第24章

类别:其他 作者:Wilkie Collins字数:3881更新时间:18/12/21 17:27:55
`No,no,’shesaid,earnestlyandkindly,`leaveuslikeafriend—— breakbreadwithusoncemore。Stayhereanddine,stayhereandhelpustospendourlasteveningwithyouashappily,aslikeourfirstevenings,aswecan。Itismyinvitation——MrsVesey’sinvitation——’shehesitatedalittle,andthenadded,`Laura’sinvitationaswell。’ Ipromisedtoremain。GodknowsIhadnowishtoleaveeventheshadowofasorrowfulimpressionwithanyofthem。 Myownroomwasthebestplaceformetillthedinnerbellrang。Iwaitedtheretillitwastimetogodownstairs。 IhadnotspokentoMissFairlie——Ihadnotevenseenher——allthatday。Thefirstmeetingwithher,whenIenteredthedrawing-room,wasahardtrialtoherself-controlandtomine。She,too,haddoneherbesttomakeourlasteveningrenewthegoldenbygonetime——thetimethatcouldnevercomeagain。ShehadputonthedresswhichIusedtoadmiremorethananyotherthatshepossessed——adarkbluesilk,trimmedquaintlyandprettilywithold-fashionedlace;shecameforwardtomeetmewithherformerreadiness——shegavemeherhandwiththefrank,innocentgood-willofhappierdays。Thecoldfingersthattrembledroundmine——thepalecheekswithabrightredspotburninginthemidstofthem——thefaintsmilethatstruggledtoliveonherlipsanddiedawayfromthemwhileIlookedatit,toldmeatwhatsacrificeofherselfheroutwardcomposurewasmaintained。Myheartcouldtakehernoclosertome,orIshouldhavelovedherthenasIhadneverlovedheryet。 MrGilmorewasagreatassistancetous。Hewasinhighgood-humour,andheledtheconversationwithunflaggingspirit。MissHalcombesecondedhimresolutely,andIdidallIcouldtofollowherexample。Thekindblueeyes,whoseslightestchangesofexpressionIhadlearnttointerpretsowell,lookedatmeappealinglywhenwefirstsatdowntotable。Helpmysister——thesweetanxiousfaceseemedtosay——helpmysister,andyouwillhelpme。 Wegotthroughthedinner,toalloutwardappearanceatleast,happilyenough。Whentheladieshadrisenfromtable,andMrGilmoreandIwereleftaloneinthedining-room,anewinterestpresenteditselftooccupyourattention,andtogivemeanopportunityofquietingmyselfbyafewminutesofneedfulandwelcomesilence。TheservantwhohadbeendespatchedtotraceAnneCatherickandMrsClementsreturnedwithhisreport,andwasshownintothedining-roomimmediately。 `Well,’saidMrGilmore,`whathaveyoufoundout?’ `Ihavefoundout,sir,’answeredtheman,`thatboththewomentookticketsatourstationhereforCarlisle。’ `YouwenttoCarlisle,ofcourse,whenyouheardthat?’ `ldid,sir,butIamsorrytosayIcouldfindnofurthertraceofthem。’ `Youinquiredattherailway?’ `Yes,sir。’ `Andatthedifferentinns?’ `Yes,sir。’ `AndyouleftthestatementIwroteforyouatthePolicestation?’ `Idid,sir。’。 `Well,myfriend,youhavedoneallyoucould,andIhavedoneallI could,andtherethemattermustresttillfurthernotice。Wehaveplayedourtrumpcards,MrHartright,’continuedtheoldgentlemanwhentheservanthadwithdrawn。`Forthepresent,atleast,thewomenhaveoutmanoeuvredus,andouronlyresourcenowistowaittillSirpercivalGlydecomeshereonMondaynext。Won’tyoufillyourglassagain?Goodbottleofport,that——sound,substantial,oldwine。Ihavegotbetterinmyowncellar,though。’ Wereturnedtothedrawing-room——theroominwhichthehappiesteveningsofmylifehadbeenpassed——theroomwhich,afterthislastnight,I wasnevertoseeagain。Itsaspectwasalteredsincethedayshadshortenedandtheweatherhadgrowncold。Theglassdoorsontheterracesidewereclosed,andhiddenbythickcurtains。Insteadofthesofttwilightobscurity,inwhichweused-cosit,thebrightradiantglowoflamplightnowdazzledmyeyes。Allwaschanged-in-doorsandoutallwaschanged。 MissHalcombeandMrGilmoresatdowntogetheratthecard-table—— MrsVeseytookhercustomarychair。Therewasnorestraintonthedisposaloftheirevening,andIfelttherestraintonthedisposalofmineallthemorepainfullyfromobservingit。lsawMissFairlielingeringnearthemusic-stand。ThetimehadbeenwhenImighthavejoinedherthere。 Iwaitedirresolutely——Iknewneitherwheretogonorwhattodonext。 Shecastonequickglanceatme,tookapieceofmusicsuddenlyfromthestand,andcametowardsmeofherownaccord。 `ShallIplaysomeofthoselittlemelodiesofMozart’swhichyouusedtolikesomuch?’sheasked,openingthemusicnervously,andlookingdownatitwhileshespoke。 BeforeIcouldthankhershehastenedtothepiano。Thechairnearit,whichIhadalwaysbeenaccustomedtooccupy,stoodempty。Shestruckafewchords——thenglancedroundatme——thenlookedbackagainathermusic。 `Won’tyoutakeyouroldplace?’shesaid,speakingveryabruptlyandinverylowtones。 `Imaytakeitonthelastnight,’Ianswered。 Shedidnotreply——shekeptherattentionrivetedonthemusic—— musicwhichsheknewbymemory,whichshehadplayedoverandoveragain,informertimes,withoutthebook。Ionlyknewthatshehadheardme,I onlyknewthatshewasawareofmybeingclosetoher,byseeingtheredspotonthecheekthatwasnearesttomefadeout,andthefacegrowpaleallover。 `Iamverysorryyouaregoing,’shesaid,hervoicealmostsinkingtoawhisper,hereyeslookingmoreandmoreintentlyatthemusic,herfingersflyingoverthekeysofthepianowithastrangefeverishenergywhichIhadnevernoticedinherbefore。 `Ishallrememberthosekindwords,MissFairlie,longaftertomorrowhascomeandgone。’ Thepalenessgrewwhiteronherface,andsheturneditfartherawayfromme。 `Don’tspeakoftomorrow,’shesaid。`Letthemusicspeaktousoftonight,inahappierlanguagethanours。’ Herlipstrembled——afaintsighflutteredfromthem,whichshetriedvainlytosuppress。Herfingerswaveredonthepiano——shestruckafalsenote,confusedherselfintryingtosetitright,anddroppedherhandsangrilyonherlap。MissHalcombeandMrGilmorelookedupinastonishmentfromthecard-tableatwhichtheywereplaying。EvenMrsVesey,dozinginherchair,wokeatthesuddencessationofthemusic,andinquiredwhathadhappened。 `Youplayatwhist,MrHartright?’askedMissHalcombe,withhereyesdirectedsignificantlyattheplaceIoccupied。 Iknewwhatshemeant——Iknewshewasright,andIroseatoncetogotothecard-table。AsIleftthepianoMissFairlieturnedapageofthemusic,andtouchedthekeysagainwithasurerhand。 `Iwillplayit,’shesaid,strikingthenotesalmostpassionately。 `Iwillplayitonthelastnight。’ `Come,MrsVesey,’saidMissHalcombe,`MrGilmoreandIaretiredofé;carté;——comeandbeMrHartright’spartneratwhist。’ Theoldlawyersmiledsatirically。Hishadbeenthewinninghand,andhehadjustturnedupaking。HeevidentlyattributedMissHalcombe’sabruptchangeinthecard-tablearrangementstoalady’sinabilitytoplaythelosinggame。 Therestoftheeveningpassedwithoutawordoralookfromher。Shekeptherplaceatthepiano,andIkeptmineatthecard-table。Sheplayedunintermittingly——playedasifthemusicwasheronlyrefugefromherself。 Sometimesherfingerstouchedthenoteswithalingeringfondness——asoft,plaintive,dyingtenderness,unutterablybeautifulandmournfultohear;sometimestheyfalteredandfailedher,orhurriedovertheinstrumentmechanically,asiftheirtaskwasaburdentothem。Butstill,changeandwaverastheymightintheexpressiontheyimpartedtothemusic,theirresolutiontoplayneverfaltered。SheonlyrosefromthepianowhenweallrosetosayGood-night。 MrsVeseywasthenearesttothedoor,andthefirsttoshakehandswithme。 `Ishallnotseeyouagain,MrHartright,’saidtheoldlady。`Iamtrulysorryyouaregoingaway。Youhavebeenverykindandattentive,andanoldwomanlikemefeelskindnessandattention。Iwishyouhappy,sir——Iwishyouakindgood-bye。’ MrGilmorecamenext。 `Ihopeweshallhaveafutureopportunityofbetteringouracquaintance,MrHartright。Youquiteunderstandaboutthatlittlematterofbusinessbeingsafeinmyhands?Yes,yes,ofcourse。Blessme,howcolditis! Don’tletmekeepyouatthedoor。Bonvoyage,mydearsir——bonvoyage,astheFrenchsay。’ Icouldaddnomore。Myvoicefaltered,myeyesmoistenedinspiteofme。 Shecaughtmebybothhands——shepressedthemwiththestrong,steadygraspofaman——herdarkeyesglittered——herbrowncomplexionflusheddeep——theforceandenergyofherfaceglowedandgrewbeautifulwiththepureinnerlightofhergenerosityandherpity。 `Iwilltrustyou——ifeverthetimecomesIwilltrustyouasmyfriendandherfriend,asmaybrotherandherbrother。’Shestopped,drewmenearertoher——thefearless,noblecreature——touchedmyforehead,sister-like,withherlips,andcalledmebymyChristianname。`Godblessyou,Walter!’shesaid。`Waitherealoneandcomposeyourself——Ihadbetternotstayforbothoursakes——Ihadbetterseeyougofromthebalconyupstairs。’