第62章

类别:其他 作者:Wilkie Collins字数:3825更新时间:18/12/21 17:27:55
`Afterreadingitoncethrough,’shereplied,`Itookitintotheboat-housewithmetositdownandlookoveritasecondtime。WhileIwasreadingashadowfellacrossthepaper。Ilookedup,andsawSirPercivalstandinginthedoorwaywatchingme。’ `Didyoutrytohidetheletter?’ `Itried,buthestoppedme。``Youneedn’ttroubletohidethat,’’hesaid。``Ihappentohavereadit。’’Icouldonlylookathimhelplessly——Icouldsaynothing。``Youunderstand?’’hewenton;``Ihavereadit。 Idugitupoutofthesandtwohourssince,andburieditagain,andwrotethewordaboveitagain,andleftitreadytoyourhands。Youcan’tlieyourselfoutofthescrapenow。YousawAnneCatherickinsecretyesterday,andyouhavegotherletterinyourhandatthismoment。Ihavenotcaughtheryet,butIhavecaughtyou。Givemetheletter。’’Hesteppedcloseuptome——Iwasalonewithhim,Marian——whatcouldIdo?——Igavehimtheletter。’ `Whatdidhesaywhenyougaveittohim?’ `Atfirsthesaidnothing。Hetookmebythearm,andledmeoutoftheboat-house,andlookedabouthimonallsides,asifhewasafraidofourbeingseenorheard。Thenheclaspedhishandfastroundmyarm,andwhisperedtome,``WhatdidAnneCathericksaytoyouyesterday?I insistonhearingeveryword,fromfirsttolast。’’’ `Didyoutellhim?’ `Iwasalonewithhim,Marian——hiscruelhandwasbruisingmyarm——whatcouldIdo?’ `Isthemarkonyourarmstill?Letmeseeit。’ `Whydoyouwanttoseeit?’ `Iwanttoseeit,Laura,becauseourendurancemustend,andourresistancemustbegintoday。Thatmarkisaweapontostrikehimwith。Letmeseeitnow——Imayhavetosweartoitatsomefuturetime。’ `Oh,Marian,don’tlookso——don’ttalksoIItdoesn’thurtmenow!’ `Letmeseeit!’ Sheshowedmethemarks。Iwaspastgrievingoverthem,pastcryingoverthem,pastshudderingoverthem。Theysayweareeitherbetterthanmen,orworse。Ifthetemptationthathasfalleninsomewomen’sway,andmadethemworse,hadfalleninmineatthatmoment——ThankGod!myfacebetrayednothingthathiswifecouldread。Thegentle,innocent,affectionatecreaturethoughtIwasfrightenedforherandsorryforher,andthoughtnomore。 `Don’tthinktooseriouslyofit,Marian,’shesaidsimply,asshepulledhersleevedownagain。`Itdoesn’thurtmenow。’ `Iwilltrytothinkquietlyofit,mylove,foryoursake——Well! well!AndyoutoldhimallthatAnneCatherickhadsaidtoyou——allthatyoutoldme? `Yes,all。Heinsistedonit——Iwasalonewithhim——Icouldconcealnothing。’ `Didhesayanythingwhenyouhaddone?’ `Helookedatme,andlaughedtohimselfinmocking,bitterway。``I meantohavetherestoutofyou,’’hesaid,``doyouhear?——therest。’’ IdeclaredtohimsolemnlythatIhadtoldhimeverythingIknew。``Notyou,`heanswered,``youknowmorethanyouchoosetotell。Won’tyoutellit?Youshall!I’llwringitoutofyouathomeifIcan’twringitoutofyouhere——Heledmeawaybyastrangepaththroughtheplantation——apathwheretherewasnohopeofourmeetingyou——andhespokenomoretillwecamewithinsightofthehouse。Thenhestoppedagain,andsaid,``Willyoutakeasecondchance,ifIgiveittoyou?Willyouthinkbetterofit。andtellmetherest?’’IcouldonlyrepeatthesamewordsIhadspokenbefore。Hecursedmyobstinacy,andwenton,andtookmewithhimtothehouse。``Youcan’tdeceiveme,’’hesaid,``youknowmorethanyouchoosetotell。I’llhaveyoursecretoutofyou,andI’llhaveitoutofthatsisterofyoursaswell。Thereshallbenomoreplottingandwhisperingbetweenyou。Neitheryounorsheshallseeeachotheragaintillyouhaveconfessedthetruth。I’llhaveyouwatchedmorning,noon,andnight,tillyouconfessthetruth。’’HewasdeaftoeverythingIcouldsay。Hetookmestraightupstairsintomyownroom。Fannywassittingthere,doingsomeworkforme,andheinstantlyorderedherout。``I’lltakegoodcareyou’renotmixedupintheconspiracy,`hesaid。``Youshallleavethishousetoday。Ifyourmistresswantsamaid。sheshallhaveoneofmychoosing。’’Hepushedmeintotheroom,andlockedthedooronme。Hesetthatsenselesswomantowatchmeoutside,Marian!Helookedandspokelikeamadman。Youmayhardlyunderstandit——hedidindeed。’ `Idounderstandit,Laura。Heismad——madwiththeterrorsofaguiltyconscience。EverywordyouhavesaidmakesmepositivelycertainthatwhenAnneCatherickleftyouyesterdayyouwereontheeveofdiscoveringasecretwhichmighthavebeenyourvilehusband’sruin,andhethinksyouhavediscoveredit。Nothingyoucansayordowillquietthatguiltydistrust,andconvincehisfalsenatureofyourtruth。Idon’tsaythis,mylove,toalarmyou。Isayittoopenyoureyestoyourposition,andtoconvinceyouoftheurgentnecessityoflettingmeact,asIbestcan,foryourprotectionwhilethechanceisourown。CountFosco’sinterferencehassecuredmeaccesstoyoutoday,buthemaywithdrawthatinterferencetomorrow。 SirPercivalhasalreadydismissedFannybecausesheisaquick-wittedgirl,anddevotedlyattachedtoyou,andhaschosenawomantotakeherplacewhocaresnothingforyourinterests,andwhosedullintelligencelowershertothelevelofthewatch-dogintheyard。Itisimpossibletosaywhatviolentmeasureshemaytakenext,unlesswemakethemostofouropportunitieswhilewehavethem。’ `Whatcanwedo,Marian?Oh,ifwecouldonlyleavethishouse,nevertoseeitagain!’ `Listentome,mylove,andtrytothinkthatyouarenotquitehelplesssolongasIamherewithyou。’ `Iwillthinkso——Idothinkso。Don’taltogetherforgetpoorFannyinthinkingofme。Shewantshelpandcomforttoo。’ `Iwillnotforgether。IsawherbeforeIcameuphere,andIhavearrangedtocommunicatewithhertonight。Lettersarenotsafeinthepost-bagatBlackwaterPark,andIshallhavetwotowritetoday,inyourinterests,whichmustpassthroughnohandsbutFanny’s。’ `Whatletters?’ `Imeantowritefirst,Laura,toMrGilmore’spartner,whohasofferedtohelpusinanyfreshemergency。LittleasIknowofthelaw,Iamcertainthatitcanprotectawomanfromsuchtreatmentasthatruffianhasinflictedonyoutoday。IwillgointonodetailsaboutAnneCatherick,becauseI havenocertaininformationtogive。Butthelawyershallknowofthosebruisesonyourarm,andoftheviolenceofferedtoyouinthisroom—— heshall,beforeIresttonight!’ `Butthinkoftheexposure,Marian!’ `Iamcalculatingontheexposure。SirPercivalhasmoretodreadfromitthanyouhave。Theprospectofanexposuremaybringhimtotermswhennothingelsewill。’ IroseasIspoke,butLauraentreatedmenottoleaveher。`Youwilldrivehimtodesperation,`shesaid,`andincreaseourdangerstenfold。’ Ifeltthetruth——thedishearteningtruth——ofthosewords。ButI couldnotbringmyselfplainlytoacknowledgeittoher。Inourdreadfulpositiontherewasnohelpandnohopeforusbutinriskingtheworst。 Isaidsoinguardedterms。Shesighedbitterly,butdidnotcontestthematter。SheonlyaskedaboutthesecondletterthatIhadproposedwriting。 Towhomwasittobeaddressed? `ToMrFairlie,’Isaid。`Youruncleisyournearestmalerelative,andtheheadofthefamily。Hemustandshallinterfere。’ Laurashookherheadsorrowfully。 `Yes,yes,’Iwenton,`youruncleisaweak,selfish,worldlyman,Iknow,butheisnotSirPercivalGlyde,andhehasnosuchfriendabouthimasCountFosco。Iexpectnothingfromhiskindnessorhistendernessoffeelingtowardsyouortowardsme,buthewilldoanythingtopamperhisownindolence,andtosecurehisownquiet。Letmeonlypersuadehimthathisinterferenceatthismomentwillsavehiminevitabletroubleandwretchednessandresponsibilityhereafter,andhewillbestirhimselfforhisownsake。Iknowhowtodealwithhim,Laura——Ihavehadsomepractice。’ `IfyoucouldonlyprevailonhimtoletmegobacktoLimmeridgeforalittlewhileandstaytherequietlywithyou,Marian,IcouldbealmostashappyagainasIwasbeforeIwasmarried!’ Thosewordssetmethinkinginanewdirection。WoulditbepossibletoplaceSirPercivalbetweenthetwoalternativesofeitherexposinghimselftothescandaloflegalinterferenceonhiswife’sbehalf,orofallowinghertobequietlyseparatedfromhimforatimeunderpretextofavisittoheruncle’shouse?Andcouldhe,inthatcase,bereckonedonaslikelytoacceptthelastresource?Itwasdoubtful——morethandoubtful。Andyet,hopelessastheexperimentseemed,surelyitwasworthtrying。Iresolvedtotryitinsheerdespairofknowingwhatbettertodo。 `Youruncleshallknowthewishyouhavejustexpressed,’Isaid,`andIwillaskthelawyer’sadviceonthesubjectaswell。Goodmaycomeofit——andwillcomeofit,Ihope。’ SayingthatIroseagain,andagainLauratriedtomakemeresumemyseat。 `Don’tleaveme,’shesaiduneasily。`Mydeskisonthattable。Youcanwritehere。’