第115章

类别:其他 作者:Wilkie Collins字数:4828更新时间:18/12/21 17:27:55
TheideainmymindwhenIwrotetohim,andthenatureofmyinquiries,willbeeasilyinferredfromhisreply。Hisletteransweredmyquestionsbycommunicatingtheseimportantfacts—— Inthefirstplace,`thelateSirPercivalGlyde,ofBlackwaterPark,’ hadneversetfootinVarneckHall。ThedeceasedgentlemanwasatotalstrangertoMajorDonthorne,andtoallhisfamily。 Inthesecondplace,`thelateMrPhilipFairlie,ofLimmeridgeHouse,’ hadbeen,inhisyoungerdays,theintimatefriendandconstantguestofMajorDonthorne。Havingrefreshedhismemorybylookingbacktooldlettersandotherpapers,theMajorwasinapositiontosaypositivelythatMrPhilipFairliewasstayingatVarneckHallinthemonthofAugust,eighteenhundredandtwenty-six,andthatheremainedtherefortheshootingduringthemonthofSeptemberandpartofOctoberfollowing。Hethenleft,tothebestoftheMajor’sbelief,forScotland,anddidnotreturntoVarneckHalltillafteralapseoftime,whenhereappearedinthecharacterofanewly-marriedman。 Takenbyitself,thisstatementwas,perhaps,oflittlepositivevalue,buttakeninconnectionwithcertainfacts,everyoneofwhicheitherMarianorIknewtobetrue,itsuggestedoneplainconclusionthatwas,toourminds,irresistible。 Knowing,now,thatMrPhilipFairliehadbeenatVarneckHallintheautumnofeighteenhundredandtwenty-six,andthatMrsCatherickhadbeenlivingthereinserviceatthesametime,weknewalso——first,thatAnnehadbeenborninJune,eighteenhundredandtwenty-seven;secondly,thatshehadalwayspresentedanextraordinarypersonalresemblancetoLaura; and,thirdly,thatLauraherselfwasstrikinglylikeherfather-MrPhilipFairliehadbeenoneofthenotoriouslyhandsomemenofhistime。IndispositionentirelyunlikehisbrotherFrederick,hewasthespoiltdarlingofsociety,especiallyofthewomen——aneasy,light-hearted,impulsive,affectionateman——generoustoafault——constitutionallylaxinhisprinciples,andnotoriouslythoughtlessofmoralobligationswherewomenwereconcerned。 Suchwerethefactsweknew——suchwasthecharacteroftheman。Surelytheplaininferencethatfollowsneedsnopointingout? Readbythenewlightwhichhadnowbrokenuponme,evenMrsCatherick’sletter,indespiteofherself,rendereditsmiteofassistancetowardsstrengtheningtheconclusionatwhichIhadarrived。ShehaddescribedMrsFairlie(inwritingtome)as`plain-looking,’andashaving`entrappedthehandsomestmaninEnglandintomarryingher。’Bothassertionsweregratuitouslymade,andbothwerefalse。Jealousdislike(which,insuchawomanasMrsCatherick,wouldexpressitselfinpettymaliceratherthannotexpressitselfatall)appearedtometobetheonlyassignablecauseforthepeculiarinsolenceofherreferencetoMrsFairlie,undercircumstanceswhichdidnotnecessitateanyreferenceatall。 ThementionhereofMrsFairlie’snamenaturallysuggestsoneotherquestion。DidsheeversuspectwhosechildthelittlegirlbroughttoheratLimmeridgemightbe? Marian’stestimonywaspositiveonthispoint。MrsFairlie’slettertoherhusband,whichhadbeenreadtomeinformerdays——theletterdescribingAnne’sresemblancetoLaura,andacknowledgingheraffectionateinterestinthelittlestranger——hadbeenwritten,beyondallquestion,inperfectinnocenceofheart。Itevenseemeddoubtful,onconsideration,whetherMrPhilipFairliehimselfhadbeennearerthanhiswifetoanysuspicionofthetruth。ThedisgracefullydeceitfulcircumstancesunderwhichMrsCatherickhadmarried,thepurposeofconcealmentwhichthemarriagewasintendedtoanswer,mightwellkeephersilentforcaution’ssake,perhapsforherownpride’ssakealso,evenassumingthatshehadthemeans,inhisabsence,ofcommunicatingwiththefatherofherunbornchild。 Asthissurmisefloatedthroughmymind,thereroseonmymemorytheremembranceoftheScripturedenunciationwhichwehaveallthoughtofinourtimewithwonderandwithawe:`Thesinsofthefathersshallbevisitedonthechildren。’Butforthefatalresemblancebetweenthetwodaughtersofonefather,theconspiracyofwhichAnnehadbeentheinnocentinstrumentandLauratheinnocentvictimcouldneverhavebeenplanned。 Withwhatunerringandterribledirectnessthelongchainofcircumstancesleddownfromthethoughtlesswrongcommittedbythefathertotheheartlessinjuryinflictedonthechild! Thesethoughtscametome,andotherswiththem,whichdrewmymindawaytothelittleCumberlandchurchyardwhereAnneCathericknowlayburied。 IthoughtofthebygonedayswhenIhadmetherbyMrsFairlie’sgrave,andmetherforthelasttime。Ithoughtofherpoorhelplesshandsbeatingonthetombstone,andherweary,yearningwords,murmuredtothedeadremainsofherprotectressandherfriend:`Oh,ifIcoulddie,andbehiddenandatrestwithyou!’Littlemorethanayearhadpassedsinceshebreathedthatwish;andhowinscrutably,howawfully,ithadbeenfulledIThewordsshehadspokentoLaurabytheshoresofthelake,theverywordshadnowcomerue。`Oh,ifIcouldonlybeburiedwithyourmotherIIfIcouldonlywakeathersidewhentheangel’strumpetsoundsandthegravesgiveuptheirdeadattheresurrection!’Throughwhatmortalcrimeandhorror,throughwhatdarkestwindingsofthewaydowntodeath——thelostcreaturehadwanderedinGod’sleadingtothelasthomethat,living,sheneverhopedtoreach!InthatsacredrestIleaveher——inthatdreadcompanionshipletherremainundisturbed。 Sotheghostlyfigurewhichhashauntedthesepages,asithauntedmylife,goesdownintotheimpenetrablegloom。Likeashadowshefirstcametomeinthelonelinessofthenight。Likeashadowshepassesawayinthelonelinessofthedead。 [NextChapter][TableofContents]WomaninWhite:Chapter38[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter38HARTRIGHT’SNARRATIVEIFourmonthselapsed。Aprilcame——themonthofspring——themonthofchange。 Thecourseoftimehadflowedthroughtheintervalsincethewinterpeacefullyandhappilyinournewhome。Ihadturnedmylongleisuretogoodaccount,hadlargelyincreasedmysourcesofemployment,andhadplacedourmeansofsubsistenceonsurergrounds。Freedfromthesuspenseandtheanxietywhichhadtriedhersosorelyandhungoverhersolong,Marian’sspiritsrallied,andhernaturalenergyofcharacterbegantoassertitselfagain,withsomething,ifnotall,ofthefreedomandthevigourofformertimes。 Morepliableunderchangethanhersister,Laurashowedmoreplainlytheprogressmadebythehealinginfluencesofhernewlife。Thewornandwastedlookwhichhadprematurelyagedherfacewasfastleavingit,andtheexpressionwhichhadbeenthefirstofitscharmsinpastdayswasthefirstofitsbeautiesthatnowreturned。Myclosestobservationsofherdetectedbutoneseriousresultoftheconspiracywhichhadoncethreatenedherreasonandherlife。Hermemoryofevents,fromtheperiodofherleavingBlackwaterParktotheperiodofourmeetingintheburial-groundofLimmeridgeChurch,waslostbeyondallhopeofrecovery。Attheslightestreferencetothattimeshechangedandtrembledstill,herwordsbecameconfused,hermemorywanderedandlostitselfashelplesslyasever。Here,andhereonly,thetracesofthepastlaydeep——toodeeptobeeffaced。 Inallelseshewasnowsofaronthewaytorecoverythat。onherbestandbrightestdays,shesometimeslookedandspokeliketheLauraofoldtimes。Thehappychangewroughtitsnaturalresultinusboth。Fromthelongslumber,onhersideandonmine,thoseimperishablememoriesofourpastlifeinCumberlandnowawoke,whichwereoneandallalike,thememoriesofourlove。 Graduallyandinsensiblyourdailyrelationstowardseachotherbecameconstrained。ThefondwordswhichIhadspokentohersonaturally,inthedaysofhersorrowandhersuffering,falteredstrangelyonmylips。 Inthetimewhenmydreadoflosingherwasmostpresenttomymind,I hadalwayskissedherwhensheleftmeatnightandwhenshemetmeinthemorning。Thekissseemednowtohavedroppedbetweenus——tobelostoutofourlives。Ourhandsbegantotrembleagainwhentheymet。WehardlyeverlookedlongatoneanotheroutofMarian’spresence。Thetalkoftenflaggedbetweenuswhenwewerealone。WhenItouchedherbyaccidentI feltmyheartbeatingfast,asitusedtobeatatLimmeridgeHouse——I sawthelovelyansweringflushglowingagaininhercheeks,asifwewerebackamongtheCumberlandHillsinourpastcharactersofmasterandpupiloncemore。Shehadlongintervalsofsilenceandthoughtfulness,anddeniedshehadbeenthinkingwhenMarianaskedherthequestion。Isurprisedmyselfonedayneglectingmyworktodreamoverthelittlewater-colourportraitofherwhichIhadtakeninthesummer-housewherewefirstmet——justasIusedtoneglectMrFairlie’sdrawingstodreamoverthesamelikenesswhenitwasnewlyfinishedinthebygonetime。Changedasallthecircumstancesnowwere,ourpositiontowardseachotherinthegoldendaysofourfirstcompanionshipseemedtoberevivedwiththerevivalofourlove。ItwasasifTimehaddriftedusbackonthewreckofourearlyhopestotheoldfamiliarshore! ToanyotherwomanIcouldhavespokenthedecisivewordswhichIstillhesitatedtospeaktoher。Theutterhelplessnessofherposition——herfriendlessdependenceonalltheforbearinggentlenessthatIcouldshowher——myfearoftouchingtoosoonsomesecretsensitivenessinherwhichmyinstinctasamanmightnothavebeenfineenoughtodiscover——theseconsiderations,andotherslikethem,keptmeself-distrustfullysilent。 AndyetIknewthattherestraintonbothridesmustbeended,thattherelationsinwhichwestoodtowardsoneanothermustbealteredinsomesettledmannerforthefuture,andthatitrestedwithme,inthefirstinstance,torecognisethenecessityforachange。 ThemoreIthoughtofourposition,thehardertheattempttoalteritappeared,whilethedomesticconditionsinwhichwethreehadbeenlivingtogethersincethewinterremainedundisturbed。Icannotaccountforthecapriciousstateofmindinwhichthisfeelingoriginated,buttheideaneverthelesspossessedmethatsomepreviouschangeofplaceandcircumstances,somesuddenbreakinthequietmonotonyofourlives,somanagedastovarythehomeaspectunderwhichwehadbeenaccustomedtoseeeachother,mightpreparethewayformetospeak,andmightmakeiteasierandlessembarrassingforLauraandMariantohear。 Withthispurposeinview,Isaid,onemorning,thatIthoughtwehadallearnedalittleholidayandachangeofscene。Aftersomeconsideration,itwasdecidedthatweshouldgoforafortnighttotheseaside。 OnthenextdayweleftFulhamforaquiettownonthesouthcoast。 Atthatearlyseasonoftheyearweweretheonlyvisitorsintheplace。 Thecliffs,thebeach,andthewalksinlandwereallinthesolitaryconditionwhichwasmostwelcometous。Theairwasmild——theprospectsoverhillandwoodanddownwerebeautifullyvariedbytheshiftingAprillightandshade,andtherestlesssealeaptunderourwindows,asifitfelt,liketheland,theglowandfreshnessofspring。