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类别:其他 作者:Samuel Butler字数:4847更新时间:18/12/21 17:25:17
“Youthinkyouhave。”saidMrShaw;“youOxfordandCambridgegentlementhinkyouhaveexaminedeverything。Ihaveexaminedverylittlemyselfexceptthebottomsofoldkettlesandsaucepans,butifyouwillanswermeafewquestions,IwilltellyouwhetherornoyouhaveexaminedmuchmorethanIhave。” Ernestexpressedhisreadinesstobequestioned。 “Then。”saidthetinker,“givemethestoryoftheResurrectionofJesusChristastoldinStJohn’sgospel。” IamsorrytosaythatErnestmixedupthefouraccountsinadeplorablemanner;heevenmadetheangelcomedownandrollawaythestoneandsituponit。Hewascoveredwithconfusionwhenthetinkerfirsttoldhimwithoutthebookofsomeofhismanyinaccuracies,andthenverifiedhiscriticismsbyreferringtotheNewTestamentitself。 “Now。”saidMrShawgoodnaturedly,“Iamanoldmanandyouareayoungone,soperhapsyou’llnotmindmygivingyouapieceofadvice。Ilikeyou,forIbelieveyoumeanwell,butyou’vebeenrealbadbroughtup,andIdon’tthinkyouhaveeverhadsomuchasachanceyet。Youknownothingofoursideofthequestion,andI havejustshownyouthatyoudonotknowmuchmoreofyourown,butIthinkyouwillmakeakindofCarlylesortofamansomeday。NowgoupstairsandreadtheaccountsoftheResurrectioncorrectlywithoutmixingthemup,andhaveaclearideaofwhatitisthateachwritertellsus,thenifyoufeelinclinedtopaymeanothervisitIshallbegladtoseeyou,forIshallknowyouhavemadeagoodbeginningandmeanbusiness。Tillthen,Sir,Imustwishyouaverygoodmorning。” Ernestretreatedabashed。AnhoursufficedhimtoperformthetaskenjoineduponhimbyMrShaw;andattheendofthathourthe“No,no,no。”whichstillsoundedinhisearsashehearditfromTowneley,cameringingupmoreloudlystillfromtheverypagesoftheBibleitself,andinrespectofthemostimportantofalltheeventswhicharerecordedinit。SurelyErnest’sfirstday’sattemptatmorepromiscuousvisiting,andatcarryingouthisprinciplesmorethoroughly,hadnotbeenunfruitful。ButhemustgoandhaveatalkwithPryer。HethereforegothislunchandwenttoPryer’slodgings。Pryernotbeingathome,heloungedtotheBritishMuseumReadingRoom,thenrecentlyopened,sentforthe“VestigesofCreation。”whichhehadneveryetseen,andspenttherestoftheafternooninreadingit。 ErnestdidnotseePryeronthedayofhisconversationwithMrShaw,buthedidsonextmorningandfoundhiminagoodtemper,whichoflatehehadrarelybeen。Sometimes,indeed,hehadbehavedtoErnestinawaywhichdidnotbodewellfortheharmonywithwhichtheCollegeofSpiritualPathologywouldworkwhenithadoncebeenfounded。Italmostseemedasthoughheweretryingtogetacompletemoralascendencyoverhim,soastomakehimacreatureofhisown。 Hedidnotthinkitpossiblethathecouldgotoofar,andindeed,whenIreflectuponmyhero’sfollyandinexperience,thereismuchtobesaidinexcusefortheconclusionwhichPryercameto。 Asamatteroffact,however,itwasnotso。Ernest’sfaithinPryerhadbeentoogreattobeshakendownallinamoment,butithadbeenweakenedlatelymorethanonce。Ernesthadfoughthardagainstallowinghimselftoseethis,neverthelessanythirdpersonwhoknewthepairwouldhavebeenabletoseethattheconnectionbetweenthetwomightendatanymoment,forwhenthetimeforoneofErnest’ssnipe-likechangesofflightcame,hewasquickinmakingit;thetime,however,wasnotyetcome,andtheintimacybetweenthetwowasapparentlyallthatithadeverbeen。Itwasonlythathorridmoneybusiness(sosaidErnesttohimself)thatcausedanyunpleasantnessbetweenthem,andnodoubtPryerwasright,andhe,Ernest,muchtoonervous。However,thatmightstandoverforthepresent。 Inlikemanner,thoughhehadreceivedashockbyreasonofhisconversationwithMrShaw,andbylookingatthe“Vestiges。”hewasasyettoomuchstunnedtorealisethechangewhichwascomingoverhim。Ineachcasethemomentumofoldhabitscarriedhimforwardintheolddirection。HethereforecalledonPryer,andspentanhourandmorewithhim。 Hedidnotsaythathehadbeenvisitingamonghisneighbours;thistoPryerwouldhavebeenlikearedragtoabull。HeonlytalkedinmuchhisusualveinabouttheproposedCollege,thelamentablewantofinterestinspiritualthingswhichwascharacteristicofmodernsociety,andotherkindredmatters;heconcludedbysayingthatforthepresenthefearedPryerwasindeedright,andthatnothingcouldbedone。 “Asregardsthelaity。”saidPryer,“nothing;notuntilwehaveadisciplinewhichwecanenforcewithpainsandpenalties。Howcanasheepdogworkaflockofsheepunlesshecanbiteoccasionallyaswellasbark?Butasregardsourselveswecandomuch。” Pryer’smannerwasstrangethroughouttheconversation,asthoughhewerethinkingallthetimeofsomethingelse。HiseyeswanderedcuriouslyoverErnest,asErnesthadoftennoticedthemwanderbefore:thewordswereaboutChurchdiscipline,butsomehoworotherthedisciplinepartofthestoryhadaknackofdroppingoutafterhavingbeenagainandagainemphaticallydeclaredtoapplytothelaityandnottotheclergy:onceindeedPryerhadpettishlyexclaimed:“Oh,bothertheCollegeofSpiritualPathology。”Asregardstheclergy,glimpsesofaprettylargeclovenhoofkeptpeepingoutfromunderthesaintlyrobeofPryer’sconversation,totheeffect,thatsolongastheyweretheoreticallyperfect,practicalpeccadilloes——orevenpeccadaccios,ifthereissuchaword,wereoflessimportance。Hewasrestless,asthoughwantingtoapproachasubjectwhichhedidnotquiteventuretotouchupon,andkeptharping(hedidthisabouteverythirdday)onthewretchedlackofdefinitionconcerningthelimitsofviceandvirtue,andthewayinwhichhalftheviceswantedregulatingratherthanprohibiting。Hedweltalsoontheadvantagesofcompleteunreserve,andhintedthatthereweremysteriesintowhichErnesthadnotyetbeeninitiated,butwhichwouldenlightenhimwhenhegottoknowthem,ashewouldbeallowedtodowhenhisfriendssawthathewasstrongenough。 Pryerhadoftenbeenlikethisbefore,butneversonearly,asitseemedtoErnest,comingtoapoint——thoughwhatthepointwashecouldnotfullyunderstand。HisinquietudewascommunicatingitselftoErnest,whowouldprobablyerelonghavecometoknowasmuchasPryercouldtellhim,buttheconversationwasabruptlyinterruptedbytheappearanceofavisitor。Weshallneverknowhowitwouldhaveended,forthiswastheverylasttimethatErnesteversawPryer。PerhapsPryerwasgoingtobreaktohimsomebadnewsabouthisspeculations。 ErnestnowwenthomeandoccupiedhimselftillluncheonwithstudyingDeanAlford’snotesuponthevariousEvangelisticrecordsoftheResurrection,doingasMrShawhadtoldhim,andtryingtofindoutnotthattheywereallaccurate,butwhethertheywereallaccurateorno。Hedidnotcarewhichresultheshouldarriveat,buthewasresolvedthathewouldreachoneortheother。WhenhehadfinishedDeanAlford’snoteshefoundthemcometothis,namely,thatnooneyethadsucceededinbringingthefouraccountsintotolerableharmonywitheachother,andthattheDean,seeingnochanceofsucceedingbetterthanhispredecessorshaddone,recommendedthatthewholestoryshouldbetakenontrust——andthisErnestwasnotpreparedtodo。 Hegothisluncheon,wentoutforalongwalk,andreturnedtodinnerathalfpastsix。WhileMrsJuppwasgettinghimhisdinner—— asteakandapintofstout——shetoldhimthatMissSnowwouldbeveryhappytoseehiminaboutanhour’stime。Thisdisconcertedhim,forhismindwastoounsettledforhimtowishtoconvertanyonejustthen。Hereflectedalittle,andfoundthat,inspiteofthesuddenshocktohisopinions,hewasbeingirresistiblydrawntopaythevisitasthoughnothinghadhappened。Itwouldnotlookwellforhimnottogo,forhewasknowntobeinthehouse。HeoughtnottobeintoogreatahurrytochangehisopinionsonsuchamatterastheevidenceforChrist’sResurrectionallofasudden—— besidesheneednottalktoMissSnowaboutthissubjectto-day—— therewereotherthingshemighttalkabout。Whatotherthings? Ernestfelthisheartbeatfastandfiercely,andaninwardmonitorwarnedhimthathewasthinkingofanythingratherthanofMissSnow’ssoul。 Whatshouldhedo?Fly,fly,fly——itwastheonlysafety。ButwouldChristhavefled?EventhoughChristhadnotdiedandrisenfromthedeadtherecouldbenoquestionthatHewasthemodelwhoseexamplewewereboundtofollow。ChristwouldnothavefledfromMissSnow;hewassureofthat,forHewentaboutmoreespeciallywithprostitutesanddisreputablepeople。Now,asthen,itwasthebusinessofthetrueChristiantocallnottherighteousbutsinnerstorepentance。Itwouldbeinconvenienttohimtochangehislodgings,andhecouldnotaskMrsJupptoturnMissSnowandMissMaitlandoutofthehouse。Wherewashetodrawtheline?Whowouldbejustgoodenoughtoliveinthesamehousewithhim,andwhojustnotgoodenough? Besides,wherewerethesepoorgirlstogo?Washetodrivethemfromhousetohousetilltheyhadnoplacetoliein?Itwasabsurd;hisdutywasclear:hewouldgoandseeMissSnowatonce,andtryifhecouldnotinducehertochangeherpresentmodeoflife;ifhefoundtemptationbecomingtoostrongforhimhewouldflythen——sohewentupstairswithhisBibleunderhisarm,andaconsumingfireinhisheart。 HefoundMissSnowlookingveryprettyinaneatly,nottosaydemurely,furnishedroom。Ithinkshehadboughtanilluminatedtextortwo,andpinneditupoverherfire-placethatmorning。 Ernestwasverymuchpleasedwithher,andmechanicallyplacedhisBibleuponthetable。Hehadjustopenedatimidconversationandwasdeepinblushes,whenahurriedstepcameboundingupthestairsasthoughofoneoverwhomtheforceofgravityhadlittlepower,andamanburstintotheroomsaying,“I’mcomebeforemytime。”ItwasTowneley。 HisfacedroppedashecaughtsightofErnest。“What,youhere,Pontifex!Well,uponmyword!” Icannotdescribethehurriedexplanationsthatpassedquicklybetweenthethree——enoughthatinlessthanaminuteErnest,blushingmorescarletthanever,slunkoff,Bibleandall,deeplyhumiliatedashecontrastedhimselfandTowneley。BeforehehadreachedthebottomofthestaircaseleadingtohisownroomheheardTowneley’sheartylaughthroughMissSnow’sdoor,andcursedthehourthathewasborn。 ThenitflasheduponhimthatifhecouldnotseeMissSnowhecouldatanyrateseeMissMaitland。Heknewwellenoughwhathewantednow,andasfortheBible,hepusheditfromhimtotheotherendofhistable。Itfelloverontothefloor,andhekickeditintoacorner。ItwastheBiblegivenhimathischristeningbyhisaffectionateaunt,ElizabethAllaby。True,heknewverylittleofMissMaitland,butignorantyoungfoolsinErnest’sstatedonotreflectorreasonclosely。MrsBaxterhadsaidthatMissMaitlandandMissSnowwerebirdsofafeather,andMrsBaxterprobablyknewbetterthanthatoldliar,MrsJupp。Shakespearesays: OOpportunity,thyguiltisgreat’Tisthouthatexecut’stthetraitor’streason: