第52章

类别:其他 作者:Samuel Butler字数:5180更新时间:18/12/21 17:25:17
HowwasitthatDeanAlfordforexamplewhohadmadetheNewTestamenthisspeciality,couldnotorwouldnotseewhatwassoobvioustoErnesthimself?Coulditbeforanyotherreasonthanthathedidnotwanttoseeit,andifsowashenotatraitortothecauseoftruth?Yes,butwashenotalsoarespectableandsuccessfulman,andwerenotthevastmajorityofrespectableandsuccessfulmen,suchforexample,asallthebishopsandarchbishops,doingexactlyasDeanAlforddid,anddidnotthismaketheiractionright,nomatterthoughithadbeencannibalismorinfanticide,orevenhabitualuntruthfulnessofmind? Monstrous,odiousfalsehood!Ernest’sfeeblepulsequickenedandhispalefaceflushedasthishatefulviewoflifepresenteditselftohiminallitslogicalconsistency。Itwasnotthefactofmostmenbeingliarsthatshockedhim——thatwasallrightenough;buteventhemomentarydoubtwhetherthefewwhowerenotliarsoughtnottobecomeliarstoo。Therewasnohopeleftifthiswereso;ifthiswereso,lethimdie,thesoonerthebetter。“Lord。”heexclaimedinwardly,“Idon’tbelieveonewordofit。StrengthenThouandconfirmmydisbelief。”Itseemedtohimthathecouldneverhenceforthseeabishopgoingtoconsecrationwithoutsayingtohimself:“There,butforthegraceofGod,wentErnestPontifex。”Itwasnodoingofhis。Hecouldnotboast;ifhehadlivedinthetimeofChristhemighthimselfhavebeenanearlyChristian,orevenanApostleforaughtheknew。Onthewholehefeltthathehadmuchtobethankfulfor。 Theconclusion,then,thatitmightbebettertobelieveerrorthantruthshouldbeorderedoutofcourtatonce,nomatterbyhowclearalogicithadbeenarrivedat;butwhatwasthealternative?Itwasthis,thatourcriterionoftruth——i。e。thattruthiswhatcommendsitselftothegreatmajorityofsensibleandsuccessfulpeople——isnotinfallible。Theruleissound,andcoversbyfarthegreaternumberofcases,butithasitsexceptions。 Heaskedhimself,whatwerethey?Ah!thatwasadifficultmatter; thereweresomany,andtheruleswhichgovernedthemweresometimessosubtle,thatmistakesalwayshadandalwayswouldbemade;itwasjustthisthatmadeitimpossibletoreducelifetoanexactscience。Therewasaroughandreadyrule-of-thumbtestoftruth,andanumberofrulesasregardsexceptionswhichcouldbemasteredwithoutmuchtrouble,yettherewasaresidueofcasesinwhichdecisionwasdifficult——sodifficultthatamanhadbetterfollowhisinstinctthanattempttodecidethembyanyprocessofreasoning。 Instinctthenistheultimatecourtofappeal。Andwhatisinstinct?Itisamodeoffaithintheevidenceofthingsnotactuallyseen。Andsomyheroreturnedalmosttothepointfromwhichhehadstartedoriginally,namelythatthejustshalllivebyfaith。 Andthisiswhatthejust——thatistosayreasonablepeople——doasregardsthosedailyaffairsoflifewhichmostconcernthem。Theysettlesmallermattersbytheexerciseoftheirowndeliberation。 Moreimportantones,suchasthecureoftheirownbodiesandthebodiesofthosewhomtheylove,theinvestmentoftheirmoney,theextricationoftheiraffairsfromanyseriousmess——thesethingstheygenerallyentrusttoothersofwhosecapacitytheyknowlittlesavefromgeneralreport;theyactthereforeonthestrengthoffaith,notofknowledge。SotheEnglishnationentruststhewelfareofitsfleetandnavaldefencestoaFirstLordoftheAdmiralty,who,notbeingasailorcanknownothingaboutthesemattersexceptbyactsoffaith。Therecanbenodoubtaboutfaithandnotreasonbeingtheultimaratio。 EvenEuclid,whohaslaidhimselfaslittleopentothechargeofcredulityasanywriterwhoeverlived,cannotgetbeyondthis。Hehasnodemonstrablefirstpremise。Herequirespostulatesandaxiomswhichtranscenddemonstration,andwithoutwhichhecandonothing。Hissuperstructureindeedisdemonstration,buthisgroundisfaith。Noragaincanhegetfurtherthantellingamanheisafoolifhepersistsindifferingfromhim。Hesays“whichisabsurd。”anddeclinestodiscussthematterfurther。Faithandauthority,therefore,provetobeasnecessaryforhimasforanyoneelse。“Byfaithinwhat,then。”askedErnestofhimself,“shallajustmanendeavourtoliveatthispresenttime?”Heansweredtohimself,“AtanyratenotbyfaithinthesupernaturalelementoftheChristianreligion。” Andhowshouldhebestpersuadehisfellow-countrymentoleaveoffbelievinginthissupernaturalelement?LookingatthematterfromapracticalpointofviewhethoughttheArchbishopofCanterburyaffordedthemostpromisingkeytothesituation。ItlaybetweenhimandthePope。ThePopewasperhapsbestintheory,butinpracticetheArchbishopofCanterburywoulddosufficientlywell。 Ifhecouldonlymanagetosprinkleapinchofsalt,asitwere,ontheArchbishop’stail,hemightconvertthewholeChurchofEnglandtofreethoughtbyacoupdemain。TheremustbeanamountofcogencywhichevenanArchbishop——anArchbishopwhoseperceptionshadneverbeenquickenedbyimprisonmentforassault——wouldnotbeabletowithstand。Whenbroughtfacetofacewiththefacts,ashe,Ernest,couldarrangethem;hisGracewouldhavenoresourcebuttoadmitthem;beinganhonourablemanhewouldatonceresignhisArchbishopric,andChristianitywouldbecomeextinctinEnglandwithinafewmonths’time。This,atanyrate,washowthingsoughttobe。ButallthetimeErnesthadnoconfidenceintheArchbishop’snothoppingoffjustasthepinchwasabouttofallonhim,andthisseemedsounfairthathisbloodboiledatthethoughtofit。Ifthiswastobeso,hemusttryifhecouldnotfixhimbythejudicioususeofbird-limeorasnare,orthrowthesaltonhistailfromanambuscade。 Todohimjusticeitwasnothimselfthathegreatlycaredabout。 Heknewhehadbeenhumbugged,andheknewalsothatthegreaterpartoftheillswhichhadafflictedhimweredue,indirectly,inchiefmeasuretotheinfluenceofChristianteaching;still,ifthemischiefhadendedwithhimself,heshouldhavethoughtlittleaboutit,buttherewashissister,andhisbrotherJoey,andthehundredsandthousandsofyoungpeoplethroughoutEnglandwhoseliveswerebeingblightedthroughtheliestoldthembypeoplewhosebusinessitwastoknowbetter,butwhoscampedtheirworkandshirkeddifficultiesinsteadoffacingthem。Itwasthiswhichmadehimthinkitworthwhiletobeangry,andtoconsiderwhetherhecouldnotatleastdosomethingtowardssavingothersfromsuchyearsofwasteandmiseryashehadhadtopasshimself。IftherewasnotruthinthemiraculousaccountsofChrist’sDeathandResurrection,thewholeofthereligionfoundeduponthehistorictruthofthoseeventstumbledtotheground。“My。”heexclaimed,withallthearroganceofyouth,“theyputagipsyorfortune-tellerintoprisonforgettingmoneyoutofsillypeoplewhothinktheyhavesupernaturalpower;whyshouldtheynotputaclergymaninprisonforpretendingthathecanabsolvesins,orturnbreadandwineintothefleshandbloodofOnewhodiedtwothousandyearsago?What。” heaskedhimself,“couldbemorepure’hanky-panky’thanthatabishopshouldlayhishandsuponayoungmanandpretendtoconveytohimthespiritualpowertoworkthismiracle?Itwasallverywelltotalkabouttoleration;toleration,likeeverythingelse,haditslimits;besides,ifitwastoincludethebishopletitincludethefortune-tellertoo。”HewouldexplainallthistotheArchbishopofCanterburybyandby,butashecouldnotgetholdofhimjustnow,itoccurredtohimthathemightexperimentaliseadvantageouslyuponthevilersouloftheprisonchaplain。Itwasonlythosewhotookthefirstandmostobviousstepintheirpowerwhoeverdidgreatthingsintheend,sooneday,whenMrHughes—— forthiswasthechaplain’sname——wastalkingwithhim,ErnestintroducedthequestionofChristianevidences,andtriedtoraiseadiscussionuponthem。MrHugheshadbeenverykindtohim,buthewasmorethantwicemyhero’sage,andhadlongtakenthemeasureofsuchobjectionsasErnesttriedtoputbeforehim。IdonotsupposehebelievedintheactualobjectivetruthofthestoriesaboutChrist’sResurrectionandAscensionanymorethanErnestdid,butheknewthatthiswasasmallmatter,andthattherealissuelaymuchdeeperthanthis。 MrHugheswasamanwhohadbeeninauthorityformanyyears,andhebrushedErnestononesideasifhehadbeenafly。Hediditsowellthatmyheroneverventuredtotacklehimagain,andconfinedhisconversationwithhimforthefuturetosuchmattersaswhathehadbetterdowhenhegotoutofprison;andhereMrHugheswaseverreadytolistentohimwithsympathyandkindness。 Ernestwasnowsofarconvalescentastobeabletositupforthegreaterpartoftheday。Hehadbeenthreemonthsinprison,and,thoughnotstrongenoughtoleavetheinfirmary,wasbeyondallfearofarelapse。HewastalkingonedaywithMrHughesabouthisfuture,andagainexpressedhisintentionofemigratingtoAustraliaorNewZealandwiththemoneyheshouldrecoverfromPryer。 WheneverhespokeofthishenoticedthatMrHugheslookedgraveandwassilent:hehadthoughtthatperhapsthechaplainwantedhimtoreturntohisprofession,anddisapprovedofhisevidentanxietytoturntosomethingelse;now,however,heaskedMrHughespointblankwhyitwasthathedisapprovedofhisideaofemigrating。 MrHughesendeavouredtoevadehim,butErnestwasnottobeputoff。Therewassomethinginthechaplain’smannerwhichsuggestedthatheknewmorethanErnestdid,butdidnotliketosayit。Thisalarmedhimsomuchthathebeggedhimnottokeephiminsuspense; afteralittlehesitationMrHughes,thinkinghimnowstrongenoughtostandit,brokethenewsasgentlyashecouldthatthewholeofErnest’smoneyhaddisappeared。 ThedayaftermyreturnfromBattersbyIcalledonmysolicitor,andwastoldthathehadwrittentoPryer,requiringhimtorefundthemoniesforwhichhehadgivenhisI。O。U。’s。Pryerrepliedthathehadgivenorderstohisbrokertoclosehisoperations,whichunfortunatelyhadresultedsofarinheavyloss,andthatthebalanceshouldbepaidtomysolicitoronthefollowingsettlingday,thenaboutaweekdistant。Whenthetimecame,weheardnothingfromPryer,andgoingtohislodgingsfoundthathehadleftwithhisfeweffectsontheverydayafterhehadheardfromus,andhadnotbeenseensince。 IhadheardfromErnestthenameofthebrokerwhohadbeenemployed,andwentatoncetoseehim。HetoldmePryerhadclosedallhisaccountsforcashonthedaythatErnesthadbeensentenced,andhadreceived2315pounds,whichwasallthatremainedofErnest’soriginal5000pounds。Withthishehaddecamped,norhadweenoughclueastohiswhereaboutstobeabletotakeanystepstorecoverthemoney。Therewasinfactnothingtobedonebuttoconsiderthewholeaslost。ImaysayherethatneitherInorErnesteverheardofPryeragain,norhaveanyideawhatbecameofhim。 Thisplacedmeinadifficultposition。Iknew,ofcourse,thatinafewyearsErnestwouldhavemanytimesoverasmuchmoneyashehadlost,butIknewalsothathedidnotknowthis,andfearedthatthesupposedlossofallhehadintheworldmightbemorethanhecouldstandwhencoupledwithhisothermisfortunes。 TheprisonauthoritieshadfoundTheobald’saddressfromaletterinErnest’spocket,andhadcommunicatedwithhimmorethanonceconcerninghisson’sillness,butTheobaldhadnotwrittentome,andIsupposedmygodsontobeingoodhealth。Hewouldbejusttwenty-fouryearsoldwhenheleftprison,andifIfollowedouthisaunt’sinstructions,wouldhavetobattlewithfortuneforanotherfouryearsaswellashecould。Thequestionbeforemewaswhetheritwasrighttolethimrunsomuchrisk,orwhetherIshouldnottosomeextenttransgressmyinstructions——whichtherewasnothingtopreventmydoingifIthoughtMissPontifexwouldhavewishedit—— andlethimhavethesamesumthathewouldhaverecoveredfromPryer。