第4章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:3864更新时间:18/12/22 08:57:59
“No,no,theaircoolsmyhead。Ishallnotstaylong。”Hewassilentawhile;thenhetoldher,asnearlyasMartycouldgather,thathisfirstwife,hisdaughterGrace’smother,wasfirstthesweetheartofWinterborne’sfather,wholovedhertenderly,tillhe,thespeaker,wonherawayfromhimbyatrick,becausehewantedtomarryherhimself。Hesadlywentontosaythattheotherman’shappinesswasruinedbyit;thatthoughhemarriedWinterborne’smother,itwasbutahalf-heartedbusinesswithhim。 Melburyaddedthathewasafterwardsverymiserableatwhathehaddone;butthatastimewenton,andthechildrengrewup,andseemedtobeattachedtoeachother,hedeterminedtodoallhecouldtorightthewrongbylettinghisdaughtermarrythelad; notonlythat,buttogiveherthebesteducationhecouldafford,soastomakethegiftasvaluableaoneasitlayinhispowertobestow。“Istillmeantodoit。”saidMelbury。 “Thendo。”saidshe。 “Butallthesethingstroubleme。”saidhe;“forIfeelIamsacrificingherformyownsin;andIthinkofher,andoftencomedownhereandlookatthis。” “Lookatwhat?”askedhiswife。 Hetookthecandlefromherhand,heldittotheground,andremovedatilewhichlayinthegarden-path。“’Tisthetrackofhershoethatshemadewhensherandownherethedaybeforeshewentawayallthosemonthsago。Icovereditupwhenshewasgone;andwhenIcomehereandlookatit,Iaskmyselfagain,whyshouldshebesacrificedtoapoorman?” “Itisnotaltogetherasacrifice。”saidthewoman。“Heisinlovewithher,andhe’shonestandupright。Ifsheencourageshim,whatcanyouwishformore?” “Iwishfornothingdefinite。Butthere’salotofthingspossibleforher。Why,Mrs。Charmondiswantingsomerefinedyounglady,Ihear,togoabroadwithher——ascompanionorsomethingofthekind。She’djumpatGrace。” “That’salluncertain。Bettersticktowhat’ssure。” “True,true。”saidMelbury;“andIhopeitwillbeforthebest。 Yes,letmeget’emmarriedupassoonasIcan,soastohaveitoveranddonewith。”Hecontinuedlookingattheimprint,whileheadded,“Supposesheshouldbedying,andnevermakeatrackonthispathanymore?” “She’llwritesoon,dependupon’t。Come,’tiswrongtostayhereandbroodso。” Headmittedit,butsaidhecouldnothelpit。“Whethershewriteorno,Ishallfetchherinafewdays。”Andthusspeaking,hecoveredthetrack,andprecededhiswifeindoors。 Melbury,perhaps,wasanunluckymaninhavingwithinhimthesentimentwhichcouldindulgeinthisfoolishfondnessabouttheimprintofadaughter’sfootstep。Naturedoesnotcarryonhergovernmentwithaviewtosuchfeelings,andwhenadvancingyearsrendertheopenheartsofthosewhopossessthemlessdexterousthanformerlyinshuttingagainsttheblast,theymustsuffer“buffetingatwillbyrainandstorm“nolessthanLittleCelandines。 Butherownexistence,andnotMr。Melbury’s,wasthecentreofMarty’sconsciousness,anditwasinrelationtothisthatthematterstruckherassheslowlywithdrew。 “That,then,isthesecretofitall。”shesaid。“AndGilesWinterborneisnotforme,andthelessIthinkofhimthebetter。” Shereturnedtohercottage。Thesovereignswerestaringatherfromthelooking-glassasshehadleftthem。Withapreoccupiedcountenance,andwithtearsinhereyes,shegotapairofscissors,andbeganmercilesslycuttingoffthelonglocksofherhair,arrangingandtyingthemwiththeirpointsalloneway,asthebarberhaddirected。Uponthepalescrubbeddealofthecoffin-stooltabletheystretchedlikewavingandropyweedsoverthewashedgravel-bedofaclearstream。 Shewouldnotturnagaintothelittlelooking-glass,outofhumanitytoherself,knowingwhatadefloweredvisagewouldlookbackather,andalmostbreakherheart;shedreadeditasmuchasdidherownancestralgoddessSifthereflectioninthepoolaftertherapeofherlocksbyLokethemalicious。Shesteadilystucktobusiness,wrappedthehairinaparcel,andsealeditup,afterwhichsherakedoutthefireandwenttobed,havingfirstsetupanalarummadeofacandleandpieceofthread,withastoneattached。 Butsuchareminderwasunnecessaryto-night。Havingtossedtillaboutfiveo’clock,Martyheardthesparrowswalkingdowntheirlongholesinthethatchaboveherslopingceilingtotheirorificeattheeaves;whereuponshealsoarose,anddescendedtotheground-flooragain。 Itwasstilldark,butshebeganmovingaboutthehouseinthoseautomaticinitiatoryactsandtoucheswhichrepresentamonghousewivestheinstallationofanotherday。WhilethusengagedsheheardtherumblingofMr。Melbury’swagons,andknewthatthere,too,theday’stoilhadbegun。 Anarmfulofgadsthrownonthestillhotemberscausedthemtoblazeupcheerfullyandbringherdiminishedhead-gearintosuddenprominenceasashadow。Atthisastepapproachedthedoor。 “Arefolkastirhereyet?”inquiredavoicesheknewwell。 “Yes,Mr。Winterborne。”saidMarty,throwingonatiltbonnet,whichcompletelyhidtherecentravagesofthescissors。“Comein!” Thedoorwasflungback,andtheresteppedinuponthematamannotparticularlyyoungforalover,norparticularlymatureforapersonofaffairs。Therewasreserveinhisglance,andrestraintuponhismouth。Hecarriedahornlanternwhichhunguponaswivel,andwheelingasitdangledmarkedgrotesqueshapesupontheshadierpartofthewalls。 Hesaidthathehadlookedinonhiswaydown,totellherthattheydidnotexpectherfathertomakeuphiscontractifhewasnotwell。Mr。Melburywouldgivehimanotherweek,andtheywouldgotheirjourneywithashortloadthatday。 “Theyaredone。”saidMarty,“andlyinginthecart-house。” “Done!”herepeated。“Yourfatherhasnotbeentooilltoworkafterall,then?” Shemadesomeevasivereply。“I’llshowyouwheretheybe,ifyouaregoingdown。”sheadded。 Theywentoutandwalkedtogether,thepatternoftheair-holesinthetopofthelanternbeingthrownuponthemistoverhead,wheretheyappearedofgiantsize,asifreachingthetent-shapedsky。 Theyhadnoremarkstomaketoeachother,andtheyutterednone。 Hardlyanythingcouldbemoreisolatedormoreself-containedthanthelivesofthesetwowalkinghereinthelonelyantelucanhour,whengrayshades,materialandmental,aresoverygray。Andyet,lookedatinacertainway,theirlonelycoursesformednodetacheddesignatall,butwerepartofthepatterninthegreatwebofhumandoingsthenweavinginbothhemispheres,fromtheWhiteSeatoCapeHorn。 Theshedwasreached,andshepointedoutthespars。Winterborneregardedthemsilently,thenlookedather。 “Now,Marty,Ibelieve——“hesaid,andshookhishead。 “What?” “Thatyou’vedonetheworkyourself。” “Don’tyoutellanybody,willyou,Mr。Winterborne?”shepleaded,bywayofanswer。“BecauseIamafraidMr。Melburymayrefusemyworkifheknowsitismine。” “Buthowcouldyoulearntodoit?’Tisatrade。” “Trade!”saidshe。“I’dbeboundtolearnitintwohours。” “Ohno,youwouldn’t,Mrs。Marty。”Winterbornehelddownhislantern,andexaminedthecleanlysplithazelsastheylay。 “Marty。”hesaid,withdryadmiration,“yourfatherwithhisfortyyearsofpracticenevermadeasparbetterthanthat。Theyaretoogoodforthethatchingofhouses——theyaregoodenoughforthefurniture。ButIwon’ttell。Letmelookatyourhands——yourpoorhands!” Hehadakindlymannerofaquietlyseveretone;andwhensheseemedreluctanttoshowherhands,hetookholdofoneandexamineditasifitwerehisown。Herfingerswereblistered。 “They’llgetharderintime。”shesaid。“Foriffathercontinuesill,Ishallhavetogoonwi’it。NowI’llhelpput’emupinwagon。” Winterbornewithoutspeakingsetdownhislantern,liftedherasshewasabouttostoopoverthebundles,placedherbehindhim,andbeganthrowingupthebundleshimself。“RatherthanyoushoulddoitIwill。”hesaid。“Butthemenwillbeheredirectly。Why,Marty!——whateverhashappenedtoyourhead?Lord,ithasshrunktonothing——itlooksanappleuponagate-post!” Herheartswelled,andshecouldnotspeak。Atlengthshemanagedtogroan,lookingontheground,“I’vemademyselfugly——andhateful——that’swhatI’vedone!” “No,no。”heanswered。“You’veonlycutyourhair——Iseenow。 “Thenwhymustyouneedssaythataboutapplesandgate-posts?” “Letmesee。” “No,no!”Sheranoffintothegloomofthesluggishdawn。Hedidnotattempttofollowher。Whenshereachedherfather’sdoorshestoodonthestepandlookedback。Mr。Melbury’smenhadarrived,andwereloadingupthespars,andtheirlanternsappearedfromthedistanceatwhichshestoodtohavewancirclesroundthem,likeeyeswearywithwatching。Sheobservedthemforafewsecondsastheysetaboutharnessingthehorses,andthenwentindoors。