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类别:其他 作者:Samuel Butler字数:4857更新时间:18/12/21 17:25:17
Thencameanevenworsereflection;howifhehadfallenamongmaterialthievesaswellasspiritualones?Heknewverylittleofhowhismoneywasgoingon;hehadputitallnowintoPryer’shands,andthoughPryergavehimcashtospendwheneverhewantedit,heseemedimpatientofbeingquestionedastowhatwasbeingdonewiththeprincipal。Itwaspartoftheunderstanding,hesaid,thatthatwastobelefttohim,andErnesthadbettersticktothis,orhe,Pryer,wouldthrowuptheCollegeofSpiritualPathologyaltogether;andsoErnestwascowedintoacquiescence,orcajoled,accordingtothehumourinwhichPryersawhimtobe。 ErnestthoughtthatfurtherquestionswouldlookasifhedoubtedPryer’sword,andalsothathehadgonetoofartobeabletorecedeindecencyorhonour。This,however,hefeltwasridingouttomeettroubleunnecessarily。Pryerhadbeenalittleimpatient,buthewasagentlemanandanadmirablemanofbusiness,sohismoneywoulddoubtlesscomebacktohimallrightsomeday。 Ernestcomfortedhimselfasregardsthislastsourceofanxiety,butasregardstheother,hebegantofeelasthough,ifhewastobesaved,agoodSamaritanmusthurryupfromsomewhere——heknewnotwhence。 Nextdayhefeltstrongeragain。Hehadbeenlisteningtothevoiceoftheeviloneonthenightbefore,andwouldparleynomorewithsuchthoughts。Hehadchosenhisprofession,andhisdutywastoperseverewithit。IfhewasunhappyitwasprobablybecausehewasnotgivingupallforChrist。Lethimseewhetherhecouldnotdomorethanhewasdoingnow,andthenperhapsalightwouldbesheduponhispath。 Itwasallverywelltohavemadethediscoverythathedidn’tverymuchlikepoorpeople,buthehadgottoputupwiththem,foritwasamongthemthathisworkmustlie。SuchmenasTowneleywereverykindandconsiderate,butheknewwellenoughitwasonlyonconditionthathedidnotpreachtothem。Hecouldmanagethepoorbetter,and,letPryersneerasheliked,hewasresolvedtogomoreamongthem,andtrytheeffectofbringingChristtothemiftheywouldnotcomeandseekChristofthemselves。Hewouldbeginwithhisownhouse。 Whothenshouldhetakefirst?Surelyhecouldnotdobetterthanbeginwiththetailorwholivedimmediatelyoverhishead。Thiswouldbedesirable,notonlybecausehewastheonewhoseemedtostandmostinneedofconversion,butalsobecause,ifhewereonceconverted,hewouldnolongerbeathiswifeattwoo’clockinthemorning,andthehousewouldbemuchpleasanterinconsequence。Hewouldthereforegoupstairsatonce,andhaveaquiettalkwiththisman。 Beforedoingso,hethoughtitwouldbewellifheweretodrawupsomethinglikeaplanofacampaign;hethereforereflectedoversomeprettyconversationswhichwoulddoverynicelyifMrHoltwouldbekindenoughtomaketheanswersproposedforhimintheirproperplaces。Butthemanwasagreathulkingfellow,ofasavagetemper,andErnestwasforcedtoadmitthatunforeseendevelopmentsmightarisetodisconcerthim。Theysayittakesninetailorstomakeaman,butErnestfeltthatitwouldtakeatleastnineErneststomakeaMrHolt。Howif,assoonasErnestcamein,thetailorweretobecomeviolentandabusive?Whatcouldhedo?MrHoltwasinhisownlodgings,andhadarighttobeundisturbed。Alegalright,yes,buthadheamoralright?Ernestthoughtnot,consideringhismodeoflife。Butputthisononeside;ifthemanweretobeviolent,whatshouldhedo?PaulhadfoughtwithwildbeastsatEphesus——thatmustindeedhavebeenawful——butperhapstheywerenotverywildwildbeasts;arabbitandacanaryarewildbeasts;but,formidableornotaswildbeastsgo,theywould,neverthelessstandnochanceagainstStPaul,forhewasinspired; themiraclewouldhavebeenifthewildbeastsescaped,notthatStPaulshouldhavedoneso;but,howeverallthismightbe,ErnestfeltthathedarednotbegintoconvertMrHoltbyfightinghim。 Why,whenhehadheardMrsHoltscreaming“murder。”hehadcoweredunderthebedclothesandwaited,expectingtoheartheblooddrippingthroughtheceilingontohisownfloor。Hisimaginationtranslatedeverysoundintoapat,pat,pat,andonceortwicehethoughthehadfeltitdroppingontohiscounterpane,buthehadnevergoneupstairstotryandrescuepoorMrsHolt。HappilyithadprovednextmorningthatMrsHoltwasinherusualhealth。 Ernestwasindespairabouthittingonanygoodwayofopeningupspiritualcommunicationwithhisneighbour,whenitoccurredtohimthathehadbetterperhapsbeginbygoingupstairs,andknockingverygentlyatMrHolt’sdoor。HewouldthenresignhimselftotheguidanceoftheHolySpirit,andactastheoccasion,which,I suppose,wasanothernamefortheHolySpirit,suggested。Triplyarmedwiththisreflection,hemountedthestairsquitejauntily,andwasabouttoknockwhenheheardHolt’svoiceinsideswearingsavagelyathiswife。Thismadehimpausetothinkwhetherafterallthemomentwasanauspiciousone,andwhilehewasthuspausing,MrHolt,whohadheardthatsomeonewasonthestairs,openedthedoorandputhisheadout。WhenhesawErnest,hemadeanunpleasant,nottosayoffensivemovement,whichmightormightnothavebeendirectedatErnestandlookedaltogethersouglythatmyherohadaninstantaneousandunequivocalrevelationfromtheHolySpirittotheeffectthatheshouldcontinuehisjourneyupstairsatonce,asthoughhehadneverintendedarrestingitatMrHolt’sroom,andbeginbyconvertingMrandMrsBaxter,theMethodistsinthetopfloorfront。Sothiswaswhathedid。 Thesegoodpeoplereceivedhimwithopenarms,andwerequitereadytotalk。HewasbeginningtoconvertthemfromMethodismtotheChurchofEngland,whenallatoncehefoundhimselfembarrassedbydiscoveringthathedidnotknowwhathewastoconvertthemfrom。 HeknewtheChurchofEngland,orthoughthedid,butheknewnothingofMethodismbeyonditsname。Whenhefoundthat,accordingtoMrBaxter,theWesleyanshadavigoroussystemofChurchdiscipline(whichworkedadmirablyinpractice)itappearedtohimthatJohnWesleyhadanticipatedthespiritualenginewhichheandPryerwerepreparing,andwhenhelefttheroomhewasawarethathehadcaughtmoreofaspiritualTartarthanhehadexpected。ButhemustcertainlyexplaintoPryerthattheWesleyanshadasystemofChurchdiscipline。Thiswasveryimportant。 MrBaxteradvisedErnestonnoaccounttomeddlewithMrHolt,andErnestwasmuchrelievedattheadvice。Ifanopportunityaroseoftouchingtheman’sheart,hewouldtakeit;hewouldpatthechildrenontheheadwhenhesawthemonthestairs,andingratiatehimselfwiththemasfarashedared;theyweresturdyyoungsters,andErnestwasafraidevenofthem,fortheywerereadywiththeirtongues,andknewmuchfortheirages。Ernestfeltthatitwouldindeedbealmostbetterforhimthatamillstoneshouldbehangedabouthisneck,andhecastintothesea,thanthatheshouldoffendoneofthelittleHolts。However,hewouldtrynottooffendthem; perhapsanoccasionalpennyortwomightsquarethem。Thiswasasmuchashecoulddo,forhesawthattheattempttobeinstantoutofseason,aswellasinseason,would,StPaul’sinjunctionnotwithstanding,endinfailure。 MrsBaxtergaveaverybadaccountofMissEmilySnow,wholodgedinthesecondfloorbacknexttoMrHolt。HerstorywasquitedifferentfromthatofMrsJuppthelandlady。ShewoulddoubtlessbeonlytoogladtoreceiveErnest’sministrationsorthoseofanyothergentleman,butshewasnogoverness,shewasintheballetatDruryLane,andbesidesthis,shewasaverybadyoungwoman,andifMrsBaxterwaslandladywouldnotbeallowedtostayinthehouseasinglehour,notsheindeed。 MissMaitlandinthenextroomtoMrsBaxter’sownwasaquietandrespectableyoungwomantoallappearance;MrsBaxterhadneverknownofanygoingsoninthatquarter,but,blessyou,stillwatersrundeep,andthesegirlswereallalike,oneasbadastheother。 Shewasoutatallkindsofhours,andwhenyouknewthatyouknewall。 ErnestdidnotpaymuchheedtotheseaspersionsofMrsBaxter’s。 MrsJupphadgotroundthegreaternumberofhismanyblindsides,andhadwarnedhimnottobelieveMrsBaxter,whoselipshesaidwassomethingawful。 Ernesthadheardthatwomenwerealwaysjealousofoneanother,andcertainlytheseyoungwomenweremoreattractivethanMrsBaxterwas,sojealousywasprobablyatthebottomofit。Iftheyweremalignedtherecouldbenoobjectiontohismakingtheiracquaintance;ifnotmalignedtheyhadallthemoreneedofhisministrations。Hewouldreclaimthematonce。 HetoldMrsJuppofhisintention。MrsJuppatfirsttriedtodissuadehim,butseeinghimresolute,suggestedthatsheshouldherselfseeMissSnowfirst,soastoprepareherandpreventherfrombeingalarmedbyhisvisit。Shewasnotathomenow,butinthecourseofthenextday,itshouldbearranged。InthemeantimehehadbettertryMrShaw,thetinker,inthefrontkitchen。MrsBaxterhadtoldErnestthatMrShawwasfromtheNorthCountry,andanavowedfreethinker;hewouldprobably,shesaid,ratherlikeavisit,butshedidnotthinkErnestwouldstandmuchchanceofmakingaconvertofhim。 BeforegoingdownintothekitchentoconvertthetinkerErnestranhurriedlyoverhisanalysisofPaley’sevidences,andputintohispocketacopyofArchbishopWhateley’s“HistoricDoubts。”Thenhedescendedthedarkrottenoldstairsandknockedatthetinker’sdoor。MrShawwasverycivil;hesaidhewasratherthrongjustnow,butifErnestdidnotmindthesoundofhammeringheshouldbeverygladofatalkwithhim。Ourhero,assentingtothis,erelongledtheconversationtoWhateley’s“HistoricDoubts“——aworkwhich,asthereadermayknow,pretendstoshowthatthereneverwasanysuchpersonasNapoleonBuonaparte,andthussatirisestheargumentsofthosewhohaveattackedtheChristianmiracles。 MrShawsaidheknew“HistoricDoubts“verywell。 “Andwhatyouthinkofit?”saidErnest,whoregardedthepamphletasamasterpieceofwitandcogency。 “Ifyoureallywanttoknow。”saidMrShaw,withaslytwinkle,“I thinkthathewhowassowillingandabletoprovethatwhatwaswasnot,wouldbeequallyableandwillingtomakeacaseforthinkingthatwhatwasnotwas,ifitsuitedhispurpose。”Ernestwasverymuchtakenaback。HowwasitthatallthecleverpeopleofCambridgehadneverputhimuptothissimplerejoinder?Theansweriseasy:theydidnotdevelopitforthesamereasonthatahenhadneverdevelopedwebbedfeet——thatistosay,becausetheydidnotwanttodoso;butthiswasbeforethedaysofEvolution,andErnestcouldnotasyetknowanythingofthegreatprinciplethatunderliesit。 “Yousee。”continuedMrShaw,“thesewritersallgettheirlivingbywritinginacertainway,andthemoretheywriteinthatway,themoretheyarelikelytogeton。Youshouldnotcallthemdishonestforthisanymorethanajudgeshouldcallabarristerdishonestforearninghislivingbydefendingoneinwhoseinnocencehedoesnotseriouslybelieve;butyoushouldhearthebarristerontheothersidebeforeyoudecideuponthecase。” Thiswasanotherfacer。Ernestcouldonlystammerthathehadendeavouredtoexaminethesequestionsascarefullyashecould。