第19章

类别:其他 作者:William Morris字数:5186更新时间:18/12/21 17:26:42
Orhastthouperchanceheardanyeviltalesconcerningher?” NowRalphwasconfusedathisword,andknewnotwhattosay;forthoughinhismindhehadbeenpiecingtogetherallthathehadheardoftheladybothforgoodandforevil,hehadnocleartaletotelleventohimself: soheanswerednothing。 Butthepriestwenton:“Son,IshalltelltheethatsuchtalesIhaveheard,butfromwhosemouthforsooth?Iwilltellthee; fromasortofidlejades,youngwomenwhowouldbethoughtfairerthantheybe,whoareafraidofeverythingsaveanakedman,andwhocanlieeasierthantheycansaytheirpaternoster: fromsuchasthesecomethestories;orfromoldcroneswholiveinsourangerwiththemselvesandallelse,becausetheyhavelivednogoodlylifeintheiryouth,andhavenotlearnedthelovelinessofholychurch。Now,son,shallthetalesofsuchwomen,oldandyoung,weighinthymindbesidethewordItelltheeofwhatI haveseenandknowconcerningthismostexcellentofladies? Itrownot。AndformypartItellthee,thatthoughsheisverilyasfairasVenus(Godsaveus)yetissheaschasteasAgnes,aswiseasKatherine,andashumbleandmeekasDorothy。 Shebestowethhergoodsplentifullytothechurch,andismercifultopoormentherewith;andsofarasoccasionmayservehersheisconstantattheHolyOffice;neitherdothshesparetoconfesshersins,andtodoallpenancewhichisbiddenher,yeaandmore。 ForthoughIcannotsaytomyknowledgethatshewearethahair; yetonceandagainhaveIseenherwendingthiswoodlandtowardthechapelofherfriendSt。Anthonybynightandcloud,sothatfewmightseeher,obedienttotheScripturewhichsayeth,’Letnotthyrighthandknowwhatthylefthanddoeth,’andshebarefootinhersmockamidsttheruggedwood,andsoarrayedfairerthananyqueeninagoldengown。Yea,asfairasthewoodwivesoftheancientheathen。” Therewiththeprieststayedhiswords,andseemedasifhewerefallenintoadream;andhesighedheavily。 ButRalphwalkedonbyhisbridle-reindreamynoless; forthewordsthathehadheardheheedednot,saveastheymadepicturesforhimofthewaysofthatwomanoftheforest。 Sotheywentonsoberlytillthepriestlifteduphisheadandlookedaboutlikeonecomeoutofslumber,andsaidinafirmvoice: “Itellthee,myson,thatthoumayestsetthyloveuponherwithoutsin。”Andtherewithsuddenlyhefella-weeping; andRalphwasillateaseofhisweeping,andwentalongbyhimsayingnought;tillthepriestpluckedupheartagain,andsaid,turningtoRalph,butnotmeetinghiseye: “Myson,Iweepbecausemenandwomenaresoevil,andmis-sayeachothersosorely,evenastheydobythisholywoman。” Ashespakehistearsbrakeoutagain,andRalphstrodeonfast,soastooutgohim,thinkingitunmannerlytoseemasifhenotednothissorrow;yetwithalunabletosayaughttohimthereof。 Moreoveritirkedhimtohearagrownmanweepingforgrief,eventhoughitwerebutapriest。 Withinawhilethepriestcaughtupwithhim,histearsallstaunched,andfelltotalkwithhimcheerfullyconcerningthewood,andtheLittleLandandthedwellersthereinandtheconditionsofthem,andhepraisedthemmuch,savethewomen。 Ralphansweredhimwithgoodcheerinlikewise;andthustheycametothecotoftheoldwoman,andbothsheandthemaidenwerewithoutthehouse,theoldcarlinehitheringandthitheringonsomeerrand,themaidenleaningagainstatreeasifponderingsomematter。 Astheypassedby,thepriestblessedtheminwords,buthiseyesscowledonthem,whereatthecarlinegrinned,butthedamselheededhimnot,butlookedwistfullyonRalph。 Thepriestmutteredsomewhatashepassed,whichRalphcaughtnotthemeaningof,andfellmoodyagain; andwhenhewasalittlepastthefordhedrewreinandsaid: “Now,son,Imusttomycellhardbythechurchyonder: butyetIwillsayonewordtotheeerewesunder;towit,thattomymindtheHolyLadywilllovenoonebutthesaintsofheaven,saveitbesomemanwithwhomallwomenareinlove。” Therewithheturnedawaysuddenly,androdesmartlytowardshischurch;andRalphdeemedthathewasweepingoncemore。 AsforRalph,hewentquietlyhometowardthecastle,forthesunwassettingnow,andashewentheponderedallthesethingsinhisheart。 RalphWearethAwayThreeDaysUneasilyHereadagaininthebookthatnight,tillhehadgottenthewholetaleintohishead,andhespeciallynotedthisofit,thatittoldnotwhencethatLadycame,norwhatshewas,noraughtelsesavethatthereshewasinthewoodbyherself,andwasfoundthereinbytheking’sson: neithertoldthetaleinwhatyearoftheworldshewasfoundthere,thoughittoldconcerningallthewarandmiserieswhichshehadbred,andwhichlongendured。Again,hecouldnotgatherfromthatbookwhyshehadgonebacktotheloneplaceinthewoods,whereasshemighthaveweddedoneofthosewarringbaronswhosorelydesiredher: norwhyshehadyieldedherselftothewitchofthatplaceandenduredwithpatienceherthralldom,withstripesandtormentsofherbody,liketheworstofthethrallsoftheancientheathenmen。 Lastly,hemightnotlearnfromthebookwhereintheworldwasthatloneplace,oraughtoftheroadtotheWellattheWorld’sEnd。 Butamidstallhisthinkinghisheartcamebacktothis: “WhenImeether,shewilltellmeofitall;Ineedbenowiserthantolearnhowtomeetherandtomakeherloveme;thenshallsheshowmethewaytotheWellattheWorld’sEnd,andIshalldrinkthereofandnevergrowold,evenassheendurethinyouth,andsheshalllovemeforever,andIherforever。” Sohethought;butyetamidstthesehappythoughtscameinthisevilone,thatwhereasallthemen-folkspokewellofherandworshippedher,thewomen-folkfearedherorhatedher;eventothelecherousoldwomanwhohadpraisedthebeautyofherbodyforhistorment。 Sohethoughttillhisheadgrewheavy,andhewentandlaydowninhisbedandslept,anddreamedofthedaysofUpmead; andthingsforgotteninhiswakingtimecamebetweenhimandanymemoriesofhispresentlongingandthedaysthereof。 Heawokeandarosebetimesinthemorning,andwhenhehadbreakfastedhebadethecarlinebringhimhisweapons。“Wiltthouagaintothewood?”saidshe。 “Didstthounotbidmefarethitheryesterday?”saidhe。“Yea。”shesaid; “butto-dayIfearlestthoudepartandcomenotback。”Helaughedandsaid: “Seestthounot,mother,thatIgoafoot,andIinhauberkandhelm? Icannotrunfarorfastfromthee。Also“(andherehebrokeoffhisspeechalittle)“whereshouldIbebuthere?” “Ah。”shesaid,“butwhoknowswhatmayhappen?”Neverthelessshewentandfetchedhiswar-gearandlookedathimfondlyashediditon,andwenthiswaysfromthehall。 Nowheenteredthewoodmoretothesouththanhehaddoneyesterday,andwentsoftlyasbefore,andstillwasheturningoverinhismindthethoughtsoflastnight,andevertheycameback。“MightIbutseeher! Wouldshebutloveme!OforadraughtoftheWellattheWorld’sEnd,thatthelovemightlastlongandlong!” Sohewentonawhilebetwixtthetreesandthethickets,tillitwasalittlepastnoon。Butallonasuddenapanicfeartookhim,lestsheshouldindeedcometothecastlewhilehewasaway,andnotfindinghim,departagain,whoknowswhither;andwhenthisthoughtcameuponhim,hecriedaloud,andhastenedathisswiftestbackagaintothecastle,andcametherebreathlessandwearied,andrantotheoldwoman,andcriedouttoher;“Isshecome?isshecome?” Thecarlinelaughedandsaid,“Nay,sheisnot,butthouartcome: praisebetothesaints!Butwhataileththee?Nay,fearnot,sheshallcomeatlast。” ThengrewRalphshamefacedandturnedawayfromher,andmiscalledhimselfforafoolandadastardthatcouldnotabidethepleasureofhisladyattheveryplacewheretoshehadletleadhim。 Soheworethroughtheremnantofthedayhowsohemight,withoutgoingout-adoorsagain;andthecarlinecameandspakewithhim;butwhateverheaskedheraboutthelady,shewouldnottellaughtofanyimport,soherefrainedhimfromthattalk,andmadeashowofhearkeningwhenshespakeofothermatters; astalesconcerningthefolkoftheland,andtheFathersoftheThorn,andsoforth。 Onthenextmorninghearoseandsaidtohimself,thatwhateverbetid,hewouldbideinthecastleandthePlainofAbundancetilltheladycame; andhewentamongstthehaymakingfolkinthemorningandatehisdinnerwiththem,andstrovetobeofgoodcheer,andbelikethecarlesandqueensthoughthimmerrycompany;buthewasnowwearyinghisheartwithlonging,andmightnotabideanygreatwhileinoneplace;sowhen,dinnerover,theyturnedtotheirworkagain,hewentbacktotheCastle,andreadinthatbook,andlookedatthepicturesthereof,andkeptturninghiswonderandhopeandfearoverandoveragaininhismind,andmakingtohimselfstoriesofhowheshouldmeettheLadyandwhatshewouldsaytohim,andhowheshouldanswerher,tillatlastthenightcame,andhewenttohisbed,andsleptfortheverywearinessofhislonging。 Whenthenewdaycamehearoseandwentintothehall,andfoundthecarlinethere,whosaidtohim,“Fairsir,willthoutothewoodagainto-day?”“Nay。”saidRalph,“Imustnot,Idarenot。” “Well。”shesaid,“thoumayestifthouwilt;whyshouldstthounotgo?” SaidRalph,reddeningandstammering:“BecauseIfearto; thricehaveIbeenawaylongfromthecastleandallhasgonewell; butthefourthtimeshewillcomeandfindmegone。” Thecarlinelaughed:“Well。”shesaid,“Ishallbehereifthougoest; forIpromisetheenottostiroutofthehousewhilesthouartaway。” SaidRalph:“Nay,Iwillabidehere。”“Yea。”shesaid,“Isee: thoutrustestmenot。Well,nomatter;andto-dayitwillbehandyifthouabidest。ForIhaveanerrandtomybrotherintheflesh,whoisoneofthebrethrenoftheThornoveryonder。Ifthouwiltgivemeleave,itwillbetomypleasureandgain。” Ralphwasgladwhenheheardthis,deemingthatifshelefthimalonethere,hewouldbethelesstemptedtostrayintothewoodagain。 Besides,hedeemedthattheLadymightcomethatdaywhenhewasaloneintheCastle,andthathimseemedwouldmakethemeetingsweeteryet。 Soheyea-saidthecarline’saskingjoyously,andinanhour’stimeshewentherwaysandlefthimalonethere。 Ralphsaidtohimself,whenhesawherdepart,thathewouldhavethemorejoyinthecastleofhisLadyifhewerealone,andwouldwearawaythedayinbetterpatiencetherefor。 Butinsooththehoursofthatdaywereworsetowearthananydaytherehadyetbeen。Hewentnotwithoutthehouseatallthatday,forhedeemedthatthefolkabroadwouldnoteofhimthathewassochangedandrestless。 Whileshereadinthatbook,orturnedtheleavesover,notreadingit;whileshewentintotheChamberofEstate,andporedoverthewovenpicturestherewhereintheLadywasfigured。 Whileshewanderedfromchambertochamber,notknowingwhattodo。 Atlast,alittleafterdark,backcomesthecarlineagain,andhemetheratthedoorofthehall,forhewaswearyofhisowncompany,andtheceaselessturningoverandoverofthesamethoughts。 Asforher,shewassojoyousofhimthatshefairlythrewherarmsabouthimandkissedandclippedhim,asthoughshehadbeenhisverymother。 Whereofhehadsomeshame,butnotmuch,forhedeemedthathergoodwilltohimwasabundant,whichindeeditwas。 Nowshelooksonhimandsays:“Trulyitdoesmyheartgoodtoseethee: butthoupoorboy,thouartwearingthyselfwiththylonging,andthydoubting,andifthouwiltdoaftermyrede,thouwiltcertainlygointothewoodto-morrowandseewhatmaybefall; andindeedandinsooththouwiltleavebehindtheeatrustyfriend。” Helookedonherkindly,andsmiled,andsaid,“Insooth,mother,Ideemthouartbutright;thoughitbehardformetoleavethishouse,towhichinawaymyLadyhathbiddenme。 YetIwilldothybiddingherein。”Shethankedhim,andhewenttohisbedandslept;fornowthathehadmadeuphismindtogo,hewassomewhatmoreatrest。