第51章

类别:其他 作者:Wilkie Collins字数:4088更新时间:18/12/21 17:27:55
Laurahadtakenmyarmwhilehewasspeaking,andshepresseditsignificantlywhenhehaddone。Itwouldhavebeenahardtrialtoanywomantostandbyandseetheofficeofapologistforherhusband’smisconductquietlyassumedbyhismalefriendinherownhouse——anditwasatrialtoher。 IthankedtheCountcivilly,andledherout。Yes!Ithankedhim:forI feltalready,withasenseofinexpressiblehelplessnessandhumiliation,thatitwaseitherhisinterestorhiscapricetomakesureofmycontinuingtoresideatBlackwaterPark,andIknewafterSirPercival’sconducttome,thatwithoutthesupportoftheCount’sinfluence,Icouldnothopetoremainthere。Hisinfluence,theinfluenceofallothersthatIdreadedmost,wasactuallytheonetiewhichnowheldmetoLaurainthehourofherutmostneed! Weheardthewheelsofthedog-cartcrashingonthegravelofthedriveaswecameintothehall。SirPercivalhadstartedonhisjourney。 `Whereishegoingto,Marian?’Laurawhispered。`Everyfreshthinghedoesseemstoterrifymeaboutthefuture。Haveyouanysuspicions?’ Afterwhatshehadundergonethatmorning,Iwasunwillingtotellhermysuspicions。 `HowshouldIknowhissecrets?’Isaidevasively。 `Iwonderifthehousekeeperknows?’shepersisted。 `Certainlynot,’Ireplied。`Shemustbequiteasignorantasweare。’ Laurashookherheaddoubtfully。 `DidyounothearfromthehousekeeperthattherewasareportofAnneCatherickhavingbeenseeninthisneighbourhood?Don’tyouthinkhemayhavegoneawaytolookforher?’ `Iwouldrathercomposemyself,Laura,bynotthinkingaboutitatall,andafterwhathashappened,youhadbetterfollowmyexample。Comeintomyroom,andrestandquietyourselfalittle。’ Wesatdowntogetherclosetothewindow,andletthefragrantsummerairbreatheoverourfaces。 `Iamashamedtolookatyou,Marian,’shesaid,`afterwhatyousubmittedtodownstairs,formysake。Oh,myownlove,IamalmostheartbrokenwhenIthinkofit!ButIwilltrytomakeituptoyou——Iwillindeed!’ `Hush!hush!’Ireplied;`don’ttalkso。Whatisthetriflingmortificationofmypridecomparedtothedreadfulsacrificeofyourhappiness?’ `Youheardwhathesaidtome?’shewentonquicklyandvehemently。 `Youheardthewords——butyoudon’tknowwhattheymeant——youdon’tknowwhyIthrewdownthepenandturnedmybackonhim。’Sheroseinsuddenagitation,andwalkedabouttheroom。`Ihavekeptmanythingsfromyourknowledge,Marian,forfearofdistressingyou,andmakingyouunhappyattheoutsetofournewlives。Youdon’tknowhowhehasusedme。Andyetyououghttoknow,foryousawhowheusedmetoday。Youheardhimsneeratmypresumingtobescrupulous——youheardhimsayIhadmadeavirtueofnecessityinmarryinghim。’Shesatdownagain,herfaceflusheddeeply,andherhandstwistedandtwinedtogetherinherlap。`Ican’ttellyouaboutitnow,’shesaid;`IshallburstoutcryingifItellyounow——later,Marian,whenIammoresureofmyself。Mypoorheadaches,darling——aches,aches,aches。Whereisyoursmelling-bottle?Letmetalktoyouaboutyourself。IwishIhadgivenhimmysignature,foryoursake。 ShallIgiveittohimtomorrow?Iwouldrathercompromisemyselfthancompromiseyou。Afteryourtakingmypartagainsthim,hewilllayalltheblameonyouifIrefuseagain。Whatshallwedo?Oh,forafriendtohelpusandadviseus!——afriendwecouldreallytrust!’ Shesighedbitterly。IsawinherfacethatshewasthinkingofHartright——sawitthemoreplainlybecauseherlastwordssetmethinkingofhimtoo。Insixmonthsonlyfromhermarriagewewantedthefaithfulservicehehadofferedtousinhisfarewellwords。HowlittleIoncethoughtthatweshouldeverwantitatall! `Wemustdowhatwecantohelpourselves,’Isaid。`Letustrytotalkitovercalmly,Laura——letusdoallinourpowertodecideforthebest。’ Puttingwhatsheknewofherhusband’sembarrassmentsandwhatIhadheardofhisconversationwiththelawyertogether,wearrivednecessarilyattheconclusionthattheparchmentinthelibraryhadbeendrawnupforthepurposeofborrowingmoney,andthatLaura’ssignaturewasabsolutelynecessarytofititfortheattainmentofSirPercival’sobject。 Thesecondquestion,concerningthenatureofthelegalcontractbywhichthemoneywastobeobtained,andthedegreeofpersonalresponsibilitytowhichLauramightsubjectherselfifshesigneditinthedark,involvedconsiderationswhichlayfarbeyondanyknowledgeandexperiencethateitherofuspossessed。Myownconvictionsledmetobelievethatthehiddencontentsoftheparchmentconcealedatransactionofthemeanestandthemostfraudulentkind。 IhadnotformedthisconclusioninconsequenceofSirPercival’srefusaltoshowthewritingortoexplainit,forthatrefusalmightwellhaveproceededfromhisobstinatedispositionandhisdomineeringtemperalone。 MysolemotivefordistrustinghishonestysprangfromthechangewhichIhadobservedinhislanguageandhismannersatBlackwaterpark,achangewhichconvincedmethathehadbeenactingapartthroughoutthewholeperiodofhisprobationatLimmeridgeHouse。Hiselaboratedelicacy,hisceremoniouspoliteness,whichharmonisedsoagreeablywithMrGilmore’sold-fashionednotions,hismodestywithLaura,hiscandourwithme,hismoderationwithMrFairlie——alltheseweretheartificesofamean,cunning,andbrutalman,whohaddroppedhisdisguisewhenhispractisedduplicityhadgaineditsend,andhadopenlyshownhimselfinthelibraryonthatveryday。IsaynothingofthegriefwhichthisdiscoverycausedmeonLaura’saccount,foritisnottobeexpressedbyanywordsofmine。I onlyrefertoitatall,becauseitdecidedmetoopposehersigningtheparchment,whatevertheconsequencesmightbe,unlessshewasfirstmadeacquaintedwiththecontents。 Underthesecircumstances,theonechanceforuswhentomorrowcamewastobeprovidedwithanobjectiontogivingthesignature,whichmightrestonsufficientlyfirmcommercialorlegalgroundstoshakeSirPercival’sresolution,andtomakehimsuspectthatwetwowomenunderstoodthelawsandobligationsofbusinessaswellashimself。 Aftersomepondering,Ideterminedtowritetotheonlyhonestmanwithinreachwhomwecouldtrusttohelpusdiscreetlyinourforlornsituation。 ThatmanwasMrGilmore’spartner,MrKyrle,whoconductedthebusinessnowthatouroldfriendhadbeenobligedtowithdrawfromit,andtoleaveLondononaccountofhishealth。IexplainedtoLaurathatIhadMrGilmore’sownauthorityforplacingimplicitconfidenceinhispartner’sintegrity,discretion,andaccurateknowledgeofallheraffairs,andwithherfullapprovalIsatdownatoncetowritetheletter。 IbeganbystatingourpositiontoMrKyrleexactlyasitwas,andthenaskedforhisadviceinreturn,expressedinplain,downrighttermswhichwecouldcomprehendwithoutanydangerofmisinterpretationsandmistakes。 MyletterwasasshortasIcouldpossiblymakeit,andwas,Ihope,unencumberedbyneedlessapologiesandneedlessdetails。 JustasIwasabouttoputtheaddressontheenvelopeanobstaclewasdiscoveredbyLaura,whichintheeffortandpreoccupationofwritinghadescapedmymindaltogether。 `Howarewetogettheanswerintime?’sheasked。`YourletterwillnotbedeliveredinLondonbeforetomorrowmorningandthepostwillnotbringthereplyheretillthemorningafter。’ Theonlywayofovercomingthisdifficultywastohavetheanswerbroughttousfromthelawyer’sofficebyaspecialmessenger。Iwroteapostscripttothateffect,beggingthatthemessengermightbedespatchedwiththereplybytheeleveno’clockmorningtrain,whichwouldbringhimtoourstationattwentyminutespastone,andsoenablehimtoreachBlackwaterParkbytwoo’clockatthelatest。Hewastobedirectedtoaskforme,toanswernoquestionsaddressedtohimbyanyoneelse,andtodeliverhisletterintonohandsbutmine。 `IncaseSirPercivalshouldcomebacktomorrowbeforetwoo’clock,’ IsaidtoLaura,`thewisestplanforyoutoadoptistobeoutinthegroundsallthemorningwithyourbookoryourwork,andnottoappearatthehousetillthemessengerhashadtimetoarrivewiththeletter。 Iwillwaithereforhimallthemorning,toguardagainstanymisadventuresormistakes。ByfollowingthisarrangementIhopeandbelieveweshallavoidbeingtakenbysurprise。Letusgodowntothedrawing-roomnow。 Wemayexcitesuspicionifweremainshutuptogethertoolong。’ `Suspicion?’sherepeated。`Whosesuspicioncanweexcite,nowthatSirPercivalhasleftthehouse?DoyoumeanCountFosco?’ `PerhapsIdo,Laura。’ `YouarebeginningtodislikehimasmuchasIdo,Marian。’ `No,nottodislikehim。Dislikeisalwaysmoreorlessassociatedwithcontempt——IcanseenothingintheCounttodespise。’ `Youarenotafraidofhim,areyou?’ `PerhapsIam——alittle。’ `Afraidofhim,afterhisinterferenceinourfavourtoday!’ `Yes。IammoreafraidofhisinterferencethanIamofSirPercival’sviolence。RememberwhatIsaidtoyouinthelibrary。Whateveryoudo,Laura,don’tmakeanenemyoftheCount!’ Wewentdownstairs。Lauraenteredthedrawing-room,whileIproceededacrossthehall,withmyletterinmyhand,toputitintothepost-bag,17 whichhungagainstthewalloppositetome。 Thehousedoorwasopen,andasIcrossedpastit,IsawCountFoscoandhiswifestandingtalkingtogetheronthestepsoutside,withtheirfacesturnedtowardsme。