第114章

类别:其他 作者:Wilkie Collins字数:4468更新时间:18/12/21 17:27:55
Lethimbecontentwithwhathehasgot——withwhatIleaveunmolested,foryoursake,tohimandtoyou。Saytohim(withmycompliments),ifhestirsme,hehasFoscotodealwith。IntheEnglishofthePopularTongue,Iinformhim——Foscosticksatnothing。DearLady,goodmorning。’’Hiscoldgreyeyessettledonmyface——hetookoffhishatsolemnly——bowed,bare-headed——andleftme。’ `Withoutreturning?withoutsayingmorelastwords?’ `Heturnedatthecornerofthestreet,andwavedhishand,andthenstruckittheatricallyonhisbreast。Ilostsightofhimafterthat。Hedisappearedintheoppositedirectiontoourhouse,andIranbacktoLaura。 BeforeIwasindoorsagain,Ihadmadeupmymindthatwemustgo。Thehouse(especiallyinyourabsence)wasaplaceofdangerinsteadofaplaceofsafety,nowthattheCounthaddiscoveredit。IfIcouldhavefeltcertainofyourreturn,Ishouldhaveriskedwaitingtillyoucameback。Butlwascertainofnothing,andIactedatonceonmyownimpulse。Youhadspoken,beforeleavingus,ofmovingintoaquieterneighbourhoodandpurerair,forthesakeofLaura’shealth。Ihadonlytoremindherofthat,andtosuggestsurprisingyouandsavingyoutroublebymanagingthemoveinyourabsence,tomakeherquiteasanxiousforthechangeasIwas。 Shehelpedmetopackupyourthings,andshehasarrangedthemallforyouinyournewworking-roomhere。’ `Whatmadeyouthinkofcomingtothisplace?’ `MyignoranceofotherlocalitiesintheneighbourhoodofLondon。I feltthenecessityofgettingasfarawayaspossiblefromouroldlodgings,andIknewsomethingofFulham,becauseIhadoncebeenatschoolthere。 Idespatchedamessengerwithanote,onthechancethattheschoolmightstillbeinexistence。Itwasinexistence——thedaughtersofmyoldmistresswerecarryingitonforher,andtheyengagedthisplacefromtheinstructionsIhadsent。Itwasjustpost-timewhenthemessengerreturnedtomewiththeaddressofthehouse。Wemovedafterdark——wecameherequiteunobserved。 HaveIdoneright,Walter?HaveIjustifiedyourtrustinme?’ Iansweredherwarmlyandgratefully,asIreallyfelt。ButtheanxiouslookremainedonherfacewhileIwasspeaking,andthefirstquestionsheasked,whenIhaddone,relatedtoCountFosco。 Isawthatshewasthinkingofhimnowwithachangedmind。Nofreshoutbreakofangeragainsthim,nonewappealtometohastenthedayofreckoningescapedher。Herconvictionthattheman’shatefuladmirationofherselfwasreallysincere,seemedtohaveincreasedahundredfoldherdistrustofhisunfathomablecunning,herinborndreadofthewickedenergyandvigilanceofallhisfaculties。Hervoicefelllow,hermannerwashesitating,hereyessearchedintominewithaneagerfearwhensheaskedmewhatIthoughtofhismessage,andwhatImeanttodonextafterhearingit。 `Notmanyweekshavepassed,Marian,’Ianswered,`sincemyinterviewwithMrKyrle。WhenheandIparted,thelastwordsIsaidtohimaboutLaurawerethese:``Heruncle’shouseshallopentoreceiveher,inthepresenceofeverysoulwhofollowedthefalsefuneraltothegrave;theliethatrecordsherdeathshallbepubliclyerasedfromthetombstonebytheauthorityoftheheadofthefamily,andthetwomenwhohavewrongedhershallanswerfortheircrimetoME,thoughthejusticethatsitsintribunalsispowerlesstopursuethem。’’Oneofthosemenisbeyondmortalreach。Theotherremains,andmyresolutionremains。’ Hereyeslitup——hercolourrose。Shesaidnothing,butIsawallhersympathiesgatheringtomineinherface。 `Idon’tdisguisefrommyself,orfromyou,’Iwenton,`thattheprospectbeforeusismorethandoubtful。Theriskswehaverunalreadyare,itmaybe,triflescomparedwiththerisksthatthreatenusinthefuture,buttheventureshallbetried,Marian,forallthat。IamnotrashenoughtomeasuremyselfagainstsuchamanastheCountbeforeIamwellpreparedforhim。Ihavelearntpatience——Icanwaitmytime。Lethimbelievethathismessagehasproduceditseffect——lethimknownothingofus,andhearnothingofus——letusgivehimfulltimetofeelsecure——hisownboastfulnature,unlessIseriouslymistakehim,willhastenthatresult。 Thisisonereasonforwaiting,butthereisanothermoreimportantstill。 Myposition,Marian,towardsyouandtowardsLauraoughttobeastrongeronethanitisnowbeforeItryourlastchance。’ Sheleanedneartome,withalookofsurprise。 `Howcanitbestronger?’sheasked。 `Iwilltellyou,’Ireplied,`whenthetimecomes。Ithasnotcomeyet——itmaynevercomeatall。ImaybesilentaboutittoLauraforever——Imustbesilentnow,eventoyou,tillIseeformyselfthatIcanharmlesslyandhonourablyspeak。Letusleavethatsubject。 Thereisanotherwhichhasmorepressingclaimsonourattention。YouhavekeptLaura,mercifullykepther,inignoranceofherhusband’sdeath——’ `Oh,Walter,surelyitmustbelongyetbeforewetellherofit?’ `No,Marian。Betterthatyoushouldrevealittohernow,thanthataccident,whichnoonecanguardagainst,shouldrevealittoheratsomefuturetime。Spareherallthedetails——breakittoherverytenderly,buttellherthatheisdead。’ `Youhaveareason,Walter,forwishinghertoknowofherhusband’sdeathbesidesthereasonyouhavejustmentioned?’ `Ihave。’ `Areasonconnectedwiththatsubjectwhichmustnotbementionedbetweenusyet?——whichmayneverbementionedtoLauraatall?’ Shedweltonthelastwordsmeaningly。WhenIansweredherintheaffirmative,Idweltonthemtoo。 Herfacegrewpale。Forawhileshelookedatmewithasad,hesitatinginterest。Anunaccustomedtendernesstrembledinherdarkeyesandsoftenedherfirmlips,assheglancedasideattheemptychairinwhichthedearcompanionofallourjoysandsorrowshadbeensitting。 `IthinkIunderstand,’shesaid。`IthinkIoweittoherandtoyou,Walter,totellherofherhusband’sdeath。’ Shesighed,andheldmyhandfastforamoment——thendroppeditabruptly,andlefttheroom。OnthenextdayLauraknewthathisdeathhadreleasedher,andthattheerrorandthecalamityofherlifelayburiedinhistomb。 Hisnamewasmentionedamongusnomore。Thenceforward,weshrankfromtheslightestapproachtothesubjectofhisdeath,andinthesamescrupulousmanner,MarianandIavoidedallfurtherreferencetothatothersubject,which,byherconsentandmine,wasnottobementionedbetweenusyet。 Itwasnotthelesspresentinourminds——itwasratherkeptaliveinthembytherestraintwhichwehadimposedonourselves。WebothwatchedLauramoreanxiouslythanever,sometimeswaitingandhoping,sometimeswaitingandfearing,tillthetimecame。 Bydegreeswereturnedtoouraccustomedwayoflife。Iresumedthedailywork,whichhadbeensuspendedduringmyabsenceinHampshire。Ournewlodgingscostusmorethanthesmallerandlessconvenientroomswhichwehadleft,andtheclaimthusimpliedonmyincreasedexertionswasstrengthenedbythedoubtfulnessofourfutureprospects。Emergenciesmightyethappenwhichwouldexhaustourlittlefundatthebanker’s,andtheworkofmyhandsmightbe,ultimately,allwehadtolooktoforsupport。Morepermanentandmorelucrativeemploymentthanhadyetbeenofferedtomewasanecessityofourposition——anecessityforwhichInowdiligentlysetmyselftoprovide。 ItmustnotbesupposedthattheintervalofrestandseclusionofwhichIamnowwriting,entirelysuspended,onmypart,allpursuitoftheoneabsorbingpurposewithwhichmythoughtsandactionsarcassociatedinthesepages。Thatpurposewas,formonthsandmonthsyet,nevertorelaxitsclaimsonme。Theslowripeningofitstillleftmeameasureofprecautiontotake,anobligationofgratitudetoperform,andadoubtfulquestiontosolve。 Themeasureofprecautionrelated,necessarily,totheCount。Itwasofthelastimportancetoascertain,ifpossible,whetherhisplanscommittedhimtoremaininginEngland——or,inotherwords,toremainingwithinmyreach。Icontrivedtosetthisdoubtatrestbyverysimplemeans。HisaddressinStJohn’sWoodbeingknowntome,Iinquiredintheneighbourhood,andhavingfoundouttheagentwhohadthedisposalofthefurnishedhouseinwhichhelived,Iaskedifnumberfive,ForestRoad,waslikelytobeletwithinareasonabletime。Thereplywasinthenegative。Iwasinformedthattheforeigngentlemanthenresidinginthehousehadrenewedhistermofoccupationforanothersixmonths,andwouldremaininpossessionuntiltheendofJuneinthefollowingyear。WewerethenatthebeginningofDecemberonly。IlefttheagentwithmymindrelievedfromallpresentfearoftheCount’sescapingme。 TheobligationIhadtoperformtookmeoncemoreintothepresenceofMrsClements。Ihadpromisedtoreturn,andtoconfidetoherthoseparticularsrelatingtothedeathandburialofAnneCatherickwhichI hadbeenobligedtowithholdatourfirstinterview。Changedascircumstancesnowwere,therewasnohindrancetomytrustingthegoodwomanwithasmuchofthestoryoftheconspiracyasitwasnecessarytotell。Ihadeveryreasonthatsympathyandfriendlyfeelingcouldsuggesttourgeonmethespeedyperformanceofmypromise,andIdidconscientiouslyandcarefullyperformit。Thereisnoneedtoburdenthesepageswithanystatementofwhatpassedattheinterview。Itwillbemoretothepurposetosay,thattheinterviewitselfnecessarilybroughttomymindtheonedoubtfulquestionstillremainingtobesolved——thequestionofAnneCatherick’sparentageonthefather’sside。 Amultitudeofsmallconsiderationsinconnectionwiththissubject——triflingenoughinthemselves,butstrikinglyimportantwhenmassedtogether——hadlatterlyledmymindtoaconclusionwhichIresolvedtoverify。IobtainedMarian’spermissiontowritetoMajorDonthorne,ofVarneckHall(whereMrsCatherickhadlivedinserviceforsomeyearsprevioustohermarriage),toaskhimcertainquestions。ImadetheinquiriesinMarian’sname,anddescribedthemasrelatingtomattersofpersonalhistoryinherfamily,whichmightexplainandexcusemyapplication。WhenIwrotetheletterIhadnocertainknowledgethatMajorDonthornewasstillalive——Idespatcheditonthechancethathemightbeliving,andableandwillingtoreply。 Afteralapseoftwodaysproofcame,intheshapeofaletter,thattheMajorwasliving,andthathewasreadytohelpus。