnoticeableinit。“Shesaysyourmotherwillwritelater。”Alicesuggested。 “Yes。Yououghttofeelverymuchcomplimentedbythat。Mother’sautographsareprettyuncommon。”hesaid,smiling。 “Why,doesn’tshewrite?Can’tshe?Doesittireher?”askedAlice。 “Ohyes,shecanwrite,butshehatesto。ShegetsEuniceorMinnietowriteusually。” “Dan。”criedAliceintensely,“whydidn’tyoutellme?” “Why,Ithoughtyouknewit。”heexplainedeasily。“Shelikestoread,andlikestotalk,butitboreshertowrite。Idon’tsupposeIgetmorethantwoorthreepencilscratchesfromherinthecourseofayear。Shemakesthegirlswrite。Butyouneedn’tmindhernotwriting。Youmaybesureshe’sgladofyourletters。” “Itmakesmeseemverypresumptuoustobewritingtoherwhenthere’snochanceofheranswering。”Alicegrieved。“It’sasifIhadpassedoveryoursisters’heads。Ioughttohavewrittentothem。” “Oh,well,youcandothatnow。”saidDansoothingly。 “No。No,Ican’tdoitnow。Itwouldberidiculous。”Shewassilent,andpresentlysheasked,“IsthereanythingelseaboutyourmotherthatI oughttoknow?”Shelookedathimwithasortofimpendingdisciplineinhereyeswhichhehadlearnedtodread;itmeantsuchalongcourseofthings,suchaverygreatvarietyofatonementandexpiationforhim,thathecouldnotbringhimselftoconfrontitsteadily。 Hisheartgaveafeebleleap;hewouldhavegladlytoldherallthatwasinit,andhemeanttodosoattherighttime,butthisdidnotseemthemoment。“Ican’tsaythatthereis。”heansweredcoldly。 InthatneedofconsecratingherhappinesswhichAlicefelt,shewentagreatdealtochurchinthosedays。Sometimesshefelttheneedalmostofdefenceagainstherhappiness,andavagueapprehensionmixedwithit。 Coulditberighttoletitclaimherwholebeing,asitseemedtodo? ThanwasthequestionwhichsheonceaskedDan,anditmadehimlaugh,andcatchhertohiminarapturethatservedforthetime,andthenlefthertomoremorbiddoubts。Evidentlyhecouldnotfollowherinthem;hecouldnotevenimaginethem;andwhilehewaswithhertheyseemedtohavenoverityorvalue。ButshetalkedthemoververyhypotheticallyandimpersonallywithMissCotton,inwhosesympathytheyresumedalltheirimport,andgainedsomethingmore。Intheidealisationwhichthegirlunderwentinthisatmosphereallherthoughtsandpurposeshadasignificancewhichshewouldnotofherself,perhaps,haveattachedtothem。Theydiscussedthemandanalysedthemwithasatisfactionintheresultwhichcouldnotberepresentedwithoutaneffectofcaricature。 TheymeasuredAlice’sromancetogether,andevolvedfromitasublimationofresponsibility,ofduty,ofdevotion,whichAlicefounditimpossibletosubmittoDanwhenhecamewithhissimple-hearted,single-mindedpurposeofgettingMrs。Pasmeroutoftheroom,andsittingdownwithhisarmaroundAlice’swaist。Whenhehadaccomplishedthisitseemedsufficientinitself,andshehadtothink,tostruggletorecallthingsbeyondit,aboveit。Hecouldnotbemadetoseeatsuchtimeshowtheirlivescouldbemoreinunisonthantheywere。Whensheproposeddoingsomethingforhimwhichheknewwasdisagreeabletoher,hewouldnotlether;andwhenshehintedatanythingshewishedhimtodoforherbecausesheknewitwasdisagreeabletohim,heconsentedsopromptly,sojoyously,thatsheperceivedhecouldnothavegiventheleastthoughttoit。 Shefelteverydaythattheywerealienintheirtastesandaims;theirpleasureswerenotthesame,andthoughitwassweet,thoughitwascharming,tohavehimgiveupsowillinglyallhispreferences,shefelt,withoutknowingthatthetimemustcomewhenthiscouldnotbeso,thatitwasallwrong。 “Buttheseverydifferences,theseantagonisms,ifyouwishtocallthemso。”suggestedMissCotton,intalkingAlice’smisgivingsoverwithher,“aren’ttheyjustwhatwilldrawyoutogethermoreandmore?Isn’titwhatattractedyoutoeachother?Theveryfactthatyouaresuchperfectcounterparts——“ “Yes。”thegirlassented,“that’swhatwe’retaughttobelieve。”Shemeantbythenovels,towhichwealltrustourinstructioninsuchmatters,andherdoubtdoublyrankledaftershehadputittosilence。 ShekeptonwritingtoDan’smother,thoughmoreandmoreperfunctorily; andnowEuniceandnowMinnieMaveringacknowledgedherletters。Sheknewthattheymustthinkshewassilly,buthavingenteredbyDan’sconnivanceuponherfolly,shewastooproudtoabandonit。 Atlast,aftershehadceasedtoexpectit,camealetterfromhismother,notabriefnote,butaletterwhichtheinvalidhadevidentlytaskedherselftomakelongandfull,inrecognitionofAlice’skindnessinwritingtohersomuch。Thegirlopenedit,and,afteraverifyingglanceatthesignature,begantoreaditwithathrilloftendertriumph,andthefondprevisionofthegreaterpleasureofreadingitagainwithDan。 Butafterreadingitoncethrough,shedidnotwaitforhimbeforereadingitagainandagain。Shedidthiswithbewilderment,intershotwithflashesofconviction,andthendoubtsofthisconviction。Whenshecouldmisunderstandnolonger,sherosequietlyandfoldedtheletter,andputitcarefullybackintoitsenvelopeandintoherwritingdesk,whereshesatdownandwrote,inherclearestandfirmesthand,thisnotetoMavering—— “Iwishtoseeyouimmediately。 “ALICEPASMER。” XLIII Danhadlearned,withalover’skeenness,toreadAlice’smoodsinthemostcolourlesswordingofhernotes。Shewasratherapttowritehimnotes,takingbackorreaffirmingtheeffectofsomethingthathadjustpassedbetweenthem。Hernoteweretemperedtovaryingdegreesofheatandcold,sofinethatnooneelsewouldhavefeltthedifference,butsensibletohimintheirsubtlestintention。 Perhapsamerewitnessofthefactwouldhavebeenalarmedbyanotewhichbeganwithoutanaddress,exceptthatontheenvelope,andendeditsperemptorybrevitywiththewriter’snamesignedinfull。Danreadcalamityinit,andhehadallthemoretroubletopullhimselftogethertomeetitbecausehehadpartedwithunusualtendernessfromAlicethenightbefore,afteraneveninginwhichitseemedtohimthattheiridealshadbeencompletelyreconciled。 Thenotecame,ashernoteswereapttocome,whileDanwasatbreakfast,whichhewasratherluxuriousaboutforsoyoungaman,andhefeltformlesslygladafterwardthathehaddrunkhisfirstcupofcoffeebeforeheopenedit,foritchilledthesecondcup,andseemedtotakeallcharacteroutoftheomelet。 Heobeyedit,wonderingwhatthedoommenacedinitmightbe,butknowingthatitwasdoom,andleavinghisbreakfasthalf-finished,withadullsenseofthetragedyofdoingso。 HewouldhavelikedtoaskforMrs。Pasmerfirst,andinterposeamomentofhercheerfulunrealitybetweenhimselfandhisinterviewwithAlice,buthedecidedthathehadbetternotdothis,andtheymetatonce,withthewidthoftheroombetweenthem。Herlookwasonethatmadeitimpassabletothesimpleimpulseheusuallyhadtotakeherinhisarmsandkissher。Butasshestoodholdingoutalettertohim,withtheapparentintentionthatheshouldcomeandtakeit,hetraversedtheinterveningspaceandtookit。 “Why,it’sfrommother!“hesaidjoyously,withaglanceatthehandwriting。 “Willyoupleaseexplainit?”saidAlice,andDanbegantoreadit。 Itbeganwithagoodmanyexcusesfornothavingwrittenbefore,andwentonwithaprettyexpressionofinterestinAlice’slettersandgratitudeforthem;Mrs。Maveringassuredthegirlthatshecouldnotimaginewhatapleasuretheyhadbeentoher。Shepromisedherselfthattheyshouldbegreatfriends,andshesaidthatshelookedforwardeagerlytothetime,nowdrawingnear,whenDanshouldbringherhometothem。ShesaidsheknewAlicewouldfinditdullattheFallsexceptforhim,buttheywouldalldotheirbest,andshewouldfindtheplaceverydifferentfromwhatshehadseenitinthewinter。Alicecouldmakebelievethatshewastherejustforthesummer,andMrs。Maveringhopedthatbeforethesummerwasgoneshewouldbesosorryforasickoldwomanthatshewouldnotevenwishtogowithit。Thispartoftheletter,whichgaveDanawaysohopelessly,ashefelt,wasphrasedsotouchingly,thathelookedupfromitwithmoisteyestothehardcoldjudgmentintheeyesofAlice。 “Willyoupleaseexplainit?”sherepeated。 Hetriedtotemporise。“Explainwhat?” Alicewasprompttosay,“Hadyoupromisedyourmothertotakemehometolive?” Dandidnotanswer。 “Youpromisedmymothertogoabroad。Whatelsehaveyoupromised?”Hecontinuedsilent,andsheadded,“Youareafaithlessman。”TheywerethewordsofRomola,intheromance,toTito;shehadoftenadmiredthem;andtheyseemedtoherequallythemeasureofDan’soffence。 “Alice——“ “Hereareyourlettersandremembrances,Mr。Mavering。”Danmechanicallyreceivedthepacketshehadbeenholdingbehindher;withaperversefreakofintelligenceheobservedthat,thoughmuchlargernow,itwastiedupwiththesameribbonwhichhadfasteneditwhenAlicereturnedhislettersandgiftsbefore。“Good-bye。Iwishyoueveryhappinessconsistentwithyournature。” Shebowedcoldly,andwasabouttoleavehim,asshehadplanned;butshehadnotarrangedthatheshouldbestandinginfrontofthedoor,andhewasthere,withnoapparentintentionofmoving。 “Willyouallowmetopass?”shewasforcedtoask,however,haughtily。 “No!“heretorted,withaviolencethatsurprisedhim。“Iwillnotletyoupasstillyouhavelistenedtome——tillyoutellmewhyyoutreatmeso。Iwon’tstandit——I’vehadenoughofthiskindofthing。” ItsurprisedAlicetooalittle,andafteramoment’shesitationshesaid,“Iwilllistentoyou。”somuchmoregentlythanshehadspokenbeforethatDanrelaxedhisimperativetone,andbegantolaugh。“But。”sheadded,andherfacecloudedagain,“itwillbeofnouse。Mymindismadeupthistime。Whyshouldwetalk?” Why,becausemineisn’t。”saidDan。“Whatisthematter,Alice?DoyouthinkIwouldforceyou,orevenaskyou,togohomewithmetoliveunlessyouwereentirelywilling?Itcouldonlybeatemporaryarrangementanyway。” “Thatisn’tthequestion。”sheretorted。“Thequestioniswhetheryou’vepromisedyourmotheronethingandmeanother。” “Well,Idon’tknowaboutpromising。”saidDan,laughingalittlemoreuneasily,butstilllaughing。“AsnearlyasIcanremember,Iwasn’tconsultedaboutthematter。Yourmotherproposedonething,andmymotherproposedanother。” “Andyouagreedtoboth。Thatisquiteenough——quitecharacteristic!“ Danflushed,andstoppedlaughing。“Idon’tknowwhatyoumeanbycharacteristic。Thethingdidn’thavetobedecidedatonce,andIdidn’tsupposeitwouldbedifficultforeithersidetogiveway,ifitwasjudgedbest。Iwassuremymotherwouldn’tinsist。” “Itseemsveryeasyforyourfamilytomakesacrificesthatarenotlikelytoberequiredofthem。” “Youmustn’tcriticisemymother!“criedDan。 “Ihavenotcriticisedher。Youinsinuatethatwewouldbetooselfishtogiveup,ifitwereforthebest。” “Idonothingofthekind,andunlessyouaredeterminedtoquarrelwithmeyouwouldn’tsayso。” “Idon’twishaquarrel;noneisnecessary。”saidAlicecoldly。 “Youaccusemeofbeingtreacherous——“ “Ididn’tsaytreacherous!“ “Faithless,then。It’samerequibbleaboutwords。Iwantyoutotakethatback。” “Ican’ttakeitback;it’sthetruth。Aren’tyoufaithless,ifyouletusgoonthinkingthatyou’regoingtoEurope,andletyourmotherthinkthatwe’recominghometoliveafterwe’remarried?” “No!I’msimplyleavingthequestionopen!“ “Yes。”saidthegirl——sadly,“youliketoleavequestionsopen。That’syourway。” “Well,IsupposeIdotillit’snecessarytodecidethem。Itsavestheneedlesseffusionoftalk。”saidDan,withalaugh;andthen,aspeopledoinaquarrel,hewentbacktohisangrymood,andsaid“Besides,I supposedyouwouldbegladofthechancetomakesomesacrificeforme。 You’realwaysaskingforit。” “Thankyou,Mr。Mavering。”saidAlice,“forremindingmeofit;nothingissacredtoyou,itseems。Ican’tsaythatyouhaveeversoughtanyopportunitiesofself-sacrifice。” “Iwasn’tallowedtimetodoso;theywerealwayspresented。” “Thankyouagain,Mr。Mavering。Allthisisquitearevelation。I’mgladtoknowhowyoureallyfeltaboutthingsthatyouseemedsoeagerfor。” “Alice,youknowthatIwoulddoanythingforyou!“criedDan,rueinghisprecipitatewords。 “Yes;that’swhatyou’verepeatedlytoldme。Iusedtobelieveit。” “AndIalwaysbelievedwhatyousaid。YousaidatthepicnicthatdaythatyouthoughtIwouldliketoliveatPonkwassetFallsifmybusinesswasthere——“ “Thatisnotthepoint!“ “Andnowyouquarrelwithmebecausemymotherwishesmetodoso。” Alicemerelysaid:“Idon’tknowwhyIstandhereallowingyoutointimidatemeinmyfather’shouse。Idemandthatyoushallstandasideandletmepass。” “I’llnotobligeyoutoleavetheroom。”saidDan。“Iwillgo。ButifI go,youwillunderstandthatIdon’tcomeback。” “Ihopethat。”saidthegirl。 “Verywell。Goodmorning,MissPasmer。” Sheinclinedherheadslightlyinacknowledgmentofhisbow,andhewhirledoutoftheroomanddownthedimnarrowpassagewayintothearmsofMrs。Pasmer,whohadresistedaslongasshecouldhercuriositytoknowwhattheangryvoicesofhimselfandAlicemeant。 “0Mr。Mavering,isityou?”shebuzzed;andsheflungasideonepretenceforanotherinadding,“Couldn’tAlicemakeyoustaytobreakfast?” Danfeltarushoftendernessinhisheartatthesoundofthekind,humbugginglittlevoice。“No,thankyou,Mrs。Pasmer,Icouldn’tstay,thankyou。I——Ithankyouverymuch。I——good-bye,Mrs。Pasmer。”Hewrungherhand,andfoundhiswayoutoftheapartmentdoor,leavinghertoclearupthemysteryofhisflightandhisbrokenwordsasshecould。 “Alice。”shesaid,assheenteredtheroom,wherethegirlhadremained,“whathaveyoubeendoingnow?” “Oh,nothing。”shesaid,witharemnantofherscornforDanqualifyinghertoneandmannertohermother。“I’vedismissedMr。Mavering。” “Thenyouwanthimtocometolunch?”askedhermother。“Ishouldadvisehimtorefuse。” “Idon’tthinkhe’daccept。”saidAlice。Then,asMrs。Pasmerstoodinthedoor,preventingheregress,asDanhaddonebefore,sheaskedmeekly“Willyouletmepass,mamma?Myheadaches。” Mrs。Pasmer,whoseeasytriumphsinsomanydifficultcircumstanceskepthernearlyalwaysingoodtemper,letherselfgo,atthesewords,invexationveryuncommonwithher。“IndeedIshallnot!“sheretorted。 “AndyouwillpleasesitdownhereandtellmewhatyoumeanbydismissingMr。Mavering。I’mtiredofyourwhimsandcaprices。” “Ican’ttalk。”beganthegirlstubbornly。 “Yes,Ithinkyoucan。”saidhermother。“Atanyrate,Ican。Nowwhatisitall?” “Perhapsthisletter,willexplain。”saidAlice,continuingtodignifyherenforcedsubmissionwithatoneofunabatedhauteur;andshegavehermotherMrs。Mavering’sletter,whichDanhadmechanicallyrestoredtoher。 Mrs。Pasmerreadit,notonlywithoutindignation,butapparentlywithoutdispleasure。But,sheunderstoodperfectlywhatthetroublewas,whenshelookedupandasked,cheerfully,“Well?” “Well!“repeatedAlice,withafrownofastonishment。“Don’tyouseethathe’spromisedusonethingandheranother,andthathe’sfalsetoboth?” “Idon’tknow。”saidMrs。Pasmer,recoveringhergood-humourinviewofasituationthatshefeltherselfabletocopewith。“Ofcoursehehastotemporise,tomanagealittle。She’saninvalid,andofcourseshe’sveryexacting。Hehastohumourher。Howdoyouknowhehaspromisedher?Hehasn’tpromisedus。” “Hasn’tpromisedus?”Alicegasped。 “No。He’ssimplyfalleninwithwhatwe’vesaid。It’sbecausehe’ssosweetandyielding,andcan’tbeartorefuse。Icanunderstanditperfectly。” “Thenifhehasn’tpromisedus,he’sdeceivedusallthemoreshamefully,forhe’smadeusthinkhehad。” “Hehasn’tme。”saidMrs。Pasmer,smilingatthestormyvirtueinherdaughter’sface。“Andwhatifyoushouldgohomeawhilewithhim——forthesummer,say?Itcouldn’tlastlonger,much;anditwouldn’thurtustowait。Isupposehehopedforsomethingofthatkind。” “Oh,itisn’tthat。”groanedthegirl,inakindofbewilderment。“I couldhavegonetherewithhimjoyfully,andlivedallmydays,ifhe’donlybeenfrankwithme。” “Ohno,youcouldn’t。”saidhermother,withcosysecurity。“Whenitcomestoit,youdon’tlikegivingupanymorethanotherpeople。It’sveryhardforyoutogiveup;heseesthat——heknowsit,andhedoesn’treallyliketoaskanysortofsacrificefromyou。He’safraidofyou。” “Don’tIknowthat?”demandedAlicedesolately:“I’veknownitfromthefirst,andI’vefeltitallthetime。It’sallamistake,andhasbeen。 Wenevercouldunderstandeachother。We’retoodifferent。” “Thatneedn’tpreventyouunderstandinghim。Itneedn’tpreventyoufromseeinghowreallykindandgoodheis——howfaithfulandconstantheis。” “Oh,yousaythat——youpraisehim——becauseyoulikehim。” “OfcourseIdo。Andcan’tyou?” “No。Theleastgrainofdeceit——oftemporising,youcallit——spoilseverything。It’sover。”saidthegirl,rising,withasigh,fromthechairshehaddroppedinto。“We’rebestapart;wecouldonlyhavebeenwretchedandwickedtogether。” “Whatdidyousaytohim,Alice?”askedhermother,unshakenbyherrhetoric。 “Itoldhimhewasafaithlessperson。” “Thenyouwereacruelgirl。”criedMrs。Pasmer,withsuddenindignation; “andifyouwerenotmydaughterIcouldbegladhehadescapedyou。I don’tknowwhereyougotallthosesilly,romanticnotionsofyoursaboutthesethings。Youcertainlydidn’tgetthemfromme。”shecontinued,withundeniabletruth,“andIdon’tbelieveyougetthemfromyourChurch,It’sjustasMissAndersonsaid:yourChurchmakesallowanceforhumannature,butyoumakenone。” “Ishouldn’tgotoJuliaAndersonforinstructioninsuchmatters。”saidthegirl,withcoldresentment。 “Iwishyouwouldgotoherforalittlecommonsense——orsomebody。”saidMrs。Pasmer。“Doyouknowwhattalkthiswillmake?” “Idon’tcareforthetalk。ItwouldbeworsethantalktomarryamanwhomIcouldn’ttrust——whowantedtopleasemesomuchthathehadtodeceiveme,andwastoomuchafraidofmetotellmethetruth。” “Youheadstronggirl!“saidhermotherimpartially,admiringatthesametimethegirl’shaughtybeauty。 TherewasanargumentinreserveinMrs。Pasmer’smindwhichperhapsnonebutanAmericanmotherwouldhavehesitatedtourge;butitissowhollyourtraditiontotreattheimportantbusinessofmarriageasaromanticepisodethatevenshecouldnotbringherselftoinsistthatherdaughtershouldnotthrowawayachancesoadvantageousfromeveryworldlypointofview。Shecouldonlyask,“Ifyoubreakthisengagement,whatdoyouexpecttodo?” “Theengagementisbroken。Ishallgointoasisterhood。” “Youwilldonothingofthekind,withmyconsent。”saidMrs。Pasmer。 “Iwillhavenosuchnonsense。Don’tflatteryourselfthatIwill。EvenifIapprovedofsuchathing,Ishouldthinkitwickedtoletyoudoit。 You’realwaysfancyingyourselfdoingsomethingverydevoted,butI’veneverseenyoureadytogiveupyourownwill,oryourowncomforteven,intheslightestdegree。AndDanMavering,ifheweretwiceastemporisingandcircuitous“——thewordcametoherfromhertalkwithhim—— “wouldbetwicetoogoodforyou。I’mgoingtobreakfast。” XLIV。 Thedifficultyinlifeistobringexperiencetothelevelofexpectation,tomatchourrealemotionsinviewofanygreatoccasionwiththeidealemotionswhichwehavetaughtourselvesthatweoughttofeel。Thisisallthetruerwhentheoccasionistragical:wesurpriseourselvesinahelplessnesstowhichthegreatevent,death,ruin,lostlove,revealsitselfslowly,andatfirstwearstheaspectofanunbrokencontinuanceofwhathasbeen,oratmostofanotherincidentinthehabitualsequence。 DanMaveringcameoutintothebrightwintermorningknowingthathisengagementwasbroken,butfeelingitsolittlethathecouldnotbelieveit。Hefailedtorealiseit,toseizeitforafact,andhecouldnotletitremainthatdumbandformlesswretchedness,withoutproportionordimensions,whichitnowseemedtobe,weighinghislifedown。Toverifyit,tobegintooutliveit,hemustinstantlyimpartit,hemusttellit,hemustseeitwithothers’eyes。Thiswasthenecessityofhisyouthandofhissympathy,whichincludedhimselfaswellastherestoftheraceinitsactivity。Hehadtheusualenvironmentofayoungmanwhohasmoney。 Hebelongedtoclubs,andhehadalargeacquaintanceamongmenofhisownage,wholivedalifeofgreaterleisure;orweremoreabsorbedinbusiness,butwhomhemetconstantlyinsociety。Foronereasonoranother,orfornootherreasonthanthathewasDanMaveringandlikedeveryone,helikedthemall。Hethoughthimselfgreatfriendswiththem; hedinedandlunchedwiththem;andtheyknewthePasmers,andallabouthisengagement。Buthedidnotgotoanyofthemnow,withtheneedhefelttoimparthiscalamity,togetthesupportofcomeother’scredenceandopinionofit。Hewenttoafriendwhom,inthewayofhisworld,hemetveryseldom,butwhomhealwaysfound,ashesaid,justwherehehadlefthim。 Boardmannevermadeanysignofsuspectingthathewasputonandoff,accordingtoDan’snecessityordesireforcomfortorcongratulation;butitwaspartoftheirjokethatDan’scomingtohimalwaysmeantsomethingdecisiveinhisexperiences。Thereporterwasathislatebreakfast,whichhislandladyfurnishedhiminhisroom,though,asMrs。Mashsaid,shenevergavemeals,butacupofcoffeeandaneggortwo,yes。 “Well?”hesaid,withoutlookingup。 “Well,I’mdonefor!“criedDan。 “Again?”askedBoardman。 “Again!Theothertimewasnothing,Boardman——Iknewitwasn’tanything; butthis——thisisfinal。” “Goon。”saidBoardman,lookingaboutforhisindividualsalt-cellar,whichhefoundundertheedgeofhisplate;andMaveringlaidthewholecasebeforehim。Ashemadenocommentonitforawhile,Danwasobligedtoaskhimwhathethoughtofit。“Well。”hesaid,withthesmilethatshowedtheevennessofhisprettyteeth,“there’sakindofwildjusticeinit。”Headmittedthis,withtheobjectofmeetingDan’sviewsinanopinion。 “SoyouthinkI’mafaithlessmantoo,doyou?”demandedMaveringstormily。 “Notfromyourpointofview。”saidBoardman,whokeptonquietlyeatinganddrinking。 MaveringwastooamiablenottofeelBoardman’sinnocenceofoffenceinhisunperturbedbehaviour。“Therewasnofaithlessnessaboutit,andyouknowit。”hewenton,halflaughing,halfcrying,inhisexcitement,andmakingBoardmantheavenueofanappealreallyaddressedtoAlice。“Iwasreadytodowhateithersidedecided。” “Orboth。”suggestedBoardman。 “Yes,orboth。”saidDan,boldlyacceptingthesuggestion。“Itwouldn’thavecostmeapangtogiveupifI’dbeenintheplaceofeither。” “Iguessthat’swhatshecouldneverunderstand。”Boardmanmusedaloud。 “AndIcouldneverunderstandhowanyonecouldfailtoseethatthatwaswhatIintended——expected:thatitwouldallcomeoutrightofitself—— naturally。”DanwasstilladdressingAliceinthisbelatedreasoning。 “Buttobeaccusedofbadfaith——oftryingtodeceiveanyone——“ “Prettyrough。”saidBoardman。 “Rough?It’smorethanIcanstand!“ “Well,youdon’tseemtobeaskedtostandit。”saidBoardman,andMaveringlaughedforlornlywithhimathisjoke,andthenwalkedawayandlookedoutofBoardman’sdormer-windowontheroofsbelow,withtheirdirty,smoke-stainedFebruarysnow。Hepulledouthishandkerchief,andwipedhisfacewithit。Whenheturnedround,Boardmanlookedkeenlyathim,andasked,withanairofcaution,“Andsoit’sallup?” “Yes,it’sallup。”saidDanhoarsely。 “Nodangerofarelapse?” “Whatdoyoumean?” “NodangerofhavingmysympathyhandedoverlatertoMissPasmerforexamination?” “Iguessyoucanspeakupfreely,Boardman。”saidDan,“ifthat’swhatyoumean。MissPasmerandIarequits。” “Well,then,I’mgladofit。Shewasn’ttheoneforyou。Sheisn’tfitforyou。” What’sthereasonsheisn’t?”criedDan。“She’sthemostbeautifulandnoblegirlintheworld,andthemostconscientious,andthebest——ifsheisunjusttome。” “Nodoubtofthat。I’mnotattackingher,andI’mnotdefendingyou。” “Whatareyoudoingthen?”“ “SimplysayingthatIdon’tbelieveyoutwowouldeverunderstandeachother。Youhaven’tgotthesamepointofview,andyoucouldn’tmakeitgo。Bothoutofascrape。” “Idon’tknowwhatyoumeanbyascrape。”saidDan,resentingthewordmorethantheidea。Boardmantacitlyrefusedtomodifyorwithdrawit,andDansaid,afterasulkysilence,inwhichhebegantodramatiseameetingwithhisfamily:“I’mgoinghome;Ican’tstandithere。What’sthereasonyoucan’tcomewithme,Boardman?” “Doyoumeantoyourrooms?” “No;totheFalls。” “Thanks。Guessnot。” “Whynot?” “Don’tcareaboutbeingafifthwheel。” “Oh,pshaw,now,Boardman!Lookhere,youmustgo。Iwantyoutogo。 I——Iwantyoursupport。That’sit。I’mallbrokenup,andIcouldn’tstandthatthreehours’pullalone。They’llbegladtoseeyou——allofthem。Don’tyousupposethey’llbegladtoseeyou?They’realwaysglad; andthey’llunderstand。” “Idon’tbelieveyouwantmetogoyourself。Youjustthinkyoudo。” “No。Ireallydowantyou,Boardman。Iwanttotalkitoverwithyou。I dowantyou。I’mnotfooling。” “Don’tthinkIcouldgetaway。”YetheseemedtobepleasedwiththenotionoftheFalls;itmadehimsmile。 “Well,see。”saidMaveringdisconsolately。“I’mgoingroundtomyroomsnow,andI’llbetheretilltwoo’clock;train’sat2。30。”Hewenttowardsthedoor,wherehefacedabout。“Andyoudon’tthinkitwouldbeofanyuse?” “Anyuse——what?” “Tryingto——to——tomakeitup。” “HowshouldIknow?” “No,no;ofcourseyoucouldn’t。”saidDan,miserablydowncast。AlltheresentmentwhichAlice’sinjusticehadrousedinhimhaddiedout;hewassufferingashelplesslyandhopelesslyasachild。“Well。”hesighed,asheswungoutofthedoor。 Boardmanfoundhimseatedathiswriting-deskinhissmoking-jacketwhenhecametohim,ratherearly,andonthedeskwerelaidoutthepropertiesofthelittleplaywhichhadcometoatragicclose。Thereweresomesmallbitsofjewellery,amongtherestaringofherswhichAlicehadbeenlettinghimwear;alockofherhairwhichhehadkept,forthegreaterconvenienceofkissing,intheoriginalparcel,tiedwithcrimsonribbon;asuccessionofflowerswhichshehadworn,moreandmoredryandbrownwithage;oneofhergloves,whichhehadfoundandkeptfromthedaytheyfirstmetinCambridge;abunchofwitheredbluebellstiedwithsweet-grass,whoseodourfilledtheroom,fromthepicnicatCampobello; scrapsofpaperwithherwritingonthem,andcards;severalphotographsofher,andpilesofnotesandletters。 “Lookhere。”saidDan,knowingitwasBoardmanwithoutturninground,“whatamItodoaboutthesethings?” Boardmanrespectfullyexaminedthemoverhisshoulder。“Don’tknowwhattheusualceremonyis。”hesaid,heventuredtoadd,referringtotheheapsofletters,“Seemstohavebeenratherepistolary,doesn’tshe?” “Oh,don’ttalkofherasifsheweredead!“criedDan。“I’vebeenfeelingasifshewere。”Allatoncehedroppedhisheadamongthesewitnessesofhisloss,andsobbed。 Boardmanappearedshocked,andyetsomewhatamused;hemadeasoftlowsibilationbetweenhisteeth。 Danliftedhishead。“Boardman,ifyouevergivemeaway!“ “Oh,Idon’tsupposeit’sveryhilarious。”saidBoardman,withvaguekindness。“Packedyet?”heasked,gettingawayfromthesubjectassomethinghedidnotfeelhimselffittedtodealwithconsecutively。 “I’monlygoingtotakeabag。”saidMavering,goingtogetsomeclothesdownfromaclosetwherehiswordshadasepulchralreverberation。 “Can’tIhelp?”askedBoardman,keepingawayfromthesadmemorialsofDan’slovestrewnaboutonthedesk,andyetnotabletokeephiseyesoffthemacrosstheroom。 “Well,Idon’tknow。”saidDan。Hecameoutwithhisarmfulofcoatsandtrousers,andthrewthemonthebed。“Areyougoing?” “IfIcouldbelieveyouwantedmeto。” “Good!“criedMavering,andthefactseemedtobrightenhimimmediately。 “Ifyouwantto,stuffthesethingsin,whileI’mdoinguptheseotherthings。”Henoddedhisheadside-wisetowardthedesk。 “Allright。”saidBoardman。 HisburstofgriefmusthaverelievedDangreatly。Hesetaboutgatheringuptherelicsonthedesk,andgettingasuitablepieceofpapertowrapthemin。Herejectedseveralpiecesasinappropriate。 “Idon’tknowwhatkindofpapertodothesethingsupin。”hesaidatlast。 “Anyspecialkindofpaperrequired?”Boardmanasked,pausingintheactoffoldingapairofpantaloonssoasnottobreakthefallovertheboot。 “Ididn’tknowtherewas,butthereseemstobe。”saidDan。 “Silverpaperseemstoberathermoreforcakeandthatsortofthing。” suggestedBoardman。“Kindofmourningtoo,isn’tit——silver?” “Idon’tknow。”saidDan。“ButIhaven’tgotanysilverpaper。” “Newspaperwouldn’tdo?” “Well,hardly,Boardman。”saidDan,withsarcasm。 “Well。”saidBoardman,“Ishouldhavesupposedthatnothingcouldbesimplerthantosendbackalotoflove-letters;butthequestionofpaperseemsinsuperable。Manilapaperwouldn’tdoeither。Andthencomesstring。Whatkindofstringareyougoingtotieitupwith?” “Well,wewon’tstartthatquestiontillwegettoit。”answeredDan,lookingabout。“IfIcouldfindsomekindofabox——“ “Haven’tyougotacollarbox?Betheverything!“Boardmanhadgonebacktothecoatsandtrousers,abandoningDantothesubtlerdifficultiesinwhichhewasinvolved。 “They’veallgotlabels。”saidMavering,gettingdownonemarked“TheTennyson“andanotherlettered“TheClarion。”andlookingatthemwithcoldrejection。 “Don’tseehowyou’regoingtosendthesethingsbackatall,then。Havetokeepthem,Iguess。”Boardmanfinishedhistask,andcamebacktoDan。 “IguessI’vegotitnow。”saidMavering,liftingthelidofhisdesk,andtakingoutalargestiffenvelope,inwhichasetofphotographicviewshadcome。 “Seemstohavebeenmadeforit。”Boardmanexulted,watchingtheenvelope,asitfilledup,expandintoakindofshapelypacket。Danputthethingssilentlyin,andsealedtheparcelwithhisring。Thenheturneditovertoaddressit,butthewritingofAlice’snameforthispurposeseemedtoomuchforhim,inspiteofBoardman’shumoroussupportthroughout。 “Oh,Ican’tdoit。”hesaid,fallingbackinhischair。 “Letme。”saidhisfriend,cheerfullyignoringhisdespair。Hephilosophisedthewholetransaction,asheaddressedthepackage,rangforamessenger,andsentitaway,tellinghimtocallacabfortenminutespasttwo。 “Mightygoodthinginlifethatwemovebysteps。Nowonthestage,orinanovel,you’dhavegotthosethingstogetherandaddressed’em,anddespatched’em,injusttherightkindofpaper,withjusttherightkindofstringroundit,atadash;andthenyou’dhavehadtimetogoupandleanyourheadagainstsomethingandsoliloquise,orelsethinkunutterablethings。ButhereyouseehowamercifulProvidenceblocksyourwayallalong。You’vehadtofightthroughallsortofsordidlittledetailstothegrandtragicresultofgettingoffMissPasmer’sletters,andwhenyoureachityoudon’tminditabit。” “Don’tI?”demandedDan,inashollowavoiceashecould。“You’djokeatafuneral,Boardman。” “I’veseensomeprettycheerfulfunerals。”saidBoardman。“Andit’sthisprincipleofsteps,ofdegrees,ofhavingtodothislittlething,andthatlittlething,thatkeepsfuneralsfromkillingthesurvivors。I supposethisisworsethanafuneral——lookatitintherightlight。Youmournasonewithouthope,don’tyou?Livethroughittoo,Isuppose。” HemadeDanhelpgettherestofhisthingsintohisbag,andwithonelittleartificeandanotherpreventedhimfromstagnatingindespair。HedissentedfromtheideaofwaitingoveranotherdaytoseeifAlicewouldnotrelentwhenshegotherlettersback,andsendforDantocomeandseeher。 “Relentagooddealmorewhenshefindsyou’vegoneoutoftown,ifshesendsforyou。”heargued;andhegotDanintothecabandofftothestation,carefullymakinghimanactivepartnerinthewholeundertaking,eventocheckinghisownbag。 BeforeheboughthisownticketheappealedoncemoretoDan。 “Lookhere!Ifeellikeafoolgoingoffwithyouonthisexpedition。Behonestforonce,now,Mavering,andtellmeyou’vethoughtbetterofit,anddon’twantmetogo!“ “Yes——yes,Ido。Ohyes,you’vegottogo。IIdowantyou。I——youmakemeseethingsinjusttherightlight,don’tyouknow。Thatideaofyoursaboutlittlesteps——it’sbracedmeallup。Yes——“ “You’resuchaninfernalhumbug。”saidBoardman,“Ican’ttellwhetheryouwantmeornot。ButI’minforitnow,andI’llgo。”Thenheboughthisticket。 XLV。 BoardmanputhimselfinchargeofMavering,andtookhimintothesmokingcar。Itwasimpossibletoindulgeapoeticgloomtherewithoutbecomingunpleasantlyconspicuousinthesmokingandeuchreandprofanity。Someofthemenweresilentanddull,butnoonewasapparentlyveryunhappy,andperhapsifDanhaddealtinabsolutesinceritywithhimself,evenhewouldnothavefoundhimselfwhollyso。HedidnotfeelashehadfeltwhenAlicerejectedhim。Thenhewaswoundedtothequickthroughhisvanity,andnow;inspiteofall,inspiteoftheinvoluntarytenderswayingofhishearttowardherthroughthemereforceofhabit,inspiteofsomeremotecompunctionsforhiswantofcandourwithher,hewassupportedbyasenseofherinjustice,herhardness。Relatedwiththiswasanobscuresenseofescape,ofliberation,which,howeverhemightsilenceanddisownit,wasstillthere。Hecouldnothelpbeingawarethathehadlongrelinquishedtastescustoms,purposes,ideals,togainapeacethatseemedmoreandmorefleetinganduncertain,andthathehadsubmittedtootherswhich,nowthatthemomentofgivingpleasurebyhissubmissionwaspast,herecognisedasdisagreeable。Hefeltasortofguiltinhisenlargement;heknew,byallthathehad,everheardorreadofpeopleinhisposition,thatheoughttobealtogethermiserable;andyetthisconsciousnessofreliefpersisted。Hetoldhimselfthataverytragicalthinghadbefallenhim;thatthisbrokenengagementwastheruinofhislifeandtheendofhisyouth,andthathemustliveonanoldandjoylessman,wisewiththeknowledgethatcomestodecrepitudeanddespair;heimaginedacertainlookforhimself,agait,aname,thatwouldexpressthis;butallthesamehewasawareofhavinggotoutofsomething。Wasitabondage,ascrape,asBoardmancalledit?Hethoughthemustbeaverylight,shallow,andfrivolousnaturenottobeutterlybrokenupbyhisdisaster。 “Idon’tknowwhatI’mgoinghomefor。”hesaidhoarselytoBoardman。 “Kindofarest,Isuppose。”suggestedhisfriend。 “Yes,Iguessthat’sit。”saidDan。“I’mtired。” Itseemedtohimthatthiswasratherfine;itwasafatigueofthesoulthathewastorestfrom。Herememberedtheapostrophiccloseofanovelinwhichtheheroinediesaftermuchemotionalsuffering。“Quiet,quietheart!“herepeatedtohimself。Yes,hetoohaddiedtohope,tolove,tohappiness。 Astheydrewneartheirjourney’sendhesaid,“Idon’tknowhowI’mgoingtobreakittothem。” “Oh,probablybreakitself。”saidBoardman。“Thesethingsusuallydo。” “Yes,ofcourse。”Danassented。 “Knowfromyourlooksthatsomething’sup。Oryoumightletmegoaheadalittleandpreparethem。” Danlaughed。“Itwasawfullygoodofyoutocome,Boardman。Idon’tknowwhatIshouldhavedonewithoutyou。” “NothingIlikemorethantheselittletrips。Brightensyouuptoserethemiseryofothers;makesyoufeelthatyou’reonpeculiarlygoodtermswithProvidence。Haven’tenjoyedmyselfsomuchsincethatdayinPortland。”Boardman’seyestwinkled。 “Yes。”saidDan,withadeepsigh,“it’sapityithadn’tendedthere。” “Oh,Idon’tknow。Youwon’thavetogothroughwithitagain。Somethingthathadtocome,wasn’tit?Neverbeensatisfiedifyouhadn’ttriedit。 Kindofachingvoidbefore,andnowyou’vegotenough。” “Yes,I’vegotenough。”saidDan,“ifthat’sall。” WhentheygotoutofthetrainatPonkwassetFalls,andtheconductorandthebrakeman,whoknewDanashisfather’sson,andtreatedhimwiththedistinctionduearepresentativeofaninterestvaluedbytheroad,hadbiddenhimarespectfullyintimategood-night,andhebegantoclimbthehilltohisfather’shouse,herecurredtothedifficultybeforehiminbreakingthenewstohisfamily。“IwishIcouldhaveitoverinaflash。 IwishI’dthoughttotelegraphittothem。” “Wouldn’thavedone。”saidBoardman。“Itwouldhavegiven’emtimetoformulatequestionsandconjectures,andnowtheastonishmentwilltaketheirbreathawaytillyoucangetyoursecondwind,andthen——you’llbeallright。” “Youthinkso?”askedDansubmissively。 “Knowso。Yousee,ifyoucouldhavehaditoverinaflash,itwouldhaveknockedyouflat。Butnowyou’vetakenallthelittlesteps,andyou’vegotalotmoretotake,andyou’reallbracedup。See?You’relikerock,now——adamant。”DanlaughedinforlornperceptionofBoardman’saffectionateirony。“Littlestepsarethething。You’llhavetogoinnowandmeetyourfamily,andpassthetimeofdaywitheachone,andtalkabouttheweather,andaccountformybeingalong,andaskhowtheyallare;andbythetimeyou’vehaddinner,andgotsettledwithyourlegsoutinfrontofthefire,you’llbejustinthemoodforit。Enjoytellingthemallaboutit。” “Don’t,Boardman。”pleadedDan。“Boardy,IbelieveifIcouldgetinanduptomyroomwithoutanybody’sseeingme,I’dletyoutellthem。Theredon’tseemtobeanybodyabout,andIthinkwecouldmanageit。” “Itwouldn’twork。”saidBoardman。“Gottodoityourself。” “Well,then,waitaminute。”saidDandesperately;andBoardmanknewthathewastostayoutsidewhileDanreconnoitredtheinterior。Danopenedonedoorafteranothertillhestoodwithinthehotbrilliantlylightedhall。EuniceMaveringwascomingdownthestairs,hoodedandwrappedforawalkonthelongverandahsbeforesupper。 “Dan!“shecried。 “It’sallup,Eunice。”hesaidatonce,asifshehadaskedhimaboutit。 “Myengagement’soff。” “Oh,I’msoglad!“Shedescendeduponhimwithoutstretchedarms,butstoppedherselfbeforeshereachedhim。“It’sahoax。Whatdoyoumean? Doyoureallymeanit,Dan?” “IguessImeanit。Butdon’t——Holdon!Where’sMinnie?” Euniceturned,andranbackupstairs。“Minnie!Min!“shecalledonherway。“Dan’sengagement’soff。” “Idon’tbelieveit!“answeredMinnie’svoicejoyously,fromwithinsomeroom。Itwasfollowedbyherpresence,withsuccessiveinquiries。“Howdoyouknow?”Didyougetaletter?Whendidithappen?Oh,isn’tittoogood?” Minniewasalsodressedfortheverandahpromenade,whichtheyalwaystookwhenthesnowwastoodeep。Shecaughtsightofherbrotherasshecamedown。“Why,Dan’shere!Dan,I’vebeenthinkingaboutyouallday。”Shekissedhim,whichEunicewasnowremindedtodotoo。 “Yes,it’strue,Minnie。”saidDangravely。“Icameuptotellyou。Itdon’tseemtodistressyoumuch。” “Dan!“saidhissisterreproachfully。“YouknowIdidn’tmeantosayanythingIonlyfeltsogladtohaveyoubackagain。” “Iunderstand,Minnie——Idon’tdameyou。It’sallright。How’smother?” Fatherupfromtheworksyet?I’mgoingtomyroom。” “Indeedyou’renot!“criedEunice,witheldersisterlyauthority。“Youshalltellusaboutitfirst。” “Ohno!Lethimgo,Eunice!“pleadedMinnie,“PoorDan!AndIdon’tthinkweoughttogotowalkwhen——“ Dan’seyesdimmed,andhisvoiceweakenedalittleathersympathy。“Yes,go。I’mtired——that’sall。Thereisn’tanythingtotellyou,hardly。 MissPasmer——“ “Why,he’spale!“criedMinnie。“Eunice!“ “Oh,it’sjusttheheatinhere。”Danreallyfeltalittlesickandfaintwithit,buthewasnotsorrytoseemaffectedbytheday’sstrainuponhisnerves。 Thegirlsbegantotakeofftheirwraps。“Don’t。I’llgowithyou。 Boardman’soutthere。” “Boardman!Whatnonsense!“exclaimedEunice。 “He’llliketohearyouropinionofit。”Danbegan;buthissisterpulledthedoorsopen,andranouttoseeifhereallymeantthattoo。 WhetherBoardmanhadheardher,orhaddiscreetlywithdrawnoutofearshotatthefirstsoundofvoices,shecouldnottell,butshefoundhimsomedistanceawayfromthesnow-boxonthepiazza。“Dan’sjustmanagedtotellusyouwerehere。”shesaid,givinghimherhand。“I’mgladtoseeyou。Docomein。” “ComealongasasortofJob’scomforter。”Boardmanexplained,ashefollowedherin;andhehadthesillylookthatthemanwhofeelshimselfsuperfluousmustwear。 “Thenyouknowaboutit?”saidEunice,whileMinnieMaveringandhewereshakinghands。 “Yes,Boardmanknows;hecantellyouaboutit。”saidDan,fromthehallchairhehaddroppedinto。Heroseandmadehiswaytothestairs,withtheeffectofleavingthewholethingtothem。 Hissistersranafterhim,andgothimupstairsandintohisroom,withBoardman’ssemi-satiricalconnivance,andEuniceputupthewindow,whileMinniewenttogetsomecolognetowethisforehead。Theireffortsweresosuccessfulthatherevivedsufficientlytodrivethemoutofhisroom,andmakethemgoandshowBoardmantohis。 “Youknowtheway,Mr。Boardman。”saidEunice,goingbeforehim,whileMinniefollowedtimorously,butcuriousforwhatheshouldsay。Shelingeredonthethreshold,whilehersisterwentinandpulledtheelectricapparatuswhichlightedthegas-burners。“IsupposeDandidn’tbreakit?”shesaid,turningsharplyuponhim。 “No;andIdon’tthinkhewastoblame。”saidBoardman,inferringherreservedanxiety。 “Oh,I’mquitesureofthat。”saidEunice,rejectingwhatshehadaskedfor。“You’llfindeverything,Mr。Boardman。ItwaskindofyoutocomewithDan。Supper’satseven。” “Howsevereyouwerewithhim!“murmuredMinnie,followingheraway。 “SeverewithDan?” “No——withMr。Boardman。” “Whatnonsense!Ihadtobe。Icouldn’tlethimdefendDantome。 Coupleofsillyboys!“ AfteramomentMinniesaid,“Idon’tthinkhe’ssilly。” “Who?” “Mr。Boardman。” “Well,Danis,then,tobringhimatsuchatime。ButIsupposehefeltthathecouldn’tgetherewithouthim。Whataboy!Thinkofsuchachildbeingengaged!Ihopeweshan’thearanymoreofsuchnonsenseforonewhileagain——atleasttillDan’sgothisgrowth。” Theywentdownintothelibrary,where,intheirexcitement,theysatdownwithmostoftheiroutdoorthingson。 Minniehadthesoftcontrary-mindednessofgentlenatures。“IshouldliketoknowhowyouwouldhavehadDanbearit。”shesaidrebelliously。 “How?Likeaman。Orlikeawoman。HowdoyousupposeMissPasmer’sbearingit?Doyousupposeshe’sgotsomefriendtohelpher?” “Ifshe’sbrokenit,shedoesn’tneedanyone。”urgedMinnie。 “Well。”saidEunice,withherhighscornofDanunabated,“Inevercouldhavelikedthatgirl,butIcertainlybegintorespecther。IthinkI couldhavegotonwithher——nowthatit’snouse。Ideclare。”shebrokeoff,“we’resittinghereswelteringtodeath!Whatarewekeepingourthingsonfor?”Shebegantotearhersviolentlyoffandtoflingthemonchairs,scolding,andlaughingatthesametimewithMinnie,attheirabsent-mindedness。 Aheavystepsoundedontheverandahwithout。 “There’sfather!“shecriedvividly,jumpingtoherfeetandrunningtothedoor,whileMinnie,inanervousbewilderment,ranoffupstairstoherroom。Euniceflungthedooropen。“Well,father,we’vegotDanbackagain。”Andatalookofquietquestioninhiseyeshehurriedon:“Hisengagement’sbroken,andhe’scomeupheretotellus,andbroughtMr。 Boardmanalongtohelp。” “Whereishe?”askedthefather,withhisruminantquiet,pullingofffirstonesleeveofhisovercoat,andpausingforEunice’sanswerbeforehepulledofftheother。 XLVI。 “He’supinhisroom,restingfromtheeffort。”Shelaughednervously,andherfathermadenocomment。Hetookoffhisarticles,andthenwentcreakingupstairstoDan’sroom。Butatthedoorhepaused,withhishandontheknob,andturnedawaytohisownroomwithoutentering。 Danmusthaveheardhim;inafewminuteshecametohim。 “Well,Dan。”saidhisfather,shakinghands。 “IsupposeEunicehastoldyou?”Well,Iwanttotellyouwhyithappened。” TherewassomethinginhisfatherthatalwayssteadiedDanandkepthimtothepoint。Henowputthewholecasefairlyandsquarely,andhiscandourandopennessseemedtohimtoreactandcharacterisehisconductthroughout。Hedidnotrealisethatthiswasnotsotillhisfathersaidattheclose,withmildjustice,“Youweretoblameforlettingthethingrunonsoatlooseends。” “Yes,ofcourse。”saidDan,seeingthathewas。“Buttherewasnointentionofdeceivinganyoneofbadfaith——“ “Ofcoursenot。” “Ithoughtitcouldbeeasilyarrangedwheneveritcametothepoint。” “Ifyou’dbeenolder,youwouldn’thavethoughtthat。Youhadwomentodealwithonbothsides。Butifit’sallover,I’mnotsorry。IalwaysadmiredMissPasmer,butI’vebeenmoreandmoreafraidyouwerenotsuitedtoeachother。Yourmotherdoesn’tknowyou’rehere?” “No,sir,Isupposenot。Doyouthinkitwilldistressher?” “Howdidyoursisterstakeit?” Dangavearuefullaugh。“Itseemedtoberatherapopularmovewiththem。” “Iwillseeyourmotherfirst。”saidthefather。 Heleftthemwhentheywentintothelibraryaftersupper,andalittlelaterDanandEuniceleftBoardmaninchargeofMinniethere。 Helookedaftertheirunannouncedwithdrawalincomicconsciousness。 “It’snousepretendingthatI’mnotaprettylargepluralityhere。”hesaidtoMinnie。 “Oh,I’msogladyoucame!“shecried,withakindnesswhichwasasrealasifithadbeenmoresincere。 “Doyouthinkmotherwillfeelitmuch?”askedDananxiously,ashewentupstairswithEunice。 “Well,she’llhatetoloseacorrespondent——sucharegularone。”saidEunice,andtheaffairbeingsofarbeyondanyothercomment,shelaughedtherestofthewaytotheirmother’sroom。 Thewholefamilyhadinsomedegreethatfoiblewhichaffectspeoplewholeadisolatedlives;theycometothinkthattheyaretheonlypeoplewhohavetheirvirtues;theyexaggeratethese,andtheyconceiveakindnessevenforthequalitieswhicharenottheirvirtues。Mrs。Mavering’slifewassecludedagainfromthefamilyseclusion,andtheirpeculiaritieswereintensifiedinher。Besides,shehadsomeverymarkedpeculiaritiesofherown,andthesewerealsointensifiedbythesolitudetowhichshewasnecessarilyleftsomuch。Shemeditatedagreatdealuponthecharacterofherchildren,andshelikedtoanalyseandcensureitbothinherownmindandopenlyintheirpresence。Shewasverytrenchantanddefiniteintheseestimatesofthem;shelikedtoticketthem,andthenticketthemanew。Sheexploredtheirancestralhistoryonbothsidesfortheoriginoftheirtraits,andthereweretimeswhenshereducedtheminformulatomerecongeriesofinheritedcharacteristics。IfEunicewasself-willedanddespotic,shewasjustlikehergrandmotherMavering;ifMinniewasallsentimentandgentlestubbornness,itwasbecausetwoauntsofhers,oneoneitherside,wereexactlyso;ifDanlovedpleasureandbeauty,andwassinuousanduncertaininsomanyways,andyetwassokindandfaithfulandgood,aswellasshilly-shallyingandundecided,itwasbecausehermother,andhermother’sfather,hadthesequalitiesinthesamecombination。 Whenshetookherchildrentopiecesbeforetheirfaces,shewassharpandadmonitoryenoughwiththem。Shewarnedthemtowhattheircharacterswouldbringthemtoiftheydidnotlookout;butperhapsbecauseshebeheldthemsohopelesslythepresenteffectoftheaccumulatedtendenciesofthefamilypast,shewastenderandforgivingtotheiractions。Themothercameinthere,andsupersededthestudentofheredity:shefoundexcuseforthemintheperversityofcircumstance,inthepeculiarhardshipofthecase,inthemalignantmisbehaviourofothers。 AsDanentered,withtheprecedencehisfatherandsisteryieldedhimastheprincipalactorinthescenewhichmustfollow,sheliftedherselfvigorouslyinbed,andproppedherselfontheelbowofonearmwhileshestretchedtheothertowardshim。 “I’mgladofit,Dan!“shecalled,atthemomentheopenedthedoor,andashecametowardhershecontinued,withtheamazingvelocityofutterancepeculiartonervoussufferersofhersex:“Iknowallaboutit,andIdon’tblameyouabit!AndIdon’tblameher!Poorhelplessyoungthings!Butit’saperfectmercyit’sallover;it’sthegreatestdeliveranceIeverheardof!You’dhavebeeneatenupalive。Isawit,andIknewitfromtheveryfirstmoment,andI’velivedinfearandtremblingforyou。Youcouldhavegotonwellenoughifyou’dbeenlefttoyourselves,butthatyoucouldn’thavebeennorhopetobeaslongasyoubreathed,fromthemeddlingandthemachinationsandthemaliceofthatunscrupulousandunconscionableoldCat!“ BythetimeMrs。Maveringhadhissedoutthelastwordshehadherarmroundherboy’sneckandwasclutchinghim,safeandsoundafterhisperil,toherbreast;andbetweenherkissingandcryingsherepeatedheraccusalsanddenunciationswithviolentvolubility。 Dancouldnothaverepliedtotheminthateffusionofgratitudeandtendernesshefeltforhismother’spartisanship;andwhenshewentoninalmosttheverytermsofhisself-defence,andtoldhimthathehaddoneashehadbecauseitwaseasyforhimtoyield,andhecouldnotimagineaCatwhowouldputherdaughteruptoentrappinghimintoapromisethatsheknewmustbreakhismother’sheart,hefoundhersorightonthemainpointthathecouldnothelpsomequestionofMrs。Pasmerinhissoul。 Couldshereallyhavebeenatthebottomofitall?Shewasverysly,andshemightbeveryfalse,anditwascertainlyshewhohadfirstproposedtheirgoingabroadtogether。Itlookedasifitmightbeashismothersaid,andatanyrateitwasnotimetodisputeher,andhedidnotsayawordinbehalfofMrs。Pasmer,whomshecontinuedtorendinathousandpiecesandscattertothewindstillshehadtostopbreathless。 “Yes!it’squiteasIexpected!Shedideverythingshecouldtotrapyouintoit。Shefairlyflungthatpoorgirlatyou。Shelaidherplanssothatyoucouldn’tsayno——sheunderstoodyourcharacterfromthestart!—— andthen,whenitcameoutbyaccident,andshesawthatshehadolderheadstodealwith,andyouwerenotgoingtobequiteathermercy,shedroppedthemaskinaninstant,andmadeAlicebreakwithyou。Oh,I couldseethroughherfromthebeginning!Andthenexttime,Dan,I adviseyou,asyouneversuspectanybodyyourself,toconsultwithsomebodywhodoesn’ttakepeopleforwhattheyseem,andnottoletyourselfbeflatteredoutofyoursensor,evenifyouseeyourfatheris。” Mrs。Maveringdroppedbackonherpillow,andherhusbandsmiledpatientlyattheirdaughter。 Dansawhispatientsmileandunderstoodit;andtheinjusticewhichhisfatherboremadehimfinallyunwillingtoletanotherremainunderit。 Hardasitwastoopposehismotherinanythingwhenshewaspraisinghimsosweetlyandcomfortinghiminthemomentofhisneed,hepulledhimselftogethertoprotest:“No,no,mother!Idon’tthinkMrs。Pasmerwastoblame;Idon’tbelieveshehadanythingtodowithit。She’salwaysstoodmyfriend——“ “Oh,I’venodoubtshe’smadeyouthinkso,Dan。”saidhismother,withunabatedfondnessforhim;“andyouthinksobecauseyou’resosimpleandgood,andneversuspectevilofanyone。It’sthishideousoptimismthat’skillingeverything——’ Acertainnoteintheinvalid’sfallingvoiceseemedtowarnherhearersofanimpendingchangethatcoulddonoonegood。Eunicerosehastilyandinterrupted:“Mother,Mr。Boardman’shere。HecameupwithDan。MayMinniecomeinwithhim?” Mrs。MaveringshotaglanceofinquiryatDan,andthenletaswiftinspectionrangeoverallthedetailsoftheroom,andfinallyconcentrateitselfonthesilkandlaceofherbed,overwhichshepassedasmoothinghand。“Mr。Boardman?”shecried,withinstantlyrecoveredamiability。“Ofcourseshemay!“