第59章

类别:其他 作者:Wilkie Collins字数:4484更新时间:18/12/21 17:27:55
ItwasalmostasgreatarelieftomymindastoLaura’s,tofindthatmymemoryhadservedme,onthisoccasion,asfaithfullyasusual。Intheperilousuncertaintyofourpresentsituation,itishardtosaywhatfutureinterestsmaynotdependupontheregularityoftheentriesinmyjournal,anduponthereliabilityofmyrecollectionatthetimewhenImakethem。 Laura’sfaceandmannersuggestedtomethatthislastconsiderationhadoccurredtoheraswellastomyself。Anyway,itisonlyatriflingmatter,andIamalmostashamedtoputitdownhereinwriting——itseemstosettheforlornnessofoursituationinsuchamiserablyvividlight。 Wemusthavelittleindeedtodependon,whenthediscoverythatmymemorycanstillbetrustedtoserveusishailedasifitwasthediscoveryofanewfriend! Thefirstbellfordinnerseparatedus。rustasithaddoneringing,SirPercivalandtheCountreturnedfromtheirwalk。Weheardthemasterofthehousestormingattheservantsforbeingfiveminuteslate,andthemaster’sguestinterposing,asusual,intheinterestsofpropriety,patience,andpeace。 Theeveninghascomeandgone。Noextraordinaryeventhashappened。 ButIhavenoticedcertainpeculiaritiesintheconductofSirPercivalandtheCount,whichhavesentmetomybedfeelingveryanxiousanduneasyaboutAnneCatherick,andabouttheresultswhichtomorrowmayproduce。 Iknowenoughbythistime,tobesurethattheaspectofSirPercivalwhichisthemostfalse,andwhich,therefore,meanstheworst,ishispoliteaspect。Thatlongwalkwithhisfriendhadendedinimprovinghismanners,especiallytowardshiswife。ToLaura’ssecretsurpriseandtomysecretalarm,hecalledherbyherChristianname,askedifshehadheardlatelyfromheruncle,inquiredwhenMrsVeseywastoreceiveherinvitationtoBlackwater,andshowedhersomanyotherlittleattentionsthathealmostrecalledthedaysofhishatefulcourtshipatLimmeridgeHouse。Thiswasabadsigntobeginwith,andIthoughtitmoreominousstillthatheshouldpretendafterdinnertofallasleepinthedrawing-room,andthathiseyesshouldcunninglyfollowLauraandmewhenhethoughtweneitherofussuspectedhim。IhaveneverhadanydoubtthathissuddenjourneybyhimselftookhimtoWelminghamtoquestionMrsCatherick—— buttheexperienceoftonighthasmademefearthattheexpeditionwasnotundertakeninvain,andthathehasgottheinformationwhichheunquestionablyleftustocollect。IfIknewwhereAnneCatherickwastobefound,Iwouldbeuptomorrowwithsunriseandwarnher。 WhiletheaspectunderwhichSirPercivalpresentedhimselftonightwasunhappilybuttoofamiliartome,theaspectunderwhichtheCountappearedwas,ontheotherhand,entirelynewinmyexperienceofhim。 Hepermittedme,thisevening,tomakehisacquaintance,forthefirsttime,inthecharacterofaManofSentiment——ofsentiment,asIbelieve,reallyfelt,notassumedfortheoccasion。 Forinstance,hewasquietandsubdued——hiseyesandhisvoiceexpressedarestrainedsensibility。Hewore(asiftherewassomehiddenconnectionbetweenhisshowiestfineryandhisdeepestfeeling)themostmagnificentwaistcoathehasyetappearedin——itwasmadeofpalesea-greensilk,anddelicatelytrimmedwithfinesilverbraid。Hisvoicesankintothetenderestinflections,hissmileexpressedathoughtful,fatherlyadmiration,wheneverhespoketoLauraortome。Hepressedhiswife’shandunderthetablewhenshethankedhimfortriflinglittleattentionsatdinner。Hetookwinewithher。`Yourhealthandhappiness,myangel!’hesaid,withfondglisteningeyes。Heatelittleornothing,andsighed,andsaid`GoodPercival!’whenhisfriendlaughedathim。Afterdinner,hetookLaurabythehand,andaskedherifshewouldbe`sosweetastoplaytohim。’ Shecomplied,throughsheerastonishment。Hesatbythepiano,withhiswatch-chainrestinginfolds,likeagoldenserpent,onthesea-greenprotuberanceofhiswaistcoat。Hisimmenseheadlaylanguidlyononeside,andhegentlybeattimewithtwoofhisyellow-whitefingers。Hehighlyapprovedofthemusic,andtenderlyadmiredLaura’smannerofplaying——notaspoorHartrightusedtopraiseit,withaninnocentenjoymentofthesweetsounds,butwithaclear,cultivated,practicalknowledgeofthemeritsofthecomposition,inthefirstplace,andofthemeritsoftheplayer’stouchinthesecond。 Astheeveningclosedin,hebeggedthatthelovelydyinglightmightnotbeprofaned,justyet,bytheappearanceofthelamps。Hecame,withhishorriblysilenttread,tothedistantwindowatwhichIwasstanding,tobeoutofhiswayandtoavoidtheverysightofhim——hecametoaskmetosupporthisprotestagainstthelamps。Ifanyoneofthemcouldonlyhaveburnthimupatthatmoment,Iwouldhavegonedowntothekitchen,andfetcheditmyself。 `Surelyyoulikethismodest,tremblingEnglishtwilight?’hesaidsoftly。 `Ah!Iloveit。Ifeelmyinbornadmirationofallthatisnoble,andgreat,andgood,purifiedbythebreathofheavenonaneveninglikethis。Naturehassuchimperishablecharms,suchinextinguishabletendernessforme!—— Iamanold,fatman——talkwhichwouldbecomeyourlips,MissHalcombe,soundslikeaderisionandamockeryonmine。Itishardtobelaughedatinmymomentofsentiment,asifmysoulwaslikemyself,oldandovergrown。 Observe,dearlady,whatalightisdyingonthetrees!Doesitpenetrateyourheart,asitpenetratesmine?’ Hepaused,lookedatme,andrepeatedthefamouslinesofDanteontheEvening-time,withamelodyandtendernesswhichaddedacharmoftheirowntothematchlessbeautyofthepoetryitself。 `Bah!’hecriedsuddenly,asthelastcadenceofthosenobleItalianwordsdiedawayonhislips;`Imakeanoldfoolofmyself,andonlywearyyouall!Letusshutupthewindowinourbosonsandgetbacktothematter-of-factworld。Percival!Isanctiontheadmissionofthelamps。LadyGlyde——MissHalcombe——Eleanor,mygoodwife——whichofyouwillindulgemewithagameatdominoes?’ Headdressedusall,buthelookedespeciallyatLaura。 Shehadlearnttofeelmydreadofoffendinghim,andsheacceptedhisproposal。ItwasmorethanIcouldhavedoneatthatmoment。Icouldnothavesatdownatthesametablewithhimforanyconsideration。Hiseyesseemedtoreachmyinmostsoulthroughthethickeningobscurityofthetwilight。Hisvoicetrembledalongeverynerveinmybody,andturnedmehotandcoldalternately。Themysteryandterrorofmydream,whichhadhauntedmeatintervalsallthroughtheevening,nowoppressedmymindwithanunendurableforebodingandanunutterableawe。Isawthewhitetombagain,andtheveiledwomanrisingoutofitbyHartright’sside。 ThethoughtofLaurawelleduplikeaspringinthedepthsofmyheart,andfilleditwithwatersofbitterness,never,neverknowntoitbefore。 Icaughtherbythehandasshepassedmeonherwaytothetable,andkissedherasifthatnightwastopartusforever。Whiletheywereallgazingatmeinastonishment,Iranoutthroughthelowwindowwhichwasopenbeforemetotheground——ranouttohidefromtheminthedarkness,tohideevenfrommyself。 Weseparatedthateveninglaterthanusual。Towardsmidnightthesummersilencewasbrokenbytheshudderingofalow,melancholywindamongthetrees。Weallfeltthesuddenchillintheatmosphere,buttheCountwasthefirsttonoticethestealthyrisingofthewind。Hestoppedwhilehewaslightingmycandleforme,andhelduphishandwarningly—— `Listen!’hesaid。`Therewillbeachangetomorrow。’ [NextChapter][TableofContents]WomaninWhite:Chapter19[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter19June19th——Theeventsofyesterdaywarnedmetobeready,soonerorlater,tomeettheworst。Todayisnotyetatanend,andtheworsthascome。 JudgingbytheclosestcalculationoftimethatLauraandIcouldmake,wearrivedattheconclusionthatAnneCatherickmusthaveappearedattheboat-houseathalf-pasttwoo’clockontheafternoonofyesterday。 IaccordinglyarrangedthatLaurashouldjustshowherselfattheluncheon-cabletoday,andshouldthenslipoutatthefirstopportunity,leavingmebehindtopreserveappearances,andtofollowherassoonasIcouldsafelydoso。Thismodeofproceeding,ifnoobstaclesoccurredtothwartus,wouldenablehertobeattheboat-housebeforehalf-pasttwo,and(whenIleftthetable,inmyturn)wouldtakemetoasafepositionintheplantationbeforethree。 Thechangeintheweather,whichlastnight’swindwarnedustoexpect,camewiththemorning。ItwasrainingheavilywhenIgotup,anditcontinuedtorainuntiltwelveo’clock——whenthecloudsdispersed,theblueskyappeared,andthesunshoneagainwiththebrightpromiseofafineafternoon。 MyanxietytoknowhowSirPercivalandtheCountwouldoccupytheearlypartofthedaywasbynomeanssetatrest,sofarasSirPercivalwasconcerned,byhisleavingusimmediatelyafterbreakfast,andgoingoutbyhimself,inspiteoftherain。Heneithertolduswherehewasgoingnorwhenwemightexpecthimback。Wesawhimpassthebreakfast-roomwindowhastily,withhishighbootsandhiswaterproofcoaton——andthatwasall。 TheCountpassedthemorningquietlyindoors,somepartofitinthelibrary,somepartinthedrawing-room,playingoddsandendsofmusiconthepiano,andhummingtohimself。Judgingbyappearances,thesentimentalsideofhischaracterwaspersistentlyinclinedtobetrayitselfstill。 Hewassilentandsensitive,andreadytosighandlanguishponderously(asonlyfatmenFansighandlanguish)onthesmallestprovocation。 Luncheon-timecameandSirPercivaldidnotreturn。TheCounttookhisfriend’splaceatthetable,plaintivelydevouredthegreaterpartofafruittart,submergedunderawholejugfulofcream,andexplainedthefullmeritoftheachievementtousassoonashehaddone。`Atasteforsweets,’hesaidinhissoftesttonesandhistenderestmanner,`istheinnocenttasteofwomenandchildren。Ilovetoshareitwiththem——itisanotherbond,dearladies,betweenyouandme。’ Lauraleftthetableintenminutes’time。Iwassorelytemptedtoaccompanyher。Butifwehadbothgoneouttogetherwemusthaveexcitedsuspicion,andworsestill,ifweallowedAnneCathericktoseeLaura,accompaniedbyasecondpersonwhowasastrangertoher,weshouldinallprobabilityforfeitherconfidencefromthatmoment,nevertoregainitagain。