第25章

类别:其他 作者:Samuel Butler字数:5127更新时间:18/12/21 17:25:17
ThoughscarcelyontermswithherbrotherJohn,shehadkeptupcloserrelationswithTheobaldandhisfamily,andhadpaidafewdays’visittoBattersbyonceineverytwoyearsorso。AletheahadalwaystriedtolikeTheobaldandjoinforceswithhimasmuchasshecould(fortheytwoweretheharesofthefamily,therestbeingallhounds),butitwasnouse。Ibelieveherchiefreasonformaintainingrelationswithherbrotherwasthatshemightkeepaneyeonhischildrenandgivethemaliftiftheyprovednice。 WhenMissPontifexhadcomedowntoBattersbyinoldtimesthechildrenhadnotbeenbeaten,andtheirlessonshadbeenmadelighter。Sheeasilysawthattheywereoverworkedandunhappy,butshecouldhardlyguesshowall-reachingwastheregimeunderwhichtheylived。Sheknewshecouldnotinterfereeffectuallythen,andwiselyforboretomaketoomanyenquiries。Hertime,ifeveritwastocome,wouldbewhenthechildrenwerenolongerlivingunderthesameroofastheirparents。ItendedinhermakinguphermindtohavenothingtodowitheitherJoeyorCharlotte,buttoseesomuchofErnestasshouldenablehertoformanopinionabouthisdispositionandabilities。 HehadnowbeenayearandahalfatRoughboroughandwasnearlyfourteenyearsold,sothathischaracterhadbeguntoshape。Hisaunthadnotseenhimforsomelittletimeand,thinkingthatifshewastoexploithimshecoulddosonowperhapsbetterthanatanyothertime,sheresolvedtogodowntoRoughboroughonsomepretextwhichshouldbegoodenoughforTheobald,andtotakestockofhernephewundercircumstancesinwhichshecouldgethimforsomefewhourstoherself。AccordinglyinAugust1849,whenErnestwasjustenteringonhisfourthhalfyearacabdroveuptoDrSkinner’sdoorwithMissPontifex,whoaskedandobtainedleaveforErnesttocomeanddinewithherattheSwanHotel。ShehadwrittentoErnesttosayshewascomingandhewasofcourseonthelook-outforher。Hehadnotseenherforsolongthathewasrathershyatfirst,buthergoodnaturesoonsethimathisease。Shewassostronglybiassedinfavourofanythingyoungthatherheartwarmedtowardshimatonce,thoughhisappearancewaslessprepossessingthanshehadhoped。Shetookhimtoacakeshopandgavehimwhateverhelikedassoonasshehadgothimofftheschoolpremises;andErnestfeltatoncethatshecontrastedfavourablyevenwithhisauntstheMissesAllaby,whoweresoverysweetandgood。TheMissesAllabywereverypoor;sixpencewastothemwhatfiveshillingswastoAlethea。Whatchancehadtheyagainstonewho,ifshehadamind,couldputbyoutofherincometwiceasmuchasthey,poorwomen,couldspend? Theboyhadplentyofprattleinhimwhenhewasnotsnubbed,andAletheaencouragedhimtochatteraboutwhatevercameuppermost。Hewasalwaysreadytotrustanyonewhowaskindtohim;ittookmanyyearstomakehimreasonablywaryinthisrespect——ifindeed,asI sometimesdoubt,heeverwillbeaswaryasheoughttobe——andinashorttimehehadquitedissociatedhisauntfromhispapaandmammaandtherest,withwhomhisinstincttoldhimheshouldbeonhisguard。Littledidheknowhowgreat,asfarashewasconcerned,weretheissuesthatdependeduponhisbehaviour。Ifhehadknown,hewouldperhapshaveplayedhispartlesssuccessfully。 Hisauntdrewfromhimmoredetailsofhishomeandschoollifethanhispapaandmammawouldhaveapprovedof,buthehadnoideathathewasbeingpumped。ShegotoutofhimallaboutthehappySundayevenings,andhowheandJoeyandCharlottequarrelledsometimes,butshetooknosideandtreatedeverythingasthoughitwereamatterofcourse。Likealltheboys,hecouldmimicDrSkinner,andwhenwarmedwithdinner,andtwoglassesofsherrywhichmadehimnearlytipsy,hefavouredhisauntwithsamplesoftheDoctor’smannerandspokeofhimfamiliarlyas“Sam。” “Sam。”hesaid,“isanawfuloldhumbug。”Itwasthesherrythatbroughtoutthispieceofswagger,forwhateverelsehewasDrSkinnerwasarealitytoMasterErnest,beforewhich,indeed,hesankintohisbootsinnotime。Aletheasmiledandsaid,“Imustnotsayanythingtothat,mustI?”Ernestsaid,“Isupposenot。” andwaschecked。By-and-byheventedanumberofsmallsecond-handpriggishnesseswhichhehadcaughtupbelievingthemtobethecorrectthing,andmadeitplainthatevenatthatearlyageErnestbelievedinErnestwithabeliefwhichwasamusingfromitsabsurdity。Hisauntjudgedhimcharitablyasshewassuretodo; sheknewverywellwherethepriggishnesscamefrom,andseeingthatthestringofhistonguehadbeenloosenedsufficientlygavehimnomoresherry。 Itwasafterdinner,however,thathecompletedtheconquestofhisaunt。Shethendiscoveredthat,likeherself,hewaspassionatelyfondofmusic,andthat,too,ofthehighestclass。Heknew,andhummedorwhistledtoherallsortsofpiecesoutoftheworksofthegreatmasters,whichaboyofhisagecouldhardlybeexpectedtoknow,anditwasevidentthatthiswaspurelyinstinctive,inasmuchasmusicreceivednokindofencouragementatRoughborough。 Therewasnoboyintheschoolasfondofmusicashewas。Hepickeduphisknowledge,hesaid,fromtheorganistofStMichael’sChurchwhousedtopractisesometimesonaweek-dayafternoon。 Ernesthadheardtheorganboomingawayashewaspassingoutsidethechurchandhadsneakedinsideandupintotheorganloft。Inthecourseoftimetheorganistbecameaccustomedtohimasafamiliarvisitant,andthepairbecamefriends。 ItwasthiswhichdecidedAletheathattheboywasworthtakingpainswith。“Helikesthebestmusic。”shethought,“andhehatesDrSkinner。Thisisaveryfairbeginning。”Whenshesenthimawayatnightwithasovereigninhispocket(andhehadonlyhopedtogetfiveshillings)shefeltasthoughshehadhadagooddealmorethanhermoney’sworthforhermoney。 NextdayMissPontifexreturnedtotown,withherthoughtsfullofhernephewandhowshecouldbestbeofusetohim。 Itappearedtoherthattodohimanyrealserviceshemustdevoteherselfalmostentirelytohim;shemustinfactgiveuplivinginLondon,atanyrateforalongtime,andliveatRoughboroughwhereshecouldseehimcontinually。Thiswasaseriousundertaking;shehadlivedinLondonforthelasttwelveyears,andnaturallydislikedtheprospectofasmallcountrytownsuchasRoughborough。 Wasitaprudentthingtoattemptsomuch?Mustnotpeopletaketheirchancesinthisworld?Cananyonedomuchforanyoneelseunlessbymakingawillinhisfavouranddyingthenandthere? Shouldnoteachlookafterhisownhappiness,andwillnottheworldbebestcarriedonifeveryonemindshisownbusinessandleavesotherpeopletomindtheirs?Lifeisnotadonkeyraceinwhicheveryoneistoridehisneighbour’sdonkeyandthelastistowin,andthepsalmistlongsinceformulatedacommonexperiencewhenhedeclaredthatnomanmaydeliverhisbrothernormakeagreementuntoGodforhim,foritcostmoretoredeemtheirsouls,sothathemustletthataloneforever。 Alltheseexcellentreasonsforlettinghernephewaloneoccurredtoher,andmanymore,butagainstthemtherepleadedawoman’sloveforchildren,andherdesiretofindsomeoneamongtheyoungerbranchesofherownfamilytowhomshecouldbecomewarmlyattached,andwhomshecouldattachwarmlytoherself。 Overandabovethisshewantedsomeonetoleavehermoneyto;shewasnotgoingtoleaveittopeopleaboutwhomsheknewverylittle,merelybecausetheyhappenedtobesonsanddaughtersofbrothersandsisterswhomshehadneverliked。Sheknewthepowerandvalueofmoneyexceedinglywell,andhowmanylovablepeoplesufferanddieyearlyforthewantofit;shewaslittlelikelytoleaveitwithoutbeingsatisfiedthatherlegateesweresquare,lovable,andmoreorlesshardup。Shewantedthosetohaveitwhowouldbemostlikelytouseitgeniallyandsensibly,andwhomitwouldthusbelikelytomakemosthappy;ifshecouldfindonesuchamonghernephewsandnieces,somuchthebetter;itwasworthtakingagreatdealofpainstoseewhethershecouldorcouldnot;butifshefailed,shemustfindanheirwhowasnotrelatedtoherbyblood。 “Ofcourse。”shehadsaidtome,morethanonce,“Ishallmakeamessofit。Ishallchoosesomenice-looking,well-dressedscrew,withgentlemanlymannerswhichwilltakemein,andhewillgoandpaintAcademypictures,orwritefortheTimes,ordosomethingjustashorridthemomentthebreathisoutofmybody。” Asyet,however,shehadmadenowillatall,andthiswasoneofthefewthingsthattroubledher。IbelieveshewouldhaveleftmostofhermoneytomeifIhadnotstoppedher。Myfatherleftmeabundantlywelloff,andmymodeoflifehasbeenalwayssimple,sothatIhaveneverknownuneasinessaboutmoney;moreoverIwasespeciallyanxiousthatthereshouldbenooccasiongivenforill- naturedtalk;sheknewwell,therefore,thatherleavinghermoneytomewouldbeofallthingsthemostlikelytoweakenthetiesthatexistedbetweenus,providedthatIwasawareofit,butIdidnotmindhertalkingaboutwhomsheshouldmakeherheir,solongasitwaswellunderstoodthatIwasnottobetheperson。 Ernesthadsatisfiedherashavingenoughinhimtotemptherstronglytotakehimup,butitwasnottillaftermanydays’ reflectionthatshegravitatedtowardsactuallydoingso,withallthebreakinherdailywaysthatthiswouldentail。Atleast,shesaidittookhersomedays,andcertainlyitappearedtodoso,butfromthemomentshehadbeguntobroachthesubject,Ihadguessedhowthingsweregoingtoend。 ItwasnowarrangedsheshouldtakeahouseatRoughborough,andgoandlivethereforacoupleofyears。Asacompromise,however,tomeetsomeofmyobjections,itwasalsoarrangedthatsheshouldkeepherroomsinGowerStreet,andcometotownforaweekonceineachmonth;ofcourse,also,shewouldleaveRoughboroughforthegreaterpartoftheholidays。Aftertwoyears,thethingwastocometoanend,unlessitprovedagreatsuccess。Sheshouldbythattime,atanyrate,havemadeuphermindwhattheboy’scharacterwas,andwouldthenactascircumstancesmightdetermine。 ThepretextsheputforwardostensiblywasthatherdoctorsaidsheoughttobeayearortwointhecountryaftersomanyyearsofLondonlife,andhadrecommendedRoughboroughonaccountofthepurityofitsair,anditseasyaccesstoandfromLondon——forbythistimetherailwayhadreachedit。Shewasanxiousnottogiveherbrotherandsisteranyrighttocomplain,ifonseeingmoreofhernephewshefoundshecouldnotgetonwithhim,andshewasalsoanxiousnottoraisefalsehopesofanykindintheboy’sownmind。 Havingsettledhoweverythingwastobe,shewrotetoTheobaldandsaidshemeanttotakeahouseinRoughboroughfromtheMichaelmasthenapproaching,andmentioned,asthoughcasually,thatoneoftheattractionsoftheplacewouldbethathernephewwasatschoolthereandsheshouldhopetoseemoreofhimthanshehaddonehitherto。 TheobaldandChristinaknewhowdearlyAlethealovedLondon,andthoughtitveryoddthatsheshouldwanttogoandliveatRoughborough,buttheydidnotsuspectthatshewasgoingtheresolelyonhernephew’saccount,muchlessthatshehadthoughtofmakingErnestherheir。Iftheyhadguessedthis,theywouldhavebeensojealousthatIhalfbelievetheywouldhaveaskedhertogoandlivesomewhereelse。Aletheahowever,wastwoorthreeyearsyoungerthanTheobald;shewasstillsomeyearsshortoffifty,andmightverywelllivetoeighty-fiveorninety;hermoney,therefore,wasnotworthtakingmuchtroubleabout,andherbrotherandsister- in-lawhaddismissedit,sotospeak,fromtheirmindswithcosts,assuming,however,thatifanythingdidhappentoherwhiletheywerestillalive,themoneywould,asamatterofcourse,cometothem。 TheprospectofAletheaseeingmuchofErnestwasaseriousmatter。 Christinasmeltmischieffromafar,asindeedsheoftendid。