第4章

类别:其他 作者:Wilkie Collins字数:3929更新时间:18/12/21 17:27:55
bonnet,shawl,andgownallofwhite——was,sofarasIcouldguess,certainlynotcomposedofverydelicateorveryexpensivematerials。Herfigurewasslight,andratherabovetheaverageheight——hergaitandactionsfreefromtheslightestapproachtoextravagance。ThiswasallthatIcouldobserveofherinthedimlightandundertheperplexinglystrangecircumstancesofourmeeting。Whatsortofawomanshewas,andhowshecametobeoutaloneinthehigh-road,anhouraftermidnight,Ialtogetherfailedtoguess。TheonethingofwhichIfeltcertainwas,thatthegrossestofmankindcouldnothavemisconstruedhermotiveinspeaking,evenatthatsuspiciouslylatehourandinthatsuspiciouslylonelyplace。 `Didyouhearme?’shesaid,stillquietlyandrapidly,andwithouttheleastfretfulnessorimpatience。`IaskedifthatwasthewaytoLondon。’ `Yes,’Ireplied,`thatistheway:itleadstoStJohn’sWoodandtheRegent’sPark。Youmustexcusemynotansweringyoubefore。Iwasratherstartledbyyoursuddenappearanceintheroad;andIam,evennow,quiteunabletoaccountforit。’ `Youdon’tsuspectmeofdoinganythingwrong,doyou?Ihavedonenothingwrong。Ihavemetwithanaccident——Iamveryunfortunateinbeingherealonesolate。Whydoyoususpectmeofdoingwrong?’ Shespokewithunnecessaryearnestnessandagitation,andshrankbackfrommeseveralplaces。Ididmybesttoreassureher。 `Praydon’tsupposethatIhaveanyideaofsuspectingyou,’Isaid,`oranyotherwishthantobeofassistancetoyou,ifIcan。Ionlywonderedatyourappearanceintheroad,becauseitseemedtometobeemptytheinstantbeforeIsawyou。’ Sheturned,andpointedbacktoaplaceatthejunctionoftheroadtoLondonandtheroadtoHampstead,wheretherewasagapinthehedge。 `Iheardyoucoming,’shesaid,`andhidtheretoseewhatsortofmanyouwere,beforeIriskedspeaking。Idoubtedandfearedaboutittillyoupassed;andthenIwasobligedtostealafteryou,andtouchyou。’ Stealaftermeandtouchme?Whynotcalltome?Strange,tosaytheleastofit`MayItrustyou?’sheasked。`Youdon’tthinktheworseofmebecauseIhavemetwithanaccident?’Shestoppedinconfusion;shiftedherbagfromonehandtotheother;andsighedbitterly。 Thelonelinessandhelplessnessofthewomantouchedme。Thenaturalimpulsetoassistherandtosparehergotthebetterofthejudgment,thecaution,theworldlytact,whichanolder,wiser,andcoldermanmighthavesummonedtohelphiminthisstrangeemergency。 `Youmaytrustmeforanyharmlesspurposes,’Isaid。`Ifittroublesyoutoexplainyourstrangesituationtome,don’tthinkofreturningtothesubjectagain。Ihavenorighttoaskyouforanyexplanations。TellmehowIcanhelpyou;andifIcan,Iwill。’ `Youareverykind,andIamvery,verythankfulltohavemetyou。’ ThefirsttouchofwomanlytendernessthatIhadheardfromhertrembledinhervoiceasshesaidthewords:butnotearsglistenedinthoselarge,wistfullyattentiveeyesofhers,whichwerestillfixedonme,`IhaveonlybeeninLondononcebefore,’shewenton,moreandmorerapidly,`andIknownothingaboutthatsideofit,yonder。CanISetafly,oracarriageofanykind?Isittoolate?Idon’tknow。Ifyoucouldshowmewheretogetafly——andifyouwillonlypromisenottointerferewithme,andtoletmeleaveyou,whenandhowIplease——IhaveafriendinLondonwhowillbegladtoreceiveme——Iwantnothingelse——willyoupromise?’ Shelookedanxiouslyupanddowntheroad;shiftedherbagagainfromonehandtotheother;repeatedthewords,`Willyoupromise?’andlookedhardinmyface,withapleadingfearandconfusionthatittroubledmetosee。 WhatcouldIdo?Herewasastrangerutterlyandhelplesslyatmymercy——andthatstrangeraforlornwoman。Nohousewasnear;noonewaspassingwhomIcouldconsult;andnoearthlyrightexistedonmyparttogivemeapowerofcontroloverher,evenifIhadknownhowtoexerciseit。I tracetheselines,self-distrustfully,withtheshadowsofaftereventsdarkeningtheverypaperIwriteon;andstillIsay,whatcouldIdo? WhatIdiddo,wastotryandgaintimebyquestioningher。 `AreyousurethatyourfriendinLondonwillreceiveyouatsuchalatehourasthis?’Isaid。 `Quitesure。OnlysayyouwillletmeleaveyouwhenandhowIplease——onlysayyouwon’tinterferewithme。Willyoupromise?’ Assherepeatedthewordsforthethirdtime,shecarneclosetomeandlaidherhand,withasuddengentlestealthiness,onmybosom——athinhand;acoldhand(whenIremoveditwithmine)evenonthatsultrynight。RememberthatIwasyoung;rememberthatthehandwhichtouchedmewasawoman’s。 `Willyoupromise?’ `Yes。’ Oneword!Thelittlefamiliarwordthatisoneverybody’slips,everyhourintheday。Ohme!andItremble,now,whenIwriteit。 WesetourfacestowardsLondon,andwalkedontogetherinthefirststillhourofthenewday——I,andthiswoman,whosename,whosecharacter,whosestory,whoseobjectsinlife,whoseverypresencebymyside,atthatmoment,werefathomlessmysteriestome。Itwaslikeadream。WasIWalterHartright?Wasthisthewell-known,uneventfulroad,whereholidaypeoplestrolledonSundays?HadIreallyleft,littlemorethananhoursince,thequiet,decent,conventionallydomesticatmosphereofmymother’scottage?Iwastoobewildered——tooconsciousalsoofavaguesenseofsomethinglikeself-reproach——tospeaktomystrangecompanionforsomeminutes。Itwashervoiceagainthatfirstbrokethesilencebetweenus。 `Iwanttoaskyousomething,’shesaidsuddenly。`DoyouknowmanypeopleinLondon?’ `Yes,agreatmany。’ `Manymenofrankandtitle?’Therewasanunmistakabletoneofsuspicioninthestrangequestion。Ihesitatedaboutansweringit。 `Some,’Isaid,afteramoment’ssilence。 `Many’——shecametoafullstop,andlookedmesearchinglyintheface——`manymenoftherankofBaronet?’ Toomuchastonishedtoreply,Iquestionedherinmyturn。 `Whydoyouask?’ `BecauseIhope,formyownsake,thereisoneBaronetthatyoudon’tknow。’ `Willyoutellmehisname?’ `Ican’t——Idaren’t——IforgetmyselfwhenImentionit。’Shespokeloudlyandalmostfiercely,raisedherclenchedhandintheair,andshookitpassionately;then,onasudden,controlledherselfagain,andadded,intonesloweredtoawhisper,`Tellmewhichofthemyouknow。’ Icouldhardlyrefusetohumourherinsuchatrifle,andImentionedthreenames。Two,thenamesoffathersoffamilieswhosedaughtersItaught; one,thenameofabachelorwhohadoncetakenmeacruiseinhisyacht,tomakesketchesforhim。 `Ah!youdon’tknowhim,’shesaid,withasighofrelief。`Areyouamanofrankandtitleyourself?’ `Farfromit。Iamonlyadrawing-master。’ Asthereplypassedmylips——alittlebitterly,perhaps——shetookmyarmwiththeabruptnesswhichcharacterisedallheractions。 `Notamanofrankandtitle,’sherepeatedtoherself。`ThankGod! Imaytrusthim。’ Ihadhithertocontrivedtomastermycuriosityoutofconsiderationformycompanion;butitgotthebetterofmenow。 `Iamafraidyouhaveseriousreasontocomplainofsomemanofrankandtitle?’Isaid。`Iamafraidthebaronet,whosenameyouareunwillingtomentiontome,hasdoneyousomegrievouswrong?Ishethecauseofyourbeingouthereatthisstrangetimeofnight?’ `Don’taskme:don’tmakemetalkofit,’sheanswered。`I’mnotfitnow。Ihavebeencruellyusedandcruellywronged。Youwillbekinderthanever,ifyouwillwalkonfast,andnotspeaktome。Isadlywanttoquietmyself,ifIcan。’ Wemovedforwardagainataquickpace;andforhalfanhour,atleast,notawordpassedoneitherside。Fromtimetotime,beingforbiddentomakeanymoreinquiries,Istolealookatherface。Itwasalwaysthesame;thelipscloseshut,thebrowfrowning,theeyeslookingstraightforward,eagerlyandyetabsently。Wehadreachedthefirsthouses,andwerecloseonthenewWesleyancollege,beforehersetfeaturesrelaxed,andshespokeoncemore。 `DoyouliveinLondon?’shesaid。 `Yes。’AsIanswered,itstruckmethatshemighthaveformedsomeintentionofappealingtomeforassistanceoradvice,andthatIoughttospareherapossibledisappointmentbywarmingherofmyapproachingabsencefromhome。SoIadded,`ButtomorrowIshallbeawayfromLondonforsometime。Iamgoingintothecountry。’ `Where?’sheasked。`Northorsouth?’ `North——toCumberland。’ `Cumberland!’sherepeatedthewordtenderly。`Ah!IwishIwasgoingtheretoo。IwasoncehappyinCumberland。’ Itriedagaintolifttheveilthathungbetweenthiswomanandme。 `Perhapsyouwereborn,’Isaid,`inthebeautifulLakecountry。’ `No,’sheanswered。`IwasborninHampshire;butIoncewenttoschoolforalittlewhileinCumberland。Lakes?Idon’trememberanylakes。It’sLimmeridgevillage,andLimmeridgeHouse,Ishouldliketoseeagain。’ Itwasmyturnnowtostopsuddenly。Intheexcitedstateofmycuriosity,atthatmoment,thechancereferencetoMrFairlie’splaceofresidence,onthelipsofmystrangecompanion,staggeredmewithastonishment。