第28章

类别:其他 作者:Wilkie Collins字数:4313更新时间:18/12/21 17:27:55
Ilikedtofeelherheartyindignationflashoutonmeinthatway。 Weseesomuchmaliceandsolittleindignationinmyprofession。 `Inthatcase,’Isaid,`excusemeifItellyou,inourlegalphrase,thatyouaretravellingoutoftherecord。Whatevertheconsequencesmaybe,SirPercivalhasarighttoexpectthatyoursistershouldcarefullyconsiderherengagementfromeveryreasonablepointofviewbeforesheclaimsherreleasefromit。Ifthatunluckyletterhasprejudicedheragainsthim,goatonce,andtellherthathehasclearedhimselfinyoureyesandinmine。Whatobjectioncansheurgeagainsthimafterthat?Whatexcusecanshepossiblyhaveforchanginghermindaboutamanwhomshehadvirtuallyacceptedforherhusbandmorethantwoyearsago?’ `Intheeyesoflawandreason,MrGilmore,noexcuse,Idaresay。Ifshestillhesitates,andifIstillhesitate,youmustattributeourstrangeconduct,ifyoulike,tocapriceinbothcases,andwemustbeartheimputationaswellaswecan。’ Withthosewordsshesuddenlyroseandleftme。Whenasensiblewomanhasaseriousquestionputtoher,andevadesitbyaflippantanswer,itisasuresign,inninety-ninecasesoutofahundred,thatshehassomethingtoconceal。Ireturnedtotheperusalofthenewspaper,stronglysuspectingthatMissHalcombeandMissFairliehadasecretbetweenthemwhichtheywerekeepingfromSirPercival,andkeepingfromme。Ithoughtthishardonbothofus,especiallyonSirPercival。 Mydoubts——ortospeakmorecorrectly,myconvictions——wereconfirmedbyMissHalcombe’slanguageandmannerwhenIsawheragainlaterintheday。Shewassuspiciouslybriefandreservedintellingmetheresultofherinterviewwithhersister。MissFairlie,itappeared,hadlistenedquietlywhiletheaffairoftheletterwasplacedbeforeherintherightpointofview,butwhenMissHalcombenextproceededtosaythattheobjectofSirPercival’svisitatLimmeridgewastoprevailonhertoletadaybefixedforthemarriage,shecheckedallfurtherreferencetothesubjectbybeggingfortime。IfSirPercivalwouldconsenttospareherforthepresent,shewouldundertaketogivehimhisfinalanswerbeforetheendoftheyear。Shepleadedforthisdelaywithsuchanxietyandagitation,thatMissHalcombehadpromisedtouseherinfluence,ifnecessary,toobtainit,andthere,atMissFairlie’searnestentreaty,allfurtherdiscussionofthemarriagequestionhadended。 Thepurelytemporaryarrangementthusproposedmighthavebeenconvenientenoughtotheyounglady,butitprovedsomewhatembarrassingtothewriteroftheselines。Thatmorning’sposthadbroughtaletterfrommypartner,whichobligedmetoreturntotownthenextdaybytheafternoontrain。 ItwasextremelyprobablethatIshouldfindnosecondopportunityofpresentingmyselfatLimmeridgeHouseduringtheremainderoftheyear。Inthatcase,supposingMissFairlieultimatelydecidedonholdingtoherengagement,mynecessarypersonalcommunicationwithher,beforeIdrewhersettlement,wouldbecomesomethinglikeadownrightimpossibility,andweshouldbeobligedtocommittowritingquestionswhichoughtalwaystobediscussedonbothsidesbywordofmouth。IsaidnothingaboutthisdifficultyuntilSirPercivalhadbeenconsultedonthesubjectofthedesireddelay。Hewastoogallantagentlemannottogranttherequestimmediately。WhenMissHalcombeinformedmeofthisItoldherthatImustabsolutelyspeaktohersisterbeforeIleftLimmeridge,anditwas,therefore,arrangedthatIshouldseeMissFairlieinherownsitting-roomthenextmorning。 Shedidnotcomedowntodinner,orjoinusintheevening。Indispositionwastheexcuse,andIthoughtSirPercivallooked,aswellhemight,alittleannoyedwhenheheardofit。 Thenextmorning,assoonasbreakfastwasover,IwentuptoMissFairlie’ssitting-room。Thepoorgirllookedsopaleandsad,andcameforwardtowelcomemesoreadilyandprettily,thattheresolutiontolectureheronhercapriceandindecision,whichIhadbeenformingallthewayupstairs,failedmeonthespot。Iledherbacktothechairfromwhichshehadrisen,andplacedmyselfoppositetoher。Hercross-grainedpetgreyhoundwasintheroom,andIfullyexpectedabarkingandsnappingreception。Strangetosay,thewhimsicallittlebrutefalsifiedmyexpectationsbyjumpingintomylapandpokingitssharpmuzzlefamiliarlyintomyhandthemomentIsatdown。 `Youusedoftentositonmykneewhenyouwereachild,mydear,’I said,`andnowyourlittledogseemsdeterminedtosucceedyouinthevacantthrone。Isthatprettydrawingyourdoing?’ Ipointedtoalittlealbumwhichlayonthetablebyherside,andwhichshehadevidentlybeenlookingoverwhenIcamein。Thepagethatlayopenhadasmallwater-colourlandscapeveryneatlymountedonit。 Thiswasthedrawingwhichhadsuggestedmyquestion——anidlequestionenough——buthowcouldIbegintotalkofbusinesstoherthemomentI openedmylips? `No,’shesaid,lookingawayfromthedrawingratherconfusedly,`itisnotmydoing。’ Herfingershadarestlesshabit,whichIrememberedinherasachild,ofalwaysplayingwiththefirstthingthatcametohandwheneveranyonewastalkingtoher-Onthisoccasiontheywanderedtothealbum,andtoyedabsentlyaboutthemarginofthelittlewater-colourdrawing。Theexpressionofmelancholydeepenedonherface。Shedidnotlookatthedrawing,orlookatme。Hereyesmoveduneasilyfromobjecttoobjectintheroom,betrayingplainlythatshesuspectedwhatmypurposewasincomingtospeaktoher。Seeingthat,Ithoughtitbesttogettothepurposewithaslittledelayaspossible。 `Oneoftheerrands,mydear,whichbringsmehereistobidyougood-bye,’ Ibegan。`ImustgetbacktoLondontoday:and,beforeIleave,Iwanttohaveawordwithyouonthesubjectofyourownaffairs。’ `Iamverysorryyouaregoing,MrGilmore,’shesaid,lookingatmekindly。`Itislikethehappyoldtimestohaveyouhere。’ `IhopeImaybeabletocomebackandrecallthosepleasantmemoriesoncemore,’Icontinued;`butasthereissomeuncertaintyaboutthefuture,ImusttakemyopportunitywhenIcangetit,andspeaktoyounow。Iamyouroldlawyerandyouroldfriend,andImayremindyou,Iamsure,withoutoffence,ofthepossibilityofyourmarryingSirPercivalGlyde。’ Shetookherhandoffthelittlealbumassuddenlyasifithadturnedhotandburnther。Herfingerstwinedtogethernervouslyinherlap,hereyeslookeddownagainatthefloor,andanexpressionofconstraintsettledonherfacewhichlookedalmostlikeanexpressionofpain。 `Isitabsolutelynecessarytospeakofmymarriageengagement?’sheaskedinlowtones。 `Itisnecessarytorefertoit,’Ianswered,`butnottodwellonit。 Letusmerelysaythatyoumaymarry,orthatyoumaynotmarry。Inthefirstcase,Imustbeprepared,beforehand,todrawyoursettlement,andIoughtnottodothatwithout,asamatterofpoliteness,firstconsultingyou。Thismaybemyonlychanceofhearingwhatyourwishesare。Letus,therefore,supposethecaseofyourmarrying,andletmeinformyou,inasfewwordsaspossible,whatyourpositionisnow,andwhatyoumaymakeit,ifyouplease,inthefuture。’ Iexplainedtohertheobjectofamarriage-settlement,andthentoldherexactlywhatherprospectswere——inthefirstplace,onhercomingofage,andinthesecondplace,onthedeceaseofheruncle——markingthedistinctionbetweenthepropertyinwhichshehadalife-interestonly,andthepropertywhichwasleftatherowncontrol。Shelistenedattentively,withtheconstrainedexpressionstillonherface,andherhandsstillnervouslyclaspedtogetherinherlap。 `Andnow,’Isaidinconclusion,`tellmeifyoucanthinkofanyconditionwhich,inthecasewehavesupposed,youwouldwishmetomakeforyou——subject,ofcourse,toyourguardian’sapproval,asyouarenotyetofage。’ Shemoveduneasilyinherchair,thenlookedinmyfaceonasuddenveryearnestly。 `Ifitdoeshappen,’shebeganfaintly,`ifIam——’ `Ifyouaremarried,’Iadded,helpingherout。 `Don’tlethimpartmefromMarian,’shecried,withasuddenoutbreakofenergy。`Oh,MrGilmore,praymakeitlawthatMarianistolivewithme!’ UnderothercircumstancesImight,perhaps,havebeenamusedatthisessentiallyfeminineinterpretationofmyquestion,andofthelongexplanationwhichhadprecededit。Butherlooksandtones,whenshespoke,wereofakindtomakememorethanserious——theydistressedme。Herwords,fewastheywere,betrayedadesperateclingingtothepastwhichbodedillforthefuture。 `YourhavingMarianHalcombetolivewithyoucaneasilybesettledbyprivatearrangement,’Isaid。`Youhardlyunderstoodmyquestion,I think。Itreferredtoyourownproperty——tothedisposalofyourmoney。 Supposingyouweretomakeawillwhenyoucomeofage,whowouldyoulikethemoneytogoto?’ `Marianhasbeenmotherandsisterbothtome,’saidthegood,affectionategirl,herprettyblueeyesglisteningwhileshespoke。`MayIleaveittoMarian,MrGilmore?’ `Certainly,mylove,’Ianswered。`Butrememberwhatalargesumitis-WouldyoulikeitalltogotoMissHalcombe?’ Shehesitated;hercolourcameandwent,andherhandstolebackagaintothelittlealbum。 `Notallofit,’shesaid。`ThereissomeoneelsebesidesMarian——’ Shestopped;hercolourheightened,andthefingersofthehandthatresteduponthealbumbeatgentlyonthemarginofthedrawing,asifhermemoryhadsetthemgoingmechanicallywiththeremembranceofafavouritetune。 `YoumeansomeothermemberofthefamilybesidesMissHalcombe?’I suggested,seeingheratalosstoproceed,Theheighteningcolourspreadtoherforeheadandherneck,andthenervousfingerssuddenlyclaspedthemselvesfastroundtheedgeofthebook。 `Thereissomeoneelse,’shesaid,notnoticingmylastwords,thoughshehadevidentlyheardthem;`thereissomeoneelsewhomightlikealittlekeepsakeif——ifImightleaveit。TherewouldbenoharmifI