第58章

类别:其他 作者:William James字数:5570更新时间:18/12/21 17:13:49
Thepsychologicalreasonsforthislienearthesurface。Whenwedropabstractionsandtakewhatwecallourwillintheact,weseethatitisaverycomplexfunction。Itinvolvesbothstimulationsandinhibitions;itfollowsgeneralizedhabits;itisescortedbyreflectivecriticisms;anditleavesagoodorabadtasteofitselfbehind,accordingtothemanneroftheperformance。Theresultisthat,quiteapartfromtheimmediatepleasurewhichanysensibleexperiencemaygiveus,ourowngeneralmoralattitudeinprocuringorundergoingtheexperiencebringswithitasecondarysatisfactionordistaste。Somemenandwomen,indeed,therearewhocanliveonsmilesandtheword“yes“forever。Butforothers(indeedformost),thisistootepidandrelaxedamoralclimate。Passivehappinessisslackandinsipid,andsoongrowsmawkishandintolerable。Someausterityandwintrynegativity,someroughness,danger,stringency,andeffort,some“no!no!”mustbemixedin,toproducethesenseofanexistencewithcharacterandtextureandpower。Therangeofindividualdifferencesinthisrespectisenormous;butwhateverthemixtureofyesesandnoesmaybe,thepersonisinfalliblyawarewhenhehasstruckitintherightproportionFORHIM。This,hefeels,ismypropervocation,thisistheOPTIMUM,thelaw,thelifeformetolive。HereIfindthedegreeofequilibrium,safety,calm,andleisurewhichI need,orhereIfindthechallenge,passion,fight,andhardshipwithoutwhichmysoul’senergyexpires。 Everyindividualsoul,inshort,likeeveryindividualmachineororganism,hasitsownbestconditionsofefficiency。Agivenmachinewillrunbestunderacertainsteam-pressure,acertainamperage;anorganismunderacertaindiet,weight,orexercise。 Youseemtodobest,Iheardadoctorsaytoapatient,atabout140millimetersofarterialtension。Anditisjustsowithoursundrysouls:somearehappiestincalmweather;someneedthesenseoftension,ofstrongvolition,tomakethemfeelaliveandwell。Fortheselattersouls,whateverisgainedfromdaytodaymustbepaidforbysacrificeandinhibition,orelseitcomestoocheapandhasnozest。 Nowwhencharactersofthislattersortbecomereligious,theyareapttoturntheedgeoftheirneedofeffortandnegativityagainsttheirnaturalself;andtheasceticlifegetsevolvedasaconsequence。 WhenProfessorTyndallinoneofhislecturestellsusthatThomasCarlyleputhimintohisbath-tubeverymorningofafreezingBerlinwinter,heproclaimedoneofthelowestgradesofasceticism。EvenwithoutCarlyle,mostofusfinditnecessarytooursoul’shealthtostartthedaywitharathercoolimmersion。Alittlefartheralongthescalewegetsuchstatementsasthis,fromoneofmycorrespondents,anagnostic:—— “OftenatnightinmywarmbedIwouldfeelashamedtodependsoonthewarmth,andwheneverthethoughtwouldcomeovermeI wouldhavetogetup,nomatterwhattimeofnightitwas,andstandforaminuteinthecold,justsoastoprovemymanhood。” Suchcasesasthesebelongsimplytoourhead1。Inthenextcaseweprobablyhaveamixtureofheads2and3——theasceticismbecomesfarmoresystematicandpronounced。ThewriterisaProtestant,whosesenseofmoralenergycoulddoubtlessbegratifiedonnolowerterms,andItakehiscasefromStarbuck’smanuscriptcollection。 “Ipracticedfastingandmortificationoftheflesh。Isecretlymadeburlapshirts,andputtheburrsnexttheskin,andworepebblesinmyshoes。Iwouldspendnightsflatonmybackonthefloorwithoutanycovering。” TheRomanChurchhasorganizedandcodifiedallthissortofthing,andgivenitamarket-valueintheshapeof“merit。” Butweseethecultivationofhardshipcroppingoutundereveryskyandineveryfaith,asaspontaneousneedofcharacter。ThuswereadofChanning,whenfirstsettledasaUnitarianminister,that—— “Hewasnowmoresimplethanever,andseemedtohavebecomeincapableofanyformofself-indulgence。Hetookthesmallestroominthehouseforhisstudy,thoughhemighteasilyhavecommandedonemorelight,airy,andineverywaymoresuitable; andchoseforhissleepingchamberanatticwhichhesharedwithayoungerbrother。Thefurnitureofthelattermighthaveansweredforthecellofananchorite,andconsistedofahardmattressonacot-bedstead,plainwoodenchairsandtable,withmattingonthefloor。Itwaswithoutfire,andtocoldhewasthroughoutlifeextremelysensitive;buthenevercomplainedorappearedinanywaytobeconsciousofinconvenience。’I recollect,’sayshisbrother,’afteronemostseverenight,thatinthemorninghesportivelythusalludedtohissuffering:“Ifmybedweremycountry,IshouldbesomewhatlikeBonaparte:I havenocontrolexceptoverthepartwhichIoccupy,theinstantImove,frosttakespossession。”’Insicknessonlywouldhechangeforthetimehisapartmentandacceptafewcomforts。Thedresstoothathehabituallyadoptedwasofmostinferiorquality;andgarmentswereconstantlywornwhichtheworldwouldcallmean,thoughanalmostfeminineneatnesspreservedhimfromtheleastappearanceofneglect。”[177] [177]MemoirsofW。E。Channing,Boston,1840,i。196。 Channing’sasceticism,suchasitwas,wasevidentlyacompoundofhardihoodandloveofpurity。Thedemocracywhichisanoffshootoftheenthusiasmofhumanity,andofwhichIwillspeaklaterundertheheadofthecultofpoverty,doubtlessborealsoashare。Certainlytherewasnopessimisticelementinhiscase。 Inthenextcasewehaveastronglypessimisticelement,sothatitbelongsunderhead4。JohnCennickwasMethodism’sfirstlaypreacher。In1735hewasconvictedofsin,whilewalkinginCheapside—— “Andatonceleftoffsing-singing,card-playing,andattendingtheatres。Sometimeshewishedtogotoapopishmonastery,tospendhislifeindevoutretirement。Atothertimeshelongedtoliveinacave,sleepingonfallenleaves,andfeedingonforestfruits。Hefastedlongandoften,andprayedninetimesaday……Fancyingdrybreadtoogreatanindulgenceforsogreatasinnerashimself,hebegantofeedonpotatoes,acorns,crabs,andgrass;andoftenwishedthathecouldliveonrootsandherbs。Atlength,in1737,hefoundpeacewithGod,andwentonhiswayrejoicing。”[178] [178]L。Tyerman:TheLifeandTimesoftheRev。JohnWesley,i。 274。 Inthispoormanwehavemorbidmelancholyandfear,andthesacrificesmadearetopurgeoutsin,andtobuysafety。ThehopelessnessofChristiantheologyinrespectofthefleshandthenaturalmangenerallyhas,insystematizingfear,madeofitonetremendousincentivetoself-mortification。Itwouldbequiteunfair,however,inspiteofthefactthatthisincentivehasoftenbeenworkedinamercenarywayforhortatorypurposes,tocallitamercenaryincentive。Theimpulsetoexpiateanddopenanceis,initsfirstintention,fartooimmediateandspontaneousanexpressionofself-despairandanxietytobeobnoxioustoanysuchreproach。Intheformoflovingsacrifice,ofspendingallwehavetoshowourdevotion,asceticdisciplineoftheseverestsortmaybethefruitofhighlyoptimisticreligiousfeeling。 M。Vianney,thecureofArs,wasaFrenchcountrypriest,whoseholinesswasexemplary。Wereadinhislifethefollowingaccountofhisinnerneedofsacrifice:—— “’Onthispath,’M。Vianneysaid,“itisonlythefirststepthatcosts。Thereisinmortificationabalmandasavorwithoutwhichonecannotlivewhenonceonehasmadetheiracquaintance。 Thereisbutonewayinwhichtogiveone’sselftoGod——thatis,togiveone’sselfentirely,andtokeepnothingforone’sself。Thelittlethatonekeepsisonlygoodtotroubleoneandmakeonesuffer。’Accordinglyheimposeditonhimselfthatheshouldneversmellaflower,neverdrinkwhenparchedwiththirst,neverdriveawayafly,nevershowdisgustbeforearepugnantobject,nevercomplainofanythingthathadtodowithhispersonalcomfort,neversitdown,neverleanuponhiselbowswhenhewaskneeling。TheCureofArswasverysensitivetocold,buthewouldnevertakemeanstoprotecthimselfagainstit。Duringaveryseverewinter,oneofhismissionariescontrivedafalsefloortohisconfessionalandplacedametalcaseofhotwaterbeneath。Thetricksucceeded,andtheSaintwasdeceived:’Godisverygood,’hesaidwithemotion。’Thisyear,throughallthecold,myfeethavealwaysbeenwarm。’ “[179] [179]A。Mounin:LeCured’Ars,viedeM。J。B。M。Vianney,1864,p。545,abridged。 InthiscasethespontaneousimpulsetomakesacrificesforthepureloveofGodwasprobablytheuppermostconsciousmotive。Wemayclassit,then,underourhead3。Someauthorsthinkthattheimpulsetosacrificeisthemainreligiousphenomenon。Itisaprominent,auniversalphenomenoncertainly,andliesdeeperthananyspecialcreed。Here,forinstance,iswhatseemstobeaspontaneousexampleofit,simplyexpressingwhatseemedrightatthetimebetweentheindividualandhisMaker。CottonMather,theNewEnglandPuritandivine,isgenerallyreputedarathergrotesquepedant;yetwhatismoretouchinglysimplethanhisrelationofwhathappenedwhenhiswifecametodie? “WhenIsawtowhatapointofresignationIwasnowcalledoftheLord。”hesays,“Iresolved,withhishelp,thereintoglorifyhim。So,twohoursbeforemylovelyconsortexpired,I kneeledbyherbedside,andItookintomytwohandsadearhand,thedearestintheworld。Withherthusinmyhands,IsolemnlyandsincerelygaveherupuntotheLord:andintokenofmyrealRESIGNATION,Igentlyputheroutofmyhands,andlaidawayamostlovelyhand,resolvingthatIwouldnevertouchitmore。 Thiswasthehardest,andperhapsthebravestactionthateverI did。She……toldmethatshesignedandsealedmyactofresignation。Andthoughbeforethatshecalledformecontinually,sheafterthisneveraskedformeanymore。”[180] [180]B。Wendell:CottonMather,NewYork,nodate,p。198。 FatherVianney’sasceticismtakeninitstotalitywassimplytheresultofapermanentfloodofhighspiritualenthusiasm,longingtomakeproofofitself。TheRomanChurchhas,initsincomparablefashion,collectedallthemotivestowardsasceticismtogether,andsocodifiedthemthatanyonewishingtopursueChristianperfectionmayfindapracticalsystemmappedoutforhiminanyoneofanumberofready-mademanuals。[181] ThedominantChurchnotionofperfectionisofcoursethenegativeoneofavoidanceofsin。Sinproceedsfromconcupiscence,andconcupiscencefromourcarnalpassionsandtemptations,chiefofwhicharepride,sensualityinallitsforms,andthelovesofworldlyexcitementandpossession。Allthesesourcesofsinmustberesisted;anddisciplineandausteritiesareamostefficaciousmodeofmeetingthem。Hencetherearealwaysinthesebookschaptersonself-mortification。 Butwheneveraprocedureiscodified,themoredelicatespiritofitevaporates,andifwewishtheundilutedasceticspirit——thepassionofself-contemptwreakingitselfonthepoorflesh,thedivineirrationalityofdevotionmakingasacrificialgiftofallithas(itssensibilities,namely)totheobjectofitsadoration——wemustgotoautobiographies,orotherindividualdocuments。 [181]ThatoftheearlierJesuit,Rodriguez,whichhasbeentranslatedintoalllanguages,isoneofthebestknown。A convenientmodernmanual,verywellputtogether,isL’AscetiqueChretienne,byM。J。Ribet,Paris,Poussielgue,nouvelleedition,1898。 SaintJohnoftheCross,aSpanishmysticwhoflourished——orratherwhoexisted,fortherewaslittlethatsuggestedflourishingabouthim——inthesixteenthcentury,willsupplyapassagesuitableforourpurpose。 “Firstofall,carefullyexciteinyourselfanhabitualaffectionatewillinallthingstoimitateJesusChrist。Ifanythingagreeableoffersitselftoyoursenses,yetdoesnotatthesametimetendpurelytothehonorandgloryofGod,renounceitandseparateyourselffromitfortheloveofChrist,whoallhislifelonghadnoothertasteorwishthantodothewillofhisFatherwhomhecalledhismeatandnourishment。Forexample,youtakesatisfactioninHEARINGofthingsinwhichthegloryofGodbearsnopart。Denyyourselfthissatisfaction,mortifyyourwishtolisten。YoutakepleasureinSEEINGobjectswhichdonotraiseyourmindtoGod:refuseyourselfthispleasure,andturnawayyoureyes。Thesamewithconversationsandallotherthings。Actsimilarly,sofarasyouareable,withalltheoperationsofthesenses,strivingtomakeyourselffreefromtheiryokes。 “Theradicalremedyliesinthemortificationofthefourgreatnaturalpassions,joy,hope,fear,andgrief。Youmustseektodeprivetheseofeverysatisfactionandleavethemasitwereindarknessandthevoid。Letyoursoulthereforeturnalways: