第29章

类别:其他 作者:Wilkie Collins字数:3399更新时间:18/12/21 17:27:55
shoulddiefirst——’ Shepausedagain。Thecolourthathadspreadoverhercheekssuddenly,assuddenlyleftthem。Thehandonthealbumresigneditshold,trembledalittle,andmovedthebookawayfromher。Shelookedatmeforaninstant——thenturnedherheadasideinthechair。Herhandkerchieffelltothefloorasshechangedherposition,andshehurriedlyhidherfacefrommeinherhands。 Sad!Torememberher,asIdid,theliveliest,happiestchildthateverlaughedthedaythrough,andtoseehernow,intheflowerofherageandherbeauty,sobrokenandsobroughtdownasthis! InthedistressthatshecausedmeIforgottheyearsthathadpassed,andthechangetheyhadmadeinourpositiontowardsoneanother。Imovedmychairclosetoher,andpickedupherhandkerchieffromthecarpet,anddrewherhandsfromherfacegently。`Don’tcry,mylove,’Isaid,anddriedthetearsthatweregatheringinhereyeswithmyownhand,asifshehadbeenthelittleLauraFairlieoftenlongyearsago。 ItwasthebestwayIcouldhavetakentocomposeher。Shelaidherheadonmyshoulder,andsmiledfaintlythroughhertears。 `Iamverysorryforforgettingmyself,’shesaidartlessly。`Ihavenotbeenwell——Ihavefeltsadlyweakandnervouslately,andIoftencrywithoutreasonwhenIamalone。Iambetternow——IcanansweryouasIought,MrGilmore,Icanindeed。’ `No,no,mydear,’Ireplied,`wewillconsiderthesubjectasdonewithforthepresent。Youhavesaidenoughtosanctionmytakingthebestpossiblecareofyourinterests,andwecansettledetailsatanotheropportunity。 Letushavedonewithbusinessnow,andtalkofsomethingelse。’ Iledheratonceintospeakingonothertopics。Intenminutes’timeshewasinbetterspirits,andIrosetotakemyleave。 `Comehereagain,’shesaidearnestly。`Iwilltrytobeworthierofyourkindfeelingformeandformyinterestsifyouwillonlycomeagain。’ Stillclingingtothepast——thatpastwhichIrepresentedtoher,inmyway,asMissHalcombedidinhers!Ittroubledmesorelytoseeherlookingback,atthebeginningofhercareer,justasIlookbackattheendofmine。 `IfIdocomeagain,IhopeIshallfindyoubetter,’Isaid;`betterandhappier。Godblessyou,mydear!’ Sheonlyansweredbyputtinguphercheektometobekissed。Evenlawyershavehearts,andmineachedalittleasItookleaveofher。 Thewholeinterviewbetweenushadhardlylastedmorethanhalfanhour——shehadnotbreathedaword,inmypresence,toexplainthemysteryofherevidentdistressanddismayattheprospectofhermarriage,andyetshehadcontrivedtowinmeovertohersideofthequestion,Ineitherknewhownorwhy。Ihadenteredtheroom,feelingthatSirPercivalGlydehadfairreasontocomplainofthemannerinwhichshewastreatinghim。 Ileftit,secretlyhopingthatmattersmightendinhertakinghimathiswordandclaimingherrelease。Amanofmyageandexperienceoughttohaveknownbetterthantovacillateinthisunreasonablemanner。Icanmakenoexcuseformyself;Icanonlytellthetruth,andsay——soitwas。 Thehourformydeparturewasnowdrawingnear。IsenttoMrFairlietosaythatIwouldwaitonhimtotakeleaveifheliked,butthathemustexcusemybeingratherinahurry。Hesentamessageback,writteninpencilonaslipofpaper:`Kindloveandbestwishes,dearGilmore。 Hurryofanykindisinexpressiblyinjurioustome。Praytakecareofyourself。 Goodbye。’ rustbeforeIleftIsawMissHalcombeforamomentalone。 `HaveyousaidallyouwantedtoLaura?’sheasked。 `Yes,’Ireplied。`Sheisveryweakandnervous——Iamgladshehasyoutotakecareofher。’ MissHalcombe’ssharpeyesstudiedmyfaceattentively。 `YouarealteringyouropinionaboutLaura,’shesaid。`Youarereadiertomakeallowancesforherthanyouwereyesterday。’ Nosensiblemaneverengages,unprepared,inafencingmatchofwordswithawoman。Ionlyanswered—— `Letmeknowwhathappens。IwilldonothingtillIhearfromyou。’ Shestilllookedhardinmyface。`Iwishitwasallover,andwellover,MrGilmore——andsodoyou。’Withthosewordssheleftme。 SirPercivalmostpolitelyinsistedonseeingmetothecarriagedoor。 `Ifyouareeverinmyneighbourhood,’hesaid,`praydon’tforgetthatIamsincerelyanxioustoimproveouracquaintance。Thetriedandtrustedoldfriendofthisfamilywillbealwaysawelcomevisitorinanyhouseofmine。’ Areallyirresistibleman——courteous,considerate,delightfullyfreefrompride——agentleman,everyinchofhim。AsIdroveawaytothestationIfeltasifIcouldcheerfullydoanythingtopromotetheinterestsofSirPercivalGlyde——anythingintheworld,exceptdrawingthemarriagesettlementofhiswife。 [NextChapter][TableofContents]WomaninWhite:Chapter9[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter9IIIAweekpassed,aftermyreturntoLondon,withoutthereceiptofanycommunicationfromMissHalcombe。 Ontheeighthdayaletterinherhandwritingwasplacedamongtheotherlettersonmytable。 ItannouncedthatSirPercivalGlydehadbeendefinitelyaccepted,andthatthemarriagewastotakeplace,ashehadoriginallydesired,beforetheendoftheyear。InallprobabilitytheceremonywouldbeperformedduringthelastfortnightinDecember。MissFairlie’stwenty-firstbirthdaywaslateinMarch。Shewould,therefore,bythisarrangementbecomeSirPercival’swifeaboutthreemonthsbeforeshewasofage。 Ioughtnottohavebeensurprised,Ioughtnottohavebeensorry,butIwassurprisedandsorry,nevertheless。Somelittledisappointment,causedbytheunsatisfactoryshortnessofMissHalcombe’sletter,mingleditselfwiththesefeelings,andcontributeditssharetowardsupsettingmyserenityfortheday。Insixlinesmycorrespondentannouncedtheproposedmarriage——inthreemore,shetoldmethatSirPercivalhadleftCumberlandtoreturntohishouseinHampshire,andintwoconcludingsentencessheinformedme,first,thatLaurawassadlyinwantofchangeandcheerfulsociety;secondly,thatshehadresolvedtotrytheeffectofsomesuchchangeforthwith,bytakinghersisterawaywithheronavisittocertainoldfriendsinYorkshire。Theretheletterended,withoutawordtoexplainwhatthecircumstanceswerewhichhaddecidedMissFairlietoacceptSirPercivalGlydeinoneshortweekfromthetimewhenIhadlastseenher。 Atalaterperiodthecauseofthissuddendeterminationwasfullyexplainedtome。Itisnotmybusinesstorelateitimperfectly,onhearsayevidence。 ThecircumstancescamewithinthepersonalexperienceofMissHalcombe,andwhenhernarrativesucceedsmine,shewilldescribethemineveryparticularexactlyastheyhappened。Inthemeantime,theplaindutyformetoperform——beforeI,inmyturn,laydownmypenandwithdrawfromthestory—— istorelatetheoneremainingeventconnectedwithMissFairlie’sproposedmarriageinwhichIwasconcerned,namely,thedrawingofthesettlement。 Itisimpossibletoreferintelligiblytothisdocumentwithoutfirstenteringintocertainparticularsinrelationtothebride’specuniaryaffairs。Iwilltrytomakemyexplanationbrieflyandplainly,andtokeepitfreefromprofessionalobscuritiesandtechnicalities。Thematterisoftheutmostimportance。IwarnallreadersoftheselinesthatMissFairlie’sinheritanceisaveryseriouspartofMissFairlie’sstory,andthatMrGilmore’sexperience,inthisparticular,mustbetheirexperiencealso,iftheywishtounderstandthenarrativeswhichareyettocome。 MissFairlie’sexpectations,then,wereofatwofoldkind,comprisingherpossibleinheritanceofrealproperty,orland,whenheruncledied,andherabsoluteinheritanceofpersonalproperty,ormoney,whenshecameofage。 Letustakethelandfirst。 InthetimeofMissFairlie’spaternalgrandfather(whomwewillcallMrFairlie,theelder)theentailedsuccessiontotheLimmeridgeestatestoodthus