第33章

类别:其他 作者:Samuel Butler字数:4397更新时间:18/12/21 17:25:17
UptothistimeTheobald’smannerhadbeenstudiouslycalm,andhiswordshadbeenutteredslowly,butherehesuddenlyquickenedandflungoffthemaskasheaddedthewords,“orsomesuchcockandbullstory,whichyourmotherandIweretootruthfultodisbelieve。 Youcanguesswhatmustbeourfeelingsnow。” Ernestfeltthatthislasthome-thrustwasjust。Inhislessanxiousmomentshehadthoughthispapaandmamma“green“forthereadinesswithwhichtheybelievedhim,buthecouldnotdenythattheircredulitywasaproofoftheirhabitualtruthfulnessofmind。 Incommonjusticehemustownthatitwasverydreadfulfortwosuchtruthfulpeopletohaveasonasuntruthfulasheknewhimselftobe。 “BelievingthatasonofyourmotherandmyselfwouldbeincapableoffalsehoodIatonceassumedthatsometramphadpickedthewatchupandwasnowtryingtodisposeofit。” Thistothebestofmybeliefwasnotaccurate。Theobald’sfirstassumptionhadbeenthatitwasErnestwhowastryingtosellthewatch,anditwasaninspirationofthemomenttosaythathismagnanimousmindhadatonceconceivedtheideaofatramp。 “YoumayimaginehowshockedIwaswhenIdiscoveredthatthewatchhadbeenbroughtforsalebythatmiserablewomanEllen“——hereErnest’shearthardenedalittle,andhefeltasnearanapproachtoaninstincttoturnasonesodefencelesscouldbeexpectedtofeel; hisfatherquicklyperceivedthisandcontinued,“whowasturnedoutofthishouseincircumstanceswhichIwillnotpolluteyourearsbymoreparticularlydescribing。 “Iputasidethehorridconvictionwhichwasbeginningtodawnuponme,andassumedthatintheintervalbetweenherdismissalandherleavingthishouse,shehadaddedthefttoherothersin,andhavingfoundyourwatchinyourbedroomhadpurloinedit。Itevenoccurredtomethatyoumighthavemissedyourwatchafterthewomanwasgone,and,suspectingwhohadtakenit,hadrunafterthecarriageinordertorecoverit;butwhenItoldtheshopmanofmysuspicionsheassuredmethatthepersonwholeftitwithhimhaddeclaredmostsolemnlythatithadbeengivenherbyhermaster’sson,whosepropertyitwas,andwhohadaperfectrighttodisposeofit。 “Hetoldmefurtherthat,thinkingthecircumstancesinwhichthewatchwasofferedforsalesomewhatsuspicious,hehadinsisteduponthewoman’stellinghimthewholestoryofhowshecamebyit,beforehewouldconsenttobuyitofher。 “Hesaidthatatfirst——aswomenofthatstampinvariablydo——shetriedprevarication,butonbeingthreatenedthatsheshouldatoncebegivenintocustodyifshedidnottellthewholetruth,shedescribedthewayinwhichyouhadrunafterthecarriage,tillasshesaidyouwereblackintheface,andinsistedongivingherallyourpocketmoney,yourknifeandyourwatch。SheaddedthatmycoachmanJohn——whomIshallinstantlydischarge——waswitnesstothewholetransaction。Now,Ernest,bepleasedtotellmewhetherthisappallingstoryistrueorfalse?” ItneveroccurredtoErnesttoaskhisfatherwhyhedidnothitamanhisownsize,ortostophimmidwayinthestorywitharemonstranceagainstbeingkickedwhenhewasdown。Theboywastoomuchshockedandshakentobeinventive;hecouldonlydriftandstammeroutthatthetalewastrue。 “SoIfeared。”saidTheobald,“andnow,Ernest,begoodenoughtoringthebell。” Whenthebellhadbeenanswered,TheobalddesiredthatJohnshouldbesentfor,andwhenJohncameTheobaldcalculatedthewagesduetohimanddesiredhimatoncetoleavethehouse。 John’smannerwasquietandrespectful。Hetookhisdismissalasamatterofcourse,forTheobaldhadhintedenoughtomakehimunderstandwhyhewasbeingdischarged,butwhenhesawErnestsittingpaleandawe-struckontheedgeofhischairagainstthedining-roomwall,asuddenthoughtseemedtostrikehim,andturningtoTheobaldhesaidinabroadnorthernaccentwhichIwillnotattempttoreproduce: “Lookhere,master,Icanguesswhatallthisisabout——nowbeforeI goesIwanttohaveawordwithyou。” “Ernest。”saidTheobald,“leavetheroom。” “No,MasterErnest,youshan’t。”saidJohn,plantinghimselfagainstthedoor。“Now,master。”hecontinued,“youmaydoasyoupleaseaboutme。I’vebeenagoodservanttoyou,andIdon’tmeantosayasyou’vebeenabadmastertome,butIdosaythatifyoubearhardlyonMasterErnesthereIhavethoseinthevillageas’llhearon’tandletmeknow;andifIdohearon’tI’llcomebackandbreakeveryboneinyourskin,sothere!” John’sbreathcameandwentquickly,asthoughhewouldhavebeenwellenoughpleasedtobeginthebone-breakingbusinessatonce。 Theobaldturnedofanashencolour——not,asheexplainedafterwards,attheidlethreatsofadetectedandangryruffian,butatsuchatrociousinsolencefromoneofhisownservants。 “IshallleaveMasterErnest,John。”herejoinedproudly,“tothereproachesofhisownconscience。”(“ThankGodandthankJohn。” thoughtErnest。)“Asforyourself,Iadmitthatyouhavebeenanexcellentservantuntilthisunfortunatebusinesscameon,andI shallhavemuchpleasureingivingyouacharacterifyouwantone。 Haveyouanythingmoretosay?” “NomorenorwhatIhavesaid。”saidJohnsullenly,“butwhatI’vesaidImeansandI’llstickto——characterornocharacter。” “Oh,youneednotbeafraidaboutyourcharacter,John。”saidTheobaldkindly,“andasitisgettinglate,therecanbenooccasionforyoutoleavethehousebeforeto-morrowmorning。” TothistherewasnoreplyfromJohn,whoretired,packeduphisthings,andleftthehouseatonce。 WhenChristinaheardwhathadhappenedshesaidshecouldcondoneallexceptthatTheobaldshouldhavebeensubjectedtosuchinsolencefromoneofhisownservantsthroughthemisconductofhisson。Theobaldwasthebravestmaninthewholeworld,andcouldeasilyhavecollaredthewretchandturnedhimoutoftheroom,buthowfarmoredignified,howfarnoblerhadbeenhisreply!Howitwouldtellinanoveloruponthestage,forthoughthestageasawholewasimmoral,yetthereweredoubtlesssomeplayswhichwereimprovingspectacles。ShecouldfancythewholehousehushedwithexcitementathearingJohn’smenace,andhardlybreathingbyreasonoftheirinterestandexpectationofthecominganswer。Thentheactor——probablythegreatandgoodMrMacready——wouldsay,“IshallleaveMasterErnest,John,tothereproachesofhisownconscience。” Oh,itwassublime!Whataroarofapplausemustfollow!Thensheshouldenterherself,andflingherarmsaboutherhusband’sneck,andcallhimherlion-heartedhusband。Whenthecurtaindropped,itwouldbebuzzedaboutthehousethatthescenejustwitnessedhadbeendrawnfromreallife,andhadactuallyoccurredinthehouseholdoftheRev。TheobaldPontifex,whohadmarriedaMissAllaby,etc。,etc。 AsregardsErnestthesuspicionswhichhadalreadycrossedhermindweredeepened,butshethoughtitbettertoleavethematterwhereitwas。Atpresentshewasinaverystrongposition。Ernest’sofficialpuritywasfirmlyestablished,butatthesametimehehadshownhimselfsosusceptiblethatshewasabletofusetwocontradictoryimpressionsconcerninghimintoasingleidea,andconsiderhimasakindofJosephandDonJuaninone。Thiswaswhatshehadwantedallalong,buthervanitybeinggratifiedbythepossessionofsuchason,therewasanendofit;thesonhimselfwasnaught。 NodoubtifJohnhadnotinterfered,Ernestwouldhavehadtoexpiatehisoffencewithache,penuryandimprisonment。Asitwastheboywas“toconsiderhimself“asundergoingthesepunishments,andassufferingpangsofunavailingremorseinflictedonhimbyhisconscienceintothebargain;butbeyondthefactthatTheobaldkepthimmorecloselytohisholidaytask,andthecontinuedcoldnessofhisparents,noostensiblepunishmentwasmetedouttohim。Ernest,however,tellsmethathelooksbackuponthisasthetimewhenhebegantoknowthathehadacordialandactivedislikeforbothhisparents,whichIsupposemeansthathewasnowbeginningtobeawarethathewasreachingman’sestate。 Aboutaweekbeforehewentbacktoschoolhisfatheragainsentforhimintothedining-room,andtoldhimthatheshouldrestorehimhiswatch,butthatheshoulddeductthesumhehadpaidforit——forhehadthoughtitbettertopayafewshillingsratherthandisputetheownershipofthewatch,seeingthatErnesthadundoubtedlygivenittoEllen——fromhispocketmoney,inpaymentswhichshouldextendovertwohalfyears。HewouldthereforehavetogobacktoRoughboroughthishalfyearwithonlyfiveshillings’pocketmoney。 Ifhewantedmorehemustearnmoremeritmoney。 Ernestwasnotsocarefulaboutmoneyasapatternboyshouldbe。 Hedidnotsaytohimself,“NowIhavegotasovereignwhichmustlastmefifteenweeks,thereforeImayspendexactlyoneshillingandfourpenceineachweek“——andspendexactlyoneandfourpenceineachweekaccordingly。Heranthroughhismoneyataboutthesamerateasotherboysdid,beingprettywellcleanedoutafewdaysafterhehadgotbacktoschool。Whenhehadnomoremoney,hegotalittleintodebt,andwhenasfarindebtashecouldseehiswaytorepaying,hewentwithoutluxuries。Immediatelyhegotanymoneyhewouldpayhisdebts;iftherewasanyoverhewouldspendit;iftherewasnot——andthereseldomwas——hewouldbegintogoontickagain。 Hisfinancewasalwaysbaseduponthesuppositionthatheshouldgobacktoschoolwith1poundsinhispocket——ofwhichheowedsayamatteroffifteenshillings。Therewouldbefiveshillingsforsundryschoolsubscriptions——butwhenthesewerepaidtheweeklyallowanceofsixpencegiventoeachboyinhall,hismeritmoney(whichthishalfhewasresolvedshouldcometoagoodsum)andrenewedcredit,wouldcarryhimthroughthehalf。 Thesuddenfailureof15/-wasdisastroustomyhero’sschemeoffinance。HisfacebetrayedhisemotionssoclearlythatTheobaldsaidhewasdetermined“tolearnthetruthatonce,andTHISTIME withoutdaysanddaysoffalsehood“beforehereachedit。Themelancholyfactwasnotlongincomingout,namely,thatthewretchedErnestaddeddebttothevicesofidleness,falsehoodandpossibly——foritwasnotimpossible——immorality。