第25章

类别:其他 作者:Wilkie Collins字数:4496更新时间:18/12/21 17:27:55
Shelefttheroom。Iturnedawaytowardsthewindow,wherenothingfacedmebutthelonelyautumnlandscape——Iturnedawaytomastermyself,beforeItoolefttheroominmyturn,andleftitforever。 Aminutepassed——itcouldhardlyhavebeenmore——whenIheardthedooropenagainsoftly,andtherustlingofawoman’sdressonthecarpetmovedtowardsme。MyheartbeatviolentlyasIturnedround。MissFairliewasapproachingmefromthefartherendoftheroom。 Shestoppedandhesitatedwhenoureyesmet,andwhenshesawthatwewerealone。Then,withthatcouragewhichwomenlosesoofteninthesmallemergency,andsoseldominthegreat,shecameonnearertome,strangelypaleandstrangelyquiet,drawingonehandafterheralongthetablebywhichshewalked,andholdingsomethingathersideintheother,whichwashiddenbythefoldsofherdress。 `Ionlywentintothedrawing-room,’shesaid,`tolookforthis。Itmayremindyouofyourvisithere,andofthefriendsyouleavebehindyou。YoutoldmeIhadimprovedverymuchwhenIdidit,andIthoughtyoumightlike——’ Sheturnedherheadaway,andofferedmealittlesketch,drawnthroughoutbyherownpencil,ofthesummer-houseinwhichwehadfirstmet。Thepapertrembledinherhandasshehelditouttome——trembledinmineasI tookitfromher。 IwasafraidtosaywhatIfelt——Ionlyanswered,`Itshallneverleaveme——allmylifelongitshallbethetreasurethatIPrizemost。 Iamverygratefulforit——verygratefultoyou,fornotlettingmegoawaywithoutbiddingyougood-bye。’ `Oh!’shesaidinnocently,`howcouldIletyougo,afterwehavepassedsomanyhappydaystogether!’ `Thosedaysmayneverreturn,MissFairlie——mywayoflifeandyoursareveryfarapart。Butifatimeshouldcome,whenthedevotionofmywholeheartandsoulandstrengthwillgiveyouamoment’shappiness,orspareyouamoment’ssorrow,willyoutrytorememberthepoordrawing-masterwhohastaughtyou?MissHalcombehaspromisedtotrustme——willyoupromisetoo?’ Thefarewellsadnessinthekindblueeyesshonedimlythroughhergatheringtears。 `Ipromiseit,’shesaidinbrokentones。`Oh,don’tlookatmelikethat!Ipromiseitwithallmyheart。’ Iventuredalittlenearertoher,andheldoutmyhand。 `Youhavemanyfriendswholoveyou,MissFairlie。Yourhappyfutureisthedearobjectofmanyhopes。MayIsay,atparting,thatitisthedearobjectofmyhopestoo?’ Thetearsflowedfastdownhercheeks-Sherestedonetremblinghandonthetabletosteadyherselfwhileshegavemetheother。Itookitinmine——Ihelditfast。Myheaddroopedoverit,mytearsfellonit,mylipspressedit——notinlove;oh,notinlove,atthatlastmoment,butintheagonyandtheself-abandonmentofdespair。 `ForGod’ssake,leaveme!’shesaidfaintly。 Theconfessionofherheart’ssecretburstfromherinthosepleadingwords。Ihadnorighttohearthem,norighttoanswerthem——theywerethewordsthatbanishedme,inthenameofhersacredweakness,fromtheroom。Itwasallover。Idroppedherhand,Isaidnomore。Theblindingtearsshutheroutfrommyeyes,andIdashedthemawaytolookatherforthelasttime。Onelookasshesankintoachair,asherarmsfellonthetable,asherfairheaddroppedonthemwearily。Onefarewelllook,andthedoorhadcloseduponher——thegreatgulfofseparationhadopenedbetweenus——theimageofLauraFairliewasamemoryofthepastalready。 [NextChapter][TableofContents]WomaninWhite:Chapter8[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter8THESTORYCONTINUEDBYVINCENTGILMORE(ofChanceryLane,Solicitor)IIWRITEtheselinesattherequestofmyfriend,MrWalterHartright。TheyareintendedtoconveyadescriptionofcertaineventswhichseriouslyaffectedMissFairlie’sinterests,andwhichtookplaceaftertheperiodofMrHartright’sdeparturefromLimmeridgeHouse。 Thereisnoneedformetosaywhethermyownopiniondoesordoesnotsanctionthedisclosureoftheremarkablefamilystory,ofwhichmynarrativeformsanimportantcomponentpart。MrHartrighthastakenthatresponsibilityonhimself,andcircumstancesyettoberelatedwillshowthathehasamplyearnedtherighttodoso,ifhechoosestoexerciseit。Theplanhehasadoptedforpresentingthestorytoothers,inthemosttruthfulandmostvividmanner,requiresthatitshouldbetold,ateachsuccessivestageinthemarchofevents,bythepersonswhoweredirectlyconcernedinthoseeventsatthetimeoftheiroccurrence。Myappearancehere,asnarrator,isthenecessaryconsequenceofthisarrangement。IwaspresentduringthesojournofSirPercivalGlydeinCumberland,andwaspersonallyconcernedinoneimportantresultofhisshortresidenceunderMrFairlie’sroof。 Itismyduty,therefore,toaddthesenewlinkstothechainofevents,andtotakeupthechainitselfatthepointwhere,forthepresentonly,MrHartrighthasdroppedit。 IarrivedatLimmeridgeHouseonFridaythesecondofNovember。 MyobjectwastoremainatMrFairlie’suntilthearrivalofSirPercivalGlyde。IfthateventledtotheappointmentofanygivendayforSirPercival’sunionwithMissFairlie,IwastotakethenecessaryinstructionsbackwithmetoLondon,andtooccupymyselfindrawingthelady’smarriage-settlement。 OntheFridayIwasnotfavouredbyMrFairliewithaninterview。Hehadbeen,orhadfanciedhimselftobe,aninvalidforyearspast,andhewasnotwellenoughtoreceiveme。MissHalcombewasthefirstmemberofthefamilywhomIsaw。Shemetmeatthehousedoor,andintroducedmetoMrHartright,whohadbeenstayingatLimmeridgeforsometimepast。 IdidnotseeMissFairlieuntillaterintheday,atdinner-time。Shewasnotlookingwell,andIwassorrytoobserveit。Sheisasweetlovablegirl,asamiableandattentivetoeveryoneaboutherasherexcellentmotherusedtobe——though,personallyspeaking,shetakesafterherfather。 MrsFairliehaddarkeyesandhair,andherelderdaughter,MissHalcombe,stronglyremindsmeofher。MissFairlieplayedtousintheevening—— notsowellasusual,Ithought。Wehadarubberatwhist,amereprofanation,sofarasplaywasconcerned,ofthatnoblegame。IhadbeenfavourablyimpressedbyMrHartrightonourfirstintroductiontooneanother,butIsoondiscoveredthathewasnotfreefromthesocialfailingsincidentaltohisage。Therearethreethingsthatnoneoftheyoungmenofthepresentgenerationcando。Theycan’tsitovertheirwine,theycan’tplayatwhist,andtheycan’tpayaladyacompliment。MrHartrightwasnoexceptiontothegeneralrule。Otherwise,eveninthoseearlydaysandonthatshortacquaintance,hestruckmeasbeingamodestandgentlemanlikeyoungman。 SotheFridaypassed。Isaynothingaboutthemoreseriousmatterswhichengagedmyattentiononthatday——theanonymouslettertoMissFairlie,themeasuresIthoughtitrighttoadoptwhenthematterwasmentionedtome,andtheconvictionIentertainedthateverypossibleexplanationofthecircumstanceswouldbereadilyaffordedbySirPercivalGlyde,havingallbeenfullynoticed,asIunderstand,inthenarrativewhichprecedesthis。 OntheSaturdayMrHartrighthadleftbeforeIgotdowntobreakfast。 MissFairliekeptherroomallday,andMissHalcombeappearedtometobeoutofspirits。ThehousewasnotwhatitusedtobeinthetimeofMrandMrsPhilipFairlie。Itookawalkbymyselfintheforenoon,andlookedaboutatsomeoftheplaceswhichIfirstsawwhenIwasstayingatLimmeridgetotransactfamilybusiness,morethanthirtyyearssince。 Theywerenotwhattheyusedtobeeither。 Attwoo’clockMrFairliesenttosayhewaswellenoughtoseeme。 Hehadnotaltered,atanyrate,sinceIfirstknewhim。Histalkwastothesamepurposeasusual——allabouthimselfandhisailments,hiswonderfulcoins,andhismatchlessRembrandtetchings。ThemomentItriedtospeakofthebusinessthathadbroughtmetohishouse,heshuthiseyesandsaidI`upset’him。Ipersistedinupsettinghimbyreturningagainandagaintothesubject。AllIcouldascertainwasthathelookedonhisniece’smarriageasasettledthing,thatherfatherhadsanctionedit,thathesanctionedithimself,thatitwasadesirablemarriage,andthatheshouldbepersonallyrejoicedwhentheworryofitwasover。Astothesettlements,ifIwouldconsulthisniece,andafterwardsdiveasdeeplyasIpleasedintomyownknowledgeofthefamilyaffairs,andgeteverythingready,andlimithisshareinthebusiness,asguardian,tosayingYes,attherightmoment——why,ofcoursehewouldmeetmyviews,andeverybodyelse’sviews,withinfinitepleasure。Inthemeantime,thereIsawhim,ahelplesssufferer,confinedtohisroom。DidIthinkhelookedasifhewantedteasing? No。Thenwhyteasehim? Imight,perhaps,havebeenalittleastonishedatthisextraordinaryabsenceofallself-assertiononMrFairlie’spart,inthecharacterofguardian,ifmyknowledgeofthefamilyaffairshadnotbeensufficienttoremindmethathewasasingleman,andthathehadnothingmorethanalife-interestintheLimmeridgeproperty。Asmattersstood,therefore,Iwasneithersurprisednordisappointedattheresultoftheinterview。 MrFairliehadsimplyjustifiedmyexpectations——andtherewasanendofit。 Sundaywasadullday,outofdoorsandin。AletterarrivedformefromSirPercivalGlyde’ssolicitor,acknowledgingthereceiptofmycopyoftheanonymousletterandmyaccompanyingstatementofthecase。MissFairliejoinedusintheafternoon,lookingTaleanddepressed,andaltogetherunlikeherself。Ihadsometalkwithher,andventuredonadelicateallusiontoSirPercival。Shelistenedandsaidnothing。Allothersubjectsshepursuedwillingly,butthissubjectsheallowedtodrop。Ibegantodoubtwhethershemightnotberepentingofherengagement——justasyoungladiesoftendo,whenrepentancecomestoolate。 OnMondaySirPercivalGlydearrived。 Ifoundhimtobeamostprepossessingman,sofarasmannersandappearancewereconcerned。HelookedratherolderthanIhadexpected,hisheadbeingbaldovertheforehead,andhisfacesomewhatmarkedandworn,buthismovementswereasactiveandhisspiritsashighasayoungman’s。HismeetingwithMissHalcombewasdelightfullyheartyandunaffected,andhisreceptionofme,uponmybeingpresentedtohim,wassoeasyandpleasantthatwegotontogetherlikeoldfriends。MissFairliewasnotwithuswhenhearrived,butsheenteredtheroomabouttenminutesafterwards。