第12章

类别:其他 作者:Samuel Butler字数:4504更新时间:18/12/21 17:25:17
IhaveheardwhatIbelievewasitsremotemusicalprogenitorinthechurchofSS。GiovanniePaoloatVenicenotfiveyearssince;andagainIhavehearditfarawayinmid-Atlanticuponagreysea- SabbathinJune,whenneitherwindsnorwavesarestirring,sothattheemigrantsgatherondeck,andtheirplaintivepsalmgoesforthuponthesilverhazeofthesky,andonthewildernessofaseathathassighedtillitcansighnolonger。OritmaybeheardatsomeMethodistCampMeetinguponaWelshhillside,butinthechurchesitisgoneforever。IfIwereamusicianIwouldtakeitasthesubjectfortheadagioinaWesleyansymphony。 Gonenowaretheclarinet,thevioloncelloandthetrombone,wildminstrelsyasofthedolefulcreaturesinEzekiel,discordant,butinfinitelypathetic。Goneisthatscarebabestentor,thatbellowingbullofBashanthevillageblacksmith,goneisthemelodiouscarpenter,gonethebrawnyshepherdwiththeredhair,whoroaredmorelustilythanall,untiltheycametothewords,“Shepherdswithyourflocksabiding。”whenmodestycoveredhimwithconfusion,andcompelledhimtobesilent,asthoughhisownhealthwerebeingdrunk。Theyweredoomedandhadapresentimentofevil,evenwhenfirstIsawthem,buttheyhadstillalittleleaseofchoirliferemaining,andtheyroaredout[wick-edhandshavepiercedandnailedhim,piercedandnailedhimtoatree。] butnodescriptioncangiveaproperideaoftheeffect。WhenIwaslastinBattersbychurchtherewasaharmoniumplayedbyasweet- lookinggirlwithachoirofschoolchildrenaroundher,andtheychantedthecanticlestothemostcorrectofchants,andtheysangHymnsAncientandModern;thehighpewsweregone,nay,theverygalleryinwhichtheoldchoirhadsungwasremovedasanaccursedthingwhichmightremindthepeopleofthehighplaces,andTheobaldwasold,andChristinawaslyingundertheyewtreesinthechurchyard。 ButintheeveninglateronIsawthreeveryoldmencomechucklingoutofadissentingchapel,andsurelyenoughtheyweremyoldfriendstheblacksmith,thecarpenterandtheshepherd。Therewasalookofcontentupontheirfaceswhichmademefeelcertaintheyhadbeensinging;notdoubtlesswiththeoldgloryofthevioloncello,theclarinetandthetrombone,butstillsongsofSionandnonewfangledpapistry。 Thehymnhadengagedmyattention;whenitwasoverIhadtimetotakestockofthecongregation。Theywerechieflyfarmers——fat,verywell-to-dofolk,whohadcomesomeofthemwiththeirwivesandchildrenfromoutlyingfarmstwoandthreemilesaway;hatersofpoperyandofanythingwhichanyonemightchoosetosaywaspopish; good,sensiblefellowswhodetestedtheoryofanykind,whoseidealwasthemaintenanceofthestatusquowithperhapsalovingreminiscenceofoldwartimes,andasenseofwrongthattheweatherwasnotmorecompletelyundertheircontrol,whodesiredhigherpricesandcheaperwages,butotherwiseweremostcontentedwhenthingswerechangingleast;tolerators,ifnotlovers,ofallthatwasfamiliar,hatersofallthatwasunfamiliar;theywouldhavebeenequallyhorrifiedathearingtheChristianreligiondoubted,andatseeingitpractised。 “WhatcantherebeincommonbetweenTheobaldandhisparishioners?” saidChristinatome,inthecourseoftheevening,whenherhusbandwasforafewmomentsabsent。“Ofcourseonemustnotcomplain,butIassureyouitgrievesmetoseeamanofTheobald’sabilitythrownawayuponsuchaplaceasthis。IfwehadonlybeenatGaysbury,wheretherearetheA’s,theB’s,theC’s,andLordD’splace,asyouknow,quiteclose,Ishouldnotthenhavefeltthatwewerelivinginsuchadesert;butIsupposeitisforthebest。”sheaddedmorecheerfully;“andthenofcoursetheBishopwillcometouswheneverheisintheneighbourhood,andifwewereatGaysburyhemighthavegonetoLordD’s。” PerhapsIhavenowsaidenoughtoindicatethekindofplaceinwhichTheobald’slineswerecast,andthesortofwomanhehadmarried。Asforhisownhabits,Iseehimtrudgingthroughmuddylanesandoverlongsweepsofplover-hauntedpasturestovisitadyingcottager’swife。Hetakeshermeatandwinefromhisowntable,andthatnotalittleonlybutliberally。Accordingtohislightsalso,headministerswhatheispleasedtocallspiritualconsolation。 “IamafraidI’mgoingtoHell,Sir。”saysthesickwomanwithawhine。“Oh,Sir,saveme,saveme,don’tletmegothere。I couldn’tstandit,Sir,Ishoulddiewithfear,theverythoughtofitdrivesmeintoacoldsweatallover。” “MrsThompson。”saysTheobaldgravely,“youmusthavefaithinthepreciousbloodofyourRedeemer;itisHealonewhocansaveyou。” “Butareyousure,Sir。”saysshe,lookingwistfullyathim,“thatHewillforgiveme——forI’venotbeenaverygoodwoman,indeedI haven’t——andifGodwouldonlysay’Yes’outrightwithHismouthwhenIaskwhethermysinsareforgivenme——“ “ButtheyAREforgivenyou,MrsThompson。”saysTheobaldwithsomesternness,forthesamegroundhasbeengoneoveragoodmanytimesalready,andhehasbornetheunhappywoman’smisgivingsnowforafullquarterofanhour。Thenheputsastoptotheconversationbyrepeatingprayerstakenfromthe“VisitationoftheSick。”andoverawesthepoorwretchfromexpressingfurtheranxietyastohercondition。 “Can’tyoutellme,Sir。”sheexclaimspiteously,assheseesthatheispreparingtogoaway,“can’tyoutellmethatthereisnoDayofJudgement,andthatthereisnosuchplaceasHell?IcandowithouttheHeaven,Sir,butIcannotdowiththeHell。”Theobaldismuchshocked。 “MrsThompson。”herejoinsimpressively,“letmeimploreyoutosuffernodoubtconcerningthesetwocornerstonesofourreligiontocrossyourmindatamomentlikethepresent。IfthereisonethingmorecertainthananotheritisthatweshallallappearbeforetheJudgementSeatofChrist,andthatthewickedwillbeconsumedinalakeofeverlastingfire。Doubtthis,MrsThompson,andyouarelost。” Thepoorwomanburiesherfeveredheadinthecoverletinaparoxysmoffearwhichatlastfindsreliefintears。 “MrsThompson。”saysTheobald,withhishandonthedoor,“composeyourself,becalm;youmustpleasetotakemywordforitthatattheDayofJudgementyoursinswillbeallwashedwhiteinthebloodoftheLamb,MrsThompson。Yea。”heexclaimsfrantically,“thoughtheybeasscarlet,yetshalltheybeaswhiteaswool。”andhemakesoffasfastashecanfromthefetidatmosphereofthecottagetothepureairoutside。Oh,howthankfulheiswhentheinterviewisover! Hereturnshome,consciousthathehasdonehisduty,andadministeredthecomfortsofreligiontoadyingsinner。HisadmiringwifeawaitshimattheRectory,andassureshimthatneveryetwasclergymansodevotedtothewelfareofhisflock。Hebelievesher;hehasanaturaltendencytobelieveeverythingthatistoldhim,andwhoshouldknowthefactsofthecasebetterthanhiswife?Poorfellow!Hehasdonehisbest,butwhatdoesafish’sbestcometowhenthefishisoutofwater?Hehasleftmeatandwine——thathecando;hewillcallagainandwillleavemoremeatandwine;dayafterdayhetrudgesoverthesameplover-hauntedfields,andlistensattheendofhiswalktothesameagonyofforebodings,whichdayafterdayhesilences,butdoesnotremove,tillatlastamercifulweaknessrendersthesufferercarelessofherfuture,andTheobaldissatisfiedthathermindisnowpeacefullyatrestinJesus。 Hedoesnotlikethisbranchofhisprofession——indeedhehatesit—— butwillnotadmitittohimself。Thehabitofnotadmittingthingstohimselfhasbecomeaconfirmedonewithhim。Neverthelesstherehauntshimanilldefinedsensethatlifewouldbepleasanteriftherewerenosicksinners,oriftheywouldatanyratefaceaneternityoftorturewithmoreindifference。Hedoesnotfeelthatheisinhiselement。Thefarmerslookasiftheywereintheirelement。Theyarefull-bodied,healthyandcontented;butbetweenhimandthemthereisagreatgulffixed。Ahardanddrawnlookbeginstosettleaboutthecornersofhismouth,sothatevenifhewerenotinablackcoatandwhitetieachildmightknowhimforaparson。 Heknowsthatheisdoinghisduty。Everydayconvinceshimofthismorefirmly;butthenthereisnotmuchdutyforhimtodo。Heissadlyinwantofoccupation。Hehasnotasteforanyofthosefieldsportswhichwerenotconsideredunbecomingforaclergymanfortyyearsago。Hedoesnotride,norshoot,norfish,norcourse,norplaycricket。Study,todohimjustice,hehadneverreallyliked,andwhatinducementwasthereforhimtostudyatBattersby?Hereadsneitheroldbooksnornewones。Hedoesnotinteresthimselfinartorscienceorpolitics,buthesetshisbackupwithsomepromptnessifanyofthemshowanydevelopmentunfamiliartohimself。True,hewriteshisownsermons,butevenhiswifeconsidersthathisforteliesratherintheexampleofhislife(whichisonelongactofself-devotion)thaninhisutterancesfromthepulpit。Afterbreakfastheretirestohisstudy;hecutslittlebitsoutoftheBibleandgumsthemwithexquisiteneatnessbythesideofotherlittlebits;thishecallsmakingaHarmonyoftheOldandNewTestaments。Alongsidetheextractshecopiesintheveryperfectionofhand-writingextractsfromMede(theonlyman,accordingtoTheobald,whoreallyunderstoodtheBookofRevelation),Patrick,andotherolddivines。Heworkssteadilyatthisforhalfanhoureverymorningduringmanyyears,andtheresultisdoubtlessvaluable。Aftersomeyearshavegonebyhehearshischildrentheirlessons,andthedailyoft-repeatedscreamsthatissuefromthestudyduringthelessonhourstelltheirownhorriblestoryoverthehouse。Hehasalsotakentocollectingahortussiccus,andthroughtheinterestofhisfatherwasoncementionedintheSaturdayMagazineashavingbeenthefirsttofindaplant,whosenameIhaveforgotten,intheneighbourhoodofBattersby。ThisnumberoftheSaturdayMagazinehasbeenboundinredmorocco,andiskeptuponthedrawing-roomtable。Hepottersabouthisgarden;ifhehearsahencacklingherunsandtellsChristina,andstraightwaygoeshuntingfortheegg。 WhenthetwoMissAllabyscame,astheysometimesdid,tostaywithChristina,theysaidthelifeledbytheirsisterandbrother-in-lawwasanidyll。HappyindeedwasChristinainherchoice,forthatshehadhadachoicewasafictionwhichsoontookrootamongthem