第24章

类别:其他 作者:William James字数:5721更新时间:18/12/21 17:13:49
Tolstoy’scasewasagoodcommentonthosewords。Therewasalmostnotheologyinhisconversion。Hisfaith-statewasthesensecomebackthatlifewasinfiniteinitsmoralsignificance。 AmericanJournalofPsychology,vii。345-347,abridged。 Thecharacteristicsoftheaffectiveexperiencewhich,toavoidambiguity,should,Ithink,becalledthestateofassuranceratherthanthefaith-state,canbeeasilyenumerated,thoughitisprobablydifficulttorealizetheirintensity,unlessonehasbeenthroughtheexperienceone’sself。 Thecentraloneisthelossofalltheworry,thesensethatallisultimatelywellwithone,thepeace,theharmony,theWILLINGNESSTOBE,eventhoughtheouterconditionsshouldremainthesame。ThecertaintyofGod’s“grace。”of“justification。” “salvation。”isanobjectivebeliefthatusuallyaccompaniesthechangeinChristians;butthismaybeentirelylackingandyettheaffectivepeaceremainthesame——youwillrecollectthecaseoftheOxfordgraduate:andmanymightbegivenwheretheassuranceofpersonalsalvation<243>wasonlyalaterresult。 Apassionofwillingness,ofacquiescence,ofadmiration,istheglowingcentreofthisstateofmind。 Thesecondfeatureisthesenseofperceivingtruthsnotknownbefore。Themysteriesoflifebecomelucid,asProfessorLeubasays;andoften,nayusually,thesolutionismoreorlessunutterableinwords。Butthesemoreintellectualphenomenamaybepostponeduntilwetreatofmysticism。 Athirdpeculiarityoftheassurancestateistheobjectivechangewhichtheworldoftenappearstoundergo。“Anappearanceofnewnessbeautifieseveryobject。”thepreciseoppositeofthatothersortofnewness,thatdreadfulunrealityandstrangenessintheappearanceoftheworld,whichisexperiencedbymelancholypatients,andofwhichyoumayrecallmyrelatingsomeexamples。[135]Thissenseofcleanandbeautifulnewnesswithinandwithoutisoneofthecommonestentriesinconversionrecords。JonathanEdwardsthusdescribesitinhimself:—— [135]Above,p。150。 “Afterthismysenseofdivinethingsgraduallyincreased,andbecamemoreandmorelively,andhadmoreofthatinwardsweetness。Theappearanceofeverythingwasaltered;thereseemedtobe,asitwere,acalm,sweetcast,orappearanceofdivineglory,inalmosteverything。God’sexcellency,hiswisdom,hispurityandlove,seemedtoappearineverything;inthesun,moon,andstars;inthecloudsandbluesky;inthegrass,flowers,andtrees;inthewaterandallnature;whichusedgreatlytofixmymind。Andscarceanything,amongalltheworksofnature,wassosweettomeasthunderandlightning; formerlynothinghadbeensoterribletome。Before,Iusedtobeuncommonlyterrifiedwiththunder,andtobestruckwithterrorwhenIsawathunderstormrising;butnow,onthecontrary,itrejoicesme。”[136] [136]Dwight:LifeofEdwards,NewYork,1830,p。61,abridged。 <244>BillyBray,anexcellentlittleilliterateEnglishevangelist,recordshissenseofnewnessthus:—— “IsaidtotheLord:’Thouhastsaid,theythataskshallreceive,theythatseekshallfind,andtothemthatknockthedoorshallbeopened,andIhavefaithtobelieveit。’InaninstanttheLordmademesohappythatIcannotexpresswhatI felt。Ishoutedforjoy。IpraisedGodwithmywholeheart……IthinkthiswasinNovember,1823,butwhatdayofthemonthIdonotknow。Irememberthis,thateverythinglookednewtome,thepeople,thefields,thecattle,thetrees。Iwaslikeanewmaninanewworld。IspentthegreaterpartofmytimeinpraisingtheLord。”[137] [137]W。F。Bourne:TheKing’sSon,aMemoirofBillyBray,London,Hamilton,Adams&Co。,1887,p。9。 StarbuckandLeubabothillustratethissenseofnewnessbyquotations。ItakethetwofollowingfromStarbuck’smanuscriptcollection。One,awoman,says:—— “Iwastakentoacamp-meeting,motherandreligiousfriendsseekingandprayingformyconversion。Myemotionalnaturewasstirredtoitsdepths;confessionsofdepravityandpleadingwithGodforsalvationfromsinmademeobliviousofallsurroundings。 Ipleadformercy,andhadavividrealizationofforgivenessandrenewalofmynature。WhenrisingfrommykneesIexclaimed,’Oldthingshavepassedaway,allthingshavebecomenew。’Itwaslikeenteringanotherworld,anewstateofexistence。Naturalobjectswereglorified,myspiritualvisionwassoclarifiedthatIsawbeautyineverymaterialobjectintheuniverse,thewoodswerevocalwithheavenlymusic;mysoulexultedintheloveofGod,andIwantedeverybodytoshareinmyjoy。” Thenextcaseisthatofaman:—— “IknownothowIgotbackintotheencampment,butfoundmyselfstaggeringuptoRev——’sHolinesstent——andasitwasfullofseekersandaterriblenoiseinside,somegroaning,somelaughing,andsomeshouting,andbyalargeoak,tenfeetfromthetent,Ifellonmyfacebyabench,andtriedtopray,andeverytimeIwouldcallonGod,somethinglikeaman’shandwouldstranglemebychoking。Idon’tknowwhethertherewereanyonearoundornearmeornot。IthoughtIshouldsurelydieifIdidnotgethelp,butjustasoftenasIwouldpray,thatunseenhandwasfeltonmythroatandmybreathsqueezedoff。Finallysomethingsaid:’Ventureontheatonement,foryouwilldieanywayifyoudon’t。’SoImadeonefinalstruggletocallonGodformercy,withthesamechokingandstrangling,determinedtofinishthesentenceofprayerforMercy,ifIdidstrangleanddie,andthelastIrememberthattimewasfallingbackonthegroundwiththesameunseenhandonmythroat。Idon’tknowhowlongIlaythereorwhatwasgoingon。Noneofmyfolkswerepresent。WhenIcametomyself,therewereacrowdaroundmepraisingGod。Theveryheavensseemedtoopenandpourdownraysoflightandglory。Notforamomentonly,butalldayandnight,floodsoflightandgloryseemedtopourthroughmysoul,andoh,howIwaschanged,andeverythingbecamenew。Myhorsesandhogsandeveneverybodyseemedchanged。” Thisman’scaseintroducesthefeatureofautomatisms,whichinsuggestiblesubjectshavebeensostartlingafeatureatrevivalssince,inEdwards’s,Wesley’sandWhitfield’stime,thesebecamearegularmeansofgospel-propagation。Theywereatfirstsupposedtobesemi-miraculousproofsof“power“onthepartoftheHolyGhost;butgreatdivergenceofopinionquicklyaroseconcerningthem。Edwards,inhisThoughtsontheRevivalofReligioninNewEngland,hastodefendthemagainsttheircritics;andtheirvaluehaslongbeenmatterofdebateevenwithintherevivalisticdenominations。[138]Theyundoubtedlyhavenoessentialspiritualsignificance,andalthoughtheirpresencemakeshisconversionmorememorabletotheconvert,ithasneverbeenprovedthatconvertswhoshowthemaremoreperseveringorfertileingoodfruitsthanthosewhosechangeofhearthashadlessviolentaccompaniments。Onthewhole,unconsciousness,convulsions,visions,involuntaryvocalutterances,andsuffocation,mustbesimplyascribedtothesubject’shavingalargesubliminalregion,involvingnervousinstability。Thisisoftenthesubject’sownviewofthematterafterwards。OneofStarbuck’scorrespondentswrites,forinstance:—— [138]ConsultWilliamB。Sprague:LecturesonRevivalsofReligion,NewYork,1832,inthelongAppendixtowhichtheopinionsofalargenumberofministersaregiven。 “Ihavebeenthroughtheexperiencewhichisknownasconversion。 Myexplanationofitisthis:thesubjectworkshisemotionsuptothebreakingpoint,atthesametimeresistingtheirphysicalmanifestations,suchasquickenedpulse,etc。,andthensuddenlyletsthemhavetheirfullswayoverhisbody。Thereliefissomethingwonderful,andthepleasurableeffectsoftheemotionsareexperiencedtothehighestdegree。” Thereisoneformofsensoryautomatismwhichpossiblydeservesspecialnoticeonaccountofitsfrequency。Irefertohallucinatoryorpseudo-hallucinatoryluminousphenomena,photisms,tousethetermofthepsychologists。SaintPaul’sblindingheavenlyvisionseemstohavebeenaphenomenonofthissort;sodoesConstantine’scrossinthesky。ThelastcasebutonewhichIquotedmentionsfloodsoflightandglory。HenryAllinementionsalight,aboutwhoseexternalityheseemsuncertain。ColonelGardinerseesablazinglight。PresidentFinneywrites:—— “AllatoncethegloryofGodshoneuponandroundaboutmeinamanneralmostmarvelous……Alightperfectlyineffableshoneinmysoul,thatalmostprostratedmeontheground……Thislightseemedlikethebrightnessofthesunineverydirection。 Itwastoointensefortheeyes……IthinkIknewsomethingthen,byactualexperience,ofthatlightthatprostratedPaulonthewaytoDamascus。ItwassurelyalightsuchasIcouldnothaveenduredlong。”[139] [139]Memoirs,p。34 Suchreportsofphotismsareindeedfarfromuncommon。HereisanotherfromStarbuck’scollection,wherethelightappearedevidentlyexternal:—— “Ihadattendedaseriesofrevivalservicesforabouttwoweeksoffandon。Hadbeeninvitedtothealtarseveraltimes,allthetimebecomingmoredeeplyimpressed,whenfinallyIdecidedI mustdothis,orIshouldbelost。Realizationofconversionwasveryvivid,likeaton’sweightbeingliftedfrommyheart;astrangelightwhichseemedtolightupthewholeroom(foritwasdark);aconscioussupremeblisswhichcausedmetorepeat’GlorytoGod’foralongtime。DecidedtobeGod’schildforlife,andtogiveupmypetambition,wealthandsocialposition。Myformerhabitsoflifehinderedmygrowthsomewhat,butIsetaboutovercomingthesesystematically,andinoneyearmywholenaturewaschanged,i。e。,myambitionswereofadifferentorder。” HereisanotheroneofStarbuck’scases,involvingaluminouselement:—— “Ihadbeenclearlyconvertedtwenty-threeyearsbefore,orratherreclaimed。Myexperienceinregenerationwasthenclearandspiritual,andIhadnotbackslidden。ButIexperiencedentiresanctificationonthe15thdayofMarch,1893,abouteleveno’clockinthemorning。Theparticularaccompanimentsoftheexperiencewereentirelyunexpected。IwasquietlysittingathomesingingselectionsoutofPentecostalHymns。Suddenlythereseemedtobeasomethingsweepingintomeandinflatingmyentirebeing——suchasensationasIhadneverexperiencedbefore。 Whenthisexperiencecame,Iseemedtobeconductedaroundalarge,capacious,well-lightedroom。AsIwalkedwithmyinvisibleconductorandlookedaround,aclearthoughtwascoinedinmymind,’Theyarenothere,theyaregone。’Assoonasthethoughtwasdefinitelyformedinmymind,thoughnowordwasspoken,theHolySpiritimpressedmethatIwassurveyingmyownsoul。Then,forthefirsttimeinallmylife,didIknowthatIwascleansedfromallsin,andfilledwiththefullnessofGod。” LeubaquotesthecaseofaMr。Peek,wheretheluminousaffectionremindsoneofthechromatichallucinationsproducedbytheintoxicantcactusbudscalledmescalbytheMexicans:—— “WhenIwentinthemorningintothefieldstowork,thegloryofGodappearedinallhisvisiblecreation。Iwellrememberwereapedoats,andhoweverystrawandheadoftheoatsseemed,asitwere,arrayedinakindofrainbowglory,ortoglow,ifImaysoexpressit,inthegloryofGod。”[140] [140]Thesereportsofsensorialphotismshadeoffintowhatareevidentlyonlymetaphoricalaccountsofthesenseofnewspiritualillumination,as,forinstance,inBrainerd’sstatement:“AsIwaswalkinginathickgrove,unspeakablegloryseemedtoopentotheapprehensionofmysoul。Idonotmeananyexternalbrightness,forIsawnosuchthing,noranyimaginationofabodyoflightinthethirdheavens,oranythingofthatnature,butitwasanewinwardapprehensionorviewthatIhadofGod。” InacaselikethisnextonefromStarbuck’smanuscriptcollectionthelightingupofthedarknessisprobablyalsometaphorical:—— “OneSundaynight,IresolvedthatwhenIgothometotheranchwhereIwasworking,IwouldoffermyselfwithmyfacultiesandalltoGodtobeusedonlybyandforhim……Itwasrainingandtheroadsweremuddy;butthisdesiregrewsostrongthatI kneeleddownbythesideoftheroadandtoldGodallaboutit,intendingthentogetupandgoon。Suchathingasanyspecialanswertomyprayerneverenteredmymind,havingbeenconvertedbyfaith,butstillbeingmostundoubtedlysaved。Well,whileI waspraying,IrememberholdingoutmyhandstoGodandtellinghimtheyshouldworkforhim,myfeetwalkforhim,mytonguespeakforhim,etc。,etc。,ifhewouldonlyusemeashisinstrumentandgivemeasatisfyingexperience——whensuddenlythedarknessofthenightseemedlitup——Ifelt,realized,knew,thatGodheardandansweredmyprayer。Deephappinesscameoverme;I feltIwasacceptedintotheinnercircleofGod’slovedones。” Inthefollowingcasealsotheflashoflightismetaphorical:—— “Aprayermeetinghadbeencalledforatcloseofeveningservice。Theministersupposedmeimpressedbyhisdiscourse(amistake——hewasdull)。Hecameand,placinghishanduponmyshoulder,said:’DoyounotwanttogiveyourhearttoGod?’I