第30章

类别:其他 作者:Samuel Butler字数:4675更新时间:18/12/21 17:25:17
Herface(asindeedfacesgenerallyare,thoughIgranttheyliesometimes)wasafairindextoherdisposition。Shewasgoodnatureitself,andeveryoneinthehouse,notexcludingIbelieveevenTheobaldhimselfafterafashion,wasfondofher。AsforChristinashetooktheverywarmestinterestinher,andusedtohaveherintothedining-roomtwiceaweek,andprepareherforconfirmation(forbysomeaccidentshehadneverbeenconfirmed)byexplainingtoherthegeographyofPalestineandtheroutestakenbyStPaulonhisvariousjourneysinAsiaMinor。 WhenBishopTreadwelldidactuallycomedowntoBattersbyandholdaconfirmationthere(Christinahadherwish,hesleptatBattersby,andshehadagranddinnerpartyforhim,andcalledhim“Mylord“ severaltimes),hewassomuchstruckwithherprettyfaceandmodestdemeanourwhenhelaidhishandsuponherthatheaskedChristinaabouther。WhensherepliedthatEllenwasoneofherownservants,thebishopseemed,soshethoughtorchosetothink,quitepleasedthatsoprettyagirlshouldhavefoundsoexceptionallygoodasituation。 Ernestusedtogetupearlyduringtheholidayssothathemightplaythepianobeforebreakfastwithoutdisturbinghispapaandmamma——orrather,perhaps,withoutbeingdisturbedbythem。Ellenwouldgenerallybetheresweepingthedrawing-roomflooranddustingwhilehewasplaying,andtheboy,whowasreadytomakefriendswithmostpeople,soonbecameveryfondofher。Hewasnotasageneralrulesensitivetothecharmsofthefairsex,indeedhehadhardlybeenthrowninwithanywomenexcepthisAuntsAllaby,andhisAuntAlethea,hismother,hissisterCharlotteandMrsJay; sometimesalsohehadhadtotakeoffhishattotheMissSkinners,andhadfeltasifheshouldsinkintotheearthondoingso,buthisshynesshadwornoffwithEllen,andthepairhadbecomefastfriends。 PerhapsitwaswellthatErnestwasnotathomeforverylongtogether,butasyethisaffectionthoughheartywasquitePlatonic。 Hewasnotonlyinnocent,butdeplorably——Imightevensayguiltily—— innocent。HispreferencewasbaseduponthefactthatEllenneverscoldedhim,butwasalwayssmilingandgoodtempered;besidessheusedtoliketohearhimplay,andthisgavehimadditionalzestinplaying。ThemorningaccesstothepianowasindeedtheonedistinctadvantagewhichtheholidayshadinErnest’seyes,foratschoolhecouldnotgetatapianoexceptquasi-surreptitiouslyattheshopofMrPearsall,themusic-seller。 Onreturningthismidsummerhewasshockedtofindhisfavouritelookingpaleandill。Allhergoodspiritshadlefther,theroseshadfledfromhercheek,andsheseemedonthepointofgoingintoadecline。Shesaidshewasunhappyabouthermother,whosehealthwasfailing,andwasafraidshewasherselfnotlongforthisworld。 Christina,ofcourse,noticedthechange。“Ihaveoftenremarked。” shesaid,“thatthoseveryfresh-coloured,healthy-lookinggirlsarethefirsttobreakup。IhavegivenhercalomelandJames’spowdersrepeatedly,andthoughshedoesnotlikeit,IthinkImustshowhertoDrMartinwhenhenextcomeshere。” “Verywell,mydear。”saidTheobald,andsonexttimeDrMartincameEllenwassentfor。DrMartinsoondiscoveredwhatwouldprobablyhavebeenapparenttoChristinaherselfifshehadbeenabletoconceiveofsuchanailmentinconnectionwithaservantwholivedunderthesameroofasTheobaldandherself——thepurityofwhosemarriedlifeshouldhavepreservedallunmarriedpeoplewhocamenearthemfromanytaintofmischief。 WhenitwasdiscoveredthatinthreeorfourmonthsmoreEllenwouldbecomeamother,Christina’snaturalgoodnaturewouldhavepromptedhertodealaslenientlywiththecaseasshecould,ifshehadnotbeenpanic-strickenlestanymercyonherandTheobald’spartshouldbeconstruedintotoleration,howeverpartial,ofsogreatasin; hereonshedashedoffintotheconvictionthattheonlythingtodowastopayEllenherwages,andpackheroffontheinstantbagandbaggageoutofthehousewhichpurityhadmoreespeciallyandparticularlysingledoutforitsabidingcity。WhenshethoughtofthefearfulcontaminationwhichEllen’scontinuedpresenceevenforaweekwouldoccasion,shecouldnothesitate。 Thencamethequestion——horridthought!——astowhowasthepartnerofEllen’sguilt?Wasit,coulditbe,herownson,herdarlingErnest?Ernestwasgettingabigboynow。Shecouldexcuseanyyoungwomanfortakingafancytohim;asforhimself,whyshewassurehewasbehindnoyoungmanofhisageinappreciationofthecharmsofanice-lookingyoungwoman。Solongashewasinnocentshedidnotmindthis,butoh,ifhewereguilty! Shecouldnotbeartothinkofit,andyetitwouldbemerecowardicenottolooksuchamatterintheface——herhopewasintheLord,andshewasreadytobearcheerfullyandmakethebestofanysufferingHemightthinkfittolayuponher。Thatthebabymustbeeitheraboyorgirl——thismuch,atanyrate,wasclear。Nolessclearwasitthatthechild,ifaboy,wouldresembleTheobald,andifagirl,herself。Resemblance,whetherofbodyormind,generallyleapedoverageneration。Theguiltoftheparentsmustnotbesharedbytheinnocentoffspringofshame——oh!no——andsuchachildasthiswouldbe……Shewasoffinoneofherreveriesatonce。 ThechildwasintheactofbeingconsecratedArchbishopofCanterburywhenTheobaldcameinfromavisitintheparish,andwastoldoftheshockingdiscovery。 ChristinasaidnothingaboutErnest,andIbelievewasmorethanhalfangrywhentheblamewaslaiduponothershoulders。Shewaseasilyconsoled,however,andfellbackonthedoublereflection,firstly,thathersonwaspure,andsecondly,thatshewasquitesurehewouldnothavebeensohaditnotbeenforhisreligiousconvictionswhichhadheldhimback——as,ofcourse,itwasonlytobeexpectedtheywould。 TheobaldagreedthatnotimemustbelostinpayingEllenherwagesandpackingheroff。Sothiswasdone,andlessthantwohoursafterDrMartinhadenteredthehouseEllenwassittingbesideJohnthecoachman,withherfacemuffledupsothatitcouldnotbeseen,weepingbitterlyasshewasbeingdriventothestation。 Ernesthadbeenoutallthemorning,butcameintotheyardoftheRectoryfromthespinneybehindthehousejustasEllen’sthingswerebeingputintothecarriage。HethoughtitwasEllenwhomhethensawgetintothecarriage,butasherfacehadbeenhiddenbyherhandkerchiefhehadnotbeenabletoseeplainlywhoitwas,anddismissedtheideaasimprobable。 Hewenttotheback-kitchenwindow,atwhichthecookwasstandingpeelingthepotatoesfordinner,andfoundhercryingbitterly。 Ernestwasmuchdistressed,forhelikedthecook,and,ofcourse,wantedtoknowwhatallthematterwas,whoitwasthathadjustgoneoffintheponycarriage,andwhy?ThecooktoldhimitwasEllen,butsaidthatnoearthlypowershouldmakeitcrossherlipswhyitwasshewasgoingaway;when,however,Ernesttookheraupieddelalettreandaskednofurtherquestions,shetoldhimallaboutitafterextortingthemostsolemnpromisesofsecrecy。 IttookErnestsomeminutestoarriveatthefactsofthecase,butwhenheunderstoodthemheleanedagainstthepump,whichstoodneartheback-kitchenwindow,andmingledhistearswiththecook’s。 Thenhisbloodbegantoboilwithinhim。Hedidnotseethatafterallhisfatherandmothercouldhavedonemuchotherwisethantheyactuallydid。Theymightperhapshavebeenlessprecipitate,andtriedtokeepthematteralittlemorequiet,butthiswouldnothavebeeneasy,norwouldithavemendedthingsverymaterially。 Thebitterfactremainsthatifagirldoescertainthingsshemustdothematherperil,nomatterhowyoungandprettysheisnortowhattemptationshehassuccumbed。Thisisthewayoftheworld,andasyettherehasbeennohelpfoundforit。 Ernestcouldonlyseewhathegatheredfromthecook,namely,thathisfavourite,Ellen,wasbeingturnedadriftwithamatterofthreepoundsinherpocket,togosheknewnotwhere,andtodosheknewnotwhat,andthatshehadsaidsheshouldhangordrownherself,whichtheboyimplicitlybelievedshewould。 Withgreaterpromptitudethanhehadshownyet,hereckoneduphismoneyandfoundhehadtwoshillingsandthreepenceathiscommand; therewashisknifewhichmightsellforashilling,andtherewasthesilverwatchhisAuntAletheahadgivenhimshortlybeforeshedied。Thecarriagehadbeengonenowafullquarterofanhour,anditmusthavegotsomedistanceahead,buthewoulddohisbesttocatchitup,andtherewereshortcutswhichwouldperhapsgivehimachance。Hewasoffatonce,andfromthetopofthehilljustpasttheRectorypaddockhecouldseethecarriage,lookingverysmall,onabitofroadwhichshowedperhapsamileandahalfinfrontofhim。 OneofthemostpopularamusementsatRoughboroughwasaninstitutioncalled“thehounds“——morecommonlyknownelsewhereas“hareandhounds。”butinthiscasetheharewasacoupleofboyswhowerecalledfoxes,andboysaresoparticularaboutcorrectnessofnomenclaturewheretheirsportsareconcernedthatIdarenotsaytheyplayed“hareandhounds“;thesewere“thehounds。”andthatwasall。Ernest’swantofmuscularstrengthdidnottellagainsthimhere;therewasnojostlingupagainstboyswho,thoughneitheroldernortallerthanhe,wereyetmorerobustlybuilt;ifitcametomereendurancehewasasgoodasanyoneelse,sowhenhiscarpenteringwasstoppedhehadnaturallytakento“thehounds“ashisfavouriteamusement。Hislungsthusexercisedhadbecomedeveloped,andasarunofsixorsevenmilesacrosscountrywasnotmorethanhewasusedto,hedidnotdespairbythehelpoftheshortcutsofovertakingthecarriage,orattheworstofcatchingEllenatthestationbeforethetrainleft。Soheranandranandrantillhisfirstwindwasgoneandhissecondcame,andhecouldbreathemoreeasily。Neverwith“thehounds“hadherunsofastandwithsofewbreaksasnow,butwithallhiseffortsandthehelpoftheshortcutshedidnotcatchupthecarriage,andwouldprobablynothavedonesohadnotJohnhappenedtoturnhisheadandseenhimrunningandmakingsignsforthecarriagetostopaquarterofamileoff。Hewasnowaboutfivemilesfromhome,andwasnearlydoneup。 Hewascrimsonwithhisexertion;coveredwithdust,andwithhistrousersandcoatsleevesatrifleshortforhimhecutapoorfigureenoughashethrustonEllenhiswatch,hisknife,andthelittlemoneyhehad。Theonethingheimploredofherwasnottodothosedreadfulthingswhichshethreatened——forhissakeiffornootherreason。 Ellenatfirstwouldnothearoftakinganythingfromhim,butthecoachman,whowasfromthenorthcountry,sidedwithErnest。“Takeit,mylass。”hesaidkindly,“takewhatthoucanstgetwhilesthoucanstgetit;asforMasterErnesthere——hehasrunwellafterthee;