第50章

类别:其他 作者:Samuel Butler字数:4119更新时间:18/12/21 17:25:17
Thisadvice,besidesbeingobviouslysensible,wouldendinsavingErnestbothtimeandsuspenseofmind,sowehadnohesitationinadoptingit。Thecasewascalledonabouteleveno’clock,butwegotitadjournedtillthree,soastogivetimeforErnesttosethisaffairsasstraightashecould,andtoexecuteapowerofattorneyenablingmetoactforhimasIshouldthinkfitwhilehewasinprison。 ThenallcameoutaboutPryerandtheCollegeofSpiritualPathology。ErnesthadevengreaterdifficultyinmakingacleanbreastofthisthanhehadhadintellingusaboutMissMaitland,buthetoldusall,andtheupshotwasthathehadactuallyhandedovertoPryereveryhalfpennythathethenpossessedwithnoothersecuritythanPryer’sI。O。U。’sfortheamount。Ernest,thoughstilldecliningtobelievethatPryercouldbeguiltyofdishonourableconduct,wasbecomingalivetothefollyofwhathehadbeendoing; hestillmadesure,however,ofrecovering,atanyrate,thegreaterpartofhispropertyassoonasPryershouldhavehadtimetosell。 TowneleyandIwereofadifferentopinion,butwedidnotsaywhatwethought。 Itwasdrearyworkwaitingallthemorningamidsuchunfamiliaranddepressingsurroundings。IthoughthowthePsalmisthadexclaimedwithquietirony,“Onedayinthycourtsisbetterthanathousand。” andIthoughtthatIcouldutteraverysimilarsentimentinrespectoftheCourtsinwhichTowneleyandIwerecompelledtoloiter。Atlast,aboutthreeo’clockthecasewascalledon,andwewentroundtothepartofthecourtwhichisreservedforthegeneralpublic,whileErnestwastakenintotheprisoner’sdock。Assoonashehadcollectedhimselfsufficientlyherecognisedthemagistrateastheoldgentlemanwhohadspokentohiminthetrainonthedayhewasleavingschool,andsaw,orthoughthesaw,tohisgreatgrief,thathetoowasrecognised。 MrOttery,forthiswasourattorney’sname,tookthelinehehadproposed。Hecallednootherwitnessesthantherector,Towneleyandmyself,andthrewhimselfonthemercyofthemagistrate。Whenhehadconcluded,themagistratespokeasfollows:“ErnestPontifex,yoursisoneofthemostpainfulcasesthatIhaveeverhadtodealwith。Youhavebeensingularlyfavouredinyourparentageandeducation。Youhavehadbeforeyoutheexampleofblamelessparents,whodoubtlessinstilledintoyoufromchildhoodtheenormityoftheoffencewhichbyyourownconfessionyouhavecommitted。YouweresenttooneofthebestpublicschoolsinEngland。ItisnotlikelythatinthehealthyatmosphereofsuchaschoolasRoughboroughyoucanhavecomeacrosscontaminatinginfluences;youwereprobably,Imaysaycertainly,impressedatschoolwiththeheinousnessofanyattempttodepartfromthestrictestchastityuntilsuchtimeasyouhadenteredintoastateofmatrimony。AtCambridgeyouwereshieldedfromimpuritybyeveryobstaclewhichvirtuousandvigilantauthoritiescoulddevise,andevenhadtheobstaclesbeenfewer,yourparentsprobablytookcarethatyourmeansshouldnotadmitofyourthrowingmoneyawayuponabandonedcharacters。Atnightproctorspatrolledthestreetanddoggedyourstepsifyoutriedtogointoanyhauntwherethepresenceofvicewassuspected。Bydaythefemaleswhowereadmittedwithinthecollegewallswereselectedmainlyonthescoreofageandugliness。Itishardtoseewhatmorecanbedoneforanyyoungmanthanthis。Forthelastfourorfivemonthsyouhavebeenaclergyman,andifasingleimpurethoughthadstillremainedwithinyourmind,ordinationshouldhaveremovedit:nevertheless,notonlydoesitappearthatyourmindisasimpureasthoughnoneoftheinfluencestowhichIhavereferredhadbeenbroughttobearuponit,butitseemsasthoughtheironlyresulthadbeenthis—— thatyouhavenoteventhecommonsensetobeabletodistinguishbetweenarespectablegirlandaprostitute。 “IfIweretotakeastrictviewofmydutyIshouldcommityoufortrial,butinconsiderationofthisbeingyourfirstoffence,I shalldeallenientlywithyouandsentenceyoutoimprisonmentwithhardlabourforsixcalendarmonths。” TowneleyandIboththoughttherewasatouchofironyinthemagistrate’sspeech,andthathecouldhavegivenalightersentenceifhewould,butthatwasneitherherenorthere。WeobtainedleavetoseeErnestforafewminutesbeforehewasremovedtoColdbathFields,wherehewastoservehisterm,andfoundhimsothankfultohavebeensummarilydealtwiththathehardlyseemedtocareaboutthemiserableplightinwhichhewastopassthenextsixmonths。 Whenhecameout,hesaid,hewouldtakewhatremainedofhismoney,goofftoAmericaorAustraliaandneverbeheardofmore。 Welefthimfullofthisresolve,I,towritetoTheobald,andalsotoinstructmysolicitortogetErnest’smoneyoutofPryer’shands,andTowneleytoseethereportersandkeepthecaseoutofthenewspapers。Hewassuccessfulasregardsallthehigher-classpapers。Therewasonlyonejournal,andthatofthelowestclass,whichwasincorruptible。 Isawmysolicitoratonce,butwhenItriedtowritetoTheobald,I founditbettertosayIwouldrundownandseehim。Ithereforeproposedthis,askinghimtomeetmeatthestation,andhintingthatImustbringbadnewsabouthisson。IknewhewouldnotgetmylettermorethanacoupleofhoursbeforeIshouldseehim,andthoughttheshortintervalofsuspensemightbreaktheshockofwhatIhadtosay。 NeverdoIremembertohavehaltedmorebetweentwoopinionsthanonmyjourneytoBattersbyuponthisunhappyerrand。WhenIthoughtofthelittlesallow-facedladwhomIhadrememberedyearsbefore,ofthelongandsavagecrueltywithwhichhehadbeentreatedinchildhood——crueltynonethelessrealforhavingbeenduetoignoranceandstupidityratherthantodeliberatemalice;oftheatmosphereoflyingandself-laudatoryhallucinationinwhichhehadbeenbroughtup;ofthereadinesstheboyhadshowntoloveanythingthatwouldbegoodenoughtolethim,andofhowaffectionforhisparents,unlessIammuchmistaken,hadonlydiedinhimbecauseithadbeenkilledanew,againandagainandagain,eachtimethatithadtriedtospring。WhenIthoughtofallthisIfeltasthough,ifthematterhadrestedwithme,IwouldhavesentencedTheobaldandChristinatomentalsufferingevenmoreseverethanthatwhichwasabouttofalluponthem。Butontheotherhand,whenIthoughtofTheobald’sownchildhood,ofthatdreadfuloldGeorgePontifexhisfather,ofJohnandMrsJohn,andofhistwosisters,whenagainIthoughtofChristina’slongyearsofhopedeferredthatmakeththeheartsick,beforeshewasmarried,ofthelifeshemusthaveledatCrampsford,andofthesurroundingsinthemidstofwhichsheandherhusbandbothlivedatBattersby,Ifeltasthoughthewonderwasthatmisfortunessopersistenthadnotbeenfollowedbyevengraverretribution。 Poorpeople!Theyhadtriedtokeeptheirignoranceoftheworldfromthemselvesbycallingitthepursuitofheavenlythings,andthenshuttingtheireyestoanythingthatmightgivethemtrouble。 Asonhavingbeenborntothemtheyhadshuthiseyesalsoasfaraswaspracticable。Whocouldblamethem?Theyhadchapterandverseforeverythingtheyhadeitherdoneorleftundone;thereisnobetterthumbedprecedentthanthatforbeingaclergymanandaclergyman’swife。Inwhatrespecthadtheydifferedfromtheirneighbours?HowdidtheirhouseholddifferfromthatofanyotherclergymanofthebettersortfromoneendofEnglandtotheother? Whythenshouldithavebeenuponthem,ofallpeopleintheworld,thatthistowerofSiloamhadfallen? SurelyitwasthetowerofSiloamthatwasnaughtratherthanthosewhostoodunderit;itwasthesystemratherthanthepeoplethatwasatfault。IfTheobaldandhiswifehadbutknownmoreoftheworldandofthethingsthataretherein,theywouldhavedonelittleharmtoanyone。Selfishtheywouldhavealwaysbeen,butnotmoresothanmayverywellbepardoned,andnotmorethanotherpeoplewouldbe。Asitwas,thecasewashopeless;itwouldbenousetheirevenenteringintotheirmothers’wombsandbeingbornagain。Theymustnotonlybebornagainbuttheymustbebornagaineachoneofthemofanewfatherandofanewmotherandofadifferentlineofancestryformanygenerationsbeforetheirmindscouldbecomesuppleenoughtolearnanew。Theonlythingtodowiththemwastohumourthemandmakethebestofthemtilltheydied—— andbethankfulwhentheydidso。 TheobaldgotmyletterasIhadexpected,andmetmeatthestationnearesttoBattersby。AsIwalkedbackwithhimtowardshisownhouseIbrokethenewstohimasgentlyasIcould。Ipretendedthatthewholethingwasingreatmeasureamistake,andthatthoughErnestnodoubthadhadintentionswhichheoughttohaveresisted,hehadnotmeantgoinganythinglikethelengthwhichMissMaitlandsupposed。Isaidwehadfelthowmuchappearanceswereagainsthim,andhadnotdaredtosetupthisdefencebeforethemagistrate,thoughwehadnodoubtaboutitsbeingthetrueone。 TheobaldactedwithareadierandacutermoralsensethanIhadgivenhimcreditfor。 “Iwillhavenothingmoretodowithhim。”heexclaimedpromptly,“I willneverseehisfaceagain;donotlethimwriteeithertomeortohismother;weknowofnosuchperson。Tellhimyouhaveseenme,andthatfromthisdayforwardIshallputhimoutofmymindasthoughhehadneverbeenborn。Ihavebeenagoodfathertohim,andhismotheridolisedhim;selfishnessandingratitudehavebeentheonlyreturnwehaveeverhadfromhim;myhopehenceforthmustbeinmyremainingchildren。”